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deviantART: by:Kepakko http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Kepakko&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Kepakko en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 20:43:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New song on myspace, AGAIN http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28686412/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28686412/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 07:58:43 PST

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]]> =Kepakko New song on myspace http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28501948/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28501948/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 05:31:49 PST

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]]> =Kepakko Feature 12 / Nothing http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28425499/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28425499/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 01:17:04 PST

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]]> =Kepakko Feature 11 / Finnish Lapphund http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28349938/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28349938/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 09:39:10 PST

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]]> =Kepakko Argh. http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28283658/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28283658/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 01:59:10 PST

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Thanks for stealing my pictures. Thanks for not being talented in anything but stealing other people's identities.

Thanks for being such a dumbass worthless piece of shit.

]]> =Kepakko Feature 09 / Spark http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28246267/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28246267/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 15:36:27 PST

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]]> =Kepakko I'M EVERYWHERE http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28159226/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28159226/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 11:23:34 PST

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So, i basically joined to every social network i could find from the internets. In all honesty I've always thought these places are for stupid people and that they are full of shit (not the people, the places), but i haven't had really tried them myself. So, i decided to try out pretty much everything i have always hated (maybe because of the lack of real experience) and we'll see if my attitude changes. I have my doubts. This is actually pretty interesting.

]]> =Kepakko I let is sliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28138820/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28138820/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 08:15:29 PST

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I continued recording/composing today as i had planed before and i had a huge creativity blast in my braintentacles. The electronic drumlibrary I'm using sounds really inspiring and it brings so much more structure to my music. I neighed in happiness when I got to try out the drums. Absolutely excellent. The next release will be interesting for me, and something totally different than what I've ever done. We'll see where the drums will take me, hopefully somewhere in the middle of the wonderful world of composition. At the moment my inspiration percentage is very high and i generate new ideas as much as i fart... And that's a lot. Sorry.

He says he loves me more and more and he hugs away my troubles. There's a brilliant shine in his eyes that tells me everything is fine in his very small monkey brain. (LOLOLO) It makes me happy. There isn't really anything that could replace it. We have fun everyday, even though nothing big would happen. Maybe our everyday life itself is so much fun that it doesn't even feel like normal everyday life. It's great to do creative stuff alone, while knowing that he is present. And he isn't going anywhere. Ah.

]]> =Kepakko Journal entry about Fuck http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28121763/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28121763/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 09:22:42 PST

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Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

]]> =Kepakko These things http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28066552/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28066552/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 12:50:30 PDT

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There's a few things I'm simply obsessed about. I can't spend one day without them appearing to my mind and constantly distracting my daily life. There has been many days that I haven't even recognized that I'm still continuing the upsetting acts and that I'm constantly pushing myself down by doing these things without caring about the fact that they make me painfully anxious. I can feel these things eating me inside very clearly, and defeating me everyday more and more. But it's too hard to stop the torture now. It's just me. The person I'm going to spend the rest of my life.

The mental cage I'm in is the only thing that i have left. My life's currently better than ever, but I'm not following. I'm not going with the flow. I'm distracted by the small details from the past. I can't let go of anything that truly bothers me. It's upsetting, but maybe I'll grow out of it someday. Everything is never enough.

I don't even know if i want to feel great. I guess i already would've, if i would've wanted to. Maybe I'm one of those blind occasions; sad, angsty and full of selfpity. That's what I've always hated about other people. I've always hated myself.

My life's full of contradiction and irony, it's almost funny. I really hate when i can't see anything. I have so much in front of me, and IN me, but i still don't see shit. I'd like to be enlightened about this person I'm in. I guess there's not enough brain capacity left of the angst and shit for me to really GET IT. I'm such a dumbass.

]]> =Kepakko Feature 08 / Waves http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28023152/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/28023152/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 03:40:41 PDT

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]]> =Kepakko Feature 07 / Alien http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27993281/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27993281/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 11:15:54 PDT

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]]> =Kepakko Shortly http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27949732/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27949732/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 21:35:41 PDT

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We're finally living together.

]]> =Kepakko Feature 06 / White http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27920479/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27920479/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:59:12 PDT

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and it was the worst movie I've seen for a LONG while.

Thank you, i don't have anything else to say.

]]> =Kepakko Feature 05 / Breathe http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27882620/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27882620/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 02:29:01 PDT

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]]> =Kepakko dAgnostic Interview http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27758261/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27758261/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 07:31:06 PDT

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]]> =Kepakko Thoughts right now http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27737541/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27737541/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 01:32:33 PDT

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Hmmm, life's interesting. First snow came today.

I've always wondered how many people actually listen the music they're "listening", and at the same time don't have a crush on the artist itself. Is it about the music anyway, or the guy that is playing and looking "SOOOOO CUTE " there on the stage ? Yeaaaaah, this has always boggled me.

There are so many fangirls (why not fanboys too) out there that are so in love with the band's players that they forget about the original idea (at least in most cases) which is MUSIC. GOD, WTF. Music business itself is full of factors that has nothing to do with music and it seems to go further and further. I think people misunderstands record deals and their "COOLINESS" too. Most of the deals just basically rapes artist's ass and have NO respect for the original idea (i want to REPEAT) that WAS MUSIC and THE GUY'S CREATIVITY. FUCK SHIT UP.
There has also been people who has said to me that "I hope you'll have recognition from record labels and all that stupid shit blaa blaa blaa", and it always confuses me deeply. They've obviously been brainwashed to think that it is every artist's dream to have A RECORD DEAL. Is it ? I mean seriously, would i want to be ass raped and give someone else the permission to decide over my creation ? I mean, do you want to suck my eyeballs ?

People's values are upside down. Everything that IS great is ruined because of some stupid external SHIT and with the word BUSINESS behind it.
Sucks some camel's ass.

]]> =Kepakko NEW EP OUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOW ! ! ! http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27682703/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27682703/ Sat, 10 Oct 2009 08:04:11 PDT

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Yeah, just thought i'd let you know. Nothing special, but check it out: [link]

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]]> =Kepakko Always http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27553067/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27553067/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 07:12:33 PDT

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I've always waited for something and i don't even know what it is that I'm waiting. The feeling just never ends.

]]> =Kepakko Exhaustion http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27498715/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27498715/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 05:59:06 PDT

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So, i moved, i cleaned, i cleaned some more and i put things in order, i saw a few weird anxious dreams, and i... cleaned. God I'm tired. My energy level is on zero now, can't believe how little can take my powers away. Anyways, i also finished composing/recording all the instruments of my third release, my second EP which will be the part 2 of Ilupir's tales (which won't be the name of the EP, btw).

I'm doing a lot of creative stuff these days, feels very natural. I've also drawn insanely in the past couple of days. It's weird, i have no energy but I'm still creating and creating (and cleaning) without a stop. I also recorded some demo kind of vocals yesterday for the EP, and i kinda liked where i went with the melodies. I'll probably do some changes still, but all the quick and spontaneous singing felt very strongly emotional and somehow right and the atmosphere was very interesting while i was trying to capture the moment with my howling. I'm really looking forward of how it'll all sound when it's finished. Imo, it'll be better than the last release "Tales of Ilupir". And maybe a bit more emotional. And just.. Different.

There's raining out there. I love the rain. No shit, looks like it's actually sleet ! Winter's coming. Most definitely. I have a long way ahead of me, i don't know where it'll lead me, but I'm moving with an interest towards the future and my creations. I think I've kinda found my cup of tea.

]]> =Kepakko ALRIGHTY http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27330565/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27330565/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 23:15:54 PDT

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I found an apartment from the countryside where the sheep eats the sausages ! (I've seen it with my own eyes, believe me, it's WEIRD.) I'm so excited moving there ! My dog has lived with my parents for a year now, but now i can finally bring him back to live with me. This is so awesome, i'm going to puke shit.
The town where i'll move is SUPER small. There is something like 7000 people living in there, WHICH IS AWESOME FOR A HERMIT LIKE ME. It's also full of nature and silence which is a necessity for my creative work unless my artfaggotism ends miserably for... some unknown reason...

Anyway, i'm happy to announce that i'm happy in this moment, packing my bags, eating less than a mouse, trying to figure what i need and what i REALLY don't. My apartment is a mess, and it just makes me laugh. I'm checking the cardboard boxes and i just smile. I might turn to a hippie. My hair is growing at the speed of light (not) so, that won't be a problem. I seemingly got the mentality already.

I should probably get something to eat before i become miss perishableness.

Cardboard box is exited as well !

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Good morningz.

]]> =Kepakko MY HEAD IS BLEEDING. http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27239467/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27239467/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 04:17:16 PDT

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Or, maybe i just dyed it. I know, i look retarded. But that's who i am. A retard.

]]> =Kepakko Feature 02 / Inspiring art http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27180775/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27180775/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:16:14 PDT

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Dear fellows, one thing concerning my eyebrows. I won't grow them back for a long while.

If you can't live with it, please have another person to watch. Thanks.

Another feature for the work i thought was very inspiring. The colors go all together very nicely. Yey !
Thanks for being so good.

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I thought it was about time for me to do a feature ! I'm probably going to do this more often now, too.
Inspiring art above, reflecting my moods today.

]]> =Kepakko 40 000 pageviews ! http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27144250/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27144250/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 03:51:33 PDT

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Just noticed. That's nice, thank you all.

I'm currently feeling like shit, but well. It goes away. Always comes, always goes.
My life's a dead end.

]]> =Kepakko Apparition http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27127470/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27127470/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 05:57:57 PDT

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Why is everybody smoking in pictures. IT'S BAD FOR YOU.

I ordered my first subscription. Yey !

]]> =Kepakko Just wondering... http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27048865/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/27048865/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 06:58:21 PDT
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( i think i'm going to have a puke

)

]]> =Kepakko (Jesu is awesome) http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26991511/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26991511/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 07:19:54 PDT
Everyone emphasizes how important it is to have friends. And many people have been saying to me for a while that i need a girlfriend to chat with. The whole "go ahead and have a life and girlfriends" feels just weird and obnoxious. I honestly don't want to ! It's not because i'm afraid or totally sure every girl out there is a superficial ass, it's just.. I have better use for the time i guess.

Now that i've lived alone about a year, seen my boyfriend once in a month, i kinda like my own privacy. I like the fact that no one really knows me here. I'm a stranger in this town. I don't have friends here, i don't have a busy life. I feel like this is a great opportunity for me to really go through everything inside of myself. Leave the worthless things behind, create something new, love the things i do the best, concentrate and obviously see my boyfriend in new light everytime we meet. Appreciate. Become aware of the possibilities on an individual level.

There is always learning happening. And i still feel, beside of all the bullshit, that i'm alive. I will find my way.

([link])

]]> =Kepakko The EP and poo and puke and stuff http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26949968/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26949968/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 03:34:35 PDT [link]

Go ahead and have a puke. Or listen, whatever. Yeah, i'm sooooo finished with this. I'm happy i don't have to listen those songs one more time. Yey ! I feel like shit. I should probably eat something. I'm tired of not knowing. I'm tired of being so fuuuuuucked up. Well, maybe things will get better again sometime. I should totally eat. Maybe i should go out too and cry a little. :,( Have a beautiful emoangstattack. No, seriously. I shouldn't give a fuck. Like Jon Lajoie: [link] Now, he's a genius.

Yeeeeah. Who cares. LET'S ANGST TOGETHER.

My boyfriend is Ã¼ber positive about life nowadays. It's almost insane ! He just makes my day, everyday basically. That fucking bastard. God i care about him. Gay.

]]> =Kepakko I just want to eat.. http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26911844/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26911844/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 09:24:52 PDT
]]> =Kepakko Gay ass society and the monetary system http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26857686/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26857686/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 14:01:38 PDT I don't know with what i'm going to survive the next.. who knows, two weeks ? No money for food what so ever.

Fuuuuuuuuck.

I quess i'm eating my fingers then. Loooooovely fingers. OMNOM.

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I'm going to check my music after the wedding and decide which pictures i'm going to use as album art and so on. Hmmm, quite exciting. We'll see what happens.

I love my guy, a lot. I'm very grateful that we found each other. (Huge

) Hope you retards are doing awesome as well.

]]> =Kepakko ...dreamscapes http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26628232/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26628232/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 12:16:54 PDT
My EP will be released after the visit. I hope i have had the time/inspiration/shit/whatever in Helsinki to take some pictures for the songs. We'll see what happens, if anything. Thing's are pretty stable at the moment. I enjoy it. I need to take a shower. I SMELL.

Hope everything's fine with you deviantarteidors (that IS a word) ! I'll be watching you.

]]> =Kepakko Raising Your Voice... Trying To Stop An Echo http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26549324/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26549324/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 13:42:09 PDT You swore you'd never be them
You're just like them
You're just like them now
All the times you said you hate them
Just to hurt them
You're just like them
You're just like them now
Such a cold place that you live in
When you blame them
You're just like them
Still the stars shine down on your skin
Do you see them?
You're just like them now

]]> =Kepakko A girl needs a gun these days... http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26526968/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26526968/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 12:33:13 PDT Her heart's like crazy paving
Upside down and back to front, she says
It's so hard to love when
Love was your great disappointment

_{Tori Amos - Rattlesnakes}

]]> =Kepakko My Pictures in other places ! http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26422492/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26422492/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 12:01:15 PDT
Flickr: [link]
Model Mayhem: [link]

]]> =Kepakko ...soundscapes http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26395100/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26395100/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 04:51:15 PDT I've started recording new material and it'll be quite interesting. A bit different feeling than in the the songs i have on myspace now. It'll be a concept EP with 3-4 songs (or parts, or whatever you wish to call them) and i hope it'll be ready somewhere in the Autumn.

Now i'm trying to calm down before i start to record the demo vocals to the songs i've made so far. It'll be intriguing to see what i will come up to. I will also photograph pictures for the songs. One picture per part. I HOPE i have the inspiration to go out and shoot something INTERESTING. My photographs have been a bit too dull lately. I try to work on this issue.

Hmmm, i already miss him. Hmmm.

]]> =Kepakko Hearts and stuff http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26354392/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26354392/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 08:31:38 PDT
]]> =Kepakko Dot x 2 http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26080266/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/26080266/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 05:26:36 PDT

I have nothing else to say. Except that i had an email from Bryan Adams.

]]> =Kepakko Holy FUCK http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25956585/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25956585/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 04:21:17 PDT
Just yesterday i thought my life was over. But it ain't happening ! Not yet !

]]> =Kepakko I feel like... http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25837122/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25837122/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 11:24:11 PDT

Oh yeahs. Make love, not Warcraft.

]]> =Kepakko DOT http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25792808/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25792808/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 09:51:47 PDT I fucking hate twitter. Period.

AH, and i also hate Facebook ! And and..

]]> =Kepakko Is this all there is http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25736430/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25736430/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 13:57:42 PDT

I often feel very empty in the middle of this impurity. It seems that everything is on sale. Sex is all there is. Shiny cars and anorectic greasy bitches rubbing themselves to each other. Makes me feel so sick of it all. It's all about the urges, right ? Can't stand it anymore.

My inspiration is growing. I can feel it. But it makes no difference, in the end.

What IS love. No one knows.

]]> =Kepakko Feeling the shits http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25511498/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25511498/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 07:32:15 PDT
I can't really figure why, or how. Maybe the problem is, that i try way too much. I try to make something out of my tired life, but i guess the trying is burning me down. I've slept way too much, 12 hours a day + 2,5 hour nap. So, i'm basically sleeping my days. Maybe i'm trying to avoid the feelings i have. Maybe, haha. Obviously. One thing that i'm proud of, is, that i learned how to play Mutyumu's song "ç°ã®æ¥", which is one of my favorite piano songs atm. I'm also trying to learn Max Richter's "H in New England". I'm getting there. That's very interesting to play.

Okay, now that i think. It's actually pretty cool that i've done something at least. I'm just not sure about anything. Future makes me shit my pants.

Hmmm. Time will tell. Although, time is an illusion. Well, fuck that. I dunno.

]]> =Kepakko Let's angst http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25451360/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25451360/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:02:20 PDT bitter taste in the mouth
i woke up once again alive
even though i had not lived one day

]]> =Kepakko Few Things http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25327856/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25327856/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 11:49:28 PDT [link] . I also wrote a blog about the songs, so if you're interested about the story behind the songs, go ahead and read the blog (on myspace). This thing means a lot to me. One big dream come true.

I'm feeling pretty good. I started working out few months ago, and i've lost some weight and gained some muscle. It's nice, haven't ever really taken care of myself this well. It's about time, i guess. I'm still pretty fucked up in general. My mental stage isn't stable yet, but i'm just going to take small steps and maybe one day things will fall into place. It's getting better.

Hope ya'll doing well. Keep up the amazing work, i'll be watching you.

]]> =Kepakko New songs on myspace http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25121385/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/25121385/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 08:34:19 PDT [link]

]]> =Kepakko CHECK OUT MY MUSIC http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24852318/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24852318/ Wed, 20 May 2009 07:31:31 PDT
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If you have something to ask, please do so.

]]> =Kepakko Dudes; http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24716005/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24716005/ Tue, 12 May 2009 06:43:32 PDT

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30.000 pageviews, yey !

]]> =Kepakko AIM http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24548205/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24548205/ Sat, 02 May 2009 12:50:50 PDT Add me if you like. My screen name is: headstrong@netti.fi .

I still use Messenger sometimes, but not as often since it really doesn't work. Take care people.

]]> =Kepakko <3 http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24509399/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24509399/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 06:46:11 PDT
]]> =Kepakko With Cire's words http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24389276/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24389276/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 06:15:53 PDT My thoughts are chemical mistakes.

]]> =Kepakko Why can't i see my messages nor deviantions ? http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24323060/ http://Kepakko.deviantart.com/journal/24323060/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 10:01:37 PDT

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