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It's another chain style thing, but I like the idea, which I saw on *SolPeruibe's journal

I'll feature the first 10 people who comment on this journal with at least one of their works (I'll choose the works). I might do more than ten, but I don't even know if I have that many people still actively watching me!

Then, after you have commented and been featured here, you have to make a journal like this and feature me in the first place, please!

(non-subscribers may write links instead of thumbs)

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She lives in a really beautiful and interesting place
(as you can probably already tell by her photos),
and she combines good energy with a fine sense of humour!

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This guy is crazy and has been one of my most faithful watchers he has good ideas and interesting style. I especially like his monochrome pieces, go have a look-see!

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~ Pictures ~



http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/26382581/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 14:27:11 PDT
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.

My artist: The Beach Boys

Are you a male or female?
Don't Worry Baby

Describe yourself:
Shut Down

How do you feel:
Heroes And Villains

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Somewhere Near Japan

Your favorite form of transportation:
Little Deuce Coupe

Your best friend is:
Rock And Roll Music

What's the weather like:
Let The Wind Blow

Favorite time of day:
In My Car

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Busy Doin Nothin'

What is life to you:
Maybe I Don't Know

Your favorite color is:
Blueberry Hill

Your fear:
Gettin' Hungry

Your relationship:
Heads You Win - Tails I Lose

What is the best advice you have to give:
Never Learn Not To Love

Thought for the Day:
Papa-Oom-Mow-Mow

How I would like to die:
With A Little Help From My Friends

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/26246183/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/26246183/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 01:50:28 PDT ). I always regretted the manner in which things ended between us, but time and life seems to have sorted everything out, in a way. Now I don't have to have any lingering associations of deviantArt with sadness anymore (it's the place we met, and also I got banned from here for continued efforts to speak to her after she blocked me..). I've even moved it into my main group of bookmarks rather than left it hidden away in my 'random' folder, heh.

s for everyone

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/26100129/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/26100129/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 02:19:00 PDT
I recently bought a new (well, new but used!) car and have been enjoying it very much Uploaded a pic of it to scraps, might make an actual deviation at some point if the weather would quit being so dull. The sun shone all day while I was at work yesterday, then started getting dull and raining as I was ready to head home.. typical.

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/24221695/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/24221695/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 14:19:01 PDT
I bought a nice EOS 30D last year but have only used it a couple of times despite the fact that I used to be going out for walks every weekend last summer and walking to/from work every day! Perhaps a bit of a missed opportunity but I was busy enough with my thoughts anyway, not to mention that if I had a camera I would have been stopping every few minutes and wouldn't have lost the 2 stone that I lost (that's 28 pounds/9 kilograms for those that don't do stone )!

I'd be interested to see who still has me on their watch list and who wants more pictures. The great thing about dA is the constructive feedback from likeminded artists (not to mention the awesome little ego boost you get when someone favourites one of your deviations!), it really helped me to stay motivated and rewarded when it came to taking photos, and the tips and advice I got were invaluable for improving my composition and such.

So anyway, catch-up on me for those that are interested: I was banned after trying to continue speaking to my ex on dA when she didn't want to speak to me. My own fault really. About a year later I lost my faith in god and now I'm no longer a Christian (which is making life seem even more meaningless than usual, but at the same time I don't want to lie to myself and pretend that something is there when I have no real reason to believe so). My life really turned inside out after Katie left - since I pretty much spent all my time with her or writing to her in the couple of years before we split up, it was really hard to let go and stop associating everything around me with her. It's been another 2 years now though and after 2 other relationships I realised that I can stop blaming myself for things not working out. My last relationship was really amazing and has made me realise that I don't have to be afraid that I'm just poor boyfriend material - things just didn't work with Katie because she wasn't interested in the romance side of things, and you just can't have a bf/gf relationship without that chemistry (though we were good as best friends). Sadly chemistry and love aren't enough by themselves though, and so my last relationship didn't work out either, because my gf was a Christian and I'm not anymore - she thought she could handle it at first, but eventually she was too worried about going against god's will, etc. Said she still loved me but couldn't go out with me anymore. Frustrating, but what can you do.. I understand how she feels because I was in a similar situation when I first met Katie - she said she was a Christian but she wasn't going to church or reading her bible, but she started all of that after we talked about it (which I find kinda funny, considering that I now believe it's all a load of rubbish! still, she thanked me for it so if it makes her happy that's good).

Anyway - that's what's been happening with me, in my usual rambling style! How are you guys?

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]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12307840/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12307840/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 09:48:22 PDT
In my dreams I'm dying all the time
As I wake its kaleidoscopic mind
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to lie
So this is goodbye
This is goodbye

Tell the truth you never wanted me
Tell me

In my dreams I'm jealous all the time
As I wake I'm going out of my mind
Going out of my mind


I don't lie (well it's probably impossible to never lie or hide anything, but I try not to). Still, this is a good song I was just reminded of..

Again thankyou to everyone who has been commenting on my journals and things recently. Today I just felt like sitting still and doing nothing again, feel like there's nothing I can do, but having people who still believe in me is comforting and makes me feel human again. I guess if I never upload any more photos then people will get fed up of all my journals actually maybe I should just go do that right now something to do!!! yay.. unless my account is banned but then I can just upload my pics to my Bebo page instead: [link]

EDIT: Ahah! Yeah that's why I haven't uploaded stuff when I was bored before - all my photos are on my old laptop at work, not on my new laptop -.- I'll get there in the end..

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12302545/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12302545/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 20:59:29 PDT
I don't think that continuing to speak to someone after splitting up is a bad thing to do, and the fact that she doesn't want to speak to me just makes it seem like she never actually loved me properly for the last few months, which I did occasionally suspect, but I was trying not to be too dumb -.-

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12233715/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12233715/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 14:19:46 PDT
anyway, another little snippet of a song that I've identified with over the last couple of months:

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

So I'm not the only person to ever feel this, but 0_0 it hurts.. actually hurts physically sometimes.. just a crappy feeling inside of me. Oh well. I do want to be able to move on but it feels like a waste of a good friendship. I guess it's over though and I don't know who else I'll ever find that understands me as much as Katie did.. well actually that's maybe just me being dumb, she was a good listener, but I know lots of people who have understood and listened and helped with problems over the last while.. but I am still thankful to Katie for everything that we have done together. It's so insane what's happening because I would probably still want to marry her if we had one happy hour together, but.. tis not to be. I now have to find something else to do with my life, thankfully I have a good job, good friends, good health. Well actually I have had eczema (rashes on other side of my elbows, hands, eyes and mouth all dry and sore) since I went to Canada because of all the stress from problems in the relationship with Katie, which are obviously mostly my fault as I can see now that I'm on my anti-depressants.. I couldn't handle that Katie didn't want to marry me as much as I wanted to marry her and stuff like that. It should have been a simple thing to accept that she's not ready, but after reading Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus then I see it's probably an issue of me feeling that people (probably my parents lol) didn't accept me or don't accept me, and then when the person I love most in the world was saying she wanted to marry me, but seemed to always be trying to make excuses to not get married,etc.. well I should have just accepted it, but I was pretty much incapable of it. If she'd reassured me more that she was going to one day, or just showed that she loved and accepted me the way I was, rather than me thinking I had to change before she'd marry me, then eventually I'd feel more accepted and be able to relax. She didn't like having to repeat things like that though lol, so.. anyway. I could go on for hours but I won't. Sorry for those of you that still have me on your watch in the hope of getting photos rather than life stories. You can remove my journals from the listy thing anyway It's quite possible that I'll get back into a photo-ey phase if I can keep up my productivity and positive mood that work brings (by making me feel that at least I'm still accomplishing something in my life, even if I co... ]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12208886/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12208886/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 16:27:04 PDT


Sum 41 - Handle This Lyrics


You said it once before
you don't do those things you used to anymore
You say in doubt
were fading out, forgetting who we used to be.

Cause I will bring you down
I don't want to miss
I don't think you can handle this
You've lost what you can't find
it's never what you had in mind

You take it with a smile
it's so easy when you're always in denial
Just in time but out of line
I can't make all the same mistakes you want me to

Cause I will bring you down
I don't want to miss
I don't think you can handle this
You've lost what you can't find
it's never what you had in mind

Your giving up you know it's not what you need
And it's true what you're going through
Try so hard not listen to everything I never say

Cause I will bring you down
I don't want to miss
I don't think you can handle this
You've lost what you can't find
it's never what you had in mind

I'm getting over getting used to
And after all that I put you through now
I see I'm not the only one

I never thought it'd ever come to
This in fact was never what you wanted from me
or how you meant it to be

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12202105/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12202105/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 04:48:08 PDT
Loving you
Isn't the right thing to do
How can I ever change things
That I feel

If I could
Maybe I'd give you my world
How can I
When you won't take it from me

You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
Go your own way
[ these lyrics found on [link] ]

Tell me why
Everything turned around
Packing up
Shacking up is all you wanna do

If I could
Baby I'd give you my world
Open up
Everything's waiting for you

You can go your own way
Go your own way
You an call it
Another lonely day
You can go your own way
go your own way

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12183488/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12183488/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 16:12:48 PDT
Phish - Dirt

Washed up on shore...
washed up on shore...
I'd like to live beneath the dirt
A tiny space to move and breathe is all that I would ever need
I want to live beneath the dirt
where I'd be free from push and shove like all those swarming up above
beneath their heels I'll spend my time
shout your name into the wind
I'll wiggle in the earth and dew
shout your name into the wind
and sometimes I will think of you
shout your name into the wind
And if you ever think of me
Kneel down and kiss the earth
and show me what this thought is worth
i'll never hear your voice again
shout your name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...
shout yout name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...
shout your name into the wind...

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12155020/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12155020/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 10:42:40 PDT
Heard this song before, but never really paid attention to the lyrics (apart from the first couple of lines which are great, and now I see have a double meaning..). This was kinda like me this morning, except I eventually got up at like 9.30 after just sitting there thinking.. had to go o work anyway and now I'm staying in late and happened to listen to the lyrics in the song:

"11am Lyrics

Seven am;
The garbage truck beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Eleven am,
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
'Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.
Forgive my indecision... I am only a man.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope its you.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, the day has come and I want off that ride."

Now I'm off the ride and I have a future again. It's nice, even though it means life has slowed down for a while.

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12152021/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12152021/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 04:11:58 PDT
1) don't make jokes about Jesus to try and lighten the mood in a religious-type disagreement!

2) don't let my brain run away with paranoid thoughts - probably should learn to curb them more myself, but I need reassurance a lot, and I now know there's nothing wrong with that. People need reassurance, especially from the ones they love.

3) in a similar vein to 2, don't hold back from telling me you love me. I myself wonder if I say 'I love you' too often, and therefore make it less 'special', but if you don't say it every day, then I'll feel less loved, even if I 'know' that you love me. I find it much easier to believe that someone wouldn't love me than that they would. That can be hard for someone to take I guess, needing to reassure me all the time, but hey I have some feminine qualities, and correspondingly I need to be cherished hehe

4) tell me if I do something you don't like.. tell me if you want to be doing stuff.. tell me everything! I'm not a mind reader, and it's easy for me to focus on what I myself want, especially if I don't feel loved! Also, don't let me concentrate on long term goals too much since that will stop me from looking at what you need (this is a general guy thing.. even if the long term goals are for the girlfriend's benefit, that's not gonna keep them happy in the meantime and in a paradoxical way is very shortsighted).

5) last (but certainly not least!!!), don't say you want to marry me until you're actually prepared to do it, otherwise I'll always be wondering what I have to do to actually have you marry me, and end up just being hurt and resentful. Yep, I appear to be pretty selfish -.- selfish, stupid and paranoid that you're going to stop loving me. Which you will do eventually if I can't stop being paranoid. Delightful.

Meh. I'm so worried if I go out with anyone that it'll turn bad again, but I kinda can see where things went wrong, and now I'm back on antidepressants so it almost makes my brain the same as a 'normal' persons, and I can see a bit more clearly. I would rather be alone than develop a resentful and hurtful relationship again, though all relationships will involve pain if they are close. I shouldn't make excuses about any ways I've acted, though there are plenty of excuses flying round my head, and I guess the main one would be depression again. One day maybe Katie will want to be my friend again, though I don't think so, she doesn't really 'need' anyone and that includes me.. :/ but yeah I still want the best for her in life, and if that means not seeing me then so be it :/.. phew.. well.. probably this journal has been useless to everyone that bothered to read it, since I'm gonna be really wary of internet relationships in future, but I guess I'm still not completely closed to them as it's about the only way I am gonna be meeting new people and all the people in my 'real' life that I would like tend to already be taken, and I always think people are better off with someone else than me.. lol.. Katie kinda had to convince me that she was better off with me than anyone else.. she managed, but I failed her in the end, even though I really believed we should have been together for the rest of our lives.. oh yeah.. *goes back to make the other point he was thinking*. Okie.

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12119721/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12119721/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 14:52:32 PST

I joined Bebo, it's like here but less arty. But all my friends from real life are there so it's a good way to get to know everyone again, or at least let them know I'm still alive Trying to get Katie to at least talk to me a bit, I just can't really take losing my best friend for the last 2 years completely.. seems so wrong.. and I don't see why she's acting as she does unless she hates me (which I don't think so, at least not in my more lucid periods), or she just finds it too painful to think about what's happened.. which is more likely.. she maybe just didn't think of me as her best friend or something.. we managed to be just 'friends' for a couple of days and we were being all cheerful and stuff with each other.. the closer you get to someone the more you want them to agree with you and stuff, so we actually got on a lot better when we stepped back to 'friends' from bf/gf.. but we also still wanted to be bf/gf so the just friends didn't last long. Meh. Should probably stop thinking about it, and boring you all with the slightly soap opera-ly absurd life I seem to have...

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12105765/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/12105765/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 07:03:53 PST Statross today - didn't even find out from her, I found out from reading his journal. How crappy is that? My skin was creeping and burning and I can't eat. I don't want to do anything. I can't believe that the person who claimed to love me for so long is treating me like this, and has the gall to suggest that I'm an abusive person, when in reality all that was happening was that I want to solve any problems that we have, but she doesn't want to talk about them. Maybe I should have just let things lie, but I wanted to resolve everything, and she would prefer just not to even think about any problems that she has, or we have. I recently started back on my medication for depression too, for Katie. I hoped that by improving my mood I could stop arguing, etc, and it was working, but it appears that Katie already was wanting to go back to this other guy. I even asked her if she was doing that, she didn't say anything, although she still said, and has always said that she won't go out with anyone after me. That remains to be seen. Anyway.. I wanted to marry her.. and she just .. well as she said, she has never *wanted* anything badly in her life.. she has a lack of passion about her when it comes to most things.. about the only thing she seems to enjoy properly is art... and kitties.. anyway.. sorry for not putting up pictures for ages.. and sorry for offloading like this.. I used to have someone to talk to about my life.. now I pretty much have nobody because I've put all my energies and life into Katie for the last 2 and a bit years. Sad.. over the last week I still was wondering if I could heal her and things would work (when she was happy she was the perfect woman to be with, or at least she showed me affection and stuff, which she didn't usually do). Now I just feel disgusted at the way she's been treating me.. bleh sorry everyone if you wasted your time reading this..

EDIT: Okay so I over-reacted about the going back to the other guy bit, though I bet they'll get together in a few months. My worst fears came true, and it's probably a self fulfilling prophecy. I'm wondering if this is worse than someone dying.. I was really upset that my dad died during a period where we had kinda fallen out (well I guess that happens to most people when they're 17? meh..), and at least I've been able to speak to Katie a bit, but I know she wants nothing to do with me now. The book I've been reading says that girls tend to keep giving until they're burned out, and that guys and girls keep score differently, so a guy can think that he's giving just as much back, when to the girl it appears he isn't; for example, with girls, massive presents apparently count for exactly the same as teeny little things like emptying the bin for them.. lol.. while for guys, they think of big presents as scoring way more than little ones.. meh. I knew that Katie thought she was giving more, though I kinda felt the same thing. Massive misunderstanding and so on.. why am I even writing all this.. oh well.. oh yeah it was to make Katie seem less scummy to people. She had a right to visit Statross if she wanted.. I still feel really weird thinking about that though.. better just to forget about everything I guess..

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/10268814/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/10268814/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 08:21:12 PDT

Katie is here I don't have much to say other than that this is good and I'm hopefully gonna be getting a new car in the next couple of weeks so that we can travel around in a little more style

We currently are still recovering from the travelling, but I'll make the effort to be a tourist in my own country if possible, and show Katie around. Not much here in Aberdeen, but I want to take a road trip up the west coast at some point, and visit Edinburgh etc. If anyone knows of any nice touristy things to do in Scotland, let me know, thanks I've spent the last 2 years of my life on the computer well maybe more like 20.

Sorry for the lack of photos.. I have several hundred from the summer when I went to my uncle's wedding, and then France, but I have been a little preoccupied I hope you all don't mind that I care more about spending time with my girlfriend than you

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]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/9249179/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/9249179/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 08:42:18 PDT AngelicLawyer to say "Fifteen Everyday Things That Make Me Happy In The Pants" o_= I'm not sure if she knows what that means, but I'll just assume it means things that make me very happy. It may be a bit repetetive *sigh*

1. Katie getting online

2. Katie speaking to me

3. Katie not running to be ill whenever she sees my face

4. Katie actually appearing interested in the things I say

5. Katie just sitting there smiling

6. Seeing a nice car

7. Driving

8. Listening to good music

9. Thinking of driving in a nice car listening to music with Katie ..

10. Listening to good music, but louder

11. Pretending that one day things will be better

12. Thinking that I am actually of benefit to others, mostly Katie, and that my life therefore is worth .. letting exist.

13. *struggling to think of things that dont pertain to Katie* pretending to play the drums along to good music

14. Planning what kind of car I'm going to get once Katie is here (and we've sorted out how much money we have/need)

15. Knowing that God has a purpose for my life even if I feel I'm wasting it, and seeing the bad things in my life actually having positive consequences.

I tag *Sagacious , ~netcyber and =psivamp

Other than that, I've taken some pictures recently at my uncle's wedding, and I'm going to France this week, so hopefully I can build up a small pile of pictures to upload over the next while.. :]

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/8334977/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/8334977/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 14:36:50 PST
Going to France again in July, and in June the band will be touring the north of England, may get some photos taken then also.

Hopefully some people still have me on their watch list

It's slightly weird to see that I've taken some good photos.. as usual I tend to forget the things I'm good at if you dont think they're nice/interesting.. well.. tell me why

Hopefully now that I've gone through all the pics from the last few months, then if I take new ones I can upload them in good time. I still dont think I'll be taking many photos until towards the end of the year, when Katie finally gets here, and we can go for random walks etc ^__^ I used to walk around randomly going to/from university/work, but now that I have a car again I guess I just dont have the same opporchancities.

Well that wasn't very amazing for my 100th journal, but yes I'm still alive

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7828270/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7828270/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 12:37:05 PST
There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm)

I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together

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love the lyrics to this song perfect. Also I love this song I'm listening to just now

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7758153/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7758153/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 05:06:02 PST I can give you life, I can take it away

A heart of stone, a smoking gun
I'm working it out
Why'd you feel so underrated?
Why'd you feel so negated?

Turning away from the light
Becoming adult
Turning into my soul
I wanted to bite not destroy
To feel her underneath
Turning into my soul

She don't think straight
She's got such a dirty mind and it never ever stops
And you don't taste like her and you never ever will
And we don't read the papers, we don't read the news
Heaven's never enough, we will never be fooled

And if you feel a little left behind
I will see you on the other side

Cos I'm on fire
I'm on fire when you come

I'm on fire so stub me out

________________________________________ _____________

looked up the lyrics to the song before this, then decided not to post, then this started and I looked up, and thought yeah, that works



]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7685919/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7685919/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 14:11:45 PST nice how I didnt enjoy that trip because I was wrecked at work for the next 2 days, but the benefits of going are still coming in

yes

that is all []

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7629766/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7629766/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 12:40:18 PST
I looked in the box of books I got from Amazon last year and saw The Life of Pi - I probably just got it because it had Pi in the title it's not about the number Pi at all, but it looks pretty good, winner of the 'Man Booker Prize', whatever that is, and also was a number one bestseller so I maybe got it because *Sagacious had read but I'm not sure if she has.

Anyway I hope everyone else is more stable than I am right now, otherwise we would all end up in a highly uncivil-civil-war.

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7602144/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7602144/ Sat, 14 Jan 2006 13:42:27 PST
Now I will put down the lyrics to a song which is mentioned above. I would sing you it but my voice goes kinda strained when I sing it myself. *listens to some strange echoey humming that came on random play *

"Why do you wait for me
And how do you wait for me
I'm feeling alone without you here in my arms
I'm lost and alone without you here by my side
Ohh, Ohhh

Here's a song for you lovely
Remember that it is for you only
For you only

Why do you wait on me
And how do you wait on me
I'm feeling alone without you here in my arms
I'm lost and alone without you here by my side
Ohh, Ohhh

Here's a song for you lovely
Remember that it is for you only
For you only
My heart was caught in a landslide
And now it feels for you only
For you only
Ooooh, Oooooh
Ooooh, Oooooh
Ohhh

Here's a song for you lovely
Remember that it is for you only
For you only
My heart was caught in a landslide
And now it feels for you only
For you only

Yeah"

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7581565/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7581565/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 09:23:03 PST
And I tried to subscribe again last night but the stupid thing wouldnt work

but yus I think I'm maybe a bit depressed again and dont notice.. either that or just I had a full cup of proper coffee yesterday, and day before that had instant which kinda makes me even worse, hyper then depressed. Didnt have coffee at work today so we'll see how that goes.

Was gonna go see Brokeback Mountain but then I remembered a friend of two will be coming over tonight so cant just go running off hope y'all are doing good I've been submitting 2 or 3 pics a day over the last few days in the hopes that you'll appreciate them more than if I just put all of them up at once - think I'll put up the last 2 now, then it's up to me to sift through my unsifted photos for more. Then once they're all sifted I can start taking my camera everywhere and taking strange photos again ^__^ ]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7314945/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7314945/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:41:18 PST on *scotlandaddict's journal, and have now joined

To join you dont have to do anything other than add them to your watch and put their icon in your journal apparently, so here we go

I joined the GIMP group ages ago but I'm not enough of a manipulator to do anything worthy of that group really

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7235442/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7235442/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 05:27:27 PST aside from that I got to drive out with my uncle to his farm in his Audi A6, then follow him back in to town in his Golf R32 I think I've been subconsciously smiling all day after that

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7219120/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7219120/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 10:06:00 PST _> anyway, once I got home I found my Eisley CD and also the Libertines and White Stripes, but I've not listened to those 2 yet. I'm ripping the Eisley CD as I type into linux, 196kb/s or whatever it is to try and get better quality. May re-rip a few CDs to get a better quality, especially as a lot of my albums were ripped to AAC then converted to MP3 lol.. *sigh* *coughs* I got a nice surprise though, a letter from Mr Penguin thankyou Mr Penguin, I shall keep my robot safe somewhere on the walls

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7176331/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7176331/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 12:11:58 PST
Also I am probably going to try to use Linux as my primary OS from now on, I'm typing this up on 64 bit Ubuntu, but I'm downloading the 32 bit version just now as I think a few of the things I want dont exist in 64 bit yet.



]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7088592/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7088592/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 11:48:55 PST sucking is creating a nice slow coffee release ^__^ I'd pretty much stopped drinking coffee till I started working full time, hehe we have a good coffee machine at work to use with ground coffee, and recently got one with pods. I may try grinding down some of these beans, though I think just sucking beans will be better to appreciate the flavour, and also probably make me less hyper



]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7061305/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7061305/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 07:03:31 PST [link]

*sigh* something I thought about before. I wondered why shouldnt 2 geeks have kids, who will probably be even smarter/geekier.. though the downside is also that they would be even more geekier. More reclusive or socially inept. Yus. Very interesting article.. making me strangely contemplative and peaceful, as well as feeling empathy for all the poor kids that have got too much geekiness in them. I cant really write down my feelings on this too well, I'm finding it hard to even understand myself how I'm feeling, but yeah.. I'm sure I have very mild autistic/asperger/something-similar tendencies which have caused me to be geekish all my life, causing social problems, but also given me a capacity to be good at most stuff I try to do, though for a lot of my life I believe I have abused the latter ability and become lazy. I know I, and so many other people are capable of amazing things, but the motivation for me has been sucked out of my life. Bleh I guess I'd better get on with my 'work' -.- I dont need to prove to myself how great I am, I need in my life someone to be great for. *quiet sigh* I need a quiet life in the mountains somewhere next to a lake with underground heating..

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7042686/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/7042686/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 06:53:45 PST Lock the task bar
Lock the task bar
If your taskbar moves and you don't like it
Lock the task bar
Lock the task bar








I never knew the lyrics to Rock the Casbah before but now I do. Yus. If I had the song (ie I knew it better) I'd do a complete parody, but I dont so I'm not gonna try >_>

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6987611/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6987611/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 05:52:28 PST imhidinginthebushes have suggested this before, then I spoke to some band members about it and it was decided that I'm actually the most likely to be able to devote time to it.. I thought I didnt have too much more time to spare but I guess I'll manage

Go and have a listen if you like, and tell your friends! If you own a record label then feel free to give us an offer. Also, I'm sorry but all band members are taken, so if you want to be a groupy then .. just not gonna happen

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6949869/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6949869/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 00:06:27 PST fisty heh

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Alistair
2. Ali
3. AlStew

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD

1. elite
2. pie
3. blues

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. lips
2. eyes
3. whole body ^__^

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. squint nose
2. possible broken rib
3. hmm... *looks around body* right eye weaker than left I guess

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE

1. Scottish
2. Lewis
3. Granny had some kinda mental problem that has likely filtered down to me in the form of paranoia

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1. possible death of friends/family
2. people sneaking up on me while I'm listening to music through headphones
3. not building up a no claims bonus on me car

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS

1. Katie
2. food
3. hugs

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW

1. White (Calvin Klein o_0 ) boxers
2. Checked/tartan pattern shorts
3. Nothing got a duvet round my shoulders

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS

1. Smashing Pumpkins
2. Incubus
3. *goes to browse winamp list* ooh yus, Pixies

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS

1. Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonnaise
2. Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares to You
3. Roger Sanchez - Another Chance

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS

1. Katie
2. Getting up on time for work every day
3. Kissing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP

1. Katie's smile
2. Katie's hugs
3. Katie's freckles

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE

1. I dont want to go back to bed
2. The world is egg shaped
3. I dont know where I'll be in a year's time

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1. giggliness
2. huggability
3. braaaaaains

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES

1. Photographising
2. Waiting for Katie
3. Playing/listening to music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW

1. *breathe* >_< hug Katie
2. .. err.. hold Katie
3. aaaaaaaand.. get my new car back from its service so I have somewhere to hug Katie

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING

1. Games Programming
2. IT Support (current career, complete with company car not as fun as programming but good people at work who make it fun )
3. Rock star..

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

1. Japan
2. Canada
3. Chicago

THREE KID'S NAMES

1. Lisa
2. Biton
3. Lalo

THREE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1. Get Katie into a dress.. even if it's just for a wedding
2. .. hug all night
3. hug all day

THREE CELEB CRUSHES

1. now you're asking crazy questions *goes to look up imdb* Selma Blair
2. Drew Barrymore
3. Christina Ricci

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ
1. ~Sagacious
2. =psivamp
3. you! just kidding.. ~imhidinginthebushes

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6852590/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6852590/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 07:23:43 PDT _<

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6754174/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6754174/ Thu, 13 Oct 2005 03:24:49 PDT Sagacious tagged me which means I have to give 20 random facts about myself apparently, so here I go. If anyone replies here I may 'tag' them so be careful

1. Likes pasta
2. Likes mayonnaise and cold pasta sauce on his pasta
3. Likes mayonnaise and soya sauce on noodles
4. Likes eating
5. Is Not Actually Fat.
6. Has an ab-shockery device
7. Loves
8. is typing at work
9. gets sometimes
10. has a 1 inch cut on his left thumb that he did with a sharp little knife last night by mistake
11. just *sigh*ed
12. had his car broken into overnight
13. had to spend 20 minutes today in the back of a police car
14. has an electric shock pen on his desk, which works as a cattle prod
15. loves photography, and just thought of =timtam's gallery
16. wants to take more photos
17. is going to play a gig on one of the Western Isles tomorrow night
18. has broken 2 major bones, and maybe a finger or toe without noticing much
19. just *sigh*ed again thinking about how much he misses his ~Sagacious
20. needs constant hugging and attention

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6736869/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6736869/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 06:48:39 PDT _> then I was like "do they care?" and suddenly my perspective shot out from being focused on the 2D world that is my life for several hours each day and was like hehe nope.. and it's kinda weird just sitting here in exactly the same place, but my mind going all over the world and getting so much info about up-to-the-minute happenings from [link] . Heh.



have a nice week peoples. I need to take pics >_<

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6570897/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6570897/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 08:29:42 PDT have a

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6510138/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6510138/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 08:52:12 PDT How do you keep relationships going if possible? Are memories enough? Should we spend a lot of time going over them to remind ourselves why our relationships are so special? Or should we try to get on with things so that we dont sink into despondency.. can there really be a happy medium?



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]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6430332/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6430332/ Tue, 06 Sep 2005 09:06:58 PDT





She ish back from her holy day! \o/

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6355713/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6355713/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 23:52:57 PDT I could do most anything to you

well I'm awake, I'll hopefully be at work at a decent moment. While I was in the kitchen I could feel voices screaming inside my head. More feel than hear. It felt like they were going to produce some great revelation, though I know that there are none in there.

I could do most anything to you

*sigh* muchos sleep in my eyes resulting from cat allergies getting to play yesterday

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6322583/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6322583/ Thu, 25 Aug 2005 09:16:53 PDT
Banana Guard

Now he's just sent an email called 'Are you sitting comfortably?', but it's actually about Health and Safety issues with the way we sit at our desks - not the Banana Guard. Thankfully

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6260231/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6260231/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 09:33:13 PDT

Anyway I'm gonna finally get a wireless card for my work laptop tonight I thinks, then *cough* maybe see if I can find a better signal strength in the lounge. but hopefully our own connection will be fixed soon *sniff*

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6176304/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6176304/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 07:34:18 PDT worfsonofmogh



also ~eodm







...



]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6165691/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6165691/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 06:01:43 PDT In the meantime tho is work. I just finished off a coding project I've been doing for the last week, which likely could have been finished in a couple of days if I'd given it my full attention. Meh anyway I wont go on about work. How is everyone else? dA seems to be a bit on the quiet side today after I cleared out my weekend messages. Katie not been spending much time online it seems, I've probably overloaded her message centre and inbox V.V I have needs!

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6110587/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6110587/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 09:03:22 PDT Love to the loveless shown
And it goes up
You don't have to be alone

Your heavy heart
Is made of stone
And its so hard to see you clearly
You don't have to be on your own
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
Well I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
And I get that message home

My song is love
My song is love, unknown
And I'm on fire for you, clearly
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say I don't mean that
You're the target that I'm aiming at
But I'm nothing on my own
Got to get that message home

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna leave it until its much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home

My song is love, is love unknown
And I've got to get that message home

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6107709/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6107709/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 00:29:51 PDT geekyartjunkie's journal but I havent looked into it much other than that.. strange.. if Jark creates another version of dA then I'd switch for sure.. hmmm. Shame =_= I dunno if I'll go as far as to change my icon right now, maybe while I'm at work Oh yeah I'd better go to work before I get a parking ticket.



]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6075274/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6075274/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 07:31:11 PDT
Bleh. I was considering posting some stuff today, but unless my head completely recovers in under an hour then I dont want to walk round town like this

to all

UPDATE: Sunday morning.. head still a lil sore but I think I'll go to church anyway if I cant concentrate I guess I could just go home and lie down, but it shouldnt be too bad...

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6057371/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6057371/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 11:36:12 PDT he take the road as it comes
It take the shine off his shoes
He says it's a shame
You know it may be a game
Ah but I won't play to loose

He's burning the grass
Ha take up a glass
He swallow it neat
He crosses the floor
he open the door
He take a sniff of the street

And then she tell him that he's crazy
She's a-saying hey baby
I'm your wife
Yeah she tell him that he's crazy
For gambling a-with his life

But he climbs on his horse
You know he feel no remorse
he just kicks it alive
His motor is fine
He take it over the line
Until he's ready to dive

And she tell him that he's crazy
Yes she's saying listen baby
I'm your wife
Yeah she tell him that he's crazy
For gambling with his life

He sticks to his guns
He take the road as it comes
It take the shine off his shoes
He say it's a shame
You know it may be a game
Ah but I won't play to loose

He sticks to his guns
He take the road as it comes
It take the shine off his shoes
He's too fast to stop
He take it over the top
He make a line in the news

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6036188/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6036188/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 03:43:39 PDT I just spent like half an hour writing out a kind of dedication journal to some of my friends here on dA and closed the window by mistake may try again later bah..

Still have more photos from France to upload, thanks for the responses so far to the ones I have put up :]

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6010767/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6010767/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 06:39:20 PDT

I'm not doing anything special per se because of the 4000, but I guess it's a good reason to get my arse in gear and start looking through my photos from france

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6004620/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6004620/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 12:44:13 PDT [link] . I'd like to point out that although I put up the original basic page on the site, that someone else has been adding stuff since then, so if you think it sucks, then dont blame me.. I agree. Hehe. *sigh* Should I put watermarks on my pics that are up on the site? Again I didnt put them up there, tho I gave Ruairidh permission to use some of my pics *thought he was gonna put up 6 pics, one for each song, as example single covers :/ * I have the FTP password so I could edit the site if I could be bothered, but I'd rather have some free time for once, maybe read the new Harry Potter book - bought it on tuesday but been buseh. Just completed all the story missions in San Andreas a few minutes ago.

And I'd just like to take this moment to say that I am an obsessive fool, and I love you Katie Guess what I'm obsessed with. Starts with K. And it's not Kordoba.

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6001222/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/6001222/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 02:41:51 PDT sitting here at work, know what I want to be doing and how to do it, but am still trying to work out the order or way that I want to do it >.> *just making some macros for an excel spreadsheet to help make the engineers lives a bit easier* I ish missing my beloved, but realised I hash lots of email to look through if I get too ronery.. it only makes me miss her more, but I like torturing myself I guess..

*wishes he had some nice soft pillows to lie on* oh well, at least it's friday so I have the weekend to rest up. I've still got all the pictures from france to look through.. I'm looking forward to getting more pics up, but not looking forward to sorting through like 200 pictures, heh. Once I get going it'll be okay, but it's always the starting that's the problem for me - same with this excel stuff I'm working on..

*snuggles down on imaginary pillows* hmm I wonder if I fell asleep at lunchtime whether I'd wake up trying to eat them the strange thoughts of a mind gone bored with maddom.



Much love people.. peace

mV ^__^
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]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5984388/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5984388/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 07:32:36 PDT
Crazy but I believe this time
Begging for sweet relief
A blessing in disguise
Dying behind these tired eyes

I've been losing sleep
Please come to me tonight

Hands on a miracle
I got my hands on a miracle
Believe it or not
Hands on a miracle

And there aint no way
That you'll take it away

Everything that we've survived
It's gonna be alright
Just lucky we're alive

Got no vision
I've been blind
Searching everywhere
You're right here in my sight

Hands on a miracle
I've got my hands on miracle
Believe it or not
Hands on a miracle

And there aint no way
That you'll take it away

Hands on a miracle
I got my hands on a miracle
Believe or not
Hands on a miracle
I've got my hands on a miracle

And there aint no way
That you'll take it away

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5973427/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5973427/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 00:11:29 PDT
"You and me are floating on a tidal wave together"

I feel a lil ill. Hopefully will get back into the swing of work this week, I knew going on holiday would just make me lazy. We started a mild 'flexi-time' at work now anyway, so I can go in from 10.15 to 4.30 if I want As long as I dont take any time off for lunch I guesh

*hears toast pop-up* perfecto

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5966595/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5966595/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 09:12:12 PDT
yus.



I am back babeh. Break was nice I guess, tho I missed you guys, I have loads of photos to look through and upload.. also I bought a 512mb memory stick for my camera so that's 200 more photos I can take per day can go back to taking random shots of everything I was becoming far too discerning with only 100 spaces on my old card

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5956978/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5956978/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 07:42:26 PDT

*doesnt know what else to say*... there wasnt an explosion or anything, everything is feeling very subdued just now..

hope you are all doing okay.

you feel better, you *goesh back to bed*

]]> =Kermon http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5853500/ http://Kermon.deviantart.com/journal/5853500/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 03:44:17 PDT

I will be gone from tomorrow till next weekend.. am going to France with mum, sisters, an uncle, aunt and 3 lil cousins.. while it will be fun, and hopefully I can get some nice pictures if I get off my lazy ass for long enough, I will miss you guys. I'm pathetic I know, but I will.

Especially my Katie Look after her for me while I am gone, or I will eat you.

That is all.

]]> =Kermon