http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Kidege&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Kidege en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 15:29:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/29040802/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/29040802/ Sat, 19 Dec 2009 13:18:35 PST dkal;lkdjs
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I recently got hooked on DBSK, and today I stumbled across this.
AAAAAAAH! -dies-

Anyway. WINTER BREAK. WHOO. Definitely want to draw and stuff. But I have to finish my college applications too... And I'm going to get tutored in math! YAY! (I've never had a tutor before... Huhuhu~.)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE~!

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/28334714/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/28334714/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 14:53:41 PST
Goodbye, WIPs. Goodbye, programs. Goodbye, documents. What's perhaps worse is that my dad paid this dipshit $100, who didn't bother to notify us he was erasing everything to "fix" it. This means I'll have to stick with my laptop for a while longer, as opposed to buying a new one, which I'll need anyway because my current one isn't small enough to be easily portable.

Dad says we'll get me a new laptop for college and to use my old laptop till then, since it's just like new anyway (but not really). Yet I don't see how that's going to happen since my parents can't even pay for college itself.

I'm going to need a lot of grants and scholarships. Cross your fingers for me, guys.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/28116164/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/28116164/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 21:39:44 PST
College applications and essays are my life right now. Must survive AP Stats until the end of the semester, hopefully maintaining an A, so that I can DROP IT. Sobbb.

That's it for now. College college college. I didn't know it would be this stressful.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/26966972/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/26966972/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:54:34 PDT
I'll pretty much do anything. People, anthro, sparkledogs, gay, fanart, original characters.


Chibi sketch: $3
Portrait sketch: $5
Half-body sketch: $7
Full body sketch: $10
($3 for each additional character)


Chibi CG: $10
Portrait CG: $15
Half-body CG: $20
Full body CG: $25
Full CG (includes background): $35
($8 for each additional character)


If you're interested, note me with this information:
Paypal address: (To know who's paying.)
Character/s: (OC/Fanart)
Reference/s: (Pictures would be great, but if you don't have any, I can work off a description. Specify if you want the exact outfit in a ref, if I can improv, etc.)
Other: (Certain expressions or anything else goes here.)


The art you'll get will be like [link] [link] [link]
I'm contemplating design commissions, but since I'm new to this commission stuff, you can note me if you're interested in a design (human, anthro, sparkledog) and I'll deal with that on an individual basis.


Please support me! ;o; If you want to help advertise me, I'll love you forever and ever too. Thanks!

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/26912535/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/26912535/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 10:04:07 PDT Where are mah OCHSA peeps? Lemme hear ya hallaaaah. XD (I'm gonna get chewed out for that one.)

Anyway. Art's gonna be even slower now that my time has been shrunk 80%. But I try, I try. ;o; (This Gilbo fanart I'm working on is KILLING me.) I want Corel Painter so bad. The trial is running out too fasttt sob.


Wow. That's it for now, I guess. Uh. Go download the District 9 soundtrack, fags!

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25666100/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25666100/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 05:10:37 PDT
Soooo. I'm in a total art slump. Boo. I've been studying pretty doujinshis, though. (Lol, "studying". LOLOLOL.) No but really, learn from the pros and all that. ;__; God, it's really five am! Sweet.

Anyway. List. Right. I've been wanting to make like a to-do list; who knows if I'll follow up on any of it, but it should be fine to get it off my chest. Here we goooo!


HETALIA FANART
Prussia (like, a lot)
American Revolution (CUZ UR ALL DOIN IT WRONG)
Cold War
Turkeyyy (with Greece? maybe?)
Spain&South Italy dammit!

ORIGINAL CHARACTERS
Ritith&Enu
Clyde&Letum
Kirill (need him in my galleryyyy)

Meh. That'll do for now. (Omg so much noooo!) OVER 'N OUT. -combusts-




...I think I just lost like 800 cool points.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25276688/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25276688/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 18:55:58 PDT [edit] I now have a 101.1 degree fever. My regular temperature is 96.8... Bro left to buy me chicken noodle soup. I don't feel so good. [/edit]

It's the first day of summer, and I'm sick? D: How uncool is that? Stupid school stressed me out it made me sick. Now I'll have to sleep more to get better. Boo!
-sips tea- Go away, headache. Go awayyy, fever. AND YOU. COUGH. GTFO.

I'll try drawing something. Maybe something trippy will come out. -chucks NyQuil at the wall- This stuff tastes gnarly. And mom and dad left on their trip to Mexico/Guatamala today, so home cooking is gone too. ;~;

What tea should I be drinking, dudes? ...Camomile? -clueless-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25224729/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/25224729/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:10:01 PDT BECAUSE I THINK IT'S GODLY.

School is out in two days. Art will follow~.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/21740738/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/21740738/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 00:05:46 PST To get to the point, school is top priority, so I still won't be very active. Junior year is insanely hectic! But uhmmm. I'm trying to upload art, I swear.

Nomnom! -falls asleep-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/20069660/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/20069660/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 23:30:39 PDT
I'm addicted to dA. I must extract myself from this place so I can do my assignments. XD I MUST FILL MYSELF WITH RESOLVE AND SELF-DISCIPLINE. I can do thiiiiis. ; ;

Haha, okay, art will come in uh. A week or two? SCHOOL WORK, PEOPLE, SCHOOL WORK. RESOLVE. FOCUSSSS. (Oh and uh. Ha, getting back on a regular sleeping pattern. GOOD NIGHT AAAAH. -passes out-)

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19854226/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19854226/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 22:50:09 PDT
If it shows up again tonight, I think I'll cry. ; ; Then kill it. Swiftly. WAHAHAHAHA, YOU HEAR ME, MOSQUITO? YOU'RE GOIN' DOWWWWN!

-twitchtwitch- It... Is a worthy enemy... Very crafty and skilled in the art of BEING INVISIBLE and escaping the clutches of death. A death which I WILLLL administer! GAHAHA.

In other news... There is no other news. XD -spamspamspam- Oh, except like. I should advertise the club I just joined, eh?



]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19661376/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19661376/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:55:01 PDT
Anywayyy. WHO ELSE FELT IT? X3

PS: I'm actually working on artz. YEY. My trade with Ragthorn is finally FINALLY linearted
(-did the lineart last night lolol-), and uh. I have just about a billion WIPs sitting around. Haaalp. -kills summer assignments-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19522829/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19522829/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 17:09:53 PDT Huaha. I got tagged by . I never get tagged, lolz. -excitement-

1. Post these rules

2. People Tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals

3. Tag 6 people and post their icons on the same journal

4. Go to their pages and send a message that says you tagged the

5. No Tag-backs!

x o x o

1) My middle name is Grace.

2) Even though I live on the beach, I haven't swam in the ocean in years. I don't really like getting wet.

3) I've been known to be freakishly persuasive, able to make you do something that under like any other circumstances, you would never do... XD (Like piss on your bed instead of just going to your restroom down the hall.)

4) My lips chap really, really easily. So I chew them and peel the skin off. They bleed sometimes and cause me ouchies.

5) I want to be a journalist for the National Geographic magazine, traveling all over the world and learning learning learning.

6) My most ticklish spot is my neck. If I'm tickled there, I'm reduced to helpless giggles. Likewise, if you put your hand on the back of my neck or something, my first impulse is to punch your lights out. Haha.

7) I correct people a lot. It's probably my worst habit.

8) I'm a softie, really. I hate killing things, even those damn mosquitoes. (In fact, the other night when I was refilling my doggies' water bowl, I accidentally poored the water out on a big moth that was in the sink! Who expects moths to be in sinks, anyway? So I took a napkin, soaked up the water around it, scooped it up with an envelope, and set it to dry on the counter. Then it was all flapping around and it landed on its back, sticking its wings to the counter, so I had to flip it over again... XD I went back the next day and it wasn't there, so hopefully it liiived!)

Mmm. I don't have many friends or anything on dA, since I never talk to anybody. -shifty eyes- I'll tag~...


None of them will get to it, but that's okay! XD

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19491244/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19491244/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 22:24:54 PDT Am I the only one left wondering what did happen to Zuko's mother? Other than the obvious "she's dead", of course, the actual words would've been nice.

AND OMG. ZUKO AND AANG HUGGED. YESSS. ZukoxAang ftw. Screw all of the kissing that might hint to certain other pairings.

And uh. What about Azula? Is she just like... Drooling somewhere in a psyche ward? Loose ends are so irritating, especially when they're not that hard for the staff to tie up.

BUUUT, other than the loose ends, a sliiightly weak climax (what with Aang's spirit just being strong enough to overcome evil without much of an on-screen fight), and a few really stupid things (lol talking lion turtle... COULD YOU UNDERSTAND HIM?), it was a pretty good finale. Yay for cool fighting!

Yeah, I know. But I just had to make a whole journal about it.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19466688/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19466688/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 14:33:28 PDT
Just got back from the movie. I keep having to take deep breaths, and the only music I can stand right now is the really calming kind. x__x

If there is one word to describe The Dark Knight, it's "INTENSE". All caps are totally necessary, too.

It was violent, dark, and loud. I felt emotionally drained before I even got out of the theater. I'll tell you what the movie did for me, it really got my adrenaline going.

And let's get this straight. I'm a fan of Batman. I loved Batman Begins. But The Dark Knight wasn't really my thing. It's a must-see for sure, but I spent more time hugging my knees and slapping my hand to my mouth than actually enjoying the film. Which is such a shame. D: I ENJOYED Batman Begins way more; it entertained me. DK just... made me want to go home and cling to a pillow or something. Call me a softie, but damn. (I'm not very good at explaining how I felt about it. XD)

That's not to say I was disappointed. But I'm gonna throw the word "enjoy" at you again.

Intense, intense, intense. -takes another cleansing breath-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19332799/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/19332799/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 11:33:33 PDT
HAVE YOU GOTTEN YOUR AP SCORES, FELLOW STUDENTS? c: In an amazing miracle bestowed upon me, I got a three! OMG! I'm not only no longer an AP test virgin, but I passed with a pretty good score (for you younger kids, it's out of five). JOY. HAPPINESS. SHOCK. I swore when I came out of that testing room, I was gonna get a one, two at best. There are two possible explanations: The rest of the country did just as terrible, and/or I actually got a 9 on my DBQ. I wish they gave you those scores too! Dunno why they don't. D:

Anyway, I'm gonna need $5000 worth of dental work! Yay! ;n; Not particularly happy about that one, but I've switched over to a new dentist since we've changed insurance companies, and they are amazing. Not only do they compliment me and make me feel special (my mom knows one of the employees from her BNI meetings, which is basically where people get together to make new business), but it's a really nice place and they give you those movie goggles to watch while they work on you~. :'3 Apparently they really wouldn't mind if I worked there, but it's way too far away from my house. D: SOBSOBWEEP. Mom said it might just be a sign that I'm not meant to work yet, and to focus on school and such. I don't mind agreeing to that. XD

I've started watching Zetsubou Sensei again, and I'm glad, because it's fucking hilarious. ILU SENSEIII. The cast is just so amazing. Ehehehe.

That aside, I don't think I'm in an art rut any more. YEYZ. I'm feeling tremendously guilty for taking so damn long on Ragthorn's trade, though, it's a real bummer. I have to pull myself together and start linearting it! And to add to the horrible guilt, I have a list of adoptables I also need to do. God I feel so bad. XD

HUMMM. I wanna end this journal on a happy note~. Oh! I know. A few days ago, I found my gameboy color in my closet and Pokemon Gold was in it. So I've been playing that 'cause I mean, NOSTALGIALOL. My trainer's name is Leopold and he and his team is adorable. Of course I chose the fire pokemon, Cintaquil is it? Whatever, it evolved to second stage a while ago. Its name is Sen. :'D Andand, my favorite is my rattatat or whatever, and her name is Belly. SHE IS SO CUTE. (I've never liked them before, but now I just think they're adorable. She will never evolve, though, 'cause then she'd be ugly. OMGSHE'SSOCUTETHOUGH.)

Anyway, Leopold is a cute wittle feminist. XD Most of the pokemon he's caught are females, HELLZYEAH. (Done on purpose, of course. Hehe.) And OF COURSE I pair him with his rival. I'm gonna have to draw them/Leo's team some time. After I finish everything else... Aha!

This journal is way too long and TMI, I know you guys aren't interested in this crap and probably won't read any of it. But hey, I'm allowed to make an actual journal once in a blue moon! X3 Looooove.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18900324/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18900324/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:08:49 PDT
So I was wondering if anybody would be interested in an art trade or a collaboration? Or something? XD

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18854615/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18854615/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 12:31:31 PDT What the hell? D: I'm trying to change my avatar but it's not working.

Edit : Yay, it's showing up now. X3 Psh, like a million hours later.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18693753/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18693753/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 08:53:38 PDT I start archery this Saturday. Yahoo! (Technically, it's just a safety class and I'll be starting the actual stuff next Saturday, but still. I'm psyched.)
I'm also starting my studies for the driving test. Permit. Thing. Must buy the 2008 book. (Dear God. XD) What else?

Oh yes! Something that actually pertains to dA. Summer = time = artz. I've been working on an OC meme for around two weeks (three if you count the week I didn't touch it), so I'll be posting that "soon". And I'd like to draw some fanart of Tweek and Kenny from SP because they're my favorite characters, so that might be my next project.

PS: So who else passed the CAHSEE with flying colors? (Sure, my awesome scores made me feel smart and happy, but then I thought about it for a second and realized that even kids who can't speak English manage to pass it.)

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18422447/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/18422447/ Tue, 20 May 2008 20:33:37 PDT If you're going to offer, follow up. Sheesh. Too busy? Now uninterested? Don't leave me hanging, that's lousy. Tell me what's up so I can focus on finding peeps who do wanna play.

On another note, I'm sooo tired right now. School is out soon. I'll be able to get some rest, finally. Ahhhh...

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17933700/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17933700/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 20:01:40 PDT I'm desparate to role-play! Ehnue needs a seme, but whatever is fine because I just need to play him. Note me? Neomail me? Please? ;o;

Lol, I'll probably keep this journal up forever while waiting pathetically for offers.

Oh, and happy Passover! :'D I'mnotreligiousbutheyit'sheritage.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17612898/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17612898/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 19:31:40 PDT
No more coloring with a mousepad, no more using scanned sketches for my lineart. I'll learn how to use this baby and pump out some artz I can be proud of. My laziness will be cut in half, because even though I'll have to lineart digitally over my scanned crap, it won't be such a hassle. I'M EXCITED. Yay for pressure and tilt sensitivity! ;u;

Spring Break is next week for me. I have a few sketches I want to scan in and complete. I can't wait~.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17514222/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17514222/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 17:49:50 PDT
-turned sixteen today-

UNF. -...hip thrusts-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17410575/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17410575/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 13:18:38 PDT
My Gintama-deprived brain has caved in~ to the pressures of trillions of Reborn memes. OHGOD. Over the course of five days I've read the whole manga and. Gone. Crazy?! Yesss. DinoHiba and YamaGoku and ugh, who does Tsuna belong to? Iunno. -squishes Hibari-

The Reborn binge has inspired.. something.. deep inside me. I swear artz must be coming soon! >A< Lol. Soon, as if. -hit with a brick and thrown into river- ...No, rly. ;o; If onlyyyy I didn't have to catch up on a zillion bajillion things for school nao! -been absent three days in a row!?-

Omnomnomnom.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17147484/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17147484/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:06:52 PST I... I'm so shocked and emotional right now! I didn't know that it was going to be the last chapter. Konomi-sensei~! -sob- I wasn't ready for it to end! Lol.

small spoilers---> But uhm. Kaido-buchou? XDD Waaaaah. Ryoma, how are you going to be Seigaku's pillar in Amerika? (ahahahaaaaa) Poo.

;n;

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17000271/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/17000271/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 20:43:00 PST
Grr, and I had to eat chicken noodle soup. Gross~. I even found a bone. I ate it all though (minus bone). Crazy. I never get sick. I was just getting over that cough cold thing I've had for three weeks, too. Where's the justice?!?!?! D<

Okay. Enough of that. Second mini!rant time.

Seme/uke. Okay, people. Seme is the masculine, and uke is the feminine. Clearly.
-heavy breathing- BUT I'M SICK OF THE BULLSHIT INTERPRETATION/S OF IT. It isn't unheard of for a woman to be aggressive, okay? We push men against walls and snog them all the time. I heart aggressive ukes. There aren't enough of them. (And too many canon characters are portrayed weepy. Most of them are the aggressive type, damn you~.)

Alrighty. Third mini!rant timez.

D. Gray-man. Linalee. RRGH. -strangles a puppy- I hate her character so much~. HER FIERY INNER WOMAN IS BEING OPPRESSED! Oppressed, I say! Go learn something from Sakura-chan or something, you useless crone. -shakes fist- You're all for fanservice. >>

-sneezes- Aw, ewwww! -wipes a bunch of snot off of her arm- Damn yooooouuuu~!
-throws used tissues at the sky-

-sniff- Fourth mini!rant.

LOL JKZZZZZ. I'll spare you the Naruto rant. (What's there to rant about? Nothing is happening lol~.) I know, I'm really worked up right now. But that's just because I've been in bed all day.

I have a pile of WIPs on my desk, and I keep cranking out stuff (mostly due for sketch dumpville, but still). I'll try to finish at least one piece over the weekend, but wouldn't hold my breath.

Uuuuuurrrrrgh, ewwww, Musinex! -blergh- Why does it have to start dissolving immediately in your mouth? Ya can't freaking swallow this pill fast enough, I swear.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16711281/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16711281/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 17:14:47 PST And so fucking cute~~. -shameless fangirling- "I SAID SHUT UP, CARTMAN, YOU BLOOD-BELCHING VAGINA!" Kenny is my favorite.

Working on teh artz stuff, I swear. Expect a huge mofo dump in the future. AHAHARHAR.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16542188/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16542188/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 18:58:26 PST Sorry, OCHSA. I'm staying.
You need me, anyway, OCHSA, dear.
Oh God. AHAHA. -slaps knee- Whoooo. -wipes away a laughter tear-


I've been writing way too many journals lately.
They're very addicting.


URRGH. ONE MORE WEEK UNTIL NEW HOUSE EPISODE.

And Batman the Dark Knight should be coming out this summer. Oh, Heath. Poor bastard. I hope he was good Joker.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16498915/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16498915/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 00:31:56 PST
-writhes around on the floor- Cross your fingures, folksesss. PROBABILITY OF GETTING KICKED OUT OF OCHSA: 99.7%~~~!

SIGH. Life comes at ya fast. Ermmmm. Uhh. AHAHAHAHA. Zzzzzzzzz.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16399198/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16399198/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 07:51:24 PST I gave myself a black eye last night!

I didn't notice it until this morning when I looked at myself in the mirror, to take a look at it, because it was all sore and hurtin' and stuff and BAM! My lower eyelid is all swollen and red! Ahahaha! I'm not an airhead, I swear. D:

Well, okay, so this is what happened. Last night I had a huge burst of energy and optomism (thus my last journal) and my eye itched. So I reach up to scratch it, and being so energized, I practically mauled myself! I should really cut my nails. ...And not maul myself. :c

I hope you weren't expecting an emo journal with this title. Hahaha! Oh man. (At least you can't tell since I have makeup on. Cover-up = God!)

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16394192/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16394192/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 19:56:34 PST
No uploads for a while, then. School demands my attention! If I do not get higher than a 2.0, I'm going to get kicked out! Ahahahahaha! -frolics gayly among flowers-

But everything will be okay! -scary amount of optimism- I won't give up~~!

La la la~
I will never be afraid again
I will keep on fighting till the end
I can walk on water I can fly
I will keep on fighting till I die!

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16307893/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16307893/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 20:40:21 PST It's so bare and ugly, lol. (I hate it so much. )


Maybe I should've done that 10 sketches thing when I had the chance. -facepalm-
Help? Advice? Uh...?




Edit :
I'm diving into the 100 Themes Challenge! And is joining me. We plan on completing one theme per weekend. You should join the fun too! Lol.


1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16291057/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16291057/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:52:38 PST Oh God...

D:



(Winter break ends here. Cue panic!)





Edit @ 4:48 am
(now listening to Cue the Sun by Daphne Loves Derby)

...
What's wrong with me?

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16263785/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16263785/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 00:14:49 PST I've got this feeling... Comforting and bittersweet. Like the happy memories of a loved one that's passed. I sort of feel like someone should be reclining next to me, sharing the moment. But it doesn't quite feel like I'm alone, either.
Ahh. Such a lulling feeling. Just had to share it.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16189438/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16189438/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 16:56:33 PST I sent a form to get it unfrozen, but we all know the chances of retrieving an account.

It wasn't even my fault. :C
This suckss.
My pets were painted and all that jazz.
And I was in the process of making new petpages.

Uhm. Life comes at ya fast.
HARHARHAR. -starts weeping- D: D: D:

Ah well. I guess I'll just be making my lupes non-lupes and actual characters.
Could this have been a good thing? ;n;
Waaah. It still sucks.
Despite the fact that I hardly go there anymore.
And that I really don't use that account or do anything with my pets.
I was planning on it...

Pfft. So much for new petpages and making a load of adoptables for everybody.

WELL. Yeah.
I feel weird.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16157594/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16157594/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 19:50:18 PST The Girl Who Leapt Through Time.
I can't express in words my love for this movie.
Please watch it. You won't regret it. c:

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PS: lol @ Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei. <3

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16022942/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/16022942/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 02:04:53 PST Art matters.

(Paradoxically, is art still art with no one around
to appreciate it? Hahaha. Sounds so artistic.)

Let's express ourselves and the world around us. Have some happy holidays! c:

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/15770215/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/15770215/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 19:12:25 PST
Go watch it.

Now. <3 <3



( On other note, will upload lots of stuff soon. )
( PS. Not Mononoke Hime, douche. :'D )

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/14371332/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/14371332/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 20:18:48 PDT
Ugh. I'm tired and burnt out and irritated for the first time in months. Screw choosing my moods and being optimistic and happy. I wanna go to bed and it's only eight seventeen. :c Not cool, man.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/14180682/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/14180682/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 13:16:42 PDT
If you ever read a journal, read this one.
(Think you can trust your eyes? Think again.)


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BEAUTY BEAUTY BEAUTY BEAUTY


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Well, there ya have it. XD Nothing to be depressed about, but it is quite concerning. Those were eye-openers for me, and I don't really know what I just witnessed by watching them.

Whatever it is, they should teach it in school. ;D (Can you tell I don't really have anything to say? Haha.)

It'd be nice if more people saw this. Put up your own journal and discuss it? That'd be badass.

UHM. -runs around in circles-
Yup.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13201785/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13201785/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 06:44:49 PDT I'mma DRAWW. Buy OC4 so I can get mo' bettuh.
'Cause, you know, it sucks to feel like you suckk.
Aaaand go to Mexico.
Swim with dolphins and climb pyramids.
With my bad knees.
But I got X-rays and the orthopedic is going to look at them on Monday. Yayy.
What else am I going to do..?
OHOH.
And kill people for money. <3
"What do you wanna be when you grow up?"
"A HITMAN LAWLZ"
But no, srsly.
I'll meditate, too. Sharpen my mind. -taps head- So I do better in shkool as a shophmore.

HoGod, better do my homework.
PS: Bumping back old journals iz FUNN ORZ
PSSS: What the hell is orz?
PSSSSS: Like rly. D: -bumps-


Edit: HAHAHA. Failed French. Let's see what else I fail. -sniffs-
And my laptop broke.
Which means NO ART.
Until it gets fixed, or I get a new one, or one of my parents lets me download free trials on their work lappies.
'Cause God hates mee, lawlz.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13130659/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13130659/ Mon, 28 May 2007 20:26:05 PDT
I'm such a FAAAAAAIIIIIILLLLLUUUUUUURRRRREEEEE. Failure. FAILURE.

I just want to B A S H that fact into my goddamned teachers' brains! Smash 'em good AUGH.

I'm such a fuckin' academic retard. I AM NOT A STUDENT. Not a student, people.

My priorities are so skewed you wouldn't even recognize 'em if I threw them up on a piece of paper for ya. You know?

You can't even call my problem procrastination. Because procrastinating is waiting until the very last minute to do something, but at least you DO it.

Me?
Nuh-uh.

I don't even DO it. What I do is I procrastinate, and then at the very last minute I THINK of doing it. And then don't, because I suddenly become very jaded and cynical and appathetic toward such things.

See?

F A I L U R E. Failure.

What the hell does the goddamned system do with useless kids like me? Hm? Usually kids like me get hooked on drugs or something, or get pregant or God knows what else. But what about /me?/ 'Cause, honestly, that shit won't be happenin' to me. Not after my stupid moron brother. (Who -- HELLO? -- is in jail. -thumbs up!-)

So what? I really don't know.

OH! OOOOOOOHHHHHHHH!!
I KNOW!!!

I should ask my school counselor. I can see it now:

Me: "SO WHAT DOES THE SYSTEM DO ABOUT KIDS LIKE ME???"
Her: "LYK LOLZ I DUNNOOO JUST DO YER HW AND YOU'LL BE FIIIINNE"

Uh-huh. 'Cause, y'know, I'm smart an' all. I'm street smart and I've got loads of common sense and YEAH, I got wisdom too. But a kid like me? Not made out for school.

-anxiety-
I have a headache. Haha. Fuckk.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13106477/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/13106477/ Sat, 26 May 2007 21:44:21 PDT Or did I say we would role-play together and it never happened?

I'm looking for those people.. and the people I never replied to. =/
Because school is ending soon and I'll have more TIME.

More importantly, I might have a better ATTENTION SPAN.
So yeah.
Please~, try again with me.
Send me a note or something?


< 3 Ariana

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/12625335/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/12625335/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 21:11:32 PDT
And when I come back, I'll probably get a new account. And I'll be a better artist.

I hope.

D:

Anyway. Byyyee.

(Star Testing can go to hell.)

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11790040/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11790040/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 18:32:54 PST
-bounces- I mean, wow! Thanks for all of the watches and favorites and comments! I know I don't reply, which is why I'm writing this journal in the first place. xD UHM. So yeah. Thanks soososooo much!

Like, really. I'm super appreciative. -ego inflates!-

SO. Since Iunno what else to put here, I'll put the lyrics of Teenagers, 'cause. It's such a fuckin' nice song. < 3


They’re gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They’re gonna give you a smirk
‘Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They’re gonna rip off your heads
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare
The living shit out of me
They could care less
As long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in a clique
The awful names that they stick
You’re never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you’re troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare
The living shit out of me
They could care less
As long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

Oh yeah

They said all teenagers scare
The living shit out of me
They could care less
As long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me

All together now

Teenagers scare
The living shit out of me
They could care less
As long as someone’ll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me x2

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11603592/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11603592/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 18:53:02 PST
Then my mom holds up my report card and I'm like, "Oooohhh~ crap."

And they were all, "Look at it," and I was all, "I don't wanna look at it! -closes eyes as it's held in front of face-"

Then my mom threatened to unplug my laptop and I was like, "Damn, she's got me," so I opened my eyes.

And you know what? I didn't fail a single class.

THEY DO THIS LIKE EVERY SEMESTER. -twitch- I should totally know by now. They love freaking me out. Sheesh, who would've thought my parents were sadists? xD

Anyway. I thought D's were failing grades because of what some kids told me, (heh, almost fifteen and still doesn't know how the system works?), and I thought for sure I'd fail French 'cause of assignments never turned in and totally bombing the final. But I got a C-!

And A D- in Biology. -huge grin- Oh, and a B- in Screenwriting. I don't even know if my teacher got my first act's second sequence. -scratches head-

Well~, anyway. This semester is gonna be crazy, I can tell. -crosses fingers- Hopefully I won't get overwhelmed.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11601232/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11601232/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 15:17:57 PST

x x x


I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. I'm sorry, I'm so genuinely sorry, that I couldn't keep us together. That we fell apart. I know how much Mackenzie's death hurt you. But it hurt me too, you know? That fucking car crash, (that fucking, fucking car crash!), took you both away.

Was it my fault, somehow? Like, had it been possible for me to heal you? But I was only in fourth grade and you were only in fifth grade. Maybe it was the age gap that really did us in?

I have this one, really vivid memory... And I don't think it'll ever vanish. It was just a normal day at summer camp. But then you started crying. So I took you beneath the shade of that big tree and we sat down at its roots and I asked what was wrong.

You told me that I reminded you of her.

I don't remember what my response was. I might've said I was sorry. I might've reminded you that Mackenzie and I are/were really not much alike.

I wonder if you're having the same problem I'm having: Can't get close to anyone. Not even your own goddamn family. Not even your friend that tells you you're one of the two best friends she's ever had.

I feel like you abandoned me.
But I guess you know the feeling.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11464360/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11464360/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 18:36:25 PST
School sucks. I think I failed my French final, (I didn't even finish!), and tomorrow I have my Biology final and a math test. Heard the Biology final was easy~ though, so that's good.

I think I'm going to fail Biology this semester, and probably French and maybe even Screenwriting. Can you say ♥ academic probation? ♥ ;^;

Which, by the way, is why I don't have any time this week to do, well, anything. So, sorry about not replying to stuff and all that -- I'll get to it all! (The pressure~...)

Urgh. -depression- BUT! There are two positives I see. xD

1) I'm going to Disneyland on Friday. ♥ Shelby~. ♥
2) We start over with our grades second semester. Clean slate. ..Right? -dramatic pause- RIGHT?!

-implodes-

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11293993/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11293993/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 20:40:50 PST
The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1. I don't like going to the bathroom in public places and I feel very uncomfortable bathing in a bathroom that isn't mine. (It's a territorial thing.)

2. I eat sandwiches in a very particular way -- taking one bite from each corner, then the two bites in the middle, thus eating in a perfectly straight line.

3. I clean my ears constantly because I hate earwax. (All because of this one time... A friend of a friend had this disgusting piece of orange earwax the size of a pea and I could see it and I got totally grossed out. I WAS TRAUMATIZED BY EARWAX.)

4. I lose an impossible amount of eyelashes each week, but somehow manage to always maintain the thick-dark-long eyelash look. Thank you, Shelby, for always telling me when I have an eyelash on my cheek. >__>

5. I detach from people and always have a mask on. I subconsciously don't get close to others and never let them in my head.

6. I'm blunt and often perceived as mean, but rub me the right way and you'll be one of the few that know how optomistic and squishy I am on the inside~.

People WHO HAVE BEEN TAGGED:

None. I'm too shy to tag people.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11214333/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/11214333/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 17:50:52 PST
I have a bad feeling that I won't be drawing for a while. I hope I'm wrong.

Other than that, I have a ton of homework. I've been procrastinating again. Fuckk.

And I wish I had more pageviews. I should probably comment/favorite/watch more people. -scratches head-

I want to do quizzes for my journal, but... That just sounds kind of stupid for me. Maybe I'll do quizzes just for the sake of updating my journal.

I'm wondering right now if my art is really any good. And it's bugging me. ALKDJGKLAZZ. I just keep comparing it to other people's art and I just feel my security level drop a few notches. xD It sucks, man.

]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9357906/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9357906/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 19:29:03 PDT
GOOD GOD, I can't even think of anything witty to say. -crushes chirping crickets under her heel- Death to you! -aaaaangst-

I feel so bad for not replying to all of my role-plays.

I've been feeling really bitchy lately, too. Jaded, I suppose? Dammit. DAMMIT.

Before I offend anyone by letting loose a string of 'colorful' language, I shall stop myself here. Might as well not dig the grave deeper, you know?

Must... Force myself... To upload visual art. -melts- I shouldn't feel stressed out in the summer. STRESS. (Oh, God, that reminds me of the summer assignment that we have to do if we want into Advanced Lit. & Comp. -bites tongue and twitches-) ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9319337/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9319337/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 08:53:34 PDT
Because it got mutilated by some kind of ** pure evil ** insect. Flea? Mosquito? Probably the latter. It bit me three times on my left foot.

I want to kill it.

...

Come out, come out, wherever you are, Mister Mosquito.

AND LYKE DIE PLZ. Kthnx.

-glowers-

Yeah. One day, I'll wake up and not be a lazyass procrastinator. Haaa.

...>__> Okay. I'll get something up soon. Anything to uuuploooaaaadd.

Nyah. More pageviews. Views. Nyahnyahnyah. ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9305342/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9305342/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 10:16:32 PDT
But, DAMN. Of course there was this jackass sitting RIGHT BEHIND us as ALWAYS. (Every movie we see, this happens.) He was narrating the whole freaking movie. It was rediculous. "Oh, this is a comedy more than anything." And "They must be dizzy!" Etcetera. GOOD GOD. Ahem.

But other than that, it was fabulous. I loved the new characters. Loved. So go see it if you haven't already. And if you have, well. It's always fun to see the Pirate movies more than once. You catch something different every time.

** There are spoilers in the comments. ** ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9302271/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9302271/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 13:12:56 PDT
Scraps... Yus. Four in one day. I have four drawings rotting on my table and I'm not sure if they'll be going into scraps or not. Probably scraps. -tear- Ah well.

That Sage doodle was good coloring/shading practice. Why do I feel like I'm getting better already?

So, I'm going to see the new Pirates movie at two-thirty. Hellyes. I should probably go get ready about now.

This may be a tid-bit random, but... If you know somebody that likes the OC, (the show), go like... Shoot them or something. THEN ask them why they like it. (: I should probably rant about my dislike for that show. And that Laguna Beach bull. Hmm-hmm-hmmm... I think I will. Oh, what fun.

Ah. I'll get all hyper once I see the movie. THEN IT'S ON, BITCHES. -blank stare- I don't know. Leave me alone. >__> ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9282420/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9282420/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 20:06:28 PDT

Well. My internet was kind of going on and off for the past few days since my brother was messing with it, then we got this new thing that replaced an old thing... Which means we can get wireless internet throughout the -whole- house instead of just a few rooms. (For example, I couldn't get internet in my room. Not that this makes any freaking difference, though, since I LIKE being in the living room. Heh.) Anyway.

I'm really trying to get the hang of using PSPX as an art program and not just a graphics program. Which is hard. But reminds me... I guess I always forget to give credit to swimchick.net for the brushes I use on my banners and such. Would it be absolutely horrific if I didn't go back and edit the descriptions of my poetry, giving her credit? I'm giving it here, after all... Damn am I lazy. -shamed-

Let's see here. I still have all of that lineart to scan in and color. Haha. Damn. -collapses-



Edit: Ugh... Double-posting hurts my pride. Especially when it's on the front page of a fantastic piece of art. -attempts turning invisible- x__x; Either DA was being screwy, or it was my computer. First one didn't go through so I retyped it and BURN. -crawls away in shame- ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9192984/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9192984/ Mon, 26 Jun 2006 19:19:30 PDT
Three of the images are for all of my lupes' new pages that I want to work on. -coughhack- I think coloring them will be fun. Though, I'll have a very difficult time figuring out how to lock the fucking lineart and such.

That's it for now. Just thought I'd get that off my chest. I'm considering, once I upload them that is, putting the WIPs in scraps. But that'll spoil the surprise of 'em. xP ]]> ~Kidege http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9032959/ http://Kidege.deviantart.com/journal/9032959/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 00:47:31 PDT
Three deviations in less than two hours? That's an accomlishment for me. Oh, plus the avatar. Making things transparent is pretty infuriationg. I promised myself that this summer I would get a DevArt account - check. That I would at least attempt to fill it up with art. That I would join an oekaki. (Hintage.)

Which brings me to the cold hard truth that: I need an oekaki to join! -tears out hair- Dx And I don't know where to find one that would have me. I'm basically completely new to oekaki-goodness, though two years ago I did manage to join an oekaki and make a few pieces of crap-art on it. (I was horrid back then. I try to block those memories out of my mind. Boo.) But! I'm getting pretty handy at MS Paint. Does that make me more worthy? -nudge-

Anyhow... Give me comments and watches even if it's out of pity. ; ; -self-esteem issues- Bugger. GIVE ME LOVE. -worships- ]]> ~Kidege