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ふあ～　数学はかっこい何時（いつ）に理解（りかい）する。理解しません時、大嫌い。

ライフわね～

--リュちゃん

[うん、キスすると言うではない　ざんえん＜３]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/17307905/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/17307905/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 20:07:42 PDT
Uh...so what do I say?

...

Let's post the color quiz thingy from Mehlz journal that I took.

Your Existing Situation: Persistent. Demands what she feels to be her due and endeavors to maintain her position intact.

Your Stress Sources: Suppresses her innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that she might be carried away by it only to find herself pursuing some will-o'-the-wisp. Feels she has been misled and abused and has withdrawn to hold herself cautiously aloof from others. Keeps a careful and critical watch to see whether motives towards her are sincere--a watchfulness which easily develops into suspicion and distrust.

Your Restrained Characteristics: Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.

(Excuse me? Sexual activity??)

Your Desired Objective: Seeks affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Desires an intimate union, in which there is a love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust.

Your Actual Problem: Needs to protect herself against her tendency to be too trusting, as she finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. Is therefore seeking a relationship providing peaceful and understanding intimacy, and in which each knows exactly where the other stands.

Your Actual Problem #2: Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting her from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

This will come in handy later.


Jung Test Results (Pronounced YOUNG--He's Swiss.)

Introverted (I) 73.33% Extroverted (E) 26.67%
Intuitive (N) 62.86% Sensing (S) 37.14%
Feeling (F) 81.48% Thinking (T) 18.52%
Perceiving (P) 65.52% Judging (J) 34.48%

Your type is: INFP

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.


Enneagram Test Results

The Enneagram is a personality system which divides the entire human personality into nine behavioral tendencies, this is your score on each...

Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 43%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||| 43%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||| 16%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||| 53%



type score type behavior motivation
6 26 I must be secure and safe to be happy.
5 22 I must be knowledgable and independent to be happy.
2 20 I must be helpful and caring to be happy.
4 19 I must avoid painful feelings to be happy.
9 16 I must be peaceful and easy to get along with to be happy.


You scored as Type 6
Sixes are overly alert and anxious. They are skeptical of the status quo but are also fearful of being on their own. They satisfy their need for security and belonging by establishing strong frienships and/or loyally backing a cause.

Your variant is self pres
Overall, you score highest on withdrawn traits (sp), followed by compliant traits (so), and lowest on assertive traits (sx)

Ooh, more is revealed of Tar.

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid |||||||||||| 46% 49%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||||| 74% 53%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||||| 86% 53%
Antisocial |||||||||| 38% 47%
Borderline |||||||||||||| 58% 47%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 54% 43%
Narcissistic |||||| 30% 41%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 66% 39%
Dependent |||||||||||||| 54% 37%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 50% 40%

*first percentages are your score
*second percentages are the average web score

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationshi... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/15595995/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/15595995/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 19:44:27 PST
Anywai, today held:

二つのテストだ--生物学と歴史のノートチェック。（やくにたたないはよ）

またジャフを寂しがります～　ただ明日、メールを書きますね？

ピーーーーーチパイ！ピピリピピピーー！（ぴチパイアンザビチ　＾。＾）

じゃ、十時半ごろですよ。

お休み、地球！


--蛍とターちゃんとスクウォールと好きななまえ

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/14801693/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/14801693/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 14:50:17 PDT
Schedule:

6:30 - Arise. (Arise, Chicken. Arise! [ATHF joke. If you don't get it...watch the Video Ouiji episode in all of its glory and gay-jokes.])

~7:00 - Board bus.

~7:20 - French (J'ai ne remarque pas.)

[Time lapse since I dun feel like talking about other periods. E.g. *skips 2 & 3*]

Then there's hyper lunch during 4th. You know how that is, being amongst a lot of teenagers, neh? Sexually-frustrated girls talking about guys writing stories of lesbianism and uh...whatnot. *SHOUTOUT TO KATYDID AND MEHLZ! LOVE YOUUU. <333*

Anyway...5th is happy, since it's Biology, but our teacher can be a tad crazy, but in a really happy-nerdy way. That's okay, just...I think he doesn't like me. P= Which is sadness. =[

By this point in the day, I have had a bad headache. Just...keep that in mind.

6th is English, which is happy enough, I guess. From here on out, the year will have its ups and downs. (Starting with a down, still considering his comment of, "A Tale of Two Cities is probably the hardest book you've ever read up to this point." I'm still mad about that. There's Setkins and I reading Don Juan, Anna Karenina, F. Scott Fitzgerald, E. B. Browning, and FREAKING ALIGHIERI. AAAAAAH!!

So...yeah. I have no further comments there.

7th period sucks really badly--it's history. You know, it wouldn't be half-bad except for the fact that the woman, having two to three-year-olds at home, treats us just as she would them. I'm half-dozing off through the second half of the class, and it's really disheartening.

8th is orchestra which is awesome so blah. Except for my section at times. They kind of...don't play out.

9th is P.E./Study Hall/Health. Yeah, no comment there, except for the fact that P.E.'s curriculum this year sucks. E.g. No thank you, bathing suit, no thank you, towel, no thank you, swimming pool, no thank you, inventor of freestyle swimming. Thanks to the inventor of the boogie board, though. You are happiness.

Band practice. P:

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/14649748/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/14649748/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 19:46:28 PDT
But I writezez mails of e to ~Jyafu~ so all is sexy and happiness lies thar. Heeeneeheee!

- - - -

Um... >.>

So, I'm done with that. I can't type like that. *twitch*

Not a lot is new. I'm trying to plan this awesome fiction story that keeps floating and swirling about within my mind, but it's very difficult to put into words and to fill in huge plot holes. >_<

Um...in other news, life goes on. Cross your fingers that my Biology test is either an A or high B. ;_; And that I do well on my math test on Monday!!

>_____<; HATEZEZ TESTS.


--Realmeh.

PS: I DRAW SIMA, RYO, KAHARU AND OTHER BRUTHAS/CHARACTERS/LUVARZZ FOR TEH STORY NOW KTHXBAI. <333 ;O

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13796159/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13796159/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 14:14:53 PDT
So! That is my main topic in this journal entry. I am going to Otakon, yet again. We're making the trip out to my friend's brother's apartment tonight, so we can wake up nice and early for our first day. P:

I finalized my costume last night. I put on a peasant blouse first, before the costume, and realized what a neat, semi-aristocratic feel it had to it. (Wahaha.)

I have to put up pictures of that. >.> I'll probably do a photo session of me in that costume at some point this summer. It is one sexy costume.

You may be able to find the design of it on the internet somewhere. Wait, lemme see if I can find it. If not, I can just put a link up of it on here. XD It's a design by Mana's clothing line, Moi Meme Moitie or something.

The official site of that is harrr:
:arrowr: [link]

And my costume (sans the black pants, kickass shoes and peasant top underneath...basically looks like...)
:arrowr: [link]

So, that is my time. To Otakon, my luverlies!

--xRealmeh.

PS: Final Budget for Otakon = [(25 x 3) + (10 x 20)] - 5 + 20.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13485284/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13485284/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 12:34:11 PDT
Things have really been turning up, and it's wonderful. It must just be SADS. (Hahahaaha--no.)

But, in other news...I haven't been as busy lately. I haven't been choked by society.

And I've been reeaaadding. The last time I was able to sit down and read a 550-something page book...I can't even recall when that was. Then, I started Memoirs of a Geisha and Dante's Inferno. Heh. Wonderful reads so far. MOAG will probably make me cry. I almost started crying after reading the first chapter. I mean...gaaah.

Okay, calm. Calm. Calm. Calm.

I am optimistic about reading a Tale of Two Cities, though I'm getting mixed reviews of it. After all, I have to summarize this one, whereas I don't have to summarize the others that I've read. Neh heh.

Err...ah! I also wanted to try to get my website back up and running. I never exactly finished the new layout. I just looked at it today and it's like: *sits there* "YOU FORGOT ALL ABOUT ME YOU S.O.B.!"

Me: ...sorrryyyy. XD

And if anyone remembers the link to my forum, Mehlz, you probably do, can you tell it to me? I can't remember it. XDXD I was going to give that to Jackie for the anime club's benefit next year. (I shall be the anime club's techie?)



*shrug* What else?

It's 3:10...I have a whole week to basically slack off. I just have to do a few things:

さいごの日本語のクラス. （火曜日）
Work on cosplay for Otakon.
Haircut.（水曜日）
Maybe start job?! *sobs*
Due to job, ヴァイオリンをえんそうします. ;_;
読みます~
Await the weekend, muchly. o_o
Brush up on my Def Leppard, REO, & Styx for the concert. <3
Work on website.
Continue writing. (I have inspiration, now. P
Catch up on ブリチとナルト. (たっぶん, ね...)

Hokai. That is all for now.

Ah, and I shall start to get invites out in the mail~!


--xRyu/Squally/Realmeh.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13360419/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/13360419/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 19:17:44 PDT
...I'm baaack.

(>.> Err...all I have to say is that I'm never going off of caffiene for a day ever again. Dear Lord...)

Um...I am going to begin drawing and CG-ing more stuff so long as I can keep up with my ホムワークの日本語のクラス。

またくね。

So...maybe I'll have more poems up. I haven't decided. I've not been putting up poems only because...I don't know. *shrug*

Ah, well. I've become more sharpie-skilled as of late, anywho. I just sketched this one uber-cute goth cosplay the other day. Heh.

And um...I'm not so upset as I once was.

Actually it was pretty bad a few hours ago. But that was because I tried to quit Pepsi. Pshhh...

[Ignore everthing from this point forward.]

You cannot quit the Pepsi. She is what fuels you! And keeps the imbalance of serotonin and norapinephrine flowing in your brain! Hahahaha!!

I laugh in the face of ye antidepressants. I have no need for you, Prozac. *holds glass high*

かんぱい！


--xRealmeh. 「レルメ」

PS: I mayn't be back for long, though. My schedule is horrid. Plus I've got a bunch of muy importante things going on that don't even have to do with my schedule.

Yes. Go ahead and waggle your eyebrows all you'd like. >D

Final Notes to Self:

- Never quit Pepsi ever again.
- Poetry slays all. (This isn't supposed to mean anything to anyone other than myself. o_O ほんとに.)
- Limit only two more sleepovers this summer. (One being mine.)
- Draw at least fifteen things this summer. (Even if they're a tad stupid.)
- Practice your new violin, dear. After all, you're going to be giving tutoring this summer. o_O;
- Read Tale of Two Cities, dummy. (After Don Juan. Kthx.)
- When in doubt, act your shoe size.

Uh...that is all for now. >.>;;

I'll be around, my luverlies! <3

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11923548/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11923548/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 15:42:11 PST
I feel extremely needy right now.

I don't need anyone trying to be "silly" with me or non-literal. Like "Little One" today. Urgh.

Me: *puts on headphones and is deep into research*
Little One: *finds it funny to come up behind me and scare me*
Me: *jumps a mile high but doesn't let out a single shriek*
L.O.: *laughs head off*
Me: -.- *sits there and continues to work on research--only five million times as stressed*

I kept thinking over and over about it. Strings class, too. He thought I was just "some scary person" even though I've KNOWN him for how many years now? TWO.

ERGH.

Then he just...CHANGES his mind as soon as he finds out I listen to Led Zeppelin.

Now, pray tell...why should that matter? And another reason: Who the hell hasn't heard of Led Zeppelin? Just because I happen to dress in black and take a pessismistic view on life 85% of the time doesn't mean I'm not just like you. On the outside, anyhow.

Because there is no one out there in this world who can ever truly understand me. There just isn't.

There are those who can come extremely close. But nonetheless.

(Okay, my Limewire keeps being shut down by me, then automatically reloading again. I'm starting to get pissed. Yes, even more so than I already am.)

[Insert Restart-ation of computer here.]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11776964/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11776964/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 17:49:41 PST Samurai swords. Set of three. Fifteen dollars. Mine.

Other than this, I attended a sleepover.
Highlights, if you please?:

Local College Wrestling Tournament on TV.
Bothering Ferdinand & Luna.
Anime O.D.-age. [Di Gi Charat, Ceres, Azumanga...]
Too much VH1 and MTV. [Juvies, I love New York...(ha ha. wtf.)]
B.S.-ing among intelligent lifeforms. (Yay!)
Aqua Teen. [*in varied threatening 'mummy' tone* Currrse...]
Staying up until around seven.

So I got about four hours of sleep. But I'm oddly refreshed. Some other things happened...

Well, I had a realization. It was while staying up watching a redecorating show on HGTV. (Don't even ask.)

So I see this guy. He's wearing a corduroy brown jacket and a lime-colored t-shirt that says "Sapporo" in English and Japanese on the front of it. He's very cute. He has curly brown hair. He looked somewhat like my cousin.

Me: ...

So, it's as I said. I had a realization. I realized that I'm young. And I thought to myself, "What the hell am I doing? I don't need this!" And so my mind reset itself.

Thank God. It's about damned time.

So for now, I'm myself.
There's nothing more to me.
I'm just a someone living in this world.
Heart, not hurt. Not wanting to be.

Don't clip my wings.
You wouldn't like it either.
And don't burden me with things.
I want to overcome this fever.

This burning inside of me.
You're put out for now.
Until I can become stronger.
I must wait.

But how?

[Excerpt from an Upcoming Poem, by Kimiryu.]


--xRyu.

PS: Putting it simply, I'm not going to let anyone through to my heart anymore for a few years. So go away, you tele-marketer-like stalkers of mine. Chi-san, ZSM, Marquis, S.C., etc.

That's right, shoo.
(Ha ha. None of them can even read this. They have no idea.)



(*howls with laughter and goes off to shower*)

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11625760/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11625760/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 16:34:19 PST Midnight.
Not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone,
In the lamp light,
The withered leaves collect at my feet.
And the wind begins to moan.

Memory.
All alone in the moonlight,
I can smile like the old days.
I was beautiful, then I remember,
The time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.

Every street lamp seems to beat,
A fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and the street lamp gutters,
And soon it will be morning.

Daylight.
I must wait for the sun rise.
I must think for the new life.
And I mustn't give in.

When the dawn comes,
Tonight will be a memory too,
And the new day will begin.

Burnt out ends of smoky days,
The stale cold smell of morning.
A street lamp dies.
Another night is over.
Another day is dawning.

Touch me!
It's so easy to leave me.
All alone with my memory,
Of my days in the sun.
If you touch me,
You'll understand what happiness is!
Look, a new day has begun.

My English project has made me quite thoughtful. I'm being horribly dramatic now, and am contemplating sending out a letter to a friend who I have neither seen nor talked to in nearly five years. The fact that he's the son of a Pastor doesn't much help, either. (Heh. Yep. And his mother is quite an uptight type, too. *sobs* TT^TT ) In fact, I went and searched for him on Google and found his address. Quite literally, I could send him a letter. It's just more of the whole "eww...she's a stalker" type of feeling. I know he probably wouldn't think that...but his mom would. Lmao.

Ohhhh...boo. Life is fair not.

Now--to go read up on Japanese lessons.



Toodles.


--xRyu.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11612939/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11612939/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 15:05:04 PST
No, he's not on. Computer broke?

I wonder...

Eh, anywho, I think I'll call him because I feel the need to hear a certain voice--despite it not being the voice. (But that voice I will not hear for probably another good ten years. X_x Boo for my I-don't-know-what-ness which drives people away from me.)

So I'll be back if I get a busy signal. (Time's currently 6:02. We'll seeeee... [But I have this impending feeling that he'll pick up. XD Damn.])


--xRyu.

PS: 1,000 views. Thanks much, fandom! <3

(Ha ha. Riight. What fandom?)

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11404399/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11404399/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 22:16:13 PST I feel somewhat happy yet somewhat dead at the same time. I won't see my father this weekend, as well as him. Neh. But what can I do? Nothing.

So that's disappointing.

On the other hand, he may be getting a screen name. (Zomg. Attempt to reconnect with the life he semi-shunned/could never really have access to? o-o; [Mr. Faraday: Coooool.])

So that's not.

But there was a whole family arguement, which is why, again, my mood is perfectly illustrated by the above depiction.


And I should go to bed. Not much else to say.

I was less upset after talking to my Dad. And I humbly await what the next day brings.

Then I humbly await sleeping away the weekend--sans actually being on AIM. o_O;


So...おやすみなさい!

--xRealmeh.
[Ryu.]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11392178/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11392178/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:08:59 PST |
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ちのあなた.

I'm so confused right now. I'm going to review my notes because I'm weird like that.

Hints Dropped:
Admires Father.
The whole 'Astrological Sign' of Nov. 2006 thing.
Sweetly-spoken end of phone call.
Said enjoys talking to me.
Looks forward to seeing me on weekends.
Concerns for me.
Nyoo~ Etc.

I want to see him terribly this weekend. But I may not be able to. *cusses a certain guardian out*

The terrible part would be having to tell him that on the phone. I can just hear the listless air expelled from his lips as he hears my damned words. *begins to sob head off*

*sniffle* And I found out that someone else likes me. No offense to short, nerdy guys with glasses...but why me?!! I'm the creepy punk girl! Be afraid! *attemps to shoo away in vain*

*snifflesobsniffle*

And I'm not pretty, which I don't get either. Yet another reason against liking me. Unless everyone is just...intrigued by my weirdness. *shiver* Whatever. I give up.

*half-shuns ち, だん, & まるきいす*

Ughhh...I'm seriously annoyed right now. Nothing ever seems to go right. And I want to see ZSM so badly this weekend. *sobsobsob*

Call it teenage angst, but if you personally know me, you are aware that this all delves deeper than just that shite.


Having a life--just not sure what to make of it,

--xReaLMeH. [Ryu.]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11367872/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11367872/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 20:12:18 PST
*feels vengeful, yet not*
*all floaty, still about Sunday*
*creeped out at self*
*recalls the whole hug thing..."Hug..." Shivering...*
*worried about family fighting at the same time*
*dead*
*wanting to get away from these psychos -.-*
*drags [inh,rfc...p] along with her to Japan*

Unhh...so that's how I feel right about now. Other than this, I still have homework to do, and got my stitches out today.

FC is going to drive me nutso for the remainder of the week, so that sucks. I have to stuff as much crap about fuel cells and motionless generators this week into my mind as possible--next week, as well. Then the English midterm is on Friday, but I'm not concerned. I am friends with the teacher, she said that the test was easy, and English is my strongest point, anyways. (Ooooh~ fear me.)

Mmmm...what else? *thinkinggg* I've been listening to a lot of Beatles lately. w3rdness. But hey, I was listening to random 50's Slow Dancing music all Sunday morning and afternoon. Patsy Cline's "Crazy." Santo and Johnny's "Sleepwalk." The Penguin's "Earth Angel." You know, all of that good stuff. <3

But now that I'm listening to it...I think I'm going to change back to The Beatles. Little bit slow for my current mood. *dozes*

Better.

Tomorrow...hmm...I'll get through another hellish school day, then have to stay afterschool for FC. (Ugh. I keep daydreaming of him. And that hug. o_o; ) Okay, so then I'll eat dinner--hopefully not have much homework, but what does it matter? I'll get it done in the early hours of the morning anyway. But I'll probably try calling a little before six. If it's busy, I'll give it ten minutes, then call again. Inbetween my calling intervals, I can work on homework. If I don't get him, I'll be emo all night, and then talk to Dad at 8:00. But chances are, he'll complain to his brother about tying up the phone line.

I mean...it's not like he doesn't want to talk to me, too.

...Mataku ne.

Right now he's probably asleep. ...and wow. I just got a disgustingly cute mental picture. o_o;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

This is not fair. Why must I be parted from him for the entirety of a week?!

His smile is always so comforting. The way he asks if things are okay at home. The way that he can be so childish and yet so mature at times. The ways in which he's just like me...

I wonder if he realizes it...

*sigh* To actually feel another human being like that. I'm literally shivering.


It's...it's wonderful.


--xRealmeh.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11217032/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11217032/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 22:52:35 PST
I mean, you go on a rollercoaster ride of emotions with these characters so that they get together (well, in Chobits, Onegai Teacher/Twins, DearS, Love Hina...you know, those types...) and then in the end, everything turns out okay and you just start to cry. After all the hell that they've been through, everything's fine.

I think I'm going to cry now. Jeez.


*sigh* Okay, I'm better. *pokes 9" by 12" Wacom on her lap* Neh heh. *rubs it against her face*

Neh, anywho.

[Earlier...]
Me: *looks at cell phone* ...why do I always hesitate? It's so annoying. *goes to press call button, then hesitates* ... *nearly cries in annoyance at herself*
[After five minutes of staring at the phone, thinking about life--*finally calls*]
Phone: Ring...Ring...Ring...
Voice: Hello?
Me: Brandon!
Voice: Ummm...no, hang on one sec.
Me (in mind): DAMN DAMN DAMN! HOW THE HELL COULD IT HAVE BEEN HIS BROTHER?!!!111 *sobsldfjalskdfsobsob*
Background: *mumblemumbleMUMBLEmumbleyourgirlfriendmu mblefucking@!$?#$!%&--phoneisdropped-ONE SEC--swishswishswish--*
Him: Hello?
Me: Hello!
Him: Hey.
Me: Sorry I haven't called in forever. [Him: That's okay.] Um...I am fighting the strong urge to start walking around as I talk. But...I cannot. My leg is bleeding under the bandage and hurts from surgery.
Him: ...surgery? o_o
Me: Yeah, it's just a follow-up surgery to remove this sucky mark on my leg that could give me skin cancer in the future. *sweatball*
[*Goes on about how I had to get up early, hobbled around all day NOT from the surgery, but from DDR for a whole day straight before, and when the doctor had said, "Mole in a bottle!" and giggled insanely* Etc.]

Heh. I got a lot of reaction out of him, though. That's good, I suppose. ^-^

I always feel so much better after I talk to him. I mean, I was about to cry before--then my mood completely changes afterwards to some odd happy-like state. But I guess I continue to mope about only because I have such a horrid case of paranoia.

[I'm hugely paranoid about my appearance--that's bad. And if he doesn't like me, I'll just have to get over it. (But...that won't be for months on end.)]

You know, I compared him to a once-friend of mine. Marquis. They aren't so entirely different, but not so entirely the same. Marquis more pushed his feelings on me, anyhow.

I mean, openly asking me if I would kiss him after knowing him for under a month? o_o; I don't think he even really took to the fact that I was a little cold towards him. He had his arm around me all of the time, too. Coming up to my locker with an origami rose...

*sweatball/sob/hiccup* Por que~?!

Ever, there have been two guys who would probably walk to their death just to keep me safe. It's kind of sad because I am their friend, yet I try to hint to them that I don't have the same feelings for them. And they don't realize it. TT_TT;

But I must convince myself otherwise of my paranoias, or else I think I'll tear myself apart.


Meh. My brain is no longer working. Stupid novacaine. FIVE SHOTS. I did NOT need five shots. Sure, it was a 1 3/4" incision, but COME ON.


-_o


--xRealmeh/Ryu.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11120856/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11120856/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 20:14:49 PST
[Hmm. Couldn't fit the whole song title in. That's new. XD *pokes "..."*]

Why is it that I'm in an instantly-good mood when I can talk to someone who is half-sane and can make me laugh?

Why does it have to be that I live about 50 miles away from him?

Hmm?!!


Ugh.


I can't wait until I next see him. (And I love this song to death.)


He was telling me about what he was doing today--while I was at my Orchestra concert--and it involved the song "I'm Gonna Be" by the Proclaimers!!

AAHHH!!! I could have DIED! That's one of the best songs ever! Ha, we were even singing it on the phone. (Shut up. We're allowed to be dorks.) I could tell that he was really trying to stay up to talk to me, though. I mean...a half an hour past when he normally does...and he goes to bed in about fifteen minutes...

*dances*

Yes. So I am hyper.

We also talked about celebrities. Very interesting.

Him: There's this game...you can like, spear Brittney Spears.
Me: ...oh~?
Him: Heh. [*goes into detail about how if you spear her in the upper regions then the implants will fall out...Neh heh...*sweatball*]

Talked about watching Troy in class and um...the much-fawning of Brad Pitt. (Ha!)

Him: ...I mean, do you think he's hot?
Me: Not really.
Him: Well, who do you think is hot?
Me: [*BS-ing...then sort-of says*] I guess Keanu Reeves. <3
Him: Heh. He's pretty cool.
Me: Actress?
Him: [*BS-es as well...then*] Well, I GUESS Jessica Alba, only because she's a pretty good actress. But you know...
Me: Yeah...the whole "Beauty is only skin-deep."

Eh.

That may be so, but it's still a keen desire. *sigh*

I totally caught the bit about, I find people who I actually know a whole lot more attractive than famous people.


And just like that, I'm writting more poetry. As we speak.


And I need to get something to eat & drink. I haven't since uhnn...5:30. Shoot. It's like 11, too!


(...I'm always afraid that I'm too off-ish on the phone at times, like I almost need to loosen up. Eh, I'm probably just headachey is why. I mean, we're friends. I should feel that way, but I guess it's the whole personal-touch thing. You know, the reason why long-distance relationships never work out and the reason why co-workers/peers tend to fall in love. You see them constantly. And in long-distance, you don't. But you know what? That's going to change.)

I have a plan so badly, it hurts.

Anywho, I haven't done much else.

There's a packet due on Friday that I'm less than half-way done with. I'll probably work on that tonight. Then there's a test in math on Thursday--along with three others. No wonder I'm so damned stressed!

I think I'll get the packet out of the way...vocab...then do math. Get science in the morning. Uhnn...

Gosh, and he has up until Thursday, and they're doing nothing both days. *sobsobsob*


Heh, oh well. I'll get to work, for if I don't, I'm screwed. <3


--xRealmeh/Ryu.

PS:

You give me your love
I just can't stay away
I know that you're the only one.


PPS: (さあなあ...)

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11099933/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11099933/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 22:34:58 PST
Yes, in all of it's upper-scaled glory. I can now sing the pitches that those J-pop artists can all sing. Gahahahaa~ *is psycho, in case you haven't noticed*

I can now sing Amy Lee-esquely, as well. And therefore, I decided to finally listen to the new album, which I vowed I would save for a rainy day. (Actually, though. Today wasn't rainy. But it felt as such in my conscious, so screw off.)

Awesome songs on the new album:

- Lose Control.
- The Only One.
- Like You.
- Lacrymosa.
- Call Me When You're Sober. *dances*
- Your Star.
- Good Enough.
- Lithium.
- Cloud Nine.
- Snow White Queen.
- Weight of the World.
- Sweet Sacrifice.
- All that I'm Living For.

(Ha ha. Oh, wait. That's the whole album.)

But yeah. Overall, this is an extremely awesome awesome awesome album. I like this semi-different sound. The way she'll twist some of the sounds... (She's always done this, but...this has attitude in it. Yes.)

Beautiful use of pianos and violins...and basses. Oh my. *dunces like the dork I am*

I will always love Evanescence, though. I mean, other than Nightwish, Amy Lee is the kickass female metal vocalist of the Earth.

And I can actually sing in the pitches she does. Which makes me pretty awesome, as well. >w<

Anyway...

So, five days until Christmas. How interesting, indeed. The war has broken out among my family, but I must get used to the fact that this is most likely going to happen for the rest of my peace-ridden life. (Don't know if you heard this, Nick, but she's thinking of us only visiting every other weekend. Dear God, should it come to this...I will threaten her with my committing suicide. I swear it. I have the power to over-dramaticize and you don't want to see me use it.)

So, again. I will have my way. (I should hope.)

I think I'll outline my week.

Mon. is the Dance Party. (Zzzzz...)
Tues. is the Orchestra Concert. (Huzzah.)
Wed. is...nothing? (Wait...really?!)
Thurs. is F.C. (Let the model commence-aaaah!)

Eh, I hope we don't have a dress rehearsal tomorrow. That would be bad. And would interfere with my nicely-woven schedule, too.

Boo.

I keep procrastinating on my photography, too. I keep writing poetry. Ha. I'm so cheap. I apologize.

I keep trying to find white spots in this condemned house, but I cannot. Errrhhh... My only hope is that we have white sheets. (Yes, even this is a rarity in my house! *slits throat* Now you have red sheets! *psychotic laughter*

...Yeah. Don't mind me.

Um...so it's 1:20 and I should go to bed.

Other than that, life sucks and [inh,rfc...p] was feeling queasy and sick on the phone, tonight. I feel all bad. He apologized and told me that he was feeling extremely queasy and that he should probably get to bed early. I could only say, "I-I hope you get better."

"Thanks." [insert awkward silence here].
He, then, "Well, good-bye."
"...Bye."

Then I listened for a second...he was still on the line. Then I hung up.

That's an odd habit. Other people waiting for me to hang up on them. It's such a little thing, but I feel so bad in doing such. *hangs head*

And now I will demonstrate all of the evidence I have:

- Animeniacs.
- Psychos/Dorks. (The both of us.)
- Musically Addicted.
- "I have to get off. My brother has to call his girlfriend, now..."
- I'm not a pest by calling every night. ^-^ *pokes what I'm currently 'playing'*
- Both understand the true meaning of Love and are Romanticists.
- Mannerly around...only me, it seems. (XD)

I realize, only, that I am more mature than him, and it will take a year or so for him to increase in maturity. In this time, I can get to know him more so, and he know me.

We will see how things progress from that point forth.

Actually, I think we're both past the point of no return.

I have never before had a boyfriend, and when he had had a girlfriend, he hadn't understood the meaning of love. (This was also back when he was with the 'in' crowd.)

Welcome to Limbo, home of the people who don't fscking chicken dance. :B

And have a nice day/night/afternoon/bath.


--xRealmeh/Ryu.

PS: I am sleepier than I thought. =_='

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11078878/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11078878/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 23:31:43 PST
Pros:
- Older
- Artist
[What can I say? <3]
- Dork
[Comedic. <3333]
[Same communication skills.]
[[Ex. Excessive love for semi-retarded things and hyperactivity on certain occasions. (We come up with the most creative things when we are hyper.)]]
- Romanticist
[Understand the true meaning of love.]
[Swoon for love stories.]
-Intelligence / Respect
[Holds doors open/proper manners. o_o;]
[Philosophical.]
[Nothing 'pre-marital,' if you get my drift.]
- Dreamer
[Move to le Japan. <3]
[Careers.]
[Children.]

Cons?:
...

Results:
- Paranoia in this whole situation.
- Enables me to somewhat vent.
- "Distance makes the heart grow strong."
- Realization that I can still "feel."
- Something to look foward to in life.


Don't know what I'd accomplish by staying up much longer. I'll probably go to bed at three. My head hurts too badly to write any good poetry...and when I can't even write poetry, I'm so screwed it's not even funny.

I'll probably sketch.

Sketch.

He likes that word.

*sigh*


--xRyu.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11067862/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/11067862/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 22:28:42 PST
War breaks out between Otou-san to Oka-san. Doshiyoo~?!

Ugh. I'll start complaining to [inh,rfcp]. Actually, I can't even remember if that's the abbreviation. Probably not. Ha.

Englebert will be in France tomorrow, so I wish him luck. (Poor thing. XD) Il est mechant.

Anywho, though, this is just a stupid quick update to let all of you know that I am not dead. Well, actually I am dead. I mean, I stayed up all week until 1:30 when I have to get up at 7:00. That's murder in my world. (Yeah, 'she-who-receives-12+-hours-of-sleep.)

Blah. I miss Summer. And yet I don't want it to come.

One guess why. [inh,rfcp].


--xRyu/Realmeh.

PS: X-tina's party on Saturday. Wewt. :B

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10978185/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10978185/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 22:26:26 PST
...

(But you didn't know anything was wrong until I say this right now, right? Neh heh... *uncomfortable-ness*)

Okay, so my week was busier than expected. Ha ha. Unless there's a snow-day tomorrow, life will continue on as normal. And I will be only half-screwed. Well, actually no, because I won't be in on Friday (Huzzah for things that get you out of the world of work and using your brain) and I can take pictures the whole night before. I only have Orchestral practice until 5 PM tomorrow, then I'm home free.

Gahaha. I'm feeling psychotic again.

And I had another conversation. Only this was about:

[Newyork.art.anime.manga.philosophy.
life.death.laughter.violence.blood.
gore.silenthill.dawnofthedead.residentevil.
thegrudge.japan.gameshows.people.]

w00t.

Other than this, life sucks. Maybe you'll get pictures tomorrow. I don't quite know. Ignore me for using five-year-old grammar, for this is the first time I've had caffeine in about three days. (This has an effect on my brain--plus the fact that it's stuffed, giving me a sensational headache. Sleep is the only cure. Or maybe a few doses of tylenol. I just happen to prefer one. Guess.)

[In the meantime] I'll procrastinate further in trying to get my shiny-scary-black-leather-boot pictures up.


--xRealmeh.
[*strikes a pose*]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10891805/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10891805/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 15:00:51 PST Quick Update...will edit later...probably.]

I was just thinking...when I decided to compile an outfit.

It's an interesting outfit, yes. Punk. [Muahaha.]

Uhnn...I don't really want to give anything away, except for the fact that it will be awesome. Plus, I'm not sure where to take the pictures at. I've been pretty busy, so I'm thinking that it will be inside...but I want the background to be white or...I don't know. Something.

Blaaaaah.

I'll find something.

So anywho, I am all psychotic now, and posing in the mirror with my boots, trying to make up some stupid poses. Probably no headshots unless I can come up with something creative for my hair. Hmm~

And I have a surprise, too, for my fellow otaku out there. *cackles evilly* I'll probably have these pics up sometime next week.

Look forward to this. I am.

--xRyu.

[w00t.]

[UPDATE: As of Nov 29th at 8:43 PM.]

Okay, so I'm back.

I may upload this awesome fantasy/manga sketch that I drew earlier this week. It depends on how much work I get done in the next...oh, few hours. And I just realized what song has been stuck in my head for the past DAY. *pokes SASG*

So, that is all for me. I will get to work, and be back on (probably) in three hours.


--xRyu.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10863169/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10863169/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 00:39:11 PST
I'm thinking that it's maybe because I have something in my stomach, and hence the voices aren't coming through on my wavelengths. But you never knew. I'm just assuming that it's because hypoglycemia won't strike tonight.

It also could be because my room is warmer.

I don't know. It feels like Summer.

Oh, Summer. How I long for Summer.

I want to get away from it all. I want the year to be over with. I want to stop having to worry about all of these little "extra" things that I've been put in charge of.

- The Essay.
(The Competition in general!)

- The Group of People who pretend to understand me, but only cause my "downward spiral" and depression to further. [The Real-Lifers.]

- The Peace of Mind that I can't seem be with.

- The ache of not being able to talk with my "peace of mind" whenever I feel the urge to.

- The indecision and shyness that lingers within my conscience. (Blah. Curse my abashed self. The simple question of "Can we exchange phone numbers?")

I don't know. I don't feel like I'm meant to love at times. But don't we all feel that way? I'm just in a state of confusion.

Blah. I hate being like this.

This song perfectly describes everything right now.

It's nothing, it's so normal.
You just stand there I could say so much.
But I dont go there 'cause I dont want to.
I was thinking if you were lonely,
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know.
At least not to the point where we would think so.

Everyone here knows everyone here is thinking about somebody else.
Well, it's best if we all keep it under our heads.
I couldnt tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do.
But I'm lonely now, and I dont know how,
To get it back to good.

This don't mean that, you own me,
This ain't no good, in fact its phony as hell.
But things worked out just like you wanted to.
If you see me out you don't know me,
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room,
To figure out just what I'm going to do.

'Cause everyone here, hates everyone here for
Doing just like they do
And it's best if we all keep this quite instead
And I couldnt tell, why everyone here was doing me like they do,
But I'm sorry now, and I dont know how...
To get it back to good.

Everyone here is wondering what it's like to be with somebody else.
Everyone here's to blame and everyone here gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain.
Everyone here hides shades of shame.
But looking inside we're the same, we're the same.
And we're all grown now, but we don't know how...
To get it back to good

Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking 'bout somebody else.
And it's best if we all keep this under our heads.
I couldnt tell if anyone here was feeling the way I do.
But it's over now, and I dont know how, it's over now...
There's no getting back to good.

The other soothing song I'm listening to right now is 'One of These Mornings' by Moby. Mixed by Moby, of course it's a techno, but it's more of a trance-esque song.

One of These Mornings,
Won't be very long.
You will look for me,
But I'll be gone.

Kind of sad. The piano has a certain longing in its notes. It's a great song. I relate it somewhat to 'Mad World' by Gary Jules.*

This leads me into 'It's Been Awhile' by Staind. Another very good, semi-sad song.

I'm not quite sure why I'm mentioning a bunch of sad songs... (Ergh. It keeps skipping.) But regardless, it's entertaining.

Closing up this topic--and this entry--I'd like to mention the most emotional song that I've ever heard in my life. It really brings tears to my eyes. Aside from the fact that it's not in English, the name of the song is 'Michiyuki' by Hikida Kaori.

To fully appreciate the song, you have to do the translating yourself while listening to it, (as in learn Japanese) but I'll provide you with an English set of lyrics here.

Michiyuki (Path)

Even if you embrace me until it's suffocating,
We will never become one.
In a place deeper than gentleness
Touching each other is merely pain.
Please bind the two of us.

We will dream no more,
Joining hands in uncertainty,
Walking towards the cruel dawn.
True words are surely somewhere in the true world,
Lurking in our wordless night.
Surely even now.

Meeting each other in order to know loneliness,
We won't know until we exchange a kiss.
Even so, I am trembling with the... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10851098/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10851098/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 23:24:49 PST
But it's not the kind of "hurt" that you get from, let's say Hypoglycemia. Or from small children using their "outdoor" voices.

I don't know what it is. I think it's a mental block.

Firstly, I have one more week until I can semi-completely get rid of this mental blockage. (And yes, I am aware that semi-completely really doesn't make sense, but whatever.)

Is it bad that I'm bi-polar? I think so.

But like I said, trying to use medication...it's not like that would help. I mean TECHNICALLY and MEDICALLY, "Oh, ahhhh--yes! Once medicated, the chemical imbalance, ahhh--in your brain cells will once more be restored, ahh--therefore...you are cured! Duuh hah!"

But that does absolutely nothing for the side of my brain that says, "Wow, I'm still screwed."

I don't think I'm making sense again, but that's okay. I'll be better once I sleep. And in a week.

When I can talk to my other self. And my other only "real-life" friend. Blaaaaah. I've decided that in the following space, I'm now going to include some quiz results. Because I'm weird like that.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

[URL of Test]: [link]

[URL for Disorder Info]: [link]

Okay, so that's me. As for what kind of person I attract:

([link])
What type of person do you attract?
Your Result: You attract artsy people!

Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)

Next: You attract geeks!
Then: You attract unstable people!
Then: You attract Yuppies!
Then: You attract rednecks!
Obviously Not: You attract models!

Ha ha. Okay. Next is? "How likely are you to go postal?"

You have a 35% chance of going postal!

The chances of a killing spree in your future are pretty low. But discuss any problems you have with a therapist. Or your local barman. Talking about your feelings is very important... well, and emmasculating, but let's not talk about that.

Here, I guess they define "going postal" as "become a homocidal lunatic" rather than just, go insane. So, there.

35%.



Which Positive Quality Are You?
Your Result: Love

You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."

Next: Peace
Then: Faith
Friendship
Courage
Charity

Ooh, surprise. I am the Warrior of Love and Justice. *does funky poses Sailor Moon-like*


What mental disorder do you have?
Your Result: Paranoia

You are constantly thinking about what others may be saying about you behind your back. You may also feel people have conspiracies against you, or they are out to get you. In crowds you may feel like everybody is watching to closely.

Next: Manic Depressive
Then: ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)

[By the way, these are all from gotoquiz.com...]


Umm...other than this, I've only taken a few other quizzes.

I feel less psychotic now that I've eaten. Which is good. Because I tend to go psychotic in the absence of food.

I will stay up late tonight. Why? Because I must cram in as much happiness as I can within tonight and tomorrow, because school will start again on Tuesday. And I don't feel like finishing writing a stupid Essay on Fuel Cells and how they can be incorporated into the world about 150 years from now.

Two reasons.

1. The world is going to end sooner than that.
2. I have no interest whatsoever in being an Engineer. (And... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10782781/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10782781/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 21:08:22 PST dramatic) episode. Um...all is well except that I have about 2 more weeks to go until I see [inh,rfcp...], but we'll not talk about that.

Um...

I am hyper. This song is making me poetic, but I can't express it. I have a few blurbs I'll type here:

Is it still me that you adore?
Someone without "perfection."

- - - -

We'll dress up real pretty.
Put on a show.
Make it look like an accident.
How could they ever know?

- - - -

And all the people I once desired,
Are thrown into the kiln of my heart,
For everything and everyone up to this point.
Is meaningless. Because You,
You keep me from falling apart.

- - - -

Yeah, so I don't know. I'll work them into something once I get enough of my blurbs together. I call it "random poeticism."

And I'm still hyper. I've been listening to this song for literally...*checks clock*...uhnn....five. Five hours, now.

No wonder I have a headache. And I was just about to spell "wonder" oneder. Ha! XDXDXD

Okay, so--now that I look at the title--I have three days left until Thanksgiving Break. That is nice. Math drives me insane. French makes me use my brain. (Now, that's no good.) And of course, I have no study halls in which to blurb my creativity onto a piece of paper. Boo.

Well, whatever. Three days.

Oh, and I bought a .25mm pen at Michael's for my loverly inking. Maybe you'll see some of that up here if I feel like trying to duel with the scanner.

There would be much blood.

Oh, yes.


...


Okay, I have to stop ranting mindlessly, because I'm really tired right now, and my brain works not.

Toodles.

--xRyu.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10705931/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10705931/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:57:32 PST My eyes and head
They ache.

I'm confused.
This
I can't take.

Yes, that's right.
Look at me with those ignorant eyes.
Because you don't know me.
And you never really will.
You don't take the time to.
And you never really will.


My head aches from too much crying, today.

Ugh.

I've been called ugly, stupid, and pathetic. Worthless. Ignorant...



Ugh.



So now, I vent.

Right now, the few Godsends are:

- I smell like [insert name here, taken out for certain...purposes], which is good. Soothing.
- I am tired, therefore I will go to bed soon...but first...
- I will watch anime, for I got a RahXephon DVD for $3.99 at CD Warehouse.
- I am listening to Trance, which soothes me so. *melts*

Okay, why am I upset?

I am upset, because basically, my best friend keeps lying to me. I am also upset because I was like, chewed out by my mother, who had nowhere to vent her anger but me. After being given my slave-work and told that I would work until I went to sleep, I finished what was given to me, then went to her room to "check-in" with her to see what she wanted done next. She held one finger up to me, watching the TV from her computer desk. Once it went to a comercial, she told me to come over to her and sit down. Then she bursted out into tears asking, "Don't you think it hurts me, too?" And so she hugged me, I comforting and hugging her in return. We both sobbed. I more so than her, but that's how things go with my being such a soft one. Everything's pretty much better now, except for the fact that she has yet to slay my math teacher...

Um...also my "friends"...who actually aren't my friends.

Yeah.

She's going to slay them, too.

Psh, why do I even wonder why I'm a schizoid? You see, I grow up with this. And it's only getting worse, you see. But this is what I have to go through to develop skin tough enough to sustain the world.

Blaaaaaaaaaaah. Head hurts.

I will now talk about [insert name here, taken out for certain...purposes], because he is perhaps one of the most awesome people in existance to me right now.

Similar Attributes

- Maniacal.
- Intelligent. (zomg.)
- "Screw you all!!112" view on all ye opposing thee.
- Love of Anime/Manga/Japan.
- Exact same height? (I think...when I stand next to him, it appears so... o_o)
- Parents = Le Divorced.
- Doesn't think that divorce is faulty with the child, either, which apparently most cases do? (*laughs head off at this*)

Um...okay. So this is [insert name here, taken out for certain...purposes]. Excuse me for ranting and raving. It's probably not a good thing to put this on the FRIGGIN' INTERNET. But whatever. -_o I must vent this. I can just...put up another entry real quick.

"Yeh! 'Dat's the ticket!"

o_o ...

Okay, so [inh,tofc...p] is a very awesome person. I only see him on the weekends...it's hard to explain. He lives out towards my Dad's house. I'm not sure if he's as socialistic with the rest of the world as he is with me, but he is very talkative. This is good though, for I am not a good conversationalist. But it's also bad. My being a bad conversationalist...

...

So I will choose a few choice words about him: Insane. Cool. Wicked. Hot. Maniacal. 'Throwback-to-the-eighties.' Evil. Glompable. Vulgar? (XD) 'WYSIWYG.'

What I really think is awesome about the two of us, is how the first time we met (for crying out loud) we start discussing our parents' divorces. Do most people do that? Um...especially when his Dad was a drunk? I don't know. But it's like we have no secrets between the two of us, from the short periods of time that we DO get to talk...

Blah.

*sniffs shirt* The smell went away.

*prances to chest of drawers*

...

*opens drawer*

...

*sniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii if*

...It's his smell. I can't believe it's the same detergent.



...


Yeah. I'm just gonna...quote this wristband I saw at Hot Topic.
"Some call it stalking. I call it love."

Ha ha.

But really, it's not stalking. It's um...



o_o;


...Yeah! So, um...how was your day?!! Ha ha!
(You know, this reminds me of a friend of mine who once asked me if I was stalking him, because I had his screename on my cell phone. I don't remember what lame excuse I came up with, but apparently it worked. I... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10637720/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10637720/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 14:51:22 PST
I had a nice long rant going, too, last night when I tried to submit it.

What I was talking about, was coming across a certain website last night, because I was looking for an internet radio that played whatever. Alternate, Goth, Metal...

Whatever I felt like listening to.

So, I found Pandora.com.

It's basically a website where you type in the name of an artist you enjoy (for me...I typed in NIN <333 ) and it'll find songs by that artist, as well as songs by similar-sounding artists, and play those songs on a radio station.

It's neat. Sort of hard-to-explain...but try it out. It's tre cool.

Listing of some that I found/were played from my searches: (They even have Dir En Grey, which I practically fell over and died about. o_o)

Time - Benny Benassi
Piggy - NIN
The Hand that Feeds ([insert name of random mixed version here which I can't remember...it started with and 'A' and was spelled really oddly) - NIN
Time Bomb - Godsmack
Kasumi - Dir En Grey
Water - Ohgr
Shine On You Crazy Diamond - Pink Floyd
Jupitersex - Sylvie Marks & Hal9000
Looky Thing - Slacker
Anarchy in the UK - The Sex Pistols
Lost Souls - George Acosta
B. P. Empire - Infected Mushroom
Destination Paradise (Radio Mix) - Nebulus
Dream 8 - Nova Dream Sequence
I Love My Sex - Benny Benassi

There was a ton of other stuff. I searched for all kinds of odd stuff.

My sister was dancing around my room when she came in to ask me to button the back of her dress for her band concert tonight. Neh heh. I hawrt my mooshick. D:

What was I ranting about last night? Something about when I write post scripts I continue on and on and the entry never seems to stop. I talked about how once on Xanga I wrote an entry that was over 1000 words long just ranting in madness. That was pretty fun.

But then I talked about how I'll probably never go back to Xanga, and I feel bad because there was this one girl from Michigan that was cool and we left comments on each other's entries all of the time.

Blaaaaaaaaah.

It's 5:22. Ava's sleeping over tonight which is pretty cool. No getting up early to increase my education because of Election Day. Huzzah.

[Now I'm going to start talking about really stupid little things, so just skip down to the bottom right now.]



I wrote something on my hand today that sums up my life. "There are stupid people in this world, and that's pretty unfortunate. XP" I'm so clever it hurts. Ha. Not.

I also parted my hair to the side today. It doesn't look bad. It's probably look better if my skin was clearer. My skin's been pretty oily and gross lately, despite my trying to cover it up with makeup. Playing DDR tonight won't really make things better...but screw it all. If it's DDR, I refuse to not play, for I've been meaning to dance to Spin Spin Sugar by Sneaker pimps on Extreme 2 pretty badly. And now I suddenly feel really hyper.

In other news:

- Gym class should be outlawed and instead be replaced with DDR, as the little kiddies in Virginia do. (Play DDR in Gym class. Psh. Our state is so gay.)

- Groundhogs will most likely take over the world someday, if the human race continues to fall in intelligence.

- 'NANA' and 'Tenshi Ja Nai' are very good manga serieses. Buy them, darn you. (But keep in mind, they're shoujo manga that's rated Older Teen. Wooo. That's right. 16+. Not for little kiddies. -_o )

- Techno is very relaxing at the moment.

- The people around me will never stop calling me Leon/Squall. >->

- Someone I 'used' to know got (probably) expelled at school today for drug possession. All I can do is refer back to the phrase that sums up my life.

I want to slap him across the face so badly right now, that it's not even funny. But maybe he was never really even my friend.

Whatever.


- I had ramen today, and that could also be what's keeping me sane at the moment.




A demain,

--xRealmeh.


PS: That's French. And oddly enough, French is becoming like Japanese to me, where I start to think in terms of that language. o_o

This musn't happen. Help control the pet population! Have your pet sprayed or neutered!


...Actually, that's getting pretty old. And so is Bob Barker. *attackuuu le garçon* +__+

To stop this, I'll just pretend like I don't have 102% in French right now.



La la la.

[Je bois de sang.]

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10575327/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10575327/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 19:42:33 PST
Wait...six? Brittni, Mehlee, Ava, Me, Vetch, Sis.

Yes. That's six.
Okay.

So we went out. I had fun.

I told of how I hate a group of guys because they've harassed me for about a year and a half now, calling me ugly.

Ever since that, my dysmorphia has been worse than ever.

I saw them while we were making rounds around the neighborhood. They went by. I turned around:

Me: Motherfsckaaa. *flips off*


Um...I apologize to God, but that was way too soul-cleansing for me to feel bad about. I'm going to confession in a few weeks anyway.

I haven't been to confession in a year, either. Eeeks.


Anyway, off of religion... Let's talk about... My dysmorphia! Okay. Sounds good.


For those of you who don't know what dismorphia is...I will take the Mayo Clinic definition:

"Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is characterized by an excessive preoccupation with a real or imagined defect in your physical appearance.

People with body dysmorphic disorder have a distorted or exaggerated view of how they look and are obsessed with actual physical characteristics or perceived flaws, such as a certain facial feature or imperfections of the skin. They often think of themselves as ugly or disfigured. People with body dysmorphic disorder often have problems controlling negative thoughts about their appearance, even when reassured by others that they look fine and that the minor or perceived flaws aren't noticeable or excessive."

So that's me. Whatever. It's creepy when I start to feel really bad about the whole thing, though, to the point of even worse thoughts.

I'm reading the whole article on the website now. I feel like I'm going to break out and cry at any moment.

They recommend anti-depressants.

I've always thought of taking a medicine for depression to be an utter waste of time. What the hell is the use in taking drugs for relief from something mentally unstable in your life?

You have to face it.

No one would ever believe me if I said I was depressed, as a matter of fact. It's because I don't act like it.


But when your only means of escape from the damned thing is sleep, you know that that's exactly what it is.


You probably have no idea.


--xRealmeh.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10557978/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10557978/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 10:15:39 PST
I really have nothing to do.


Uneventfull-nesssssssssssssssssssss.

...


What am I thinking?

Um...? o_o;

The computer teacher typed that...just now...

The "What am I thinking?"


...


Eeeks. I'm like...going to submit this now and continue to have my random thoughts.


...and sketch in sharpie.


--xRealmeh.

PS: Pallid is going well. Yay for Saeyran Dag'wholmanes-ness.

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10511288/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/10511288/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 20:41:14 PDT
That's probably from Mehlz-sama clicking on the stupid link to this page too many times. Heh. Am I right?

In other news, It's like, 11:30 at night.

Ooh, that means Family Guy is on!

Okay, so right now, I'll probably go watch FG, but look at my newest poem, okay? I've entered it in a competition. Let's see how I dooo... XD

In other-other news:

- I require manga. Nana Four? READ. Tenshi Ja Nai Four? READ. Dramacon 2? READ. Mwhrawr. Mangaaaaaaa~

- It's cold outside. I hate the Northern Hemisphere.

- Japan is a possibility this Summer. Can you say 'homestay program?' Heh. Can you say, 'kicked out of the house into a cold, confusing, malicious world?' *shiver*

Um...I'm going with a friend... [insert about 52 more "..."s here]


- I am on the last ninety pages of TTM. It's so amusing, that I keep denying myself to read it because I must savor it...but then I must finish the book for Friday for school.

- Dance tomorrow. I shouldn't care...but...I think if I don't go, I'll be kidnapped into going.

I don't think I'll wear a costume, though. Okay--because--picture this: Dita from Chobits.

Um...I'll get at least five million different questions and odd glances. Probably even more so than when I put in the fake lip piercing. Wow, that was hilarious.


Any other news? No, not really. New MCR album is coming out. I hope it's good. Gerard supposively has gone blonde. This makes me mad. T_T Grades are almost done for the first quarter of the year. That's only minimalistically relieving. Psh.

Math teacher = returd. :B



...so then...

I'll continue to work on my lovely-disturbing "Pallid" for all of you, which is a wonderful story about a 17-year-old vampire girl. Um...yes, it's like a school drama/fantasy.

Trust me?

...or don't. That's up to you. @_x;



Comments for the Blind Beggar Girl! 8o

]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9760185/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9760185/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:50:55 PDT Current Song: "Angel Meat Pie" by D[di:] (Deeth.)
Current Anime: Bleach - Episode 64.
Current Mood: Kinda pissed. (See below. Na-no-da!)

Alternative Titles:

"GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!111" (Too illiterate.)
"I should go sit in the corner of my room in the fetal position and sob my head off." (Too long. *snaps fingers*)
"I am hopped up on J-rock."
"This is only my seventh entry this Summer! *le gasp*"
"You only wish I died in surgery. X_x;"


I'm kinda pissed because this is the third time I'm writing this entry. Windows XP kinda sucks. But anime downloads at 315 kb/s which is nice. Episodes are like, 45 MB, so that's pretty quick. Hence, my sitting in front of my computer for 10 hours, trying to catch up to Episode 90-whatever of Bleach.

I had stopped watching it two Summers ago, not wanting it to end. But I didn't know that it was still running in Japan, even. Heh. So yeah. I've been catching up on it the past few days.

Let's see, so that makes it about ten anime I'm currently in the middle of.

Naruto (Subbed), Bleach (Subbed), Monster (Subbed), Girls Bravo (Subbed - Must start Season Two), Air Gear (Subbed - I read most of the manga scanlated, but I have only started the anime), Haibanei Renmei (Dubbed on DVD), Weiz Krueb Gluhen (Dubbed on DVD - I only just realized that this is a follow-up to the normal Weiz Krueb. Shimata.), W-Wish (Subbed), Excel Saga (Subbed), DNAngel (Subbed), Kodocha (Subbed, thank God. I saw it dubbed at Otakon and we had to leave in between the viewing), [insert a bunch more here]

Oops. That's more than ten. But there's an almost equal number of anime that I've finished, too. So nyeh.

Like for example:

Sailor Moon (Yeah. I saw the final Star Series and it kicked ass. <3), Read Or Die, Trigun, Hellsing, Green Green, Gravitation, Loveless, Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu: All three seasons, Fruits Basket (Although, they're coming out with a second season of that...), DearS, Paradise Kiss, Onegai Twins, and FLCL.

(Believe it or not, I have a whole official list of this on my computer. Yes! I am such a dork! <3)

But I'll stop talking about anime, now.

NEXT [link]!!

I'll talk about J-Rock and Visual Kei! Muahahaha!!


Two bands that I've gotten into lately are Alice Nine and D'espairsRay. (And D[di:], too, but I won't get into that...)

I suppose that's after scowering Youtube.com for "J-rockers parody" videos. Gosh, there are so many of them. It has Gackt being crazy, Hyde being hot, and Dir En Gray getting drunk.

VERY VERY FUNNY. I love J-rockers! They're such dorks. <333

I'd give you a recommended listening list, but I'm sure that there are so many people on here that already know all of this stuff. Just look it up on Youtube, too. Who says that it's not an education site, ne?

Okay, enough with that.

NEXT [link]!!

Um...lesse...

My surgery! Yeah! Okay. Basically, I had this birthmark on my left leg. It was like, the size of a quarter, only maybe a little more oval-ish than that. When I was nine, it was recommended that I get it taken off. (Why? Because it could/would turn into skin cancer and I could like, die. Which is bad.)

Many years later, I now finally have had it removed. In fact, it has been two days since surgery.

It was really amusing, the whol... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9685510/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9685510/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 01:02:57 PDT Current Song: Stabby Stab Stab My Heart by The Bloodshed. (Note: This is not a real song.)
Mood: Apathetic. (Ha ha. Emo Kid Song!!!)


The original title of this entry was "I Should Really Get A Life," or "Click Here To Here About How My Life Is Amazingly Still Half-Interesting."

But that's a stupid title...





Plus it wouldn't fit.



I have been "scanlating" Zettai Kareshi for the past few hours. Then my head started aching. It feels a little better, now that I've stopped.

This could also have something to do with the fact that it is going on four in the morning.

Later today, I'll be going out to this go-carting/arcade place with a bunch of my friends. Zach-ah-whee, too. o=

Lucky you, Zach-ah-whee.

Ah, and I just remembered that I must scan half of my sketchbook, when I get the chance.

Maybe, sometime tomorrow afternoon, We're leaving at 6 P.M., after all. But whatever.



In other news:

--School is about to start. August 28th. Oh NOESS!!111 D= *FLUSHHHHHH GOES MY LIFE*--

Yeah...


And can someone tell me how to make other user's icon's appear in their journal with a link to their page.

I'm too dumb to figure this out.



Thanks in advance. I am one sad inhuman femme.


--Realmeh.

[I am Realmeh forthwith. In fact, I may just like...go bonkers and totally run away from Deviant, then come back as Realmeh. If this happens, please add me to your friends list. Quack quack. Doozo.]

This probably won't happen, though. For I am lazy.



And Everyone knows that. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9428296/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9428296/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 15:32:24 PDT
Okies! So, here it is.


EIGHT THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE (in no particular order): [Ha ha, Vetch. I made it EIGHT.]

1. Go to Japan with all/most of my Otaku friends. (Geheheheh. )
2. Publish a manga? (>_<; Gah. Must work on art skillzah. I am in another one of my "low-ego" stages. Sue me. )
3. Write a book.
4. Find my one true love. (Yeah yeah. Call it sappy, if you will. I don't care. "Wakaranai.")
5. Be able to fluently speak/write Japanese. (Gah, probably the hardest one.)
6. Graduate from college and major in something that I can be satisfied with. (>_>; Yeah...one of my "paranoias." I just keep reminding myself that so many other people have passed it, and ask myself, "How couldn't I pass?!")
7. Go to an anime convention (preferably Otakon) with all of my friends and have a blast.
8. Go to a J-rock concert. ^-^ (THE PILLOWS, L'arc~En~Ciel, or Tommy Heavenly6 would be awesome. DDD But now that I think, the Family Values Tour is coming up, so I can go see Korn AND Dir En Gray!!!1111)

(Do not quote me on these. How the hell should I know what I want to do before I die? I'm not going to die anytime soon, unless I somehow got HIV from the guy who was putting his blood in the ketchup at all of the fast food places in our area. But you know...whatever. >_<

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T (OR WON'T) DO (I.N.P.O.):

1. Take drugs.
2. Be put in a difficult or pressured situation that I just can't handle. (Um...something where a lot of people are depending on me to do it. And do it right. >_>; )
3. Read "War and Peace." (I swear that I'd die of boredom. My attention-span just wouldn't be able to take it.
4. Smoke. (It's paying to die, and too many people care for me. =/ Though it doesn't seem like it at times.)
5. Kill someone.
6. Seclude myself from others. (My biggest fear is being alone in the world. *looks up what that phobia is* Autophobia.
7.


SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST (I.N.P.O.):
1. "Heh heh." (Self Explainitory.)
2. "What the heck?!" (Only because I'm not alowed to use profanity at home. Surprise.)
3. "Surprise." (See, I just used it in the last A/N.)
4. "Nuurh." (When I have nothing better to say.)
5. "Burn in jigoku." (When I'm annoyed. )
6. "You idiot." (Usually talking to one of my best friends.)
7. "I'm not THAT mean..." (Again. My friends.)

SEVEN MOVIES I COULD (OR DO) WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN (I.N.P.O.):
1. Final Fantasy VII Advent Children
2. Constantine
3. Interview with a Vampire
4. Monty Python and the Holy Grail
5. Wrongfully Accused
6. Salem's Lot
7. "Caveman" or "Back to the Future II" (Either or. )

SEVEN VIDEO GAMES THAT THE STORY JUST GRABS YOU:

I can only name a few...

1. Myst
2. Riven
3. Sailor Moon: Another Story (Released in Japan only. Totally awesome. <33333)
4. Soul Calibur II (Weapon Master mode ACTUALLY has a story with it if you have the TIME TO FRIGGIN' READ IT. +_+)

[Sorry, that's it. I would say "The Sims" but that's just stupid. ^-^;;]

ONE LAST LIST, JUST ADDED BY KIMIRYU.

YOUR TOP TEN PHOBIA: (In latin, please. ^o^) Also, in no particular order.
1. Autophobia (Being alone.)
2. Taphephobia (Being Buried Alive.)
3. Rhabdophobia (The fear of being severly punished or beaten by a rod.)
4. Sociophobia (The fear of people in general, or society.)
5. Acrophobia (The fear of heights.)
6. Politicophobia (The Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians.)
7. Aphenphosmphobia (The Fear of being touched.)
8. Bathophobia (Fear of depth.)
9. Philophobia (The Fear of falling in love or being in love.)
10. Monophobia (The Fear of solitude.)



1. Do you like animals?
Two kitties that I wuv to deff. <333

2. Have you ev... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9265790/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9265790/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 22:40:46 PDT Current Song: "Spin Spin Sugar" by Sneaker Pimps.
Latest Movie: "Serenity"
Current Mood: Slightly Pissed.

A few things.

1. I'm no longer subscribed, and as a result, can no longer Beta-test. [Teh suck.]

2. I forgot the damned quiz answers at my dad's house again. [You can thank my sister for that, Vetch-san. She wouldn't let me have the computer. Talking to you, prolly. -__-; ]

3. Kinda mad at DeviantArt. Don't know why. I just am. [Moodswing. Whee~.]

4. No, I shall not resort to my Psychologist.

5. I feel like shunning the world.

7. This is out of order for a reason. You'll find out...I think. I'm going to go play "The Sims" now, and watch the little digital people run around and makeout and stuff. [Note that I say stuff because I have Livin' Large & Hot Date. <3]

6. I can't because my party is in ten days.

7. Fsck.


Bye bye for now.

--Saeyran. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9182099/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9182099/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 19:21:22 PDT


- - - - - - -


Yes...I'm not paying for this feature. It's one of those trial things...

Yeah.

So anyway, I had a fun weekend. I went to the Clarks concert, and I'll be going to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in a few days. Then I'll be celebrating my birthday on the 22nd, and I'll hold the party on the 14th.

How quickly this Summer has been flying. >.> This isn't faiiiiiiir.

So, back to Vetch-san's tag. Well, I had it all filled out, except that I left the .txt file on my Dad's computer at his house. Yes, I'm smart. =o

So, either I'll e-mail my dad and ask him to send it to me... Or I'll just re-do it, and put it in another entry in my journal.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have one of those impulses that I must act upon. Oekaki...Awaaaaaaaaaaaaay~!


--Kimiryu.

(Vetch, I'm seriously considering having you scan all of my pics for me. It's impossible to use these stupid scanners at my house. *sob*)

Ah, and remember to comment on my new poetry deviation? It's not bad...?

And actually, now, I'm a Beta-tester. So...yes. This should be fun. ^-^

Bye byez.

- - - - - - -

[This has been a rant by Miss Saeyran. The views in this journal are not meant to offend anyone, mind those who have a life. Copyright 2006.]
]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9131542/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9131542/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 22:00:51 PDT
Oh, and I just realized that my last journal entry was the name of a Nirvana album. How sweet is that?

I'm cool and I don't even know it half of the time. =o Lol, Just kidding. *strangles self*

But anyway, not much new has been going on. The concert is on Saturday (Huzzah!) and I anxiously await it. Vetch, you better anxiously await it, too, because it'll be teh awesome and stuff...so...JUST ANXIOUSLY AWAIT IT.

Gah. >_<;

But anyway, some changes have undergone my Dev & Forums...and...that's like...new. And good. It's like the first five paragraphs of Genesis. You know? About God making things and that they were good.

Yeah...Only that's like...better. Because without that, then like...there'd be no internet...and stuff...

o_O;; *shuts up permanently*



Well...not for long. ^-^ Heh.
But yeah. So life's been pretty uneventful.

Post if you're bored!


--Kimiryu. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9070480/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9070480/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 19:49:46 PDT
It was meaningless, and I was trying to prove a point at what? 3:30 in the morning.

Vetch, I ask you not to comment on this Journal Entry. It's pointless as well.

In fact...if I were to have AIDS, then I think life would be just about pointless, too.

>_> There's an HIV scare in my area. There's word that some guy with AIDS is going around putting his blood in ketchup pumps at Fast Food restaurants. I went to a baseball game and got ketchup.

That doesn't count, does it?

Again, please. No comments on this one. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9042387/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9042387/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 00:31:42 PDT
PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST. IT'S SO DANG TRUE*
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works

I'm going to go throw all fifteen things that were said, and add my commentary to them. Because I know this will be enjoyable for me.

1. Yes. Your parents. Next question.
2. Sister, Brittni, Ava, Alysa, Marquis, Josh, Grandpaps (2), Grandmothers (2), step-dad,

--Reminder to finish this tomorrow. It is 3:30 and I am really tired and making a lot of typos.-- ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9039146/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9039146/ Sun, 11 Jun 2006 17:15:57 PDT _<

What I did today:

- Got up at 11:30.
- Ate breakfast. (No...you think?)
- Um...did my hair and makeup.
- Performed in the Dance Recital. (Only Hip-hop. Jazz was teh yesterday.)
- Came home.
- Ate dinner.
- Oekaki-d.

And now it's eight-thirteen, so Otou-san should be calling soon. He'll talk to sis first though, because I said so. *maniacal laughter* Noooo. I'm being evil again. *smacks hand*

Britt's sleepover is Tuesday, and tomorrow (I think...) we're going to the art festival. (Vetch-san, did Nicole tell you about this?) But I dunno. I just know that from this day on, I get to sleep in. All Summer.

And may I throw my two cents in by saying that it's been flying rather quickly? *sobs* I don't wanna grow up. Being young an immature is fun. (Again, just ask Vetch-san.)

Hoping to work on my "pale," (that's as opposed to "tan")


--Kimiryu. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9020136/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/9020136/ Fri, 09 Jun 2006 15:34:49 PDT
Right now, I'm home from my dress rehearsal for my Dance Recital. I have to go back out at 7:30. ;_;

But I only have to do one dance, then I'll be back home. (And no longer look like a hooker from how much makeup I have to wear for this one stupid routine. )

*sigh* Ah, but school is over, again. Sucks that I won't see more than half of my friends over the Summer. Gosh, how busy I'll be! I'm sad just thinking about it.


List of things that I will/want to do this Summer:

(* Denotes certainty.)

- Go to one of Jackie's shows.
- *Go to Otakon.
- Get together with Jackie to work on teh manga...
- Taking Back Sunday Concert. (T_T Must...go...)
- *Improve my look. (AKA, stop looking like a dork. Well, I am a nunk, so that's a fair call...but maybe a few more chains and more dark clothes will do. <3 Lol.)
- *Practice teh drawings/oekaki muchly.
- Write an incredibly long fanfiction.
- *Keep my forums growing/running.
- Make a website to go along with my forums.
- *Watch much anime.
- Grow to about 500 posts at the Tekko forums. *dances*

That and more. Trust me, that's just a brief Summary.

Oh, yeah~! And my birthday is in six weeks. July 22nd?

Draw/Make me something? <3


--Kimiryu. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8985362/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8985362/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 06:31:19 PDT
I awoke at 5:30 to find my TV & Computer still on. I fell asleep watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force, a good show to fall asleep to, if you ask me. <33 (Twas a mooninites episode! =o Lomg.) So I realized that I had a half an hour to get ready for bed, because I'd be woken up in an hour and a half, anyway. I ended up getting up late (Tee hee. ) and was yelled at by my mom. (This was for not remembering to be measured for the pattern for my Dita costume. ;_; I honestly forgot. And Ava was so worked up about being sick yesterday that I couldn't just refuse to talk to her and make her even more uncomfy! >_< Mataku ne. I hate it when people make me choose between them. It's a disgusting thing to do, anyway.)

So then I was about to leave (my mother was watching a morning show about an honor's class student/musician that cut herself, which I'm an honor's class musician...and she was a little nicer on my way out. o_O Perhaps that had something to do with it? I don't know. It's not like she'd know if I did, anyway.)


English Final is next period. Wish me luck? It'll be easy...I'm thinking about majoring in English...

But art takes up a large part of my heart.

So...I ask myself, "Doshiyo?" v.v (Just try to translate that, Vetch-san. =o)


But I guess I'm young yet, so it doesn't matter, I just need to think about it in the next few years. I'm just awaiting my somewhat "hard-earned" Summer. I don't wish to get a 'C' in Math, but I may. Ah, well. It doesn't count on anything, anyway. I mean, come on. Only high school grades count, so screw it. Bleeeeeeeeeeehz.


In other news, I have an anime/gaming forum.


[link]


I like the layout. The coding part was done by someone on the Invision Free Layouts boards, BUT I made the banner so FU.

Don't know what to do now; six minutes left of Computer. Hmm~ >_>

I shall listen in on people's conversations.


Bye bye. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8937559/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8937559/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 06:35:47 PDT
Ack, I spent an hour yesterday scanning them all. Mataku ne.

I haven't done that quiz thing on Vetch's journal, yet, either.



Darn. I'm slipping.



Because I cannot wake up from my slumber on a regular basis, I rely on my mother and/or sister to wake me up. Today, neither of their alarms went off. Hence I missed first period, gym. (Score. =o)


One minute left. Adieu! ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8914513/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8914513/ Mon, 29 May 2006 18:37:43 PDT Birthday: July 22nd.
Birthplace: America.
Current Location: America.
Eye Color: Brown. (Shut up. I know what you're thinking and it's true.)
Hair Color: Dark Brown, nearly black. Lightens at the tips.
Height: Loooooooooooong.
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right.
Your Heritage: 'Bout 15% British, 35% Polish, and 50% Italian. Or something. >_<
The Shoes You Wore Today: Converse Low Tops. Black. +o+;
Your Weakness: People.
Your Fears: Being Alone, Heights.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni & Cheese.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Dunno, really.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Nyo, Wtf, I don't know.
Your Bedtime: Weekdays = 1:00 AM. Weekends: 5-6 AM.
Your Most Missed Memory: Being normal/loved.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi!!!!!1111111111111111
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King, though isn't it ironic that my Uncle owns over a dozen?
Single or Group Dates: I'd feel more comfortable with a group one, though I'd most prefer a single.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla. With oreos!
Cappuccino or Coffee: None.
Do you Swear: Online. Rarely in real life.
Do you Sing: Rather okay-ly. <3
Do you Shower Daily: Every other, usually. In crosscountry, daily, hellz yah.
Have you Been in Love: Ah...what a question.
Do you want to go to College: Durh.
Do you want to get Married: Perhaps. Yes.
Do you belive in yourself: Sometimes.
Do you get Motion Sickness: No.
Are you a Health Freak: No way...
Do you like Thunderstorms: No. My electricity goes out and I can't bitch and complain on my Xanga.
Do you play an Instrument: Violin. Semi-educated on flute/recorder/ocarina. Can't remember the piano for shit.
In the past month have you Drunk Alcohol: How about, never?
In the past month have you Smoked: See previous answer.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: See previous-previous answer.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Hells yah!! ^o^
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Not a box, but I'm eating oreos right now! Omfgzerz!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Try, NEVER.
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nup.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Never had a boyfriend, really.
Do you work: Nupz.

In a Boy/Girl...

Favourite Eye Color: Blue. <3<3<3
Short or Long Hair: Long. Preferably skater-ish hair. *dances*
Weight: Fit. Not like...flabby and jello-y. Ack. I'm mean.
Best Clothing Style: Le Gothick/Skater/Punk.

Number of Drugs I have taken: Are you stupid? *pokes at "have you drunk alcohol" answer*
Number of CDs I own: A lot.
Number of Piercings: Two. My ears. Me thinking another one in each ear, though. <3
Number of Tattoos: None. How silly.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Everyone regrets their past. But we can't can't change it. What a stupid question. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8870903/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8870903/ Thu, 25 May 2006 06:36:42 PDT
Dude, this font shows up really big, too.

Oh, well. I'm just doing this to prove that: A. I'm done with my homework, so I don't have to use compeh class as a study hall. B. I have a sub today. Surprised much? C. I want to comment on Zach's profile, but this stupid school server won't permit it. Prolly "Bess" the watchdog firewall, thingy. (Gosh, I hate it. )

Okay, so here is the comment to Zach regarding his reply to my reply to his journal entry:

If you go to Kennywood next year, perhaps Onee-chan will, too. Good! Yay! Because I told her to come to Kennywood THIS year, but she said that she wasn't told about it, and that she wouldn't want to go, anyway.

Concerning the whole crud that the school district is pulling, I for one am going to get whatever I want ( Wow, I sound really evil. Think well of my intentions, though. ^-^;; ) because I have a "GIEP" which is basically a document (Think GATE. Yay.) that my mom fills out each school year, telling the school what her expectations are for me to learn and do. So if my mom fills it out that the school must find a way for me to have Geometry, Art, Strings, AND a foreign language next year, legally...her "will be done."

So, I'm really (Somewhat.) pulling for the education of others. At this point, if it weren't for the fact that I'd miss a few close friends of mine, I'd probably skip into PHS next year. That's all considering the fact that I pass some tests but...

Blah. I don't want to skip it, so nevermind. >_<;

Yay for complaining in your journal. Four minutes left of Second Period.

Next is Mrs. Beatty's class. Ha! How ironic is that? We're doing those stupid bag stories--I don't know if you recall them--and they're due on Friday. Good Luck to me and my semi-literate group members. Blehhhhhhhhz.

The Awards Ceremony last night was fun, too. Lemme see if I can recall what it said on the back of the program. I changed it to be weird. It then went Something like this:

There are four types of people in this world. [Edit.]Those who stalk other people.[/Edit. ] Those who make things happen. Those who watch as things happen. Those who don't do anything. I've always strived to be the first.

Cheerio. Time to go. ^-^

--Seras. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8808478/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8808478/ Thu, 18 May 2006 14:25:25 PDT
Eek.

Me = Self-proclaimed "good," but seated towards the back of the section out of sheer "not-wanting-to-'challenge'-anyone-for-a-higher-ranked-seat."

Me = Whatever. All of my long-term projects got moved to Monday, so that's totally awesome.

I shall now take a quiz.




-THEATER KID--
[] Ever been in a High School play?
[x] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[] Seen more than 10 shows?
[] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[] Want to end up working in/for theater
[]Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
[x] Do you like the Sound of Music?
[] Did you like the Broadway show?
Total X: 3

--REDNECK--
[] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[] Do you like to get dirty?
[x] Do you like country music? (Minimalistically, but yeah. I guess. I am teh punk forever, though.)
[] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[x] Do you own a cowboy hat? (Dammit. >.> )
[] Do you live on more then 1 acres?
[] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?
Total X: 2

-GOTH--
[]Do you wear black eyeliner?
[x] Is most of your clothing dark? (teh w00t!)
[x] Do you think about death often? (It's poetic death, dahling. Plus I am a vampire, so shut it. =o)
[] Do you want to die?
[x] Are you a social outcast? (Needn't explain.)
[] Are you pale?
[x] Do you own something from Hot Topic? (I could count how many...but...)
[x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies? (Amusing. Yah.)
[] Are you mean? (I'm called mean by my BFF every day. If she's being honest, I don't know. I'm starting to draw this conclusion. >_<; But I honestly don't try to be.)
Total X: 6

--PUNK--
[] Can you skateboard?
[x] Do you wear Vans, dcs, converse, ect.?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do you have any piercings?
[] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[x] Are you a rebel without a cause?
[x] Have you called someone a poseur recently?
[x] Does it piss you off when people say poser instead of poseur? (References to Yaten AKA Princess. o_O)
Total X: 7

--PREP--
[x] Do you say the word "like" a lot?
[] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you?
[x] Do you laugh a lot?
[] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[] Do you like pop music?
[] do you want/have a little dog?
[] Do you smile a lot?
[] Do you hang out with your friends alot?
[x] Do you always carry a purse/wallet. (My purse of death with 20 pins on it. =o)
Total X: 3

--HIPPIE--
[x] Is your hair long?
[] Do you own a tye-dye shirt? (I'll be damned if I can find it, so no.)
[] Do you want to save the animals?
[] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[] Do you play a ukulele or os?
[] Do/have you ever smoked the peace pipe?
[] Do you wear a peace sign around your neck?
[] do you just sit in the grass with your friends and play guitar?
Total X: 2

--GANGSTA--
[] Do you act ghetto?
[] Do you wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop?
[] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[] Do you believe he's alive?
[] Do you like afros?
[] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[x] Do you like to dance? (I'm in dance class and I went to a J-pop Rave. I think so.)
[] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 2

--EMO--
[] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like hard music?
[x] Do people not understand you?
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[] Have you ever cut yourself
[x] Are you LONELY? (For a guy who cares, most definitely. ;_; )
[x] Do you like ohio is for lovers by Hawthorne Heights?
[x] Do you think a lot?
Total X: 7

--SURFER--
[] Do you surf? (Body surf. Ha ha.)
[x] Do you wear flip flops year-round? (Yah.)
[] Is your hair... ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8741319/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8741319/ Thu, 11 May 2006 15:15:33 PDT
Durn. No fair.


'Tis why I shall update here.

Okay, waaaaay back on April 17th, I updated last. Since then we::

- Won in Regional SOINC.
- Got 19th in State SOINC. (Not bad out of 35 other teams and going for the FIRST FRIGGIN' TIME.)
- Found out that someone dumped someone else making someone able to officially like someone. >.> ...if you caught that...
- Was comissioned to do a pic for a twenty-something-year-old guy.
- Finished the comission 2-3 weeks later because haven't been out to Dad's house in awhile.
- Going to give him comission this Saturday.



- Must now go eat dinner. =*

Huggles to all, as always. <3

--Kimiryu. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8501155/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8501155/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 15:15:48 PDT
My friend called me on a day off (Spring Break, durh...). She was like, "Do you wanna go see Stay Alive with me?" I'm like, "Err...right now? I kinda can't..." And she's like, "When, then?" and I'm like, "Monday all I'm doing is shopping so...try then?" and she's like, "Nooo! My mom won't let me out of the house, my brother's coming into town... TT___TT;;;" and I'm like, "Ack. Talk to you then?" and that's pretty much the conversation. (Sorry for the super long run-on.) (Person was ~Malvenicus, actually!)

Anyway though, I get a call today. Three in a row, as a matter of fact. It's her. She tells me that she's allowed to go see Stay Alive anyway, so we went. I wasn't too keen on going to a scary movie today, but she/we made fun of parts to make it so much less scary that it didn't even matter. I loved the movie. I liked the plot and the main character was hot. (XD) Yes, I'm an idiot. But the video-game-comes-alive plot just blows me away. It's sorta like a good dream I had and a plot that I wrote up for an upcoming manga. Quee!

Good Day?:: Teh yes. <3 ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8295218/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8295218/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 13:38:26 PST
Me: *typetypetypetypetype*
Everyone Else (Three people, a flute, and a xylophone in the background): Blahbalhbbalhbalhksdfkjsdf.
Me: Nyoo. =.=;;; ~DEAD~~~.

What else can I say? I can't do anything. I have like, what? A half an hour here, still. And...like...*twitchtwitch*

I would practice Mystery Architecture. BUT.

I...

A. Don't really care.
B. Don't have supplies.
C. Feel like talking to someone/something.

~The Moping

Kimiryu. ]]> ~Kimiryu http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8237838/ http://Kimiryu.deviantart.com/journal/8237838/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 14:55:32 PST

I just burnt a CD of manga scanlations for one of my friends.
@_@ She's been bugging me for weeeeeeeeeks.

Creed and Franz Ferdinand songs STUCK. IN. MY. HEAD.

PS: [Guess what I'd say here.] ]]> ~Kimiryu