http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Kitsune-Ryu&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Kitsune-Ryu en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 12:23:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/26502203/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/26502203/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 10:09:58 PDT
I'm still going to try to use this as a gallery, I've just been distracted with other things which have kept me from updating all that much.

Also I've discovered that I really have no fondness for friending favoriting and adding and all that blah blah blah.

People who live out there lives with the internet as their premier channel for friendships and interaction have something wrong with them, something preventing them from functioning reliably in the real world, and thus they turn to the internet.

I did that for a year, it was one of the most lonely and emotionally stunted years of my life.

I'm back to reality now.

Now if you will excuse me, I have other things to do.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/25041165/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/25041165/ Sat, 30 May 2009 21:43:12 PDT
Except maybe that I just didn't darn well feel like it. A big part of why I haven't been posting more images is because the copy of photoshop I have loaded on my lappy is officially bunked, as soon as I try to edit any of my own photography it freezes up and is unusable. MS paint is fairly limited in what I can do as far as editing, and right now, it's the best I have.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24641008/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24641008/ Thu, 07 May 2009 18:52:44 PDT
(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total: 9

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) Anchorman
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
( ) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 18

(x) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 24

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 33

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 42

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG (yea, I know I know... but srsly.. whats the point, everyone already knows the WHOLE story.)
Total so far: 49

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 58

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 66

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 75

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2 (bad boys, but not bad santa? again... srsly?)
( ) Joy Ride
(x) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremacy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 86


(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
Total so far: 94

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
(x) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 105

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3 (it was crud)
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider-Man 3
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
(x) Shrek 3
Total so far: 121

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(x) Kri... ]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24591669/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24591669/ Mon, 04 May 2009 20:02:28 PDT
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark








Home now. Going to take a shower, and go to bed.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24294446/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24294446/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 16:43:17 PDT
Right now the road I am on is very very far from home.

Like the other side of the world.

Seriously, right now I'm sitting in my brothers apartment. In Nagoya, Japan.

Yea, I know, quite a trip huh?

It's currently about 8:30 am here, or 4:30pm at home.

Getting here took me about 20 hours, all told. the main flight from the north American continent to Tokyo took a bit over 10 hours, the other 10 came from a combination of two connection flights and the layovers involved.

I'll be jacking my brother's internet while I'm here. Yay for the fact that the internet is the internet.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24137554/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/24137554/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 21:00:41 PDT
Not feeling too bad, all things considered.

Lost my job last week, but hey, that happens, especially in my trade. Nice thing is, I don't have to actively look for a job to claim unemployment, because I'm on the 'out-of-work-book' through the union, and when work comes, I will be there.

Course, right now its looking like I could be out of work for a month to 2 months...

So i was on the phone to my big bro earlier and he said to me "hey, since your not working... if you don't mind crashing on a couch, why don't you come over here and hang out with me and Satchika for a week or two"

'Over Here' is Nagoya, Japan. By the way. And hell effing yes I would LOVE to.

So I've been looking up flight information, since I don't have a car payment or rent to worry about at the moment, and I've found some flights for only $700

So I may go spend a couple weeks at my bro's place in japan this month. If I do, I promise LOTS of pictures.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23804215/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23804215/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 20:45:24 PDT
Me and my first new car have had our fist collision.

I was rear ended into the car ahead of me.

I wasn't in as much pain as I thought I would be this morning but my back is slowly starting to hurt more and more. No broken bones thankfully, my left arm is very sore however, mostly because I braced on the wheel with that arm.

Went to the Emergency room last night and saw my chiropractor this morning. I've been prescribed painkillers and muscle relaxers.

My front right headlight is smashed out, and the right rear of my car is dented up onto the rear door as well as crumpled up past the rear wheel. Its already in the shop to be fixed up and so far its looking like the insurance for the car that struck me from behind will be accepting liability.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23619104/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23619104/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 22:45:39 PDT
Its SNOWING outside.

Talk about 'back to reality' 80 to snowing.

So I'm listening to Dido 'Sand In My Shoes' because it's very very fitting.

And my cat, The Peach, is sitting next to me, purring like a storm and just... staring at me. He seemed more confused than anything else when we got home, and a bit scared. Like ha had forgotten that he lived with people. I felt pretty bad for a bit, but he relaxed fairly quickly and all is now good.

On one hand, I will definitely miss Maui, but it's not like I can't go again sometime if I really want to, so I can deal with it. It was a lovely lovely place.

My favorite part wasn't the sun or the beaches or the 'tropical paradise' or the things you normally think of when you think about Hawaii.

It was the whales.

Allow me to explain - Hawaii is the favorite calving and breeding ground of the pacific humpback whale, nearly two thirds of the WORLDWIDE population of these amazing, enormous, awe-inspiring animals pass through the islands between December and April. Ans the beginning of March is the peak of the season.

Just sitting on the beach, any beach, pick a random beach, you could see them. Spouts of water vapor on the horizon, a giant shape rising up then crashing down in a breach, tails being slapped and thrown across the water. It was humpback soup.

And head for snorkeling just off the shore... You could HEAR them. The faint trails of their songs echoed through the offshore reefs like the sound of distant sirens, calling you away from reality. It was magical.

I will definitely go again, and at this same time of year.

And I will bring a better lens/camera.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23521221/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23521221/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 09:28:21 PST
Happy to have free cable internet in our condo, so I can log on and stuff.

Dragging my camera everywhere so I've already started uploading the first few pictures for you guys.

Luau tonight so that should get me some nice pics.

Have to get going now, we're getting ready to hit the road!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23240735/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/23240735/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 17:41:41 PST
Mum and da gave me a necklace, it lovely.

I've been looking at some retreats aimed for helping develops oneself as a shaman, its a journey that I started a few years ago, when I realized that while I could never 'not' be spiritual, religion and I were not going to be seeing eye to eye any time soon.

I'm reaching a point where I will need someone more experienced to guide me along the next few steps, I'm hoping to fin someone who lives close enough that I can keep in contact.

I've been so busy working overtime these last few weeks that I turned around and realized that in only two weeks I will be out of the state for a week. Looking forward to some sunshine, sand, surf, tropical fishies, and all those lovely Hawaiian flowers.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22867636/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22867636/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 14:52:37 PST
The reason for that is the aforementioned staph infection, followed by two weeks of snowstorms that denied me access to work.

So I missed 3 weeks of work and was therefore unable to book the awesome 2 night stay in Vegas that we had been planning on. Currently looking at the suites in a themes hotel at the largest mall in north America - West Edmonton Mall in Alberta Canada. Mostly because I saw a special on it on the history channel and decided that was going to be a 'destination' for us.

Yea that's pretty much how I plan all my traveling - "Ohh that looks kewl... HEY HUN!! I know where we're going next!!!"

Still hoping to find a more..... at the very least 'semi' permanent fix to the travel problem between us. Still looking at 2 bdrm condo's in the vague hope that that shall at least alleviate some of the pressure.

In other news - Currently reading Twilight. Oh god why?? Well ... mostly because when a bunch of teenage girls tell me 'its soooo awesome and Edward is sooooooo hot" I pretty much just brush it off. But when my microbiologist friend who is well educated, 25, professional, mature and intelligent tells me "Its a pretty good read, the characters are amusing and its an interesting new take on the vampire mythos" Then I just get very very confused and decide I have to read it for myself.

So, I promise to post a review when I'm done, Im halfway through the first book right now and all I can say is - I expected worse. The author overwrites herself which is annoying, and I'm halfway through and still waiting for it to GO SOMEWHERE... but I really expected worse. We shall have to see.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22678301/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22678301/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 16:48:59 PST
Part of why I haven’t updated in a long time is because we had a ton of snow around Christmas, so now I’m pulling huge amounts of overtime at work as our job pushes to make up for lost time. I’m pretty tired because I’ve been working pretty much 7 days a week right now. And I’m a bit moody because I’m tired, in pain, and things keep not working right so I’m spending my even more scant few free moments fixing shit that should work.

Recently I cleaned out my msn contact list, erasing every person whose last contact with me I couldn’t really remember, or anyone who never actually contacted me, thereby forcing me to put forth every ounce of effort in the socialization. Now I know that moving the mouse a couple inches to the side of your screen, double clicking a name, and typing in Hi isn’t a lot of effort, so you may be wondering what the issue is… but seriously, ITS NOT AN EFFORT so why the hell can’t someone who will say that they like you and you are their friend, manage it even once a month? Or even every other month?

Think of any real life friend you have… does one of you out forth every single ounce of effort involved in being friend? Does one of you always initiate every scrape of contact, start every single conversation, come up with every single topic? Hell fucking no.

Because being friends is a two way street. You BOTH have to put up some sort of an effort or else its not friendship.

Or maybe I’m crazy and its perfectly normal to have a friend who wouldn’t even know if you got in a horrific car accident and died, unless someone else told them. Personally, I don’t think that’s normal, and people assuming they can use me to their liking and I will be happy with it pisses me off. I’m not your fucking doormat.

One of the people that consistently ignores me until I step up to the plate and say hi told me she doesn’t like the fact that I’m not always happy. Well…. Sorry I have a real life that requires that I go to work and make money and pay bills and take care of shit and have people that rely on me. Sorry if I have to be a little bit serious for two seconds every once in a while, and sorry if I get a bit annoyed by the fact that I can not say hi to you for an entire month, and despite being online every day, and seeing me online, EVERY DAY you cant even click on my name once and say ‘hey, haven’t heard from you in a while, what’s up?’ Maybe if I didn’t feel like the old bike rusting in the back of the garage I would be a bit more frivolous towards you. But maybe its better this way; I mean… I really do prefer nonsensical conversations about being able to keep a stargate in your pocket over chats about underwear.

Soooo to sum it up, I’m tired. I’m cranky. I fucking hurt. Its Monday and I haven’t had a single morning sleep in for over two weeks, and I count sleep in as ‘get up after 7 am’ not…. Noon or something like that, I have things I need to be doing more than writing this journal but me feet hurt so much that walking downstairs really just seems too goddamn far away, I think I’m getting sick which means I will be going to work sick because I cant miss any more hours, and I’m probably not going to have a job after I come back from vacation, but I’m fucking going to Hawaii because if I don’t, I probably never will. And I know I’m tired because I’m sitting upright and I feel like in tilted at a 45 degree angle and the desk is spinning just a bit. Oh and I’m giving one last glorious “FUCK YOUR BULLSHIT” to the internet social scene. My Girlfriend is a far more constructive use of my time than your teenage wangst. Cleaning my toilet would be a better use of my time.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22341249/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/22341249/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 20:00:31 PST
Much better than last year, even if I wasn't able to spend them with my sweetie. Fingers are crossed for next year.

Seattle got majorly snowed in, there's still some lingering snow in places... in some area's of the world that's totally normal. Not so here.

Between health and weather I was home for about three weeks in total, which nixed my plans to spend valentines weekend in Las Vegas, but we are hoping that by valentines I will be moved out and in my own condo.... so we may get a nice quiet and romantic weekend together anyways.

My oldest brother was in town for 10 days with his girlfriend, which was a lot of fun. Since he lives in Japan now we hadn't seen him for a year, and we hadn't had the chance to meet Sachika yet, so that was a lot of fun.

She likes to shop so they did a TON of shopping, and I tagged along for a good deal of it, she maintains that my Japanese is very good but I know she's just being polite, mt accent may be practiced but my sentence structure needs a lot of work and I get the meanings of different words messed up.

I got a lot of nice things for Christmas this year, but I think the best was having so much time off from work, without having to stress over it since the whole job site was shut down, to spend with my family and with my brother whom I don't really get to see very often now.

One of my favorite gifts was a couple of gift cards that allowed me to buy some very expensive books that I've wanted for a long time, about digital camera's and photoshop.

One of my camera lenses was broken, thankfully I have everything under full warranty and I have service plans for all of my equipment as well, so its getting fixed for free, and now that the big holidays are past I'm going to be bringing in my camera body and other lens for a full cleaning and factory reset; To get ready for valentines ( *winks* ) and also for the family trip that's going to be in Hawaii this year.

It wont be easy without my camera, but I've dug out my old one to keep me from going nuts while its being cleaned.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/21893009/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/21893009/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 04:57:34 PST
Today I'm going to be home, and probably online most of that time. I have an infection in my leg, and the doctor says that its most likely staff, possibly mrsa.

So right now I'm planting out on the couch in front of the tv with my leg propped up and the laptop in front of me, and checking my temperature every so often.

That's pretty much it.

LoneHowler - Thanks as always for all your support. And for letting my call you and wake you up and make you distract me while the doctor plays vampire and makes me into a pincushion.


**** E D I T ****

Ok, so it's been a week since I was first told the sore on my leg was a staph infection, and it was found to be normal old staph. The doctor 'lanced' the infection on wednesday, which is to say the doctor took a scalpel and cut me open, and it is still healing slowly. The cut has to heal from the bottom up, so it takes its time.

I missed an entire week of work due to this infection, and now because of a sudden snowstorm I'm actually missing more time, although I'm a little bit because I'm still 100% and I found out recently that I am apparently allergic to the antibiotics that I was on.

I've never known that I had an allergy before.

Not only that but the drug was sulfameth/trimeth, which I know from my work with horses as just 'sulfa' as its commonly prescribed to horses. It isn't incredibly common for use in humans, which is good and bad for me. Its not something doctors prescribe as often, so it's less likely to be a complication, but at the same time if I ever DO get an antibiotic resistant MRSA infection.... that's one of the few drugs that MRSA actually responds to...... *le~ sigh* And for the next few days until it clears up I have a rash of itchy spots all over my ._.

Thanks again for all your love, time, and support.

(and if my friend Kristal used the internet and had enough free time that she actually came to dA often enough to make her own account, her icon would always be here, for always picking up the phone and just, being there, whenever I needed her. If I had a big sister in real life, she would be her.)

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/21773423/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/21773423/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 19:18:54 PST
Doing pretty well, all things considered. Busy busy busy as always.

I've been requested for what will be my first professional photography gig, I've been asked to be the official photographer for a show in May, with a portion of my proceeds going to the show sponsor of course, and the rest to me. I'm still considering the offer, since it will be quite an undertaking... but I'm leaning towards yes.

I'm having a love affair with eBay right now. Srsly.

And the new E-Type album, despite all complaints about the new lead female vocal, is the shit. Cant stop playing it, even drug out the mp3 connection for my car so I can play it on the drive to work.

Oh, there's a big change. Got rid of my old contractor finally, and now I'm one ant among many on the largest job currently in progress in our local - the microsoft west campus expansion. If I can get my camera out there someday and snap some shots after my shift, I'll toss 'em up here. This job is MASSIVE, and I'm parking in the second largest underground parking structure in the world.

So yea, things are good here.

All my love

All the emotional support and fuzzy hugs that she needs

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20936180/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20936180/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 11:43:02 PDT
Yes, I am still alive, and yes, I am still playing internet hermit.

I'm not really sure why, but the less time I spend online, the less I WANT to spend time online. I think maybe I've just had enough of feeling like every time I sign into msn I'm stepping back into high school being surrounded by petty 'he said, she said'

I just really hate "I told so and so you said 'blah' and they think that's stupid/childish/etc"

I'm not going to rant about all the things that have been slowly pissing me off, because all that's going to accomplish is a bunch of offended birds ruffling their feathers about how I'm trying to 'start drama' and crap.

And now I'm going to totally counter my own self in saying that I really am going to try to be on msn more often in the near future. Mostly because I feel obligated to do so.

There are people that I mostly talk with on msn only, and people that refuse to contact me, or grant me means to contact them, in any other way. So if I want to keep any contact with these friends of mine I must do so through my computer.

Also their are people whom I have promised to roleplay with, and I feel that in telling someone I am going to do something, it means that I actually WILL do that thing.

That isn't meant to make any of my rp partners feel bad or anything, honestly. If I didn't want to rp with you, I never would have told you I would. I do enjoy the roleplay, and none of the people that I have rp's ongoing with have had anything to do with why I don't want to be on msn.

I would have posted this journal sooner, but sickness, a power outage, and an 'on the job' injury have also given me cause to just... not turn on the computer.

As always, those who wish to reach me by phone are welcome to do so. I have a prepaid calling card that I can use to contact people as well. calling cards are very useful things I have discovered. Especially the international ones.


Every time I say its going to be a short journal it turns out to be a page or so long huh? Guess its obvious that the literary arts are more my forte than drawing is. Thanks and kudos to anyone who actually read this.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20642905/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20642905/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 20:22:35 PDT for 10 days, now she is back where she belongs in the great maple leaf country.

Had a great time, did a TON of stuff, not really gunna list it all out, that would take forever.

The most amazing thing was that my cat, the peach, LOVES her. My sister in law can barely pet that cat when I am holding him, he is so shy... but he let Howlie come right up to him and hold him, the very first night. I'm still a bit in shock.

Aside from that, I will be posting some pictures when I get around to it, I have a lot of stuff to do right now.

Not really gunna be around on dA or on msn for a while. I've created a second msn account. Mostly I'll be giving it to IRL friends.

Other than that... pretty much all my good friends on dA have my phone number, and can call me if they wish to.

Thank you again :iconcrystal-of-chaos: for the concern and wondering where I had vanished to. It really means a lot.

So then. crys, chai, reap and wix all have my number. If you cant get a hold of my through msn or just want to call, ask wix (lonehowler), I hear from her often enough that she can pass on the request for my number, and I can decide if I want to give it to you. (Elisa, if you lost it, ask Mike.)


I think I'm just gunna be a internet hermit for a while.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20103096/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/20103096/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:24:59 PDT and it kinda took off into it's own amazing little world so we've decided to start writing it up as a fic, the prologue can be found on both our pages, at some point we will be making a joint account on AFF.net for it.

The story title is They Shall Rise Again and its set in a post-apocalyptic sorta Irkin empire, about 300 years after a terrifying plague reduced the entire Irkin race to a number about 8% of its original amount, the story is filled with deception and lies and intrigue as our main players work to bring to light an ages old plot, complete with attempted genocide, that changed the face of the entire species... and was quietly swept under the rug.

Aside from that... my future is busy.

This Saturday is my last big show of the season (wish me luck!)

Next Saturday (and Sunday) is the Bumbershoot music festival

Weekend after that my horse will be competing at the State fair

Weekend after that... ohhh what was it again... oh ya.. LONEHOWLER IS COMING TO SEATTLE!!!! WOOOOOOT!!!!!

After that I get a weekend or so to rest before my next set of required classes starts again for the apprenticeship.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19877304/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19877304/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 11:11:33 PDT

Forgot to bring my camera and was very sad about that, so I have no pictures of the native dancers and their costumes, which were AMAZING.

Thankfully the friend I went with is also a photographer and let me take his camera (a totally GORGEOUS canon worth twice my Nikon... someday eh?) and worm my way through the concert crowds to the very front, RIGHT against the stage. I got some GREAT pictures and when I see him again he will be giving them to me and I'll be posting some of course.

Got a new necklace,(another) new sarong, some seed beads for a great price...

An autograph and a chat with the lead singer of The English Beat

An autograph, hug and picture with the lead singer of The Gin Blossoms

A high five and autographed guitar pick from Smash Mouth (who sadly did not do full autographs because apparently they forgot they were supposed to get packed before they went on stage and had to rush out of the venue ;_; we did wait but ... no sign-age)

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19544445/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19544445/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 19:41:08 PDT
An explanation.

I have been a 4-H'er for many years and actually am a founding member of a club that still carries on, competing proudly within our local county and sending riders to the state team level every year.

The weekend of July 19-20 was King County Fair, and the seniors division of our club was out in full force against the best riders from the county. My own horse, Robin, was there to compete as well.

To put it bluntly, I came home with over 2,000 pictures of the horses, the girls, the other 4-H divisions (dogs, cows, cats, rabbit etc)a sunburn, and a memories of yet another wonderful fair.

I missed the night that somebody blew up a port-a-potty at around midnight, sadly, but I got to hear ALL about it, several times over.

I have sorted my pictures into a 'short list' to be posted, and once that is done I need to sort pictures to be put on disks for various 4-H'ers and their mum's.

I will be posting only a couple of pictures at a time until all are posted, since I don't want to spam you're in boxes.

I swear... I need to get myself a subscription now.. mebbe next week XD

And just wait.... Hopefully come September I will have a ton of pics from our run at the STATE TEAM!

Congratulations and GOOD LUCK To all my M.M. Girls!!!


In Other News.... I LOVE CHAI!



]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19460619/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19460619/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 08:25:46 PDT
I’m tired. I just am. Not tired as in “I need to go to bed” but tired as in “I don’t know how much longer I can do this.”

Because once again, just when I think I may finally get the one thing in this world that I actually truly want more than anything else, it’s gone. Again. It gets a teeny bit tiring after a while.

Admittedly all chances are not totally lost, and to be true I’m heeding the warnings and concerns of someone that I do believe in on this, but given that that someone just got everything I want, dropped into their lap without even trying…. Sometimes I just wonder why I even put out the effort anymore.

I’m being cynical, I know, but what can I say... A very good friend of mine may be dying and just when I think my love life might actually work the way I want it to, its not. After a few years of watching everyone around me get it, I just want mine. Even if only for a little bit. I’m tired, and I’m lonely, and sometimes I just wonder what the fuck is the point anymore.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19339524/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19339524/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 16:43:55 PDT
I would like to give a general apology if I seem a bit emotional or touchy about different subjects.

A very dear friend of mine recently admitted to finding out he has cancer, he actually didn't tell me until only a few days before his first surgery, because he didn't want people to worry.

What really has me upset is that his boss, whom I have also known and respected for quite some time, is already putting him back to work, at a very physically demanding job, less than two weeks after he had major abdominal surgery.

She isn't letting him use his accumulated paid vacation time as sick leave for this.

She's telling him that the chemo wont be that bad, that "He should be back on his feet and back to work in no time"

Pretty much everyone involved in this, including myself, is really feeling very let down by this. My friend has admitted to feeling completely betrayed, and wanting to just get in a truck and leave for a few weeks, just to get away and rest.

Because of social politics, there isn't a whole lot people can say to this woman, and she doesn't really listen to what people are already saying anyways.

Someone I love very much may be dying. Someone else I love very much has let me down more so than I had ever thought possible.

So right now, I'm a bit touchy, and very depressed, and lost, and confused, and if I seem a bit more sensitive or moody to things you may think normally wouldn't bother me, thats why.

I know I haven't said anything about this for quite a while, this is a personal issue with my off-line life, and I have tried to keep it from affecting my interactions here as much as I can. But recently its becoming more and more difficult. So now you all know whats going, and why I've been a bit... short on my usual zen.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19112693/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19112693/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 16:07:07 PDT

So here is my version of the naughty character quiz -

Alright! Lets start out by introducing your characters. ( You may use as many as you want. )

Ghant
-And since its about time I pimped my other characters too…-
Jamie
Khaz
Ash
Ophelia

1. Cool, so, lets see.... how old were you when you first lost it?
Ghant: *shrugs* dunno…
Jamie: *blush* uhmm.. well, I’m 22 and I still … ‘have it’ ….
Khaz : Hmmm….. 15.. ish.. I think, hard to remember that far back
Ash: …….. about 20
Ophelia: 14

2. Do you remember who it was?
Ghant: … no
Jamie: <_< please refer to the previous question
Khaz : .. pretty lil thing.. dun remember her name….
Ash: <_<…………….>_>………. Marcus Flint.. but don’t tell Ghant ._.
Ophelia: *shrugs* I dunno, some boy

3. Alrighty then, how often do you fap it? ;D
Ghant;… Dun really need to so much right now, but… when I feel like it? *shrugs*
Jamie: …………… ****._.**** no!
Khaz : only when somebody wants to watch
Ash: I don’t really need to
Ophelia: oh, few times a week, unless I find someone to take care of that for me

4. Bondage?
Ghant: ……. No. Well, if Wix or Sai wanted to be tied up I would do that, for them
Jamie: *nosebleed* what kind of quiz is this!?!?! NOOO!!
Khaz ; sure, why not?
Ash: ehhh… I’ll tie up others
Ophelia: only if your gentle, I like silk personally

5. Oh! I forgot, where was the location where you first lost it?
Ghant:…… desert?
Jamie: ._.
Khaz : training barraks
Ash; <_< on a bed…
Ophelia: ohhh.. the backseat of his daddies car <3

6. Are you taken? And if so, have you slept around secretly? << >>
Ghant; yea, I guess I am now.. and secretly? .. no ^_^;;
Jamie: ._. ………………
Khaz ; Kinda, depends on what verse your looking at, but I’m not much into secrets
Ash: yes, and maybe
Ophelia: not taken

7. Do you get jealous easily when someone you like/love shows affection to another?
Ghant; <_< … mayyyybeee……
Jamie: …… This one I can answer. Yes.
Khaz : … yes
Ash: definitly
Ophelia: no, not relly

8. Have you.... slept with a relative?
Ghant; <_< not that I know of…
Jamie: O_o NO! Oh Dear Gods NO!
Khaz : possibly
Ash: yea, my brother. He’s the one I’m ‘taken’ to
Ophelia:…. Wouldn’t you like to know *winks*

9. Have you.... had sex in public?
Ghant: … yes
Jamie: ._.
Khaz : yep
Ash: yea
Ophelia: does it count as public if there are people around but nobody see’s you?

10. Have you.... fapped in public?
Ghant; ……. Yes =3
Jamie: ._. fapped? I don’t…. know that word >_>
Khaz : no
Ash…. no, I dun think so <_<;;;;
Ophelia: no

11. Have you.... given a fellatio?
Ghant: yes ^_^
Jamie: ._. *lost again*
Khaz : yea….
Ash: … of course
Ophelia yes

12. Have you.... received a fellatio?
Ghant: yes ^_^
Jamie: ._. … *still lost*
Khaz : ..yeeessss……
Ash: yea
Ophelia; you mean cunnilingus? yes

13. From who?
Ghant: Umm…. Wix, Meersai, Jek…. A bunch of other people whose names I can’t remember
Jamie: ._. ……………
Khaz : my mate and some other’s
Ash: my bro..ghant.. couple other’s here and there
Ophelia: *shrugs* different people

14. Have you ever passed out in the act?
Ghant: <_< from blood loss….. not a …. ‘consensual act’
Jamie: ._. … eeep
Khaz : no
Ash: yes
Ophelia: no

15. Threesome?
Ghant: and foursomes, and moresomes ^_^
Jamie: *PALE*
Khaz : sure, I guess
Ash; ummm…. maybe
Ophelia: sounds like fun

16. Who would you wanna do a threesome with?
Ghant: that I haven’t had either of them? *thinks* Um….. Moth and Vermeil would be awesome I bet….
Jamie: …………………um,,…. No?
Khaz : that’s a good question… I dunno, lemme think about it
Ash; I’ve had ‘em with Ghant and my brother, and occasionally my brother and other people
Ophelia: who would I want to? Um… someone hot I guess

17. Any secret crushes?
Ghant; ………… secret? Not really
Jamie: Nel but… I don’t think that’s a secret
Khaz: no, not really
Ash: a bit of one
Ophelia: nope

18. Ever woken up in someone's house that you don't know/
Ghant: ._. yes
Jamie: ….. does falling out of a tree when I was 5 and waking up the couch of the new doc... ]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19009864/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/19009864/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:02:32 PDT for a long weekend, mini vacation thinger.

Got ass-raped by customs and they weren't even very POLITE about it. I didn't even get a candy bar, let along a box of chocolates and flowers.

NOTE : Telling foreign customs that you met the person your visiting on a website called DEVIANT art... gets you very strange looks.

Thankfully the US customs coming home pretty much just waved me right on through when they saw I has a USA Passport.

Had a great time, went to see one of the nearby national parks, got a TON of great pics. Got to soak in the hot springs and see some totally awesome wildlife up close.

Went swimming at the local wave pool, had a blast. they had a ball on a rope that you could swing from. Me WANT

Spent most or our time poking each other ^_^;;; Read that to mean what you will

Have been invited/demanded to make another trip up really soon, by both Howlie AND her parents <3 I was told that I am ALWAYS welcome and am STRONGLY encouraged to come up for next year's local holiday festival.

And have learned that I have a loud stomach, apparently. That is to say, Howlie was laying on mah belleh and we spent about an hour laughing as my belleh yelled at her quite creatively.

Have successfully added at least 5 Canadians to the cult of Snickerdoodles, and in return been fed nanaimo bars, nutella, and putine.

Tired now, may expand upon this journal at some point when I have more time.

Also expect something of a photo dump >_> possibly spread out over the next few days because i wont have a lot of time.

Oh! and for those who are thinking "Oh yei! Ryu is home nao, this weekend = RP TIME!!!" Please be informed that I don't know how much time I'll have to be online this weekend, I have been informed that a very good friend of mine who used to do professional grade custom plaster cast face masks has recently been inspired and has decided to see if he can turn me into a fox. SO! At some point this weekend I will likely be sitting on his couch with my head covered in plaster.

At least now I think I know what I'm doing as far as costuming for the next con ^_^;;

I've been informed that this level of work is HIGHLY demanded by costumers and cos-players and can be expensive. I'm excited, I'm getting it done free by someone who used to be very good in the business of it, even if he has been out for a while.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18668864/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18668864/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 19:30:10 PDT
EVERYBODY WHO KNOWS WHAT A SNICKERDOODLE IS PLEASE RAISE YOUR HAND!

I know I can't be the only one.

Why am I asking this? Because from what I can tell, and maybe its just a USA vs Canada thing... but north of the border no one seems to know what these lovely confections are!

So I decided to ask because I'm curious... what area (generally) are you from and DO YOU KNOW WHAT SNICKERDOODLES ARE?

Cuz srsly.. anyone who doesnt is missing out on one of the best cookies in the world. I dont care what you guys say about chocolate chip, keep it. I want muh Snickerdoodles!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18262145/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18262145/ Sat, 10 May 2008 18:48:57 PDT



Rules:

Pick as many characters as you want. ( Preferably one. )

This is a character quiz, as in they are answering it, not you.

1. What's your name?

Ghant: …. Ghant, well Ghanteshna

2. Really. How old are you?

Ghant: umm…. About 120ish. Not totally sure on my exact age.

3. Are you a guy or a girl?

Ghant: ………………… Yes.

4. How tall?

Ghnat: <_< 5’1” ….. on a good day

5. What's your sexual orientation?

Ghant: … usually horizontal, occasionally vertical, but I’m flexible

6. Do you like anybody?

Ghant: yes

7. Who is it?

Ghant: Meersai and Wix are… very important to me

8. Are you a virgin?

Ghant: ……………… no

9. Where was your first sexual experience?

Ghant: I don’t remember.

10. Do you have family?

Ghant: My daughter Ophelia, my grandson Dax. And most of my first lover’s relatives consider me family still, but I don’t see them very often.

11. Friends?

Ghant: A few.

12. Respect anyone?

Ghant: Yea

13. Look up to anyone?

Ghant: ….. 5’1” Remember? I look up to most of the world.

14. What're you afraid of?

Ghant: …None of your business

15. Do you talk to yourself?

Ghant: Maybe

16. What do you like to wear?

Ghant: Loose clothing

17. What do you do for money?

Ghant: Kill people

18. Are you poor or rich?

Ghant: I have food in the kitchen, fuel in the engine, and people to spend my time with so I would consider myself to be well of at this point in my life.

19. Do you hate anyone?

Ghant: A few people, most of them are dead now.

20. Are you smart or stupid?

Ghant: well, I don’t really have an education, but I’m not an idiot… so it depends on your point of view.

21. Favorite food?

Ghant: Spicy stuff, sweet stuff, and anything fed to me by Meersai or Wix

22. Favorite weapon?

Ghant: Fia. She’s a ship-mounted small scope cannon that I modified for hand use. She’s about as big as me ^_^

23. This is a very disorganized quiz, isn't it?

Ghant: I don’t know, I’m not really an expert on these things.

24. Sex?

Ghant: Sure why not… where?

25. K bai.

Ghant: Pretty quick aren’t you. Bai

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18137633/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/18137633/ Fri, 02 May 2008 18:04:38 PDT
Not much going on, at least, not much that I want to journal about on dA anyways.

4-H show season has officially begun, so at some point I may even have some nice new pictures to post. Trying to save up for a good camera, also looking at saving up a deposit for a condo of my own AND building a new PC because my current system is A) Old and B) semi tanked due to a defective USB port in the new motherboard.

Trying to find time to work on S.S. but with work its hard, also I've been RPing a LOT so.... that distracts me too.

Still havent been able to get to see my BF yet, he's working on getting a passport so he can come here at least, since I'm not welcome to visit at his house and can't really afford a hotel on top of airfare across the border/continent.

Have decided I need a hot chick in the Seattle area to LARP irkin smut with. Any volunteer's?
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.
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Yea, didn't think so.

Thats about it. Blah.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/17612979/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/17612979/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 19:36:45 PDT
I am the guy who came out to the entire school in his senior speech
and got a standing ovation for his courage.

I am the girl who kisses her girlfriend on the sidewalk and laughs at
those who glare.

We are the couple who planned and studied and got a damn good lawyer
and BEAT the state that wanted to take our child away.

We are the ones who took martial arts classes and carry pepper spray
and are just too dangerous to gay bash.

I am the transgender person who uses the bathroom that suits me, and
demands that any complaining staff explain their complaint to my face
in front of the entire restaurant -- and shares with my other trans
friends which restaurants don't raise a stink.

I am the mother who told her lesbian daughter to invite her
girlfriend over for dinner.

I am the father who punished his son for calling you a fag.

I am the preacher who told my congregation that love, not hate, is
the definition of a true follower of God.

I am the girl who did not learn the meaning of "homosexual" until
high school but never thought to question why two men might be
kissing.

I am the woman who argues (quite loudly and vehemently) with the
bigots who insist that you do not have the right to marry or raise
children.

We are the high school class who agrees, unanimously, along with our
teacher, that love should be all that matters.

I am the legislator who, in spite of letters running 10:1 against it,
voted in favor of a measure that would legalize same-sex marriage,
because it was the right thing to do.

If you agree, repost this. Do it. You don't have to be afraid. You
can handle it. You're stronger than you think.

I am making a difference. Hate will not win.



~~ Personal Addition~~

I am the girl who believes that family means more than just mommy, daddy, and baby.

I am the girl who believes that your true love doesn't have to be limited to just one person.

I am the girl who doesn't do anything the easy way.

I am the girl who puts loyalty to the ones I love above all else, including personal comfort and contentment.

I am the girl who is changing the world, one life I touch at a time.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/17512217/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/17512217/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 15:54:13 PDT
Mostly just getting tired of having the same journal up for so long.

Still working on S.S. and posting it on AFF.net - [link]

Still taking the occasional photo, although I've been pretty busy recently.

Went to NorWesCon ... for one night to show up at my buddy's party (the only open door 21+ party this year at ALL O_o ) and got some nifty pics, will post when I am done fiddling with them and when I durn well feel like it. ^_^

First big show of the season is this weekend, been looking foreward to that for a while now, mom will miss it 'cause she will be in HAWAII.... bitch XD

But we're planning on maybe going down to Disneyworld Florida in September together so its all good. Should be a fun end of summer, beginning of fall because my BF will be flying out to Seattle to go on vacation with us to the condo on the lake in August, unless he manages to come visit before then it will be the first time i really get to hang out with him, since his roommate's GF threw a fit about me coming to visit /him/ so now I cant go to his place at all <_< *sighs*

So now I am waiting with baited breath till the end of the year to see my man because his friend got spooked. (and how lame am I that all really want is to make peace with this chick and be friends with her so we can all hang out and be happy? )

Anyways. Yea, still working on S.S.

Home sick from work today with THROUGHT PLAGUE!!! *cough cough* But getting better quickly

Studying runic divination

Basically at peace with my world and reality right now

Finally feeling like an actual person again and not caring about frivolous immature idiots and their meaningless opinions

Looking at a really nice 2 bdrm apt with my buddy Aaron, and helping him work his way into the world of interior design. gunna start teaching him some sewing basics so he can step himself up into fashion design as well possibly

GOT MY OWN EFFING TACK ROOM AT THE BARN!
OMG its so awesome, right next to my mare's stall so I can sIt in it and she can hang her head out over the stall guard and we can hang out, have a coupe of magnetic dry erase message boards on the inside of the door so I can leave messages back and forth with Cait. Its awesome. Three private tack rooms on the property, the barn owner's, the trainers, and MINE.

Clearly the universe feels that I have earned good things.

So yea, everything is pretty much going great for me, has been since about the end of of January, so if you believe in Karma, as I do, I'd say the universe has me firmly in the 'good' or 'right' category. Everything seems to be working for me perfectly.

Amazing how much more comfortable my life is when I stop trying to bend over backwards to kiss ass for a bunch of idiots and actually stand up for me and keep my faith in those who have earned it.

Ok, I was wrong. Had a lot more to say than I thought. ^_^;;

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16797960/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16797960/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 09:47:48 PST

Dealing still with a variety of fallouts.

To anyone who cares, all ..... one of you, if you need to reach me go for email or better still my phone if you have the number. I'm pretty much never online right now. A huge thanks to all those who have reminded me that I am loved and important and that have stood by me in what has become the single worst two months that I can remember. Fortunately much of that seems to be coming to a close and I find myself regaining much of what, over the course of a year and a half of addiction, I had not so much lost as had unknowingly thrown away.

I have been lucky enough to collect a huge amount of support and advice from many good friends including one of the top social scientists in the US and multiple social leaders and role models. some of the snippets of wisdom that have been received:

If you want to know who your friends are, make a mistake. Those that mind, don't matter. The ones who don't mind, they are the ones who matter.

You can give someone all the rope in the world. Eventually you just have to step back and see if they help them self up, or hang them self.

The blindest of all are those that choose not to see


And special thanks to Jon, He's said it many times before, but now I really ~get~ it

You can't help anyone that doesn't want to be helped.


So very true, but I had helped so many that I lost sight of that. I am only thankful that in the course of helping so many others I had without realizing it built myself a wide network of people that know how and when to help someone. So I give now all my thanks to me multitude of friends of mine that, over the last few weeks have stepped foreword, making a place for me in their schedules, their lives and on their couches, to be there and help me through and support me and remind what friendship truly is.

I once told someone in a chat room that I was lonely, I realize now that the only reason for this was that I had chosen to become so.


In closing, a fond farewell,

Dale, wherever you are, alive or not, those that love you miss you and await the day that you will come home.

Connie Wilson, for 8 years you have been a smiling face in my life, a dear friend and an amazing horsewoman. From you I have learned so much and seen so many new things. Its never easy to say goodbye but as we go on with the daily toils of life, you have moved beyond us to the next great adventure. May the horses where you have gone be strong and proud and as beautiful as the ones you loved when you were here.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16165106/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16165106/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 10:48:48 PST
Comp is alive but still having network issues with our LAN.

... and driver issues because it wont connect to the network.

*EDIT* the Monster Machine is now Back Online! Joy to the net!


*sighs*

So, pulling out some pics from the most recent horse show, also from some other stuff and slowly working them into postable form and dumping them up today XD

S.S. is temporarily on hold as I continue to work toward my computer being totally functional again.

Life is rushing foreward as '08 is starting to look like a very very busy year.

SLI is gearing up again after a near 18 month mass sabbatical and the new seminars are are in the planning stage.

Operation: Results is also jumping back into gear sending me diving into the net tracking down people that make me very very unhappy with the basic human condition.

But, its mostly volunteer stuff to help others, and I love doing it so as busy as I may be now, I'm not complaining.


~~~~~~~** G ** A ** M ** R **~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My love. my life... GAMR. My everlasting OTP

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16033492/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/16033492/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 17:59:45 PST
The Light of my internet life ~

If I were a psychology student I would write a paper about the fragile intricacies that make up the social politics of the internet.

I'm not however, so instead I'll probably submit some of my experiences to SLI as research material. Hey, might even get a couple slides for the next seminar series about it.

The hardest part of participating in the social politics game is that I don’t ~play~ the game. I am here as I am, a person who lives as an adult in all situations, who has to take care of herself and often those around her, who doesn’t have the time or the patience to pretend to be anything other than herself in the small and precious free time she does have.

Some people flame fanfiction without any real meaning. Some people flame other people with just as little meaning. That being said,

No, I will not bow to your wishes.

No, I will not change any bit of who I am because you think I should.

No, I am not in ineffective person, in fact I have a wide reaching network of friends that includes some very high power people and a lot of similarly minded 'go to' people.

No, I will not play your game, and I refuse to let it affect me. I will not allow your PBFH disorder ruin my relationships with my friends, and I will be happy and sane and my own person regardless of what you think of me.

No, I don’t dislike you, in fact I think that given the chance many of you can be very good people, and if we were to meet in the flesh you may find you like me a lot more that you first assumed.

No, I am not jealous; I have no reason to be. I have good friends, a good job, a nice chunk of money in the bank and the freedom to much of what I want to and help my friends when they need it. From where I’m sitting I’ve pretty much got all my shit together and going in the right direction and I know that whatever tomorrow brings, I can handle it. I have no reason to be jealous over something as meaningless as internet politics or popularity. Having a ton of people who like you a bit is nothing compared to having one or two good people that you /know/ that you can quite literally trust with your life.

No, you do not change or influence my opinion of myself, because every time I start to wonder all I have to do is look around me at all the people in my life who love me, rely on me, and believe in me.

No, I don’t think for an instant that I am anything less than myself. I am a fully actualized adult with a steady understanding of the influences of life and the psyche. Yes, I have my issues, and yes, I have my bad days. Ultimately however my overall self worth is high and steady.

No, I don’t think that many of you are as lucky as I am, to know the people that I know, and have the understanding that I have.

To those that love me,

You are the Light of my life, and if I count you among my friends, and you know if I do, then in my eyes you are more valuable than any material in existence. My friends I Do Not take lightly, I believe in them as I know they believe in me.

~~~~~~~** G ** A ** M ** R **~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My love. my life... GAMR. My everlasting OTP

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15949721/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15949721/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 19:31:11 PST for a wonderfully messed up Dib that still manages to NOT be emo! He just has some... issues, but then, who doesnt?

Anyways, go love her, and bug her for S.S. related arts!

So then, chapter 3 of S.S. is now up here and on AFF.net but there is a possibility for delay on chapter 4, my CPU fan has failed on my computer so right now I am borrowing a computer, but all the data for ch 4 is on my main comp, aswell as everything I need to finish writing ch 5...

I got a graphic tablet so there may be at some point a deluge of fugly art from me.

Thats also on the main comp thos soo... dont hold your breath XD

Basically.... Comp is dead, wont be doing many updates because of that. Hopefully it will get fixed soon, possibly tomorrow.

Not holding my breath tho XD

Those that love me know how to reach me, my MSN is still accessable from the spare computer.


~~~~~~~** G ** A ** M ** R **~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My love. my life... GAMR. My everlasting OTP

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15830821/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15830821/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 06:48:05 PST [link] Makes me proud of myself, and I have ch 3 done so i can mebbe post it next friday, pretend like I have a posting schedule or something XD. Of course >_> chapter 4 is being a bugaboo and after that there will be need of filler work done and stuff to get to the next section of rp but I'm sure something can be figured out.

Killed my iPod two days ago, and not a little a nano, a 80gig video iPod.. major sadness. After 2 days of fiddling, letting te battery rundown, resetting the entire system twice, upgrading my itunes and running a system reboot it has been resurrected!

At the same time I am waiting to see if I get a response from an email sent to various variations of an address that nobody quite knows for sure. Why? Because the address hopefully belongs to a good friend of mine who hasnt been seen in two months. And not some kid who got busy and just hasn't been around, a 40 something guy, my best friend's brother in law, that was sent on what was supposed to be a 1 week work trip in early September and has had absolutely NO contact with family or friends since then.

This friend has been mentioned in my journals before, the one who had been fighting cancer and had a miraculous remission. All hopes and wished are focused on just wanting to know if he's ok. Checking my email every hour since I sent the mail. No response yet. Wish he used dA, then I could say Dale! Call Kristal! But that wont work because he doesn't.

Going to class again on fridays now and just.. going on as always ^_^

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15768634/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15768634/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 17:20:19 PST
[link]

Chapter 1 of Schroedinger's Sanity, Section 1: The Invader's Cookbook can now be found on AFF.net. Will be updated as often as I can manage!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15748343/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15748343/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 11:11:25 PST
Alex was an inspiration, a bird that demonstrated a capacity for thought and understanding previously believed impossible in any animal.

Research based on Alex continues to radically change the psychology of learning theory, and how Autistic children are taught.

He will be missed, may he fly ever in open skies over forests of ripe fruit and nuts. *salutes*

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15711608/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15711608/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 17:59:11 PST Previous
Planning
Prevents
Piss
Poor
Performance


Or as I have become well aware recently, Piss Poor Play

A word of advice, when entering an open roleplay with a friend, it helps to actually communicate what your doing, what you plan to do, and what you want to do. Especially with new characters, or even old ones who have been redesigned. If you don't, you just may find yourself being left in a lurch with no effing clue whats going on. This can also happen when you and your friend don't detail what 'small character' changes mean, one of you may think it means a name or age change, the other may completely revamp an entire personality.

Or worst still, you may find that a character you thought you were going to play has suddenly and without warning been given away to someone else, and in order to fulfill whatever reasoning was behind that an even deeper revamping of character is involved AND the character given away remains only that character in name, becomes someone entirely unrecognizable.

Just a small heads up.

Oh, and if anyone cares - "Alive"

I swear to god, some days if I didn't know it would kill my mom I would just die.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15622040/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15622040/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 13:45:53 PST
Hope is a good one, Filled with much food
Taters and casserole, Gravy and stuffing.

Not trying to be poetic... that just came out like that.

Anyways.. thats pretty much it. Happy Thanksgiving, eat too much and enjoy being together with family and Friends, all the ones you love who mean so much to you.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15449190/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/15449190/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 12:51:24 PST
I was inspired to this partly because I haven't put up a journal for a while, and partly because I'm currently sipping a wonderful new holiday drink, the Chai Eggnog Latte. Coffee that amazingly does not contain any coffee.

So I've found at times that explaining the 'Seattle Coffee Phenomenon to those that don't already understand it is an exercise in bashing my head against thew wall and inevitably includes the question - but why would you pay 5 dollars for coffee?

Upon some reflection I find that the misunderstanding stems less from the actual price, and more from a general misunderstanding of what this coffee actually is. This isn't just hot water pushed through crushed beans. Its far more than that, is steamed, whipped, frothed, flavored and teased into becoming any number of specialized drinks, occupying a wide range from strong and bitter, to deliciously understated, to almost sickeningly sweet. Its hot, its cold, its tepid. It makes a whole meal of itself or it accompanies a snack. Its something that you sip at delicately while ensconced in a plush chair and chat with friends about everything from the latest fashion trends to particle physics. Its an accompaniment to a mood, or a comfort from a bad day.


To most of the world coffee is a form of liquid caffeine, strong dark and bitter, sometimes lightened by dairy products. It is a good way to start a day.

To Seattle is a statement, from a strong latte in the morning, to a sweet mocha with dessert.

So I liken the coffee of my home to a homemade thanksgiving dinner. After all, a turkey TV dinner is a lot cheaper, and a lot less labor intensive, but is it really the same thing? It does have turkey, mashed potatoes gravy and cranberry sauce, but ingredients alone do make the final product. Good coffee, be a latte, a mocha, or a cappuccino, is like a good homemade dinner. Its worth a bit more than just hot bean water. Maybe you don't understand right now, but I think if you came around here, got a taste of our pace of life, you might just get an idea of what coffee can really mean.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/14843533/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/14843533/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 15:44:18 PDT
We talked for maybe 7 minutes. And about the only thing I really got from the conversation was "I don't know if you would be to happy living in Japan, it takes a certain kind of personality and you're kinda oblivious to social clues."

Ok... what the fuck does that mean? If she was referring to my lack of friends in High school, as I remember I had more friends than she did, And I was depressed, borderline suicidal, and heavily medicated to the point of barely participating in life at all. Plus that was like 6 years ago, and during that time span she has had pretty much no social contact with me.

So I guess I'm just mad. I mean, I was hoping to reconnect with one of the few people I was actually friends with during the worst time of my life, and instead I got the distinct impression that this person wanted nothing to do with me, despite having claimed to once be my friend.

Time has changed me considerably, I know everyone says this but I'm serious. I didn't really take any part in the world until I was about 18 or so and the person I am today barely recognizes who I was in high school. Hell, I barely even remember High school, like I've blocked out the memories to make moving on easier.

No. I'm not mad I suppose. I'm disappointed. The whole point of this excersize was that I wanted to reconnect to an old friend, now that I feel that I, am a person, am far more capable of social connections and friendships. I was hoping for a chance to grow what was a good friendship into an even stronger social bond, and I got a reaction that I would never have guessed at.

Maybe life has made her more cynical, maybe time has made me more optimistic. But seriously, social clues? This coming from a girl who used to wear a purple trenchcoat and fake goat horns to school while waxing poetic about how hard it was to be 'out and different' in the second most homosexual-friendly city in the USA.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/14748826/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/14748826/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 20:13:34 PDT
I'm very proud of him, he works for a company that contracts out to Boeing, and he's an engineer working on the 787 DreamLiner project. I'm going to miss him, but I will be able to visit him, which is going to be an amazing chance to spend several days in Japan, without needing to pay for a hotel which means I'll have about an extra $150 a day for shopping and checking stuff out. Also he will have a laptop set up with Skype so we will be able to talk. Its going to be strange, he will now be helping me with Japanese, when for years now its been the other way around.

I'm also pleased to note that with him leaving the country, my anime collection just doubled. For just a mere $50 I now have -

Castle in the Sky,
Kiki's Delivery Service,
Howls Moving Castle,
Spirited Away,
Ghost in the Shell (1 and 2) ,
Blue Submarine #6,
the Spriggan box set,
the Blue Seed box set,
the Gasaraki box set,
X box set's 1 and 2,
and the Berserk box set.


I love my brother

But I really am going to miss him, he's the only one in my family that will go out to a sushi bar with me at 8pm and get smashed on hot sake.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13824734/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13824734/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 18:57:08 PDT
Yes, I have finished the 7th and final HP book in less than half a day, I started reading when I woke up at 7, and finished at 6pm. So, really, thats 11 hours, minus doing small things around the house like straightening up my room, going out to lunch and shopping with my brother, and bathroom breaks. So, realistically, it was likely more like 9 1/2 hours.

What can I say, I'm a fan of instant gratification.

I'm also vindicated. I wont say anymore on that for all those who aren't as fast of readers, or as dedicated to getting the book right away, as I am.

But I feel a wonderful gratification, for knowing that many of my own personal theories were true, and for having been proven correct for my standpoint on a few of the more heated contentions surrounding this final book.

Of course, given that my theories were backed by a great deal of serious contemplation and literary study, their validity was rather inevitable. But its still nice to see them become incontrovertibly canon.

But seriously, anybody else think the last 7 pages were just annoying fluff to give us a pure and simple 'happy ending' and therefore just a little bit... cheap? 'Cuz as far as I'm concerned, the story ended on pg. 749

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13824365/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13824365/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 18:18:53 PDT
Yes, I have finished the 7th and final HP book in less than half a day, I started reading when I woke up at 7, and finished at 6pm. So, really, thats 7 hours, minus doing small things around the house like straightening up my room, going out to lunch and shopping with my brother, and bathroom breaks. So, realistically, it was likely more like 9 1/2 hours.

What can I say, I'm a fan of instant gratification.

I'm also vindicated. I wont say anymore on that for all those who aren't as fast of readers, or as dedicated to getting the book right away, as I am.

But I feel a wonderful gratification, for knowing that many of my own personal theories were true, and for having been proven correct for my standpoint on a few of the more heated contentions surrounding this final book.

Of course, given that my theories were backed by a great deal of serious contemplation and literary study, their validity was rather inevitable. But its still nice to see them become incontrovertibly canon.

But seriously, anybody else think the last 7 pages were just annoying fluff to give us a pure and simple 'happy ending' and therefore just a little bit... cheap? 'Cuz as far as I'm concerned, the story ended on pg. 749

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13055996/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/13055996/ Tue, 22 May 2007 20:10:30 PDT
As for why I haven't updated my journal or my page for so long, I have been working. And my commute to and from my jobsite is about an hour each way. wee fun. so I pretty much get up at 4:30 am, get on the road by 5:30, and don't get home till close to 4:45pm.

I get home, I scrub the worst of the mud off and chat a bit with friends, eat dinner, think about how i need to do my homework, then soak up a hot shower, go to bed and do it all again.

On the weekends I sleep. And take care of the bajjillion other things I need to do.

BUT! I have signed up for my next scuba course so, hopefully, I will get to do photography in this course, or in another course soon. And then you will all get to see the mucky bottom of the Puget sound, and all its kewl grey-brown and very spiky fish ^_^

I also have a couple horse pics that I need to finish cleaning up and post... been meaning to get them up for close to a week now...

But I am alive, I do still exist, and my camera is still working.

And now I'm going to bed.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12625871/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12625871/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 22:11:00 PDT
Classes are from 7:30 am till 4:00 pm, so I'm getting up at 5:45 to have enough time to assemble my lunch and get there. So between that and studying and stuff.... I probably wont be around so much to update and put up new piccies, but I might be able to get some kewl construction pics in a while, maybe.

Anyways, I will be also going to classes on some Saturdays soo.... Yea, pretty pics may not be up for a while. i may play with some I already have those and be nice, we'll see.

But, as I said before, a job means a paycheck, a paycheck means I'll be diving again. Woot for me! And woot for underwater photography!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12375027/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12375027/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 12:07:57 PDT
OK, I admit it. Sometimes, when I'm bored, I flip through the dictionary and try to find a word that I've never seen before. It becomes my own personal 'Word of the Day' and today that word is Conflagration.

I also sometimes find myself a quote of the day. Today's quote comes from the book I'm reading- "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff... and it's All Small Stuff" (Richard Carlson, PhD.) That quote would be -

"I've yet to meet a perfectionist whose life was filled with inner peace.The need for perfection and the desire for inner tranquility conflict with each other."

So. Nice day today, if I get a chance while I'm out doing boring 'real life' things I might get some good pics. And some might be good enough to post up here. No guarantee's tho. I have another big horse show that I'm going to this Sat. so I'm sure I'll get plenty of pics then to spam you guys with ^_^

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12337978/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12337978/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:00:07 PDT
But I think the thing that upsets me the most is that I've known for a while that he was sick, and that he was in pain. But he never told me its from cancer. In fact, he doesn't know that I know.

My friend told me.

So now I'm trying to understand why it is that he feels the need to hide this from me, or if its just that he doesn't consider me 'important' enough in his life to warrant knowing.

Is he to proud to admit that he's sick? Is he afraid I will pity him or see him as weak? If thats why then he's doing us both an injustice, i know he's not weak or needing of pity, and he should know I'm not so shallow. Pride I understand a bit more, but I still think its a weak excuse.

Which leads back to the one that hurts the most - perhaps its because he doesn't feel I need to know. Does he not consider me as good a friend as I consider him?

Its always hard for me to step back from the picture and realize that perhaps the people who have such a great impact in my life, feel no impact in their lives from me.

So I really hope its pride. And that he will grant me the respect to tell me before its too late.

Now that I know, I have the chance to deal with it. I just hope he gives me a chance to say goodbye.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12231189/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/12231189/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 10:50:56 PDT
I was gunna say yu might notice a lag in my updates, but then i realized today was the first time I added a new pic in a week. ish. -_-;;;

On the upside, jobness means money-ness, which means I'll be getting back in the water and working on more scuba cert's and one of the things I'll be able to work on now would be my underwater photography shtuffs. Woot!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11778753/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11778753/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 20:20:18 PST
Wandering through the livejournal account of one of my fav. authors I found this little tidbit. for all the yaoi-lovers and slash-ficcers out there- enjoy-

In order, from most to least seme:
O- (universal donor - uberseme)
O+
A-, B-
A+, B+
AB-
AB+ (universal reciever - uberuke)

*grin* Where are you?


So tell me friends, where are you, or better yet, where are your chara's?
Mine, so far as I can tell =
(SG) Zim = AB-
Khaz = A-,B-
Janin= A+,B+
Aiden= O+
Ghant= A-,B-
(grown up!)Seraph= O+
.
.
.
.
Hmmm.... pretty much much all my guys are somewhere in the middles.... ><

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11750578/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11750578/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 17:39:37 PST
Right now I need to go clean my saddle. Proving once again that, were it not for the show season, my tack would never get cleaned O_o;;

I will be dragging my camera with me, so I will probably return with tons of photos of people on horses going around in circles. Because thats what happens at theses shows. Lots and lots of circles. And the occasional loose horse running through the parking lot or young rider almost running over the judge.

And normal people wonder why horse people ~like~ boring competition.

Simply put - if it's exciting, its probably because somebody got hurt. But that really doesn't happen too much. Whats really fun is later in the season when people sometimes bring a mare to show that has a foal (baby) at her side. And they spend the whole day screaming for each other because they've never been separated. Those are usually the shows when we get a loose horse running through the parking lot.....

Anyways, I'm rambling. so, shout outs too my friend who isn't at home this weekend, so she gets to wait till monday to get bugged by me. I'm really hoping that at some point I will feel inspired enough to start writing up more of our fic girl, I really am >< I just tell myself that I gotta have something to trade for all the yummy smutness your drawing for me while your gone.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11451709/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11451709/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 18:32:04 PST
I'm so excited, I live in the Pacific northwest, and I keep being told that this is one of the best places on the planet to learn how to dive- its cold water, so most other good diving places you go will be warmer and less gear making it easier, we have some awesome tides for drift diving, great wrecks and sunken boats for wreck diving, and an incredible amount of biodiversity. Also while we have many spiky fishes and suck, they aren't as sharp as the spiky tropical fishes....

Once I'm done with my open water cert. and get all my own gear, I'm gonna start working on my adventure diver cert. and then underwater photography. Hopefully, by the end of the summer, you guys might start seeing some pics from under the Puget sound in here.

I'm told theres a great marine sanctuary in the area with ling cod that are over 6 feet long, I just hope I can get a good shot without getting rammed... ling cod can be territorial... ^_^;

Also some of the best diving in the area is about a 5 minute drive from my house, so I have a feeling I'll be spending much of my free time this summer under water.

So everbody look foreword to scuba pics!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11213739/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11213739/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 16:48:15 PST
So expect to see more pics, and more updates!

Woot!

My poor horses are gonna be flash blind soon...... ^_^;;

~FoxDragon~

Heh.. I updated the journal only to realize I forgot to change my mood! Oopsies!

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11213707/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11213707/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 16:45:07 PST
So expect to see more pics, and more updates!

Woot!

My poor horses are gonna be flash blind soon...... ^_^;;

~FoxDragon~

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11103833/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11103833/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 10:18:34 PST
On the upside, by the time we get power back I will have finished Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories. Thank god for gameboy.

First thing I do when we get power back is laundry. Second thing I do is pop in my new Zelda game. The one I got thursday evening. The one I didnt even get a chance to open. ;_; Then Im DLing the shows I missed on tv. Then my mom is gonna bully me into DLing the shows -she- missed on tv.

Most people's parents lecture then that DLing things online is bad. Mine blackmail me into DLing things for them. *sigh* oh well.

~FoxDragon~

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11008070/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/11008070/ Sat, 09 Dec 2006 16:14:30 PST
Ok, thats a bit of a tretch, but really....

Marine Bio. final on Tues. Math Final on Wed. Writing final on fri. and an aptitude test for the apprenticeship im applying for the next tues. Plus I need to take the COMPASS test sometime soon too.

;_;

I hate tests, I'm just happy I'm not one of those people who has to suffer test anxiety, I wouldnt survive....

That and my mom has decided that we are hosting a family christmas party. Which means that our house will be opened to about 50-60 people. And thats just the local relatives on my dad's side ^_^;

Ok, so there wont be quite that many people, prolly more like 20-30. And that is an accurate guess too.

So because of this party, Im going to become my mom's personal (slave) decorater to help her get the house ready. I miss my mostly non-existant social life already.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10938886/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10938886/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 16:23:40 PST Actually it started last night with a long drawn out argument between my oldest brother and our parents. So the morning was filled with watching my bro and my dad either ignore or snipe at each other while mom was at work. Or worse, put up with them badgering me about the other. -_- Mostly I secluded myself in my room, doing my homework and studying for my exam tomorrow.

Then mom comes home and dragges me outside to do yardwork. nothing big there. I grab my iPod to discourage her badgering me about my dad and bro, but she does anyways. Asking me what dad did all day, why didnt he put up christmas lights, complaining to me about it as if im his babysitter.

After about an hour of this I go inside to find that my loving father put cheese sticks in the oven and fell asleep. the cheese sticks are now flaming charcoal and the oven has filled the house with copious amounts of smoke, while he is asleep on the couch. The Smoke alarm did not go off, a very comforting thought, And by the time I actually found our fire extinguisher (buried in the back of the coat closet... why the coat closet and not the utility room, where one would expect a utility like a fire extinguisher I dont know) my dad had roused himself from the couch and dumped the flaming pan in the sink.

So now every inch of our house has that yummy "I Almost Burned Down" smell, and I just know that the rest of the evening is going to be filled with mom and dad yelling at each other. Big bro is already home up north. And mom wonders why I am desperate to move out of the house, and the country if possible.

I need to finish my homework...

;_;

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10888754/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10888754/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 09:43:35 PST
On the flip side, I got some really cool pics... As you can see in my gallery ^_^

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10219593/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/10219593/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 20:10:36 PDT
I look in the tanks and its like hmmm.... we have that on sale for 4.99$ lb right now . . .

kinda creepy.

On the flip side, my betta tanks have finally been cleaned. wehich is good. cause they were starting to grow their own plant decorations.

So now my only problem is that my cat thinks clean fish water tasts much better that whats in his water bowl.

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/9785831/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/9785831/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:16:04 PDT
For those who dont recognize the lyrics, thats "He's Everything You Want" (c) by Vertical Horizon

My yard is full of family and friends right now, celebrating my brother getting married. People I have known and loved all my life are laughing and talking in the living room and on the grass, children are running around and splashing in the pool.

So why am I sitting in front of my computer sad because its the first day I have off this week, and one of my online friends isnt on today so I can't chat with him?

My house is full of people, and I cant talk to a single guy Ive never even met in the flesh, so I want to crawl into bed and be alone . . .

How is it that I can look at the interpersonal relations of my friends, and people I barely even know, and break them down in a matter of minutes, but I can't even begin to understand my own conflicting emotions...

I need to go see a proffesional.

-sigh- -_-

FoxDragon
"You dont get it, I am not the person that people fight for. I am not the person that people are willing to sacrifice for. When someone decides to attack me, I am my only defense. I am a friend, but I am never the friend people are willing to fight for. Thats just how it is." ]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/9472917/ http://Kitsune-Ryu.deviantart.com/journal/9472917/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 21:51:03 PDT
I like tham a lot, I may get more later.

After 2 years of dating my Bro and his GF are getting married.

They decided this two days ago. The wedding in in slightly less than 3 weeks.

I feel a massive headache coming.

oh well

I will be calm . . . .

]]> ~Kitsune-Ryu