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Dean could feel Sam's resignation. "And Dean," Sam added, as he guided Dean back out onto the road, "For God's sake, act like a car while he's here"

No, said Dean. No fucking way.

"Yeah, I know," Sam amended, "you're In high Mythandrean society it is fashionable to leave food on one's plate. The food is then sent to the nearby ghettos.

The poor do not take kindly to this condescending attitude.

This is what my girlfriend happened upon whilst reading an old fic of mine. Rather amusing. I was wondering what about my angsterrific story was making her laugh so hard.

~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark I can themez nau? http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/28263878/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/28263878/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 08:32:37 PST
So I thought I'd throw up a journal, just to see the themes in action. Yep.

PS- yep, it's a limited time thing. Wheeeeee. They want us to get used to it, then buy a sub to keep it. Heh.

~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark LUE marches on http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27915355/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27915355/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 23:20:33 PDT TABLE OF CONTENTS:
Part 1) Matters of the heart.
Part 2) Rocky Horror Picture Show Midnight Showing
Epilogue) READ THIS BOOK!
Ultra-Epilogue) MY GOD TH, I LEAVE YOU ALONE FOR A FEW MONTHS AND WHAT?

PART 1)
Wow, long time no post!
I should totally blame it on schoolwork.
Except that mostly it's the whole "WOAH I'M AT COLLEGE OH EM GEE" thing, which involves making friends, trying to get out of my room and off my computer, a fileshare of amazinkness and my GIRLFRIEND!

I am not going to gush, because I don't want y'all retching on me because of my besottedness. The short story involves HORRIBLE timing, the library, people playing hide-and-seek-tag and parents visiting the school. Calling mom tomorrow, will see how this works out. Hm. I could also mention that when we told my roommate, my roomie was like "about frigging time, if you'd taken any longer I would have shoved you at each other and gone "just kiss already!"."

Really want my home irl friends to meet her.

PART 2)
Before you start retching on me, I shall change the topic! I am going to see the midnight showing of Rocky Horror on Halloween! Woohoo! It shall involve dressing up! We went online and bought corsets today!
I an getting this (not pink anymore. Black and white.
One friend is getting this and my roommate is getting this.
_{All external links should lead to wetseal.com}
Actually, that probably made you retch just as much. Well, talking to certain people now...

I now need something to wear on the bottom, because, um, hi? I'm not one for wearing just panties, damnit. I draw shit like that, but I'm an awkward slasher at heart, okay? and just because I have sexy clothing (or...pink clothing...twitch) doesn't mean I'll be comfortable in it. But what the hell, I'm going to ROCKY HORROR, and there will be DUDES IN DRAG WEARING LESS. So I should be less awkward. I think. Have this feeling that the others will pre-game, which will make me loosen up in that I won't be as afraid of seeming stupid and awkward (Why would I "need" alcohol when the people around me are inebriated! The collective inhibitions are lowered anyway!)

ETA: Problem solved.

Hm. Need shoes and fishnets and a pair of high white socks, as well as something for the bottom half. Damn, this is getting complicated.

~Lark, the oddly-changed-by-college-already-holy-shit, out.

EPILOGUE)
_{LUE = Life the Universe and Everything. If you haven't read Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, go do so now. It will make your life WIN.}

ULTRA-EPILOGUE)
_{This is the journal the never ends! It just goes on and on my friends! One day I started writing it, not knowing what it was, and I continued ETAing it forever just because this is the journal that never -- (C'mon people! Sing along!)}
THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY
Lies. Someone took Bill, a hairstylist, and a lifetime supply of red bull and hairspray and locked them all in a room together. Wow. (NOTE: He can do what he likes to his hair. I just reserve the right to comment in my journal. If you think I'm being disrespectful, I hope you can get used to it.) Actually, I'd like to point out WHEN DO WE GET THIS?!
I'm officially one of those horrible people who blogs about stars' fashion fallacies now. Damnit.
Actually, I only really want to know the story behind Gustav's hair. Cockatoo Bill is amusing, but what made Gusti change his hair color? I like the fact that he doesn't used tons of product. It's endearing somehow. (I go to a pretty hippie college. Many of us shower, some of us shave, and a few are even vegetarian instead of vegan. Natural is nice. But of course, I can talk. I helped dye my girlfriend's hair purple. _{PS - I'm playing with the stereotype of my school. If I've confused you, just ignore me. It's best for the sanity. The bit about my gf's hair is true, though.})

]]> ~KittyLark Peer Pressure Made Me Do It http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27321370/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27321370/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 13:58:18 PDT
Gotta love people.

(iwo: entry removed)

]]> ~KittyLark Stealing is bad, but I don't care. http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27304195/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27304195/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 16:46:46 PDT
Tyvm Shivs, hon.

Comment with the name of a character of mine plz?
_{(Mine, meaning not Bill, Tom, Andreas, Gustav, Georg, Sam, Dean, Castiel, Brendon, Ryan, etc.)}
I'll reply with the following info about them:

01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Favorite food
09. Crushes
10. Favorite music
11. Biggest fear
12. Biggest wish
13. Bad habits
14. Biggest regret
15. Best kept secrets
16. Last thought
17. Worst romantic experience
18. Biggest insecurity
19. Weapon of choice
20. Role Model

]]> ~KittyLark On the Other Hand http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27150032/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27150032/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 13:00:48 PDT
It's cold in my room.

Like really cold. It's 59 outside, according to my desktop, and raining (according to both my desktop and me)

But I want my windows open, because my hall reeks of pot. REEKS. People were out partying last night. I went along to watch them (I don't drink/do drugs/smoke. I'm weird enough without fucking myself up with that shit) and while it was amusing, it also confirmed my decision not to do any of that. At the beginning of the evening everyone was having fun. They were laughing and talking and it was sort of nice. But then they started leaning on me for support. This one girl from M was just so gone, stumbling and grabbing people and patting people's faces and stuff. By the end of the night, they had all turned into sad drunks. Anyhow. I don't need to go into details. I ended up back at my room watching Supernatural. (OMG DID YOU SEE IT? I KNO RITE! _{please don't spoil in the comments!}) But today my hall reeks of fucking pot, and it's making my eyes sting and throat scratchy. Seriously. My door is shut and my eyes are burning from the residual smoke.

Anyhow that aside.

I'm having a good time here. Though I have to start doing homework soon....

]]> ~KittyLark School has started http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27068653/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/27068653/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 07:35:40 PDT
Actually, classes haven't started. I'll have to get back to you on how that is.

But orientation has been awesome. My school is amazing. Seriously. We had a water fight on the quad with my tutorial class (we're divided in two groups for orientation, so there were (sort of) teams. Which disintegrated very quickly into everyone for themselves.) In the amazingness of my school, the 2nd year orientation leaders were comfortable taking off their shirts (so they were in bras and shorts) for the waterfight. This just shows how much this is NOT high school. There have been jam sessions in the courtyard for the first two nights, and there have been parties for the last two. I didn't go to those. Drugs are really sort of big here, and I don't want to get involved in drugs (even just to "try it", I have my reasons) so there have been a couple times that I've had to skip out on hanging out because, well, I don't want to have to deal with that. Most of my friends now know that I don't smoke/drink/do drugs.

Friends. Okay, I actually feel bad talking about it, becuase a lot of my home friends are having a tough time with school, but I am really loving it. My roommate is an angel (we were up really late last night talking about all those deep, insightful things that are so damn profound. While you're exhausted) and our across-the-hall-and-down-two-doors hallmate is really nice too. The girl who sets up parties and stuff on our hall is also insanely nice, and actually asks all the people on the hall about noise level and time issues before throwing a party. I've also made friends with a girl from my state, who's very sweet, but keeps early hours, which make it hard to spend time with her. And another girl who is friends with my roomie.

And last, but not least, I've met a slasher. It makes me so happy. We were on the quad when I found out that she likes Supernatural and I fricken screamed. I'm not kidding. Then we were on the bus and figured out that "OMG SHOEBOX!" and be both screamed and hugged, and generally scared our mutual friends who were like "wtf are they gibbering about?" and then we got off the bus, and I'm like "hey, um, other slash?" and she's like "YES!" and I'm like "YES!" And that made my world so much better her. We stayed up till 3:30 am, squeeing about common interests (I'm afraid I'm going to be dragged back to FBRdom. She's a panic, fob, hush sound, etc reader. Plus MCR. But also Spn and NCIS and HP. I introduced her to mg's slave breakers (please don't hunt that down unless you're sure you're not squicked by anything.

Anyhow. I have a thing to be at in, like ten mins, so. I'll see you all round.

~Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark Hm http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26951752/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26951752/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 06:38:55 PDT
Because I'm still getting comments on Tangled Facades, and it makes me wince. I mean, I love the 'feedback', but at this point, it's not feedback. The story is like one of those gender-bending mangas that are designed to fulfill the budding slasher's need for guy/guy without squicking them (because, duh, Main Character is actually a girl, and hence Main Love Interest can have the "omg I'm gay" crisis only to realize that, no, they just have amazing intuition for what's under peoples' clothing). Only added into some really awful Gary-Stu situation in which we explore the idea that "omg, I liked Georg Listing?" Eh, I like his hair...? Oh, and add in just a touch of possible incest (because I was maybe still a little squicky about writing it then?) and the most cliche love triangle, and the most cliche parents-of-gay-child situation. Dude, I should post that so that I can laugh at it. I think I terminated the fic before it got to that part...did I even get Andi into the whole mix before dropping it? I think I just talked about him.

So, anyhow. Being the total whore I am, I'm not deleting it. Because it's like 20% of my comments and favs ... >.< Awful fiction = love from people? wtf.

Totally different note:

I still have stuff to post. But I'm leaving in 45 hours. So I'm not posting. Just, you know, RANTING and Not Packing for College. (yes, srs. I have one box. Count 'em ONE (1). packed. It's got my dictionary, notebooks, fav books and techie bible. I fail.

OH HELP PLEASE?

I need some help. In the idea dept.

I have notebooks full of porn!

Like, at least fifteen that I can find. Plus the drawings. Holy shit the drawings. They are bad, and porny, and do not want to be left in my room which might have Other People inhabit it while I'm gone (wtf? no! my room!)

I don't want to bring 15 notebooks, 3 sketchbooks, and 11 folders of crappy attempts at porn or plot (or, haha, both) with me to college.

And if you're saying "but you don't write real porn" it is not for lack of trying. It's just that what I come up with is never worth typing up and posting. for srs. Plus, half-naked guys hanging off each other is sort of inappropriate, if not technically porn.

So I have a place on my shelves for the drawings. As long as noone goes pulling folders down, it's good. But the notebooks sit under my corner table thingy. They're just shouting "Read Me!" esp. to my mother, who keeps telling me that I don't read/write anymore. And I can't really correct her. "No mom, I do read. I read this awesome story about Sam and Dean last night. They were...um... you know what? never mind. Let's forget I ever mentioned the succubus. okay?"

On the other hand, I have unfinished stories, and reference-crap in those notebooks, and I should take them with me. so that I at least have the option of working on them.

I need to finish SPNDeanDies.bun. It was going be epic.

demmit. I don't have PS CS3. I shall to cry.
But my computer is coming today <3
And I need to go shower so that I'll be presentable for the delivery-person.
...Wow, I should not gutter things that I say. Whatever.
Then I'm packing, so, yeah. Need to not waste my time. Heh. Right.

Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark LUE Up-To-Date http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26614160/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26614160/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 17:48:39 PDT everything, because, well, a lot has happened. BUT I shall do my best to inform my faithful (or whatever) friends of all relevant details of my life.

OH, and being the AWESOME person that I am (and humble too!) I have even titled the various sections of this journal, for your ease of reading and navigation. (uses airline voice) Thank you for flying the friendly skies.

dA News
I have a CRAPLOAD of work to upload.
I have new characters, I have girlsecks. I have... Well... I don't have any boisezks. I am a lame excuse for a rabid slash fangirl. I do, however, have a new story in the works, which I think shall be posted here. If I finish writing it, and post it. It's fanfic (MCR, P!@tD xover, old news, but the bunny is about a year old, so), so it's not going to my new acct.

MORE dA News
Oh yeah. I haz new acct!

It's more... mature than this one. Meaning not that it has more explicit content, just more... mature. Like it's more GBLT than slash. And the stories are less lighthearted (LAWL I mean depressing. They all involve some sort of mind-fuck or dub-con or kever, though the content (so far) hasn't been explicit...) ANYHOW, if you want a link to the new account, let me know. I have already moved two pieces from this gallery there, but I don't anticipate any more deviation-shuffling.

By 'let me know' I mean 'note me'. I am not simply putting the link up here. Because I am stubborn that way, and am weird. Get over it.

LUE News
_{LUE = Life, the Universe, and Everything = book by Douglas Adams _{Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy anyone?} = RL Stuffses}
In the past 7 weeks, I have battled panicked cats, disarmed alarm systems, been splattered with blood, helped 8-year-olds go onstage with broken limbs, sailed through scarily thick fog, been eaten alive by multiple sorts of vermin (including fleas, sand fleas, mosquitoes, and slugs), eaten rotten food, stood in a giant litter box, and vacuumed at least 3 times a week.

LUE + Electronics
I have finally picked out my laptop, but my mother is going to make me wait till the very last second to get the damn thing in hopes that I can make it cost less. THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN. I picked upgrades, which means that SALE PRICES DO NOT APPLY!

I have also picked out my camera, though the likelihood that I'll get it has been diminishing. I received my new external hard drive, but I haven't plugged it in yet (note to self, scan computer for viruses, it's running really effing slow) I also need to pick out a mouse, surge protector, phone, and USB hub. And figure out to secure my external hard drive to my desk at school. Somehow.

LOLWUT I IZ EIN COLLEGE-KID NOW?
_{Also: J² = <3 Y/Y?}
Oh yeah, and I still need to pack most of my stuff (clothes, bookish stuff) for school, and somehow find a way to secure all the shit I'm not taking (the drawings of DUBIOUS CONTENT and flat-out PORN in my old notebooks. As well as the various shitty attempts at journals or diaries I've made over the years (dude, I never can think of things to write, so I make them up. I mean "Today I sat at home on the computer, doing absolutely nothing (but reading porn and talking to like-minded friends about the amazingness of Jensen Ackles's mouth, especially in conjunction with Jared Padalecki's ... well... you know)" sounds so much more lame than "I am beginning to suspect that island in the bay out is a isolationist colony, preparing for a nuclear apocalypse. I also have reason to believe that my new neighbors, a seemingly average family of five, is actually an envoy from said island - an attempt to infiltrate our non-isolationist town." ... for the record, they're both lies. Well, the bit about isolationist cells in the harbor might not be, but that's just me.)

Ok, so that's my update.

MORE dA News AGAIN!
Yep. I haven't counted how much I need to scan. It contains ... Sirius/Remus, Kirk/McCoy, Girl!Bill among other things. Like Kit's dog, and the director for my... SHIT! My club! Okay, well, note to self, don't start a damn club while you're on vacation. =bashes head in=

Okay. so
I think that's it.

Oh, plus Drugs, Sex and Rock'n'Roll
_{aka Music}
Hm... have I said this yet? current favorite song = Van Nuys from The Heroin Diaries Soundtrack by Sixx A.M.
(note, soundtrack is not a movie soundtrack, it's a soundtrack to the pub... ]]> ~KittyLark Finally http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26348711/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26348711/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 23:16:00 PDT
sailing for three days

camping for 5

iow: won't be back till maybe the 9th.

Sorry!

see y'all later, then!

~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark Very Unique http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26305144/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26305144/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 19:22:27 PDT
It's a delightful thought.

There are all sorts of things to enjoy here. Wonderful people, amazing community, arts in abundance.

There are all sorts of things that I'd rather never see again. Cat litter, rotten food, fleas.

I've tried to be optimistic, upbeat. I smile and nod and take things in stride. I try not to complain.

It's too much though.

I'm going home.

It feels so wonderful to be able to say that: I'm going home.

Of course, there will be detours, but they'll be minor, they'll be enjoyable. They won't have cat piss or food that's been out for days.

I never realized how much clutter and cleanliness can affect me.

On a different note, I've done very little in the realm of creativity. I'm sorry. I thought I'd do more, but I didn't. I did create a character for another club, and I created another club (which hasn't really started yet. crap.) I've typed a bit, I've read a lot.

I did, however, draw something for AP. Y'know occasionally, I feel bad for the people who watched me all those ages ago because they like Tokio Hotel, or because they saw that I like slash. Because this influx of femmeslash must be uncomfortable for some of those people. But then, I remember that you can un-friend people, and you can stop watching journals or deviations, and I go "meh, if it makes them uncomfortable, they can deal with it." Or you know, stop watching me. I'll survive. I love my watchers though

BY the by,
I'm going away. On monday, I start sailing home. On weds, I go camping, I don't get back till sun, then I might (probably not) be off to my cousins' place. So who knows when I'll update again, but y'all are used to my long disappearances by now.

~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark OMG PIMPING http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26133305/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/26133305/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 15:45:08 PDT Because Ich bin ein idiot, and like DUH. I have to pimp my new club, or no one will join!

SO!

~KittyLark When you use emoticons... http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25526777/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25526777/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 20:59:45 PDT
How about when you're drawing?

Because I was just saying "XD" to Skit, and I found myself grinning with my eyes scrunched up, and was like "...power of suggestion...?"

AND when I draw people, I make the face that they're making. It must be amusing for my teachers/classmates when I'm working on something like this during class.

Anyhow.

That's that.

]]> ~KittyLark A question of Legality http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25425711/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25425711/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 23:02:46 PDT ETA: I am really really sorry to Shivs and Gen for being all like "hey, I wanna go to the convention!" then calling last minute and being like "sorry, no." The whole it's-my-birthday-and-i'm-supposed-to-do-stuff" is getting in the way of my time schedule, not to mention that I don't really want to pay $25 for maybe 3 hours of being there. I mean, if my parents weren't concerned about celebrating, my mom wasn't making a cake, my mom's friends staying the night, my work for today wasn't still undone, and someone was leaving and would give me their badge... I'd probably go.

On the plus side, I managed to assemble an entire loli outfit.

Now that I'm an adult, I guess I have to stop feeding y'all kiddies out there porn.

Which is good, since I don't really write it.

Interestingly enough, I can now buy porn. You know, legally. Without clicking "yes, I am 18 or older" on LiveJournal while crossing my fingers behind my back.

This is a mildly (ok, highly) amusing fact.

I can also buy smokes, which I have no intention of doing. I can have sex with other over-18-ers. I can go to jail for breaking the law. I can get kicked out of my house, without legal repercussions for my parents. I can get a tattoo/piercing without parental permission. I cannot, however, look at the little freshmen and go "awwwwwww cute!" or I will be a pedo of Humbertian proportions, watching my little nymphets play. (Dude, that sucks. Freshman are so damn cute sometimes!)

My life has obviously undergone a change of drastic drasticity. Of dire direness. Of gargantuan gargantitude.

The worst part? I just spent an hour an a half reading something that I thought it was illegal for me to read, only to find out that I wasn't breaking the law anymore! How lame is that?

So, yeah, Lark is eighteen, feeling old and wise, and past her prime. I mean, the appeal of reading about fictional (or real) people doing unseemly things to each other is totally gone without the thrill of law-breaking!

And damn, just in time for the yaoi panel at the conn.

(Actually, I have my state ID, which I got (don't tell my parents, I gave them 'normal' reasons) specifically so that I could get into the Yaoi Room.

I forgot to see if there's a Yuri Room. And me no like Hentai.)

Oh YEAH:
Something that actually affects this account.

I am going to my gmom's house again this summer.

Don't worry, it's actually a great place for drawing sexy stuff (in case you don't know this, Lark is where my sexy stuff goes. I have other places for the dignified crap), because I get left alone a lot, and don't get bugged for staying up late (just for sleeping in late).

However, she doesn't have a scanner, and it's not like I really want to put pictures of scantily-clad persons of the same sex (or not, even, sex is sex, even if it's fluff or het) doing things of questionable appropriateness on my grandmother's computer. She'd probably send them to all her friends, thinking that "the boys.jpg" is a picture of her cats being cute together.

And holy shit. Her cats are like slashfiends! Shadow and Ramone are like OTP. Courtney and Rain have this love-hate, sibling-rivalry, bonded-through-shared-traumatic-history thing going on, and Mimi. Well, Mimi lives in a closet, so...

I love how my journal makes it sound like I post tons of porn. I laugh at me. I haven't written smut in forever. Since, like, SpnKEB. Or Feeling, I guess. God, that fic bugs the hell outta me. And I don't draw anything beyond foreplay, if you haven't noticed. I occasionally forget that. Heh. But the fact remains; scantily-clad, intimate characters. Ja.

OH. I did hear about a writing meme. Gonna post the rules here, so others can attempt. I may do it some time. May not. I'd have to do it on comp, because although I prefer writing by hand, in pen, in notebooks, I really do write faster on the computer, and if I'm doing 4-minute drabbles.... (dude, maybe I'll get that 15-minute AFI song... Ok.

1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays.
You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble
You start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.

If I do them, I'll post them indiviually, because 1) I don't have ~50 minutes in a chunk to spend on it, and 2)I didn't read everything in the post that I got this from, because I only want to read one at a time, otherwise I lump them together. Not to mention that the stories were repetitive... ]]> ~KittyLark Oy http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25225212/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25225212/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:40:32 PDT
I'm off to the island tomorrow. So expect no updates, comments, replies, e& for another 7 days. On the eight day, God shall invent techies, so we'll be good again, and you can bug me as much as you want.

Toodles!
~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark Oh, hey, it's a meme! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25113055/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25113055/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 18:27:11 PDT Karl

2. What did you do last night?
Computed

3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Shhhh!

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
Smarter

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
past

6. What are you wearing?
warm

7. How many cars have you owned?
cero

8. Type of music you dislike most?
ickky

9. Are you registered to vote?
Unaffiliated

10. Do you have cable?
Nah

11. What kind of computer do you use?
Assembled

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
Smarter

13. You like anyone right now?
mebe?

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
meh

15. Furthest place you ever traveled?
Quantas

16.Do you have a garden?
Mom

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
Comics!

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
Blah

19. Shower, morning or night?
late

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Trek........

21. Favorite pizza toppings?
garlic

22. Chips or popcorn?
Cheese

23. What cell phone provider do you have?
dunno

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
SMARTER

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
eeeww

26. Orange Juice or apple?
Orange

27. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
Kit

28. favorite chocolate bar?
DAAAAAARK

29. Good band?
Seeter

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Recent?

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Medals

32.Favorite artist?
Many

33. Favorite computer game?
...sims?

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
Smarter

35. Sprite or 7-UP?
Izze

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
No

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens?
Never

38. Ever thrown up in public?
McDonalds

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
both?

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
attraction

41.Can exes just be friends?
-shrug-

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
nurse

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?
Still

44. What message is on your voicemail machine?
...

45. Where would you like to go right now?
away

46. What was the name of your first pet?

47. What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
music ; drawings

48. Last incoming/outgoing call on your phone?
Catsitting

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
Screen!

50. What do you think about most?
lue

]]> ~KittyLark Glarglesplat http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25042129/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/25042129/ Sat, 30 May 2009 23:06:33 PDT *triggers for excessive expletives. and raaaaaaanting

I want to draw. Or write. Or just... something.

It's been driving me up the fucking wall - excuse my "french".

Recently, I've been feeling like I just need to do something. Which isn't unusual. But it's been more intense. Since I have absolutely nothing to draw. I don't have the skills or the software to do what I want with a computer, and I've been letting real life juts PILE up on me. (Seriously, two psych projects, physics final, 3 photoshop projects, art project, english reading, math final. That's like, all but one of my classes!)

Not to mention that I've got a new fandom (Um, what? Star Trek? You're kidding me right? No. What? I mean, JimBones? McKirk? It's not my fault. It's my feeds. I swear. They're multiplying like tribbles! Id wants Tribble! Id needs to go away. I am so not insane, exhausted, and typing whatever comes to mind. That's Ego lying. Ego, you should know better. Everyone finds out about Id in the end. There's nothing you can do. Bitch. Jerk.)

So maybe I've been spending too much time with Dissociative Identity Disorder? It's almost as fascinating as Stockholm Syndrome.

I think I might take some Queer Studies in college next year. I mean, Id is totally fascinated, and Ego spouts all this shit about it being an interest in the psychology, and the social and sociopolitical aspects, which is basically just to justify my reading gay smut all the time. (And writing some.) But it really is fascinating. What makes people gay? Are people inherently bi? (I think so) Is your sexual orientation effected by experiences as a child? By "family values"? Why is it so taboo? Is the current "fad" of gay rights influencing people to "become" homosexual? And why has no-one mentioned that homosexual marriage could be the much-needed cure to world over-population? Is that a really cold, awkward opinion to have? I mean, if we let gay couples get married and adopt the children who are starving in third-world orphanages, instead of convincing themselves that gayness is a disease, and marrying someone of the opposite gender, and producing 2.54 children and living really unhappily for the rest of their life?

Oh. Whoooooops. RANT and a half!
_{*NOTE: the questions up above aren't necessarily beliefs. So if you're gonna go all "OMFG, you homophobe!" on me, don't. They're just questions. Questions are good, and help people figure out the truth.}

OH. Another thing about that. I mean, do we really want to know if hetero-, bi- or homosexuality is "nurture or nature"? Because in the hypothetical that is it genetic, and the hypothetical that we are eventually able to make genetic engineering available (hypotheticals!), then there's suddenly a society that can functionally eliminate homosexuality (or heterosexuality, or sexuality at all) And that's just fucking creepy. Of course by the time they are hypothetically able to do this, then they would hypothetically have "decoded" the entire human genome and would know how what part of the genes was the hypothetical root of homosexuality. If, you know, it is genetic. Hypothetically. And I sound like J.Vio. Hypothetically, if we hypothetically used this hypothetical, then, hypothetically, the hypothetical result would be, hypothetically, this hypothetical! Hypothetically.

OH.
Drawing
right.
artistic urges.
and this insatiable desire to make something. like a story, or characters (like I need more) or a drawing, or scribbles. I've got a lot of those, recently. And I've been copying words and definitions out of the dictionary (lolwut?) because purple markers are awesome. What was that word. Resistant to authority? Recalcitrant! That's the one. Great word. Hard to remember, though.

So. I like to watch people.
Oh, you dirty slashers, get your minds out of the gutter!
I like to drive through downtown (lawl, it feels weird not using the placename. Am I right, RL people?) and watch the drunken tourists stagger about. It's fascinating. I like watching people come and go. And trying to put them into stories, into lives that aren't their own.

Mr.F was talking about Virginia Woolf. Woolfe? Whatever. And how before her time, it was basically impossible for women to write. And how awful it would be to have this artistic gift and not be able to use it. And how it was so depressing, and often ended badly for the women (or maybe this was an article by Woolf/e that he gave to the class) and I was like "Yes, but it's also truly awful to want to express something, and to be able to, but to not have that gift. Or to not be able to figure out what you WANT to express."

I've finally reached a point where the characters I'm trying to portray are fucked up to a degree that I can't even keep up with them. I mean, all my characters are fucked u... ]]> ~KittyLark List o' ... loves? http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24980759/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24980759/ Wed, 27 May 2009 14:23:46 PDT I'm kicking the bandwagon in the wheel. With steel-toed boots.
_{not really, but, yeah}

dreams

chocolate

blankets

markers

people who can disagree respectfully

the girl who hugged me and said I was pretty, for no reason

freshmen (they're cute! and funny, and innocent, despite what they pretend.)

ramen

orange (yes, my stuffed animal!)

tasha (same!)

oatmeal (you guessed it!)

nabokov (ok, I've only read one, but his writing is amazing.)

the 4 (maybe?) people in my art class who aren't total bitches.

music

this notebook (yep, I wrote this in a notebook first!)

beauty (yes, physical, but also other kinds)

purple

purple marker

feeling included

feeling useful

my techies

mg (sbverse kills me dead in a good way)

my cat

my cats

my dog

my bunnies

kit's dogs&cat

shiv's dog

Shiv, Jo, Kit

Google Reader
~KittyLark An Explanation of Fandom http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24845782/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24845782/ Tue, 19 May 2009 19:13:05 PDT
_{*triggers for swearing, drug mentions and a fictional date-rape/stockholm syndrome scenario
*all links lead to either LiveJournal or Wikipedia}

SUPERNATURAL: IS. FUDGING. LOVE. It's like... like...
Ok. So say this random dude you've never met before, who goes by the name of Kripke, or Kinke, or something like that, comes up to you in a bar or someplace, and is like "I have pretty boys." And you're like "Uh huh, I've heard it all before." Then he's like "And they're brothers." And you're like "Meh, I've got an incest fandom already." And he's like "And there's guns, and ghosts, and leather jackets, and demons, and angels, and classic rock, and fire, and glowey things, and creepyass houses, and a jail episode, and production team that responds to its fandom like spazz, and fucking awesome RPS, too." and you're like "Yeah, well..." and you're trying to come up with an excuse, but you really are intrigued now. You know that it's a really bad, bad, bad, horrible idea to just get in the car with random strangers, but it's a really fucking awesome car and there really are really hot guys in it. And so you get in, because this Mr. Kinke guy actually put something in your drink, and everything is starting to seem like a better idea than it really is. And then, all the sudden, you decide that you are HOPELESSLY IN LOVE and just as suddenly, while you're still coming to terms with this realization, there's this feeling like something is being torn out of you, and you're like "shit, is that my heart and soul that Mr Kinke is putting a jar on his shelf?" And then you see that there are tons of jars, but it doesn't really matter how many hearts or souls this guy has because you FUCKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH and he really, really, really does have a house of amazingly hot guys (and ladies, too, if you're into that). And you are so addicted that you're just dying from withdrawal every Thursday, and the next hit brings you back from death's door, but you're still so aware that you should not be this addicted, but really, really don't care because this thing makes you so high. And THEN. Then it ENDS. And it's just over. And you're like HOLY SHIT THAT WAS AWESOME. And at the same time you're like NO EFFING WAY I CAN'T WAIT AN ENTIRE EFFING SUMMER. I GOTTA. HAVE. IT. NOW! And it's like someone took the most addictive drug out there, mixed it with roofies and added an entirely unhealthily HUGE portion of Stockholm Syndrome, served up a portion and said "Eat up, dearie!" And you DID!

_{*note, the drug refs are all based of hearsay, I haven't done the kind of messedup shit that I'm comparing Spn to. But that second link should take you to my inspiration, a LiveJournal entry by Mona1347 comparing different fandoms to different drugs. I totally agree with her comments on HarryPotter, as well, though I'm not into the other fandoms. HP is definitely the hard shit.

Crossposted to my LJ.}

]]> ~KittyLark Meme time! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24208476/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/24208476/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 19:29:44 PDT "...feet, Harry retreated farther as the dementor bore down upon him,"
Dude, HarryxDementory dubcon? That's just wrong, Rowling.

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
I just got egg salad all over this mask. You should tell people to put things down before reching out. >.<

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Smiles of a Summer Night. A Swedish (Dutch? Something?) black and white film.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
tenish?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
21:54. I'm good.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Smiles of a Summer Night playing on the TV. My chair, which sqeaks something awful.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Running to my neighbor's house around 20:00 to deliver Hot Cross Buns. (Militart time is fun!)

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Um. Shiv's journal with this survey in it.

9. What are you wearing?
PIRATES.
Well, a Pirates sweatshirt, socks, jeans, a shirt, another shirt, and slippers. And undies+bra.

10. Did you dream last night?
No, but I dreamt this afternoon that Kit called me and said that there was a creepy guy staring in her window and she didn't know what to do, and I'm like, did you call the police? and she's like yeah, but they're not coming that fast. And I'm like. Um, hide? but keep an eye on the guy?

11. When did you last laugh?
Um... last night, when I was reading fmylife.com (>.<

at an awful hour.

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
The 10 Commandments (1. Love thy gaffa as thou would love thyself; 2. Honour thy SM and thy Director; 3. Thou shalt not get caught in light; 4. Thou shalt not talk louder than a whisper.... etc); School calendar. A calendar made by my cousins. A Picture of my grandparents. A Rug, A picture of my dad and great-grandfather, a Tokio Hotel ringtone list, A necklace holder, a lightswitch, a string of oragami animals....

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Um. There's this thing, called the internet. I live there. So. Yeah.
Specifically? Um, actually IRL; a onion freshener.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Better than some

15. What is the last film you saw?
Smiles of a Summer's Night

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
My tuition to my school. And Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces, by Seether. Actually. All the music that I might have just sort of borrowed off YouTube and from people....

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
Yesterday my mom read me a lecture about not worrying about what people think of me.
So today I bought a CD with this front cover and this back cover.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
make everyone "walk a mile in someone else's shoes"

19. Do you like to dance?
Depends. I actually had fun last time I danced. TIME WARP!

20. George Bush:
Is an idiot, and a puppet and ruined 8 years during which I had to count myself as a citizen of this country. And is FINALLY GONE!

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Danae, maybe?

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Jill. Because I am a horrible person and Jill is a boy's name!

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes! I would love to. Sadly, our idiot school system wasted the years during which it would have been easiest for me to learn another language. Ethnocentric Americans.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Um. probably something along the lines of "See? I do exist."

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
the six people who read this and go "HOMG I WANNA DO THIS MEME!!1!!one!!!"

]]> ~KittyLark What I Remember From the 90's http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/23935208/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/23935208/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 14:05:49 PDT And I stole, because I'm old. And have got to have more memories than her.

Anyhow:
You remember watching
[ ] Kenan and Kel
[ ] Doug
[ ] Ren & Stimpy
[?] Pinky and the Brain
[ ] Rockos modern Life
[ ] Animaniacs
[ ] Gargoyles
[x] Hey Arnold (hated)
[ ] Out of the Box
[ ] Bear in the Big Blue House
1/10

[x] YouÂve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[ ] You just cant resist finishing this . . ."In west Philadelphia born and raised..."
1/2

You remember:
[ ] Step by Step
[?] Family Matters
[ ] Dinosaurs
[ ] Boy Meets World
[ ] Full House
[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (did twice then decided that they were lame.)
[x] You remember reading Goosebumps
2/6

When everything was settled by:
[x]-rock paper scissors
[x]-miss mary mack
[x] When kick ball was something you did everyday
[ ]-You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.
3/4

[ ] You remember Super Nintendos and Sega Genesis
[ ] You remember The Original Game Boy
[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to AmericaÂs Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny. (note to self: tape giant cat fitting through tiny cat door and send to AFV)
1/3

You remember watching:
[X] The Magic School Bus
[X] Wishbone
[x] Reading Rainbow
[X] Ghostwriter (LOVED this one)
4/4

[x] You remember when Yo-Yos were cool
[x] You remember those WhereÂs Waldo books. (when there was only ONE)
[X] You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers (yuck)
3/3

You remember watching:
[ ] Batman the Animated Series
[x] Aladdin
[ ] Ninja Turtles
[x] Ghost Busters
[x] You remember Ring Pops
[x] If you remember when everything was "da BOMB!"
[x] You remember boom boxes .vs. cd players.
[x] Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.
6/8

[x] You played and/or collected Pogs
[x] You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere you went.
2/2

You watched the original cartoons of
[x] Rugrats (hated)
[ ] Wild Thornberrys
[ ] Power Rangers
[?] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand
1/4

You collected
[x] Beanie Babies.
[ ] Pokemon cards
[ ] Carebears
[x] Silver dollars, which were cool to have
2/4

[ ] Everyone watched the WB
[x] When everybody knew all the Pokemon by heart.
[x] When Digimon was still on.
2/3

[x] If you even know what an original walkman is... (

I have one, and USE it!)
[x] you know the Macarena by heart (I've forgotten it...)
[x]-"Talk to the hand"
[x]-You went to McDonaldÂs to play in the playplace when it was still sanitary. (It wasn't sanitary! But I was a kid, germs build immune systems and I didn't care!)
4/4

[x] Before the MySpace frenzy
[x] Before the Internet & text messaging.
[x] Before Sidekicks & iPods
[x] Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360
[x] Back before X box period
[x] Before Spongebob. (Oh yeah. I am a REAL 90's kid!)
6/6

[x] When light up sneakers were cool.
[x] When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs
[x] When gas was $0.95 a gallon.
[x] When we recorded stuff on VCR
4/4

[x] You had slap bracelets!
[x] You Actually played outside until it was dark!
[?] Way back before we realized all this would eventually disappear. (all this? you mean being a little kid? or 90s stuff? becayse if "we" means humans, then we've always known both, but as a little kid I didn't realize it)
2/3

[x] You smiled at least more than 5 times while reminiscing over this...

[x] And if you remember at least half the stuff on here....

40/66

So I'd been making a list.
Some of these things are on it, a lot are missing...

FASHION
-Jelly Sandals (they hurt, and always broke)
-Bandannas
-Skorts
-Bell Bottoms

TOYS/FADS
-Gel Pens
-Rainbow pencils with your name on them
-Gimp
-Jump rope
-Foursquare
-Barbie (ok, "timeless" even though ick)
-Polly Pocket
-Furbees
-Weebles

FOOD-LIKE STUFF
-Fruit Roll-Ups
-Fruit by the Foot
-Dunkaroos
-Lunchables

BANDS
-Spice Girls
-98 Degrees
-N*Sync
-Brittney Spears

SHOWS/MOVIES
-Olsen & Olsen "solve any crime by din... ]]> ~KittyLark What I Remember From the 90's http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/23935196/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/23935196/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 14:05:20 PDT And I stole, because I'm old. And have got to have more memories than her.

Anyhow:
You remember watching
[ ] Kenan and Kel
[ ] Doug
[ ] Ren & Stimpy
[?] Pinky and the Brain
[ ] Rockos modern Life
[ ] Animaniacs
[ ] Gargoyles
[x] Hey Arnold (hated)
[ ] Out of the Box
[ ] Bear in the Big Blue House
1/10

[x] YouÂve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[ ] You just cant resist finishing this . . ."In west Philadelphia born and raised..."
1/2

You remember:
[ ] Step by Step
[?] Family Matters
[ ] Dinosaurs
[ ] Boy Meets World
[ ] Full House
[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (did twice then decided that they were lame.)
[x] You remember reading Goosebumps
2/6

When everything was settled by:
[x]-rock paper scissors
[x]-miss mary mack
[x] When kick ball was something you did everyday
[ ]-You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.
3/4

[ ] You remember Super Nintendos and Sega Genesis
[ ] You remember The Original Game Boy
[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to AmericaÂs Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny. (note to self: tape giant cat fitting through tiny cat door and send to AFV)
1/3

You remember watching:
[X] The Magic School Bus
[X] Wishbone
[x] Reading Rainbow
[X] Ghostwriter (LOVED this one)
4/4

[x] You remember when Yo-Yos were cool
[x] You remember those WhereÂs Waldo books. (when there was only ONE)
[X] You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers (yuck)
3/3

You remember watching:
[ ] Batman the Animated Series
[x] Aladdin
[ ] Ninja Turtles
[x] Ghost Busters
[x] You remember Ring Pops
[x] If you remember when everything was "da BOMB!"
[x] You remember boom boxes .vs. cd players.
[x] Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.
6/8

[x] You played and/or collected Pogs
[x] You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere you went.
2/2

You watched the original cartoons of
[x] Rugrats (hated)
[ ] Wild Thornberrys
[ ] Power Rangers
[?] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand
1/4

You collected
[x] Beanie Babies.
[ ] Pokemon cards
[ ] Carebears
[x] Silver dollars, which were cool to have
2/4

[ ] Everyone watched the WB
[x] When everybody knew all the Pokemon by heart.
[x] When Digimon was still on.
2/3

[x] If you even know what an original walkman is... (

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]]> ~KittyLark Well Now http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/22170543/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/22170543/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 15:48:40 PST
You know, more taboo than real people fics. Or gay stuff, or threesomes.

I suppose it makes sense. -sigh-

So my Loli/Shota meme form got deleted "due to a violation of deviantART policy or because its theme or content was judged unacceptable."

I think it is in their policy that you can't have underage pairings. But I didn't have any pairings, technically.
Or even any characters, for that matter.

I was just encouraging others to have underage characters.

Sort of silly.
Ah, kever. It wasn't the best thing I've made.

On a totally different note, I just managed to buckle my mp3 player cord into my belt and clip it into my necklace at the same time. Wow.

]]> ~KittyLark Hey Watchers! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21566725/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21566725/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 13:46:33 PST
I want to do some sort of collection - drawings, stories, something about fears.

So. What's something you fear?

It doesn't matter if you think it'd make good material for art/fic.

So! drop a comment if you want!

]]> ~KittyLark New Entry http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21469770/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21469770/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 13:32:00 PST

I dunno.
Hasn't been the best week.

But I've got a new Loveless book.

Stolen - borrowed- from my wonderful Sig.

Ok, so, even before this week, I've been analyzing my fic. Because when I write for myself, it's a lot different. Albeit creepy, but not in the same way (most people who watch this account would maintain that twincest, homoerotica, etc. is not creepy anyways.)

That said, I'm trying to say that mostly I think I write this because people will read it. Because if I post something here, I won't get feedback except from the first couple of people who see it on the front page.

It's a way to beat the popularity problem on devi. If you have a fandom you like, and topic material that isn't completely flooded yet (ok, I can't deny that I personally like the topic material), then it's a lot more likely that people will read it, and comment, and maybe, just maybe give feedback. Maybe.

I don't really know what this rant is. I think it's reactionary to recent events. And don't think I'll abandon you.
But still...

This wasn't a nice entry after all. Oops.

~Lark

]]> ~KittyLark Pointless Timewasting. http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21396835/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/21396835/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 23:11:08 PST
ETA: I learned something important here.
Like not uploading things with snoopy questions when you're dead tired.

Because you might say something about a friend. And what you say might not be what you mean, and you might make that friend needlessly uncomfortable.

In case the gay incest isn't enough to make him uncomfortable.

Anyway. That's why I'm taking this meme down.

And, well, I don't know about my account. We'll see.

]]> ~KittyLark Behind http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/20626328/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/20626328/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 19:34:04 PDT
Then I'm like: GAH! 68 messages! 264 deviations! Log out!

Then I log into my 'main' account. (The one with a conspicuous lack of Bill&co) And there it's like
AAAAAAGGH! 161 messages! 300+ deviations!

See it's not that I'm insanely popular (lawl) It's just that I don't answer my comments and favs and journals. Then all of the sudden I realize that it's been months and I haven't touched a thing.

So I'll be doing one of my massive clean-outs sometime soon.

But not today.
I'm busybusybusy with school. Plus I finished a 49-page story (hand written) and am attempting to type it up. I'm on page 9. It's been at least 2 weeks.

Anyhoooo...
Though I'd update y'all (oh yeah, I've got a teacher from texas. She says "mmkaay?" a lot. And vee-hickle instead of vehicle. (which I suppose is actually more like the real spelling that how I say it: vee-uh-cul)

I think I'm wasting time.
I'm wasting time.
Gonna go type.
Then work on college stuff.
Oh right! I gotta sleep too!

Um.
Lark out.
Ta ta all.

]]> ~KittyLark Oh , well hai there! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/20364400/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/20364400/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 20:16:45 PDT
So this is its replacement.

Nice, huh?

I don't actually have anything to say.

Well, that's a lie, I'm saying stuff now, aren't I?

School's started again.

And boy, have I got a CRAPload of fic to post.

But it needs to be typed.

Damn typing. I only wanna write it once. Though I could think of it as the editing process...

It's easier to edit if it's already typed though.

I chattering.

Oh I drew something last night, after reading In The End. Good manga, that. The ending was interesting. The story was okay, and the boys were shmexy and emo and and aaangst-y.

Okees. I guess I'll scan that nau. Mebe save your poor eyes from the torror that is this post.

Take care, lovies,

Lark
_{I know I'm acting odd. It's just my not having slept enough recently}

:sirius-lupinclub:

]]> ~KittyLark Timewasting http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/19318739/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/19318739/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:38:56 PDT [x] Mother
[x] Father
[ ] Step-Father
[ ] Step-Mother
[ ] Step-Sister
[ ] Step-Brother
[ ] Brother
[ ] Sister
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[x] Cell phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[ ] Swimming pool
[x] Hot tub
[x] Guest room
[x] TV
total so far: 7

[ ] Fullsize or bigger bed
[x] More than 8 pairs of shoes
[x] Sunglasses
[x] Watch
[x] MP3 Player/iPod that works.
[ ] Xbox that works
[ ] Nintendo DS or PSP that works
[ ] Gameboy/ Advance
[ ] Gamecube
total: 4

[ ] Basketball hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Fooseball table
total: 0

[ ] Nightstand
[ ] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom
total: 0

[ ] Job
[ ] Goes shopping at least once a week
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[x] AIM/MSN
[x] Camera or phone
total: 2

[ ] Electric or gas scooter/motorcycle/car
[ ] Guitar/Drums/Bass guitar
[x] Piano/Keyboard
[x] Any other instrument
[ ] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the province/state
[ ] Had a personal trainer
[x] Expensive jewelery (mah grandaddy made it!)
[ ] Met a celebrity
total: 4

[ ] Straightener/curling iron
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now
[ ] Credit card or atm card or debit card or bank card
[x] Been to Europe
[x] Been to NYC
[x] Been to LA
[x] Been to Florida
[x] Been to Las Vegas
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to South America
total: 5

[x] Parents have a car
[x] Jet Ski/boat (boat, dur. jet skis are noisy and don't use windpower
[ ] Camper
[x] Been to 5+ states in the US
[ ] 100+ buddies on facebook/myspace/deviantart
total: 3

[x] Home cooked meal almost every day
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[x] own a digital camera
[x] Own a laptop
total: 3

1-22 = Ghetto
23-33 = Average kid
34-44 = SPOILED
45+ = Upper Class snob

28 I'm average. But wouldn't more siblings count towards 'ghetto' not 'spoiled' or 'snob'? So... maybe the siblings should be negative points or something.
My brain works too hard.
______________________________________________

What scares me, huh?

[xxx] public speaking
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] Rejection
[xxxxxxxxxxx] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[>] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[>] that Scary guy... (...)
[>] being touched (when I'm not expecting it)
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[>] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[xxx] failure
[>] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places (I really wanna jump off a roof. But I don't wanna hit the ground. Like Spring Nicht vid = love, but he'd hit the car below. OW.
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[>] crossing hanging bridges
[>] death (of other people, my own death's not too scary)
[x] heaven ('cause if heaven's real, then hell probably is, and well, if what people say about it's true... I'm not bad! I just... like sodomy. (it's between God and me - not singing Rent) God, I sound like a preacher. -slaps self-)
[>] being robbed (only of my notebooks. 'cause that's some serious leverage against me)
[ ] falling (love it, hate landing)
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls (creepy dolls = love)
[xxx] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[xxxxxxxx] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[xxxx] growing up
[>] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[>] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs (when I was little)
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[>] falling in love (more afraid of not)
[?] super secret

]]> ~KittyLark -giggle- http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/19187963/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/19187963/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 16:41:09 PDT I got sunburned.
It was awesome.

I joined a new club. It was co-founded by my dear friend and co-character-creator,

The club is called Amaranth Portal.
It's a yuri club.
And since I am corruptable....
Anyhow

I'm using some of my Loveless-based characters for it.

Also, I'm going to an anime convention tomorrow. WHEEE! dressed as Agatsuma Soubi: The one on the right... and also the one on the right
So I'm uber-excited about that.

AAAANYhow. I think that's it.
There's a lightning storm on the way and my dog's flipping out and hiding under my desk. I tried to tell her that under a computer during an electrical storm is maybe the worst place to be, but she insists.

I think I'm going, for my dog's safety. And the computer's. ... Oh right, and mine...

Lark out

]]> ~KittyLark Away http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18899087/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18899087/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 18:50:17 PDT

Hopefully I'll have a lot of stuff to dump when I get back.

Alrighty.
Lark out for a while!

]]> ~KittyLark Scarily long meme http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18421995/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18421995/ Tue, 20 May 2008 19:54:06 PDT This is not me speaking

This is Lark, who shares my name, and a great many other parts of my existance, but who has decided to lead her own life, with a little of my influence.

In other words, this is my Mary Sue. All parts of her life that I know about are referenced, so time-space continuum is messed up. Majorly. Chronologically her life goes 1.Forks, WA 2.San Francisco, CA (university) 3.England 4.Germany 5.University in Germany 6.-unkown- 7.USA (married life)

1) Full Name: Lark Mae Dreysson

2) Male/Female: female

3) Were you named after anyone?: Yes, a woman in a story. By Tamora Pierce. Called Circle of Magic

4) Does your name mean anything?: Well, a Lark's a type of bird.

5) Nick Name(s): Uh... when Lark(my mommy) writes about me, she shortens my name to "La"

6) Who do you think you look like: Lark. As in me, or my mommy. And everyone else she draws.

7) Date Of Birth: Uh, crap, I have to send my mommy to look it up. She can't find it either. My sister was born on Nov 17, 2004. I'm gonna hazard a guess and say June 14, 1989.

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Forks, WA. Yeah laugh. And I'm in Germany (somewhere) or in San Francisco or somewhere hithertounnamed place in the US. Probably on the coast.

9) Nationality: -nose wrinkle- American. For the record, my mom (not mommy) is German.

10) Astrology Sign: Gemini.

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Year of the ... snake? Really? Huh.

12) Religion: Um. You won't believe me. Techie Gospel

13) WhatÂs your favorite smell?: Cut grass.

14) Political Position?: Uh. The "quit-making-it-a-popularity-contest-oh-wait-we're-human" Party.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Hot cocoa with a little high test coffee mixed in.

16) Hair + Eye color: Brown hair + blue eyes

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: -snrk- No one's ever told me or my mommy so. so.

18) What do you look like?: Tallish, not-very-curvy, young woman. Whose hair doesn't change. At all. In her whole life.

19) Any unusual talents?: Uh... I don't really know or want to discuss.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Lefty, since I'm my mommy's mirror image.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: I consider myself bi when I'm not in a relationship. When I'm in a relationship, I consider it irrelevent.

22) What do you do for a living?: In US university: work-study. In Germany: translating at an information center, lighting technician at a theater >.< In German university: work-study (translating again) In US: Editing, possibly translating, from home. Also community theater projects.

23) What do you do for fun?: People-watch in bars (I don't drink.) Also community theater work, watching shows, spying on my children (did I say that out loud!?) writing... I'm sure there's more. But it's not all up for discussion.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Pencil & paper, also cloth, and camera.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Computer. A real camera. Film (as in movies)

26) Have you met your grandparents?: Yes. My perfectly normal ones in Germany and my eccentric grandma in the US. And her ex-husband.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Uh... -sigh- I have different eras. Forks: Jacob Black. San Francisco: Delilah & Dominic (yes at the same time, as in threesome) Germany: Hitherto unnamed guy from my university, possibly not from Germany. Future US: A .. husband? Or someone. I don't know his name yet. But I have three kids by him. One who looks scarily like Delilah. (yes, my mommy is mean and leaves giant gaps in my life)

28) Crush: In Germany: Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. But they're *so* gay for each other. Also, somewhere, sometime: 2 hithertounnamed guys, also hithertounnamed girl (all at different times etc.)

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Hm... well in this world, Bill Kaulitz isn't a celeb. He's off having spectacular vampire sex. I'm not entirely sure. Probably some lovely foreign J-Rock star or something. Oooh... I want to design their clothes!

30) Current worries?: Germany: getting those aforementioned jobs, dumping/getting dumped by Lilah, Dom's decision to leave us for some cool brit girl/boy(?), getting a flat so I don't infringe on Siri and Remus any longer, making sure my university doesn't excommunicate me for taking a year off. In the Later!US: Having/Raising/etc. my children. Hiding my livejournal identity from them

. Not breaking my neck from using the computer. Fin... ]]> ~KittyLark Tangled Facades http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18134523/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/18134523/ Fri, 02 May 2008 14:36:49 PDT with it, the story itself is done, and posted in its entirety.

In other words: There will be no more new chapters of Tangled Facades.

I will be editing and revising the posted chapters, but I won't be writing any new material. Quite frankly; there is no plot for the rest of the story, the idea has grown old to me, and anything I force myself to write for it at this point will just be crap.

I believe that the last chapter has enough resolution to it to keep the story from just hanging. I hope that those who have read it will agree. If there are unanswered questions in the story, please let me know in a comment, and I'll answer, and try to fix it when I revise the chapters.

I'm sorry to abandon this story, but I think it's better to do it now, while there's a semblance of an end, than to try to keep pushing it forward until it collapses under its own weight. I hate to have a WIP hanging over my head the way this one has been. This way, I should be able to focus on stories that I enjoy writing, and hopefully they'll be a little better for it.

For the record, I am very sorry to have waited this long to end it officially. And to the people who have hung in there, and read or faved or commented, thank you so much. Truly. It's really nice to know that someone actually enjoys reading what I write.

Also, just so you know. This is not the death of Bryon. He'll be around. And Female!Bill might poke her head in to check up on us once and a while...
And I will consider one-shots and drawings as requests next time I offer gift art [link]

Lark Out

PS. As compensation, I present this photograph, found by someone at th_cult on livejournal: Bryon and Georg!

]]> ~KittyLark 1917 + free sketches http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17863522/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17863522/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 21:00:37 PDT The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch, free. However, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal. If you've already done 10 Free Sketches, simply link the journal entry in your comment... You still qualify.
(You don't have to do this in your own journal. I just need some motivation for drawing.)

1.~honestyliez: Bill with a cockroach. Seriously.
2.~ShiveringMoon
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

~~~~~~~

Okay, so I just looked at my page and noticed that I have 1917 views.
Wow.

Anyhow, I guess this is a bit of a bandwagon thing.
But if you happen to be the 2000 person, take a screencap, and I'll try to make something for you.

'Course, I can't promise anything that great, but um, I need some drawing motivation so....

Plus, I still have a ways to go, before then...

ETA: ~honestyliez won that thingy. Surprise surprise. But it took too long to make me think she sat there and hit refresh, 'cause seriously, all she has to do to get me to draw is tell me no more Supernatural. Or no more music. Or any number of things.
So. KEB sittin' pretty, comin' up.

w00t. I'm wasting time, waiting for my ride to rehearsal.
Take care all,

Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark Interesting... http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17512887/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17512887/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 16:33:46 PDT
So: Bill Kaulitz?
Or: Sweeney Todd?

Okay, okay, I know, bad joke. Please don't slaughter me or anything. Just thought that that was worth commenting on.
And I'm not saying there's any resemblance between Depp and Bill, just noting the photo style/hair color/makeup similarities. Not to mention that Bill is far more youthful and pretty than Sweeney.

Notice that my disclaimer is longer than what I have to say? I'm afraid in my own fandom.

Aaaanyhow. Thought I'd throw that out there.

Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark Quiz Fun http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17481583/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17481583/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 19:43:09 PDT [link]

1. Who would be a better superhero sidekick between RyRo and Karlex, and why?
Ummm.... RyRo. Because Karlex would get sidetracked and let the EvilPerson go on accident. Ryan would just stand there and look like a sidekick while really running the whole operation. Plus, he has Hobo, who is a puppy, and hence beats Haz and Matt in the realm of sidekick animals.

2. What would you do if you hadn't met the DotA guy?
......The same thing I always do. I've never met the DotA guy. DotA

3. The Way brothers got turned into an animal! What animal is it?
Koala puppies! (Mikey makes me think of a Koala [link] and Gee makes me think of a puppy[link] but they're related, so...)

4. Describe Bdon Urie in five words.
Ryan Ross's illicit fuck toy.

5. If you could do anything with Gustav the Unloved, what would it be?
Glomp him dramatically. And give him a teddy bear

6. What's your fondest memory of Agatsuma Soubi?
The time when he told Ritsuka that he loves him. Erm... which time? Dunno...

7. Would you open a mystery gift RyRo just gave you, without much hesitation?
YES! But um, why is he giving me gifts? Does he know me?

8. What's Agatsuma Soubi's opinion on cheese?
It tastes like cheese.

9. Who does the DotA guy like?
Women and video games.

10. Do you think the DotA guy is a virgin?
If he wasn't famous, he might be. But seriously? Hell no.

]]> ~KittyLark Thursday http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17432268/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17432268/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 19:21:09 PDT Wegjopdfngsaodfig erio gue rbgoa odofoeirth hwfdigkm
-splat-

And one of my fav charas died again. -not doing spoilers here...-
BUT next week it's going to be on at 10 instead of 9, which pisses me off because if I'm watching it till 11, then my adrenalin will last till 11:30, then I have to take a shower and I won't get to bed till after midnight.
pooey.
Whatever. Thursday = almost friday = almost weekend.

OK, so I spent earlier haunting my LJ (kittylark there too, surprise surprise) because there's a 24 hour strike on LJ starting at midnight GMT, which is 7 pm for me. >.<
Since there's a time period where I'm supposed to not use LJ, of course I suddenly want to, which is silly, since I only ever read there. And since the strike started, I've got five message notifications. I never receive messages.
...
Well, I'm one of maybe a few people bothering to observe it.
K-ever.

Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark New Meme... http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17183295/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17183295/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 16:44:11 PST 1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. The age you will be on your next birthday:
[link]
>>

2. A place you'd like to travel:
[link]

3. Your favorite place:
[link]

4. Your favorite object:
[link]

5. Favorite food:
[link]

6. Your favorite animal:
[link]

7. Your favorite color:
[link]

8. The town/state/etc in which you live:
[link]

9. Name of past pet:
[link]

10. A dream come true:
[link]

11. Your nickname/screenname:
[link]

12. Middle name:
[link]
Right, this is so my real middle name...

13. Favorite Smell:
[link]

14. Bad habit of yours:
[link]

15. Your first job:
[link]

16. Favorite Movie:
[link]
The Secret Of Roan Inish
And
[link]

17. What are you doing right now?
[link]

18. Whats The Weather Like?
[link]

19. Favourite Sport:
[link]

20. Favourite Music/Style/Band:
...
Make it hard will you?
[link]
Artists:
[link]
[link]
[link]

I tag...
-dramatic pause-
people who want to be tagged!

]]> ~KittyLark Mas... http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17146745/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17146745/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 10:19:42 PST
Anyhow.
I just remembered something that I was planning on sharing here.
You probably all know it by now.

Tokio Hotel's 1000 Meere in English!

Personally I like it best in German... But that hasn't stopped me from listening to this over and over, and over, and over....

Yeah... So.

Lark out.

]]> ~KittyLark Devious Journal Entry http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17119860/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/17119860/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 15:46:14 PST
I'm mostly posting this to mention that I've joined a new club:
~Hollow-Hearts-Org
I'm #27, Karlex. w00t!

Also, I've completed a story of mine (although I have one more chapter to type) I want to post it, but I'm not sure that it... agrees... with devi's submission policy. More so than most stuff...

I'll update on that in a while though, once I finish typing it up. I've also got to run it by a beta, and my usual beta may not be interested in reading the subject material... ur... I'll figure something out.

Over and out:
Lark
/Karlex

]]> ~KittyLark Devious Journal Entry http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16965578/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16965578/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 16:47:24 PST
I organized my gallery!
I feel proud, but stupid devi's giving me grief over my tangles icon. Que ever.
So yup.

I think I'm going to put up bits of 4-SO (aka Four-Story Orgy)
It's nowhere near complete, but -shrug- it's fun.
It might make me write more... ... hahaha...
yeah right.

Love to the amazing people who have favved my stuff recently. -Rolls in warm fuzzies- Thank you all so much!

-Lark

]]> ~KittyLark Welcome! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16194416/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16194416/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 21:27:53 PST

]]> ~KittyLark Devious Journal Entry http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16154833/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16154833/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 15:54:33 PST
We're still not done with Christmas. We're maybe someday eventually going up to Gram's house...

Anyhow, I have most of my presents. I got colored pencils! -happyhappydance-
And speakers! (finally)

I think Tangles has been dying... It makes me sad, but... yeah.

I have a bunny for it, but it needs me to get past a certain point in order to write that part.

Well, Jo Spitely is betaing for me ATM, and I'll have some much-better edited parts up soon. I am also considering some changes, or even an entire re-write. meh. I don't have the energy for that at the moment.

OHOHOH! I remember!

-dance-
I saw Sweeney Todd!
(so did not just type "was")

It was awesome. I loved it more than I thought I would.

So the blood was cool and all, and very fake looking, but I liked the opening credits, and the zooming through the streets.

All in all, it was awesome. And I want Helena Bonham Carter's fingerless gloves.

]]> ~KittyLark Weird http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16063671/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/16063671/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 18:45:34 PST
So there's a bit of a delay on TF while my ear gets gnawed off my an overly festive plotbunny. It doesn't understand that Christmas is not a good time for it. Or maybe it understands that all too well and just wants me dead.

So I'm writing another Tokio fic (shoot me please)
It involves some ... questionable... themes

Or not so much questionable as heavy.

I want to know what the readership will be (haha, if there is any)

It involves NonCon, Jost/Tom and Jost/Bill and twinlove. It's pretty much about abuse and recovery (or discovery?) It's not for anyone who is sensitive to these issues/themes etc.

It also might be the kind of thing that devi would take down. I will check up on the rules before I post anything. I don't want to get banned!

---

Different news:

So all the people I watch here I also watch on my feeds.

Recently, my feeds decided to throw several old things back at me. They weren't edited or anything... and there's nothing newsletter-wise in my inbox, so it's presumably nothing of devi's doing (although, they don't always tell you what they're doing...

whatever.

righto.

byebye
Lark

]]> ~KittyLark -sort-of fangirling- http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15959417/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15959417/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 12:56:05 PST Wimps.
It's 17 degrees out and snowing and blowing 20+mph. And they're closed.
Wimps.

So we went to the supermarket instead.

Squeeeeee!

Uh that wasn't about Shaw's
That was about the guy who worked at Shaw's.

He looked almost *exactly* like Brendon Urie, only better. I sort of tried not to stare... ~~or drool~~

And I realize how pathetic I must sound right now.

Wow.

But he was pretty. (And Kit, he was prettier than Brendon, since I know you don't care about Bdenpuppy) And he got a gumball from the gumball machine while I was there. And I tried not to stalk him.

I'm hyper. I think that's part of the problem. And I suffer from random fixations on pretty people that I will never see again. -pout-

So yeah, people who watch drae will know this but; I'ma gettin' a kitty!

Another one.

Her name is Maggie. She's a super-shy tabby, who my mom's friend has to give up.

~Lark

PS:
My neighbors are playing "I'm A Better Good Samaritan Than You Are" by alternately snowblowing each other's driveways before the storm ends... O.o
It's sort of funny.

]]> ~KittyLark >.< http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15724640/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15724640/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 17:14:00 PST Kitouze re-tagged me. Because I'm a LadyDog (read: bitch) now who's the bitch if someone get's RE-tagged.

Well... I can't deny I had another set in mind the first time I did this anyway, so....

Rules:
Pick 2 of your characters.
Make them answer the following questions
Pick 2 other Deviants to do the same

Characters:
Treten&Lerru (the young lovers! awwwwws)

1) How old are you?
Treten: I'll be 16.
Lerru: In six months.
Treten: Well, I will be.
Lerru: I'm almost 19.
Treten: Not yet.

2) Size?
Treten: I'm just over 5'6" but I'm still getting taller.
Lerru: He's about average. Certainly not huge. I, however-
Treten: Lerru! Shut up!
Lerru: Why?
Treten: They don't need to hear this.
Lerru: This interview is confidential. Right?

3) Bad habits?
Lerru: He thinks he's not worthy of me. That's his bad habit.
Treten: And his is seducing younger boys.
Lerru: -pout- You're only three years younger than I.
Terten: Three and half.
Lerru: ... whatever.

4) Are you a virgin?
Treten: What kind of question is that?
Lerru: Nope. I took care of that when I was 13.
Treten: Why are you sharing details we don't want to know?
Lerru: And you know, Tret's not a virgin anymore either.
Treten: Oh no, please shut up!
Lerru: See, he didn't even know how it works. How cute is that? He didn't get the whole "a hole's a hole" thing...
Treten: Lerru! Shut up! PLEASE!

5) Married or single?
Lerru: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-
Treten: Single, but I have a boyfriend. He's that annoying guy over there, laughing his butt off.
Lerru: -HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-
Treten: See, in our country, we don't exist. The government and culture denies the existence of anyone who sleeps with people with the same genitalia.
Lerru: HAHAhahaha...ha...ha...heehee...
Treten: So in other words, we aren't allowed to get marriage licenses. Let alone marry a man. And who'd want to marry a woman?

6) Do you have children?
Treten: Uh, reread what you just read. And, just for the record, neither of us has ever slept with a woman. ... Right, Ler?
Lerru: Right.

7) Favorite food?
Treten: Spanakopita. Mythandrean style.
Lerru: So, you do realize how weird it is that you obsess over the country we're at war with?

8) Do you have any secrets?
Lerru: Hell yeah. My life is a big secret. Wanna know what it is? Yes? The world is homophobic!!!
Treten: Ler, that's not the secret. That's the reason that your secret is a secret.
Lerru: Oh yeah. My secret is -leans forward confidentially- I fuck this guy -points to Treten-
Treten: They don't need to know that!
Lerru: Well, what secret do you want me to tell them? That my boyfriend makes funny noises during sex?
Treten: Hey! Look who's talking...
Lerru: What was that!?
Treten: You heard me!

9) Are you in love?
Treten: Yes.
Lerru: Uh... I prefer to say 'in lust.'
Treten: That's a yes.
Lerru: Heeeeh...

10) Favorite band, singer, or CD?
Lerru: Naikaru. He plays a good sitar.
Treten: Not when he's drunk.
Lerru: So?
Treten: You just like him 'cause he's hot.
Lerru: Not as hot as yoooou -winkwinknudgenudge-
Treten: I don't have a favorite. Allee's a good singer.
Lerru: And she's after your di-
Treten: I turned her down.
Lerru: And she's gonna take no?

11) What's your eye color?
Treten: I don't really know.
Lerru: You have green eyes.
Treten: (See? he does notice things) Yours are blue.

12) Do you prefer the swimming pool or the beach?
Treten: Beach! Only, I've never been to the ocean.
Lerru: What? Never been to the ocean? Come on. We're going. Now.
Treten: Ler, the interview...
Lerru: Oh damn the interview.

13) Camping or staying at home?
Treten: Camping. Definitely preferable to be out in the holdings with my sisters than to be in the hold with my parents and brothers.
Lerru: Ditto. Only I don't have any sisters. I go with my... friend.
Treten: Friend?
Lerru: Friend! A childhood friend.

14) Were you born naturally or cloned?
Lerru: Ew. Can we not talk about anything that involves women's genitals?
Treten: What's clone?
Lerru: I'm afraid to find out, judging by the rest of the question.

15) Favorite ice cream flavor?
Treten: We don't get ice much of that around here.
Lerru:... ]]> ~KittyLark 2 hours later http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15597932/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15597932/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 22:42:46 PST FallenThief since I don't have any characters there...

Rules:
Pick 2 of your characters.
Make them answer the following questions
Pick 2 other Deviants to do the same

Characters:
Bryon & Isa ('cause Georg isn't mine)

1) How old are you?
Bryon: 10 months and 5 days older than Georg.
Isa: There's such a thing as too obsessed, you know.
Bryon: -bites lip-
Isa: Twenty-six. Give or take a bit.

2) Size?
Isa: 5'4"
Bryon: I don't believe that. You'd beat me in a fight.
Isa: It's all about brains, of course I'd win.
Bryon: Did I mention I'm 5'9"?
Isa: An inch taller than Georg.
Bryon: That's my line.

3) Bad habits?
Bryon: I forget to put food back in the fridge.
Isa: Ew.
David Jost: Tell me about it.
Bryon: Get outta here!
Isa: I make jokes at peoples' expense, when I first meet them. They normally love me or hate me.
Bryon: Usually hate.
Isa: Hey!

4) Are you a virgin?
Isa: -giggles madly-
Bryon: Uh, no.
Isa: -continues giggling-
Bryon: Do you know how immature that is?
Isa: No, wait, so let me tell you the story-
Bryon: Oh God no.
Isa: So in high school-
Bryon: -puts fingers in ears- LALALALALA!

5) Married or single?
Isa: Single and proud!
Bryon: Well, I'm not married... Hey... is gay marriage legal in Germany?
Isa: Bryon and Georg sitting in a tree F-U-C-
Bryon: Shut up!

6) Do you have children?
Bryon: Not very possible.
Isa: Ever heard of mpreg?
Bryon: ewnoewnoewnoewnoewno!
Isa: We'll take that as another no.

7) Favorite food?
Isa: Punch! (No, not knuckle sandwich here.) I'm talking punch, like a bowl. With alcohol in it.
Bryon: I don't drink.
David Jost: We're talking about food here.
Bryon: YOU aren't talking. Get out!
Isa: I'll take that as a vote for vodka.
Bryon: Wait, what?

8) Do you have any secrets?
Bryon: -glances about shiftily- -whispers- I'm gay.
Isa: Dude, that's not a secret.
Bryon: Shut up!
Isa: Bry, you're dating a male celebrity. It's NOT a secret.
Bryon: What do you mean it's not a secret? No one knows!
Isa: Now they do.
Bryon: What? Waaaaaiiiit... STOP TYPING THIS!

9) Are you in love?
Isa: No! Don't say that word!
Bryon: -is slightly gooey-eyed- Yes...
Isa: Oh no.
Bryon: Have you ever noticed his hair? How it always looks so soft and shiny... even after a show?
Isa: -fingers in ears- LALALALALA!

10) Favorite band, singer, or CD?
Isa/Bryon: TOKIO HOTEL!!!!
Isa/Bryon: ...
Isa: actually... I'm not really their biggest fan... I prefer Evanescence.
Bryon: -mumbles something incomprehensible-
Isa: What was that? I didn't catch it.
Bryon: ...tatu...

11) What's your eye color?
Isa: Greeeeeeeeen
Bryon: Brown. It's sort of dull, not like Georg's eye color.
Isa: I don't give a d*mn about Georg's eye color. I have GREEN eyes.
Bryon: We heard.
Isa: Green is my favorite color!
Bryon: I thought it was purple?
Isa: That too.

12) Do you prefer the swimming pool or the beach?
Isa: -twitch- I don't swim.
Bryon: Uh, beach... because you can walk for a long ways in the wind and salt and not actually have to swim to not seem weird.

13) Camping or staying at home?
Isa: I don't actually have a home right now. But if it's bus vs. hotel, I want the hotel.
Bryon: My home is a little crappy apartment that probably has a dozen eviction notices slipped under the door now. So, camping?

14) Were you born naturally or cloned?
Bryon: Do we have to talk about this? It's awkward.
Isa: So, you see, my mommy and my daddy loved each other very much (forget that they got a divorce) and so they had a little egg and a little sperm and they got together and made me in my mommy's tummy-
Bryon: -is in the corner, twitching and muttering to himself-

15) Favorite ice cream flavor?
Bryon: Strawberry and chocolate.
Isa: It says flavor, not flavors.
Bryon: Well, can't I get two scoops on one cone?
Isa: Only if it's a medium.
Bryon: Well jeez.
Isa: I like pistachio, 'cause it's green.

16) Have you ever killed someone?
Bryon: Thank God, no.
Isa: Are you religious?
Bryon: No. Are you?
Isa: Nein.
Bryon: So... have you killed someone.
Isa: ...maaaaaaaybe...
Bryon: Uh.
Isa: [aside] He thinks I'm being serious.

17) Fat or slim?
Isa: I'm not fat! But I... ]]> ~KittyLark Vacation! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15595127/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15595127/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 18:42:58 PST
Now I've got the rest of the week off. I plan on doing some typing. I already got my most recent chapter up. And have 4.5 pages left in my notebook. I'm gonna have to start a new one... -sniff-

Also, anyone else been getting spam recently? The last three times I logged in there were notes from random people about "Oh, you poetry is so good! You should enter this contest!" Nevermind that I haven't written any poetry in... -counts- three+ years or so...

Okay so it snowed today.
My junior honors chemistry class (hahaha) did exactly the same thing that my dad's 3rd and 4th grade students did. "OMG IT'S SNOWING! LOOK IT'S SNOWING!"

Then again, teenagers will do pretty much anything to get out of a chemistry test.

So I got to walk Charm in the snow for the first time. She was all like "What's this white stuff falling from the sky? It's wet..."

I love snow this time of year, when it's not really snowing, but it smells like winter and feels like winter and looks like fall... dunno...

Heehee, I like my mood icon!

But this song on Dancing w/ the Stars is meeehhh.... -twitch- I thought I finally died years ago, in elementary school...

]]> ~KittyLark Stuffffffff http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15060504/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15060504/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 14:54:30 PDT If you're interested in the full story, It's here: [link] in my other journal. I am not going to type that all out again. It's the top two entires that explain the thing.

Long story short, lightening zap killed my computer, my parents sent that laptop away even though it just needs a new power cord, and I'm on my neighbor's to do homework (and update my crap)

All my pics and stories are recoverable without the compy guy ever seeing them. w00t.

I'm sorry that I won't be working on Tangles for a bit. I am working on hand-writing some of it right now though. Promise.

~Lark

Clubs:

]]> ~KittyLark urgh http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15033514/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/15033514/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 18:15:03 PDT
You probably know by now, but the new mature content system means that no one under 18 can view mature content stuff. Now go look at my favs with the filter on. Hahahahaha. ha. ha. ... guh.

So, I'm moving to a new account. I know I'm not /supposed/ to do that, but honestly, I'm of an age of legal parental consent, and my parents have always told me that what I read is my own business. And if I think something will offend me, I don't click.

~IAmStillDreaming

That's me.

I'm not sure how I'll orchestrate moving. I think I'll keep this account open, but maybe start posting stuff there... I think I'll keep Tangles here for now, though...

Anyhow, lovelyness and all...

And guess what? My house got hit by lightening, and my dad hadn't unplugged the modem, so my computer is fried. With all my drawings, and writing, and some stuff that I maybe don't want the compy guy to come across if he can salvage stuff...
I store all my active writing on google docs, so I didn't loose anything too important. I did loose all the pictures of my dead cat though, which makes me quite sad.

My Tv's fried too... not that that really matters too much to me. Until Lost starts up again

Byebye.

]]> ~KittyLark -yay!- http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/14232364/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/14232364/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 21:50:43 PDT -continues without it-

yay!
Remius for ever!

... i've got a headache

]]> ~KittyLark Panic! at the Disco (and other stuff) http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/14219072/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/14219072/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 23:17:42 PDT
Okay, so I am completely obsessed with panic!. I've been listening to all the songs from "A Fever You Can't Sweat Out" over and over on YouTube.
It's sort of strange, and maybe a little pathetic. Because I've always thought that swears were a totally unnecessary device in music. Now there are only ... 2 songs by my favorite band that I'm comfortable letting my parents hear. Anyhow, I lovelovelove Camisado for no reason, as well as "London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines", and "There's a Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought Of It Yet". The titles are so godawfully long, but -shrug-

Like I said I have no clue why I'm obsessed. Well, I think there's a draw in the fact the music sticks in my head, and the style (their earlier one, not the most recent cowboy look. ... ) the frills and the Golden Era clothes. And although I hate Vegas... they're still awesome. I like the way they say anything and everything. Oh yeah, Ryan Ross sure isn't a turn-off either. I guess I have a thing for the femmy boys

Oh yeah, I hate their most recent video though. ("Build God, Then We'll Talk") The PornoMime is... an interesting concept... but ...really.

I might do some pics of them later, but not atm. RyRo's pretty face is beyond my skillz, and his makeup... -sigh- I'll just stare at it for a while instead of trying to draw it. I mean, it's not makeup, it's face paint. -sigh- Oh, brilliance, I forgot to mention another lovely factor in this. Slash! at the Disco. A LiveJournal comm.

Okay, I'm about hyper off sleeplessness enough to go insane right now. I just told Kit to shoot me. And she did, via chat so it doesn't count. Wow. If you can get a hangover just from feeling/acting drunk without having a drop of liquor in you, I'd have wicked one tomorrow. haha. Mein Gott, I'm too hyper.

Okay.
sorry I'm being spazzy again

Frankly I'm a little jealous of people who can maintain an obsession. I'll always have a little place in my heart for my neglected fandoms, and I'm sure someday I'll scream "KYONKITCHI" when I see an orange cat, out of reflex, or reread a few books of FAKE or abuse my Old Blind Dogs CD. I just wish I could be consistent about it. I may be in fits over RyRo now, but in a few months, maybe a year, I don't know, he'll just be another guitarist on my mp3. Albeit a hot one.

Not to say that I'm done with Tokio yet either. I refuse to be done with them. I'm only just working on their stories... but... meh I don't know. I just crossed the line between sleepless-hyper and sleepless-emo.

I do have good news though.

*Panic!Fest Over Now*

So! We got the boat in the water today, OH. MY. GOD. Yesssss!
Finally finally finally

All freaking summer without a boat! No wonder I told Kit to kill me.

But she is IN the water. lovelovelovelovelovejoyhappysailingwindw ater

I have a bloody sunburn though

It took all day. The truck came for my baby around 2, but we were up all morning getting ready. Moving spars and arranging towels and loading stuff on board.

Then the truck came, it's so cool to watch it pick the boat up and drive off with her. We had to chase mom down to the pizza place because she took the checkbook with her... -giggles- oh the Drama!

Anyhow, lotsa fun, nein? Well, a lot of crap with lines being fed wrong and people moving about and the dog not liking the moving docks, &c&c. But then we sailed her to our mooring at sunset, and were heading home by 9.

*More Fandom Spazzing, and Story Crap*

Oh yeah, so I'm writing a new story.

I know I shouldn't start a new story without finishing my others

But this is a crossover AU story with AFI, MyChem, P!atD, and TH.
-grin- I pervert those poor poor boys.

Anyhow, Ill be putting up lotsa fun crap about that soon. I actually focus more on BillUndTom than I really meant to at all, I think because my second idea involved Tom getting laundry dumped on his head... (the first involved Jade ranting about college... pff... I lost that one fast enough... I still need to work in the box of chocolates on the pile of dirty laundry surrounding the CD palyer though...)

Oh dear, I'm natternatternattering. I'll shut up soon, I promise.

Love you all

http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/14087759/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:33:24 PDT
So I'm sorry that I'll get behind in people's devis and stuff again, and I haven't updated in forever I know... but... -sigh-

See you later...

]]> ~KittyLark Devious Journal Entry http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13929427/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13929427/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 15:45:12 PDT I'm in California! Everything is backwards! The sun setting in the ocean? weeeeird it's supposed to RISE from the ocean.

There's a lot going on. I've been running around like a crazy lady. Good news that my aunt's eye thing is not a really bog problem. It should clear up in a couple of months.

I'm also amazed, and very happy, about how Tangled Facades is coming along. Thank you to everyone who is reading it (I just had the sudden urge to say "I'd like to thank the academy..." okay, insane me will shut up) I'll be adding more, although it now requires a lot more typing before I can get any more up. It will come, I promise.

I also have a lot more art to put up, but not till I get home. A lot of it was done on the 11"x14" paper, which my scanner does not like. So I'll have to line it up on the compy. -grumbles-

Hey my daddy's on the roof! Measuring the sky light! Hi daddy!

Oooo. I'm gonna describe this place, it's soooo cool.

The front of the building is a pottery gallery. at the end of the wall along the sidewalk, there is a gate.

When you unlock the gate you follow a long ally out back to a patio. There's a set of stairs going up to a covered deck. If you turn left on this deck there's a bathroom, if you keep going through a huge pair of tall french doors, you step down into an apartment. All one room.

There's a kitchen area first, then you pass what was a skylight before this floor was added over it, and you're in the living area. A ladder goes up to a loft that overlooks the whole room.

The windows are huge and open wide enough to let Hagrid in out out.
if you go back to the covered porch and turn left, there's a ladder going up to the roof of the gallery. It's a roof deck, and you can take another ladder up to the roof of this floor

You can see the city one way (we're in the suburbs, i think) and the golden gate bridge the other.
so cool
so yeah
and my description did no justice.

Okay, felt the need to share that with you all.

<3
Lark, signing out for now.

]]> ~KittyLark -humms- http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13594696/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13594696/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 16:13:05 PDT
In a bout of creativity, insanity, and necessity, I patched my pants.

It actually WORKED. It was awesome. It took me forever, but now I have a nice sky-patterned patch on the seat of my work pants. Hopefully it holds.

um, there was something else I wanted to say...

I forgot.

Yup!

Lark out

ps I'll be back after HP7 comes out! ]]> ~KittyLark Imortant! http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13369004/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13369004/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 12:59:28 PDT Thank you, and let me know if you didn't get it.

]]> ~KittyLark Stuff http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13362122/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/13362122/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 21:57:48 PDT

In case you hadn't heard. I am out of school

Okay. That's been said.

I am going to Baker on tuesday -happyspaz-
My Gmom from NYstate is coming the day after tomorrow and the house has to be pristine (mom likes to keep up the facade that the house is well kept) Then we spend a day shopping. Foodstuffs for the island and suchlike. Thankfully not clothes. Grandma K would not buy what I want. As it is, explaining my newest taste in music and such will be interesting. God forbid someone should find some of my slash stuff while she's here. ... I think I might do some cleaning of my own in my room before she gets here.

If my parents found my slash stuff, they'd probably be okay towards me, but it would mean listening to them discuss it at night when I'm supposed to be asleep through the walls they probably don't know are so thin. It would also mean awkward questions, and probably the assumption that I'm lesbian, and being told how that's okay and stuff. It would be awkward, because there'd be explaining involved about hormones and boys and lots of lovely stuff I'd have to teach them about. But if my Grandmother found it... I don't even want to imagine that. She'd be unbelievably awkward about it.

That rant was totally unnecessary. Uhm, where was I? Baker? Baker! Ah yes.

We're heading out on tuesday at an unknown time. It will involve lots of frantic packing and running about and organizing and repacking and choosing who rides in what car with whom and who takes the dog and what bag to carry and you packed way too much and why are you bringing that and how could you forget that and someone get this and did you flush the toilet and are you seriously bringing that many batteries, and why the heck do we only have half-spent batteries and who put my flashlight there and does someone have the sunscreen and oh my god we have to leave NOW or we won't make the boat and stop trying to fix that it's too late now and where the's dog's life jacket and we are not going back for your sunglasses.

And then it will be silent. For three hours. Three long car hours. Punctuated by breaks to walk the dog and pee and eat, maybe. There will be two of us in each car. I'm not sure if we're going with mom, dad (truck) or Grandma K. Spitey, you and I will probably be in one vehicle (probably w/ my g-mom) and Kit and Fallen will be in the other (mom) I guess the dog'll go with dad. This is subject to change.

So anyhow three hours in the car. Possibly pretty awkward, at least for all of you. Grandma K will expect conversation. Mom will try to make conversation or else listen to her birdcall tape. (eyeroll) Bring headphones...

Then we'll be at the harbor. This means unpacking, repacking, what did you do with that cooler, which bag has my hairbrush, go fill the water containers, why didn't you finish your sandwich in the car, someone take the dog for a walk, the boat's already here and waiting, hurry up! Then the boat ride. about an hour, a little less, I think.

Then, finally, the island. Well, carrying crap up to the house, and putting coolers in the basement, and opening the outhouse, and brushing flies out of the windows and greeting the other family and letting the dog off the leash and flopping down to rest until mom needs the lettuce out of the basement, and grandma kate needs a younger person to lift something.

Then a whole week of bliss.

I personally know it will all be worth it.

]]> ~KittyLark Heh http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/12921823/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/12921823/ Fri, 11 May 2007 21:40:44 PDT

So I've been spending all my spare time at rehearsals for the Full Monty. Yes, THAT Full Monty. The male stripper Full Monty. I swear I'm not there just for the guys. I'm doing spot light.

It was opening night, and as far as opening nights go, it was awesome! I mean there were glitches and such, but it was great, the audience was good, my spotlight was always on when it needed to be.

What I wanna know is why - if they have a teenage boy and a teenage girl doing spotlights - they put the GIRL on the spotlight for Keno (the "professional" stripper) I'm becoming rather immune to (how do they put it in the show?) "ass-wiggling"

ooOOO. BTW, most of the guys are gay, which is fine with me because they're all way older than me anyway, and if I'm not interested in any of them, I'd rather they be gay (I am so shallow and teenage

) Anyhow, this is certainly helping me get used to language and blatant sexuality. I tend to be rather... what would you say... timid? about talking about this stuff (I know, this account doesn't support that theory...)

So anyhow, that's that.

And my newest obsession is Tokio Hotel -dies of overexposure to hotness-
German band. Pretty boys. Drool. All that fun stuff.

Oh, and Ina's sick. She has what Daisy had, the thyroid thing. She's on meds, and it's not imminently life-threatening or anything, but still...

]]> ~KittyLark Pointless Rant -ignorable http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/12760274/ http://KittyLark.deviantart.com/journal/12760274/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 21:50:19 PDT And I can't do a flipping thing about it. It's not my problem, just don't pick up the phone if it's a collect call from a jail. Don't ask the questions that they can't answer. Why the h*ll? Wrong question.
Oh yeah, I don't talk like this. I'm a fucking inanimate mouse. I sit here like a good little girl and read my books and don't hear what the hell is going on. I have good grammar and I had good grades. I'm going to smile and nod and be sweet and go to a good college and have a good boyfriend and marry him and live happily ever after. No shit. I'm too timid to protest. I KNOW what I'm supposed to do. Now all I have to do is do it. What if I don't want to? What if I want to live my own damn life and not feel like I have to hide behind this fucking facade? What if I want to sit here and read my graphic yaoi stories that they don't know about because I am a coward, who wants to have her own opinions, but doesn't know how to live them? What if I want to be different, but I'm too damn afraid of being different?

URgh. That was a total rant. I don't know where it all came from. It started with a guy who is a total shithead (note to self, asterisks are GONE) and is scewing up the lives of everyone who should matter to him. They're only there to provide money and a way out. Above the law, above the world, above the notion of compassion, consideration anything those poor people deserve after forty someodd years of him. And they still love him.
And then I think my rant digressed. I'm feeling oddly annoyed right now, because I had to hide a pile of yaoi (and relatively normal) manga when my parents were coming home. And all because I don't want to have to admit to being an average horny teenage girl. Guys making out with guys is hot. I do not want to have to tell my 50-year-old parents that. Or that I'm interested in the politics of it. I wanted to look at the stuff about gender and sexuality studies at the colleges I visited, but I don't want them to try to talk to me about this kind of thing. I like HOT GUYS making out. Good enough answer. I don't want to talk about anything that I say on this username to them. I love my parents, but I don't want to upset them by being different from how they always thought I am. I put up the facade of as close to perfection as I can. And in a way I want it to be real, that facade. But I'm not perfect. I don't dress the way I want to, act the way I want to, or say what I want to. And it's all because I'm afraid of peoples' opinions.
I am afraid that people will talk about me. That I will stand out. That people will think, oh that's Lark, she's different. I WANT to be different. I don't want to be different.
Okay wow, super long rant. I think I'm a lot more talkative when SAWA is around. You guys help me de-stress (although I have to clean up the kitchen in the morning>.< ) You let me talk and laugh about the things that I want to talk and laugh about. I can read smutty stories and not be looking always over my shoulder in fear that someone might notice that I'm not only how I act.
Everything I do, say, wear, even think, is for the sake of being a way that no one can fault. So that people will maybe like me, maybe not shun me, or talk behind my back.
They still do. What the heck, why SHOULD I care?
SAWA lets me do whatever I want. I don't care if you think it's weird because I know you won't pin a label on me. You won't change your opinion or stop being friends. I'm so insecure. It's stupid.
I'm a hypocrite. A damn hypocrite.

I'll shut up in my self-pity rant now. I wasn't feeling that bad until I STARTED ranting.
Nyargh.

]]> ~KittyLark