http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:KittyOfDoomed-ness&section=today deviantART RSS for by:KittyOfDoomed-ness en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 09:09:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/28803695/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/28803695/ Mon, 07 Dec 2009 11:11:22 PST
I really really miss my old friends..

back when i was 12...13...
michael, amanda...
heck, even amber and gary...

i miss it all so much... and the only one i have 'decent' contact with now it amanda... she's within driving distance.
gary just wants to fuck me..
amber... is still amber.. enh..
and michaels in another state.


it all sucks so much..

nowa days the majority of my friends hate me..
they don't wanna see me or hear from me...
and if my name is mentioned around them, it's usally followed by 'fucking skank bitch'

my only best friend is my boyfriend...

Amanda and i are still good friends.. but i don't see her that often...


i'm so sick of this.
and people ask "why're you so down? why're you so emo? why do you cut yourself? why do you wanna die? huh? whhhhhy??"
live my life. i know there's someone out there that probly has it worse... but... i'm not as strong.

stop fucking telling me to 'cheer up emo kid'
i'm so fucking sick of hearing that!!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/28619916/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/28619916/ Fri, 27 Nov 2009 21:56:14 PST
just


yea


great fuckin day

past couple days have been awesome.

work has been amazing.


I can honestly say i'm pretty happy and chill as fuck right now.


time to sleep.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/27832979/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/27832979/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 10:39:19 PDT

I have 5. daisy, sprinkles, poptart, rowan, and lil'bit.

the first 3 are my absolute favorite. and my babies.... <3
they seem to be everyones favorite.
no one really handles rowan or lil'bit. but they are so adorable... i wish i made more time for them..

but alas. the point is. I am giving the two away on craigs list.

it'll make it 10x easier for me to travel around with my rats. the 3 fit inthe travel cage easier than 5. and they won't be as upset and restless afterwards.


so if youre interested. please go see.
they are FREE.

they are PETS.
if they are going to be anything other than that, i can't stop you. but PLEASE don't tell me.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/26582496/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/26582496/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 03:52:24 PDT
i'mma dork.
yup.
the best dork you'll ever know


ANYWAYS.
I took like a bazillion new pics of my rats. ^^
i'll be able to upload them here and on myspace soon. HOPEFULLY!!!!

um..
i got a second job!!!
lotsa moneh!
i'm working mornings at Chick-Fil-A as usual, and then the evening til close at Jo-Ann(fabric and craft store).

i hope i like this job.
i start this monday!


omg i can't sleep!!!!!!!! >< i barely slept a few hours last night.
'He' already went to work so i'm stuck here alone.
well..
i'm not STUCK here...
i can just drive home or somethin.
but i have things to do around this part of town and not enough gas to go all the way home and back.
blah blah blah

but it's... meh... boring? normally i'm still asleep and i don't even know he left for work til i wake up and he's not next to me.
NORMALLY i don't wake up til noon...
i'm gonna try sleeping again soon, after i check myspace and shit.
then i have to TAKE OVER CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>> I'm a bit addicted to Dynasty Warriors 4
I have like... 3 more regions to take over....
but there's this asshole boss that has a HUGE army and stupid water around his castle area that drains my whole army and my health. it's so stupid.
and he rides an elephant and you have to shoot him off with a bow but you're constanlt getting beat up by the other generals and lt. generals and the foot soldiers and that asshole is ALWAYS running you over and taking a chunk of your health away and the controls are fucking BACKWARDS when you use your bow. OMG it pisses me off SOOO bad ><


*sighs*
well.
i'm done. lol
love ya!!

.::.Faith.::.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/26327096/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/26327096/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 21:48:21 PDT MICE.

and RATS.


I have two mice.

Mouse, and Sparkles. i'll put pics up asap.

and two rats. Daisy and Sprinkles (i don't like that name... step mom MADE me name her cause i didn't name her within TWO freaking days of getting her...)

gimme good names.
i'll put pics up of them later too.
my comp is being an a-hole.
so i'm using my parents for now...
anyways. all my rodents are girls.

I had a boy. his name was Patches. white with brown spots. but he smelled icky... he kept scent marking EVERYTHING way too much. he had to go... i do miss him tho...


now. descriptions.
Mouse - normal brown. (she was a feeder mouse. but i loves her and saved her from the awful small feeder mouse cage. she's my baby...)
Sparkles - Gold with black spots under her fur (she wasn't to be sold as a feeder. they thought thats what i was looking for till i said i wanted a pet. they gave her up hoping she'd have a good home. she was previously named by middle school kids. she's a bit ill though. she still has a pretty bed respiratory problem. sneezes alot. but she's way better than when i brought her home. she also has some sores on her head ears and back. but were clearing those right up. She's Mouse's best friend, i couldn't split them up, ever.)

Daisy - normal dark brown. (she's a bitch. lol she steals food from sprinkles all the time. but she's also my baby...)

Sprinkles - normal lightbrown (a sweet heart. she was meant to be a feeder. but i saved her. she was the only girl in the cage. she's probly a few weeks younger than Daisy, she still had the cute fluffy baby fur when i got her.)

they are all my babehs!! the rats love to take showers with me and snuggle in a towel afterwards ^^


oh btw.

i'm out of work from today till... next week thursday (not this coming thursday, but the next)

I have surgery on the 6th.


what surgery, you ask?
well my gallbladder isn't functioning properly. it's very weak. the lowest your gallbladder can perform properly at is 35%. mines at 15.77%
therefore, it's going haywire. when i eat, it tries to do it's job too early. and the makes me sick to my stomach. i end up throwing up whenever i eat.
it's been that way since i was 14. (remember michael!? they JUST NOW FOUND OUT WHAT WAS WRONG!)
but after surgery i'll be resting for a week till i recover.


everything is so hectic now a days. i feel like i'm losing my mind.
some guys wanna be with me others don't.
then the ones that want to be with me.. suddenly don't. and the ones that didn't can't get enough of me...
if that makes any since.... why is that?? (for those of you that understood)


I'm 18... all i wanted was a boyfriend. i didn't want a family. i didn't want a life commitment. just a simple boyfriend.
why's that too hard to ask?
now all the guys that wanna be with me.. just want me for sex. i don't want that. i want them to want me for me.
i'm still.. 'in love'(?) with my last ex..... but it doesn't matter anymore.. i can see where we stand..
and the words "we're never getting back together' kinda tie everything else together.
thats totally hard to understand, isn't it? totally not blunt.
but because i can't get over him... i can't/don't want to be with anyone else...
hell. i'm still in love with Patches....
but she could be what i couldn't.
and as for the last guy - his art could be what i couldn't.


now all i really do is go to work. go home. cry. sleep.
when i'm not distracting myself by driving everywhere in fucking Faggot-ville.

even right now. i'm distracting myself by writing this. and i'm pretty drugged up on pain meds. i forgot they don't help me sleep. but they make me feel better...... i can hear myselfthink now.


this journals getting pretty long...
i hope you stopped reading a long time ago...



i guess i'll stop.....
leave it at that...


I still Love you.
and i miss you.. (you know who you are)


love everyone else too.

sorry i don't stay in contact with everyone. but i never forget you...


<3
Fa!th


~Imperfection~

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/23583355/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/23583355/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 22:32:53 PST

I'm still alive ^^

I think I've even fixed myself a bit..
i like a guy...
a new guy..
we'll see where this goes.. ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/22189691/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/22189691/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 11:56:12 PST


uggghh... 18... lollll gettin up there....
=\ well. i'm in georgia right now. huzzah!!!
visiting family for christmas. ^^



thanks guys for all the text msgs and calls last night and today!!!!!!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/22000216/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/22000216/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 15:32:31 PST makin money...
work tomorrow(tuesday)

goin to georgia to spend christmas with my aunt on the 24th...
i'll be 18 soon... 10 days....


i wanna take a trip a month or so after i get my lisence...
i wanna see some people... if... i'm still in their hearts by that time...


::The Faith::

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/21096719/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/21096719/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 14:58:42 PDT i'm amazingly amazing most of the time.. (mood-wise)
that's about it.... =\

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20907374/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20907374/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 14:50:29 PDT < i work like.. 9 hours... 8 to 5
um worked today.. those hours mentioned above.. i worked last saturday from 9 to 4. clocked in an hour late and clocked out an hour early.. anyways

i work this saturday.... 8 to 5... ><

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20797904/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20797904/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 17:53:22 PDT






dunno when i start....

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20648198/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20648198/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 14:56:02 PDT i should have seen it coming...
i had just got finished saying "i love you.. i wanna be with you.. be near you... and i'll always believe you when you say you love me too..."
him: we should... we should... should...
me: what????? should.. what??
him:.... just be friends...



let him choose her.. what, the FUCK, ever....
i see it this way..
(as ed explained it to me)
If he can't see how much MORE love i'd give him than her....... WITHOUT fucking his best friend.. then... time to let go...
but..
it hurts none the less...

over yahoo, on his way to see that girl.. in SC, none the less.....



<3
faithless...



fuck it...


::edit::
or... update =\
we talked about it...
and agreed on just friends...
the distance is..
killing us..
horribly...
until we can be near eachother....
we are just friends.......

he told me he doesn't know what he's gonna do.... he doesn't know if he's gonna go out with her or not...

i'd rather not know...

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20486546/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/20486546/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 10:00:58 PDT i honestly don't think she will even BEGIN to match how much i love him...
even if she was there before...
she left...
and now....
she may come back...
what choice does he have but to... take the girl that can stand BESIDE him....
all i can do is text and call him.. i can't even hold his hand...
what good am I??

no good..


useless...


but i can't let go...

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19819965/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19819965/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 02:42:46 PDT broke up with the 'amazing' soap.. haaahhhhhhh

yea.. um..

don't say a word about it please...
i don't wanna care about him anymore

he's mad at me because i gave his hoody back. wtf it's not like i fucking RUINED it and threw it at him... i WASHED it for him. it was disgusting.. i washed it.. wore it... slept in it.. it smelled like me... he loved the way i smelled... and all of a sudden after saying even tho we were broken up he'd always love me (i told him to get over me..) he's pissed. so. he had sex with another chick. so i've heard =\ but yea...

blah..

I miss My erik......
and...
too many fights with my Dear Patches....
i hate arguing with him.... it's not often... that we argue... but.... even those rare fights are too much....

no matter what.. <3
he.. only wants what's best for me... and i'm just being stupid about it.. "I" start the fight....
because... i WANT to wait..
and he doesn't want me to wait forever.. incase we can never be together..

only....
wants what's.. best...


oh yea. probly gonna drop out of the band...
soap started smoking again
i told him i was happy he stopped because i wasn't gonna be in his band while he smoked..

so... he was warned..

what else... ummmm

Spencer.. lolll.. i got to ride The Spence's Harley. zommmggggggggggg I wanna ride it again ^^ EEE!!!
yea......


no new art...
drama doesn't make for good emotional conditions for me to draw.. i WANT to.. lots of idea's.. but.. i just can't...

i want it to rain again... i just wanna stand and play in the rain with my friends again......

it felt... good..
it's been years...




~The Faith~
-Never Knows Best-

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19552394/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19552394/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:44:34 PDT
I've figured out my purpose for life



Here it goes..

I've come to believe that I am am here for my friends..

I am here to give those that don't believe in a higher being, hope. Someone to lean on.... A reason to live and go on with life, and oneday stand on their own again and find that higher being...

I will be The Faith for them....

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19262983/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19262983/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 21:06:37 PDT [link] GO SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


<3
The Faith

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19210714/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19210714/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 22:47:55 PDT

ummmm




I haves a Boyfriend ^^
<3

alot. lol
well
that's really all.... not much more. but. i have a new phone. and a new number. those of you that don't have it, and used to have my old one, should send me an email/Devart msg/myspace msg/aim IM whatever. just. get it to me and if you are worthy, you will recieve my number ^^


and the stupid Mood emoticon thingy STILL won't change... T-T

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19102601/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/19102601/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 01:42:42 PDT .....
That Boy kissed me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^^ not a bad thing lol
I'm teh happy...
i just. thought i'd get that out of my system xD


(still can't get the mood to work T-T )

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18957604/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18957604/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:14:57 PDT
it's almost GURANTEED that I'll be in a band!!! If I don't pass as their drummer then I';; probly make it as back up-ish vocals. ^^


I'll keep ya posted.(for those of you who wanna be updated on that)

::UPDATE!::

The name of the guy who wants me in the band is Soap (don't ask)
>> He's asked me out to the movies ^^ i can't wait to see how that goes.
Let's see. he's tall. Gorgeous. Awesome hair. Gorgeous light light LIGHT blue eyes. Loves poetry. and lots of rock. ^^
We'll see how this goes.

but no matter what happens. My Heart belongs to My one and only Patches. He's a great guy. no. he's an AWESOME guy. we're closer than friends. but he's too far away for me to go out with. I've given him my heart and promised my life to be with him one day (that's probly a VERY stupid thing to do. but. I feel as though...this is fate. Like..we were meant to be so far apart, otherwise we wouldn't have met. and even if we had met, We probly wouldn't have even cared for eachother)
well... I don't want ANY comments telling me how stupid i am, lol so. don't even think about it! ><



<3
~The Faith
(new nickname)

(btw, the stupid 'mood' thingy won't work, so it's gonna say Miserable until it wants to work for me again...)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18671217/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18671217/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 22:40:48 PDT
right now... just estimating here.. there are more than 40 cuts on my wrist.

And. it's all because of one person who is DRIVING me MAD.

I'm trying to move out of her house.. move in with my dad...


bear(or is it bare??) with me guys.

If i succeed. and I begin the process of moving..
I may become very depressed.


If Not Suicidal...


I'm hangin by a moment. literally. lolz



"The Truth About Heaven" - Armor For Sleep

Walked past my grave in the dark tonight
Saw the stone and the note you left for me
To answer your question,
I just had to leave, I just had to leave

But that’s not why I'm here
I came down here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I’m miserable up here without you
Miserable up here with out you

Found my way back in the dark tonight.
Couldn’t wake up not right next to you
I’d trade in forever to just hear you say
The sound of my name

But that’s not why I’m here
I came down here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I’m miserable up here without you
Miserable up here without you

Don’t believe that it’s better
When you leave everything behind
Don’t believe that the weather
Is perfect the day that you die
Don’t believe that the weather
Is perfect the day that you die

I came down here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long (All day long)
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I’m miserable up here without you (Miserable up here without you)


I came down here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long (All day long)
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I’m miserable up here without you (Miserable up here without you)


Don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die





I <3 that song.


Thank you Mickey (even if you never see this)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18193658/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/18193658/ Tue, 06 May 2008 09:25:41 PDT
today.


I am sick. T-T stupid cold.

I didn't take anything cause i thought it was allergies yesterday and a few days before. turns out...
cold in the MAKING.

well anyway.

Blah. Nothing new. no new art. sorries guyz.
uhhh...
been drivin around a bit. not by myself yet. you know how those learners permits go ><

well. yea. i'm gonna go be sick. byeee

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17799215/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17799215/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 17:05:08 PDT

okay that's enough of that. yea. that's all. ttyl ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17797906/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17797906/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 15:33:24 PDT
1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal


[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[(maybe. lolz)] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
[] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[ ] I have a brother.
[x] I have a sister.
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (.__.;; )
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox
[] I was born in a different country.
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[] I've gotten lost in my city.
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping. (...)
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[] I've played a prank on someone.
[] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I've had sex.
[] I've had phone sex.(lets not go there)
[ ] I've cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x(always lolz)] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x(once in spelling)] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I'v... ]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17786417/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17786417/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 20:03:58 PDT
HIGH CLASS:•
____________
•[ ]You go/have gone tanning.
•[x]You own an iPod/mp3 player.
•[]You love Starbucks.
•[]You have been called a brat.
•[]You have tons of shoes.
•[ ]You hate buying things that are on sale.
•[]You have a laptop.
•[x]You love shopping. (not for clothes)
•TOTAL: 2
_________

•GOTHIC:•
_________
•[x]Black is one of your favorite colors.
•[x]You wear chains.
•[] You like heavy metal.
•[x]You've shopped at hot topic
•[]You have worn black lipstick.
•[x]You have/had/or wanted piercings.
•[x]You own a pair of Tripp pants
•[x]You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend.
•TOTAL: 6
_______

•SKATER:•
_______
•[]You can skateboard.
•[x]You like plaid.
•[x]You have/love Converse.
•[x]You hate mtv.
•[x]You have/had/wanted blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
•[x]You LOVE Music.
•[x]Hate people who pretend to be something they are not
•TOTAL: 6
______

•EMO:•
______
•[x]You are depressed sometimes.
•[]You have dark colored thick-rimmed glasses.
•[x]You cry easily.
•[x]You like emo music .
•[x]You've kept a journal/diary.
•[x]You have written a sad poem.
•[]You're sad when you're drunk
•TOTAL: 5
________

•GHETTO:•
________
•[]You like rap.
•[x]You have said "Fo Sho, Fo Shizzle, Fo Sheezy, etc."(making fun of it...)
•[]You have worn/wanted a grill. (w/ tin foil lulz)
•[]You have had a freestyling contest.
•[]You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
•[]You've said the N word to a black person and didn't get punched
•[]You know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
•[]You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
•TOTAL: 1
___________

•HARDCORE:•
___________
•[x]You like loud music.
•[x]You love/like the Ninja Turtles.
•[]You have/had slip-on shoes.
•[]You like Norma Jean.
•[x]People have called you a freak and meant it lovingly
•[]You love to "hardcore" dance
•[]Your hair has been dyed more than one color
•[x]You wear jeans a lot.
•TOTAL: 4
_______

• PREP:•
_______
•[]You LOVE The OC.
•[]You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
•[]Your usual outfits consist of pink.
•[]You like buying shoes A LOT.
•[x]You say "awesome" at least once a day. (for good movies or books)
•[]You shop at Hollister.AE,and/or Abercrombie
•[]Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
•[]You had/have big sunglasses.
•[]You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect.
•TOTAL: 1

•SCENE:•
_______
•[]You like putting little bows in your hair
•[]You have mini-skirts
•[x]You have parted your hair to the side.
•[]You think polka-dots are way cute.
•[x]You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture.
•[]You've been called scene before.
•[]You have dyed your hair a bright, neon color
•[]You wear/wore long, colorful socks with your skirts/shorts
•TOTAL: 2

•METALHEAD:•
___________
•[]You wear band shirts alot.
•[]If people down talk metal you down talk their favorite music.
•[]You like bands like As I Lay Dying, Lamb Of God, and All That Remains
•[]You HATE emos(just like making fun of them)
•[]You love Black Sabbath.
•[]You have gone to Ozzfest.
•[]You like to headbang.
•[x]You don't like rap.
•[]You have a taste for classic rock as well.
•TOTAL: 1

1) Full Name: Sam. (yep..that's it. the whole thing. lolz)

2) Male/Female: Female

3) Were you named after anyone?: probly not..

4) Does your name mean anything?: i forgot.

5) Nick Name(s): Sam, Sammy, Sammio

6) Who do you think you look like: someone.

7) Date Of Birth: december 25

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Fay. NC..

9) Nationality: uh...white?

10) Astrology Sign: Capricorn

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Horse

12) Religion: Christian

13) What’s your favorite smell?: Axe 'Touch'

14) Political Position?: republican

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: I'm not awake in the morning

16) Hair + Eye color: Brown, Blue

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: noooo

18) What do you look like?: ...some random chick...

19) Any unusual talents?: no...

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Righty

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Straight

22) What do you do for a living?: Nothin.<... ]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17670050/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17670050/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 16:00:12 PDT "We Believe" - Red Hot Chili Peppers

2.How would you describe yourself?
"Dark Light" - HIM That's about right. lol

3.What do you like in a girl/boy?
"Leave" - Barenaked Ladies well that's not nice...unless it's someone i DON'T like...lol

4.How do you feel today?
"Hump De Bump" - Red Hot Chili Peppers XD Let's not. lol

5.What is your life's purpose?
"When Heaven's Not Far Away" - Cold .....hmm

6.What is your motto?
"Don't Belong" - Cold eh that's about right.

7.What do your friends think of you?
"Last Dinosaur" - The Pillows I am NOT old. T-T

8.What do you think of your parents?
"She's My Ride Home" - Blue October hahaha it seems to be that way. lol

9.What do you think about very often?
"From Yesterday" - 30 Seconds To Mars well....yea..

10.What is 2 + 2?
"There Goes My Life" - Kenny Chesney ....lolz

11.What do you think of your best friend?
"Life Is Beautiful" - Sixx:A.M. hmm.

12.What do you think of the person you like?
"Fall" - Something Corporate oh gawd....yea.......

13.What is your life story?
"Death Of A Martian" - Red Hot Chili Peppers eh?

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Go Ahead" - Disciple

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"Danger-Keep Away" - SlipKnot yeaaaa....that seem to be tru with one guy i like..lol

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Killing Loneliness" - HIM I could see it happening.

17.What will they play at your funeral?
"Fat Bottomed Girls" - Queen Nuff Said...

18.What is your hobby/interest?
"Holy Water" - Big & Rich eh. not so much.lol

19.What is your biggest fear?
"Old Blue Chair" - Kenny Chesney ..>> oh NOES! not the blue chairs!

20.What is your biggest secret?
"I'll Be That Girl" - Barenaked Ladies. oh gawd....it's out..my secret. is. OUT.

21.What do you think of your friends?
"Broken(ft. Amy Lee)" - Seether some of them. lol

22.What will you post this as?
"Backstabber" - Disciple this is gonna worry ALOT of people...



Funny stuff...^^ have fun peoples. lol

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17550565/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17550565/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:15:53 PDT they're up to something
something stupid something mean, something...ANYTHING

i haven't heard from my mom for more than a week. i check her myspace earlier, she got herself a tattoo AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND a tongue ring. THAT'S RIGHT! A FRICKEN STEEL ROD IMPALED THROUGH HER TONGUE. WTFH!?
I have nothing against tongue rings. BUT GAWD NOT MY MOM! not that i see her.
it's just


WEIRDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and why is it that when i go to the mall, i feel like i stick out...
or...blend in and get lost in a crowd. sort of both at once.

every one there is with their friends, or holdin their bf/gf's. and i.
i am alone...nobody.
there's a few people i'd LIKE to be with when i go. i mean..even just as friends. but

hah.
that's never gonna happen.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17389085/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17389085/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:43:30 PDT
most of us know this

some of us understand this

a few of us accept this

but DANG...

LIFE F**KING SUCKS.....





oh, and Hand Sanitizer(spl?) feels FREAKING FANTASTIC over fresh cuts.
just a heads up.

^^

for you masochists and emo's. go ahead. try it. >> you'll like it.
it'll make your eyes water.....

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17048410/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17048410/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 20:00:24 PST
anyways. okay. so. as the last journal said, surgery went well. but now...since friday, two random stitches have come out of my mouth >> which...
is ODD. not..probly not good.
but. it didn't hurt..
or bleed. so i didn't worry.
but monday (tomorrow) we should be contacting the doctor that did the surgery to see what he says.
so yes. moving on.

um. nothing much has changed. the right side of my face swelled up yesterday. and it stayed that way all day, and then today. but i am beginning to think it's goin down. so. YAYZ

so. that's about all.


I luvvers j00 all! ^^ ::Muah::

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17013803/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/17013803/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:51:35 PST > i have two pics up showing my progress. and it doesn't look bad ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16849285/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16849285/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 14:02:56 PST
aanndddd
um..lotsa dentist crap.
the 19th i have to get my teethcleaned (yaaaaaay) and then get a filling. UGH...

then. the following friday. the 22nd. i havta go to the ortho. and..
well.
i havta get teh wisdom teeth surgery.
they are gonna take all four out in the same surgery. not at seperate times or anything @.@ and..I SHOULD be pretty FREAKING drugged ;;;
and then my mom will visit me that sunday (cause i dun think i'll know who she is or where i am at friday night hahaha)

but yea....

wish me some uber freakin luck. ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16534216/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16534216/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 09:38:15 PST
I hate boys...guys....anybody of the male species.
(no offense to those of you that are above the pig-species as mentioned above. I.E Danny-sensei, Erik..um....yea. you get the point.)

stupid boys in my drivers ed class. GAAAWD
there were two 14 1/2 year olds. and one 17 year old.
the 17 year old could not, and WOULD NOT keep his FREAKING hands off me. i eventually got so sick of him prodding me and pushing me and pulling me in every direction that I got up and moved to the table in the back where I could sit alone and glare at the back of his freaking head.

but, I did pass my final exam. so. yea. i got a 100. >> so. now all i havta do is get my eyes checked and get in 6 hours of driving time with teh instructor....instructer......spl? whatever. not like I'll ever be abble to go tho. my g-ma seems to have..'changed' her mind. but i hope not.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16346239/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16346239/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 16:04:21 PST

care to empty my head out with that gun????



*your cue to laugh*

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16005365/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/16005365/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 18:56:29 PST >

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15986628/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15986628/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 12:58:44 PST (no thanks to you erik. lol jkjk I had to get my step brother to talk me through it) there was a plug that didn't fit, and he was like...um...is it nesecary?(spl?) so I pulled it up from the depths of tangled cords behind the desk. and it wasn't even plugged in. lol TOTALLY uneeded.
oh, and the soundcard or somethin doesn't work...so no sound.....call me tonight erik and tell me what I gotta do to fix that *NEEDS sound*

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15961573/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15961573/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 15:34:46 PST > ofcourse...duhhhhhh thats where it goessss! ^^)
and 1 is in my scraps. cause...it wasn't drawn too well so, i wanted it up, but not in my gallery. go see!!!



merry early christmas!!!!!!!!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15647917/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15647917/ Sat, 24 Nov 2007 10:15:24 PST



you know it.




it's so true.


can't believe it can you?



mmhmm....






XD you'd like to know whats so true, wouldn't you??? haha

well





i have the sniffles.



that is all.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15628175/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15628175/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 22:08:34 PST


yep





I just want him to like me....



aaand
I don't..

think he does





probly doesn't even notice me.


well..


maybe



I dunno


he said...

if he was hitting on me I wouldn't know. cause he's subtle. but I'm oblivious anyways.



if I like someone. i'm..

UBER obvious @.@

DANGIT!!!



LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!
BLARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways.
^^ yep.


might be taking airbrush classes.


learn to use an airbrush and create...

COOL things! HAHAAAA
^^

yea well.


later.

<3

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15295425/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/15295425/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 01:31:03 PDT nothing to do.
i'm not doin anything for freaking halloween.
how much does THAT suck? eh?


so bored.

boringggg

and I haven't really drawn anything new. well I drew a new mini-comic thingy but i am in the process of inking before i scan.


yea.
deal with it.




goodnight, luv(s)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/14963552/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/14963552/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 22:56:21 PDT













thats right!!!!!!!







I went..





THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





what now??









BE-YOTCHES!?










XD















moo...HAAAH!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/14351435/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/14351435/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 15:22:14 PDT > well..actually..we need to go shoot it and put it out of it's misery XD
so yaya!!!! won't be here for a while. but i'll try to still get on!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13947943/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13947943/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 12:56:31 PDT
here's a list of my reccomended/favorite books!

* = TOP of my list!
<3 = LOVEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD TO DEAATTHHHH!!

"Cut"* - Patricia McCormick
"My Brothers Keeper"* - (^same^) I read this is one night.
"Mutiple Choice" - Janet Tahjian
<3"Amiee"<3* - Mary Beth Miller (awesome, is an understatement.....)
"Wait For Me" An Na (korean themed book..really good though)
"Speak"* - Laurie Halse Anderson
"Keeping You A Secret"* - Julie Anne Peters

Keep track of this Journal, i'll update it whenever I find books worth mentioning! ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13742768/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13742768/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 09:50:46 PDT ^^ yup. for now.
and I have posted some weird art....yeeaaa >>
i've been staying up really late nowadays..soooo...i used my too tired to see straight powers and drew something!!!
enjoy everybody!




Sam.
Is.
BACK.

(don't judge my music choice.....)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13425322/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13425322/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 21:19:23 PDT ; i'm just...I dunno...maybe when I come back I'll have UBER ammounts of art..maybe.....maybe not >>

I'll still get on atleast once a week or so and check my msg, just incase, but no replying for me.
and I will always be on myspace. >>

I'll see you guys whenever!!

enjoy your time without me while it lasts! muahahaa!!!

||Sam||

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13328285/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13328285/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 10:49:44 PDT

enjoy!

what would you do if?
1. I was right next to you:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I was hospitalized:
6. I was drunk:
7. i hugged u
8. I asked you to leave:
9. I asked you out:

what do you think about my?
10. personality:
11. eyes:
12. hair:
13. body:

would you?
14. be my friend?
15. keep a secret if i told you one?
16. kiss me?
17. go on a date with me?
18. keep in touch?
19. date me?

have you ever?
20. lied to make me feel better?
21. wanted to kiss me?
22. wanted to bite me?
23. kept something important from me?
24. wanted to cuddle with me?

and more.
25. who are you?
26. are we friends?
27. when and how did we meet?
28. describe me in one word:
29. what was your first impression?
30. what reminds you of me?
31. if you could give me anything what would it be?
32. how well do you know me?
33. when's the last time you saw me?
34. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
35. are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you?

You must answer all these questions and send them back to me and please dont hold back, be complety honest...
Y= Yes
N = No
M= Maybe

Would/will you?
[_] come to my house to do nothing at all but chill?
[_] fight me?(cause I can so totally kick your butt. hah!)
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] go out to dinner with me?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] hold my hand?
[_] let me make you breakfast?(like I can cook. hah!)
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
[_] be down with me no matter what?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im serious?
[_] think im a good person
[_] think im conceided?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] love me?

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13193631/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13193631/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 19:28:48 PDT I, Sam, HEADBANGED. >> or atleast close enough, considering it was my first time.
^^
omfg.
suprised all my friends they've always known..the quiet me.
the me that will only stand and clap.
now..they have seen the stand up and clap and yell WOOOOOOO!!!!!! and jump and throw my hair around until I get dizzy and nearly fall over and CONTINUE jumping till my legs almost give out when I walk!!!!!!! YES!

autographs.
yes...

we shall rawk...
peace.


-Kitty- <3

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13081073/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13081073/ Thu, 24 May 2007 20:05:09 PDT These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is


<3

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13037852/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13037852/ Mon, 21 May 2007 12:27:45 PDT > yes..I have a journal titled 'longest quiz EVAR! ^^' but..>> i think this one totally beat it. ^^

-----------------------------

1) Full name: Samantha (nobody knows my middle name, and you aren't getting my last name. so..HAH!)

2) Male/Female: Female

3) Were you named after anyone?: not that I know of

4) Does your name mean anything?: I forget. i think wolfie knows though..hmm

5) Nickname(s): Sam, Sammy, Sammie-chan, Sammio, Sano, San-chan, Sakura, Soda, Kitty. (i think I got them all....)

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: ....wtf?

7) Date of birth: December 25.

8) Place of birth and current location: ...somewhere in NC for both.

9) Nationality: American

10) Astrology sign: Capricorn, I believe.

11)Chinese astrology sign: Horse.

12) Religion: Christian

13) What's your favorite smell?: a certain somebodys Axe 'touch' ;;;;;

14) Political Position?: I guess I'm republican, though I don't care for either, i'm just here for the ride..

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: water, straight from the faucet(spl?) ^^

16) Hair + eye color: Dark brown hair and blue eyes. (apparently they're 'pretty' as a certain somebody once told me...)

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: mmm..nope. ^^

18) What do you look like?: ......well...if you know me in person and you don't know what I look like...I can't help ya.... but if you don't know me in person, go look at my dev-ID..or my myspace...

19) Any unusual talents?: ....um...nope. not that I know of.

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?: rigghhttyyyy

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?: Straight. (do I wanna know what 'other' is?? O.o;;;;;;;;; )

22) What do you do for a living?: um...nothing??

23) What do you do for fun?: talk to a certain somebody on the phone all day when possible. Play xbox. Sing(horribly now..) play guitar. play drums. hang out at church with friends and a certain somebody and play guitar with those people..umm... Draw..get on dev art everyday. teehee

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: mechanical pencil (if available) one of those erasers that look like they could be a pen or something but the clip keeps lowering the eraser. several Microns (preferably 005, and 02)several sharpees (thin and thick) annd..some paper. ^^

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: paint. i'd like to be able to paint landscapes like you see the people do on tv.

26) Have you met your grandparents?: I live with my g-ma
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: at the time, i do not have one...>>

28) Crush: .....well..everybody already knows so, why say his name? i'll say a nickname. Wolfie.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Orlando Bloom. Or Johnny Depp (wow, how illegal XD) or...Heith Ledger

30) Current worries?: wolfie...wolfie...umm....if my comp will freeze soon or not..aannd..wolfie.

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s): FAVORITE online girl is gotta be Julie. and favorite online guy is WOLFIE! (i know..he doesn't count..cause I see him in person..but still...)

32) Favorite place to be?: friday nights at the cafe at church(sometimes..depends on which adult is in charge that day) aand...at my dads when he plays Xbox with me. ^^

33) Least favorite place to be?: in the mall when everybodys going nowhere too fast and they won't shut up and get off their cellphones.

34) Do you burn or tan?: neither....no matter how long I'm out there, cept when I went to the beach and sat down in the water with nothing but my shoulders showing and the water reflecting the sun and.....yea...my face and shoulders were red..;;

35) Ever break a bone?: nope.

36) What is your favorite cereal?: ....coa coa puffs. ^^ mmm or! frosted flakes!

37) Person you cry with: Wolfie. >> we're so emo....;

Do you have...

38) Any sisters: yes, one older sister.

39) Any brothers: nope. (not counting step siblings here..)

40) Any pets: Three dogs, Lady(lady-bug), Gracie(la stupida) and Sally(monster) and Two birds, Jade(jay-jay) and Budd... ]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13028262/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/13028262/ Sun, 20 May 2007 16:28:11 PDT I would have....
I could have..
said it back to you...
those three words...
you told me..


those three words..
that I replied to
with..
'yea.......bye..'

does that..make me a bad person?
I feel bad...
sortof...
not really....
I'm just..upset....
I think.
I...was..
looking forward
to you...
coming...
but.......
look where you were...
and..look where I was....
so far apart....
I couldn't feel you anymore..(not like that)
I couldn't feel what you felt..
I couldn't think what you were thinking
I couldn't speak the words you were speaking...
I couldn't hear your voice...
I couldn't feel your hand squeezing my hand...

I felt...






cold...



empty...




lost..












alone...




(~sam~
~sammio~
~san-chan~
~sano~)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12953439/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12953439/ Mon, 14 May 2007 13:13:30 PDT i'll die if it doesn't because I SING! I NEED TO SING!
anyways.

um, total blockage here.
no art.
no poems.
I've tried.
it died. >>;;
rawr

~I Love Him~ (not the band HIM) ((but I love them too ^^))
a certain somebody came over friday, and then again sunday to work on my trojan virus MASTER of a computer.
it's running faster, not much, but enough for ME to notice. ^^ eeeeeee
he should be coming over more often(hopefully) to do some more work on it.
shmart computer geeks. teehee

hmm...I've been listening to some of my old cd's (like barenaked ladies. mostly..) good stuff. ^^

what elseee....
Still playing my electric. playing the HECK out of it.
and still playing drums. yup. I should go practice but....
I needed to update first ^^

I'll talk to you all some other time!

~still loving/missing him~
Kitty/Sam/Sano/sammie-chan/sammio

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12868531/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12868531/ Sun, 06 May 2007 20:18:52 PDT < 4 days till I am out of antibiotics, and allergy meds. 5 days till I have to go back to the doctor.

ugh ugh
I've done nothing these past few days.
I've only played guitar
xbox (burnout revenge if you must know)
I went to BAM today(sunday) for an hour...nobody was there, thats MY luck (well there were people, but nobody "I" knew)
gaaah oh I think I've past the thousanth mark when it comes to coughing. XD
bleeeeeh
Erik didn't get on, now our song is playing, wonderful!!! sadness ontop of more sadness! >< oh well. ^^

I'ma go....play guitar or somethin....

TTY-people-L!!!

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12841147/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12841147/ Fri, 04 May 2007 14:42:19 PDT
PERFECT BOYFRIEND

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• give her the world.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.




Thought it was cuuute ^^

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12838764/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12838764/ Fri, 04 May 2007 10:46:02 PDT otherwise, I won't answer and thats why.
I'm not even really supposed to be whispering, but I do anyways. ><
I'ma ruin my voice for good. EEK!! T-T

well. if you want to talk..you coooulld..
wait till I'm online..
email me..
msg me here
msg me on myspace (www.myspace.com/mightjusttrustyou)
or you can call and leave a voicemail. (for those of you that have my #)


To wolfie:
since I KNOW your probly gonna call me anyways, I'll say hi, and YOU can do the talking okay? got it? GOOD. ^^
*cough cough choke cough*

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12710970/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12710970/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 21:23:48 PDT NT (o.O..)

2. Are you single?
..yep..........think I might like somebody..

3. What's your favorite number?
4...just because. my very very minor OC(wannabe)D makes me do things in numbers of 4...otherwise it'll drive me insane ><

4. Favorite color?
Blue..and black..and a bit of lime green.

5. Least favorite color?
Yellow

6. What are you listening to?
a song by PATD...um..titlestoo long for me to remember..it's their first one (the one that goes 'swear to shake it up if you swear to listen')

7. Do you dance around in your underwear?
...not usually...that you know of..jk....no..never.

8. Are you happy with your life right now?
.....*uses fingers to make a gun and points at her head* take a guess?

10. What was / is your favorite subject in school?
...dun like school...I like art. and I like music...but last time I checked..that's not REALLY a..'subject'..

11. Do you shop at Hollister / Abercrombie / AE?
....I'm broke..and I'm not a prep.

12. How do you make money?
...I don't. read above. i'm broke. although sometimes I do small jobs with my dad, like..fixin sinks and stuff...then he buys me lunch. and..yea....payment enough...food. ^^

13. Where will you graduate from?
......where? home? i'm homeschooled?

14. Are you outgoing?
...I dunno...

15. One word to describe you?
emo

16. Do you like McDonald's?
I love my mickey d's. the world would be nothing without it!!!

17. Do you own big sunglasses?
.......no.

18. Do you sing in the shower?
always and forever.

19. What should you be doing right now?
certainly not sitting here on the comp.

THE CAN'S:
Can you blow a bubble?: yes.

Can you do a cart wheel?: ....I think I hurt myself last time I tried...bumped my head or somethin..I dun remember...wonder why...

Can you touch your toes?: am I allowed to bend my knee's?

Can you whistle?: yes, that comes with the whole 'owning two birds' thing.

Can you wiggle your ears?: ...O.o..no..

Can you wiggle your nose?: ...I can scrunch it up ;;

Can you roll your tongue?: 80% of american can. ^^ we're the majority!!!!

THE DID'S:
Did you ever want to be a doctor?
Nope

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?
No

THE DO'S:
Do you know how to swim?: yes

Do you like roller coasters?: usually.

Do you own a bike?: yes..

Do you think you could be on one of those reality shows?: ..reality hurts too much.

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run through your family?: ..hair loss? O.o..I...dunno...do I wanna know?

Does your car get good gas mileage?: well, i don't own a car. i ride my bike. therefore...um..yes? ;;

Does your family have family picnics?: ...wtf? are you nuts?

THE HAVE'S:
Have you ever been to the ocean?: *nods*

Have you ever gone fishing?: every summer(usually)

THE HOW'S:
How did you find out about Deviantart?: i don't remember..I know I found out about it when I was....11?...5 years ago I believe...I forget from who though...><

How much money do you have on you right now?: 3 cents *so proud!!*

THE LAST'S:
Last person you talked to?: Michael

Last thing you said out loud?: I gotta go! nite! BYE!!! *click*

Last thing someone said to you?:
Michael: thankyou, nite, bye!*click*

THE WHAT'S:
What is the temperature outside?: ....I dunno...dun feel like checking..

What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Hardee's mm..curly fries..

What was the last thing you bought?: last thing I bought with my own money..hmm..an adapter for my headphones so I could plug them into my amp.

THE CURRENT:
Current mood: crap, depressed, lonely, angry. pretty much...emo.

Current hair style: Long, wavy, parted on the side (emo!!!)

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12710701/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12710701/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 20:59:01 PDT

you know who you are....


whatever
forget it..
forget everything...

because none of it's worth it...worth anything...

call me when your not a mess...
when everything is right...
when I'm not sleeping.(not that you knew)

I don't wanna havta hang up again......

you didn't forget to say goodbye...
I didn't give you a chance..
I didn't want you to lie to me..
I didn't want aishiteru to be a lie when you said it..

I wanted it to be true..
I wanted you to mean it.....

at that moment....


something..
told me...

you didn't mean it...

that..


you were just saying it...

out of habit..

reflex...

just something we say before..








...goodbye...

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12545288/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12545288/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 20:12:57 PDT I went in for drum lessons and Tony said it wasn't in. my drum teacher Jeff said 'it was ordered on a wednesday. and they say 7 to 10 days shipping. so...it could be ANYWHERE from tomorrow to...next week.' and I'm like... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
><

um..yes...thats about it....

;;

to a special someone:
Love ya!
~Kitty~ <3

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12469579/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12469579/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 11:38:36 PDT
I finished reading a book called
'Wait For Me' by An Na
at like.....2 or 3 am?
and then I cried....
because it reminds me of....me..and my life..and certain people in my life....I'll type a few of the things that made me think like this...

'Ysrael's playing held such a longing. To be in this world, to hold in to this life. He played with such heart. And where was mine? I stared out at the sea. I had buried it so long ago. Buried it under all of Uhmma's(mom in korean) dreams for me. Buried it under all the lied I told to live up to those expectations. When had what Uhmma wanted become more important than what I wanted? Did I even know what that was anymore?'
------------
'We were silent as we watched the deep blue of the night bleed into the sun-soaked sky, leaving behind a trail of stars.
"This is my favorite time of the day," Ysrael said. "It's called the gloaming."
I turned the new word over in my mouth. Something fir. "I like it," I said.
Ysrael met my eyes and did not look away. He took a deep breath and kept his eyes on me. We stayed that way. For a second. A minute. A lifetime. Ysrael finally turned back to the sky. He stretched a hand out to the stars, his finger tips reaching for the light.
"Look at those stars. I don't think I've ever seen them this bright. Look," he whispered. "Look at how that shine for you."
I gazed out past his hand. Past the city. Past the blue-black night sky and set my sights on a star.'
------------
'He reached out and touched my face. "Mine. I don't know how to be with you. One minute you're acting like you can't wait to hang out with me. And the next minute, as soon as your mom walks in, you act like I'm nobody. I don't know how to deal with that." '
-------
^ you know who you are..and...I know you of all people can relate to that....it made me realize I treat you like that...and I'm sorry.....


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'Ysrael had his eyes closed, his head nodding in time to the music, his fingers tapping out a beat on the body of his guitar. More people gathered at the doorway and then began to spill into the room. Ysrael opened his eyes and searched for me. He smiled when he caught my eyes. He held me in his gaze and the music began.'
-------
^ you remember?? when you play guitar...and I can't be anywhere near you?.....one of ends up watching the other till our eyes meet.......

------------

'I kept my eyes on a star. Only... now there's you. And I don't want you to be a lie. I don't want you to be something I just made up. I want us to be real."
I could feel his gaze holding my face.
I took a deep breath and met his eyes. "Remember how you asked me once what I did for me?"
Ysrael nodded.
"I listen to music. And sing. Sometimes in a chorus, but most of the time at home."
Ysrael smiled.
"It's the only thing that keeps me from going crazy. It's the only thing that feels like mine. When I watch you playing, that look you get, I know that feeling. Even though I can't play guitar or make music." I stared down at my empty hands and whispered, "When I listen to you play, I know how the whole world just falls back when you close your eyes. That longing to be inside the music. To feel yourself soar." '
--------------
^ this is true..isn't it????
-------------
Suna's view (mina's little sister)
'Sometimes she wishes she had a manual that explains why people act the way they do. The chapter on Love would be a million pages long. A million pages plus one page at the very end. Like a "P.S." at the end of a letter.


Love is Unexplainable '
--------------------
^ well it is...
--------------------
here he wrote her a song, and recorded it and asked her to listen to it.

'I waited until Suna was asleep, her breathingslow and steady, before listening to Ysrael's song. I sat up and put the headphones on. A soft guitar melody, the one that I remember hearing him play at the beach, only now it was more purposeful, more complete. He had just been creating it back then. I drew up my legs and wrapped my arms around them, rested my chin on my knee. Ysrael began to sing to me.

I can see and little bit of your face
In those stars
I can hear and little bit of your voice
In the rustling trees
I can taste and little bit of your lips
On my lips

Am I going mad?
Walking past the car
Keys in my hand
Looking up at strangers
Did you call my name?
Find me some words
Find me a phrase
A blook that explains
All this away
'Cause I don't know how...

I can hear a little bit of your charm
In my laugh
I can feel a littl... ]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12437512/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12437512/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 21:37:17 PDT
Anorexia
[x] you hate your body.
[] you have starved yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[] you use laxatives.
[] you need to be skinnier.
[] people always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[x] people think you are way too skinny.
[x] You skip at least one meal a day.
[] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsion.

total: 3

ADHD
[x] you are hyper most of the time. (kinda)
[x] you barely pay attention to anything. (sometimes)
[] you cannot cooperate with people well.
[] you seem to never sit still.
[x] you talk all the time.
[x] you need attention 24/7. (..I'd die without it.)
[] You aren't very shy.

total: 3, I DO have ADD. >> so called 'doctors' told me so.

Bipolar Disorder
[x] you can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[] you are very irritable.
[] you barely get any or no sleep.
[] you have very high self esteem at times.
[] you are have used or abuse alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[] you have the worst mood swings of anyone you know.

total: 2

Bulimia Nervosa
[x] You've thrown up all your food at one time (not on purpose..)
[] you thrown it up even when you don't feel sick.
[x] you have no control over how you eat. (i may be hungry, but I don't feel like eating..)
[] you use laxatives.
[] you eat fast.
[] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[]you always say you are fat.
[x] people think you are way too skinny.

total: 3

Conduct Disorder
[] you are a bully.
[] you threaten other people.
[] you often find yourself in fights.
[] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[] you have raped/molested someone.
[] you destroy property on purpose.
[] you always lie.
[] you've stayed out all night.
[] you have ran away from home. (almost. but almost doesn't count)

total: 0

Depression
[x] you are always, or normally, feel sad.
[x] you always, or normally, are crying.
[x] you find no hope in your future.
[x] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[x] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[] hope is no longer there for you.

total: 8 holy crap >>

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[] you are afraid you will get an STD, or AIDS.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again.

total: 5 doctors never told me bout that O.o..HAH! I beat the so called 'doctors!'

Schizophrenia / Anxiety
[x] you often have hallucinations or sudden memories you can't escape.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[-] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.(somtimes..i give that HALF a point)
[x] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should. (i shower when I am going to see somebody, which is alot more often now)
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.

Total: 7 1/2 I HAVE been told by 'doctors' that I have social anxiety. and sometimes I find it to be true.

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12381739/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12381739/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 21:03:41 PDT and if I do, it'll probly look like this:
[link]

unless, i find another guitar package thats better then Ibanez..like...Fender, then it'll look a teency bit different ^^
but..
OMG!

I so happy...
yet...my happiness will be doused until..I'd say...sunday..or monday.
ATF (aquire the fire) is this week. the whole youth group (F.O.R.C.E) at my church is going....except me. >> didn't much care to go. but a certain someone is going, and I shall miss him very much.
and worry for him because recently i heard that a preppy chick asked him out >> RAWR!! >< luckily wether we are allowed to date or not, he's been quite faithful ^^ my wolfieeeeeee! eek!

anyways.
um, an old friend that went out with my best friend was recently broken up with, and he's tryin to get with me now, but I see him as a close friend, or big brother, i don't WANT to date him, i got over him a LONG time ago...besides, i have wolfie. but all of a sudden he's msging me, and I told him if he NEEDS to talk, he can call me...sooo...he calls me almost evry night...we don't SAY anything......><;; it's awkward...he always calls while I'm in mid-convo with wolfie...oh well...
hmm......
well......lets seeee...
what else is there to say?

um...SUNBURN! WOOHOO! XD I was on a roof ALL day wednesday helping my dad fix up some rotten stuff. and those of you that know me personally will fall outta yer chairs!!!
"OMG!! SAM!? ON A ROOF!? 'FIXING' THINGS!?!?!? OOMGGGG!!!!!!!! BIZZARO!!!!"
XD yea...90 degree heat bad for me. I'MA HAVE A SMEXEH FARMERS TAN HAHAHAHA!!! XD
"OMG!! SAM!? IN THE SUN!? GETTING TANNED!? SUNBURNED!? OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG BIZZARO!!!"
XD I'm pale...lol..okay...actually..I'm kinda red now lol...

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12136080/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12136080/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 20:18:07 PST I shiver..
the blade ice cold..
reposition it..
apply pressure..
and..
there you are...
my thoughts wander..
would it hurt?
would I bleed?
would I feel it?
would I cry?
would I be caught?
..
would you still care about me?
..
would you..
dare I say..
hate me..
for trying to be like you?

I drop the razor
I inhale only to choke..
choke on air?
and tears of sadness, guilt, and anger?
no....
I choke on self pity..

I hate you..
and I blame you...


for no reason...
..
well
...
one reason..


because you..
CARE
about me..
and I really like you..

I'm scared...

so very scared that...
I might love you..


I'm lost with out you...

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12032980/ http://KittyOfDoomed-ness.deviantart.com/journal/12032980/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 21:38:23 PST I shouldn't..

feel this way..
but I do. and only you know why...
I shouldn't look at you the way I do..
but I do...and..only you can look right back at me..
the same exact way.
I shouldn't smile this much..
but I do. and only you make me smile..this much..
gah..it hasn't even been what...30 mins? an hour? and...I'm like missing you..and moping around the house....

I'm sorry for being an a**.
you'll say that I wasn't..
but....I feel like I was...
I'm...mean to you...I'm..starting to be..abusive. ..geez ><

I'll try not to be.
I'll act better....I will. I'll straighten up. i won't slap-attack you when you try to poke me....
I'll hug you instead....
I'll poke you back..I'll do anything but hit you...
I'm sorry....
I'll do anything..so long as you don't pick up another razor because of how I make you feel....

I just want to be able to hug you right now..and tell you I'm sorry..and beg for forgiveness....even if you say I didn't do anything..and that I don't need to be sorry...
I can't erase your face from my memory....
not to mention..
that smile..
those eyes...
those uberly awesome guitar skittlez

who am I kidding?
I'm completly head over heels for you
I'm love sick
i shouldn't be so attatched to you...
in the end..one of us will end up getting our heart broken.
but I promise you...I'll do everything I can so I won't break you heart...
because I know how it feels, and I don't want anybody else to have to feel it.
I want to take everybodys pain, everybodys depression and heart breaks, everybodys painful memories EVERYTHING, i want to take everything...and leave them with nothing but happyness....
you know?

well....it's after 12 now...I...should go.
ttyl....
hope to see you tomarrow......

my heart'll break if you don't show up..I'll CRY! I will!

anyways.
aishiteru..


Kitty Loves You!
but you know this already...don't you O.o *looks around suspiciously*

]]> ~KittyOfDoomed-ness