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]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/20581432/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/20581432/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 08:31:33 PDT And again I'm close to deleting this thing (has DA even put that option on to delete your account yet?), In fact I'm disliking pretty much all of my online profiles at the moment.


I even dislike up loading things to this website now.
Nothing against the website, but eh.
I'm just hating the internet in general.
I've always disliked or been apprehensive of showing my drawings to people, because they have always been the only things that are completely mine, they are precious to me.
Which is why I never sell any of them and very seldom give -any- away.
I may not be mind blowing with drawing skills - but I don't care, it's what I like to do.
It's the only way I've ever been able to express things, I'm horrible at writing, and never say what I'm thinking - So I draw instead.
I have terrible communication skills As this journal will probably show.
I don't particularly give a shit about my pictures, or the digital work, they mean pretty much nill to me
And let's be honest here, Generally all that gets looked at on this thing are my pictures.
the fact that they are what people favourite the most, and have the most 'veiws' it's blatantly obvious.
I don't consider myself an 'artist'.
Or my drawings artwork.
I just... Like to draw.
Everyone needs a title these days, sheesh.
I'm an actress.
I'm a model.
I'm an artist.
I'm a photographer. etc.

...it's the same with everything.
A fucking popularity contest.

Like with DA, it's 'age views' (from what i've gathered)
Myspace it's the amount of friends you have.
Youtube how man plays your video's get.
and some other stupid rating systmes on other gay websites.

I don't even know where I'm going with this.
none of this is even important.

erghfg

If someone were to steal my drawings, I would go completely ape shit.
So I figure it's a smart idea not to put them on the internet. (Duh?)
I don't care if no one else sees my drawings.
i don't want to make a career out of it - thus they need no exposure.

BLEH.

Can't be bothered dribbling on any more.
Too tired.
I just feel like deleting everything.
*dance dance*

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19478442/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19478442/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 07:49:53 PDT [link]
Go nuts.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19440127/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19440127/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 05:31:39 PDT SO!
I'll only do this - if it's actually wanted.
As i was saying before, I have a billion pictures lazing around.
So, i figure, I may as well make a stock account with them?
That way, ya'll can fiddle with my pictures and do something interesting with them.


If you think this would be a super idea, raise your hand.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19382656/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19382656/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 01:22:52 PDT I figure that's pointless, So i may as well do something with them.
Thus the flood of images.



Yep

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19348038/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/19348038/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 03:27:42 PDT I need a different latitude.
And I'm in this void all alone, feeling needy.
hungry to grow
And I'm at an end I'm..
At an end I'm..
At an end and there's,
No way out.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/18332449/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/18332449/ Thu, 15 May 2008 07:27:01 PDT A woman
I feel like
I care
I feel like
I shouldn't
I feel like a child
Of despair
I feel like
It's over
I feel like it's coming
After me
I feel like
It's closer
I feel like this is all I'll ever be
I feel like
A failure
I feel like a hungry
Parasite
I feel like
A razor
I feel like a prayer
Lost in flight
I feel like
I'm hopeless

I'm afraid I'm a slave, I'm weak and average [x2]

I feel like
A hammer
I feel like
A nail
I feel like
I'm guilty
I feel like the wrist that it impales
I feel like
A butcher
I feel like
I'm being decieved
I feel like a beautiful loser
I feel like all you sheep
Are laughing at me

Open wide, look inside, at my autopsy
My autopsy

I feel like a complete waste of time
I feel I'm
Transparent
I feel like I can't
Escape my mind

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/17455191/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/17455191/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 08:43:05 PDT I'm sick of online crap and I never have time for this anymore.
So there's no point.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/17233725/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/17233725/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 02:04:25 PST
]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/15786968/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/15786968/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 23:05:42 PST but I don't feel so great.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/15502626/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/15502626/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 04:40:05 PST stare at each other like lost little birds across the room
and I remember the way you looked
I learned how to dance, but I'd never shown it to you

I know I tried, but it's hard sometimes
the roots don't take, it takes a while
and you pull at the strings
but they're broken, it seems
the dance isn't over for me, no

my love,
I know I was wrong, but you know that you'll always be
my love
stay for a while while our leaves are still green
please, for me"










It's been in my head all day.
D: It's stuck there.
I can't stop humming it. bagh

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/14980273/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/14980273/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 03:45:19 PDT There's a few reasons, but I dunno
I'll decide later.

*Edit* Still deciding about deleting this.

But on a brighter note, i got to new paint brushes and pencils today
and a new sketch book eee!!!!!

...Little too excited about that. lol

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/14808609/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/14808609/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 02:52:21 PDT Still have nothing important to say
Uh, I started painting again?
I guess that's new.
I've been drawing a lot more.
Well, I usually draw a lot but, it's been like every single day, for a few hours at least.
And it just seems to consume more and more of my day.
Ah well, it's relaxing, So I'm not complaining.
I finally made use of my two canvases, so yay for that.


I guess that's all.

Oh, And I still like me some candy and Bryce.



The end.

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/13504661/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/13504661/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 21:55:05 PDT And then realized i had nothing to say.
Yep

*Edit*:
I like's me some candy.

*Double Edit:* And some Baje

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12698758/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12698758/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 23:14:15 PDT It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight
My muscles feel like a melee
My body's curled in a U-shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid

Propped up by lies and promises
Saving my place as life forgets
Maybe its time I saw the world

I'm only here for a while
But patience is not my style
And I'm so tired that I gotta go

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through

Tell me I should stick around for you
Tell me I could have it all
I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go

I get to go home in one week
But I leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry

I'm following suit and directions
I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and I don't know why

I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cause I'm so tired that I gotta go

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
You still don't think I'm going see this through

Tell me I'm a part of history
Tell me I can have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I gotta go

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12252744/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12252744/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 00:02:06 PDT Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave,
Just like all I loved, I make believe.
Imagine heart, I disappear, seems,
No one will appear, here and make me real.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I'd tell you how it haunts me,
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
You don't care that it haunts me.

Oh,
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much you...

]]> ~Kizzuh http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12251165/ http://Kizzuh.deviantart.com/journal/12251165/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 20:36:43 PDT
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