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Well, that happens all the time, doesn't it?

Ah~ I love Johnny's boys, they're so interesting.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/28094192/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/28094192/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 18:32:20 PST えをかけなった。

今はむずかしいいる。

いじょ。

子夜

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27130198/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27130198/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:35:23 PDT
He's so fucking useless at this shit.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27129950/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27129950/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:12:53 PDT
Unfortunately, my parents have told me I either need to pick up another class, or pick up another job. Either way, I'm pretty much screwed. I'm getting super stressed out about this, it's making my stomach hurt...

The classes that I can pick up that will fit into my schedule are either from 6:30-10:30 at night, or they're from 12:30-1:30 and would mean I would have to attend classes on Friday, which I was avoiding and had specifically designed my timetable not to do.

I would rather just drop Sociology and not have to deal with it, and just not pick up another course. But my parents will throw a fit. So I have to come up with some kind of substitute to Sociology if I want to drop it, and right about now, a Monday night from 6:30-10:30 class is looking the most likely. Painful as it is. I'm trying to call my mother to consult with her, but she's not picking up the phone.

I hope I can sort this out soon.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27113175/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/27113175/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 12:32:22 PDT
Somewhat intimidating, I'd say. But every first day is like that, isn't it?

I should be starting on biology soon.

Damn Biology!

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26906644/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26906644/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 00:29:18 PDT
I'm just throwing this out there because it's true, but my penpals need to get replying faster -_- I'm bored.

Buut, it could be because everyone's starting school so early. I don't know why this is, but they are. I won't start until September 8th, or so. Whatever day is the day after labour day.

*Hates liking guys so much*

My thoughts are just babbling out today.

I'm beginning to doubt my essay writing abilities, so I'm going to be writing some essays for fun, hopefully on this vacation to Vernon tomorrow, and during this school year. I'm not taking any classes that require essays, so I'm a little worried because that's where I get all my marks from.

After watching Finding Forrester again, I'm feeling rather un-read. So, I'm going to go back and read some classic books like Pride and Prejudice, which I've never read, and then write some essays in regards to them. It should be fun, and interesting, and I won't feel like such a failure of a Literary Nerd. xD

That's the plan, anyway. But everyone knows how much my plans suck and fail. So... I'm only hoping this will go well.

~Koyo

"Man is the only animal that blushes. Or needs to." ~ Mark Twain

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26888047/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26888047/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 02:47:40 PDT Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."

a return to love - marianne williamson

As quoted in Coach Carter.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26641117/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26641117/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 01:30:36 PDT
]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26054431/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/26054431/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 22:03:57 PDT
My parents won't give me back my laptop. They have no intentions of giving it back. So if I don't come back, I'll make sure to leave my sister the password so she can tell you I've either killed myself or my parents. I'm that pissed about it.

I want to stab out their eyes.
Break their jaws, cause then they can't talk.
Crush their throats so they can't speak.
Smash their collarbones so they can't move.

So if I get caught for homicide or physical assault, my sister will tell you for sure ^_^

I'm going to kill them. Oh happy day~

But at least I'm not cutting~

See? If my parents hadn't taken my laptop away I wouldn't have cut up my arm and my stomach. It's hard, because I'm itching to cut my stomach again. I really want to do it. But if I do, I'll at least wait until the old marks fade. But it is getting awfully hard. I won't lie to that.

Hmm... I want sex. I think I want NSA ONS random sex when I'm angry. I'm emotional and physical like that. Funny isn't it?

Wheee~~~~

I want to kill someone. If my sister doesn't shut up, I'm going to beat her face in and strangle her.

Wow. I love my family.

I love them so much.

Because I could never hate them this much if I didn't love them.

Even if I do imagine crushing their heads between doors and door frames. Or cutting open their stomachs with butchers knives and watching their guts spill all over the floors.

Well, that's just how I am I guess. Violent. Physical. Emotional.

Heh.

If anyone says something to piss me off, in the mood that I'm in, I'll tear their faces off and all their important genitalia with it.

^_^

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25919015/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25919015/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 11:42:58 PDT
From start to finish.

Honest.

I made gyoza for my friends birthday and my family.

I went to my friends birthday.

Had fun.

Made a fimo turtle named Tobi.

Watched Sense and Sensibility.

Got home and was in a good mood.

Then my parents confronted me.

They were mad at me for not contacting a potential employer right away. I know I made a mistake. I told them so. I even explained it and they were like "you're right. That's exactly what you did wrong."

And then they wouldn't leave me alone. And I got mad.

I screamed at them, but I don't remember what I screamed. I had anger ringing in my ears, quite literally.

I slammed the door on them twice.

It would have been fine if they had left the first time. But they didn't.

Instead, they came in and took my laptop away. So, no more chat for me. My dad doesn't get back for four days and I can't confront my mother about it.

I can't, because my mother started shaking her head at me during our conversation, and then I was angrier. I said something vicious to her. I was right up in her face. I had to back off because I was imagining slamming her head between the door and doorway, I was imagining wrapping my hands around her throat and squeezing until her head popped off, I was imagining shoving my hand into her stomach and ripping out her intestines. I wanted to rip off her pretty little ears, shatter her shitty teeth, break her nose and crush her precious glasses. I wanted to smash her collarbone with my fist.

So I had to wait until they left. Then I slammed my face into the bed and jacked up the music. It didn't help.

I got onto my bed. I hit the wall multiple times. My hands are kind of bruised. I cracked my head against the wall. I think I gave myself a minor concussion.

I can't help it.

I was angry.

I always have a last resort.

It's the fastest way to come down from anger for me.

I started laughing hysterically before I lunged across my bed to get at it.

I took an exacto knife to my inner forearm. I never scratch hard enough to break skin or leave marks. But I fucked up. I made another mistake.

I dug in deeper this time. It's in my arm. It bled a little. It won't leave marks. It won't scar. But it hurt, and was sweet ecstasy against my skin. A small searing pain.

Of course, it takes a while to kick in, so I made a couple marks on my stomach too. And this morning I considered what it would feel like to see my stomach cut open and bleeding all over the kitchen floor. I have to stop that. That's not what I want. Not really. I just want pain to stop the anger.

I have to.

I can't be hitting my mother. Then my father would hit me. Then I'd go crazy.

I can't do that.

Though the hospital sounds lovely right now.

I didn't want to wake up this morning.

I want to get into a fight. I need to do something. Something to make the anger go away. It made my teeth vibrate, my head buzz, and it makes my hands ache.

But I didn't know what else to do.

I cried a lot. Screamed at my parents and sobbed like crazy. After that I couldn't speak well.

I scared my sister when I went up to get polysporin. I showed her. She thought I was trying to kill myself. I wasn't. I was doing it all for my mother.

It's always for my mother.

I don't want to hurt her.

I don't think.

Oh sweet release. It still stings. I want the marks to go away, but I want this sweet pain to stay.

But I'll try not to do it again.

I promised. Or I tried.

By the way, I'm going to Adrian's tomorrow. I guess we'll see what happens.

Oh please never let me wake up again.

My head hurts.

I want someone to love me.

I want to die.

I can't hurt anymore.

Don't let me wake up tomorrow.

Don't let me exist another day.

Just turn everything off.

It hurts.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25830433/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25830433/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 02:13:23 PDT
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Thursday, August 21, 2008

#18

"Kuli?" He stepped towards her, black wavy hair ruffling as he moved.

She was frozen. In shock, and in despair. Her head pounded; her throat constricted; her heart clenched.

Levon took another cautious step forward.

"Kulia?" Amali, with flowing black hair and violet eyes that matcher her brother and sister's, asked her triplet in a worried tone.

The sky sparked. Lightning flashed and thunder boomed.

Kulianne slowly brought her hands up to her head, and as they gripped her hair and scalp, she screamed.

"UAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!"

Her scream tore through the night sky, as tears fell down her cheeks, impossible to find in the rain. Lightning struck her and began to run all over her body.

Brother and sister flinched and shouted in fear. "KULI!!!"

However, it was the stoic vampire that stood by silently that got to the girl first.

Topher, with copper hair waving wildly in the storm, grabbed Kulianne into a great hug and held her, as if to protect her. His, now, watery-grey-blue eyes were slammed shut, and he tried not to wince at the pained girls' wail, which tore through every fibre in his being.

"Kulia. Kulianne Zallnite. Please." He pleaded with her, unable to say the words that plagued his heart. ' Please be alright.' He thought desperately.

"Get away from my sister Vamp bastard!"

Topher felt his left shoulder scream in pain, and looked up to meet the blood red eyes of an overprotective brother.

"NO!!!" Kulia cried out suddenly, wrapping her arms around Topher's head and shoulders. "Don't hurt Topher, Lev! He's done nothing but help me since I met him. Please don't hurt him." Kulia sobbed harder as she shouted at her brother, but felt better and more protected with Topher's arms around her as her grief swallowed her.

Topher's arms now wrapped around her waist, holding her close, trying to take her pain from her. Despite her evident sorrow, her standing up for him made his heart flutter and tickled his heartstrings.

This time, with her arms wrapped around a form of support, Kulianne Zallnite wailed her heart's torment.

September 28, 2007

#33

I wanted him to hold me tight and never let me go. I always looked to him to keep me warm. It was only a slight change in appearance, nothing drastic, though notably obvious. But I'd never felt him cold before that day. I always counted on him to be my warmth, since I was the one that became so easily cold. I was the one that froze and became brittle. I would break at the slightest touch. But I always counted on him to keep me warm, to stop me from breaking. I thad never occurred to me, or I had never noticed, that he could ever be that same kind of cold and that same kind of brittle. So it scared me to no end when he kissed me and all I felt was cold. I pulled him close and held him tight, trying to push my own body heat into him. I needed him to be my warmth again, because I knew I wasn't strong enough to be his.

October 2, 2007

#35

Silence was her only partial contentment. Too many thoughts were running through her mind. Too much turmoil; too much stress.

She looked over at him and felt the desire to weep. She opened her mouth to speak, but a choked feeling often followed by a sob grasped her throat. She looked away from him, not wanting to have to look into the trusting and faithful brown eyes that stared back at hers. Whenever she saw him, it was a task to keep her own petty worries to herself.

She couldn't help but feel like every word she spoke would lead to crying. Or that every word that broke through would be painful.

"You look good with short hair, but I miss it long." She said softly, cursing the idleness of the talk.

But he humored her, telling her of his own opinions, but his eyes remained concerned, eyebrows knit in mild frustration. As soon as the small explanation had been told, the pleading began.

"Do you want to do something? We can lie down by the fire; or we can sit on the couch; we can talk, or you don't have to talk." He wanted her to make a decision. Wanted some reaction from her. "Or... we can just sit here." His last suggestion was reluctant. She looked at him over her shoulder, watching him with deep and watery brown eyes. She smiled, well, she tried to, but the aching that grew in her heart tugged at her smile, and gave a painful pang. She almost let out the choked cry that grew in her, but she held it deep inside her, still curled up in his large chair.

She turned her face into herself, not daring to look at him, should the feeling or need to smile or speak come over her.

"Please... ]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25557495/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25557495/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 02:12:26 PDT
Koyo's Conclusion: Green Room RP's are more dramatic and fun, and has yet to find a General RP that she can take seriously, unless it's RP-ing with Zhar, for some odd reason.

Koyo's Remedy: Finish some Green Room RP's and epic load them with drama, and continue them in the General Forum as 14A - UK15 Rated RP's. This way, the drama simply carries over, without the NC-17 substance that kept it from the General RP in the first place.

*End Third Person Speak*

So, basically, I seem to have to write in the Green Room in order to get really into an RP. From there, I build drama within the RP's, and am therefore thoroughly interested in them afterwards. Thus, making it easier to carry over into the General Forum minus the sex.

Other than that, I got to my softball game and, while it was fun, we only had 8 players, and playing with 8 players makes me nervous, since we don't have as many positions covered. On top of that, it was on a really crappy field, so if we missed a pop-up it would roll forever until we stopped it. This is because THERE IS NO GRASS on the field and NO HOME RUN FENCE! WTF, DUDE?!

Anyways, we mercied AND shut out the other team 14-0. It was sad. But I was so glad we didn't have to play an extra inning, cause while we were doing before inning warm ups, one of the girls on my team threw me a ball, which basically hit the ground right before my feet, and my glove. So I was crouched down to scoop it up, only to find that the ball hits the ground and bounces OVER my glove, and hits me in the knee.

I say I have a pretty high tolerance of pain, mostly because I have a massive shock factor. Sometimes, I don't feel intensely painful things until 20-30 minutes later. Well, this one didn't take too long. When the ball hit me, I felt like it had hit my knee off it's joint or something. When I tried to stand, I found that I couldn't walk properly for a good 10-15 minutes later. Even now, it still freaking hurts, and there's a bruise from the SEAMS on the ball -_- Jenn L throws hard...

Also, I realized this guy I know online, who I was kind of planning on meeting, lives in North Van. So I text him to tell him I'm in North Van, and what is he up to? He says we should hang out after the game. I say, this is not such a good idea as if I don't go to the team dinner thing, I will have no ride home. On top of that, I don't think it's a good idea to meet him in person, alone, nor do I think it's a good idea for me to go behind my parents back and do this, though I will when I do it eventually. If I do meet him, it's going to be with friends. Oh, I also didn't want to meet him while in my sweaty softball gear. Yuck! Anyways, he's pretty funny. He thinks I'm sexy and cute and that I shouldn't have gotten drunk (or at least LAID) for my nineteenth birthday, though he wasn't offering. XD But he's (kind of?) offering now.

Also, going to Blues In The City tomorrow. I'm very excited, but haven't figured out how I'm getting home. Better work that out soon. Anywho~

Ciao
~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25543193/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25543193/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:25:41 PDT
1. Hit Me Up - Gia Farrell
2. Africa - Karl Wolf
3. Please Don't Stop The Music - Rihanna
4. No Scrubs (Hi-Bias Dance Remix) - TLC
5. My Bad Reputation - Joan Jett
6. AM to PM - Christina Milian
7. All For You - Janet Jackson
8. Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls ft. A. R. Rahman
9. Just Dance - Lady GaGa
10. Cha Cha Slide - Jock Jams
11. The Way You Move - Outcast
12. Hot 'N Cold - Katy Perry
13. I Want You To Want Me - Letters to Cleo
14. Moonlight Shadow - Groove Coverage
15. See You Again - Miley Cyrus
16. My Oh My - Aqua
17. Who Da Funk Shiny Disco Balls - Benny Benassi
18. Vacation - Vitamin C
19. I Go Crazy (Techno) - DHT
20. With You - Jessica Simpson
21. Too Little Too Late - JoJo
22. So Good - Destiny's Child
23. Right Round - Flo Rida ft Kesha
24. Just About Enough - Sarina Paris
25. It's Over - Tuuli
26. Numb/Encore - Linkin Park & Jay-Z
27. Say My Name - Destiny's Child
28. Don't Cha' - Pussycat Dolls
29. American Boy (Radio Edit ft Kanye)- Estelle
30. Goodbye - Kristina Debarge
31. Calabria - Enur ft. Natasya
32. Maneater - Nelly Furtado
33. La La Land - Demi Lovato
34. Heartbreaker (No Rap Version) - Mariah Carey
35. I Like To Move It - Crazy Frog
36. The Potential Break Up Song - Aly & AJ
37. Shake Tramp - Marianas Trench
38. Voulez-Vous - Mamma Mia!
39. Bootylicious - Destiny's Child
40. Last Christmas - Cascada
41. Bad Girl [At Night] - Dave Spoon ft. Lisa Maffia (Club Remix)
42. Gabber On The Floor - DHT
43. What I LIke About You - Lillix
44. Ole Ole - 11-30
45. Hold Me In The Rain - DJ KaiYo
46. Toxic - Britney Spears
47. Love Lockdown - Kanye West
48. Over It - Katherine McPhee
49. I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho) - Pitbull
50. Holding Out For A Hero - Jennifer Saunders
51. Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boy
52. You Can't Hurry Love - Phil Collins
53. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
54. When I Grow Up - Pussycat Dolls
55. If The Mood - Esthero
56. Fuego - Pitbull ft. Don Omar
57. Hey Ladies - Destiny's Child
58. Lady Navigation - B'z
59. The Way I Are (Remix) - Timbaland ft. Keri Hilson & DOE
60. Gotta Go My Own Way - Nikki Yanofsky
61. One Two Step - Ciara ft. Missy Elliot
62. Bang Bang - K'naan ft Adam Levine
63. Disturbia - Rihanna
64. It's Gonna Be Me - 'N Sync
65. Locolotion - Orange Range
66. Discoteka - Starkillers (Full Version)
67. Stop - Spice Girls

Yep, that's what gets me writing XD

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25530057/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25530057/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 01:26:24 PDT
I just wrote a post that's over 1400 words. How did I pull that off?

I know it looks long because of the way I space things out. I hate writing fatty paragraphs with very few breaks in them. I use a new paragraph for ever switch of an idea, and almost everytime a character speaks. But HOW did I actually MAKE it so long?!

Well, the drama helped. I love drama. It makes me writes more XD

And now, I'm dead.

~koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25405430/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25405430/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 22:57:39 PDT
So... of the $106 that I spent on con, I will get $40 back. Woohoo. Though honestly, with the way they said it, I almost wanted to say "fuck you, keep your fucking cash." Only it was Baja that told me, so I kept things short.

So... I probably spent $20 on gas going from my place, to Baja's, to con, to Baja's, to Crystal's, to Joyce's, to home, to Joyce's, to Baja's to Crystal's, to Baja's, to Crystal's, to Baja's, to con, to home, to Joyce's, to Baja's, to Crystal's, to Baja's, to Crystal's, to Baja's, to Crystal's, to Baja's, to con, to home. And I'm getting $10 of it back, though half of those trips to Crystal's I wouldn't have made if I didn't have to.

Mendokusai na~

Then the shitload I paid in parking tickets, well, I'm getting a little over half of the two days reimbursed. Woo hoo...

so... helping to pay for the $258 side view mirror, I'm getting $40 XD, and then another $60 for one of the girls' pass' that I ended up paying for. so... the rest of that will be coming out of my emergency money. It's not really for an emergency, it's just for my own stupidity.

Yep. W00t. And that doesn't even include the side panel or the pain job. Though I don't know if I'm going to have to pay for the paint job.

So basically, if anyone's hiring is a mercenary, would you kill me please?

My mom's like "I see you made hardly any progress on the weeding today, Nomi. Guess that's what you'll be doing tomorrow, eh?"

And in my head, I'm going. 'Can I fucking punch you in the face please?' and not saying anything.

Then when she's like "So what are you doing tomorrow?"

I'm like "Well, I guess I'm weeding the garden." In total sarcasm.

And now... god, I'm just so sick of it all. Shoot me. Please. Just kill me. I'm tired of life. So someone just bring me mercy and end it. I can't do it myself. Someone needs to do it for me. Please?

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25373897/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25373897/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 13:32:26 PDT
Honestly. There's no other way to explain it.

I know you tried oh so hard to make me happy yesterday, Shaide and Blood, but it all came rushing back the moment I woke up.

I was happy when I talked to Raire last night.

I was happy when I was reading my book last night.

But I can't help the feeling that I went to sleep never wanting to wake up.

I know how to kill myself, but I can't. I won't, because I can't, so don't pester me about the worthlessness of killing oneself.

I know that when you slit your wrists, you should cut down, not across. Cutting across means you don't really want to die. Cutting across means you're making a gamble on life.

I know that if I take enough pills fast enough in one moment, I'll be able to sleep and never wake up. My kidney will give out and my body won't be able to function, and my heart will pleasantly stop. However, this is ineffective.

I would love to jump off a bridge, and see what happens. To feel suspended in air for a glorious amount of time. But death is debatable in that situation.

Whenever I'm in this mood, with no desire to live, or exist any longer, I consider the speed of every car going by, and how fast would I die, if it were to hit me. If I throw myself in front of the car, I should do it head first. That way it's over instantly. Yes?

But, I can't kill myself. I know it. I could just never do it. So all these facts are useless to me.

However, what I can do, is hope that someone comes to murder me in my sleep. So that some idiot comes barrelling down the road, and hits me in the process.

These are thoughts that are going through my head today.

I have no need of life.

I don't want it.

Someone come and take it from me please.

I wonder what death is like.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25283305/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25283305/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 00:04:17 PDT
And not only that, but the skirt was too long, so I was having trouble walking, going up stairs, sitting and most importantly, getting into my car -_-

So basically, at the beginning of the day, everything was fine. Then the right sleeve under my arm ripped. Then the top button of my shirt kept coming undone, thus sending my shirt flying open. Then I realized just HOW HARD it was to go up stairs in my damn skirt. Then my hair started falling out, cause we had done a rush job in the morning, cause everyone was freaking out, cause the most experienced cosplayer (who's super fast and efficient) was not there. Then those stupid fuzzy things under my knees kept falling off. And honestly for the ENTIRE DAY, I had to watch my boobage, cause if I leaned over, the whole shirt came down, if I wasn't paying attention, it would slide down without my noticing. And my friends kept wandering over to pull up my shirt for me -_-

My friend who ordered the whole thing, and was supposed to fix it, kept apologizing the whole day. I was actually pissed enough that I didn't say "no problem" as I usually would. I would just nod and sigh.

ON TOP OF THAT, I was wearing my epic shoes almost all day (don't worry, I didn't drive with them) and my feet were fucking killing me. So I would change shoes every now and then, but I pretty much wanted to keep wearing my shoes, cause they're a part of the outfit. So now my feet are killing me. T_T

So, I didn't really have time to admire things or buy anything. So I'm kinda annoyed. But that's why the con is 3 days long XD

I also spent most of my money because I had to pay for my friend's pass, and then for fricking parking. I have, like, fucking no money right now. So I'm kinda annoyed, la~.

But I will get some money, eventually, I hope.

Fuck.

It was fun to see everyone, actually.

Anywho, I'll update later XD

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25264962/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25264962/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 00:15:28 PDT
ANIME EVOLUTION STARTS TOMORROW~

Or, well, later today.

I have my list written up cause I'll be too shitfaced in the morning to remember anything.

Last minute packing shit.

*is happy but tired*

My feet are going to kill tomorrow.

That is all.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25201127/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/25201127/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 16:00:06 PDT
They're platform heels with a mary jane toe. Love them~.

They have skulls on the straps and they're black and beautiful and I'm oh so happy.

Except they are supposed to be white for the Rahzel outfit. I can't decide if I want to ruin them and paint them white, or if I should just leave them the way they are.

Oh~ and I really want boots. I saw the most beautiful boots ever~ I want some knee high boots! Really badly!

Oh, but I got a deal on my shoes! The salesperson was like "is this for next weeks convention? Are you cosplaying?"

And I was like "Yep."

And she's like "I know how hard it is to find stuff for cosplaying. So I can give you a deal."

and I was like "awesome!"

So I got my shoes for $70 XD

And she was like "Sorry, I can only give you a 30% discount." But honestly, that was a sweet deal!

So I was happy.

Mhm.

Also, I sent my glasses away to get the lenses changed, and they STILL haven't called me back. So my eyes have been dying, cause I've had to wear my contact lenses for the past week. So my eyes are all dried out and sore.

Pain...

Oh! But I went to bed at 9-ish last night. So I had an awesome kind of dream that I can only sort of remember. But it was awesome. And I loved it.

But honestly? I'm really feeling this break up.

I want a friend with benefits. I don't want a relationship, I just want... physical connections. Which I don't have. Right now.

I want a man.

I want a man to hug and kiss and have sex with. But nothing more.

I also don't want to really ask that of anyone, cause I think it's really selfish.

But if someone wanted the same thing, then i'd be set !!!

But yes, that's about all I have to say.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24911981/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24911981/ Sat, 23 May 2009 18:08:26 PDT
So, I've known this one guy since the beginning, but I only see him once a month. So I forgot his name.

And then yesterday night, he was like "Naomi, right?" During the lesson part of the dance.

And I was like "Yeah!" in my head I was going 'shit....' It was really bad.

So Laura got her friend Sancho to go over and ask him what his name was. For some reason I thought his name was David, but when Sancho came back, he's like "His name is Kyle."

And I was like "What?"

Yeah... I was so off.

And then I met this guy while sitting on the window sill and it was awesome because he was funny and we were getting along pretty well. So then he asked me to dance. And then I was like "And I haven't even asked you your name!"

So he's like "My name is Russ."

"I'm Naomi."

"Nice to meet you!"

Then I was telling him about the whole thing with Kyle and he started laughing (dancing with him was kind of awkward because he didn't really do anything. Like, wasn't putting pressure on my back that I could follow or anything.) and so we stopped dancing and were just standing on the dancefloor talking.

So when we went back to dancing, we had a couple random and amusing conversations. They went like this.

"Do you remember my name?"

"Russ!"

"Very good!"

"Do you remember mine?"

"Something that starts with an N?"

"Ah! *insulted sound* *laugh* okay, this is how you can remember my name. Call me Nomi, cause it's my nickname. And when you see me next, just go 'Do you know me, Nomi?' Trust me, you'll never forget."

*laughs harder*

"Why are you so short?"

"Cause I'm Asian."

"That's no excuse! I know a guy from interior China who's 6 foot 4!"

"Well, I'm from a short region of China! Which is only partially true! Cause I'm half Japanese."

"Oh? I could so tell."

"I know. It's cause I'm short."

*Dancing stops while Russ bursts into laughter*

"I'm sorry! You made me laugh! Okay. Can I have the next dance too? I feel bad for spending so much time laughing."

"Of course you may!"

It was, overall, a fun night XD

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24410204/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24410204/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 12:33:37 PDT
I just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years.

I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm a bitch.

I'm so sad...

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24386230/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/24386230/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 22:12:33 PDT
EXAMS ARE DONE!!!!

Now I need to get a job.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23818206/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23818206/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 17:16:02 PDT
Wormwood stuff? AmandiShai, JeVi, CalliDanny, or no pairing? If you chose a pairing, what kind of position? Innocent, sexual? Comic (ideas)?

Isolation Stuff? What pairing? No pairing? What position? Comic?

End Worlds stuff? More explanation? Pairings? Characters? Comic?

Treaty Corps Recruits stuff? Explanation? Pairings? Positions? Characters? Profiles? Comics?

Anything else? Please comment with suggestions! Not that I'll get to them, but I'm wondering what people like best. What they'd like to see from me. Maybe ink and colour some old stuff? Do tell.

And don't ask for the impossible.

By the way, I've been getting into Katekyo Hitman Reborn lately. It's funny, and I like it.

Also, I feel sad. I don't know why. I feel like being depressed about something and crying, but there's nothing for me to be depressed about, I think.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23653078/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23653078/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 00:09:24 PDT .

Step 1: Fill this in, and as such everyone on your watch list may then tell you you are not a bad artist. This will let you know how splendid you are, that way you can boost your monstrous ego just a smidgen more.

Step 2: Now that you've got that great ego boost that you needed, you can sit and revel in it, and believe (falsely) that you are so superior to everyone else.

1. [x] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing. (all the time.)
2. [x] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development"
3. [ ] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet"
4. [x] You only draw faces.
5. [x] You always draw faces at the same direction. (The other side looks like crap)
6. [x] The proportion is awful.
7. [ ] Every character looks the same.
8. [x] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction.
10. [ ] "Sketch? Who cares about that?"


11. [x] You only draw sketches. (I ink now and then....)
13. [ ] You always draw one character.
14. [x] You always draw characters in same angle.
15. [ ] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression.
16. [ ] You can't draw characters in movement.
17. [x] You barely draw feet. (because i don't know how...LOL)
18. [x] You can't draw figures from high or low angles.
19. [ ] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing.
20. [ ] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract.

21. [ ] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction.
22. [ ] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters.
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters.
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters.
25. [x] Hands are your nightmare.
26. [x] Your character's hands are always hidden behind something.
27. [ ] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty.
28. [x] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye.
29. [x] Your works are always asymmetrical.
30. [x] Line art only

31. [x] Rough sketch only
32. [x] You have no anatomical knowledge.
33. [x] You only draw eyes.
34. [ ] Character's hand and eyes are huge.
35. [x] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs.
36. [ ] Your artworks are free from all logic.
37. [x] You lose confidence when other people's works look great.
38. [x] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality.
39. [x] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection.
40. [ ] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else. If I leave a drawing I can not go back to it. It is my way.


41. [ ] Tablet is your god item.
42. [ ] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappier than yours.
43. [x] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily.
44. [x] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [x] You draw once a month or even once a year.
46. [x] You get mad when your favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [ ] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful.
48. [x] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [x] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [x] You realized there are problems and know where to fix but you never do.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23613614/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23613614/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 16:52:47 PDT
Rules:
1.) Answer the following meme in a journal entry, copy/pasting these rules as well
2.) At the end, tag up to 5 different people, commenting on their DA page saying that they've been tagged
3.) HAVE FUN!

Birth:
1.) What zodiac sign are you? Gemini. Or do you mean a Metal Horse?
2.) Any quirks you had as a baby? Cried until I turned blue and stuck everything in my mouth and played with my spit in my mouth.
3.) Did you have a special toy or blanket you liked to sleep with? Nope. Not really.
4.) Do you know what your first word was? Dada, I think.

Childhood:
5.) What was your first day at school like? Lots of little boy friends. Not many girls for friends.
6.) What did you want to be growing up? Vet?
7.) Where you one of the loud kids, or the quiet one? Loud when I was tiny, quieter as I got older. And louder from grade 8 up.
8.) What were some of the craziest things you did as a child? Carried my newborn sister up a marble staircase when I was 4 years old.

Teenage Years:
9.) What clique were you usually in? Prep, goth, nerd, etc.? We were a mishmash of outcasts, I guess you'd call us. But I personally was a butterfly.
10.) What was your least favourite class in school? English.
11.) Did you ever write poetry to express your feelings? All the time.
12.) Did you go to school dances and prom? Yep. Went to all of them that happened I think.

DA Related:
13.) Traditional or digital media? Traditional.
14.) Are you a fandom artist or original artist? Both I suppose. I do original way more than I do fanart though.
15.) How did you get started in drawing? Saw my friend drawing anime and got into anime. Or do you mean before that? I've always been good at drawing and at being creative. Just comes naturally, I guess. I do have to work at it, but yeah.
16.) What are you good at drawing/writing? Writing more so. I'd say.
17.) What are you bad at drawing/writing? Fricking anatomy.

Random Questions:
18.) Ever dye your hair weird colours or wanted to? I have never dyed my hair. But I want to dye it blue or purple. I know, I'm emo.
19.) Did/do you have any pets? Dad's allergic. No pets. Except little aquatic Albino frog for a couple weeks for a science fair project.
20.) How many places have you lived? 2 separate houses but born and raised in the same city.
21.) Where do you want to live? Where I live now.
22.) Describe your dream house? 3 stories, big back yard. Lots of space. Comfortable.
23.) Marriage for you? Later, yes.
24.) Religious? Nope.
25.) Would you most likely be my partner in crime or my conscience? Conscience, probably.
26.) Jazz-Funk fusion or Electro-Punk? Electro-punk probably.
27.) Gen, Het, or Slash? Probably a bit of each? I'm not totally sure of the question.
28.) Ever drink Bailey's from a shoe? Nope. Never had Bailey's.
29.) Do you dump or get dumped? I get dumped, but I may soon be doing the dumping.
30.) Do you have deep opinions or do you listen to both sides of the argument? I listen to the both sides for the most part.

I tag: Anyone that wants to. Unless you've already done it.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23565166/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23565166/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 21:41:57 PST 1. Are you single? Not at the moment.
2. Are you happy? Not particularly. Too much studying.
3. Are you bored? Too busy to be bored.
5. Are you Italian? Not at all.
6. Are you pregnant? God, everytime I say I threw up, someone asks me that. FOR THE RECORD. I am NOT pregnant. Thank you.
8. Are you nice? XD People have been telling me that a lot lately.
9. Are you Irish? Nope
10. Are you Asian? I'm a banana.

TEN FACTS
11. Full Name: Naomi Kim Lum Oya
12. Nicknames: Nomi, Koyo, Koyoru.
13. Birth place: Beautiful British Columbia
14. Hair color: Black
15. Natural hair style: Thick, volumous, natural huge waves.
17. Birthday: May 26th
18. Mood: Sick-ish
19. Favorite color: Purple, green, blue.
20. One Place to Visit: At the moment? Pennsylvania. Most of the time? Japan. ONLY to visit, though.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
21. Have you ever been in love? Yes
22. Do you believe in love at first sight? Absolutely not. Well, yes to a certain extent, but not dating at first sight.
(#3 is missing)
24. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? Yes.
25. Have you ever broken someone's heart? I think so.... accidentally...
26. Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes.
27. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? Too many to count.
28. Are you afraid of commitment? Not particularly, but right now I feel like I should date around and get a feel for different guys.
29. Who was the last person you hugged? Kim, I think.
30. Who was the last person you said I love you to? Boyfriend.

TEN THIS OR THAT
31. Love or lust? Love is better, lust is temporary.
32. Hard liquor or beer? Hard liquor probably.
33. Cats or dogs? Both. Love them both, they're adorable.
34. A few best friends or any regular friends? 2-3 best friends, numerous regular friends.
35. Television or internet? Both.
(huh, #36 is missing)
37. Wild night out or romantic night in? Like them both. Wild night out with someone fun, romantic night in for a special someone that wants to make me feel special.
38. Money or Happiness? Happiness.
39. Night or day? I like being awake during the day, but I stay up late a lot too.
40. IM or phone? I wish I had IM forwarding.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
41. Been caught sneaking out? Nope. I tell my parents everything.
(huh, #42 is missing too...are they leaving numbers out on purpose?)
43. Done something you regret? Yep.
44. Bungee jumped? I have a fear of heights. But it seems thrilling.
(#45 is missing too )
46. Finished an entire jaw breaker? Small ones, yeah.
(#47 has disappeared too, strange )
48. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? Yeah.
49. Cried because you lost a pet? I've never had a pet, my dad's allergic.
50. Wanted to disappear? still do

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
51. Smile or eyes? Urgh, tough question. Probably smile. I love smiles.
52. Light or dark hair? Mmm... more often dark rather than light.
53. Hugs or kisses? Hugs are awesome. Kisses are hot.
54. Shorter or taller? Taller.
55. Intelligence or attraction? They'd better be some kind of smart. Otherwise, they'd be stupid. I can't go out with someone really stupid.
56. Romantic or spontaneous? Mmm... romantic.
57. Funny or serious? Funny, but knows when to be serious.
58. Older or Younger? Older. No more younger guys for me.
59. Outgoing or quiet? Outgoing is good. But I'm a jealous person. So maybe a little quiet.
60. Sweet or Bad Ass? Ooh~ Bad ass guys are hot, but my heart flutters for sweet guys.

TEN HAVE YOUS
61. Ever performed in front of a large crowd? Yeah, they're called Piano Recitals.
62. Ever done drugs? Nope. Well, do you count cold medicines.
63. Ever got someone pregnant? ...How do you figure that works? I'm a woman.
64. Ever kissed the same gender? Yes.
65. Ever been on a cheer leading team? No.
66. Ever been on a dance team? I dance Blues, and not very well. Dance team? Pfft.
67. Ever been on a sports team? Tennis team, badminton team, softball team.
68. Ever been in a drama play/production? Yeah, we had to in elementary school for 3 years.
69. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? God, I wish.
70. Ever been in a rap video? Pfft, the hell? No.

TEN LASTS
71. Last phone call you made? Crap.... I know the answer to this question. Definitely... Uhm.... Either... boyfriend or best friend. Wait, do Skype calls count? In that case, friend in Pennsylvania.
72. Last person you kissed? Boyfriend.
73. Last group of people you hung out with? Eric for Bio Study... that went well...
74. Last time you worked? Shoveling snow? Or doing homework? Or working up at the university last summer.
75. Last time... ]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23291429/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23291429/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 15:32:11 PST
*DADDY'S TEN RULES OF DATING* (guys take notes)


Rule #1:

If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be
Delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up.

*Rule #2:

You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her,
So long as you do not peer at anything below her neck.
If you can't keep your hands off of my daughter's body,
I will remove them.

Rule #3:

I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear
Their pants so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips.
Please don't take this as an insult,
But you and all of your friends are complete idiots.

Still I want to be fair and open minded about this issue,
So I propose this compromise. You may come to the door with your underwear showing,
And your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object.
However, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your pants securely in place to your waist.


*Rule #4:

I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without using a
"Barrier method" of some kind can kill you.
Let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, i am the barrier, and i will kill you.

*Rule #5:

It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each other,
We should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day.
Please do not do this.
The only info i require from you,
Is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house,
And the only word I need from you on this subject is
"EARLY"

*Rule #6:

I have no doubt you are a popular guy, with many opportunities to date other girls.
This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter.
Other wise, once you have gone out with my little girl,
You will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you.
If you make her cry, i will make you cry.

Rule #7:

As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear,
And more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget.
If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating.
My daughter is putting on her makeup,
A process that can take longer than painting the golden gate bridge.
Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful,
Like changing the oil in my car?

Rule #8:

The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter:
Places where there are beds, sofas or anything softer than a wooden stool.
Places where there is darkness, where there is dancing, holding hands, or happiness.
Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to introduce my daughter to wear
Shorts, tank tops, midriff t-shirts,
Or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka- zipped up to her throat.
Movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme are to be avoided,
Movies that features chain saws are okay.
Hockey games are okay.
Old folk homes are better!!


*Rule #9:

Do not lie to me.
I may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dimwitted has-been.
But on issues relating to my daughter, i am the, merciless God of your universe.
If I ask you where you are going and with whom,
You have one chance to tell me the truth and nothing but the truth.
I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house.
Do not trifle with me.

Rule #10:

Be afraid.
Be very afraid.
It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway
For a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi.
When my Agent Orange starts acting up,
The voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns
As I wait for you to bring my daughter home.
As soon as you pull into the driveway, you should exit the car with both hands in plain sight.
Speak the perimeter password,
Announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early,
Then return to your car - there is no need for you to come inside.
The camouflaged face at the window is mine.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23167062/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23167062/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 02:12:52 PST
- Wolves because they can be independent and appear strong and smart. They are elegant and look “lonesome” (lone wolf) but they actually run in a pack and are always part of a pack. They are beautiful.


2. What is your favourite domestic animal and why?

- Cats because they are independent and seem clever. They are regal yet lazy. Sometimes they are crazy. They seem fun. They’re cute.


3. What is your favourite drink and why? (How does it make you feel? What do you think of it?)

- Green Tea Ginger ale because it is sweet but not overly so. It tastes good and is good for you. It is carbonated and gives you a fizzy almost exciting feeling when you drink it.


4. What is your favourite food and why? (How does it make you feel? What do you think of it?)

- Ice cream because it has different textures depending on the situation. It can be smooth and creamy or it can be rough with ice adding a bit of crunch. There are different flavours that can add zing to it. Not everyone likes every flavour, but almost no one dislikes ice cream.

Now, write your own answers in before looking at the results below. Make sure you use detail and the same kind of set up as I did. Once you finish, scroll down and laugh your butt off.









































































































































1. Your favourite wild animal is how you want people to see you.
2. Your favourite domestic animal is how people actually see you.
3. Your favourite drink is what you think of love.
4. Your favourite food is what you think of sex.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23052299/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/23052299/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 01:34:22 PST [ ] gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] gotten suspended
[ ] gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test

Total so far: 1

[x] arrived late to class more than 5 times
[X] didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] turned at least 3 projects in late.
[ ] missed school just because you felt like it
[ ] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class

Total so far: 4

[ ] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] text people during class
[x] passed notes
[X] threw stuff across the room
[ ] laughed at the teacher

Total so far: 7

[x] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] took pictures during school hours
[X] called someone during school hours
[X] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hour
[X] skipped a class period

Total So Far: 12

[ ] threw something at the teacher
[x] went outside the classroom without permission
[X] broke the dress code
[ ] failed a class
[X] ate food during class

Total So Far: 15

[X] gotten a call from school
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[ ] didn't take your stuff to school
[x] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[X] curse during class/school

Total so far: 18

[X] faked your parents signature
[X] slept in class
[ ] cursed at your teacher
[x] copied homework
[x] got in trouble with the principal/vice principal

Total So Far: 22

Multiply by 3
grand total: 66

Post as "i screwed up __% of my teenage life" and tag 3 people! (anyone who reads)

~

Honestly? I'm way more goody-two shoes than I thought I was. I took this from and duuude, I think I might have to minus some more marks... I did a lot of that stuff in my first year of college, actually... Anyways, going through a lot of shit right now. Haven't had time to draw. It's been mostly read manga, watch tv, and do assignments. But I'm planning on inking some stuff. So any requests from my gallery as to what I should ink?

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22773021/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22773021/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 01:28:12 PST
I danced with this guy Ben, and it was really good because we were dancing really close so he could move my legs with his legs which made it way easier to follow his movements. I have a bit of a problem of that. And of moving on my own. Pretty much, as soon as the guys hand leaves my back, or as soon as he lets go of me, I just stare because I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing. But Ben was really good with me because he just talked to me and helped me relax and stuff.

Also, in the lesson, there was this really helpful woman that was my "lead" and she was basically teaching me how to be a follower. Which was cool. I definitely liked the free dancing more, but you kind of needed the lesson to pick up on things.

I can't wait for the next Blue's night, but Blue's is only once a month, so I have to wait a whole month before I can experience this awesome-ness again! Meanwhile, before I go back, I need to invest in some better flats (like, ones that aren't loose on my feet) or dance shoes, and a pair of skinny jeans. It was fricking cold today. Skinny jeans would have been much welcome. Thought it was kind of my own fault since I'm wearing leggings... But yeah.

Right before we left, my friend was like "okay! Last dance!" and I was like, okay, yeah, and she asked a guy to dance and they went off. I wasn't uhm... brave enough? to ask anyone to dance, so I sat on the couch and watched. It was fun. These two guys were dancing together and it was hard to tell who was the lead and who was the follower because they both had their hands on each others backs. So anyways, after my friend and I's designated "last dance" a guy asked me to dance and pretty much swept me up and away we went.

He was really, really good. So it was a little intimidating. But it was lots of fun. He basically shoved and tossed me around like a rag doll and it was fun. I got way more into the music and moved my body in a way that was more agreeable to Blues. I got dipped twice, which was super awesome, and I dunno, I just had a great time in general.

Then I had to go find my friend and she was like "where did you go?" And I was like "Sorry! I got swept up to dance! But it was fun!" and really, I could have said no, but I wanted to have a good last dance too. So I let him sweep me away. Fun stuff.

I did try Swing once because my friend really really likes it. But I didn't like it much. Granted, I didn't really have a formal lesson either, so it wasn't all that great for me. Swing is also based off of a fair bit of counting and keeping time and stuff, which, you know, is okay for me, but I needed way more practice before just jumping in and doing whatever. I, like, couldn't follow any of my leads or anything.

With Blue's, it's much less counting (actually, no counting really) and mostly just following the rhythm any way you want. As long as you, as a follower, are following your lead. So anyways, I like Blues much better. It's easier to get led than in Swing. AND! It's super fun to watch. Blue's is just, I dunno, more fun for me than Swing. Granted, I think I'd like to try swing after I get better at Blue's.

Also, I felt a lot more confident with Blue's and was more ready to accept offers to dance. It was an excellent night, over all.

Now I should sleep. I have a shitload of studying to do tomorrow.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22642795/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22642795/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 22:13:51 PST
]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22623255/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22623255/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 21:22:47 PST and Lynn *sigh* Such a pain...

~Character MEME!!!~

1. What is your character's name?
Amandine Kincade

2. What is your character's name in another language?
It means Beloved, or loved one. I can’t remember. I can’t remember the language either.

3. How old is he/she?
Let’s let her answer some of these, of which there are too many.
Amandine: I’m 16 *^_^* Thank you for asking.

4. What is your character's race/species?
Amandine: I’m a Cu Mor Glas A Bhais. Lots of work.

5. Do they have a crush?
Amandine: Uhm…. Maybe? Don’t tell my brothers. It’ll make them angry.

6. Do they have many friends?
Amandine: I think I have, like, 5? Or so?

7. What planet is your character from?
Amandine: Earth of course!

8. Does your character like to eat?
Amandine: Yep. I like to cook too, with my brother Jed *^_^*

9. What's his/her favorite food?
Amandine: Uhm… no specifics. I just like food.

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Amandine: Apple Juice! It’s very… nostalgic?

11. Is your character annoying?
Amandine: I don’t think so! But… maybe Shai does. He seems to sigh around me a lot. Hey! Shai, and sigh! Haha! Oh dear, he’s going to kill me.

12. Is your character loved?
Amandine: Well, I guess you could say I’m loved by my family. A little too much by my brothers even. And my friends~ They like me too ^_^

13. Is your character hated?
Amandine: Not by anyone that I know. Oh dear I hope not…

14. Is he/she emo/goth?
Amandine: Not really. I just dress like one.
((She is from time to time. Definitely.))

15. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Amandine: I’m straight. Though I don’t think my brothers would be unhappy if I weren’t. They don’t seem to want to give me to any one really.

16. Is he/she a virgin?
Amandine: Yep!

17. Name 3 hobbies.
Amandine: I like to draw, paint, go long-distance running, do the high jump, play soccer, and basketball with my family.

18. Is your character normal?
Amandine: Other than the fact that I can turn into a dog at will and I follow people that are about to die? I’d say yeah, I’m pretty normal.

19. Is your character attractive?
Amandine: I really think I’m too tall to be attractive…

20. How does your character handle emotions?
Amandine: Handle… emotions?
((She tries not to have to. Usually brushes off things she doesn’t want to think about and hides from everyone else when she really does have to deal with them. She has a sketchbook specifically for sad, angry and depressing thoughts. She sometimes listens to really angry music. She doesn’t want to inconvenience anyone, so she keeps most of her emotions to herself. When she doesn’t understand them, she tries to brush them off and ignore them. Poor Shai. He’ll just have to be very upfront with her about how he feels.))

21. Does your character have other forms?
She can turn into a large grey hound.

22. Does your character overreact?
Amandine: I wouldn’t say so.
((Amandine doesn’t, but her brothers do, often.))

23. Is your character a criminal?
Amandine: NO!

24. Does your character go to school?
Amandine: I’m a proud attendee of Wormwood thanks.

25. What's his/her IQ?
Amandine: I’ve never done one of those IQ test thingies. They seem boring.

26. Does your character have a disease/curse?
Amandine: Not unless you call work a curse. Or being dense. My girl friends often tell me I’m dense T_T

27. Is your character dead?
Amandine: Alive and well. Thanks for asking!

28. Does your character have a family?
Amandine: Mhm. I have 4 brothers and a mum and a dad.

29. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Amandine: … shhh… I don’t want to talk about it.

30. What's the best time in your character's life?
Amandine: When I met Shai! He survived my brother’s beatings, and he STILL talks to me! I love him!

31. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
Wait, what does this mean?

32. Is your character single?
Amandine: I am for now.

33. Has he/she developed any relationships?
Amandine: Well, I’d consider my friendship with Shai Hei a... ]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22623089/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22623089/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 21:11:22 PST

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

1.) Your name?
Naomi:
An exotically splendid name for people of the female gender. The name is given to children who display unparalled beauty and intelligence. The name has also been known to be given to children that display Goddess-like qualities that surpass all mortal knowledge.
That child, who is named Naomi, is perfect in all ways.

2.) Your age?
18
he age where an American can:
1. Legally buy pornography
2. Legally buy cigarettes
3. Legally gamble in Indian Casinos
4. Legally be concidered an adult
5. Be tried as an adult in a court of law
6. Be drafted for a war they don't believe in
... but still cannot buy alcohol.

((haha, fuck you, I'm Canadian. I'll be legal by the end of May!))

3.) One of your friends?
Laura.
meaning 'from the laurel flower'
a beautiful name, in fact one of the best names ever.

((what the heck?!)

4.) What should you be doing?
Reading.
rich white town in mass dominated by:
-soccer mom's stopping in the middle of traffic to give you information about your own family
-cops who have nothing better to do than find the best places to hide with their radar guns
-the boy's hockey team and football team
-teenagers who buy shitty overpriced pot using their parents money
-golden retrievers

((that wasn't the definition I was thinking of...))

5.) Favorite color?
Purple ((how emo am I?))
Extremely potent marijuana, specifically marijuana buds that have a purple hue to them. Also accompanied by a fragant, usually fruity smell and mad perma-grin.

6.) Birthplace?
Vancouver
Vancouver is a city on the west coast of Canada. It has been voted and said by most to be the most beautifull city in the world. Mountains wall in the city and the ocean crashes downtown. In ten minutes you can be walking in old growth forests. Greenpeace, adbusters, legal pot, safe injection sites and things like this make Vancouver Hated by right wing nuts. Vancouver has the highest density, highest property values and best heath standards of Any city its size in the world.

7.) Month of your birth?
May
cool; sexy; hot ((AHAHHAHAHA I'll post the second definition))
may is the month where teachers think that they can control a classroom but really nothing gets done and no one cares about their grades anymore. usually this happens because summer break is only 30 days away

8.) Last person you talked to?
Nikko online, Ramtin IRL.
Nikko: 1.To think that your better at doing thing than every one else such as youtube, a computer program, Xbox 360, halo 3, etc.
2. To annoy or do somthing to someone then when they do it back you get pissed off
Japanese term for: Resplendant Light or the Sun

Ramtin: Sexy, smart and buff ((That he is, actually ^_^))

9.) One of your nicknames?
Nomi:
1. nomi means "names" in italian ((alright, I can go for that))
2. a nickname for "naomi", has a great pickup line, though "naomi" has the whole "i moan" thing....but the "nomi" line is classier (( okay, uhm... what the fuck?)
3. of or relating to turd, scat, poop ((FUCK YOU URBAN DICSHIT!))
4. (see "maniac")
Not-so-sane, tiny boy with blonde hair. Lives in "Porsgrunn". ((Yeah... fuck you....))

Okay. I tag all you biz-natches that read my journals! You have no lives!

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22612820/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22612820/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 11:20:28 PST
]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22512123/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22512123/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 18:44:57 PST
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Why Not - Hillary Duff

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Daite Senorita - Yamashita Tomohisa

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Catch Me If You Can - Angela Via

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
How Do You Do - Cascada

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
All Rise - Blue

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Summer Sunshine - The Corrs

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Truly Madly Deeply - Cascada

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Make A Move On Me - Joey Negro

WHAT IS 2+2?
I Turn To You - Christina Aguilera

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Where Is The Love - Black Eyed Peas Ft. Justin Timberlake

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Given Up - Linkin Park

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Over It - Katherine McPhee

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Summer Of '69 - Bryan Adams

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Perfect - Maren Ord

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
One In A Million - Bosson

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Dancing In The Dark - DJ Cammy

WHAT WILL THEY PLAYAT YOUR FUNERAL?
Home - Chris Daughtry

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Hold Me In The Rain - DJ KaiYo

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
E For Electro - Johnny Crockett

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Wake Up - Hilary Duff

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Copperia No Hitsugi - Ali Project

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Shake Tramp - Marianas Trench

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Toki Ni Ai Wa - Okui Masami

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Stop - Spice Girls

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Cure For The Itch - Linkin Park

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Everything You Want - Vertical Horizon

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Get Over - Dream

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
All For One - HSM2

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Drowning - Backstreet Boys

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fallen - Sarah McLachlan

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22174199/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22174199/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 19:00:26 PST

ANIME/MANGA NERD
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[ ] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[ ] You have cosplayed.
[ ] You have done so in public.
[ ] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime
[ ] People you know you as the 'anime person'.
[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.
ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 6/14

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[ ] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[ ] You have a favourite brand. (Prismacolor, Fimo, Sculpey, etc etc.)
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts. (cards are fun to make!)
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[ ] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[ ] Instead of just 'brown' or 'ink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[ ] You have a favorite artist.
[ ] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.
ART NERD POINTS: 8/15

MUSICAL NERD
[x]You play a musical instrument.
[x]You play more than one instrument.
[x]You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[ ]You've given your instrument a name.
[x]You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[ ]You are known by what you play.
[x]You listen to classical music.
[x]You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[ ]You have a favourite composer.
[ ]All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[ ]You write music.
[x]You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favourite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[ ]You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[ ]You are never nervous playing for other people.
MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 7/14

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own 3 or more different video game systems.
[ ] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[ ]You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[ ] You have songs from your favourite video games on your MP3.
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[ ]People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[ ]You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[x] Your gaming system is in your room.
[ ] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[ ] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[ ]It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.
VIDEO GAME NERD POINTS: 5/15

COMPUTER NERD
[x] You use the computer every day.
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[x] You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces; : D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x]You spend time in online forums.
[ ] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[x] You have/have had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online.
[ ]You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.'
[ ] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x]You can type really, really fast. (practice makes perfect)
COMPUTER NERD POINTS: 11/14

Uhm... damn? I thought I wasn't going to be any kind of nerd. I was surprised. I thought I would be an anime nerd, to be honest. But after I didn't get a very high mark in the anime section, I didn't think I'd be any kind of nerd.... How'd I get to be such... ]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22132768/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22132768/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 00:49:28 PST
]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22114055/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/22114055/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 02:27:47 PST
I've been posting a lot on dA lately, probably because I've got new characters that I like. I think that's a big thing for me, I have to like the characters that I'm going to draw. There has to be substance and an idea behind them for me to want to draw them. I have to find something about them interesting/cute/fun I don't know. Something. I have to feel it. I have to see it. But yeah, been posting a lot lately. Just sketches, mostly WIP's but at least it's something. I don't know if I'll ever finish them, but at least they're there. And lots of people seem to be liking my work, which makes me happy.

I'm really glad I've joined the Wormwood Community, because I've made a lot of new friends. I really need to get more people on my skype list. I really don't have that many people on skype, and most of them I don't even talk to except for Hikari and my cousin Adri.

It's 2:23 AM now... I should probably be sleeping soon....

RAWR! I hope lots of people comment on my pictures. Lately, I've been adding a little bit of dialogue at the bottom to explain the picture and what's going on within it. I think they're fun and funny. I wonder what Ying will think of it. After all, I'm using his character too. I want to freak him out. I think it's funny. So I hope he gives me an honest and true reaction when he comments on my pictures.

Anyways, that's enough senseless rambling from me.

*ninjapoof*

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/21988962/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/21988962/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 21:37:16 PST
I've been in a writing mood mostly. Not so much drawing. Maybe that's a bad thing? I dunno ^_^ I are happy! Well, only a minute ago I was pissed at mum, but I can't even remember what I was pissed about now. Hahahaha. I'm freee!!!! No more exams!!! No more classes!!! Not until January anyway~

I are so happy. College is fun ^_^

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/21350920/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/21350920/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 00:49:55 PST
1. Full Name: Koyoru Tanaka

2. Male or Female: Female.

3. Were you named after anyone?: Actually, yes, kind of. Not that name though. Haha, I know, I'm cheating

4. Does your name mean anything? That one means NightChild Ricefield

5. Nicknames? Koyo, Yon, Yoru, others. Many many others.

6. What do you think you look like? Typical Asian girl.

7. Date of Birth: May 26 1990

8. Place of Birth and Current Location: BC, Canada. BC, Canada.

9. Nationality: Japanese and Chinese. I'm pure Asian biz-natches!

10. Astrological Sign: Gemini

11. Chinese Astrological Sign: Horse

12. Religion: Shinto belief, but I can't really BE Shinto because I wasn't born "Japanese".

13. Butter frying: Mmmm..... fried butter....

14. Political Position: Demo with Commi tendencies. So... that's the middle of the political bird structure thing, right? Yeah, screw my History class, I hate politics.

15. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Ginger Ale, Water, Apple Juice.

16. Hair and Eye Color: Black hair. Dark brown if you want to get technical. People tell me I have really deep brown eyes. Boring dark brown if you ask me. Well... we are asking me, aren't we?

17. Do you look like anyone famous: Not that I know of.

18. What do you think you look like?: Didn't we already ask this? Typ Azn Grl.

19. Any Unusual Talents?: I can worry myself sick? No, really, literally. I start throwing up if I worry too much. Uh... I can type without looking at high speeds?

20. Righty, Lefty or Ambidextrous? Righty.

21. Gay, Straight, Bi or other?: Bi

22. What do you do for a living?: College stud now. Hopefully, going to Japan to teach Eng for a year after I get my BA in Eng, then come back and teach Japanese in the highschools around my living area.

23. What do you do for fun? Read, write, play piano, watch tv, watch anime, play super mario on my nintendo sp whatever it is, play my game boy games, mostly, ddr sometimes, watch music videos, search for Cartoon Kat-Tun.

24.What are your favorite materials to work with? Mech pencils, outlining pens, anime markers, pencil crayons, water colours.

25. What materials would you like to work with? Tablet. Hopefully my X-mas giftie from my parentals.

26. Have you met your Grandparents? All grandparents were alive and living within a city of me until 3 years ago. Grandfather on my dad's side passed away. I know, I'm a lucky bitch.

27. Boyfriend/Girlfriend? Yes.

28. Crush? Uhm... I have a boyfriend. I think we're passed the crush stage.

29. What celebrity would you date if you could? None. They're too emotional and high strung.

30.Current worries: Everything. School, family (actually not so much), personal life. I'm a professional worrier.

31. Favorite online guy or girl: Chi, definitely. She's like the Laura that I've never met in person. Honestly, my best friend, even though she's online. Doesn't beat Laura, but that's only because Laur's here and I can talk to her all the time when Chi hardly has internet these days. Her msn is down.

32. Favorite place to be: Curled up somewhere warm and cozy reading a book, or sitting in a really warm hot tub (not hot, mind you, just warm. Is that a warm tub?).

33. Least favorite place to be: In the car with my parentals when I'm pissed at them.

34. Do you burn or tan? Burn? What is this word you speak of? I'm a tanner baby! I NEVER burn! but I do get heat strokes.

35. Ever break a bone? Dislocated my thumb once, but I don't think it counts. Hurt like a bitch and I popped it back into place myself. Couldn't stand looking at it bent all out of shape like that.

36. What is your favorite cereal? Uhm... Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Excellent shit, man!

37. Person you cry with: All my girlies and a lot of my guys too. I cry with everybody because I'm just a crier like that.

Do you have...

38.Any Sisters?: Little brat. She's 14. Getting into the rebellious stages. I suppose I'm lucky she still loves me most of the time.

39.Any Brothers?: Nope. But believe me, I know what it's like to have them. I know some boys that I've known since one was 4 and the other 2, they're just as annoying as brothers, and we don't always get along, but we get along all right I suppose. We're not that close, but they're like brothers to me.

40. Any Pets?: Had little aquatic frogs once. Killed three at once, that sucked. Kept the other for a week before my parents made me give it away. My dad's allergic to most pets and he's the one... ]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/19691425/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/19691425/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 00:29:49 PDT
My cousin and his girlfriend were talking about the whole thing because she was scolding him. She was like "That was so stupid, and the guy wasn't even talking to me." and he was like "No, he was yelling at Nomi! That's like saying my sister is a slut!" Then I looked over at my boyfriend and whispered "Well, at least we know he's still protective of me." Though I was also thinking "Yeah, I thought so too." Apparently everyone was sure that he was yelling at me except my cousin's girlfriend and I. Did I mention I was the only Asian girl in our little herd of people?

Anyways, a little later on, we were waiting at a corner so we could cross the street, and my boyfriend just hugged me and said "after that, I feel a little protective of you." I was just warmly pleased that he was hugging me.

Funny thing, we were walking back to the car, and we were about 4 blocks from the car, and I saw the guy that yelled at me in a red jeep. He looked at me and I looked at him and he kind of sat back in the car. It was funny.

I couldn't even remember what the guy had said. I was telling my cousin and his girlfriend my thoughts as the guy yelled it, and I relayed it as "Fucking little Asian slut!" and then, at the same time, they both said "whore" and I turned to my boyfriend and said, "see? I can't even remember what he said." It was pretty funny.

Finally, when we were in the car, I decided that I feel kind of embarrassed about the whole situation. I was embarrassed for the yelling teenage boy, because he was yelling so loudly and insultingly, and he was so racist. But I was also embarrassed for myself for being the person yelled at, like, singled out.

My half-asian friends would probably tell me that I should be insulted for my Asian pride. I'm basically laughing it off and still in complete shock that I was yelled at at all.

All in all, I have been offended, and I can't stop laughing about it.

~Koyo

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/19423668/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/19423668/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 08:01:31 PDT I'd never felt old on a birthday before. Only this one.

I have a new job! It's tiring. Cleaning dorms. Damn university students.

I'm getting a macbook and an iPod touch. I'm so blissfully happy~

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/15451333/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/15451333/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 15:43:10 PST
Okay, so basically, I'm really depressed and I don't know what to do. The pressure of my parents is bearing down on me, flattening me to the ground. There's pressure from school and friends and family, and really just everything. I'm too detached from things, and yet too attached. My therapist went in for surgery and has not contacted anyone as of late. I'm falling apart at the seams and I cry at every little thing. And sitting with my sister the other day, I had the first desire, EVER, to start cutting. I don't cut. I scratch, sure, but I don't cut. Cutting means drawing blood. I don't draw blood. But I wanted to so badly and it scared me.

I'm a snowball rolling.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/12037853/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/12037853/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 09:38:11 PST
Also, I'm feeling many emotions right now. So, I'll write them all down.

Disgust
Contempt
Disbelief
Resentful
Regretful
Distressed
Nervous
Anxious
Tense
Uneasy
Worried
Astonished
Overwhelmed
Confused
Embarrassed
Insecure
Lonely
Depressed
Bewildered
Amazed
Awestruck
Stunned
Dumbstruck
Shocked
Delighted
Cheerful
Eager
Relieved
Excited
Pain
Emotional
Exhilerated
Thrilled
Affection
Shame
Guilt
Remorse
Attraction
Caring
Compassion
Flirty
Sweet
Sentimental
Longing
Yearning
Tender
Tired
Drained
Exhausted
Content

I think that's all I'm feeling for now.

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/12037754/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/12037754/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 09:27:45 PST
Really good friend just told me he likes me, like, last night. But, my other friend really really likes him. And I'm not sure if I like him or not. Like, I feel really bad because, right now, I feel like I like him because he likes me. But right now, I really like him too... But, thankfully we've already agreed to take things slowly. so, there's no dilemma or anything. I just...

I'm so confused....

]]> ~Koyoru http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/11716335/ http://Koyoru.deviantart.com/journal/11716335/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 21:59:06 PST
So, last week, in which, I did not have a dA account, I played tennis. I play tennis every Tuesday, I have tennis lessons after all. Anyway, LAST week, I pulled the muscle in my right leg. It was like a tearing pain all up the my right calf. It did not, however, reach my thigh. BUT!!!!!! TODAY, I played tennis, and not EVEN half way through and I pulled the muscle in the back of my right thigh. No, it is not my butt, trust me, I've done that before and I know when I've pulled a butt muscle. No. Today, I have pulled the muscle in the back of my thigh, and it hurts.

On top of pulling a muscle, my coach was like, oh, it's not that bad, why don't you warm up with the 6 o' clock group as well. So, I played for an extra half hour added to my already 1 hour, playing most of that hour with a pulled muscle. I know, I'm a genius. You don't need to tell me.

I swear, ONE OF the most moronic things I've ever done.

You know what my dad says when I call him a moron? You'll love this, my dad has a real dry sense of humour.
He says: "Well, is it better than being a less-on?"

Yeah...you can stop laughing now.

Anyways, we were talking about Orc's in the car, you know, those creepy things from Lord of the Rings. I had seen the special edition CD at my friends place, and there was a woman in the stunt people that played an Orc, anyways, my dad goes and says,
"Well, if she's a girl Orc, does that make her a Gorc?"

Mm...not that funny. But here's the good part, he doesn't stop there. He keeps going.

"And does that make a dumb Orc a Dork?"

"And what does that make a Piggy Orc? Pork?"

And here's the sad thing, my sister and I are killing ourselves laughing.

Anways, that was on the weekend.

By the way, I'm uploading deviations as we speak...er...as I speak...type...whatever. I'm at 99!!!! I can't decide what I should post as my 100th Deviation! I still have more after that one.

Hmm...I was going to tell you something else....

Oh yeah! My friend Kai is going to help attempt, key word being attempt, to teach me Chem! Isn't that awesome?! I just hope I understand it....

Argh...there's absolutely no one in any of the channels I'm in right now. Which would be 2.... Yeah, #ParadiseOfTheWolves (which is saved on my favourites because for some reason I can't remember that one) and #celestialwolfpack. You know, I just realized that when I RP-ed with ~TheMonsterAbyss11 we were in #celestialwolfpack no #ParadiseOfTheWolves. You know, that's a pain to type. I just keep calling it Paradise.

Oh yes! I'm in love with that picture of Yuune and Abyss! They're so cute~ I love Wolfies and that's my best pic of one so far, I'm positive. It was really hard to make them black, I wasn't going to, and then I was like, if I don't make them black, then they're not them. I also considered colouring in Abyss' eyes, and then I decided not to. They look good this way anyway.

AHAHAH!!!!!

100 DEVIATIONS!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!

IMAKO TWINS!!!!

100 DEVIATIONS!!!!!



















I shall post more deviations tomorrow....

In the mean time....



















100 DEVIATIONS!!!!!!!

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Today, I had to, like, run home in order to get somewhere by 4. It was a little stressful on my legs, but hopefully I'll live.

I'm kind of pissed at my hair, it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to and I'm not happy with it.

I kinda sat around with a Japanese girl at 4 because I wasn't sure what her mom wanted us to do, so we mostly just talked. Sweet kid.

Oh! 80 deviations up in 3 days!!! <---just had to point that out.

I also drew a picture of a Wolkan today. That wolf RP channel has got me obsessed with wolves again.

Also drew my fan comic for Koikokoro, will send that as soon as I get MY scanner hooked up. Still mad at my dad's scanner.

Argh...Chem quiz tomorrow and I don't understand any of this! Chem is killing me....

Other than that, life's good. How's yours?

~Koyoru

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