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I was also going to put in details of what has been happening lately in my life, but I'm not really sure what to put. So much good has happened and is happening that I'm too overjoyed to write it all down. I think that's a good thing ^^

So yeah I'm still alive and kicking lol.

PS: Hun, if you're reading this, I love you sweetheart.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/21994272/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/21994272/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 09:21:47 PST I won't be checking here often for messages, but it's still better than me not being here at all. ^^

Wonder what it is? Well here's a hint...
ok fuck hints!

I'm in love again, and this time it feels more real than anything I've felt before. She makes me so happy, I can barely wait to be able to spend my life with her. Just gotta wait until she is done this year of college, and then she wants to high-tail it out of where she lives and be with me. So I ish SOOO happy. Just want to share my happiness with all my friends. ^^

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18994811/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18994811/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:22:05 PDT .>

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18994681/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18994681/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:00:34 PDT
That's why.

Confused? Heh, even I am, still.
All I'll tell you is, this woman nearly caused my death. Not my physical death, but my spiritual death. She broke my heart, and it hurt so bad that I'd given up all will to live any longer.
Luckily for me, someone (actually multiple someones) told me that she isn't worth my death.

Well, I didn't want to think that way because I still loved her, but now as some time has passed, I see now that they were right.
I mean, it's obvious now that she never cared for me at all. And that being the case, what good would my death bring? She'd just shrug it off as another reason to have left me. She'd think, "he's a suicidal jerk who cares for no one but himself," even though if I were to die, it would not be any form of suicide at all.
This heartbreak, in a way, could almost be seen as an attempt at murder on her part.

But you see, I'm not a mean selfish jerk like she thinks I am. And I'm not a cruel, heartless and relentless person like she is. She broke up with me for one real reason, and any other reason is only an added thing.
She broke up with me because she was afraid, and because she didn't really love me. She was lying to me the entire 9 months that she new me.

What was she afraid of? She was afraid of travel to a new country to be with a person whom she obviously didn't really love anyway.
She was afraid that she might not like what she finds when she would get here, even though she knew me more than anyone else in the world. She knew me COMPLETELY, there was nothing to hide, and thus she had nothing to fear in this aspect.
She was afraid of commitment.
And she was afraid of the possibility of heartbreak.

But isn't that really selfish and mean? To break up with someone before they break up with you because you're afraid of being broken up with? Even though there wasn't a chance in this world that I would break up with her.

You see, I couldn't have broken up with her. Because I made a promise to her never to break up with her, never to even suggest breaking up with her, never to leave her side--you get the picture.
And, so what? MOST women these days don't trust men or their promises. I've been told by many women since the break up that it's really "cool" how important my promises are to me. They said that most people just say things without really meaning them, they make promises and then break them like it was nothing.
Well, the only promise that I'm going to break, and it's one she FORCED me to break (otherwise I really would die), is the promise that I would stay in this house and wait for her to arrive. I promised her that I would wait for her before I moved to Kitchener/Waterloo. Well, if I did that, guess what happens? The house gets sold, all the stuff gets sent to our new home, someone moves in this house, and I'm stuck sitting outside in the yard forever and ever, waiting for someone who's never going to show up. Think about it, that WOULD lead to my death.

So, as much as it pains me to break that promise... I gotta say, it's not entirely painful. Why? Because...
NOT ONLY did I promise never to leave her, but SHE also promised never to leave me in the same way. AND, I asked her how much her promises mean to her and, here's the best part, she LIED and said that they are as important to her as mine are to me. LIEZ. Because she broke up with me. She promised me she'd never leave me, and just like that, she did.
So, one broken promise on each of our ends. As much as I'd hate to say it, "we're even". Guh... that makes me sound evil and heartless... I tell you the truth, simply hearing myself say that makes me feel sick to my stomach.

Which isn't really fair, in it's own way, cause although I've felt so sick and so much inner pain because of all this, she has felt nothing. She didn't and doesn't care how much pain I was in and still am in. And that proves that she never really loved me.


So why am I still here, you ask? Why did I not die like I said I would? I've said countless times to her before that being without her would mean my death, so why am I still living?
Because, as I said, I'm not so heartless and cruel as she is. I've got friends left that would feel just as much pain as I did if I were to simply die and be out of their lives, and it is those friends that kept me alive, supported my soul as a hospital might support a person's body when they are on the brink of death. It is for those friends that I am still living.

But how did I get over Robyn so fast when she only just broke up with m... ]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18698790/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/18698790/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:15:05 PDT I want you all to know (you know who you are) that I love you all, as family, and I don't want to see anyone hurt. And though I myself may have troubles of my own, I'm willing to take on ALL your troubles to try and make your lives better, not caring whether my life gets better or not. As far as I'm concerned, my life is set. Robyn will be coming to be with me in 3 weeks (approx), so now with all this time I have, I'm here for her and I'm here for all of you.

Heh, Kraton is in the house! XD

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17627712/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17627712/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 09:51:17 PDT
Guess what, mods! There's repercussions for actions such as that. And I know I'm not the only one leaving, so I'm NOT over-reacting.
I'm quitting DA because I'm a SERIOUS artist, and shit like this really bugs me. What happens if I actually get hacked, hmm? Say that happens, guess who I blame? It's the little boy who cried wolf all over again. If my account gets hacked, I'll blame the mods, saying it's some kind of prank on their part. And why? Because they decided to pull this shit on all of us today.

So... yeah. I'm done. I'm going to a GOOD art site where I can submit my art and have it commented on by good artists with good views/tastes.

Like FA. Yup. Sticking with FA.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17284628/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17284628/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 10:50:43 PDT
If you don't want to help, that's your choice, but at least read the following journal.

[link]

Thank you for your time.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17106610/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/17106610/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 17:20:03 PST
Robyn? I love you with all my heart. <3<3<3
I just wanted to say that... cause I really do love you.
I miss you so much and wish to see you... but I know that has to wait for 3 more months...
-clings- I swear that when we're finally together, I'm never letting you go. We'll stick together forever.
I love you.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16485077/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16485077/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 05:30:31 PST
1. The new computer I've got in my room is now hooked up to the internet.
2. I've finished moving files, downloading/installing stuff that is needed to upgrade this computer.
3. Everything is now working in perfect order, no more glitches.
or perhaps 4. this is all thanks to Robyn. I couldn't live without her. That woman is amazing. She's made my life so much easier.

however, there is the possibility of 5. I've got a sugar rush right now from two large bowls of Honeycombs.


So... yeah... this was the lamest excuse for a journal EVER! But I just felt like sharing my happiness with my friends, so if you don't like it... Go eat a cookie. ^_^

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16399445/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16399445/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 08:16:57 PST
Anyway, another reason I'm depressed is cause I'm in love. Wait a minute, isn't that a reason to be happy? Yep. But not if I can't be with the person I love. Sure, I'm happy that I can talk with her every day, and it really helps, but it does hurt to have to wait. Love shouldn't have to wait... but as my most recent quote says: Fate can be a bitch some times.

And finally, the last reason why I'm in a not-so-excelent mood is that I may be failing a couple of my classes this semester... meaning if I do fail them, I'd have to stay for TWO extra semesters instead of the ONE I already have to take from failed classes. But, can you blame me for not being fully myself and putting my full concentration into my school work? I've always got the woman I love on my mind. N-not that I blame her for how my school is going right now. More like I blame school for my not being able to spend enough time with her. If I could, I'd rather work durring the school hours and keep my free time that I spend with her the same... But I don't have a job anyway. Surprizingly, I'm not upset about not getting the job. It means I won't get less time time to talk to her...

So... this is me, always looking on the bright side of things, bidding you adeu.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16354620/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16354620/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 08:24:07 PST
First, it took a while, but I found an american airline that I can take from Ottawa to Greensville, SC. Here's the site: [link]
I plan on leaving some time in May. When I leave will depend on the one I'm going to visit. I'll (hopefully) be getting a job soon, and if I save up for the next few months, I will definately be able to pay the tavel costs. The cost should be somewhere in between 400-500 bucks, depending on when I leave.

Getting to the airport, and then from the destination airport to my final location will be... tricky, to figure out. I'll have to talk with the person I'm going to see about the rest of the transport details.

If anyone has lots of experience with this kind of thing, air travel and what-not, I'd appreciate any advice you could give me.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16284483/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16284483/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 10:41:18 PST
1. give me your number?
2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money(It'd be non-alcoholic)?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke w/ me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. cry if I died?
21. dance with me?
22. sing happy birthday to me?
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk? You wouldn't, because I don't plan on getting drunk.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16284452/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/16284452/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 10:39:33 PST
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
I... um... *blushes* yeah.

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
um... I don't really care.

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I alternate, but it doesn't matter, since I'm the only one who sleeps in my bed.

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
That would depend. If it's most favoured out of those 3 meats... it would be chicken. Healthiest for you.

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
No... plus I don't own a car.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
No.

7. Shower or bath?
Shower (usually at night)

8. Do you pee in the shower?
? that's what the toilet's for! Seriously, that's gross.

9. Mexican or Chinese?
What does that have to do with anything? Oh, you mean food? umm... don't really like either.

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Can't I just pick the person I'm currently in love with as an option? I don't know what she's like in bed... *blushes*

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
Not on FA. She has an account on DA and gaia, and both places, she's on my friends list.

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
A few of them I chat with on MSN. I consider anyone on my MSN friends list as a true friend, as we talk even when I'm not on FA/orther sites.

13. Love or money?
Love

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
My brother josh. I just want him to leave me alone, to stay out of my life, and stop treating my like bullshit.

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
Camping, cause it would be more romantic. I'm sure Robyn would rather do that... hmm, there's an idea for the future.

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
N/A

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
um... no. Even Robyn wouldn't like that idea. She'd probably get pissed at me for doing such a thing.

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
I don't even know where to find one.
not that it matters. Why would I do such a thing when I've already got all I need? Robyn... she completes me.

20. Ever been to a bar?
Nope.

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
nope

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
nope

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Nope

24. Favorite drink?
Sprite. I don't drink alcohol

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
no

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
no

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
no
Have I ever had sex at ALL? nope

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
nope

29. Bought something from an adult store?
no

30. Have you been caught having sex?
NEVER HAD SEX. from now on, any "ever had sex" questions, I'll just answer N/A

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
Who would? XD

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
Well, if I did, that must mean a lot of other people would, too. I'm a coward, after all.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15818190/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15818190/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 08:20:21 PST
Who stole it from

STEP ONE
Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your DA journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your DA or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.

You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1. two-way tickets to travel to Vancouver and cash to say there for a bit (couple weeks). There's someone I want to go visit over there, but my budget won't allow it. This is my only christmas wish. Not likely to come true, but one can dream...

actually, I've got some friends in the US that I'd love to visit, too.
Personally I'd like to go visit all my friends.

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15746899/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15746899/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 09:25:51 PST
Thanks for your time.
- Kraton

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15668882/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15668882/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 17:33:40 PST
~Let's see how many hearts you get! =]
All the best. Please continue sending you're own love to those you care for.


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FAKE FRIENDS: Will ignore this.
REAL FRIENDS: Will send it back to you.

Re-post this entitled "It's friendship week" (or something like that) with 10 names on it of people that you care a great deal for.

If at least 10 people put your name down, you truly are a lovable person.

I tag the following people
1. nekoshojo1080
2. kshikshi
3. FOXProductNumber666
4. FarleyGrey
5. ez-bone
6. skearns
7. Skye-Wolf
8. ChrystalWolf
9. Nisc
10. LoreenaHiku-Fire
11. GKmon-DORU-fanatic
(in other words, all the people I've watched)

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15484506/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15484506/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 19:23:46 PST
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.

To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her.

To every guy that she cried in front of.

To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

To every guy that would give his seat up.

To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car.

To every guy that gave his heart.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.



...This one bulletin is for you...


Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

I guarantee 90% of the men on reading this page will not repost this because they care more about their image.

If you are the other 10% of nice guy's, repost this as "We're a Dying Breed".

]]> ~Kraton http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15215129/ http://Kraton.deviantart.com/journal/15215129/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:10:40 PDT
For those who participate, thanks for the oportunity to draw your characters.

]]> ~Kraton