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]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/29002478/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/29002478/ Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:51:11 PST Worse off...
What do you do with anger when there is an outlet but letting out your anger with hurt someone you love?

Am I wrong for feeling this anger?
Is it really not that big of a deal?
What would you do?

Would you call/text/email/ visit the source of your anger?
Tell him/her off?
Preserve your own sanity and the cost of a loved ones feelings?

Would you turn that anger inward?
Give yourself the pain to save the one you love most?
Even if that action will hurt them too?

Would you try to swallow your anger, justified or not?
Let it eat away at you, burn you from inside out?
Become nothing more than a heap of embers, all just to know you spared your loved ones feelings?

What can I do?
What will I do?
What must I do?
Is there any right answer?

Soulless creatures like me, can we only redeem ourselves by adding more fuel to our self set pier?
If our burning saves hearts, is that all that matters?
What if it is empty?
Is the pain for nothing?

Is it inevitable that we will hurt someone we love?
Be it by expression or non-divulgence?
What is the lesser pain we can inflict?

Can anyone answer me.....?

Does anyone care to?

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]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/24049739/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/24049739/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:44:48 PDT
Anyone who has been reading knows that my prior muse was the one I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. However, if you have been reading, you also know that that ship has sailed. I have found that there is another who gives me inspiration, but if you read I Don't Understand, or saw the deviation Late Valentines Day Card, it is fairly clear that I can not pursue anything with said muse, no matter how much of my heart she has saved through her actions, or how little she knows about my feelings for her.

So I need some new inspiration. So I turn to you, anyone who reads this, and yes, my muse is probably reading this (and doesn't even know she is the one I was talking about), for a new source of inspiration. If there is any topic you believe a poem is needed for, I would love to try to write one. Any topic at all is excepted. I thank you in advanced.

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/23835783/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/23835783/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 16:37:36 PDT
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the one working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am a warrior for my country serving proud, but can't be my true self because gays aren't allowed in the military.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I'm a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the who isn't sure what she is. I am the who is rejected by her "best friends" because of a less-than-conventional crush.

I am what I am and I don't know who because I am always thinking about what other people will make of me. Who am I? Not boy not girl, just me and little people care about who you are and what you long for when you look like someone else obviously and your wishes and dreams seem easily to be guessed. Fail.

I am the man who held his cousin as he died when he was beaten for being gay.

IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG... REPOST THIS
AS "HOMOPHOBIA."

IF YOU ARE IGNORANT... IGNORE.

Please, repost this in support of your friends and loved ones who are. Love is not defined by color, creed, sexual preference, or gender!

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/23487090/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/23487090/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 10:40:17 PST ~Lady-seera-oni, who stole this from ~Lilmslycan. We are a ring of thieves. lol


What Nerd am I?

ANIME/MANGA NERD
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[x] You have cosplayed.
[x] You have done so in public.
[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[x] You enjoy drawing anime.
[x] People you know, know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.

Anime/manga nerd = 11

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[x] You have a favorite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[ ] You are/were known as 'the art person' at your school.
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'.
[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[x] You have a favorite artist.
[x] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

Art nerd = 13

MUSICAL NERD
[x] You play a musical instrument.
[x] You play more than one instrument.
[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[x] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[x] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[ ] You write music.
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[ ] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[x] You are never nervous playing for other people.

Musical nerd = 8

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[x] You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on Cds.
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[x] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[x] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[ ] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.(no im not sad)
[x] Your gaming system is in your room. and i have my onwn wee room for them too
[x] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[x] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[x]It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.

Video game nerd = 14

COMPUTER NERD
[x] You use the computer every day -
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[ ]You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x]You spend time in online forums.
[x]In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.'
[x] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast.

Computer Nerd = 12

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~Kuro

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/22268321/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/22268321/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 20:13:33 PST
To add to my misery, the worse day of the year (for me at least) is rapidly approaching. The anniversary of my birth is only 10 days away, and I am dreading it, as I have every day since the first one I can remember. This day will be spent in the confines of my room, in attempts not to become even more saddened by the day by running into, or hearing something to worsen my mood.

However, I will not let this journal be completely depressing. I say happy new year to all who may read this. May the coming year bring you more joy than this past one has brought me, more by volumes. Speak to you all, hopefully on a happier note, sometime soon.

~Kuro

PS- Here is the only new thing I have written since my recent break up.

This is an urgent message to all couples, to anyone lucky enough to have someone to kiss and to hold, to laugh and cry with, to share the holidays with, to share a hot chocolate with, to share memories with, to be stuck out in the cold with, to anybody lucky enough to have a song dedicated to them, to anyone with a crush, or knows someone who has a crush on them, to anyone who is lucky enough to say "i think he/she likes me", "he/she is still in love with me", to all cheaters, and victims of cheating, to anyone with an old flame, to the puppy loves, and the high school sweethearts, to any couples with relationship troubles, to any couples who have one too many arguments, to couples struggling after a couple months, to survivors of year long plus relationships, and everybody and anybody who has that someone special to tell them that they love them...

to the lucky ones....

this is an urgent message...

appreciate what you have...

because you will you miss it if it is ever gone...

that is all

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/22064237/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/22064237/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 10:11:25 PST
My Letter: K

1. Kisses; perfect when with the right person

2. Kira; Light Yagami, He should have won at the end of Death Note

3. Kuro; My name LOL

4. Keep you safe; a song i wrote back in high school

5. Kim; name of the friend who just called me

6. King of Contradiction; song I am listening to

7. Keva; My mothers Name

8. Kingdom Hearts II; my favorite game

9. Kingdom Hearts; my second favorite game lol

10. Kazuhiko Toyama; My favorite musical composer

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/21612330/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/21612330/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 10:45:27 PST 2. Each person tagged must put 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tagged ones should write a journal about these facts.
4. At the end of the post tag 8 more deviants
5. Go to their page telling them they're tagged.
6. No tagging back ( For Obvious Reasons )

1- I've grown to like Japanese music more than American music

2- I prefer ramen to a thanksgiving dinner

3- I am a video game freek

4- My Ipod is never more than 3 feet from me

5- I truly hate when people say ridiculous things with an attitude reserved for those that make sense, but there words don't even make a comprehensible sentence

6- Anime and manga are gifts from god

7- One week, i lived on nothing but red bull and ramen noodles

8- I think far too much

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/20197062/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/20197062/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 06:52:11 PDT
Just wanted to update those who may have had concern, I am feeling better. I am even laughing at myself for letting myself get so down. Hopefully, I will have a new poem to post for those who are interested in reading. But once again (and I promise, this is the last one lol) I say thank you for the few people who cared enough to say a few words to try and cheer me up.

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/20168408/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/20168408/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 14:24:06 PDT
No one seems to care that I write, not even the muse for the words. Besides one or two people on DA, no one ever gives me any kind of opinion on my work, and it is frustrating not to know if my work is any good. So I think my most recent will be my last, at least for a good while.

I see no point to continue.

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19948171/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19948171/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 07:47:54 PDT
I was simply standing in the kitchen, ironing my shirt for work. This was just a normal day, meaning of course I was already running late. Lol.

As I finally finish ironing my shirt, my sister and mother walk into the kitchen. I glance down and say with a smile “good morning muchkin” and I am greeted with a happy “morning *Kuro*” Then with much less enthusiasm in my voice I simply say “Hello mother”.

Answered by nothing but a “mmhmm”.

As I button my shirt, my sister says “So, will I get to see my sister this weekend?” Mind you my sister is eight, this is important to remember, or else you won’t find the following funny.

My mother looks at her and says, “Of course not, *Amayakasarete Sodatta* is not coming all the way up here, she has to go to school. What would make you even ask that?”

My sister gave my mother the evilest look her little face could muster and said “Not her, I was talking to *Kuro*”. She turned back to me, “Will I get to see *Junsui* this weekend?”

*Junsui* Is my fiancé’s name, whom my mother can not stand simply because she makes me happy.

It took all my strength to hold in my laughter as I spoke. “I hope so imouto (meaning little sister), she is planning on making a trip out here this Sunday, all we can do wait and see.” I flashed a grin at my mother, kissed my sister on the head, and left out the door, on my way to work, as I walked I could hear my mother mumbling profanities under her breath, furious at the fact that her fiancés daughter is less a sister to my sister than my fiancé.

I traveled to work with the greatest smile and still am wearing it now. I found this massively funny, and figured I would share the story.



-Note, all names have been changed to the Japanese names I have given to each person which are meaningful in representation to each person. Each meaning is as such:

Me=Kuro: Black or dark
My fiancé=Junsui: Pure
My Step sister= Amayakasarete Sodatta: Spoiled Child

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19784095/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19784095/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 05:37:08 PDT
I don't know if it has something to do with family, my love life, my friends, or just someone close by proximity alone, but I just feel like something is going to happen that is really going to hurt.

If it is one thing, the one thing I fear the most, then I know my next course of action at least. I made a promise to myself and to the universe around me, and it shall be kept. I just really don't want a reason to go down that road.

Its not that I want to go there, I just will no longer care where I end up anymore. My reasons will be shattered, and I will become a frail leaf, easily blown in either direction.

I don't know, maybe I am just suffering from paranoia. Maybe the planets are aligned in a certain way that makes Capricorns feel this way, I don't know anymore. I guess all I can do is wait...

Waiting painfully impatiently,
~Kuro Xue Enzeru

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19519341/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19519341/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 13:41:39 PDT
36 hours ago, I woke up at 4:30am EST, as I do every morning for some not so unknown reason. I did my normal routine in preperation for my day, a trip into the city to see someone special. After coffee, a 45 minute shower, a quick email check, and making sure my Ipod was set to my favorite play list, I was out the door.

I won't bore you with my entire day, just the above mentioned high lights; A peaceful bus ride to Jamaica station (Good)
Falling down cement stairs after someone rushed past me (Bad)
Coughing up blood after the above fall (Scary)
Stopping a guy from stealing a womans purse on the subway to the Bronx (Proud)
Seeing my love's smile after a week (Happy)
Sharing one of the best kisses we have ever had (Loving)

That last moment took all the weight off my shoulders, and I felt refreshed and ready for anything.

Then of course, upon arriving home, my mother attempted to ruin my happy mood, as she always does. Her words rattled around in my mind since they left her lips.

But, with only a few words, my resolve was returned to me. "I love you baby, things are going to be ok." That is all it took.

So I will just simply say, at least for the moment, I am at peace with the world around me.

~Kuro Xue Enzeru

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19268061/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/19268061/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 06:19:34 PDT
So I emerse myself in random thoughts of the present and future, and start writing, drawing, and taking new photos constantly. I don't even know why I am writting this, maybe it is just another way to distract myself from the thoughts plauging my mind.

Anger, worry, sadness, pain, all things I am trying to escape, and considering I don't think anyone will even read this, this will just be a place for me to vent.

~Kuro Xue Enzeru

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18868213/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18868213/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 07:35:32 PDT
You question me as to why I am always so depressed around you, why I don't smile and barely speak. You ask why I dont tell you personal things about my life, my choices, my thoughts. You are the reason why. You are suppossed to be the first person I trust, the first person I can go to when I have a problem.

Not only do I feel the opposite, feel that you are the last person I could go to, but you are the cause of most of my problems.

And I have finally figured out that you are never going to change. Waiting for you to change is like waiting for a mountain to cough, and covers its mouth when it does. I think you like being the way you are. Causing misery to those who are closest to you gives you sick joy.

But soon enough, it will all change for you. Soon, I will be moving on with my girlfriend, making her the woman of my life, my sister will be packing up her bags too once she reaches the same conclusion that I have.

So, instead of being pained by you, I pity you.

~Kuro Xue Enzeru

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18799003/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18799003/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 09:28:04 PDT
My declaration in yesterdays journal still stands, quite firmly in fact. But now, it is even stronger because of one simple fact; what adheres me to my choice is no longer rage, but resolve. And that, I only have one person to thank for.

Thank you, A.K.B.R.

~Kuro Xue Enzeru

]]> ~Kuro-dono http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18783200/ http://Kuro-dono.deviantart.com/journal/18783200/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:44:34 PDT
So I am done. The only ones who will see the nice side of me, the side of me that is warm, and inviting into my dark world are those I find deserving, and at the moment, that is only two people. For the rest, the term "if looks could kill" will apply to me so well, my passing glances will result in broken bones. I am done hidding my cold disposition to try and spare the feelings of those who care nothing of mine.

I say it now, and write it in stone, I am done.


~Kuro Xue Enzeru

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