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You are cordially invited to attend the SugoiCon Host Club. The Host Club Event will be beginning at 8PM. The event is to be held in the Canterbury Room. Please try to be casually dressed in cosplay and/or dressy clothes. This event is being held to promote the knowledge and activity of host clubs.

We look forward to your attendance. Please RSVP in note form with how many guests will be attending.

]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/13890499/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/13890499/ Thu, 26 Jul 2007 16:40:07 PDT [link]

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Who doesn't want that? The catch? You gotta put this in your journal as well if you posted. And I will leave this part up for a long time. And remember, if you don't post this in your journal, I'm not going to put your art up.



Next time I'm online I'll have to look at your pages x.x;

]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/9777867/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/9777867/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 00:29:55 PDT Natsukashiku me fuite yuku mono ga aru no

Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance

R.I.P. Brandyn Lee Turner 8-18-06 ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/9197870/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/9197870/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 09:37:41 PDT Tuesday: 2:30 PM - 9:30PM
Thursday: 2:30 PM - 9:30PM
Saturday: 2:30 PM - 9:30PM

I have martial arts class wednesday night from 6-9 and AUC friday from 6:30 - whenever I get tired.

If you wanna hang out, make plans that aren't those times <3

VISIT ME AT KENWOOD MALL IN WILSON'S LEATHER EXPRESS AND I'LL BE A HAPPY KITTY <333 ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8882467/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8882467/ Fri, 26 May 2006 10:27:43 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8801074/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8801074/ Wed, 17 May 2006 18:22:34 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8655937/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8655937/ Tue, 02 May 2006 19:36:06 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8603507/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8603507/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 15:40:55 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8595953/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8595953/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 19:45:44 PDT Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
A God's Beast - Breath of Fire IV

Will I have a happy life?
Flutter (butterfly) - Breath of Fire IV

What do people really think of me?
Run Straight - Breath of Fire IV

Do people secretly lust after me?
El Diablo - Tsunami Bomb

How can I make myself happy?
How Long Will the Rain Last? - Breath of Fire IV

What should I do with my life?
Sorrow - Xenosaga Episode I

Will I ever have children?
Headlights on a Hand Grenade - Tsunami Bomb
^ HELL YEA XD

What is some good advice for me?
In a Shadowy Woods - Tales of Symphonia

What do I think my current theme song is?
End of the world- Angela
... o o… W00T! XD

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
I Bought You - Tsunami Bomb

What song will play at your funeral?
The Grudge - Tales of Symphonia

What type of men/women do you like?
In the Ashes - Tales of Symphonia

What is my day going to be like?
On the Hill the Night - Tales of Symphonia

Why am I here?
KOS-MOS - Xenosaga Episode I

What will people remember me for?
Russian Roulette - Tsunami Bomb

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Green Sleeves - Xenosaga Episode I

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Echo - Breath of Fire IV

What will this year be all about?
Hikari - Utada Hikaru

What will be my next boy/girlfiend like?
-The reflecting god- Marilan Manson
... Huuh… my next G/F is gonna kill everyone! XD

What will be my tomorrow dinner like?
God is a Girl - Groove Coverage

Am I good at kissing?
Beat the Angel - Tales of Symphonia

Should I go on a diet?
Is This Love - Unknown to me

How will I die?
Do you cry yourself to sleep - Unknown to me

Why is Norbert such a LAMA?
Confusion - Tales of Symphonia

What will be the next important person I meet in my life?
House of Cards - Baten Kaitos

What do my friends think of me?
Harbor Town - Tales of Symphonia

What will be my next party like?
Thousand Wings - Breath of Fire IV

Will I ever change radically?
Thank for All - Tales of Symphonia ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8116468/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8116468/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 11:34:14 PST
Innocence no longer keeps us warm
You see the world's no longer what it was for you and me
The people there no longer care if we live or die
The only time there's solitude is when we sit and cry
Sometimes the only peace is in my mind

Heaven help the angel sing
Heaven give the angel wings
Help him see what tomorrow brings
Help me set him free
Help me set him free

Sometimes my walls run red so I can feel
It doesn't matter what it is so long as I can see
The reasons for my being here am I significant?
My education tells me yes but why I feel lost
Sometimes my only peace is in my mind

Heaven help the angel sing
Heaven give the angel wings
Help him see what tomorrow brings
Help me set him free
Help me set him free

Time's a luxury that I can't afford
You see the carpet's shade has changed from what it was before

Heaven help the angel sing
Heaven give the angel wings
Help him see what tomorrow brings
Help me set him free
Help me set him free


I randomly found him while surfing...I like it <3
you can download the song here: just add an H before the ttp ttp://music.download.com/kym/3600-8550_32-100449663.html ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8075121/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8075121/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 14:11:11 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8068975/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8068975/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 20:46:04 PST
When I first arrive and you see me there,
your hopeful eyes shattered by despair
know what we used to be.
No one else is more confused than me.
Oh, I don't want to hurt you anymore.
I drop my machete to the floor.
You look so happy-sad.
I know I can't expect you'll wait for me.
The soft taste of your lips
conjures memories of a world
where petals fall from above.
It seems so far away.
I am lost, to both of our dismay.
Would someone please pass me the key
to this exam that I've written?


So yea... That's how I feel right now for the most part -.- ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8031797/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/8031797/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 20:05:26 PST


...I'm sorry I fucked up your lives...there won't be another chance for it to happen... ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7898228/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7898228/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 16:52:56 PST
[link]

[link] ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7736173/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7736173/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 21:32:23 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7735408/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7735408/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 19:57:17 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7706887/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7706887/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 17:45:57 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7694772/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7694772/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 12:33:23 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7558817/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7558817/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 20:39:32 PST > well I'm not going to die...not before you. I'm strong.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
>Old people taste like purple...

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV?
>on THE TV = Spiral

4.Without looking, guess what time it is:
> 11:16PM

5.Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
>11:29PM

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
> DVD player

7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
> Off the bus. walking home o.o

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
> IMs

9.What are you wearing?
> Nothing...who wears clothes to bed....Ok so I have a fishnet shirt on and really low PJ pants <3

10.Did you dream last night?
> Let's....not go into that...

11. When did you last laugh?
> I don't remember...maybe at the con...yea I think it was then, though I don't remember it much.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
> Lots of Anime posters

13. Seen anything weird lately?
> hell YEA I did

14. What do you think of this quiz?
> I think babies taste like fresh...does that count (<3 centi)

15. What is the last film you saw?
> Narnia <3

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
> that's not enough to buy out Bill Gates is it *pout*

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
> I fall in love to easily...

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
> STUPID PEOPLE!!!! STUPID. STUPID. STUPID PEOPLE!!!

19. Do you like to dance?
> I dance like a girl....FUCK YEA!

20.George Bush:
> is that one of those random crayon colors...like tickle-me-pink??

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
> Gefrenia or something o.O

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
> Ryan

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
> I AM considering living abroad *cough*

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
> Not again....

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
> Centi, Hito, Amy, Brit ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7547980/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7547980/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 19:00:59 PST
"I want happiness

I seek happiness


to cause your happiness,

to be your happiness.


take me

to a true Elsewhere.

deliver me,


a bird in a guilded cage,

a bird bereft of flight,

a bird that cannot cry,

a bird all by itself.


so take me

I want happiness.


happy just to be with you,

happy just to see you smile.


so take me

to a true Elsewhere


please, take me

to happiness.


my first thought

and my last wish,


a promised land where fairies wait *

with room just enough for two. *


to deliver me, help me


to forget the reibulations of day

and to stay in this dream of night,

where I can be thinking of you forever


take me


to my bliss."
Clover volume 2 ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7472873/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7472873/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 22:50:05 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7460709/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7460709/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 20:54:06 PST I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

WOULD YOU:
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND M0RE --*
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you? ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7386778/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7386778/ Thu, 22 Dec 2005 21:34:55 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7310187/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7310187/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 14:04:23 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7180268/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7180268/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:52:52 PST - I came to you in the middle of the night:
- I kissed you:
- I moved next door to you:
- I started a bad habit:
- I gave you my heart:
- I was hospitalized:
- I took a bullet for you:
- I got into a fight and you weren't there:
- I told you I love you:
- I came to you crying:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
- Personality:
- Eyes:
- Hair:
- Ass:
- Smile:

WOULD YOU:
- Hook up with me:
- Keep a secret if I told you one?:
- Hold my hand?:
- Keep in touch?:
- Try and solve my problems?:
- Love me?:
- Date me?:
-Have intercourse with me?
- Talk to me for hours:
- Kiss me:
- Hold me in the rain:
- Cry to me:


HAVE YOU EVER?:
- Kissed me and meant it?:
- Wanted to kiss me?:
- Wanted to kiss me over and over again?:
- Won my heart?:
- Kept something important from me?:
- Thought I was hot?:
- Wanted to tell me everything but couldnt:

AND:
- Who are you?:
- Do I think you're hot?
- When and how did we meet?:
- Describe me in one word..:
- What was your first thought of me?:
- Do you still have those thoughts about me?:
- What reminds you of me?:
- If you could give me anything, what would it be?:
- How far would you go with me?
- How would you tell me if you liked me?:
- When's the last time you saw me?:
- Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
- If you died tomorrow, whats one thing you would want me to know?:
- Do you have a crush on me?:
- Are you going to repost this to see what I say about you?: ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7100104/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7100104/ Sun, 20 Nov 2005 19:58:05 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7092629/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7092629/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 23:02:09 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7001907/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/7001907/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:38:28 PST 2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/6637556/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/6637556/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 19:45:36 PDT
Name: Matthew Greene

Birthday: May 22, 1988

Birthplace: Cincinnati, OH

Current Location: Cincinnati, OH

Eye Color: Brown

Hair Color: Brown with Red highlights. Though I dyed it and it's black now <3

Height: 5'11" maybe 6ft now

Right Handed or Left Handed: Right

Your Heritage: I KNOW there's some irish and native american in there somewhere *pokes self*

The Shoes You Wore Today: SANDALS <333333

Your Weakness: depends on what kind of weakness we're talking about -.o

Your Fears: BABIES!

Your Perfect Pizza: Lots and lots of MEAT...

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:...get a new computer...

Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: kthx

Thoughts First Waking Up: *gets ready to instinctivly punch alarm clock as hard as he can*....goddamnit...life -.- *sighs and gets out of bed*

Your Best Physical Feature: ...NOT A CLUE...

Your Bedtime: usualy around 11:30 school nights...then again... whenever I feel like it works more I guess

Your Most Missed Memory: some of the friends I don't really have contact with anymore

Pepsi or Coke: pepsi cause they make MOUNTAIN DEW!

McDonalds or Burger King: Wendy's....cause those both suck

Single or Group Dates: Both ^_^

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: EWWWWWWW ICED TEA

Chocolate or Vanilla: SWIRL!!!

Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino

Do you Smoke: HECKYNAW

Do you Swear: ...usualy...fuck yea...but not as much as a sailor..CLOSE THOUGH

Do you Sing: I'm a Karaoke WHORE BABY!

Do you Shower Daily: my shower schedual is erotic...I mean...erratic

Have you Been in Love: Yea....

Do you want to go to College: Eventualy yes

Do you belive in yourself: Sometimes yes

Do you get Motion Sickness: Nope

Do you think you are Attractive: sometimes...but usualy no...but if I cared I'd probably make it so I did XD

Are you a Health Freak: I CAN be

Do you get along with your Parents: Those exist?

Do you like Thunderstorms: Like? I LOVE THEM!!!

Do you play an Instrument: Piano, clarinet, flute kinda, and some other stuff I'm not remembering

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: I'd have to say...yea...I think I have...a whole sip of sake...DAMN that stuff's nasty x.x;

In the past month have you Smoked: I smoke?

In the past month have you been on Drugs: I do drugs?

In the past month have you gone on a Date: Don't believe so, no.

In the past month have you gone to a Mall: I think so o.O;;; don't remember...maybe?

In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: NOPE! but I had about 3 boxes LAST month XD

In the past month have you eaten Sushi: nope ;.;

In the past month have you been on Stage: I work on stagecraft in TWO THEATER GROUPS! OF COURSE I HAVE!

In the past month have you been Dumped: Nope

In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope

In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nuuuuu

Ever been Drunk: No~

Ever been called a Tease: Not to my face

Ever been Beaten up: well there have been some attempts...but I kinda....won x.x;

Ever Shoplifted: nope ^^

How do you want to Die: Protecting the ones I love...*sappy*

What do you want to be when you Grow Up: as of right now...STAGE COMBAT *pose*

What country would you most like to Visit: Japan and maybe Mexico... or france

In a boy/girl

Favourite Eye Color: Emerald Green, blue, or grey

Favourite Hair Color: If I cared, I'd probably say brown

Short or Long Hair: long *drools*

Height: taller then me

Weight: more than me in muscle

Best Clothing Style: should I care?


Number of Drugs I have taken: zero

Number of CDs I own: like...20?

Number of Piercings: OOOOOOOONE

Number of Tattoos: None...I might have a few planned...nothing big though... ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/6486555/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/6486555/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 14:57:09 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/5635701/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/5635701/ Mon, 13 Jun 2005 10:47:52 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/5196921/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/5196921/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 17:10:05 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4601625/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4601625/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 19:45:47 PST
2. What is our status?

3. When did you meet me?

4. Can you remember the exact date/time/etc?

5. How did you get to know me?

6. Do you have a crush on me?

7. Do you love me?

8. Will we stay whatever status we are forever?

9. If we got married, how would you feel?

10. Is there any song in particular that reminds you of me?

11. What three things in the whole world make you think about me?

12. Do you ever dream about me?

13. If so, how?

14. If I asked you to dance with me, would you?

(Do you like? and what do you think of me? questions)


15. My choice of clothes?

16. My hair and the styles I wear?

17. Choice of music?

18. Choice of films and directors?

19. Do you think I'm a good person?

20. Describe me in 3 words:

21. If you could, would you let me live with you?

22. Do you like the way I treat people?

23. As honestly as you can, describe what you think of me as a person:

24. Will you steal this and see if I'll answer it?

Brit I'll fill it out for you later...and stuff...I tried doing this in LJ and said that it was important to me that people posted it...of course I got a whole 2... *twirls finger* see if it works here ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4573741/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4573741/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 20:33:51 PST It will bring happiness;

But, Don´t tell
Anyone

Where you found
The four leaf clover,

Or how many leaflets were on

The four leaf clover.

How I wish to make you happy,
Though I won´t be able to see you

If you find a four-leaf clover,
It will bring happiness;

But,
Don´t tell Anyone

Where its white flower
blooms

Or how many leaflets, from it´s stem extend.

The four-leaved clover.

I only want you happiness, knowing
I can never be yours to share it.

If you find a four-leaf clover
You´ll have found happiness.

But it will,
Never be found,

Since happiness rests inside
That secret cacge

No one can own

The four-leaved clover.

But then what of
The three-leaf clover?

I didn't write this btw...Anyway, I thought it fit the situation between AJ and I kinda nicely..so....yea... ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4547170/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4547170/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 15:10:53 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4441818/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/4441818/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 23:48:34 PST
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.

I'll let you all decide the way I feel right now...also check out
[link]
[link] ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3897073/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3897073/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 21:15:09 PST [link] ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3821582/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3821582/ Fri, 12 Nov 2004 22:04:20 PST
If I Died Tonight
By Robert Ruwe

If I died tonight
Would you even care?
Would you even be aware
Of the things I shared?
Would you even know
Of the things I showed?
Would you even have a clue
Of the times I thought of you.
Lying in bed
I thought I saw the light.
I thought you knew
How I felt that night
When I heald you tight
When I held you close
Now it's all gone
And no one knows

If I died tonight
Would it all go away?
Would you even remember
The things I say?
I hit that wall at 1, at 10
Would you remember me then?
Would you feel the same again?
Or just go on with life
Forgetting me
Forgetting everything I felt inside?
Would you forget about my face
The way I feel
All alone in this place?

Love is flowing through my veins
Every time I say your name.
The way I feel deep inside
When I look in your eyes.

When I met you I hoped you'd stay
Hoped you would never go away
But everyone has a time to leave
(Everyone's time must come)
These feelings bring me to my knees
(Now my life has come undone)

What the matter?
Can't you see
The way I feel
Is ruining me?
The way I feel
When I think of you
My whole life
Has come unglued
My whole life has been thinking of you...

POEM END YAAAAAAAAAY! *cheers* ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3796805/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3796805/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 19:36:10 PST

Matt is selective when picking friends. He does not trust everyone. He has a select group of people that are truly close to him, usually two or three. He is careful when choosing his inner circle of friends.





Matt is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Matt basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.


In reference to Matt's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Matt slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Matt can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.



Matt is talkative. He enjoys talking and socializing. He may talk when there is absolutely nothing important to say. He enjoys speaking.


When Matt expresses an opinion on a issue he will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change his mind. In other words... Matt is stubborn. When he is wrong about something that he has decided upon, he will have trouble admitting he is wrong. Changing Matt's mind can be very difficult. Once Matt makes up his mind, he doesn't want to be confused with the facts!


Matt is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. He feels emotional situations very strongly. He'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before him. Then, for some reason unknown to himself, he will burn out emotionally. These mood swings can be very disturbing to him. Sometimes, he feels that he can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge his emotional batteries", he will spring back into action. Because Matt feels situations intensely, he relates easily to others' problems. If he is not careful, when he comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, he will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Matt reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. He may plan everything in detail before he even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through. Matt has a strong need for affection. He thrives on touching and being touched. Matt desires being told that he is loved, every day. He enjoys being the center of attention. He loves attention, sometimes he even retells stories that got him attention earlier. Matt has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because he relates so well to other people. He likes expressing how he feels, what he is doing, and what he plans to do. He is a people person. He will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive him insane.)


People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Matt doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3682919/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3682919/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 21:35:52 PDT
From me to you, from me to you
With love
Take the kiss I can't see
I travel on my own, for your sake

Lonely night
On the dark ocean beach, a boat rows out
It's like a struggle, reaching the place of your dreams
I'm praying for it

From me to you, from me to you
Do you feel it?
Shining on the waves, the light of the moon
Embraces even the darkest hopes, in sleep

Lonely night,
That is possibly the long traveling road
Even if I tempt fate
Somehow, I won't lose
It's like a struggle, reaching the place of your dreams
I'm praying for it
From me to you, from me to you
With love....

was happy and perky, now I'm not, simple as that ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3679237/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3679237/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 13:22:00 PDT
To every life, there's always an end,
But I close my eyes, I still see your face; beautiful...
And I throw a rose as they now lower you down
But I still believe I'll see you again
I wait for the day that I can once more hold you tight
Until then, I can't cry this pain away
Until then, memories are all I have...

How I long for one more kiss, just to hold you once again
How I long to hear you say "our love's eternal, never will I leave from by
your side..."

* I go my way, I journey on, now 'til forever
With the memory of our last kiss to keep me going
And though I am alone again, I shed not a tear
How beautiful is my loneliness, how great is my pain...

As night skies arrive, the heartache begins
For in every dream, the image of you lingers still
So I walk alone, sleepless, guided by the moon
I know I'll give to eternal sleep,
And when that day comes, I'll never again let you go
I'll pretend that I'm not about to cry
I'll pretend that these tears are only rain

As I lie awake at night, listening to this quiet rain
As I bow my head in prayer, my wish is that this burning emptiness inside
would heal...

I close my eyes, I turn around, and go on my way
With the dream that somewhere out there, love, you wait for me, too
And though I am alone again, I shed not a tear
How beautiful is my loneliness, how great is my pain...

* repeat

Lyrics every update I suppose..*shrugs* It works...if you know me well enough you'll be able to figure out my mood from them -.-;


that whole post if for a while ago...I feel much better now for some reason ;;;; ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3583286/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3583286/ Wed, 13 Oct 2004 17:44:29 PDT ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3522627/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/3522627/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 20:44:47 PDT That pretty much explains how I feel right now...anyway..for at least a day or two...or more...I'ma be outta contact with everyone...cause..yea...if anyone tries to call I just won't pick up so don't bother...no idea what's causing all this...but life seems to be blowing up in my face and for once, I give up, and I don't feel like dealing with it...at this point I could care less what happens to me because no matter what it's better than how I feel now...people will tell me "You should never give up" or "you told me to never give up, so how can you?" Those of you that know me well enough know that I do my own thing and usualy follow my own path to happiness...well, I don't feel up to getting by on my own. I've worked hard all my life to be happy and make other people happy...but thinking about it...I was never happy unless I had someone or something to look foreward to...at this point I see nothing...nothing at all...Physically and mentaly...today I had a migrane so bad I couldn't see straight and almost passed out randomly from it...and guess what...I really don't give a shit...I just wish this could all end..."wish what could end?" you ask...everything in general...life, death, happiness, sadness...everything...I know it's not possible...and there's no way out but to fight...but I'm tired of fighting and getting no where...it's like trying to swim in a pool filled with Jello. You either stay put or sink...either way you drown, and right now I'm drowning...and I guess you could say I like it...at this point I may seem cold or mean...but...meh...I don't care...you can try to talk to me about this but I swear you won't get anywhere and it won't help a thing...feh...NO ONE can say my life isn't that bad...or it's not as bad as So-and-so's...everyone has their reasons...As for cheering people up. Yea, it makes me slightly more happy...but I'm sure they can figure it out on their own eventualy...I mean...people only really talk to me about their problems now-a-days...and want me to help them make it all better...I'm fine with that..but some people..that's all they seem to do...they may act differently...but I really don't see anything besides "I have this problem, fix it" I'm tired of it all..I'm tired of complaints...I'm tired of lieing to friends so other friends can keep secrets...I'm tired of life...Some people may have heard me talk a long time ago, about how I wish I could sleep forever...like, literaly sleep, with my dreams living with my forever. Well my dreams have stopped. I have no dreams, I have no hope, I have nothing except myself...until I can convince myself otherwise, then...well...to be blunt...you're all screwed...I don't really believe in anything about life anymore...life is just an obsticle I have to get over until death...death will come no matter what anyone does, there's no way around it...why not just stop the pain of everyone around you and yourself and just die? I see no reason why anyone should live...I mean...some people may say "You should live so the people you know and your friends won't be sad and you should live to love someone" Well I don't see anything in that statement about how I would feel...it's all about other people...If I were to die right now, sure people would be sad...very sad...but they'd get over it...they'd die too eventualy...life builds up hope just to have it all torn down at death and hurt other people...I mean..think about it...life exists to make people sad and hurt in the end...If I were to live forever, I would be sad to watch everyone I know die while I lived on, missing them all every second...If I were to die naturaly, people would be sad and die eventualy too...if I were to kill myself...people would ask eachother why, and they'd be sad...they'd still die in the end...Life exists for pain, that's the only explination I see...I just want to be alone...Friday I'm probably walking to the park/woods for a few hours....no idea if I'm going to cancel all the plans there were for the weekend or not....it's currently a hard decision I'm faced with...I dunno if I'll want to do anything with anyone again for a long while...who knows...feh...who cares... ]]> ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/2013815/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/2013815/ Sun, 14 Mar 2004 21:07:22 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/1993617/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/1993617/ Thu, 11 Mar 2004 14:48:45 PST ~Kyo-Souma http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/1939873/ http://Kyo-Souma.deviantart.com/journal/1939873/ Tue, 02 Mar 2004 14:33:54 PST ~Kyo-Souma