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positive NRG prose

~LAURA-777 — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 13:46:40 PDT

sit with your hands in prayer
lay off anger or negative energy
breathe in positive energy
love thy self
and those around you
stop worrying,doubting,feeling down
people need to not stress over life
but enjoy it instead
because life is too short
if you can make someone smile
you have done a priceless thing
and made your heart sing athousand melodies
forever
buying a car costs money
however making a difference
in the lives of others is virtually priceless
your mind and heart will remember that
for always.

~Laura

life love and TVD

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 18:25:15 PDT

Laura's new art:
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new prose:
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TVD art by Laura
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entire thing:
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~Laura

I will stand by you

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 09 Apr 2009 15:04:51 PDT

this
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is dedicated to don sarah and to everyone else within the TVD family.

~Laura

A smile can brighten the most darkest day

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 12:17:35 PDT

First and foremost, I'd like to halour out to don, and sarah for their fangtastic guiding light for all who are just becoming aware of their own self. this art piece of mine is dedicated to them:[link]

new art:[link]

Colonary arts: [link]

My date last nyte went well. she arrived at my apartment at 9pm last night, i cooked for the both of us in order to save on funds, plus I love to cook, read colonary arts link below. my thoughts on cooking. it says a lot when you cook for your date. cooking, is creative, productive and you use your sense of art in order to dish out dishes that are irresistible. After dinner, we went out dancing, had a blast and left early since she was spending the night at my apartment, she had to work in the morning, so i woke her up this morning at 6 a.m. made banana nut bread oatmeal, coffee and burned cinnamon-orange insense in order to get the day starting in a positive kick-mode manner.

I told her, in order for today or any day for that manner to start off great, your frame of mind must be positive. when I wake, even when i am not feeling my best, i get a shower and thinking to myself it will be the best day ever, because life is too short to stress out over, people need to enjoy life, not strees out over it. kiss more, hug more, love more. make a difference in the world today.

~Laura

black white art and other morsals

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 00:47:08 PDT

I am happy to deliver my latest art project:
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For me, art is a wonderful journey of positivity. i feel without art, the world would die. be lifeless. art,music,writings,photography, they are all artistic aspects. sure one can edit a picture, however, one can never edit what actually goes on outside your doorstep. Look at media, it blows things out of proportion, especially where horror is concerned, I say, if you want the real horror, just go outside your home, you see people getting taken away, splattered etc. that's real news for you. just go open your door its out there.

~Laura

from dating to dancing

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 04:30:53 PDT

my latest art project just posted this morning:
new art:
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new writings:
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~Laura

Sangre Journal and art

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:41:16 PDT

Journal:
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Art:
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~Laura

Count Educational

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 01:52:02 PDT

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Make friends. Everywhere yager and I go, we are constantly meeting people from all walks of life. So get out there, and start grazing, you'll find someone, to consider a friend, even if it's just an acquaintance. In school you're (for those who attended anyways) and even for those who roamed the streets and still do, you're always shoved into groups, kinda forceful way to meet people in school, get shoved into small groups, packed as if you were sardines on crackers. Hey it works, most of the time. a friend, of honesty, loyality and even turn out to be an accountant now, because they can count real well.

my guess, you may run into a killer or undercover cop. or some nut off the street selling his goods to half the planet... I tell ya its all kinds that roam this planet, however, it takes all sorts to make a universe, 'cause you know if God wanted to make us robots, he'd already establish that from the very beginning. and we're not robots, thus, we are individual. we are minion.

thank you.

xoxo,
~Laura

6 ft. under | new

Happy Birthday

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:52:43 PDT

to Yager!!!!

this album is dedicated to her:
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this video as well:
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for more information on guidedogs, go here:
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Don this is dedicated to you
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~Laura

Cravings

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 04:34:41 PDT

this is a collection of my cravings and such. the one picture in particular of myself, in meditation, I don't crave myself, however I do crave being in meditation, or thinking. i am always thinking, writing, doing art projects. I love art. its the ut most thing I crave. I love to write as well. some writings you will find in this collection that I have written are dedicated to those I think highly of.

my collection of them:
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~Laura

Angels

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 21:02:27 PST

written by me, Laura ~LAURA-777

This particular piece i wrote is dedicated to everyone whom ever is reading this:

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when the night falls
and you see someone
you feel someones presence
a surrounding of angels
are with you

sometimes when you feel sad
and tears are streaming down your face
you think no one cares
when your hearts feeling lonely and sad
angels hold you in comfort

Angels in disguise
helping you along the way
to speak... to be with you
at all times

when the dark rolls away
and you see something beaming in the nights sky
an angel is with you

Angels are with you always
protecting you
holding you
loving you
being there for you

They give us hope
when you think all is lost
guide you in dark
and bring you out in the light

Angels make things right...
in the dark
with you in the light
when you think no one cares
angels do.

~Laura

Laura & Yager inspiring success

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 00:47:32 PST

We have been featured here [link] In Able Trust [link] a publication, magazine for people with disabilities. This evolves from Tallahassee, Florida. Once your at this link above, scroll or type in the tab bar 8. We are on Page 8.

I feel Yager and I are a team and loathe the word disabled... Because WE are Able, We are a team and We are able to move forth to pursue anything we put our minds too. We will conquer all.

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xoxo,
~Laura and Yager

V-day entry

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 13 Feb 2009 00:03:35 PST

I usually work, especially during the holidays... that's the life in the nursing profession. why??? well despite the number of days one works, you could work 3 days in a row and have the rest of the week off or work 5 straight days etc... however, patients are in demand when it comes to caring for them. in other words, you work, even through the holidays, regardless, because someone has to take care of these patients, including you. So that's why I just say, any holiday can be celebrated anytime of the year.

So that's why I am posting my v-day entry now, besides the fact I just got home from work now and I know i will be working v-day as well, so when i get home it will be the next day anyways, not on v-day particularly... so it's just as well I write this now, since I have the time.

the following are things I've compiled over time, dedicated to v-day itself. enjoy~
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~Laura

Stay Tuned

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 17:32:05 PST

Could you imagine a world without music??? how boring this planet would be??? nothing to make any emotion pour out of you like it. Music makes us feel anytime of emotion possible.
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ask yourself, how do you feel??

I felt as if I wanted to dance my heart out forever, and nothing else.

~Laura

Valentine

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 01:01:06 PST

I was debating on posting this, because its early... however, valentines is my ultimate day to cherish throughout the year. who ever views this links below, this is any early valentines gift dedicated from me to you, my dear:

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~Laura

vampiric beauty

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 20:54:41 PST

more art... thanx TVD family for your inspirations this art of mine is dedicated to you. your comments are welcome.

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~Laura

blood and rain

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 12:55:18 PST

the rain over here is beautiful. I love the rain, it inspires me to put forth more of my artistic efforts and art projects, here's my latest art: [link]

besides that... I fell in love last night... with the new shift i am currently working on, afternoon shift 3pm-11pm, though it was my first night on this particular shift, I have worked this shift at other places in the nursing field. this one is simplier I didn't get physically attacked by patients because instead of getting up at 3am, i was before i worked this shift, I now put them to bed and its simplier on me on every level. theres more help needed with heavy lifitng more people on board on this shift so i am pleased and know i will succeed. and yes there are still people who i work with that doubt me, however i can't and won't let that get to me, i am too determined and willed to make the best of this and you know when you feel you've done a great job and gave it your all you'll do and perform at your best. when I got into my taxi to get to work yesterday, an incling feeling came over me that things will get better and i felt happy again...

~Laura

ps. for those reading this, i will put more art tonight, I am off to snap some pictures and write more, the rain is irrisitable and beautful, its too beautiful to just stay at home, I am going out to enjoy the beauty of life... thanx rain for your inspiration.

what it does...

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 01 Feb 2009 10:41:47 PST

For the past week, I have endured stress, however i was able to put forth my artistic efforts.
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you may like this art or may not like it, however remember, one's junk is anothers treasure. everyone views beauty differently, art is critical. opinions are welcome, my dears.

i look at it this way, art is a great form, it allows for such release, such as stress or other stuff as well, its more positive than doing other things that are detrimental to one's health, life etc. I know with my patients, i encourage them to express themselves, talking, or art perhaps in order to get that off their chest. so I always believe art is awesome, look at andy warhol.

Anyways, I was informed that I will am taken off the midnight shift will no longer work 11pm-7am, I have been put permantly to now work the afternoon shift 3pm-11pm and with that shift I have an option to go home at 8pm. so having said that I am excited. today my phone rang off the hook, I did answer it, it was my work, I told them that I would most definately be in to work this afternoon. they called me a second time to see whether i could work a double shift today from 3pm-7am (3pm this afternoon til 7am tommorrow morning.) I told them no, I said i would much rather talk about this subject in person, as i feel things are better discussed in person in order to bring points etc across much better in a much more positive light etc. because I am not going to push myself like that, be on their beck and call, as if were their slave, yes I have been working there for eight months now and my goal now is to work there a year which will be May 2009, that's less than 3 months away, since its February now. YAY day is around the corner my favourite day of the whole year!!!!!

back to what my thoughts are about work, I feel honesty is good, in order to have a means for best communication possible, especailly in the workplace. thats a given. As I said eariler, i am not working the double shift, for a few reasons,

in this profession, you've got to stay on top of your game, where your health is concerned because look at what your doing??? I am taking care of my patients who are sick constantly, and though they may pass on, die, I am the one still living, so I have to be in good standing health-wise.

people have to understand that this ecomomy is bad and if you've watched the news lately, this country is in a crisis. people are looking for anything of any type of work to have some sort of income. so hire more people at my place of work, so that the people who already work there now aren't worked to death as myself, who in the past worked several doubles and everywhere inbetween just because some of the workers just don't feel like showing up, and its not their health, its their lazyness, I can tell you now, that for me and 4 other workers of my place of business, are constantly worked a lot of hours, it's beginning to get run into the ground, and that's where my health is running down, not just for the eight months but its running down lately, and that's where this past week has been hectic crazy whatever you wanna call it. have you worked so much that your life seems like one hamster running the mill and thats it, you don't have time to breathe or go out to walk because the day is goregous, to make time to enjoy and live life. that's all i am saying. Life... because it's short as it is now, Life is short, so means if i collapse at work, and end up in the hospital, what's next... my soulution to this is for them to hire more people so the rest of us can not be run into the ground. your health is #1, because if your not at your best, things fall apart, its a domino effect. so take care of YOU. i know i am at the best of my ability.

that's it for this entry. this particular...

Saturday's adventure

~LAURA-777 — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 18:18:22 PST

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I called my place of work last night and was just honest, my doctor advised me to not to go to work, stress etc. so i didn't. as a result, this is one of my several art projects i have done for the past week now I all things art, they promote much positive NRG. that everyone needs coursing through their veins. so smile, [link]

~Laura and Yager

Life is too short... read on if you dare

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 30 Jan 2009 23:18:56 PST

I had a doctor's appt. I went. luckily i had the day off from work today, because last night i worked my normal midnight shift, 11pm-7am this morning and was scheduled to be back today at 3pm to work the afternoon shift 3pm-11pm. I don't know about you, but that schedule is crazy. think about it. you get out of work that morning and then go back that afternoon to work again... and where's your sleep??? and among that everything else???

I went to my appt. this morning, he told me I looked stressed and i told of my work, what i do, getting up 10 plus people at night, getting physically attacked by patients, because they are too get up at 3am because they go to bed at 7 the night before. the heavy lifting, and only me up front and one person in the alzimers unit, so theres 2 people in the entire building at night. Help is scarce.

after saying all to him, he just says don't go in tommorrow, because you are stressed and if you can find something else within that profession, possiblly another avenue, such as teaching independent skills to the devlopmentally disabled, halping them achieve their goals and dreams. having them amblutory to exlude any heavy lifting so your back isn't so sore. etc... so i took his advise and am not going to work tommorrow, actually since its already saturday morning, i won't be in today. I called to inform of my absence for today so they have that shift taken care of... glad of that.

I called my boss, tried to speak to her of working 4 days not five regardless of the shift. all she could say was, I am at dinner with friends and you know i dont go to the facility on friday, i am in st. pete.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so that was that. I told her, that I understand, however I made time to speak to her since i rarely see her, because i am gone by 7am.

I found out my schedule as of next week is afternoons: 3pm-11pm and 5pm-11pm so see how that goes.

I have already applied to a few different places already and may do so today or not depending on how i feel.

bottom line about this:
I have been at my place of business for eight months and in that time worked the midnight shift 5 nights a week. it is a rough shift to work, and heavy lifting is catching up to me. so we'll see how the afternoons go, that doesn't stop me from seeking other work. they say its better to find work when your already working... other than that I've asked myself these questions, am i happy???? how do you feel??? they aren't positive, because I feel as though a hamster on a wheel of endless nowhere. when i get home, i am sore from lifitng and my stress levels are high. and at my age that doesnt need to be. so as a result: I did a art project in order to put my focus off work and just do art, because it inspires me to move forth and not be talked to by my boss like a 3 year old. i wont tolerate that.

art project: [link]

in these next few days my goal is to go with something that i am happy with in work and smile from the inside for once. because you can clean someone up but to make someone smile, you either have that gift or not. this profession isnt just for the money, its about making a difference in the lives of others.
thats one of my favorite things i to do.

I am off for now, getting a vanila bubble bath and listen to soft music... wish all who reads this a fangtastic week.

Life is too short to worry about money, because you certainly can't take it to the grave when you die. Because the only thing that's absolutely guarranteed in life, is death.

~Laura

Stars the limit

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 23:41:20 PST

stars the limit:
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~Laura

Laura and Yager's wednesday adventure at midnight

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 22:55:30 PST

the forcast... beautiful skies painted midnight black. this is our adventure tonight/this morning:

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~Laura and Yager

Laura and Yager's Tuesday Adventure

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 16:18:02 PST

the forcast is sunni skies... this is our tuesday adventure:

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more pictures soon.

~Laura and Yager

Notes from a Graveyarder

~LAURA-777 — Sat, 24 Jan 2009 12:25:36 PST

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Notes from a Graveyarder:

This is me in the morning when I come home from work. Because as you can see, that Mr. quiet is relieveing his stess by utilizing his zen garden and so he does, however he keeps getting bombarded by everyone else, especially miss chatterbox, the one that keeps talking in her valley gurl-esqe voice about how wonderful it would be if she had a zen garden, thus mr. quiet is her inspiration... I don't know about you, but miss chatterbox reminds me of Nicole, the contestant from Mad Mad House for the way she rambles on and never stays quiet... Her chararteristics are that of someone who talks up a storm, not listens. anyways, this particular piece is from the show 'Mr. Men show' I was at work and was on break and flipped on the tv and saw this show, I liked it straight away, it makes me laugh, and reminds me that though life is crazy and hectic at times, however not so bad when you have a zen garden as mr. quiet does in order to balance and have some kind of peace and tranquility... thus laughter is the best medicine.

xoxo,
~Laura

Things that bring forth positve NRG

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 11:12:36 PST

Music:
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art:
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poetry prose:
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All of the above, whether it be art, music or writings. they all bring positive NRG. energy. and by recieving it your senses, sight, feel, sight etc. are fullfilled and thus enlightened envigorated thats radiating within this great energy, that feels beautiful pulsing through your veins and raining throughout your soul.

~Laura

ps. this one goes out the TVD family, you know who you are.

Happy sushi new year 2009

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 22:45:21 PST

Dependence VS Independence:

I say there are those who live off the government and think the world shall come to them and thus are dependent on others....

then there are those who are independent and not only think but go out into the world, and you know damn well, that the world doesn't come to you, 'cause you gotta go out there into the world and get it yourself, thus independence. [link]

Happy sushi new year!!! [link]

I wish all a blessed one.

~Laura

thoughts

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 18:01:02 PST

This will be short since I am getting ready for work tonight...

I was brainstorming this morning when I got home from work. I thought about the shows that don *weareminion has been on, the hearing the same questions being asked over and over. As well as seeing the same clips from National Geographic. This is just a thought, idea if you will. Why not perform a blood ritual on the next show, instead of just showing clips from National Geographic???

Sure, those who watch the past shows can go to the National Geographic website and view it or Youtube for instance and get a glimpse of that same blood ritual. Think about it, if performed in front of a live studio audience, that would bring the question, of is it real???? to a new level of understanding.

~Laura

Don on Maury

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 19:06:32 PST

I watched the show [link]

and must say this was a rare treat on Maury, I felt the show was more on a positive note, because unlike the tyra show it had less drama and dealt with situation on a mature level. It brought the extraoridinary out and taught the viewers that there are people that don't live the regular 9 to 5 work week and whatnot that there are people who live, to achieve their goal of that ultimate happiness and though the vampire segment was short with the vampire don *weareminion it brought out a better understanding to those still curious on the subject of vampires and such. He did take the time out of his daily life to explain his life in a short interview, I felt it was the best by far. I felt this Maury show, brought people to a better understanding that there's things out there, just look around you, they could be right under your nose.

~Laura

what's your thoughts on the show??? [link]

Giving Thanks

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 21:27:02 PST

what are your thoughts on this entry? [link]

First and foremost, if you're reading this right now, this entry is dedicated to you. Why? because, whether you know it or not, you have been an inspiration, with all I received throughout the years, your letters, comments, questions, shared experiences etc. think about it, call it what you will a diary, journal or simply just a blog... what's a journal without readers?????

Since today is Thanksgiving, I give thanks to you, my readers. Thank You,

I was brainstorming today, as I am off from work today, the rule of thumb at my place of business, is. You're only allowed one holiday off, whether it be thanksgiving, christmas or new years day also all of the Eve's so you get three choices to pick from, since I have only been working there for the past 6 months going on seven I only have so much seniority, however not as much as the seasonals, those who have been working there for a year or more. So, I chose Thanksgiving as my first choice since it would be the only time this year my entire family would get together, and christmas they would go there their sepreate ways with plans, flights etc. so i got thanksgiving off this year. today. i am thankful for that. so as I was sitting down eating my turkey, and the fixings not so much since I had a migrane headache which i took care of it with 2 tylenol in ten minutes. I was brainstorming of things to be thankful for:

1. Employment, obtaining it and achieving any goals attached to it. I have been working at my place of business for nearly seven months now and am thankful for that because within that time I have seen people come and go much like a revolving door, some got fired and some quit, but you've got to remember, when you're fired it's out of your hands, and when you quit, that's your choice whether to or not, remember you wanna quit your job so bad, think twice because the economy is low in order to gain employment if so again.

2. My patients I care for on a daily basis. I have seen them come and go as well. this ties in with employment as well, because without them I wouldn't have a job, in the nursing field, my chosen pursuit. I enjoy very much. My patients have encouraged me to go on even after they pass on to just be me and don't change for nobody, but yourself. one of the benefits of me working the midnight shift 11pm-7am is though most are asleep, some are still up watching tv etc. and i go in and check on them for safety purposes, and we engage in conversation etc. some of it is uplifting, but most of all I find it rewarding to go and make connections and have time at night where as in the day its more busy etc. so having said that. my patients are much like the brass ring of achieveing your ultimate goals, obtaining the ultimate happiness, because anyone can do tasks of patient care, feeding, cleaning and dressing, but it takes person with a special gift in order to make your patients smile.

3. Life with Yager... this is pertaining to my guidedog, a 3 year old, female, golden retriver. I got her in May 2007. I get asked this question, so why did you need a guidedog you wear glasses??? my reply is this, just because i wear glasses or not etc. there are diferent types of vision loss, mine in particular can be corrected to a certain extent, I can't drive a car but that doesn't mean I can't be indepeendent, and with Yager my guidedog, she is that tool of greater indepencence. the reason why i got her now, is because I could lose my sight tommorrow, by anything, getting ran over by traffic or some tragic accident of some kind, so I got now so if and when i did lose my sight i would already have her and be trained to her. that's it. I was thinking ahead, so if i did lose my sight, the transition wouldn't be as bad as if I just lost my sight now and I went out there and got her, that wouldn't be a good thing, I've seen people in that situation before and it's a hard road to travel. but enough of that, that's another journal entry I will talk about later. and with video being anywhere, I'd like to share this with you:
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4. Last and final but not least.
TVD
and the TVD family you know who you are. You guys are the best!!! Thank you.

~Laura

Laura's music mix

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 01:25:47 PST

Music...

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it's one of those things that makes you laugh, cry, or just get up and dance your ass off. Most of all it triggers a chord within you of any emotion.

~Laura

don on A/E

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 21:44:04 PST

First and formost, this journal entry is in dedication to those who contributed and partook in this A/E special on vampires, espcially you, don thank you for doing so.

I watched this:
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This A/E special is the best. It features: don, michelle and others. I recently bought something similar, Haunted Histories, by the history channel. but I must say this by far is rich with details that even the most mundane human would be interested to know about.

Indeed, on this crazy planet there are those live their life not so mainstream as the average person, they walk amoungst us and aren't afraid to out there doing what they want, achieveing their ultimate goal and obtaining their own ultimate happiness.

Although society points fingers and bashes these creatures of the nyte that walk with us, they are still sources of great enlightenment that show us the way, to those who are interested in living as they do, or just facinate us, their bravery and courage show us that it's about damn time someone spoke out and be heard.

Thank you Don, for being that ray of light, the voice to do so, don't change for anyone but you. you know what i am refering to.

~Laura

thoughts on the subject.

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 19:46:24 PST

First and formost, this journal entry is dedicated to both:
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I watched the show
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and feel it a great source of enlightenment. I could tell by the audience members facial expressions that a major percent of them thought of it as a sideshow and laughed it off as a brush off, it's not that they didn't believe, it's that they chose NOT to want to believe and were afraid. As the saying goes, being afraid of the unknown... etc. and so on.

think about it, You can NEVER bother yourself with what the AUDIENCE/ CROWD/ PEANUT GALLERY thinks. Most of the planet is INSANE/ SELFISH/ RUDE/ etc.
So Don and Sarah do stuff that is not in the mainstream, of course, most Americans can not deal with anything that is not fed them by their mommies and daddies. Our culture is not based so much on open-mindedness as it is self-righteousness, ie, everybody thinks that THEIR version of reality is the only one which makes sense. People fail to understand that there are an infinite amount of possibilities as to how to enjoy your life. Nobody has the right to throw stones at others
So, get out there and enjoy your life the way YOU want to and forget all the rest.

Now for those who were coming into their own self awareness, they were in some light proud because as for myself and others know they have don and sarah and others to stand up and represent their community, educate and expound upon life and thus enlighten them about the subject, they took time out of their daily life to do so, that should tell you something. As far as tyra, goes, she asked lots of frank questions that were non of her business, if I were don, I would say the same as par for sex, because it's not as if i don't have sex, I do, but it's the fact that it's his business whether he wants to inform you on that subject or not. his business only. what goes on behind closed doors, should stay behind closed doors because otherwise it's out there and used way too much as gossip and things are construde in a bad light. which is sad. other than that, the show was informative and again a source of enlightnment. job well done. don and sarah.

~Laura

How Do You Feel?

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 09:10:58 PST

Work is going well. For the last 2 hours of my shift this morning from 5-7 a.m. a new hire, a trainee, arrived for me to train the basics about CNA nursing work, so I did. She helped me get up the rest of people who where a 2-person lift. Basically, it takes 2 people to lift that person who isn't mobile, into their wheelchair and so on...

I got home this morning at half past 7 a.m. (7:30 a.m.) it was payday so I took care of that. etc.

and now at home, brainstorming before go to sleep this:

Try this, and see how you feel:

Have you ever listen to music, a song that strikes a chord within you?
Just close your eyes and listen. How do you feel afterwards?
below are 3 links to 3 songs, try it. click on each, close your eyes and listen to each song, afterwards, ask yourself, how do you feel?

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~Laura

Inspiring others 2 shine

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 21:43:40 PST

This entry is refering to the previous entry I wrote, 'inspiring others' and the outcome of those events:
It went very well. I spoke to everyone that attended. Out of all that was there, one person was interested in pursuing a career in the nursing field. I asked hm, other than me what else inspired you to go forth within this field? he told me he it was because he had done this kind of work before years ago and wanted to give it another shot, he thanked me for inspiring him, he was down and I wanted to bring a sense of 'I know how you feel' because I have been there, and my main objective of that was to encoouragement to the table, as well as to not give up. even though the economy is the way it is, that doesnt give you a reaqson to throw in the towel and sit there and wait, because like i told the group, I could have stopped at the first job interview, but I couldn't because I didn't have a choice, I had my apt. I had bills to pay, yager my guidedog to feed, and myself, I wasnt living with anyone, not my family or a signifigant other either, its just me and yager, out on my own. independence.if you want it bad enough you'll do whatever it takes to get it. either you can sit there and mope and wiat or would you rather get out there and do something, because yes the economy is down right now, that right there is a challenge for you to get out there and go forth. also, I told them just because you are disabled, doesnt mean you have to stop and let the doubts of those who dont belive in your work or that you cant do it because you are disabled, dont stop beliving in yourself because someone else is putting you down, I told them, I have been doubted within this line of work the nursing field a lot because of my visual disablility, being visaully impaired, but I didnt let it stop me from pursuing my goals and accomplishing my dreams, that just pushed me harder and challenged me to go forth, Because the world doesnt come to you, You have to get out there, in the world and get it yourself.

I felt better talking to the group, because as my mom said, if you can inspire just one person, then you've made the best difference and thats all you need. she is right. I love her and respect her word, I remember last year when i took care of her when she was came home from the hospital, I almost lost her... I had this feeling that something was wrong, when i went to go get her a gift, a flower, something to make her smile, then my dad picked me up and he told me the news, I was in tears, she's still here, but critical. God must of had other plans for her because she is still here. so after she came home, I took care of her, it was a great expereince, and it was right after I passed my nursing state boards, what a year, but we grow with each new experience life throws at you.

this reminds me of 'mad mad house' when the cotestants I am refering to those contestants who where in thiere 20's only, I heard them speak, and how they still lived at home with there parents and basically lived off of them as if they were children, I wonder now after there expereince, have that opened their minds and eyes to move on and become productive and independent. these are able-bodied, grown (age) in thier 20's they can drive a car, etc.... and here's jamie 30's has a daughter, struggling, I just thought to myself, if the 20 years olds could just walk in jamie's shoes and knew what it was like, because yes life is hard but you CAN make it. because when life throws you curve balls, you just have to get out there and kick life right back in the rice and beans!!!!!!!! I wanted to tell those 20'ish to just stop being a big babies and go out there and just GO FOR IT!!! get off your ass and do something, hell Don did!!

if I could pass on a video that is beautiful and inspiring, it would be this one, my personal favourite:

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Music...

here's some linx of midnight music I love, music has been an inspiration of mine, when you are down music always brings you back up again and always makes you smile again.

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Inspiring Others

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 06:06:34 PDT

Good Morning! I just arrived at home from work. I have been asked to speak to a group of disabled persons, who are visually-impaired (Partially sighted as I am as well.) They are seeking employment at the present time, so I will discuss my line of work and about my guidedog Yager, how I obtained her and the importance of service animals in the workplace and the benefits of that can make a difference in the lives of others.

Also, for those who are interested in working in my line of work, the Nursing field, I will provide pamphlets, literature, in order to further educate and provide insight on the subject.

My main objective besides what I discussed above is to not give up, to keep seeking and never leave a stone unturned. Thinking positive breeds success and move foward in order to achieve goals and follow dreams.

Pictures will be up later today.

~Laura

tears of joy

~LAURA-777 — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 14:35:51 PDT

What a beautiful first day of autumn!! the whether is starting to cool down, I love it!!

I am still up... I worked last night, I consider that my Friday, since I have the next two days off from work (today and Tuesday and half a day on Wednesday.) average about 2.5 days off. I got home from work at 7:15 this morning and got ready for another eye exam follow up appt. Glacoma evaluation, In order to check the pressure levels of my eyes again. I was pleased to know the results, My levels today are normal, 10 and 13, where before they were 20 and 28. I was informed that a 'spike' could of resulted in such a high reading, 20 and 28, which are at risk for the eye disease, Glacoma. sort of like blood pressure levels only in my case its eye pressure levels instead. My higher eye pressure levels 20 and 28 were tested by another physician and in the afternoon, where today I was evaluated by a different one an opathogist, and in the morning. Bottom line, to bridge the gap of now vs. last time I was evaluated I will be evaluated for a third time to check again and see if the numbers are higher or lower, based on the time of day it is. You could have high levels in the morning and lower normal ones in the afternoon.

As a result of todays Glacoma eval. I do not have glacoma based on my levels that came out normal, so on that note, I will be checked a third time and make sure they stay the same or change because of the time of day. Get the levels from the third time and go from there.

Other than today's success, I am happy to report I am exhausted and feel relieved today and am looking foward to the next time I get evaluated for this disease. I feel that keeping on this, you gain knowledge and knowledge is power!!!

I'd like to thank my Mom and Yager my guidedog for being there with me this morning, and being there for me during this. Thank You!!! tears of joy ran down my face more than once today. I hope it will again.

What am I doing right now besides, getting my eyes back to normal from being dialated for the majority of the day??????? and writing this now??? what's next?????

get a bubble bath, watch movies in my dark and cold bedroom of my apt. and later on have some sangria.

~Laura

This horror series is DEF

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 06:55:29 PDT

i found one of my favourite horror series, all episodes. View the link below:

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This week has flown by, maybe thats because I have been working more than usual, Hello Overtime This past week on Sunday, when my shift (midnights) was ending, First shift was short a few people that called-in-sick, so as a result I was nabbed. I told the morning supervisor I would fill in, however I made aware that I would working that night as well. So I worked first shift until noon and got home, arranged with my boss that because I worked most of first shift that when the person comes in for her shift at 5 AM-11 AM that I could leave early. I was happy about that

My 2.5 days off, I enjoyed every minute. today I am going to a luncheon, hosted by my support system, the professionals that have accomodated me throughtout, at this Assisted Living Facility I have been working at for the past 4 months. This luncheon today that I am attending is to celebrate my successes at work. I chose Longhorn steakhouse, because I went there on my birthday this past August, and I liked their service I recieved.

Yager, my beautiful goldenretriver, guidedog is sitting here watching me type away. I will close for now, and for all reading this, I wish you a wonderful week.

~Laura

Standing Strong

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 14:31:34 PDT

This journal is dedicated as a tribute to today, 9.11

The link below is in remembrance to that. It is also for the TVD family as well.

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~Laura

new journey

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 09:22:30 PDT

My Birthday was awesome, I went to go see the movie, Pineapple Express. I knew this movie would RAWK!!!!!!! and indeed it did!!

so here it is September, already the months have gone by too fast, with the stores being a reminder that christmas will arrive soon, because of all of their new shipments... and christmas trees galore.

what else?? yesterday I had an appt with the optamologist (eye doctor) I was informed that because of my high pressure levels in both eyes, that I am being refered to a Glacoma specialist.

Glaucoma is a group of diseases of the optic nerve involving loss of retinal ganglion cells in a characteristic pattern of optic neuropathy. Although raised intraocular pressure is a significant risk factor for developing glaucoma, there is no set threshold for intraocular pressure that causes glaucoma. One person may develop nerve damage at a relatively low pressure, while another person may have high eye pressure for years and yet never develop damage. Untreated glaucoma leads to permanent damage of the optic nerve and resultant visual field loss, which can progress to blindness.

Glaucoma has been nicknamed the "sneaky thief of sight" because the loss of visual field often occurs gradually over a long time and may only be recognized when it is already quite advanced. Once lost, this damaged visual field can never be recovered. Worldwide, it is the second leading cause of blindness.
Glaucoma affects one in two hundred people aged fifty and younger, and one in ten over the age of eighty.

Personally, I'd would rather know about this now than wait. Evenually, people will lose their sight, some younger than others.

So, for now, I am happy to know about this and catch it early on so that something can be done about it at its early stage, and prevent it from escalating further.

I am moving forth in this new journey. determined.
Yager, My guidedog and I are in this together. I got Yager now, when I still have sight, because if I ever loose the sight I have, I already have her anyway. as my eye doctor told me yesterday, she agreed about obtaining yager, I have prepared myself for the future, for anything that happens, I have the tools of greater independence.

~Laura

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Pineapple Express

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 05:55:05 PDT

Labor day has come and gone. I have been off for the past 2 days. I work tonight until sunday, and then I am off again, monday and tuesday of next week, and throughout the month of september.

I saw the movie Pineapple express. I loved it. a very good comedy with action.

that movie rawks!!!!

~Laura

Happy Birthday

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 05:31:41 PDT

To:

Me
Don

and everyone else who has a birthday in August. Happy Birthday!!!!

I just got home from work, I am off today until Wednesday of next week.

I am off to get a shower, cook breakfast and enjoy my day!

~Laura

what does weareminion mean

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 00:59:59 PDT

today, I felt under the weather. luckily it's my day off from work. I hate feeling sick, but that's one of the drawbacks of working in the medical/nursing field, because you are constantly around people who are nothing but, sick. stuff that's airborne, as well as stuff that's rransmitted by other bodily fluids. etc. i am building up my immunity, drinking green tea, soup. I work the next 4 days, consectutively, straight in a row. so I've got to get better regardless.

In a three word span, we are minion, what does it mean to me???

strength, power, persevervence, an army of one. Ready to conquer whom ever try defeat or divide. 'cause together we stand, together we are minion.

I dedicate this journal to the TVD family and also to

~Laura

TVD entry

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 12:16:19 PDT

I was thinking of a way that TVD could not just be online but get out there into everyone's living rooms on a weekly basis, a TV show. Broadcasted on a local channel that everyone has such as NBC, ABC.

The host, Don would discuss topics and bring awareness and understanding about the life and being of TVD, The Empire.

Maybe have a guest on the show.

The show would be a source of enlightenment.

your suggestions, comments, thoughts are welcome on this topic.

~Laura

Positive Reinforcement

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 08:53:23 PDT

watch this video. your comments are welcome:

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~Laura

TVD and MMH

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 06:37:13 PDT

I know... I haven't been here in a while, that's because this is my 6th consecutive night I have worked. I get the next 2 days off, which is nice. I can catch up on things in my personal life.

I saw the TVD updates on don's page about whats been going on and such, though I am not there in person to congratulate don in the success of his up and running site, I am writing this short entry to express my being happy for this step, for the TVD empire is indeed moving foward.

I was pleased to finally see the MMH episodes, good goin'. they bring back great memories.

I am passing the flaming torch on to you, don. for you to shine in all your grateness, and beauty.

along with this I'd like to add below some of my TVD entries I've written:

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~Laura

Metal of honor

~LAURA-777 — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 06:38:00 PDT

I felt sad this morning as I got home from work, I found out one of my patients I'd taken care of died yesterday afternoon.

The strange thing was, yesterday when I was out running arrons, I was on the bus going home, I had the notion someone had died, and sure enough when I got to work, I was right, someone did die.

The last thing this patient said to me, he thought I should get a metal of honor for working in my condition. I guess someone told him about my visual disablity. I enjoyed his time when I cared for him, he told me stories about his days in the war etc.

Later last night one of my co-workers told me what happened to him, he was in surgery eariler that day and had died then. He told her (my co-worker) that he just didn't want to live anymore because he now had to live in a convelesant home and his he felt his independence was gone.

It's true many patients who live in places where I work, usually their families put them there because they aren't able to care for them anymore, and at times don't visit etc. which is sad. it's as if they were babies left at the doorstep. it's sad. So, as I say, people who work there as myself, become the patients family because of such a situation as this. It's sad but it is however the reaiity of it.

Of all this going on and my patient is gone, I know the most important thing is, he was cared for, I took care of him and feel he is happier where ever he is now. I did my part by caring for him on a nightly basis and he will be cherished and missed.

~Laura

Life... the greatest adventure of all

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 27 May 2008 23:23:39 PDT

Life. the greatest adventure of all

My motto:

Life is an adventure, go live it!!!

Just go for it, go live life 'cause life is short, as the age old saying goes...

I look at it this way, though life can get out of hand and have hardships, hardtimes, sometimes life is that way to show that things one may think they can do for or have control over... reality of the situation is, yes at times we may have control over things, however, other things are forever out of our hands,

take for instance the guy who wears the 3 piece suit, works for a company that has him bringing him home lucrative amount, living a comfortable life, he sees a chance for a promotion. Some other guy gets it, for sure he was certain he would get it, however he didnt why?? 'cause it was out of his hands, he can't just wave a magic wand and instantly he's promoted...

Life has it's good days and bad as well. though life brings hard times and things are out of hand, out of hands reach, and I feel exhausted from working hours, 5 consecutive days in a row and my head is spinning not knowing what day it is, working midnight shift screws up things at times though I feel I have had it, I look at it this way, the reality of it all, I look at my patients I care for on a nightly basis, they have right to bitch. they are cared for etc. they live in a convalesant home, an Adult Living Facility, they are sick, broken down, elderly, at times confused. and Me, i get to go home to my apt. go out live life be free. I don't live where they live, i just work there. care for them. When they see me, they smile, and you know what? thats what makes me feel so damn good. that i can bring something simple as a smile to their faces. thats what makes me go on.

think about the last time you were going to pursue a fight with someone, or vise versa, did you go head with it? or walk away? Personally, I'd just walk away, not 'cause I am afraid to fight, because you're the bigger person for walking away, think about it, if you were to fight, you would be giving in to the other person. If anything, defuse them however possible. You have a choice of who you want to be in your life, surround yourself with, if you choice people who are negative, who don't have goals, stide for something in life, you going down with them. Now would you really want that??? or would you hang around people who have great energy, strength, someone who brings out the best in you?? think about it.

So, when you think about how things are so bad, there's always someone who's got it worse.

We are Minion

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 18 May 2008 17:24:22 PDT

I know it's been a while since I wrote a TVD entry. thats because I've been working, I work at an ALF Adult living Facility, I care for 9 patients. I am a grave-yarder, I work the midnight shift 11pm-7am. so my writing is now done first thing i get in the door, at home from work. 'cause I am not crashing asleep right then.

I would like to adknowledge the art gallery of Don his gallery is of such elequant taste, he features top art, vampire art etc. I am also an art apprieciator and aside from my profession in the nursing field, I do art on the side, when i can find the time I do photography.

Don's is a busy guy, he gets floods of emails, texts on his phone, and his computer has crashed, i can relate, and when your computers crashed, you'll do whatever it takes to get it repaired, especially when you are running a network such as TVD on it.

You'll make it don, Life's a bitch at times, but you got a family here that supports you and your stuff. extending a to you, Don.

As far as fixing crashed computers, if there is on by you, don, go to a store called Best Buy, they have technicions there that can repair your computer problem. if theres not a best buy, then do a search on Yellowpages.com and search for the nearest computer repair nearest you. 'cause the faster the repair, the better off you are in getting things up and running again.

~Laura

Gurls rule (boiz too!)

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 18 May 2008 16:45:16 PDT

I just got back from an event, GULF womyn's event in Tarpon Springs, FL at Anderson Park. It was a cook-out, met lots of new faces. All gurlie's.

it was an all womyn event. for Gay gurls. the gurls that knew me, know I am not gay, Nor straight. I play for both teams and that goes well with them.

I had a blast!!!!!!!!! I saw some gurls that were at the party i attending last time from the church i attend.

I got a lot of new contacts who have other events going on, they told me if i wanted to go let them know they would arrange transportation so i could get to and from them.

As of Thursday of next week, I got invited to a breakfast, same group of gurls i saw today (if you see the pictures, its the one where I am the only one in pink, the rest are wearing white T-shirts.) thats the group of gurls i am refering to, about the invite to breakfast thursday morning.

In june I will be attending a T-dance at Waterside Landing [link] there's also gay pride week in St. Pete,FL
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the rest of the events [link]

I am going to, which all depends on my work schedule.

Pictures of the event i just went to today:

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a grave-yarder's first night at work

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 16 May 2008 05:12:25 PDT

I just got home from work. It's a nice place with people who have a humble attitude, are pleasent to be with and helpful as well.

I had a busy night, as I am a grave-yarder, I work the midnight shift 11pm-7am. Patient care on only 6 patients, thats it. Being that my place of employment is an Adult Living Facility, I don't have to tend to certain details as I did in the previous nursing job I had before this one. I don't have to do vital signs, come in 15 minutes before the shift starts in order to relieve the person from the last shift, rounds with them, as well as the next shift so you can be relieved. I don't have to do any of that.
As I stated, I cared for 6 patients tonight, I was pleased because in the past I've taken care of 20 patients, thats the highest amount I've had. So, 6 is a good number. I am happy with that.

In conclusion, I asked my trainer, who only trained me to orient me to the place, get to know my patients etc. and the rest I did on my own, because I was familar with the work involved.

All in All I was informed that my work performance was good. so I was satified with that answer. I feel I will flurish working here. It's a part time basis, but I don't mind it's a foot in the door and if a full time position is in, well you get the picture.

that's it for now, I am getting a shower and straight to bed.

I got the Job!!!

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 14 May 2008 17:36:45 PDT

hello everyone,

I and my counseler went to a meeting to see the head admin of the place of employment I applied to, glen lodge, assisted living of pasco inc. at 2pm today. I took my guidedog yager because the head admin, she wanted to see yager for herself. She was very pleasent, she fell in love with yager instantly, within 5 minutes of discussion my work situation, i was informed that Yes, i've got the job. .

Because glen lodge's census (the patients taken care of) is so low, it went from having 75 to 50 patients because of the recent deaths going on. I will be caring for the elderly. and since it is an adult living facility I don't have to take vital signs or any medical stuff. (I had to do that at the other place i worked at, so i've been used to it, a medical setting) and I'll work my favouite shift, midnights. 11pm-7am. and the grate thing about this place is I don't have to arrive 15 minutes early or leave 15 min. later and don't have to do rounds with anyone, as i did at the nurisng center i previously worked at.

this place glen lodge is a home like setting very casual. I will have to do laundry, bathe, and keep an eye on the patients every 2 hours. thats about it. so i am exited about it all. and glad that things turned out the way they did. the head admin is an animal lover and showed where to put yager's crate, its in this room for her 7 dogs with theri crates, they come in the day though. so yager crate is there.

on my way out, 2 patients were talking to me and fell in love with yager, they told me we yager and i are welcome to keep them company. thats nice.

I start tommoroow night May 15. 11pm-7am. i was informed that i will start out 2-3 days a week and gradually get more hours/days to work.

thats about it. take care.

*Sunday's Event, May 18,2008*
I am attending an event near me, this will take place in Tarpon Springs, Florida.

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this is an event for all the ladies within New Port Richey, Tarpon Springs, Tampa, Orlando, Florida. its more like a Lilth Fair festival, so i am looking foward to being there. Yes, Its a ladies affair, as well as for their families, pets etc. so Yager (my guidedog) and I will be sure we'll have a blast. I will post pictures of this event ASAP.
Gurls Rule!!!

~Laura

Service animals in the workplace

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 13 May 2008 13:35:35 PDT

Happy belated Mother's day to all the ladies out there.

I just back from another interview gone bad. I went there with my guidedog yager, she is very well-behaved well trained. I filled out the application and afterwards had 2 short interviews. I got asked questions regarding my guidedog, 'would you take yager's crate, the place you keep her in while you are working, would you take it home with you if you where working 12 hour shift 3 days a week??'

I just explained to them I keep yager's crate there at work. personally i don't see any reason why i would need to take the crate home seeing that it is yager's place to stay while i am working and would take her out while i am on brake thats about it as far as that goes.

I was informed by a supervisor who interviewed me that this would have to be looked into for me to have yager my guidedog there. I explained to them that I need yager for outside purposes such as travel and crossing streets etc. not while i am working, thats where the crate would come in to play.

So i filled out the 2nd part of the application and was informed that i would recieve a call back from the ADON asst. director of nursing tommorrow about the hours/shifts would be available to me etc.

I checked it out if I had to pay for a taxi to get there, it would be costly, $25 taxi fair. which isn't worth it considering how my interview was with people who didn't understand the concept of a guidedog/service animal in the workplace and how ignorant there where towards me. Just goes to show how ignorant some people are.

I also got a call back from another place i applied to for a nursing position, whom want me to meet with the head administrator tommorrow in the early afternoon, to discuss my guidedog and based on what the head admin says will determine whether i am hired or not. I was told I still have the job however the final descion rests in the hands of the head admin, that to me doesn't make any sense whatsoever.

Well all i can say is i do have support on this issue, my counsler will accompany me tommorrow and back me up where needed. I have a pamphlet on guidedogs/service animals in the workforce to give out to the head admin for further information to better educate. hopefully if all goes well, i will be celebrating.

and if not then i will fight for my rights. because i won't tolerate being discriminated against all because of a service animal, they are allowed everywhere. i have papers explaining the allowence of service animals. and if prohibited, a law suit is in order and I will fight for my right. i have every right to.

~Laura

Twilight

~LAURA-777 — Sat, 10 May 2008 22:07:38 PDT

One of my favourite authors I like to read is Stephanie Myers

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A film is being made of her novel from her TWlight series, entitled from her first novel from the series, twilight:

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The first thing that came to mind is Don because he could have played the vampire role well in Twlight, since the theme of the film is vampiric. however another actor, Robert Pattinson, will play the role of the vampire in Twilight.

I was thrilled to see that finally a movie is being made out of one of my favouite books.

for more information on the author Stephanie Myers and the novel/film Twilight visit:

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~Laura

Limbo

~LAURA-777 — Fri, 09 May 2008 13:52:49 PDT

I made a phone call to the administrator of the place of employment that hired me to start tonight, to remind her of me arriving there to fill out paper work and to take my crate down for my guidedog Yager in order for to stay in while i work, to take her out only when i am on break etc.

The administrator advised me of her concern about bringing my dog in, that my guidedog wasn't allowed in because of her reason being she thought i was bringing in yager my guidedog just to visit. I had informed the admin. from the first interview, of my guidedog Yager and that i use her for outside travel purposes not while i was working, that yager is a very well trained service dog etc. In the past I've had no problem with people understanding the situation. However, in this particular case now, the admin was adiment, and wasn't going to hire me because of my guidedog.

I called two sources within my support system, told them of the situation, asked them to contact the place of employment and explain to them the concept of having a guidedog in the workplace. So they did. I recieved a phone call back from my source saying that I won't start tonight but will recieve a phone call from the admin. who spoke with her boss about the situation. The admin. called me back informing me that she spoke to her boss and that sometime next week I will be notified to go in person and meet with her so that she can see yager my guidedog and speak to me, so that she can make the final descion as whether to hire me or not.

As of right now, the situation is in limbo. I feel discriminated against because of people's ignorance. They don't understand and ask questions that are out of line to begin with. I do beiieve that things happen for some reason or another. So, hopefully this will turn out that I do get hired because they need me not because they feel obligated to do so.

I contacted the school where I got yager at southeasten guidedogs in Palmetto, fl and informed them of the situation for them to contact this place of employment re-assure them it's the law for them to allow people with service animals anywhere, and if not serious measures can be taken as a result. I have papers, stating in black and white about the allowence of service animals and the measures taken if I am prohibited. I carry them with me in case such a situation as this arises.

that's it for now. In conclusion, i feel disappointed, let down. I know it's because of people's ill-knowlege and ignorance that causes such misunderstanding in a case as this. All i can do now is do my best and with the sources I have in my support system to bring this out in the best positive manner possible in order to get hired. etc.

~Laura

TVD and Nursing

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 08 May 2008 15:29:09 PDT

I recieved a phone call from one of my sources within my support system here where i reside that they contacted the place I applied to in regards to the nursing position, and were told that the adminstrator was undecided as to whether to hire me, I may be over qualified because I have a lisence to practice nursing and since this is an ALF-Adult Living facility and usually ALF's don't need anyone lisenced to work there etc.

I then recieved a phone call later this afternoon from the administrator of the Adult Living Facility who asked if i was still interested in the position? I said I was indeed. So she said alright, you're hired and will start tommorrow night, midnight shift. 11pm-7am.

So I am hired on to work there 3-4 nights a week, part time basis, also was offered as an overtime to work in the kitchen as a dietary aide since they are short in the kitchen and for doing that i will get paid extra.

my schedule now is Friday,Saturday,Sunday and Monday nights. and my days off will be Tuesday-Thursday. so that's good, am estactic about it. This ALF is quite small so I will be given a smaller amount of people to take care of, which is better for me. In the past when I worked for ALF's and even Skilled Nursing centers, and nursing homes I've had to take care of 20 patients. so It will be a grate change to take care of a lesser number of people, plus I will get to attend to them more often and my time won't be spread thin because of the lesser amount. more individualed time.

About the TVD support group update:
Thank you to amy, =TVDzombie for writing a journal [link]

about the TVD support group I created, Thank you for getting the word out there showing support

here are the links for the TVD support group:
Information on TVD support group:

[link]

I would like to thank =alucard07 for the help in creating this fourm:
[link]

for the TVD support group.

take care of yourself, and if you would like to talk to me confidentially please send me a note, grately apprieciated. thank you.

~Laura

TVD Support Group

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 07 May 2008 19:34:51 PDT

I put the idea out there for creating a TVD support group in order to show support and because I have read a lot of journals that I felt needed an outlet to express themselves than just a journal, and more than just a chatline. I wanted to form a support group, I would like it to be offline but that would be less than likely seeing that everyone in the TVD family lives everywhere across the USA and some out of the country. so online it is.

I know that from other people how they feel about it, because i have read their responses, and its very positive, which is grate. i knew it would go well.

The other reason I wanted to form a TVD support group was because though i may not see what others do offline and am not literly there to help them, I can make an impact online in order to bring positivity into their lives and by doing so i feel i have made a difference in their lives as well.

Being that my profession is in the nursing fleid I have taken care of patients who are depressed, lonely, sucidical, homocidal, manic, psycotic, alterzimers, reatorative care and everything in between, so i can sympathize with people in their daily lives and sit down and talk to them, make them smile, feel better as a result. etc.

If we were perfect we wouldn't have problems and get upset, but the reality of the situation is that no one is perfect, yes we do have problems some of us chose to deal with it more drasticly than others, some I have cared for in the past etc. and in caring for people making them feel better giving them options, put a smile on their face, makes me feel as if i have made a grate inpact in their lives, i know i have accomplished something with them. etc. and feel grate about it.

I have written a recent journal on a something that happened to me twice in my life, so in order for me to get it out of my system i wrote about it, [link]

Writing is a more positive outlet its better than doing other things that are harmful and that are detrimental to yourself and health.

here are the links for the TVD support group:
Information on TVD support group:

[link]

I would like to thank =alucard07 for the help in creating this fourm:
[link]

for the TVD support group.

take care of yourself, and if you would like to talk to me confidentially please send me a note, grately apprieciated. thank you.

~Laura

sushi

~LAURA-777 — Sun, 04 May 2008 01:21:35 PDT

out of all the different varities I have ate in Japanese cusine, I love sushi. it's the ultimate.

I go to my favourite Japanese resturant 'kazu's sushi' a resturant thats in the target plaza just across from the mall. it's 10 minutes from where i reside in New port richey, Florida.
a [link]
to my favourite delecacy.

to drink i got iced sweet green tea. no desert. I also drink their saki on occasion, as well as plum wine. grate taste, i love it.

~Laura

A Serious subject

~LAURA-777 — Thu, 01 May 2008 23:37:18 PDT

The following subject I am going to talk about is a serious one that i wish will never happen to me again. Whoever is reading this, may you know and make sure this doesn't happen to anyone you love, please put a halt to this. The maniacs who did this sick act to me, may they rott in hell!!

The subject is Rape.

The first time I was raped was 1998, by my female lover at the time. This happened at her apartment, we had just got back from the movies, it was valentine's day/night and i was spending the night there, at her apartment. She and I were in her bedroom, she gave me a massage. She started slowly putting her fingers in me. She increasingly got more and more aggressive with each thrust. I told her to stop, but my plead fell on her deaf ears. she didn't stop She just continued. until i bled. she had scratched, tore me inside. she loved watching me in escrutiating pain, she got off on it, she felt powerful doing it, i could tell by the expression on her face. no matter how much i pleaded for her to stop, she kept on. humiliating me, telling me 'you can take it, you'll be no virgin no more.' i told her i already lost my virginity. but she didn't listen. Her meaning of losing virginity was on a physical level, not any other. Her actions were animalistic. The morning after, I was in so much pain, i couldn't even go to the bathroom. I felt something run down my leg, it was blood. I was mortified. i cleaned up myself and got home. I felt sick, I felt it was my fault. I felt disgusted. I didn't tell anyone. I didn't go to a doctor, I was terified. Though this happened to me, it didn't change the way i felt about women, I was only disgusted with her, my female lover, I broke it off with her imediately. I felt she was a pig for what she'd done to me.

The 2nd time I was raped, was in 2007. I came down to Ft. Lauderdale to visit a few friends. I stayed with a guy I had known when I was living in Ft. Lauderdale, I was staying at his house for a few days. We were in his bedroom, he was up against me doing his thing, getting off, I tried to get away from him but this guy was 6'5 strong and let up when he was done. I fell asleep. when i awoke, I felt something inside me, when I came too, I realized it was him, his fist up in me while i was asleep. I was livid, i packed my stuff and went home. I wasn't pregnant, good thing, 'cause if i had been I would've had an abortion. I felt sick, disgusted, mortified. I severed all ties with him imediately.

To me, I feel Rape can happen to anyone by anyone, regardless of gender. the saying all guys are rapist, isn't true, because even a woman can be a rapist as well. it happened to me, it could've been fatal, but it wasn't, maybe someone up there, god perhaps was watchng out over me. Anyone could be a rapist, man or woman.

After i was raped twice, by different people, once by my female lover and again my a guy I shortly stayed with. I had feelings of hate, disgust, sadness, I felt sick both physically and emotionally. Being raped didn't change the way i feel about men or women, it did however change the way i feel about my rapists. I hate them. Just because one is raped, doesn't mean they have to be angry at the whole world, because the whole world didn't rape them. Their rapists did. I don't hate the world. I hate my rapists.Rape is a crime and those who do it should be locked up! I agree with Don, when he said in the interview on National Geographic, in the is it real, vampires segment, about people who hunt others and are preditory, should be locked up. I agree with him 100%

~Laura

TVD entry 9: support group

~LAURA-777 — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 22:02:35 PDT

my 9th TVD entry as in Love potion #9

I awoke this morning from a phone-call from the secretary of the funeral home. She informed me that the manager wasn't hiring at the present time and to fill out an app. I explained to her to I had already done so and was told the manager was interested in speaking to me about my goals in regards to the funeral business. My counsler told me that the manager was interested and thats why I called otherwise i wouldn't wasted my time. but my guess, it's obvious that the funeral home manager wasn't interested since he had his secretary call me. so much for mortuary science, they really put the fun in funeral

I have read a lot of journals lately and have discovered that some of the TVD members are having hardships offline about the vampire lifestyle mainly issues/problems with other family members that don't understand the concept of that life, or maybe the question arrises to you from another family member 'why do you partake in TVD, why the interest in vampires?? etc. maybe they're ill-educated or ignorant on the topic and have issues of their own, take it out on you in an unpleasent manner that doesn't need to be.

In fact with the understanding and knowledge of TVD and what it is, they may not depending on their personality perhaps won't be so harsh or violent etc.

I am throwing out there the thought of a TVD support group. and i don't mean a chat line. I mean a fourm for instance. that way if someone has questions or just wants to get something off their chest they can do so by using the support group fourm.

I will see whether I can create my own fourm on my page here, otherwise i will post a note to the TVD fourm about the support group.

I encourage all who read this to post me a comment on your thoughts on TVD support group.

Thank You,

~Laura

TVD and you

~LAURA-777 — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:54:21 PDT

I haven't written in a few days. I got a call from the manager that runs the funeral home across the street from where I live, he runs 5 funeral homes within the state of Florida so he's well off. If all goes well he may offer me a position (paid of course, i have to pay my bills some how.) at the funeral home across from where I live. I have always had an interest in Mortuary Science, for years, before I started my career in the Nursing field. things go well, I will change careers, I've always wanted to work in the funeral business. I have experience with the deseased, I have performed Post Mortem care on several of my patients who died at the nursing center/home i worked at so it's a start.

I was brainstorming again, I thought of some other ways that funds may be raised for TVD. A Dance. or Dances on a monthly basis, of course depending where you lived, which state etc. all proceeds would go to benefit TVD. A dance are fun times and aren't work except where money is concered, collecting it etc. but it's a fun social event to go out enjoy yourself and others as well. It's always a grate way to network as well.

much
~Laura