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I'm more likely to be updating this site with new work as and when it is done so please keep checking it if you are interested in my photography.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/16250613/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/16250613/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 05:51:41 PST
I'm sorry I've not replied to messages, viewed blogs or work for the past gawd know how many months, but as much as I like this site, I have lots more pressing things to organise first so please don't think I'm just being ignorant and with any luck I'll be back to business sometime in the not so distant future.

Until then I shall simply say I hope you all had a great Christmas and that this New Year will be good to you.

Speak soon,

Aimee.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14897002/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14897002/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 10:05:00 PDT

Anywho, not written a blog in a while and seem to have found myself with half an hour spare to write one at long last. Woo!

Today is good. Very good. It's been very productive and I like productive days. Was only in for my course for half an hour today so had time to check out the fresher's fair to hunt down some freebies. Amongst which were free cinema tickets and head phones as well as a rather funky hat and lots and lots of sweets. Also managed to swipe a couple of Starwars and Transformers movie posters for my little brothers...which reminds me, I still need to give them to them. After that I went for a trek, or rather a drive with Kirsty to work some more on this assignment we've been given. I dislike it.

Lots.

Though the other one we have on the go alongside it is pretty interesting. For me at least.

Did my first afternoon at my new temp job today which was a bit of an experience and less intimidating than I thought it would be. I'm doing a 6 week stint at a life drawing class as a nude model at the Blackpool Arts Society. It pays well and I need all the cash I can get for uni. The artists are all very friendly so I didn't feel awkward about anything at all which helped.

I'm also thinking of getting a job working for the Betterware catelog (at least I think it's that one - it just got pointed out to me that some catelog needs people). All I need to do is go round delivering the catelog to people and taking orders for a few hours a week and it also seems to pay a decent wage too. It'll be a pretty handy extra job to have; it's not set on a permenant day basis but I can basically do the hours whenever I want by the looks of it so that'll be good considering I still want to have plenty of time to do my coursework and get on the train to see Andy.

Speaking of who, I just have to say has made me happier than I ever have been with someone and is just, in one word, PERFECT. Thank you Gaz and Dale for taking me down to Derby that first time otherwise I'd probably never have met him. Hopefully I'll be back to see him for a couple of days next weekend. Can't wait.

Sorry, girly moment over....

*ahem,* anyway, also making this a super fantabulous day is the fact that in about 20 minutes, I'm going back to Wushu for the first time in over two sodding months. WOOO!!!! My ankle seems to be a lot better although I still can't quite jump properly again yet but at least I can train my basics again - yayness. Also , Liang is back from filming in Scotland so that also means some exceptional coaching is available again. He keeps telling me to bring Andy down to Blackpool to train with us and to also see, in his words, 'if he is good enough for me.' Haha Liang's a legend and I'm sure he will approve of Andy once he's seen his super sick tricking skills.

Back on to the subject of training I intend on making up for two months injury time and in between the three nights of wushu, I've started up at a gym twice a week to get my cardio up and hoping to start swimming as well.

So yeah, all is stupidly groovy right now. All that's missing is Andy who is miles and miles away but I shall see him soon and then everything will be perfect. Haha jeez I'm turning into a soppy git

I'll shut up now then and leave you with this blog's lyrics which fit oh-so appropriately with the last few days haha

Billy Idol: 'Rebel Yell'

Last night a little dancer came dancin' to my door
Last night a little angel Came pumpin on my floor
She said "Come, baby I got a licence for love
And if it expires pray help from above"
Because

In the midnight hour she cried- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell she cried- "more, more, more"
In the midniight hour babe- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell- "more, more, more"
More, more, more.

She don't like slavery, she won't sit and beg
But when I'm tired and lonely she sees me to bed
What set you free and brought you to be me babe
What set you free I need you hear by me
Because

In the midnight hour she cried- "more, more, m... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14697925/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14697925/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 07:47:08 PDT
Bascially in a nutshell:

*Second day on my degree course and I already got stressed

*Student loans company are dicking me about so so far I'm looking at paying my own tuition fees for the year which I haven't got a cat's chance in hell of paying and also can't get hold of the grant I'm entitled to.

*Too skint to do anything about freshers week so so far being a complete anti-social biatch

*Tiredness always makes me ratty and shit-feeling

*The 'time of the month' approaches *gasp*

*And top it all off my boyfriend had to go back home to Daventry right at the moment I needed someone to cuddle and eat ice cream with.


Thankfully I'm feeling much better today after a much needed hibernation and text messages off the boy so I'm currently rather smiley (although I miss Andy lots and lots)

Keeping myself occupied with sorting out the Website Andy has made for me; gonna be uploading my images onto there as well as DA to hopefully make a little more money than the 4p-a-print I'm gettig off here and to hopefully get me some work (WOHOO!) and also a little research for my course before going off to a flat party this eve for the only freshers action I'm gonna get this week. I missed out on monday's stripper and tuesday's three legged bar crawl, and not likely to make thursday's Sanuk night or Friday's Pendulum gig due to the affore mentioned lack of funds so this I gotta make an appearance at

Anywho, yeah just a brief update there for ya. Ankle is slightly better although still can't train, run or wear high heels damnit. Ahmed has kindly given me a wobbleboard to help strengthen it so with any luck it won't be too much longer til I can be back a-boogying

Other than that I am so far enjoying my photography course but just want the next two weeks to fly by so I get to see Andy again. It sucks that he lives so far apart and I miss him sooooooo much already despite him only leaving about 20 hours ago. Can't wait for October and the train tickets to go with it

So along those lines I give you today's lyrics:

Greenday: "Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14527198/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14527198/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 07:31:42 PDT
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

*I flew a plane before I ever drove a car.

*I once got an ice cube stuck to my tongue....yup yup.

*My boyfriend is the only guy I've ever been in a relationship with to have blonde hair

*I like to scare the shit out of my wushu coach at horror movies

*I LUUUURRRRVE Tomato Sauce but hate tomatoes

*Same with Pickled Onion flavoured crisps

*I'm annoyingly addicted to Minesweeper

*If I lived in America I would kick Epic's ass for tagging me ^,^


Now then....who to pick on.....


Alpha7158
xXNeeny
Seasider
ZenTrickArt
gmo-is-love
AStoneRose
Morty-Madman
Shujiko

Enjoy the annoyance guys

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14420841/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14420841/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 05:35:55 PDT
Groovy.

Last night I had an awesome time out with the Wushu crew and hope to do the same on Saturday with the college buds. We started out in Scrooges where, despite my protestations and want of non-alcoholic drinks, the bad influences of people who are supposed to ‘set the younger generation an example’ were determined to get me wasted so I ended up with a few more vodkas than wanted. Apparently it is compulsory to get legless on your 18th. Thankfully that much wasn’t forced down my neck and thanks to about 7 or 8 pints of water afterwards (that soddin’ made me piss all night) I stayed happily and gently merry and therefore am blessed with a clear head this morning. Wohoo!

We were in Nellie Deans Karaoke Bar for a couple of hours as Kerry was determined that we were going to sing before hitting Sanuk. She got up and belted out Celine Dion, ‘My Heart Will Go On’ and absolutely gobsmacked the lot of us with her voice. Can’t believe I had to follow that with a drunken version of ‘Johnny B. Goode’ to which I didn’t actually even know all the lyrics – Ha! Good laugh though despite the annoying compere who decided we would have to wait to sing so he could accommodate for the other girls who wanted to take the mic and coincidentally were getting their tits out.

Sanuk was the last port of call til closing time and we managed to get some dancing done and even some Wushu tricks on the dance floor courtesy of the more sober amongst us, namely Liang and Ahmed.

I must say there is something very satisfying in being able to turn around and prove to the bouncers on the door that I am in actual fact 18 despite the fact I really don’t look my age at all. I can’t believe Addi didn’t get ID’d once. She may be 14 but damnit she could easily pass for 19/20. I WANT HER BOOBIES!!!

Then again I very much doubt that bouncers would expect to find a 14-year-old girl out drinking with 18-40 year olds.

Either way it was a great night despite the amount of times weird foreign guys attempted to dance with me and buy me drinks and I am definitely looking forward to Saturday night with the college crew. I may have to be a bit of a party pooper and sneak off rather prematurely for someone who’s out celebrating their 18th (again) but tis an early start on Sunday and I need my beauty sleep.

Kerry has last night’s party pics but unfortunately is off travelling now so I probably can’t get hold of those for a week or two but as soon as I have them within my tiny little grasp I shall upload them.

So anywho, that’s about it as far as last night is concerned. It was nice that Ahmed and Richard could come up town with the rest of us – apparently it’s much nicer clubbing in Blackpool than it is in London and a great deal cheaper which I can imagine. I think they are leaving with Beau on Saturday afternoon so won’t make that little piss up but hopefully they’ll all be back up north sometime soon for some more of Liang’s excellent coaching. As well as taking newly acquired Wushu skills back home with them, they have also learned some northern terminology with which to delight their friends in the form of ‘stench trench’ and ‘axe wound.’ I must say I’m surprised that these rather disgusting dysphemisms haven’t reached down south. Well, until now anyway. Ha. We are slowly corrupting the rest of the UK outside of Blackpool MWUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Anywho, today’s plan is to chill. I am absolutely knackered and a day in renting movies with friends sounds like a plan and a half to me.

Now then, all we need are lyrics for last night…. Mmmm……let me see…..

Not exactly an accurate depiction of last night’s festivities but a great song to party to nonetheless and still lurking on my myspace profile…

Ladies and gents, piss heads and stoners, I give you Chumbawumba and ‘I Get Knocked Down’

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing
I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away
He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:
"Oh Danny Boy
... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14348524/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14348524/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 11:58:55 PDT





Either way, the last couple of weeks have been stupidly fantastic. Amsterdam, although not being my ideal holiday what with the whole fact that I neither smoke, do drugs or seem to even want to drink these days, was a good experience nonetheless and I wouldn't mind going back again sometime even just to do a bit of shopping (awesome stuff over there). After that it was a mad dash to sort myself out for Devon which believe it or not was a hella lot better than three days abroad. I met some really cool people and got to know others better whilst watching some extremely kick ass tricks going down. The sauna was definitely the best way to wake up in the morning followed (very tenderly at first) by the freezing cold plunge pool which after actually experiencing is probably the best thing since sliced bread (although to be honest sliced bread isn't all it's cracked up to be).






There was a lot of nudity going on for some reason throughout the weekend, perhaps showing an unconscious want by most of the guys there for an all male orgy but sadly all they got were a few naked people running through the field either fetching water, tricking, pushing an ever so slightly smashed Tim in a wheelbarrow or generally taking the opportunity to make as many people touch their genitalia as possible. Pictures are plentiful for any who wish to purchase them for blackmailing purposes.






The Apple War was also a huge success, resulting in lots of apple shaped bruises and the complete destruction of all the apples on Joe's farm. Basically it was 'Capture the Flag' but with apples for ammo rather than the more traditional paintballs with which to pelt each other. Pictures are lurking somewhere on my myspace profile if you want a gander and here is video footage of the whole demented hilarity thanks largely to Chris:



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However this little weekend did also provide an educational purpose – we all discovered that lilos are much better to kip on than grass, and at £2.50 each I'm pretty sure between us we all managed to clear the stock of the local holiday shop.






My ankle stopped me from doing any tricking so I was left stretching for the majority of the time which is never good in so much quantity – left the first gym session feeling stupidly loose and as though my legs were made of jelly. Ah well at least I'm that little bit more flexible. Seriously though my ankle is really driving me mental right now. It's been over a month now and I still can't put any weight on my toes. I can do about two kicks on one leg and that's about as far as my training has been able to go for the last four weeks. No jumps, no stances, no forms, no serious kicking. I'm supposed to be competing in September but in all honesty I really can't see it happening. Even if my ankle is sorted by then I don't want to go into competition without having trained for the last two months. My form and fitness are going to have suffered so much. I can't explain how much it sucks going from training six nights a week to being left with nothing but stretching. I think I'm gonna have to get some kind of physio on it because I really can't stand it anymore.






Anyway let's not grumble too much eh? Other than that life is pretty damn good and last weekend has so far been the best EVER. The only thing that is likely to surpass it any time soon is the weekend coming up – I can't believe I'm finally going to be 18!!!! It's sucked being underage for the entire summer but at long last it's here. Friday the 31st 2007 is finally within sight. I'm going out to the theatre with my brother Tom and mum to watch 'Chicago' and then hitting the town on Saturday night for a joint 18th with Mark so looks like there's gonna be a hell of a lot of people invading town centre that night. Thankfully I still seem to be off alcohol so I'm in no danger of getting stupidly wankered and sleeping in on Sunday and missing my damn train. Going off to see the first person ever to give me a bunch of flowers and make me grin like a twat whenever I think about them so I can't wait for that xD






Gonna be a good'un this year I reckon. Can't fucking wait.






Anywho I best be off; the Wushu team are entering in a Dragon Boat Race in September and I've got some kind of meeting for it to be at in half an hour... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14194824/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14194824/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 11:23:12 PDT


The hostel we stayed at was in a great location, right next to the Red Light District and Dam Square but was a bit expensive really…will have to find somewhere else next time I reckon. Being the only person who went who doesn't smoke I had an amusing time watching everyone else getting stupidly stoned in the coffe shops until it came to my turn in trying a ridiculously potent space cake. ARRRRRGGHH!!!! NEVER AGAIN!!! In all honesty, although the cake was tasty I fucking hated the 'after effects' and never plan to get stoned ever again.



Naturally the lads enjoyed the Red Light District immensely and we ended up wandering around the place in circles all night until they were satisfied they had perved on every scantily clad woman in sight. Not many of them took my fancy really… honestly didn't find many of them that attractive except for perhaps the woman in the tartan mini skirt. I was trying to convince the guys that instead of forking out for a hooker, they should just go out and pull one of the very many hot girls in a club – that way it's free….d'uh. Bloody men eh?



On our last night and with only 10 euros between us, I managed to blag the four of us into a club for free, saving us the 20 euros that we didn't have. Was a small place but the beer was pretty good…so it must have been REALLY good because I don't actually like beer…Must say there were one or two yummy looking Chinese guys in there



Anywho, Alana took us to a few cool places she'd been to before on her previous travels there including a coffee shop called 'Lost' which she'd ironically been trying to find for the whole trip. With our last 6 Euros she got us a Hookah (and by 'us' I mean Chris, Jack and herself) so they all got nicely high on that while we chilled in the shop window on a big carpet and bean bag thingies. I managed to get some quality photos there, which, along with the rest of the holiday pics will probably be up when I get back from Devon next week. The owner of the place asked if I could email them to him so he could use them in the advertising for his shop so again once I'm back from Devon I'll email those out to him. Should ask him for payment really but I don't really care in this case – they are good but essentially just quick holiday photos so he can have them anyway…. I'm nice like that see



So yeah was a quality holiday (will defo have to go back sometime for a shopping spree – fucking fantastic shops there). The only set back was the return flight home when Alana got stopped and searched after dinging a red light on the scanner. Turns out she had forgotten to smoke all the weed she'd bought from the coffee shop so when the searcher pulled out a bag of the stuff from her back pocket the police came over. Since it was just a tiny amount and had obviously happened before with people forgetting they had it in their jeans, they just confiscated the stuff and let us catch our flight so yay. Got annoyed with the searcher though – after stuff was found on Alana they checked the rest of our group and the soddin woman would not leave me alone. I have weird zip things on the pockets of my jeans that make the seam look big and as though I have something in them so naturally she thought I had a concealed part in my pockets and kept searching the dam things til she was finally satisfied. I s'ose the whole thing killed more of the time that would otherwise be spent lounging around an airport waiting to board so tisn't all bad



Anywho, after unpacking, washing and repacking I'm now all set to trundle of to Devon tomorrow morning with Chris and Ben to apparently do some tricking but in all honesty I doubt I'll be doing much. My ankle is still being a tit and I don't wanna risk fucking it up more as I have a competition in September so I imagine I'll be spending most of my time stretching and getting some more action shots so it won't be wasted journey ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14120849/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14120849/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 14:44:03 PDT
Have fun deviating folks and hopefully I shall return with mucho photos for all you lovely people xD


Until then, ta-raa me lovelies ^_^

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14037730/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/14037730/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 02:50:52 PDT
So yup, just gonna be a quickie. Basically in a nutshell summer has thus far been groovy (yes I've started saying that damned word again). The family holiday in Scarborough was surprisingly good. The rain managed to stay away for the most part except for when the parents took my brothers to Filey for the day and got caught in a mother of a flood….glad I missed that one out, I'd rather not get waist deep in sewage water ta

Managed to get some good photos, most of them are in my, surprise surprise, 'holiday pics' album but I managed to get some really nice portraits of my brothers done and some other stuff that I've whacked up in 'ortraits' and 'miscellaneous' for anyone who wants something to do (go comment hint hint).

Speaking of photos I've had a lot of requests lately for photoshoots so I'm hoping to be busy with those for the rest of the summer whilst I'm actually about; off to Amsterdam next Sunday then to Devon the Friday after with just enough hours in between to wash the smalls and get my A Level results. So with any luck the time around that will be earning me some much needed money.

In other random news I managed to bugger up my ankle on Monday doing a double leg over some mats. Bloody hurt but thankfully it's just a really bad sprain. I can just about walk on it now so I'm getting fewer 'hopalong' jokes from my bro than I was yesterday. Just been told by the doc no sports for a couple of weeks so hopefully I'll be reet for some tricking in Devon, despite the fact I can't exactly do much anyway…ah well, I'll be taking my camera down anywho taking photos for people so my being there doesn't feel completely pointless

It does mean however that I can't do any wushu for a while which in all honesty I'm really gutted about, especially since I drag my sorry ass to training every day anyway. So instead of jumping about in training I am spending the time to get some more photos for the club as they want some kind of web page doing which is most likely gonna end up being a myspace page, and also just stretching for the two hours. I've decided I really want to learn contortionism so my friend Addi and I are getting help from a chinese lady who comes down to wushu every now and again. She is stupidly bendy and hopefully is gonna make us like that so yaaay!!!


Not much else to add to the quickie really other than 'Transformers' is awesome, the sun has returned and swimming is very good for sore ankles. Yup.



Lyrics today are Nelly Furtado – 'Maneater'




Everybody look at me, me
I walk in the door you start screaming
Come on everybody what chu here for?
Move your body around like a nympho
Everybody get your necks to crack around
All you crazy people come on jump around
I want to see you all on your knees, knees
You either want to be with me, or be me!

[Chorus]
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, real hard in love
She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all!

[Verse 2]
And when she walks she walks with passion
when she talks, she talks like she can handle it
when she asks for something boy she means it
even if you never ever seen it
everybody get your necks to crack around
all you crazy people come on jump around
you doing anything to keep her by your side
because, she said she love you, love you long time!

[Chorus]
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, real hard in love
She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all!

[Chants]

[Chorus]
Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
make you fall, real hard i... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13715520/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13715520/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 02:11:57 PDT Whatever will I do?!?!?!?!


Yup, on holiday with the family for a week so sorry if I don't reply to any comments. I shall return everything as soon as I am able.


Ta-taa folks

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13603687/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13603687/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 07:57:03 PDT
First thing to get out of the way though over the summer is this wushu demo at the St Annes gala. We’re doing the parade with the Lions…not entirely what’s happening with that to be honest but I’m not a lion so I don’t suppose it really matters. All I do know is that after the parade we are doing a Lion performance at Mr Chow’s restaurant then the main Wushu demo is at 2:30 in Ashton Gardens.

My lil bro Andy has a footy tournament on the same day so my dad will be taking him to that but otherwise I think my mum and other two brothers will be coming down to watch… In all honesty I think my dad is probably relieved he has to take Andy to his tournament instead. He hates martial arts and loathes the fact that I do it. Quite gutting really when your own dad says he refuses to ever support you in your biggest passion; I remember the day he told me he would never watch me compete, even if I got into the Olympics with it. Fuck that hurt. If I ever have a comp coming up and ask if they wanna take me down and watch me it’s always the same response. He uses the excuse a lot that it’s my little brothers’ turn for sports. I used to play football for about 7 years with my bro Tom, and keeps reminding me that he ferried me around for all that time and I’m being selfish always pestering for him now to take me to wushu competitions…. I could understand if I competed every week but I’m sure one soddin day every 3 months isn’t going to fuck up his timetable ya know? I don’t even compete every 3 months any more. I’m hardly at competitions these days, but even when on the rare occasion one crops up he says he can’t take the time out. I do understand and appreciate that he is busy and two of my younger brothers still have football matches and training that he needs to accommodate for, but seriously, in the three years or so I’ve done wushu for the guy has NEVER seen me compete and just doesn’t seem to ever want to… lack of time is just an excuse in my opinion. Mum doesn’t seem to overly care about it either in all honesty. The only reason they are coming on Saturday is coz they can take my little brothers around the gala. It fucking sucks and pisses me off so much but if I ever mention it I just get an earful off my dad. Honestly I think it’s pretty damn pathetic that my dad is letting his own problems and issues regarding martial arts get in between his relationship with his daughter. Don’t think he quite realizes how much it actually upsets me.

Anyway I’ll stop ranting.

In other random blogginess, I’m off to the Town Hall tonight for some kind of something or other. I got nominated to receive the Quayle Trophy for sports and after a couple of interviews and other malarkey apparently I’ve got a runner’s up prize so I’m off down there to get that tonight. Not a clue what it is but if any money is involved then that is fine by me haha – all helps to go towards Amsterdam :] Don’t think it will be somehow… I’ll probably be as disappointed as the majority of people at the college’s award night – a load of ballache for a thirty pound book voucher! Ha! Half the students in that room don’t read so a load of good that did em. Was well chuffed I didn’t suffer that fate (not that I don’t enjoy a good book), I got a cheque for a hundred quid and a trophy instead, much to the annoyance of many people sat round my table haha. Ah well doesn’t that just show how materialistic we all are these days? I should just be happy that I’ve achieved something, not the prizes you get for doing it. But let’s face it, no one can frown at a cheque :] ….I just can’t be arsed with all the formality.

Ah well all is good though, apart from my once again self-imposed abstinence from nights out :[ All this saving up means sadly I’m yet again having to cut down on the drunken nights spent in the Tache and other alcohol-selling places. Shall be well worth it though. The way it’s looking I may be flying alone to Amsterdam, Chris says he and Jack are flying from Birmingham and we aren’t sure who else is going to be coming right now so unless I can get to Brummy for the plane I’m setting off from Manchester and flying on ma onesie. You just know I’m going to wind up somewhere daft like Quebec instead…

Anywho, think that’s about it for today’s blog so I shall leave ye with the week’s lyrics and I’m sure I’ve used these before but what the hey they work for me…

PINK – “YOU AN... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13480966/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13480966/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 05:27:25 PDT
In other news I’m hoping to get a tattoo after the summer when I get some money, I’m just not entirely sure what I want to get done. I know that I want some kind of black and white phoenix design. I love the idea of a powerful, fiery and free creature. The idea of resurrection also reminds me that although things may sometimes seem bad, life literally does go on and there’s nothing for you to do but learn from your mistakes and go along with it in all your blazing glory and enjoy life as it comes. The symbol of a phoenix also has more personal meanings to me but I’m not going to go into those on here. The question however is size and location. It’s either;

a) Going to be fairly small and be on the back of my neck and not reaching lower that the beginning of my back.

Or….

b) going to be a large back piece with the wings and head being at the top of my back and spreading across my shoulder blades, with the rest of the body/tail trailing down my spine to the base, staying long and thin (literally following my spine).

I’m just not sure which to go for. I think at the moment I’m heading towards the back piece because I like the idea of the phoenix following my spine as though everything it symbolises is the backbone of my life. In a more vain way it will also make for pretty good photoshoots haha. The only thing is, I’m not sure how it will look in my usual strappy tops etc as unfortunately it’s a little illegal for everyone to walk around in all their naked glory. I don’t know if just seeing bits of black ink poke out from underneath my top will look messy and just generally not as nice as your usual smooth skin. But I suppose I’m seeing that again in a bit more of a vain way – I shouldn’t care if tattoos would put off a guy/girl because at the end of the day that is who I am. I like tattoos and I like piercings so if I find someone who makes me feel like I can’t express myself then there’s really no point in being with them. Personally I like the idea of my back looking like it has wings popping out of the shoulder blades so I suppose it’s tough luck if they don’t eh?

I think my main put-off from getting it done is regretting it. I swear I have a split personality; one day I might feel like I wanna get my body pierced and tattooed, dye my hair a crazy colour and look like a dyke punk. Other days though I’ll want to be girly – I’ll wear dresses and do my hair and nails and just generally try and look pretty. I guess I’m just wondering if a tattoo that big would stop me from having my girly moments haha. But then again although I want a large piece I also want it to look delicate and feminine so maybe it won’t be such a problem. Most of the time anyway I find myself lurking in between the realms of girly and dyke punk and generally settle for alternative style or coloured clothing but which actually looks fairly normal or feminine anyway. So I guess it wouldn’t matter….

Sorry about this, I’m kinda just debating with myself and typing what pros and cons come into my head.

Either way though I think I am pretty much settled that I want the large back piece doing. I can see in my head the exact design I want, I’ll just have to find someone who has the skills to draw it out for me to give to a tattoo artist. Anyone reckon they could give it a shot, or failing that point me out a good tattooist?

I’ll see if I can get both the small and large pieces drawn out and then I’ll post another blog and see what you reckon I should get (but in all honesty I think my mind’s made up anyway…just curious as to what y’all might think).

Tattoos aside, it’s my 18th on August 31st and I plan to make a right proper night of it. I had planned on going paintballing before the oncoming slaughter of alcohol however I’m not sure if either I or other people will have the money to do both. So unless we find out otherwise it’s a case of get your party shoes on and booze money ready and come out for a drink Do a wee but of pub crawling then once midnight comes hit the clubs with my newly liberating legal age – WOOT! And since it’s probably going to be my last night o... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13434993/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13434993/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 15:38:45 PDT


Simple:



*Global warming = Hottest summer yet!

*End of college means this is gonna be the longest Summer I ever get!

*Starting Driving

*Getting lessons paid for

*Left over money helping to pay the insurance

*Turning 18

*Getting car for 18th

*Winning £100 for a poem that took 5 minutes to write

*Family holiday

*UK Gathering in Devon

*Holiday to Amsterdam with mates

*Getting paid for Photo shoots and getting the luckiest break EVER!!!

*Hopefully getting Hannah's ass up here to Blackpool for a few days

*Only having to work one day a week

*Finally landing a double leg!!

*Wushu Demo and competitions



And generally lots of sunshine, partying and groovyness all round!!!!



Very short blog but I'm feeling that soddin brill that I just had to say something



Haha.



Loves and shizz to all and to all a happy fuckin' summer!!!!!!!



WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!







Lyrics, lyrics lyrics….where are the lyrics…..?



Blame my random hyper mood for this, oh and Mike and Chris for singing this non stop through town centre :]



Lemon Demon: "The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny"



Old Godzilla was hopping around
Tokyo City like a big playground
when suddenly Batman burst from the shade
and hit Godzilla with a Batgrenade
Godzilla got pissed and began to attack
but didn't expect to be blocked by Shaq
who proceeded to open up a can of Shaq Fu
when Aaron Carter came out of the blue

and he started beating up Shaquille O'Neal
then they both got flattened by the Batmobile
but before it could make it back to the Batcave
Abraham Lincoln popped out of his grave
and took an AK47 out from under his hat
and blew Batman away with a rat-a-tat-tat
but he ran out of bullets and he ran away
because Optimus Prime came to save the day

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny

Godzilla took a bite out of Optimus Prime
like Scruff McGruff took a bite out of crime
and then Shaq came back covered in a tire track
but Jackie Chan jumped out and landed on his back
and Batman was injured, and trying to get steady
when Abraham Lincoln came back with a machete
but suddenly something caught his leg and he tripped
Indiana Jones took him out with his whip

then he saw Godzilla sneaking up from behind
and he reached for his gun which he just couldn't find
'cause Batman stole it and he shot and he missed
and Jackie Chan deflected it with his fist
then he jumped in the air and did a summersault
while Abraham Lincoln tried to pole vault
onto Optimus Prime, but they collided in the air
then they both got hit by a Care Bear Stare, oooh

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown...

angels sang out in immaculate chorus
down from the heavens descended Chuck Norris
who deliver a kick which could shatter bones
into the crotch of Indiana Jones
who fell over on the ground, writhing in pain
as Batman changed back into Bruce Wayne
but Chuck saw through his clever disguise
and he crushed Batman's head in between his thighs

then Gandalf the Grey and Gandalf the White and
"Monty Python and the Holy Grail"'s Black Knight and
Benito Mussolini and The Blue Meanie and
Cowboy Curtis and Jambi the Genie
Robocop, the Terminator, Captain Kirk, and Darth Vader
Lo Pan, Superman, every single Power Ranger
Bill S. Preston and Theodore Logan,
Spock, The Rock, Doc Ock, and Hulk Hogan
all came out of no where lightning fast
and they kicked Chuck Norris in his cowboy ass
it was... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13351338/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13351338/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 04:29:00 PDT
I have my French listening and reading exam in just under two hours, not entirely sure how to revise for that one so I’ve found myself blogging instead.

On the training front things aren’t looking too good. Now that I’ve finished college I don’t receive my £30 a week EMA anymore so relying on a £150 a month job to pay for over £100 pounds worth of monthly training isn’t leaving much in the way of saving up for the many things I need to. As a result I think I’m going to have to cut from 5 nights a week to three: Monday night for the tricking, Thursday for Wushu basics and Sunday for Wushu forms. Unfortunately I work on the day that Liang does the tumbling classes and the lack of funds will mean I will have to totally forget about Capoeira for the foreseeable future I’d hoped to get a second job over the summer but I have exams until the end of the month and then two weeks after that I’m on holiday and then at the beginning August I’m hoping to get down to Devon for the UK Gathering so I don’t think an employer is likely to appreciate my sporadic availability. Unfortunately I can’t get any extra hours at my current job so unless I get some more photography work (I’m hoping to get more once Chirag’s dad helps sort me out with his stuff) then I’m probably just going to have to work for my dad for pretty much peanuts. Ah well some money is better than none eh?

On a more positive note I finally started landing a double leg on the floor at gym on Monday. At the moment I’m using a block and mats to give me a target to jump over but I’m hoping I’ll still be able to do it once they are taken away and I’m left with open space. Chris is getting on well… first few times he tries it the bastard goes and lands a flash kick and almost gets corkscrew….haha.

At the moment in Wushu Liang is sorting us out for a demo in St Annes for some sort of Gala. We’re doing a team form that I can’t help but feel will look horrible due to the fact we not only have only about 6 more classes to completely learn a form, but also learn it well and manage to perform it in time with the six other people around us. After that Joe and I are doing our own competition forms and we’re hoping to try and re-learn our old Duilian form with spear and broadsword… considering the afore mentioned lack of funds restricting the amount of training I can do…I just know I’m gonna screw something up haha. If only I had a large grass garden to train on instead of the small concrete slab I have…

Complete change of subject, but last night I discovered my dad’s awesome record collection. My granddad brought round the record player he had borrowed and dad decided to air out the vinyl. The guy has some good taste. The Cult, Whitesnake, Siouxsie and the Banshess, All About Eve, Spear of Destiny, The Mission, Sisters of Mercy…. I’m so smuggling the lot into my room once I’ve found space for the player haha.

Speaking of rock music, Sanuk seems to be trying to take on the Tache in doing Thursday rock nights. Was hoping to get out and watch Mason’s band and Amy’s band play but then I kinda remembered I had several exams a few hours later. Grrr…
As soon as these damn things are over I can spend some time figuring out how the hell I’m supposed to make money for a three-week winter training trip to China, spending money for my holiday next month, driving lessons, general training fees and all the other usual requirements of a teenage girl who happens to be (according to her dad) unhealthily obsessed with training.
…Lottery?


Anywho, an hour and a half til my French exam… ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13216418/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13216418/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 14:43:50 PDT



After acquiring a full sized poker table not so long ago I thought it was high time I get some mates around for a poker night. It was a good laugh and we're hoping to do it regularly now so if anyone wants to come over the next one's probably going to be on Sunday. The best part has to be the fact that the people who couldn't actually play poker to begin with seemed to be winning all the time haha.




The college prom was on last Friday but being completely skint meant I had to swap that for the Tache's Pirate night. Glad I did. Cheaper entry, cheaper vodka, no need to spend a fortune on a dress and also bumped into Gel who made a rather sexy pirate




On Wednesday and Thursday I went to Layton institute with two of my little bro's (Andy and Phil) for their football presentation and got some photos of them with their trophies. Bit disappointed that out of all the awards going to each age group there was nothing for top goal scorer as they would both have won it. Apparently there's some other less formal presentation going on sometime in the next couple of weeks and top goal scorer will be awarded there so tisn't too bad I suppose.




After seeing Andy get his trophies on the Wednesday I toddled off to Kirkham to Chris's for a bit of a drink with people. My god I want to steal that guy's garden. I wish I had that much grass to train on whenever I wanted. All I have is a concrete slab. Yippee. Was a pretty good night, especially the random, half drunken trek to Tescos to buy a big bottle of vodka that never actually got drunk haha. It seems I may have drank a little more than I usually do as on the Wednesday I got my first hangover. So far in life I've always managed to go out, get a bit pissed and never have to put up with being hungover in the morning. I blame the energy drink I was having with it haha.




Unfortunately, despite feeling a little bit delicate I ended up waking up stupidly early at about 6 by Gel who'd been up and about since 4:30 the crazy person. Thankfully though I got back to sleep. Well, until he woke me up again. Grrrr…. We had to get back to his to sort out the BBQ before people started to arrive there so after much persuasion I somehow managed to drag my sorry ass out of bed. Eventually.




The BBQ was fun, the fire was a bitch to keep going and the sausages were, to put it nicely, grim, but the on the plus side the burgers were gorgeous and I got to nurse my hangover chillin in the sun on one of those chair swing things, so all in all, can't complain




I got back home in time to go watch Phil's presentation with the scummiest family of Chavs ever sat behind us effing and blinding about all the kids which I thought was a little more than pathetic, but hey, what can ya do? Some people just never grow up.




Last night I went to the Royal Oak in Poulton to go watch Mason's band T.E.P.O.D.D with Alex, Gel and Mark, the latter of who explained to everyone the delights of a Turbo Shandy, showed us his prowess at pitch and toss, as well as mooning everyone… like you do (There ya go mate – there's your sentence you wanted haha). Twas a good night and I'm so glad Mason persuaded me to go talk to Gel outside before he left I now have my very own Viking Pirate haha.




Getting home was a goddamned quest. It takes about an hour to walk from Poulton back to mine but it took us over 2 sodding hours. Mr Palmer decided to traipse us round loads of 'shortcuts' just to end up at his and take us 40 minutes to even get out of Poulton, then there were the guys who had to stop and piss every five mintues, all the band gear slowing us down and then our little detour to Max's so the lads could have a soddin fag. Muppets. Ah well, we got home eventually and like I said it was a good night. Got to know the other guys in the band better which was cool. I dread to think what time all the lads got in after walking Alex and I home. It was quarter to 2 by the time I got back so it must have taking some of them til about 4 or something stupid to walk b... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13071462/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/13071462/ Thu, 24 May 2007 03:51:07 PDT
The competition was a spectacular shambles. There was a much bigger turn out for the wushu than I had thought there would be. There must have been at least 50 competitors in total and being used to the turn outs at the WKA it’s no wonder I was a bit surprised. Unfortunately the organisation was terrible – the competition was only broken up into three categories; traditional, contemporary and weapons. No other division was made and so I found myself doing contemporary wushu in a category that neither separated styles, gender or age. Ah well, it was still a good experience and enjoyable to watch the standards of elsewhere. I think the highest scoring competitor was a girl from Holland who did a tiger form. It was absolutely amazing. Unlike most of the other higher level competitors, her basics and stances etc were just as brilliant as her tricks and I think was the only competitor to score over 9.0. Although I know I could have done better, I’m happy with my score of 8.7 and after watching back the footage I can see a massive improvement from my standard in Spain. Everything is so much faster and sharper (thanks for your help Liang). Hopefully I’ll be able to get the footage off Chris and get Gaz to host it on the Kyukodo site then get it whacked on here.

On the Sunday I did a seminar with Wu Bin, which although interesting didn’t really teach me anything I didn’t already know (but then again with a class of about 70 strangers to teach, you’re gonna want to start with the basics eh?). We did however learn a new form which I’ll have to teach Liang so he can teach the rest of the class next time I go training (which unfortunately probably won’t be til next week thanks to an extreme lack of funds til payday grrr….).

It was also nice to finally meet Chris’s girlfriend Claire who’d I’d only met briefly once when we were both rather pissed so it was good to have some sober conversation haha. We met up with her when we arrived at the coach station in Victoria and spent literally about an hour wandering around in circles to find the hotel which was actually 5 minutes away around the corner

All in all it was a top weekend spent with some good mates – can’t go wrong with that eh?

Monday’s open gym class is getting crowded again so Kenny’s had to make us all start booking in advance again goddamnit… ah well – at least it will mean we can actually have a decent amount of floor space with fewer people there. Didn’t really get chance to work on as much as I would have liked but hopefully I’ll be able to next time. Ben has started coming down from Lancaster to do the classes and is feckin awesome – double cork wtf?!?!?! Haha.

Was also nice as well to get a message off Gaz the other day too inviting me onto the team so despite not being able to do as many tricks as I want I must be doing something right eh? What can I say – Wushu is my forté but hopefully my tricking will get better with practice.

My god I actually played football yesterday! Not played in years and god have I missed it. To be honest I was seriously surprised I could still kick a ball straight but turns out I’ve still got it haha After that I went back to Matt and Dale’s to be ganged up on in arguments about photography and innuendo as well as the spelling of my name grrr… haha twas a good laugh and I enjoyed the night – particularly the ease at which Matt can dig himself a hole

Anywho I’m absolutely knackered; I need sleep, like, now, but unfortunately I have to go back to college in half an hour for an English class and then Yoga. Due to my lack of funds to get me to training tonight I thought I’d give Yoga a go seeing as it’s free ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12962045/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12962045/ Tue, 15 May 2007 06:31:16 PDT
One thing that I’m starting to think about are the things that have been said to my mother about me by several mediums/clairvoyants/tarot readers etc. They all have said the same thing. At first I just saw it as a little bit of fun and didn’t particularly take it seriously. Now I’m not so sure. I dunno. Like I said, maybe I’m just having one of those days…

I’ve been having some extremely fortuitous phone calls lately. If all works out well, by the time uni or maybe even summer comes I could be looking at having 1000’s of pounds worth of top-notch photography equipment as well as my own business making more money than I have ever imagined. I know this may sound like someone has built my hopes up and that they will probably come crashing down on me, but I have no reason to doubt him. He is the father of a friend with the equipment and financing available to help me out and for that I am extremely grateful. Ideally I think he wanted this for his son, but his life is set around martial arts rather than photography and so I have been lucky enough to receive this opportunity instead. I have no idea how accurate the figures are that he has been telling me but my god, if this works out to plan I could be minted by the time I hit 18. We have agreed to wait until after college is over to begin sorting things out. So in a few weeks time I shall be toddling off to Leciester to check out exactly what’s being offered and see some actual figures in terms of earnings. When he was telling me a rough estimate for everything over the phone I was gobsmacked. I can’t believe that I could be earning so much in a career I absolutely love. I suppose I could be getting a bit carried away here but you know what? I don’t care. If it all works out this could be the luckiest break of my life. If not, what have I lost? Nothing. It’s his time and his money that is being put into this and I can not express how truly overwhelmed I feel with what I have been offered. If this goes to plan I have landed on my feet better than I ever thought possible.

Maybe it’s a false hope or just simply coincidence that this should happen right after two more mediums my mother has seen claim that I am going to be extremely successful in life. It all depends though if it’s worth it. Something else they said is that although I will extremely successful, I will apparently become very cold. I will do what needs to be done in order to achieve my goals. Yes I will succeed, but I will push many people away in the process. I hope I never reach a point where my pursuit for wealth and success ever overcomes who I am as a person. I don’t want to turn into one of those black suited businesswomen who take no time out for a social life or family. I don’t care how successful I may get, I still want to take the time to fall in love and be happy emotionally as well as materially.

I’ve had fun being single. But to be honest I’m getting a bit bored of one night stands and empty sex that just doesn’t mean anything. Sure everyone could do with a good lay every now and again but it’s always better when it means something. I mean, I had an ex once, I fell in love with him (naively) and when we had sex it was amazing. The sex after we split up though was terrible. It’s because when it means something and when you love someone, you don’t really care about how it feels for you; you’re just happy in knowing that the person you love is being made happy and thoroughly enjoying themselves. It doesn’t matter that they never get you off in terms of orgasms or whatever – it’s worth it just to see the look on their face, knowing that it is you who have made them feel that good. When the relationship was over, there wasn’t that love or care for the other person there, and it did just become empty hollow sex that still failed to get me off. It’s made me come to the conclusion now that sure, you can go around having fun and getting laid just to pass the time and get rid of those minor nagging frustrations we all get, but at the same time, I want to find someone who will give me the best sex of my life – not because it is simply good – but because it means something. I’d be lying if I said I was not going to have a one-night-stand again or even forget all about the idea of f*ck buddies, chances are I will still do that occasionally, but at the same time I know that I’m looking for more.

Love, real love, is the single greatest feeling in the world. Period. No amount of sex can compare to it. However most people will miss out on that because all they will concern themselves with is the lay. Do wh... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12907291/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12907291/ Thu, 10 May 2007 03:57:01 PDT

Been given a new mission at gym, as well as to actually get a double leg on the floor, I’m under orders from Andy to start learning a back summy to get me on ma way to a flash… something I want to do like thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much, even if I am miles away, you gotta start somewhere eh? Perhaps I should also finish of learning back handsprings – seem to have abandoned them over the last few weeks….think I’m trying to learn too many things at once so at the moment I’ve got about 3 half finished tricks that I still can’t land yet Also on the training front, I’ve managed to find some good form music – Guano Apes; “Break The Line.” Now I just need a form for it – DAAAAAAAAAALLLE!!!! Little help? Pwease? Haha

College has been a lot better this week – actually managed to stay awake and engaged during French haha, that’s not happened in a while I’ve also been convinced to go to the leaver’s ball after deciding it was gonna be a waste of money. Didn’t seem like there were many people going at first but turns out quite a lot of my mates will be so I might try and make the effort to go. It’s on the 25th so five days after I’ve spent EVERY scrap of money I have in London…. I may have to try my luck at borrowing some money off the parents for a dress and a ticket. I’m not gonna go all OTT with dress to be honest…. Quite a few girls are doing the whole ‘bride’s maid dress’ thing and spending ridiculous amounts on something they probably won’t wear again. I’ll be alright in your cliché little black dress and heels… hopefully it’ll look good, be half the price and be something I can actually wear again. Just need to find myself someone to go with Any takers? Haha

Only sixteen days of college left!!! Yay!!! I need to find a summer job and help get me some extra moolah. I was going to leave driving until after uni when I had a job and hopefully earning enough money to pay for lessons, test, car, petrol, insurance blah blah blah…. But turns out my Granddad is giving me a grand for my 18th…. Jeez I think the most money I’ve ever had in my bank account was about 300 quid. So I’ve actually been able to start driving now. Went out for a bit the other day with the mother. Think I made the poor woman nervous – she was expecting me to be dead scared and not know what I’m doing; taking everything at 2mph….didn’t expect me to pick it up pretty quickly and want to bomb her car around haha Love it. I’d love to go driving with Helen one day – jeez that woman is a hot driver. She’s had about 3 sports cars in the last year and goes underground racing and drifting. Feckin awesome skills behind a wheel

But yeah, all the cash I get off my granddad is gonna go on driving and I’m gonna see if I can get a summer job at Studio D to get me more moolah and possibly help towards my portfolio and CV on the photographic front. It’ll help pay for this trip to China as well that the club’s trying to arrange this year and I CAN’T miss that.

Anywho, plans for the weekend again are looking like involving a night in, preferably with mates haha. Still on my money-saving ban from nights out with alcohol so I can get all the stuff I need at Seni next week. Anyone fancy comin round for food, drink, movie and a SNES-off let me know – I need saving from the boredom of TV and msn – don’t chat to me all night from your computer ten minutes down the street – get off your ass and socialise!!!! Haha

Well I think that is all for now. I shall leave you with t... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12872320/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12872320/ Mon, 07 May 2007 05:56:56 PDT



But yeah, I know I'm not in comparison to most people these days, but lately I've been feeling so unfit. I've literally been living off snacks coz between college and training I don't always get time to cook a meal and I hate eating after training…before I know it I've stupidly gone the whole day on a sandwich, bag of crisps and a couple of Krispy Squares followed by two hours of Wushu. With the amount of exercise I do it's not good and god I really am starting to feel it. Fuck sake sometimes I can't even breathe properly and my head just feels dead all the time. It's pissing me off so much coz it means I just can't train as well as I know I can. It's my own fault. I need to eat more carbs. Noodles for me tonight then haha.




Dad isn't helping things. He's convinced I'm going to go anorexic. Apparently he knew a girl when he was at college. She was a swimmer and trained all the time and according to him, she did what I've started doing now; counting calories and just not eating much – again not to be any thinner, just because she wanted to be more healthy and fit for her sport. I keep trying to explain to my dad I'm not purposely missing meals, jeez I fuckin love my food, it's just that I don't always get time to cook and eat them and when I do it's probably only enough time to oven up some chips or heat up a bowl of soup.




I need to start making time. I can't carry on training as shit as I am right now, it's driving me mad. I still don't see how I'm supposed to edging towards going anorexic when I weigh the right amount, love my food, and have muscle. If anything I'm probably going the opposite. My abs have loosened up slightly and even Liang keeps telling me I look like I've put on a bit a bit of weight so fuck knows where my dad's coming from.




Anyway, new week. I'm gonna eat more, well more of the right stuff anyway. Maybe then I'll be able to train a lot better than what I have been doing lately and get more of my fitness back. Gonna need it for this competition in London. God I'm gonna get my ass kicked if I don't get my ass into gear soon.




Anyway yeah let's talk about something slightly less dull and pessimistic eh? Now that I've got a few exams out of the way I'm hoping to start being able to do a lot more photography. Gonna do some stuff with Mason tomorrow after being inspired by a photo by Tony Chu and I'd like to shoot Alex too. Also have photos to do for Neeny and Kerry as well as a few people at college wanting stuff done. Helen put out a mass email to the college advertising my need for models, wasn't sure how much of a response I'd get but hey it worked… I now have a shit loada people willing to model for me, including one or two guys which is good as I've not had much chance shooting males. At the moment I particularly want to find a guy to do a topless fashion type shoot, but I need quite a well built guy with a well chiseled torso. Don't think I'm gonna find that in the college somehow haha.




I really can't wait to go to London for the weekend with Chris and Claire. It does mean however that I can't go out on the piss from now until then as I need every scrap of money I can get.... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12706249/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12706249/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 15:11:01 PDT



My new outlook on life hasn't sat well with a couple of people but quite frankly I don't care. After being depressed for a substantial part of my teenage life, finally being able to say that I am totally happy with everything I'm doing is a welcome change.




My social life is better than it ever has been, my confidence has dramatically gone up, I've been able to see more of my close mates than I ever really did before, been making a lot of progress in training lately after staying at a plateau for what seemed like forever, and my photography stuff is beginning to kick off quite well after being accepted onto the BA course at Blackpool and Fylde, and a very opportunistic phone call that could land me well on my feet if it all goes through.




So yeah, life is good. Like I said a couple of people don't seem to like my new way of tackling life as it means they aren't going to get their way with things anymore, but I'm sorry this is my life, not yours. I'm finally doing what I want to do, not anyone else and it feels good to finally be able to do so. Please stop trying to change me back. Accept me for who I am now or just leave it ok? I'm not telling you to fuck off don't worry so sorry if it comes across that way. I love ALL my mates to bits and I'm just these days laid back to the point I don't care what you do, chances are you won't piss me off/upset me/offend me etc…..all I'm saying is that I'm putting my foot down and if I say 'no,' it means 'no.' Please just respect that.




Anyway, subject change anyone? Methinks I should get back onto some generally blogging right about now haha




Well as I've already mentioned I got accepted onto the BA Photography course at B+F college so that gave me an excuse to go out on Saturday night for a drink. It was also a good opportunity to spend some quality time with the best bud Chris. It's nice that we're able to spend more time with each other lately…. It's just that we never used to see each other much before and when we did it was usually because I had a problem that I really needed to talk to someone about. I guess I just didn't want him to think I took him for granted and that he was just there to offload my problems onto. It's great to be able to just chill out with him without the need of some major catastrophe as an excuse to But yeah top guy – funny as fuck and one of the very few gents left in the world. Christoff who was out with us that night is also one of them few gents knocking about and I'm quite relieved that I'm not the only person in the world who thinks that chivalry should not be something we let die….although the way society's heading it's looking that way….




Anyway, had a top night, went just about everywhere, and never had so many shots in my life but that's probably coz I don't usually do them and also helped by the fact we knew bar staff that night who felt obliged to give us lots of free alcohol. By the way, congrats on the news mate, you'll make a great dad and I hope it all goes well for ya ^,^



Haha only glitch in the night was some random fucker in Brannigans who thought it was ok for him to grab me and shove his tongue down my throat. Thankfully Chris saved me, or rather him coz otherwise he'd have ended up on the floor clutching his balls haha. Unfortunately the guy was a bit of a stubborn bastard and kept trying it on the whole time we were there…..ooooh Chris was getting daggers from him…thought he was gonna try and twat him at one point :s


Thankfully though we managed to avoid a confrontation and the rest of the night went really well. I have just been checking my dialled/received calls list though and apparently I called two different numbers at about 1:30 on the Sunday morning… I have absolutely no memory of doing that at all. I was with Chris, Christoff and Rob getting a taxi at that time and so I wouldn't have phoned anyone :s anyone recognise the numbers: 07705535575 or 07776067319 because both of them picked up apparent... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12627803/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12627803/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 04:16:48 PDT
Anyway, yeah, well chuffed I've started doing them consistently now, but I reckon there's something wrong in my technique as every time I do it I feel like I'm pulling my leg and last night I proper fecked it up grrr.... Don't think I'm rotating my hips enough with my leg - I'm just letting that do all the work but being stupidly flexible means I can get my leg over that far without rotating my hips. Not good really as now I've pulled it a bit too far and can't bloody do anytihng anymore.

I spose it's probably a good thing I can't afford to train again until Friday otherwise I'd probably just end up still trying and making my leg worse.

Also on a bum note, I seem to have lost my aerials Had em on Sunday and now I just can't do them. Trick aerials are ok but I really wanna nail a good gymnatic one....they just look so much cleaner.

The one step forward however would be that I seem to be getting more height on ma double leg - yay! Been doing them into the foam pit the past couple of weeks at gym, and last night we plonked a mat over the top to see if I was actually getting enough height to land it and after a while I seemed to be. Might try em on the floor next week as well as trying to sort my 540's.

Anyway, no particular reason for this blog I spose.... I seem to be talking about the same stuff all the time in these things...photography, martial arts and drinking..... isn't my life exciting? haha

Nah can't complain really - life is pretty good at the moment; my social life is better than it ever has been, I've made loads of improvements lately martial arts wise and got REALLY lucky with a photographic opportunity...I'll tell you about that later on after I know for sure what's happening - suffice to say that if it does I will be GODAMNED BUZZING!!!!!


Don't really have a song today to be honest....just thought I'd try and pass some time inbetween classes at college today....sepaking of which I'm supposed to be in a French Oral Sesh right about now.

Ta-ra! Folks ^,^


PS: I've uploaded an edited version to 'Liang VI' after removing a pole from the background that seemed to want to poke his ass

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Also on the Aimee-is-happy note, I’ve finally managed to find someone to go down to Seni with me next month. Chris .B. – I fucking love ya man *pounce hug*. I’m still debating whether or not to compete whilst I’m there. I know I’ll get my ass handed to me but I wanna go for the experience. The Wu Bin seminar should be ace and I’m just generally looking forward to going down to London and seeing the standard elsewhere, as well as the photo opportunities I should be able to get, not only in Seni, but around the city itself. Then of course there has to be one night of getting wrecked in a London club. Gonna be good methinks. V-Man you best be coming too matey

Ah well, until then it looks as though I’m going to have to stay sober for another week or so… no money to train or to drink which is not a great combination I went out last Thursday with a few people which was good… couldn’t help but notice a really hot girl hanging about the bar at scrooges which slightly distracted me from conversations somewhat but still managed to have a really good chat with Greg, Martin and Kiran, who I had finally been introduced to after the guys decided not to bother with intros last time haha. Sadly though had to decline a night out with Alex and Mason tonight due to the above mentioned lack of funds so no drunken socialising for me for a bit…grrr….

Yesterday was an ace day actually though. Turns out sober socialising is also good After managing to book the weekend off work for Seni, I met up with Liang, Joe, Siobhan, Becky, Geoffrey and Addi for a little Wushu in the park. Joe isn’t happy I’m landing them kicks on my right leg haha but never fails to remind me that he’s twice as bendy as me After that we all grabbed some KFC before hitting the Odeon to watch some horror film. Think it was called ‘Messengers.’ Fucking jumpy film. Liang was scared shitless it was hilarious. Geoffrey snuck up in the row behind him and waited behind his chair for a really tense moment in the film then jumped up and grabbed him. The poor guy nearly had a heart attack LMAO.

After that we all went for a late night wander down the prom and onto the Pier for a round of Waltzers before finding our way into several arcades to shoot, punch, dance, drive….and in Liang’s case, crash a Jet. Had a top day/night, definitely gotta do it again sometime

Unfortunately however, when I got back last night I found out granddad had managed to seriously fuck up his hand on a circular saw. He’s been transferred from Blackpool Vic to a hospital in Preston so they can operate on it. His bones are still intact but they need to see if they can re-attach the ligaments of his fingers if he wants to use them again :s Hopefully they’ll be able to do something for him so he can carry on doing his thing… the guy’s a DIY god and I think he’d miss not being able to drive his jag or bike properly again so with any luck he’ll get sorted.

He’s not the only one going in for an Op today though, Leo, the poor bugger is getting the snip haha. Least it’ll mean he won’t be out fighting the other cats or spraying as much eh

Anywho I’ll leave it a that for now….think I best actually make a start on the college work I now only have two days left to do…

TTFN.

Today's lyrics would be Puddle of Mudd - 'She Hates Me'
-I've been having interesting conversations with certain people lately that just make me laugh... I find it hilarious when guys think they are God's gift to women.... sorry mate,... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12444092/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12444092/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 12:20:44 PDT

Been really busy lately with the usuals; college, training and going out. Went to a house party last Saturday which was fucking ace. Met some cool people, got pissed with them (and quite possibly stoned with the amount of weed that was being smoked there), and tried something, ahem, new… well, not quite new, just pushing slightly more on what I've already tried But yeah, was a great night… even with us having to get an ambulance for Jem at the end of it haha – and I thought I was a lightweight; whatcha like woman? we need to catch up some time – made a good mate that night.

Was training the day after that and I was honestly expecting it to kill me – what with copious quantities of intoxicating substances still swimming around in me and all of 3 hours sleep, but I think it actually went pretty damn good. Did two hours of forms drilling, fuck knows how I made it through the way he was working us… but actually got loads done and done better than usual… I think I need to start doing all my training semi-drunk – it seems to help Haha. Saturday night caught up with me on Monday though. Literally had to sleep my way through college which successfully landed me with more than one bollocking but meh – when you can't physically keep your eyes open you don't really give a fuck, all that goes through you mind is sleep damn it, sleep. At least I woke up a fraction of a bit for gymnastics. Started trying to do a double leg into the foam pit and after a few started getting more of the height I'd need to actually land it. But then, like the backhand springs, towards the end of the class I seemed to move backwards…. The height stayed but for some reason now I just wasn't twisting fast enough. Ah well, might get it back this week. Probably gonna be spending a bit more time on the trampoline too tomorrow. Liang is doing some kind of stunt thing and one of the skills you need to have is a certain level of trampolining experience. Joe, Ryan, Becky, Siobhan and I are doing it too so we'll see how it goes. No idea what's on the check list for the trampoline but I think Liang is gonna bring it with him tomorrow so I'll be able to see then what kinda crazy shit I've got to learn how to do.

Went out again last night with a load of people. Although I still prefer my rock music, I think I'm slowly moving away from the Tache scene. Don't get me wrong, I love the place and the people but I've started going out with the guys from wushu a lot more and ended up in places like Rumours and Walkabout most nights. I'm quite liking it to be honest. It gives me the opportunity to for once actually make an effort with the way I look when I go out. Usually it's just a ten-minute job of spiking the hair and whacking on a pair of jeans and a top to go haunt the Tache for the night so it makes a nice change to actually go girly. I was soooo tempted to actually wear a skirt last night haha. Don't worry, I'm not going Barbie on ya – was gonna be a leather mini-skirt with rock chick black leather boots complete with my corset (the one with bondage rings on…in fact it was pretty much gonna be the outfit in my profile pic but with a better (and sexier) pair of boots on). Haha. But no, didn't want to look too much of a whore last night so I thought fuck it, and actually covered myself Maybe next time eh? Hehe. Liang was supposed to be joining us later on in the night but he never showed the muppet so we will have to drag him out next week. Apparently he was outside Walkabout at around 12:30ish and was trying to ring Tina to find out where we were but by that time Tina had gone home so hadn't answered the phone. Thinking we'd all gone he left. Pft! The daft bugger... Liang, next week you're coming out at 9 o'clock with the rest of us and you sir, are going to get rat-arsed haha. But yeah, twas a good night - got successfully rendered, danced for far too long which resulted in a very sweaty Aimee with hair which would now rather curl than spike, and eventually managed to get a taxi home thanks to a rather lovely bloke who let me nab his. Cheers mate http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12254046/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 04:45:19 PDT
Was working on gymnastic aerials last night rather than freestyle and they seem to have made a lot of progress, at the moment it's more of a mental thing - when I'm being spotted I can do it no problem... I'm not even tempted to put my hands down and my technique is a hell of a lot better. But despite the fact that most of the times when I am being spotted, I barely get any support, as soon as I attempt them on my own, I can't help but put my hands down. Grrr.... Like I said - at the moment I think it's down to my mentality rather than technique.

Back handsprings were a little better last night...am back to doing them on a spring board without being spotted...okay, they're a bit messy at the moment but at least I'm landing them again. I wanna spend a few more weeks perfecting my technique on the springboard then move to doing them from the floor. After that - roundoff flicks!!!!! (Pretty much the only reason I wanted to learn backhandsprings in the first place was so I could whack it on the end of a roundoff and finally get some kind of tumbling going)

Craig and Dale were helping me out with doing double legs. They seem pretty easy - well, easier than most of the other stuff I've tried. Gonna try and clear the mat I was doing them over next week and then see if I can do it without needing the incentive of trying to jump over the thing.


But yeah, was pretty fun last night. Also had a cool weekend, was working in the showroom at work for the first time on Saturday, wasn't too bad but to be honest I prefer working upstairs. It's more laid back, has better music and you don't have to put up with the general public. Haha

Chris came over on Sunday which was nice. I need to keep my weapons away from that guy....jeez he's obsessed Haha. We ended up wrestling and fighting with each other making a bit of a noise...haha god it was hilarious when I went down stairs.... I went to get a drink and my mother comes in saying, "Aimee, I thought you said he wasn't your boyfriend."
"He isn't"
"Then why are you having sex?"

I nearly died laughing. It was hilarious....i'm still not entirely sure she actually believed that we were only fighting haha

Muppet.

Terry bless him phoned me up again last night - he's such a lovely lad, I know this will sound patronising but despite him being a few months older than me he seems so sweet and innocent and it proper makes me want to look out for him, almost like a big sister, especially after last night - I feel like such an agony aunt. I'm usually not one for long phone calls but I can chat to him all night. Tis nice to know that even if I can't always sort out my own problems I can help people sort theirs. Haha, but yeah, sorry Terry if that sounds overly patronising, but you ever need to chat about anything then I'm here for ya chuck ^,^ Hope everything goes good for ya.

Ah, alcohol is great for making new friends, I'm glad I met the lad.


Anywho, I need to shift my ass to class... got a full day at college (the only one of the week) then tis off to do some training.... hopefully gonna be able to work on my forms most of the night. Some major work needs to be done by Sunday. I hate being such a perfectionist; it takes twice as long to learn anything but the upside is that when you learn it it will look bloody good

So anyway, tis a so far wicked week; I've learned loads of cool new stuff, sorted out a few personal problems as well as those of others, chilled with some mates and it's only Tuesday I shall say ta-raa and leave you with today's lyrics....

Muse - "Feeling Good"

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Reeds driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12229181/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12229181/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 07:38:46 PDT
I forgot to mention that last week I got my results back from my January exams. A in English Language and a C in French. The rest of my A level exams are going to be in June. I have to say I'm a little disappointed in my French, I was hoping for at least a B with the amount of work I put into it. Hopefully this year's coursework will be better than last year's - I really struggled with that one. This year however we've been given the opportunity to write our essay on whatever we want - so long of course that it relates to France or it's people.

I've decided to write mine about a French Theatre Practitioner called Antonin Artaud. I studied him last year in Theatre Studies so I already have all the research I need for him, and because it's something I'm actually vaguely interested in, it might give me the inspiration to do a little better. The guy was a complete nut-job. Sure he brought a new style of Theatre into the world, but the majority of his life was spent in Insane Asylums and he had an odd liking for plays containing violence, rape, murder, incest and a whole variety of dark and surreal things... he claimed he wanted the stage to reflect what life is really like, therefore even the dark sides of human nature must be portrayed - no matter how grotesque or taboo.

Anyway I'll not go into that - that's what my french essay is for....

In other news, started back up at Capoeira last Friday. Didn't realise how much I'd missed it til I did it again. Went down to Lancaster with Greg and Martin and had a good couple of hours training. I love watching Greg play, he looks so graceful with his moves...it's really bizarre coz most of the moves just look so strange and awkward but he just makes them look so easy and brilliantly controlled....when he goes off on one on his own he seriously just looks like flowing water. Wish I could do that haha... think I need to work a hell of a lot on the upper body strength and general co-ordination...Capoeira is just so totally different from any other martial art I've ever done but I really want to get back into it properly. I love playing the games, but at the moment I can't really put things together so they all flow one after the other. I generally end up just staying in ginga and throwing the odd meia-lua de compasso, martelo, meia-lua de frente and a few others that I actually have no idea what they are called.... I'm determined to learn the proper names for these moves since it's how the class is taken - it's easier to know what moves they are telling you to do if you actually learn their names haha. Aú, cocorinha, aú batido and esquiva I think are just about the only others I've picked up... after that I get confused hehe.

That was actually something I liked about the way Wushu was taken at my old club - they used the Chinese names for all the moves. Liang, despite actually being Chinese himself, however teaches the moves in English...don't know if that was just something Rob told him to do or what, but either way I'm slowly forgetting a couple of the names for things...tisn't good.

So yeah, not much else has been happening really. Been going out quite a bit lately which has been good. Martin, Greg, Ryan and I and a couple of girls I don't know (nobody bothered with introductions - tut-tut) went out for a drink last Thursday, we also had a late comer haha who decided he'd show up an hour after he was supposed to haha - better late than never eh? Wasn't a bad night, I like just being able to go out and have a drink with people who don't feel the need to get absolutely rat-arsed and act like pricks. I'm quite happy to chill with a few vodkas and chat about martial arts all night. Between the lot of us we probably had about 8 or 9 different styles so it made for some good conversation and arguing

So yeah that's about it for now. Looking forward to gymnastics tomorrow. Want to get gymnastic aerials and back handsprings completely sussed if possible and maybe practice my forms or at least bits of them if I can since there's nowhere else to practice them... and I'm sposed to be bloody competing on sunday - haha shows how prepared I am eh?

Anywho, I best make a bit of a start on my french coursework. Have a good rest of the weekend people ^,^



....Today's lyrics will have to be Guns 'n' Roses - 'Anything Goes' .....just because I'm in one of them moods haha ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12146354/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12146354/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 16:15:23 PDT
Legend 2: Jess's 37-year-old cousin, shelley

Legend 3: LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!



Erm, ok, clarification.....

Last night was fucking amazing. Went to the Philharmonic W.M.C (think that's what it's called anyway) in South Shore where Jessica had rented out for her 18th. Was a big do with loadsa friends and family etc (insane amount of kiddies running about everywhere firing poppers into people's faces) and lots and lots of food and a cheap bar.

However me being skint meant I planned on staying sober since the only five quid I was in possession of would be paying for my taxi home....

Mark however had other plans. Seemed the guy was determined to buy drinks for everyone in the room that night (he must have gotten bitten by something in India haha) . He was adamant he was going to be my source of alcohol for the night and jesus christ he wasn't lying. I ask for a single and he brings me triples... something tells me he was trying to get me a wee bit pissed Bastard must have spent at least £25 on me last night.... fuck knows how- I can usually get merrily wankered myself on a tenner so it's a bloody wonder why I was still able to walk by the end of the night...it's a fucking godsend I don't get hangovers

Met loads of cool new people last night as well as old mates I've not seen in years. One of the new acquaintances and the second legend of the night was Jess's cousin, Shelley. At one point there ended up being five or so of us girlies in the bogs chatting away about the usual stuff - sex. Then in walks Shelley, pissed out of her head and thus begins a half hour conversation about anything and everything men and sex related. I have to say it was quite enlightening to be able to chat to an older woman so openly about shit (and we really did talk about everything), y'know, just to get the opinion and advice of a much more experienced woman. She was amazing to talk to and completely wankered herself, so the conversations gradually got more and more funny as well as crude But yeah, in all seriousness it was nice to be able to talk to an older person about these kinda things - most older women wouldn't wanna go there - least of all with a bunch of 18 year olds, and let's face it - no daughter wants to talk to their mother about the appeal of extremely kinky sex and the idea of fuck buddies.... they'd have a heartattack.

Due to the fact that she had to lower her voice every time someone of her age group decided to pay a visit to the loos, we ended up agreeing on all getting together one night at hers with a few drinks and a very girly conversation on the whole world of sex, love and men. Should be interesting to say the least.

Another new person I met was a cool guy called Terry. We ended up chatting mainly about music and martial arts (yes, believe it or not, sex was not the main topic of discussion for once). Anywho, at about 1:30, everyone was happily rat-arsed and decided to go and Tache it for the remainder of the night. We managed to drag Terry out with us to break his Tache Virginity. Bless him Don't quite think he was drunk enough to mosh though so I did it all for him haha. Lovely lad. We shall have to get him suitably wankered one night so that he is able to break free from his inhibitions and dance like a fucking psycho

So yeah, a night's supply of a ludicrous amount of alcohol all freely donated to my cause, good music (Jess's DJ did eventually play a bit of Billy Idol after much persuasion), free food and loads of super-cool people = an excellent night out.

The weird thing is, after inspecting my wallet this morning.... I'm sure I had more money than what I went out with.... surely, given the circumstances of a generally forseen 'excellent night out' I would be right now shitting myself at how much money I have spent and thinking how in hell am I going to afford to eat for the next month. Ah well - can't really moan at these kinda things eh?

So, anyway, thanks to Mark for the INSANE amounts of free alcohol, thanks to Shelley for being the coolest (and horniest) 37 year old woman in the world, and to Jess for making such an amazing piss-up possible. Had a great night peeps - gotta do it again sometime http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12116677/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 10:22:57 PST

Managed to get successfully wankered on only £8 (don't ya just love all those nice people who buy you drinks eh?) Haha. Also met a few new people and got me an invite to a flat warming in a couple of weeks so yay for another piss up ....I'm at an 18th tomorrow night as well... my god I'm getting a good dose of alcohol this month.

Anywho, met up with Alex and Mason at the Blue Room where some cover band were playing, they were alright actually... they had an extremely drunken woman of a fan however sat shouting things, determined to get herself arrested which was quite amusing to watch for a time

We stayed there for about half an hour then after a couple of vodkas, JDs, and beers we headed off to the Tache. For any non-Blackpuddlian's reading this, the Tache is basically a rock venue. It looks like shit on the outside, looks like shit on the inside, but it's the best place to be on a thursday night other than in your boyfriend's bed (which sadly I am lacking in at the moment so the Tache would have to do).

Anywho, more drinks in the three of us chatted about the usuals; college, sex and alcohol, generally with more focus on the 'sex' side or rather lack of, at least on my part anyway... I'll not discuss Mason and Alex's sexlife on an open public blog space but Mason mate, you got the thumbs up haha

Anywho after more vodkas and beers we decided we were now drunk enough to dance like, well, drunk people, so off to the dance floor we went to headbang and mosh to 'Snot.'

A few songs and lots of 'dancing' later, we decided we needed more alcohol so off we went back to the bar. On the way there I bumped into this girl called Alana. Turns out she was one of the dancers in the 'Rhythm Of Life' show we did at the Grand Theatre, ya know that thing we did the 'Matrix' fight scenes for?

So yeah we got talking, ya know, the usuals, college, sex, alcohol, this time with the added topic of swords thrown into the mix. Managed to get me an invite to her flat warming party on the 24th.... would have every intention of getting absolutely rendered but I'm competing the next day at Nationals so I may have to put a 5 drink maximum on me haha.

Anywho, chatting and drinking done, it was yet again time to dance like drunkards to the likes of System of a Down and Muse. I think it was during Muse's 'Plug-in Baby' that my shirt decided it was going to break (the fastener by my bra no longer wanted to stay shut damnit) so for the rest of the night the lovely patrons of the Tache had to put up with a drunk chick dancing in black baggy jeans and a newly acquired pink camouflaged bra. Which reminds me, I wanna try and do a military style shoot sometime soon using a certain set of pink camouflage underwear, a bullet belt and some replica guns.... I may also actually find use for the studded furry pink skull and cross bones belt my dad got me absolutely aaaages ago and that I have never worn, on account of the furry pinkness and the skull and cross bones. haha.

Anywho, side tracking here....

So yup, after some more crazy 'dancing' we ended up bumping into Sam Higgins. Never met the guy before but been told about him by Simon, Gaz and Dale so the three of us started chatting about the usuals; college, sex, alcohol, swords....was kind of a four track night really

Alana and I then went for a bit more of the ol' headbangin before I had to leave (grrrr....)
However I didn't make it through the door without hearing 'Oh my god Aimee, did you just get off with Dom?!?!'

No Kirsty, no I did not. I don't care what you say, I know I was pissed but I remember quite clearly not getting off with Dom.... hell, I was trying to get him and Alana to do just that haha. I'm actually quite confused, both Kirsty and Sonia are absolutely adamant that I did but I know for a fact it didn't happen.... I'm guessing they saw us at a dodgy angle when Dom decided to pick me up and spin me round before squeezing me to death haha. I demand video proof! Meh, I'll see what Dom has to say on the issue

So yeah, a rather rockin night last night was http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12091612/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 10:54:31 PST
Erm, turns out I've actually spent all my time out of college working on photography projects, so now, when I'm told I have two coursework projects to hand in over the next couple of weeks as well as several lots of work for other subjects....errrr..... bugger.

The thing is, I've just totally lost all interest in college right now. The subjects I'm taking are all irrelevant to any career path I want to take and I'm slowly beginning to hate them all. I have absolutely no motivation to do any of the work and I spend all the time that I'm supposed to be studying them, organising photoshoots and being stuck in front of my computer editing.

Tomorrow I get my results for the French and English exams I took in January but I seem to be the only person in college who doesn't give a toss It's weird really.... I've always kinda been a bit of a geek when it comes to work. I mean, I'll always do everything on time and always to the best of my ability, but lately I'll just do the bare minimum for what's required and leave it all to the last minute. I don't however have any plans of dropping out - seriously, dropping out of college three months before my A Level exams would be pointless and a complete waste of the last two years, so the plan is to stick with it and just put up with it for the short amount of time I have left there.... even though I can already get onto the uni courses I want with the results I got from last year's exams.

I can't wait to get into Uni. I got a letter from B+F the other day; they've finally started processing the B-route applications - WOOT!!! Due to the high demand of applicants for the BA photography course, they need me to send in a portfolio before they offer me an interview so I've been spending quite a bit of time sorting that out.


My social life seems to be interfering with my work a lot these days too which isn't good... I think that's due to a lack of training haha, that usually prevents me going out a great deal Now that the dojo in St. Annes is closed I can only train on Monday and Friday doing gymnastics and Capoeira - I'm seriously missing doing Wushu 4 nights a week. But yeah, that's kind of left the door open for clubbing, eating and cinema-ing

Yesterday was the grub, today is the cinema and tomorrow is the club.... saturday too

Haha, meh, I need to chill out anyway... got a couple of things going on right now that are kinda spinning me around a bit and the cure for that is just letting loose with your best mates and of course, alcohol.

Time to party people. Haha

Anywho, I best actually attempt some work before heading off to the cinema... I wonder if Ghost Rider is really as shit as everyone says it is LMAO.


Todays lyrics.... I always liked this song, never realised quite what the words were until looking them up... I won't say anything about them, just.... well.... nevermind....I'm confused as it is....


Evanescence - 'Call Me When You're Sober'

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.

Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be he... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12027901/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/12027901/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 14:33:21 PST
Will continue making more available for printing over the next few days, but if I miss any anyone would particularly like to see printed then let me know and I'll hop right to it



Lyrics, lyrics lyrics....



I'm going to revert to giving you the theme tune to my life. Seriously.


Bonnie Tyler: 'Holding Out For A Hero'

Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need

(chorus)
I need a hero
Im holding out for a hero til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
Im holding out for a hero til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
Theres someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

(chorus)

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that theres someone somewhere
Watching me

Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood

(chorus)

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11995472/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11995472/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 01:51:42 PST
Last night I met up with a guy called Chris who is a friend of a friend I started talking to via the magic of myspace. He is such a lovely guy and a great laugh but being the driver of the night meant that I would be the one slowly getting hammered and acting the idiot whilst he remained perfectly sober and normal - probably thinking WTF am I doing with this girl?!?!?! haha.

Feel a bit of a muppet really - just read last night's text messages and Jesus Christ they make absolutely no sense whatsoever and are a little embarrassing to say the least. I have just text him back this morning apologising for any lewd or crude behaviour or language I may have used last night and just for generally playing the part of the drunken idiot on him - I know hw much drunk people can p*ss off someone who's sober.... particularly when it's for a good few hours haha.

As far as memory goes, this is only the second time in my life I have ever gotten pissed the point I have forgotten certain things about the night. Wasn't too bad last night though - I remember everything I did/said at Scrooges and whilst I was with him etc... it's just the text messages I have no recollection of and God I feel like a pratt for them

Was a great night and had a brill time...the parentals weren't too impressed about the hour I turned up at home and the obvious state I was in and I did feel guilty about that. I know it sounds like I geeky dorky thing but I really don't like letting them down. I hate giving people bad impressions when I know that I can be so much better. What can I say? I had a good upbringing. So I did apologise for it and apparently almost flooding the bathroom (oops!) but mother has declared I'm now not going out during the week within the forseeable future.... thank god I'm 18 this year. Mind you, even though I should technically get more freedom being an adult and all that - I can't imagine that a great deal will change because I will still be living under their roof. Their house - their rules.

It's a case of my mum worrying when I'm out so they won't go to bed until I'm in and it therefore wouldn't exactly be fair of me to turn up at 5am and the like when they have work the next morning. Maybe they'll ease up when I'm 18 and realise that I am capable of letting myself in and locking up and looking after myself. I suppose my drunken state last night wasn't exactly an image of a 'responsible adult,' but at the end of the day, although I do enjoy to get a little rat-arsed, it happens extremely rarely and after throwing up once in my life I do not intend to repeat it. My parents expect me to come home sober but realistically I'm not am I? (well at least not all the time). The point is although I will come home drunk, I will come home safely and that is all that matters. Like I said I have no intention of coming home and throwing up all over the place - I will stop drinking before that happens, and they know I don't go out or drink the night before work so it's not like I'm forever out p*ssed off my face and irresponsible with it.

I mean c'mon - this is only the second tme I've had a drink this year and the first time I have been properly drunk in 2007 - not bad nearing the third month eh? haha. I'm either too skint or too busy or just too responsible in the work sense to go out and get slaughtered the way the majority of my age group round here do. I know my parents have a go at me when I compare myself to other people but at the end of the day - I am more sober, more responsible and more mature about this kinda thing than most of my mates. Jeez I train most nights a week and next to my photography that is the most important thing in my life - I wouldn't drop it to go out and get pissed unless it was for maybe a mate's birthday or other event like that... although saying that I missed out on my mate's 18th the other week. He was going out on the friday but then was also leaving for the navy on the sunday. I was starting my new job that saturday so I, like the geek I am had to decline. I wish I didn't - sure I didn't wanna go into my first day of work hungover and probably still wasted but at the end of the day it was his 18th and the last time I would see him for god knows when I almost feel like I let him down Ah well he had a great night regardless which is what counts http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11946848/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 02:25:57 PST
Aye, today I started in Granthams and all I can say is thank feck I got the job! It's soooo much better than being stuck working at BHS. You don't have to deal with the managers on your back all the time, worry about pushing store cards or put up with the pricks of the general public who think they can run the store better than the staff.

The day just goes so much quicker because you've got a job that you can just get on with and it's just a hell of a lot more pleasant - the guys there are great and a good laugh, and you can just chill out and relax whilst you're working. It's a proper lads place though up in the building I'm workin in - naked page three models plastered all over the walls and the obligatory calendars of similar taste whacked up all over the place Not that I'm complaining haha

There's only me and a couple other girls workin there and the rest are lads but it suits me fine - I can generally hold better conversations with blokes than women anyway... I've always seemed to socialise better with guys and they take up the majority of my mates, probably because of the kind of sports I do/have done - first footy now martial arts. Never was much of a girly girl (well unless it comes to modelling )

Anyway, yeah definitely a massive improvement in the work field of my life

On another note, going over to Henry's tomorrow to help him with a Band's photoshoot - gonna learn a little about lighting and film photography since I generally stick to digital. Then after the band is gone we're gonna do some glamour shots of my mate Laura who often models for him and then I'll be doing some modelling myself. He says he wants to take advantage of my spikey hair and interests in martial arts etc and try and give my shoot a manga theme. There's gonna be a woman there doing my make-up for me which will be interesting. I just need to bring a few outfits/shoes etc and a sword if I can get hold of it... but I can't seem to reach Simon to let me into the dojo and get one. grrrr.... I may have to borrow one of Henry's, I think he said he has a few weapons anyway. I just realllly liked the serrated sword I've used in a few shots before mwuahahaha.... tis a thing of sexiness

Anywho, will let ya know how things go.

TTFN ^,^



(EDIT)- Thanks to HighStatic who reminded me I had missed today's lyrics....so here they are....


This one I wrote myself one bored hour in a french class.....


"There"

Come on give me a reason
To start this game again
It's tantamount to treason
To deny our frustration

Provoke me and invoke in me
The animal you know
Take the time and you will see
The things that aren't on show.

(chorus)
I promise I won't bite
Unless you want me to
And I promise I won't fight
Unless it turns you on
But don't you promise anything
It ain't your forte babe
Just stick to what you good at
And we'll still get along

I dare you to move on
Coz I know that we are through
But you'll miss me when I'm gone
And the things that I can do.

Can't see you with another girl
But then why should I care?
For ninety days I rocked your world
But you couldn't get me there

One more try (to heal your ego)?
Maybe this time (we will both go)

And I promise I won't bite
Unless you want me to
And I promise I won't fight
Unless it turns you on
But don't you promise anything
It ain't your forte babe
Just stick to what you're good at
And we'll still get along
I won't bite
(Unless you like it)
I won't fight
(Unless you like it)


Don't wanna bruise you
So what if I lose you
The things that you do
Just couldn't
You couldn't
You couldn't get me there.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11889775/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11889775/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 03:26:10 PST
Went to gymnastics last night and for some reason my back handsprings decided they were going to go all warped. Last week I was fine with doing them from a springboard onto a mat without being spotted and got them right every time. I went back this week hoping to move onto doing them onto the floor and the whole thing seems to go backwards.

I started again on the springboard just to get used to it and after being fine on that, then moved to the floor. It was just weird in the fact that there wasn't as far to fall back when I did it on the floor, so I just had to get used to having my hands land sooner. Eventually I tried it a couple of times without being spotted (I'm actually suprised that I had the bottle to try it on my own - I'm not usually good with these kinds of things). Annoyingly though I couldn't get it without being spotted so I went back onto the springboard for a bit.

Now for some reason, every time I then went on to doing them on the springboard I screwed up :s I had a tendency to go up, rather than back so when I landed on my hands I was taking more of my weight than I should be so my arms just kept giving way. It got to a point where I was barely going back at all - just up and over so that my head cracked into the board a few times. Haha what a spoon.

Kenny must be getting fed up with me - I'm one of those stubborn people. Generally if I ever try things in life I can do them within the first couple of times of trying, and usually do them well. So when I find something I can't do I get really frustrated and won't stop trying until I can. What can I say? I'm a Virgo and as such a perfectionist. That means the whole night at gymnastics each week will be spent trying to do back hand springs til I can get them

As much as I am loving XMA it's one of the hardest things I've ever tried - like I said, I'm not used to not being able to do something so it's making me want to do it even more. The main things I lack are the ability to actually jump a reasonable height off the ground and (besides back hand springs) the actual bottle to launch myself into the air at weird angles

I would absolutely love to get this whole tricking down to a good standard but I don't think Wushu is helping too much either - I mean, Liang always pushes us to have a good posture and strong straight legs, whereas a lot of the time when I watch the XMA guys do something they have bent legs. (Okay just for the record I'm not knocking their skills because these guys are awesome and I love being taught by them - it's just a difference in aesthetic values) Simon and Dale keep trying to get me to do aerials at the moment. They say I can do them but when I do they feel like sh*t. My legs feel bent and I don't feel entirely vertical, but they say that's fine. Like I said I'm a perfectionist and after being coached by Liang, feel that, ok, even if by tricking standard I am pulling off an aerial, it doesn't feel like a good one (by which I suppose I mean a 'gymnastic' aerial) - therefore to me it's not an aerial. I'm very much of the opinion that you should only do something (especially in competition) if you can do it well - just because you can land a trick doesn't mean you can do it....

No offence to Simon - he's brilliant at what he does, but personally I don't like his B-twists. You're supposed to be horizontal in the air. It's called a B-Twist because you twist at the peek of your butterfly. You don't do the wind up and then just jump and try and spin because then you just look like you've spun around at a 45 degree angle and in my eyes it looks crap. Anyone else would say it looks good - but then again they won't have done Wushu and had a coach who says that unless a move is pretty damn perfect - you can't do it. Liang has always made the point of only twisting at the peek of your butterfly so when I'm getting told to twist pretty much straight away it feels like I'm going against everything I've been taught. I haven’t said anything to Simon about his B-Twist because I can’t do them myself, and although I may have a point in what I am saying, I’m not entirely sure he’d appreciate my input - at the end of the day he's the XMA guy not me eh? Besides, if he can get away with doing it in competition I suppose he won't need to change it if that's all he's after - like I said, i just personally don't like doing things unless i personally feel they are good - regardless of whether or not I could get away with it in compmetition.

Like I said, no offence to any of these guys - they have my utmost respect and are cool mates and they have some AMAZING tale... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11866414/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11866414/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 10:33:19 PST
I hate weekends. Saturday it's work then home at 6:30 after which you're too knackered to do anything unless you're pissed off your head, sadly most saturdays I'm too skint to be pissed off my head.

Sundays weren't so bad - I had wushu to look forward to in the evening but now with Liang back in China I don't even have that. Did have a photoshoot planned with Emma at Heresy but she's inundated with work at the moment so it's had to be cancelled

So this weekend has been a load of bollocks. I've been bored shitless, and being the only two days a week I don't train any more makes me feel just damn lazy and fat... I hate days where I feel I haven't got anything done. I may have to go for a long run tonight...

Being bored makes me eat and think about people and things I probably shouldn't so that's doing my head in aswell right now... I blame that on a distinct lack of sex lately as well as the boredom....grrr....

Was gonna go on the sunbed for a bit today only to find the place down the road isn't open on sundays so that was a wasted walk. I've decided I could do with looking less pale for when Spring comes - I'm proud of my kungfu given legs and I WILL wear a skirt this year damnit! I'm hopefully going to be doing a photoshoot with Henry next Sunday and been told a light tan whether real or fake will just make my skin look better on the photos anyway. I don't do fake tan. Nope. Nadda. It goes streaky and you look like a goddamned tangerine.


Anyway, little pissing annoying brother is kicking me off the computer again - not helping my already crappy mood today. Lovely.


So I shall leave you lovelies with today's song........



Republica - 'Don't You Ever:'


Turn your head off, turn the music up
Don't let it push you down
Out of hand get off
Don't ever think of him
Don't ever let him in
He'll go round and round and round
And make your head spin

You're a big boy with a big mouth
Talkin big time just spit it out
Take the back seat till you feel alright
You get your own way, all day, every time
Love me hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me
Don't you ever leave me
Don't you ever
Don't you ever

Push the boat out keep your feelings in
He tore your world apart, never start giving in
Don't promise anything
He'll see the state you've been
Hand on your heart, never lasts, didn't it
You got a small mind in a small town
Let your head spin give me the run around
I wish I didn't care, I wish I wasn't there
You get your own way, all day, everywhere

Love me hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me
But don't ever leave me
I wish I didn't care
I wish I wasn't there
You get your own way
All day everywhere
Love me hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me
Hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me
Hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me
(Don't you ever leave me)
Hate me hurt me and break me
Want me take me but don't ever leave me






...........................god I need to get laid.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11809677/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11809677/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 06:21:57 PST
I'm hoping to also try and arrange a fashion shoot for Sunday if everyone is free that day - I've spoken to Emma at Heresy Clothing and she's willing to let me use her clothes line for the shoot which will be awesome so will hopefully have some images up from that later this week.

I've put some of yesterday's photos up in my gallery but will proably have to put up the rest tomorrow as I'm busy busy busy today.


Anyway with it being Valentine's Day and all that malarkey, I'm determined not to be another lonely single sat at home so with any luck I'll be out with the girlies getting merrily wankered and probably invading a strip club or two. Although this is probably the day that most people are likely to have one night stands, it ain't really my scene - especially not right now.... no matter how sexually frustrated I am I don't like the idea of shagging a guy whilst thinking of someone else. So sadly I'm going to have to utilise a bit of self-restraint and not get laid tonight.... and hopefully I won't phone up the ex in a drunken stupor saying things that'd just make me look like a horny pratt hehe (not that he'll answer the phone anyway though so no worries there, I seem to be being ignored at the moment haha).


Anyway, we need lyrics to finish us off now don't we? God I love this song... it really does reflect certain things at the moment

Muse - "Muscle Museum"

She had something to confess to
But you don’t have the time so
Look the other way
You will wait until it's over
To reveal what you’d never shown her
Too little much too late

Too long trying to resist it
You’ve just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world

Can you see that I am needing
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own

I have played in every toilet
But you still want to spoil it
To prove I’ve made a big mistake
Too long trying to resist it
You’ve just gone and missed it
It's escaped your world

Can you see that I am needing
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own
I’ll do it on my own



HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE


-X-

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11744827/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11744827/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 08:23:55 PST
Only one is missing at the moment and I can't seem to find it anywhere. I need one of those bullet belts, one that doesn't actually look like cheap plastic haha....maybe the army surplus?

Anyway, managed to get hold of the black riding crop I've been after, and after spotting a 9ft leather whip I toyed with the idea of getting that too.... I didn't on this occasion but I have a feeling I'll be going back shortly

The riding crop I bought is only a cheap non-leather replica, but it's now made me want to go and buy a real, ahem, 'sturdier' one if you will... I wonder if it'll be cheaper to go to some kind of equestrian place or Anne Summers....? What can I say... I like leather, and err, those kinds of things....

Also on the list for the photography side of things was a feather fan - I was originally trying to get hold of one of those large ostrich feather fans that burlesque and feather dancers use but after no luck with that and realising they would cost an absolute bomb anyway, I settled for a £8.50 smaller, (conveniently breast-sized ) white feather fan. I had wanted a baby pink one but they only had a hot pink - not fitting for the idea of 'innocence' really so I opted for the white. If they were cheaper I probably would have bought both and also a black one.

I also spotted some devil horns - the kind on clips so it looks more discreet than those nasty headband ones. I shall probably use those for some kind of Valentine's orientated photo or two, and do my best to stay away from clichés haha.

The butchers also said they can probably order me in a lamb's heart for Monday so looks like that's when we're gonna be shooting providing everyone is free for then…. Nope, Gemma has just informed me she won’t be free Monday. Tuesday it is then if I can hire out the room for then…

Anyway, it’s now half term at college and I have loads of ideas I want to try out so will keep you posted on how the photos go and whack anything decent that comes out of it in my gallery.

I've realised there is so much inspiration to be found in song lyrics so when I submit the images I will probably post either the song or just the few lines that have inspired it.

Anywho, in a very productive mood right now - just wish I could go training tonight but unfortunately I'm babysitting... ah well, the money will go towards the props I've just bought so it isn't all bad...

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11742363/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11742363/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 01:20:48 PST
Tuesday-Friday without fail, no matter what bus i get, I always end up stuck waiting in St. Annes for half a fecking hour literally freezing my ass off. Public transport really is sh*te. Takes me a whole goddamned hour to get to the dojo from where I live - so sodding cold you can't feel your feet or legs any more, only to then have to wait for what seems like eons to be let into the just as cold dojo.

It isn't as bad on the way back - if you've actually done any work in the class - the sweat keeps you slightly warm for about ten minutes once you go outside

Haha yesterday was a superb waste of time and bus fare...

You see on a Thursday i only actually have two classes but they are spread out so that one is 8:45 - 9:55 then after about 2 and a half hours of finding something to do (see, another reason why I could use a car -i could then actually have time to drive home and get stuff done instead of bumming about college), I then have another class 12:40 - 1:55. However yesterday, instead of being able to go home after my last class, we had this goddamned language meet up. All our old language tutors from high school were invited to the college to listen to some oral presentation in German, Spanish and French and then have a chat to us about how we'd gotten on in the last two years.


This meant another 2 and a half hours to do sweet feck all before the tutors arrived. i wish i hadn't have bothered, the only tutor i had been interested in seeing didn't turn up and the one who did barely spoke to me. A goddamned waste of time and effort in creating this crap for them.

I couldn't get out of college until 5:40 thanks to this and the bus i needed to get to the dojo left Blackpool town centre at about 6:05. Well guess i'd be skipping food then. Straight on the bus from college to town it was then.

At least before I got the bus in town I had time to buy a retainer stud for my nose piercing - i should be able to spar now without so much of the risk of having my brain impaled by my piercing if someone decided to whack my nose.


Anyway, 30 f-in freezing minutes sat on the back of a bus before another 30 f-in freezing minutes stood down an alley in St. Annes waiting for Simon and Dale to come and open up.

They get there.....minus the key.

So after ten minutes standing about trying to get in with Dale's mis-cut key, everyone decided to call it off for the night as it would take Simon about 45 minutes to go home, get the ruddy key and come back.


Yay.


10 f-in freezing minutes stood waiting for a bus
40 f-in freezing minutes sat on grotty bus with some chav being a dick
20 f-in absolutely numbingly freezing minutes walking home through town centre.


I get home and find all my leg is red raw from where my bag hangs against it, making my jeans rub against freezing cold skin. Lovely.


So from 5:40 - 8:30 when I finally got back home was a complete and utter waste of fecking time and bus fare. Not happy.



Oh well... nice cuppa tea, warm bed and a newly acquired DVD... thanks for that by the way Si




Rant over

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11730377/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11730377/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 02:52:05 PST

"Choices"

When words escape your drying mouth,
When thought and feelings must pour out,
Lyricism will leave no doubt,
Yet hide just what you mean.

So look and listen can you see?
The only way my thoughts run free,
Are through these words you put in me,
If I'm to keep it clean.

Do not ask, I will not say.
But then again I'll always stay,
No matter what you throw my way
Coz the king in you I've seen.

It doesn't matter what I'm told;
My die is cast, I will not fold;
Forbidden from what I want to hold
I just remember what has been.

So lie with me but not to,
Or I'll just do the same to you,
Despite what you have put me through,
I'd still want to be your queen.

So touch me, hold me, make me smile.
I'll stay with you for the next mile.
I'll even love you - no more denial,
If what you want is what has been.

But life goes on, if all you need
Are just some nights when lust is freed,
A little tumble in the weeds
I would not stop this scene.

Just tell me what you want my friend,
Because either way I'll have to mend.
Time with you I'd love to spend
But for love or lust - you choose.






I'm aware the syllables and the rhyme scheme don't always fit but for 5 minutes typing it's the rawest thing you're going to get to what is going on in my head. I never claimed to be a poet.

I am not sad
I feel quite good
Although I don't do what I should.....

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11693776/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11693776/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 07:16:28 PST

Didn't I tell ya Gemma that I had one of those feelings I get eh?

Yeah.... for those who don't know me, on occassion I get feelings about things. I'm not quite sure exactly what it is but I'll know something's gonna happen whether it be bad or good. It doesn't happen often mind and half the time I don't have a clue what it means or what's going on. All I know is that last night and all this morning I was completely excited by something or other for no apparent reason - hell I've even been twitching all morning (no joke) and talking to everyone with some little kid's giddy voice. Didn't know why the fuck I felt like that, but I told Gemma not an hour ago that I felt something pretty damn good was gonna happen.

When I got in this afternoon, turns out there's a letter from the University of Central Lancashire offering me a Sports Scholarship of £2,000 sat waiting for me

Being a typical skint 17-year-old-student who still can't even afford driving lessons never mind the rest of life's little luxuries (not forgetting the previously mentioned lack of money for clothes, I've never even seen £2,000 - let alone been given it.

However.......



If you do the math, it isn't worth it.


Let me elaborate.

Going to UCLAN will cost me £3,000 per year tuition fees. So even taking the scholarship into account I'll be looking at £7,000 to study the full course. Plus it means train fare to and from the Preston everyday.

If I go to Blackpool and Fylde (which is where I want to go), the tuition fees are only £1,200 per year - so even without receiving a scholarship I only have to pay £3,600
for the entire duration of the course. Plus it's only a 40 minute walk away.

As well as that, depending on how much my dad's businesses are making by September, I could be entitled to a maintenance allowance and other things to help pay for the fees etc - and they don't have to be paid back like a student loan.

So bascially B+F has the better course, the better facilities, the lowest costs.

However the one thing I will miss not going to UCLAN is the student atmosphere that you probably won't get at B+F, it primarily being a college and all that, and I have to admit that was something I was really looking forward to about going to Uni.

Ah well, you gotta weigh it I guess. Education and affordabilty VS. a social life.


Blackpool and Fylde it is.





And here comes the song:



ABBA - "Money Money Money"

I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Aint it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
Thats too bad
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldnt have to work at all, Id fool around and have a ball...

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world

A man like that is hard to find but I cant get him off my mind
Aint it sad
And if he happens to be free I bet he wouldnt fancy me
Thats too bad
So I must leave, Ill have to go
To las vegas or monaco
And win a fortune in a game, my life will never be the same...

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world

Its a rich mans world



okay, so I don't agree with the whole finding a guy just for his money thing but yeah....basically I'm skint so a bit of money right about now would be most welcome (especially since I plan on getting rat-arsed on thursday - ah well, I'll see if I can persuade some poor bugger to buy me drinks for the night haha)


Anyway, on a completely seperate note, glad to hear Simon w... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11681430/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11681430/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 08:54:16 PST
I got a phone call the other night from Granthams (for any non-english people reading this it is a gorgeous art shop that sells pretty much anything), telling me they think they have a suitable vacancy for me to fill so I have to go see them tomorrow. Can't wait - better shop, better atmosphere, and the oh-so-important better pay. I'll see what's on offer than waltz back to BHS and inform them of their lack of one more member of staff

Anyway, payday came last thursday, and even though I have been under paid by, like, all my over time at Christmas (gonna have to sort that out grrr...) I decided a bit of retail therapy was in order.

Being a forever skint student I very rarely ever buy anything, especially clothes... all my money usually goes on that week's training fees, bus fare, rent and food for the week. But screw it, I thought. With no wushu for a month, just doin the freestyle, XMA and weaponry classes all week will mean less to pay on the training so that meant clothes money ^,^

I seriously can't remember the last time I went shopping for clothes...how sad is that?


Well, I say clothes.... I actually ended up buying a hell of a lot of underwear (sexy underwear though so it is excusable) ...I'm thinking of submitting some photos to "Suicide Girls" in mind to being a model (as well as a photographer - double the pay WOOT!) so I thought I may have to get some extremely sexy lingerie to help things along...even though (as required) it'll all be off by the end of the set haha.

Anyway, also had a brainstorm of ace ideas for photos so hopefully within the next few weeks or so I'll get them up here if I can find the right models and locations for them. I have something in the mix for Valentine's so keep an eye out for a cynical look at said corporate whore out

Anywho, here as promised is the song of the moment. It's a song from the musical "The Sound of Music:"



"Favourite Things"

"Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad"
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11670887/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11670887/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 11:57:40 PST
Most people (even those who know me well) probably don't know how deep I get when I think about music so I've decided from now on, whenever I write a blog I will also write down the lyrics of a song that reflect thoughts/feeling/events that I'm having at that particular moment in time... either personal or just in general life throughout the world.

See if you can guess what they're about each time - it might offer some brief entertainment in the boredom of day to day life

These ones are easy if you've read my blog recently haha....


Dido - "See The Sun"

I'm comin' 'round to open the blinds
You can't hide here any longer
My God you need to rinse those puffy eyes
You can't last here any longer

And yes they'll ask you where you've been
And you'll have to tell them again and again

And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day
Well I promise you you'll see the sun again
And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
And I promise you you'll see the sun again

Come on take my hand
We're going for a walk, I know you can
You can wear anything as long as it's not black
Please don't mourn forever
She's not coming back

And yes they'll ask you where you've been
And you'll have to tell them again and again

And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day
Well I promise you you'll see the sun again
And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
And I promise you you'll see the sun again

Do you remember telling me you found the sweetest thing of all
You said one day this was worth dying for
So be thankful you knew her at all
But it's no more

And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day
Well I promise you you'll see the sun again
And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
And I promise you you'll see the sun again
I promise you you'll see the sun again

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11654700/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11654700/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 01:49:25 PST
I don't regret anything in the past. No matter how badly it affected me at the time, no matter how long it takes to get over or how much pain and damage it causes in the process, no matter how much physical, mental or emotional hurt that is done, I am grateful for it. Each time i have come out of the end of it a better, stronger and more aware person than i was before.

Last night, (if you managed to get past the crap french and the even worse mentality of an online translator) my blog bascially reflected my feelings at the time although probably to a lesser extent thanks to my limited french vocabulary.

Despite how absolutely and entirely shit I felt about things last night, today i feel fine.

I think i owe that to past experiences. I've had so many let downs and been involved in several extremely bad relationships that even ended up affecting my family for things that happened, that I've had plenty of experience in trying to get over things.

Each time I learned to cope with it in a different way. Sure it was always a long and painful process, but it's helped so much.

My last relationship was the most meaningful one I have ever had in my life. I felt so unbelievably loved and in love with him. I trusted him and felt safe with him and totally felt confident with him in everything - something i have never been able to do with someone before. It hurt so much the way it ended; totally out of the blue with no feeling and yes... even via text messaging. Last night I felt the worst I have in so long.

But like i said, thanks to past experiences, I'm grateful as to how fast i've gotten over things. People may reply to this by thinking, 'well if you can get over someone you claim to have loved like that within the space of a night, you couldn't possibly have loved them or felt as close as you say you did.'

They are wrong.

I've just had a lot of chances to learn how to deal with things like this. Probably more than most people my age.

A few years ago I used to be incredibly unstable emotionally. I had no idea how to deal with the concept of love (hell I didn't even believe it could be felt at that age or even this one now. Obviously i have recently learned otherwise) and I let a lot of things get me down.

At the end of a break-up I would do what every other person might do; question things, ask how and why it happened, think how brilliant and perfect everything felt just a few days before and just generally feel sorry for myself and as shit as the rest of the recently made single world.

Lately I've realised that if things have ended they obviously weren't as perfect as they may have been previously thought to be. Sure it's crap to know that something you love is gone and not going to come back, but at the end of the day, what can you do? You can't change the way other people feel. You can't help it if you've now seen a different side to someone that you don't like. Whatever the circumstances - they may have lied, they may have cheated, abused you physically, mentally or emotionally, or quite simply they might just have grown a part from you. Whatever the reason for it, whether it ended on a good note or a bad note, it's gone now. Sure you can sit and cry about it for weeks but what's the point? Nothing's going to change and life has to go on. Just be grateful that whilst it lasted you felt on top of the world.


So stop thinking about how great they were. No matter how good it was, remember that you too are also a great person. You're young, free and single. One day you'll meet someone who sees you for who you are and loves you as much as you love them. Learn from your mistakes, and if someone makes you feel like shit, Uncle kracker will always be there to make you see the truth:

"Follow Me"

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why
You can't turn around and say goodbye
All you know is when I'm with you
I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singin'

Follow me everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
You're better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go astray and
We'll be all right if you don't ask me to stay

Follow me everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why
You can't turn around an... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11648665/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11648665/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 14:33:38 PST
Just a follow on from my last blog.... I need to get some things off my chest and hopefully my french is bad enough for very few people to understand it. (especially with a translator haha)

Anyway....

désolé pour le mauvais Français...

Je suis célibataire. Mon petit ami a décidé à finir avec moi environ il y a deux heures et j’ai arrêté pleurer juste maintenant. Il pense que je suis bon, mais la vérité est que je me sens si trahi et ça me blesse si beaucoup. Je ne me suis jamais senti si proche à quelqu'un avant et c'était la relation la plus significative que je jamais ai eu avec n'importe qui. Je t’aime encore, bien qu’il ait le fini dans une façon très froide. Apres tout les textos qu’il m'a envoyé en le passé qui toujours ont dit moi qu’il m’aime plus que n'importe quoi, je ne comprend pas pourquoi il a décidé à faire ceci. Nous n’avons jamais des arguments ni des bagarres, et donc secrètement je pense qu’il a des sentiments pour quelqu'un d'autre.

Je ne peux pas le croire parce qu’il toujours a dit que je suis la meilleure chose qui jamais lui est arrivé et qu'il ne veut jamais que nous avons ensemble à finir. Ce n'était que dimanche dernier qu'il m'a dit qu’il m'a aimé, donc je ne comprends pas comment il peut changer la façon qu'il sent si rapidement. Je suis si sûr il y a quelque chose il ne me dit pas.

Il toujours était romantique et la personne plus gentille que j’ai jamais rencontré et donc ça me troubler qu’il maintenant en étant si épouvantable et je n’ai pas l’idée pourquoi.

Je ne peux pas dire juste comme dégueulasse je me sens. Lui-même m’a fait commencer automutilation encore, et pour ce, je le déteste...



Cette est le seul chanson que je sais on Français et par un bande qui j'aime... je pense qu’il est un peu approprié pour comment je me sens (si un peu emo):


'C'est le malaise du moment,
L'épidémie qui s'étend,
La fête est finie, on descend,
Les pensées qui glacent la raison.

Paupières baissées, visages gris,
Surgissent les fantômes de notre lit;
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudis qu'on appelle maison.

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me, protect me

Protège-moi, protège-moi
Protège-moi, protège-moi
Protège-moi, protège-moi
Protège-moi, protège-moi

Sommes-nous les jouets du destin
Souviens-toi des moments divins
Planant, éclatés au matin,
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls.

Perdus les rêves de s'aimer,
Le temps où on avait rien fait,
Il nous reste toute une vie pour pleurer
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls.

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me, protect me

Protect me from what I want
(Protège-moi, protège-moi)
Protect me from what I want
(Protège-moi, protège-moi)
Protect me from what I want
(Protège-moi, protège-moi)
Protect me, protect me

Protège-moi, protège-moi
Protège-moi de mes désirs

Protège-moi, protège-moi
Protège-moi, protège-moi

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me, protect me

(Protect me) Protect me from what I want
(Protect me) Protect me from what I want
(Protect me) Protect me from what I want
Protect me, protect me'

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11644145/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11644145/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 06:55:40 PST
I'm not sure if it's just a case of paranoia and a string of coincidences putting ideas into my head or if there really is something in what I think I'm seeing.

Either way, I refuse to carry on feeling like shit, pretending to ignore it in hopes it will resolve itself, so with any luck i'll be able to at least get a few things in my head sorted out soon if all goes well.

To be honest though, I think subconsciously I'm expecting the outcome to be negative - despite me trying to think rationally and find excuses as to what's been happening, deep down I know there have just been way too many coincidences and things going on for this just to be an overreaction.

You have no idea how much I hope I am wrong about things....

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11618547/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11618547/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 01:50:08 PST
Well let's just say things didn't turn out too well.

Not happy.







But screw that. I can't be arsed being in a mood all week.


I get paid tomorrow, thursday and friday for different things and money can always cheer anyone up. Might be going out on Thursday to hopefully get more than a little wankered with Liang and a few people before he has to go back to China.

Time for a piss up, people!!!! Woot!!!!

In other good news, Liang was also talking about a few of us all going to China next year to do some training with the pro's which would be an awesome experience. If it coincides with the opening of the 2008 Beijing Olympics then that kills two birds with one stone since I was planning to go watch it anyway.... least now I'll be with more oh-so-cool people

haha. Liang's a top guy, hope he has fun back home whilst he's there. Last wushu class tonight so I best make the most of it...

Update later all you bored blog-reading peeps

~Spinxy

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11606774/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11606774/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 02:39:52 PST
Spoke to the guys at Blackpool Body Piercing Clinic (BBPC) so I now know why my nose piercing is all fucked up.

Turns out the guys at Enigma who pierced it, used some kind of illegal material to pierce it with which is why it is still red after almost a year of having it pierced and why I can't get it out - the bastard has swollen my nose up inside apparently. At least I can't feel it or see it eh?

So basically he said he'll remove it for me and put in a better one. It's going to be uncomfortable but at least my nose will be alreet again and it will mean I'll be able to easily take it in and out when I want to spar. He was gonna do it on the Saturday but he only had a pink stud to replace it with, and let's face it people - pink isn't exactly my colour. I therefore plan to go back sometime later this week when he's hopefully got some more in.

Other things have pissed me off a fair bit this weekend but I'll not go into that.

In the mean time, I'm stuck on a free period at college with bugger all to do - the system has myspace blocked on pretty much every machine so I can't even waste away the time on that pile of crap. Might do a bit of ebaying methinks... I could do with some studio lights.

Anywho, with any luck I'll have a reason to be less moody later on.... either that or it'll make me worse, we'll have to see how it turns out.

Hope everyone's had a better weekend and has a good week.

Speak/bitch/rant/write later folks.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11584353/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11584353/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 06:21:40 PST

Well.... until he comes back.

I'll not go into it much (there's a lot of background shit going on with his leaving that I think needs to remain hush), but it does mean that for the month he is away I'm gonna have to try and do my own training for the qualifiers in March. At least I have one form more or less down, but I want to enter the musical kata category too so I still have a form to put together for that.

Never put a form together myself - least of all to music. I suppose it's made a little easier by the fact that it's 'creative' so I can pretty much whack whatever I want into the routine. It'll probably be more wushu based than anything else but I wanna use both Chang Quan and Nan Quan styles in it.... and since the category is predominantly made of freestylers and trickers, I best try and get a couple of tricks in.

Maybe just an aerial and some kinda capoeira move.... and if I can get it in time - a B-Twist.

And then if I get really stuck, Simon or Dale will probably gimme a hand - this is their field after all.

I think they are going to Derby tomorrow to do some tricking so I might ask if I can use the dojo whilst their gone coz I have loads of stuff to figure out.

Anyway, Simon is currently lucky enough to be watching the Blackpool - Norwich match (grrrrr.....) so whilst he's there I may just toddle off to the body piercing clinic. Hope I get chance to see him today, missed the daft sod so much this week.

Anywho I'm off, little brother is bitching for the computer.

Later, droogs.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11573512/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11573512/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 07:47:54 PST

Just thought I'd let you all know since people seemed to like it.... I'm still waiting for my little brother to come out with the 'dyke' comments again though.


Anyway, in other news, I've finally got my background support frame and a couple of backdrops on their way in the post so hopefully there shall be more clickety-clicking of the camera

Just gotta get me mitts on some lights now.....

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11560544/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11560544/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 03:31:44 PST
Speaking of which, this weekend I'm off work and I think Simon may be going to Derby on Sunday so I'm hoping to get some fashion/glamour photography done if he will be so kind as to leave us the keys to the dojo.

Gemma needs some stuff for her Suicide Girls set and my friend wants a bit of a glamour shoot doing for her so looks like another girly day in. I also want to set up a stock account, mainly for my excellent editing pal, gMo so I need to do some stock self-portraits - I keep getting bugged for more wushu-esque stuff to give him to work on, or at least with a few weapons so I may as well get that done too whilst we're at it.

But yeah check that guy out, he has some serious talent - he's just set up here on DA so you may need to be a bit patient to see some of his best work, but he'll get there.

In the mean time, ciao and toodle lou.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11527182/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11527182/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 07:49:42 PST
So as it stands, unless I can get a lot of sponsorship this year, I may have to miss out. After all I'm still trying to save up for this goddamn studio equipment. Ah well, a few people want family portraits doing and I've got my first wedding to shoot in June(?) so hopefully it won't take me too long to save up.

In other news, I had an interview at the University of Central Lancashire (UCLAN) for the photography course there last wednesday that I tihnk went ok. It was a group interview so there weren't any personal questions or convos being done - mainly just a sharing of portfolios. although I would have preferred a more one-to-one interview, it at least gave me the opportunity to look at everyone else's portfolio to give me more of an idea of things. I'm at a bit of a disadvantage really to a lot of people applying for this course because most people already seem to have a lot of experience in it as they are either mature students who have been doing it for years anyway and just want an official qualification, or they've already studied it in college. Unfortunately I wasn't lucky enough to be given the option to study it in college, as they've only just introduced the course to the one I'm at this year and it's for first year students only

The interview i feel went ok, our portfolio's were of similar standards, although there was one much older guy whose stuff I really liked which distinctly stood out from the rest of our work.

Now I'm just waiting on a letter from Blackpool and the Fylde college to see if I've managed to get an interview for their BA photography course. I want to go there so much - it's supposed to be one of the best photography courses in Europe and it's about a 20 minute bus ride away from my house which is oh so conveinient. After having that interview at UCLAN as well has also helped give me a better idea of what to expect and also more ideas about presenting my portfolio.

Anyway, I'm knackered.....even after having about 4 days straight of sleep and it only being 3:45 in the afternoon. I am therefore going to jump in a shower and wake myself up.

Hopefully I will have some new stuff to whack up soon.....

Until then, pip pip folks.

]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11477622/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11477622/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:08:25 PST
I spent the evening cross-referencing my given texts for the English exam I have on Friday and watching 'The Man Who Sued God.' A very entertaining film and one which raises and intersting point, I think it's based on a true story actually.

Anyway, I had planned on getting some sleep after that as I was already knackered, but I somehow found myself watching a dramatised documentary on the Columbine Massacre. Now I must say I didn't know much about the incident before hand so I was absolutely horrified about what actually happened. The fact that the programme actually re-created pretty much everything that happened and the things leading up to it made it even worse - it wasn't just a simple recounting from witnesses and others involved.

I just could not understand how two kids could for a year plan to slaughter their entire school. The fact that they killed randomly and even shot their victims at such close proximity whilst talking to them is incomprehensible. I simply could not imagine the fear the other students must have felt whilst they trmebled under their desks, watching the feet of their killers marching towards them over the bodies of their friends. It's like something out of a horror film. I know to any Americans reading this and others who know more about it are probably thinking this is old news, but for somone who had no clue as what exactly happened.... I can't even describe how horrified it made me. It probably wouldn't have had such an impact on me if it WAS just a retelling with maybe a few photos thrown in, but having the whole thing recreated in front of you in such detail from start to finish........it's....well.....

I actually had nightmares for the first time in ages. All night too. I find myself this morning still feeling the results of a night spent half awake and seeing my friends and I being savagely slaughtered.

It was a bit of a strange dream, but then again most are aren't they? It was split into two parts. The first focused on myself hiding in college, in a store cupboard in one of the french classes. I remember being sat crunched up in a ball in a corner behind a rail of clothing and texting my boyfriend and telling him how much I loved him and how I always will - even after the worst has happened. In the dream he then phoned me, wanting to know if I was ok, thinking I had perhaps got suicidal thoughts in my head to make me write such things. In a panicked whisper, interspersed with choked tears I told him what was happening and how unbelievably afraid I was. I remember clutching hold of one of the hanging coats and shaking uncontrollably.

At the other end, in his office at work, he was stood trying to calm me down although he himself was verging on tears. He told me how he wouldn't let anything happen to me. He would always be there to love and protect me, although we both knew it was unlikely to happen...especially now I could here the two sadisticaly armed students entering the french room.

I told him I daren't speak in case I was heard, but told him to keep talking to me - if I was to die, it was his voice I wanted to hear last. I suppose this is sounding incredibly soppy to people reading right now. I suppose that's what love does to you. But I cannot explain how real this all felt. I'm actually feeling shook up as I'm typing - as wierd as it sounds, but it really does feel as though this all really happened last night. It is something I have never experienced before and I hope never to again.

The last thing I remember of this scene is hearing gun fire as the two students shoot round after round into the door of little room I am hiding in. There are no lights except from the ever increasing number of holes that are being shot into the wood. In those rapidly emerging little specks, light penetrates through into the room until I am completely engulfed in it. Although the gunfire still rages on, all I hear is the voice of the man I love telling me how he will always protect me.

I have no clue if I lived in that scene, remaining undiscovered in the tiny little corner I had wedged myself into.

Maybe I did.

Maybe I didn't.



Later on in this nightmare, one of my close friends didn't.

She and I were both being held at gunpoint on our knees about two metres away from a large mirror wall. We were told that the last person to touch the mirror would be shot with the shotgun's they were threatening us with. Faster than I could see we both lunged forwards onto our stomaches trying to reach before, again, another blinding light engulfed everything.

When my vision returned, I was lying on top of my friend. At least, what was left of her. Strangely en... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11397039/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11397039/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 10:40:57 PST
I've been so busy with college work/coursework/revision as well as worrying about trying to get my portfolio sorted for next wednesday's interview, not to mention this literal pain in the ass of a demo to do.....


Thankfully though, now we are on thursday night, it means that my french exam is over (and since we're on the subject I think it went rather well), most of the week's homework is done and so is the demo. Tom Roe, Joe Fox and I had to sort out some kind of martial arts demo to be filmed for the college's promotional DVD, but some bright spark decided to do it in the middle of flaming exam week so we only had a couple of hours of last night in which to put it together. Also, as a result of having to run through the fight scenes for about 7 consecutive takes, and doing about 2 run-throughs of a full wushu routine I now feel well and truly FUCKED. It doesn't help either that we were told to do it all on a rubbery dance studio floor so now my body feels well and truly destroyed.... as if my back wasn't buggered enough.... I don't think I've ever felt so bruised in my life...grrr....

Ah well. I did plan on going out tonight but the thought of my boyfriend's warm bed and a movie feels so much more appealing right now.... Besides, I haven't seen him practically all week, and when ya used to seeing the person you love everyday, four days is just waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long to be apart.... and before you say anything, no, I am not a clingy girlfriend - for your information he has missed me too hehe

Anywho, so I guess the only real thing I have to sort out now is my portfolio. I know exactly which photos I'm going to use and am in the process of mounting them on A1 boards, I just need to get a couple of them enlarged to about A3 size so a trip to Granthams may be in order (I refuse to go to jessops for printing these days - waaaay too expensive and they cock everything up all the time). I have a bit of a sketchbook going on but it's a work in progress as far as the photography side of it's concerned. I've been told however to bring examples of art sketchbooks as well though so that will bulk things up a bit as I have loads from last year I can probably collate into one.

..................since my little brother is wanting on the computer, I suppose now would be a good time to go and do some of that..... toodle pip.

~Aimee

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Personally I'm having no problems with this month as of yet (with perhaps the exception of the weather), however there's just way too much that needs to be done and not much time to do it....

I have a French Exam next week I'm not looking forward to - not out of worry of failing (I'm pretty ok with it and I think I've revised enough for it)....the fact is I just can't be arsed. I constantly find myself asking why the hell I decided to drop art for this shit....

I miss painting....

I also have an English exam in a couple of weeks but to be honest I don't really care.... it's weird actually.... I've needed to do a hell of a lot of revising for my french and will do for my other subjects but English is just something I can just DO without putting any effort in..... at least it gives me more time for other things I guess.

I also need to finish some photography projects, not course projects because technically I'm not on it, but I decided I'd do them anyway....they give me ideas and help towards my portfolio which is another thing I need to get finished pretty soon. I can't wait to study BA photography next year. I've applied to several different places but to be honest I just really want to go to Blackpool and the Fylde College....even if it does mean having to bump into certain people on occassion. I'm willing to put up with anything to get on that course to be honest. Wish me luck.

Appart from the academic things I also have Nationals to sort myself out for. I think they're being held sometime in February for this year's World Championships and I'm hoping to enter more categories this year:

Soft Form
Weapons (No Music)
Empty Hand (With Music)


To be realistic though I'm not entirely sure it's going to happen. I just haven't had time to put routine's together and this is the first real time I've tried to create them on my own so I'm finding it a little difficult.

For the soft form category I can just do the routine I did at last year's worlds but I'll have to make some slight alterations....I successfully managed to fuck up my back - Whilst at the competition training I never really warmed my back up properly...a bit stupid really considering I practicallly bend it backwards in half at several points during the form.... I very much doubt it will be fixed before February so I will just have to temporarily change the routine.

My coach is supposed to be devising a straight sword routine for me but I he's not had much chance to lately so depending on how quick he can put one together I may or may not be entering that category....

As for the empty hand....it's labelled "creative" so you can basically do whatever the fuck you want. It's mainly full of the XMA/freestylers jumping around doing crazy shit all over the place so I don't quite know how a Wushu based form would do along side that kinda stuff....I may have to learn a few new tricks....probably whack an aerial in or a B-Twist if I can learn it in time.

This year I'll be in the adult's categories for each event so I'm not quite sure what the competition's like.... if there aren't many in my categories and I haven't quite got the forms polished I could just wing it and make it up as I go along just to gurantee a spot on the team...then I've got the rest of the year at least to sort everythin out....

I have started some more classes lately. This is due to several reasons... I want to get more into the fighting side of competition so I've started freestyle kickboxing, and then I do the XMA class straight after that to try and help me learn the tricks I need for my form.

The other reason would be the bloke who owns the gym I currently train at wants me to start paying again (I used to get free training for cleaning the gym every week). He knows damn well I can't afford it....maybe he's trying to tell me something? I get the feeling he doesn't particularly like me.... I get the feeling he doesn't particularly like quite a few people with the amount of bitching that goes on in that place...it doesn't really feel like a club at all... A club should support people - even the less talented. Here people just seem to get pushed away all the time - there's absolutely no feeling of a "team" at all. Ah well. I don't really care much for the bitching and backstabbing that goes on, I just keep my mouth shut at all the bullshit and just train. If people want to sound like twats it's up to them....but it would be far more prudent to keep some opinions to yourself....

The new classes I'm doing are all taught a FMAC by my boyfriend, Simon, Gaz and Dale and I have to say they are all very good at teaching. It's a shame I won't be able to carry on doing as much of the Wushu... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11182736/ http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/11182736/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 01:46:35 PST

Much love to you all

~Aimee

xx

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She really does make an excellent model and I look forward to shooting her again

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So after Simon kindly letting us borrow the dojo and after a mad scurring and swiping of props/clothes/accessories etc, clothes were off and pictures were taken We managed to get some good ideas going but not all of the photos turned out brilliantly so I think today was mainly used to experiment with lighting and positioning etc. We shall therefore be back on Friday to finish off and hopefully get some better images that can be used and hopefully printed before Christmas.

I've used Gemma in many previous photos but I think this kind of modelling suits her best. She is extremely photogenic and knows how to look sexy on Camera. She's is amazingly easy to work with as she always seems to be able to appear exactly as you imagined her. Think she's after being a suicide girl and personally I think she would be awesome

Anyway, when we've done more shooting, will hopefully get some more photos up if we manage to get any good ones. Will let ya know how things go.


PS: In case I don't write another blog: MERRY CHRISTMAS have a good'un

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Anywho as it happens I've now managed to whack a few more on including one of Simon and his fine self.... I would have said fine ass but that may have lead you on to believe I have posted a photo of his rear end - sorry to disappoint. However give me a couple of hours hiding in his shower and then I shall be able to deliver the goods....mwuahahahaha!!!!!

Anywho, whilst your reading this, time for a bit of a promotion:
For anyone interested in Kickboxing, Weaponry (Traditional and Freestyle) as well as Tricking and Perfomance martial arts then click HERE

Check out some of their ace samplers (I'm on one WOOT! ) as well as their spoofs which are pretty funny.

But anywho these guys have now set up their own dojo and are teaching all of the aforementioned things. When I find the website for that then I shall leave the link on another journal entry.

In the mean time ciao and toodle loo.

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Not a fan of Sports photography but I have to say I'm rather happy with the shots I managed to get. There was actually an official photographer there throughout the competition and after looking at some of the shots he had taken and was selling to the team, I began wondering why the hell I hadn't done the same thing.... if I'm honest his shots weren't anything special - his fight shots were ok but his photos of the forms from what I could see were just about average.....

........ Methinks next time I may try and get more photos of the entire event and see how far I can persuade people to buy mine instead mwuahahaha!!!!!

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Highlights of the trip included:

Straws!!!!
Chickens!!!
Jiggle Balls!!!
The Breakdancing Fly!!!
The Drunken Crazy Lady!!!
Free Alcohol!!!
The questionable sexuality of the lads sharing with a room with Simon!!!
The Mirror!!!


let me elaborate......

Firstly the straws.... it seems Matty Roe, a small curly haired boy as well as having a thing for his Tonfa....also is rather attached to the many useful things achieved with a straw... DO NOT let him near you when one is in sight, or you may just have to Gaffa tape your ass....

Matty also had a pink hairdryer following him around.... it was decided he should sell it on eBay after it been having used by the awesome Chloe Bruce Go here: [LINK]
....my god her Scorpion kick is fucking awesome....*drools*

Chickens were also allegedly stalking the lads in the team, more specifically Simon and Gaz, the latter of whom, after a tad too much alcohol, retired to his room only to occassionally pop out making chicken noises, giggling and running back to bed again....this ladies and gentlemen is a 26 year old married dad and bobby....I don't think I can ever take a cop seriously again. hehe.

The breakdancing fly was caught on Simon's video diary in the local cafe where we passed the time waiting for the meal by finding amusement in watching a helpless bright red something with wings attempt to breakdance on the ajacent table. It filled the time...along with more of Matty's straw related conversations...

Jiggle Balls were also a favourite for discussion, particularly amongst the lads who seemed to have no idea what they were... after a brief description from myself, several of the males knew what they would be getting their girlfriends for Christmas. Gaz infact instantly left the group to phone his missus and inform her of the marvels of the two insertable balls..... personally I would more recommend a vibrator

On the first night our room (I say our room but it was actually the lads' - Chigs, Tom, Matty, Gaz and Simon, but I had pretty much moved in with them for the 9 days) was invaded by a rather pissed mother of a couple of the younger competitors. After mumbling about wanting to 'see Gaz's moves,' raiding his room to find her nightie and informing us of the guy down stairs who 'balls she had ruptured,' Gaz, in true bobby style removed the D&D woman from the room. Thank god she didn't puke anywhere - I'd had enough of that on the trip from Simon and Hannah's projectile vomit hehe.

Free Alcohol - what else can I say? Extra large glasses with literally 95% vodka, 3% ice and 2% coke went down a treat - particularly amongst the so called 'non-drinkers.' Tom spent the night speaking in many different accents, mainly Scottish as well as speaking a hell of lot of German....I stuck with French

After consecutive drunken nights, it became apparent Matty, Tom and quite possibly Chigs were more ass-inclined and in fact their girlfriends back home were only a cover story.

I have to say though, the best thing about the whole trip has to be Simon I had the best nine days ever and got really close to him and we are now officially a couple ^,^ He's an awesome guy and will kick yo' ass fo' sho'. Am gutted he didn't make it in the final coz his form was ace. Am so glad I met him and it wouldn't have been as fun without him..... I must also take this point to apologise to Matty (his room mate) for the mirror.... although having said that, Matty ended up spending most of the week on the sofa in the living room so with any luck he wasn't too affected by the state certain things in the room were left in

Well they are the main highlights of the WKA Championships in my eyes...I have probably forgotten a few things but should anything resurface I'll be sure to let ya know http://Lady-of-Swords.deviantart.com/journal/10733925/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 12:51:32 PST
Since I have way too much to write this blog will mainly be about results so if you wanna read about the fun stuff everyone got up to then the next blog will be for you.

Spain was awesome - the first time I've been abroad since I think I was about seven. Despite amazingly atrocious organisation on part of the WKA which made sure the entire team went without sleep and a decent meal for near enough 48 hours I thoroughly enjoyed the trip.

We left on Friday night at 9:00 and got to Gatwick about 7 hours later - the coach was fecking awlful and sadly sleep was nowhere to be found. It was about another 5 hours at Gatwick before we actually got on the plane and then another 3 hours ish before we set foot in Spain....don't even get me started about what happened when we got there - half the team was left in the pouring rain for about an hour before they managed to get a coach to the hotel. So at this point in time everyone was pissing wet, fucking hungry, pissed off to buggery, wanting nothing more than a nice warm bed.....and as the coach drove towards the hotel we began worrying about the state of the hotel :s

Turns out though the Hotel was pretty damn good…I liked it anyway. Can’t complain at free booze, a massive, albeit freezing swimming pool and loadsa different facilities to train in. The food wasn’t too bad either although a few people didn’t like it at all, admittedly though I did start missing good old British food.

As far as the competing went, On the first day of prelims, myself and Amy Jackson made it through to the finals in our different categories – she made 2nd and I just about qualified in my section in fourth behind three Americans. Hannah who I met on the trip also got a place in her freestyle finals. Lemia also competed that day in the Korean forms category but sadly just missed out on a place in the finals.

On day two the younger lads competed in the soft forms category. Chris Simms sadly didn’t quite get to the finals despite a strong form but his brother Axel and Kyhal Jackson made it through after Axel had to perform for a second time when he drew for 4th place alongside Adam Hope (another member of the Team England). Although not qualifying, Adam did extremely well – it was his first World Championships and at being (I think) only 10, he managed to make it through his extra form despite having to make up a lot of it on the spot which was pretty damn good for him. Tom made it through to the finals with his Katana and he and his brother both made it through in the pair’s form category with their bo routine.

On Wednesday Gaz made it through to three finals; Weapons, Weapons with Music and Freestle with Music so he did extremely well. Sadly Simon, after a brilliant form dropped his kama on the last couple of moves so sadly didn’t get scored - I was really gutted for him as I’m sure he was, he probably would have made it through to the finals as well with the form he had. Both Gaz and Simon opted out of the team form category after a tiring day, several injuries and the extortionate price of the entry.

In the finals, Team England did very well although I think Canada came away with the most golds. From our Blackpool team, Kyhal went on to win Gold, Axel bronze, Adam bronze, Amy Jackson bronze, myself silver, Gaz three bronze, Tom with I think two bronzes, and his brother Matty also with a bronze. Hopefully I’ve not missed anyone out but everyone did really well. Hannah, from Stockport who I ended up sharing a room with went on to get silver in her freestyle and her boyfriend Anthony seemed to dread his final so much that he decided to go and tear his ligaments in the hotel or something daft like that. Muppet.

Star of Team England this year though would be Ruby who came away with three world titles, I think in Weapons, Weapons with music and if I’m honest I’m not sure what the third was, Freestyle maybe?

Either way a Limo was waiting to pick her up at Gatwick Airport on the way home….at least she didn’t have to suffer 7 hours back in a cramped little minibus…lucky lass.

Anywho, that’s all for the results…oh wait, I lie…. The legendary V-Man also got into the medals in men’s Korean style and Jason Baird did really well too so congrats to all you lot too.

And to anyone I’ve forgotten I apologise

I am really proud I managed to get silver, especially after having to perform first in only fourth position. I was mainly worried about screwing up the Swallow balance as I had done in the prelims but thankfully it went without a hitch. I was a... ]]> ~Lady-of-Swords