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~R

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/25494256/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/25494256/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 11:50:25 PDT
[link]

Come check out my new account? Please? My boyfriend and I will be running it together, since it's for our book.

Your support would be greatly appreciated.

's for everyone!


~AVA~

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/24864907/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/24864907/ Wed, 20 May 2009 21:19:04 PDT
Ok... what's new? Hmm... OH!

I've *cough* got a new boyfriend. YAE! *cackle*

My PC was dragging me down, the processor was dieing, so when I recieved my tax money, I invested in a new laptop. Toshiba! WHOOT! It's a nice little machine, even with Vista. But, I'm learning. ^__^

The boyfriend and the best friend will be in town in July for our SCA event, Simple Day. Expect pictures! *glee*

Still moving. Gotta get in gear and start packing. My stuff's all over the house. >_<

Ummmmm... oh! I've been asked to god-parent Cat and her brother, Scott. (Pic of Cat in gallery) So, once the adoption of Cat is finalized, their mother will have them baptised and I'll be named god-mother. ^__^ So EXCITING! *bounce*

I think... that's it right now. Maybe... *thinks* ... at least it's as much as my brain will remember right now. More later, if needed.

*runs away*

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/23112974/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/23112974/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 23:22:31 PST
It's a new year, and that means changes. Lots of them. First of all, I had to replace my computer's hard drive. Yup. Trojans came back with a vengeance. It was like my hard drive was devouring itself or something. I dunno. But my dad rescued me. Sent me a 120gb hard drive to replace it with. After a little wrestling, I finally figured it out (installation was a b*tch) and got it all running again.

I ended up losing Elements 6, but I regained my APS 7.0 in return. ^_^ Happy ending there. I know, I know. 7.0 is old and outdated, but it's the program I learned on, so I know more about it than I'll ever know about any of the others. >_< Besides, I really like the program, and it came with ImageReady. GIFS! WHOOT!

I've become a semi-addict to Asda Story. -_- I blame Jessie. It's all her fault. Yup yup. Oh, and Gaia online. Yes yes, boredom drives me to idiocy. You should know that by now. Currently, I'm in an Anne Rice rut. Waiting for The Queen of the Damned to arrive at the library up the block so I can devour it, too. I've got a weakness for vampires, I guess.

Chelsea's (and others) graduation is coming up! *squee* Momma said she'd float me money for a rental car to get to NC and back with if she had to. =^__^= my Mommy! Very much looking forward to seeing kid sister get her degree.

Simple Day is in July. >_< I'm planning on working my @$$ off again. I have the sneaking suspicion that I'll be visiting the Royals at Court. *eyeballs Opa* Ah well. (it's an SCA thing, for those interested/confused)

I'm moving again. In the beginning of August. Back to Louisiana. -_- My mom needs me. My stepdad's health is on the backside of downhill, and hers isn't great, either. I won't be going to live with them. Hell no. But I'll be going to help out. To be nearby. It's a long story.

So... that's me. That's it. Not much else to say or do. *shrug* Making things work isn't always easy, but it never hurts to try.

~R

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/20752060/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/20752060/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 23:49:04 PDT
I need someone who can design a tattoo for me. >___< I suck at art/drawing, and I have the idea in mind... I just can't make it work for me. Can anyone help? Comment or note please.

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We've moved, we've settled, we're slowly unpacking. We've got a plan, we're doing our best, we're praying to stay afloat.

Help us out with praying, eh?

Anywho... Here's the future agenda::

~October 31, Talbot St. :: Cruxshadows Concert -- this one is a more than likely yes, seeing as the tickets are $10-$15 per person.

~November 19, Chicago House of Blues :: Dir en grey Concert ft. The Human Abstract -- this one is a hopefully yes. Tickets aren't cheap, and neither will the gas be. >___<

~Thanksgiving/Christmas :: ANNOY THE HECK OUT OF MY ROOMMATE BECAUSE I LOVE LOVE LOVE THESE TWO HOLIDAYS! And yes, you can bet that I'll do just that. XD

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]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/20267982/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/20267982/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 09:09:18 PDT
My computer was literally taken over by a flock of Trojan viruses. >__< Most of them died quickly and quietly in virus scan/spyware sweeps, but one of them... it just hung on. I took my poor little eMachine to a techie friend, and even with a fake harddrive in my RAM, it still didn't budge.

Best case scenario: Get rid of Virus, go home happy.
Worst case scenario: Complete system back-up and restore.
Action taken: Complete system back-up and restore.

I spent half an hour backing up what I could, so all of my digital art and writings and music were saved. Everything else... gone. I'm starting from scratch, and only a day before I lose my internet connection. Since I'm taking down my computer and moving it to our new house where we've yet to hook cable up. So, I've made mad scrambles to download the things I lost (Yahoo!, AIM, RealPlayer, etc). Now, to start the tedious task of resetting iTunes. >___< *FLAIL*

The worst of the worst:

I lost Photoshop 7. :scream: The copy I had to start with wasn't... mine, per say, so there was no way I could save it, not without the numbers it needed. BUTTTT! The techie friend of mine got me a copy of Elements 6.0 to replace it. Since 7 is so outdated and old and it glitched on me from time to time, he asked if there was a different program of interest. =^___^= I just have to learn how to use it now, since it's all I have. XD

Needless to say, I'm going away, there will be no updates to ANY of my accounts for an undetermined amount of time, and I'll see what I can have to show off when I get back. Wish us luck, hope for the best, and... I'll see you all later.

~AVA~

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19906876/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19906876/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 22:37:11 PDT



]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19381349/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19381349/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 23:00:29 PDT
I've been trying for most of the past... oh, six hours... to get dA to accept ONE picture. Just ONE. A simple little image of my cat. But NOOOO. dA gives me the proverbial finger. Ack, it's worse than it was before.

Why'd they have to change something that actually WORKED?

*/rant*


And still... the emoties don't work.

*FLAIL more*

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19117866/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/19117866/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 21:51:17 PDT
Ugg...

Ah well... back to it then, eh?

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18975096/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18975096/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 23:15:16 PDT Sing it for me
I can't erase the stupid things I say
You're better than me
I struggle just to find a better way

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road, the one that I should to try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight take a breath and softly say goodbye

You wouldn't like me
Keep moving on until forever ends
Don't try to fight me
The beauty queen has lost her crown again

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road, the one that I, should to try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight take a breath and softly say goodbye

Goodbye
So why are you so eager to betray?
Pick the pieces up pick
Pick the pieces up
so why are you the one that walks away?
Pick the pieces up
Pick the pieces up
Pick the pieces up

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road, the one that I, should to try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight take a breath and softly say goodbye
Just take a breath and softly say goodbye

"Here We Are" ~ Breaking Benjamin

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More often than not, there are times in my life where I've allowed myself to be caught up and swept away in a moment. Where I've let my heart override my good sense and I lose all focus on the important things.

Kibiri is no acception to that.

I thought that I had gotten past the point in my life where I let my emotions govern my actions. I've struggled to make a life for myself, and for once, things seem to be working out. I just... I don't know what's happened.

The male gender is a weakness for me. They always have been. Don't get me wrong, I'm not bashing. I've just gotten mixed up with the wrong guys too many times in my life. Granted, I've met and loved a few who've been better to me than I've deserved.

But... why is Kibiri able to get past my defenses? No matter how much I try to fight, how hard I push, he still breaks through. AGH! It's infuriating that he can see straight into me. >___<*

I don't like being an open book unless it's my idea, thank you oh-so-very much. And that's rare. I mean, there's not but, maybe, one or two people in my life who know me, if you know what I mean.

I want, just once, for something in my life to make sense. For something that comes along without the questions tailing it. Something that I don't have to think about, that I don't have to consider from every angle, something that I don't have to circle like a hawk and protect like a sow bear. I'm just tired of living my life like that.

Oh, Kibiri... what have you done to me? *sigh*

It's going to take a few days to shake this melancholy. I'm terrible at these things. But... it's survivable. It just has to be.

Right?

...

...right?





Oh, dear little sister... what must you think of me, knowing me as you do?

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18534588/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18534588/ Tue, 27 May 2008 20:42:19 PDT
Scott's doing well, along with things he shouldn't be doing at only 3 weeks old. He's progressing rapidly.

Catarina's gone BEYOND green in her jealousy. She's become a handful and then some.

Emi's exhausted, but is still having to deal with almost everything herself.

Job hunting is ground to a halt. No time, no energy, no clue where to start.

My current job still sucks. >___<

My best friend leaves the country in a few days. Thank goodness for Skype, eh? Pray for her, please.

They're showing the Bleach movie at one of the big theaters in about two weeks. $10 a seat?! You bet I'm going!

Lessee...

Oh, I'm on a Tokio Hotel kick. It shoved aside my Serj Tankian addiction for a while. lol


Other than that... all is going as well as possible. Thank God for that.

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18234757/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/18234757/ Thu, 08 May 2008 22:14:20 PDT
Mother and son were cleared and released May 8, 2008, and both are now resting comfortably at home.

Thank you so very much to each and every one of you who helped us pray for Emi and Scott this past month or so. I know God heard us and touched this growing family.

Now, the only thing left to pray for is Emi's sanity when Catarina begins to get involved with baby brother. >__<

~AVA~

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17962839/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17962839/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 16:24:26 PDT
She finally got ahold of an OB who will LISTEN to her, and she's set to deliver on May 5. She has to wait that long so Medicaire will pay for it, but at this point, Emi's just happy that something's being done. She's in good spirits and lots of pain, but she's holding on. Scott now weighs over 6 pounds! He's a chunky bugger!

All seems to be well, but we're all keeping a close eye on her and the baby. I'll update more later.

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I go in for my X-ray tomorrow at 3 p.m. Depending on that, I may or may not have to have an MRI done. The meds haven't started working on my pain yet, but I hope that they will in time. And no word back on my blood tests yet. >__<

More later.

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17903401/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17903401/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 20:48:43 PDT
This past week, Emi was hospitalized because of her asthma and the fact that she was in mild labor. This is the hospital that, up until now, has handled her pregnancy rather well. They pumped her full of steroids to open her air passages, did nebulizer treatments like they should, and everything. Then, all of the sudden, they stopped giving them every two hours and moved it to every four. EMI CAN'T BREATHE! They did a blood oxygen test right after a neb treatment and told her she was fine, that she was having Braxton Hicks Contractions. [link]

Last night (4/16), they released her to go home. Emi found out today (4/17) that Medicaire has her files red-taped to the point that she can't go anywhere BUT the hospital that literally threw her out. Her family can't afford another hospital. At this point, Emi's and Scott's lives are both in danger, because technically, Emi is in labor, mild though it may be. Emi's outlook is bleak. She fears that one or both of them will not survive this ordeal. Her health is declining with every passing day that she can't breathe properly. The fluid surrounding Scott has been low for a few weeks now, which will only compound the problems he's facing.

I know this is a long post, and I do apologize. It's taken me most of half an hour to be able to do it because I'm so stressed and scared I can't see straight. I love Emi very, very much, and I don't want anything to happen to her. My roommate, Lyn, is upstairs, hopefully asleep, but she was in a righteous rage when she left the living room an hour and a half ago. Emi's mother is terrified now, more than she's ever been. We're all very lost right now, and any help and prayers and good thoughts for Emi and Scott are as greatly appreciated as water in the desert.

Thank you, everyone.

~AVA~

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17888776/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17888776/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 22:05:47 PDT
The hospital she was at is full of morons and idiots and imbeciles and bottom feeders and... and... RAWR!

Not only did they send her home in mild labor, they withheld her nebulizer treatments for FOUR HOURS! Emi is a SEVERE asthmatic who is PREGNANT with a child who is already over five pounds. She's got a small frame... I mean SMALL... so there's like, no room for Scott. Her body is rejecting him, thus the labor.

But no, the doctors think they know best. They ignored her asthma doctor, - one of the best in the country! - and the head of the hospital. Both said "C-section! C-SECTION! There's no way she can deliver on her own."

Emi has already said that if anything happens now before her asthma doctor can get something worked out for her, that's a screaming malpractice suit against the hospital. And with her medical record and hard pregnancy stacking with said hospitals reputation, and other lawsuits, for killing newborns... yah, I think she'd win. They're risking the lives of mother and child because of their sheer STUPIDITY and lack of compassion for human life.

But still.... RAWR!!!!!!!!

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As for me...

My appointment went... well... it's hard to say.

My roommate's mother took me to the clinic. We arrived ten minutes early and checked me in. I waited until almost 10:30 before the nurse took me back for vitals and such. Another ten minutes and the doctor comes in. Dr. F. does her normal shpeel, question this, assess that, yadda yadda. Then, the painful part.

Dr. F."Lift your arm, please." *stony stare as my arm only raises three inches from my leg*
Me. "I'm trying, I promise!" *whimperwhimper*
Dr. F. "Uh-huh." *grabs and lifts my arm to shoulder height* "Now cross it over your chest." *another stony stare as it takes almost a full minute before I can reach my right shoulder with my left hand fingertips*
Dr. F. "Thank you." *proceeds to poke, prod and probe shoulder* "Does this hurt at all?"
Me. -__- *whimperwhimperOWIEwhimper*
Dr. F. "This?"
Me. T-T *gaspwhimperwhimper*
Dr. F. "Here?" *tugs and squeezes my elbow and wrist*
Me. "No, not really."
Dr. F. "This?" *tugs shoulder, kinda gentle-like*
Me. "Eep!" *tears up from pain*

I wanted to ask if she read my chart at all. My highest level of pain was a 9. A 9!!!!

*sigh* Now I remember why I don't like doctors all that much. Boils down to they want me to have an X-ray done. If that shows nothing, they want an MRI. AND!!!! Because my Dad's a Type 2 diabetic, they ran labs on me. 'T-T' BTW, I HATE NEEDLES! x__x

Upside, they prescribed me some meds. A pain killer, a muscle relaxer, and an anti-inflammatory. Downside, I need $40 to get them filled at WAL-MART! Oi. And I didn't get told that I needed a follow-up appointment for after my X-ray.

Smooth move, Doc.

I'll know in a few weeks what they'll ultimately do with me.

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Pardon my ranting... x__x I'm going to bed now.

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17858563/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17858563/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 01:57:20 PDT ___<

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Thoughts and prayers please, my dear friends.

My roommate's sister is in the hospital awaiting an emergency C-Section. The baby is due in mid to late May, but because of complications with her asthma, they're going to take the baby early. As of 11 p.m., April 13, she was recieving steroid treaments to open her airways. It won't be for another 20+ hours that she'll be physically able to handle delivery.

Emi's a strong woman, but even that isn't enough. When I spoke to her on the phone last night, she sounded exhausted. I've known her through most of this pregnancy, so I know that her poor body has taken a beating. Between being unable to breathe, a bad hip, a steel knee, her daughter going into the terrible two's, and the baby, Scott, being overly active, she's not had a good go of it.

Light a candle, think about her once and a while, send up good feelings in her name, but most of all, please, help me pray that she and the baby come through this ordeal in good health. You'd have to know Emi to understand my major amount of concern. Thank you, everyone.

Love and good tidings,

~Robin~

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17565621/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17565621/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 22:17:33 PDT

While 'forgive' may be difficult, maybe 'amends' is the better term? I think it's time, eh?

I'll pick the money up in the morning and take Cricket (my Civic) to a little shop on Monday... if she'll start. Hopefully it won't take too long to get her road ready once more. They're fudging up my hours at work again, because of this stupid (a term I use loosely) assistant manager who thinks ticking me off is FUNNY. So yah, I'm getting screwed and need my car now more than ever. These idiots just don't get it. But, once Cricket's back up and running, I'm looking for a new job. I love Dollar Tree, Inc., but this store is KILLING me.

**EDIT**
Took Cricket to the shop. When I talked to the mechanic, he told me that it wasn't the water pump at all and was all set to send me off to the Honda dealer when he figured it out. My AC went out three summers ago, so the belt turns with nothing happening. Joe cut the belt off and, after poking about, found that the bearing in the pulley behind the wheel was burned out, thus the CHUGGACHUGGACHUGGAWHEEEEE noise that Cricket was making. Problem solved, no cash out of pocket, just a good laugh all around.
CRICKET'S ALIVE AND WELL!!!!

Anywho, enough of that. As I said in my previous journal, this is my real update. Ha ha! And I'm already struggling with Final Fantasy XI. I got killed by a mangy bat about an hour ago. Sad, aren't I? But, like I said, I need to learn the key commands and what-not, and there's no walk-throughs that make any sense to me. Ah well, I'll learn. Or keep dying. Either way, I like the game.

Have a good one!

~LotS

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17550716/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17550716/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:42:49 PDT
Sorry... space filler... will do a real update later when I'm... more alive.


Oh! I started playing Final Fantasy XI: Vana'diel Collection 2007, now that I have a compatible graphics card (thanks to the roommate)! I'm on the Hades server with a Mithra. Once I figure out the key configurations, I'll be alright to play.

So, um, yah... bedtime...

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17388859/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17388859/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 00:53:26 PDT
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The 100 Question Quiz


1) Full Name:
>___> I have many.

2) Male/Female:
Female... and no, you can't check for me.

3) Were you named after anyone?:
Almost... *shakes fist at father*

4) Does your name mean anything?:
Robin~ "Bright Fame"

5) Nick Name(s):
Mom, Rob, Bob, some that can't be repeated in civilized conversation... >__>

6) Who do you think you look like:
My dad, my oldest brother, and my Aunt (mom's sister)

7) Date Of Birth:
September 17, 1984

8) Place of Birth and Current Location:
PoB: Wiesbaden-Hessen, Germany
CL: Indianapolis, Indiana

9) Nationality:
Irish, British, French (Canadian variety, I think), and a little of this and that

10) Astrology Sign: Virgo

11) Chinese Astrology Sign:
Rat

12) Religion:
Christian... >__>'

13) What’s your favorite smell?:
French Vanilla or Leather

14) Political Position?:
Independent... FENCE STRADDLER!!!!

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?:
Water... then something with caffeine in it.

16) Hair + Eye color:
Green-based Hazel, Dark dirty blonde/brown/red (and that's not just the dye)

17) Do you look like anyone famous?:
Um... no.

18) What do you look like?:
5'9"-ish, bordering too big. Long hair... love the hair! XD Umm... I look like me?

19) Any unusual talents?:
Not that I know of... Maybe...

20) Rightly, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?:
Righty. My left hand is an almost useless lump.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?:
Stwait.

22) What do you do for a living?:
Retail/Sales Associate

23) What do you do for fun?:
INTERNETZ PLZ! I love writing, too. And going out... somewhere... just to hang out.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?:
Pen and paper, or Word Processor.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?:
I'd love to be able to draw freehand again, like I used to. So, pencil, paper, paint, etc. would be fun.

26) Have you met your grandparents?:
Grandmother on my father's side (my grandad died before I was born). Both on my mother's side.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:
Neither. XD

28) Crush: A few.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?:
Umm... I'd get laughed at if I answered that... @__@

30) Current worries?:
Money. My car. Having a place to live.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s):
The ones who don't act like complete and utter imbeciles on such a regular basis I want to strangle them with toothpicks.

32) Favorite place to be?:
Either at my computer chatting or in bed asleep.

33) Least favorite place to be?:
At times, work.

34) Do you burn or tan?:
Both.

35) Ever break a bone?:
Nope.

36) What is your favorite cereal?:
Chocolate types.

37) Person you cry with:
Depends on the situation.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters:
1 half, 2 step, a few 'adopted'

39) Any brothers:
2 older, 4 step, a few 'adopted'

40) Any pets:
1 cat, Isis, and I guess the ferret, Rogue, counts.

41) An Illness:
Just bad sinuses... lol

42) A Pager:
Not for years.

43) A Personal phone line:
Not in the house, no.

44) A Cell phone:
Yep.

45) A visible birthmark:
Not that I know of.

46) A Pool or hot tub:
I wish!

47) A Car:
Yes, but it's kinda sick right now. *shoots water pump*

Describe Your...

48) Personality:
Imma goof. But... I know how to be serious when needed... right?

49) Driving:
zzzzZZZZOOOOOOOooooommmm!

50) Your clothing style:
I tend to dress like a guy: Baggy jeans and T-shirts, hair pulled into a tail, tennis shoes. For work, I wear collared shirts. Sometimes, I even wear a skirt!

51) Room:
Bed, dresser, random foot locker. Computer room attachment with built in shelves stuffed with novels, mangas, VHS tapes, and DVDs. It's quite messy as I'... ]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17232154/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/17232154/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 22:10:37 PST May he not send his spots to haunt me! XD

Umm... let's try this, eh? X3
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1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, Zune etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting

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Opening Credits:
"心色 - Kokoroiro" ~ MUCC

Waking Up:
"kusare sotomichi he(son of the bitch)" ~ Miyavi
(>_>

First Day At School:
"Voice" ~ L'Arc-en-Ciel

Falling In Love:
"high!" ~ S.O.A.P.

Fight Song:
"Cage" ~ Dir en grey
(Rock on!)

Breaking Up:
"LOVELESS" ~ LUNA SEA

Prom night:
"Freedom Fighter" ~ Miyavi

Life:
"Larva" ~ L'Arc-en-Ciel

Mental Breakdown:
"Cynical" ~ Glay

Driving:
"TRUST" ~ L'Arc-en-Ciel

Flashback:
"Taiyou no Ao (Mix)" ~ Dir en grey
(Umm... the remix has a lot of airport sound setting...)

Getting back together:
"STAY AWAY" ~ L'Arc-en-Ciel
(Obviously...)

Wedding:
"Comic Youth" ~ Plastic Tree

Birth of Child:
"Hallucination" ~ Acid Android
(Oops...? X3 )

Final Battle:
"[KR] Cube [KK Vomit Mix]" ~ Dir en grey
(Perfect!)

Funeral Song:
"針槐 - Harienju" ~ Plastic Tree

Final Credits: (Pick 3 songs)
"suffering" ~ Acid Android
"LES LITANIES DE SATAN (Brutal Autism Mix)" ~ BLOOD
"Happy End" ~ Aikaryu

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There is no explanation for this insanity...

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/16935723/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/16935723/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 20:08:25 PST In the wind shot through with sighs, I saw it
I didn't know the reason for your tears
Even now, the pain that stops up my heart
Perhaps someone will break it down

With held breath, don't hang your head and cry
Someday...
Yes, we'll meet again

Even if no one else in the world understands...
If you'll be waiting
I see you unchanged even now
Just like then...

The scars of the past that remain on your open arms
Are the proof of the crimes you innocently bear
Your mouth curving into a faint smile, it's lovely and brief
I won't hand that over to anyone

If perhaps someday you are reborn again
Just like that day...
We'll surely meet again

Even if I'm trembling all alone in the night...
I'll be waiting
Now I can't see you like you were that day

I closed my eyes and touched that smile

No matter how far apart we may become...
I'll be waiting
I'll believe that you're always by my side
Just you...

Even if no one else in the world understands...
If you'll be waiting
I see you unchanged even now
Just like then...

You'll Be Waiting, Gackt

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I miss what I had, but I move on with my head held high and faith in my path. I can't go back, but I can make what I've gained and lost along the way worth something.

The future looms, people. Embrace it or run from it. Your call.

~Lady (aka Avadedra)

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/16437256/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/16437256/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 19:00:58 PST
I'm having college withdrawals... >.> Sad, huh? I miss the structured environment most, I think. Having a set schedule, places to be at certain times, all that. And I seriously miss my job. :sniffle: But, life goes on, correct?

I got here and got sick. S.I.C.K. As a dog. Over-zealous sinus infection. But, I hauled it together and started work this week. Oi... it's gonna be a process. XD

Other than that... I need to get my digicam out. Next time it snows, I might brave it and snap a few shots. I'd offer pics of the house... but it's in dire need of fixing up in a lot of ways. I don't think we'll be here long, not if we can scrape the money for something a little more... liveable. But hey, we gotta start somewhere, right? Time will tell.

All in all, I think I'm doing well. Still got a few rough moments, still some down times, but I'm making it. Getting out and away has done me a little more good than I thought it would at first. Slowly, my stress levels have started to drop. I think I've even lost a few pounds... but I'm not holding my breath. :laugh:

Anywho... I'm sucking up time on the Bear's computer. Hee hee... I <3 my roommie.




MISS DA WUF AND DA CRITTER!!!!!!

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15704797/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15704797/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 08:52:35 PST [link]

^ Yup yup. Come see me!




Shameless plugging because I'm bored at work... I have no life. XD

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15402581/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15402581/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 07:41:46 PST
I've rediscovered my love for Japanese men who attempt to sing in English. Yah, don't ask. XD

I talked to my dad yesterday. He doesn't seem so against me moving up North anymore. I guess one good thing about turning 23 is that I don't have to be so dependent on him anymore (TriCare wise and what-not). So yah, January might show me with a change of scenery.



Oh wow... I need to read "The Tempest" tonight. x___x

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15298520/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15298520/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 08:15:29 PDT
The roommate and I are going to help out at the Church tonight. Fall Festival. I'm going to miss Trunk-or-Treat, but it's cold this year. It should still be fun, though. And for the first time in... 2 years? ... I'm not going to be a feline. I'm going to be a butterfly... I think. XD

So much to do today. Work now, lunch at 12, class at 1 and 2. And a quiz to make up for the class we're missing tonight. x___x Plus face paint out the whazoo for the folks who want it. lol It's bad enough that I had to practically dress my roommate for our LARP on Monday. XD Okay, so maybe that's an exaggeration, but it was still fun.

The only thing I didn't really get to do for my costume is the hairspray. I'm going to be a blonde butterfly. XD All in black, purple-blue-green face paint, big black wings... blonde hair. lol

I do so enjoy being a Mother Hen sometimes. And it's great that people trust me to do things for them. Even if it's something as simple as a little facepaint or tying on a corset, my friends trust me. It makes me feel... good.

Anyhow, the bosses are floating around. Some kind of workshop just ended here in the lab. >.> I have no clue. lol

Oh, it's such a beautiful day! Bright, clear, not too cold, not too warm. Perfect weather! If only it were full moon tonight, then it would be even more spectacular. But, we make do with what we're given. I don't mind it.

"It's gonna be a bright, bright, bright sun shiney day!"




HAPPY HALLOWEEENNNNNNNN!!!!!!

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15188820/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/15188820/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 14:14:54 PDT
This is going to take a while...

The rules go like this:

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person who is tagged must post 7 random facts about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, 7 people are tagged and named.

1) I have a sky/cloud fetish. Lots of the photos taken in the past few years have been of the wild blue yonder.

2) I now find it exceedingly funny now when people pick on me about my music and my excessive amount of Muses.

3) I suck royally at learning foreign languages. I spent a grand total of five years learning Spanish and have been studying Japanese for most of a year now, and I still can't get past more than the bare basics.

4) I've been showing lots of violent tendencies lately, but I'm not exactly sure where they're coming from. It's a little disconcerting.

5) I have a running joke now that I either marry an Asian, or I live and die with a houseful of cats.

6) I've had the same job for almost four years now... and no one's died yet.

7) I want to learn the electric bass, but someone has to teach me to read music first, but that someone will have to have LOTS of patience, or they'll end up shooting me in the face.

Whew... well alright then. Those're horrible things. XD

Now, let's see if I can do this right... it's going to be hard to tag my friends because most of them have stopped using dA...



Uff... that's all I have... x___x

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/14797395/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/14797395/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 08:42:27 PDT "I can't even figure out where I'm headed
Fading memory is slowly drawn
Towards the wind by a slender thread

I listen closely to the voice of my troubled heart
"What in the world was I born to do..."
Yes, it's asking

The moon is always gazing at me
Even now, the answer has yet to come

Please let me hear the voice...
Please show me the dream...
Because even if I fall into unending sleep
There's nothing to be afraid of

Please teach me the truth...
Please tell me the crime...
As my hidden self is wet with red tears...

Only affection is becoming greater
I can't remember anything
Not even the name of the past
I can't do anything anymore

The moon is always, quietly,
Letting the rain keep falling..."
~ "Fragrance" by Gackt, MOON, 2002

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Take it as you will. Then again, you'd have to hear it to see what I see, or draw your own interpretation. A true marvel of vocal and musical skills.

*sigh*

4 1/2 hours of sleep isn't enough anymore... x__x

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/14106142/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/14106142/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 13:27:03 PDT [link]

This is what happens when it's raining and I hear a song I love.

XD

Sue me.










Kidding!

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11828279/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11828279/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 11:06:04 PST [link]

I'm going to move icons and photomanips to this account, since this one is primarily for writing and photographs. If you want to watch it, add it on. If not... *shrug* Up to you.

Just a heads up.

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11775164/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11775164/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 15:15:14 PST
Grrrreeeaaaaaaaatttt... <-- sarcasm

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11210593/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/11210593/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 11:29:06 PST
Usagi, how many more days do we have?

]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/10132206/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/10132206/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 12:37:54 PDT
It's really just a matter of getting people to stop running from my camera.

[Scenario]

Room full of people, laughing, talking, having an all-around good time.

Me: *pulls out camera*

Room empties in a flash.

Me: WTF??

[/Scenario]

Yah... LoL... It's true!! ]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003 http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/10037919/ http://LadyoftheShadows003.deviantart.com/journal/10037919/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 10:29:35 PDT The day when the world stood still and America held its collective breath. The day when the veil of our ignorance was ripped away and everything that we thought was true was proved a falsehood. The day that an enemy crept in and sucker punched us right in the face, not once, but four times.
The day when a group of ordinary people became Martyrs for their country by fighting to take control of their destiny. The day our nation mourned and celebrated all in the same breath. The day the smoke filled the air and fires burned, but no one gave up, no one quit, until the last survivor was pulled free from the wreckage.
The day that will live on in the hearts of Americans for all times. Even those too young to have understood will know who the real heroes are.
The day that America cried out in one clear, resounding voice...

"We are here! You have not beaten us! We will never run!" ]]> ~LadyoftheShadows003