http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:LeaTelamon&section=today deviantART RSS for by:LeaTelamon en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 19:12:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/27989022/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/27989022/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 03:32:29 PDT
I feel that my writing has matured a lot over the years and maybe I am finally able to move past the fantasy cliche, well, almost anyway. I usually never move outside the fantasy/horror genres, but I wanted to do something different and in a way this feels different. It's not horror, it's not pure fantasy either given its strong scientific roots. I want it to be cyberpunkish because I've gotten so attached to that genre lately and I have never written anything which can be considered cyberpunk. We'll see how it turns out I suppose.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/26195247/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/26195247/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 17:11:27 PDT
Honestly, I doubt I will miss it.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/25945270/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/25945270/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 14:59:12 PDT
And my skill-level of my drawings, I am not entirely sure why, but it goes so up and down it drives me nuts. It seems though, that I need a reference for it to work out somewhat ok. Still having issues with proportations and gah, hands, I hate them.

I suppose I just have one of these periods right now, when I just wanna do one or two things that I shouldn't but I have to anyway. To add, I really want to play some oldies again, and am thinking of digging up my Ocarina of Time. The only issue really is that the hand control is in such a poor shape now. It has received a lot of love. At the same time I downloaded a lot of other old games, I suppose I am feeling some nostalgia. Downloading a SNES emulator and installed Secret of Mana. I am so laughing over the storyline now. It's really all "Go slay bad monster in dungeon X!", so you go and do that, then "Oh wait, Dude Y whom we were really supposed to save got teleported away by Evil Character Z, but nevermind that, visiting Dungeon A got more priority!". It makes no sense at all, and nevermind the fact that it rarely if ever directs you where to go. So I spent over one hour trying to find a dungeon which was pretty logical once I found it, but not one NPC liked to give me directions in either case. That was frustrating, I tell you.

Other than that, got Diablo 1 again, I died to The Butcher He smashed my rogue, and I got panicked lol. I tried to run into a room where you could close the door and shoot him through the fences, but the problem was that I never managed to close the door, maybe they fixed that in later versions. How I am supposed to kill him now I don't know...

Additionally, also playing Zeus: Master of Olympus with expansion pack of all things. City planning is so much thing right now. I haven't played WoW in weeks, but I signed up for Ulduar tomorrow, so let's see with that.

Other than that, finished Dexter season 3. It wasn't as good at all as season 1 and 2. Completely lacked the tension by having Dexter being caught, and his personal relationship with the main antagonist. Well, I suppose season 1 is hard to beat, and season 2 was slightly ruined by that bitch Laila. Emotoinal vampire, ewww.

So I suppose I will download Mulholland Drive or what movie it now was as requested by Dmitri, so I can analyze it for him... uff.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/23615520/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/23615520/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 18:33:10 PDT
Anyway, since I so rarely draw if ever, I was amazed that I could properly capture someone else's art style somewhat okish, as I have never considered myself being a great artist, even on a hobby level. So, slightly pleased with myself tonight. Maybe I should dust off my skills a little more and try to do something else as well. And sorry for the poor quality, having the fortune of owning a scanner is something I yet have to receive as a gift from the genie in the bottle.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/20054666/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/20054666/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 06:48:52 PDT
I am not sure whether it is a confession or just my usual form of rambles, that I feel incredibly "caught in the moment" right now. A lot of things happened recently, things that turned my world upside down. Still, when the tide passed it felt like it never happened. I bet a lot of people have felt that way once in their lives. I realize I have been contradicting myself, mostly because of a fear of admittance. I have always been the rebellious kind; never feared of complaining when I can. Maybe just my genes caught up with me? Or maybe it was too long since I felt this way that I completely forgot how it was like? I have been struggling against something I guess I could never win against. Not truly anyway. Not with society so conformed, not when I even have my own genes against me. So no David and Goliath. Or maybe the admittance was the final rock needed to crush the window.

I guess I am still caught up in a moment of shock, where my brain still haven't managed to realize what is going on. And then all the irony sets in, the fact that I cannot give him what I want to give. Not currently, maybe never. This feeling of apathy is like a splinter in my mind; the knowing that no matter what I will do, it will not help. This feeling of fighting against the impossible. I do not believe in the impossible, just low probability. Very low. VERY. Still I cannot ignore of how tremendeous my enemy is, bigger than I ever could have imagined. Oh the irony of nature. Of all primal and simplistic things, I am left with superficial options. Still that silly hope lives on, because without that hope I would not manage my everyday-life. I hope something good will eventually come out of this carpe diem. What would humans be if we couldn't hope?

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/19522831/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/19522831/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 17:09:57 PDT
I don't claim to know everything about reviews, but if we look at little on morphemes, we can clearly see that the word "review" has 2: re-view

Re is originally a Latin prefix, meaning something like "doing it again". Return basically means to turn again, review as such means to view back at the subject at hand. That's the fundamental principle of writing a review. It MUST touch what you want to review. If you write a review about a movie, there should be a clear connection between the movie and your text, not just you summing up your thoughts after watching, maybe further explaining your thoughts about certain topics the movie brought up.

If you want to discuss, find like-minded people and to explain your stance to the world, do it on a message board, a forum, talk to your friends, but don't do it in a review. That is what we call horribly off-topic. People like to write off-topic reviews. People like it doing it so much in fact, they forgot to actually write what they were supposed to write about.

Another fundamental thing about reviews is to provide necessarily information to the reader about what they are about to see or read. If I want to see a movie, I would like to know what actors there are, what genre it belongs to, what story it has, who directed it, if the story was good, were the actors good, what music was there, was the music good etc.

A review doesn't only need to be presented with objective information. In fact, objective information is rather boring and can be easily found elsewhere. For objective information, sites such as IMdb is a good one. No, a good reviewer knows how to mix objective with the subjective.


Let's make an example. I have just recently watched the new Narnia movie, since I know it's being shown on cinemas right now. What do I know beforehand? It's based on the books by C. S. Lewis. I know the premise of the movie, that when everyone returns back to Narnia thousands of years have passed and it's a land of oppression where the true heir of the throne is exiled. They must thus help the real prince, Caspian to retake the throne.

Since I have read the book by C. S. Lewis, I might also draw differences and similarities between the storyline and the book. How true is the movie to the actual storyline? Even though there are huge differences, did the movie manage to stand on its own through good acting, good screen writing and musical score?

Since I know the directors of Narnia have huge budgets and also were heavily inspired by Peter Jackson's work with his Lord of the Rings trilogy, and they like to apply the same epic feeling with huge grand battles, I can also draw an explanation between whether how I think it worked out in this movie. Did the epic style and feeling fit or did it just manage to feel long and drawn out?

The last fundamental part about a review is to make the reader either want to, in this case see Narnia or not see it. Maybe I might recommend to read the book instead, will I manage to get the message through by serious bashing of the movie in question? Maybe I thought the overall movie sucked. Acting was bad, dialog was bad, screen writing horrible, the attempt of being epic did indeed feel long and drawn out and I thought the story was very untrue and did not stand on its own comparing to the original.

I am making a clear distinction here, because a lot of people often bash movies based on books because they weren't true to the original material, instead of viewing the movie on its own. Sure, you can compare, but you should bash it because it wasn't the book. A movie will always be the director's interpretation of the book in question, and you might not agree with that. Does it actually make the movie itself bad? Not really.

It's like saying that when I review a CD by an artist or band I don't like, it's automatically bad music. Take a bad such as Suidakra. I have heard them, they're not my thing. I still admit they are good artist and I definitely understand the love portrayed towards this band.

This is also the stance a reviewer must take. You must have an objective view to your subject, not confusing your subject to other closely related topics or comparing the subject to the original it's trying to mimic, while still trying to convey your reactions, thoughts and opinions at the same time.

Take a movie like Notthing Hill. It's all in all the typical romantic flick. Boy meets girl but they are unfit for each other. Within its own genre, Notting Hill is a really good movie. Not groundbreaking,... ]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/19274576/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/19274576/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 13:32:54 PDT
I just want to say:

Come join us at the Atheist Nexus! A place for atheists, freethinkers and humanists. I will probably publish my stuff interchangeably on both sites from now on.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/17037209/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/17037209/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 07:15:40 PST
Wii is at the moment the cheapest one lying a bit over 200 EU in price without any additional games coming with it. You will get a the console (of course) and a hand control. However, while Wii doesn't need memory sticks because it can save all games internally on its own harddrive it does require batteries for the bluetooth hand control and most games also demand a nunchunk control for playerability, then you will need to cough up another 20 EU or so. Not that batteries are that expensive but it's a smart marketing thing by the companies in question to not include everything needed in a box package but that you still need to buy additional accessories at the side from them so you will need to cough up even more money more than paying for the games and the actual consol alone.

However, with all this, there is a HUGE contradiction as well. Most gamers are young people ranging from the age of say, 13 to 35 or so, and few of them have a stable economy on their own. It's ok as long you live at home with your parents. If you are lucky they might happily cough up that 400 EU for you every Christmas since the two latest next gen consoles all were ranging from that origignal output price when they were launched on the market. If you are lucky your parents might continue to even buy the games for you whose prices are also rediculous most of the time.

However, still I guess, a next gen console is still cheaper compared to a PC which requires active updates every 5 years or so or it will become so seriously updated you cannot play any games anymore.

What do you need to upgrade exactly? First of all which might be the biggest problem is the graphic card. A new graphic card often has a price over 200 EU alone and that's often the ok standard price. Not the killer card but definitely the most powerful from an economy sense of view. The 200 EU card can also at times beat the killer card on the market if you are lucky and might have the right specs.

However, not the gcard alone is enough to upgrade a computer though. Of course the second biggest problem might be the RAM along with the CPU. The speed of the CPU is very important, especially when running on high graphical settings since the more color depth, the more the processor will have to work. RAM comes after it as a certain amount of RAM is always required in order for the processor to work well enough handling the data needed without having to backup on the harddrive which will definitely make you slightly lag no matter how good of a CPU and gcard you have.

The hardware part which requires an update a bit less is the motherboard. You can probably manage totally ok with an okish motherboard for a longer amount time than the mentioned hardware in the phrase above. So upgrading your computer every 5 years is probably MORE expensive than buying a new next gen console. At least you have the freedom to download the games you want if they are cracked. Such a money saver!

Of all existing interests, I think music and gaming are one of the worst you can have combined. I just bought a new guitar for 300 EU with an okish amp included: Luckily that guitar will last longer than a new computer or a next gen console though... If treated carefully that is. Good thing I am not a drummer, a new drum kit can end up around 1000 EU if you want an okish brand. Hopefully that drum kit lasts longer than the new gaming computer you bought for 1500 EU.

What I was getting at was that it doesn't make much sense that most people interested in said areas often are young people lacking a stable economy. I am a student, I am supposed to study... right? Ehm, during times I am not studying I do like to plunge deep into any possible game I have at hand - and right now I am so missing Zelda it's crazy. Plus with the hype with the new Devil May Cry 4 game released to Xbox 360 and PS3, it's just a want/want situation. Too bad it is not released to Wii though... as usual. That's also a major problem for gamers, if you really wanna play all games available you do need to own each console (including PC) and have them all fully upgraded with the latest hi tech because the ones responsible for game releases do not necessarily work together merchandising them for all brands. In this case Microsoft, Nintendo and Sony.

So I am right now hoping I... ]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/16133129/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/16133129/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 03:44:02 PST
Or take another view of it: politics. I so hate ignorant politicians, politicians who think they know when they don't. Politicians who are trying to be humane while causing the society more problems than solving them. Even the greatest act can have the worst consequences. The reason why is ignorance. When estimating what do with a problem you can never attack it from one angle alone - but some people find that very feasible because it's simple. Take the angle you're used to, it should logically work, if it was YOU. But the person you're giving the advices to aren't you, they are someone else. A totally different being, an individual not alike any other on this planet, on this earth.

This brings me to whine over politicians who take in a too high amount of immigrants. They do it on the act of being humane, but most of all, they gain money from the EU. That's sick, we help people, we get money for it. We get paid for helping, the logic fails even there. And looking of how it affects the country, the aftermath is fatal. There is only so little a town can manage to employ but when the economy is bad and few people can get somewhere to live, can get somewhere to work, what are they supposed to do? They move, but what if they can't move? What are they supposed to do? They have to get money from somewhere, they have to get to move on living. They came this far, but then they've got nowhere to go. That's cruel, very cruel. I know people tell me, such thoughts are racist thoughts but they aren't. I do not wish to stop immigration, I understand that some people need it very much. But some people... don't. People who abuse the system, people who, once they arrive to the new country, do nothing else but to vandalize, beating their wives, leaving the country with their children to sexually abuse them, to distort their minds into something even less humane. That's also a reality with too heavy immigration when a country open its door without giving a second thought. But doing a psychological test on everyone who wants to immigrate takes too much time, up to 6 months per immigrant.

So I guess, now when New Year is about to arrive, please, think once, think even twice, think before you act, because how can you be condemned for the sins you've done if your intentions were good?

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15729141/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15729141/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 00:46:10 PST
Take for example Bleach. I was told I was being mean when I simply stated out that the manga-ka Kubo Tite would never couple up any of the main characters with each other. I stated it because it's true. Dream sweet, but it ain't going to happen. You will never see Rukia having sex with Ichigo, neither will you see Orihime doing the same but excluding Rukia. If some couple pairing fan would come up with this I would frankly make a huge "lol". I should also add, what scares me even more regarding this silly couple pairing is how huge the community is and the amount of IMMATURE girls that can be found there! I mean, do you need to add thousands of "<3" emoticons everywhere you write? Ok, I get it, you like this very much, do you still need to abuse the poor emoticon until it enters cardiac arrest? Actually, a correction. I might even slightly understand yaoi if the immature girls were removed. Sadly, the whole subcommunity is filled up over the edge with them, so it won't happen.

I dunno about me, but regarding YOU, are YOU proud of looking like a stupid, immature and brainless teenager-girl? Now, you go and figure what you prefer the most. I will continue to stay far away from all of you in my own corner; while being amused and disgusted at the same time by your activities.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15473291/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15473291/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 03:32:00 PST
I did notice two funny things though:
1. They were all enlisted as females
2. They came from English-speaking countries

All this according to their non-existent user-profile. Of course, if the DA really wants to deal with this so-called "new" problem, they could just try to pick the ISP address from these users (most probably they using the same if they are stupid, if they are not, most of those ISPs are provided by their ISP host, meaning the choice of who they could be are still limited). Not that it isn't so hard to track it and tracking the ISP of users is not a crime in itself, only if this information is used in order to violate upon the personal integrity.

Hell, you can track the ISPs of peple by just using a program like DC++, so it can't be so hard complementing on DA...? Assuming they find it a problem. I do. I do not want my mailbox to be filled with completely useless crap written in idiotic utterance saying they wish me to go to this or that site, I am the best writer they've ever seen and that I've got a chance to win money by uploading my texts etc.

In the end we are just a lines of numbers and text but still can't be measured.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15386109/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/15386109/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 02:56:09 PST
People keep saying, choose this or that, you can't have both. No, in most cases you can't take a piece of the cake while still hoping to eat the whole cake, but I wouldn't say this is the same at all. Not when it comes in terms of liking, of what you WANT to do, not what someone else is thinking.

In my guild in World of Warcraft, we are discussing whether we should keep our current RP background, supposedly making it more hardcore or if we should make it more open and aim for a more friendly guild where people more join for the reason of meeting other nice people and have fun more than actually RPing. The initial question I felt was, why can't we have both? Why does "hardcore RP" mean we still can't maintain a friendly atmosphere? For me, a background story is overly important, especially more so as it helps to decide what type of guild I want to join. I wouldn't like to join a guild whose background story doesn't fit my character, it's only logical. Neither do I feel I want the total lack of RP itself as RP is still an aspect f the game I enjoy although I call myself casual as I seldom RP, only when I feel for it, compared to some who always RP all the time.
So what I basically want is a guild with a non-hardcore atmosphere where I can RP and have fun. That wasn't so hard, was it? But obviously, it doesn't work as a goal. Once again, breaking the conventions which is frustrating. I feel the lack of people like me. Some people don't care, some people do care. I care about both. This convention-breaking has been there all my life. It is not something I do on purpose, I just "feel" if you can use such a word. And what's wrong feeling you do not fit in the current conventions or even anti-conventions? I for example care for animals, I buy KRAV-marked food, but it doesn't mean I am a vegetarian and only eat vegetables. I would say, it is nothing wrong with it, more than you feel you are caught up in two groups where neither of its members understand you while you still yearn for understanding.

However, I am not going to back off and say I am not proud of being caught up in the middle, it means I am not conforming to something else. People today think the anti-convention is so unique, it isn't. Quite the opposite in fact. Being against conventions today is a convention of itself. Take for example all those identity-seeker teenagers using the "alternative" dressing style in order to look more unique. The problem is, they aren't unique anymore as so many have done it already before them and are currently doing it. Unique means one of a kind, you can't have more than one. However, so-called "alternative" teenagers are in abundance, you'd be amazed if you rather see a "normal" teenager than an "alternative" one. Again, I stand in the middle. I have an alternative musical style, but it is not shown in my dressing code. I overly dress in black or dark colors but those are the colors I prefer, no one can pinpoint black to any specific musical style unless you start adding a lot of accessories of all kinds. The only exception is my trench coat, which of course is black, but seeing trench coats are in fashion I became overly happy since I find trench coats in general to be very sexy.

I am not entirely sure what I want to say or express anymore bewteen all my rambles, more than I feel that even as being proud of not being part of any real existing convention, not conforming myself after other's beliefs and ideals, it is still a lonely path to take. Of course, if I wasn't so alone, I wouldn't be as unique and it itself wouldn't so convention-breaking as it currently is, but as humans are social animals, we still need and crave some understanding and sympathy. I guess I hoped to gain some of that through the anynomous voice of the internet.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/14995781/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/14995781/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 06:09:38 PDT
On Elfwood I am not wanted because my work is not suited for the children-environment Elfwood has become. They don't even accept words as "shit" even if you refer it to as poo. Would however "poo" be more accepted despite they mean the same? In Sweden the translation of "shit" is far more accepted in the common tongue than "poo" which is still partly taboo.

Maybe I am asking for artistic freedom. To be free to write what I want, display my own opinions. Which I do. Here. On DeviantArt. They are accepted because here there are no boundaries like on Elfwood. However, on Elfwood the chance to get some nice criticism is much higher. Maybe because Elfwood craves for a higher standard despite we know that such a famous author like Stephen King hardly uses the best of word choices, espcially in terms of swearing. It is realistic to let people in his horror novels use the word "fuck" as swearing because the common American or English speaker do. Even I myself as a non-English speaker do. Still Elfwood does not allow this realism for the sake of children. Even if I promise that a a "child" of 13 years of age knows by heart what "fuck" means in today society. It is enough for them to watch a violent movie and the word is there. Or just hit on a random TV show and I bet one of the characters is going to use it. Especially popular shows.

Why do people so strongly believe that "children" are so innocent when it has been proven and will be proven once more they are not? That they most often are fully aware of what they are doing? Grown-ups live in denial to this fact, still they all know it, maybe they did it themselves. For us being young, a child is equal to innocence and still they are exposed to what we think is typical grown-up everyday, just by watching us and following us. A great work in this area is definately Philip Pullman's trilogy His Dark Materials. Which is by the way, going to be a film but ironically enough, going to be heavily censored because of its anti-Christian concept. Of course, neither Pullman or any other claimed that he is actually anti-religion (at least not those against his work which is a nice display of artistic freedom), just against govermental control which is displayed in many ways throughout the passing of the trilogy.

I'd say let EVERYONE be exposed to artistical freedom because this is what we ARE, this is what humans are, even as a community or as individuals as a part of a community. We cannot escape the fact by ignoring a minor part of it. I want to be allowed to be heard, to be exposed myself, to remove the childish innocence over my work which never fully existed in the first place. For this, I do not wish to be favoritized. I know people like me, just as I like those who like me, but to leave a comment or two isn't too much work, is it? It takes less than a couple of minutes of time depending on your browser and length on your comment. Every artist craves for constructive criticism and to have their audience notice their hidden carrots. So please find my carrots and I will forever feed you with the love of art as long you respect me as an artist. Then, I promise, we are going to be best friends.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/13153853/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/13153853/ Wed, 30 May 2007 16:50:53 PDT
And still there is a huge bunch of nameless people just passing by. What is an art community for if no one can care to give constructive criticism? Isn't every serious artist's dream to become better at what he/she is doing? When I browse someone's gallery and I feel that this person need a comment, I at least try to put something constructive because let's face it, no matter how good an artist is, they can always become better, discover new boundaries.

For me, I want to become better, I want to display my art, but what's the point if no one bothers to connect? For my quite few deviations compared to some here, I got a lot of pageviews. Some of them might be regulars, some of them not. For most of the people here, you need to talk to others, participate in the community in order to be discovered which meant there isn't any bigger changes because isn't it the same with other artists not being able to display their art over the internet?

They have to have contacts... a lot of them. And their art must be displayed. I was hoping to be connected here, but I have to admit I feel bored, DeviantArt as a whole community bore me because I once again expected too much of the regular people. I should stop overestimating others to my high standards... and still, what is life without standards? Without borders and boundaries? Genres? Hello Mr. Fantasy, let's go and visit Ms. Science Fiction. Yes, let's. And then let's visit poor Mrs. Horror, she is so alone now. Let's write a story for her, that'll cheer her up! And so the story goes on...

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12670726/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12670726/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 17:29:42 PDT
And even more so when the person in question can't argue rationally but rather is using a very offending tone with exactly the same elitism because I "defend" what I see is right, namely that we should never show elitism!

I am a true liberalist in that point of view; I believe in equalism and will always do so. They say that when you reach the age of 20, you will no longer change your identity, it is settled meaning the food you eat now, the music you listen to now, how you dress right now are going to stay the same until you die out of age.

However, what amazes me is when someone is going actually talking for elitism that would have been looked down upon if that elitism was directed towards and against, let's say, immigrants. In this case it's directed towards RPers not coming from Defias Brotherhood EU server. Then suddenly it's ok to stomp on others because the world we are talking about is "fictional". What they fail to see is that what if this would have been against a certain race, a certain society class during a totally different century, would it still have been shrugged away "as fictional"? Not really. Maybe it is a part of the human mentality that some will always believe and think they are a bit better than others and refuse to see that quantity can bring up quality to a totally another level.

You cannot take without giving.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12465483/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12465483/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 03:56:28 PDT
I always wondered over the logic of virus developers. What are they trying to accomplish? As far as I know, this virus is not really harmful (I haven't noticed anything special during these all months I've had it so far), it just spreads through mail and might eat some of your system power but it hardly does anything what we could call "useful" like copying itself over and over totally filling up your harddrive or anything alike it. I mean, the very point of the programs designed being viruses are that they are supposed to destroy and of course, we all know by experience it is much easier to destroy something you've created than trying to recreate.

This has become this new world's decadence; destruction. I discussed language developement with a friend yesterday and how people have started to replace the correct spelling of "the" with "ze". I asked him why people would do that since the logic behind it truly eluded me. He told me they did it because they looked elistic and superior by consciously use spelling errors. I further delved into the idea that since they replaced the "th" with a "z" maybe we should start doing that with all words? It would rather end up as unreadable, but maybe you zink it's readable when people can't use ze correct spelling of several words and totally ignoring ze current grammar rules?

This discussion later turned out that I started to complain over the overall Internet language and other languages related to subculture. I told him that I don't like Swedish as a language although it is my native and I prefer English when I write, talk and think and that I see Swedish as merely functional since I live in a country where Swedish is the mother tongue. I also told him that I have started to forget the imperfect and perfect particip forms of several Swedish irregual verbs and he told me that my thoughts are indeed quite controversial since I am talking about my native language.

I also told him that I might not like my mother tongue, I am still very defensive when it comes to its usage as well as all other languages. I truly dislike the Swedish Internet language usage used among almost everyone these days. You just, in my opinion, manages to look less intelligent by not being able to use the correct grammar and spelling settings if you stubbornly can't write "är" and keep it with "e", to mention one things. I should mention that "är" is the equivalent word for "to be" in Swedish and people spell it with an "e" because it sounds pretty similar although it really doesn't.

I also told my friend that I think that the English language is much more beautiful as a whole than Swedish. However, it made me think that there are two exceptions, namely pure leet speak and hip-hop language. I call these kind of subcultural developements of languages as "language slaughter" because it truly is. There is this discussion in the WoW forums on the EU Sporregar server where a person claims that since "thnx" got the equal phonetic pronouncement to "thanks", it is correct to use it in RP although all other RPers claim it is not and I agree. The very point with RP is that you are mimicking real life and that what you say and do should all be logical to something you could say and do in real life as well. You can't pronounce "thnx" and to make it similar too "thanks" because there are no vocals.

I also told my friend that since these kind of language slaughters are becoming more and more accepted, even in everyday talk, soon we will see a "z" revolution where people will stop spell the "th" and replace it all with a single "z". This is just a sign in how depraved mankind has started to become when new "trends" start to pop up, totally slaughtering the original language, making it look silly. I will always label those that actively strive for these changes as less intellectual since they got no respect for language as such and hardly deserves any praise for their so-called revolutions. Yes, I might be alone in my Holy Crusade for Justice, but I am at least Proud over it.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12333519/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12333519/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 08:30:20 PDT But what if this nerd is you? Literary? Does it scare you that you actually, now that you are thinking after, is an addict of whatever it may be? Society has always looked down upon people with addictions, classified them as crazy and whatnot. Take for example drug- and gaming addicts. Those not suffering are looking down on these people and giving them very little support. If you would think after, trying to understand how it feels being looked down upon by the whole society, don't you think you would rather continue do what you are currently doing because at least it's an escape from your current misery?

I know that I for my part got many kind of addictions. For instance, I am strongly addicted to World of Warcraft. It has indeed been classified equal to heroine and I do understand why so. I am also hugely addicted to music, both as a listener and as a player. I listen to more than 800 songs per week, probably around 1000. Yep, that's almost constant listening during all my waking time. There are of course many other interests that I am addicted of.

We are also talking between the difference of passion and addiction. Where does the border go? It is of course very hard to tell, I enjoy playing WoW, I wouldn't stop unless I really got a reason to do so, I play with passion but I am also badly addicted and I know I sometimes play more than what I should. We can define it as when an interest that is done or was done by passionate feelings are becoming destructive for the practicer, then it is more an addiction than passion.

What I mean is, in our society some addictions are far more accepted than others, such as sports, but maybe it would be good for you to stop for a while and think after a bit of what you are currently addicted of and understand that maybe you aren't so different from the poor drug addict you pass by everyday when walking to work or school. What I mean is, it could be very well be you if your addiction would have been different. If you are more interested in the matter, go to [link] and [link]

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This person claimed to be a "believer", he had lost faith twice and returned. With this he meant that he had tried to commit suicide twice, but thanks to some kind of power he did not want to explain openly, he had seen the proof and very existence of what we call "god". I for my part, do not however agree. I do admit I am paganist follower of the ecologistic religion called Wicca, but I am not openly a Wiccan, ie a believer. I just agree with its basics as religion but I still got my own touche to it. Thus, I am neither an atheist nor believer, I am agnostic in this case. I believe in a god when I see it with my own eyes.

Anyway, I just wanted to write down my own thoughts and feelings because even though the discussion was not heated by personal feelings or overly biased and it was open and just a pure debate, not flaming, I felt that my point was not clear where I stand. Yes, I am ambivalent in many cases, and this is no exception. For me, the world is all about dualism and the higher meaning we can reach by combining these two opposite forces with each other. What this person failed to understand was that if there is no afterlife, there is no meaning with life and there is no moral, and that there can still be spirits but not neccessarily an afterlife to where these spirits must descend or ascend. I should also make clear that I myself believe in cycles and spirits but not an afterlife and that life and death are natural parts of life.
For me, there is rather a life force that conveys everything and encompasses everything and it exists everywhere and within us. It does not give us a reason, but it makes us alive. When we die this life force is taken back to earth and so it goes round eternally.

Reincarnation is something I find I would like to believe in but I do not since I find the thought illogical. Also, this person failed to understand that animals don't also neccessarily don't have to be lower beings just because they are what we call "spiritless" according to Christian belief. Only humans got souls. In here I also disagree. For this person it was essential that it must be an afterlife or there would be no meaning with life, and I told him, even with an afterlife, life is meaningless. You don't live for yourself, you did not chose to be born, those were choices made for you. He understood what I meant but didn't grasp it fully since he still stubbornly claimed there must be an afterlife for it to be any purpose with life.

Also, this preson failed to see that society and religion are intergrated. You can't seperate them from one another and it's impossible to tell if religon came first or if society did because when a religion is formed, a society comes with it and upholds the religion's morals. He did not understand that even as an unbeliever, you could not have your own morals and it was free for everyone to become mass-murderers. He failed to see that even if you are a believer, you still got the right and choice to do so. Only believers got true morals he meant which I know he deep inside know is wrong. Morals is a part of society, you will always have a moral to follow even if you are a true atheist.

He also claimed that atheists are illogical with that they believe that there is no afterlife and that you just become dust and bones when you die. I told him this is a biological way to see death as. I told him it's more illogical to believe in an afterlife since it can't be proven, nor can you prove god's existence. You can however prove that you become dust and bones after your death. Luckily enough, we never got into the discussion of what absolute truth is.

I like my easy answers on those questions, everything is relative and prospective and varies from person and it's impossible to say what absolute truth is. I never said that if I as a person deny the existence of a god, god does not exist for me but it can exist for someone else, I think that would have screwed him up even more. He also called himself weakwilled for feeling doubt when we questioned him and his belief. I remember I asked a Christian priest once that it's easy to be a believer because you got answers on so many important questions. He told me the it's harder to be a believer since you can't question or doubt your beliefs. This might be true, but in comparison to those that question EVERYTHING, you are at least safe "knowing" something about life unbelievers... ]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12176152/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12176152/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 01:52:15 PDT
They say that artists are a funny folk. I guess that's true considering how many "insane" or deeply depressed people there have been throughout history. Vincent van Gogh took his life, Karin Boye as well and many, many were suffering from mental illness such as bipolar disorder. I am not sure what I am trying to say. Maybe just prove my very own existence because as we know Emmanuel Kant, maybe you don't even do that, maybe you are just an imaginary or a fantasy or even a dream. I just had a thought and an idea this morning. I wanted to carry it on. If I ever would be acknowledged as an artist which I highly doubt, it will at least be saved here, in the very core of floating media, namely the Internet. Maybe it is true, when you are truly alone you finally know who you are, instead of being carbon copies or everyone or everything you see.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12098610/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12098610/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 20:07:02 PST Anyway, if you are into H. P. Lovecraft books, I recommend getting the musical "Tentacles" by H. P. Lovecraft Historical Society. It's hilarious! Trying to get into BRD at 5AM lol ^^ Yeah, that's bad... The pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world to live in. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12009673/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/12009673/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 06:34:38 PST Bah, and my holes in my keyboard continues to drop up at all kind of mysterious places... No wonder my sentences hardly make any sense sometimes.

I am not a Smashing Pumpkins fan, hardly ever heard anything about them and after giving their Best of CD a few listens and didn't find it much to my liking... It's strange I like this song so much.

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I am not saying that the movies were much better during the for instance 80s although a lot of what we call classical horror movies were created during these years. After watching Halloween once I had to turn off the sound because there was this particular musical part that just ticked me off. It was the sound that was supposed to make Mike Myers creepy, sort of. Halloween is the mother to the hack-and-slash-teenagers horror movie genre anyway.

Then we got Terror on Elm Street. At least it tries to be good and got a nice coherent idea, the problem is that Freddy stops being scary after the 10 min or so, which makes it fail as a horror movie. They sort of destroyed it when displaying Freddy on screen to early and not making it like with the first Alien movie where they more try to create a creepy feeling that something isn't right by displaying the monster at the very end.

So, my point is, everyone seem to massacre the movie Silent Hill so much with a chainsaw a bit ironically speaking, but hearing a second movie should be up-coming it still makes me glad because Silent Hill as a concept is still refreshing when taken up to the screen compared to for instance Resident Evil that is going up for the third or even the fourth time? And Resident Evil was yet another PG 13+ movie anyway lacking both story and coherent content.

Then we of course got Alien vs Predator. Do I have to say more? Although a bit late saying it was the worst movie of the year, it was indeed one of the worst movies of the year of 2005. Can anyone please strangle Anderson slowly with a rope found somewhere in the movie Wax House? But more seriously speaking, looking at how the horror movie is going at today it wouldn't surprise me horror is going to loose all respect for the audience...

I am also looking for to Marilyn Manson's own horror movie that's supposed to be psychological, and by knowing that man, it should at least have an interesting concept. How good the movie is going to be however, is a totally different thing but seeing Phantasmagoria is going up to the movie later this year... I can just hope.

]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/11794304/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/11794304/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 04:36:36 PST (x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 4

() The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
() The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 6

(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 10

(x) Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
(x) Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
(x) Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
( ) Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
(x) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 13

( ) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Begining
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Suddenly 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total so far: 13

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total so far: 13

( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring (Japanese verison?)
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 17

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy (the remake?)
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 18

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 21

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride (Road kill)
( ) Lucky Number Seven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 23

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss's Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 27

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 33

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
( ) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
( ) Shrek 2
Total so far: 40

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 40

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Retu... ]]> ~LeaTelamon http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/11793901/ http://LeaTelamon.deviantart.com/journal/11793901/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 03:22:03 PST
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