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I have something called fibromyalgia. It describes as extreme pain, all over your body, depression and sleep disorders.... Well, this explains alot, finally I know why I always feel pain and why I can't sleep at night or sleep all day... I have to say that I'm very relieved to know, now I'm not just some whiny looser, there is something wrong with me and it is serious!!!!

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http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/20998770/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 09:17:02 PDT








Some Changes are in order for me, I have to do that to try to change my current state of mind... Which is not good. My depression is getting so badly to me that I´m crumbling down.

So in order to change something I kicked my boyfriend out, so I could focus on myself, I know this is cruel but I have to do something for my mental health... I can´t feel like this any more, it is too hard, I´m dropping out of school because I´ve been so sick lately with depression, I literally can´t get out of bed when I´m at my worst, and that tends to happen every month for at least a week, it seems to follow my period.

Well, I´m just trying to live, doesn´t that count for something??

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<... ]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/19787434/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/19787434/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 09:53:47 PDT






Icelanders are most known for slutty girls and lot of drinking, slutty girls part is controversial, though a girl is beautiful and likes to show it, it doesn't mean she is a slut, but on the other hand icelanders are morally liberal when it comes to human behaviour.

But the second part, about the drinking is undeniably true, we are drunkards. And that shows itself best with this one weekend a year, from friday till monday probably 97 percent of the country are drinking they're asses off!!! This is the time where every family has to decide what to do that weekend; throw a party, go to partys, go camping and drink, go rampaging through your town so drunk you wake up in a wrong house, go to some outdoor festival (which are many to choose from because we hold festivals just for this weekend) or be home, be a responsible parent and teach your kid to drink properly because otherwise the kid would never funktion in a normal icelandic society.

Liqueur shops need to special order for this weekend and there is packed out of the door of people there and that is the place you go to meet with your friends and fellows, you go to the liqueur store You can stumble into your friends, parents, grandparents, friends of your parents, relatives, etc.....


So this stupid weekend was just passing by, me and my boyfriend went to the liqueur store a little bit late and we just chatched the last bottles, so with that said and thee packed bags we walked out of the store. We where gonna be sooooo hammered all weekend but in the last hour I was bribed into work on sat and sun. Well ok, I could drink on sunday evening, so on friday evening I went to sleep at 12 and my boyfriend went without me drinking.
So on sat evening I decided to drink a little.... Well I had a maybe a little too much, I remember everything though but it was the work the day after that was painfull. I take alot of medications for various causes and they went all in the toilet the night before so I get this uncontrollable shaking. So that workday went by shakily... So the big night, the big finally is on sun night, when everybody gathers on a hill and sing together and it ends with a gigantic firework show, I was so gonna go and sing my ass off but, no I was so sick I went t... ]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/19231427/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/19231427/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 05:38:11 PDT


Read this amazing story and I promise you; your life will never be the same

Well, I'm waiting for a disaster....

I've got my own apartment now, living with my boyfriend and my three cats. I can't even describe how relived I am for getting away from my mother, she is a monster. It is he best feeling in the world to be away from her and do what I want, whenever I want.

Also, the school I tried for accepted me, I didn't think they would accept me because last time I was in school I wasn't really good at attending, but I said them that I'm really depressed and in that time I felt awful and had trouble at getting myself together, so that is why I quit school and went in a program to try to make me feel better, It didn't really work but now I know how to handle the depression better, I will always be depressed and damaged but I have to try again and see if I can prove myself or if I am beyond repair and should just stop trying.

Another thing happened, I got a job!! At Akureyri Art Museum. Akureyri is the town I live in and this is the main Art Museum here. I'm in the reception and most of the time it is really not much to do but just charge people for going in. So I can use my time to read and browse DA, can go to the internet as much as I like and that is a big plus because I can't afford the internet at home.

So, this is all going too well for me, I wait in the shadows, afraid to turn on the lights because they might turn my luck, just one switch and all could go to hell....


UPDATE: I knew something bad would come crushing me down, I have been pushing everybody away and not been a very good friend. I´m loosing all the wonderful people that have with their kind soul taken me in as a friend and tried to help me in my depression and I push them away and haven´t been there for them when they needed me... I´m a hipochrite and selfish... I guess my mom was right when she called me selfish... I´m also loosing my boyfriend because of how mindsick I am, he cant take much more, I told him this when we started dating that this day would come when he would brake down because of me and my sickness...

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http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/18639542/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 05:45:49 PDT It seems not to be working, I've tried exorcism, bending spoons, cleansing my aura and drinking lot of coca cola. Nothings working.

Have I mentioned how much I hate beeing tagged, This I did only for you Solla

1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal.

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses ===correctional ones
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[x] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.<... ]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/18395371/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/18395371/ Thu, 22 May 2008 09:09:45 PDT It seems not to be working, I've tried exorcism, bending spoons, cleansing my aura and drinking lot of coca cola. Nothings working.

I'm afraid my friends have given up on me, I don't call them because I'm just trying to stay my head together and they don't call me because I'm not the liveliest person in the world.

The thing's got me living is that that at the end of the day I can go to sleep with my cats.... Indesplickably sad...


Buth here comes my long waited cat feature:






*Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17879356/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17879356/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 11:41:22 PDT Wouldn't it be just fine if I would just disappear?

I think I've hurt many people because of my depression, they have done so much for me and helped me in so many ways but I can't give anything back, I can't be there for them because I can't even be here for myself, then what am I doing alive? Should I be alive? I can't help anybody, I can't function.


Features:






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]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17424620/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17424620/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 11:08:13 PDT
Now I'm just trying to figure out all this new stuff... its awesome!!

I will be submitting some of my drawings which are most just pencil work, but I enjoy it. They are also very abstract because I can't draw a proper drawing.... But you will see sooon..

So, my first feature will drawings after my best friend



And photos from her:
ehem.... thats me....
me there too... at the right side....
soooo cute.... not me


Cheers for my first feature!!!

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]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17252941/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17252941/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 10:51:42 PDT All of a sudden people want to feature my work!!! What happened? What changed?
But I'm happy

Where I'm Fetured:

[link]

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Some attempt of a stock account:


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]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17115750/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/17115750/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 06:38:31 PST Shinobinaku, who took it from *perfect--sin

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting


Opening Credits:
Seeter - Fade Away

Waking up:
Just a son - Vilhelm

First day at School:
45(Acustic) - Shinedown (Well, this just sad)

Falling in love:
Brain Stew - Green Day (...whoot!!?...)

Fight song:
Lady so divine - Shinedown

Breaking up:
B.B.K - Korn (Thats just fucked up)

Prom Night:
Our Farewell - Within Temptation (whow, must have been a dreadful prom)

Life:
X - System Of A Down (Some life, ah?)

Mental Brakedown:
Chaos Warm Welcome - Devil May Cry 3 (what a dramatic life)

Driving:
Scared - Three Days Grace

Flashback:
Sing In Silence - Sonata Arctica

Getting Together Again:
Black Sheep - Sonata Arctica

Wedding:
Bottled Up - Korn (This is some life, I'm deffenitely not playing that at my wedding)

Birth of Child:
Streamline - System Of A Down (I'll be a crappy parent)

Funeral Song:
Do What They Say - Korn (though funeral)

Final Credits:
Knocking on Heavens Door - Toby Rand

Well, I think we can all agree about that it will be a dramatic life...


Here is my 100 theme challenge: [link]

And here is my attempt for a stock account:

Where I'm Fetured:

[link]

[link]

[link]


DA Clubs:

*Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16811620/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16811620/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 09:01:29 PST So here it goes, to you Solla:

1. I take 8 different kinds of pills per day, 4 of them make me function.
2. If I eat Liquorice I can die. I have some sort of intolerance.
3. I play Magic the Gathering.
4. I have a tendency to collect things. Sometimes it gets out of hands. I have more than 130 teddy bears. I also collect Hello Kitty things, pens, napkins, small bouncing balls, Magic cards, books, all things cat related, movies and probably something more.... I can't remember.
5. I really, really, REALLY want to try role play, live or board, I just want to try...
6. I have a tattoo behind my right ear, and, that is a shocker, its a cat!!
7. I can't call people, I'm call-o-phobic.
8. I live in a home for people with mental illnesses.


So, that's done

Here is my 100 theme challenge: [link]

And here is my attempt for a stock account:


And the Clubs:



]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16763935/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16763935/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 02:37:48 PST The Rules.

1. Create 100 photos each photo having a theme listed below. Each photo should have ONE - and only ONE - theme to it for it to count.
2. No time limit, so have fun.
3. Photos should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the dA ettiquette policy.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A. You are in the challenge.
B. What you have completed.
5. Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and link to the photo.
6. In the comments for your photo, make not that it is part of the list and what ONE theme it represents.

THE LIST (first):
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence [link]
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion [link]
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation




And the Clubs:



]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16182614/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16182614/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 10:53:38 PST
The year 2007 has been difficult as hell, I have been through some tough times in my depression and gone to the lowest stages of the depression and thinking of dying... That is the most frightening part of this, I don't want to dye, it was just in my mind because of the sickness, I couldn't control it.

But I have had the Best of all Best friends who have stood by me and supported me to the fullest, how many times have I called them when I was braking down ones more and was crying my brains out and they have come to me and saved me many times from going crazy.
So I'm going to thank them individually like I was holding some fk Oscar speach, but this is nessesary because they have been my life, my saviors, my angels, my stars, so here I go:

Sigga : She has been my lifeline, she has always had time for my pathetic cry, always ready to steal a car and come to my rescue, she and her mother have been so good to me, even offered me to live with them so I could get away from my mother and her evilness, they where even ready to let me take my two cats with them, which are my life. Sigga never gives up on me and always tries to get me to do something that could lift my spirit a bit. Sigga, I love you with all the peaces of my broken heart.
Kiss kiss og knús ástin mín.

Rósa : She is my Rose, she is always ready to let me come to her, even though she has a bad allergy for cats she is always ready to hug me (I'm always all in cat hairs). She is such a good soul and you have to feel a little bit better being around her, she does that to people Her home is such a good place to be in because she has filled it with her spirit and turned it in to a sanctuary for everybody she loves. Ég elska þig Rósin mín.

Anna : She is soo sweet, so beautiful inside and out. When I have cried she has come to me and put her arms around me and sung for me, it calms me down and warms my heart a bit. We have done so many crazy things together on this year and we got to know each other better than ever. And all the drinking we have done together, and I always remember when we went on the trampoline so drunk. And always when I hear Girlfriend with Avril Lavigne I think of you Þú ert æði sæta mín. Koss.

Valdi: My sweet angel, my savior. You have done so much for me, you practically let me live with you and your brother for some time, you saw to it that I ate and showered and did these basic things which I couldn't handle to think of. So many times did you wake with me and hold my hand all night long when I cried and cried. I owe you one big time for everything. It was also so fun when we drove around and listened to music for hours and hours, we talked so much about everything, about the universe and almost always did we disagree. It was much fun. Þú ert bestasti vinur minn.

Bubbi: Valdi's brother, he was always ready to have me at his home and always trying to get me to do something else than sleep. Always singing at 8 in the morning, doing it impossible for me to get any sleep and always ready to watch a movie with me.

Stebbi: My boyfriend, yesterday we had been together for three months and it is going so well, we are so much alike, both incredibly stupid nerds. I met him at Valdi's and Bubbi's place, they are always playing Magic and teaching me and watching movies and that is how we met, he is so sweet to me, maybe because he has got five death threats if he hurts me in some way so he is afraid to say anything else to me. No, I think not. He has done so much for me by just saying how much he likes me. And he is so patient when I cry and talk about dying, he just holds me and lets me cry in his arms. Ég elska þig svo óendanlega mikið ástin mín og ég veit svo sannarlega ekki hvar ég væri án þín... Kannski ennþá heima hjá Valda og Bubba, bitrari en andskotinn.
*Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16091447/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/16091447/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 10:12:21 PST By Korn

Hey, I'm feeling tired.
My time, is gone today.
You flirt with suicide.
Sometimes, that's ok.
Do what others say.
I'm here, standing hollow.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.
Day, is here fading.
That's when, I would say.
I flirt with suicide.
Sometimes kill the pain.
I can always say.
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'.
Falling away from me.
Falling away from me.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming some sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
It's lost and can't be found.
(falling away from me).
It's spinning round and round.
(falling away from me).
Slow it down.

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming some sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.

Twisting me, they won't go away.
So I pray, go away.

Life's falling away from me.
It's falling away from me.
Life's falling away from me.
Fuck!

Beating me down.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.
Screaming some sound.
Beating me, beating me.
Down, down.
Into the ground.




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]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15984105/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15984105/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 09:04:00 PST What should I do? Any suggestions?


The Clubs I'm in:


]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15846816/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15846816/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 10:31:01 PST


The Club that I'm in:


]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15679190/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15679190/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 13:01:16 PST Its going great

Bye



]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15630793/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15630793/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:54:26 PST
But today I got realy mad at my mother (which is a big part of my depression), she tends to treat me unfarly and rule over me, and for a while I tried to look at it that way that she must feel realy bad if she can be so mean to another person, but today I lost all compassion for her.... She called me shelfish! This is like a slap in the face, infact I would rather that she had done that other than said that, that is the one thing I´ve tried so desperatly to be not.....

I think I´m falling apart....

]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15314070/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15314070/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 09:52:39 PDT
-Scott Adams

]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15243886/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/15243886/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 13:13:22 PDT
-Eleanor Roosevelt

]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/13278336/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/13278336/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 13:16:42 PDT
]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/13140446/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/13140446/ Tue, 29 May 2007 16:00:03 PDT I love the color pink and my room is a pink paradise, but if you hate pink you could die in there.
I read a lot, often I have to read many books at the same time, now I´m reading stardust by Neal Gaiman, Memnock the devil by Anne Rice, Afrodite by Isabel Allende....


Well that was me in a nutshell.....

]]> *Liburnica http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/12542845/ http://Liburnica.deviantart.com/journal/12542845/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 17:10:38 PDT
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