http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:LillithEva&section=today deviantART RSS for by:LillithEva en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 20:15:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/9953823/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/9953823/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 17:04:46 PDT well let's see what is new with me
i am working at a kewl company got a promotion fairly quickly actually within 4 months of working there
got a new car a '91 prelude
that's about it really
sorry my life is really boring
i go to work then come home
i guess i go to karaoke everyonce and awhile ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/7596563/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/7596563/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 20:51:30 PST i hate him
i have always told that there is a fine line
between love and hate
i never understood that untill now
i want to be happy fully
but i wait to see
he tells me not to that he's not worth it
but as much as my head wants to belive him
my heart will not let go
i hate it
but that seems to be my fate for the moment
who knows maybe things will change
and i won't be the one who wishes...
hopes....
waits.... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/7186438/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/7186438/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 14:39:41 PST anywho, life is good i forget if i said last time if i moved out or not. i did, living with some awsome friends.
i have my x-mas list almost done. but i'm sure i will think of something else i need to get someone or something. it always happens that way. well, i guess i will go now as i have run out of things to say. ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6979331/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6979331/ Mon, 07 Nov 2005 09:25:50 PST got an offer from a friend to be able to stay at his place for $200 and keep my job those were the two stipulations but not at all hard to keep.
my job is wearing on me a bit but i figure this time i need to stick it out b/c i always ditched jobs that i didn't like so i have had many jobs in my short history of work. this time i need to suck it up. hehehehehe
it wouldn't be so bad if management would stay the hell off my back though. they are idiots who annoy all of us on the floor. we would like it if they would go away and leave us to do our jobs. but then again i suppose people like that have always been my reason to quit jobs before. oh well, no more complaining i'm in a good mood for a change. ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6868481/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6868481/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 21:05:21 PDT oh well, i guess it will be nice to have a place to call mine all mine for a while. but i have a feeling that coming home to an empty place is going to get to me after awhile. but i'll get over it. it's something that i should experience. all i know that is sometimes living here(and it's not bad here) i just long to be by myself. oh well, we will see which i like better. but then again having someone to live with who isn't going to want to talk all the time wouldn't be bad either. well, that's all my ranting today.

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*MedievalCommunity... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6733996/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6733996/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 19:54:30 PDT love is supposed to be a happy emotion. but i have come to realize that it is also the most painful one too. how do you love someone who doesn't love you back. i don't seem to be having that issue right now. but i have a friend who is head over heels for this guy and he could really care less. i mean they are friends, but it seems to me that ever since he found out how she feels for him he has used her. i worked with both of them, she just got promoted and is training at another store.
i feel so bad for her but yet i can only stand back and watch them dance their dance. someday i hope she will find one who will treat her as she should be treated.
i on the other hand, love a wonderful person, who once broke my heart ( he knows this as we have talked about it). he treats me well and he is my bestfriend. i guess that is why i have faith in him. i don't know if we will ever get back together but at least i know that he will always be there for me. i will have his friendship, i would say untill one of us dies, but i don't believe that it will end there. i have known him in many lives and hope to know him for more. or at least in whatever comes after death.
and that is why i say love is so simple it's complicated. for it can bring about so many other emotions with it. it can bring joy or it can bring sorrow. it's a funny thing.
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http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6549730/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 20:21:28 PDT it's a little stressful trying to find an apartment for the first time. i've never lived on my own and by that i have never lived by myself before. it will be an adventure i'm sure. don't know how i'm gonna get a place though, i don't really have great credit at all, and no one i know has good enough credit to co-sign. i may be shit up the creek. who knows, maybe i'll bet lucky. i've contemplating doing a rent-to-own thing. b/c personally i don't really want to have to move again after this. i've moved so much in the past 4 years, i make an army brat look stationary that's sad huh?
but all in all my life has turned out not so bad. i live with great people, bestfriends with a wonderful person(whether he believes me or not), my parents are helping me get a car then will help me get furniture. they can't co-sign b/c they are retired. which sucks. but maybe i will have to live in a shit hole for a while to move up to a better place. no biggie, i lived in a tent for a month so a shit hole apt for a year or 6 months isn't going to kill me.
i had contemplated moving to Carson, IA but with the gas prices right now i would go broke just paying for gas to get to work.
oh well, i did see a 1 bdrm apt for $350 a month and that is so in my price range right now. hehehehe which is kewl. I'd love to live in a house but i think i may wait a year and save and get a line of credit that is good. LOL
well, that's for my life right now
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~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6361372/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6361372/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 15:55:55 PDT later that evening she gives me this bunch of shit that i shouldn't have invited him over without asking. which is understandable if i had asked him to come over. that and i was thinking well, you know dear, i guess i should have done it the way you did and informed me that your boyfriend, his friend, and her sister were coming out with us. she didn't ask she told me. and in actuality she didn't even say anything about her sister, i called her up to see where they were and her sister answered the phone. which basically told me that she was coming a long too.
i just really wanted to hang out with a few friends, the ones "I" had invited to come out and that was it. i haven't really gone out in a couple of months. so i wanted to have fun bowling (yes, i said bowling) and have a couple of drinks. i was so irritated by the end of the night that i drank a bit more than i had planned. it was all so stupid.
then her yelling at me b/c my ex came over topped it off. it is now one of those, don't call us, we'll call you sort of deal now.
when i was sitting over at her apt. i was just thinking holy shit this is where i was three years ago. doing the same ol'e thing. it was odd, b/c i was trying to figure out what it was that i had found so fun back then.
i dont mean hanging out with some friends and drinking. i mean the atmosphere was really the same as it was three years ago.
either i have changed a bit or they haven't. or it could be both.
well, thanks for letting me rant again. Loves ya!

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http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6305797/ Tue, 23 Aug 2005 10:59:12 PDT things are pretty good all in all.
i've got a job that i like (well, it doesn't piss me off). going to get my own place. life is good. i keep saying that hehehe
i'm pretty content with how my life is turning out now. i no longer regret moving back here. that's a good sign right?
well, that's all i have to say for the moment!

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There is no better muse than you! ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6286532/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6286532/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 09:20:15 PDT i feel that i am at another stand still in my life. i have a job now, basically have a car. but i feel as if i need to go and move on. i don't mean drop everything and leave again. but i need to have a place i can call my home. living with my friends has been great, i have been able to pick up the pieces and make something of them. but i need to get out of here and into a place of my own. well, my friend, has been talking about getting an apartment together which is fine and dandy. because i'd still be able to call it my home. i need to get out spread my wings so to speak.
N and B don't have a problem with me staying here for now. but things are looking up for them and i think it's time to move on. let them have their space and i will see them at work or socially. but they are a family and i'm not part of that. i mean i am, but not at the same time. does that make sense. they make me feel a part of something that i have missed since moving back here. my parents and brother live in FL. so i don't have family here anymore. i have my friends, a few i would consider family, but it's just not the same, ya know.
i wish i could write in here happy things. but so far there aren't to many happy things in my life.
oh, i pretend that i'm happy, i'm very good at that. there is only one person who sees through me, which maybe why i haven't seen or talked to him in awhile. i don't know. maybe i need to stop pretending and actually be. i hate to think i'm chasing my friends away b/c of my retardedness. hehehe
oh well, i think i will be moving away a lot sooner than i expected. i'm thinking probably in another month or so. i love the idea of having a place to call home. i think that is the next step for me to do. oh well, that's it for now, i probably feel this way b/c i'm all sick and stuff. but i think the moving thing is a very good idea.

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NAME:
LillithEva, Lilly

Have You Ever:
1. Given a homeless guy more than $5?
yep

2. Spent more than $500 on a bf/gf's gift or a night out?
I will never tell b/c i refused to get yelled at

3. Had sex with more than one person in a day?
no, i sleep with one person at a time...wait, there was that one time...oh and there was that other...hehehehe

4. Hooked up with a good friends bf/gf behind their back?
nope never

5. Dated two people at once?
no.

6. Failed more than one class?
Yes

7. Took someone's virginity when you weren't a virgin?
Yes...

8. Hooked up with someone from a different race?
yep, i don't know too many asian men, other than my brother

9. Ran around naked outside??
Several Times

10. Skoobadived?
no, but i really would like to sometimes

11. Snorkled?
yep. almost had to get my stomache pumped b/c i didn't get it and ingested way to much sal water

12. Dated someone you didn't want your friends to meet?
no, i don't much care what people think as long as i like the person that's should be enough for them

13. Got your stomach pumped, from alcohol poisoning?
no, close but no

14. Threw up from alcohol?
oh dear, i think Puke and Rally was my slogan for awhile there

15. Been suspended from school?
Yep

16. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Yes

17. Wore a short skirt with out panties?
One or two times.

18. Let a girl paint your toenails?
Yep, several times

19. Met someone famous?
I've met a few famous/infamous people, but I rather not say who

20. Saved someone's life?
Yes...

21. Seen someone die?
Yes...

22. Killed someone?
No

23. Been in a physical fight?
Yes...

24. Hooked up with someone 10yrs older or younger than you?
Yes, older

25. Been arrested?
no

26. Spent the night in jail?
no

27. Been in more than three car accidents in a year?
No

28. Had sex outside?
Yes

29. Had sex in your house when your parents were home?
Yes

30. Been turned off by someone's personal hygiene "down there"?
Yes

31. Told someone you loved them when you didn't?
No

32. Danced on top of a bar?
Yes

33. Had sex somewhere in your high school?
nope

34. Bought a vibrator?
not yet, haven't really had the cash to do so, even though one of my ex's was going to get me one

35. Been in a porn shop?
who hasn't?

36. Been in a dance competition?
nope

37. Spent more than one night in a hospital?
Yes... but not b/c of me

38. ODed on a drug?
nope

39. What's your weakness?
abandonment...

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Give me one good reason why you all shouldn't answer these questions???

1.Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw/talked to me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal or other blog and see what I say about you?

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~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6144912/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6144912/ Fri, 05 Aug 2005 20:15:40 PDT i have been told that i need to take care of myself. but i wonder if that isn't a big waste of time.
i wish i could turn the hands of time back to when i was happy. maybe life wouldn't be so hard now.
i just realize that when i start feeling anything for anyone i push them away again. so for all you out there that i have pushed away i give you a huge apology. and hope that you will once again forgive me.
anywho, enough of my pity party that i have just thrown myself. thanks for still being here for me and all my ups and downs.
loves you all

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You are...(looks)
[ ] tall
[x] in between
[x] short (not really either, i'm not short but not really what iguess people might consider in between)
--
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[] brunette
[x] black-haired
--
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed (really dark, kinda black)
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[ ] with glasses
[x] with contacts
--
[ ] with braces
[ ] with freckles
[ ] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[ ] and have long hair
[ ] and have short hair
[x] and have mid-length hair


Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[ ] green
[x] blue
[ ] gold
[ ] white
[x] silver
[x] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] indigo



Some things you've done/played include...
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ] chess
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] marching band
[x] karaoke


You are sometimes...
[ ] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] sweet
[x] funny
[x] mysterious
[x] serious
[ ] bubbly
[ ] spazzy
[x] paranoid
[x] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[ ] hyper
[x] nervous
[x] weird



The music you like is?
[x] rap
[x] rock
[ ] pop
[x] country
[x] hip hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[ ] punk
[ ] Metal
[x] reggae (more ska than reggae)
[ ]Goth
[ ] Latin
[x] 90's Grunge
[x] musicals (i know i'm weird)



The pets you have are?
[x] cat (can i claim this? she actually claimed me when living with my ex)
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[ ] spider
[ ] rabbit
[ ] fish
[ ] bird
[ ] hamster
[ ] little sister
[ ] other



You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ]hyper
[ ]happy
[ ] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[x] I have no idea (never put much thought into labels)



You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[ ] junk foods
[ ] a lot of carbs
[ ] ice cream
[x] lots of meat
[ ] salad
[x] seafood
[ ] exotic dishes
[x] Mountain Dew (can we say i drink Diet Pepsi)
[x] Beer


A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] partying
[ ] doing my homework
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[ ] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[ ] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun



Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship
[ ] single and lovin it
[ ] crushing (widely)
[x] single and looking for someone (sometimes)
[ ] just broke up... and so sad about it
[ ] screw it



Online, you use:
[x] lol
[x] sup
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[x] ty
[x] j/k
[ ] <3
[x] ttyl
[ ] g2g
[ ] XD
[ ] ^^
[x] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^
[ ] o_O
[ ] TOT

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http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/6038708/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 10:54:54 PDT but anyways, my roomie is doing better. he's able to drive now so he's happy. and he's able to get out of the house. he was so cute when i asked him if he wanted to go with me to get my paycheck thursday and to go get my new phone. i'm canceling the one i have right now b/c i can get one for about $109 and the bill will be about $15-$20 cheaper than what i am paying right now. plus, i will have text messaging again yay!!! sometimes i just don't have a lot to say and it's easier to text the message than calling and using up my minutes right now. and i can't text with my present phone b/c it costs $.25 per text.
anywho, sorry i haven't written anything or done anything other than journals right now. i haven't been very creative lately. i seem to have run into a block which i am hoping will go away soon. b/c man let me tell you i have a lot in my head right now that won't go anywhere. hehehehe they are taunting me by letting me know that they are there but won't let me do anything with it.
oh well, this is turning into a short story so i'm gonna go now. but loves you all!!!

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... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5966996/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5966996/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 10:05:53 PDT but at least this is a start for a new begining. well, i don't have a whole lot to say right now. maybe after i start work i'll have more to say.
well love you all and big thanks for your support these past couple of weeks.

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i have loved many in my life
but him i loved the best ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5880940/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5880940/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 21:07:53 PDT makes you think about all the things you think are so important. they just seem so small when you see someone who could have died. well at least that is what it seems to me. all the stuff i thought were so important seem really trivial right now. I will tell you something though i will never take life for granted now. i'm going to do my best to be the best person i can b/c life is just to short.
what did surprise me was the fact that the smallest act of kindness seems to make people take a step back and look surprised. that saddens me b/c i know that we can all be so much kinder to each other.
well that's it for now. thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I love you all for your support and everything.

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i have loved many in my life
but him i loved the best ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5368814/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5368814/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 13:33:11 PDT i will always be here for everyone but i'm begining to think that maybe i need to take a vacation from everyone and everything. hehehe
it'll never happen though. i love my friends too much. sorry this one is so gloomy. just needed to get this off my chest. can't really talk to my friends about this b/c i don't want them to feel guilty or anything. i love being here for them and always will be. i may just be really tired. the time change here threw my balance off a bit. no big deal. maybe i'm feeling off b/c of my move that's coming up. it was a big desicion(didn't spell that right). But i think that it was the right one to do.
maybe it's b/c i thought of something that i thought i had put behind me and it scares me to death. it was a very dark part of my past. for everyone out there don't ever let anyone use you as a punching bag. it's very bad for one's self esteem. i know
well, that's enough gloom for one evening. sorry about this and thanks for listening(reading, whatev)

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~MedievalCommunity ~Emotion... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5348129/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5348129/ Fri, 13 May 2005 13:59:47 PDT I just have little packing to do then i am done. Tomorrow i am off to see my parents.
Well, that's it for now. I won't have a ton of Comp time at my parents b/c they have dial up and i hate dial up. hehehehhehe
But it will be good to see them. I have seen them more this year than i have in the past 3. it was horrible they moved and i didn't see them for well i guess it was really only 2 years.
I loves you all and will see you when i get to another computer!

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i have loved many in my life
but him i loved the best ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5315957/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5315957/ Fri, 13 May 2005 10:49:22 PDT But the good part about that is that i started to feel so much better afterwards. Just really drained.
I went to Panama City yesterday and stuff. Got my first sunburn. probably mild compared to what most people get but i still don't like it. i was laying in the sun for a little bit ( i think i might have dozed for a few mins(and yes it was a few mins b/c the baby never lets me doze longer than that)). but then we went swimming in the ocean and stuff. it was a lot of fun but i'm not used to being in the sun that much. so i might have overdone it a little.
I have most of my packing done for my move. just a couple more things and to throw out some trash and stuff.
Well, that's it for now as i think i'm gonna try and sleep. hehehe(i'll stare at the ceiling till 5 again)

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~Emotional-Writings ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5203976/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5203976/ Wed, 27 Apr 2005 13:16:21 PDT i officially have 1,000 hits! hehehehehe
i'm a nerd i know!
but untill i move i don't have a lot to do. well in about a week or so i have to start packing up my stuff. hehehehehehe
when that happens i'll be gone fore a couple of weeks or so. but i'll let ya'll know when it happens.
Yay! 1000 hits!!!!!!!!!!!

i have loved many in my life
but him i loved the best ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5163069/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5163069/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 23:42:18 PDT who knows, i may just be drunk. hehehehe
on of my best friends is once again in a bad place (we will call it that). i feel bad for him but at the same time don't. i would tell him really to get over it but i can't b/c i think that it may cause me to be a hypocrite. which would be bad and i don't want to be one.
i have to admit that sometimes i love someone to the point where it just hurts to exist(did i spell that right?) w/o them. but at the same time i want to beat myself up for feeling that way.
but then again who wants to love someone who doesn't love you back. let me tell ya it sucks royally to be in such a position.
wow, i think i need to possibly go to bed now.
and you know what if he doesn't love me then oh well his loss b/c i probably loved/love him more than anyone else does or did. which once again sucks!
i'll probably be emabarrassed that i wrote this in the morning but for now i don't care.

i have loved many in my life
but him i loved the best ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5073112/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/5073112/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 20:04:39 PDT trying to get all my stuff off the computer
as i am going to be moving in about a month and a half or so
life is crazy; but for the moment i am glad to be a part of it(that can change any time)
I'm going to miss William though. I was gone for about a month and he grew so much
he's going to be huge the next time I see him
i am happy to be moving but sad too
i like living here with my cousin but at the same time i need to go back home
silly how i haven't lived there for almost a year and i still consider it home
oh well, i figured i'd write so that i would have something new in my journal since i haven't added anything in awhile

Clubs:
~Emotional-Writings ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4784545/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4784545/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 09:33:30 PST I WANT:to move back soon
I HAVE: my Pepsi
I WISH: the business was up and going
I HATE: people who have common sense but don't use it
I MISS:my friends in Omaha
I FEAR: not a lot
I HEAR: a song
I SEARCH: for an inner peace that sometimes runs away
I WONDER: what can I do to make my plans work
I LOVE: Words
I ACHE: right now I have one in my left side
I ALWAYS: Try to help
I AM NOT: mad anymore
I DANCE: only if I'm drunk
I SING: when i can
I CRY: if I unintentionally hurt someone I care about
I AM NOT ALWAYS: depressed, i swear
I WRITE: poems and short stories
I WIN: well i won that radio thing
I LOSE: my mind if i don't keep a close eye on it at all times
I CONFUSE: a lot of people
I NEED: people
I SHOULD: figure more stuff out for the business
FATHER THINKS I AM: doing better
MOTHER THINKS I AM: happy
MAKES YOU HAPPY: My Friends and random thigns
YOU KEEP A DIARY: did, not so much anymore
YOU LIKE TO COOK: Chicken and Dumplings
YOU ARE IN LOVE: was, perfer it not to happen again
YOU BITE YOUR FINGERNAILS: Never
YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: Yes. It hurts
THE HOTTEST MALE YOU KNOW: Jim Ramsey
THE HOTTEST FEMALE YOU KNOW: Kitty
THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Nick
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Maggie (loves you)
YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS: Hence, Kitty
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: Hence and Kitty
YOUR CRUSH: don't have one and don't want one
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: yep
THINK/KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN IN LOVE: yes it hurts
WANT TO GET MARRIED: not right now
HAVE ANY TATTOOS/WHERE?: Yep.
THINK YOUR A HEALTH FREAK: haha no.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: most of the time
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: yes
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Both

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~Emotional-Writings ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4718513/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4718513/ Thu, 03 Mar 2005 10:45:55 PST I have to go buy a brace for it tomorrow as soon as I get paid.

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~Emotional-Writings ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4688101/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4688101/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 20:33:17 PST

Relationships:
01. Fallen for your best friend? No.
02. Made out with JUST a friend? Yes.
03. Been rejected? I think so
04. Been in love? Yes
05. Been in lust? Yes
06. Used someone? Yes
07. Been used? Yes
08. Cheated on someone? Once, I felt awful about it at the time(close to 9 years ago)
09. Been cheated on? Yes
10. Been kissed? Yes
11. Done something you regret? I probably have, just can't think of one right now

Who was the last person...
12. You touched? Sexually? Other than me I guess that would be Paul
13. You talked to? Rick...he just got home from work
14. You hugged? William
15. You instant messaged? Hence
16. Kissed? Paul
17. You had sex with? Paul
18. You yelled at? The Bank for being evil people
19. You laughed with? Melissa
20. You had a crush on? hmmmmmm....that's a hard one
21. That broke your heart? ME...long story

Do you:
22. Color your hair? redish black
23. Have tattoos? one
24. Piercings? tounge and ears and cartilige in ear
25. Floss daily? don't like the stuff
26. Own a webcam? yeah, my digi cam turns into one
27. Ever get off the dang computer? yep, when William is up and when I have to go to bed... or those days where I think that the puter is evil and must be destroyed
General Questions:
40. Considered a life of crime? Sure
41. Considered being a hooker? nope
42. Considered being a pimp? Nope
44. Split personalities? Sometimes hehehehehehehe
45. Schizophrenic? No.
46. Obsessive? sometimes
47. Obsessive compulsive? sometimes
48. Panic? not really anymore
49. Anxiety? sometimes
50. Depressed? more often than not
51. Suicidal? never
52. Obsessed with Hate? Nah, takes up too much energy
53. Dream of mutilated bodies? no
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Anywhere but here
56. What would you be doing? writing, reading, working, relaxing
58. What are you listening to? nothing right now
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body?hehehehehehehe
60. Chicken or fish? both are good
61. Do you have a favorite stuffed animal? I had this Panda bear forever that I loved; but my brother sold it at a garage sale

Currently:
62. Current Clothes: comfy black pants and a big t-shirt
63. Current Mood: bored
64. Current Taste: pepsi
65. Current Hair: not sure what that means, but mine's pulled back into a pony tail
66. Current Annoyance: People...I'm trying to quit smoking
67. Current Smell: nothing right now
68. Current thing I ought to be doing: nothing really
69. Current Desktop Picture: Winnie The Pooh
70. Current Favorite Group: don't really have one
71. Current Book:Not reading anything right now
72. Current DVD In Player: one I burnded
73. Current Refreshment: Pepsi
74. Current Worry: I try not to
75. Current Favorite Celebrity: hmmmmm...don't know

Favorites:
76. Food: Pepsi, chicken pattie sandwhiches, tator tots (that's just the present)
77. Drink: Pepsi and beer
78. Color: black, dark green
79. Shoes: the ones I can slip on
80. Candy: ummmm....don't eat candy
81. Animal: Cats
82. Movie: King Arthur
83. Dance: liquid
84. Vegetable: dunno, as long as it's not cooked carrots or beets

Future:
85. What do you want to be when you get older?: An Adult
86. Married?: who knows what the future holds
87. Kids?: right now no
88. Living Where?:With family

This or That: Neither this nor that

89. Gay or straight: straight, but I'm game
90. Boxers or Briefs: boxerbriefs
91. Reading or Writing: or Arithmatic? writing, and reading I suck at math
92. Basketball or Baseball: baseball I guess, my friends seem to enjoy the game
93. Walking or Running: walking I didn't like to run before... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4356328/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4356328/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 22:28:31 PST
(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4261080/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4261080/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 10:13:37 PST
Well, I'm back home now. I will be looking at everything that i missed. Jet lag sucks and my balance is a little off still, my stupid ears need to pop or whatever it is that they do.
I had fun seeing all my friends. Some of my friends are going through a rough time right now. I am hoping that things will turn around for them. I feel kinda helpless sometimes b/c there isn't anything i can do to help them out.
Well, that's it for now.

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4160140/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4160140/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 08:11:57 PST
I moved in July to help out my cousin. But in three days I'm going back to Omaha to see my friends and for New Years! I am so excited!!!
I hope everyone is having a great year, had a great Christmas, and will have a great New Years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4096861/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4096861/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 16:36:54 PST
this is the first day in three that i don't have a pounding headache. man, that sucked royally! it made it hard to watch william and stuff. i wanted to rip my head off or maybe tear my left eye out. i was in such pain it sucked. it made me super sick the first day. i was in the bathroom throwing up b/c of it. i hate migranes. they haven't been this bad since college.
oh well, happy days though. i have been doing pretty well today. i felt it coming on this morning and took a couple of excedrine. been ok since.
I hope everyone has been feeling better than i have been.
i get to go visit my friends in a week and a half or so. i'm so excited! can't wait to see them all!!!!!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4061824/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/4061824/ Mon, 13 Dec 2004 21:42:50 PST
Happy Holidays Everyone!!!!!!!! I hope everyone has a great x-mas and new years! I know I'm planning on having one!!!! I'll be here at home for x-mas then I'll be flying to see my friends over New Years!!! It'll be a blast!
Well, if I don't see you or talk to you before then. Have fun and enjoy yourselves!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3940401/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3940401/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 14:59:40 PST
I have hit the 500 mark on page views
i guess i must be doing something right hehehehe
well, as you can tell i'm back home
had a wonderful Turkey day and B-day!!!!! lot's of fun!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3908051/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3908051/ Wed, 24 Nov 2004 10:42:49 PST
well, i won't be on again untill Monday! i'm going to my parent's in Tampa, FL for turkey day and my birthday.
i'm turning 24 on Saturday! hehe i'm getting older but well, i'll think about if i'm getting wiser. not a whole lot more to say.
I wish everyone a Happy Holidays!!!!!!!! c-u all soon

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3832805/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3832805/ Sun, 14 Nov 2004 12:00:38 PST
Blah! that's how i feel. not sure why though. i finally wrote something today; but i don't think that it's all that great. i may post it or not. i wish that i was in a better mood. i slept in so late today. and it's not even as if i stayed up way late last night. i just didn't want to get out of bed. but here i am obviously i rolled myself out into the world again. oh well, i hope i can shake this mood. i was fine yesterday and so forth. well, i hope everyone else has a great day!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3764170/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3764170/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 21:45:24 PST
to my friends i am sorry that i have been in such a foul mood this week. i guess i was feeling really off. but that is no excuse for me to take it out on all of you. but things are good again. i was just stressing over stupid little things that were easily taken care of once i sucked up my pride. i feel really bad for being so down about things! I love you all!

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3754703/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3754703/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 17:32:35 PST
Two Democrats brought the bill in to play. One of which admitted that it was brought up to purposely question our being in Iraq still. Well, i don't know about you but i personally don't appreciate being one of those that the bill would hve effected if it had actually(when pigs fly) passed. but since it didn't i believe that we need to stop putting the blame on Bush and move it to the people who are responsible.

i only bring this up b/c it ended up as a topic in my last journal entry. but if anyone has proof that I am wrong about this please don't hesitate to inform me.

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3746931/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3746931/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 19:08:00 PST
so i guess Bush won the election huh?
crazy, i know quite a few people who aren't overly happy about that. but at least the whole thing is over.
well, if he's the president then i guess we need to accept it and move onto other topics. he's only in office for 4 more years. who knows maybe something good will come out of it all.
I'm just glad that I'll stop getting all those emails from Bush and Kerry parties.

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3742139/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3742139/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 11:20:19 PST
I may not be back for awhile. I don't know yet.
not a whole lot more to say or write. but I will return when there is more to do

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3727373/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3727373/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 17:51:17 PST
I seem to be on a role again. but this time my writing is different from before. i'm writing about things i've never thought about to write before. it's kinda odd. if you have read what i first put on here when i joined to what i have recently added they are completely different.
maybe i'm learning. hehehehe you never know what i'm going to write about now.

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3709094/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3709094/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 14:06:44 PDT
this is my happy halloween journal entry! Beware creepy crawlys!!!!!!!! One of my favorite holidays!!!! I love halloween, I can let out my true self mwahahahahahaha!!!!! Have fun my lovelies!!!!!!!
ok, I'm done being a goof! I love all of my minions mwahahahaha ok, so I'm still being goofy.
William(for those who don't know who he is, he is my cousin's baby boy) is going to be Bob The Builder for halloween. and down here in Dothan they have trick or treating a day early hehehehe
He is going to look so cute.
Well, my loves, I want to go buy some sketch books and draw to my little hearts content. So I will vanish for the time being.

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3704722/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3704722/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 21:25:53 PDT
I seem to have hit a wall. I have this great idea for pic but my brain isn't communicating well with my hands. oi! Hopefully it will start up again. hehehe

]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3703049/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3703049/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 16:41:44 PDT It's bee fun! Props to ~ DamionChristopher for being able to put words to pics!!!!!!
This has been a fun experience.
]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3687736/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3687736/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 15:53:38 PDT My friends have told me that I'm on a role. One event old me that what I've written is really good. I think maybe I'm putting pressure on myself about the writing. I can't wait untill I can buy my sketch pad and stuff. Then maybe I can put the words to picture instead of words. Hopefully it will help.
]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3675046/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3675046/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:17:29 PDT ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3675035/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3675035/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:14:43 PDT Maybe I'm expecting to much out of the reader. i wonder... ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3671306/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3671306/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 13:33:38 PDT I am now on another writer's block so I may just start sketching things again. Even though I am a bit doubious of my talents in that area. People on here are really freakin' good. Oh well, maybe once I actually start sketching againi it'll be alright. I haven't asctually sketched anything out really in almost 5 years. I mean I have doodled a little but nothing really serious. Well, that's it for me for now. ]]> ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3656273/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3656273/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 13:52:03 PDT ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3652160/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3652160/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 21:55:10 PDT ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3627783/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3627783/ Tue, 19 Oct 2004 15:18:07 PDT ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3599270/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3599270/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 20:20:19 PDT ~LillithEva http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3589464/ http://LillithEva.deviantart.com/journal/3589464/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 14:34:50 PDT ~LillithEva