http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Lily-Evers&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Lily-Evers en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 02:30:02 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/28308402/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/28308402/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 07:30:09 PST Publisher

Hello,

I don't know how long this journal will be, and if you're not interested in writing of sorts, you can skip this.

My father is a starting publisher, and we have several ideas for starting projects, one of which solely mine. What I intend to do is write, together with people from other countries (preferably english writing!), about art, a personal take on it, or one's favourite way of making art, whatever art you want to write about or how you want to write about. The end goal is to have this all collected in one book, which every writer who participated will receive, of course.
Taking art as a subject, still means that you can write about anything, heck, I doubt there's much that can't be seen as art.
I think I'm really going to like working together with other people, I'm very enthusiastic about this project, and I hope some people feel like writing together with me.
This is not a project that we intend to make money with; it's going to cost, but of course, nothing will have to be paid by any of the people that participate. If you want to participate for gain, we'll have to disappoint you, so please, do not do that with such intentions.
I have to admit, that if there is family, friends, or anyone else, would like the book as well, it will have to be paid for, since it will have to be reprinted, and since it then will be for people who haven't taken part in writing it.

For people who live in the Netherlands, or have mastered the Dutch language, there's another project for Dutch people, for which you can contact me, too.

I hope I've managed to explain what the basic idea for this project is, if you want to have more information, you can contact me by private messaging for my e-mail adress (I'm careful with that, sorry for the extra efforts!), and I'll send you more information.

-Friederike


LITERANT UITGEVER

winfried peter andringa
literant@gmail.com

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/28023100/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/28023100/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 03:33:02 PDT
And, new hair. Just got back, MOHAWK! I'll post up pictures as soon as possible, and now, I'll be headed back to school, let's see how many people I can shock. (it's not even up yet!)

Anyways, LAAATERS!

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27402629/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27402629/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 00:57:43 PDT
But still absolutely epic. It was a pity that a whole lot of the Groninger Crew couldn't come, and Zoef and I found ourselves looking for them during the concert. Today I've got presentations, that's really going to work when the one thing that understands me is probably a creaking door. I sound the part, at least.
This afternoon I've got to work too, but only for three hours thanks to this stupid project my school cooked up. Something about problems in other countries, which is just as ineffective as the ones from previous years.

I'm off, headache coming up and almost falling asleep on the keyboard. I'll go use a table as a pillow. Or my book.

Frie out.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27331105/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27331105/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 00:29:26 PDT
I've got school 'till half past four PM, while I've only got four classes. My bank account is STILL blocked. I fell down the fucking stairs, have muscle ache in places I didn't even know existed, one hell of a headache, and I can continue on like that for quite a while. Bull crap.

Yeah, of course, I can finish homework, do useful stuff, don't do anything against others and still being yelled at, get a fine for abso-fuckin'-lutely nothing (and get upset as hell in the process, too), BUT I DON'T FREAKIN' CARE. Having fun is part of life too, and not one that I get to enjoy very often. Last weekend was one of the exceptions, and of course, it doesn't all suck, but I'm just in a very bad mood.

I'm off doing something useful then, preferably alone. If only for the sake of others, unless they like to do war.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27255168/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/27255168/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 23:49:29 PDT
A small update of what's been happening lately. School, work, sleep. That's about what I'm doing, eating is not that well an option since it comes out again anyway. However, I've got this weekend off, going to Pascal tomorrow, probably getting my industrial piercing repaired this Saturday, and maybe have another one (or have my ear stretched). Don't know yet. Also going to the Rijksmuseum, looking forward to that
Will have to work tomorrow first, school 'til 1PM, then work 'til 6AM. After that I'm boarding the train to Utrecht, maybe drink something in one of the cafés, and then go back to Pascal's place.

Next week CORVUS CORAX! Going together with Pascal and Zoefje, it's going to be absolutely fucking GREAT! (Corvus is folk, for those of you who don't know) It's one of the few bands that I HAVE to see when they're in the Netherlands, haha.

On the other hand, I've been receiving hatemails, and quite a lot of them. None of them very original, and due to personal measures it's been getting less worse, but it still is annoying. What posesses people to do things like that? I know who I'm getting the e-mails from, the guys have never even talked to me, so it's pure the gossip and my reputation causing this? I've heard some of the rumours, so yeah, of course I eat babies for breakfast. Tch. Some fools.

I got my contract for my bank account yesterday. It was the wrong one. There's about threehundred euros on my account and no, I can NOT use it. That's annoying, especially if you factor in that I still have to buy my Alice Cooper ticket, traintravel, Corvus Corax and whatever more concerts I'm planning to go to.

What also's been annoying the crap out of me, is the fact that I can barely get to writing (I'm writing this, now, because of a free hour, one of the very few, and my homework's finished for now), or photomanipulation, or whatever's fine for me to relax.
Not that relaxing's very present in my life now.
Nor is rest.


Anyway, I'm off, school starting in a few minutes.

Later!

PS. Those of you who like classical music, go to youtube and go listen to La Dryade, by Gris. It's lovely.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26353731/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26353731/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 07:47:01 PDT
A lot of shit's happened lately, none of it I really care to repeat. My internet's been broken for a few days, only repaired today. I've filled my time with work and writing...

I've drawn some tattoo designs, I'll probably upload 'em on here, later. Have to scan 'em first.

Later.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26102399/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26102399/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 06:49:30 PDT
Thanks again for the backstab, welcome to 2009, BITCH. Let me know when they invent adequate medicines for migraine.

Another promise broken. If you're convinced that you're right, keep on believing that. Apparently there's no other side, just this one, etched in granite...

I'm not sorry anymore, not for you.

Thanks again, so much, for everything you've done. GROW UP.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26088497/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/26088497/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 13:51:28 PDT
You're going to have to wait for the next chapter of Bittersweet, I can't think of how to continue right now and for the moment I'm writing something else besides that, it's in dutch, sadly, so I'll probably not upload it on here.

I'll post up the next chapter as soon as I'm content with it.

Apart from that, I'm at my fiance's now, going home early Monday morning. The weather's allright, a bit of rain sometimes, but nothing out of the ordinary. Got a new jacket and pinstripe trousers, though. Really like 'em, might upload pictures soon. ^^

Love,

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/25675188/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/25675188/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 14:10:45 PDT
Well, I got back from Graspop Metal Meeting 2009 past Monday, it was beyond epic. Veerle actually managed to snap a picture of me where I'm smiling freely, perhaps I'll upload. The bands were awesome, the weather was great (A bit hot, but that was allright), and the company was great. Met quite a few people I knew, and caught even more people staring at me.

Seeing COB for the second time this year was the thing I had been looking forward to most, and it exceeded all my expectations. I absolutely loved it. Soulfly and Kataklysm were nice, too. Mötley Crüe sounded like cats in love, or a bit like a squished hamster, and Marilyn Manson could've done better. Was a fun thing to watch though. Slipknot was great too, only the half-hearted pits around us weren't all too nice (really, those guys DON'T know what a pit is, let alone a circlepit or an actual wall of death. Everything they do is trying to kick and hit as much as possible).

Test week is over, passed this year, I'm still working two weeks and then I'll be spending two weeks free with Thomas, he's home alone. Really looking forward to that. The fact that I'll be able to decide what we eat helps too (my mother in law CAN NOT COOK. And by NOT I do mean NOT AT ALL.)

I'm working tomorrow all day, Friday some sports day (about an hour and a half), going to bring back my books at Monday, picking up my list of marks Friday next week, and then my holidays have officially started.

Not really going anywhere, though.

Next week Tuesday I'm going visiting a friend of mine, I'm looking forward to that, won't be gone for long, back at Wednesday.

And now I'm really off to bed, since the day tomorrow is going to be long.

I'll talk to y'all later, and I might upload some new things in the following days. I don't know yet whether it will be poetry/stories or photomanips, we'll see.

Good night.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24959639/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24959639/ Tue, 26 May 2009 11:51:19 PDT CrushedPerfection, thought it might be interesting. You can figure out for yourself which ones I've chosen, 'cause I'm not going to tell you!

1. Smoked?
2. Drank alcohol?
3. Cried when someone died?
4. Been drunk?
5. Had sex?
6. Been to a concert?
7. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob?
8. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob?
9. Been verbally/ sexually harassed?
10. Verbally/ sexually harassed somebody?
PRECENTAGE SO FAR: 93%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up?
12. Laughed so hard you cried?
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/ girlfriend before?
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
15. Been to prom?
16. Cried at school?
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store?
18. Went streaking?
19. Given or received a lap dance?
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR:85%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house?
23. Kissed a stranger?
24. Hugged a stranger?
25. Went scuba diving?
26. Driven a car?
27. Gotten an x-ray?
28. Hit by a car?
29. Had a party?
30. Done serious drugs?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 71%

31. Played strip poker/darts?
32. Got paid to strip for someone?
33. Ran away from home?
34. Broken a bone?
35. Eaten sushi?
36. Bought porn?
37. Watched porn?
38. Made a porn?
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
40. Been in love?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 65%

41. French kissed?
42. Laughed so hard you couldn't breathe?
43. Cried yourself to sleep?
44. Laughed yourself to sleep?
45. Stabbed yourself?
46. Shot a gun?
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day?
48. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours?
49. Been online for 9 consecutive hours?
50. Watched an animal die?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 58%

51. Watched a person die?
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present?
53. Pranked somebody?
54. Put somebody in the hospital?
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out?
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex?
57. Dressed punk?
58. Dressed goth?
59. Dressed preppy?
60. Been to a motocross race?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51%

61. Avoided somebody?
62. Been stalked?
63. Stalked someone?
64. Met a celebrity?
65. Played an instrument?
66. Ridden a horse?
67. Cut yourself?
68. Bungee jumped?
69. Ding dong ditched somebody?
70. Been to a wild party?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 43%

71. Got caught stealing something?
72. Played spin the bottle?
73. Stolen a boyfriend/ girlfriend from a friend?
74. Went out with your friend's crush?
75. Got arrested?
76. Been pregnant?
77. Babysat?
78. Been to another country?
79. Started your house on fire?
80. Had an encounter with a ghost?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 39%

81. Had a sexual thought about someone?
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by?
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex?
84. Had a boyfriend/ girlfriend for over 3 months?
85. Sat on your butt all day?
86. Gotten told u have a nice butt?
87. Had a job?
88. Gotten cut from a sports team?
89. Been called a whore?
90. Danced like a whore?
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 31%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity?
92. Been in a car accident?
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes?
94. Been told you have beautiful hair?
95. Raped somebody?
96. Danced in the rain?
97. Been rejected
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying?
99. Punched someone/ slapped someone in the face?
100. Been raped?
TOTAL % : 22%


Well that was something predictable...


Apart from that, the weather has been moody today, I screwed up French, and still feel like shooting something. Yesterday's rant didn't help.

Or I can hit him with a dead fish, of course.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24943933/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24943933/ Mon, 25 May 2009 13:54:01 PDT
Whiney bitchasses seriously don't have to try anymore. I like to help people IF I CAN, but if you don't feel like actually TRYING to let it be okay, try to look life in the face, and wallow in self-pity all the time, then SCREW YOU big time. No, bluntness usually isn't my trademark factor, but since anything else doesn't seem to help, screw you and accept the truth for once.

Life sucks, get on with it, shit happens and welcome to 2009, BITCH.



]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24567170/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24567170/ Sun, 03 May 2009 13:45:51 PDT
I've been to the Elf Fantasy Fair together with Thomas, dressed up and all, it was absolutely great, bought some really nice things as well.

It was there, as well, that I stumbled upon steampunk, which is, in my eyes, looking awesome. Also, the fact that you can assemble original stuff yourself, can make a complete original piece is something I like. I've been looking for stuff on the web and also found a magnificent steampunk Flying V guitar: [link] and several watches, of which this one: [link] and [link] .
(For those of you who don't know anything about steampunk at all, visit wikipedia.)
I've been messing around with my goggles (the cyber kind) and some old gears I had (after killing a clock, that is), the result turned out to be pretty cool. Pictures coming soon.

Right now I'm busy (ahem) being a lazy bum, for the last free days... Wednesday school, but since that's only a few days, it's three days school and then it's time for the weekend again.

And now, I'm going to give my fiancé a massage, and them I'm off to sleep, snuggling close to him..

Good night, I hope you are all well.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24093225/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/24093225/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 12:37:23 PDT
I'll smile anytime you want, try to cheer you up, listen to whatever fucking little thing you have to say, ANY FUCKING TIME BUT NOT NOW.

I've had it.

I'm so fucking tired of listening to everyone's whining, listening to every fucking little problem they have, every single little thing they think they MIGHT be offended of.
Guess what, there's someone else more important than you are, which is ME. My dad fucking nearly died and is still in the hospital, and you expect me to be shocked and sympathetic BECAUSE YOU FEEL A BIT SAD AND HAVE TOO MUCH THOUGHTS RUNNING AROUND? Guess what, I don't give a single damn about how you are feeling now, you're making a problem out of NOTHING and you expect me to UNDERSTAND IT?
What is there to understand, apart from the fact that you're being an asshole and a whiney bitch?

I don't feel like listening to your oh so worldshaking problems and opinions when there's someone far more important to me still balancing between life and death.

I'll smile in a day whenever you want me to, fake or not, listen, give advice, be sympathetic to you, say things to cheer you up, take every accusation you throw at me, whether they're directed at me or not, try to help you as well as I can, but for now you can all burn in hell.

I've listened when I could barely stand, I've listened when I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open, I listened when I were the one in need of talk, I listened when I didn't want to, I listened when I was broken, I was listening and therefore ruining myself; I listened with a headache that made that I could barely see.
For what?
How much was my help appreciated?
Why do you make me feel like it's my fault?

And I ask, WHY, for fuck's sake, WHY, am I always the one that you get pissed off at?
If you really find no use of me, then stop talking to me, and don't come back. Don't keep coming back and ranting at me, if I'm not worth your while. Don't make me feel like I'm not worth the time. Don't act like you're disappointed at ME.

You can call me a bitch, if you want to. That's merely speaking the truth, because I am.
You can grumble at me all you want and be offended, go ahead, I've stopped caring. You'll see how hard it is without me listening to your every icky little problem.
Be angry at me, feel free, it'll prove that I'm right.

It'll only prove that you've never been worth the effort.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/23966896/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/23966896/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:35:38 PDT [x] Father
[ ] Step-Father
[ ] Step-Mother
[ ] Step Sister
[ ] Step Brother
[x] Brother (Four.)
[ ] Brother In Law
[ ] Sister
[ ] Sister In Law
[ ] Half sister
[ ] Half brother
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[x] Boyfriend/Girlfriend
[x] Mobile phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[ ] Have/had a swimming pool
[ ] Have/had a hot tub
[ ] Guest room
[x] Living Room
[x] Own computer
[ ] Own TV
Total: 8

[x] Full size/Queen bed
[ ] More than 8 pairs of shoes
[x] MP3 Player/iPod
[ ] PS2/3
[ ] Nintendo DS or PSP
[ ] Gameboy/Advance
[ ] Gamecube
[ ] xbox/xbox 360
[ ] Wii
[x] Your Own Laptop
Total so far: 11

[ ] Basketball net/hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Foosball table
Total so far: 11

[ ] Night stand
[x] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom/portable ( Dexy you spoiled whore >:U )
Total so far: 12

[ ] Go shopping at least once a week
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[x] AIM/MSN
[x] camera on phone
Total so far: 14

[ ] Go Cart/car/quad
[x] Guitar/drums/bass guitar
[ ] Piano/Keyboard
[ ] Any other instrument
[ ] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the country
[ ] Traveled out of the continent
[ ] Had a personal trainer
[ ] Expensive jewelery
[ ] Met a Celeb
Total so far: 16

[ ] Straightener/curling iron
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now in your pocket/wallet
[ ] Credit card or ATM card or debit card or bank card
[ ] Have a TV in your room
[x] Mirror in your room
Total so far: 17

[x] Window in your room
[ ] Been to Paris
[ ] Been to Rome
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been to Jamaica
Total so far: 18

[x] Parents have a car
[ ] Have owned or own a Jet ski/boat
[ ] Had/have Camped
[ ] Been to 3+ states
[ ] 80+ buddies on facebook/myspace
Total so far: 19

[x] Home cooked meal almost everyday
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[ ] Own a camera
[ ] Have been to Disneyland/World more than 2 times
Total so far: 20

Post as:
1-25 = Ghetto! (and tag 5 people)
26-40 = Average Teen! (and tag 10 people)
41-50 = Spoiled Teen! (and tag 15 people)
51+ = Upper Class Snob! (and tag 20 people)

Ghetto, yeah right.
And screw the tag.

]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/23595755/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/23595755/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:29:05 PDT
HARD
1 Will you answer every question honestly? Probably.
2 Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? No. I can think of more interesting (and more healthy as well) things to do during such a stretch of time.
3 Have you ever punched anyone in the face? Stupid question, next question. WHAT DO YOU THINK?
4 Do you miss anything or anyone? At the moment, my fiancé and my best friend.
5 What makes you laugh no matter what? Seeing my love smile.
6 Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours? Yes.
7 Who was the last person you talked to? My mother.
8 What do you dislike at the moment? Migrain.
9 Name one person on top friends who is the most like you? ZOEF.

HARDER
1 Do you get butterflies around the people you like? Around one of them, yes.
2 Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age? No. I do believe in sex BEFORE marriage.
3 Will you get married? Most certainly.
4 Will you be doing drugs in the near future? I wasn't planning on that.
5 Do you lie about your age? Now why on earth would I need to do that?

VERY PERSONAL
1 If you were to have sex right now would you use a condom? No. Pill.
2 Are you happy with yourself? Fairly. I'm in love.
3 Would you change yourself for the person you love? No, because I don't want someone to love the illusion that I would pretend to be then.
4 What do you tell yourself when times get hard? Stop feeling sorry for yourself, you can do a whole lot better.

SECRETS
1 When did you last cry? Last night.
2 Do you believe in religion? No.
3 When was the last time you fell asleep with a person of the opposite sex? Last night... and a bit of today.
4 What is currently on your mind? Dude, it's freaking cold.
5 Did you ever wish a close friend to death? Most definitely not.
6 Has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once? No. He never got the chance to punch another time.
7 Have you ever made out until you ran out of breath? Fuck yeah.

SHOCKING
1 Have you done bad things with your parents near by? 'Bad' things?
2 Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody? No. I just tell the truth, which works just as well.
3 Did you ever fail the school year? Yes.
4 Have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs? No.
5 Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night? No.
6 Do you think your future will be a good one? That depends on what I will be making of it.

THE DEEP STUFF
1 Do you think you were raised well? Naturally.
2 Do you have a secret that you`ve never told ANYONE? No.
3 How do you handle stress? Ignoring it and just continuing with my life.
4 How would you spend your last day alive? No fuckin' idea. I'll see to that when the time's there.
5 Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience? I hide things well. But a guilty conscience? No.
6 If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other side .. ? I can make the money myself, perhaps in a longer stretch of time, but that does not matter to me. I'd go for love.
7 If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with? Don't start on the 'what if's please.
8 If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose? I don't know half of my family to start with. Besides, there are family members everyone would gladly be rid of.
9 Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member? I will only know when the time is there.
10 What is the worst thing you`ve ever done that your parents DON`T know about? Now that's a good question. I don't know.

THE LOVE STUFF
1 Do you think you know the meaning of love? I think I do.
2 What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion? Everything is important, dear.
3 If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them? No.

THE RANDOM STUFF
1 Do you spend time with the same people always or new people? I prefer to have my friends not ever-changing.
2 Do you think best friends can be replaced? No.
3 Name 5 + people * not family * that you can tell ANYTHING to? FIVE?... Thomas, Zoef, Martijn, Delisya...
4 Are you the type that would rather stay at other people's houses or have them at yours? I don't give a damn, as long as I'm with them.
5 When is the last time you were truly h... ]]> ~Lily-Evers http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/22026606/ http://Lily-Evers.deviantart.com/journal/22026606/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 04:27:49 PST Give me a reason, why would you want me to live and die, living a lie?

It's only right that I should go and find myself
before I go and ruin someone else...

And there I am, sitting at home, with a concussion of the brain (an accident in P.E. class). I will have to stay home the rest of the week, and I cannot go to work, either. Days are mostly filled with a pounding headache and a lot of sleeping.
No complains on three weeks vacation instead of two, though.

Don't turn away; don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes; don't turn off the lights...

I have not really been able to make new things, or write, or anything close to creating art (Headache is not exactly helping, and being dizzy all the time even less). It is not like I do not want to, but I simply cannot find the words, or create the image in my mind that I want to make. It tires me, greatly.

The weather acts exactly according to the sentence 'the dark days before Christmas', it is rainy, grey and the world seems to have lost a lot of its colour. I am looking forward to Christmas... spending it together with my love.

I do not know if I will update this journal before the next year, so be careful with firework, I hope you are all healthy.
I want to wish you a warm and friendly Christmas and I hope the next year is going to be great.

- Lilith.

PS. Lilith Chemosh... zielsveel...

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