http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Linlaisui&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Linlaisui en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 14:43:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/28062556/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/28062556/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 09:43:05 PDT So I had a lot of work to do, but lately I feel like doing art again.. Im scared that I really have forgotten on art because of studies.. though there've been a lot of them past couple of weeks and still will be but I will find a balance between art and studies Im sure I can make both of it possible. Well I shouldnt have chosen such an hard subject but well thats me I looove challenges



so I'll be back with new photos of my home town and plants and people and hopefully not only myself lol

so see ya soon

oh and nadalya will be my model aswell even though she doesnt know yet he h e (she will agree anyway for she looooves to be a muse XD )

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/26813954/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/26813954/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 10:09:52 PDT An old friend of mine who once asked me to go out with and whom I dumbed is spreading rumors bout me.. but fortunatley I hear all of it from my new friend, cause hes texting everything to her little sister.. ( lol that horny bastard tries to hook up that innocent girl.. hes really horny.. )

well lets hope the lil sis won't be deceived


anyway I#m so looking forward to the 06. sep my good old and BEST BEST friend Nadalya is coming back to germany from the usa ...

I cant wait to have lots of hiliarious party nights with her
and girls evenings in pyjamas and watch girlish series on dvd ^^
I soo missed that .. its not the same with other shallow friends xD

another thing I#m excited bout. .. on monday Ill have my first meeting with all my new fellow students
I just hope theyre nice and besides that .. ^^ hihi therell be a few cute charming boys xD to keep the breaks interesting

X X X *hugs you

Waymountain daily

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/26155175/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/26155175/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:45:19 PDT
I m so afraid my family will freak out in the negative sense
well anyway..

I have a summer love ^^
soo romantic. Its just how its supposed to be, with all that cute dates and phonecalls

I love it. its ordinary and sweet, no romeo and juliet struggle like my last relationship

and I have grown up.. after a lil experience I learned a lot bout keeping a relationship going..
I would have never thought there are rules in love. Ive always been very idealistic and believed in pure love can overcome the everyday routine..
but it cant if u dont help it

now I know how to do it and it works

rule number 1:

dont see him everyday ( oh I would love to but its not healthy)

rule number 2:

remain an equal state of giving and taking. dont take too much and also dint give much more than u have gained (but never forget to give!!!!!!!!!)

rule number 3:

do not talk too loose! even if u feel like u could tell him everything : certain things should be to urself

rule number 4:
committ to your boyfriend, never give him the feeling ure not proud of being his girlfriend


well dont know why but these rules really work. I know they sound so easy but they arent

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25823150/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25823150/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 17:38:59 PDT ßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßß######################################################



what is happening ? It's been the perfect start of a an awesome summer.. now it's beginning of july and it's raining. CONSTANTLY
The forest swallows our little town. It's bursting, since its wet and hot outside.
We all pretend it's summer. loool that's actually quite funny when u see people in shorts in the pouring rain xD
And I have decided to go swimming tomorrow. YESSS I am challenging the weather god. tadadadaaaaaa *theatralic background music
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Water with berry-flavour:

I found my favourite drink. it's water, flavoured water..lol I know, I know some of these magic drinks lol are unhealthy and.. I don't care
I love it
It only taste slightly like berries. u bearly realize, but it smells soo intensively
mhhhhh

here some kurdish music by kurdish kids hihi:

[link]

its my mothertongue but I cant speak or understand it ..aww Im so sad.. I gotta learn it one time






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]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25467757/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25467757/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 06:45:45 PDT
Im finally out of lazy time and feel extraordinairy strong ^^ and I am full of ideas and inspiration

gah! my fingers are ichy ! and I also have a lot of other ideas ^^

ull know pretty soon ^^

love all of ya

birds :

why aren't birds afraid of me? thats really weird. there are birds landing onmy windowpane when I open the window and lean outside. I almost got an heartattac as a tiny brid sat next to my arm lol and a little bigger one did the same the next morning ^^
I got used to it now ..but its still weird

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25196528/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25196528/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 11:46:20 PDT

I've never dreamt so much

One dream was so weird. It was night and I was walikng the streets of a town I dont know. I enter a park. there are benches and a lake, whichs water reminds me of black ink in the dark, the moon shines and the air is fresh but not cold yet. It smells like a summer night. The whole scenerie seemed more like a stageplay ^^. I was wearing jeans and a shirt. my stomach shivered a little bit, didnt know why maybe it was still a little cold. I sit on bench. then out of the dark an old friend of mine appears who I haven't seen for ages. he bows towards me and kisses me long and softly and says : "hey darling, thanks for waiting for me" . and its like I watch myself from afar. I see how I respond to him as if we are a real couple, as if I'm used to him kissing me. most strangely that kiss felt so good and I saw his face in all detail. the me who was waching the other me from afar felt like having found what I ve been missing. and the other me next to him feels just unbelievably happy. my eyes were glued on his face, so beautiful and perfect in the blue light.

After waking up I felt so strange. I haven't seen him for ages and I don't think I will ever again, plus I haven't been thinking bout him. Crazy Dream but so real...


weather: its a rainy june .. uhmm I kinda like that. dont know why. the last days ive been traveling to the town where Im gonna study a lot. on monday ill be on the train again. i kinda like that,sitting in a train as the landsscapes rush by. but unfortunately I have official stuff to do and cannot effort any time to walk the streets and 'get to know' the town.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25088558/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/25088558/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 12:58:09 PDT
i love the books and the movie

though the books are better

and I adore kristen ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24581873/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24581873/ Mon, 04 May 2009 10:58:14 PDT
I've found out a lot about a few persons I see everyday. A lot mor ethen they think I know. One of t hem for instant is giving psychological advice in love affairs in a public chat. Wow that really doesn't suit to that person I thought ^^^but it does .. at second sight. and it seems like everyone has a secret personality ... I'm amazed , really. it'S strange that people's hearts seem so seen throughy to me these days. Has something changed? They turn to me and open up and they leave hints about their private problems and specialties in every corner.


I kinda lay back and watch them. humans have a lot in common with fireflies. I love their heart'S flickering and watch them dance into the sunset day by day. It started with one person opening up to me, then others followed. I am thoughtful concerning my actions now. because even if one doesn't notice others may see you as a role model. and indeed feeling responsable makes me more relaxed in difficult situations. taking care of problems and helping people makes me feel smaller and that's good.

Before this inner change my mind was so full of myself and hated it. I was concerned with my looks (the more I t hought bout them the uglier I felt) and always complained bout everything ( though I had everything)My EGO was huge I couldn't get enough and was never satisfied


now I feel like a small but happy part of this beautiful world. I found a reason to live: being able to make anyone smile ^^

I feel like every good thing u do u get back..

in different ways but you do

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24579562/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24579562/ Mon, 04 May 2009 07:40:03 PDT
ME in THAT situation?

Now this nightmare is reality.

It's so hard. they're both equal in looks and so different in personality.

One is protective, caring, sporty and very patient, serious and childisch at once ^^ (very handsome!)


the other is smooth, thinking a lot,sexual,likes similar things I like (Very handsome!)



uhmmm


which one to take .. this is the question

omg my life's like a teen- soap opera LOL oO

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24385898/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24385898/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 21:42:00 PDT I'm covinced it will be f***ing great! the weather is unbelievably sunny and mymood rises everyday a bit more! hell yes.

I'm really enjoying myself right now ^^
everybody walk in the sun ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24294911/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24294911/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 17:12:23 PDT
what do I learn: wait til you jump into a thing head over heals! wait and consider!

I was so sick and tired of my considerations. I thought I was too suspicious and paranoid. but now I know I was ok and really wise the way I was. I'll get back to that. I have to feel protective for myself at first act! and for no one else. (children etc. of course are excluded)


so my advice : keep on being paranoid! ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24147783/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24147783/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 13:50:59 PDT
´that changes when we grow up.

we are not special and not the first and this world doesn't have mercy on you just because you have a pleasant face and there's not always someone to save you, only when you're very lucky.

and when fate plays tricks on me i tell myself: I'm not the first to expierence this!

that'slogan' makes me go through pretty easy
because if I wouldn't I would pity myself and stuck in my own vanity and disappointment

we have to see that chances don't wait for us to take them. and nothing will come to you just because you are you!you have to work for it

there can be someone you thought who was inferior to you working real hard and beating you, just because you were too vain to work on yourself.














me currently: praying and loving and giving faith

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24050246/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/24050246/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 23:39:29 PDT now thats a random journal isn't it ? ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23991235/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23991235/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 18:05:29 PDT
I hate him! really. he says you're clueless about mechanics well that'S why I do this preperation... that's the reason for the universities to demand practical preperation at least 8 weeks before studies start. so the students get an insight.


I feel so uncomfortable bout seeing this man again tomorrow at work. I HATE HIM! how can he???

I think I can do anything if I work ´hard enough! and thanks god I'll be leaving this factory in MAy then I'm gonna look for another one or maybe I go to physics-courses to refresh my brain

I 'm gonna kick his ass... well no I'm not because I wont have to do anything with that guy after the 18th of may. for god's sake

GOSH I'm feeling so much better after I wrote this anger down.

I could sa y it once more :I HATE HIM! GO DIE OLD BASTARD! ..ok that'S too harsh...lol

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23826383/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23826383/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 06:31:39 PDT ^^
Today it's sunday, I woke up at 13:00 and made myself some udon ^^ I can cook that pretty well.
yummyyyy and ate a superdelicious fish filet, with a lot of lemon juice! YUMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Now I wanna put on my new trenchcoat and my pumps ^^ (I REALLY LOVE IT!) and take photos in the sun^^ there are flowers everywhere right now and lots of other motives ^^ Since I only wrote poems the last couple of times I submitted something; I wanna try photography again ( I would have done so anyway if my cam didn't get broke..u might remember I wrote that in a previous journal ..)

I don't feel like drawing right now. maybe because I'm too tired after work and I have to draw there aswell (though these drawings are pretty booooring ^^)

I had a fortune cookie today it says: If you have desires, let them show..

huh???? well okay here are my top 3 desires:

1. meeting my bf again in may (after 5 months of seperation)

2. succeeding in my job and in my studies and finding an acceptable flat in this town faaaaarr away from home

3. seeing the world, different countries

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23729394/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23729394/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 13:15:54 PDT
it's bout technology for example planes etc.

I will learn a bit there before I start studying nano-enigneering in winter ( yes I know I changed my choice so often but now I think I made a good one finally lol)

everybody's so nice. but there are no other girls lol. it's ok since the boys are all very nice and kind


I have to wear a blue working man suit hahah
It's so cute wearing that as a girl
and I know my collegues laugh and grin about it lol but they' re not mean just amused

that's ok. they will see I am serious and hard working and not a spoiled girlie.


I was allowed to work with huge machines so thrilling I am amazed! lol (and suprised how easy that was of course I won't say that out loud)
dead tired i came home and slept for hours, now I'm wake and have to do some paper work. but first I write my journal hehe


my love also has to work so hard. after coming to germany and having borreliosis at home, his boss won't give him vacation so easily. we have to wait til end of april or til may. until then It's just sighing on the phone. it's heavy on my heart. but he's so gentle. he knows how to console me.
it's cute when he's jealous because there are just boys in my company. if he only knew I always think: "my friend is so much better than all of those" he neednt be jealous

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23628106/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23628106/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 14:51:27 PDT everywhere new I go people like me and say I'm polite.
Why is it I can't get rid of this bad girl image in my hometown? Oh I hate it so much. Ok it's funny when girls say "I wish I could be so confident!" LOOOL
sometimes I even hear stories that are unbelievable and I must admit theyre very creative

but I have enough of this. I don't know when or why this sarted. But I'm glad I will move to another town.
It will be a new begining ^^
It's the town where I will study!I've been there several times now and it was such a good expierence. People were so nice and I never felt like a smooth criminal, cat woman or kinda criminal celeb and most important no one was afraid of me.. lol. I had a lot of very pleasant conversations and I am convinced I will have a great time there.

and no one will be scared when I enter a room haha

I have no clue when this rumor started.
once my eldest brother asked one of my former class- mates . this guy said :"We don't know much about her. she seems nice. but I guess she doesn't want to talk to us, maybe we're too childish for her. I wonder what kind of person she is"

WHAT?!? hahaha that's the way people thought/think bout me????

well ...I never felt a connection to the people of my hometown and it's easy for me to make friends with people in new locations

so I'm simply happy I'll be gone in october for good

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23573442/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23573442/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 11:36:54 PST
today was a gorgeous day: i ran I biked I ran I biked

and I met a puppy soooo cute and it greeted me saying "wuff" ^^ lol

yeah! oh i already said yeah
ehem well don't know if anyone shares this feeling with me

but making sports in the sun is such a great feeling.

I feel like so damn vital and I can't stop smiling

I Love Sunshine

I really missed summer

and for the girls: I'm so happy I'm losing weight though my mom says "too skinny!"
well I don't think so.. I know where to stop plus I could never ne too skinny I just love food way too much

and yes I cut my hair even shorter.
my mom says "now you look like being 12 years old!"

lol I can't help that .. well I#m twenty and I don't care bout seeming younger. I can change my outward appearance from little girl to lady..
so who cares I LOVE MY NEW HAIRCUT it#s cute
and I really do feel like a child so what's the matter if looking like a child ^^ lol

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23564285/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23564285/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 20:37:01 PST
sometimes I just don't wanna fall asleep. I feel like I shouldn't be here, I don't belong. I belong to the one I love, the one who loves me.
I simply don't wanna close my eyes some nights.

me and my love we have to wait til we can see each other again and we live far apart.
plus my family hates him and prohibited me to see him ever again.

so the world is not our friend

and lately I feel like I don't wanna sleep ...

don't know why...

it's weird

and I'm very angry at my family

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23544597/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23544597/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 17:09:17 PST but I watched the fan vid and it's weirdly stunning. don't worry ! there's no sex in it! it's totally innocent. promise

but it'S very beautiful!

watch it

>>>>> [link]


abou my current state: I love life <3 <3 <3

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23490125/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23490125/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 13:39:16 PST I think it'S totally alright if someone needs time

BUT

I don't have the slightest clue what it means.
It seems like I never need time. that's maybe because I think too much and analyse myself on the forehand, so I'm never confused bout my feelings.
and this is not about saying "I LOVE YOU". It's far beyond that state of a relationship , when u probably have said "I love you" and heard it in return a thousand times, maybe too often.

what i actually wanna say is, partners tend to get confused when everything is going well, too well.
that'S a common desease lol ^^. then many people want time on their own.

the funny thing about it: if the partner who's ought to wait, takes time on his/her own aswell, their partners feel neglected and glue on them again.

I wonder if it#s really like that :"you don#t know what you have until you lose it" ?

does the human kind need these childish games?
an old lady told me "it's legal! these are the reciepts how to keep a relationship going"

so does love need tricks?

I think the moment when a love is born, is new and delicate, is a moment of pure love.
at that point it's so honest and innocent and you think it's heaven sent.

too bad the earth takes her part after a while.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23366058/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23366058/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 15:36:42 PST I'm writting this because of a comment I got for one of my poems.
I don't expect myself to understand every poets feelings. it's impossible. human beings are so difficile and unique and everyone experiences different situations.

well the poem was about psychological confusion.
but there are some people who write comments like this:

"It's so confusing.try to make it more consistent"

OMG! U *******!!!! it's ought to be confusing! that's what it's about!

I tried to deliver a confusing feeling.....

oh wonder ! it's confusing ...hahahah

isn't it obvious, that it was the actual intention?

I wonder what message this person assumes behind the poem.and I also wonder why I got angry about this comment..lol


probably he/she got it wrong...

the poem is actually about:

it's about confused people, running from pain , trying to numb themselves with amusements or drugs

so they're torn between the highs and lows their reality and what they try to be by taking narcoticas and getting lost in the nightlife


Topic_CHANGE>>>

For girls only ^^:
a music video based on the romeo and juliet movie ('96) so romantic ^^ I love this video and the song

>>>> [link]

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23309270/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23309270/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 16:04:45 PST
her mom wont be pleased to hear about that. she wasn't home so she has no idea of what happened last night.

It's not the first time this girl made a racist comment


she's already 18 and responsable enough.

and our neighbourhood had always been very friendly and pleasant ever since. but now this girl takes her asocial and misbehaved friends along.

if no one reacts now it might become dangerous.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23237355/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/23237355/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 14:44:23 PST but i had to wait, things didnt work out right and i was quite sad about that.

but this year I got everything i want! yeay!

it a ll comes crashing down. I welcome it ^^

yeay! I feel like an audience of my own life these days.

so much happened and I'm sure I will remember these days when I'm older.

it's quite interesting to watch time pass by. of course I'm an active participant of life, but i love to clink out off it with the help of my imagination and observe things from a different point of view. maybe a less partial and involved point of view.

thats always quite interesting because: problems seem no longer problems but easy to solve and the current sitiuation ( if its a difficult one) unimportant regarding to the future.

but due to that opinion I tend to be misunderstood.

well I just wanted to say I also take things seriously but sometimes theyre not half as crucial as people present them.








and of course sushi for manuela ^^:




]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22985544/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22985544/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 14:40:54 PST

yes he passed away... I KILLED HIM!

well as always in my journals I present things that caught my attention lately.

this time there are t wo trivial things

1. a j-drama LOOOL u know me ^^
hana yori dango (hey and if anyone gets to watch this : Isn't it unfair?! I really wanted rui to get the girl! )

>>>> [link]


2. well its about fashion or something similar
its abou t these tiny cuties for ya cellphone ( i think im addicted ^^)

[link]

this video is an introduction to the crazy and absurd hype ^^ (well i love cellphone charms)

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22843527/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22843527/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 13:14:49 PST
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH


listen to it!

I love the singer and the melody and ...just everything


wanna share it with u ^^


also watch the drama if u like its gooooooood

SOng : >>>> [link]

for the drama: [link]

watch out sooner or later u will feel very sad watching it --___--

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22693254/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22693254/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 12:38:00 PST

>>>> [link]










]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22632768/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22632768/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 12:09:59 PST
I'll get a parttime job in a china restaurant.
aaaand i love my new partime - job!!!

I love this restaurant ! the furniture is so damn beautiful. I love it!
It's called "hong kong"

I love asian flair and chinese food so its the perfect place to work at for me ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22520184/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22520184/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 07:56:26 PST
hey I have a new favourite japanese dorama^^ and I found a super cute fanvideo of it watch it its lovely ^^

"one pound gospel"
>>>> [link]

me myself personally have to support my beloved boyfriend through a struggled time. he's in hospital now with meningitis. hope he'll be alright soon. may god help us!
I have faith !

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22340426/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22340426/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 19:17:02 PST

B L A N K

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22145045/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/22145045/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 15:32:11 PST

I hope ull celebrate with ur family

me and my family will be in frankfurt at relatives house. its a big city so i hope for some action hehe


Boyfriends on x-mas special:

theres a certain desease taking over boyfriends allover the world on x-mas.
while the girls become sentimental the boys become LAZY AS HELL

they forget everything. they sleep til noon and never answer sms
its like theyre lost in a huge dark x-mas hole

now this is something many girls told me

so if u sit at home feeling neglected
JUST LET GO !!! and PARTYYYY

thats what I'll do

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21982179/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21982179/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 14:19:07 PST Our town "waymountain" looks as if a tsunami of x-mas decoration has rushed over it.
Lights shine from everywhere and I'm runnin outta time to buy presents for everyone.

People are wrapped up in scarfs and coats (what I find pretty elegant)

the pavements sparkle in all sheets of white and silver and when I exhale my breath turns immediatly into a white cloud as if I'm smokin a cigar.

It'S finally winter for real
I really missed that ^^ though my finders hurt as hell if I forget my gloves

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21982177/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21982177/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 14:19:04 PST Our town "waymountain" looks as if a tsunami of x-mas decoration has rushed over it.
Lights shine from everywhere and I'm runnin outta time to buy presents for everyone.

People are wrapped up in scarfs and coats (what I find pretty elegant)

the pavements sparkle in all sheets of white and silver and when I exhale my breath turns immediatly into a white cloud as if I'm smokin a cigar.

It'S finally winter for real
I really missed that ^^ though my finders hurt as hell if I forget my gloves

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21834545/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21834545/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 16:22:51 PST
I never expected to meet so many interesting people on dA and I am very grateful for that.

I start alphabetically

> discolemonade5445:
that girl is really cool. I have the best Rp's with her^^ she's so much fun and very polite

> keytoinfinity
You're so hilarious and like the same things as I do ^^ And your very open minded and have no prejudices (and you like KAmeeeee lol)

> LittleFlair
Wow you always stun me with your pictures. though ure still so young you're a genius at what you do. go ahead.

> MasterDarken:
I watched you from the melancholic boy becoming to a boy full of optimism and I admire your devotion for art.

> Michiaki
you have always a funny photo and you are fully supporting hana kimi ^^ haha. Love your cosplay.. and psst can you show me how to make that umeda video? ^^

> Myslicielka
You're so lively and so are ur pics. itS' been fun knowing you ^^

> Nadalya
Hey ...you are my best friend... now ure in the USA but I'm looking forward for you to come back. I'm glad I introduced u to dA. Except you no one would dare to write such comments ^^ its# always fun reading them *hugs u* Knuddel

> Ravurn
Maybe does not know himself but he is such an comedian ^^ It#s so easy to make jokes with him ^^

> SimpleOona
The coolest punk I know from finnland ^^ and a great photographer. You are very pure and I like that bout you ^^

> sweetscankill
your name was the first I liked bout you ^^ I like your passionate and direct way of expressing ur feelings. your art is really vivid and real .

> teekaiii

this girl has once inspired me to start loving fast food again ^^ and I admire her for being able to draw like photography *takes a bow* COOOOOOLLL ure very talented

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21793957/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21793957/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 03:33:36 PST
and that series is AWESOME !!!!

just wanted to say "HANAZAKARI NO KIMTACHI " rules hahaha

and I wanted to share good and s'times funny fan videos I found on the net ^^ with my dA friends ^^

1) fan-video bout the drama with paramore song "crushcrushcrush"
>>> [link]

2) and for everyone who knows how hard nakatsu tried to tell himself he's not gay "Homo Ja nai video " ahahah but its all in japanese

watch and laugh >>> [link]

translation : "uhmm? girl underwear? I feel tense looking at it ..ah that can only mean I'm not gay...

I'M NOT GAAYYYY!!!

(next scene) I like girls . I'm not homo etc.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21781290/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21781290/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 10:32:15 PST the cold is really annoying right now.

here in waymountain (juhu nina ) it never snowed again...awww just once ... now it's raining and cold or (watch out variation) it's just cold.

my new passion: hats
I love hats ^^
ah yes nina : I wear our white plush santa clause thing when it's very cold ^^ like I promised. it's really cute.

I got a fortune cookie today it said:
Exciting times lie ahead

yeah!!! (random euphoria)

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21696333/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21696333/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 10:02:10 PST I worked on myself and just let g o ^^

enjoy (if it's enjoyable *bows*)

1) Love Song -Sara Bareilles
>>> [link]


2) Hot n' Cold Katy Perry
>>>> [link] ( the arm moves are ment as a joke haha )

3) Bubbly Colbie Caillat
>>>> [link] (I don't know why the hell my face looks so serious ^^)

4) New Soul by Yael Naim
>>>> [link] ( honestly ..this video was taken early in the morning ..so that's the natural me , messed up hair etc..)

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21681489/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21681489/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 13:19:42 PST and now that it's winter and the water is clear, there's a heron!
Yes there is one of these tall, slender, graceful birds, which I actually adore, who tries to hurt my beloved Kois. I can totally understand him, it must be an unbearable temptation seeing the colourful fishes from high above.

But I have to protect my fishes!
I scare him away but no too harsh to keep him near because:

I wanna take pictures and record his flight. You ever seen a heron fly? So indescribeable!!!!!

Since now I could only take messed up pics and a short film of that stunning creature. But I have taken photos of his footprints in the snow

A heron's footprints in the snow! what a moment!!!! I was like OMG they are huge and indeed the feet of herons are very big and if one sees the footprints it's a little scary but actually they aren't as big as their footprints might assume.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21649174/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21649174/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 14:36:42 PST
he really told me a truth I needed to know

I was upset in the beginning
and couldn't eat of anger

I was really furious


but

his advice made me take a huge step
forward


LOL development hurts sometimes


and I still am a little angry
hahaha
*too vain*

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21609299/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21609299/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 06:59:25 PST
It's my personal favourite

----> [link]



and please rate and comment and if u will subscribe ( there will be more )

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21592054/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21592054/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 04:05:25 PST
So these days turned out to be all inside days. i haven't been out the house (except for work) for three days. That's long.

now the wind calmed down and it doesn't rain at the moment. through my window I can see a huge fir tree ( it's the hugest I've seen so far) and this tree is now still bending in the wind, though it has become much calmer right now. *I love the view and I love the tree, nut I couldn't manage to take a photo... *

though the photos look good they don't present my fav tree *haha* in it's complete beauty ^___^

these lazy rainy days have their good side. I feel very ...well shall I calld it "content"?
yes I guess I feel very calm and content and kinda like christmas time though it si still way too long before christmas begins.

P.S. : the sun broke through now yeah , for the first time since three days but th wind started goin stronger. I gues the wind blew the clouds aside oh and yes I have new songs and I practised a lot and became better but my cam corder laggs so ure all safe from my singing attacs ^__^ until it works again hehehe
the songs will be :
Jason Mraz "I'm yours"
Katie Perry " I kissed a girl"
Nelly furtado "say it right"

( popular songs everybody knows ^__-)

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21550943/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21550943/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 13:28:14 PST This time I violated a song from the band the corrs
it's called "so young" please watch and comment and if you will rate ^__^
[link] <-- here's it ^^

AND

I wold like you to make song wishes. If you have any suggestions just say it ^^
I'm lackin a lil inspiration and I don't know what people like to listen to ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21514715/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21514715/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 08:55:29 PST BUT

I never thought it would be so hard to sing and play at the same time.

It's endless practise until I can play the melody good enough so the words I sing don't sound so stiff and emotionless because I concentrate too much on playin the melody.
But right now I#m a hopeless case.



ahhh but it's my fault

I wanted to make a song of my own

mhhhh I have to learn a lot ...

and it's exhausting trying the same thing over and over again....til it works.

singing only is more fun ^_^

but I refuse to give up!

p.s.: I'm a full time tutor now hahah
I have a student each day of the week. that's fun and a good occupation till university finally starts.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21467394/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21467394/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 10:29:39 PST ^^ please watch and comment :
[link]


hope u'll like it ( and don't be to harsh with me ^__^)

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21403926/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21403926/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 11:51:43 PST
Falling asleep randomly almost everywhere.......

Falling asleep when sitting on a bench , falling asleep when leaning on a wall, falling asleep when sitting on the floor using my knees as pillow -_-, falling asleep simly everywhere


LOLZ

and the worst is falling asleep when the others go get something to eat and you fall asleep waiting and miss lunch -_-


and now I'm goin to do something extraordinairy and fall asleep in my bed LOL

GOOD NIGHT ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21372305/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21372305/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 12:39:47 PST they wanna engage me in TV- production.

OMG ! OMG !

What? me ? OMG !

well calm down... maybe it will boring as hell or totally disappointing.

WEll anyway I AM CURIOUS

O have no idea yet what it is, I just had to send a bunch of pics.

I'll tell u the result and u can laugh at me if it'S a bagel spot hahah
"NOw bite!"

hahah or " pretend you're a tree"
LOOOL

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21352675/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21352675/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:20:18 PST I'll be back with freshness and deviations yeay! ^^

I can't wait to get a pen in my hand.

^^ plus I always wanted to learn JApanese and now I have a good exercise book and free lessons. I'll do my best ^^ Fight- oh -oh

bye hugs to all of you

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21336317/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21336317/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 08:49:34 PST Finally there's light at the end of the tunnel, a time for change has begun. ^^ though I'm not American I'm looking forward to what will happen in the following months. ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21284666/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21284666/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 13:51:43 PST
So I feel kinda extraodinary happy today to be alive ahahaha ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21231733/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21231733/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 12:38:35 PDT
I do not feel the urge to tell anybody ^^

so I better do not write anything at all instead of writing just something

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21213519/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21213519/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 07:48:28 PDT
here's the most important gossip from home sweet home ( u asked for it^^ do not regret haha)


Waymountain -Weather:

Cold, sometimes close to Zero, but however sunshine

Waymoutain -Gossip:

Augustisnky, Rademacher und etc haben auch wartesemester
Zitat: " warum haben alle wartesemester?" ( life action ^^ die Mutter vom "ich als kleiner Mathematiker")

Habe den sklaven überredet, will aber noch eine "Aushilfe".. finden.
der darf dann über die "zweiteinstellung" nichts wissen

Anna stokovi "Ich fühle mich gut ^^"
warum auch immer

gebe jetzt wieder nachhilfe.

Kiss Kiss

Take care Girl

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21169341/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21169341/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 10:37:28 PDT you can slip into a role. It's total fun as long as you stay yourself of course.
Fashion can capture a certain mood or a special moment on your skin.

dressing is daily and ordinary

But some people truly dress for the moment ^^ and that's a very beautiful feeling

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21059747/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/21059747/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 08:45:15 PDT
p.s.: to all the girls :

ISN'T KAMENASHI KAZUYA HOT HOT HOT ?!

to nina: das musste jetzt sein .. hach der ist soooo süß^^ vor allem wie er dem otter in die augen schaut. ^^ *träum*

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20873313/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20873313/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 12:17:47 PDT
]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20821215/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20821215/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 08:02:57 PDT
I wish the day to have more hours.
I hate to neglect some things.
I wanna have time to work on everything I love.

maybe I'm just crazy ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20755805/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20755805/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:25:17 PDT
Time's racing ^^

Well ....

MY college allowance hasn't occured yet. That means I gotta wait... my own fault.. I've chosen a popular and heavy subject . Here in germany there are no entrance exams. They select due to your Highschool grades. mine are good but not good enough so I gotta wait. THE MAXIMUM OF WAITING TIME CAN BE ONE YEAR: lol

Well honestly : I'M glad ....

I can chase my own dreams this one year before taking responsability.

I think I still haven't found out what exactly they are.

I wanna find it out .

So I welcome this waiting tíme.

I feel slightly guilty because of that, because many people counted on me. BUt now due to failing I got my life back. It's mine only...now again.

No one messes with my decisions anymore.

Now i can be free.

But what for?

I gotta make a living out of this year!

I gotta find what I'm without!

I have to fullfill my dreams!

I don't wanna look back and regret.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20370276/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20370276/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 07:28:51 PDT
Work is driving me crazy but september is still my favourite month, since my birthday is on sep. 15 th ^^ YEAY

It'll be my 20th birthday. I'm becoming an adult ^^

my schedule for this month:

Work: monday-friday working at a company's office from 7.30 till 16.30
´
friday - sunday evening working as a waitress in a restaurant (always smiling ^^ ahaha Sometimes it's hard)

Sparetime: reading, I wanna refresh my common knowledge before university starts in october.

BUT ABOUT THAT:

I'm still waiting for my study allowance. I was so desprate about it and wondered if they had rejected me.
so I asked a friend of mine who had better results than mine and she is also waiting. I asked several people about that college and they are all waiting. then I learned this college had too many students already studying or wanting to.

Former students of this college said:
"It could be you'll get the letter 10 days before deadline"

° ° AHHHHHHH!!!!

Everyday I pray for the letter to arrive. I feel like fainting when thinking about it. my mom constantly checks the mailbox.

I'm a psychological mess right now. If it arrives 10 days before deadline, I'll die of heart attac!
I'm soooo anxious and nervous about it.


I really wanna study and especially change residence. I'd love to live in a bigger city.

I hope the letter will arrive tomorrow!
AHhh my heart beats so fast. It's as if my whole future depends on some one else's decision! All I can do is wait and see.

My father says I'll force you to take part in a casting for singers

LOOOL Now that has always been his intention... ^^ but I think it's better to have a proper education

One can still follow this kind of dreams parallely.

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20181569/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20181569/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 09:43:18 PDT -"thanks"


"I brought them back. they were good"
-"thank you"

"I#ve brought a few new ones along"

-"ok"


Simple things are most important.
Try to remember maybe there's an old lady greeting you gently every morning or a collegue who takes part in your daily life. Never forget to cherrish people around you! they might seem unimportant.
but they are like small candles. I f you cherrish them, there will be more of them glowing and there will be light and warmth ^^ in your small world.
I everyone did so, society would mend it#s ways

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20149388/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20149388/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 13:53:32 PDT
A)
1. What is youth?
2. What is your Goal in Life?
3. What are you most afraid of?
4. Are you afraid of telling what you're afraid of?

B)
1. What do you love the most?
2. What do you despise the most?
3. Are most of the people better or worse than you concerning ethics?
4. Do you trust people?

c)
1. Do you care much about your outward appearance?
2. What would you do if your best friends aims for the same goal as you do? and you really like to have it.

Please take this quiz ^^

]]> ~Linlaisui http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20131267/ http://Linlaisui.deviantart.com/journal/20131267/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 13:38:39 PDT

I#m hoping and praying that I can start this year....

I'm PRAYING!!!

No one except me is worried...well
thanks for the faith...lol

]]> ~Linlaisui