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I have to say I chose the most beautiful part of the UK to study, it really is amazing up here. I have a gorgeous mountain view pretty much everywhere, including from my bedroom window.

I will post some pictures soon

I haven't started classes yet, just enjoying settling in and meeting new people. The people who live around me are lovely, all of them are lovely, so it's all going very well.

x

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She's an amazing performer, and it was definitely an experience, what with the gig taking place in a church. And a man playing a flaming piano whilst riding a bike up and down the crowd was kind of awesome...

This time next week I will be preparing to leave for Wales...

Ali.

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Which means now I know for sure where I am going next year! I got into my first choice university, Bangor, to study Psychology so I'm super excited!!!

I got an A (General Studies, I got full marks in the final module!) two B's (Psychology 106/120 in the final module! and Media which I missed an A by 7 marks) and a C (Spanish, to be honest I'm just so happy I passed, but I got 79/90 in one of the modules! That's a big deal to me!)

So all in all these exams went so much better than I expected.

I hope everyone else who got results today got what they wanted/needed for their unis!



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I got to see everyone again (well, most people) and getting all dressed up and we had it at Stockbrook Manor, which is very posh lol.

It was great

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Ali x.

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14 people were hit by a car. Last night a 14 year old girl from my school died from the injuries she suffered.

I didn't know her personally, but our school is a very, very close community and this loss has impacted everyone deeply.

I feel this incredibly sadness because a 14 year old died. A girl who had a whole life left to lead, is dead.

It's been a very surreal day, seeing both staff and students crying, and seeing someone I care quite deeply for in distress over this.

But it's also shown me just how tight a community our school is, and how the nature of people can sometimes be nothing but wonderful. I've seen nothing but support for anyone today, groups of girls in tears talking about their friend, their classmate. Teachers comforting their other students, police officers and counsellors, even our head teacher making themselves available to anyone to make sure people are supported through this. Even advising girls on how to help their friends with this, especially those who had friends involved who survived.

It's so tragic, so terribly tragic.

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I'm going to be taking a break from deviant art, I'll probably still pop in and read things, but I can't see myself posting anything much anytime soon.

I'm having a slight personal crisis, I lost my best friend and my partner all in one go, and I found out that she was seeing someone else behind my back too and is deliberately flaunting that in front of me. It's taking all my energy to remain in control of everything, and creating isn't really my top priority for now.

So I'm on hiatus for now...

Love Ali.

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Starting my Psychology coursework which will be so much fun, Allison and I are working together to do a research study on morality. I can't wait to actually do it, at the moment we are in the planning stage but we have lots of ideas.

Tomorrow I am helping out with the year 7 media day, I did it last year and it was so much fun and I made lots of little friends who aren't so little, they are taller than me! When they came for their induction day I was helping out and some woman from my school thought I was one of them and spent ages trying to get me to try on a tracksuit! They're 6 years younger than me lol.

We're studying horror movies in Media and I'm really enjoying that more than I expected because I never really liked horror films but I'm developing a bit of a taste for them now.

Ali.

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Oh and my friends think I'm in trouble cos I got called to the front by our head of year when we were all in the exam room ready to start.

Anyway, Psych wasn't too bad but I don't know if I explained myself all that well. We got questions on the effects of environmental stressors on agression, Vygotsky's theory of cognitive development and a two part of psychodynamic (Freud FTW!) and social learning theories of something... Oh. Something from the second half of the poo coloured section.

Not gender, IQ or adolescence. Personality! Yes, definitly Personality.

We're starting our coursework now and Allison and I are thinking about doing morals cos she came up with a way to measure it to get quantitative data.

Ps. I just tried to spell Michelle like Mischel, like social learning theory Mishcel. Oh so glad that exam is finished.

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I don't even want to know about what I did during the parts of the night I don't remember...

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And Gossip Girl starts back over here on the 21st (Yay for post-Psych exam Chuck!) but I've already seen it. It doesn't matter, just yay for something exciting to focus on.

That and Grey's S5 premiere on the 22nd!

Ali.

Ps. Gaaah I need to stop crushing on my crush...

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/22473187/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/22473187/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:59:09 PST
But I also had a good day in some ways because although I saw the horrible side to humanity, I also saw the side where people support you even when they don't have to. The people who you don't expect to ask you if you're okay, they do. The people you expect to be there forever, sometimes they aren't, but when you hit the lowest low, you survive knowing that the only way left is up. You can't fall any further, you live your own personal hell, but the only direction left to go is up.

I learnt a lot about who I am today. I also learnt a lot about who I want to be, who I will be.

Everyday I think more and more like a psychologist, I spend even longer boring people with my thoughts and beliefs on my subject. I want to help people. I love teaching other people becuase watching them learn something they couldn't do before, and seeing the joy they take from that is a blessing. I taught some quite severly disabled kids a bit of Mandarin over the summer and it was the most rewarding experience I've ever had because they were the most disadvantaged people I've ever met, but they were also the happiest, and I got to contribute to that.

I taught some Spanish a month or so ago to year sevens and feeling their enthusiasm to learn, and watching them overcome obstacles in their path to learning was wonderful. I also got to see how far I've come since I was in their place, I've become a better person, I've learnt about myself and everyone around me, I've survived heartbreak, fallen in love with my best friend, found my passions, started the path that will take me to my future. I've proven my intelligence to myself and others, shown strength and resiliance even when I had nothing to fight for.

I've grown, and I will continue to grow. I'm focused and ready for the next adventures to start. For once, the unknown feels amazing.

Ps. I got full marks in my media courswork!

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I'm going to try and keep up to date with things on here, though lately real life has been very time consuming and creatively draining.

I have been accepted to 4 universities, kind of exciting but it still seems a really long way to go yet.

Media coursework is sat beside me very nearly ready to be handed in (with the usual night before deadline ruch of course!)

Anyone interested can find my music video here:
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I'll probably post my CD cover soon too.

Anyway, I hope to do better at this from now!

Ali.

Ps. Happy New Year!

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My results were okay, some went better than expected, others not so well. Basically I passed everything which led to some choices as to which subject to drop. I love all of them so much it felt like a really hard decision and everytime I thought I'd made one I didn't feel happy with it. In the end I decided to drop French because as much as I love it, my passion has always been with Spanish.

We got a new Spanish teacher who is so freaking hot it's unbelievable. So glad I took Spanish lol!

I decided on taking Psychology at uni, and have picked Bangor (Wales!!!) and Kent as my top choices. My personal statement is almost there and I'm super excited about going.

I was so uninspired all summer, I felt really lonely because my best friend was away and out of contact for a month, I felt like a part of me had disappeared, I rarely go more than a few hours without talking to her so the separation was awful.

And the wedding! Mum and Gary finally did it and got married on the 20th September! It was amazing, the whole day was absolutely fantastic, I enjoyed every minute of it!

Anyway, I need to finish up some stuff and go to bed, school tomorrow!

Ali.

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Which has got me some interesting looks from my head of year.

I'm in trouble for getting tan lines (I didn't mean to!), my school has a rule that you aren't allowed to have shoulders on show, in this weather it's kind of crazy cos it's so hot so I haven't been able to avoid them, but hey, at least I'm tanning!

I finished school today for the summer (yay!) and treated myself to a multi-regional dvd player so I can get some of my favourite tv shows before they come out here (they can come out up to a year later sometimes).

On Monday I taught Mandarin at a special needs school and it was honestly the most rewarding thing I've ever done. It really opened my eyes to how different yet how similar disabled people are. It was an absolutely amazing experience and I'm so glad I did it. The kids were fantastic and some of them had a lot of trouble and others picked it up really fast, I found it so fantastic when one that was struggling managed to do something new and the support they gave to each other was something else. I think going to a grammar school where so many people are out to be the best has made it seem normal to value your own achievements more than that of others (not everyone is like that, but it's the mentality of the school) but these kids supported and helped each other all the way through, encouraging shy ones to talk, whispering answers, helping turn pages in books.

It's actually made me reconsider my career plans, I've always thought of teaching as a sort of back up incase I'm not happy in the career I choose, but now it's made me wonder if I'd actually enjoy that more.

It's certainly given me a lot to think about!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Going back to school has been a little traumatic thanks to my doctor, apparently progesterone makes me depressed and doesn't mix well with amitriptyline. I was depressed, I was crying all the time at the smallest things and my nervous system turned on me which caused bizarre reactions like my left arm shaking constantly and problems with my speech.

I stopped taking the pill and I feel so much better.

I have more work now than I've had at any other point in the year so I'm kind of busy, I have Media coursework again (boo!), weekly tests in Psychology and regular homework from Languages. Although I've stopped going to one of my Spanish classes, my work load doesn't seem to have lessened.

Like I said, Media coursework, so I'll probably be updating my coursework blog more than I will be on here, so if you're interested:

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Also, I should be going to Disneyland Paris in February with Media and going to lectures with animators and media type people and some time on the rides of course! Annnd I'm taking two media courses this summer, one on music video and the other is a day behind the scenes at Channel 4!

I hope everyone is okay, I'm trying to keep in touch!

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/18786971/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/18786971/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 15:23:51 PDT
My exams finished last week! Yay! Languages were unbelieveably difficult in places but I think (hope) Psychology and Media were okay. Media was the best by far but I'm not really surprised by that.

We got the film 'Stormbreaker' for the textual analysis paper, and representation in tabloid and celebrity annnd creativity for the essay question in new tech, really I got all the questions I wanted and had revised best.

Sooo glad it's over. I'm still off school but I'm back on monday, which isn't fun.

My youtube account got deleted last month, I do have a second one but there's nothing on it yet, can't be bothered to re-upload things right now, and thanks to two harddrive freak outs I lost EVERYTHING on both my harddrives so I lost a few videos and stuff. SUCKS.

I hope everyone is okay, sorry for not being around so much.

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I am terrified of doing my French oral on tuesday, my mock was a disaster (though surprisingly it wasn't actually a fail).

General Studies I'm not so fussed about because a lot of uni's don't accept it as an A-Level and I didn't work for it last time and I did better than expected (and caused my teacher crush to call me very smart so I guess it has some advantages). I got the same mark as my VERY intelligent friend who came top in the country on loads of her exams and got straight A*'s (Katrina) so it went a LOT better than anyone thought.

But this one is science and well, anyone who knows me well knows the only reason I passed science was cos I had a hot chemistry teacher and sat next to Katrina...

I'm worried about Psychology, I'm worried how on earth I'll manage to survive 3 hours on a friday afternoon of psychology exam.

On a better note I'm doing good in media, beat Lew (he's my main competition as far as written work is concerned) and I even did okay on the Matrix essay which was a surprise because I didn't even understand the point of that extract (they gave us a bit slap bang in the middle of the film, 5 minutes of it and expected us to know all the backstory and how the green was representative of the matrix and blue for the real world without even telling us what the hell the point of the film was?!)

Anyway, enough talk I have a lot to do, I hope everyone is okay!

Ali

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And my media teacher is in here (I'm in French...) and I'm trying to not be noticed cos I owe her work I haven't quite finished. It is done, but I'm not happy with it so I can't give it in!

She's torturing year 7's...

And to top it all off, my favourite person is not here today. How depressing?!

Ali.

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It's worth 40% of my final grade, so it's important and I so badly want an A in media.

Anyway, we have to keep Cheryl in Dancing With The Stars after last night. She cannot leave. I might cry if she does

No lol I probably wouldn't cry. But I'd be very sad.

I have to go do some work...

Ali.

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2. It's easy for you. Really, it is. And you have no idea how hard it can get.

3. Just stop talking to me, stop acting like the problem is yours to have and to manipulate. I'm okay, get over it.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/17212060/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/17212060/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 15:38:25 PST
Hmm, I'm not going to post my grade here, it's that awful. My friends were less than helpful, their response was, 'oh well, you can take it again, and you don't have to be a psychologist...' Yeah. I could've hit them. Let me explain about Psychology, in all my practice papers I got high B's or A's. In all my tests on whether I know the content, I got around 17 or 18 out of 20. I've been working at grade A since December. And I took the exam in January. The paper didn't go that badly, or so I thought. So something must have gone wrong, it wasn't just that I'm crap at it.

So I went to find someone else to cry on, and I got dragged away by my head of year (the Jill Halfpenny one, Nao...) And she gave me use of her office and phone so long as I didn't mind her in and out. Not a problem, I like her, she's very sweet and said some nice things. I seem to be spending more time with her than with anyone else right now.

Anyway, I called my mum, who's response was: I think school is a bad place for you, if I'd have known then what I do now, I'd have never let you go back. I think we need to talk about things. I can't trust you.

Cue more tears, questions from Miss W, offers of space to sit quietly from my form tutor, do I want to be sent home...?

So I'm angry with mum, she was obviously pissed with me. Then Mrs O'Neill (the student support lady) informed me my mum was there.

Needless to say, I flat out refused to go. But I was forced. And me and mum had the second worst conversation of my life. It was awful.

Less said about it the better.

Things are sorted now though.

It's been a very crappy day.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/17182393/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/17182393/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 15:45:38 PST
1. I fucking hate you for everything you did. I can't breathe anymore, the habits you conditioned in me are destroying the parts of me I've put back together.

2. You really suck right now. Really, you do.

3. Don't get your hopes up, it's not going to happen.

4. It's easy to forget the terrible thing you did, maybe because it didn't surprise me one bit. And you kind of did me a favour with it.

5. When I look at you, I see my whole world contained in this one beautiful person. You're perfection and I adore the way you talk to me. It's like we're not what we are and you make it easy to blend the lines between who we are and who I want us to be.

6. Please say something. This silence is torture. I know you're thinking about it, this thing hanging between us is yours to discuss.

7. Don't for one second think you know a thing about me. I am who I am, and I'm not going to change just to fit your traditionalistic views of right and wrong. I know who I am, and right now my definition of myself is that incredibly cute brunette who never fails to take my breath away.

8. Yeah I get it, we're not good enough for you now. Totally get it, and it doesn't really bother me. If you can't be bothered, I won't waste my emotion on you.


Yeah, I kinda get the feeling this is going to inspire some pretty awkward questions, but it has to be said.


Anyway, my french teacher is a major bitch. She's putting me on cause for concern because apparently I don't go to lessons and I don't do any work. Both are untrue. Okay, I've missed some lessons, but I wasn't in school, and if it wasn't for people like her causing me so much stress, then I would have been in school. But it's beyond the teachers in my school to ask for explanations. Tell them you're failing, they say it's your fault and move on. Tell them the teacher is incompetent, they send a PE teacher to a foreign language class to observe. Tell them you can't cope, they tell you there's nothing wrong and would you please go back to class.

Basically, there are very few people in my school who actually care.

I hate the way it is there, getting a B is a fail to them, because we're meant to be in the top 15% of the country, so apparently we are capable of better. So what do they do if you get a C? Put you on report and claim you skip classes. Ugh.

At GCSE they told me they didn't want me on double language AS because they had predicted me a B in French. For starters, my Spanish is WAY better than my french, and second of all I didn't even get a B, I got an A, so problem? Yes. It's not an A*.

I've had 3 panic attacks in school so far this week. And it's only tuesday.

Ugh.

Ali.

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She took it way better than I was expecting, it was all more than I could have hoped for really. She said it was okay, and that it wasn't what I'd done that had bothered her but why.

All that matters is it's out in the open (I can wear my comfy PJ's again!) and everything is alright.

Thank you to all those people who have given me support on this. I think I'm finally going to have the confidence to wear whatever I like again. I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but I've let my scars rule my life ever since I made them, it's finally time to just get on with my life and put this behind me.

Quick mention to Lew, who I promised I'd talk about in this entry. He's a very good friend of mine you seeee.

Hope everyone is okay, Ali.

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As far as girls go, Cheryl! I sooo want her to win this year, I was watching her just now and she is the hottest thing since Karen Hardy.

I'm quite excited, I just hope they show it here.

It's quite strange, my friend said 'Erin!' in the middle of a disagreement to distract me into her way of thinking, it almost worked too. How terrible. Strictly Come Dancing has become a tool in our debates.

I should be in bed, but shirtless!Maks and shirtless!Derek. Plus hot guy talking to me on MSN, gaah what is happening to me?!

Speaking of hotties, my favourite of them all had her hair cut and looks absolutely adorable. And less like Jill Halfpenny. Anyway, she's the cutest ever.

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16903563/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16903563/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 18:22:20 PST
Okay, I haven't exactly tried yet, but I know I won't be able to. Stupid sleep disorder, I'm so sick of it. I've had enough not being able to sleep, it's been six years already!

I know it sounds stupid, every tells me just close your eyes you'll be asleep in no time! But they don't understand, it doesn't work like that. My stupid brain doesn't understand that dark = night time = sleep. Gaaaah!

I'm all yay because Elizabeth Reaser has been cast as Esme in the Twilight movie. She played Ava/Jane Doe/Rebecca Pope in Grey's Anatomy last year and I LOVED her, she was way better for Alex (soooo hot!) than Addison, even though Addison is my favourite character on Grey's, she totally belongs with Callie. I know she'll be completely under used, and barely in it, but I love her anyway.

I've been watching Dancing With The Stars and I can't Burke wait to see who's on it this season, I want Cheryl to do well so I hope she gets a good partner, and it's about time Karina Smirnoff does well too, I love watching her dance. As much as I love Julianne Hough, I'd rather she didn't win again this year, for me, I kind of OTP her and Apolo Ohno so she can't do well with anyone else (Like how I feel about Karen Hardy winning with anyone other than Mark Ramprakash!). I hope we see lots of Maksim Chmerkovskiy this season too, I know it's unlikely as he's made the last two finals, but he's the hottest man on earth and he makes dancing look so masculine and sexy.

Anyway, I'm going to put my pjamas on and try to get some sleep, or post some icons. We'll see!

Ali x x x

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16853008/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16853008/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 17:47:06 PST
So now my laptop is feeling healthier, I might actually get myself online again.

Anywaaay, Nao tagged me!

Rules:
1.) Answer the following meme in a journal entry, copy/pasting these rules as well
2.) At the end, tag up to 5 different people, commenting on their DA page saying that they've been tagged
3.) HAVE FUN!


Birth:
1.) What zodiac sign are you?
Sagittarius, very much so.
2.) Any quirks you had as a baby?
I don't remember... But for the first few years of my life I lived with 5 adults so by the age of 3 I could speak VERY fluently and argue with 30 year old's no problem.
No3.) Did you have a special toy or blanket you liked to sleep with?
Still do lol.
4.) Do you know what your first word was?
Pretties. It's what I used to call anything that was, well, pretty. Like stars and flowers etc.

Childhood:
5.) What was your first day at school like?
I don't remember, but mum has photo's and I looked very odd.
6.) What did you want to be growing up?
I don't remember wanting to be anything, I suppose I wanted to be a popstar (Spice Girls/Steps phase), then a witch (Harry Potter), then midwife, FBI Agent (Hannibal ie. Clarice Starling) then Forensic Psychologist. I'm not torn between that and going into media.
7.) Where you one of the loud kids, or the quiet one?
Quietish, I've always been quite shy.
8.) What were some of the craziest things you did as a child?
I did an awful lot of crazy things...

Teenage Years:
9.) What clique were you usually in? Freaks, then geeks. Or somewhere in between.
10.) What was your least favourite class in school?
Ugh, it used to be French (yeah, how does that explain me still doing it 6 years on...), but I almost failed Maths so I didn't exactly enjoy that. HATED science until I got a hot Chemistry teacher, and the less said about Music the better.
11.) Did you ever write poetry to express your feelings?
Occasionally, but I'm more of an art/rambling kind of person.
12.) Did you go to school dances and prom?
I went to school discos a few times, but I didn't go to prom.

DA Related:
26.) Traditional or digital media?
Digital.
27.) Are you a fandom artist or original artist?
Fandom artist. I am a self-proclaimed Fan Girl!
28.) How did you get started in drawing? (Or if you're a writer, how did you get started in writing?)
I would call myself a digital artist, and I got into that by seeing what other people did and deciding I wanted to do it. I had so much fun with it I carried on and didn't look back, and here I am now!
29.) What are you good at drawing/writing?
I don't know, I'm a shipper, so probably relationships. I don't really know.
30.) What are you bad at drawing/writing?
Men. I just don't get them or find them that attractive. I only put them in with women.

Random Questions:
13.) Ever dye your hair weird colours or wanted to?
I dye my hair all the time, now it's a kind of faded red.
14.) Did/do you have any pets?
Yes, 12 mice, 4 rats (<3 I love my boys!!) 3 cats and a dog.
15.) How many places have you lived?
My mum had me when she was a teenager so she still lived at home, so I lived in my nan and grandads house for a bit, then we moved to Westcliff then Falcon Way, then here. 4 places.
16.) Where do you want to live?
Barcelona, Boston, New York, LA, Montreal. Anywhere that isn't here.
17.) Describe your dream house?
This could take a while... I want a big house, but not too big, open, lots of windows.
18.) Marriage for you?
Apparently I have commitment issues, but I'd like to think someday I will get married.
19.) Religious?
No, I'm Agnostic.
20.) Would you most likely be my partner in crime or my conscience?
Depends on what we're doing!
21.) Jazz-Funk fusion or Electro-Punk?
Huh?
22.) Gen, Het, or Slash?
Probably Slash, but I'm open to het of course.
23.) Ever drink Bailey's from a shoe?
No, I dont drink Bailey's full stop.
24.) Do you dump or get dumped?
Not enough experience to say.
25.) Do you have deep opinions or do you listen to both sides of the argument?
I am very opinionated but I will listen to other's unless they piss me off before argueing a point with me, then I end up telling them they're wrong and being done wit... ]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16677481/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16677481/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 16:08:55 PST
I must say, I was a little relieved she's not pregnant. And I didn't believe them until Gary said so, but they did the telling the parents thing tonight. Gary asked Grandad, well, told him 'Me and Janine are getting married- oh, is that alright?'.

My Nan is so excited and so is my sister (She's 5, and the Flower Girl.). My brother doesn't seem so thrilled but he's a 10 year old boy, they only thing he's interested in is Football, and his Xbox 360.

I'm going to be a Bridesmaid too, and we've asked one of my friends to be the photographer.

No date has been set yet, but it will be a church wedding, and most likely in September.

I will update on it later, hopefully they'll set a date soon!

Ali x x x

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16400220/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16400220/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 09:29:39 PST
That sounds like a big deal, and it wasn't really, it was just a slightly emotional, completely awesome night with a group of my best friends and of course, the Spice Girls!

We went to see them on their Reunion tour and it was absolutely amazing.

So, I took the day off school because I had an exam the next day and I wanted to get some sleep and do some revision (Instead I danced around in my pjs to music and ate too much...) Then by the time I was meant to be leaving the house I wasn't dressed, hadn't straightened my hair and was still trying to decide whether to wear the black t-shirt with the long sleeves or the purple one with the pully uppy thing. Long story, anyway, I arrived at Louise's house late and we left for the trainstation straight away.

We managed to buy our tickets much cheaper than we'd hoped and got on the train. It was quite fun until we got to Barking and there was a delay, so there's us having a huge panic about making it in time. We did, after we nearly missed our stop (leave four girls alone talking = don't expect them to pay ANY attention to the announcer...) Then we wandered through the station, caught the tube and finally we had arrived. The outside of the O2 Arena looked tiny, and we took some pictures and got very excited. Then we went in and were quite amazed by the queues for food.

In the end we picked a grill/steak type place that was sooooo yummy. I had a bacon and chicken burger with chips and it was all covered in barbecue sauce. It was so good. And of course I had to have dessert, ice cream sundae with chunks of cadbury chocolate and LOADS of chocolate sauce. Was yummy. Let me just say here that I'm lactose intolerant so I shouldn't be eating that much dairy.

All this took longer than anticipated, and just as we were on our way there was an announcement saying the show was about to start. So we ran up four escalaters and two flights of stairs... Only to discover how high up our seats were. So there's two of us with a phobia of heights and one about to throw up from lactose overdose...

Nevermind, we didn't miss the start of the show and adjusted to the altitude (and I wasn't sick yay!).

Started out with Spice Up Your Life which really got everyone in the mood, singing along and dancing, loads of photos.

The solos were really good cos Geri sang It's Raining Men which was soooo fun and Mel doing her Paso Doble opener from Dancing With The Stars. I was hoping Maksim might turn up (that man is the yummiest thing male on the planet!)

I won't go on too much about the concert cos there's not much to report. It was amazing and I had a great time, and it really was quite emotional, the feeling of being there, in the same room as my childhood idols was really something else.

When it was over we wanted to leave quickly and since it was mainly women there, the girls toilets were crowded and the queues so long again, so we did what seemed most logical at the time. Yes, we used the boys. Haha it was soooo funny, we got the craziest looks from boys who were trying to pee in peace and Chelsea got stage fright...

So, that was my night, I might post some pictures later.

x x x

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16283595/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16283595/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 09:34:45 PST
Not happy about that at all, I'm so stressed about it I can't sleep which isn't good considering I'm on sleeping tablets as it is.

But I have no choice.

I've uploaded a few of my older things, some of them aren't great but I like them anyway so I posted them.

I made a Karen Hardy/Mark Ramprakash video:

[link]

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16000757/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/16000757/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 13:18:04 PST
I finished school today, although officially we finish at 11 tomorrow, going in for one lesson seems pointless so I'm staying home.

I'm feeling quite festive, finally, because today was the present giving and we had a mini party in our room at lunch today. Most fun in a long time.

I have lots to do over the break though, I have one of my A Level modules (Psychology) on the 10th of January!! And I'm going to see the Spice Girls the night before so I'm going to be falling asleep during that exam... But it's not so bad, I've been a couple of marks off an A on my practice papers but today I FINALLY made an A! So I'm not too worried. I think I'll be really disappointed if I don't get an A, as it's what I want to do for my career.

Anyway, I made a Drew Lachey/Cheryl Burke video!

[link]

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15810136/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15810136/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 16:15:01 PST
Oh wellll. I've stayed home today and caught up with Dancing With The Stars and attempted to fix my computer so I've been on laptop all day. Which really isn't a problem it's just not the same as listening to my music and hanging out on the main computer.

I'm kind of missing school. My brain feels lazy for not thinking much (I HATE this feeling, it's the one thing I hate about school holidays when they finally come around) And then there's Miss Hottie. But I am NOT missing her assembly on Friday even if I have to crawl there (well, we'll see...)

I have to give a presentation in French on tuesday but I don't want to, I get all panicky. Ahh well, it will be over in a few minutes I suppose.

I'm ranting and sleepy so I'm going to go to sleep now.

Night!

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15664691/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15664691/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 12:40:11 PST
So I am a redhead. Again. A sort of Addison Grey's Anatomy (Private Practice) kind of colour. But a little darker. I like it, it feels more me than my natural colour did. I like being red, I feel like it fits my personality more, and makes me look less like I've been dead for 3 months.

I feel like it's more of a transition than a simple change of appearance. Leaving the old, dull, me behind for someone a with a more colourful life. No more heartbreak, no more sitting back and letting people do what they want with me. It's my turn now, I'm a person, not an object and I will be seen that way.

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15591720/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15591720/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 14:46:16 PST
The household will then have:

1 dog,
3 cats,
4 rats,
13 mice,
20 fish...

At least this year I won't be asked to name every single one of them during my language orals.

This year I know what I'm getting so it's kind of taken the fun out of it which is why I think I'm going all out to make sure my friends have no idea what I'm getting them.

Still, it's all fun. I'm looking forward to the Christmas holidays just for time off school. I feel like I'm not doing anything there and it's still leaving me exhausted and increasingly emotionally drained.

I just can't be bothered with it all, there's some kind of unidentifiable emotional pain that's making it all seem somehow not worth the effort.

I started form prefecting today. That was okay, I have year 7's so they treat me as if I'm a teacher and are very well behaved. And I got a hot form tutor, but she's pregnant and won't be around for all that much longer. She's never taught me but we've always got along quite well, we have random chats and share chocolate buttons every now and then.

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15550321/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15550321/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 15:44:36 PST
And I managed it in three inch heels. Put according to my mum my boobs almost made an appearance. Oh well.

It was pretty good really, and the hot teacher told me I looked 'lovely' and that she wanted my trousers. And then she got to wear her lovely uni gown thingy and looked all strange and adorable. She also made an impression on my nan who said she had a very enjoyable voice.

Tonight I went out to see the lights switched on in the high street and the fireworks along the sea front. It was quite fun even though I stopped feeling my fingers after about 10 minutes.

I was craving chocolate ice cream all night so I stopped on the way home for some and couldn't decide what one so I brought three family size tubs... Mum was most concerned about finding room in the fridge for it, not that I ended to comfort eat the lot.

I don't want her to think it's because I broke up with Emma that I've been comfort eating. I started comfort eating mainly because I realized I was totally in love with someone else who I absolutely cannot have. I've gained enough weight for my favourite jeans to feel tight. Ugh. I don't want to weigh myself, I know I'll get obsessive and that usually leads to me not eating at all.

I'd rather stick with the ice cream.

I also found my first love's facebook and I haven't seen her since the middle of June and fuck she's far more beautiful than I remember her. She is absolutely the most stunning thing on the planet, in a blonde, curvy, first love kind of way.

It's not that she's any more beautiful than the new love, just in a more obvious kind of way. The new person doesn't do much in the way of make up or clothes (she does wear them, sadly, but Steph dressed to fit her figure a lot more). And her shoes NEVER match her clothes, she always wears these blue ones with her black suits.

Okay, must stop rambling about her.

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15519091/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15519091/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 10:39:22 PST
It's quite exciting, it's quite an important, formal event in our school and so far I've only been to the Junior version. It should be fun, all the hot teachers will be there all dressed up and one of them in particular never fails to impress (today it was a little wooly hat...).

I'm also quite nervous about it because parents will be there and I haven't decided what to wear. And I want to wear my 4 inch heels so I'm at least close to being as tall as all my friends but I know I'll be an idiot and fall in them. So I'll stick to 3 inches.

School has been kind of busy lately, what with running Spanish club and stuff. It's going to get even worse because I'll be Prefecting as of next week. Although looking after year 7's could be kind of fun and I did get a hot teachers form.

Media might let me have my coursework back soon. I'm really interested in marks and what not but she won't let us take the until the year 11's have finished their Practical Productions.

I suppose it isn't so bad. I'm loving free periods with my friends and some of my classes are really great compared to last year.

Ali.

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15345701/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15345701/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 12:14:18 PDT
Kelly and Brendan: So glad they danced badly. No passion, no drive, just not good enough. I don't like this couple but Kelly did look very nice. I thought the judges, despite the harsh criticism did not mark her down enough.

John and Nicole: Didn't like it, he's still hunching over her. No elegance at all for me. I wouldn't be surprised to see him go.

Letitia and Darren: Amazing, really really loved it. Tish looked so confident this week. Didn't think the choreography was up to much but Tish did amazingly with what she had to work with. I think they were slightly underscored.

Gethin and Camilla: Ugh, another Foxtrot, this dance bores me to tears. I just don't like it. So this dance didn't stand out for me. Infact, I can barely remember it.

Kenny and Ola: Oh no. All I can say, please, no more!

Alesha and Matthew: Lovely, romantic, very honest and genuine. And she seemed genuinely shocked to have done well. I thought this was very nice.

Dominic and Lilia: Not brilliant, but not terrible either. Lilia is a very clever choreographer, but he just isn't a matador.

Kate and Anton: Better. LOVED that dress. I thought she looked much more elegant and definately better. Underscored majorly by Craig. Depsite doing well I think maybe they might go out now people won't feel so much like she's being picked on by the judges. Either way she definately has more potential than Kenny.

Matt and Flavia: These are my romance story this year. She did most of the work in this dance and most of the routine didn't seem to fit with the dance. Too much posing. But I did quite like it.

Penny and Ian: She looked incredibly nervous. She also seems to prefer the latin. Lots of elegance and sparkle. I don't really like the Foxtrot so I don't have much at all to say.

Overall: I didn't think any of those dances were up to the standard of last years. And none of those Paso Doble's were up to Mark and Karen's standard in my opinion. I adored their's, it's what made me fall in love with them.

Thoughts?

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15319831/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15319831/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 16:42:53 PDT
Bad news: This week has got progressively worse.

Today one of my best friends found out that the boy she loves and has been seeing since February has cheated on her AGAIN.

Said boy denied having anything to do with her, asking another girl out, his part in the whole thing and just generally acted like a total McBastard.

Really. Why do some members of the male species feel the need to behave this way? I only ask about the men because, so far, I've avoided meeting many woman who behave like that. Men? I know two or three decent straight ones. The gay ones? Perfectly fine.

So me and a friend yelled at the guy and asked him some questions and the arrogant ***** walked way from us proclaiming that he would not be lectured.

Anyway, I just got sick so I think I need to get into bed sans laptop with a nice hot water bottle and a good book.

Ali.

Ps. One of the nice boys brought me chocolate as a thank you present today!

]]> ~Littlestarling310 http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15257083/ http://Littlestarling310.deviantart.com/journal/15257083/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 11:43:46 PDT
I still don't feel like we're doing anything worth doing in Spanish, because I don't feel like I've learnt anything. I know I have, but it's mainly vocabulary and no where near the amount I used to learn. French, ugh, I love this subject, the more I learn the more I'm beginning to actually love the language itself, but I've never had any confidence in it and now I feel I'm losing the little I did have.

I suppose it's early days. School is so tiring though, the politics between friends is worse than ever, and becoming more complicated by the day.

The biggest advantage to going back has got to be Emma, I was taken aback by how much I really missed seeing her everyday. And because she was away I didn't speak to her much either.

I will have a little less time to spend with her once Spanish club starts, I will have at least one lunch time taken up with running that, and probably more time meeting with Marie-Carmen for planning.

I finally found my creativity and I have to go back to the place that completely drains it from me. I don't know why but being at school leaves me completely uninspired and with no motivation.

Enough for now, and anyway Strictly Come Dancing is on soon. I may give my thoughts on this weeks show later.

Ali.

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