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Still, I'm very nervous and scared.... Me and my friend are going to bring our video camera and record our adventure. So just in case while driving through time square, I veer off the road and smash into a telephone poll from excitement, she'll be there to capture that kodak moment.

I'm also going to be making a comic. OH YEAH a fucking comic. A 16 page fucking comic! That's my required final for Narrative Illustration. It has to be good enough to show to a client, though. Kill me.

So I'm currently in the process of making ultimate.... process.... These are rough, and not done >: ( Just a sneak peak of my piece of shit >: O


lol motorcycles I've been practicing my backgrounds and perspective >; O


The new Beacon! And a underdeveloped pistol



Protagonist. I don't like her too much.

Oh yeah, STELLAR. That's all for now. See you babes after my NY adventure ;D

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I decided that, out of all these fancy next gen consoles and convenient portables, The PlayStation1 is still the greatest system ever

Y/N? CONSOLE WAR TYME. RITE NAOW!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/26255364/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/26255364/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 13:13:11 PDT lol it's beacon of course. I wanted to make a portrait or something of him scowling XD


[link] If you guys ever want to see some of my art that isn't on here you can look at my photobucket. It will definitely be updated more frequently than here ;_; I mainly use photobucket for unfinished work or works in progress. And I'll use DA for my finished stuff.

I'm pretty chill with being friends on facebook as well [link]

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/25514916/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/25514916/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 10:55:06 PDT ! I'll be starting next wednesday and working in a new store opening near my house Yesterday was pretty ridiculous too, it marked my 5th year at Market Basket! ......But, now I can finally move on and have an awesome (retail) job! 8D This is a serious turning point!

OFF SUBJECT>

So like no updates in a while, pretty gross. I've been avoiding my computer. And I've been trying to exercise by going jogging everyday, even though it's been raining every. single. day. for the past 3 weeks. But hey, I can jog farther and longer than I could a month ago ^0^

Anime boston was amazing, I had a lot of fun and met a shit load of awesome people <3 I was in artist's alley like the whole 3 days, and it was a blast. I made some interesting on spot commissions, haha x3 And drew some anime portraits. Yay!

I have been drawing, but only in my sketch book. Using a lot of watercolors and inking pens/ colored pencils/ Trying to draw with pencil again. It feels good to finally get back into using traditional materials I'm gonna try to start making traditional and digital paintings everyday too!

And that's about it, for now :3

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I'm table # 132. Sharing with Just stop by and say hi if anyone is going to be thur x3! It would be awesome to meet people !!!!

HOLYFUCKINGSHITYAY! I'm super nervous and excited >: D

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Bigger versions: [link]
[link]

That's basically all the work I made this semester. Even though half of it is on here already, they look pretty cool all together... I'm not really that proud of it though... I'm kinda disappointed in myself, and some of the comments I got from my reviewers weren't very uplifting XDDD

Last semester, I got a really encouraging review, and was told I needed to work on my backgrounds, narrative, compositions, and p.o.v....and how I could experiment and apply that to my work. I really struggled this semester to apply that. I tried really hard, but I'm still really not that happy in the end with the outcome... I don't know, I might be being too hard on myself, but I'm still not satisfied, I don't think I ever will be. I always have these internal battles with myself :<

Today, I got the same exact opinions and comments out of all 3 people who reviewed me. "you need to draw different types of people" times 3. That's it ._. I already know I need to work on that, I got told that earlier in the semester when we had our 'sketchbook reviews'... Grrrr... I DO like criticism, I was just hoping for something not so obvious. More like, all the things I'm CLEARLY still weak at, and how to fix it. ._. asjdjfgkghkjndsldslkmg One of my teachers said my human figure skills are beyond sophomore level right now..(stuff you guys haven't seen XD; ) but that pisses me off, because I want to be able to do more than pretty portraits and people. I'm just pissed because I've always focused on people, because I love nothing more than drawing people. I have always had this intense fascination and innate obsession with drawing them. But now I'm developing new interests, and I want to be good at other things too, like perspective, landscapes, nature, animals, transportation, the stuff I've already mentioned, etc....

I was completely stumped too, by this one comment, "Your digital finishes are much better than you traditional ones" WHEN THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN D: ? Last semester I was practically told by a teacher I shouldn't even use digital as a medium anymore LOL D: akwarddddd XDDD It's like I improve in one aspect but fucking fall hard and behind in another DX

LOLOLOL.It's probably become apparent to you now that I'm generally always pissed at my work XD; But ONE of the thing that murders me on the inside, is my visual communication skills. My teacher explained that even if you draw good, you still need to be able to visually communicate... And when I hear that stuff. I sink into my chair and want to cry XDDDDD I'am far from being a strong visual communicator. I really need to work on that.

I'am sooo emo right now XDXD... I still have 3 essays to write and Anime boston is next weekend and I still have a very small amount of artwork XDDDDDD :<<<< blah blahaka

But either way, I overall think I've come a long way this semester. I fucking tried my best to incorporate backgrounds, something I've been terrified of forever, into my work. And I'm glad I finally feel like I can. I CAN DO IT >: D

I'll just have to suck it up and practice really hard this summer!

Oh and if anyone has a critique on anything, It's welcome :3 <3 It won't make me emo or angry, It will make me want to do better I only get angry at myself XD

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/24417639/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/24417639/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 20:26:55 PDT
My current list of bands that I listen to (don't laugh XD) are mostly jrock bands.... XDXDXDD But I have some random stuff like metal/hardcore/pop/game/etc... in between, and I don't know too much on genres, but that's why I'am making this journal, to learn from you guys XDXXXD And other potential ear candy out there. ;D I want new types of music!!! But I don't know where to start DX;;

Anyway, I generally already listen to Dir en grey (durhur :E), as I lay dying, Amon Amarth, sigh, nogod, -OZ-, Versailles, The Piass, Phantasmagoria, Metis Gretel, MUCC, Despairs ray, Sadie, Deathgaze, An cafe, Ayabie, Amedeus, Nega, Mannequin, GIRUGAMESH ,job for a cowboy, black dahlia murder, vidoll, viored, Velvet eden, Versus the Night, Unsraw, A-ha, Screw, Rentrer en soi, Raphael, Matenrou Opera, Lynch, luna Sea, Lycaon, Lolita23Q, gazette, existtrace, Dio distraught overlord, dethklok, deluhi, bullet for my valentine, dari, alice nine, anubis, boris, D.... Can't think of the rest right now.....XDXDXD But see, mostly jrock, I feel a little lame XDDDDD it's sad ._.

I've already been exposed to metal bands like (kreator, slayer, belphegor, exodus, evile....It's so hard to remember names xD) through concerts or friends... I like them, but I don't know where to start with material >_o... I've been meaning to look them up and shit, haven't gotten around to it XDXDXD.... I'm still a noob @_@;

URRGH. I'm open to a lot of music, I can listen to ANYTHING at random times...(However it's different if it's gonna go on my ipod eventually) I totally like music, that I can't understand XD LOL. If it's in a different language, I generally enjoy it more XD (or if vocalist can vomit/shout/scream/die/explode to a point where it's not even words anymore xDDDD) But even understandable stuff is fine too. I'm just the type of person, who could care less about deeper meanings and symbolic lyrics...

I'm also not into radio hits, I like underground stuff ;D Anything that's heavy, fast, has a good beat/catchy/poppy/ anything amazing that I don't know about. If it's good, link me to an example xD <3 Please don't show me classic rock bands, cause I know them all already XD

So... if you guys wanna suggest stuff, just post links to SONGS/BANDS YOU THINK ARE AMAZING to youtube, or somewhere I can listen. Tell me why they are awesome, and why I should like them XDDD. I don't care about genre, as long as it friggin sounds awesome XD rock/metal/techno/dance/weird/crazy/pop/game/anime/soundtrack/ even rap if it sounds cool. WHATEVERRRR!!!! GOGOGOGOGO!!!! And maybe I'll change my mind on a few things My taste is always changing XD

Lastly please refrain from enya 8D

Sorry this was so long XD.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/24263115/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/24263115/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 19:13:38 PDT O<

p.s. My favorite is still FFVII and will always be FFVII (Brilliant game, brilliant, fantastically amazingly amazingness of awesomeness that is amazing)

I rest my argument. But FFIX is runner up if not tied, cause I love the design of that game too. Holy hell. Final Fantasy is the reason I want to become a concept artist for video games, it's my wacky dream XD But it's even wackier that I want to be better than Tetsuya Nomura one day XD That man is amazing, but one day! That is my goal. To take over Square-Enix. We will see.(Or make designs for games for a company in general XD) I'am still at lvl 3. I need to become like lvl 8090990. I don't want to be like him, though. I want to be myself, to be able to make really nicely rendered, but highly original concept designs XD I just gotta keep working!!!!

Bleh, all this talk and no new work ;_; School takes up all my time. However, I'am so pumped. This summer, I'am going everywhere to do DIRECT OBSERVATION of the world. And improve like crazy! THOUGH.... MY SCANNER. SORTA. WORKS AGAIN. So, sketches soon

And. This weekend, I need to see the dragonball movie.

The end!

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However 8D..........

My friend who is utterly amazing got us a table in the ARTISTS ALLEY OMFG 8D!!!! We will be sharing it and stuff. So I will hopefully be selling some prints and possibly doing anime caricatures or something and meeting all those cool super amazing godly artists and stuff ahhhhhh I've always wanted to be apart of the artists alley and I can't believe I actually am this year I can't wait! I'm still shocked at the fact we got a seat AAHHHHH!!! XDXDXDXD
SO I think instead of cosplaying kaoru again, I'm just gonna be Light yagami, cause my hair is similar at the moment, and it's EASY XD. I plan to sit at my table with a name tag that says, "GOD" in big letters, but I'm afraid that might effect sales XDXDXDXD

If anyone is dropping by AB this year, come and visit me in the artists alley :3! CAUSE I RULE AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23558322/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23558322/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 14:29:24 PST
not.

XD <3

I was gonna scan in some sketches and works I've made, but my scanner is officially D.E.A.D. It just decided to jump off a cliff and not work. SOOOO unfortunately no new work until my scanner stops being lame.

Like srsly wtf? When I try to scan somthing it chops my picture in half or only 1/3 is scanned and rotated.

It's like the MISSING NO. pokemon virus made a home inside my scanner.

DAMN IT!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23490112/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23490112/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 13:38:36 PST
SO BAD.

It's not even funny D: I have so much schoolwork Dx whyyyy meee!!!

Though, new england weather, and shitty 3-day snow storms/blizzards that produce 17 inches of useless snow are worse. XD

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Chin pubes. Track suits. And speed lines, can't get more manly than that guys 8D!

This is the last time, I promise. As extra I have another... I can't get over that no matter how many times I hear Dozing Green egrisch, I never understand what kyo is saying. NEVER. It's mission impossible, until I whip out my little lyric book. And then I forget it XD

To accompany this is a lovely picture of kyo:



"MEH-SO-REISCH, BYE, THROSH...EYSCH....

THRHOSH BUHCK EATIN EYSH.

AYE BREATHING.... JUH STUP AI CALM MYE HEART AN IH JUH SHA-SHA-EDS AH TEE EAR.

THA BRIGH AN RAFRESHIN SUNRIGHTF.

MIXJESES IHSELF LUAO-AN-LUAO A LONEH WRIF, THA SUHN AF ZAH RAIHN. (SOUND OF THE RAIN)

MYEH TOWNA HEARH LAT IHT DANCE NAOW.... AII QUASCHTION THA AH BEEEEWDENCE

THEH WHIHHH VOICESTCH, REAKE OUT MYE BRATHSCH.

IN THE SEWERRRR!!!!! (in the sewer, huh kyo? XD)

TDHA AB-BSCENE EHPOSURE OHF DAH WOUN.

BECAMES NATHIN RIHTHHHH DOHMAHS OWHEN WIN

YOUAH MELTING. YOU-AH-ARE HEARH ISH MELTING.

A-A-A-AAA-A-A-AAAA-AA-A-A-A-A-AAAAAAAAHHHH WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

*ugly sounds for a minute*

RAHGHHJRHRTRRRRRRRRRRR

RAJRHARHRADISHRABRHGBRHGHRRRRR" *end of song*

Okay, I'm done, I really have a headache now.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23189784/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/23189784/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 07:33:46 PST
On another note. This next bit is completely necessary It's a saturday morning, and my mom and brother left for 2 weeks, I'm kinda bored, being here alone XD

Here's Glass Skin; Kyogrisch: BARINTAINU DAY SPECIAL

"IHT CAMES AN SLOWLY STAIN MYE HEARH

DAT'S BEN CRUOLH, AURL RONE AN SO TRIGHRY CROSCHED

ZA SINS AREU SCARRTER EVERYWHERE,

DEHY A ROUN MEY,

AI CAN SEEH IHT

IT FRAINLY COMES JUST CRASCHIN DOWN

RIN THRIS SAD AN FOR-GOH-TUN RITTLE TOWN

ZEF TRUZCE WE TEND TO ROOK NEAZE WAYFFLE FROM NAH TEL LEE (-srsly wtf. Lessons plz)

AI OPEN UH MAHYE WINNNNS OHF GLASS

UH AN TORDS ZAEF WINFD MERLTED FUTCHA

SO JUS PREASE DON'T GO,

AAAAHH PREASE DON'T GO.

BE, CROSH TO YOU,

AI AM NOW FOR-GE-TUN THA COLORS OF YOUARE TAEEERS AN RAOVEE

BLABBLAH PREASEEE DUN GOOO.

WAAAAHHH

PREASEEE DUN GO.

HORLDIN ON CROSCH TO WAH RIES A HEAH."

I forget the rest XD

I hope everyone has a barintainu

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]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/22550307/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/22550307/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 18:51:50 PST Gonna see all that sexy renaissance art ^_^! I cannot wait to see David in person D8!!!!!

Also, by the time I get back, I'll be back to school again the following day D8, but by then I will have new art for you guys ! I'm just being fussy and taking forever on new stuff <333 aka (srsly trying to not suck)

Anyways! See you all when I get back! Make beautiful arts while I'm away 8D

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/22335923/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/22335923/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 15:29:01 PST WAH IM 19 >_O oh man! 1 more year and I'm not a teen anymore DX
And 2 more years until I can legally sit at a bar and drink.

Anyways I feel older. But not really.

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21990939/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21990939/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 02:10:23 PST
This site is a killer, the more I observe art here the more I want to kick my ass. And battle, and challenge everyone XD

After the 17th, I'm going serious. What I mean by that is with my art. I'm totally not satisfied, and I need to become more 'disciplined' artist like one of my professors explained this semester.

Another professor, who is amazing, explained how the stuff I make now is like stuff I would be making in high school, I completely agree. Some of his last advice was for me to just draw from observation, benefit and become a better artist I'm gonna try that more.

Like it's not just that, I look at my stuff and it really doesn't have that.... professional quality. well, hmm. like, asjntdngn
XD Like. I totally need to do more thinking, rather than just making RANDOM things, plan out more And improve.

I really just need to LEVEL UP though XD LIKE LV. 100. MASTERED LEVEL.

is so on this mission with me, we totally kick each other in the ass. REALLY. And perform the no sleep dance with an L plushie

This semester I totally tried to remove myself from that cartoony/anime style I normally draw like in my sketch book... By far my faces have become a little bit more realistic, and anatomy has improved.. I just need to reflect more on what I learned this semester and also draw more from observation... I will show this stuff soon <3

I know this sounds like I'm just saying things, but I'm really determined to change IM READY TO WALK THE WALK!

I JUST GOTTA FINNISH THIS LATE ESSAY SHIT XD

Okay I feel better.....I should get back to my essay XD

.....I should really get a LJ account so I can do my complaining there, instead of soiling my DA page XDDDXDXD

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21961897/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21961897/ Sat, 13 Dec 2008 10:27:34 PST
I did not know this until multiple professors told me so DX

99% of my traditional work that has not seen the light of day is copic/marker >_o;;;

WHAT IS THAT CRAP. I pay 5$ per marker and in the end they SCREW ME OVER AND FADE XD. WTF. IS.

THAT.

CRAP.

Did anyone else know this ;___;

So guys, if you use markers, whatever you do. Please. Keep your marker drawings buried. LITERALLY BURIED. It would be so tragic to have them fade DX

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Everything is in sections, so you don't have to read this entire thing XD

Before the Show:

ADVICE FROM MOM RIGHT BEFORE I LEFT: "VICKI, IF KAORU ASKS YOU TO GO WITH HIM INTO THE BACKROOM, DON'T GO!!! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT DISEASES THEY HAVE!" ....... >_O;;; srsly wtf.

I arrived at Wilbur Theatre around 3:10 with just BUG (for the first 2 hours) waited in line for 4 hours until 7:15 when the doors finally opened.

BECCA MANDAAZ MOMO and a few other buddies I invited joined me eventually.

While we were waiting outside some random woman was walking around passing out mini cure magazines, and promoting Jrock revolution. EVERYONE FLOCKED TO GET D'ESPA POSTERS OOOOOUUUU HOW I HATE THEM They were also selling UROBOROS outside early too, I bought a copy for $15 in hopes of getting it signed by a few members afterwards

It was super cold too :< Just standing there after an hour I was already tired, poor buggy was shaking I tried to warm her with hugs ToT

We were standing next to the alleyway where Deg secretly entered 83 And saw kaoru come out several times for a smoke. Also this little angry kyo like man with a kyo face and kyo-esque hair and big white kyo shoes was walking around looking at the line... And smiling, and walking by, and would come down the alley, and look at us, and walk back. He was the evil kyo stunt double.

The Human Abstract:

It began with the Human Abstract, who were pretty decent. The freak of nature screamo emo vocalist stage dived on a pile of girls next to me. The maniacal little bastard XD One of their guitarists had super dread locks that he flung around.

Best part: The vocalist freak said "I WANNA SEE A FUCKING PIT", rolled into the next song, and 2 people moshed XD

Oh it was fun guys, but after 4 songs it got pretty boring.

THE STUNT DOUBLES:

There was a Kyo (from earlier) and Kaoru stunt double preparing the equipment. It was annoying.

DIR EN GREY, AND THEIR GREATNESS:

By the time DEG was gonna perform, I was exactly in the middle, 2-3 feet infront of kyo and only 2 girls from the guard rail ^o^ I remained there the rest of the night

It was really fun being that close, I made eye contact with Kyo multiple times XD It was extremely awkward, and I couldn't help but burst out laughing everytime. He would be doing that badass glare of his, where he lifts his head back and bulges his eyes, or just squints them to try and look intimidating or scary. All while this dramatic light from above created mysterious shadows on his face, he would scan the crowd trying to not make it look obvious. Then he'd just pause and glare into someones eyes XD Sometimes I glared right back and LAUGHED. XD OH KYO, YOU LOOKED AT ME, IM FLATTERED <3

Dir en grey played a total of 21 songs I brought a piece of paper and pen with me so I got them in correct order XDD

Setlist: Best part of the night.
1.Sa Bir
2.Obscure -Toshiya flung his bass around like a retard XD
3.ASOM -AND FLEW SORCERER, ONE TWO MAKE PIE! XD <3 (That parody on youtube h... ]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21444572/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/21444572/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 18:58:49 PST
ALL MY DATA, FILES, MUSIC, SHIT, GONE. AHAHAHA.

(luckily....some of it was saved)

Well. It got fixed. And I got it back today from APPLE.

I MISSED MY MAKU

TOMORROW I SEE DEGGER.

AHHHH


AHHHHHHHH


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM GONNA TRY TO TALK TO THEM IN JAPANESE AFTER THE SHOW. IT WILL BE HORRID. AND THEY WILL CRY. YES.

I really cannot wait though.

AND WTF

SORRY FOR NO ART.

EVER.

IT SUCKS.

I NEED CHRISTMAS BREAK NOW.

HHHRRRR SHRURUR SHURRRRRRRERR HUUHUHRRR WAAAAAAAAHKKKKKK BUFUHGURRRRRRR BURUGHR URRRRR RBUBRBRUBRRBU URRRUR RURURUR BUUBRBURRRRR BAAAAAAAHHHHHHHK RHAINRIRRR -kyo, gaika chemumununushashiblah.

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Shorter commute *_*

BUT YEAH.

I start my sophomore year @ Mass art in JUST Illustration, September 3rd :3 I'm so excited and scared xDDD I can't wait for the new experiences and challenges I'll face >: D

Also, I will not be submitting any of my artwork for a while. I wont have anytime to make the stuff I want to XD! I need to seriously focus this year. Hardcore, and learn everything I can. Illustration is an incredibly competitive field, and from the looks of it, is even harder to find a job in DX I know I still have 3 more years. But, that doesn't mean I'm gonna slack off and waste this opportunity

If I do submit any artwork it will be commissions I have from a few people

Other than that, I'll still loom on DA once in a while xD hehehe...

I hope everyone had a good summer ^o^!

>:3

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19894468/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19894468/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 10:03:03 PDT You must see Dir en grey [link]

I'll be @ the Boston show 8D

Oh yeah.... and I'm busy making fun artworks and drowning my brother in a lake XDDDD

p.s. Glass skin sample is out ^o^ [link] 8D~ SEXY ASS SHIT

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19726479/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19726479/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 21:30:37 PDT
+++++UROBOROS+++++ [link]

A NEW ALBUM OMG OMG OMGOMGOMGOMGOGOMGOG DX DX DXXXXXXX

NEW. 13 TRACKS. YES. YESSSSSSSS.

8D For those of you who haven't heard OMFOMGGOMFGOMFG FUCK FUCK FUCK YES.

And also a U.S. TOUR.

BUGGY and BECCA We are so skipping class and going to see them.

AGAGAGHHHHHH I DON'T CARE IF I JUST MADE AN ENTIRE JOURNAL IN CAPS LOCKS ABOUT A DIR ALBUM, THIS IS THE BEST NEWS IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19587301/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19587301/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 09:15:38 PDT
And I'm fucking obsessed with death note >O<

That is all.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19236673/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19236673/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 13:56:42 PDT
.... and some ice cream.

Lets say I might take commissions in the future. Would anyone be interested Dx

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19090833/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/19090833/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:34:56 PDT
ROFLZ.

So I was surfing the web. Bored. Like 5 minutes ago. And I remembered. I made a random account a million years ago. When I was...14 or 15. One of those. [link] This was my first time using markers ever. LMAO. Not only that. It has my very early years using photoshop, and my attempts at coloring.[link] Wtf is this shit? Dodge and burn tool over load. BTW I used to draw noses on the side/falling of the cheek.

Oh man. SO I GOT A SECOND JOB APPARENTLY. I will be waitressing at a Japanese Steakhouse. Which is literally right next to my other job. My new boss Jack is Chinese (I'm not racist) And we sorta have communication problems. The guy is really hard to understand. Between his broken english and changing plans every time I talk to him or have a training appointment >_<;; I'm getting hit with lapses of depression and anger. Cause ugh. He tells me one thing, and then changes it, after I end up showing up to get trained. I keep fighting myself in my head, like where did I go wrong ToT....This has happened twiceeeee. ˜Â˜ıÔÓÓ√ÔÏ©˚Ò So hopefully something works out Dx

-_- meh. Good news is though. That Dethklok concert was amazing. I met the band members afterwards and got them to sign my ticket. Half way through Chimaira I made it to the guard rail and got crushed and pushed back 10 feet. But it rocked. And I felt like I was bathing in a sea of metal and sweat. And had sex with everyone in the room. OMG. Such a good concert!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18863775/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18863775/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:32:33 PDT
Tomorrow morning I'm going into my old high school to scan in the finished FF9 commission All done yay!(Cause they have a big scanner)

Then I'm gonna hang out with buggy and do nothing, but have a lot of fun and do nothing but have fun like we always do XD Can't wait!!!

I'm so hyper cause I went for a super run. I love my sneakers.

I've been going to sleep at 4am lately. It's fun. Then I wake up at 12, an hour before work. Very fun, cause I'm in a good mood.

FUN FUN.

I've also been playing FF9 and trying to actually beat it. Before I only got to the end, and died every time. So I started a new game. It's funny, cause I like it better than FF7 now, so I guess it's my favorite Final Fantasy now.

June 24th I'm randomly seeing dethklok in concert with a good friend. lol cartoon band. That will be fun.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18654411/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18654411/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 23:10:25 PDT Got my license :> *party*

Lately artwork has been pretty shitty... I'm working on making more developed pieces, and some death note and FF fanart ;D I made a Misa fanart , and it came out like shit ; oh well. That's okay. It's okay to fail. I'll learn from it! AND GET BETTER AGRGHH. I'm determined to improve >: D

The end :>

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18255752/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18255752/ Sat, 10 May 2008 10:46:34 PDT
School's D.O.N.E. and so early too. lmao. I made it through freshman year ;o; I didn't get run over by cars, or shot! YESSS!

I still have homework for 1 class though. 10 page essay, and final take home test. 300+ pages of reading.

Other than that, my finals went quite well. I'll have to show you guys the stuff I did this year ;D It's pretty rad.

I also walked into my job today. And decided. Grocery stores suck. I need a new job. I plan to find a second job soon. And eventually move on to 3. Cause. now that I have no school, I'm going to be bored out of my mind, sitting in my house.

So hopefully I can get some new art up here after this weekend...

My messages have also been backed-up forever, like 1923, now I have the time to answer them all @_@ I'm going to start fixing that xO I apologize ;o;

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18088985/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/18088985/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 16:02:12 PDT
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-MAY 4TH I'm participating in the Walk for hunger.

-MAY 5TH I start Driver's ED: FOR 2 WEEKS.

-I GET OUT FOR THE SUMMER: MAY 12TH

-IM GETTING MY LICENSE IN MAY: At some point.

-I also start plugging in 30 hours a week at work, and I'm looking for a second job (SAVINGFORACAR)

Alot is happening in the merry month of may, I EXPECT SUNSHINE AND HAPPY CHILDREN SKIPPING DOWN MY STREET SINGING SPICE GIRL SONGS.

the end

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17924582/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17924582/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:52:37 PDT
I FUCKING LOVE THAT SHOW OMG. Today I watched the best episode ever called "MIND POLLUTION" and it's basically the world of captain planet getting addicted to drugs XD

This show is apparently for kids, and it started off with linka's cousin and he bought drugs from the rat guy named 'scum' and the cousin got high off the drugs called 'BLISS' and by the end off the episode he like died by swallowing a whole jar of the BLISS pills at once. Which never happens in kid shows. He also jumped through a window and sliced his arms open and bleed all over the floor, they showed it poring out of him. GOD I LOVE IT. So ridiculous XD I've never laughed so hard in my life 8D

They even had kid friendly lines like "GET THEM YOU DRUGGIES" and Kwami (one of the plant people) told wheeler (another planet pest) "Wheeler you cannot go through those attics without getting hurt" WITH A RIDICULOUS ACCENT. It was amazing....

And they keep on poping the BLISS pills. And Scum keep on advertising his drugs saying "Come on, get HIGH, IT'S COOL."

WTF........

BEST SHOW EVR.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17720279/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17720279/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 17:54:40 PDT Home work is being pilled like dirt into a wheel barrel and then dumped on me D: I'm also the biggest procrastinator ever haha.

So I want to make some varied art and stuff I'm gonna randomly make some dir, dbz, and kh fanart. Cause I can. LOL. Then some original stuff. And I still have to make that wig tutorial D: man. There's so much I want to do, but I always feel I have 0 time I still have a few more cosplay pics to add as well XD

zomg. I failed a midterm test. And tomorrow I have to give a poetry presentation :< save meee


P.S. I LOVE BARNEY. It's the best show ever. I can't get enough of it!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17516211/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17516211/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 19:52:24 PDT x O *vomit*

Today was quite the productive day. I chose my classes for next year. Got the ones I wanted (BTW I switched to being just an Illustration major, rather double)I called my towns Driver's Ed program and set up for an appointment in may so I can finally start driving I also completed my taxes! :3 And went food shopping and bought a lot of fruit. Yummy. So delicious 8D!

Such an interesting day!

Mmm.. Death note has finally managed to touch my heart also.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17385460/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17385460/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 19:00:00 PDT

Finally!

70+ hours D: I worked hard on it all week >: D
I will make a tutorial SOON! The convention is this weekend, I gotta finish my outfit!!! I'll show pictures of me cosplaying after the convention



]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17276020/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17276020/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 17:57:23 PDT
No.... XD I'm really just here in my house. Working on my cosplay! ANIME BOSTON IS IN 2 WEEKS HOLY SHITZ.

So, I've been constructing my cosplay, and my friends cosplay, since sunday :> I'll be working on them the rest of the week. I just can't wait till there done XD I'll show you guyz, and you'll be blinded with awe.

WOOT WOOT.

XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17048114/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/17048114/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 19:39:44 PST



Kaoru wig is killing me XD It's only 1/3 done But I'm proud of it's progress. @_@ I think I've put over 30 hours into it -_-

Other than that... I'm pretty happy

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16976316/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16976316/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 11:44:31 PST Yeah, like the title says. Not only was gypped today, but I declared my MAJOR. YES. I'M DOUBLE MAJORING. Animation+Illustration. THAT MEANS I'll be in college for 5-6 years BUT YEAH WHOOOOO!!!

So on with the gypping: I hate UTRECHT. I'm never shopping for art supplies there again I had bought some 37ml tubes for my oil painting class. Never used them, and decided to return them today (because, I need big 150ml tubes) So a 150ml tube is the same amount as 4, 37ml tubes for half the price! What a good deal.

So mind you, when I returned these UN-USED PERFECT CONDITION TUBES.... The stupid cashier put them in as damaged products, so I only got back half of what I should have. And I didn't realize this trickery until I got home >: O

SO I REFUSE TO EVER GO THERE AGIANAINAINANAIN RAYAHANBKAYRAKRYRARRRRRR >: O *fuming* This is the 3rd time they've like gypped me >:U

Besides, Blick's is cheaper, REMEMBER THAT. And stay away from Utrechtsux.

The end vicki

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16906831/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16906831/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:53:18 PST
D: yeah. I swore alot. D: And it was before J-rock had graced my life too (well it had, but I didn't bother with it) So I was a hardcore Pink Floyd junkie. I ate led zeppelin for breakfast. Not cool. I miss those crazy old days. Maybe I can recover my old internet personality. I used to be funny, wth happened D:

DAMN IT. COME BACK PERSONALITY COME BACCCCKKK AGRHRHRR.

no. It was more immature than funny though, hmm maybe a mix. I can't decide. Like my major. Animation or Illustration? OHOOHOHOHOHOHO. lol no. Toughest decision of my life, and it can't be made. A double major is the route I'm heading for

I'm gonna try to shit some art out of my ass this weekend, cause I have a day off :3 Either that or try and finish my wig @_@

Damn everyone who has February vacation >: O It's not fair!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16871075/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16871075/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 20:34:40 PST
LALALALALA so. I hate my idiot drawing teacher, she's the cause of my lack of sleep. I blame her. Lame maza fooching projects. She's the worst teacher ever. @x@ My contacts are popping out of my eyes. WTH color sucks!!! HRHAHRHRHRJ! I've been sitting on my bed for like 5 hours mixing colors. sux.

Omg. I suck at oil painting. Harder than I thought dshkfnnf... It's ridiculous O_O waaaaarhthrrr. LIKE I had black and white. And I could only make one shade of grey for some reason. No matter how much white I added. same stupid shade of grey. LAME. argrhrhrgrhm..


RHAHTYAHJKRKJTJKTJY. Got a whole day of class tomorrow 6:30am-8pm D: kill me plz.


<3 vicki <3

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16790577/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16790577/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 19:23:07 PST Here's and awesome project I did today. 2 minutes of video in 4 hours of work @_@


[link]


It's a project for my Visual Language 2 class! We are learning all about video. And this project was incredibly fun.


It's really funny! I learn "How to Walk" XDDD It's quite retarded though.... eh



Enjoy !


(p.s. I'm the person who falls and can't walk, and is Bug and she is the shorter girl who helps me overcome..... my problem XDDDD) And the one who taped it is another student in or class! She came up with the idea! The original theme was "How to.." And we had to take that and make it into something...... Also we faked our voices XD

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16603459/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16603459/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 19:54:45 PST Something to do with presidential election about candidates, like the top 3 running for the Dem. and Republican party. And their views on what issues are most important. Essays about it and whatnot, boring stuff. SRSLY All I need to know IS WHERE THERE FROM AND WHICH ISSUES ARE MOST IMPORTANT. BUT NO. Wikipedia decided their whole life story is priority.

I can say, I've definitely learned alot in the past few hours. But I still don't care XD

Anyways! I just want to apologize T_T! I'm not going to be able to update for a very long time The load of college homework is very stressful and time-consuming D: I have to stay on top and focus this semester :3 Not to mention it's getting difficult to live with my mom lately. It's just constant fighting, and fighting. Not too healthy an environment.

Ugh and the work load!!! My classes are great so far though. I'll be alot more productive in my classes than I was last semester. All because I don't have the dreaded form study. And I'm not learning stuff I already learned in highschool. My Visual Language 2 class has alot to do with video, which I'm incredibly ecstatic about. It's really making it harder to choose what I want to major in.

I can't decide between Illustration or animation. I wanted to try a double major. But I heard it's suicide. So I might major+minor (but apparently that's deadly too) @_@ What ever XD I'll make a decision eventually, but we declare February 28th or something. It's so close.

On another note. January 29th My Market Basket was suppose to receive it's new registers. Now we have to wait till April. Damn it >: O argh we are the second to last store to get them D: lmao, it's going through a stage of mcdonalization. mmmm I admire that word. mcdonalization. (aka when a company has multiples of stores set up all the same) like every mcdonalds you go to, the store looks the same and the food tastes the same. SAME ALL SAME.

The end.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16541453/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16541453/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 18:06:38 PST
Just wanted to let you know, I'm alive, but I can't work on stuff I want to work on until I get some side jobs done. So drawing fun stuff will have to wait. I'm still cleaning my room too. Argh. poop.

<3

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16473860/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16473860/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 11:25:25 PST

Also a question :3 Because I'm piss broke, and guessing more than half of you are Dir en grey/anime/game fans. Would you be interested in some merchandise I (MIGHT POSSIBLY) sell on ebay? I'm not a new seller or anything, I'm just broke and have shit lying around that I really don't need/want I already made a poll about this, but it would be nice to have discussions... Maybe I can make a few of you happy, so that's why I'd be willing to sell <3333

POSSIBLY SELLING Dir en grey: Dragon fly photobook, a doujinshi, magazines that mention them, trading cards, stickers, posters. (I want to keep my babies T_T) GAH <^<^<^<^<^<^ THIS IS A POSSIBILITYYYYY @_@ AGHHHHHHH *rips out hair* ( I'm emotionally attached XDDDD )

Game: God of War.

TOTALLY SELLING Anime: Avenger (complete), GTO vol 9, Mirage of Blaze (complete)

Games: Castlevania: Lament of innocence [link] pokemon Blue version [link] (They are both up right now)Hope I'm not too expensive D:

MAN! I'll even take commissions D: I'll sell originals of drawings! Just pay me!!!! <3 lol *_*



I have a ton of shit, just lemme know, if any of you are interested <3

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16422813/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16422813/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 19:06:42 PST
So I've been playing video games.. And watching anime. And reading manga. All day. For the past 4 days. It's very... peaceful.

So mmmmhmm *nod nod*

So lack of updates will continue. I'm busy being lazy.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16368798/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16368798/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 08:07:11 PST

So lately I've been watching anime with my younger brother (FINALLY)

It's taken me YEARSSSSSS for him to actually sit in a room and watch it with me @_@ He's really stubborn D:< He has seen shows before, like dbz, ranma 1/2, and tenchi.... but he refuses anything else XD

So we watched GTO aka great teacher onizuka, and the kid's become obsessed. He loves it XD Then I tell him "well if you like this anime.... Then watch this one" and he agree's and ends up liking it! IT'S AMAZING. finally JESUSS. Now he likes trigun *_* YES. Sucess.

Anyways *_* A friend of mine warned me that I would grow out of it, and I did for a while THOUGH! I've been watching alot of it lately, I bought some used ones. And yeah. I feel like when I was in 6th grade and discovered it for the first time xDDDDDD So my bro's my anime buddy now XD YAYYYY! IT'S BECOME AMAZING AGAIAINANANAIAN

ugh and solty rei is shit D:

The end.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16191526/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16191526/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 18:59:24 PST I'm very happy!

I had a really good day too. I went to visit my grandparents, and had lunch and cake over their house (which was so delicious) I got a wallet that actually holds my loose change and a poetry book made me this awesome gift too!!! <3333 I love them so much :3 I re-lived a few childhood memories and went to this art store I love and bought myself some new watercolor supplies (which has become my new favorite medium XD )

Then later on I went with my 5 best friends, brother, and maza to outback for dinner It was also delicious. We had a really good time

Omgggg... and I bought my first scratch tickets, and failed miserably XD


I CAN'T BELIEVE IM 18. I remember when I first turned 14!

The end <3

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16080697/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/16080697/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 16:26:09 PST

HOPE YOU GET LOTS OF PRESENTSSSSS <3333333 And eat alot of junk food... And ham/turkey/prime rib XD or what ever you have on chirstmas :>

I had a customer yesterday... She bought a cake. It said" "Happy birthday Jesus" (she was such a weirdo >_<...) Damn people and their last minutes shopping >.<;;


well anyways...I gotz to clean my room, and satan wrap presents.... And play mind consuming video games...


MERRY CHRISTMAS/HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUSUSSSSZZ<3333

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15894178/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15894178/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 18:09:21 PST And made alot of new friends xD I had a great time... I'm gonna miss alot of people T_T I've also learned so much from my awesome professors xD

Ahhh.... NOW I HAVE FREE TIME YESSSSSSSSSSS. FINALLLY HOLY CRAP!!!!!!

I'll update soon with some cool stuffs/art trades ^_^ And I've got a cosplay to start working on xD And... My dreaded Market Basket job to return too @_@;; Hooray! HOORAY!!!! *vomit*

Fuck fucking fukin nnuufff :>

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15813066/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15813066/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 19:32:31 PST .< I'm gonna fall over @_@;;; Stupidness D:<

mofo collages and sculptures and political posters.. oh my D:< (one good thing is though I get to use pictures of deg to... show how the media uses violence.. in my collage xD)

So anways @_@ I gots a lovely art trade from kotsu :> I love it so much xD I have actually a few more art trades to work on >.< I cant start those until after the 11th But that's okay. Cause then I can really focus on them And I don't go back till the 23rd of January >: D ScoreHH! Other than that things are going good :3

p.s. I'm so hardcore. I haven't sleep in 2 days >:B (this is gonna include tonight) Deaf fo WALLLLLLLLLRRRRLLL!!!

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15749898/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15749898/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 13:08:02 PST
OR.. I'm just a little worried about my art history class D: I kinda bombed the 2 huge exams we had and failed this ekphrasis assignment.. Cause my vocab is as broad as a 3rd graders xD

I've still got some work to do though I have to make a portable shelter for form study, redo a collage for Visual language, and.... read about food for my seminar. Fun fun. almost done lalalalalala YESSSSS.... Second semester is going to be a blast. I have all morning classes. It's gonna be sick.

My mom today started breaking out the christmas gear too. It scares me Wtf happened to the year? And we go this huge ass tree yesterday. I always have to pick out the biggest fattest tree's. I hate the wimpy little ones >: D

Agh, and my birthday is the 31st! I'm finally gonna be 18! YES >: D

p.s. hot apple cider is delicioussss *_*

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15639161/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15639161/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 17:41:09 PST

I also have some projects to do. An art trade <3 And a huge art history test to study for xD


Also. I'm going to start pushing my artwork out of my comfort zone. It's time to change >:3 No more glamor shots. I'm going to reaaaaalllllllyyy try and push myself, and make decent things! Prepare for backgrounds! HARDCORE >: O

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15499418/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15499418/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 20:16:30 PST
This was my last nude figure drawing day. In my drawing class. We had 4 days total. My teachers name is vuajua ... I can't spell it... or (vuwa-jaa) something. BUT SHE IS THE BEST DRAWING TEACHER EVAAARRRR. fo realz <3 She finally got me to break my anime style! Finalllyyy!!!

Our last nude brought in her 4 month old baby girl, and we got to draw her holding it... >w< so kawaii <3 It was just so beautiful. The bond a mother and a child has.

So about my drawings, they all came out so extremely successful today. I used a combination of ink wash and charcoal. I'm so proud of them, but my teacher stole all 4 of them to hang ^_^ So I will have to post them when I get them back! Yeah, so I finally was really loose today! My stuff was still a little stylized, but they came out very realistic, specially the baby. No more anime with charcoal! YESSSSS. success.

I'm so gonna practice more with washes and charcoal together now. And I've improved tons with anatomy thanks to our figure drawing and my teacher! She really has helped us all see the form. Everyone has benefited from her >w< <333 It's a shame cause I think she's retiring


P.s. The cosplay thing has finally been settled.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15439320/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15439320/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 19:06:16 PST It's my 'Even Beauty Bleeds' piece... I'm still in shock xD (it's on the main page, under the feature option ) Cool huh?


I also failed miserably on one of my college projects xD I'm really bad at... describing things through words... So I did horrible on one of my projects that involved that... Which was yesterday xD But today we went to the MFA (museum of fine arts) For my art history class... And I've never been so into talking about artwork in my life. At first my teacher was laughing at me because my description of the piece was horrid, but he kept on making me do it over, explaining it to the class and I started pointing out ingenious things... I was so proud! My fail has lead me to want to learn the 'visual language' to critiquing art. As they call it xD


::: A random message from Kyo::: "AI BIG AN MANRY. RRRRRR. RAHYABAHYAAKARRRR" -<3 kyo

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15403163/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15403163/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 08:39:18 PST LMAO ROFL LOLOLOLOLOLZZZZ

no.


So first off I finnished my trash dress. Gonna be getting a critique in class on it today xD finalllyyyy... It UNINTENTIONALLY looks like a kimono. I'll have to post it when I get a good pic of it <3


SO ABOUT THE COSPLAY: You see. Me and Have been friends for 5 years now xD She's always been short + cuteee... And I've always been. Taller, and awesome/cool.

So her and me had a little talk. muwahaha. She will be Kyo. and I will be Moab Kaoruu... oh man (chin pubes xD) And we are gonna do ALOT of fanservice XD <3333333 sexeh.

Hawt. (also bec might be shinya *_*) More fanservice <3 Andddd.... I'm gonna be meeting up with a group cosplaying Yokan. Oh. It's gonna be intense.




So kiddies, join us @ Anime Boston Convention in March! Just go! GOOOO.

(oooo and there's a 1% chance I will do the artists ally)

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15348562/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15348562/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 15:48:25 PDT
I have a very interesting project assignment... "Build your own personal armor"

The personal armor is to protect us from, our weakess, fears or stengths. :/ I.. am afraid of mushrooms. But it's impossible to make a wearable outfit for that fear, let alone, what could I use to protect myself xD???

So I decided I don't like to liter, and I'm afraid I will. So. I get to make a dress out of trash bags.It should be pretty easy. I've cosplayed before.... and... I like using my sewing machine xD <333

I'll let you kids know how it turns out -_-;;;

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15321777/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15321777/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 18:47:13 PDT OKOFMGOMGOFMGOGM

OMGOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOMGOMGOGMOGMO GMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMGOMGOGMOGMOGMGOMGOMGOGM OGMOGMGOMGOGMOGMOGMOMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *explodes*


guess what?

I MET CHUCK CLOSEEEEEE. (well got his autograph) yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah... THAT FAMOUS GUY OMG. Who makes the INSANE PAINTINGS.

So. I went to Boston University for 6 pm w/ my friend Krithika cause Chuck Close was having an artist lecture there. So me and her decided to go. Cause. It's chuck close. So we walked from mass art w/ a random kid in our class It was a 30 minute walk, it was very fun. We crossed 7 intersections, almost getting run over frequently. Boston = Scary shit, man.

So the lecture was packed in the auditorium. And he gave an AMAZINGLY INSPIRATIONAL SPEECH. So if I make the next Mona Lisa tonight, you'll know why. The guy was so inspirational. I wanted to hug him, but couldn't cause this lady was guarding him and was yelling at everyone. So I got his autograph in my sketch book, so maybe his greatness will grace my drawings.

Omg. My life is complete.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15264657/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15264657/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 20:42:40 PDT
I was having a bad day... I talked with my friends and they made it better. Becca-child.... if you ever decide art isnt your thing.... become a therapist. You would suceed in that as well XD

These are my amazing artist highschool/college buddies who rawk. And are the bestest friends anyone could ever have T_T <3

BUG BECCA SHAUNEEERR... They are all talented and amazing in thier own individual way. They inspire me constantly, and I love them all very much for it xD <333 I shall marry each of you individually cause it's legal.

Anyways. I'm detrmined/inspired now to make greatness >: D Even in the shitty-ist squiggle you can find 'the light' xD xD xD buwhahahahaha. I'm so bipolar -_-;;

p.s. I will make stuff..... SOMEDAY.

]]> *LlamaMafia http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15247551/ http://LlamaMafia.deviantart.com/journal/15247551/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 18:16:20 PDT
I need some advice Like I've been trying to draw something decent all day. (or you may not believe me, months) Not to brag or anything, but I've come to an understanding, that I can draw, and pretty well I'm so happy that... my future career is fullfilling my dream as an artist/Illustrator. I'm over-joyed that I'm going to college for art. These facts are what keep me going. But sometimes, days like today , I don't want to be an artist anymore, and I question myself if this is what I truely want to do?

Many self-insecuritys have lead me to think this way. Alot of stress and pressure also contributes to this as well.

:::Here I'll tell you my complicated life story::: I used to be very slow at drawing. Since I started high school. I got away with never finishing projects in my art shop, somehow. After spending so many hours on them, I'd lose interest, give up, or just start to overall hate the project. To pin-point the problem, IM A PERFECTIONIST. It's sucks. ...... ....... uh.... wait.... where was I going with this?

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Uh... okay. WTF? argh. Back to what I forgot I was saying. Um. Geh... So, I'm a perfectionist, and, well, so I used to spend massive amounts of time on projects and never complete them (we are talking 40-70 hours per piece) My "A night once a year" Deviation isn't complete. 70+ hours on that mother too.. If you've noticed (which many of you probably have) I allways promise to finnish drawings I upload to here..... And..... I never do... I struggle alot with drawings because, I used to work subconsiously. So I decided I wanted to go to college..... Then I began to THINK about every little friggin thing I do, " Is the anatomy right? What colors do I use? Oh shit, I'm too lazy, no back ground." I stress about every little thing, and if it's not right I work on it till it is. (and it still comes out incorrect) So that's why I took forever My highschool teachers would always tell me I needed to learn how to become faster. It drove me insane. I was very dissapointed in myself DThen again, I was devoting so much time to a drawing portfolio pieces because of getting into college) So after I finished my portfolio and got excepted to college, I spent this past summer working on becoming 'faster' D: It was a good/bad idea....

Now. My postcard for example I did that in... maybe... 5 hours ? I'm very proud of that too! Cause not only did I complete something, but, it looked good too and I didn't spend 40 hours on it! I let go on worrying about everything. I showed it to my highschool teacher and he was like "This isn't your normal style, it's much more loose" woot and he liked it :3

Agh. Now for my problems. So. Now, I spend total about 1-10 hours on a project. The time it takes may be faster, but I feel I've overall lost the 'quality' in my work I don't know how to explain it.... I'm stuck in this shit style of shit. I feel like I shit, shit out of my ass.

So. I haven't shown anything I've done for college yet cause I'm utterly embarressed in the quality of work put into them. They are embaressments. So. Ive been trying to take in the knowlege from college and put it into my work. I've been practicing/studying anatomy, color, design. All the works. But I still can't apply any of it to my projects. Or the stuff I draw for myself. My visual language teacher said last week "You have photoshop skills, but no grasp on design principles" O_____O;;; CRAP! Because I've bee... ]]> *LlamaMafia