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Ok...so I got this idea for a novel a couple of years ago and I'm just now getting around to putting it together and writing it...The title is called "Letters to an Ex-Boyfriend"
The book is about ex-boyfriends...and I would like some help with some of the ideas for the book, get some feed back from women around the world on topics like
~cheating
~sex
~things guys have done
~and other things

these don't even have to be real or true storys just what comes from the heart I guess...

So if you are willing to help drop me a note with your story or ideas

Thanks!
~Si

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/8871486/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/8871486/ Thu, 25 May 2006 08:09:58 PDT

Well it's been forever since I've done anything on here...just last night I posted something to see what kinda of feed back I would get on it...but so far nothing at all...this is why I am debating on putting new stuff up...well I guess it just takes time....comment if you want...


~Si

Something exciting about leaving everything behind
There is something
Deep and pulling leaving everything behind
Something about having everthing
You think you'll ever need
Sitting in the seat next to you ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7652150/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7652150/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 20:05:20 PST

I lose my SUb tomorrow...................maybe in a couple months i'll get it back!

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7329385/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7329385/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 15:53:12 PST

Well at my house things are happening and I can't really stop them...First off we found a house out in Gibbs that my mom is going to buy...it's a three bedroom 2 bath house and we are going to get it...I'm some what IFy about it but I have a feeling that things are going to be ok...for the holidays i'm going to my dad's for a week and i'm kinda happy about that but also scared in the same.....but back to the point of why i wrote this journal.....Early gifts!!!!!

From my step fathr i've gotten:
A NEW Digial Camera
THe complete work of Poe
the complete works of the brothers grimm
Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah by Richard Bach
Jonathan Livingston Seagull also by Richard Bach
The five love languages of teenagers

FUN FUN...well i'm not going to be one for the next week or so give or take but send me some love if you want!

Oh and I will be posting pictures that i've taken with my new camera!

Buy~

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7019936/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/7019936/ Fri, 11 Nov 2005 16:01:58 PST

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YAY! I'm happy I got to 5,000

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6988368/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6988368/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 08:01:41 PST

WOW...have I been busy with Halloween and My friends wedding...I've posted 11 or so photos and I think you will like them...talk to you guys and chicks later!

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6769597/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6769597/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:00:08 PDT

Divorce means alot to me this is the 4th one my mother has put me through...I wasn't going to say anything to my dA family b/c my step father and I thought that we had my mother welling to try to work things out with her marriage and her relationship with me but today she told my step father after just two so called days of this change that she did want a divorce. My step father got pissed off at her and they are now waging war...my step father is taking away the one thing she loves the most...Her internet... she is wrose then most teenagers I know who spend every waking moment on the damn thing...so you know what that means guys...my computer is gone too...I'll be chacking comments and making updates as soon as I can so don't be anger if I don't comment back alright ....

I shall return one day I hope...Keep me in your prayers and in your thoughts

~SI

*also posted on myspace*

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

:JarkinaJar: ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6653488/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6653488/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 18:33:08 PDT

Well it's been sometime since I've posted a journal...over the past month I've been dealing with some inner demons that have come back to the surface and I've also been dealing with the deaths of my loved ones that I talked about in my last entry.

I'm starting to feel alittle better about somethings... Like my love life... Everything doesn't have to be based on sex and making out. With Wobbit love comes in the of music, compliments, and video games. He's younger then I am that is also a new thing for me...dating a younger guy...lol...but he's giving me something I've longed for...he's given me alittle bit of the childhood that I never really had.
That brings me to my second thing I came to talk about...My novel...Songs of a Broken Childhood...This novel is so hard for me to write because I'm reliving a part of my life that I just want to forget about sometimes. I know once this novel is completed it's going to hurt some people...aka my mother...there are somethings that need to be said to her that I can't tell her to her face so I hope she can have the balls to pick up my book and see for herself what it is that goes on in my little head.
Oh another thing that has happened in that last month is that I got a car...A 1991 oldsmoblie 88 Royale...nice little car...drives smooth but it does need some body work...and that's where I come in at...my car is going to be my project to fix up! yay...

Well I guess I've done enough ranting for one night
Talk to you later my dA Family!

~Si

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

:JarkinaJar: ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6376834/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6376834/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 09:34:32 PDT

I grew up in Lousisana...it's my home...My family are everywhere down there...We have all heard of how Hurricane Katrina that ripped through New Orleans. I lost my great great grandmother and my great great great grandmother too they couldn't get out of their house quick enough and drowned...This really hits home for me becuase I away from my family and it's hard during this time...

Please keep the victems of this awful distaser in your thoughts and prays...

Thank you...




*this same message is posted on my...myspace also*

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

:JarkinaJar: ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6103820/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6103820/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 17:14:15 PDT

[link]

Have a look for yourself it's all there

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

:JarkinaJar: ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6078294/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6078294/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 13:56:44 PDT

[link]

dA is becoming less about COMMUNITY and more about CORPORATION it seems let's get it back to the way it should be like a family!



All we are asking to to say "Hi"

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6078289/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6078289/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 13:56:03 PDT

[link]

dA is becoming less about COMMUNITY and more about CORPORATION it seems let's get it back to the way it should be like a family!



All we are asking to to say "Hi"

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6067314/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/6067314/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 12:10:39 PDT

All these pretty little pills...i went to the doctor tuesday and got all new medication...oh boy...I now take Strattera 90 mg instead of 35 mg my mother says that i act like a damn zombie now...i also got Tetracycline 250 mg it's for my acne but i think it's something else if you ask me...I'm also on 6 different vitamins...and the soon to be antidepression med...again...

i look around and see that the child of tomorrow are on medication...that the parents think their kids have problems and take them to a doctor for some quick fix weith a fuckin pill....this country is fuckin sick i swear...!

I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5997202/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5997202/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 16:23:45 PDT

I'm seem to be losing everything...
I'm starting to hate and be upset alot more now that is summer is coming to a end

I hate my job...I don' want to turn out like my mother and my sister
I will not be stuck there to waste away i have dreams...and when i try to quit...they won't let me they want me to be there...i put in my 2 weeks notice last friday and today i thought they had let me go but my mom had to stick her two cents in...so i didn't quit and i wasn't let go like i thought....b/c my mom thinks that when i'm depire for a job i could come back to shoney and be all like her...I DON"T WANT TO BE LIKE HER...i hate working at shoney's

Support Your Local Ska Band though they just may stink
Support them despite what the real musicians just might think
It's ok to lower standards in the name of a good cause
Because it's hard to be a Ska band when you live in Tennessee! ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5911782/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5911782/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 08:02:33 PDT

Type Your Name

With my fingers: Sierra

With one finger eyes closed: sierra...i had a typing class for a year

With my chin: saiuderrtaz...it's there

With my elbow: sie4r5ra

With my head: szw83424345r2q...

With the back of my hand, but not my knuckles: wsok9,5rsad65tasa

With my nose: sierra

With my toe: sierra


General (Warm-up Round)
(01) What is your name? Sierra Deanne Domingue
(02) Are you happy with it? yeah...i guess
(03) Are you named after anyone? my middle name came from my mothers best friend
(04) Would you name a child of yours after you? no, i wound not put my kids through that
(05) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would you have been called? some weird guy name like Malik
(06) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? most of my friends have really commen names like brittany and joana
(07) Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do with your name? Cierra, Ciera, Siera, Dominqiue, Dominqie...
(08) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? NO, b/c i am the only child and i'm a chick so i can't past on the family name so it means alot to me.
(09) Your gender: Female
(10) Straight/gay/bi? Bi, but could go either way.
(11) Single? no
(12) Do you want to be? not really
(13) Your birth date: 1.13.1989
(14) Your age: 16
(15) Age you act: 6 to 7 year old
(16) Age you wish you were: just young again when things were easier
(17) The colour of your eyes: hazel
(18) Happy with it? yeah i like them
(19) The colour of your hair: brown
(20) Happy with it? it's ok
(21) Left/right/ambidextrous? Right
(22) Your family: step dad, mom, sister
(23) What's your job: shoneys
(24) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? What A Fucking Ugly Disgrace
(25) Can you sing? I'd like to think so
(26) Are you a loner? i like to be alone sometimes
(27) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yes b/c i kick ass
(28) Are you passive or aggressive? alittle of both
(29) Have you got a journal? yes live...but never up date it
(30) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? everything.....
(31) Is there anything you regret doing? yep...
(32) Are you confident? sometimes
(33) Are you perceived wrongly? most of time
(34) Shoe brand? hot topic boots
(35) Brand of clothing? whatever
(36) How about parties? what do you wear to them? jeans and a tanks top
(37) Favourite place to shop? Body shop and junkman daughter
(38) Favourite article of clothing? my PJ's
(39) Are you trendy? i'd to think so
(40) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? I hate looking like everyone else....so that is a no


Number of
- height: that makes no sence
- shoe size: 7
- siblings: 1

Last…
- movie you rented: MallRats
- movie you bought: Clerks
- song you listened to: The Dresden Dolls - Coin-Operated Boy
- song that was stuck in your head: Suburban Legends - Gummi Bears
- person you've called: Bryan
- person that's called you: Bryan
- show you've watched: Sports kids moms and dads
- person you were thinking of: Bryan

Do…
- you have any pets? 3 cats and a dog
- you have a crush on someone: no
- you wish you could live somewhere else: Yeah, at Bryan's house
- you believe in online dating: it's not my cup of tea
- others find you attractive: yeah...*rolls eyes*
- you want more piercings: yes
- you like cleaning: NO
- you smoke? use to
- you do drugs? use to
- you read the newspaper? on my break at work
- you pray? sometimes
- you go to church? use to
- you talk to strangers who IM you? Yeah
- you sleep with stuffed animals? nope
- you take walks in the rain? THat's the best time to take a walk
- you talk to people even though you hate them? Yes...all the time
- you like the taste of blood? yes i do...
- you believe in love? Yes
- you believe in Heaven? i believe that when you die you die...
- you drive? sometimes
- you like to drive fast? No...too scared to
- you like your voice? Not really i have a annoying voice
- you hurt yourself? sometimes
- you have any piercings? bottom of belly button, right ear 4, left ear 2
- you have any tattoos? No.
- you have an... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5770211/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5770211/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 09:41:58 PDT

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For more Information got to their site [link]

ONE BY ONE - Can help make world poverty history!

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width="150" height="150" border="0"> ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5725599/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5725599/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 16:48:56 PDT

I made a new icon today i finally found this icon...when i had aol...this was my icon and i loved it i just found it on the web so it's my new icon...if you see the old one press F5 and it should show up

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5601686/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5601686/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 17:08:37 PDT

I HAVE GREAT NEWS

My sister just moved out and I get her old room...this is great...it's alot bigger then the one I have now...my room is only 11 feet x 7 feet but the new room is 15 feet x 10 feet...The room is going to be decoranted in vintage fashion stuff...like the clothing you would see in the early 1900's in Frence...the corsets and cafes and the beautiful clothing...I'll start taking picture this weekend when we start...like a work in process...I'll keep you guys posted on who it's turning out with the pictures and journals...

*does dance* *is happy*
I"M OUT
~buy

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5582138/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5582138/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 17:26:37 PDT

He's fine...and safe...

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5524467/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5524467/ Wed, 01 Jun 2005 18:42:42 PDT

As of Monday at 3:00 pm dA member ~ smowacky my boyfriend...went missing.

It has been three days now and no one has heard from he was last seen at his house...

I can't ask for much from my dA family but if you could keep his family and my self in your prays through this rough time I would be very greatful.

Thank you for your help!

Lonely

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5354522/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5354522/ Sat, 14 May 2005 08:53:45 PDT

Well guys sorry i haven't been around in a couple of days i'm grounded and i haven't been able to get on the computer i've got more pictures to post so keep on view them...


I'll try my hardest to comment and view all your stuff thanks!!!!!!!!!!!

buy ^.^

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5266115/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5266115/ Wed, 04 May 2005 15:00:10 PDT

[Current Clothes] pink tank top, boots, blue jeans, and my spike belt
[Current Mood] in pain....
[Current Music] yesterday - the beatles
[Current Taste] string cheese
[Current Make-up] none
[Current Hair] dark brown hair...short...no gel
[Current Annoyances] chest pains and my mom
[Current smell] kerosene
[Current Favorite Artist] Nev...
[Current Desktop Picture] it's a scared sea monster with a sock puppet of his tale
[Current Favorite Group] whatever is on the radio
[Current Book you're reading] "Of Mice and Men"
[Current CD in CD Player] Taj Motel Trio
[Current DVD in player] chasing amy
[Current Color Of Toenails] snow globe white.....i got bored
[Current Worry] these so called "growing pains"

-LAST PERSON-
[You Touched] the dog....
[You Talked to] My mom
[You Hugged] Nev
[You Instant messaged] Lewis
[You Yelled At] my mom

-FAVORITE-
[Food] roman noodles
[Colour] purple
[Album] ...don't have just one
[Shoes] my flaming bike boots
[Candy] chocolates for the old mill
[Animal] dragons
[TV Show] attack of the show or i love the 80's
[Movie] any kevin smith movie or dead poets socity
[Dance] ballet....got to love it!
[Song] Do You Believe In Magic- Loving Spoonful
[Fruit] banana or strawberry
[Cartoon] hi hi puff yum yue

-ARE YOU-
[Understanding] I like to think so
[Open-minded] you have to be now of days
[Arrogant] nope...
[Insecure] sometimes
[Interesting] yep i'm funny looking put my in a jar and i'll do tricks
[Random] when i'm with Nev
[Hungry] yep
[Friendly] I try to be
[Smart] not really
[Moody] yep...piss me off and i am
[Childish] yep....and i'm cute as hell when i do it too ask bryan
[Independent] I can be...
[Organized] the floor of my room is the biggest shelf i got...
[Healthy] nope...
[Emotionally Stable] For the time being yes....
[Shy] nope i can't be
[Difficult] depends...if i'm fighting for something i really beieve in
[Attractive] i like my hair

-STUFF-
[My Name Is] Sierra
[All you Need Is] love peace and chicken grease....he he he
[Love Is] something you can't explain it must only be felt
[I'm Afraid of] being alone
[obsessive] about my boyfriend Bryan
[could you live without the computer?] if you gave me a $3000 sawing machine and a life time supply of fabic ...you can take it but i don't think you have that so stay the hell away from my computer ^.^

-DO YOU-
[color your hair] yeah
[ever get off the damn computer] yep but i don't want to
[habla espanol] sí, habla español...
[drink alchohol?] sometimes
[like watching sunrises or sunset] if i could watch them all with bryan i wouldn't care

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5147822/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5147822/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 11:35:01 PDT

1. Given name: Sierra Deanne Domingue

2. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: 16....YAY!!!!!

3. Date that you regularly blow them out: Jan. 13th

4. Nationality: U.S.A

5. Astrological Sign: Capiercorn

6. Relationship Status (Single? Married? Dating?): dating

7. Height: 5'3ish... i think

8. Weight: 98 pounds i've gained weight

9. Hair Colour/Length: Dark brown shorty and spike

10. Eye Colour: Hazel

11. Ethnic Descent: French/Irish

12. At what time were you born?: 3:04 p.m

13. How long was your mother in labour?: Don't really know

14. Are your parents divorced? yes

15. Are you in school/working? 10th grader at Halls High School

16. Father's name/occupation: Jody/Crane oporator

17. Mother's name/occupation: Kelly/Waitress

18. Siblings (include their ages): Chantel, 18

19. Pets: 1 dog and 3 cats

20. Living Situation: umm...i live with my mom and my step dad....and we live in a house

21. Complexion (Fair, Medium, Dark)? fair skined but not liquid paper white

FAVORITES
23. Favorite Films: Hook, Pie, Saw, Nightmare before X-mas, finding nemo, shark tale, stuff like that

24. Favorite TV shows: Lost, Jimmy Neutron, Lazytown, Survivor,anything on Spike and anything on VH1, I Love The 70s,80s,90s.

25. Favorite Drinks: Jones Soda.......green apple or root beer yum

26. Favorite Ethnic Food: chinese or mexican

27. Favorite Snack Items: raman noodles or oreos

28. Favorite Book: The perks of being a wallflower

29. Favorite Musical Artist(s):Evanescence, Green Day, Maroon 5, Sugarcult, Linkin Park, Lacuna Coil, Blink-182, slipknot, ...etc.

30. Favorite Drawing Medium (ie. Pencil, Pastels, Conte, Charcoal): i can't really draw

31. Favorite Cereals: coco pebbles and fruit loops

YOUR WEEKDAY
32. Early Morning Rituals: roll out of bed, take 20 mins shower, do hair and put on make up, get dressed then out the door

33. Are you often rushed?: most of the time

34. What stresses you out?: school

35. Do you get dressed before or after breakfast? milky way after first period

36. Name your means of transportation:big yellow fag wagon

37. Do you have your license? nope got my premit though

38. What does your typical lunch consist of? snack food out of the vinding machine

39. Where do you eat it: at a table

40. Early Evening Rituals: dA....duh!

41. What is your regular bedtime?: i have to be in bed by 10

42. Do you eat dinner as a family?: when we are all home

43. What is your typical dinner? meat, veggie, and starch

44. Are you household chore enabled? yes i am a cleaning slave

45. How often does your room get cleaned?: once a month

46. Describe the decor: dragons and purple tiger print.

47. Do you hide things: Yes.

48. Do people invade your personal space? yep...my mom and my sister...

50. List 3 of your favourite shops: Hot Topic, Body shop, and Junkmans daughters

51. What determines your purchases: my step dad...he has to pick it out and like it b/c he's buying it for me

ADOLESCENCE
52. Favorite Childhood Foods: Raman

53. Favorite Childhood Books: granddaddy long legs.....old kids book

54. Favorite Childhood Shows: power rangers

55. Favorite Childhood Toys: GI Joes

56. Favorite Childhood Animal: dragon...still is

57. Favorite Childhood Color: red

58. What was your dress style like? whatever i mom picked out...>.<

59. Worst trends you succumbed to: the ugly 90's clothing
60. Did you go to summer camp? church camp

61. Were you in any clubs?: ...no

62. What was your social standing?: i knew everyone and everyone knew me...

63. If you could go back in time, what would you change about your childhood? not moving around sooo much

THE TEEN YEARS
64. Do you see yourself as "troublesome"? I can be if you piss me off enough

65. How have you evolved in the last couple of years? I've grown into myself more and i've got boobs now

66. List some major milestones of this ti... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5104338/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5104338/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 14:21:06 PDT

I wear a disguise
I'm just your average Jane
The super doesn't stand for model
But that doesn't mean I'm plain
If all you see is how I look
You miss the superchick within
And I christen you Titanic
Underestimate and swim
I've got the rifle
Gonna be myself

I'll be everything that I want to be
I am confidence in insecurity
I am a voice yet waiting to be heard
I'll shoot the shot, bang
That you hear 'round the world
I'm a one girl revolution

Some people see the revolution
But most only see the girl
I can loose my hard earned freedom
If my fear defines my world
I declare my independence from the critics and their stones
I can find my revolution
I can learn to stand alone

I'll be everything that I want to be
I am confidence in insecurity
I am a voice yet waiting to be heard
I'll shoot the shot, bang
That you hear 'round the world
I'm a one girl revolution
-Superchic - one girl revolution

Have you started you revolution yet?

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5081341/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5081341/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 18:55:56 PDT

Crackadawacka: i love you so much and i miss you more than the world
losttinkerbell33: so we can't talk on the phone
Crackadawacka: no
losttinkerbell33: i love you too honey and miss you more
Crackadawacka: i cant wait till we can be together
losttinkerbell33: yeah...same here
Crackadawacka: i take my ged may 3rd
losttinkerbell33: really
losttinkerbell33: that's great honey
Crackadawacka: words can express how much i miss and love you
Crackadawacka: so when i get my id back im out of scholl
Crackadawacka: but i gtg i love you and i will be able to talk to you all day tomorrow cause my mom is taking me home
Crackadawacka: after school
losttinkerbell33: ok
losttinkerbell33: i love you and miss you too sweet dreams honey
losttinkerbell33: *kiss*
Crackadawacka: *tongue*
Crackadawacka: lol
losttinkerbell33: gross
losttinkerbell33: lol
Crackadawacka: ???
losttinkerbell33: lmao
Crackadawacka: *huh*?
Crackadawacka: opps
Crackadawacka: *hug*
losttinkerbell33: nothing honey....i love you and your tongue
losttinkerbell33: lol
losttinkerbell33: *hug*
losttinkerbell33: cryies
Crackadawacka: noooooooo
losttinkerbell33: i can't help it
Crackadawacka: ill never let go
losttinkerbell33: lol
Crackadawacka: as i sink my frozen self to the bottom of the atlantic
Crackadawacka: just to be eaten like a pop-cicle by a shark or some giant squid
losttinkerbell33: aww....funny and sweet cheesy too
Crackadawacka: my heart will go on
losttinkerbell33: lmao
losttinkerbell33: awww
Crackadawacka: like those pop-cicles that change color
Crackadawacka: well im out
losttinkerbell33: ok honey
Crackadawacka: i love you soooooo much
losttinkerbell33: i love you more
Crackadawacka: be good and dont miss me too much cause i miss you enuff for both of us as it is
losttinkerbell33: aww ok
Crackadawacka: bye
losttinkerbell33: buy buy baby
Crackadawacka signed off at 9:03:55 PM.

isn't it sweet...i'm in love with this man for so odd reason!

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5043057/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5043057/ Sat, 09 Apr 2005 13:21:12 PDT

Some stuff about me
[ 1 ] First grade teacher's name: Miss Airheart
[ 2 ] Last word you said: babygirl
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: Sugerland - babygirl
[ 4 ] Last person you hugged: Les
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: Les
[ 6 ] Last time you said i don't flippin' remember: I've never said that before o.0
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: 3 weeks ago when my mom said i couldn't see bryan
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: Taj Motel Trio
[ 9 ] What color socks are you wearing: not wearing any
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: boxes, clothes, the cat, and fabric
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: 9:23 am
[ 13 ] Current hair: brown and short
[ 14 ] Current clothes: black shirt and black shorts
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: my mother
[ 16 ] Current longing: tomorrow b/c i get to see Bryan
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: Amy Lee
[ 18 ] Current worry: Bryan
[ 19 ] Current hate: house wrok and my mother
[ 20 ] Current favorite article of clothing: my corset
[ 21 ] Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes and they have to be tall with most meat of them
[ 22 ] Last CD that you listened to: Simple Red
[ 23 ] Favorite place to be: in Bryan's arms
[ 24 ] Least favorite place: home
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: 6:45-7:00
[ 26 ] If you could play any instrument(s), what would it be: bass...better
[ 27 ] Favorite color(s): purple
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: yeah
[ 29 ] How tall are you: 5'2''
[ 30 ] Current favorite word/saying: I'm going to hit you with something in a second
[ 31 ] Favorite book: the perks of being a wallflower
[ 32 ] Favorite season: Fall
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my mom's mom
[ 34 ] Favorite day: anyday i get to see Bryan


[[[ FUTURE ]]]

[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: Ireland
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: Fashion Designer, writer, or welding
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: 2...one boy and one girl
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: PT Cruiser


[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]

[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc]: yeah...the cat and myself get into fights all the time over the bed...her fat ass won't get off
[Been to New York?]: no
[Been to Florida?]: yes
[Been to San Diego, Cali?]: yes
[Been to Hawaii?]: No.
[Been to Mexico?]: yes
[Been to China?]: No.
[Been to Canada?]: yes
[Been to africa]: No.
[Been to Europe]: yes
[Been to australia]: No.
[Danced naked?]: yeah...haven't you?
[Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day]: no
[Had an imaginary friend?]: yep his name was Bob

[[[ RANDOM ]]]


[Do you have a crush on someone?]: no
[Worst feeling in the world]: having your mother tell you that you can't see the one you love
[What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?]: fuck, i have to go to school...
[How many rings before you answer?]: 2 or my mom gets mad
[Future daughter's name]: Raven Aurora
[Future son's name]: Malik Ronin
[Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?]: yes...the teddy bear bryan got me
[If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?]: fashion designer
[Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?]: righty
[College plans]: 2 year collage
[Piercings]: left ear 2 right ear 4 and bottom of my belly button

[[[ THE EXTRA STUFF ]]]


[Do you do drugs?]: smoke
[Do you drink]: yes... and for a small person i can hold my liquir just don't put me in a moving car...
[Who are your best friends?]: Cody, Kendall, Lonnie, Bryan, Dylan, Joana, and Brittany...
[What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?]Panten Pro V
[Whaare you most scared of?]: Being alone and unloved
[What clothes do you sleep in?]: nothing...I sleep naked
[Who is the last person that called you?]: Bryan
[Where do you want to get married?]: Anywhere really unique
[If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?]: my past
[Favorite number(s)]: 7 and 13

[[[ IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU... ]]]

[Cried]: no
[Bought Something]: yes
[Gotten Sick]: yes
[Sang]: yes
[Said I Love You]: yes to Bryan and Les...
[Wanted To Tell Someone You Love Them]: yes everyday Bryan
[Met Someone New]: no
[Moved On]: yes
[Talked To Someone]: yeah....
[Had A Serious Talk]: no
[Missed Someone... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5009728/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/5009728/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 17:53:45 PDT

Over the past 3 weeks I've posted some new works these include 2 of my "mature content" poems...and some other ones.

And I can't believe that I've gotten no feed back what so ever on them...once upon a time I was a good writer I thought but now I see my work here on Deviant is no more... it's been fun guys but I guess I'm not cut out for all this writers shit...

I'm out of ideas...

Bye...

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4980742/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4980742/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 15:22:31 PST

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LOOK AT THAT 3,000 PAGEVIEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4934457/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4934457/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 13:33:11 PST

CALLING ALL DA MEMBER...I NEED SOME HELP!!!!



This is my GOOD friend Lonnie Mavin He's a new deviantART member and I was thinking let's be the good DA members we are and welcome him to the deviant FAMILY....Any one who stops on my site or gets this Journal please help out this deviant member and pop over to his site and welcome him to DA....

THANKS GUYS YOUR GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4924104/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4924104/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 11:18:40 PST

I'm feeling really home sick...I'd give anything to be with my family in Louisiana...I just got off the phone with them.... 5 generations I can't help but cry I miss them alot my father I think I miss the most...somethings have been brought up on my site by another DA member saying stuff about my family...and this is the time where it starts to sink in and hurt...my family means the world to me.....

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4902930/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4902930/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 18:12:58 PST

Read and be amazed at all the shit I've done..

Put an x to the things youve done

(X) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(X) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
(X) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(X) been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of your parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(X) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(X) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(X) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from teh internet
(X) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
(X) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
(X) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake
( ) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
(X) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
( ) run a red light
(X) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
(X) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look
(X) witnessed a crime
(X) pole danced
(X) questioned your heart
(X) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(X) screamed penis in class
(X) ate dog/cat food
(X) told a complete stranger you loved them
(X) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
(X) had a little black dress
(X) had a dream that you married someone
(X) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
(X) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(X) been a cheerleader
( ) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
(X) didn’t take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(X) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(X) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
(X) played ding-dong-ditch
(X) played chicken
(X) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(X) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(X) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused
(X) caught a fish then ate it
( )made porn
(X)caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
(X) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) have or had a Britney Spears CD
(X) forgotten someone’s name
(X) slept naked
(X) French braided someone’s... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4899082/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4899082/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 10:27:31 PST

I HATE BEING A GIRL....that's all I have to say becuase if you are a girl...you know what I'm talking about...

CURSE YOU EVE...

Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4880228/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4880228/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 09:56:19 PST

Ok...I made a new Da site on March 9, 2005 thinking I could put some stuff there and more people could see more about my other side of art but there was one big thing I left out...I didn't tell anyone about that was my other site andplus on my other site...I didn't even put my name on it thinking I could start over and become a new DA person...but that failed...I will be uploading some new stuff on both sites soon please keep on reading and commenting on my work!

<-----

This is My Other Da Site! ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4873708/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4873708/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 15:37:26 PST

Well I'm back from Atlanta ...and I've got one thing to say OMGOSH....I've never in my life seen so many Afican Americans in my life...I'm not Racist but I felt so out of place......But I went to Junkmans Daughters it is the coolest clothing store I've ever seen...!

Well I guess I'll talk to you guys later!

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4796184/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4796184/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 18:01:02 PST

I GOTS GOOD NEWS!!!! My boyfriend... is moving down to Halls to be with me YAY!.....he starts Halls High School the 25 of March and I can't wait!

I will be posting stuff tomorrow because right now i'm at 's house and i'm helping them clean up their studio...FUN!!!!!!!!......Well guys I'm out!

Bye^.^

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4771239/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4771239/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 17:15:48 PST

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychedelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet. (fell asleep on it once. Hahaha, I've no shame)
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like J. Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart. (people say so) (People SAY so..they just want to get on my good side)
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret. (a rather large one, actually..)
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules. (hell yes, not as much as some..but yes, there is potential for some heavy rocking)
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed. (or ambidextrous)
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually. (If more then 3 people LIKED me, I'd be suprised..)
43. I love pop music. (generally)
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart. (It's drilled into our heads)
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on the computer. (Umm...HELLO?!)
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window.
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original. (it's nice every once in a while)
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to comquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write. (more then anything)
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inch long.
68. My favorite color is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not in AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a vagon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I have a third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4763198/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4763198/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 13:51:21 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Kissed your cousin: well...this is TN...no!
2. Ran away: twice
3. Pictured your crush naked: i think we all have
4. Skipped school: twice
5. Broken someone's heart: yep...
6. Been in love: i'm in love now
7. Cried when someone died: OH YEAH
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yeah i guess that's how it always is...but you get over it
9. Broken a bone: yep like 26 bones i think it was...moshing!
10. Done something embarrassing: yep...not listing

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
23. What do you notice first: eyes and height
24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: Joana at her house
25. Worst Question To Ask: "is it supposed to be that small?"

THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: yesterday
27. Stepped outside: 5 o'clock
28. Cried: it's been a while

ABOUT YOU...
29. Romantic memory: last firsday...until his mother walked in LMAO
30. Your Good Luck Charm: my personaltiy
31. Person You Hate Most: my inner demons
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: getting to know myself better
33. On your desk: can of root beer, super glue, tape, my wallet, a pen, belly botton rings, candy, the cat, my feet, my computer, and bubble wrap
34. Picture on your desktop: the beach and a butterfly

FAVORITE...
35. Color: purple, red, and then black
38. Cars: a green mini van
39. Ice Cream: cookies and cream
41. Food: raman noodles

WHO...
42. Makes You Laugh The Most: Jacob and nick in my 4th block
43. Makes You Smile: Bryan
44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: it's between my dad, bryan, and mr. harmon
45. Has A Crush On You: too many people
46. You Have A Crush On: my big toe
47. Who Has It Easier? ....huh
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: like funny good or funny bad...?

YOU EVER...
49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: i have before
50. Save AIM Conversations: nope computer runs slow already
51. Save E-mails: all b/c i don't know hoow to delete them...lol
52. Forward Secret E-mails: no
53. Wish You Were Someone Else: Sometimes.
54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: i just want to know what it feels like to be hit in the balls.
55.Wear Cologne: no...
56. Hug Your Friends: yes i do.

HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?: no....
60: Kissed a friend?: On the cheek
61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day? yeah...
62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day?: NO!
63. Been Rejected: Yeah..
64: Been In Love?: Yeah
65. Been In Lust?: Yeah
66. Used Someone?: No.
67. Been Used?: I don't think so 0__o;;
68. Dumped Someone?: yes...i...have
69. Been Cheated On?:YES
70. Been Kissed?: Yes.
71. Done Something You Regret?: No.

THE LAST PERSON...
72. You Touched?: ...umm
73. You Talked To?: bryan
74. You Hugged?: Nev...
76. You Kissed?: the cat
77. You Yelled At? My mom
78. You Thought About? bryan....and my dad
79. Who Text Messaged You?: don't have a cell phone.
80. Who Broke Your Heart?:
81. Who Told You They Loved You?: bryan

MORE ABOUT YOU...
82. Color of Your Hair?: Dark brown
83. Have Tattoos?: Nope only a year and a half
84. Have Piercings? 7
85. Own A Webcam?: Nope.
87. Ever Get Off The Computer?:yeah....when mom yells
88. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: nope
90. Habla espanol?: Si Habla espanol
91. Quack?: DUCK...I LOVE THE LITTLE DUCKIES!!!!!!!!!!!!
92. Ever stolen Anything? yep.
93. Ever smoke?: yeah..........

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4694300/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4694300/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 15:35:28 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

I see the real you
You put me in my place
Close to perfection
You?re out of control; you?re out of control

Pardon me I feel the need to scream
I?m ill Stuck in the chemical abyss
I?m gripping at the walls around me
Pardon me if I was laughing at the crimes
I was laughing at the way you lie
Tell me why
All my lies come down to this

?Cause I don?t need friends who try to wrap me up in red tape
Get ?em off my back they?re dead weight
In case you didn?t catch my signs the first time let me tell you
again

All my life I tried to explain how I love myself to release the
pain
Anti-magnetic so quit your b*****g, lying, crying
Tell me why

Lately inside I?m giving in to revenge
Tell me why I?m in over my head
Why I?m in over my head
I?m in so deep that

When I wake up I don?t wanna know you
Tell me my name again
You?re just a beautiful disgrace
A beautiful disgrace
A beautiful disgrace

Come with me so I can show you how to live
Burning the candle at both ends
I?m gripping at the walls around me
Don?t complicate it
I?m addicted to this life
I?ll be your token of attention
All my lies come down to this

Lately inside I?m giving in to revenge
Tell me why I?m in over my head
Why I?m in over my head
I?m in so deep that

Lately inside I?m giving in to revenge
Tell me why I?m in over my head
Why I?m in over my head

I see the real you
You put me in my place
Close to perfection
You?re out of control

I see the real you
I saw through everything
Close to perfection
I saw through everything

If I could take away this pain
Just one more time, I might
I saw through everything
Tell me why I?m in over my head

When I wake up I don?t wanna know you
Tell me my name again
You?re just a beautiful disgrace
Such a beautiful disgrace
Disgrace, disgrace
You?re such a beautiful disgrace
You?re so vain, vain, vain

So grow your guilt from another vine
I?ve given this enough time (lately inside I?m giving in)
Grow your guilt from another vine
I?ve given this enough time (lately inside I?m giving in)
Grow your guilt from another vine
I?ve given this enough time (tell me why I?m in)
Grow your guilt from another vine
I?ve given this enough time

Grow your guilt you?re a beautiful
Disgrace, (disgrace, disgrace)
Such a beautiful disgrace
You?re so vain, vain, disgrace

Orgy - Beautiful Disgrace

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4670165/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4670165/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 13:03:12 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

Well today I dropped a 60 pound metal grate grill top thingy on my finger...It's NOT BROKEN thank God....i have three blood blisters and alot of swelling but it fuckin' hurt....

well i guess i'll talk to you guys later....bye^.^

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4620361/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4620361/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 07:56:41 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah
Jeese Mccartney - Beautiful Soul

Last night my mother broke down and told me something that will push me to be who I've always wanted to be...my mother told me that i had a beautiful soul and that with that i can change the world and she also told me that she admires me for beening the people I am....and for people who know my mom this means alot to me

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4592123/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4592123/ Tue, 15 Feb 2005 18:21:06 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

.....I have two things on my mind.....Moving back with my dad or staying here.....haven't really thought about it yet......but things will get better right.....

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4502475/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4502475/ Sat, 05 Feb 2005 10:06:18 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

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Name: Sierra Deanne Domingue
Nicknames: Lonelyandconfused, tinkerbell, tink or Si
Age: 16
Location: Tennessee
Hair color: Dark brown with alittle red
Eye color: hazel
Height: 5'3"
Weight: 95 pounds
Tattoos: No yet....i'm only 16.....i know what my first one is going to be ...it is going to be fairy wings they are for my mom
Piercings: Right ear: 2 in lobe 1-10 gauge other one -14 gauge and a really big bar in the top of my ear Left:2 in lobe 1-10 gauge other one -14 gauge and i have my bellybutton pierced on the bottom 14 gauge

About you
Scars: way too many to count
Freckles?: yep.....get them from my mommy
Do you wear Makeup: Eyeliner and eyeshadow......
What color is your bedroom: white with dragons every
Most expensive item you own: my bass
How would you classify your style: My own
Fear: being alone and not being loved
Loves: Deviantart, movies, friends, candy, God, kitties, spam......don't ask, music, a good cry
Hate: my entire school population, politics, stereotypes, and most of the step parents i know
Worst Habit: day dreaming, being flirty, and going off on people
How do others see you: differently
What are you labeled: Freak, loser, outcast, whore, ugly..............
How many contacts do you have: On AIM? umm......61
How many are online right now: 10
What song are you listening to: Evanescence - forgive me

Love
significant other: not at the moment....had one though
How long have you been together: 4 months and a day
What attracts you most to them: his eyes and how he treats me
What bothers you most about them: How he doesn't know how to have fun
Do they know you like them: yep......
Would you ever hook up with someone of the same sex: nope not my thing

Home
Are your parents together: nope but both are remarried
Pets: 1 dogs, 3 cats
Siblings: 1
Siblings age: 18
Parents age: mid 30's real dad early 40s real mom mid 40s stepmom and early 50s stepdad
Parents job: Mom-Shoney's Dad-crane operator StepDad- truck driver StepMom- Works for the government
House color: brown
Number of floors your house has: 1
Fav. thing about your house: would have to be my bedroom

Friends
More acquaintances than friends: you could say that
Best friends: Christiane, Chris, Brittany, those are the only ones.
Do you like all your friends: nope i hate them all every single one of them ....people they are my friends are you that dumb?
Worst thing a friend has done to you: Betrayed me.
Worst thing you've done to a friend: Lied.

Secrets
Smoke: yep....
Stayed up all night partying: yep....
Stayed up all night alone: Yah, that's most nights, really.
Hooked up with someone you didn't know: Nope, and I won't.
Hooked up with a friends guy/girl: Nope......
Broken the law: not that i know of but you know now a days you can look at someone wrong and break one.
Snuck out: yep twice
Stolen: yep a candy bar once when i was 7 ....i wanted it and my mom wouldn't buy it for me...

Favorites
Color: purple, red, and black
Music Genre: anything but new rap.......
Movie Genre: anything that's funny or if a movie has a deep meaning to it
Animal: dragon
Sport: swimming
Book: I've got lots of favorite books.
Language: English, spanish and alittle french

Beliefs & Views
God: Yep the only one.....
Attend Church: Yep
Spiritual: YES!!!
Aliens: yeah .....because we can't be the only ones in this big milky way thing
Ghosts: yep see them all the time
Love at first sight: sometimes
Wishes: i really don't have wishes i have dreams b/c i know wishes will never come true and i know that my dreams can
Abortion: against it......PRO-LIFE
Politics: are pk
Death: everyone dies that's just how it goings ibut before I go I want my name to be known
Legalizing marijuana: against it but i made one hell of a debate about it for my english class and won too!.
The media: needs to do some changing
Gay marriages: i have gay friends but i know it's not right...... ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4490945/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4490945/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 18:08:33 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

Yep This is my life....I see that now and now I must go do something about it......

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4490930/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4490930/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 18:06:58 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...



]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4451760/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4451760/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 09:18:58 PST Though lately I can't blame you I have seen the world And I sometimes wish your room Had room for two...

Well last night was The Halls High School 2005 Winter Formal...I went with Chris Frith It was a very fun evening and all my friends really seemed to like Chris, they thought he was gay or hot a win lose situation ...I made my dress and I looked really good I thought.....Chris and I got pictures and Those will be posted once we get them back.....

All in All we had fun and I found out something really cool last night...CHRIS CAN DANCE......

Well I'm Out guys bye~!~

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4430997/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4430997/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 17:41:40 PST
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YAY it is here i have 2000 pageviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4388566/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4388566/ Sat, 22 Jan 2005 20:01:34 PST
This weekend has been amazing.....i will never be the same...I really think i found myself this weekend......

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4344931/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4344931/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 16:55:43 PST
]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4329308/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4329308/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 18:59:46 PST
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4313098/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4313098/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 18:19:22 PST Happy Happy Birthday...................I GOT A SUBSCRIPTION

Mood: Amazed...!
Reading: Angels in America By Tony Kushner

Today I turned 16 and my day rocked i got to eat today....and I got to spend time with my family.....I got my belly button done pictures will be on later........
I got everything i could of ever wanted...well not really i wish i could of spent it with my other family....The Friths....who i love to death

this is my very loving boyfriend Chris.....who I love so much
Our 4 month is coming up this saturday....

With a birthday you get one year older and one year wiser right....well i think this year is alittle cloudy as of right now....

]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4263959/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4263959/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 17:20:03 PST Mood - Happy but not
Listening to - My mothers laugh
Reading - StarGirl by Jerry Spinelli

I borrowed this from Hope she doesn't mind......get to know me alittle better and visit DementedLynx's site

+Three names you go by+
1. Sierra or Si
2. Tink or tinkerbell
3. Lonely

+Three screen names you've had+
1. WickedWoman89
2. DragonQueen89
3. AntiAero333
4. Losttinkerbell33

+Three things you like about yourself+
1. My eyes......
2. My emotional side
3. My bellybutton...when i'm upset or nervous i play with it.....I'M WEIRD!

+Three things you hate about yourself+
Can I say everything...
1. ....umm my looks
2. how i'm alittle slow minded
3. how i need to be loved

+Three parts of your heritage+
1. French
2. Irish
3. American

+Three things that scare you+
1. My not getting to go to college
2. Me not being loved
3. not finding my self

+Three of your everyday essentials+
1. Talking to Chris and most my friends
2. Writing and reading
3. getting on DA

+Three things you are wearing right now+
1. ....a Gir wristband
2. The underwear Jo got me for x-mas
3. my floodline hoodie

+Three of your favoriate bands/artists at the moment+
1. Evanescence
2. John Mayer and Jason Upton *Tied*
3. Linkin Park

+Three of your favorite songs at the moment+
1. Evanescence - Everybodies fool
2. Jason Upton - Whistle in the wind
3. John Mayer - Neon and Daughters

+Three things you want to try in the next 12 months+
1. Getting closer to God
2. Not complain so much about the little things
3. Keep the loving relationship I have now with my boyfriend Chris

+Three things that you want in a relationship (after love, of course)+
1. Personality
2. Caring
3. and someone who loves me for me

+Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you+
1. Chris's Eyes
2. Chris's curly Hair
3. Chris's Stomach

+Three things you just CAN'T do+
1. Drive a car
2. write poetry
3. finish anything

+Three of your favorite hobbies+
1. Writing
2. Sewing
3. Being me!

+Three things you want to do really bad right now+
1. See Chris
2. See my Dad
3. Have a job

+Three careers you're considering+
1. Fashion Desighner
2. Writer
3. some with music

+Three places you want to go on vacation+
1. Ireland
2. Cali.
3. The North Pole

+Three kids' names+
1. Carpathia *it means Christ in Latin*
2. Malik
3. Raven

+Three things you want to do before you die+
1. Get married
2. Write a book
3. Look into my childerns eyes see myself and smile ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4221090/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4221090/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 13:40:15 PST

Jan. 15, 2005.....4 months Together ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4185951/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4185951/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 14:22:23 PST I'M STAYING ARE YOU HAPPY

And there are only 15 more days till my sweet 16th...I'm happy.....................

I'll be posting more stuff in the next few days i've been feeling like shit so I've been writeing alot too!

I'm Out bye ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4172499/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4172499/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 20:01:18 PST ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4146844/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4146844/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 14:59:35 PST

Alright enough with that.....the fat guy comes tonight and once again I didn't get what I wanted...My step father has talked my mom out of getting me a bass for x-mas....i would give back every gift just to have a bass.....I just want to learn how to play that's all

oh and 20 days till my sweet 16....


]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4113223/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4113223/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 17:16:17 PST Watching: The computer screen
Listening To: Welcome to my Life - Simple Plan


This emotion hits me with such a cold remembrance
That feeling has come back to haunt me again
The loneliness has returned and I don't really know why
I'm loved and I know I am
But for some reason why can't I tell myself....i love you
I hate how I'm acting
I just want all this mass confusion to stop
I guess I'm just sick and tired
Of the person I have become
I want to be happy
I don't want to be Lonely and Confused anymore

This is a poem I wrote today..... ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4094815/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4094815/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 11:14:37 PST
can't wait rollseyes

i love everyone on DA and my friends and family around the world .....

Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday! ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4094813/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4094813/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 11:14:23 PST
can't wait rollseyes

i love everyone on DA and my froends and family around the world .....

Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday! ]]> ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4042549/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4042549/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 13:06:51 PST ~LonelyandConfused http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4012360/ http://LonelyandConfused.deviantart.com/journal/4012360/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 15:49:06 PST
My one friend said this...."If we can't say one nation under God, do we say one nation under Canada and above Mexico!"

Write me and tell me what you think about this ]]> ~LonelyandConfused