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Depressed

~LordVampOsiris — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 23:25:34 PST

Just depressed over the whole thing.. I don't know what to do. All I feel capable of doing is crying right now, I don't know how to deal with my brothers condition. I can't talk to him.. He'll never be the same again and it's all just hitting me now..

He won't ever get those memories back, he's a completely different person.. Even though he didn't die, he won't ever be himself again and I won't ever really have him back and I don't know how to handle any of it. How do you deal with the fact that no they aren't dead but they aren't them anymore?

I hate Brennen for what he did to my brother and that even though he ruined Jason's life, took his past from him, all his punishment was probation.. my brother was so close to dieing and the judge decides to wipe Brennen's slate clean because he is no longer a juvenile and because now technically it was his first offense he doesn't get any jail time? Now we have to wait a year to see if he'll even be responsible for paying for Jason's hospital bills.

Everyone keeps saying that Jason is an adult and he can make his own decisions, and he can to an extent.. but his family knows what is best for him, he needs to be retrained. His girlfriend (the bitch) who is 13 years older than him and has 3 children one of whom just had a baby.

Why would a woman 13 years older and with 3 almost fully grown children one which is my age (18) be dating a man with a head injury right out of the hospital who is only 25? Then she has the nerve to turn around and tell Jason that he never grew up?

I just want to get my brother away from this woman who is using him as a taxi and a babysitter, who belittles him and tells him he can't do anything.. She treats him like a child and respects her children more than him.

He even took to calling himself those little bastards father? They don't respect him and he even calls himself a grandfather because Cheryl (the bitches) daughter had a baby!

I want my brother safe and in a stress free home so that maybe he isn't in so much pain, pain that his doctor won't prescribe medicine for.. Jason was stuck in bed with pain so bad that he said was on a scale of 10.

I want him to be able to work for a living and take care of himself, so he doesn't have to be dependent on anyone.

I don't know how to handle any of it and no one can give me a straight answer.. I know his condition and I know it won't ever be easy for him and it hurts me. It hurts me not to be ale to do anything to help and that I won't ever have my big brother back...

Job Interview

~LordVampOsiris — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 21:31:00 PDT

So I have an interview at Safeway this Wednesday and am most likely to get the job because I have been on the top of the list for almost a month now because a family friend works there and wants to work with me^^ It will be in the deli section..I need to get back on a good sleep schedule, blargh!

It was my daddy's Birthday! yesterday Oct. 30th. I took him and my sister D out to see Law Abiding Citizen.

Today for Halloween I visited some of my relatives..and got my candy XD I don't have any parties or anything to go to so I am hanging out at home.

House, Cable and Interwebs and stuff

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 20:43:44 PDT

So yeah, we are now in our new home(the carpet is awesome!) still have to move the couch and love seat over, we will be doing so tomorrow... Just got cable and wifi today, so glad ^^. I feel old, my hips and my neck are killing me><

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I caught a cold though and I get to wake up early tomorrow morning, just like today and move a bunch of crap out of storage.. screw storage stuff, mom and her boyfriend need to throw their own crap away for once.

We are still finding places for little stuff in the house.. Not used to taking this long to move, usually we move in a day.

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So glad I got to catch up on One Piece! I have episodes on my computer so I have been re-watching while we have been getting settled. Can't wait for the next chapter to come out!

Right now I be watching Hell's Kitchen, I like Gordon Ramsey. I dislike Tenille(sp?)it is as if she is forever shouting and she messes up to much, I don't know how she made it this far.

Oh Oh OH! Looky here Tenille has been booted off! - Good for Dave, he pulled through with his hurt wrist. It's nice that they got to see family.

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Our female cat Hershey is in heat and she won't shut up! >< *Shakes fist* Youuu shut uuuup.

Kumori and NEW HOUSE!

~LordVampOsiris — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:30:06 PDT

Yaaaay! XD

Kumori was fun, I got a Pirate Flag! Everyone loved Polka ^_^ I got lots of pictures!
Not so many people took pictures of Mercedes tho, but I did get a decent amount ^^

My feet swelled a little bit from both shoes *sad* I went to an 18+ panel called the gong show, it was hilarious! XD

We ate at a place called Qdoba, and the burritos were delicious, and the mall was nice but it had a lot of high end things. The food court was pretty good tho, they have better food then the Tacoma mall.

I love no sales tax! D and I were sad that we couldn't reserve games there and pick them up over here. XP

A girl really liked my Polka costume and asked me to meet her in Artist Alley, she was nice ^_^ and another one wanted to commission D to make a Polka costume for her. ^_^ The dealers room wasn't so great this year.

My Mercedes wings kept bumping into people, I apologized so much
but Jay and Kelsey did a wonderful job on constructing and painting them.

Everyone looked wonderful in there costumes and the weekend went very well^_^
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Just today we got a new house and we will be packing like crazy to move in around the beginning of October.

The owners are a nice Korean couple who really liked my mom and gave her a discount on the rental price ^_^

So yay one less thing to worry about.

Kumori and the Taste

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 16:06:50 PDT

So yesterday I went and got some more material for my Polka costume with Dinelle and Kelsey^_^
Thanks to Kelsey for making Mercedes wings, it is most appreciated!
Thanks to Laurie for all that she do!
Don't know if I will be doing a third costume or not, if I did it would be a simple one. Got Dinelle and I pre-registered for con.

Dinelle is doing Velvet, Gambit, Len and possibly Sho. She has got her hands full cause she is making my costumes too, of course with guidance and help from Laurie and Kelsey, they have done way more sewing.
D looks beautiful as Velvet! Am looking forward to walking around as a pretty little fairy XD Thank you Kelsey for the ears

I had fun at the Taste this weekend, and tried alligator for the first time, it was fried and on a stick,(everything tastes better on a stick) I was surprised that it actually did taste like chicken, after a while of eating it though I could taste the difference. It was good though.

Birthday

~LordVampOsiris — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 20:01:37 PDT

I just had my 18th birthday! Whoo!

It was fun, I bought myself a PS3 which is awesome, I have been playing Heavenly Sword, Devil May Cry 4 and Oblivion.

Oblivion is for the moment my fav..only because I can go around doing whatever I want; pickpocketing, stealing, fighting and drinking mead XD
I got dressed up and went to dinner with the family at Ruby Tuesdays..It was fun.

I have an Eng class at TCC this quarter and have stopped going to the HS...Six and a half more months in this house, with its dirty shag carpet, tiny kitchen and thin walls (also very odd heating and cooling system for both up and down stairs).

This weekend my sister will be attending Sakura Con, she will be going as Gambit from X-Men, Velvet from Odin Sphere and I can't remember the last one....I will be going to Kumori Con though as Mercedes from Odin Sphere, Polka from Eternal Sonata, and Illyana Rasputin from X-Men.

School and home life - bleh! ><

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 15:21:31 PST

Well I am going back to high school, started today. Not so used to getting up that early but luckily I only have one class^^

My new house still sucks but at least we are only living here for 7 more months and then we get to move again. -.-;

I got my financial aid paper in one day to late so TCC is holding it until next quarter, which I guess isn't so bad, I just want to be done with HS.

My brother just got back from his first airplane ride after his accident, he said he was nervous, he even broke the spine of a book he was reading He went to Kentucky, he was a little bummed out because they only had one starbucks ^^

My sister just started up again at TCC yesterday and is enjoying it. My oldest sister - the one with the baby - just had to move in with our dad for a couple of months. She's not happy XP

Our kitties are doing fine and we now have our phones turned back on.

Oh and our fridge that broke got replaced because of the kindness of my mom's friend^_^

I am feeling very isolated, all my friends live to far away and I since I don't really hang out I haven't made any friends over here, but I do still see Lindy now and again and some classmates.

That's all for now. ^^

Tag

~LordVampOsiris — Sun, 04 Jan 2009 16:00:06 PST

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

1) Your name?

Jasmine: A beautiful white flower.
A scent used for perfume, body lotions and oils or candles,incense etc
A powerful affrodisiac.

That Jasmine is HOT!

Person1:MMMMM it smells beautiful in here
Person2:That would be Jasmine

"One day when your older Jasmine you'll blossom like the flower you share your name with.

..really now?

2) Your age?

17: The right age to start having sex, according to Chef on South Park
Chef: "The right time to start having sex is 17."
Sheila: "So you mean 17 as long as you're in love?"
Chef: "Nope, just 17."
Gerald: "But what if you're not ready at 17?"
Chef: "17, you're ready."

0.o ummm no

3) One of your friends?
Janiell: Janiell isn't defined yet.

My friends are so complex that they cannot be defined XD

4) What should you be doing?

School: place were you spend first 18 years of life taking it up the ass
Mom can i stay home from school today? my ass is still sore from english class yesterday

That sounds about right

5) Favorite color?
Green: yes... it is most definitely referring to the marijuana... and also, upon occassion, any substance with similar uses. too, properly, of course, it is a golfing term, but that;s really not very much fun, now is it?
'yo, where da green at?'

..just why? ><

6) Birthplace?
Tacoma: I like to call it the "Compton of Washington". Hooray!
Woman-Where are you from?
Man- Tacoma.
Woman- Oh I'm so sorry. Didn't that sherrif ki-
Man- Yup.

..wait what??

7) Month of your birth?
April: a female of wise words. Often regarded as a "panda" person. These types of females are very energetic and friendly, and when you see these types of girls down, you feel down too.
hey, dont feel so down. Thats not very april of you.

What is a "panda" person exactly?

8) Last person you talked to?
Mom: The woman who loves you unconditionally from birth, the one who puts her kids before herself and the one who you can always count on above everyone else.

Just telling her your problems makes you feel better because mom's always know how to make it all go away.

Even if you fight, know that she's just looking out for your best interests.
Where would you be without your mom?

I had to type in mom, using her name made creepy answers pop up! >< *shudder*

9) One of your nicknames?
Jazzy: Someone who is so smooth and fly. Real and classy all at the same time
Damn... I love her style. When I met her, She acted like a bitch.. But now, She's Jazzy.

Well woohoo! ^^

I tag...

[link] (Lisseia)

[link] (JohnIGuess)

[link] (Nosferatu_Neko)

I haven't figured out ho to copy and paste those icons, it just doesn't want to work for me

Life - Random

~LordVampOsiris — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 23:57:06 PST

Our cell phones have been shut off, kind of annoying when you are looking for work.

Is anyone else getting fed up with these Twilight fans? Fan base 12-15 year olds.

Getting signed up for classes at TCC, didn't pass the placement for math in FS. Going back to RS.

Step mother made Thanksgiving weird for everyone.
Hoping that Christmas is better.

Hell

~LordVampOsiris — Sat, 06 Dec 2008 22:04:35 PST

NAMBLA Members
Circle I Limbo

PETA Members
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Bill Gates
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Osama bin Laden
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

George Bush
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

The Pope
Circle VII Burning Sands

Saddam Hussein
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Scientologists
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

House and school

~LordVampOsiris — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 18:17:50 PST

Our old landlord f*cked us over so bad. She said she wanted to sell her house so we had to find somewhere else to go. She gave us less than a month to find a new place and then wen we find a place it's below most anyone's standards.

There was black mold on the steel framed windows and some under the sinks and cupboards. There is shag carpet that smells just god awful! We drove by our old house and the bi*ch had a for rent sign up.

My school life has taken a turn for the worse, I'm now trying to get into fresh start and actually graduate. I still have to take the SAT. The past two years or so have just been horrible.

Health

~LordVampOsiris — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 22:19:53 PDT

OK so I'M not that healthy, what with my allergies and asthma. With my low immune system I get ill a lot and the allergies/asthma don't help.

I'M starting to be more active, I'M walking the golf course with my mom and eating healthier then I was..say a year or two ago.

This October my Uncle is taking me along to this clinic in California where I will eat nothing but healthy food which he says I will most likely find awful.

So I'M getting my body ready for that so I don't make myself ill.

I got a little to much sun today

I am an Aunt

~LordVampOsiris — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 16:00:57 PST

On February 25th my sister had her baby boy, he's so tiny with a lot of dark hair and dark blue eyes! His cry is so cute it almost sounds like he's laughing at times.

His name is Julius^_^ and he's really tiny
I LOVES him!

Jason

~LordVampOsiris — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 12:24:47 PST

Well Jason is out of the hospital, and he's doing better-none of those impulsive actions getting the better of him. He'll be getting his hard collar off on the 4th. His memory has improved slightly but he still has many problems to overcome.

Just wanted you guys to know he's alright now, I'm not sure how Aisha is doing though. I have not talked to her since she came to see Jason at the hospital a few weeks ago.

I hope you all had great Holidays!

Jason & Aisha

~LordVampOsiris — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 13:20:08 PST

My brother Jason is currently at the hospital. A few days ago he was taken out of the ICU and put in the PCU.
Two weeks ago on tuesday the 13th he was coming home from work. He was the passenger, the car was at a full stop at a red light with two cars ahead of him.
A drunk driver going 70 - 80 miles an hour rammed into the back of the car pushing it into the car ahead of him and that car into the first one. The drunk driver that hit my brother and his co-worker Aisha is 20 years old, he didn't even try to step on the brakes.

My brother now suffers from two small fractures on his C-1 and C-2 vertebra, head trauma and immense pain on his right side. He does not remember the accident, he does not always remember his famliy or even how old he is, he has a staph infection and nphuemonia. Today was a good day however. He pushed himself around in a wheelchair with his left leg.

Aisha had to have plastic surgery done to her brow and nose, she also has head trauma and does not fully remember the accident. She is currenlty out of the hospital, she has two children a 6 year old and a 1 year old.

It would be wonderful if people would make colorful get well cards for them or even right them a poem. And please keep them in your prayers.

Thank you

Kumori con

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 19:27:49 PDT

My sister and I are getting ready for Kumori con, were gonna leave on Thursday and wont be back till Sunday night.

My costumes for the weekend^_^

Friday: Ranma from Ranma 1/2.
Saturday: Roman Hikou, Aya from Psycho Le Cemu.
Sunday: I'll be me ^_^

Girl and Guy quiz..thing...

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 10 Jul 2007 20:51:34 PDT

GUY PART (no matter if you are a girl or guy)

1.[x] You love hoodies.
2.[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
3.[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt .
4.[x] You've played with/against boys on a team
5.[x] Shopping is torture
6.[] Sad movies suck
7.[ ] you own a xbox 360
8.[ ] wanted/played with Hotwheel cars as a kid
9.[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
10.[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
11.[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
12.[] You watch sports on TV .
13.[x] Gory movies are cool.
14.[ ] You only go to your dad for advice. .
15.[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps..
16.[] You like going to football games .
17.[ ] You used to/do collect football cards...
18.[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
19.[x] Green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favorite colors.
20.[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
21.[ ] Sports are fun too.
22.[x] Have talked with food in your mouth . (heheheh)
23.[x] Wear Boxers-to bed .
24.[] You wear your socks on at night

total:12
Multiply the total by 7
Score= 84%

GIRL PART (no matter if your a girl or a guy)

1.[ ] You wear lip gloss.
2.[x] You wear eyeliner (sometimes, but its black *shrug*)
3.[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors
4.[ ] You wear the color pink/ have worn the color pink. *raise eyebrow* pink should be shot... twice (XD so true)
5.[ ] Go to a female for advice.
6.[ ] You KNOW cheerleadings a sport and you argue about it. (...what?)
7.[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
8.[x] You like shopping.(spencers, hot topic, game stores, borders.)
9.[] You like wearing jewelry.(collars, shiny chains and things)
10.[ ] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe.
11.[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars. (which one?)
12.[x] It takes you around 1 hour (or more) to shower get dressed and put on make-up and accesories. (I take a 30 minute to an hour shower, then I let my hair dry in the towel for a few hours..it takes a while to dry..theres a lot of it...-.-; don't wear accesories, accept my hats)
13.[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
14.[x]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes/sneakers. (...uhm *doesnt know how many)...boots...^.^..I believe so)
15.[x] You care about what you look like..(occasionally...when i'm bored and my mind starts to wander.)...-.-)
16.[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can(Don't make me hurt you.)
17.[x] You love, LOVE movies..(depends on my mood)
18.[x] Used to play with dolls as a little kid..
19.[] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it..
20.[ ] Like taking pictures when you're bored.

total= 8
multiply by 7
score= 56%
....I don't get it...so am I one of the guys now?...If I am, there will be much more Yaoi things going on....;3 <3<3<3

Summer

~LordVampOsiris — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 22:44:08 PDT

I started a new allergy pill ontop of my old one...I act weird with it it's like i'm hyped on caffeine!!!!!!

I'm going to be a Nanny this summer for to kids a 10 (boy) and 12 (girl) year old, I bassically have to take them to Wild Waves and the zoo and to dinner.
Most people would be more than ok with this cause hey, it's wild waves but still everyday will get pretty anoyying.

Not sure what i'm going to get paid, but the mother is going to pay for the gas, entrance fee, food-snacks and dinner, and these people eat REALLY well.
So i'm gonna be busy, also with trying to get up to my friends who live in completely different directions of eachother. >< Dammit!

I'm also not over my phobia of driving yet, EVERYTHING freaks me out on the road, I don't know how i'm gonna survive on the freeway with two kids in the back seat o.O!!!

I also have to wait till Sept. 1 to try the TCC test again for Running Start, bleh>< Well I hope ya'll have a great summer, try not to have to many wild parties and go driving, cause i'll be out there to! But in far warning if your car bumps mine, i'm BUMPIN BACK!!><

I think i'll get bumpers for the sides of my car toXDDD Lol

Bordome

~LordVampOsiris — Wed, 21 Mar 2007 13:26:59 PDT

So yeah, i'll probably put up some new art soon i'm trying to put together the rest of my characters..I've got some of there personalities now I have to create a plot XP but I have been making some random side things so.. heh; Well anyways just puttin that out there...later!

Normality

~LordVampOsiris — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 21:08:48 PST

If you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29 your normal.
If you get 11 to 20 you're pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.

People who don't have any are jerks who think they're tough.
Everybody fears something.

I fear...

[] people
[] the dark
[] being single forever
[] being a parent
[x] being myself in front of others (mostly new ppl)
[] open spaces
[x] closed spaces

total: 2

[x] heights
[] black cats
[] birds
[] fish
[] ants
[x] driving
[] flying
[] flowers or other plants
[] being touched (BACK OFF!!! NO POKING!)
[] fire

total: 4

[x] dark water
[x] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning (love it)
[] frogs/toads
[] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad (never had one)
[] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom
[] mice/rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain

total: 6 so far

[] wind
[] cotton balls
[] cemeteries
[] clowns(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx- morbid terror of clowns)
[x] large crowds
[] crossing bridges
[]death
[] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] men
[x] women

total: 10 soo far

[x] having great responsibility
[x] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[] snakes
[] sharks (No, but I dislike them with great intensity..actually I LOATH them!!><
[] shots (dont get me started)
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts

total: 13 so far

[] Halloween
[] school
[x] trains or railroads
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone forever
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[] growing up

total: 16 so far

[] monsters under my bed (not monsters, people- and yes theres a reason for it..>>
[x] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles (oh gods..))
[] blood (a vampire afraid of blood?? wheres the logic in that?)
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] love
[x] spiders

total: 21

...Wait...I'm?...Normal??..No, that cannot be! >< You LIE!

Jubilations!!

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:26:22 PST

Finally, I have gotten the scanner to work and gotten it registered!!...Yeah..only problem is my computer is slow..but I will still be getting my art up and yeah..XD!!!
Enjoy Nana!!

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~LordVampOsiris — Sun, 21 Jan 2007 13:03:30 PST

I have the scanner but it wont work!! Arrgh...that's all I have to say..for now. Stupid scanner!

Annoyed

~LordVampOsiris — Tue, 16 Jan 2007 21:50:58 PST

Yeah, I don't have a scanner, I can't put up any of my art at the moment but i'm hoping to be able to soon. Sad pandas! ><