http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:LordoftheNoodles&section=today deviantART RSS for by:LordoftheNoodles en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 00:08:09 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/17863032/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/17863032/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 11:03:34 PDT the green bits on top tickled and there was powdered sugar everywhere
i lost track of reality when i figured out i was wearing too small shoes that did fit
time just didn't really pass by and the sun was shining just as bright as when it was
noon

i guess i'm kind of losing my mind

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ANYWHO here are some facts:

1 MOVING DAY
So i've been trying to get out of the house for about 2/3 years now, and if everything is going according to plan(for once) i'll be on living in my own house before the end of the month. Even greater news is that my boyfriend might just be moving in.... which for me would be great cause i'm craving for some normality in my emotional eruptions

2 MIDTERMS
Are finally over. It was a hell for me, since i just didn't have any time to prepare what so ever.... i even slept trough one and woke up just in time for the next....HOORAY. But now it's over and all i have to do is get my artclass project done before tomorrow and i'm off the hook for the next few weeks

3 THE BOYFRIEND
And i are together for almost half a year now... things are getting pretty serious now and it's kind of freaking me out. But on the other hand it's quite nice as well, to finally have found someone again and having that person love you back for such a long time already

4 FIFER
Or what ever you write it like. I'm pretty sure i got it, because i got all the symptoms and i'm tired as hell troughout the whole day. I'm gonna get my blood checked somewhere this week and hopefully i get some clear results because with carnaval coming up, i'm not gonna be resting a lot and drinking big amounts of beer if i'm not sure i got it or not

so that's kind of it for now.... O i might just go on with another chapter of sudden storm... you know the very popular never read story i did ages ago...

uhm... BYE

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/15708244/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/15708244/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 14:07:39 PST
Mentally, I'm pretty much as unstable as a goldfish on the dry. I can't think straight for more then three seconds and I have more moodswings than a pregnant woman. In the morning i feel sick and annoyed, in the afternoon(if i'm not sleeping) i feel sad for one minute and happy the next. Probably has something to do with me not eating even half of what i usual eat.

I know i'm mumbeling nonsense for most of you guys but it really releives. I feel happy and that's a great thing..... i guess. Something else, which is a great thing is that the hollidays have officially started. Thousands of people overcrowding the streets buying presents for they're loved ones. And this year i'm finnaly earning enough to do the same. I already gave him a chocolate fountain, because he wanted one form the first day we met. But i'm going to buy him some more things.... atleast i think i am, because i wanna spoil him.

Yay i'm ultra happy right now(hence the moodswings) so i guess i'm going to just try and relax. Big day tomorrow...

See ya

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/15053718/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/15053718/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 05:58:02 PDT Singing frogs and dancing bears
7 days a week of sunshine
running free without any cares

Tangerine, green striped rainbows
Your hands intertwined with mine
Scary monsters that try to get us
but no worries we'll be fine

Because we're together...
So nothing can go wrong

Because we're together...
your the one with who i belong

Because we're together...
AND I COULD SCREAM YOUR NAME OUT LOUD

I don't care about it all
You'll catch me when i fall
yes you'll be there

There is no such thing as bad
It's all in your head
so JUST DON't CARE....

Because we're together...
We're together

I don't care about it all
You'll catch me when i fall
We're together...
forever...

Just a little song that popped into my head and now i can't stop singing it ...Yay i'm a singer songwriter...I'm cool now

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You'll be suprised how much fits in a bag if you really want to. But thank god we can go into our house today, so in about an hour or so im leaving my grandpa's place to go back....

sigh...i i hate this lemony snickets a series of unfortunate evens lifestyle

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14559076/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14559076/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:25:11 PDT of the house a lot earlier then i thought really speeded things up. I suddenly realised i'm
going to live on my own. I know that sounds rediculous, since thats what it was all about in
the first place. It's just that it's just getting to me now.

I was just getting the trash outside and i began to think how insecure the whole idea gets me.
I'm leaving my parents and my two sisters, all my preschool friends i suddenly seem to bond with
and even the room i'm sitting in right now. It's all going to be gone. And i know i'm going to get a whole
house for myself in return, a place to call my own and all new friends.

It's all i ever dreamed off, but i guess with the whole me having a relationship, new friends and all these new and insecure things, i'm not sure if i'm ready for my own place. But when i talked to my boyfriend he calmed me a lot by promising he'll be there for me trough the whole thing. So that really gave me courage again to just do it.

But of course thats not just the only thing about my future which is on my mind, but thats too much to bug you guys with.

Yay i'm gonna be a man soon....yup....a real man

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14396379/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14396379/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 14:02:33 PDT
We all know what a dejavu is....you relive a moment you think
you have already been trough. Well i kindahad a weird dejavu a
few minutes ago....

I was sitting on the toilet and i was calling paul and every word i
said in the conversation was the exact same as i thought i had already
said once. I looked down at my boxer and even those were the same as
i thought they were when i had already done it.

Now the thing with dejavu's is that when they're finished you just move on
in your life and things get normal. Well the thing with me was, that the dejavu
was supposed to be longer in my head. I was supposed to say more because in
my head i already knew what was going to happen. But then i decided that i didn't
want that to happen so i said something else.

Well at that moment i just got this big jolt of energy trough me and i was just so happy
i could almost cry and i have no freaking idea why....but it was fun. It made me realise that
the fute isn't set out for us. That we can still change the whole course of our future...

I know i know " crazy sleepy guy talking " but i just had to say it

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anyways....please return my calls, texts or emails so atleast i know your alive. And i really really really really really *auch hurt my finger on that last really* wanna go to the wine parties in germany soon! O and the film festival in Utrecht...Just too much for us not to be together

and i'm really fucking missing you

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Wanna know which bands your missing????

[link]

YAY*dances and prances around*

SEE YA ON SUNDAY

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14039008/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/14039008/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 06:05:50 PDT
Well i love the thing, i mean if i could i would take it anywhere*pretty much already done that this vacation*, it's my little baby. But the shutter is beginning to really bug me. It doesn't always shut correctly, well doesn't always....lets just say once in a million times it does shut normally. This means half of my pictures get ruiend because they have to much light, or i moved the camera too much since i thought it was already done...things like that.

And because a minolta still works with film* FILM???? Harry this guy here asks if we still sell film...no it aint a joke*...you can't just delete a picture and do the shot over. Which finnaly concludes in pretty much 70% of my pictures being ruiend!

AND I HATE THAT

So i guess i'll have to give up on my little baby and start saving for a digital one. *SIGH* o well...we all have to say goodbye to childhood memories once.

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But tottaly other different news...i'm trying to scan in the pictures which did turn out pretty nice so expect some scanner killed pictures soon!

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I popped like a bubble and aaaaaalll the frustration and creativity just dripped out.
I made a dozen photo's even did a shoot with monique, got the owner of Camelot
france to stand between some plants even though he had no idea why and made
my own compositions in the garden. I feel happy, arroused and ready to shoot some
MORE

ROAR

YAY*o i sound so gay right now*

Probably going to post a lot next week because i still need to develop the film

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And we just all got ice creams from jason

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/13382505/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/13382505/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 15:21:23 PDT
one cup an two spoons

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I've been too bussy with stupid things to be creative and i really dont want to keep on doing that because it makes me feel bad.

So i packed up my laptop and pulled out the plug on internet and laptopusage for the rest of the next few weeks. So don't expect me to post anything soon.

Untill then i might just check messages and watches on school but for the rest of the time i'll be reading or painting or writing with a pen and things like that. O and being in love....But thats something for later

BYE BYE XX
Sam

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It's just so hard all of the sudden to get out anything.
I have 10 halfly finished diary entries but they all seem
like such crap...i hate it....i think i'm having an artblock

i hate having one......but i'll get rid of it....does anyone have
any tips on getting it out.....please help....UGH its frustrating

I can't even type this journal without thinking its crap

Don't expect antyhing the next week....sorry

UUUUGH

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o and i fell in love...again i know i know

so keep in touch...how are you doing my little people?

btw: Pete wents is hot

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/11300207/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/11300207/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 11:46:38 PST
Tomorrow i'll go running for the first time. One of the things i promised myself to keep on doing in the new year. Jurgen and i are going to go to some beautifull woods nearby. I know its january and its cold, but i don't give a fuck. There are a lot of things i promised myself to go and do in 2007 and one of them is keeping those promisses so its going to be quite the year....

I took a quick look trough my gallery untill now. I found out i'm not really cut out for the whole photographer thing. Most of my better pieces we're spontanious pictures and i will go on taking pictures because i just love to make them, but i won't try to go pro. I will try to become a better writer/poet/journalistic person, because i would love to go and do something with that when i grow older. I mean what guy wouldn't love to tell his kids your own bedtime stories from a well sold book.....ahhh yes parenthood, something i hope i get to be part of in the future.....

I'm also cleaning out my music. My taste has changed quite a bit since i got my laptop. I do still listnen to punk/rock and a lot like that but i'm also beginning to love jazz and other kinds of music. I love The fray, The gorillaz and yes i'm even proud to say i love Edith piaff and Jaques Brell.....

I guess little Sander grew up when he turned 17, not that i didn't see it coming, but still that i can't fit in my peter pan jammies and prance around is something i'll miss. But hey i'm still a teen and i still know how to love life and all. Maybe i'll learn how to love lovers again soon. Who knows the year has just started.....

A yes the nostalig vieuw of life. I think it's time for a new ID as well, expect it soon.....

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MERRY FREAKING CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL

I love chrismas, i can wear non matching clothes, drink more whine then i ever did, talk to family*jesus i make so many spelling mistakes* and i get to celebrate my birthday again.

In just 2 days i'll be fucking 17, i'm becoming an old geezer. Some day soon i'll be 18 and i'll have to be an adult. Eeeeew...so i'm gonna enjoy my last year as an teenager.

ANYWAYS

HAPPY HOLLIDAYS, MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY NEW YEAR

I hope you will all have lots and lots of sex drugs booze or whatever your heart desires in 2007 and all the time afterwards. I love every fucking post i saw this year and i hope you guys keep the good thing up

BYE BYE HUGS AND KISSES

*i'm going to antwerp in 3 days HOORAH*

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/11115806/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/11115806/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 11:48:53 PST I have a lot of great news that is way better then all of that. So here goes.

I guess everyone sort of knew this already, or saw it coming*god even our parents saw it coming*, but Merel and I are going to live together. After 4 years of the best friendship i have ever had, we decided to go and live together. I can't think of any other person i would like to live with more then you hunn. I'ts planned i guess around this summer holidays. If we find something payable we'll get in sooner. I can't believe my parents we're okay with it, but hey they know merel and i can take care of ourselves as long as we're together. I can't wait to go and just do it. But first i'm going for a test run on the whole living on your own thing.

In about uhm...let me see....5 weeks i'll leave for london. I'm going to be there for 2 and a half month. I'll be working for the same company merel and i might register here. They are providing me and 3 of my friends with a home with gass electricity heating and everything. I'm really looking forward to it because i love London and i just love living on my own....I'll be making a album full of photo's from now on. It will contain a lot of photo's of everyone i have to miss when i'm gone.

Talking about pictures, i'm going to save for a better camera from now on. I did my first test at the Sint Lucas yesterday and i have no idea if i did good or not, but if i get in i need one, if i don't I JUST WANT ONE!!! I have so many concepts in my head*must be because i finnaly found some decent music again which inpires me*, and those won't really be able to show it all with my crappy camera. I'm also trying to find out more about photoshop, because i want to add a lot of atmosphere in my pictures*thinks of that one lovely shot*. And i hope that one day i'll make great pictures like arists such as Stijn and Benjamin.

Talking about stijn* i use talking about a lot this time*, i'm going to visit him in Antwerp for a few days this christmas holidays. Sorry but i still don't know for how many days prob untill the 30th. But anyways he's also coming here to celebrate new years eve with us. You have no choise, your not going to sleep for fucks sake. There will be booze and whatever you want so your coming. I have to make some pictures of you as well because you have to be in my album as well.

*not going to say it not going to say it* Talking ...AAARGh....I'm going to have an digital album soon. I ordered my Zen V plus today so it should come in tomorrow or thursday. Its this MP3 Player i've been begging for for days now. You should check [link] , and search for it. Its the best! It has video music radio photo and a lot of other functions. I tottaly fell in love with it the first time i saw it. I had to have it and it can store over 1.000 photo's YAY. So now i can show my friends at school my work cause they wanted to.

Finnaly, lets see what was i about to say again, I dunno really. I'm doing great at the moment, no more mood swings a lot of fun, not so much sleep and i'm really sorry i can't see all of you lately, but atleast i'm seeing some of you at daf's*BAFNA* birthday.

Wow this is the longest journal in ages, and i'm loving it. I bet you don't

~forget december, it won't be better then i remembered it before~

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10810247/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10810247/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 16:23:26 PST am i the only one or....?????strange


You can still send in challenges

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CHALLENGES
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1 Kiss Tiel(daltar)
2 ask out the guy that you like.(mortedeamor)
3 make a poem about your favorite photo(88blackrose88)
4 go running(stijntje)
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DONE
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1 Kiss Tiel
2 Make a poem about your favorite photo
3 go running

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10775738/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10775738/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 09:26:50 PST
First five days just pretty much sucked. I had more mood swings in one hour then i usually have in a week. I was happy for 3 minutes but i wanted to die the next 10. I loved the fact someone smiled at me but when the bus driver told me to go and get my feet off the chair*stupid jerk* i wanted to go and cry where everyone was looking.

I kept this whole thing up untill thursday/friday. Then i just collapsed and i would just go to school be done with it go lay in my bed and wait for the next mood to come. I just didn't have the power to go on. I was almost throwing up from all the commotion and i really didn't know why and all.

But thank god for creating worlds best feminin person in the world. MEREL. Girl you we're my saviour. The whole time we were together i didn't feel any stupid feelings. I just was happy the whole time.

We had the best fun in a long time. We drank a whole bottle of Canei in 20 minutes and finished the second bottle of JP about 40 minutes later. Too bad none of us got the cute guy. Anyways we went out later in the evening cause her dad went 50 that day and we had to stay for a while....which was fun

It was too bad I didn't see Jurgen that evening for long. I only saw him for about 15 minutes and we both were pretty bitchy. But thanks for the call hunn i guess now we can go on much better and i can't wait to see you again.

But just to make the rest short, we almost went into the three sisters*10 cm from the door....SOOOO CLOSE*, some pub and then we made some trips around the world with Merel and Tiel. Too bad we didn't find the negro.

That night Tiel invited me to next saturdays party which will be great cause there will be beer whine and other liqour and many many great people.

So last collumpart of this week*next journal won't be this long i promiss but just so much happend*. I got home today watched Anastacia(disney movie) downstairs with my blankets over me drinking milk and eating cookies. So yeah i think i ended the week well....I want to go to london, its really beginning to take longer while i'm actually getting closer. 10 Weeks and then i'll stay for 10 weeks as well.

BYE BYE SORRY FOR THE LONG JOURNAL

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10724566/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10724566/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 15:11:39 PST
Good thing 1

Jurgen was being such a sweetheat and suprised me all of the sudden by arriving in berlicum. He really is such a cute guy. I think i might begin to love you. And yes i know your reading this

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10647035/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10647035/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 12:12:31 PST
ANYWAY just to avoid the whole thing. I got accepted for my 10 week internship in london. I get to stay in one of their houses so thats all settled. And i'm not alone, because Tom and Monique got accepted as well. We will be in the same house maybe......i can't wait!


O and Jurgen will you come as well. That would be the best thing ever.....cause the door can be locked

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10600219/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10600219/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 03:59:49 PST are you looking for something?
You just seem to keep on running trough my mind

There is no love up here
only happy thoughts and squishy brain
My love for you is way more down
right down there at the heart

I know its a big jump to make
But i'll be there with my arms wide open
and i'll keep them open untill you come
And i will catch you when you jump

Gather some trust
There must be some left in my head
i haven't dared to use it in ages so there must be enough
Gather enough and come and jump

You can look around here some more
but i doubt you find what your looking for
I'll be waiting for you at my heart

And i will catch you if you fall
So come and fall in love with me
just as i fell in love with you
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Yep kiddo your screwing me up quite good from the inside and outside. I can't seem to stop singing can't stop smiling can't stop thinking of you. You make me nervouse and shy and i just seem to want to see you. You got me good, you got me hard and you don't really seem to see it do you.

Goooooooooood lord dear lord o yes

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10523070/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10523070/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 01:02:21 PDT
I finally got a job. I fill shelfs at the AH. Well you can say what you want but i like the job. It pays nice and i get to be in Den Bosch* nice citey* for a little longer. Because afterwards i can go to Jeroen or someone else. Its nice......really i might not look exited but i'm juts kinda tired. In a good way because yesterday was fantastic

I also learned how to cook. Finnaly!....ok so i only know how to make 2 dishes it was fun. Because jeroen told me how. He invited me and i really wanted to help so few minutes later while playing Jaques Brell on the background and with a big glass of whine standing next to me i was finnaly cooking. And it felt great to finnaly do such things....

O o o Jeroen is going to take me out for a day of shopping soon. Because i was nagging about my clothes and how good his looked, so maybe next week we'll fetch me some new ones.....

Well thats all i just wanted to say.....2222 WOW MUCH HUH

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EDIT- LOVING THIS MUSIC
[link]

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10452727/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10452727/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 06:15:35 PDT
So last night i went over to Jeroen. About which i do not post anything over here, because he is already to dear to me to be judged by just anyone. But lets just say it was the best night in ages....but anyways

I come back and we have a FREAKING TV OF 1M WIDE with 300 channesl including movie channels and all that stuff....and i was like.....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. OMG i wanted to hug the tv but i was too scared it would fall on me and crush me. Not that i´d care i mean death by a huge tv thats something quite....attracting. But i don´t wanna die cause life is way to good on me. Being a single rules...seriously!!!

O and one thing sucks the busses won´t ride untill wendsday probably, but i have Jeroens bike. Which i wanna go and bring back tomorrow so maybe we can talk again. And seriously dude...i never ever wanna go into a bathtub...the one that was in the store already freaked me out too much.

O and i think that now we're already rambling, i think that society looks to weird at age difference and stuff. If anyone wants to discuss this be my guest but if you are pro people who are against it....i will bring you down!!

So yeah i'm hyper and happy....YAY FOR ME!!!

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O and stijn since you won't read this untill tomorrow prob

HAPPY BIG BOY BIRTHDAY!!!!

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10386800/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10386800/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 03:38:23 PDT
Yesterday on friday the 13th, i got calles 13 times by a number which i got traced to somewhere around the middle east. Now usually i wake up at every single call. But i slept trough the whole thing. I only noticed the first call, but not entirely. Whenever i get called and my mobile is on my nightstand, my alarmclock makes this weird noise. Now it did make that noise and my mobile did lit up, but there was no one calling......so i guess that was the first call.

So i woke up finding 13 calls from a stranger on friday the 13th...this spooks me out. Especially since all the signs that seemed to cross my path telling me firday the 13th would be special. A rabbits paw that didn't bring luck, a rose that pricked me and 855 which means 8+5=13 5 is the 5th day as in friday the 13th. Now this may all be normal to you. But i don't freak out that easely as well. Seriously i don't always believe in signs but these were just a little to obvious. Because every single one of them caught my attention from the first moment i saw it.

But seriously if someone has any explenation other then
1: Dude stop worrying its just a few things you saw
2: Its friday the 13th what do you expect

Please tell me

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10314383/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10314383/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 12:41:34 PDT
So i went to Wes last night...which was quite a funny journy. First of all my buss was too late. I thought o god i missed it...but it was just late. Then when i arrived at the station i had to wait for 1 HOUR and 12 MINUTES!!!! For my bus to come. Luckely i got to sit next to this really adorable guy. Who i must say looks really cute when he smiled at me. But anyways lets continue. The buss to Waalwijk was too late because the bussdriver was ill. Which means that they place someone in there who doesn't know crap. He really didn't know and he was so pissed when i kept asking him where to go*i did get there with 2 stars instead of paying an extra star*. I went to sit in the back and SHAWN THE GODYELLER was there. So i asked him is he knew where i had to get out. But he didn't knew either.

Then i thought o well i'll just move to the middle maybe someone knows. And Maaike knew. I had no idea who she was, but she was really really nice to talk to. She explained me where to get out and even pushed the button for me. We also talked about Taizé and the eu youthday. I really wanted to stay in the buss with her, but hey i has an incredibly sweet guy waiting for me.

Wesely was great. Now...sorry that makes it sound like its an atraction. Being with him was fabulous. I got to know a lot more about Robbin then i knew. So that made me frightnend a lot. But wesely calmed me down and made me at ease so nice. I almost cried there. But he told me all those sweet thing and explained it all so well that it was all over. I guess it was just a fase i had to go trough. And thanks to him i'm thinking of going to the COC in Den Bosch soon. I'm a lil scared but its ok. Your suposed to be scared because being cocky only creates problems.

I would've gone out with rick today, but since we're both really tired* i also had to work at a con as well*, so we didn't go. Which is quite nice because now i have a chance to go and sleep well. Tomorrow i've got a whole sunday planned for myself. Just relax and get everything sorted out. A real Sander day......YAY HOORAY....yeah

SO i learned a lot...also i learned to make pictures instead of just posting journals. But i'm to bussy with school and the story. So i might post the storie tomorrow because its a relaxing thing to do. So yeah

O and merel WE WILL BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER EVEN WHEN I GET FAT

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Writing things i want to write

Songs:
1 The new age of the well known
2 Me and you is us was we
3 Forever ended Yesterday [link]

Stories:
1 Bubble
2 Slijmvaginas en Valballen(dutch story of a friend of mine and me)
3 Super Sick

3 Bandnames:
1 A cooler december
2 Old Spice Calafornia
3 Blue Cat New York

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10292660/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10292660/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 12:02:10 PDT
Tomorrow is my mons birthday,which means i'm going to see my famely again. I've really began to realise how great family is. I can't write it the same two times in a row but still. They seem to really be nice all of the sudden. My newphews and neices and all, they're even fun to play with. But thats not the reason why i'm happy.

Tomorrow evening*with my finnaly gotten bus month card...yes i have one YAAAAAAAAAY* i'm going to go to wesely. We're going to watch summerstorm. A gay movie i really wanted to see for quite a while. I'm actually seeing movies i like lately, i mea i saw lady in the water with greg and now this one with wesely. I'm also staying over and sleeping at his place as well. I'm really really really really really looking forward to it. I can't wait.....is it friday yet? NO...YES???

I talked with Roeline today. I seem to see her more and more lately. We talked a lot went to the mc bought some bra's and it was really really great. Next time i'm going to get your mobile number so we can do some things in the fall break.....speaking of that.

I'm either working then* had a solicitation convo with the guy and he seemed impressed somehow* at the free record shop. I wanted to go hitchhiking/backpacking to paris with Monique and Lotte but thats to soon and too cold. So maybe we're going on a 3 day cruise and then tom and raymon are coming too. Any thing that i'm going to do seems nice.

I'll probably go out in Eindhoven on saturday with rick and some friends. I really wanna go since i never went out there. He says that its way better then Den Bosch and i liked that already so... Plus it means i'm gonna sleep with who ever i'm going to leave with. Maybe freek...that would be nice.

O god i'm really looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the time, i'm going to have so much fun i didn't expect it. O btw Tom we're gonna find you some WO2 books soon ok....and Steffie the photo's were nice

So thats about it for this weekend i geuss....SO yeah
Have fun reading it all again

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10247477/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10247477/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 12:17:43 PDT Stupid school, i wanted to stay there.
Everything seemed so nice there. Meeting stijn
sleeping with gregory....i did so much fun thing
but somehow everything seems so nice since i went there
i mean...i can't remember how fucked up life was
everything seems to be beautifull even i do, and everything
and everyone is happy and soft and i don't have any irrational thoughts
I don't know

But anyways if you want to know anything about belgium, just:
CALL
TEXMESSAGE
MSN
MEET ME

because there were so many things that happened and i don't think i should tell
everything to everyone....but i'll post some pics soon since i made like a million

BYE BYE
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY...HUNGRY SANDER
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Ok sorry if you have to read this journal twice but i just wanted to tell some more since i'm not going anywhere untill uhm...dunnoo just a few hours

When i went to belgium i met Wesely at the central station...he's really sweet actually and i found out that the whole kissing thing is normal for him to do. Ok so i still don't like the fact that he kissed robbin but i can forgive him. I did actually and when i came back and i was waiting for my bus he was there as well. We talked a bit because his bus was coming withing 5 minutes or so. He's kinda cute actually and really sweet.

Talking about sweet, greg hunn your the best. I haven't had fun like that in a while. You we're right about quite some things. I loved sleeping in one bed with you. You are really nice and warm....When i had to move to the bed....thingie it was way to cold. Thank god for your parents to go to sleep that soon. I like the way you hug....i guess you really like to hug, just like me. And what really suprised me was that you just kissed me in front of pretty much everyone. It felt nice. O...and i won't forget the cinema ...but no more details on that one.

As for Stijn, it was really nice to meet you. Your boyfriend is extremely lucky to have someone like you. The stijn i met was really nice, ok so you were a bit freaked out about spiders. It made you look kinda cute. O and btw really thanks for the cookies....i ate the last ones in the train and they were great. Sorry if i made a total fool out of myself when we were on the grass....i guess i don't....i just don't...and btw i from now on ban you from every place that has any kind of branch or stick withing 10 YARDS!!!!...nice to meet you, hope it was the same for you.

O BTW I GOT A PICTURE OF YOU...FOUND OUT I DID WHEN I GOT BACK AT GREGS...I'LL POST IT LATER.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow, i want to go and get under gregs blanket again and wait for him to come home. Just so we can play toss again...or just go and sleep right away....i don't care i just want to go back to everything there cause it was just sooooo much better then here. I guess its just time to get my blow up greg again.

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10221973/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10221973/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 04:13:49 PDT
And i'm going to meet Stijn, which does make nervous and i don't want to be nervous and i have no clue why.....hmpf

I still have no freaking clue what kind of present you want greg, so i'll just take you to the movies, because i hate the red ribbon around my head. Anything i should pack????

O do you want me to bring toss cause that should make things a lot more interesting??? I'm rambling like shit because i have no idea what to say because i'm hyper and i wanna go now not tomorrow......BELGIUMMMMMMM

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10121264/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10121264/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 11:24:33 PDT

STEVEN
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Thank yoy for coming, it really ment a whole lot for me. I can't wait to see you again. Maybe soon when i'm coming to Belgium. You made me see a lot of things i just couldn't figure out....i geuss you made me think everything was alright for a while again. O and your a lot softer then robbin.

Belgium
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Yeah i'm going to try and go to belgium for a weekend. Just to forget everything around here. Too have fun with Steven Gregory and Stijn. To watch Zim and play mario....to see the real people....GOD I JUST WANT TO Go.....i geuss i don't want to come back after, but who cares i'll have to find a home there

BTW SHOULD I TAKE ANYTING WITH ME???


A new story
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Yes sir....its going to be a new children novel, kind of like princess sweetteeth. This time with some insperation from mieke....thats why i wanted to call the leading person mieke....but since its going to be english, i'm going to have to find another girlish name. If you have suggestions please tell. Its about a waternimpf, she feels so bad around her people that she try's to block out everyone around here. That way she creates a bubble around herself which makes her float through the ocean....i don't want to tell too much, but if you know a name please tell me.

Work
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Ok so i had my solicitation thingie today....they told me i would make a nice chance but theyre still some to go. if i can go work there i get to go to the movies for free all the time uhuuhuuhuhuhu *WHOOOOZAAAA*.

Untill then i got to work for my dad...which usually sucks but this work i don't mind. Because i need to shred a lot of wood....which sucks but i also ahve to look out for some guy. A OMG hot guy. 6.5 feet tall blond curly hair mucled and his undies and ass *which are tight* about 10 inches above his pants....so i don't care working there

I geuss my AT thing won't go on. But hey i'll just keep on going


MEREL
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YEah this weekend i'm going to go to merel and this time i won't let the choco cock and filled anus melt. I'm really looking forward to it


UPDATES
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Ok so expect the story and some picssoon i'm i a creative mood thanks to miko and the cheap prices for the things i want

FOR SALE
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Not too bad looking me
Price: A lifetime of love fun happiness and more kisses and hugs you ever gave someone
someone who can put his arms around me and put me as ease. Someone who'll just throw
me on his bed and makes love to me. WHo knows what i want. A sweet november all year around.
Someone who doesn't care if i kiss him or hug him where ever we are because we love eachother
someone who knows how to be romantic and how to apreciate it when i am romantic
O and a nice outside would be nice as well

wow its less then i thought ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10055875/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/10055875/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 00:14:28 PDT It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread


You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be........


You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
Sow much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the sh*t that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be........

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
Sow much for my happy ending


It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
Making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done




He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
Sow much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending


So much for my happy ending

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Avril Lavigne must know my life because she seems to sing about all my sorrows

It seems to discribe my feelings so wel.. not everything buts its the closest thing to perfect just as you were the closest thing to real love

everyone seems so different to me, as if we were just the same. But i know i can't forget you, because i can lose your love but i need you as a friend

please lets be friends i don't ask more really ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/9759990/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/9759990/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 12:34:47 PDT
The rules

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be photographed but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

Now the good part. CHALLANGE YOUR FREINDS.( i soooo know who to challenge)

THE LIST
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Though [link]
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation [link]

Challenging:
ok so britt is you read this i want to challenge you, i know your better and all but i thought maybe its something you like to do and i'd love to see some new works...SO accepting??

O and Robbin i'm challenging you as well because i'd love to see you handeling a photocamera

TO ALL WHO TAKE THIS CHALLENGE AS WELL GOOD LUCK ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/9095386/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/9095386/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 10:56:18 PDT
Hey! Copy and paste this! Fill it out and post it on here!

1. Who are you?


2. Are we friends?


3. When and how did we meet?


4. Do you have a crush on me?


5. Would you kiss me?


6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.


7. Describe me in one word.


8. What was your first impression?


9. Do you still think that way about me now?


10. What reminds you of me?


11. If you could give me anything what would it be?


12. How well do you know me?


13. When's the last time you saw me?


14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?


15. Are you going to put this on your dev and see what I say about you? ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8956523/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8956523/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 05:32:42 PDT But i must say the whole break has opened my eyes quite a bit.

For example i found out i'm really not that shy, its just something i tell myself and began to believe.
That really scared me that i could make myself believe something as idiotic as that.
*cow fly's by*
So i just got to the bookstore and i bought WINQ. For those who don't know what Winq is, its a gay
magazine which at least in this edition has a naked man on the cover. I bought this smiling happy
and not shy or ashamed by the fact that i'm gay. DUH CAUSE IT AINT BAD. I thought maybe some
people in my village wouldn't accept it and stuff BUT WHO THE FUCK CARES. Soooooo....
*cow fly's by again.....*

Anyways i also bought some booze which i so want to drink, bubbleblow...stuff and cookies and a gay
magazine, listing to Linkin park this all makes me feel quite good, i have no idea why i was actually
posting this journal so i'll end now, wow......i'm really confused now REALLY

*cow fly's by* MOOOOOOO* pulls out shotgun from thin air and shoots the cow* YOU DAMN FLYING COW ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8598216/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8598216/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 03:35:06 PDT Would You.....

Kiss me -
Hug me -
Lick me -
Kill me -
Love me -
Hate me -
Hold me -
Lie to me -
Hurt me -
Sing with me -
Dance with me -
Cuddle with me -
Let me make a move on you -
Make a move on me -
Watch a movie with me -
Get me a birthday gift -
Let me borrow your car -
Take a shower with me -
Be there for me -
Buy me a drink -
Bring me around your friends -
Give me a massage -
Go to sleep with me (no sex) -
Skinny dip with me -
Get drunk with me -
Take advantage of me -
Hangout with me -
Have sex with me -
Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good -
Grind with me -
Hold hands with me -
Do something incredibly sweet for me -
Re-post this And let me fill this out for you - ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8506725/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8506725/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 08:42:58 PDT
Ahhh yes saturday, means one whole week without my parents and as much robbin as i can get out of it. It means sunday breakfast in bed long showers and boyfriend time. I really can't wait and i'm not supposed to have expectations but i mean 7 whole days without parents, god i love that. 7 WHOLE FUCKING DAYS!

i discovered that with my big headphone on, listnening to good music and seeing life through a mirror, evrything looks way better. SO i might just do that way lot more. I bought some massage oil en cool stuff for robbin and me as well and that makes things look even better

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Now since thought i didn't have anything to do....which sadly at the moment is true, she tagged me. But no worries cause i love the tag thingies....YAY



Four movies you would watch over and over:

1. Sleepy hollow
2. Charlie and the chocolate factory
3. Every vampire film(yes i see them all and watch them as much as possible)
4. From hell...greates movie ever not counting sleepy hollow

Four places you have lived:

1.Middelrode- we moved to a bigger house because it was getting to small
2 Berlicum- the town right next to it but i love this house so much more
3 Maaspoort- I go there so much i might as well say i live there
4 The mistic and scary world in my head(hah karima in your face i do live in 4 places)

Four TV shows you love to watch:

1. Will&Grace
2. Medium
3. Lost
4. Desperate housewives( now lets think..... who watches that as well)

Four places you have been on vacation:

1. Marbellia, Spain
2. London, Great Britain(about 5 times and i love it there)
3. Paris, France
4. Somewhere in Italy, i aint good with remembring the names

Four websites I visit daily:

1. Gayauthors.org...great stories
2. DeviantART
3. Hotmail
4. Pierson.nl...to see how many hours i'll get off

Four of my favorite foods:

1. Ben&Jerry's...it counts as food*pulls out a supersoaker*
2. McDonalds vegie burgers....drewl(OMG I'm becoming Tom)
3. Chocolate chop cookies
4. Robbin...well i can lick it and bite in it so it might just be food as well

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. Robbins house
2. Ireland....anywhere there i just love it
3. London, as i already told evryone i LOVE LONDON
4. in bed with robbin here curling up against him

Four people I am tagging that I think will respond...

1. ~5daysgone
2. ~Stereotipical-idiot
3. ~Daltar
4. ~dontspeak

Four things I always carry with me:
1. Pictures in my wallet....hey where did my cash go
2. Cell, just to recieve textmessages, i just spended all my money on other things then a phonecard
3. Chewinggum....kinda the whole school knows that
4. MY brain...it must be somewhere between my books, might just find it when schools out

GOD I LOVE THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS ALL OVER AGAIN! ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8490393/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8490393/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 14:53:23 PDT
1 found a great webstory.....its about 2 gay guys but its not one of those gay erotic stories. Its a well written piece of art. Its great for everyone to read as long as your not homofobic. Sometimes it makes me almost cry or laugh at how cute the some what non-fictional looking things are. Really i admire the writer and i think every body who can read should. I'm just beginning chapter 11 and its really hard to stop....but i need to stop cause i don't want it to end.....so

[link] <------READ OR I SHALL HUNT YOU DOWN

2 I finnaly came out to my familly and they all yes ALL reacted great, so now robbin and i can do what ever we want...at least with my family, some blonde still hasn't found the guts to tell
but i'm still crazy about you and i think there is a change of 1:the highest numbre you can think of plus a lot that, that will ever change....can't wait to see you tomorrow

3....READ ZE STORY [link]

4 i got a 2person bed*feels like a big boy now* and i already spend a night in it with robbin which*as always with him* was great

can't remembre all the things i wanted to say sow uhm.....might edit later ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8380307/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8380307/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 03:08:58 PDT
20 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME THAT might BE INTERESTING

1 I finnaly began wrighting my book for people who are thinking of coming out and it gives them tips hints on how to do it and what to do when they are out

2 I found out some guy here i liked is very very uncertain lately

3 I think i might go and figure out why

4 1 out of 3 people is afraid of flying...i'm not one of them

5 Tomorrow i finnaly get some new clothes.....yay i'm a gay shopper i love to do all the things there

6 I'm a sucker for tickeling, even though it might hurt i just laugh really loud and it feels great

7 Me and my friends should be getting our "special" place at school but that still hasn't happened

8 I'm almost ready for my big Spring Change....also the reason why i'm shopping for new clothes i just want every thing to change....well not every thing

9 I'm getting a bigger bed so me and my boyfriend can sleep in it together WHOOZAA

10 I didn't think i would get to 10 but i think its also the numbre of pillows i want when i'm going to get the couch away(bubye sweet little couche i never sat on)

11 I'm in desperate need for some GAY friends, its just i love Robbin but i can't see him all day and it would just be nice to have some gay people to talk with. Maybe advise me on fashion things or help me with another hopeless romantic attempt to be cute and romantic

12 I seem to always get sick when i really really really want to do somthing...last weekend even i had to throw up about 5 times and i was to tired to do anything with robbin while it was our 4 months aniversery

13 Somehow the collor green seems to make me sick at the moment so i wont think about it >.<"

14 I have no idea if this hour is over and i should be downstairs, or that its just too quiet around here

15 I want a cat because then i can just go and play with that when i'm bored

16 I don't really need to go to school anyway, i already did everything i have to do for the next and last 2 weeks and i never get missed by the teachers. I got back after being sick and they said none of the teachers said anything about it....so lets just stay home

17 I really need to fill out my application form because i need to money and i like a job to fill in all the time

18 I like this random facts thingie cause it fills up time and i can just blurt out whatever i want to

19 I might just create a livejournal because then this wouldn't be so useless

20 Its already the end of my 20 facts but i want tell you so much more, but i have no idea how long i can spend here anymore.....

1 extra fact: I'm going to watch pokemon when i get home YAY pokemon......(didn't watch i went into the citey with robbin....so, YAY Robbin) ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8322284/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8322284/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 10:00:23 PST and i always LOVE tag thingies they're useless but i loves them

*** 7 Things that scare you...

1. Die all too young
2. Chickens( i love ours but somehow they are SO FREAKING SCARY)
3. Letting someone down
4. That the fictional voices in my head are real
5. Hate crimes/ reasonless violence(i'm so scared it might be me next)
6. That one of my friends or maybe sisters die's young( i can't stand the fact of diëng young)
7. Being wrongly judged without knowing or having the chance to tell the truth

*** 7 Things you like the most...

1. TAG THINGIES
2. Robbin( boyfriend and best person in the whole world)
3. My friends
4. The world voices creatures and evrthing in my head(its just beautifull and evrythings possible)
5. Ben&Jerry's ice cream, maybe because i only eat it when Robbins here
6. Storms, somehow the roughness outside makes me calm inside
7. EMO BOYS(Robbin you know i love you a zillion times more) (you do right?)

*** 7 Things you don't like...
1. People who lie
2. The fact i don't really have black hair
3. HOMOFOBIC LOSERS( i think most people know why)
4. Being way to shy with the people who need my attention or when i need theirs
5. People who bring down my friends when they don't deserve it
6. The stupid 3 withches of Whatever(they must have an IQ of 2 and they think evrything weird is bad)
7. Having to think about things i don't like

*** 7 Important things in your room...
1. The bear Robbin gave me for valentinesday
2. The little space devoted to all my deciesed(wrong) friends and family
3. The couche...makes me feel so cool
4. The wall on which i hang all my photobooth pics(i want new ones)
5. My dvd collection(must have...more....DVD'S!)
6. My laptop(with the great game KILL THE POPUPS >.>
7. The chest in which i put kind of like everything from fireworks to paranormal facts

*** 7 Random facts about you...
1. I act tottaly gay when i'm playing hockey and everybody just joins in
2. I paint my hair black evry time over and over again
3. I hate my thin hair...i want curly hair or atleast full hair
4. I have a voice in my head that taught me english since i was 8
5. Probably why i love england and have a really poshy accent
6. I seem to have a spot in my neck that makes me go all jelly when Jasmijn touches it
7. I'm the most tickelish person EVER

*** 7 Things you plan to do before you die...
1. See scotland
2. Witness something huge scary and paranormal
3. Have a baby on the moon with Robbin that will be named Azrael and knows evrthing...blabla(just trying to find something impossible because i won't die untill i do so)
4. Get filthy rich and spend whatever i want on useless crap and things
5. Find out i have an uncle i never knew
6. Find out i'm adopted from some english family, like uhm...the royal family(MUST BE)
7. See heaven before i die

*** 7 Things that attract you to the opposite sex...
(If you haven't noticed i'm 98% gay soooo)
1. HAIR(somehow changes evrything)
2. SweetSmile
3. Blue Eyes
4. Nice Character
5. Cool Clothing
6. White Skincolor(not racial its just i don't feel attracted to black men)
7. The choises they make

*** 7 Things you say the most...[seriously...say all these things AT least once a day
1. Huh?
2. OLA
3. FOOOOOOOOD
4. K heb honger....(I'm hungry)
5. Ik hou van je(I love you)
6. Ik hou ook van jou(I love you too)
7. Doei(bye)

*** 7 Celeb or NOT-REAL crushes...
1. Brat Pitt
2. Azuzephere(famous to me and hot..still but i love Robbin now)
3. L (deathnote...not like sex hot but really cute and cuddely)
4. Gay guy from the dutch series Evelien( I want to be him when i grow up)
5. Jessica Simpson( A GIRL...yeah really she's hot...must be a lesbian)
6. Tamara( Presented a school show again a girl but she's just stupid in THE most funny way)
7. Brownjacketboy( Not famous and i don't even know his name but i loved him)

*** 7 Favourite drinks...
1. ROOT BEER!
2. Diet coke lemon
3. Apple juice(makes me hyper)
4. Gazelle
5. Strawberry squeezed juice(YEAH FUCKING YEAH)
6. mango juice( Just like shikuraitenshi but i always buy it at the toko)
7. Boswandeling( liqour)

*** Tag 7 people...
M... ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8216337/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8216337/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 11:52:14 PST All i want to do is run at the moment and never stop, just keep going harder and harder.
Stretching my arms flying like the plains you and i look at flying trough the sky while i lay down on your chest.
Just dream about the great times coming and the fun we will have. The time i'll leave this shit hole and find a great place for us both.....

God i had a whole story planned to type but i think i just ran it all off....i just love running >.<" *DORK*

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---------loves hugs kisses wants him to be here evry time of the day---------- ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8091733/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8091733/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 09:05:32 PST and i just had to do it...kinda happy with the result


Your Existing Situation
Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.


Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, he pursues his objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting his nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels he can only be at peace when he has finally reached his goal.


Your Restrained Characteristics
The situation is preventing him from establishing himself, but he feels he must make the best of things as they are.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.

Your Desired Objective
Suffering from the effects of those things which are being rejected as disagreeable, and is strongly resisting them. Just wants to be left in peace

Your Actual Problem
The fear that he might be prevented from achieving the things he wants drives him to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that he may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes his method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility. ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8053433/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8053433/ Fri, 03 Mar 2006 05:54:05 PST
For now i can only wait


i'm sorry and i know words can't help only times, but i need to tell you the truth just as you asked
I'm Sorry and i love you, those words are true and they will never change

(you know for who this is ment) ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8044070/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/8044070/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 06:28:48 PST
Why can't you be here, telling me you love me. Making evrything great wonderfull and neverending, everlasting. Instead i spend all the time lieing and feeling empty. Surrounded only by high walls trapping me in my own lies, that just keep getting bigger and bigger. I just need to get one brick lie away to whisper you the truth and make the wall fall. What will happen i don't know maybe i find my self more lonely in the big open world. Or maybe you'll stay and protect me with your arms, against evrything that could harm us. But nothing will happen untill i find my way out of all the lies.

Soon...very soon when i find the strenght ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7905118/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7905118/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 10:00:08 PST
- posting my 3 faces of eve(nothing to do with the book )
- Going to post a picture of a friend which looks rather spooky
- Want to give the love story anoher try i have a test week so i have enough spare time
- Going to make my little pink guide.....might post some here in my scraps

Just to brag some more about the pink guide
-The book will be dutch(book sure)
-The dutch title will be "De roze gids: Om de bomen door het bos te zien buiten de kast!"
- For those who want the translation just fo to freetranslation.com
- It's going to be a book full of tips about the life outside the closet for young people mostly
- If anyone has any tips or words that should be in it BE MY GEUST!
- I'm going to love making this

SO YEAH YAY

I fucked ya bf, seeing you reading this i realise why he cheated on ya ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7665871/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7665871/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 10:59:22 PST To my diguisted eyes i came to see that there are hardly any of those to see
there are only tons of LOVE MAKING pictures*and a weirdly placed harry potter picture*
So to try and change that i am going to try and collect as many REAL GAY LOVE pictures
I will try to make some of my own and wright some gay stories.

you might ask yourself WHY THE HELL DO YOU CARE?

WELL.....
cause the whole world population sees them and i think that that is why people seem to have
such a weird look upon gay people, they think we only want sex since that is the only thing
they find on the internet. I might not sucseed(wrongly spelled me knows) but i can atleast
try. Hope some of you like and maybe if i can reach
him so that maybe they can help


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anyways here's a list a list of people who will help

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7639566/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7639566/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 13:30:55 PST I know your going to read this while i'm still in class getting bored and stuff while your just wandering around the hallways so hopefully you like what you read.

I know you told me to go to bed early but i just...I just couldn't. While i was staring out my window seeing the darkness outside that blurs the vieuw i'm already sick of staring at, i so long for you. How great it would be to wake up next to you, knowing that when i'm gone to the kitchen to make us some breakfast, you'll follow behind softly hugging me like you did when you were here.

How great it would be to share one room with you evry split second of the day, so that if i miss you i don't have to ride for an hour to see you, but just turn my head and walk a few steps. Afcourse Jasmijn and Richard will be there too and you know what kind of weird conversations even dreams i had about that, but it will be great fun, because i'm living in with you.

Then when i stare out my window i know that your next to me watching not only the same starlighted sky as i am, but seeing the same people and hopefully seeing me, while i'm sinking away in your lovely blue eyes.Soon...but never soon enough because evry moment i'm with you i can't make up the time i spended missing you here....staring outside my window.

I think the title says enough but just because i can't get enough to tell it to you

ROBBIN ALEXANDER VAN GIESEN I FUCKING LOVE YOU!
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okay sowwwwww now i'm going to go to bed and its exactly 22:30 so bye bye love you ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7591947/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7591947/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 11:50:47 PST O robbin i just want to lay down next to you even if its on the carpet in my room, listning to music we both like but don't hear nothing since i'm only listnen to you. I want to talk to you about childrens names and how you hate almost evry one i tell you since you want totaly different names. I want to talk about you having to go to australia for so long and try to stop you by stopping evry good argument with a kiss that seals your lips and makes you forget about what you were saying.

I want to cuddle, kiss, laugh, have fun, but most of all i just want to be with you. All the time, because evry minute, evry little second that your gone its like you take away evrything with you. Without you its like my whole world is gone to have fun with you. Like it knows i want to be with you and it moves along with you so that maybe somehow i just get dragged along.

I want to look in your eyes and see the love you feel for me, that i so feel for you, the love we share together just as so many other things i share with you.We share the warmth of our bodies lying agains eachother being warmer without our clothes. We share every single kiss i give you and you give me while we melt into one. We share evrything, almost as if we have one heart and i don't know about yours but mine is tottaly in love with you.

I want to much and i look so selfish, but i want all of this because you made me want this. You made me want you, want your touch, want your kiss, want to see you when you wake up on those rare occasions that we can sleep together. I don't want anything when your not here and evrytime you are here i already have everything i want. I want the best for us, the best for you, because you are the best for you.

Robbin the thing i want is for you to love me just as you do now, forever ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7506437/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7506437/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 08:54:21 PST Made you cry last?-Steven
You fell in love with.-Many people but most off all Robbin
Made you wish you were dead.-Kenny(fucked up person you are)
Wanted to date.-ROBBIN(o and a really hot teacher at school)
Broke your heart.-never been broken

Things you...
Love.-Robbin chocolate sleeping in one bed with a loved one
Couldn't live with out.-Robbin and all of my friends
Made you feel better.-Robbin,but Merel always knows how to cheer me up(daltar)

Basics...
Age-16
Sexuality-Bi and loving it
Gender-male
Name-Sander Tibosch
Piercings.-Noooo theyz not hot
Tatoos-see above
Obsessions-Ben&jerry's
Addictions B&J and Robbin....ROOOOOBBIN

Do you...
Smoke-nope never tried
Cry regurlarly-nu uh
Friends-many which i all love
Best friend- Merel/Jasmijn
You most care about-Robbin
Wish you never met- Van de Pol(stupid teacher DIE)
Can't wait to see-Robbin...tomorrow yay
Funniest- Jasmijn
Sweetest- Robbin
Closest-Merel
Sexual-Robbin
Boys Turn ons- Longish hair, emo style, well build, nice ass
Girls Turn ons- Black/Brown hair, nice ass, beautifull eyes, emo sytle
Boys Turn Offs-piercings and jewelery, hair on not hairy places
Girls Turn offs-piecings

What do you...
Fear-Being alone,chickens
Religous beliefs-Wiccan
Regret most- Hitting a little kid in the face by accident
Miss most-My grandmother
care about most- Robbin, friends and famely
Wish- That i could make 3 other wishes and when they are made i can make 3 new ones
Want most out of life-Love and Friendship, enough money to spend without counting

Celebrities
Idolize- Bratt Pitt,Angelina jolie
Own all of their movies-none..wish i had more movies
Would cry if they died-No celebs only friends and family
Wish they would die-Stupid homofobes who don''t like me for what i am
Are you done with this survey?-Seeing how the scroolbar needs to go down no
How about now???-Maybe but you'll find out soon enough ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7398399/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7398399/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 02:39:37 PST it makes me sad but i'll just have to start over again....think i'm going to put it in microsoft word first....

Anyways i'm off to my boyfriend now since he told me to come an half hour later but suddenly i can already come he's coming to my birthday in 2 days YAY MY BIRTHDAY....going to try and make a lot of pictures so i can post them.....

bye bye
Sander

P.S.: I might make a life journal ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7310170/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7310170/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 14:02:59 PST And still i can't type it right. I hate the thing anyway
I have no idea how to make a picture into a print
and the way a friend showed me i still have to pay
and since they're not exactly that great i won't really
think anyone will buy them so for the loons who thought
they were great I AM SOOOOO FUCKING SORRY

........................................................
ANYWHO i finnaly took some nice shots with me and my bf
and afcourse some of him alone since he is just such a
lovely person...i'll post them tomorrow i think since i have a day
off from school YAY...but still going to school to see him and go
shopping without money, he does have money and he's buying
somthing for me not like a present but i was like: Why do you wear
tight underwear i can barely go in with my hand so he told me he would
buy new looser ones so THE DAY HAS FINNALY ARRIVED

Ater the whole shopping spree thing i go and have a good time with my
great friend jasmijn(yasmin) and she is going to teach me some tricks
to have a even better time with robbin. She was with me today as well since
we both work on a schoolproject on some other highschool* if i flunk i
have to take the whole year again* and afterwards we were acting just plain
stupid we took pictures in a photobooth and the thing said 4 photo's but they
only make 2 and you get 2 of each but since we didn't know we we're waiting
for the third flash to come it was so funny we we're all angry and stuff.

After that she took me out for beer and chocolate. Well she bought
the beer i bought the chocolate, they had like a million different tastes
and since we had no idea what was what we letted the guy pick them out.
It was really funny since it was about 5pm but it was dark already and we were
in the middle of a square eayingchocolates and drinking beer. Some of the chocolates were nice but they had really nasty ones with manderin in it and it was just EEEEEEEW.....i think jasmijn is my best girl friend at the moment i may have others with who i have spend more time with but i love the way she is so that makes her so much fun she's just a loon like me and she makes me feel
comfarable....thank you jasmijn. I have some pictures of her and robbin as well
gonna post those as well if she lets me.

ANYWAY its big cute gorgeus handsome boys bedtime so i give you all
a great farwell and hopefully you all liked my journal

BYE BYE

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7193815/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7193815/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 11:22:18 PST
10 things you like:
*Robbin
*Music
*Hangin out with friends
*Reading comics
*Scarfs and beanies*i love winter stuff*
*Taize*if you know that i'm doing it will be fun*
*Making photo's
*wrighting children stories
*Drawimh insane doodles
*Being in one room with Robbin

3 things that make you happy:
*Having Robbin next to me to hug and kiss
* Knowing i won't look bad in the mirror(i acsepted myself yay)
* Sarcastic people who are that way by nature

3 things that anger you:
*Homophobes(so you have some bisexual competition )
*The guy who rules Poland(he is such an idiot)
* People who think its scary to kiss a guy or girl in public(i love it)

10 things that you hate:
* Actual stupid people
*annoying people
* bad french kisses(he's learning )
*Meat eaters-i'm a vegitarian cause i hate the fealing somthing died just so i can eat
*R&B and most trance
*a guy who's shaved down there(really you will go from 100 to 0 points in one cut)
*Whenever internet aint working and i need it
*When school is a pain in the ass(use more lubricant)
*My little sister who thinks gay people are scary
* People who hate me and Robbin because we're hot

3 facts about your name:
*I was named after a holy protector of equility
*It sorta fits me
*I can't find a sweet nickname when my bf or gf asks one

5 facts about yourself:
*i'm brownhaird but i die it black whenever i need or can
*I seem to like those who aren't liked
*i love attention and being anoying
*I sem to have answerd to problems which most people don't think about
*I tend to jump kiss and hugg evrybody in sight

2 things you expect (at least for now):
*That Robbin will be a great kisser before he go's to aussie
*That he and i can sleep in the same bed

4 random thoughts:
*Robbin
*O dear lord what is under his shirt is so hot wear less clothes
*I think alot about Robbin
*ZZZZZZZZZZZZZz -o-

Song you're listening to (give artist)
*death cab for cutie

Time:
20:20

9 People you'll tag this to*sorry i have no idea who to do more*: (no particular order)

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* ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7078367/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7078367/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 07:24:02 PST
I'M IN LOVE....
yes and i know i might stand a chance at him....yes once again its a him, and he is so fucking cute
He just came out and i'm not even supposed to know but i do
its because my friend asked him because of me so she told me
i don't know if he loves me but i sure do love him a hell lot

I want to kiss him, hug him, hold hands, just lay my head on his chest knowing that if i wake up he will still be there, but most of all i just want to be with him.
I think that he's still getting used to the fact he's bi himself, god that took me some time and it was a really bad time. But once i came out things have only gotten better. I want to help him in the whole proces but i can't since i'm not supposed to know.

The only thing i know of him is that he and i will sleep in one tent a whole week in france drinking beer all day and having fun....the rest he's just a mystery to me......

Afcourse some of you want to know his name but i can't say it since some classmates know this account but i can tell you he's
blond
alto/emo
1.80/1.81
bleu eyes
loveable
kissable
i think kinda mucled
he is kind of skinny but not in a bad way
and i love him to bits....even if he wont

I so hope he just comes out and loves me but if i learned one thing its to not push someone in such situation. I WANT HIM......maybe soon i'll post a I HAVE A BOYFRIEND-journal

i hope so

He
He's a mystery
he's a magic moment
a puzzle to me ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7018927/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/7018927/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 11:56:22 PST all my wishies have been granted...well some but still cool
Just giving you some wishies i made

1 having some gay friends around here
suddenly 2 really nice guys who are so gay turn up
2 my belgique friend -stereotipical-idiot needed some hot guy
his parents get married he has a new fam with a hot cousin
3 he's still unhappy cause its famely so i want him to have a nice blonde
next day he gets a new blonde student
4 I thought it was fucked up he had some hot guys so i wanted some
next day my day was packed with hot guys(i saw his undies )

I SWEAR ALL THESE WISHES ARE TRUELY MADE AND CAME TRUE!
o and i'm not just about hot guys i love them when they're funny and cute
and sweet and goodlooking...kinda like my boyfriend steven

Now to try out if i can push my luck far enough I WISH:

god this is hard
I wish to win tomorrows game
nope didn't happen but still it was a nice game, met a nice guy......*glomp*
I wish my friend finaly asks the other friend if he's gay
*really scary* just wanted to type in unfortunally he's not but just when i wanted to type it my friend called HE IS BI WHOOHOO...he's so cute and sweet and stuff
I wish steven suprises me with either somthing really cute or by coming out
(please come true)

Thats about it i'll try to keep all my faithfull readers*surrrrrrrre* up
to date so please wait while i put you on hold*hums some stupid waiting
music*

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friends


people i truly adore

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6934655/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6934655/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 10:56:24 PST O MY GOD

A friend of mine...well he's not even a real friend offert me to have sex.
Well first i thought yeah cool and stuff, i allways wanted to have sex with him
ever since i saw his picture. He is Incredibly hot and well hung. But then i realised
what i was doing. I read short journal about how his first time was with music
and the song i must say was great and it made me realise somthing.

If i would be fucked by Thijme*thats his name*, my first time would be in a cold
and empty house wirh sombody i just met for 10 minutes in real life without even
the slightes bit of intimety or love. The only thing i feel for him is the feeling i get
with evry guy and girl that i think is hot and i dont sleep with them ether do i.

So i brather wait for my treu love to show up so i can have nice first time with
romance and maybe candles but music for sure. So that later on i can tell people
my first time was great and not with some 20 year old in some old shithole.

Thanks for reading and goodnight

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friends


people i truly adore

]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6808119/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6808119/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 09:48:41 PDT

No but really i needed to go and relax and get to myself and somehow evything there was helping me. I didn't think of any boys or girls all time, only of the one i love.

Really had a super romantic dream of me and him having a house like my aunt for our own. We had romanctic dinners....which would end up in sex
And watching a dvd with eachother on the couch.... lets just say we didn't see much of the movie. We are just like rabbits in spring in my fantesies YOUR TOO FAR AWAY IN REAL LIFE, but i must say all the times we did it

And taking care of my nephew letted me see how much i like kids and want them later on. I had to changes his diapers at 3am but i didn't care he is just such a sweetheart. And for those who are wondering, yes he's the one of the pictures

Hmpf reality is shimmering through the curtains, making those three days fade away and all i have left are these ultra spiffy FABULOUS slippers which i lurve and great memories of what i must honestly admit were the 3 best days of my life D

omg omg will&grace is coming on tv in just a few hours and i need to get ready having a great bath to end the 3days of glory And a lot of other stuff and i want to talk to my boyfriend*i love that word* for some time since he is my boyfriend and i'm not to brag about having a boyfriend but i like hime cause he's my BOYFRIEND and i had to miss him for 3 days, still he sended me some super ultra sweet textmessages THANKS

Bye bye
Sander ]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6779142/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6779142/ Sat, 15 Oct 2005 23:16:55 PDT hearing for over 20 minutes now AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY
It even drives me more crazy that i fucking know where the
sound comes from but i can't stop it.

Lets begin with the beginning shall we....

The day before yesterday(2days back) just before going to sleep
me and my(hopefullyheisandstillwantstobe) boyfriend got into an
argeu about me doing stuff with other guys. For those who think
duhhhhh....you shouldn't do things with others when you have a
friggin boyfriend. Well you have no idea what realationship we have.

We are kind of like having somthing through the internet, not internet
dating i know him from msn(that is internet dating), but we both know
eachother so well that we started to have real feelings and the whole
mumbo jumbo for eachother. No to get back to the main story

We argeud trough textmessages(yes we do not only use internet )
and my phone was almost empty but i had to tell him so many things
so i began writing but then the stupid thing falls out. Then we get to
the part where we are 2 days later and after searching evry corner of
my frigging room to find the adapter.

Now its in i can finally look if he sended me anything, HE DID.
And just 3 seconds before i putted it up in the adapter. Because
it is in the adapter i need to keep it on because if its out my adapter
wont load(dont ask...dont even ask). And because the stupid thing is
so far gone it keeps making beepy noices, the same noice you get
when someone calls you or textmessages you when its loading.

Because i thought that it was that sound i missed him calling me.
Now i've been haunted by the stupid beep for almost half an hour
and it wont stop. You may think: Go to bed its early in the morning
that way you wont hear it. First of all you have no idea how loud this
sound is, second i can't go to sleep what if he calls me again.

Then pull out the adapter that would stop it. BUT THEN THE THING
WILL FALL OUT AGAIN. And that just leaves me sitting here getting crazy
because of THE STUPID FIGHT I HAD WITH SOMEONE I SHOULD HAVE
NEVER EVER EVEN THINK ABOUT FIGHTING WITH. And you know whats
even stupider:

IF I HAD LIED AND NOT ASKED HIM WHAT HE THOUGHT ABOUT IT
I WOULDEN'T HAVE BEEN IN THIS MESS IN THE FIRST PLACE

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friends


people i truly adore
]]> ~LordoftheNoodles http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6756247/ http://LordoftheNoodles.deviantart.com/journal/6756247/ Thu, 13 Oct 2005 09:55:24 PDT I died my hair black again its sow cool
Yay whoohoo uhu uhu uhu
I'll put on a pic soon cause i love the way it is now

Other wonderful grate news I GOT MY FIRST FAV
And not just from a uninportant person but my all time favorite
photographer

I totaly love his work and it has made me very pround he likes
one of my pieces...its like when a cristian sees god or somthing
like that.....WHOOP DA FRIGGEDY DOO MAN

Its like good news is just keep poring in maybe i deserved it
I'm getting photoshop....FOR FREE......GREG I SO TOTALLY LOVE YOU
i could kiss you right now....you know i will as soon as i go to belgium
and alot more then that . THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
GOD I'M SO FRIGGIN HAPPY YEAH WHOOOOOOHOOOOO

okay sow thats just me the little stupid retard i always am
BYEZ BYEZ

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friends


people i truly adore
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