http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Love-Deception-Hurt&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Love-Deception-Hurt en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 04:35:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25443091/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25443091/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 21:42:21 PDT I'm no longer going to be using this deviantART account because i hate the username and have since pretty much the day after i made it. Tomorrow I will being doing all the official chang-y stuff to my new account ~kaxivyz

WATCHERS: Please re-watch me on my new account and remove this one from your watch list.

THOSE I WATCH: I'll be re-watching you all and removing you from this account.

ALL FAVS: I'm re-faving the best of my favs on my new account and leaving the favs here, just because I'm lazy like that.

DEVIATIONS: I'm leaving them up as they are. Again, I don't feel like going through to edit them all or delete them. I will, however, re-upload a few to my new account

OTHER: I'm leaving my journals. I like them where they are.

thank you,
jess



]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25433980/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25433980/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 12:03:41 PDT They've made changes to a few of these recently. I'm just sharing all of my fav. emotes.

~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25353246/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25353246/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 13:36:32 PDT
it's barely up and running, and i'm not sure who the creator of the group itself is, but i'm joining. i'll start this summer and go from there. this isn't just for the photographers among us, but for artists of all mediums. i like the idea a lot, and i encourage everyone to join. i'll most likely upload five at a time all together in one deviation or in a flood of deviations.


i've got a few themes completed, but unfortunately i don't have access to a scanner, so those have to wait. [also the reason i haven't uploaded anything else]. i'm taking this one slow so i can work on other things as well.

ADDA ceritifcation test: it's a test of 341 questions that you get 2 hours on and it's all about drafting. it wasn't as bad as i'd thought, but after hearing about how much of a beast the test is, then studying like mad to accomodate that... well maybe that made it all seem not as bad. we'll find out our scores in six weeks and a score of 75 is needed to pass. [kristen, if you read this, that test was beastly, but luckily not as bad as i'd feared it would be]

features

of everyone i watch, i think one of the most talented, especially for someone her age, is megan. her gallery is interesting and diverse and she deserves recognition for it.

alex is my friend in real life and i've been reading/proofreading his writing for a while now. he's talented and his work is very much worth your time.

clubs


]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25182886/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25182886/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 16:14:44 PDT
These people are awesome, not just in their art, but in their personalities as well. I'm featuring everyone I'm watching [who have something up] along with my favourite work of theirs.


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http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/25040034/ Sat, 30 May 2009 20:26:16 PDT
i want to learn to design tattoos:: all the techniques and whatnot. i realy like tattoos [of which i intend to get many] and i think i'd do well as a tattoo artist.

plus i think if i can become somewhat fluent in french, that'll be to my advantage. not because it's entirely useful here, but because it's a beautiful language, and colleges like for you to have at least three years of a language.

i need to really figure out what i want. i've wanted to be a therapist for years, and yet i keep wanting to persue art, such as the tattoo thing. which, undoubtedly, would be best because of my intent to become heavily tattooed[all of which i will design myself].

drawings:: i've got too many projects to think about right now. taylor swift, topher grace, bill kaulitz, alex and chase, samm, hugh laurie, amir blumenfeld, jonas brothers. that's all i can remember. but i've got all summer, which does not officially start until june 23rd. however, i am taking suggestions, but don't expect a fast result. there may be a month waiting time, but possibly less.

anyway, how is everyone? it seems like no one's been uploading much lately, or really being active on the site as much as before. hope everyone's doing well.

~jessicalynne

ps. expect many uploads soon.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24890178/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24890178/ Fri, 22 May 2009 12:45:49 PDT
2. seniors... all gone... [Kristen, this is about you]

3. I haven't been drawing. plain and simple. I'll be drawing this weekend hopefully.

4. I'm tired. I haven't had coffee in like 5 days. And I never thought it affected me, since i was functioning fine... drinking 3 or 4 a day? yeah, that doesn't add up to me either. I think, and don't quote me on this, my body adjusted to the caffeine, and without it i crash. so that's not healthy.

5. scool's ending the 23rd. I'll probably do a journal about the year just because i'll be all emotional over it. I've seriously been looking forward to junior year for the last 2 years, and it's coming in the next couple of months. No longer the babies of the school, not yet seeing the big bad world right in front of us... it'll be a good year. i feel kind of grown up. sad too, knowing that high school, which i really love, is going by so fast.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24843623/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24843623/ Tue, 19 May 2009 18:11:10 PDT omfg.
AND WTF! NO ONE TOLD ME HE WAS NATURALLY... STRAWBERRY BLONDE? oh snap.

but just vote for Adam.

BITCH DO IT

EDIT:: I keep cleaning out who i'm watching and end up deleing people i want to keep, so if you're one of those people and you see that i devWATCH you again, ignore it. it's just me being stupid.

Clubs::


]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24775032/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24775032/ Fri, 15 May 2009 18:27:43 PDT invidious:: adj. envious, malicious, spiteful; expressing ill will.

That's my favourite word. Not for the meaning or anything, I just stumbled upon it a few months ago and really liked how it sounded and looked. Personally, I don't think I've found a cooler word. It sounds intellectual and interesting and a little bit mysterious. Find a favourite word; you'll be a very happy person when you do.

Now that that's out of my system, I realised earlier that I have 8 deviantART accounts, the oldest of which is over a year old and only two are in use. To be fair, I created a new one today specifically for novelling type things. the others will just have to sit unused until the sun dies and takes the planet out. Interested?


Story behind my new deviantART account's name:: I was in shop, bored as hell, and decided to do the "Tom Marvolo Riddle">"I Am Lord Voldemort" thing and find out anagrams for my name. The first it came up with for "Jessica Lynne Goss" was "Acing Joylessness". It sounded cool, and I only just realised that it sounds very stereotypical emo-ish as in "OMG. I'm just the epitome of being unhappy." Yeah.. no. But it still sounds cool and I've made it quite clear that I'm not ridiculous like that.

Drawings:: [SammAndJosh] Still coming along slowly. I've been working on other projects as well as this, but I do have until the end of the school year to finish.
[TopherGrace]:: (for topherwar.deviantart.com) Nearly done. Probably up Sunday or maybe even tomorrow. I like it, hopefully he will be too.
[AllOtherDrawingProjects]:: None worth metioning currrently. A few total fails, which I intend to either fix or redo.

100themeschallenge:: I have a few things ready to upload but I want to put up another portrait drawing before I do. IDK why, but I feel like that's how I should do things.

Watchers:: Umm, thank you. lol. Yeah, you guys seriously rock, especially if you dared to read this after I specifically warned this would be a long one.

Check Out::


^If you're up there, you're basically wicked awesome. Oh, or me. Haha.. Nothing wrong with a little shameless self-promotion.^

Life:: School ends Jume 24th I believe. I love school, but my english teacher needs to get her focus on english, not having effing meditation sessions that only get me more wound up from laughing so hard. Plus I feel like whatever you believe will relax you will. But next year for trig. I can only pray for a teacher as amazing as my current math teacher. I actually understand math. O.o To be fair, Geometry and Algebra 1&2 are very very different and for the first time in like 4 years I don't have math in the morning. I know my junior year will be the best year though; I've thought this for the last few years. Umm... I'm pretty happy. A little bit drained from this week, which has felt like a million years. Uh.. that's about it. Nothing out of the ordinary really.



~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24757883/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24757883/ Thu, 14 May 2009 17:12:17 PDT for writing, i really like::
-mayday parade
-sick puppies
-shinedown
-the misfits
-theory of a dead man
-the red jumpsuit apparatus
-trapt
-between the trees
-the cab
-NOFX
-the all american rejects
-12 stones
-crossfade
-Demi Lovato
-Jonas Brothers [please, no rocks]
-creed

that's right now, and it'll most likely change again soon. so what do you guys like to listen to when you draw/write/whatever?

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24738147/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24738147/ Wed, 13 May 2009 13:47:33 PDT
anyway, i was thinking about once a month doing some sort writing piece following the same general format to see how I grow as time goes on. kind of like those cheesy bio poems fom the seventh grade, only much more fleshed out and interesting. i don't know if anyone would care though...

i realised today i need balance. church stuff, school, home, art, friends, work[i need to stop being a broke teenager]. i figure if i can get a good balance going, i'll be able to reflect how smart i am at school, be a good person, work on my writing, draw, etc. without neglecting other things you know?

~jessialynne

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]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24703282/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24703282/ Mon, 11 May 2009 13:09:36 PDT alex::
kristen::
zach[he currently doesn't have anything on his dA]::
they're different because I know them in real life. lol.

do you guys remember my journal about my wisdom teeth? well, i've decided not to take the pain meds. i'll tell the guy not to prescribe me anything. i'll just go home [high from whatever they give me to begin with, lol] and take tylenol. then i'll tough it out. i mean, i've got a high pain tolerance and when you live with people who would love to get their hands on whatever badass drugs they give for having 4 wisdom teeth surgically removed from your gums, plus a woman who seems to think she can give medications out as she pleases, you start realizing you'd rather deal than give them a chance for that. i'm sick of them, you know? if they want drugs, they can do their sleazy, jerkoff bull with someone else's stuff far far away from me.

what else... well i'm progressing slowly on [samm and josh]. if they weren't so effing difficult to draw... i think i'll start on topher grace for

so he doesn't have to wait too much longer.

[note:: i was thinking of maybe putting some more stories up, whatcha think? or should i stick to drawing?]

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24687940/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24687940/ Sun, 10 May 2009 14:09:17 PDT
his name is alex [and he should join the sexy Alex club, if you know what i'm even talking about] and he's a writer. he writes poetry and some stories. he's the sweetest kid i know and my best friend.



~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24652131/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24652131/ Fri, 08 May 2009 13:43:24 PDT extremely useful.

Why are you still reading? get to downloading.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24602845/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24602845/ Tue, 05 May 2009 14:39:17 PDT 1. i have to have my wisdom teeth removed. all four at once so they'll put me to sleep when they do it plus drug me.

why am i excited? well, about a year ago, i got my tongue cut cuz i was tongue tied and when i woke up, i was coughing, then they put me in this dim room in a big chair. then as we were walking down the hall to leave, i was walking all funny and my aunt said something and i told her that it wasn't me walking weird, the walls were just getting too close. and about five minutes later i asked what time it was, she told me it was 10:45, and i thought for moment and told her that wasn't even a real time. lol.. so pretty much even though i don't do drugs, that day i realized why exactly people like getting high. this time will probably be the same and i can't wait. plus i have a high pain tolerance, so when the drgs wore off last time i was fine, and i expect i will be this time. i didn't take anything for the pain then, i just didn't see the need.

2. i'll be getting braces soon after the wisom teeth are taken out.

3. i'll be posting some new drawings VERY soon.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24583776/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24583776/ Mon, 04 May 2009 13:06:40 PDT
it would be seriously weird if that's what it ends up being. normally things like this just don't happen. and i mean, sucks for them, but they'll be fine. haven't all the deaths been in mexico except for the one BABY in the US? and how much do we know about all the deaths in mexico? how do we know these people weren't elderly/young children, whose immune systems aren't too great anyway and would die from regular flu as well? and that's what, 26 people out of everyone who's been reported to have it? AND, as if that isn't enough, who says mexico really has that great of medical services anyway?

swine flu does not worry me. it's the flu. it's a virus. your body will remove it like with every other virus it wants out. yes, it's killed peope, but holy frick, so has the regular flu. and again, these people are probably elderly/very young/idiots who don't take it easy and make it worse for themselves.

but i could shout this from the mountaintops and still, if these kids end up having the magical flu, we get what, a week off that we don't have to make up. i really want that. i mean, by their logic they should do this every time some kid gets the sniffles, but i'll take the extra vacation.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24566576/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24566576/ Sun, 03 May 2009 13:14:44 PDT
yeah, i like the jonas brothers. what of it? hmm? i have great taste in music, why should that instantly be shattered in people's minds by one band? just doesn't make sense i tell you.

anyway... i've been working on [samm and josh] and it'll be done either tonight or tomorrow. i have a ton of homework, so idk. then i'll do [topher grace] and a bunch of other drawings. hopefully summer will hurry up and get here so i can get a decent amount of time for drawing and writing. ^^

i've been thinking of maybe taking art classes *gasp*. i know, i think they're bogus too, and i'd hate to have to tell people i ever took a class. D: i like seeing people raise their eyebrows like, "you're kidding, no classes? ever?" when i show them my drawings. it's nice to know i'm not as bad as i think.


so how is everyone?

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24484084/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24484084/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 16:42:56 PDT [link]

email me: jesslynne93@aol.com



]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24469853/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24469853/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 19:07:34 PDT 2. topher grace for topherwar [link]
3. chase and alex [link]
4. alex evans [link]
5. craig and john paul of hollyoaks
6. bill kaulitz

it'll probably change again soon, but i don't much care. what i do care to tell you is aboutt hese beastly drug sniffy dogs they brought into school what, like a month and a half ago? maybe two months? not the point. well they brought them in because kids were deing dumbasses and one kid who'd been in a few of my classes was just getting high in class. then another kid i don't know on the bus or something. honestly, we all knew they'd pull somtheing like this, so noone was dumb enough to have anything on them for a while at least. anyhow, they found nothing.

why am i bringing this up you ask? in the school newspaper they did a little article on it, which said they'd be doing this again in the future. 1. we all know well enough it's to keep kids from bringing in the school and 2. that wouldn't be so bad if they didn't keep saying it's for the safety of the students. they know damn well no one will stop because the school doesn't like it, so the best idea would have been to shut up and do the evil beast sniffy search without saying they'd be doing it again. hopefully i make sense.

oh, and no, i don't smoke pot or anything. i'm going on about this because i'm terrified of dogs, especially beastlike trained-to-bring-big-ass-dudes-down dogs. when they do this, if they're not on at least the other side of the wall from me, i'll end up getting all shaky, probably crying, etc. these people are really insensitive. i mean, i can't honestly be the only one this scared of dogs in the whole school. and they let these beasts in the same room as students.

madness.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24437636/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24437636/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 00:40:20 PDT
you see, some people on this site [which capitalizes ART in its domain name] don't seem to understand that yes, art belongs here. some people upload things that are just not art. now dont get me wrong, i adore things that are simple and cute and imaginitive. and we all aren't genius writers and artists and animators and so on. but uploading pictures worthy of at most myspace is not art. nor are two lines of pitiful writing, claiming it's "art". at best, put that in scraps.

in all honesty, i think things like megngarnett's [link] "jack and amy" drawings [link] and [link] are cute and creative and make me want to see more. but there are many [and i refuse to give any traffic to these people] who doodle or take a few lines of thoughtlessness and put it up. come on, put some effort in. and if you spend five minutes on it, make it inspired and creative. not something whose concept you liked and basically copied [though maybe not intentionally] and didn't do so hot.

so when you upload, consider where you place things as well as what your artist's comments are. and please, don't make the ART in deviantART meaningless.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24400990/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24400990/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 19:52:25 PDT
umm.. you had to be there.
mkay, there's been a change of plans. first off, i finished the drawing of james [link] and i'll begin work on samm and josh tomorrow. maybe. i think.
here's a list:
1. samm and josh
2. alex and chase [link]
3. topher grace for topherwar [link]
4. alex evans [link]
5. bill kaulitz

^_^
cool right?
i think so.

go to: [link] if you wanna know one of the coolest people on here. and he can draw pretty damn well too. ^.^

"just know that any time you think you're getting sick, you're not really getting sick; you're just a kitty." ~alex mckee

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24385386/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24385386/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 20:56:46 PDT - people always go, "omg, you drew this?! this is so good!"
- drawing well isn't something everyone can do.
- art communites [such as deviantart] spring up and i meet awesome people.

to do list:
1. finish drawing of james. [link]
2. draw samm and her boyfriend
3. draw "bliss" for chase and alex [link]
4. draw alex evans [link]
5. draw bill of tokio hotel
6. draw topher grace for topherwar [link]

still taking suggestions, so you know. i'll be working hard the rest of this week to get done with [james] and [samm and josh].

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24379629/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24379629/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 15:22:51 PDT
*nods* mhmm.
this actually makes the fact that i had to get a physical today not suck so much. got a shot, so i guess it wasn't all bad.

can't wait. omg. can't wait. gahhh!!!

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24350917/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24350917/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 11:05:49 PDT
is it sad that it's the monday of vacation and i'm still in alex mckee fangirl mode? i mean, yeah, i could go out and get some colour on my arms after months of hoodie wearing. and of course i could do something constructive like clean my room. and don't think it's beyond my abilities to scout a new "spot" for writing and drawing/sketching. but i like drawing here, and i like watching youtube videos by alex. i like it. and i want to go to school. why? well i'm in the best shop ever where i'm surrounded by people obsessed with anime or video games or drawing or writing or animation or designing or everything else. they are my people.

to do list:
[art wise]

1. finish drawing of james. [link]
2. draw samm and her boyfriend
3. draw "bliss" for chase and alex [link]
4. draw alex evans [link]
5. draw bill of tokio hotel
6. draw topher grace for topherwar [link]

and throughout it all i'll be doing my 100 themes challenge.

~jessicalynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24331326/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24331326/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 18:10:54 PDT
on a lighter note, i'll be drawing chase and alex together in the photo called "bliss". hopefully it turns out better than the one of alex. and maybe they'll like it.

~jessica lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24316731/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24316731/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 22:46:54 PDT
1. change
2. forever
3. lost
4. insomnia
5. red
6. hope
7. surprise
8. love
9. break away
10. rainbow
11. gray
12. innocence
13. memory
14. silence
15. rain
16. hold my hand
17. fear
18. blood
19. tears
20. night
21. stars
22. dream
23. abandoned
24. secret
25. light
26. dark
27. solitude
28. cut
29. breathe
30. walk
31. youth
32. broken
33. soft
34. gone
35. time
36. hope
37. cold
38. homesick
39. city
40. pretty
41. falling
42. need
43. death
44. fate
45. abstract
46. right
47. wrong
48. kiss
49. circle
50. blue
51. content
52. big
53. sorrow
54. alone
55. relationship
56. emotion
57. friend
58. loneliness
59. sweet
60. courage
61. truth
62. lock
63. poison
64. what if...
65. scar
66. chaos
67. fire
68. annoyance
69. growth
70. happiness
71. space
72. end
73. heal
74. lies
75. pain
76. rules
77. sneak
78. insanity
79. heat
80. reality
81. wish
82. misunderstanding
83. storm
84. nightmare
85. little
86. fake
87. give up
88. smile
89. ice
90. calm
91. teenager
92. safety
93. why?
94. pretend
95. dying
96. spiral
97. heart
98. funny
99. close
100. school

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24310713/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24310713/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 15:49:11 PDT
I'm so flipping extatic. Especially because he LIKED it. I worked so hard and he liked it.
My face is stuck in Happy mode.

~Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24296896/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24296896/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 19:21:25 PDT [link]


I adore that man, I really do. I love Green Day, and my GOD their new album will be AMAZING.
Lol, East Jesus Nowhere.. I love that he referenced Juno and says that phrase right there is amazing. I love that he's dissing Bush, supports Obama, and talks about a few of my favourite bands. AND he comments on ADAM FREAKING LAMBERT and says his voice is amazing.

God... Just bloody brilliant if you ask me. He isn't a sellout, and I just love him, always have. Badass man. Badass band. Badass Badass. Yep. He's one badass badass.

~
Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24274182/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24274182/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 13:24:15 PDT ~Alex McKee

The pic I'm drawing of him is just about done. I'm thinking of not doing his arms all out because they take up most of the bottom and are for the most part unimportant. I still might though, so I dunno. Then I'll scan it and all. His dA: [link]

And thank you to my watchers. I didn't think I'd get even one when I first started, and here I am now, happy as can be. So thank you. And thank you to anyone who's commented or fav'd any of my stuff. It makes me feel pretty cool.

Twitter: If by some strange reasoning, you think following me on Twitter will be fun, my name is Jessica Lynne Goss. And I'm RainbowMonday. So whatever helps you find me on there. Mostly I'll try to be clever, and I'll put the quotes I wish I could rememeber that my friends say. I'll try to be more entertaining than: "I have pie. Pie is good. My brother is a loser; he hates pie."

So that's about it. I'll edit if for whatever reason I feel I need to.

~Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24240926/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24240926/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 15:12:02 PDT And sweep you off of your feet.

I love that song. It's by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, if anyone cares. I'm actually kind of inspired to just do a quick no biggie sketch for it. Lots to draw though. Especially my friend Samm and her boyfriend Josh. And Alex and Chase as well.

Anyway... My day was pretty alright. In math, my teacher said that whoever could do numbers 8 and 10 on this worksheet would get a 100 for the next test [which gives you an idea of how badass these problems were, being that my teacher's never offered that before, and it's an honours class as well]. I got number 8, which was the more difficult of the two, and only two other kids got it in the class. One's first in the Sophomore class, and the other is pretty frickin' smart. So I feel special. I didn't get ten though, I just had to prove I could do those kinds of problems. According to my friends, it's not fair that I write well, draw well, and can still do math. Go figure.

Then after school I went to the eye doctor, who put those yellow drops in my eyes, making them numb, and then put this blue light thing on my eyes to look at them. I've never had that before. And I'm getting really cute new glasses.

So yeah, that's about it.

~ Jessica Lynne

EDIT: Lol. I just realised how snotty I sound, "According to my friends, it's not fair that I write well, draw well, and can still do math." I just meant that they think artistic people are more B and C students. That's all.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24209595/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24209595/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 20:35:19 PDT really make it nice for them.

^_^

Doesn't that sound like a good idea?

Drawings I'm doing[in this order]:
1. finish Alex McKee [link]
2. ALex and Chase in "Bliss"
3. This guy James [link]
4. My friend Samm
5. Alex Evans [link]
6. Bill Kaulitz
7. If nothing else, I'll take a request. I'll draw you, your friend, a fellow deviant, whatever you'd like.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24192185/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24192185/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 00:16:30 PDT I'm sleepy, but oh so happy.
Those two are so cute together and I hope they're together forever. They really are just so effin' cute.
At one point before Chase got there, I asked Alex if Chase got jealous, and he said he'd pretend he doesn't and wouldn't admitif he did. Then later I asked Chase if he got jealous, he said if he did, he wouldn't admit it. It was bloddy brilliant. Alex got all smiley and said something like, "I know him so well."

And then another time when Chase wasn't there yet, I asked Alex if they shower together, and he smiled, got all red and said yes. It was adorable.

I had a great time tonight, and I seriously can't wait for their next livechat.

^.^
And I met lots of neat people.
megngarnett: [link]
tttdelle: [link]
heartlesspuppetier36: [link]
go to those deviantart names. they're cool.
^_^

EDIT: Drawings I'm doing[in this order]
1. finish Alex McKee [link]
2. ALex and Chase in "Bliss"
3. This guy James [link]
4. My friend Samm
5. Alex EVans
6. Bill Kaulitz
7. If nothing else, I'll take a request. I'll draw you, your friend, a fellow deviant, whatever you'd like.

I'll be sure and put up WIPs ever so often so I don't seem dea.
Also, I should note that my writing has taken a back seat for the moment. Sorry. D:

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24179042/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24179042/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 08:59:03 PDT
Meanwhile, I still have to put up a new chapter, finish a drawing of Alex McKee, begin drawing God knows what, fix my scanner's bad attitude so it'll quit washing out all my stuff, and have some damn coffee. Although technically I shouldn't have the last one, but it tastes soo goooodddddd.

Then I'll lurk around DeviantArt like a total creep and comment on everything I click. *nods furiously* yep.

~
Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24148978/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24148978/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 15:02:44 PDT I want to draw her. SO so so so bad. But I don't want to mess it up. She's got a face I just know will be difficult to draw. She's a special kind of beauty and I'd hate to screw up royally. Especially since I'm fifteen and took a good four to five months off from drawing anything properly. [Drove my teachers nuts in the meantime though, doodles on EVERYTHING.]

This is killing me. Plus I really can't focus on her when I've got Alex McKee, Alex Evans, And Bill Kaulitz who I've already decided to draw, in that order. Which reminds me, I've put about 3 1/2 hours into the Alex McKee drawing thus far, and it'll be many more yet before it's done. Then again, I've got a three day weekend to work on it as I please.

=^.^= =^.^=
=^.^= <--Aww, these little kitties need homes. The first is a girl and the others are boys. Treat them well?

~
Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24129761/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24129761/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 13:21:00 PDT The teenage rebellion, that is. For me. In the last week alone, not only have I played drama queen on purpose to get my way, played my punk music much louder than necessary, and suggested combat boots for when my Chucks die [because I refuse to buy new shoes until I have to. I hate shopping], but I've also decided I want my room gray, vowed to never wear a dress, under any fucking circumstances, resolved that boy scene hair can be girl scene hair roo, and shall be my scene hair, and have begun shutting myself in my room more than usual [with previously mentioned punk music] just to draw.

Mind you, this coming from a soft-voiced, well-mannered, straight A, avid reading, thoughtful blonde girl. But I guess I've always pissed my grandmother off: thick, dark eyemakeup and coffee at eleven, chucks instend of pretty shite shoes, anti-pink, never worn a dress since I was three, and fought tooth and nail even then, got pissed when I got boobs and had to wear one of these god awful bras, listened not to exclusively mainstream BS, but instead punk and metal and what have you. My father looks at me in awe that I like the Misfits and The Sex Pistols and all that, but eff him.

Bahh... This has been waiting several long years to come out. I've had this all in my mind for so long... and now.. here comes the flood.

O.O

Alright.. so as this is DA and not a myspace blog, I'll also mention that Alex McKee, that little peice of awesome, will soon be within my deviations. Mind you, just a drawing, but it shall be his face, whcih you must see if you haven't already.

~Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24094664/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24094664/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 13:55:28 PDT Let's get to business.

Darkness Falls: Nothing new. I'll put more up when chapter three is ready.

Drawing: I've started one of Alex McKee. He's drop dead effing gorgeous and [from his videos on youtube] definitely a sweetie. Really though, have a looksee: [link]
Yeah, told ya so.
After that, I'll do Alex Evans and then Bill Kaulitz From Tokio Hotel. And f you don't know Alex Evans, take a hop on over to his deviantart: [link]
[And is it me, or is the world turning out Alex after gorgeous Alex and heaping loads of talent upon these spectacular people? And to be honest, neither of these two seem like jerks, so i dunno.]

Umm..

I want to paint my room Gray. But my creativity stifling grandmother won't let me. Nor will she let me get my lip pierced. Mind you, I wanted three: snakebites and a lipring in the middle.. but I can do with one. Or my septum. I can turn it up, so what's the big deal. Grr.

^__^

Loves,
Jessica Lynne

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24066302/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24066302/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 22:15:18 PDT
Writing: I've been slacking. I haven't written a thing in the last day or two, but I'll get my wind back soon enough. I bought a new notebook and new pens today. Black for writing, Red for editing. I'm very excited, and as soon as this rain stops and my world dries, I shall be out scouting a writing spot. Probably my back porch. But since I live on the second floor, I've got a nice view, inspiring view if you will. Oh! I did get a nice shot of inspiration about this time last night that I just remembered. I can't wait to write it.

Drawing: New sketch book. Found my pencils. Gathered up all my markers. I've got a few reference photos I'd like to use. An I want to draw. But I keep having to do things [like spending the last four hours cleaning or random favours for family]. But as soon as I get a few hours I can spend locked in my room with yummy German music, I'll get right on the drawing thing. But after four months, the feeling's coming back. It's there, I know it. I feel inspired to draw; by things, people, songs, everything. It's dim, almost alien. But somehow.. I feel better with it. I've missed this. Only an artist will think those last few sentences are more than some wannabe overly-dramatic BS.

Life: Better than it's been. I'm cutting my father out as best I can. He'll be no more than my uncles are to me. They're there, but not important figures, and they really have no *special* meaning. I've been here fifteen and a half years, not one. He never apologised for anything he's done to me. He neevr even addressed the issue of getting thoroughly trashed and saying [in front of my little brother and sister no less] that he was going to kill himself. He doesn't talk to me beyond a cheery "Hi!", which I can tell is for show. It's best to cut him out, as opposed to letting him hurt me over and over. I can forgive and maybe forget. But I can't let this keep happening. I need to learn to be a stronger person. Other than that... I'm not depressed, which I was diagnosed with over two years ago. I don't hurt myself. And I rather like living. I want to keep living. For once, I may be happy? Mind you, a guy I know and I compared lives and determined I have the crappiest life ever, even considering his. And he's in awe that I act as happy as I do.

Other: Venting here is helpful. No one has to read. I just like getting this out. Odd.

To everyone who's been kind enough to comment, add something of mine to your favourites, add me to your deviantwatch and so on: Thank you. You all rock. Cookiesss to you.

All the smiles and well wishes in the world,
Jess

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24030916/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24030916/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 20:17:11 PDT I just really enjoy sharing my life with internet people. Plus I have a few things to say.

I met a freshman today who's new to my shop [CAD]. His name is Dan, but I WILL ask him if I can call him Danny. I just want to call him Danny. Anyway, his voice.. is like hot chocolate and dim lighting at one of those artsy type clubs where they have people on the bongos and someone reading poetry. But no bongos. His voice is just that nice to listen to.

Aside from that... Chapter Three of DF won't be up until Monday at the earliest. Next Friday at the latest, and that's really only if all computers decide not to work for a week between ten and now.

Oh, and I was on that lovely Alex Evans' deviantart and saw that he's got close to 4 million page views in like 3 years I think? So I'm aiming for just 5,000 in one year. Just 5,000 and I'll be thrilled. :]

And I'm getting back into drawing. It was sort of ruined for me when my Nana got a little too involved and decided to show around one drawing I'd done that I gave to my sister... who then forgot to take it home with her. She never lets me get the encouragement, the praise. I don't want it, my point is just, she seems to take the praise as for HER. I understand the "proud grandmother" factor. But I never get encouragement from anyone, even her. And lately it's been comments like, "Practise and you can make money from those drawings one day." And EVERY SINGLE TIME I tell her to piss off, that I don't fucking draw for money or praise and the fact that my drawing even got out was just a fluke. I do it because I like it. God.

... EndRant

That felt nice to get off my chest.

Much love,
Jess

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24011692/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/24011692/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 18:29:13 PDT
But instead I'm going to finish chapter two, take a nice hot shower, edit, and upload. Should take maybe two hours, and as it's 9:22 pm, well, I'd better get to work.
^__^

Thank you so much again to my watchers and to the one person who favorited "Springtime Illusion". I luhvvesshhh youu!

okayy...

I'm just super hyped. I got a three period nap today in school, and I NEVER sleep in school. And I baked cookies today. Just because. Uhmm... ADAMLAMBERTISSUPERAMAZINGANDGAAHHHH!!

*ahem*

err... yes. Adam lambert's performance was out of this world last night. Though Tracks Of My Tears remains my favourite of his thus far, but I do love him as a performer. And he seems really sweet.

... I'll go work on that story now.
bye lovies.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23974584/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23974584/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 18:48:54 PDT I was sick, still, and the school basically doesn't have any more tissues, so only like two of my teachers has them. GR. Luckily, my friend Samm had some. But I'm not failing English. Plus, a girl I really can't stand [and I hardly ever dislike anyone, btw] went on a field trip with our shop that I plain did not want to go to. yes, I go to a tech school. But we're the top in the state for academics, so you do the math. I'm in CAD by the way.

Anyway, my nana called to get my allergy medication since I don't have any more.. They gave me pills that people with asthma can't take. Not only do I hate pills, but I have asthma. And this isn't the first time I'v been given medication that I can't take for that very reason. Blech.

Anyway, MCAS tomorrow. Go sub-average grade level standardized testing!

Now, about my story: chapter two will be up by Wednesday. And this one I'm actually going to proofread. :]

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23956810/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23956810/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 18:20:04 PDT anyone for quite some time.

English. Really. Always my best subject, always my favourite. And Shakespeare is ruining my straight A's. I mean for heaven's sake, I've got an A+ in Math. Math, of all subjects! And honours at that! And I may Fail English.

x.x

*End rant and sickness induced whininess*

That being said, I'm honoured so so much that 4 people have put me on their deviantwatch.
Cookies for you all.
=^.^= [My inner kitty is purring.]
heehee.
-Jess

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23940852/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23940852/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 20:21:16 PDT
I just felt like a fraud on here commenting when I had nothing for others to critique. Tear it to shreads! Good points? Bad points? All is welcome.

-LDH

EDIT: I have two watchers. I may just faint.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23935006/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23935006/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 13:52:34 PDT
Ah well, I suppose I shall try again later.

-LDH

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23926210/ http://Love-Deception-Hurt.deviantart.com/journal/23926210/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 23:14:39 PDT
I'm an aspiring novelist. I draw as well, just not as much. I like things that make me think. And I'm facsinated by the world around me, even tiny things... *especially* those things. I love watching people write... because I like watching the way pens and pencils leave their mark on paper. It's a strange fascination.

And now I'm rambling. eek.

G'night.

]]> ~Love-Deception-Hurt