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I just got back from the most awesome party EVER!!!! I seriously was a celebrity last night! Seriously.

So I'm in chi-town right now, visiting my sister and her hubby. And at their wedding I met this totally awesome chick, who's absolutely in LOVE with me and she's pretty loaded, she's the best fag-hag ever, whenever I hang out with her shes always buying me stuff and taking me to clubs and shit~ I call her my "sugar momma"

So yeah, she invited me to go boating with her and her fiancee, and I've NEVER been on a sailboat in my life, so I was like "HOLY SHIT LET'S DO IT!!!"

It was amazing, we sailed down lake Michigan to Navy Pier and saw fireworks and it was AWESOME!!!

Then afterwards we went to this club, that her fiancee knew the owner of, and it was like, one of those celebrity clubs, or the really rich posh clubs you see in beer commercials, the owner worked with Micheal Jackson and shit, and I met him, and the soup nazi and it was so cool!

OMG and we did all sorts of stuff and then I went back on the boat and fooled around with this musician guy in the master bedroom.


WHEEEE!!!!

]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/27104818/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/27104818/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:36:33 PDT
But that injection just isn't working fast enough.

And all I want is someone to distract me while the painkillers take effect.

What makes it worse is that this horrible sadness brought us together in the first place. And for a while I thought maybe that would be the glue that held us together.

And like an idiot I gave you every ounce of my trust. Everything you said I believed, every smile you gave me was genuine to me, every caress l*ving, every kiss tender and sweet.

And I my body and soul to you. If you didn't want that you had plenty of opportunities to let me know. Why you waited until I was madly in l*ve with you to change on me I'll never know.

Now I never hear from you, there's no more sweet talk about the moon and our dreams, no more long conversations on the phone at night, no more constant flirting texts during the day, no more "I miss you" and "I need you". No more being my prince charming.

If you just wanted to have sex, I told you so many times to tell me. But you instead opted to lie.

My last ray of hope is flickering away.

Hopefully I can finally put away my silly childhood dreams for good. I can live without my heart anyways. I did it for years with no problem.

I'm going to make sure you leave my life, and make sure I never allow myself to become that vulnerable again.

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This girl I know who is going to Harvard and gets straight A's just told me 20K is not alot of money. She's not rich or anything. But she does have expensive taste in clothes (I miss those days, but since I'm a college student I have to budget. Which sucks ass and balls, and not in a good way.)

I'm just flabbergasted. 20 thousand dollars, is a fuckton of money. Granted making 20k a year isn't a lot, but spending it all at once, is ALOT OF FUCKING MONEY.

I could fly to Europe and spend a month (or more if I budget) there for 20k.

I could get a decent car for 20k.

20k isn't alot... if you're RICH. But I'm not, and neither is she.

Shes sooooo fucking stupid.

]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/25903622/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/25903622/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 16:56:41 PDT Not much of a boyfriend, I never seem to get alot---


Wait a minute. Yes I do. We fucked last time we hung out--- at his place AND on the car ride home.

]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/24988929/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/24988929/ Wed, 27 May 2009 22:31:06 PDT YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND FINALS. I FRIEND BREAK UP WITH YOU. IT'S OVER BETWEEN US


(sorry for the caps lock)

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Just kidding. But UGH I feel old. I'm an uncle, I stopped fucking everything I see, and now I'm 21. Before I know it I will be covered in wrinkles.

Yeah, there's nothing else to talk about. I'm old. My life is over. For everyone who is older, I apologize for this entry.

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I think tomorrow I'm gonna invite him to my apartment, my roomies are gonna be busy with work and shit, and I get the day off!

Ohhh, I've got it hard for him~<3

-Lust Muse

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I hope when I turn 21 things will turn around

Like, god, I guess now that I'm older, hooking up just doesn't do it for me anymore.

I need like, ugh... I hate to say it, LOVE.

God, this is such bullshit.

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Boo: I'm in the shower, can I call you later?

Me: Oohhh, what are you wearing?

Boo: Uhhh, nothing.

Me: Fucking hot. You kinky slut.

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A gay uncle.

How awesome is that!

Congrats Alegra, love ya sis!


P.S What do you guys think about an almost 21 year old dating a 40 something year old? Is it weird?

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Whenever I see a pretty girl with a nasty looking guy it just makes my blood boil.

Whenever I see a foxy guy with a horrible, ugly betch with a huge nose and crooked teeth and a bad complexion I just want to DIE.

I'll admit it here and now, I only date cute guys, or guys I view as cute. A high percent of my fucks have been older, built, had clear skin, nice faces, and giant cocks (unless I'm unlucky, then I don't fuck them).

I'll date guys that aren't built, only if it suits them, like the cute emo boys I see now and again.

But ladies, I know in the heterosexual world it's hard to find a single, straight, beautiful guy with a nice personality, but like, they exist. You don't even need the personality if its just a one night stand! If you're young and beautiful, they WILL show up.


But yeah, I'm not saying fug people shouldn't date, just that they should only date people in their beauty range. If you're a girl on the thicker side then date a guy who looks like he likes thicker women. And if you're a scrawny pasty guy with no sense in fashion you should go for some fug nerdy girl who likes naruto. Thats all I'm saying.


Actually, cross the thicker girl comment. I've seen some big girls look prettier than all the Americas Next Top Models put together. If you're a big girl but you rock it, then go ahead and date Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt. But if you're fat and fug. Please go get a fugly bofro. You're pissing off us beautiful people.


Sorry if that sounds harsh but thats the way I see things.

-L.M

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Anyways, so like, if you haven't noticed, I put up my first drawing on my deviantart. I was drunk as fuck.

I'm actually not very good at drawing, sober or drunk, but I had fun drawing that, so, even though it's not good, it reminds me of a fun time I had with my friends.


So relationship wise, I'm in a slump. I haven't had a fuck in weeks and I don't miss it. I guess I'm just growing up. My 2 year relationship with Ty went down the shitter since the last time I came home. This time I'm not going back to him. I'm leaving New York behind me, as impossible as it seems. I'm looking for work here in California, and, aside from my family, just don't have anything left there except memories. Don't get me wrong, I totally long for the days when I was in high school and I was the queen of queens. I guess I wasn't really grateful for what I had untill I kinda lost it. Not like college isn't cool. It just isn't the same is all. I never had to worry about money until college.

In other news, my sis sent me some pictures of her belly, damn, that girl is gettin' BIG. She seems pretty happy though, she's no longer an a-cup, so she doesn't even care that she's getting fat from the baby. Just seeing them kind of freaks me out still. I mean, I grew up with my sister. I have memories of her when she was a kid. And even though we're both grown up. It kind of is just a reality of just HOW grown up I am. I mean. God. I feel so old! I'm only 20.... but still, that means I only have 10 years left until I start to get old! Even though gays take a longer time to age... It's a proven fact, fuck you.


Anyways, cuz I'm lazy, I'm cross posting this shit to my lj. I know thats weird, but damn, you should see my closet. OCD.

ok, gotta go to fuckin sleep.

-L.M

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Actually, wtf. I'll be happy again.

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]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/15280562/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/15280562/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 22:52:40 PDT
1. [x] the dark--Especially when I look into it.
2. [] staying single forever
3. [x] being a parent --Ha ha, I'm gay. Even so, I worry at times. Who knows? What if I fall in love with a guy with a son?
4. [] giving birth -- If I was a girl I could feel where they were coming from.
5. [] being myself in front of others
6. [] open spaces
7. [x] closed spaces
8. [x] heights-- I secretly freak out on airplanes
9. [] black cats
10. [] dogs
11. [] birds--PSHAWWW I love birds!
12. [] fish
13. [] spiders
14. [] flowers or other plants
15. [] being touched --Naw, I love being touched, in some places moreso than others '_~
16. [] fire
17. [] deep water
18. [] lakes
19. [] silk
20. [] the ocean
21. [x] failure--Who isn't?
22. [] success
23. [x] thunder/lightning-- I squeal like a 12 year old girl, it's so embarassing.
24. [] frogs/toads
25. [x] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad--Not really afraid, I just don't like him.
26. [] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
27. [] mice/rats
28. [x] jumping from high places -- Of course! Like, when its the middle of the night and a skip a step, I freak out a little bit.
29. [] snow
30. [] rain
31. [] wind
32. [] crossing hanging bridges
33. [x] death-- I try not to, but sometimes at night it just kinda sits there like a bad date.
34. [] heaven
35. [x] being robbed-- Yeah! I'm so greedy, I check if my apartments locked like, 5 times before I leave, even then I freak out.
36. [] falling
37. [x] clowns--I'm afraid of anyone who wears too much makeup!
38. [] large crowds of people
39. [] men -- No way dude, unless you can fuck what you fear.
40. [] women -- OMG HOW CAN ANYONE BE AFRAID OF GIRLS. I love girls, maybe old ladies I hate, but girls are the greatest friends you'll ever get.
41. [x] having great responsibilities--I used to, but not as much now.
42. [] doctors, including dentists
43. [] tornadoes
44. [] hurricanes
45. [] incurable diseases
46. [] snakes
47. [] sharks
48. [] Friday the 13th
49. [x] ghosts--Scare the shit out of me.
50. [] poverty
51. [] Halloween -- Naaaah, Halloween is awesome! I get to dress all cute!
52. [] school
53. [] trains
54. [] odd numbers--what?
55. [] even numbers
56. [x] being alone--I'm so dependant...
57. [x] becoming blind
58. [x] becoming deaf
59. [x] growing up -- I don't have to if I don't wanna! *blows a rassberry*
60. [] monsters under my bed (as in scary people) -- I sleep on a top bunk, Jerri is the monster underneath.
61. [x] creepy noises in the night
62. [] bee stings
63. [] not accomplishing my dreams/goals --Fearing it not happening will make it not happen.
64. [x] needles -- You should have seen me when I got my tongue peirced, I was freaking out and I nearly broke Becks hand, I was clutching it so tightly!
65. [x] blood-- I get queasy watching horror movies, so I like to hold the person next to me. Which is why I like watching them with cute guys.
66. [] dinosaurs if they were alive--I don't think I'd even be alive. Dinos would have eaten my ancestors.
67. [] the welcome mat--What?????!?!
68. [] high speeds
69. [] throwing up
70. [xxxxxxxxxxxx]falling in love
Score: 21

Omg I suck.

]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/14932801/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/14932801/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 20:37:06 PDT
Lets take, for example, heaven and hell. You go to hell if you don't abide to the laws of religion, but go to heaven if you do. Thats a fear tactic.


Now, with extreme vegetarianism/veganisim, they will shoot videos of animals being slaughtered to make food, or give out information about how many animals are killed each year and yadda yadda yadda. Now, this is a fear tactic in the sense that moral guilt is brought into play. If you eat meat, that means you enjoy and promote animal cruelty, or so thats what extreme vegetarians seem to want you to think.


So what I am wondering, is why something so similar to religion hate it so much? In fact, almost all religion promotes vegetarianism. And putting extreme value in a life is the same as putting value into a soul.

I meet so many extreme vegetarians/vegans who are atheist.
How come that is? Shouldn't it be the other way around?

Anyone who is extreme vegetarian (as in you've tried to convince someone else to become a vegetarian or tried show them videos/phots of animal cruelty to "convert" them) or knows someone who is, or even has an idea of an answer to this question please answer to me why you or so many other extreme vegetarians have no faith in God?

I myself have nothing against vegetarians, or religion, just wondering.

]]> ~Lust-M http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/13921486/ http://Lust-M.deviantart.com/journal/13921486/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 00:35:10 PDT
I know as a gay man, I tend to like, I guess you can say, less "masculine" men. As in they keep themselves well taken care of, and have good fashion sence. But I mean, I don't like men that look like women.

I guess I can see a women liking a woman who was tom boyish or acted more masculine... I guess

But if I were a lesbian, I'd love hot chicks. With big tits and pretty curvy bodies that they loved to show off with cute clothes and cute shoes.

Maybe its my misunderstanding of lesbians and things that fuck women in general that has lead me to the path of loving my own sex.

This isn't to say all lesbians are like that, I know a bunch that like actual women.


To summarize:

Straight women think steriotypical gay men are hot.

Straight men think steriotypical lesbians are scary and ugly.

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I bring up an idea. You know? An idea to get out of this mess. And my responce is always doubt. I couldn't do it cause... well, it's me. Doesn't anyone think for one second that might hurt? To just burn down a suggestion before I even try it. Because I'M the one making the suggestion?

I shouldn't let people push me around anymore.

I used to like it, or a least not mind it, being the one people could just kind of push around, the boxing dummy. The weeble that wobbles but never falls down.

But lately, I've just been daydreaming of some dignity. Just a bit of respect. Please, if you know me, it really does hurt sometimes when you call me names and stuff. I may seem tough, but in actuality, I'm very fragile.

]]> ~Lust-M