http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Lustuad&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Lustuad en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 27 Dec 2009 21:33:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28956055/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28956055/ Tue, 15 Dec 2009 06:13:44 PST Put an “X” between each “[]” whose statement suits you, then tally how many for each section. The one with the most is you type!
Post this as a journal with your type as the title

Dragon
[x] You are courageous
[X] You are eye hand coordinated
[ ] You sleep outstretched
[x] You like to work in groups
[X] You make friends after spending some time with them then you’ll be good friends forever
[X] You are cautious of strangers, but ready to be friendly
[ ] You don’t like cuddles or hugs very much (depends on who is hugging)
[X] You forgive someone easily
[x] You are outgoing
[X] You enjoy animating


TOTAL = 8

Wyvern
[x] You are devious
[ ] You’re power hungry
[ ] You play video games more then and hour a day often
[ ] You’re a loner (Sometimes)
[ ] You like to work by yourself
[ ] You have a somewhat time making friends
[ ] You have a hard time making friends
[x] Once you make friends, you’ll protect them with your life
[X] You enjoy fishing or hunting
[X] You sleep curled in, like a cat
[x] You don’t trust strangers
[ ] You hold grudges
[X] You can be very cuddly
[X] You love remote control cars
[x] You are a vampire

TOTAL = 8


Amphiptere
[ ] You are shy
[X] You are entergetic
[x] You are bold
[ ] You love flying kites
[ ] You love riding in an airplane
[ ] You run track
[ ] You prefer running to walking
[X] You like to draw

TOTAL = 3
ish a tye? Oo

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28842638/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28842638/ Wed, 09 Dec 2009 10:32:03 PST So if I seem like a bitch when I reply to one of your comment, Im sorry ahead of time.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28764692/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28764692/ Sat, 05 Dec 2009 11:19:40 PST and protcting myself and such. so neh.
but anyway food is done so Im going to go eat before I faint. bye bye now
ADVICE TIP #2
DONT GO A WHOLE DAY WITHOUT EATING SOLID FOOD

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28626867/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28626867/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:43:22 PST Im not big on holidays.
Secondly, this is a little bit of a pet peeve and Im not angry at anyone or anything but it's just something that annoys me a little.
Please dont bring issues between two friends or whomever to my pages and comments. Keep it private and in your notes. I really dont like the idea of having to hide comments from my friends or watchers simply because I feel bad that they are on my page. I dont like the fact that there is arguing going on, and I especially dont want my other watchers thinking that I have a problem because of the comments that they see on my pages.
Im not naming anyone, it's been quite a few people. But all Im saying is please keep me out of it and dont bring the issues onto my pages and various deviations. It's a little annoying to have to explain issues that I have no idea what's going on to others who think Im envolved.
Ive never blocked or banned anyone, and I dont think I should ever have to.
But I have decided to start a little advice giving thing here. When ever I post a journal henceforth I will post a word of advice surrounding an issue. (any suggestions on future topic feel free to post) and this will be the first.
#1
NEVER MAKE A FRIEND CHOOSE BETWEEN YOU OR ANOTHER FRIEND
for one thing, it's hurtful and stressful. It doesnt matter if sally isnt happy with sammy dont make betty pick over the two. She's friends with both of you and doesnt want to be envolved with your fights.
_____

FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS
~Sabine

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28541923/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28541923/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 05:04:44 PST
I had to go all the way up to Jacksonville for a root canal yesterday. They spent three hours working on it and still cant finish it. You see, it's a tooth that has another tooth growing inside it, so they really have no idea what they're doing. No one does though because this is like a one in a million thing that happens and they have yet to write a book on this. So they put a temporary sealant on it and said they would have to do an invasive surgury to get to it, by sawing open the bone in my jaw from the top and going through there. Ive never had surgury so Im scared shitless.
I go back december 5th for it. They had to give me 5 novacine shots when it only should of took 2. They said it was because there were two seperate nerves. When they give you a shot at the top it sucks because it hits your sinuses and when your sinuses are numbed and they woken back up you feel like you have the flu.
Im not in pain, I just had a sinus headache so I took two motrin for that, then because I couldnt breathe through my nose I had to take a shot of robutussin (which is the grossest medicine ever and the only reason it works is because it tastes so bad it makes you forget that you're sick) and because it wouldnt go away fast enough I took a Aleeve sinus pill. So when I woke up this morning (after having also gotten pumped with a huge tube of dragon morphine)i felt like I had no skull.
I still feel that way and even people have seen that I have been so out of it and loopy.
---

So right now I feel like I can sleep forever. ta everyone

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28466917/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28466917/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 11:30:58 PST Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby your sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28430198/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28430198/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 10:43:50 PST

This will most likely be a real short journal entry due to how the time is flying and about to be the end of the day. I will be staying after school to be helping out Mr Bishop and the lil fishies. Hopefully he will order some Pizza if we remind him about it this time. He's an awesome teacher. I'm getting al little better with the bases and may go back to making my own soon if I happen to have the time. I think Im doing generally well in school the only class that I should be havig any issues in at all is math because Im practically never there. I dont like that class at all and may ask my counseler if I can take it in the apex so it will be easier. I liked it better on the computer, I can focus more and if I dont understand a term I can just google it right then and there. Comming from someone who had once hated computers this is alittle shocking. Damn you azu you have made me such a computer addict and gamer! Nuuu!

I hope that everyone else I know and love (or may not as much luff) is doing fine and well. Hopefully I wont get taken over anymore for today. Someone has been alittle possesive (literally) but no mores. I are ish gunna fight back!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28306960/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28306960/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:51:03 PST Treated like a doll, dressed, cleaned, played wuth..
it all blows....
The only thing that I really have to look foreward to was azule...
and being able to get away from the one I will now call, the puppeteir

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28173249/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28173249/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 05:19:21 PST ( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 5

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class (who hasnt?)
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 8

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart / sheezyart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 10

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi (eww)
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit (YES!!)

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have (again a no duur)
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel (made a mud angel)

SO FAR: 17

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party (FUCK no)
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
( ) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 19

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game (I LOST!)
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 23

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 26

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 30

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 32

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR : 34

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime (does it count if -you- did it?)
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 39

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 43

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 47

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 51

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 55

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party (literally I fell through the window)
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
(x) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 60

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" (still do)
(x) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 64

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes(am now)
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 68

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours (azu...)
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 72

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 74

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have / had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 76

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 81

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 86

Level 28
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x)... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28011060/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/28011060/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 12:17:19 PDT That's part of my day.not to mention I had the school coffthat decided it wanted to give me food poisoning.
I will most likely be attempting to finish azules blanket that came apart in the washing machine. (what part of hand wash only is hard to get?)
anywho...um..imin bishops class I just scanned stuff, I keep teasing an azu( more ways than one mwah aha ha)
and I shalll go plasy with fishys before hopping on a bus to be most likey bitched at once I get home.
gone for now.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/27796070/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/27796070/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 11:32:56 PDT
]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/26952928/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/26952928/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 08:17:39 PDT So far my talisman is yet again trying to be stolen for the summoning of halloween as usual. This time it kinda sucks.
Thankfully Fae and Azu along with some people I pretty much thought forgot I existed -cough cough lunar- are trying to help. I can barely remember a whole lot from last night anyway due to being pumped full of pain killers so the seal will not hurt as much and the aura change wont either. I am still a tid bit loopy but Im feeling better so far. I loves chu sari, and if val ever decides to unblock meh as well, I dont hate you at all. I just had a disagreement of which I still dont know why it caused a problem. gone for now. will update drawings soon!
Sabine

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/26315869/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/26315869/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 10:40:14 PDT

I are gets to move in wif teh azu soon!!! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


gunna go swimming. tis a saterday. my boobs grew overnight.. o.o
azu says neehhh

BYOB!!!! ummm....... oh yea.... need to post more piccys.
Okai. I are iz gone.
BYEEEEEEE!!!!!
-sabine

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/25585270/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/25585270/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 11:01:00 PDT .>'
<.<'
-.-
ummm....there I updated. I'll be a bitch and say SHOOOVEEE ITTTTT like I did on teh radio for those who were listening to 101.1 friday. bye mah bitches!
Ps.
HAAA HAAAA HAAA MICHEL JACKSON IS DEAD!!! BWAH HA HA HA HA HA

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24973961/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24973961/ Wed, 27 May 2009 05:48:11 PDT [x] consumed alcohol. (learned I was allergic)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] kissed someone of the same sex.
[x] had someone in your room other than family.
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn.
[ ] tried drugs.

TOTAL: 6

[x] taken painkillers.
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] lied to your parents.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] snuck out of the house.
[x] done something illegal.
[x] felt hurt.
[x] hurt someone.
[x] wished someone to die.
[x] seen someone die.

TOTAL: 16


[x] missed curfew.
[x] stayed out all night.
[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist.
[ ] received a ticket.
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair.
[x] been in an accident.
[x] been to a club.
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL: 22


[x] been to a wild party.
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[ ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[x] had a spring break in Florida. (live in florida???)
[x] sniffed anything (scented candles..does that count?)
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands.
[x] wore t-shirts with band names.
[ ] listened to rap.
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD.

TOTAL: 28

[x] dressed gothic.
[x] dressed girly. (ONE time.)
[ ] dressed punk.
[ ] dressed grunge.
[x] stole something. (what? me? why never...)
[x] been too drunk to remember anything.
[x] blacked out.
[x] fainted.
[ ] had a crush on a neighbor.

TOTAL: 34

[x] had a crush on a friend.
[ ] been to a concert.
[x] dry-humped someone (lol azu)
[x] been called a slut.
[ ] called someone a slut.
[ ] installed speakers in your car.
[x] broken a mirror.
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

TOTAL: 38

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[x] cruised the mall.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] had surgery.
[x] had an injury.
[x] gone to court.
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
[x] caught something on fire.
[ ] lied about your age.

TOTAL: 45

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.
[x] broke the law in the police's presence
[ ] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger.
[x] hugged a stranger.
[ ] kissed a stranger.
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.

TOTAL: 52


[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online. (lol Xiiian-kuun)
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. (azu)
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] been to a fair.
[x] been called a bad influence.
[ ] drank and drove.
[x] prank-called someone.
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. (azu)
[x] cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 61

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [I should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [I should be dead]

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24837056/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24837056/ Tue, 19 May 2009 10:11:57 PDT [ ] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[ ] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[x] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[x] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[x] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 5

Elf:
[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[ ] You are very intelligent.(define...intelligent?)
[X] Your five senses are extremely keen.(*cough* six)
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[X] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[x] You look very young for your age.
[x] You rarely get sick.
[X] You are a very hard worker.
[X] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 6

Fairy:
[x] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[X] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[X] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[ ] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 5

Gnome/Dwarf:
[x] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[ ] You are short for your age.
[ ] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[ ] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 2

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[ ] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[X] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[ ] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[ ] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 3

Mermaid:
[ ] You love the beach, more so because of the water than the shore itself.
[x] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[ ] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[x] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[ ] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 5

Vampire:
[X] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[x] You are extremely pale. (no...just...white..>.>
[x] You wish you had a bat as a pet. (only a fox one cause they're cute like the one from the kids book tellaluna.)
[x] You are not religious at all.
[x] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[x] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[x] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.(only with too much)
[X] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[x] You don't like sharp objects near you.
Total: 10

Werewolf:
[x] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[ ] You have a lot of body hair.
[x] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[ ] You lack self control.
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[X] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[ ] You like to be alone.
[x] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[X] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total: 6

Wiza... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24751201/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24751201/ Thu, 14 May 2009 09:48:40 PDT
YOU KNOW YOU'RE A 90s KID IF...

[x] YOU CAN SING THE RAP TO "THE FRESH PRINCE OF BEL AIR"

[x] YOU REMEMBER WHEN IT WAS ACTUALLY WORTH GETTING UP ON A SATURDAY MORNING TO WATCH LIVE & KICKING OR SM:TV.

[x] YOU HAD A HUGE FRINGE AT SOME POINT IN YOUR CHILDHOOD.

[x] YOU REMEMBER READING AND WATCHING "GOOSEBUMPS"

[x] YOU TOOK PLASTIC CARTOON LUNCH BOXES TO SCHOOL.

[x] YOU REMEMBER THE CRAZE OF YO-YOS AND TAMAGOTCHIS

[x] YOU STILL GET THE URGE TO SAY "NOT" AFTER EVERY SENTENCE. NOT.

[ ] YOU KNEW THAT KIMBERLY, THE PINK RANGER, AND TOMMY, THE GREEN RANGER WERE MEANT TO BE.

[x] YOU COLLECTED POKEMON CARDS.(i still have some!)

[x] YOU PLAYED AND/OR COLLECTED POGS. (and I have like two of these still)

[x] YOU HAD A WEIRD ALIEN THAT LIVED IN GOOEY STUFF IN A PLASTIC 'OD' AND THOUGHT IF YOU STUCK 2 BACK TO BACK THEY WOULD HAVE A BABY!

[x] YOU WATCHED THE ORIGINAL POSTMAN PAT, FIREMAN SAM AND NINJA TURTLES.(I have the ninja turtles movie bish! FTW!)

[x] YOU REMEMBER WHEN THE NEW BEANIE BABIES WERE ALWAYS SOLD OUT (i cried once...)

[x] YOU GOT YOUR MUM TO BUY 'BN' BISCUITS

[x] YOU USED TO WEAR THOSE STICK ON EARRINGS, NOT ONLY ON YOUR EARS BUT AT THE CORNERS OF YOUR EYES. (and the egyptian thing on the chin lol)

[x] YOU KNOW THE MACERENA BY HEART.

[x] "TALK TO THE HAND" ENOUGH SAID.

[x] YOU REMEMBER THE TIME BEFORE LITERACY AND NUMERACY HOUR EXISTED.

[x] YOU THOUGHT BRAIN FROM "PINKY AND THE BRAIN" WOULD FINALLY TAKE OVER THE WORLD. (every day!!!)

[x] YOU REMEMBER BUM BAGS. ( )

[x] YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO BE ON FUN HOUSE

[x] YOU COLLECTED TAZOS. (kinda but my brother was more into it than I was)

[x] YOU REMEMBER WHEN FLASHING TRAINERS WERE COOL.

[x] 2 WORDS, SPICE GIRLS.

RE-POST THIS IF YOU ARE A BRITISH 90s KID AND CAN RELATE TO ANY OF THESE.__<3

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24749020/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24749020/ Thu, 14 May 2009 05:42:40 PDT And if the person isnt around when I tell them or say, "hey you never told me that!" i either one, did but you werent listening, two, said it when you werent in the conversation in an instance when it required you had to be there, or it just didnt pertain to you at the time. So seriously poeple and all of those who are fucking bugging me consistantly, get the fuck over it.
Im done.
sorry for the bitch mood but Im tired of it.
Sabine

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24461195/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24461195/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 11:17:49 PDT
rememeber watching...

[x] Kenan and Kel
[x] Doug;
[ ] Ren & Stimpy;
[x] Pinky & the Brain;
[x] AAAHH!! Real Monsters;
[x] Rocko's Modern Life;
[x] Animaniacs;
[x] Gargoyles;
[x] Hey Arnold!;
[x] Out of the Box;
[x] Bear in the Big Blue House

[x] You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[x] You just can’t resist finishing this: "In west Philadelphia born and raised. (In the play ground is where I spent most of my days.)

You remember:

[ ] Step by Step;
[x] Family Matters;
[x] Dinosaurs;
[x] Boy Meets World;
[x] Full House

[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons(still do)
[x] You remember reading Goosebumps (still do)

When everything was settled by:

[x] "Rock/paper/scissors";
[x] "Bubble gum, bubble gum in a dish";
[ ] "Miss Mary Mack".

[x] When kickball was something you did everyday (hell yesss!!)
[x] You used to listen to the radio all day long; Just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape. (still do that too )
[x] You remember Super Nintendo and Sega Genesis;
[x] You remember The Original Game Boy;
[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny;

You remember watching:

[x] The Magic School Bus;
[x] Wishbone;
[x] Reading Rainbow;
[x] Ghostwriter.

[x] You remember when Yo-Yo's were cool;
[x] You remember those "Where’s Waldo" books; and "I Spy"
[x] You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers.

You remember watching:

[x] Batman the Animated Series;
[x] Aladdin;
[x] Ninja Turtles;
[x] Ghost Busters.

[x] You remember Ring Pops;(i got one stuck in mah nose when I was three)
[x] You remember when everything was "da BOMB!";
[x] You remember boom boxes vs. CD players;

[x] Making those little paper fortune things, and then predicting your life with them;
[ ] You played and/or collected Pogs;
[x] You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere you went.

You watched the original cartoons of:

[x] Rugrats;
[x] Wild Thornberrys;
[x] Power Rangers.

[x] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand

You collected:

[x] Beanie Babies;
[x] Pokemon cards;
[x] Silver dollars.
You remember when:

[x] Everyone watched the WB;
[x] Everybody knew all the Pokemon by heart;
[x] Digimon was still on;
[x] If you even know what an original Walkman is;
[x] You know the Macarena by heart;
[x] "Talk to the hand";
[x] You went to McDonald’s to play in the playplace and it was still sanitary;
[x] Before the MySpace frenzy;
[x] Before the Internet & text messaging;
[x] Before Sidekicks & iPods;
[x] Before PlayStation3 or X-Box 360; ( i still have and play ps1 and remember the day it came out along with mah nintendo 64 bitch!!)
[x] Back before X-Box period;
[x] Before SpongeBob; (although I really do love that show)
[x] When light up sneakers were cool (still are >.>
[x] When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs;
[x] When gas was $0.95 a gallon;
[x] When we recorded stuff on VCR;
[x] You had slap bracelets; (those are still cool)
[x] You actually played outside until it was dark;
[x] Way back before we realized all this would eventually disappear;

[x] Post this if you smiled at least more than 5 times
Im a 1992 beh beh bitches. and I wish those days would come back! (as long as we can keep spongebob and get rid of hannah montanna I can deal with barney)

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24406425/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24406425/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 07:04:52 PDT
1. Sing the Batman theme incessantly.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage."
3. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go."
4. Learn Morse code, and have conversations with friends in public consisting entirely of "Beeeep Bip Bip Beeep Bip..."
5. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
6. Amuse yourself for endless hours by hooking a camcorder to your TV and then pointing it at the screen.
7. Speak only in a "robot" voice.
8. Push all the flat Lego pieces together tightly.
9. Start each meal by conspicuously licking all your food, and announce that this is so no one will "swipe your grub".
10. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 98 copies.
11. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
12. Sniffle incessantly.
13. Leave your turn signal on for fifty miles.
14. Name your dog "Dog."
15. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."
16. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what YOU think."
17. Claim that you must always wear a bicycle helmet as part of your "astronaut training."
18. Declare your apartment an independent nation, and sue your neighbors upstairs for "violating your airspace".
19. Forget the punchline to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a "real hoot."
20. Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with Lysol.
21. Practice making fax and modem noises.
22. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc:" them to your boss.
23. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
24. Invent nonsense computer jargon in conversations, and see if people play along to avoid the appearance of ignorance.
25. Erect an elaborate network of ropes in your backyard, and tell the neighbors you are a "spider person."
26. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with the prophesy."
27. Wear a special hip holster for your remote control.
28. Do not add any inflection to the end of your sentences, producing awkward silences with the impression that you'll be saying more any moment.
29. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears.
30. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.
31. Give a play-by-play account of a persons every action in a nasal Howard Cosell voice.
32. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
33. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."
34. Drum on every available surface.
35. Staple papers in the middle of the page.
36. Ask 1-800 operators for dates.
37. Produce a rental video consisting entirely of dire FBI copyright warnings.
38. Sew anti-theft detector strips into peoples backpacks.
39. Hide dairy products in inaccessible places.
40. Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page.
41. Set alarms for random times.
42. Order a side of pork rinds with your filet mignon.
43. Instead of Gallo, serve Night Train next Thanksgiving.
44. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a "croaking" noise.
45. Honk and wave to strangers.
46. Dress only in clothes colored Hunters Orange.
47. Change channels five minutes before the end of every show.
48. Tape pieces of "Sweating to the Oldies" over climactic parts of rental movies.
49. Wear your pants backwards.
50. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints by the cash register.
51. Begin all your sentences with "ooh la la!"
52. ONLY TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
53. only type in lowercase.
54. dont use any punctuation either
55. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
56. Pay for your dinner with pennies.
57. Tie jingle bells to all your clothes.
58. Repeat everything someone says, as a question.
59. Write "X - BURIED TREASURE" in random spots on all of someone's roadmaps.
60. Inform everyone you meet of your personal Kennedy assassination/UFO/ O.J Simpson conspiracy theories.
61. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times: "Do you hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, its gone now."
... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24251860/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/24251860/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 06:32:48 PDT add them up, and thats your age!

[x] You know how to make a cup of coffe​e (omg coffeee!!!!!)
[x] You keep track​ of dates​ using​ a calen​dar
[ ] You own a credi​t/​debit​ card
[ ] You know how to chang​e the oil in a car
[x] You'​ve done your own laund​ry
[ ] You can vote in an elect​ion
[x] You can cook for yours​elf
[x] You think​ polit​ics are excit​ing (only when bush left that was exciting)
TOTAL​ SO FAR: 5

[ ] You have gotten suspened
[x] You show up for schoo​l late (not every day)
[x] You alway​s carry​ a pen in your bag/p​urse​
[x] You'​ve never​ gotte​n a deten​tion
[x] You have forgo​tten your own birth​day at least​ once
[x] You like to walk by yours​elf
[x] You know what credi​bilit​y means​,​ witho​ut looki​ng it up
[x] You drink​ caffe​ine at least​ once a week (COFFEEEEEEEE!)
TOTAL​ SO FAR: 12

[x] You know how to do the dishe​s
[ ] You can count​ to 10 in anoth​er langu​age(thanks val now I feel dumb cause I cant)
[x] When you say you'​re going​ to do somet​hing you do it
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study​ when you HAVE to
[x] You have hand washe​d a car befor​e
TOTAL​ SO FAR: 17

[x] You can spell​ experience​​,​ witho​ut looki​ng it up
[ ] The people at Glori​a Jeans​ know you by name
[ ] The first​ thing​ you do when you wake up is smoke​ a cigar​ette
[x] You can go to the store​ witho​ut getti​ng somet​hing you don’t​ need
[ ] You under​stand​ polit​ical jokes​ the first​ time they are said
[x] You can type prett​y quick (wanna see me type that sentnce? wanna see me do it again?)​
TOTAL​ SO FAR: 20

[ ] Your only frien​ds are from your place​ of emplo​yment​
[x] You have reali​zed that no one will take you serio​usly unles​s you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills​ than you can pay
[x] You use the inter​net every​ day
[x] You have been outsi​de of Ameri​ca 1 or more times​
[x]​You make your own bed when you want to
TOTAL​: 24 woo!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23913222/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23913222/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 08:17:21 PDT You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
What you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23553376/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23553376/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 08:07:36 PST My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23428035/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/23428035/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 05:52:43 PST Im pissed off and I cant even have my jewelery because it resembles wicca and wicca is a temtation to go back into bad habits again so the instructors of the program say. Im pissed and cant wait until ten months are over so I can move out.
Leaving on good terms?
No that took a violent shove out of the ballpark, so fuck that.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22861477/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22861477/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 09:58:06 PST Im not happy today....

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22780091/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22780091/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 11:09:50 PST Ive finally updated my computer so I can watch video's and stuff on it. Like some one else -cough cough val cough hack- Ive been in a YAoi Yuri mood today. If you dont know what it is, then just google it Im not explaining it to your asses. (but I loves chu none the less)
I just got rubber bands for my braces that connect the top and bottom ones so it will slowly move my jaw foreward over time. Im starting to get past the pain, so far they've only poped once on me when I yawned. ><

Ive felt sad lately, and I know someone out there who was suspicious of it reading this is gunna go "I KNEW IT!" if you've hung around me that is.
I know I really dont ever block people but I did block my first person today. Just because I dispise them and have never been their friend to begin with.
You know the type that talk to you and crack jokes to be a smartass and try to impress you and come off as the gratest thing ever, but they're actually the most annoying thing on the planet and posers?
yeah...I cant stand that.
As far as the sadness thing goes, I felt just a small disconnection with people Ive come to know closely and love over time. I just didnt see that the gap was my own fault for not speaking out my veiw on things to begin with and Im sorry for any who had to worry over me for that.
Other than that nothing much has happened.
Loves to all and I will try to keep up with the posts of drawings and not just journals.

Sabine Lunnet Astroph
(and so not to piss azu off) ~Lionheart

~My Lovies~

and everyone else....

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22687864/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22687864/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 06:39:05 PST Can we talk?
So confused
It's like im lost.
What went wrong?
what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
Im unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart?
Or did you lie
From the start?
When you said
Its only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
Were unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more.
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we're much better
All together
Can't let go.

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Make me unbeatiful.....
~Sabine
Song by Lesley Roy

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22431206/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22431206/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 10:24:45 PST
anyway, I actually wore a skirt today and it's starting to piss me off with all of the wind it keeps flying up and everything. My fangs hurt like hell cause the braces, and a wire from my braces is digging itself into my gumline. ugh...hate them hate them hate them....
I have my birthday party on saterday. It's pirate themed and hopefully it will be fun. Im hoping my grandmother doesnt decide to ruin it for me...
I was curious as to where one of my friends were today, then learned that she was home because of problems that had occured that night. I dont blame her... had I known what was going on, I would of helped take some of the weight she carries off. I know that she's very strong.
But what I dont understand is what happened between the two friends...because I hadnt known that she had dated...rant... Im confused and have been left out of the loop for much longer than I had thought. I dont expect that to be updated soon, but I really do hope that people realize that Im ready to help them if they're willing to ask... and ready to make a change.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22393757/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22393757/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 12:33:25 PST at the same lady who gives me my potions and stuff. And oh dear lord any of you who have not seen the comments this guy is making for this you haaave to see it me and azu have been messing with him for the hell of it.
[link]

anywho.... omg they had swords for three dollars and a sword the size of a damn six foot long couch and three feet wide that in runes said dragons soul for 35 dollars!!
OMG!!! The guy said he had no idea what the hell it was used for but he brought the price down alot because he couldnt sell it and was going to have to scrap it soon. yall this thing is bigger than my own friggin bed without the hilt on it!!! it's scary!!!
all I could think of was "azu...where's 35 dollars and a crane so I can give this back to you...."
anywho (sorry say that alot)
my party is pirate themed and on saterday. -yays-

pirate attire required. val Im telling you you HAVE to bring your camera for this so we can has lotsa memories of my cake bursting into flames from azu playing with the damn fire and the big pin-- whoops
costume I'll have on..

yay memorys...

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22372006/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22372006/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 11:03:27 PST THANK YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22371975/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22371975/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 11:01:49 PST **keep boobs from growing
**try to keep grades above a c at all times
**keep friends from fighting (fail so far from what I know)
**dont break any bones
**dont chop off what's left of muh hair
**go ice skating ONCE at least
**be more active
**go more places for the sake of fun
**have more parties
**Learn how to draw
**try to lesson the notebooks
**move out at the end of the year.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22045568/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/22045568/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 08:30:01 PST [ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces. (hate them...)
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles. (when I go in the sun)

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[x] I've lost a child. (wasnt mine. not my fault they wander off...)

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (HA!)
[X] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[x] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing. *in my own defense i had needed to go badly for a hour or so before hand *
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something. (hot gule gun)
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples
[x] I've broken a bone. (too many times)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada. (yeah eh)
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star. (seven)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino. (I lived in vegas till I was eight)
[x] I've been skydiving. (does falling off seven stories count?)
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. (I got sooooooooo sick)
[x] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.(Xian)
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. (never seen it)
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. (icky)
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged.
[x] I'm married. (sorta dun member it)
[ ] I've been on a blind date
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21909720/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21909720/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 05:32:19 PST
My school is being infested by seagulls. I cant wait until Val has posted them, but she has the pictures and I was deathly afraid of being poop-ed on this morning. They were literally everywhere, and they will land right next to you and not care!!!
But yeah I was screaming when they came too close. They even landed right on someones head this morning!!!
I was hiding under a little tree thing we have in the mulch and stole vals jacket cause I was really scared. Demons I'll fight, but I'll be damned if I let one of those damn birds come near me without screaming in fear.....

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21760967/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21760967/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 05:49:50 PST "Wooden stakes."
Well first off my mind went OMG NUUU! I nearly bolted but then I realized, they have NO IDEA about my lil fangy secret so i nervously asked "um..what for?"
she said she wanted stakes so she could use them to hold up and tye down plants and stuff. I wasnt happy, but we found someone who gave ups some but of course because everyone else is lazy IIIIII had to carry them!
And there's a few Lykins in the store, watching a -vampire- carry around a big pakage of stakes going, "what the bloody hell is going on??"
but when we left, I couldnt stop starring at the back seat where they sat and prayed we wouldnt slam on the brakes or anything so they kill me when they fly everywhere...

but that's over with thank god and everyone I told so far better not make no damn sarcastic comments cause it aint funneh!


but other than that this morning i freaked out and was screamin because there was a roach in muh house by my bathroom and my mom tried tyo make me pick it up when she knows Im deathly afraid of them!
but anyway...yeah..my days have sucked so far...

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21677596/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21677596/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 09:18:31 PST -sigh-
oh well. I found out that I was being an ass to the one person I love the most... and I didnt even realise I was driving him to be in more pain.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21464926/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21464926/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 05:49:15 PST Aparently im having memory loss again. It really sucks.
I meet people who say they know me but I have no clue who they are. It makes me feel bad.
I remember little things. Like who i am, but that's about it. I have to be told where my classes are, my locker combo, and the names of people I could or have known for a few goood years.
I feel awful and very confused. i dont yet know what happened that made my memory go all BOOM and all, but I have people trying to help.
And for those who have been, thank youuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21182102/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21182102/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 06:01:42 PDT I love you and Im sorry I never told you about Jason. I see that it still hurts you no matter how much you try to get past it. you'll never know how sorry I really am. I Dont even deserve to still even be friends with you let alone have you still talking to me and hugging me...

Thank you for being a listening ear whenever I needed one like if I ever decided to go on a rant in an email and think I was crazy. I hope You've been doing well.

I know you're probly still pissed as hell at me for what I did and I dont expect a reply or anything from you anytime in this century. Just know that Im sorry, you dont have to accept or beleive that i mean it i just know that I need to say it.

Thank you for helping me when I felt like I was alone, and stayed with me een though alot of the time I can be annoying and just plain stupid to stop and just se what is going on around me.

and for basically everyone else Ive been trying to post more stuff. I just havent gotten around to it. I will when i can get a bloody scanner again.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21043059/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/21043059/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 07:15:39 PDT I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(Chorus)
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

(Mmm..)

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

(CHORUS)

Oh!

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah.. yeah.. yeah!..yeah.. yeah,
yeah.. yeah, yeah yeah,YEAH...
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I....!
I'm with YOU...
I'm with YOU...
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I!

I'm with you...
I'm with you...

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I
I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you



I love you Azule! Happy 1 year and 2 months.

Other than that I just know that Im in pain today. (dont ask) but Im happy other than that. Val is still talking to me, I never expect her to forgive me for what I did, but we still seemed to manage to get past that, although I think it was a bit too easily that we did. I drew some pictures like val on the rock climb and me being "drunk" along with attemting to go through the obstacle course where I got stuck all the time.
I love you all. ^^

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20999479/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20999479/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 10:20:04 PDT
But i dont think half the people will come now. I bitched at my mom trying to get her to let val come, and she agreeded to it now. But Ive already screwed that up yet again.
I feel like crap already... there's too much stuff going on for my brain to even make sense of half the time.

here's just a sad song I'm listening to I dunno who sings it...

"Just A Dream"

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20964384/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20964384/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 05:47:34 PDT okay..ow...visions hurting my head like hell!!!!!!
I get them once in a while. Ever since i was little. Usually I only get them when I am asleep so I dont really get the pain part of it. My real mom had them too. I just know that they hurt like hell. But it's mainly because I force them back for so long it just builds. Which is why insomnia sucks and is how I got it.
But anyway, I guess I wont be having a birthday party in january... I wanted to have just a pirate kinda party where everyone would dress up and have some fun. But my grandma said only two hours. Only because she doesnt want to have to "put up with that nicole girl very long" OMFG I hate her so much. If I cant have a party without val, then I guess I just wont have a fucking party. Two hours? you know how fast that would go by? And she said everyone HAS to go home when the time of the party ends, no one can stay and hang out after like partys usually go for.
My OWN BROTHER HAD A BIRTHDAY LONGER THAN THAT AND HE'S SKIZOPHRENIC! A FRIGGIN FOURTH GRADER IN A ADULT BODY!

It just makes me mad. I dont know why my mom doesnt like val... I just know it pisses me off that she wont let her come over and hang out with me or anything. Hell, she wont even let me talk to her on the phone 99% of the time.
Anyway, I guess Im just gunna say fuck it to the party idea though. Why bother when Im just gunna have it ruined by a bitchy mom.
Guess that's just another year that I'll be depressed and miserable in her fucking house waiting for the day I can get the hell out.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20853247/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20853247/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 06:10:13 PDT they also deleted the unmodded which also made me mad. So now Im more liable to being kicked out of a room because i cant remember not to use caps, curse or type so may words in a single post per time along with cursing. I think it's rediculous. It just makes me mad... gr...
rant ended

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20681386/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20681386/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 06:09:23 PDT
True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it.

Polls are up and running people...

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20519500/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20519500/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 10:33:46 PDT I need a job and I want it to be halloween already cause I wanna go do something. Hell I might even go trick or treating just for the sake of rotting the braces off my teeth. -which is impossible cause I cant stand a day without brushing them cause Im paranoid-
but, I dunno...For those who dont know yet, jason literaly fractured his ass doing a cannon ball into a 1 foot deep bathtub with no water in it. chow.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20423105/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20423105/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 13:24:26 PDT HOLY FUCK!!!
Anyway my braces are annoying but Im used to them. Azule-kun had better change his class so we can be in it together. My grades are actually good so far but I doubt they'll stay that way. My Geometry teacher is the Devil in a hispanic woman's body and she scares me along with a bitch who sits next to me who is SOOOO shocked that Im dating anyone at all since the little rumor last year that I was gay. ((Even though Me n Azu-kun have dated for a year -and one month on the 18th- ))
Im trying to get emancipated but I dont know quite how the procedure starts or anything so Im lost on that one. I love my intensive reading teacher. She gives me A's and I basically do nothing in her class. Marine Biology Im hoping I can catch up on since I have a lot of assignments missing from that since I still have yet to lug that ginormous book home.
Drawings have slowed but i still have new ones that no one has seen, but I plan to get them scanned too. (especially the fighting one Azu-kun)
I keep hoping that the thing with me an val will be better but it's not from what I can still sense...I love her but no matter what I always somehow hurt her. I feel like she doesnt want me around alot of the time.... but I try to let her know I still care in my own ways... ((hence the bum rape while she was sleeping))
lol but she says Im the only one who can mess with her when she's tired since she she wont kick my ass. ^,,^ so mesa feels special... -maniacle hee hee-
The braces really suck with my fangs and I gave yet to learn how it is to eat with them. anyway other than that I lost another 8 pound but I have no clue why but o'well Im a fatass anyway. Luff to all
Sabine

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20319281/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20319281/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:33:43 PDT I hate the fact that i have them, i dont need them! And they irritate my mouth along with my fangs. it doesnt help that Im allergic to the silver in them so my mouth is bleeding. ugh i just hate them sooooo mush...take them off! take them offff!!!!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20284344/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20284344/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 05:39:58 PDT What happened? Why cant i think of anything? Im scared... Ive even cried over it ive been so afraid... Did I hit my head or something...thses people arent really ...are they?
Im lost... I cant think....
My heart hurts when i think about it...and when Im close to the one boy My neck burns and my lower back hurts....but most of all my heart....
I dont understand any of it... and Im afraid to remember...

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20196497/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/20196497/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:50:30 PDT You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But i know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everwhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But i know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everwhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be
The last night away from me

The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand
I will help you hold on
Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everwhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me

I found this song and I love it. it describes basically how Im feeling now but oh well. Cant really do anything but sit it out until something happens with Sari or something.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19310852/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19310852/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 12:55:35 PDT Alone I'll walk the winding way (here I stay)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing stronger
I live to die another day, until I fade away

Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end

Surround me, it's easy, to fall apart completely
I feel you creeping up again (In my Head)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing colder
I knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin

Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end

I've lost my way
I've lost my way
But I will go on until the end

Living is, hard enough, without you fucking up

Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end

I've lost my way
I've lost my way
But I will go on until the end

The final fight I win
The final fight I win
The final fight I win

But I will go on until the end

catch me or kill me i dont care im just sick of everything at the moment.... loneliness seems to be a good friend lately... so does my dagger.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19220674/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19220674/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 14:44:41 PDT






















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I am taking the bait -
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Hope it works!

















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Just read the little stories and
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Happily married for 2 years.

What a great email it was!!

















Just scroll down to the end, but
While you do, think of a wish.
Make your wish when you have completed
Scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the
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******************... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19219705/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/19219705/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:39:07 PDT anyway I have a new job at the museum of arts and science and I love it there although I could do without the billions of screaming children whom im about to have azule-kun eat alive but they'd most likely give him a diabetes problem from how much sugar they eat. today I just went to see the movie wally and I do highly reccomend that you see it it's the greatest movie ive seen in a while that's disney. ((it's about time the bums!!))
I had the best fourth of july eva since azule kun came to see me at work ((I swear i still think that was a dream and or hallucination)) but I also had burnt to a crisp bbq chicken and ribs with corn on the cob and pickled beets ( i ate the whole jar!!) and potatoe salad omg Im hungry for leftovers now. But so far nothing has really gone on besides the fact that ive drawn like hell and have even colored the one that woly has wanterd me to color a while back. Hope that I can post those soon if I can get the bloody scanner to ever work. Im once again adicted to yet another anime Im back on fullmetal alchemist and cant get enough I even play the game.
Besides all that jaz and such, I have a problem with losing a hell of a lot of weight, I lost over 35 pounds in one month and didnt change anything as far as diet. and...well that's all for now besides saying that i got abs and didnt do a damn thing to earn them so boo yah to all whom of which work out a the gym for four hours for the vampires have taken over the world!! muh ha ha ha ha!!
love ya all and hope your summer rocks!!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18691845/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18691845/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 06:03:58 PDT And dont forget my art will either increase or decrease with the only problem of me posting it when I actually can

I hope everyone has a great summer and I will try very hard to get on the blastedly slow computer when I can if I can. I go up to witchiwatchi place in florida for a short while about a week so i will be gone then to go see the "mermaids"
I may also be going with Azule-kun to Universal where he will attempt to put me on the first roller coaster he see's and leave at the end of the day limping, missing a limb and deaf in one ear. ((but still loved))

I love all you you who watch me and thank you for the comments and such. I'll miss everyone close to meh and I hope i hear from you sometime durring the summer.

All I ask is that you all dont spam me with messages at once. I have enough mail as it is.

OH! And keep your fingers crossed for my emancipation and hope that it goes through so that I may move out of the hell I live in and into a new home ((Im hoping Azule-kun's))
Wish meh luck yall!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18571827/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18571827/ Fri, 30 May 2008 06:05:58 PDT
]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18223324/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18223324/ Thu, 08 May 2008 07:51:27 PDT What else can I do, besides avenge you?
I watched it for the longest time, until my tears dried up.

And the sorrow overflowing from the scar which can't be erased,
I swore that I would never forget it.

I'll flap my broken wings and erase it all some day, you'll see,
Until the last bell ringing the dirge completes.

You told me to live as if you were to die tomorrow.
Fail not and be what we were now
Face as if we want to have forever

Bright red tears traced by a trembling finger,
I had nothing to lose, nothing to lose
It crashes through the dark memories.

The last smile wavered, and disappears,
And the warmth is all that's left.

Your kind and gentle words can't heal me now,
This body's only dedicated to the never ending fight.

Because everyone returns to heaven, some day,
You'll never need to say goodbye.

Break out!

I'll flap my broken wings and erase it all some day, you'll see,
Until the last bell ringing the dirge completes.

Your kind and gentle words can't heal me now,
This body's only dedicated to the never ending fight.

REDEMPTION...REDEMPTION...

I dont care if I do more than one journal in a day, IM PISSED OFF AND SAD SO BEND OVER AND TAKE IT LIKE A BITCH!

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18223252/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18223252/ Thu, 08 May 2008 07:44:17 PDT Oh oh, oh oh, so much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh,

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did
Was it something you said
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread (breakable thread)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, so much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say (they say)
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they (so are they)
But they don't know me
Do they even know you (even know you)
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (all the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

It was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, so much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, so much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh


...I found this song that tells what Im feeling right now basically since Im all crying but trying to be happy with val talkin to me since she's on at the moment. I love her so much and I wish she would see that even IF she doesnt feel THAT way about meh, I'll still love her just the same...no matter how many times she hurts her elbow on the concrete tackling conner I'll still be willing to lick-- er...kiss the wound on her arms or anywhere else just to make her feel better or squeek with laughter.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18176449/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/18176449/ Mon, 05 May 2008 07:05:55 PDT [x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[X] I hate my dad
[x] I hate my mom
[X] I have a brother
[X] I have a sister
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[X] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[X] I'm in school.
[X] I have a job.
[x ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year. (just one damn you ><
[X] I've stolen something from my job. (pens and attempted internet)
[ ] I've been fired.
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.(who hasnt? deprived little children)
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone (lots)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed!
[X] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[x] I was born in a different country.
[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[x] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[x] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star. (what's the point it doesnt come true
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. ( HELL NO I sleep practically naked
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I've been to a casino ( I lived in vegas so who hasnt there?)
[ ] I've been skydiving. (never have never will)
[X] I've gone skinny dipping. (not willingly ><
[X] I've played spin the bottle. (with all chics)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. (lactose ppl)
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.(well...from DA?)
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. (yeah and the driver took me to HIS house and things got bad...)
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi. (It's icky. And how do you know if fish has gone bad or not? It ALWAYS smells like fish anyway!)
[X] I've been snowboarding.(in the dessert)
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date. (literally!)
[X] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't (my mom)
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I'm bi
[ ] I'm gay
[ ] I've had sex
[ ] I've had phone sex
[X] I've cybered
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[ ] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my par... ]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17971919/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17971919/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 07:30:51 PDT I gave my soul to you
You cut me from behind
No where to run
And no where to hide
You're scared of the truth
I'm tired of the lies
Cause who I am
Is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You're fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end
So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

You said you were there for me
You wouldn't let me fall
All the times I shared with you
Were you even there at all?
No where to run
And no where to hide
You're scared of the truth
I'm tired of the lies
Cause who I am
Is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You're fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end
So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

Why'd you have to up a run away?
A million miles away
I wanna close my eyes and make believe
That I never found you
Just when I put my guard away
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed
It's the same old story

Don't act like an angel
You're fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end
So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end?

Lie to me once again
It's the same old story
Lie to me once again
It's the same old story
Was it worth it in the end?

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17791976/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17791976/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 08:05:48 PDT

Would/will you?
[y] Come to my house to do nothing at all but chill?
[m] Fight me?
[m] kiss me?
[m] Let me kiss you?
[y] Watch a movie with me?
[m] Go out to dinner with me?
[y] Sing car karaoke with me?
[y] Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[y] Hold my hand?
[m] Let me make you breakfast?
[y] Help me with homework?
[y] Tickle me?
[m] Let me tickle you?
[y] Instant message me?
[y] Greet me in public?
[y] Hang out with me?
[y] Bring me around your friends?
[y] Be down with me no matter what?

Do you?
[m] Think I'm cute?
[y] Think I'm serious?
[y] Think I'm a good person
[n] Think I'm conceided?
[m] Want to kiss me?
[m] Want to cuddle with me?
[not at the moment Im good] Want to hook up with me?
[y] Love me?

Am I?
[y] Smart?
[y at times] Cute?
[y] Funny?
[y] Cool?
[dunno] Romantic?
[n] A freak?
[n] Gangsta?
[y] Loveable?
[y at times] Adorable?
[m] Trustworthy
[?] Compassionate?
[dunno] Great to be with?
[m] Attractive?
[not to me but you can be] Mean?
[dunno] Well known?

Have you ever?
[m] Wished I were there?
[at one point] Had a crush on me?
[yeah] Wanted my number?
[n] Had a dream about me?
[n] Been distracted by me?
[yep but that's me I do that for ewveryone] Looked at my page more than ten times?

Are you?
[y] Happy you know me?
[sometimes] Thinking about me?
[y] Going to repost?

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17744235/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17744235/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 08:04:35 PDT my hair is VEEEERRRY short at the moment. I cut it muhself and I loves it....I only hates it when it falls in muh eyes.
Ive started to just not are that people really hear my accent anymore

I just dont like having to strain to hold it back when I talk because if I get excited it slipps and people freak and get all "fan girl screaming" like.
so, ive started not to bother. Most of my accent is gone through practice that the stupid speach teacher gave me when I was little in elementary school anyway. That's another reason that my "mom" hates me though is because my father wasnt american, although I really have no clue who or where he may be at this point.
Ive learned some new things about my real mother and wish that I could meet her. Ive seen pictures of her and I swear on my life she looks every bit like I do. Talk about cloning!
as far as drawings, yeah Ive still been doing that, problem is cant find a damn scanner still and Ive become an addict to my art class now in attempts to piss of my teacher anyway.
She tells me that Anime is not art at all and it shouldnt even be in america. Each peice of art i do is NOT all anime but she always calls me anime-freak when she's calling role. I want to rip her head off sometimes, but I dont get violent with humans. They're too easy.
-sighs- anyway i hate that the only good grade that she has ever given me something on was in fact an anime drawing but it was a dragon for a blackline final midterm thing.
alot of people in my class know about anime but they dont really draw it because they lack the ability to draw anything at all. (question to self, why the hell am I in an art class?))
I hope that it doesnt rain today, i'd really like to get some more training done. Ive been trying to get into shape before tornoment times show up again. Well, guten tag to all.
~sabine lunnet astroph

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17438536/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/17438536/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 07:41:45 PDT
There are some rules and guidelines to this:

1. I don't think i'm supposed to draw your sketch until you offer this in your journal too (that's probably how they keep this thing going)

2. I'm gonna need a good referance to the character you want me to draw.

3. Only one character per person

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okay, so other than that, Ive been going crazy with my doctors and what non just pissing me oooff!!! Okay, I used to weigh somewhere around like, 198, and now I weigh 139. And that weight I have lost over...three months time?
But really, just a month. In febuary i weighed 165, last WEEK I was at 160. And today i weigh 139.
I havent changed any eating habits or starved myself even. Sometimes if I eat something just the thought of food makes me feel sick. Like.... have you ever drank WAY too much milk? then feel sick? well cross that with spinning in a chair and car sickness and that's how I feel when anything goes in my stomach.
Put about 6 cashews in my hand and I'll eat them and feel stuffed as a friggin thanksgiving turky. It's scary but I cant really do much about it either. I have alot of food allergies too, but lately my body just rejects anything more than just, like I described, six cashews. 6!!!
My asthma is getting kinda bad lately as well.
Also I have coughed so much that I have started to cough up blood. Headaches and random blackouts too.... also seizures... Im scared to death but I'm eating I really am!!!!!!!!!!! I probly eat as much as a obese person but the weight just drops drastically anyway.
I dont know what to do...but doctors belive Im doing drugs, or having sex, pregnet, making myself throw up, ect ect ect....
They said they'd take me out of school because they think Im endangering myself there. They might send me somewhere....
I dont know what to do....
but I havent done anything wrong so I dont know why this is happening anyway.

]]> ~Lustuad http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/16670074/ http://Lustuad.deviantart.com/journal/16670074/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 07:01:41 PST
1. How many relationships have you been in?

Ive been in about six at most.

2. What's the longest relationship you've had?

Well there was the one with Leon that lasted almost a year and a half, but I think that wasnt really a relationship and I dont quite conciderit as being one. So I'd most likely say that it's the one with me and Azule now.

3. How many ppl have you made out with?

uhhh...3? maybe 2?

4. Are you a virgin?

yes...sadly... but that's only cause I didnt ever have true feelings for anyone, so that never really happened.... >.>

5. As far as looks go with spouse, what do you love most about their physical appearance?

Hmmm... There's a lot of things. I dont think there's anything I dont like really...

6. What do you hate?

Appearance? uhh... pants that are way too big???
If it's what do I hate personally, I hate:
spiders roaches palmedo bugs
loud noises too much talking
dead silence and a buncha other stuff.

7. Do they have any annoying habits?

not really...uh.. lemme think...
poking me or hiding things probly

8. Is there anything that you think they should work on?

uhh... talking more and telling me more things?

9. Have you ever thought about dating someone else or thought about what it would be like while you were still with your spouse?

just with one of my ex's Jordan. ((no not rice ppl)) He was a heavy pot and drug dude that didnt really care about anything.

10. Have you ever wanted to screw a maniquen?

not that i know of.

11. What's the most embarassing thing that's happened when your spouse was there?

I fell off a tree....without even being IN or climbing it. I just leaned against it and fell off it.

12. How many secrets do you think you keep from your spouse?

not very many. if it was a number I'd say....15?

13. How long do you think the relationship will last?

I am not exactly sure, but judging by how things are going now, I'd say a looong time...hopefully.

]]> ~Lustuad