http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:MCRsk8erboi&section=today deviantART RSS for by:MCRsk8erboi en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 08:07:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28972004/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28972004/ Tue, 15 Dec 2009 23:03:52 PST Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you who's is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave untill the end
I won't cross these streets untill you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The summer's so hot, winter's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where pine trees grow
I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We'd chase these days down with talks of places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets untill you hold my hand

Swing life away.
Swing life away.
Swing life away.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28739335/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28739335/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 01:09:24 PST I don't actually know, to be honest, I suppose it's an update of sorts?

Anyway, hey guys, what's up? I know I've promised to be more active here again latley, and failed accordingly D| I wouldn't say life is so hectic right now, just somewhat busy, looking for a job, planning to get out on my own and such. It doesn't really help either that we switched to wireless Internet (since for some reason we weren't able to run an Ethernet cable from my dad's room all the way to the kitchen. Or didn't bother), it's so fucking slow that it takes ages to do what used to take seconds. So the thought of interacting with such intricately designed web pages, such as this, is somewhat daunting and unpleasent. I'll still try to keep updated though, I owe you all that much. Just don't expect new artwork anytime soon, /that/ I've had no time for ;___;

Time. Seems like we all need some extra time nowadays.

Also.

I'd like to apologize for the, ahem, outburst journal I posted a few weeks ago. I'm a pretty calm guy, as I mentioned and it really takes a lot to piss me off.... Or, the unstable-ness of an already bad week that needed an extra push to make me snap. So yeah, all of you didn't need to know about that, I agree that it was not the best way to confront the situation, it was very unnessesary and I fully take the blame if I made some of you uncomfortable, which I'm quite sure I did. So again, apologies. I was depressed and in turn angered. I'll have better judgement from now on.

In other news, I might be getting a handfull of Xbox360 games from my friend, among them Assasin's Creed II, Dragon Age: Origins, Halo 3: ODST, Dead Space and CoD4: Modern Warfare 2 as repayment for something not so cool that he did. Which is fine by me, I live by forgive and forget once more, after nights of deep thought. Anyway, he won't tell me how he's getting them, but hey, don't ask, don't tell, right? Lol. This isn't exactly a good thing though, chances are playing all these games will rob me of spare time to share with you fine people, so worst case scenario I'll keep my iTouch handy haha.

Random, but I also might be in California this month. If I go, I'll be stopping by Los Angeles and Anaheim. And speaking of California, I've been talking to my dad more about the Musicians Institute, and he seems to be cool with it. We've gone over living expenses and such, locations, all that good stuff, so if all goes well, he might be helping me look for an apartment or something while '11 rolls in. So everything's going as planned, basically. Which makes me happy. There's things that have happened just recently that made me realize that my shitty childhood is finally nearing it's end, and I'll soon be able to be happy, I'll be able to /live/ instead of just... survive, really.

So yes, just filling you all in on Jordan news.

Also I've had a bunch of comments/notes/etc from you guys, some I have read, some I have not, but rest assured that I'll reply to them tomorrow, you have my word.

It's 1:58 AM and this Jordan should get some sleep if he plans to wake up early |D

Nite, friends :]

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28648031/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28648031/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 10:20:39 PST
Good morningggg!

And I hope you all had a fantastical Thanksgiving and ate tons of delicious food ahaha.

So well, I'm so late, but I got my xbox back :] I guess Microsoft just sent me a new one instead of repairing my old one, which is good, updated hardware and all xD Also got it back much sooner than expectedddddd.

Anyway it came with a free month of Xbox Live, so I'll be back in gaming buissness for some time! I will be getting my copy of Halo 3 back tomorrow that I lent to a friend, and I'll be playing that!

I believe we all had plans to play together or something such? Santi, Leland, Meli, and anyone else that cares to join!.

Which reminds me, Meli! Haven't heard from you, everything okay? And whats the xbox situation? O:

Alright that's about it for this journal, I'll be going to my xbox now to finish up Mass Effect on Hardcore difficulty for once (got sick of playing casual) haha.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28551453/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28551453/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 15:53:32 PST
I am excited!!!

Too bad I don't have a gold subscription though, I need monies x3

In case any of you are not on my friends list, my gamertag is Biased Thought

Also, Halo Evolutions came out today. Get your copies, sonnn!!!

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28549634/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28549634/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 14:26:59 PST <sub>Showered with someone lately?
nopeeeee

What will your weekend be like?
Probably AWESOME its thanksgiving thrsday! FOOD YUM WHOO BREAK.

Would you rent a midget if it was possible?
Yes I would. I shall name him Jimmy

The way to win your heart?
Be yourself, be honest, be considerate, forgiving, loyal all the good stuff. Also talented, indie, I <3 indie (even though I'm like hxc? haha)

Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?
Sweet, it totally has, and well, to be honest I couldn't be happier :]

Are you a social or antisocial person?
occasionally antisocial, but I'm getting better

You're walking down a street & you see someone drowning what do you do?
"Point and laugh. You've gotta have something wrong with you to think you're drowning on pavement..." keeping this answer haha

Have the cops ever come to your house?
As a matter of fact yes they have

Do you always wear your seat belt?
Yes sir I do

Know more than one person with a mental disability?
I used to know two

Where is your bestfriend?
One next door, one in washington and one in cali

Do you like anyone now?
Yes I most certainly do :]

What did you have for breakfast?
Peanut butter cookies!!!

Did you have a nap today?
No, but I did yesterday and had the craziest dream EVER

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
"skinny jeans" keeping this answer

Is there that one person who can always make you smile?
Definitely :]

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
Well, it used to. I just fucking laugh now

Whose birthday is coming up?
Mine passed! And I believe Robb's is coming up O:

Has any body ever given you butterflies?
yesyesyes

When was the last time you smiled?
Today :]

Would you choose to be the most attractive, the smartest, or most athletic?
I'll have to go with a bit of everything!

When is your birthday?
November 18

Do you know what you want to do with your life?
Yes I most certainly do

What are you listening to right now?
All Time Low!!! Nothing Personal, Break Your Little Heart

Do you put ice in your drinks?
Yuh!

Are you on youtube?
[link]

Who was the last person to see your undies?
LOL not telling!

Are you a loud person?
Occasionally!

When will your next kiss be?
Soon!

You had sex last night didn't you?
ooooooo you got me! lol no

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Absolutely not

Has anyone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
yus!

Do you enjoy staying at home or hanging out with friends more?
"both, depends on the mood" keeping this answerrr

Do you like to hold or be held?
"hold usually, but being held wouldn't be too bad either" keeping this answer

Anyone you're giving up on?
Yes sirrrrr

What was the last reason that you cried?
i watched The Notebook :]

Who last yelled at you?
lol eddie

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
hahaha yes I have, yes I have

What were you doing last night at midnight?
Watching The Notebook with Sarah

Do you drink bottled water?
if theres any around!

Are you hot or cold right now?
normal?

What were you doing at 10am?
schoooool

Your view on weed?
"fuck that shitttttt" keeping this answerrrr

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Absolutley :]

When was the last time you feared for your life?
I don't fear for my life.

Does your ex boyfriend/girlfriend still have the same haircut as when you were going out?
My ex hmmm. Actually I think she does |D I haven't seen her in years though

Do you currently like anybody?
I do!

What is your best summer memory of 2007?
"oh wow. I can't remember. All I remember was that year was the second worst of my life. 2009 is first." keeping this answer and adding, it also turned out to be the best year. So far at least!
<... ]]></sub> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28549164/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28549164/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 14:05:11 PST
Away from me...

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines, in a place where we only say goodbye, it stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds. But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all and I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself.

Because there's no comfort in the waiting room, just nervous pacers bracing for bad news. Then the nurse comes around and everyone will lift their heads. But I'm thinking of what Sarah said:

"Love is watching someone die."




...So who's going to watch you die?

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28352854/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28352854/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 12:13:13 PST Being alone is starting to take its toll
I'm cold and it's getting old

I admit
I should've made some changes
We were so smothered in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where did the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did our home go?
We won't know
I don't know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much

I admit, I'm still watching the days go by
Sleeping alone is starting to break me down
It's cold, but I should've known


I admit
I made a few mistakes, babe
We were so caught up in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where does the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did my heart go?
We'll never know
I'll never know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much

I need to find a reason to feel
Like everything was meant to be let go
Take it slow
'Cause I can't be on my own

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised

Too much

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28205915/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28205915/ Sat, 07 Nov 2009 20:05:15 PST
Anyway, hi everyone. Sighhh. Shit's been so crazy latley, and my birthday is coming up on the 18th!

I'm gonna be 19! holy shit I'm old! Lol. Well, where can I start.

A brief overview on plans for next year (and beyond):

1. Get a job.

2. Save money. Lots.

3. Look for a job in Anaheim, California online.

4. GET said job.

5. Move out to Anaheim and rent out a small apartment, make preparations for college, contnue working.

6. Move to Los Angeles and attend the Musician's Institute, start a band on the side with fellow students (if possibe).

7. Graduate with a bachelors in guitar and possibly minoring in something else.

8. Get big and start touring with my band.

9. At least get to Warped Tour.

10. Goals of my youth... COMPLETE.


I'm so ambitious, hohoho.

Merry Thanksgiving and Happy Christmas.

ALSO more drawings coming soon |D

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28116525/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28116525/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 22:14:45 PST

<sub>Rules: Just copy and paste this into your comment (or note, for the more timid types lol) and fill out the questions.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
14. Physically, what stands out?
15. Emotionally, what stands out?
16. Do you wish I was cooler?
17. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
18. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
19. Am I lovable?
20. How long have you known me?
21. Describe me in one word.
22. What was your first impression?
23. Do you still think that way about me now?
24. What do you think my weakness is?
25. Do you think I'll get married?
26. What makes me happy?
27. What makes me sad?
28. What reminds you of me?
29. If you could give me anything what would it be?
30. How well do you know me?
31. When's the last time you saw me?
32. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
33. Do you think I could kill someone?
34. Do you think I WOULD kill someone?
35. Are you going to put this on your deviant journal and see what I say about you?

"What If.."
36. :I died:
37. I kissed you:
38. I lived next door to you:
39. You found out I was married:
40. I was hospitalized:
41. I refused to leave my home:

"Would You.."
42. Help me hide a body:
43. Keep a secret if I told you one:
44. Hold my hand:
45. Take a bullet for me:
46. Try to solve my problems:
47. Love me:
48. Date me:

"Have You Ever.."
49. Lied for me:
50. Wanted to kiss me:
51. Wanted to kill me:
52. Broke my heart:
53. Betrayed me:
54. Kept something important from me:</sub>

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28064989/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/28064989/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 11:35:11 PDT

So I'm not sure if I announced that I started a new band?

Well, I did, we don't have a name or MySpace Music page yet, but we will get that as soon as possible and post the links!

We're trying to do something blending heavy, hardcore elements with lighter pop rock.

So yus!

As for my acoustic solo project, Romantic Broadcast [link] that's going rather well, I have around five songs, but have only recorded two and a half, lol, and a tonnn of covers of some of my favorite songs. I just recently uploaded covers of "Remembering Sunday" by All Time Low and "If It Means A Lot To You" by A Day To Remember!

Also check out my YouTube channel [link] I post video covers and random shit haha.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27962611/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27962611/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 15:22:49 PDT
Well, good news, art is on the way!

Here's some updates on drawings I owe.

That's right, I HAVEN'T forgotten

Art!

1. Hades, for
PROGRESS: Inked, partially colored

2. Sci-Fi piece for
PROGRESS: Inked

3. Santiago and myself being all gangster for
PROGRESS: Sketched

4. Portrait for
PROGRESS: Sketched, partially shaded

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27509034/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27509034/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 17:56:54 PDT
Well, as soon as I install my scanner/printer/fax/copier software D:

Much love to all <3

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27459939/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/27459939/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 00:33:30 PDT
Okay so. Let's fill you all in on what I've been up to.

Well before I say anything else, to certain people, who may or may not be on dA, I'm not naming names, this journal applies to everyone, not just fellow deviants (especially since I know of like, seven people who are not dA members that check my page to see what I've been up to), and you know who you are, don't even dare say I didn't care about my mothers death. I am still greiving, and if it seems like I don't care because i'm "typing LOL and using smileys and saying dude and dawg and hell yeah my nukka" well hey, there really is no reason why I should show my sorrow in my typing personality. What do you want from me? For me to wrote depressive WMO journals about it and be a monotone asshole in every reply? I think not. It's almost as if you want me to brag about like it was some trivial issue like, OHAI GUISE LOOK AT MEH IM SO EMO I HAF REAL PROBLEMZ GIF ME ATTENSHUN. So for some closure on this topic, is it a serious issue for me? YES. Are you going to get to actually see me in a negative emotional state? NO. I don't share my pain anymore. This is just how I get by and function. GET OVER IT. kthanx.

So! To everyone else who is so cool and awesome, all the rest of you, hi! how are things? So I've been rather busy. In a nutshell, my grades in school have improved dramatically, unfortunatley I've been caught up with schoolwork, but it really does pay off. I plan to move to Los Angeles in a year if possible to get edumacated at the Musicians Institute. After a much needed talk with my dad on certain topics, I've finally been given the liberty I need, and have promtly started a band, which is going rather well, and have spent more time working on my music. I got a car and have been working on that former piece of crap for a few weeks now, it's actually turning out very decent, all it needs is a good wash and paintjob to look rather splendid! Also I've been doing done traveling. And most importantly, I've found new friends. I really couldn't be happier, they're just do different from what I used to have. I also found a certain friend that I am very content with (you know who you are lol) :] All in all, my life seems to finally be moving in the right direction after so much turmoil and shit. Sure I still have a LOT of things working against me, but there's also so many doors that have opened that I think with enough effort and determination, I'll be able to pull through and finally live my life rather than just sit around, waiting for things to get better. I feel I have matured much more (but I still have my crazy side ;D) and just so many little details in my life that for the better. So yeah, keepin the dream alive, nukkas : P

Now, ART.

Oh boy. Well, I just haven't had the time, kiddies, sorry. Besides, my computer fried recently and it's currently under repair. I do have some drawings, but I won't be able to upload untill that beeotch gets fixed. So yup yup, hang in there if you're one of the anxious jordan art types... |D

ALSO MY XBOX RED-RINGED :'[

And I have a new phone! If you previously had my number, I have a new number. Ask for it if ya want it, cause I don't have yours lol :c

Okay, that's all! It's 12:31 AM.
Sweet dreams deviantTARTlets! <3

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26824667/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26824667/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 20:00:12 PDT
I confess, I scare myself.

And you're my fault through the howling wind.

On my knees I cry.

Listen to me.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26725066/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26725066/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 00:12:23 PDT that part totally didn't matter, huh.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26716496/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26716496/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 18:51:09 PDT
Lots of guitar playing.

Some essays n stuff due soon.

Absolutely NO drawing ;_______;

Well, except for one drawing I'm about to finish up for
PROGRESS: Complete, very minor detail coloring remaining.

SO.


I'm taking requests.

A total of five, at the moment so I don't have like a bajillion things to do.

First five to ask get a free drawing of whatever they wantttt


DRAWINGS: [UPDATED]

1. Hades, for
PROGRESS: Sketched

2. Sci-Fi piece for
PROGRESS: Sketched, half inked

3. Santiago and myself being all gangster for
PROGRESS: Queued


_{Btw, I will not be uploading completed drawings until all of them are done D:}

Also...

ASK FOR DRAWINGS, FRIENDS! lawlz, they're free! No drawing in return necessary

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26701785/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26701785/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 21:09:51 PDT
Tonight, you are everything to me no more as I wake from this perfect dream.

I'll escape from Eden's walls.

Can I not stay and live this lie?

Go away and I'll think only of myself.

And to think that you would not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties...

This is the end.

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight, help me get over you. One last false apology, help me get over you.

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions.
Would this be the same? Broken pieces will not mend to save our past now, go away.

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight, help me get over you. One last false apology, help me get over you.

Now we must let go; urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears. I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again.

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight, help me get over you. One last false apology, help me get over you.

In my mind blood drips from your eyes.

A beautiful last goodbye.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26349387/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26349387/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 00:13:49 PDT Where evenings are calm, but I'm restless
And my breath has become as thin as the wind.

Not even the mighty sky could fill the space you left behind
Not even when it rains.
No, nothing takes your place
Your emptiness too great to fill.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils by the sea,
Without me.

Today in a breeze I sensed your perfume
But you were nowhere near.
And in reverie,
I felt you holding me.
And even in my dreams I shake from the fear
That you've been swept away.
By the rhythm of the waves I whisper in your ears.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils by the sea,
Without me.

I would give away
My sweetest memories,
If I could just be with you again.
Be with you again.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils growing by the sea,
Without me.

Last night I dreamt you were with me,
Finally I could breathe.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26347752/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/26347752/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 22:03:44 PDT
]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25664354/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25664354/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 01:47:11 PDT
1:45 am

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25662073/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25662073/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 22:22:13 PDT 1)Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-

2)******Would You******
Hug me?-
Miss me if i was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if i cried?-
Be a good friend?-

3)******If You Could...******
Give me a new name it would be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do u like about me?-
What do u hate about me?-
What is my best quality?-

1. Who are you?-
2. Do you have a crush on me?-
3. Are we good friends?-
4. Do we know each other in real life?-
5. Am I hot?-
6. Is my avatar hot?(oO)-
7. Will you put this in your journal so I can answer these questions about you!?-

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25656839/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25656839/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 17:17:23 PDT How old are you?
18

Are you afriad of anything?
Deep water/deep sea. That's it. I can see very well in the darkkk

What are you nerdy for?
halo. computers. music. starwars

Do you own money?
NONE KJABSKSLGFKSGVF+

Ever been outside the States?
FUSHOW!!!!! mexicoooooooo

Anything weird you can do?
lick my elbow, bend my thumbs and fingers back at 90 degree angles

Anything weird ever happens to you under stress?
nahhh

Anything weird about you?
I have a veryyyy large... bed.

Ever been arrested?
nope!!!

If you have why?
haventttt

Ever been robbed?
hmm i dont think so?? i got my pencils stolen in elementary -___-

What are you wearing right now?
shirt, shorts, glasses

Do you own a skateboard?
two broken oness

If so details?
a shirrt walmart board i dont care about, and an Element section with speed demons bearings/wheels, grind king trucks!!!!

What about bikes?
got one, its some mountain bike robb gave to me :3

What are you eating right now?
nothingggg, but about to have dinner

What's your fashion taste like?
well its pretty much scene/hardcore, with a dash of prep ;]

Do you own any cool sunglasses?
HELL YEAH i got some sick ass aviators

Hows your sex life?
Frankly, none of your business lol

Color eyes?
Dark brown

Hows your summer so far?
gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Can you play baseball?
eh so so

How fast can you throw the ball?
haven't played in ages

Ever kissed anyone?
ayupp

Past few Months?
hmmm. nope!!!

kissing is reserved for verrrrrryyyy special girls. and there are none i can kiss atm or latleyyyy

Last thing you bought this week?
No, but wants THE ART OF HALO 3

Fav drink?
LOL SANTI FUCK YEAH Jarritos! SABOR TAMARINDO!!!!!

and mountain dewwwww

Do you drink beer?
hell no

Do you smoke?
hell noooo

Ever done drugs?
fuck no

Dumbest thing you've done today?
woke up

Facial hair?
i shave all the time, but if i dont, i get a moustahce and crazy beard lololol its not all super coarse though

What do you smell like?
not good, i need to shower

Tag your friends.
TODOS

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25647140/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25647140/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 09:15:21 PDT Close the door and take the stairs.
Up or down? Ups and downs.
Don't pretend you've never been there.
You kiss me like an overdramatic actress who's starving for work,
with one last shot to make it happen.
You've won the role, you've played your part, you've been cordially invited.
But I'm not impressed, and I'm definitely not excited.
'Cause the film runs a shallow budget, and the writer's subject script isn't any deeper.
So dive right in...

Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
I'm not like them. I won't buy in.
Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
Don't quit 'til 47.
Then we'll turn it up and we'll play a little faster.


Take back everything you ever said.
You never meant a word of it. You never did.
Take back everything you said.
You never meant a word of it. You never did.

She said 'Alright, Alright, slow down!"
Oh no, oh no, we won't.
'Cause I regret every thing that I said
To ever make her feel like she was something special,
Or that she ever really mattered.
Or did she ever really matter?

Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
I'm not like them. I won't buy in.
Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
just don't count on this summer.
Don't quit 'til 47.
Then we'll turn it up and we'll play a little faster.


I'm not saying that I'm not breaking some hearts tonight, girl.
Oh...
Alright, alright, slow down...

Hollywood hills and suburban thrills,
hey you, who are you kidding?
I'm not like them. I won't buy in.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25579766/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25579766/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 02:30:17 PDT the Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how
the clouds above opened up and let it out

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean
making islands where no island should go

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before

I need you so much closer

so come on

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25513951/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25513951/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 10:01:51 PDT and

Do you like to Draw?
This is a survey on a website called deviantART. Ask yourself that again lol.

Whats your name?
Batman

What's your ethnic background?
Spanish/Mexican

How old are you?
18

How tall are you?
5'8 1/2

How much do you weigh?
164

What class of person are you at school?
Not popular. Cause everyone else is Mexican, and I don't quite fit in with them. Not that I want to ;] I chill with the scene kiddies and white kids

What grade are you in?
Finished Senior year! Whoo!

Do you drive?
aye aye captain

What kind of car do you drive?
on occasion 2000 Chevy Astro, and on occasion 2008 Toyota Corolla S

Are you Slim,Hevy or Fit?
Slim-fit-ish. getting to fit ;D

Do you have s Sixpack?
mhmm!

Are you single?
Single, but not looking |D

Are you Bi or Striaght?
Straighttttttt!

Whats His or Her name?
eh? Who's?

How do you do your Hair?
just leave it alone I guess for now haha

Any peircings?
nah but I want snakebitessssss

Whats your skin tone?
tan?

Have you ever fought?
yup

Ever win a fight?
yupp

Ever lose a fight?
yuppp, I'm honest

Who would you like to have on your side during a fight?
Santi, Donovan, Robb.

Fucking kick so much ass all four of us ahaha

Ever been bullied?
1st grade - 6th grade

What state do you live in?
Arifuckingzona

Oh really what city?
Phoenix!!! Throw up the 602!!

Ever do any sports?
Skateboarding.

Do you have a Job?
yus yus

Braces?
nopeeee

Hobbies?
take a guess lol

Who was the last person you hung out with?
mmmmmm. can't remember.

Ever been to a party?
I don't like parties much

Do you own a Pool?
Nopee!!! (btw santi your answer to this was hilarious xD)

Are you Nice or Mean?
pretty nice. I can be mean if agrivatted enough, but it takes /so much/ to get me angry.

Ever got attacked?
yup!!! Been jumped, and one time ambushed by squirrels

What happened?
SQUIRRELS

Are you a Perv?
Yup yup, being a guy makes me a perv by default lawllll.

Are you easy to get along with?
yup yup! :]

Worst thing to ever happen?
I've no need to re-discuss that.

What do you consider yourself?
Just a kid getting by, riding the current on the wings of his dreams.

Tag Three Friends.
Anyone, everyone, and anyone else.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25476250/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25476250/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 14:37:55 PDT
Like almost every year.

Not cause the city sucks, just, yeah lol.

ANYWAY the real point of this journal is to let pple know I finally actually fully finished a song.

Hear it here: [link]

If you like what you hear, add, and more stuff will be on the way :]

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25391075/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25391075/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 09:50:32 PDT
<sub>Dear Freshmen [Class of 2013],

Congrats. . . . now you're the lowest of the low. Here are just a few helpful words of advice:

- You are not cool.

-When you pass by upperclassmen in the hallway do not try to give them your "I'm so cool" dirty looks, because you will look like an immature little middle schooler and you WILL get jumped right here right there.

- Everyone does hate you.

- You are annoying.

- Sex doesn't make you cool and it won't make the upper-class boys think any higher of you. So don't go around bragging about it. No one cares and you look like an easy freshman whore. Just leave all the slutty things you did in 8th grade in middle school.

- Don't brag about the number of seniors you know. The more you brag, the more we can tell you're a freshman.

- You are a F- R- E- S- H- M- A- N.... not a "freshie" - Shut up, you sound like a queer.

- Don't walk around telling upperclassmen that you're not a stupid freshman. We don't care, we're still calling you one.

- Respect your teachers and your peers. Getting written up everyday and purposely failing really doesn't look cool, we may laugh but it is at you for your ignorance. If your going to waste time and school board money on messing around just drop out, you're a lost cause and you're really not that cool. People talk down about you behind your back.

- Don't think you're smart because you filled up water bottles with vodka or coke bottles with Bacardi and snuck it onto your 8th grade field trip. We've all done it so don't be proud.

- Don't post things like "FINALLY A FRESHIE!! LOLZZZ" on myspace. If anything, you suck big time and it'll just make you hated even more. Not to mention that it's pretty gay.

- DO NOT think that the upper-class girls are your best friends, they will just laugh at you.

- Do not wear ripped jeans and an Abercrombie shirt because you want to make "a variety of friends".

- If you are going to try and rebel, it most likely won't work.

- Don't think that you have privacy now. Once you're here, your business is everyone's business.

- Don't tell everyone you love your boyfriend after 2 days of being together, you're an idiot.

- Don't try to sit at upperclassmen lunch tables. You will be picked up and thrown onto the floor.

- Don't tell your friends that you're busy after school and tell them you have to go meet your friends in the jr./sr. parking lot, we all know your older brother/ sister is just taking you home.

- You'll never be as hot as the '10, '11, '12 girls. So don't try.

- To all freshman guys, you can't get with the class of '10, '11, & '12 girls.

- Don't try to say you're older than you really are. The way you walk, dress, & talk just has freshman written all over you.

- Your name is "The class of 13." HAHA. 'nuff said.

- Don' t try to pull that "Well you were freshmen once..." STOP! We know that we were freshmen, but we aren't anymore so shut up.

- The day you mess with our boyfriend /girlfriend is the day you will never enjoy high school again.

- Don't be a slut.

- DO NOT crowd our halls like cattle, because the upperclassmen can & most likely will push you out of the way. You WILL get hurt.

- To all the freshman guys, we know your balls haven't dropped yet. That's why you still sound like Mickey Mouse. Don't go around bragging about how big you are. We all know you're lying.

Welcome to hell

Believe me---You CAN'T win. Have fun being a freshman... For a fun-filled year with NO life and NO opinion what so ever!

Sincerely,
Graduated Seniors '09
SENIORS of 2010!
Juniors '11
Sophomores '12

- If you're an upperclassman or sophomore, repost this.</sub>

First and foremost, I have/had some really cool freshman friends.

I am 18 years old.

I don't understand this whole high school caste system bullshit. Yeah, there's gonna be some little kids out there who are a little odd as far as egos go, but it shouldn't be generalized. Honestly, I could give a fuck less if someone's a freshman, or if someone's a veteran senior who has had like sixteen girlfriends or boyfriends, no one really gives a shit anyway.

You don't get bragging rights if you're older, it really doesn't mean shit.

Of course, what bothers me the most is the caste system.

Seriously. Humans have enough problems getting along with each other because of gender, race, color, religion, nationality... Why add to the list? Everyone's in high school for the same reason. Get school... ]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25390766/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25390766/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 09:35:43 PDT LOL no...

What will your weekend be like?
ehh OH THATS RIGHT, THIS WEEKEND.. oh shit.. gay...

Would you rent a midget if it was possible?
Fuck yeah! carry them in one of those baby backpack things lulz

The way to win your heart?
I don't really know anymore. Just be yourself I guess.

Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?
Here's hoping.

Are you a social or antisocial person?
occasionally antisocial

You're walking down a street & you see someone drowning what do you do?
Point and laugh. You've gotta have something wrong with you to think you're drowning on pavement...

Have the cops ever come to your house?
Hmm nope

Do you always wear your seat belt?
usually

Know more than one person with a mental disability?
used to

Where is your bestfriend?
Hmm next door

Do you like anyone now?
mmm

What did you have for breakfast?
luckeh charmz

Did you have a nap today?
Nope

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
skinny jeans

Is there that one person who can always make you smile?
yus

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
Nah, if they /try/ I just fucking laugh. pathetic.

Whose birthday is coming up?
uhhh mine i guess lol

Has any body ever given you butterflies?
yes

When was the last time you smiled?
yesterday?

Would you choose to be the most attractive, the smartest, or most athletic?
a bit of all of them, but more intelligent. Too many stupid people out there. There's even smart stupid people |D

When is your birthday?
November 18

Do you know what you want to do with your life?
Yup yup

What are you listening to right now?
uhh nothing atm. Gonna start up iTunes now :]

Do you put ice in your drinks?
yes i do

Are you on youtube?
yup!

Who was the last person to see your undies?
LOL

Are you a loud person?
mm sometimes

When will your next kiss be?
probably a long aways from now

You had sex last night didn't you?
Oh yeah, totally, every night, since I'm totally a fucking whore, right?
/sarcasm

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
hope not

Has anyone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
nopeeee

Do you enjoy staying at home or hanging out with friends more?
both, depends on the mood

Do you like to hold or be held?
hold usually, but being held wouldn't be too bad either

Anyone you're giving up on?
I've given up on the entire human race.

What was the last reason that you cried?
A ton of reasons

Who last yelled at you?
uhhhmm. Dad i think

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Oh yes.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
hmmm playing xbox and having a conversation about fake people

Do you drink bottled water?
yes

Are you hot or cold right now?
about normal? neither

What were you doing at 10am?
its not ten yet

Your view on weed?
fuck that shitttttt

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
I can last forever. It's everyone else who cant.

When was the last time you feared for your life?
I don't fear for my life.

Does your ex boyfriend/girlfriend still have the same haircut as when you were going out?
Hmmmm. Idk I havn't seen her in forever lol

Do you currently like anybody?
.

What is your best summer memory of 2007?
oh wow. I can't remember. All I remember was that year was the second worst of my life. 2009 is first.

Are your grades as good as they should be?
nopeee. If I did everything right at school Id have all AP classes.

If you could change one thing about your looks, what would it be?
hmmm. I'm fine with how I look actually, I'd say more muscular, but I'm already accomplishing that on my own, so probably I wish I was a little bit taller...

_{...Wish I was a baller
I wish I had a girl who looked good
I would call her
I wish I had a rabbit in a hat with a bat
an a 64 Impalaaaaaaaaaaaaa}

Would you date someone taller?
lol that would be so weird, they would have to be like, life changing amazing for that haha

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25371362/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25371362/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 11:04:43 PDT What's passed these hands?
All these drinks and one night stands
So I tremble when I think of what she'd do
She'd say something like:
"You're no good,
You're like the junkies in this neighborhood."
We all need a fix, I guess I need one too
But I'm trying madly to calm these nerves
With something new...

I got this heavy debt, I've got nothing left
But this daunting weight slung round my neck
You got that callous mouth, all your endless doubts
We spent these fifteen weeks, trying to work it out
Do think we're getting to something new?

Oh God, not another fight
I'm always trying to get the details right
I remember when you told me you felt saved
When you promised you'd lay flowers on my grave
Just like they used to do
Is it something new?

And now here I stand
With these blood soaked hands
On this sleepless night, that never ends
And these songs I sing
With these hopes that I cling to
Desperately wondering
Are we finally getting to something new?

Is it something new?

Are we finally to something new?

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25371237/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25371237/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 10:57:47 PDT You kissed someone on the weekend, didn't you?
Nope

Did anyone yell at you out of a window today?
Yupp

Did you have a good day today?
Ehh its morning, nothings really happened. Breakfast tiem wif poptarts

What woke you up today?
my dad

One thing you're looking forward to?
Getting the fuck away from here and starting a new life

Do you laugh a lot?
Not anymore

Are you in a good mood right now?
ehh im okay hahaa

Have you ever kissed someone with a lip ring?
mhmm

Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
yus

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I was awake lol

Did you take a nap today?
nopeee

Do you think you would be able to handle being in the military?
absolutely

What kind of cell phone do you have?
Samsung Juke. and a shitty moto razr when the samsung's charger goes missing lol

Do you like more than one person?
nope nope

Who are you closest to in your family?
My mother.

Do you try hard in school?
not hard enough

Do you look more like your mom or dad?
im not sure actually. I think dad

Whats the name of the last person who sent you a text message?
moriah. told her she lost the gamee!

Are you wearing socks?
nope!!

Is there some thing/one you should be doing right now?
what is the "someone" supposed to mean?? o.- weirdooo

Who was the first person you talked to today?
dad

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 24 hours?
nope

Do you think a lot before you fall asleep?
too much

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yeshhh

Do you open up to people easily?
nopeeeee

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
prolly not. most likely xbl though

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
Nopeee!

Boy or girl you last text?
girl

Is this the best year of your life?
This is the absolute worst, my friend.

Would you like things to go back to normal with a certain someone?
Hmm. Yes and no. What we had has been ruined, unfortunately. Or not unfortunatley. I don't know. I try not to think about it anymore.

Do you have a best friend?
Yes!! Robb!

Is there one person you wish you would have never met?
oh gosh. Actually... Nope. I'm glad I've met everyone.

Do you like cuddling?
love it <3

When's the next time you'll see your closest friend?
damnnn. idkk.

Did you go to sleep happy last night?
not at all -____-

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
yes!

Throughout life, how many people have let you down?
Sigh. Too many. Too many..

Has anyone called you babe or baby?
yes yes

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
uhmm i dont know, i was asleep i cant count while asleep but i had the craziest dream ever

Do you miss the way things used to be?
I miss my mother. And how she'd yell at me to get out of bed so I'm not late for school. And how she would talk to our parakeets and they would get all excited and chirp and jump around. And how despite our imperfect family, she was so happy.

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a T?
T... hmmm.. nope!

Were you happy when you woke up?
didnt you already ask that..?

Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
I hope so. I think so.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Depends on who it is

Think back eight months ago, were you single?
eight.. uhmm. technically? Idfk. Yes I guess I was hahaha.

Have you heard a song today that reminds you of some-one?
yes

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
straighttttttt


What were you doing at 8 this morning?
sleep!

How long did you stay up last night?
till like one or two i think

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
not sure

How much cash do you have on you right now?
0

Where do you want to live when you're older?
california

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
yeah omg lol

When you see a foggy window do you feel the need to draw or write on it?
YES

Do you like Red Bull or Monster better?
theyre both good. both different yummy flavors. Except monster has a weird aftertaste

Are your toe nails painted pink?
they're not painted at all lol

Do you ever apologize first?
yup yup. most of the time anyway

W... ]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25255844/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25255844/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:05:07 PDT [link]

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25147814/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25147814/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:03:29 PDT A simple hello ending with goodbye.
Then you say hello now.
I am melting, and now my goodbye becomes a goodnight.

I don`t mind if you don`t mind,
Say you do not mind if this call goes on all night.
'cause I have more to say
My afternoon was okay,
My evening was fine.
But this night...
I want it to be the best night of our lives.

Sweet darl'n,
This is my confession to the crimes of wanting you badly.
And darling if you`re wondering,
Here`s your answer:

Yes, I like you.

I don`t love you.

I can`t love you...

But these calls are getting longer,
And these nights go on forever.
I do believe I`m getting better,
Knowing you, hopefully all of you.

Sitting watching movies;
We both know I do not watch a bit of it,
'cause I am much to busy
Leaning my head close enough to hold it.

Sweet darl'n,
This is my confession to the crimes of wanting you badly.
And darling if you`re wondering,
Here`s your answer:

Yes, I like you.

I don`t love you.

I can`t love you...

But I cannot stop thinking about you,
I cannot stop wondering if you`re constantly thinking about me.
Don`t close your eyes, dear, I`m still staring.
I won't lie, dear, I'm still breathing.
Even though your beauty has been taking.

Sweet darl'n,
This is my confession to the crimes of wanting you badly.
And darling if you`re wondering,
Here`s your answer:

Yes, I like you.

I can`t love you.

I can`t love you.



_{...Or at least I do not think I do, yet.}

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25129187/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25129187/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 16:52:15 PDT Those lips fit best against mine
That smile's tempting
And now I know it's all depending on what I say
To you, and what I do
I could be a nice guy and ask, "why not waste away with me?"
Cause I'm the one that wants to be alone

I'm cuddling back to my bed
With so much left unsaid
And I can't let go

Come now, you're better off letting it all fall out
You stutter up and can't even breathe
And when you're red hot, and red in the face
Hands shake, and you both go weak at the knees
When she's up and down playing the catch you game
You run away, ready to scream
"I don't know what to do
I'm broken in two and I just want to be with you"

Lay down, and close your eyes
Those hips fit best against mine
That dress is tempting
But I don't know if you're pretending you want to
stay with me, I guess we'll see
I could buy you pearls and half the world
I'd give you everything
Cause I'm the one that wants to be alone

I'm fumbling back to my feet
It's been a long two weeks
And I can't let go

Come now, you're better off letting it all fall out
You stutter up and can't even breathe
And when you're red hot, and red in the face
Hands shake, and you both go weak at the knees
When she's up and down playing the catch you game
You run away, ready to scream
"I don't know what to do
I'm broken in two and I just want to be with you"

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25069423/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25069423/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 12:43:58 PDT Just me and you, with the world in our hands.

So say what you want, I'm really not who you think I am,
I'll keep the ones that make me sane,
So stop telling me I'm not who you thought I would be.

And I'm so much better now that I'm far from you,
This passion drowns our need for love.

Don't you ask me again the questions, just come on and follow me,
Through the wires and ocean bottoms, through the skies and empty rooms,
Through the pit of my stomach, coming up through my throat,
Regret and failure, the need to keep you coming back for more.

And I'm so much better now that I'm far from you,
This passion drowns our need for love,
And we can't stop, even if we wanted to,
This passion drowns our need for love.

And this is all still so new to me, our eyes have lost their colour,
And now I'm trying, I'm trying to keep my balance,
But there is nothing, there's nothing to keep me steady,
And I'll hold myself up.

And I'm so much better now that I'm far from you,
This passion drowns our need for love,
And we can't stop, even if we wanted to,
This passion drowns our need for love.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25031890/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25031890/ Sat, 30 May 2009 11:24:45 PDT
SO last night I was in a pretty emotional state and decided to take an in-depth analysis of the lyrics and conceptual story in Silverstein's new album, A Shipwreck in the Sand.

And I must say, wow. There is tons of detail, so much that can be taken out of this if you look very closely. I scribbled important details and such on a few sheets of paper and realized the epic scale of the story, and so I've decided I'll be writing out the story in a normal format. The story will be structured as follows, also here are links to the finished chapters:


Part One: It Burns Within Us All

Chapter 1: A Great Fire [link]
Chapter 2: Vices [being written]
Chapter 3: Broken Stars


Part Two: Liars, Cheaters and Thieves

Chapter 4: American Dream
Chapter 5: Their Lips Sink Ships
Chapter 6: I Knew I Couldn't Trust You
Chapter 7: Born Dead


Part Three: Fight Fire With Fire

Chapter 8: A Shipwreck in the Sand
Chapter 9: I Am the Arsonist
Chapter 10: You're all I have


Part Four: Death and Taxes

Chapter 11: We Are Not The World
Chapter 12: A Hero Loses Every Day
Chapter 13: The Tide Raises Every Ship
Chapter 14: The End


This is the story of A Shipwreck in the Sand.


Chapter two coming soon!

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25019627/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/25019627/ Fri, 29 May 2009 17:35:55 PDT
I have no life. Thank you!

Anyway this is an update. Besides the whole scene girls thing, I'm starting to draw again. Lotsa stuff, as you can see by my last two deviations.

Also my acoustic stuff is taking off rather well, slowly, but good.

My friend Zach's been showing my demo to friends and pple actually like it, which is awesome. Yeah. I'm debating whether I should keep "Romantic Broadcast" as my alias thing, or if I should come up with something more creative. I might.

Also, primarily, expect new drawings and shitt.

A lot of new shit.

A lot.

Also, go listen to The Airborne Toxic Event. They kick so much ass.

Anna Bulbrook <3 haha

Peace

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24998016/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24998016/ Thu, 28 May 2009 13:43:10 PDT A terminator apocalyptic ice slurpee thing :3

lol and to find my goddamn capo -____-

I can't play "Sometime Around Midnight" without it :/

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24972949/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24972949/ Wed, 27 May 2009 03:35:46 PDT
So, I have good news.

I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico.

Also I have a new scene girl drawing in the works. And depending on how that goes and how much people like it, I'll probably keep em coming for you!

Yup, merry Christmas! Lol :]

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24883644/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24883644/ Fri, 22 May 2009 00:45:52 PDT
As I stand, under the bar lights. And the band plays some song about forgetting yourself for a while. And the piano’s this melancholy soundtrack to her smile. And that white dress she’s wearing... I haven’t seen her for a while.

But I know that she’s watching. She’s laughing, she’s turning. She’s holding her tonic like a cross. The room’s suddenly spinning. She walks up and asks how I am. So I can smell her perfume. I can see her lying naked in my arms.

And so there’s a change in my emotions. And all these memories come rushing like feral waves to my mind: Of the curl of our bodies, like two perfect circles entwined. And I feel hopeless and homeless and lost in the haze of the wine.

Then she leaves, with someone I don’t know. But she makes sure I see her. She looks right at me and bolts. As she walks out the door, my blood boiling, my stomach in ropes. Oh and when my friends say, “What is it? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

Then I walk under the streetlights. And I'm too drunk to notice that everyone is staring at me. I just don’t care what I look like, the world is falling around me.

I just have to see her.

I just have to see her.

I just have to see her.


I know that she’ll break me in two.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24743107/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24743107/ Wed, 13 May 2009 18:23:13 PDT
<sub>So I'm just the medicine
You take when you're sick
You got well and that's it
I'm put back in the shelf in your mirror

And it isn't exceptional
The course of our fate
Cause people love and they hate
And I guess it's just our turn I hate

Yeah, you were just some song I wrote
A poem on a page
A sculpture I made out of clay
Desire was the flame

But now you're more of a basketball
Boys just pass you around
They bounce you hard on the ground and dribble
Then they all get high fives

And well you think I'm an asshole now
Well, you're probably right
But at least I'm not blind
To the facts I've been wishing were lies

But still I hope you get everything
That you care to posses
And unbelievable sex with him
Or any one of my friends

But just don't ask about my appetite
I didn't lose it tonight
No, it's been gone half my life
It's just act

I've been eating for you</sub>



Updates
Hey guys.

I know I've been away for some time now, but I've just been overwhelmed with a shit ton of stuff that I havnt had much time to do anything Internet-related besides Twitter (through my iTouch). So yeah what's up kids? How's life? Mines been rather crappy, and I feel no need to reetirate why, so let's just leave it at that. Well what should I start with...

First, art, deviantART, and such.
Well, not much going on in that sector, an occasional random sketch of a new character for the book I'm writing comes up but that's about it. I want to get back into drawing so bad, but it seems I've just lost my passion for it. Like, I can do it, but it's not the same as it used to be. Just. Idk. I'll still be uploading the random drawings here and there but that's about it untill further notice.

Music, lyrics, etc.
Shit dude. I'm on a roll, I actually finished a song, starting a new band with my buddy Zach and on the member hunt again, although this time I'm sticking to songwriting and vocals, I'm gonna be lead, I'll probably develop riffs and shit on guitar since I'm fairly well at it, but yeah, excited for that. And the song demo I recorded, I might be posting that on here sometime, we'll see.

Life?
Well I'm leaning a lot towards the whole scene kid thing. I mean inpretty much would be a scene kid right now if it weren't for the restrictions my parents had on me, but that's died down so, expect me looking rather different in the coming months.

Eh that's about all I can think of for now, so peace kiddies.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24175704/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24175704/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 02:41:26 PDT
My mother's cancer turned out to be terminal, and has about a month left. I've cried plenty so far, as I just learned this after an incident that required hospital care for my mom. So yeah, I feel like shit, but it hasnt actually happened yet, so here's hoping I can pull through the coming days.

Thats about it.

CHerish your loved ones, people. YOu never know when they could suddenly be pulled away from you. Do everything you can for them, be the best you can be for them...




...Learn from my mistake.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24175666/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/24175666/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 02:35:58 PDT OFF = Turn Off
DM = Doesnt Matter



Girls Fill this Out


Wears a grill:
Dresses Gangster:
Dresses Preppy:
Dresses Skater:
Dresses Athletic:
Dresses Hick:
Has green eyes:
Has brown eyes
Has hazel eyes:
Has blue eyes:
Smokes cigarettes:
Does pills:
Plays sports:
Can skate:
Writes lyrics:
Smiles a lot:
Has Good Teeth:
Has blonde hair:
Has brown hair:
Has black hair:
Has red hair:
Has spikey hair:
Has no hair:
Has long hair:
Good dancer:
Wears jewelry:
Piercings:
Muscles:
Tattoos
Laid back:
Plays guitar:
Plays drums:
Raps:
Can draw:
Has a lip ring:
Has a tongue ring:
Nipples pierced:
Hugs you:
Hugs from behind:
Creative:
Calls you just to hear your voice:
Goes to church:
Is funny:
Can do stuff with his tongue:
Has a nice ass:
Has dimples on his face:
Has facial hair:
Dresses Gothic/Emo:
Has dreadlocks:
Is more feminine than masculine:


_______________________________________________________


Guys Fill This Out


Has a nice butt: dm

Plays musical instrument: on

Is taller than you: off

Is shorter than you: dm

Has green eyes: on

Has blue eyes: dm

Has brown eyes: dm

Has hazel eyes: dm

Has long hair: dm

Has med. hair: on

Has short hair: dm, so long as its not like a guys cut..

Drinks alcohol: off

Smokes cig's: off

Smokes weed: off

Has blonde hair: DM

Has brown hair: off

Has black hair: on

Has red hair: DM

Calls you just to say hi: on

Creative: on

Compliments you: on

Shaves her legs: on

Wears jewelry: on

Has bigger feet than you: DM

Has smaller feet than you: DM

Belly piercings: off

Doesn't party: dm

Likes to party: dm

Wants to party: dm

Laughs a lotn

Funny: on

Skinny: dm

Rides a street bike: dm

Tattoo: hmm. dm

Honest: ON

Open: ON

Shy and quiet: on(mix of both open and shy)

Licks lips: ?? wut. dm

Lightly bites: on

Talks dirty: dm

Leaves you random comments: on

Competes with you on stupid lil stuff: on



Label as: "TURN ONS/OFFS"

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23816760/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23816760/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 15:43:04 PDT Okay, hey guys.

I know I said I was going to be covering "The Alamo is no Place for Dancing" by The Scene Aesthetic, but guess whatttt.

Turns out I ended up covering "A Lack of Color" by Death Cab for Cutie :]


It sucks though, I probably took no more than 30 minutes on it, which is relatively fast for multiple track/layer work. So yeahhh. And I'm a little sick, so my voice is icky.

Check it out, it's posted on my music MySpace [link]

Enjoyyy. I hope. Hahaha.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23686645/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23686645/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 00:12:25 PDT
So yeah. That cover I mentioned earlier might take a while to get done, I've been waiting for a good chance to start working on it, since there's usually many things in my house that make excessive noise.

Also, I went out today, got a burger at in-n-out, chilled at Desert Ridge and Target. It was kinda releaving, actually, it seems I was able to keep thoughts I've been having out and at least get away from crap at home. I had a huge argument with my sister and mother about god in the morning, and let's just say that wasn't pretty.

Anyway then I went to work, came home, then went out. And oh that reminds me, I was with my buddy Robb too, btw, so yeah, at innout, there was this cute girl staring at me n such, you know how it goes, and yeah I'm going to be completly honest, I paid no attention to her whatsoever. I probably wouldn't have noticed either if Robb hadn't pointed it out. But my point is, it was weird. I suppose it's cause my heart is somewhere else, even though it's not wanted. There was a lot of cute girls at Desert Ridge that were checking us out n stuff too, and probably couldve gotten a few numbers if we had tried, but again, I have a stubborn heart, so I mentioned the idea as a joke.

Speaking of girls, also at the in-n-out, I became concerned moreso with the younger kids of the current generation. This one girl, probably no older than 13 or 14, wearing a skanky ass looking spaghetti strap and some like, idfk boyshorts or something, and all walking by Robb and I doing some attempted "hey I'm sexy, look at me" walk, and yeah, it was intentional, we could tell because we saw her walking in with a normal stance. Anyway it got me thinking. What the hell is wrong with these girls? Seriously, people wonder why girls are getting raped and shit, and there's some crazy people out there doing the raping, shit no wonder it's happening as much as it does with these girls dressing and acting like that. They might as well bend over and hold a sign saying they want it, shit.

After that we were going to go see a movie at AMC, but we didn't have enough money left, since that theater is so ducking expensive, so we went to Hot Topic where I got a pretty sweet shirt. But the thing is, we were stuck there untill my sister came to pick us up, so we wandered around for awhile until we were like, fuck it let's go to dave and busters to play some fuckin arcade games, but guess what? They didn't let us in because they didn't beleive we were 18, and we ARE 18. What the fuckk? It's a ducking restaurant anyways, what's the deal? Worried kids are gonna get drunk n shit at the bar? Then card their asses there at the bar, not at the entrance.

And that reminds me of when I went to see Watchmen, also with Robb. I live maybe two streets away from a Harkins theater, the neighborhood starts like right at the end of the rear parking lot, plus the movie was about to start at six, we had like maybe ten minutes to get there, so we ran, we get to the movies, all out of breath, and I ask for my damn ticket and they don't believe I was 18. motherfucker, I don't even have a fuckin ID, but shit, they were gonna let Robb in, and they didn't even ask to see his, so guess what? I ran my ass back to my house to get my birth certificate, ran back to the theater, and yeah. All that shit to see a 3 hour movie full of waggling blue penis and rediculous superhero sex scenes... Really, Watchmen wasn't that great. Rorschach is the only good thing about it, he was badass. But back to my original point, it's pretty chickenfucking stupid that kids wait their whole childhood like, damn I can't wait to be 18 so I can do all kindsa cool stuff, then they're 18 and you pretty much can't do shit anyway. Damnnnn.

So yeah. Eventually we walk down to the Target right across the parking lot to pretty much chill at untill my sister came to pick us up. So were walking through the videogames section, and sweet baby fucking Jesus, I find an iron man action figure lying on the floor, and damn, look around, no sign of the poor kid that probaby left it there while playing the xbox and forgot it, so shit, stuffed that mofo into my hot topic bag, he's sittin on my shelf right now. Fosho. So we go to the instrument section and play some keyboard. Yeahh then eventually find ourselves wandering back into the xbox section where we decide it'd be pretty cool to steal some xbox live points.... by scratching out the code and writing it down lol, which did not work btw, as I suspected, apperantly the code is somehow activated at the register upon purchase. Hmm. So yeah, then sis pic... ]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23652454/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23652454/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 22:40:19 PDT "White Lines & Red Lights"
By Between the Trees

Late night, driving home together
And at red lights we press our lips together
And we're holding tight now
Slow it down now
Let's take our time
Let the moment last
Until it feels right
Holding back
And not getting to carried away
Let the music fade

Cause you are the brightest star
I'm in love with who you are
And you are the brightest star
I'm lost without your love

We are in each others arms
Just like a movie scene
Cause as we're leaning in
The light decides to turn green
Me and you together
This is getting better
Just butterflies won't do
I don't want just red lights
I want more of these nights
Baby I love you

Cause you are the brightest star
I'm in love with who you are
And you are the brightest star
I'm lost without your love

You and me is what matters most
It's not the intimacy that brings me
Closer to you...

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23633168/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23633168/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 19:15:00 PDT
As time passed by, there was no new land to be found. As the days grew shorter, and the nights grew longer and colder, the crew became more and more skeptical about the captain's vision. Originally passionate and committed, true and faithful, they now began to revolt.

As the mutiny started, and the captain was overthrown and chained. He asked them why they had so quickly and so drastically changed their course of action. They replied that there were no riches and no wealth to be found on this journey and that they would not die for this. The captain retorted that he promised no treasure, no riches, and questioned their motives. This union was not about love. This union was not about the cause. This union was for the wrong reasons...

...A man, a woman, and their child sleep in their home. The man awakes to the smell of smoke. He saves his family from a fire. As they struggle with the flawed insurance systems in place, and move to a hotel, everything starts to unravel. The promise of the American dream is gone. A hope for a life of luxury, money and wealth has dissolved. Adultery, addiction and enmity take its place. Passion once felt is no longer. Hatred grows. A union of trust once pledged is now questioned. This union was not about love. This union was not about the cause. This union was for the wrong reasons...

This is the story of A Shipwreck in the Sand.

Silverstein's new album.

March 31, 2009

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23629808/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23629808/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 16:14:57 PDT
I miss you fishy :[

Oh man. What the hell is going on? It seems I'm loosing everything this month, everything. And it's going to get worse, I'm sure of it, I can feel it.

I don't know how much more I'll be able to take, it's nearing too much.

I've lost pets, friends, people, I've finally realized there's no hope left for me to go to college, everything's just falling apart, not to mention our financial status, my sister and dad pretty much jobless, my grandparents in Mexico that are nearing the end of their lives, my mom with cancer...

I've said it before, and I'll say it again.

I wish all I had to worry about in life was drama.

Also, Dallas was an awesome fishy. He was the best fishy ever.

God damn.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23601987/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23601987/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 23:53:18 PDT care enough to give me shit about it?

I wish people would just at least leave me to my misery and let me rot in peace.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23571384/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23571384/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 09:20:48 PST
First our guinea pig, then a parakeet, now another.

Oh let's not forget about speedy the turtle either.

Fuck my life.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23567026/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23567026/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 00:58:12 PST
So to those that care, expect new drawings coming in soon, I've not made anything new besides one concept born of the sleep paralysys hallucination I had the other night, and the rest is unfinished stuff that I'm getting around to finishing.

Also maybe an acoustic cover on the way, I'll post a link if I decide to do it. Ah, and speaking of music (thank... whatever for music, it's keeping me sane), the "Postal Service-ish" plan is coming along very well, Line 7 is amazing.

So yeah and I'm looking for a job, will apply online to Best Buy and Radio Shack, which are thankfully hiring.

Don't know what else to say, I think that's all. So. Yeah, goodnight and stuff.

Oh and on a side note, in my previous journal I said "goodbye," this means I was planning to delete myself from the Internet (and half went through with it), but decided to keep a few things. Like dA. Damn I suck at art, but I love it.

Peace, I guess.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23304753/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23304753/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 11:22:03 PST 'Cause my love has become an affliction,
What did you expect from me? What did you expect from me?

I'm sorry but I think I failed to mention
That I lied at my very first confession
Well What did you expect from me?

'Cause this has been building since I have been breathing,
And I know how it's going to end.

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down.
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on.
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now,
But you knew all along, try to forget me and just move on.

Oh my dear what have I gone and done now?
It's curtain call, I'm about to take my last bow.
Well what did you expect from me?

Without giving away the entire ending,
I ruined the evening again.

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down.
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on.
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now,
But you knew all along, try to forget me and just move on.

I don't, have love left inside, inside.
Are you desperate for an answer?
I don't have an ounce of good left in me now,
That's why I walked out.

So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down.
And now that I'm gone, try to forget me and just move on.
So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word and you hate me for it now,
But you knew all along, try to forget me and just move on.

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain

...And do your best to forget my name.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23107093/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23107093/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 16:57:16 PST
I call it...

THE PLAY COUNT TAG!!!!!

RULES:
1. Post your top 20 played songs in your iTunes/WMP/iPod/Etc. with the number of time's it has been played.
2. Pass this on.
3. ???
4. PROFIT!

1. Pretty Rave Girl - I Am X-Ray 637 <-- From my iPod's previous owner |D
2. FerSure. - The Medic Droid 626 <-- From my iPod's previous owner |D
3. A Walk Through Hell - Say Anything 238
4. Discovering the Waterfront - Silverstein 182
5. Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too! - Say Anything 179
6. Keeping Up With The Jonses - The Medic Droid 147
7. Hate [I Really Don't Like You] - Plain White Ts 139
8. Boom Snap Clap - The Irish Front 138
9. All Nereids Beware - Chiodos 127
10. I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance 118
11. Summertime - Mae 114
12. Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Both Of Us - My Chemical Romance - 110
13. Embers And Envelopes - Mae 107
14. Worlds Apart - Silverstein 105
15. There's No Penguins In Alaska - Chiodos 102
16. Sound of the Sun - Silverstein 102
17. Higinia - Blessthefall 100
18. I will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie 98
19. My Heroine - Silverstein 97
20. Dead! - My Chemical Romance 95



Ironically enough, this isn't the stuff I usually listen to except for a few songs D:

I tag: EVERYONE

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23093401/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23093401/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 22:43:35 PST
Now here's the dare. You must put this in your journal. See what other people will ask you.


<sub>Obviously you can ask in a note, but if you got the balls or ovaries, go ahead and comment XD

That was completely unnecessary, wasn't it? |D</sub>

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23085514/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23085514/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 15:19:03 PST Cause it's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
In order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
My beautiful girl.

And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,
Knowing that I may have been the cause,
If you were to leave, fulfill someone else's dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

But you don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23037457/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23037457/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 09:37:55 PST

I figured visual and background detail is VERY important to a story, and I was pretty lacking n said detail in my previous chapters, so i'm focusing to get more of that in there.

Also idle and casual conversation is pretty tough, especially when you need filler stuff. Also working on fixing that haha.

But other than that, it's coming along very well, and I have officially appointed as my editor lol, he's a very good writer himself.

IN OTHER NEWS
My HALO WARS DEMO finished downloading last night!!!!

So it's time to see how this game is, I'm hoping for the best. I'll update this journal with a review of the demo once I play it enough, yesyes.

That's about it kiddies, and as always,

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23036845/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/23036845/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 08:47:33 PST But you're the hardest one to deal with.
Everything that you conceal
Is revealed on your canvas.

You find all of your ugly meanings
In all of the things I find beautiful.
Do you see the fall is coming?
Come, I'm falling into you.

You perceive all of these things
I'd never have known.
Love, will you turn off the lights?
We're already home.

You painted me in pastel,
Colors that don't tell of any boldness.
'Cause that's the way you'd love to see me:
So delicate, so weak, so little purpose.

But your eyes are drawn of charcoal
They're black, they're so cold, they're so imperfect.
Because they see a sleeping world,
Where waking isn't worth it.

You perceive all of these things
That I'd never have known.
Love, will you turn out the lights?
We're already home.

All of these things
That I'd never have known.
Love, will you turn off the lights?
We're already home.

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22927122/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22927122/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 16:44:17 PST


I can pleh online games again nao.

I got Halo 2 and 3, Gears 2 anddd GTA IV that I can play online.

If anyone wants to pleh drop me a message and/or friend request on live, I'm frequently online :]


Gamertag: Biased Thought

(Soon to be changed to Biased Mudkip)

]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22846234/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22846234/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 15:23:59 PST
Well, I've decided that continuing this manga will probably be very hard for me to keep up with, I know this because I haven't been able to so far D|

So now what I'm going to do is actually write it in prose form, I think if I did that I'd get a lot more across in the story than i would as a manga anyway. SO yes.

I'll still be uploading concept art for visuals, and will be uploading all of the manga pages that I did finish/almost finished right now.

So yes, sorry for any inconvenience to anyone who was interested in the manga project, I just can't commit myself to drawing so much a the moment |D

Will post link to manga pages folder here as soon as they're uploaded. [link will be hereee omg]

Please note that they will be going into scraps rather than the main gallery.

rawr



]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22739593/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22739593/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 15:59:50 PST
Yesh yesh. I'm almost ready to buy a subscription just to try out the new features and stuff, it's pretty exciting :]

Only thing left would be html/css, but only for that one module, cos changing everything too much would kinda miss the point.

So yeah, have fun editing your stuff guys, it's radd



]]> ~MCRsk8erboi http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22715895/ http://MCRsk8erboi.deviantart.com/journal/22715895/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 15:04:54 PST
From The Honey Ditch by Chris Haynie

VI. Dead Christmas

About a million years ago when I was in school and worrying about the ins and outs of every little path to the promised land, I used to walk home with this girl for cookies and TV. It was so goddamned cold on those half miles home, and at the end of them warm doorways and rationed pop. But I guess you know how cold doesn't matter a fucking bit when there's someone like her.

That’s how it all works, falling in love with a million coincidences, hoping that you're not just noticing these things now.

Praying for rainy days so her mom would invite you in "until it lets up," and in her bedroom, grasping over damp clothes, saying things to her slow so they would sound eight times more profound and a million times brilliant.

I never believed in God and she never believed in showing up late to church. I respected her for believing in God the way she did. But Sundays could get lonely when there were only your own damp clothes hugging you.

I'd go out to the woods on those days, looking up to the treetops and shooting the shit with myself. Sneaking up slow behind bushes to keep from scaring deer. They heard me and kssh ksssh, away they went.

My grandpa took us out there a lot when I was young, but I had to take myself out there when I got older because he started spending afternoons with Jim Beam.

I took her out there on some Sunday, after much persuasion and hand grabbing, and showed her the same places he had shown me a million and half years before when I was ten.

We stumbled through the woods, slow-walking at first, then breaking into a full run to pretend-escape the rain, and fell down and we picked each other up, and the rain soaked through our clothes and we collapsed on the ground and looked up to the sky and watched the rain fall on us. We were a million and a half miles away from everything and stupid and naive and falling in love with each other and every second.

The weather was furious with us, and it let us know with a fresh torrent. We abandoned our clearing and made our way deeper into the woods as one last protest to Sunday deadlines.

I found the river a few hundred feet later and stopped at the ledge above it and I said, "Say hello to the river, Carrie!"

"Say ‘hello’!"

We slid down the embankment and managed to make it about halfway across before the water was up to our pockets and we turned back. Climbing back up the hill, we saw something we hadn't seen in the embankment on our way down; about 15 feet of box-shaped decaying planks enveloped by the mud.

It spurred something in my memory. And I remembered my grandpa taking me out there on a just terrible cold day, and the snow was beating down on us as we looked for dry wood. And it had gotten so rough, just so cold.

*

And he said, "It'll clear up, just wait."
So we did and it didn't, and we spent more than a few hours gathering wood, waiting for it to finish up.

"This isn't going to work,” he said.
He lit a cigarette and I remember being out there with him and watching the smoke make its way past his face as we walked fast to nowhere, searching for a place to take some refuge from the snow, as it had gotten too bad to go back.

It was getting heavier and colder and the snow was keeping us from moving and I had never seen him so close to giving up on anything before.

"There it is…” he said, laughing to himself, “The goddamned honey ditch.”

*

We looked at the structure and she grabbed my hand. The building, a telling grey-green now from a hundred years of snow, barely resembled what it was when my grandfather built it. My grandfather was also a beekeeper, of all things.

"Keep yourself moving, Davie," he told me on some dead Christmas.

"Keep yourself moving because there's always someone catching up with
you."

How much gravity that might have had was negated by the aftershave of that coarse man, overpowering and skewing an eight-year-old's conception of the future or its responsibilities.

We made our way to the foot of the embankment and scurried up the ledge, making our way to the mud-effaced structure.

I ran my hands over the decayed wood and it was a hundred years ago again.

*

My grandfather was telling me to tie the rest of the wood together while he looked for the door. I took off my gloves to tie rope around the bundle of wood and the cold burned me pretty bad and it was tough to concentrate and I kept looking up to
see if he had managed to get in the door yet.

*

She crouched next to me and we looked at the door, frantically searching the same wood to cajole an opening. After a few minutes of digging mud away from f... ]]> ~MCRsk8erboi