http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:MRGhoastKoast&section=today deviantART RSS for by:MRGhoastKoast en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 03 Dec 2009 13:41:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23739599/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23739599/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 00:17:32 PDT
Im feeling that if this world is gonna just keep giving me struggle for the hell of it, then why bother living? Why should I stay here, if people are not even hopeful of their own survival. Almost every religion talks about the destruction of mankind. And the fanatics look forward to it. Why? Why do people continue to talk about how were all gonna die, and be wiped out.

If Dieing is the only way to open the door to another world, in another dimension, I guess I look forward to it.

But why should I wait until some fatal disease hit me. Or somebody shoot me? Why should I wait for all those surprising scenarios?

I don't know, I guess I keep hoping and looking, but I could never find anybody to keep me alive in a sense. Nobody knows how I feel, and what kind of thoughts sweep my mind from time to time. I keep the fake laughs and smiles going. The jokes, all bullshit.

Im feeling a bit of it.

Never though these thoughts would ever flood my mind.
I can tear.

But cannot cry..

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23601770/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23601770/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 23:24:29 PDT
Now befor my friends say, WHY, Im gonna give you the answer.

I need to start out new again. Im not the same artist when I was Overdose124, and Mrghoastkoast is changing. changing very mentally, and drastically. Im in a caccon stage right now. Probably less than 25% complete, And when I emerge Mrghoastkoast will be no longer. I will be someone else.

As I transform, I want you guys to forget I ever existed. The next account will be another person. another being. But with the same soul.

FuryOD...

OverDose124

MrGhoastkoast.

We live in competitive times. There a powerful manga artist, Japanese, Korean, Australian, french American, and ext, who are climbing their way to the top. American manga artist Im rooting for you. But I must say this one thing. My will power, to be one of the best is strong. I 'll climb the ladder to the very top, and even so I'll leap out into the air. If I cannot fly when I leap in the air, I will fall. Its all or nothing with me. Remember that.

The dream of walking into barns in Nobles, and seeing my comic series on the bookshelves, in the manga section gives me chills every time I think of it.

I can picture my self now. Suit, tie, and pen. Free book signings and posters. I want to change the world. And Im going to do so through comics.


Motivation is the key here people. Motivation and determination.

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23528472/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23528472/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 17:20:21 PST
So, Im walking to my car, and befor I got out of the building I notice there were a bake sale. So Im thinking, I should buy something to munch on. Reached into my pants for my wallet, and felt air..


Long story short, my wallet filled with my ssc, my driver licence, my debit card, my cash, and contact cards, all gone. Lost.. Nobody found them. Iv retraced my steps, nothing... Asked in all lost in founds, went to security, reported it , nothing...

So i came to the conclusion it must have fell out of my pants and some ass whole took it away with them. They woulden't even have the decency to take the cash and return the wallet to lost and found?

I mean, you'r in college. You must have some sort of morals right?.

This is a very hard time for me, and with the wallet gone, I have to start all over again. Library card, I have to change my whole friken SS#, my friken Driver licence, Wal-mart discount card, and things such as my pictures of my beloved and deceased dog, are gone forever...


But besides all that drama, I came home, and out of depression finished the WATCH MEN novel... Its a very difficult ending to coop with. Can't wait to watch the movie friday. My last movie for a while.

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23435157/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/23435157/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 15:03:12 PST Im already sketching up charecter designs, and writing down ideas. And at the same time I'll be updating my gallery with random concept pictures for my comic.

School is a drag. Im tired of it but I gotta keep pushing forward. The only thing that interest me this semester is the art club. Last semester it was dead, and only consist of 4 regular members. Now its a decent size. There must have been 10 of us. I just hope I can share my ideas, and beliefs with someone in exchange for their ideas and beliefs. These days its hard for me to talk to people, and the art club is my only oportonity to make a friend.

Well, until then .



Ghoast

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22898598/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22898598/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 05:50:57 PST The essence of adolescent leaves my body now I'm fresh in
My physical frame is celebrated cause I made it
One quarter through life some God-ly like thing created"

wow.. Can't belive Im 20 years old already. My teen years just blew off my head, like they almost never existed. No more being called a teen anymore. Im gonna miss that a lot. Now I have to get use to being called T... Its all to much for me. Im 20 frickin years old, and wish I wasn't. I wish I was 19 again. or 18.. I hate how this life works. I hate how time works. Wish you could just stop it at you'r own will. In another 20 years I'll be 40, and 20 more years after that, I'll be 60. I'll be old in the next 2 quarters of my life.. SHRIVLED UP AND OLD....


sucks...


Ghoast

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22749753/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22749753/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 23:46:05 PST like no one ever was
to create them is my real test, to draw them is my cause...

Da, da Doom

lol.

Iv been working on this new project. Its called, project Joy stick. haha. Don't worry about me, I'll submit something in by next week. Yes, I work slow, but you must remember, I am comeing out of my Great depresion... Slowly, but never the less comeing out.

I will return to conquare all .

I will devour all...

I will create all...







"I will not be denied in this final hour
I will not be denied this day is mine
This passion inside me
Is burning
Is burning
This passion inside me
Is burning
Is burning"

KSE
Ghoast



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CLUBS



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I SUPORT

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22662108/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22662108/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 20:57:09 PST
Write down ideas.

Process them

Begin designing the character's by writing first

And then draw them...

Create some testing pages, focus on my toning,

And then create epic complex picture...


I am not proud of my work that Iv put up on Dev art. I feel I could do better. But what demon is capable of slowing my mind down? Why do I feel so tired.

My sword will swing at the heart of the problem one day. Maybe its just because I haven't found her yet. Maybe she might be the only one who can destroy the curse the men in my family have. The family demon. Deliver me from it, so I can continue to make my way to the STARS....

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22606309/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22606309/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 23:15:45 PST
Just imagine the big bad guy that just got slain, and every body starts to rejoice but as soon as everybody begins to to sigh of relief, the bad guy comes back out of no were. It summons all the power it haves left, and it gives one final strike. Even though it knows its powers were too weak to actually win...

I was that last and final attempt of power for my friend.

I didn't want to do it, because the enemy he fought all this time was not my enemy. But I root for the underdog, and the underdog is the side I took one final last time. My boss obviously was pissed, but at the end of the day I confronted him. I told him that it wasn't personal. It was something that my heart needed to do.

We talked for about 20 minutes , and made peace. ...

Peace that will last a long time...

But my friend is still defeated. And there's nothing I could do now. I did all I could do.

Its up to him to change. Its up to him to recover...


Im just glad this shit is over with. Another hard day at wal-mart... This is the place I make my paper. And that paper turn into my college tuition. And that will hopefully turn into a chance to go to a good art school...

Without wal-mart, the balance is disturbed, and my plans fall and turn to ashes the American economy swims in.




"With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your
lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end."


Damn this song fuckin rocks.

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22590400/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22590400/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 05:51:25 PST
"Are you listening?
We write a thousand pages, they're torn and on the floor
Headlights hammer the windows, we're locked behind these doors
And we are never leaving, this place is part of us
And all these scenes repeating are cold to the touch "





Yesterday my good friend , got fired from the job. They all plotted against him in the sleekest of ways. I can't belive I failed him. I was suppose to hold him down when shit got tight, and frustrating. But I stood back a lot of the time. I feel that I need to take the blame. Its sad. He have so much problems going on in his life, and getting fired is gonna fuck him up ALOT, to the point that living will be unbearable. Its hard for people on parol to get shit in this country. You make one mistake, and get caught, and the system fucks you up forever. They give you a big fat label that they stick on you'r head.

That dude was a great Teacher, and I saw him as an older brother. He was a great artist too. We're suppose to be somebody one day. But this. This is a large set back to both of us.

The manager that plotted against him, Wilbert... Really fucked this guy up badly.

I won't forget this.

I won't forget this..

I won't forget.

And I won't forgive HIM for doing what he did...

It was huge fucking plot that really did him in dirty. Fucked up his life in the worse way.

And at the end they were all laughing. All of them didn't even show any remorse. All of them. All of them..

There's nothing I can do now, but wait till I see the biggest manager, and beg for his job back. After that I can't even do anything.

Because life will come at me hard. And my walls must be broken down. One layer at a time. This new era feels very dark. Its a time for change. The color I see is brown, grayish...

shit..

Ghoast

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22568206/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22568206/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 20:18:44 PST
+ and I got a oil change.

With what money?..

IDK.... O_O;...

Anyway I was focusing on getting better at female anatomy. Yea, yea, Im a dude, and I see it as the most butiful thing on earth, but its for my art skills and not so much for eye candy. So as I was plotting a piece I wanted to put on dev, and I came across another idea for a story/ comic. And Its about a nekkid demon , wolf chick thing. haha. And she and some of her Klan go into the human world. And the worst part of it its in 1980 LA time. So Gang, bang paradise mixed with traditional Demon mythology. Not a good mix, but I'll see what I could do with et.

I might call this pNrEoKjKeIcDt X. Project X,. because I need a small story comic to work on, and Nekkid X, because the protagonist don't like cloths, period. She'll were wolf skins, but that's it. lol.


Picture a nekkid wolf demon thing walking down South central LA streets...

Yea, yea, This is a stupid idea, but Im frikken board, and don't have enough information to do my other manga.. :<...


lol...

Don't mind me, Im just plotting.

This is starting to remind me of inuyasha. I beter plot more now.

damn. -_-;...

Ghoast.

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22486763/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/22486763/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 12:19:27 PST
Its 09 now, and its time for a change. Im sketching every day now. Not sleeping as much as I use to, and just moving on with life. Procrastination is my worse enemy. Iv fought cold hard battles with it, and Im not gonna lose another fight. I map everything out now. Im pushing through the wall that's blocking me from my dreams. Its just a mater of time befor I dismantle it.

I will defeat my inner demons and grow to be a GREAT artist.

And I know you can too. :3

GK

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/20786660/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/20786660/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 00:34:09 PDT
Ok, Ok, let me stop playing. This Journal will be updated in 2 days. See you then.

~1~

PS..

Whad up People?..

Miss me?

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/19218414/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/19218414/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 12:12:54 PDT
1) Buy car. check!

So now I won't be walking to work again. Im happy really. Things are beginning to look good.

The next thing that happened was that I passed my MAO1 math class. It wasn't hard but all those extra days and learning and teaching, had made my professor say that I was ready for MAO7...

MAO7 is Algebra. and algebra is gonna have me my the balls. But I feel I will pass it, and pass it with a decent grade. I have to go sign up for the class next week maybe. That will complete my schedule for next semester in Community college.

The only problem I see here, is that I'll be working full time, and going to school full time. So I really have to meet a drastic change in my sleeping/ lazy habits to succeed. I will go on until the end...I will...

2) pass math class. Check!

Just yesterday I went to this mall with my mom, and sisters. And it was nice. It had a Barns and noble book store. It was a huuuge book store!.

And I did the unthinkable. Instead of buying a how to draw, or a manga/ comic book, I brought two books by Joesph sheppard about Figure drawing and anatomy.

3) buy books on Anatomy and figure drawing. Check!

And I brought a miniature wooden manikin , to study different poses and what not.

4) buy little wooden man. Check!..

I went and partied with the villains of Bwood for a bit, came home and sleeped my ass off...

Now I must go to wall fart... And work my ass off for the macbook pro,and waccom tablet of my dreams.



But yea things been going good for me, and I hope things are going good for you too.

ps: Thank you for over 1000 hits. Im currently doing a 1000 ht project for you guys. Thank ya..

~1 love~

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18825030/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18825030/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 17:16:31 PDT
Can't wait till I get et though. :3


Now here's the bad things..>.<;.. My little sister of 14 years was caught cutting school. They also found hiki marks on her chest... Now Im pissed off, but what the fuck can I do?.. I can't even get the nikka's name outta her.. Other wise I'd click back up with my old set and bust the kid in the face.

I couldn't get the name, and i don't wanna click back up with my set right now, so I decided to make a joke out of it. And keep working on my summer comic/manga project...


I had a dream one night, and when I woke up I thought Id do a anime on fighter jets. But I remembered after coming up with the base story line that there was another anime that revolved around jet planes...

I searched em up and discovered Macross, and a few others. Now, I don't want to abandon the project so I decided to keep at it, this time studying not only books that I borrowed from my library, but the anime's them selves, so I can have a distinguished style and concept from the others.

Im in the mist of designing the male main char. There will be a female main char too, but she'll be basically the star of the series...

Well, wish me luck!

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18757911/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18757911/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 22:48:38 PDT
Oh, yes..My pops is pressuring me to buy a car now. He's crazy. Look at the gas prices right now. The fools starting to piss me the hell off. I wish I could move from this shit hole, but I can't. :<...I must buy my laptop and Tablet befor the car.. I must save my hard working money for that purposes an that purposes only. The faster I have those two ,the nicer working towards my Dream will be, because I'll have in my possession two butiful pieces of up to date technology by my side.

The car comes last. But yada, yada yada, its always the same thing here with this guy. I wish I could afford to live in a dorm of some sort, but I just don't have the money to..

Anyway I have this GREAT idea for a project manga/comic I want to do. It'll involve fighter jets. But that's all I'm saying XP...And I promise you, this is a work of genius. I needed to take a brake from my Dream story, so this will do.

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18630878/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18630878/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 16:25:15 PDT
I have two days off in a row, So this is my chance to work on my Summer projects hard body...

Iv dug up some other pics in which I might color and submit them after Im Done with Asuka, which will expand to other things other than Zoids, and Zoids rps. After all, My goal is to submit 20 pieces befor the summer ends. Will I do it?

Watch and find out.

Till then

Im out...




PS:.... Im lonely..... ;_;..... I need friends....

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18584155/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18584155/ Fri, 30 May 2008 21:01:25 PDT
I brought my sketchbooks and Iv already drew up a pic of NAS, (rap artist)..

I plan on drawing a Native American soon. I'll definitely start tomorrow.

And Im a quarter away from buying my dream laptop. The Mac book pro, 17 inch.

Iv been saving and sacrificing for too long now. By the end of this summer, I'll have it in my grasp. That and the Wacom tablet, Cintiq 12wx...

I must have them...@.@;

Soo, yea, Iv been slipping in and out of my mind for a while now. But what can I say. that's life. Im still fricken coloring Chinatsu. >.<...

Well, Im inking her, but its taking a million years for this one project of mines. I'll be dead and buried before I finish the bloody thing. :/

And that's et....

;_; *is hungry*



"All the pretty people died
Innocence is out of style
All the whores have gone away
Now there's nothing left for me

Why are you here, are you listening?
Can you hear what I am saying?
I am not here, I'm not listening
I'm in my head and I'm spinning"

30 seconds to mars....

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18524381/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18524381/ Tue, 27 May 2008 09:25:52 PDT >.... Don't know why but it felt pretty weird... I just woke up looked out the window and saw that it was all sunny n shit, so I was like fuck that, and I cut myself..lol...I won't be doing that anymore....



Hopefully... O.o

I need to buy some sketchbooks...

I plan to buy 3 sketchbooks.

1 for real life drawing. 1 for making people into animated chars, and 1 for random sketches...I have 2 sketch books already, but Id like to be organized for a change...

Today's my day off, so after I sleep a bit and do all the relaxing I need to do, Im going to try to finish up my coloring of Chinatsu...

yup.. And that's et. See you around DAs....


"Come together inside
This body is only a shell
Change
The only way we will survive
Light
Transfiguration of the soul
Of the soul
Of the mind
Fixation on the darkness
That engulfs this world
Drain the life force of our people"- KSE Fixation on the Dakness

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18439910/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/18439910/ Wed, 21 May 2008 23:16:38 PDT .>

But I learned my lesson. Im definitely going to do well, next semester.



If I could get through.

Yesterday I had a hard time getting myself to officially apply for the next semester. That had put a lot of stress on my head...

1st, I had to wait and wait, then I get the classes that I want (Really don't want because the fricken counselor was rushing me. -_-;....) Then I go to get it schedule, and there, I thought I was good. But next thing you know they send me to the Registration area. I waited, and waited and then these to little girls fricken cut my ass off from the line, and Im there stuck waiting again. (and mind you, I had a bus to catch, which I missed) so by the time I go on line, the damn woman tells me I have to go back down stairs because they need my test scores. ....


I go back down stairs, and there's like a looong ass line ... The counselor looked at me funny, and I left and smoked me a cigarette. >.<;

I ended up catching the last bus that comes around 6:55..


I tell you, Its like these fools don't want me to register.. The financial aid thing is very difficult to get into..My mom says its easy, but she always prostpone shit. I NEED HELP MOMMY! NOW! And Im confused as fuck.

I want to get everything done now, but its always these miner set backs that have me stressed out. And when I get stressed I set myself back even more...

Anyway, that's what I really wanted to get off my chest...


On another note, I met up with a old friend from the devil Boces class I took a year ago. ... She have some good stuff on there, you guys should check her out. She, was one of the few in that class I Truly respected. Not like the other assholes who were there just because they had nothing better to do. I even respect her work more than the teachers shit... ( I hate that teacher, she was racist dammit)


I was pretty surprised when I saw her, very close to the last day of the semester. I always were quick to go home in early-er days, but since Iv been getting the need to uplift myself, and see about my dreams, Iv been hanging around in the college, just to do random made up work...

My next step is to organize my room, Then see about GZ, after finish coloring chinatsu, (an original rp charecter from GZ), all while I try my hardest to put my ass in the next semester...

Im also fiending for the mac book pro 17' version... Im dieing to get it, but I need a bloody credit card. :/

Oh, well I guess that's the next thing...

Work is a fricken drag, and tell me why an old man came up to me and offered me some pills. >.>...

Like I'm going to fuck up my life anymore. Heh, These people...They just don't learn....







ANnnd, I got into metal-core..KSE for life my dude.

i stand firm in my solidarity
the path i walk (the path i walk)
i walk in with my own resolve
when darkness falls (when darkness falls)
we are reborn
a dream since the fall of man
we are reborn


My new fuckin love homie... Rock on!!!

]]> ~MRGhoastKoast http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/17090800/ http://MRGhoastKoast.deviantart.com/journal/17090800/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 15:06:37 PST As a shorty playing in the front yard of the brib
Fell down, and I bumped my head
Somebody helped me up and asked me if I bumped my head
I said "Yeah"
So then they said "Oh so that mean we gon, you gon switch it on em'?"
I said "Yeah, T.U.S, T.U.S is the greatest"
Knowing as a shorty, I was always told
That if I ain't gon' be part of the greatest
I gotta be the GREATEST myself....


((Riped off of Busta rymes gimme some more))

many years later,
As a 19 year old smoking in the back yard of the brib
Got hit, by a random rock, and it hit my head
Somebody helped me up and asked me if a rock hit my head
I said "Yeah"
So then they said "Oh so that mean you gon, you gon bring it back for em'?"
I said "Yeah, T.U.S, T.U.S is the greatest"
Knowing as a bad boy, I was always told
That if I ain't gon' be a mechanic, or doctor
The world will be tough for me...

But I always use to say FUCK that , Im not part of the greatest. So I thought back to when I was a shorty, and said " So Im going to have to be the greatest myself!"

And they look at me like Im on crack ...And I walk away and posted this journal..


]]> ~MRGhoastKoast