http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Mac-Ster&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Mac-Ster en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 21:07:52 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/28601169/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/28601169/ Thu, 26 Nov 2009 23:14:28 PST I thought that maybe it was time to sign in again. Just because certian people have been nagging me.

I'm still writing, but I've also stuck with photography ( no one on here ever gets to see the good stuff ) I've done a bit of painting...but no one gets to see those until they're ready to be sold anyway.

I don't really know if I can say that I'm back. I might submit some stuff every now and then, but really...I don't know if I need this as an outlet anymore.

I think that I might have outgrown dA.

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]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/26504647/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/26504647/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 12:15:01 PDT I had to suffer through 3 annoying bands for nothing.

Something out there obviously does not want me to see Nickelback live



Life is unfair.




I need to figure out what I'm doing this month. I wont be going to England. I'm torn between camping or a road trip.

Really torn.

Staying home any longer will drive me crazy.

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Words cannot describe how happy I am about this.

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Because y'know, that's gonna happen.


This comes up because there as been mass amounts of Resident Evil playing at my house lately...and while out today I saw a newspaper with the headline "H1N1 = The End?"

From there a heated discussion was sparked. It was a bad day, unfortunately I can't write about it.


Here's a random question...

Has anyone else had terrible weather so far this summer?

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Paradise sucks.

I demand a refund ASAP.

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I was just informed that one of my friends purchased a boat loads of tickets for the Leeds Festival at Bramham Park. I couldn't say yes fast enough.

It is going to be so awesome.

Also, I tried writing about sleep.

As predicted, it was awful in a comical sort of way

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I hate being a tolerant person...



I wouldn't mind writing, hell it would give me something to do. Could sort of be considered productive and all as well...


Ugh, I'm tired

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That is all.

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Know the song?




I think that it's time to start writing again.




Oh, has anyone had to take Biaxin before? If so, how did you get rid of the aftertaste? It is pretty much god awful...and I have to take this stuff till my issues go away.

So...any suggestions?

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DAMMIT! LET ME SLEEP!

I actually want to sleep, I need to sleep...but NO.

Freakin' storms, drunk friends. Stupid teenagers that trespass on private property...Well, dealing with those can be pretty entertaining, I'll need to video tape it sometime. Let's face it, scaring the shit out of people is great. In case you haven't picked up on it yet, I am a terrible person.


And below, a totally unrelated list featuring movies that I need to see. It's more for my benefit...I feel the need to say that I dont have much of a life, so don't judge

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
The Final Destination
The Road
Public Enemies ( JOHNNY DEPP <3 )
Orphan
9
Sherlock Holmes
H2
Alice in Wonderland
Funny People ( ADAM SANDLER <3 )
Gamer
The Proposal
Inglourious Basterds
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
The Boat That Rocked
2012
Babysitter Wanted

On a movie related note...Why the bleeding hell are the Twilight movies categorized as HORROR? Have these people seen any horror movies lately? Generally there is sex and lots of blood and for the love of Christ, The vampires in Twilight SPARKLE! What's so scary about that? Unless they're basing that genre placement on the actors appearances...Someone needs to seriously fix that.




See what happens when I don't sleep?

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Those that went in expecting to see a movie that was like the book to a T were probably disappointed, but I found that the changes were great. The book DOES NOT end like that, but hey...Whatever works. It was definitely worth the painstaking wait.

Yes, it does need to be common knowledge that I loved the movie. It beats my usual depressing update.

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No, I am not insane.

My 'roommate' is though. If you see a headline anywhere that reads "Bleached blonde British male pushed into traffic" it's totally my doing and I expect visits when I'm in jail.

My new olympus camera is gone...and just about everything I touch breaks today. Probably a good thing the camera's MIA though, even if it's idiot proof.

Gah.

I need to get away

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Why can't I put that hate into words?
I think that I'm broken.

Again.

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But! I have seen Star Trek four times over the past two days.

Simon Pegg as Scotty? I love the man even more now. The movie totally makes up for the train wreck that was Watchmen. Terminator Salvation will be out in the next few days, that also looks really good...but I highly doubt that it will replace my new Star Trek obsession.

In case you haven't noticed, I spent A LOT of time at the movies. These weekend I sort of had to though...Fireworks were canceled due to a stupid amount of rain.

I now have around $880+ worth of fireworks in my basement.

Anyone want them?


Now...I vaguely remember what this journal entry was supposed to be about. I didn't like the date on my last entry, so I needed something new =/

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That's true isn't it?


If that's not a load of BS...who's brilliant idea was it to make those reasons invisible to the people that want to find them?

I hate thinking, it's bad, terribly overrated...

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It was so touching...I cried at the end.

So, Swine flu anyone?

Must really be pandemic season - One out of every four people I saw today had a mask on. Meanwhile, I'm trying not to laugh at every one of them because they look like complete idiots. I remember how much fun the SARS outbreak was.

Good times!

When crap loads of people start dying, I'll start worrying. I'll laugh at the people running around screaming doomsday till then.

Why am I so heartless?

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Well, I hope it isn't. I've got enough people problems as it is, I really don't need more.

I haven't really been writing much lately...now that's not because there's a lack of inspiration, there is LOADS of that crap. I don't really know what it is. It actually does bother me, I like to write, it's an escape of sorts I guess. When I submit things, it's really not because I want anyone else to read it (I'm not saying that I don't want people to read it) it's just all very personal, not just a bunch of random words thrown together by a beautiful insomniac. Think of it as a journal. Like most writing, there is meaning behind it.

Lately when I'm begging everyone for forgiveness, I'm running or outside showing off mad archery skills. If I'm not doing something, I jam up and go insane. Which always happens, and always gets me back to square one.

I have not been myself lately, not in anyway. I'll smother the next person that tells me that it's just PMS. Things are difficult because I make them that way, not intentionally...it's always accidental and always the result of some stupid stunt that I've pulled. Not everyone can be highly intelligent?

I'm slowly ruining my relationships to the people closest to me ( Great writing material right there, I know ) and it's honestly killing me.

I am the type of person that wants to be perfect, needs to make everyone happy. Amazingly, that doesn't make life any easier. Eventually it comes back to bite me in the ass. If you know me, have talked to me or even took a look at my gallery, you should be able to find prime examples of all this.

Despite the fact that I can be extremely dysfunctional, there are some people that put up with me, hell some even LIKE ME. Why? It's beyond me...and everyone just loves it when I say that. I need to write more about these people. I owe each of them a lot. Some a bit more than others, but hey...Some people have been there for me for years. If you've dealt with me for over a year, you deserve a lot of money.


Now...why did I just do that? It's venting. I figure more people read this, people that wont actually talk to me...hell, I know some people will just look at this instead of talking to me. That's fine. I just couldn't see myself putting any of that into Satire or anything like that...I could, but I'm tired.



It was also basically, put a new journal entry up or go back to whining about the fact that my team will not get a shot at winning the Stanley Cup, again. I've got to pick a new team...

So that ends that, I have a song cover to finish.

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I need a band name and some Vicodin.
Also, playing till your fingers bleed = not as cool as it sounds.

License suspensions and fines, also not cool.

I hate it when I ruin my own plans.

Anyone going to New York this weekend?
Also...anyone elses news stations flooding with info about President Obama's dog? I want to hear about the child that's missing and whether or not the wonderful task force has gotten any leads. Is the Presidents dog really more important? Especially in Canada?

God forbid the news anchors deliver important stories.

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I do not see anything wrong with memorizing beer commercials. I personally only know 5 or so off by heart...Because knowing such things will one day save my life. I am such a prize.

Anyway

It is snowing...I hate weather in Canada. Dammit I need a tropical climate ASAP. I really didn't think that the first thing I'd end up doing upon returning to Canada would be um...shoveling the driveway?

If I were in Hawaii, I wouldn't be having this problem

+ I just noticed my submission number and I must say.

353? That's a lot of nothing.

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Queen: Singstar
&
Guitar Hero: Metallica

Is pathetic

I can die happy now...





( I can't write, so I might as well do something equally productive? )

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23867034/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23867034/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 14:00:29 PDT - Non-existent money was spent
- Swearing was heard
- Loud conversations were had
- Crying was done
- Flimsy pieces of paper were stared at
- Questions were asked

What's left to do? People need to be talked at...
Ha, like that will happen.



Christ, It's been a long day...

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Honestly, I'm sort of surprised but hey...

No complaints.

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The Last House on the Left came out in most places today. It is a re-make, I loved the original. I need to see it to make up for the failure that was Watchmen(I saw it twice...) From most of the reviews I've read it is supposed to be extremely and unnecessarily gory, predictable...everything you can expect from a horror movie these days. I'm a major horror fan and I've been waiting months for this one

Also pretty sure that there wont be any naked glowing blue guys, which I personally think will make the movie worth any admission price.

Too bad I'll spend an eternity trying to get through the door...how is a 20 year old supposed to look anyways? I obviously don't fit the bill if the people at the theater think that my ID is fake.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23622891/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23622891/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 08:33:51 PDT
This is what it looks like so far.

- Meet Sean Connery
- Get my brothers through college
- Travel
- More traveling
- LOTS OF TRAVELING
- ... You guessed it! More traveling
- Maybe, eventually get married


The amount of globe trotting I want to do will call for extra souls to be sold. Anyone want to volunteer? The sooner I get out of here the sooner I'll stop whining about not being able to go anywhere

I want to do at least a years worth of running around the world...I've already been across Canada, twice and most of the US multiple times. Thinking about it is nice, till I get to the money part. Oh well...it's that or actually do something constructive?

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...




THEY ARE EVERYWHERE.


I think they're comin' to get me...Oh god, I'm terrified.

SOMEBODY SAVE ME...



please?




(More some other century, I've got 5 songs to finish and a guitar that needs tuning )

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Okay...not something to be proud of but hey, it's a good conversation starter? (I'm really reaching here I know) I don't want sympathy. I'm just trying to keep myself occupied, failing miserably.

I need some metallic sharpie markers...

Jealous yet?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23395302/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23395302/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 08:40:03 PST
2. For the people that listen to love songs and think "Hey! I could do that!" - Hey, YOU SHOULDN'T DO THAT.

3. If you insist on writing a love song...Be honest and aim low. Make promises that you can keep.


God, am I the only sane person left in the world?

Anyways I was going to say that I'd be submitting some stuff but that would be a lie. It's exam time and I am as unprepared as they come.

Also! Has anyone seen Slumdog Millionaire?
If so...is it any good?
I was watching the Oscars and it picked up 8 awards including best picture of the year. Along with all the other awards its gotten, it's gotta be half decent right?

I watched the Oscars instead of studying and I'm just wondering...what the HELL did the world do to JOAQUIN PHOENIX?! I suppose there are other actors...but he was in Signs, and The Gladiator and those movies were awesome. The beard is over-kill and it looks bad...someone should fix him

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I guess it's all the same.






Alcohol time?!
I think not.
But, I can dream can't I?

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But it was painful...the trying to get the tickets part. I was willing to pay full price for a ticket but no. So I had to call my friend, who saved the day. Eventually I did get in. As horror movies go, I was expecting a bit more gore...okay a lot more gore. It got me out of the house and away from school so I can look past the lack of excessive blood shed.

This year is going to be bad for my bank account. A majority of my money that isn't spent on dog food goes to movies. From what I've heard I'm going to be spending a lot of time in the theaters.

While I'm at it...

To the people that are constantly going on about Watchmen like obsessed fan girls...kindly take your stupid graphic novel and get the hell away from me before I shove that bloody book down your throat



Bleh, now I have a insane amount of writing to catch up on.

I dislike school...

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23191032/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23191032/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 08:42:30 PST 50 e-mails.
14 boxes of chocolate.
110 roses.

...

And the day's not even over yet!
I do not like all the attention...some people thinks its funny, naturally I completely disagree. I get to spend the day at home, sick. Though later all the other lonely loser's (love you guys ) will be around and we're watching horror movies...lots of horror movies.


Romantic isn't it?


Happy freakin' Valentines Day

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23169762/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23169762/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 07:41:49 PST

I do not care that it is the last name of a famous American serial killer / arsonist. Beats my last name, which I still hate with a fiery passion.

So, Jennifer Berkowitz.

Life is so GREAT right now I don't even want to talk or write about any of it! That's got to be a first.

Also, when did I become ' Mrs. MacQueen ' ?

When was I officially married to someone? I obviously wasn't invited to my own wedding...Legal documents should not read ' Mrs. MacQueen ' That was my mother...BIG difference. Okay, so maybe life isn't that great after all.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23091351/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23091351/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 20:16:52 PST It causes problems of the "Well miss, can I see your ID?" variety.


I want advance tickets to see Friday the 13th, Gotta beg one of my older looking accomplices to purchase them for me. Because obviously, if I didn't get them the first 4 times I wont get them if I go back for a 5th time.


Why does god...or whatever is out there insist on tormenting me so?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23030107/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/23030107/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 21:00:57 PST Who am I trying to kid? That's the impossible task...


Anyways...I've been thinking and trying not to drown in school.

I've been wondering, why do humans have the 'Gotta have someone around, can't be alone' hard wired into them? I mean for some people that makes for a pretty lonely life. Being a lonely person myself, I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. It's hard to explain and I'm coming up on 72 hours without sleep, sort of makes me want to put a bullet in my head.



Happy freaking thoughts.

Anyone else stressed to hell? Or is this a bad case of karma?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22987352/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22987352/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 16:08:21 PST
I've got tickets... 200+ freaking dollars later. Though I'm really not in the mood to share them. I just felt like advertising the fact that I have tickets

Now, back to dying.

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I'm in a very wonderful 'screw the world!' mood, could be from being lonely?

The first day of hell was...okay. My intense hate for wine was rekindled (How can people drink that crap?)

I've got some stupid paperwork to finish, then I am going to go sit outside in the rain for an hour or two.


I'm very productive...in case that wasn't already apparent.

Back to staring at the ceiling

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I've been neglecting life and perfecting my coping technique...which somehow led to doing mass amounts of song covers and sharing webcam spotlights with my friend Niaomi (She doesn't hate me! )

LiveVideo & Stickam...Oh the laughter, and the masses of pathetic losers.

Anyway!
Song covers include :

Bon Jovi - It's My Life
Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer
Nickelback - How You Remind Me
Nickelback - Someday
Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody
Nickelback - Just To Get High
Natasha Bedingfield - Pocketful of Sunshine
Avril Lavigne - Happy Ending
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
Love Spite Love - How Soon Is Now?
Linkin Park - What I've Done
Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
Final Outcome - Frenzy*
Final Outcome - Lethal Injection*
Final Outcome - There you go*
Final Outcome - Nothing More*
Pink - So What
Pink - Sober
Hedley - Brave New World

* = I wrote it

and...I can't remember the other's. They've all be recorded and I -think- some of them might go on youtube...I'm getting back into the song writing habit, seeing is that Scotland also equals band time. I did a few more just for kicks and they are hysterical on so many levels. The best of the worst, because there always has to a collection.

Notice how this is again unimportant?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22827182/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22827182/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 15:55:56 PST
Right about now I don't care if it's offensive (Watch yourself) I might just submit some of it.

First I have packing to do...and there are some people to bother, though I'm only doing the bothering because I enjoy being ignored...makes me feel good.

No in depth rant today...

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Stupid freakin' morons...








Is it possible to go from a somebody to a nobody in a few days?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22708175/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22708175/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 06:31:43 PST
"Sensitive, emotional and caring you seek peace and harmony and desire to work for the benefit of others and society. Your talents and abilities may draw you towards teaching or service occupations where you would be a natural success. Although quite reserved your courage and ideals mean that you are single-minded and industrious in pursuit of your goals. Your affectionate and giving nature means that you are loved by all."

Right...

Loved by all? LOL

My parent's should have given me the stripper name instead

I needed a new entry...this counts as such.

I am now going back to bed!

(By the way, I have a new rabbit...Yes it is IMPORTANT that the world knows. It's awesome..and black. I'll try to take some decent pictures of it laterish... )

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22604749/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22604749/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 20:54:27 PST
After two days of doing nothing due to extreme headaches and blacking out (stitches and drugs do that to people?) I'm actually going to do something...aside from going to work in a bit, The original plan was something like going out with a bunch of friends and taking part in mass alcohol consumption...it would have been accidental of course. I wouldn't just drink (Might want to check the Toronto Sun's obituaries in the morning, that remark could get me struck by lightning...)

Instead of spending money that I don't have, I think the other route is best. What other route? One that will piss many people off...But hey, what I have got to lose? I could put myself in the ICU either a) no one would know or b) Too tired, there isn't a second option. I'd be gone for a few days and the only person that would notice would be my boss =/

In case it wasn't already apparent, I am not in a happy place right now. The people close to me should learn to check their bloody e-mails, voice mail...hell, even the daily mail! But I'm sure by the time said people resurface everything is going to be freakin' butterflies and rainbows...

And now! (I'm not done yet...)
If there is a god, he hates me.
If there isn't...was I a bad person in a past life? Is that why karma is biting me now?
WHY THE HELL DID I HAVE TO HAVE SIBLINGS?
Why am I not crying in a corner yet?
Why do people ask me for advice then proceed to call me an idiot afterwords?
Why the hell isn't the SWITCH FIXED?

Last but not least...why is it that when you need someone, or anyone for that matter they are nowhere to be found...?

Sorry but that venting...ranting, whatever. It was needed. I don't have anymore notebooks to ruin at the moment, and peoples e-mail's have already suffered enough abuse for the next decade or so...

Ugh screw work...I'm going to bed and attempting that whole sleep thing, it's supposed to help.

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Doesn't that sound HEALTHY?

I was supposed to be leaving to go somewhere tonight...but now I'm supposed to wait another day to make sure I'm not actually sick.'Cos it would just suck if I passed on some deadly virus to someone else...

Have I mentioned that I'm lonely as hell and have nothing to do yet? Life is being amazingly suck-ish today...and loud. Anyone that was gone is now back and my poor mind can't handle the constant talking.

The good times just keep coming.

I need something to do...

NOW

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22468780/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22468780/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 11:53:50 PST
Today was a horrible day to go shopping. Schools closed due to major snowage (SNOW in CANADA, are you as shocked as I am? ) So the teenage population converged on a single location...Wal-Mart

Because in a small town that's the coolest place EVER. While I was trying to purchase dog food I was interrupted by 2 wildly giggling girls. Why did they feel the intense urge to come up to me? Apparently I looked like Bella Swan? Yes everyone in this town could use some intensive therapy but that's not the point!


Now for the big question. WHAT THE HELL were they on that made them think that I looked like the most annoying, pathetic character in the history of literature? STOP COMPARING ME TO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.

People bother me...
I need a sign that clearly tells people to leave me alone

Time to go back to slaving away...

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22442453/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22442453/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 20:43:33 PST
Not here...that's where.


Or the people that talk to me, what the hell happened to them?


There is way toooo much stuff going on right now and that's not good.

Say you notice something odd about your best friend. Their mannerisms are slightly different, they look a bit off...whatever. Small yet noticeable things. If you something in the back of your mind screaming that somethings up, do you ask or just ignore it? There would obviously be a 50/50 chance of something being wrong or not.

I am again not going to get any sleep tonight...


I leave you with this...The best thing that's happened in DAYS

"Canada captured its fifth straight World Junior Hockey Championship gold with a 5-1 victory over Team Sweden." <3

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Anyone that's talked to me in the last few days understands the reference...and if I were to say I'd be willing to wear a cape to get the switch fixed again, I doubt most people would get it. No I'm not high...I should be, but I'm not.

So I've pretty much refused to let myself write anything lately. Which is good for all the commissions I had to finish...I got a tablet for Christmas so I've kept myself occupied well enough.

I doubt I'll be submitting anything for awhile. Not that it's anything worth fussing over. Doesn't get me anywhere anyways. Lately I doubt it would help with venting...nope, that's why there's a punching bag in the corner of my room

I need some serious sleep...
But for now, coffee will have to do.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22318877/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22318877/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 22:37:14 PST
Life update time?!

An hour into the new year and I've already got my first official death threat! I feel so loved! I want to thank anyone that's said they would hang me, shoot me, run me over with a truck, strangle me, push me off a bridge (and or?) slit my throat. I appreciated it guys


Anyways! I saw Steve Patterson tonight...he's still funny as hell. The guy is great, next time he's in Toronto I'm getting tickets for every show. Speaking of shows...I'm going to meet GOD in March. Well, god in the human form of Chad Kroeger...and the rest of the amazingly kick ass CANADIAN band known as Nickelback. I've got tickets for two shows, as it stands I have 3 extra tickets for each. Who wouldn't want to go to a concert with me?

Umm...so I'm supposed to be at work right now, but I'm stalling majorly. My friend Eric proposed to his long time girlfriend earlier. She said yes, all that jazz. We had a nice low key party with surprise guests. Kale - Best friend, flew in from Scotland AGAIN to hang out with me and the rest of the bloody awesome gang. But now the fun is over because half of the entourage is on their way to Vegas...without me D<

Oh and Wes, because I know you'll read this. Thank you for the books...I've already finished half of them.

To everyone else ( with the exception of those damn stalkers...you all can just burn in hell I'm charming aren't I?) Happy New Years!

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22250669/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22250669/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 21:11:20 PST I say I've got another 4 hours before I crash and burn.

Today was a very long day that consisted of the following.

- Waking up friends at 4AM
- Skating
- Swimming
- Being kicked out of a Wal-Mart
- Accepting a part time job offer
- Playing Guitar Hero for a few hours
- DDR
- Skating
- Running
- Threatening Silver

I still have to go to work...that will certainly be loads of fun.

Oh! and if anyone out there has or can find a Vampires: Los Muertos Movie poster signed by Jon Bon Jovi I would give you the remnants of my soul, my car and any children I have...if I ever have any. Mine was THROWN OUT....and that was like, my most prized possession! Well one of a few dozen anyways.

I need to get back to finding my shoes...
More writing soon-ish.

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Anyways, yeah...I've got some, sort of
And a few more embarrassing pictures. It's great that I act wasted when I'm completely sober. The things I do to make people laugh...I scare myself sometimes.

I've been too busy to finish anything worth submitting. I can't write when I'm happy...it's impossible.

The snow is officially ruining my travel plans, all of them and it is bothering me.
The snow needs to stop.

NOW!

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This is very, very awesome.

Now...if only this amazing streak would carry over to my hockey team

(Yes this obviously gets its own short entry)

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22074916/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22074916/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 20:30:22 PST
I got the best card EVER today!
Arrest Warrant Notice.
Now why would I get one of those?
Apparently I had some outstanding speeding tickets...

They are all taken care of now, but that notice is going to be framed I swear

So...about this ridiculous amount of snow. This is a CRUEL joke, proof that if there is a god he really doesn't fancy me much. I'm snowed in...in the middle of nowhere, I missed a hockey game (Which I had brilliant tickets for!) and I'll have to shovel AGAIN.


Next year I'm going to Hawaii...

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22053646/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/22053646/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 17:13:19 PST
Let me start off by saying I HATE IT when random people come up to me and ask that...if it's not a desperate guy its someone that's mistaken me for some long lost relative of theirs.

That came up yesterday. After 4 hours at Future Shop (Yes, 4 hours ) it was decided that the whole lot of us needed coffee so off to Tim Hortons we went. I would like to take a moment to first point out that in a small town Tim Hortons is a life line...there will ALWAYS be a freakin' 15 car line up at the window, ALWAYS. Back to the complaining. Everyone finally settles down and we start arguing about what club we're going to. Right in the middle of said argument some guy randomly comes up to our table and practically yells "Oh my god I know you!" Of course we're all staring at him like he's a psycho path, just as Wesley decides that the random yelling guy needs to leave he blurts out his name o.o

Turns out that I did in fact know him...From Myspace of all places. I had an account on there almost 3+ years ago...it lasted for a day at the least. It was bloody weird.


Later on there was this incident involving laser pointers and neighbors (New ones). You shouldn't shine them in peoples bedroom windows because they might call the cops

Even more random...My hair now reacts to black lights! It's been majorly highlighted with a very, very bright red. It wont last long though.

(This is what happens when I'm bored)

I think I'm gonna go back to bed...

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21983870/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21983870/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 16:05:36 PST First, a wedding with 600+ guests.
It was the disaster of the century.

I told the world that it would be just that.
We got every waking second on film. From the bride screwing up her future husbands name to the groom's mother telling him that he's marrying the wrong girl. She even asked me to talk him out of it. My words to him? "You thought having a girl for a few weeks was bad...You are so screwed." (He's not in my good books...)

Which reminds me!
Dusty, Jared, Tara, Kyle and Robyn...you all owe me money. You know who you are, pay up
(I told you so, didn't I?)

I got to see people that fell off the face of the earth for about a year, that was nice. Got to wear a dress that cut off blood and air circulation.

Then onto the big meeting...UGH! I need to throw myself in front of a speeding vehicle or something...Words cannot describe the wondrous bloody torrent of emotions I'm feeling right now.

If you can call it an upside...I'll have tons of crap for dA?

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21931770/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21931770/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 13:55:18 PST
A few weeks ago during a class our professor was talking about 'twisted minds : Evil or Genius?' Somehow we went from Hitler to a group, very much modern and very much alive (which I personally find disgusting and unfortunate) The Westboro Baptist church. I did a lot of research and everything that came up was repulsive. If you don't know who or what they are, Google is your friend but their 'views' can and most likely will come off as demented and extremely insulting. They are most well known for picketing the funerals of fallen soldiers, they say it is the best time to ' preach '.

Anyways...Today I got a phone call from my cousin, he told me to look at the paper. The front page headline is 'U.S. church to picket high school play'.

I looked at the site and their picket list and sure enough, there it is. I know a lot of people that have kids going there, my cousin goes there. I live roughly 15-20 minutes away. They supposedly will be picketing a PLAY. Naturally they need to get across the border first, a few months ago they were denied and sent back (they were coming to picket a soldiers funeral)

I am DISGUSTED...In fact, this is the censored version of the entry I was going to submit. I will be there tomorrow (I'm going to see the play anyways). I want to see if these mental cases are there...if they are, expect a longer entry.

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The flying type...I have one sitting in a tank downstairs. My friend found it in his attic and for some unknown reason he thought "Hey! Jen can deal with it!" When he called up and said "I found a bat, bringing it over now." I thought he was kidding. Ten minutes later, Oh look! There's Jared...and a cardboard box. People need to stop bringing me animals to 'look after' because if they are WILD that is ILLEGAL.

Okay, it is cute. We put some crickets in the tank and it immediately into psycho hunt mode. The TEETH on this thing, and it hisses

My friend said I should put a sign on my front door reading something like "Jennifer's House Of Rejects" D;
I need friends that ACTUALLY love me.

I've been trying to do course work but I'm failing miserably. I'm too easily distracted and it's horribly inconvenient.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21814647/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21814647/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 12:04:39 PST
I found a garter snake outside today. It's not sitting in an aquarium on my desk. It's been named Wally...I've given up on arguing with children. The 4 year old gets to name it, makes life quieter. Though he didn't like it when I told him he couldn't keep it.

More importantly...I'm going to see TSO tomorrow
My friend knew the second he finished his 'vanishing' act I would be MAD AS HELL at him...and he was right so to defuse the situation he spent a crap load of money and purchased tickets to see TSO in Hamilton tomorrow. Then on the 26th (I think?) we'll be going again.
{ TSO = Trans-Siberian Orchestra }


The downside is that I have to endure 'girl' time and help two people in particular (that I love to death) find outfits...I don't like shopping.

I'll end this on a even happier note (Hey, I think its happy)
I also have tickets to see P!nk in Glasgow on April 12th.
I don't know if I can wait patiently for that one...

Now, let the mood killing begin.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21755538/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21755538/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 19:24:30 PST
Thanksgiving was injury free. But who cares about that?

I know everyone cares about this though.
I am going to Alberta for volleyball in the spring
Also one step closer to getting another trophy for the case.

Might have noticed that my gallery isn't seeing any submissions again. I've been working on this novel of mine. I have successfully taken a quality from nearly every guy I know and used them all to play my 'villain'. Cool eh?
It's sort of a horror // thriller. Also, there's some Stockholm syndrome in mixed. Actually the only thing I feel like doing. I need to perfect the characters some more...

Hey, anyone want to give me $3,000?
Doesn't hurt to ask.
(Can you tell that I've got nothing better to do?)

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21660804/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21660804/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 09:13:48 PST
The good mood comes from a very well played hockey game and the fact that I got a new bass guitar
I've been waiting forever...It's sort of a "I lost a bet and forgot your birthday" thing. It's got sweet custom detailing and the case is awesome. It's a coffin case. I was going to get one a while ago but I was flat out broke so that was put on hold...now I have one and I love it.

Ah, Guilt! It's a beautiful thing.

I really thought he'd forget about the bet or at least ignore the whole "If I win you're soooooo getting me a new bass" thing. Apparently not. This all means one thing. My neighbors are going to be filing A LOT of noise complaints...To add to the dozen that are already standing.

I'm going far, far away tonight (today?) Well really 8 hours isn't that far away. But I'll be in the states so it seems...farther. In other news I'm being far too lazy today to actually submit anything so I think I'll just leave it at that.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21605120/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21605120/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 21:32:42 PST
Let me just say this...I witnessed first hand just how pathetic humanity is.

By the way, Edward still sucks.


It's almost 12:30 and I should be asleep, but I've been writing instead. Great right?

But now its time for envy. Normally this time of year I envy people that have families...well not at the moment. My wonderful British friend Wesley is going to Egypt for Christmas.

I WANT TO GO.
BADLY.
I don't have enough money to pay air and hotel fares
He promised to bring me back a bunch of random stuff and pictures. I didn't even have to nag!

envyenvyenvy.

I'm sorta falling asleep at the desk now. I've got to be up at 5 so I can get my seasons pass to the slopes...

Duh, it needed to be public knowledge.

]]> ~Mac-Ster http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21581045/ http://Mac-Ster.deviantart.com/journal/21581045/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 12:27:48 PST I've been baking a lot...it's sad? My mom used to do it whenever she fought with my dad so really, there was always cookies and muffins around all the time. I think its a Graham thing...take your anger and depression out on food. 'Beats hitting walls and other destructive things

So um, today SUCKED
So much so that I haven't changed out of my black dress yet. I'm exhausted, emotionally, psychically. I've got this massive headache (which was earned...) It's just GRAND.

The Christmas plans select people have heard me bitching about are finalized...I'll actually be in the states next week for Thanksgiving (Why? No idea) and then for Christmas.

Tonight I'm going to the Twilight screening. I couldn't talk myself out of it. If I only I had hockey....

I'm pretty sure that somethings burning so I should go check that out.

One final thing.

When is someone going to freakin well SAVE ME?

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