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- Larsa ff12
- rukia bleach
- akito or something fruits basket
-Alucard from hellsing


I don't know but I wanted to be a boy other than larsa in something. I was looking forward to trying bandaging...


Anyone has any idea what I might good for? Anyone that knows me of course.
I sure as hell am going to get the ax for this. Nevertheless after using so much of my brain I should be able to relax and lose myself in another person's fantasy- it's pointless, unhealthy, and a waste of time. However, it should be fun. There is one part of my child hood which I can retain dressing up with my friends. It's nothing about liking the characters so much it's more about wanting to gain something.

Great update. I'm publishing a crappy comic of mine. It won't be out in public of course just for a small variety of people. Whom ever can get their hands on the summer collection for SVA's student comics. Wish me luck people.

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/21083400/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/21083400/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 17:19:46 PDT When I said goodbye I cut the chain- what I unleashed was someone's happiness- meaning I had kept them in sorrow-
I might act harsh but in truth I'm not a sadist- I wanted to help them flourished- I failed them that means I failed myself- my missions and my promise- the innocence of love- the intimacy of youth's innocence in the ascendance to adolescence- I failed to hold on. I wish I was as strong as Bartleby- to prefer not to do anything.
My aching heart brings so much happiness to many but I don't care- I lay down my pride to pick up my weeping soul- Please don't laugh clichés are clichés for a reason-

I wish this person knew that I spoke with ignorance before and everyday I regret that I can't hold them close. I know I have to grow up but I can't forget my memories. What would I give to cry by the side of my bitter love once more.
Do not associate love with sexual things- Love to me is enough comfort to be able to close my eyes with them and cry at their side. In my dictionary love is not lust but something emotional that inspires the greatest of loyalties- love is being able to keep a promise- everyday I'm tormented that I didn't keep my promise... Laugh now I understand what I mean. I'm useless for expressing the sentiments everyone else has ever expressed. Call me emotive but it doesn't matter to me. I'm not accustomed to following fads but catigorize me as you will. Reader you too will feel the sting of a lost friend. You too will cry when you recall a dear memory or when you notice you have made a life changing mistake. Even though you have no blood on your hands one day you too will feel like a muderer...

Now I try to accustome myself to those around me. My new friends or friend is sweet and very much like myself. I enjoy her submission and discrete lust for power but she isn't that or those persons I cannot forget. I don't believe she will come to hold me as well as that person did. My heart was always in that person's well being. I've just to many scars of the past to accept another person- as I grow the only person I feel I will truly love is my own flesh and blood- hopefully a son who I will hold and protect... Once he defies me I shall die remembering the better days when I was dominant. Maybe I will not have an heir or even the next best thing- a partner who I'll value sexually and emotionally because of my way- I'm not odd. That's not what I imply. If I am I'm not proud of my difference.

Overall this is bad writing which only a few can understand because of the many digressions.

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I want to cosplay because I see it as a challenge. I want to cosplay as people I can look like. I'm not trying to pull off Reno or ANYOTHER impossible character.
I need characters for my list. So far they've pitched:
.Larsa from FF12
.Rukia from Bleach

and that's it for now. I'm in dire need of characters- the Rukia competition is tight so I doubt I'll be doing that. Woot there is nothing to hate on me but you can still suck it BITCHES! (I was being really insecure and embarassed there. I'm embarassed that I want to do this... I'm such a hypocrite but urges must be pleased when they can be. It's more of a private thing with friends. People know about it but no one will actually witness this saddness for too long)

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Also for those who read my fanfiction- which might not be many of you. I'm taking a break in order to straighten up a few family issues, identity issues, and personal projects. Also I'm open to new ideas.

fOR FRIENDS: FInaly got past the first level of the first devel may cry. I'm so slow. It was so easy. Now I'm on the fourth mission. As for dirge- I got bored started a new game erased it and now It'll be the longest while until I play it. I'm also taking a huge break from mabinogi. I deleted most of my characters.
As for music- MISA I LOVE ASIAN KUNG FU GENERATION... but I went to virgin mega store and they had discontinued them... As for forbiden planet. That place is a mess now in the days. I wish I could help them organize. *HUGE GASP!* I'm the last person who should be organizing things... Anyways. No trigun updates. I'm abandoning the fanart of FFX and for those who are on gaia I'm taking requests. I'm dedicating art... *gaia gold commisions which aren't really commisons more like dedications and drawing of your characters lol...* I have to think about that it sounded good in my head....
I've become quite the bleach fan... I've not started watching just really interested- I will never be a naruto fan... I don't want to. I'm going to have so much school next september. dammit.

Also just stop by and say HEY!!! Tell me how life is going! I'M INTERESTED *GASP*. i KNOW. dON'T BE AFRAID!

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]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/18721867/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/18721867/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 21:57:44 PDT It just pisses me off. It's like when people ask you for money and you're like: Okay but I'm gonna let it go this time. Sooner or later maybe tomorrow they ask you for five cents 25 cents an extra dollar- you try not minding but it becomes a freaking habbit- you don't want to say anything but shit- this money cumulates- next thing you know they have 50 dollars that they ow you- one day you need that money but you can't use it!- I just find that very frustrating because they might notice or not but they'e using you- it's like you're paying them to be your friend- what the fuck it that man seriously. I miss my other friend cause they didn't do that- yeah they traded me in for other people but they didn't mess with my pocket. I guess I can really be like: Well you should give me this homework cause I'm not paying you for nothing- bitch. So yeah, that's annoying just like me not having my Japanese review sheet while money our final is being given- life's a bitch and so are the people around me.

And money dude you know who you are- I should have said this to your face but then I wouldn't give you time to think about your actions. STOP ASKING ME FOR MONEY- I'M AS POOR AS YOU! If you don't have enough then babe- tough cookies. I'm through with being a bank I got my own money troubles. Seriously the other day I didn't have a freaking quater to call my mom- yeah I have a cellphone but cellphones die, honey. They need to be charged just like you do >_
I would've broken it down easier but what the hell.
Oh and I found my review sheet- it was in the trash!

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Lol
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The hate that I feel the excitement and the everything I feel- It's not mine... It's hard to believe but I don't thik it belongs to me. There are many ways to look at that but I choose to say that it's not mine.


Anyways.

What makes a hero? A villian and a hero are the same thing. There are no protagonist to the story of life. We're all here to survive and sometimes we need the aid of others in order to do that. Selfish needy people need needy selfish others. That's where the term friends comes in?
Who are your friends? I once believed in them. I saw them as an endangered species. I was one of the last. I was ready to give up my whole self for two friends. Summer 07- dammaged me. I absorbed all the rage around me my blood rotted in the confinement of a white room. The walls closed in on me as the spiders dived on their threads. Those horrid things kept me up. Summer 07 was the worst time of my life- I was literaly a prisoner. I had nothing but papers and a tiny pencil with no eraser. Everytime I recall that time I cry. I remember the freezing water and the cold wet nights and the long mornings with nothing to do but cry and stare at a white wall with an acheing back and an aching stomach. The pangs of hunger grew each day- It was a civilized home with civilized people- but being alone is basically being in bad company. No one would go into my room or ask me if I was hungry. When I stepped out no one would be there and when they were- their false faces were the worst torture. Summer 07 when I saw more dead in a day than in my life. Where I picked uo the scent of the dead- where I bathed the soles of my shoes in mud and -
Summer o7- was the worst time of my life. No one imagines the inferno. I experianced real lonesomeness- everyone spoke a different language-
My only refuge was the cats and even then I couldn't escape the lonesomeness.

That was only recent trauma.

I'm not surprised that people look at me with disgust or fear or indifference but I would be lying if I said that I didn't have hope or expectations the people that I had met during 08. I just didn't believe that they'd let me down so many times in one year. I had one more hope and it went to the dogs... It's okay- I'll dispell myself from the hounds of hell and I'll get rid of my pain honing the self and finding neutrality once more.
I can't be touched if I believe.

One last thing

Misa be the hero- walk in circles. Don't say a word- not yet. I've got it under control. Befriending the enemy is always the way to go.

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Uhm what team are you on?
WRO
SOLDIER
AVALANCHE
tsviets or something like that
Or just the underground forces
Or Turk
or biochemistry department
Or you can be an intern for cloud since he has his own business and all

plus note me on your attire and how you see yourself

Misa-san what's your favorite color
song
season

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I now know why I've become so uneasy. I was always dark and I like it that way. End of story. The only reason why I've been so uspest through out all these months is because of last year. I haven't forgiven myself yet. I promised my love that I'd be there for her. I promised my loyalty to so many people. I became a liar and a cheat. I broke my promises. Everything I believed in. I killed it. The reason why I am so uneasy and unhappy is because I'm feeling. I'm going through on going heart break. Ashley R. and Estephania were my friends. My mother had always told me I didn't have any- I defied her every rule and launched myself at a pit. I gave up my soul for these people. Next thing you know- I killed the relationship. I'm afraid of commitment now. I'm the only one to blame. I knew from the beginning that I wasn't going to recieve the same love I gave them- or felt for them.

I lost sight. I hurt each time I recall them. I's silly isn't it? I don't think I've cried them out completely. Then Ash seemed to start fading away completely. I didn't recognized her at all. I then blocked her from my page. I couldn't face it. I'm a coward. I used to be ready to do anything. Give up my life, soul, and sanity for my friends. Now I just can't see the world the same. I'm no hero- not anymore. Deosn't everyone want to be that?

I love them still- the memories- the feeling of almost belonging. Idon't even know what I am anymore but I do know that I'm the only one to blame. I caused my destruction and all the harm.

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/18340439/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/18340439/ Thu, 15 May 2008 17:23:22 PDT We break and we regenerate- our elixir is hope. It's my heroin. I don't need any other drug than my hope. It's sufficient. It kills me like a drug is supposed to. It's false but it makes me believe in the future- that someday I'll be able to remember how to smile. It's there so that I look up and feel like the only one in the world. It's there- Do I need anyone else?

Hope makes these battle eternal. These little fights- little things get you to believe- maybe someday I'll go back to the past I never had. Someday I'll be able to accept my humanity and that happiness is an emotion that is forced- and one day life will love me back.

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My MP3 broke and mother won't buy me knew electronics because she just bought me a gaming system.

I will pay you back with a character based off you you and a blank CD.
I need the folloeing song!
I don't want I need,

Rentrer En Soi - Sincerely
Rentrer en soi - Amongst foolish enemies
RENTRER EN SOI - Murder Intent
Lily Chou-Chou - Glide
Salyu - I BELIEVE
Rentrer en Soi- Bunretsu
Utada Hikaru - Passion
WINGS - Utada Hikaru
Utada Hikaru - Be my Last
Rie Tanaka -Ningyo Hime
Pale white- Yann Tiersen and Shannon Wright
A fools paradise
Dante's hell battle

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What's bad about bad words? Only people that don't know what to say or how to express themselves use bad words like fuck and shit- but I don't understand why they're so bad. I mean poop is a natural part of life and so is sex. I also never understood the whole god's name in vain thing either. What's so bad about saying oh my god- isn't it like a plead for him to help you out of the bad possition? That's how I always saw it. I think people just don't want to notice that we're the same as dirt- I know that sounds degrading but dirt is connected to us we eat stuff from the dirt and it practically makes the world go round so what's bad about it?

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But I feel that there is this far yet close force grasping my very soul. I don't think this is normal... Did these people know what they were talking about?



So I was looking in the mirror.

Tell me what do you see in my eyes? (people that know me) This is a big deal be honest.

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Isn't it funny how I can skip to one topic to the next? One of my older friends knows what I mean- hopefully time hasn't erased it from her memory.

Memories- we all have them.

Many people want to burry them- Iknow I do. I want to lose all recollection of what was and used to be. I prefer the sleepy songs that occur in my dreams. The breeze in the darkness that I feel when I'm ontop of the world but yet under the rain or the winds that occur when the rain lifts and the stars bathe in that purple mesh and indigo smoke. Flightless creatures are so unlucky.

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I've always been confused about the "heart"- not the caridac muscle the "spiritual" heart. I never wanted to think of it as a nervous system.
Guess I just need a reason to live and so I hide behind ideas like that- just like every other human I know.

I wonder do people know me as a dreamer? I wonder if my "friends" really know that I feel nothing but sorrow- my life might not be HORRIBLE but it doesn't matter. I'm lost like anyone else and I don't want to settle there- where everyone else. Yes I want to look for that perfect person and yes I want to feel accomplished in my own community- but I want to slow down and think for a while.

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I've always been confused about the "heart"- not the caridac muscle the "spiritual" heart. I never wanted to think of it as a nervous system.
Guess I just need a reason to live and so I hide behind ideas like that- just like every other human I know.

I wonder do people know me as a dreamer? I wonder if my "friends" really know that I feel nothing but sorrow- my life might not be HORRIBLE but it doesn't matter. I'm lost like anyone else and I don't want to settle there- where everyone else. Yes I want to look for that perfect person and yes I want to feel accomplished in my own community- but I want to slow down and think for a while.

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17672729/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17672729/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 18:38:27 PDT I loves murdoc- disgusting/ creepy demon fellow. Ah - no one will be evil enough for me to think of them as a demon. I like the fact that the Gorillaz are such great characters and different than the usual pretty boyness that I draw and the whole world seems to be attatched to. Yes mUrdoc is smex in his own way. lol

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I didn't think that was funny. I don't like Mudkip- well not anymore.

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*whooping cough cough* OW MY CHEST HURTS

DORTHy!!!! WHAT am I supposed to do for Global again

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I likes alice nine.. are they still a group?

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In my world these are the best pictures of miyavi...

But no one can succeed this = [link]


WOA I MUST GET A WALK THROUGH FOR FF5 TO SEE WHAT I MISSED!!!!






BIGGGGGG NEWZZZ YU~KI SAN IS BACK! HE'S IN ANTIC CAFE WEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YU~KI FROM MALICE MIZER!!!!!!!!!!!!111
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

new love... dun care what gender he is
Juka JUAKAKAKAKAKAKAK
i love hime screaming "Croissant"!!!!!

JUKAAAAA HOW COULD YOU SING THAT HORRIBLE IN hisou naru ketsui ni michi afure
TO
JUKA - AIMLESS
BIG NEWS NO LONGER WITH MANA!!!!
Juka - Saint Croix
YUCKY out of love

BACK IN LOVE

jUKA - Baby doll

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I'm not impressed with my luck

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17382922/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17382922/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 16:32:45 PDT Oh yeah... My aunt is baby sitting and she brought he daughter's kid- the onw that looks like Leo de caprio in the 1996 Romeo and Juliet. LOL

Well anyways I'm off to Homework hell-
Holy sheit the price of gold is going up--- I don't know I just heard this...

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I love journals... lol

Hey does anyone watch startrek? The old ones*

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17321101/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17321101/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 18:30:28 PDT I ask too much.

Woa so you guys should know the guy by now. In my gym class. Well I don't exactly like him I just want to talk to him. I freeze up whenever he'd near- that's why I've been much more "fun"- if that's the word. SO I could move on... LOL.
Paula is insane. She was tired of my whining and was so close to grabbing his ass on my account and keep walking like nothing was up. I saved his flat toosh with a embrace like tackle! I nearly spilled Paula's soda too. I think he thinks I like him... >_< Tell me... am I REALLY TRANSPARENT ENOUGH THAT I CAN'T TELL A LIE?

*Did I just imply that I liked him?* lol

I nearly fell on him the other day. I froze up and tripped over myself. > yES VERY FUNNY! I wish I was bolder and smarter around this dude. lol... I need to work out a plan but first I have to get a better look on his face.

O_O Going about on supersition and stupidity- "The stars say that I will be able to comunicate with a secret crush, a family member or a friend about something that means a lot. My other one says whether you're ready or not romance is ready for you" Yuck!

Hmmm I must consult my deck now... LOL I have tarrots Don't ask me why- A magic eight ball is more believable than that but hey what the hell-


20 minutes later




It tells me to not worry about these things and get to work lol.- I'm dead serious.

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17292016/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17292016/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 19:03:00 PDT I'm glad I'm that dumbass singing about strawberries, peaches, passive songs of the future of the earth and songs about whatever.... Very few times do I find myself songs about love and wanting to be loved. LOL. hopefully I'm not blind and saying lies.

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]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17123970/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17123970/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 20:25:26 PST I was thinking about it today. Everyone seems to want me to hug them- err the majority. Don't worry I'm not pudgy. I weigh somewhere along the lines of 110 pounds to 113 pounds. I understand why though. I'm not really that social at school unless you give me some poptarts. I swear I get the worst sugar rush in the world... thank god for depression and carbohydrates... I hate being impulsive and loud though. I just can't help but lose my mind. I guess that has to do with being so secluded? lol...
So I went to the attraction at the center and it was really cool... It was crap too just because I felt that metal and lights are kind of monotonous in the NY but whatever. I bet it looks better at night.

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I know he thought we were just a bunch of brats today because we didn't express our excitement towards visiting the bone room... It's a long day for us young and utterly spoiled american teenagers... No one should expect us to be vocal... Luicy did her part though. She most definately is cool. Dunno how I know just strikes me a such.

An update on me: I was thinking about Mr. X. I don't think I'm making him up. He's been there for so long... No I've NEVER DONE DRUGS! AND GROWING UP I HAD ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH MY CHILDHOOD WASN'T PERFECT AND EVEN THOUGH MY MOTHER HAS TO GO THROUGH A LIST OF NAMES BEFORE GETTING TO MINE WHICH SHE ABRIVIATES TO ALI... fly like a butterfly sting like a bee... I know I'm weird...

Anywho... Cute boy and I were exchanging glances today. Ricardo interupted me with his stupid claps and I was pushed to act violently towards him by kicking him in the arm... I hope cute boy doesn't hold that against me. He walked towards me today and gave me that side shy glance... -_- This will never work out... CuteBOY!!!! hE'S SO fugly.. but that makes him cute. I've barely heard hims speak and I don't know his name... and he's only in one of my classes for all I know he can be a senior... Cuteboy does have something for me though even if it is small EITHER THAT OR HE THINKS I'M JUST AWKWARD... I'm usually alone at gym being all emo sitting along the wall in a dusty corner with the volley ball nets... I'm always wearing black too... so is he so whatever... He's asian though and I don't know if this is just me but... asian guys aren't really seen around with spanish women... OOOO ahhh yes I'm Spanish...

I think he knows I like him... that and I froze up when he sat near me once... looking DEAD AT ME! >_< I forgot how to breath lol/// I'm no good with guys because I don't know what they want plus... I'm not datable... I'm stupid when it comes to love... OIIIIII and I got low self esteem lol... I'll update this soon....

sOON HAS come... Uhm... so yeah. No one really did show me how to act when I like someone. I've always avoided that subject. I always thought I'd fall in love with my best friend... yes I did visuallize him as a boy... and also I'm still pretty 90's with girls being approached by guys and not the other way around... I guess that makes me sexist...Wow I'm racist sexist... and what else... hey don't judge me we all have our biases... I bet you think different of all the races... think about it don't be so quick and angry. like I was to my friend.

Anyways... Cuteboy tries to avoid walking alongside me too... lol thank god for narrow school halls lol... no- seriously I power walk away anytime he's near... yes I makes sure he doesn't see me...
I think about it and wow I'm such a highschool girl freshman girl... actually.I'm still a little pissed at some guy (I'm so random) his name is Simon... I think he thinks I like him... I only told my friend he was good looking... I think his girlfriend heard or something... or what the hell is she anyways. I don't even know if they're going out or just friends... I don't like any of them much... people can't take complements without thinking so highly of themselves... fucking yeast infection in the head I tell you... Egotistical arses! Yes many of you would say I shouldn't be talking but when I act like that I'm just kidding around. I'f your fast to pick up on the details you'd notice I'm a pretty sad human being but when I complain It's more to be kept in those that hate me happy? Eto I don't know how to explain my logic... I guess that's another problem with me.. lol so flawed... Well no one likes a Mary-Sue... Some do though lol... I ramble a lot...

ARE YOU KIDDING ME IT IS 12:31 AM AND THIS THING SAYS 8:30PM *FUME*

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]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17065668/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17065668/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 21:32:52 PST My only love right now is the seemingly endless sky. I don't like my school much none of the teachers seem to care... but I can't complain about their personalities. I can actually list the people that I'd like to be friends with in my school err I don't know like as friends err whatever... point is if they were in pain I'd sympathize for them and try everything in my power to make them feel better:
Marisa
Julian
Paola
Chelsea
Samantha
Danny and Jennifer
Tiona
Connor
Jacky
Tetsu
Ricardo
Kimberly G
Joshua

I just think they’re cool enough… lol Connors a really good artist and person. He’s pretty smart and amusing too. Julian’s loyal and cool, despite his ramblings and the fact that he kind of “gets all up in my Kool-Aid”. Paola, I’ll figure her out soon. Hey, she likes science. Chelsea is just cool though sometimes I can feel her emotions brew and it’s awkward. Ricardo is a beast but a good kid. Tetsu’s funny and a nice guy. I still can’t take him seriously. Danny and her sister Jennifer are fun to be with. I love that they are so them… Samantha is Samantha she reminds me of someone I care for very much and she smells nice… she may not like me but I feel comfortable around her nonetheless. Tiona is bubbly. Josh is a Jew… lol I’m just being an ass. Josh is fun loving and I feel bad that I’ve been to depressive and confused to be any nicer to him; or amusing for that matter.
Marisa is the best friend I have in this crummy school. She’s sweet and can come across as the innocent bystander who wouldn’t hurt a fly. However, I’m not that stupid I think I know her better than she knows herself. >o< OOOO hurts doesn’t it. I have a knack for these things.

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17006272/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/17006272/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:18:36 PST With a patient heart good things will come. I thought that promises were going to be kept but there are things that happen and people die... Memories reside... With those memories I'll lie in my fresh rolling meadows and wait for the answer.

I'm 15 I have brains I can make it on my own. People were never really there for me. Those shoulders were never comforting! I'M GOING TO FIX THIS HEAVY HEART WITHOUT THE LOT OF YA!

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I'm no longer alive my flame has died out completely.

I spoke of loyalty and I have been disloyal. I spoke of friendship and I have never been a friend. I spoke of love yet I've never knew what it was. I spoke of hate but it doesn't reside within me. I'm all talk... no action. Actions can't be preformed by memories or puppets. I hate being just another worthless being...

]]> ~MageoftheMany http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/16854580/ http://MageoftheMany.deviantart.com/journal/16854580/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 19:24:16 PST Watashi wa Ashiri desu.
Dozo Yoroshiku
Watashi wa otokono dewa arimasen.
Watashi wa jyu-go sai desu.
Watashi no nihongo o choto hanashimasu

Watashi wa haha ga daisuki desu.
Watashi wa Doretai ga suki deshita demo ima daisuki desu.
Ashiri wa Ashiri demo Ashiri wa ashiri ga suki desu.
Watashi wa Yazuchan ga daisuki deshita demo ima daisuki desu demo Yazshan wa Reno ga daikira desu.

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Viendo tus ojos puedo decifrar el universo
El viento suave
El Asul del Cielo
Al fin lo entiendo

Ques, este mundo hira que algun dia de morir pero con tigo!
Uuuuu Ahhh Y en esta historia...
No esiste el tiempo porque en tus brasos me invente el universo
Al fin lo entiendo que el pasado y el futuro solo esiste hoy

My spanish isn't so good.

Translation:

Your Eyes- Belanova

Seeing your eyes I can decipher the universe
The soft breeze
The blue of the sky
I finally understand it

That this world orbits and someday I will die
But with you

Oooo Ahhh and in this story-
Time doesn't exist because in your arms I've invented the universe
I finally understand that the past and future only exists today
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Okay, so anyways it's sad that their are yet wonderful dreamers like this- like me.

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