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Also, I reserve the right to not do an Xmas pic. 'cause, uh, I'm a bitch like that? Mwahaha. <3

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28631705/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28631705/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 14:11:43 PST
>> Anyone wanna join it with me, I will love you forever. Seriously.

Just thought to announce this...still not really sticking on this account.

Also, I do believe I'm trying to hack up a lung. I've had a cough since Sunday. It's still here. Was coughing so hard that I tasted my dinner a second time last night. I'm loving my inhaler.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28398727/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28398727/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 16:23:15 PST
I'll still post the occasional picture, but don't expect me to get back on this account very often.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28379579/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28379579/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 16:30:23 PST
In any case. I've been reading a bunch of ST:09 fanfics lately, mostly because even months after seeing the movie, I'm still on a ST kick. So, last night I decided to type up some of my own inner fanfic ideas. Thing is, when I write "fanfics," they're pretty much all original characters set in that particular universe, with minimal interaction with the canon characters. 'cause, in all honesty, I don't trust my skills to accurately portray the characters to the point of doing them justice.

Anyways, yes, I'm writing a ST:09 fanfic with a cast of original character (maybe one or two canon characters), and it's going along quite swimmingly. Which is odd, considering I'm notoriously bad at writing only about 1k worth of words before dropping it. But now I'm onto about 4k, and I still have a helluva lot to write.

So...yay? ^^U I might sketch out the characters of the story and post them, but I don't think I'll post the fanfic here...unless, of course, ya'll want to read it? It's gonna go under major revision after I get it 1/5 done and beta'd, 'cause I want it to be as 'verse accurate as possible.

And on that note...VULCANS BODY TEMPERATURES ARE COOLER THAN HUMANS!!!! GET THAT THROUGH YOUR FUCKING SKULLS ALREADY AND DO YOUR THRICE BEDAMNED RESEARCH ON VULCAN PHYSIOLOGY!!!!

*cough* I looked up the cannon description of Vulcan physiology...and it makes total sense that their body temp would be lower, considering they're made for hot, arid desert-like areas. I mean, I have a lower average body temp than average, and mostly 'cause my ancestors came from higher-temperature areas. So, lol, when I have a high fever, it's closer to 99 rather than 100 or above (my average temp is about 97 degrees).

But, yea, am I over my bout of depression? Not entirely. However, it's to the point where I'm not such a downer. So, yay.

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]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28227694/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28227694/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 21:49:21 PST 'cause it was made of lulz. I also tried this with the word "girlyboy," but it wasn't as funny...kept getting food-involved slogans...dun wanna eat a girlyboy...

If you wanna do it, use this generator: [link]


1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Keep that yaoi complexion.

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
My anti-drug is yaoi.

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Go on, get your yaoi out.

4. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
Nothing comes between me and my yaoi. (This was actually generated. I'm not joking)

5. To someone you dislike?
Come one, come all to yaoi.

6. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would
you excuse yourself?
Let the yaoi begin. (again, not joking. It popped up.)

7. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Things happen after a yaoi. (lol)

8. You're failing a subject, you say...
Where's the yaoi?

9. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
Come to yaoi, and let's get it done. (Nearly speechless with this one.)

10. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Yaoi comes to those who wait.

11. Someone told you you're a jerk, you tell them...
Yaoi is good for you. (It's true! But not for everyone.)

12. What are the best words to describe you?
Next to the breast, yaoi's the best. (I honestly couldn't resist this.)

13. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Yaoi, take me away.

14. Your last words before you die...
Have a yaoi and smile.

15. Your message to a special someone...
It's yaoi time. (My guuuuut. XD *ROFLMAO)

16. Title of this post will be...
Do you, uh, yaoi?

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28221789/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28221789/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 15:57:56 PST
Honestly, I'm incredibly happy and excited. Liking dolls may be girly, but balljoint dolls just rev up my artsy-creative engine!

YAY~!!!!

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28170388/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28170388/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 21:58:51 PST
BUT! There is an upside to this: it's the perfect excuse for me to get a lovely new haircut~! :3 I mean, yes, my hair is already uber short (longest strands are only four inches), but it's all wild and unkempt, and I honestly dunno what to do with it~!

SO~! This weekend, I'm gonna try and get a new haircut (and maybe some makeup to use for cosplay, since I discovered its usefulness in disguising my face this past Oni-con)!

OH~! And Hakuei, my new dolly, is getting a new wig, so it'll be like a new haircut for the whole family (except Takeshi, 'cause he's all sulky about Hakuei).

:3 Dunno why, but I'm just kinda hyper and cheerful right now. It's been a while since I've felt this happy; let's hope it lasts more than a night~! Teehee~! <3

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28116034/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/28116034/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 21:28:06 PST
You see, ever since I started liking BJDolls, I've had a preference for the larger ones (even though I love my Takeshi very much, he's just too small for me). So, finding one that was readily available and at such an inexpensive price just about made me fangasm on the spot.

Unfortunately, the reason for him being so cheap is that he desperately needs to be restrung. His legs are all floppy and feel like they want to come apart. Even so, I still love my new doll, and I can't help but wanna snuggle with him.

Right now, he has honey-colored eyes, a purple wig and purple kimono. I'm considering getting him new eyes to match the purple theme, or maybe a new outfit and wig. Either way, I'm way happier than I should be right now, even though I have to figure out how to restring my new doll. :3 Oh well.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27982627/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27982627/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 21:34:40 PDT
On a side note, I have a dentist's appointment Thursday, and a gynecologist appointment next Wednesday (11/4). These appointments will hopefully take care of the jaw pain and figure out my hormonal balance, respectively.

Whatever.

On a random note: I DON'T WANT MY VITAL REGIONS INVADED~!!! *runs and hides*

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27770273/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27770273/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 19:51:45 PDT La Muse. It was made of total awesome. It's very fanciful, and kind of makes you wish that a character like Susan La Muse would come along into our universe and fix our mistakes. *shrugs* Then again, living would lose half it's fun, neh?

In any case, if any of ya'll wanna read it, just click here.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27733429/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27733429/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 19:09:40 PDT
So, yea, I'm gonna be in no mood to talk to anyone, much less the one who made me mad. I should be fine by the weekend, if I keep getting happy things to think about...

Like my lil Greggi...*gigglefits* Ooooh, can't wait until he gets here~! *skips off merrily*

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27602669/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27602669/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 17:47:05 PDT > As it stands, I'll probably start wearing a mask to work, just in case...>> I don't care if it freaks out my coworkers; its better to freak them out than risk giving them the flu in case I actually have it.

I honestly want to rant, scream, rave, curse, and pull out my hair at the moment.

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]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27241469/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27241469/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 08:14:45 PDT Which means that I'm gonna get back into the swing of sketching comic pages, and actually fulfilling goals I've set for myself~!

So, in order of most important, here's a list of the comics I'm gonna start working on again:

1~~ Porcelain Dolls : A FF7/Advent Children doujin written by , who has been a complete doll for putting up with my lazy shit.

2~~ The Water God's Assistant : I've had the next two pages, and a chapter cover, sketched out for the past month, half-inked. About time I get off my rear and finish them to post.

3~~ Currently unnamed doujin~! : This is my new doujin idea, based solely on Asellus's story from SaGa Frontier. The game gets very little regard among gamers, but I was more into it for the storylines rather than everything else. In any case, a warning: IT IS COMPLETELY CANON FOR ASELLUS TO FALL FOR WOMEN!! For heaven's sake, there's an ending where she takes a bride after becoming a tyrannical Mystic leader. And there are parts in the story where she has romantic moments with Princess White Rose. Just saying this now, in case people try to rant about me trying to "ruin" a game by putting shoujo-ai in it. I reiterate: IT IS CANON.

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]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27146343/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27146343/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 08:08:07 PDT
Did I ever mention that, although my mouth is tiny and that the initial Xrays of my jaw as a kid showed no sign of wisdom teeth buds, I have wisdom teeth buds? Yea. ^^U *eyetwitch* Guess what I can now feel poking down through my gums?

*string of cursewords*

20 effing years without any kind of surgery, and now suddenly I have two possible ones? I hate being twenty... I just hope that, if I need to have surgery, I'll still be able to go to Onicon.

CURSE YOU TO HECK, WISDOM TEETH~!!!! DX

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27039971/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/27039971/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:33:01 PDT
In other, art-related news, I finally gave in and bought some ATCs. :3 The pics that came out are adorable~!!! And I got to draw my three newest characters, too~! I'm really happy with the way they come out, so I might just wind up participating more with these awesome ATCs.

BTW, in case you're not "in the know" like I was a while ago, it stands for Artist Trading Cards. Meaning, various artists get together to trade these little cards with each other. And that's pretty much it. lol. But if you have a favorite artist, I guess you could get some cards from them. XD I don't know too much, 'cause I was still iffy about whether or not I could draw on something so tiny.

In any case, I'll be scanning and posting my newest art pieces later tonight. ^^ Hurray for stress-relieving artsy projects~!

Toodles~!

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26875499/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26875499/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 12:35:58 PDT
I'm gonna go get some felt and stuff to make green sarubobos to take with me if it turns out it is gallstones. >> And, well, I might just bug Die. 'cause this is kinda depressing me...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26820621/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26820621/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:12:24 PDT
Friday, I have a doctor's appointment, in which I'll hopefully find out whether or not I need to do those damnable tests again (hateneedleshateemhateemhateem!), or if its just my body trying to trick me into believing there's something seriously wrong.

Now, before anyone goes off about stomach pains, I'm no stranger to them. I know which places of my stomach hurt for which ailments: lower left ribs for pork/dairy consumption (I'm allergic to them), middle to lower stomach for gas, lower for cramps, and lower right ribs for running stitches. The only place where my stomach almost NEVER hurts is the upper center, a couple inches above my belly button. And this is where I had major pains yesterday, which had me near tears and wishing I would just get up and tell my boss I needed to go home. After about thirty minutes or so, it dulled to an almost-steady ache, fading to near non-existence a couple of times. But it's still painful enough that I actually don't feel hunger (I eat 'cause it'd probably be bad otherwise. Already skipped dinner yesterday). And drinking water just makes me nauseous.

So, yea, a week into being twenty, and I suddenly get a painful kick in the stomach. Dunno what else to rant about, since the pain is preoccupying most of my thought-processes ever since it started...that's it, I guess, for now, until I know more.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26646615/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26646615/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 09:45:10 PDT
Right now, I'm twenty, feeling like shit, and feeling depressed... Happy effing birthday to me... Can't really put exactly what is making me depressed into words, 'cause people might mistake it for being their fault when it isn't...I only have myself to blame for being such a crappy person inside...

Might not do much internet-browsing for a couple of days...haven't been on my computer since last Wednesday night, might not get back on until this weekend, maybe earlier...

Again, happy effing birthday to me...what a shitty birthday right now...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26553858/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26553858/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 17:43:56 PDT
And, well, I'm kinda happy. |D The wigs I'd ordered from Solgoo kinda came in today...I say "kinda" 'cause UPS couldn't deliver without a signature, and my stepdad left for GenCon today so he wasn't at home to get it. Luckily, though, they'll try again.

So, yea, after a hoshit few days, things're coming together. Hurray for perseverance and determination~!

I am actually beginning to understand the satisfaction and joy that comes from making a cosplay on my own.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26535396/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26535396/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 19:59:21 PDT
Well, I guess I'll show it to Die and get her opinion about whether or not to use it...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26513471/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26513471/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 19:39:24 PDT
But, well, so far so good, neh? ^^U

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26468901/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26468901/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 17:17:45 PDT
I was halfway finished with attaching the "skirt" of the jacket to the top vest part, and...*bursts out into tears* THE NEEDLE BROOOOOOOOOOOOKE!!!!!!

*sniffles* I accidentally got jinxed... *sobs* I have to wait until tomorrow to get a replacement, 'cause the pack of supplies that came with the machine mysteriously vanished...

I guess it was a sign that I needed to stop for the night...now, maybe I should concentrate on getting the dyeing done... *sniffles again*

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26453288/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26453288/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 20:45:27 PDT
I was able to get the vest portion of my jacket done, and even though it's a little tight, it should be fine once I add some fabric to the front to make the button holes. *excited squeals* Everything was going smoothly, and I even ran out of thread of my first bobbin. *can't control her excitement* Oh, I might just be able to get the jacket done this weekend~! Nyaaa~!!!

On a dream-bust reality check note, I have to work overtime on Saturday. Four hours. Good thing it's the weekend, 'cause I'll be able to stay up late finishing up the rest of the jacket. ^^ Hopefully my mom will be able to dye the pants and the hat for me while I'm at work.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26431384/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26431384/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 19:59:30 PDT < I was able to get a few stitches done today for the jacket, but I was an idiot, wasn't thinking right, and accidentally sewed the same two pieces together. And I lack a seam ripper.

So, there's a chance I might not be able to do my "mystery" cosplay after all, even though I REALLY would want to...I have to dye the pants, the hat, fabric paint the hat, embroider the pants, redo the color on the shoes, find a white button-down shirt to fit me, sew the jacket, find a button/pin/whatever that's what I need, embroider the jacket, blahblahblah....

Yanno, this is really the first cosplay I've put a goodly amount of effort into...I wonder just how satisfied I'll be when I finish it? 0o

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26323160/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26323160/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 17:56:09 PDT < I need to find a way to make collar pins...*lets out a string of curses* I'm gonna be REALLY loving me some painkillers these next two weeks...oh, bloody wonderful tension headaches...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26306045/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26306045/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 20:14:56 PDT
Somebody shoot me!

What I really need to do, though, is just make the top, and dye some fabric...and get fabric paint...and figure out how to carve a pin. DX Or somehow "bullshit" something similar.

Honestly, though, this being the first cosplay I wanted to do on my own, I guess I really do need to put in more effort. *sweatdrop* I'm hoping all goes well with the cutting of the fabric and sewing, 'cause, otherwise, I'll feel like shit, since I got so hyped up about this "mystery" cosplay. >< Oivey. I can be such an idiot sometimes...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26260947/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26260947/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 18:02:22 PDT
'cause, forsrsness, having an injured foot this close to my next con is a badbadbad thing~!

I'm currently high on pocky and (possibly) endorphins. Phwheeeee~!!! *dizzyspin*

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26073287/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/26073287/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 19:13:42 PDT
It's been a while since I've been depressed, and with all the stress I've been dealing with lately, it just hit me out of nowhere like a sledge hammer. It's times like these that I wish I had someone I could crawl to and just cry my little heart out. But there's no one like that...and I doubt there ever will be for a very, very long time... I'm just...really tired of dealing with my own shit, and of trying to always keep positive...times like these, I just wanna say "FUCK YOU, WORLD!" and rant and rave, just like that...

I'm just really, really scared right now...and depressed...but don't worry, I should be fine...in a few days...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25907642/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25907642/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:37:43 PDT [link]

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25593490/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25593490/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 19:26:19 PDT
me: Hurray, no more wedding shit~!!! D: But, holycrackerwtfharghblarhagb~!!!! ><
keloidgenesis: yay. and what?
me: D| The bride did the whole tossing the bouquet thingy, and all the single ladies had to gather up for it.
keloidgenesis: yeah so? what did you catch it or something. lol
me: ..........
me: *hangs head* Yes.
keloidgenesis: LMFAO
keloidgenesis: LOLOLOLOL
keloidgenesis: omg LMAO
keloidgenesis: wow
keloidgenesis: haha

>< I went to a wedding today, since I was one of the bride's attendants. I am still horrified that I caught the damned bouquet... Why, you may wonder? I may be the next one to get married, but I need an effing boyfriend first, damn it!

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25223017/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25223017/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 18:32:16 PDT < Like, seriously freaking out. To the point that I'm most definitely gonna bring up my concerns with the eye doctor when I next go to get my exam. Until then...I'm gonna see about wearing my contacts more often, if that'll fix some of the problems....

DX My vision is already bad, I don't wanna lose an eye! *bawls*

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25086114/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25086114/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 10:21:10 PDT likes her Tada one. :3 I'll try and scan them later today after work.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25018673/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/25018673/ Fri, 29 May 2009 16:38:15 PDT MahouMakai...I made it up one day while looking at various Japanese words. ^^U Technically, it literally translates to "magical world of spirits". It's SO noobish...

2. Why did you join this site?
Uhm...I've actually forgotten.

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
Anooooo...Inuyasha and Star Ocean: Till the End of Time.

4. How many people are you currently watching now?
Anoooo...dunno. At least ten. And only three update regularly. ^^U

5. Your first gift ever was to?
Gift? What gift? ...Oh yea! To someone not on this site.

6. List five things you are a fan of?
Anooo...Star Ocean series, Final Fantasy series, Shin Megami Tensei series, Skip Beat, and Lovely Complex (Love*Com)

7.) List four people you look up to the most?
...you serious? 0o Uhmmm...FDR, Teddy Roosevelt, Martin Luther King Jr, and Alexander the Great. >> If you can't figure out why I look up to them, you don't know me very well.

9. How many pets do you own?
I don't "technically" own my cat, Tabitha (she thinks her name is Tabby, since that's what she is, and what we call her).

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
Lazy, whiny, and hypocritical. Fun, huh?

13. If you could have a power what would it be?
Oh, that's a tough one...I guess the power to control minds. ^^ Teehee~!

14. Who was the last person you talked to?
My stepdad.

15. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Uhm...my mom.

16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
(1)uhmmm...(2)*cricket chirp* (3)meow! (4)*blinkblink* (5) [a long ass story involving angst, drama, empathy, and eventually a sad ending].

17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
Draw. Seriously.

18. Do you like who you are?
Not terribly much, but much more than I used to. I'm still in the process of accepting the darker aspects of my soul.

19. Summer or winter?
Summer~! Wheee~!!!

20. Rain or sun?
Sun~! *sunbathes with her cat*

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
(1) I actually wanna be a stay-at-home mother. (2) I want a pair of twin boys, and at least one girl.

22. Pop or Hip hop?
Pshaaaa, rock'n'roll all the way, baaaaabeh.

23. How many scars do you have?
Countless. ^^ I have cats, silly~!

24. Do you wear spiked wristbands, collars & belts?
Hahahaha...>> None of the above.

25. Do you own anything from Hot Topic?
a fishnet shirt, and some hair...thingies...

27. Nyc Trpp or Lip Service?
Uhhh...whaaaa?

28. Steak or Chicken?
STEAK~!!!! Make it soooo rare that it's stiiiiillll moooin'~!

29. Favorite Color(s)?
Blue, green, dark red.

30. Anime or Manga?
Hmm...I'm more of a manga person nowadays.

31. Beer or wine?
^^ I'm allergic to alcohol, kthxbai.

32. Goth or Emo?
Is there a difference? ^^U Just kidding...neither.

33. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
Uhmm...I actually haven't counted...I only wear one pair regularly, though.

34. What is the most amount alcohol you ever drank in one day?
One sip. Then I wanted to puke.

35. Cold or Hot?
Cold if I'm sick, hot if I'm fine.

36. Favourite pair of pants?
Don't have one...I guess any pair that isn't ripped.

37. Do you like your user name
Not really. I've been thinking of changing it, but people know me by it.

38. Have you tried any drugs?
I'd rather not fuckover my body more than it is naturally, thankyouverymuch!

39. If you have? what drugs?
See above. >>

40. Do you have a myspace/Facebook page?
Alas, yes. Only to watch my favorite bands.

41. Pizza or Kebabs?
Kebabs. I'm starting to hate pizza.

42. Are you a nice person?
I'd like to think I am, but I'm told I can be a total bitch.

43. How old are you?
19

44. Spikes, studs or eyelets?
Uhmmm...none of the above? ^^U

45. Do you like your music loud?
Earbuds, yes. Otherwise, no.

46. Kind hearted?
Most of the time, yes.

47. Holden or Ford?
Whaat?

48. Annoying?
Haha...that's why I... ]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24994459/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24994459/ Thu, 28 May 2009 09:41:39 PDT ...'cause I could, and it tempted me. >3> Don't judge me!

(Warning: I can and will make reference to obscure anime I've seen, or games I've played. >D 'cause I'm evil like that.)

1. List 10 ~Anime/Manga/Game~ shows which get in your mind.
2. Your friends name one character out of the show that they think best fits you. (IMPORTANT: Really fits, not the favorite character.)
3. Tell some reasons why they chose this character for you.


01. Shamanic Princess
02. Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 4
03. Final Fantasy (any of the series)
04. Okami
05. Cowboy Bebop
06. Code Geass (so sue me, it's a guilty pleasure.)
07. Rozen Maiden
08. Lux-Pain (I suspect that only one person will answer this one. XD)
09. Outlaw Star (wow, do people even remember this?)
10. Gundam 08th MS Team (doood, so oldskool. XD)

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DX I'm not even halfway done, yet. That's the sad part.

It's times like these that I wish I was on happy pills...where's that damnable ceratonin when I need it!? DX

...*whimper*...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24648922/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24648922/ Fri, 08 May 2009 09:39:27 PDT < I've been feeling decidedly craptastic this week. I've had a slight headache for most of it, along with nausea, pain, and now my tongue hurts from accidentally biting it in my sleep (it hurts so much 'cause I made it bleed). I also haven't been sleeping well. On top of all that, "Auntie Flo" is visiting currently, after a month and a half break (which is normal for me). >^< Yargh. It'll be a loooooong while until I feel up for updating much of anything.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24580945/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24580945/ Mon, 04 May 2009 09:40:14 PDT
>3> I've been a lazy brat, I know. I'm behind on sketching out the two comics I'm working on, even with the delay my internet-breakage caused.

So...I guess this means I'm gonna get back into working. ^^U Hurray?

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24480271/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24480271/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 08:05:55 PDT > My laptop can no longer access the internet, which means delays in working on the Porcelain Dolls doujin, and my own project, Twilight Eyes. My mom thinks it's the conflicker (or wtf its name is) virus playing havoc with my internet connection. I don't know, I'm not a computer whiz, and I don't think my stepdad or older brother can fix it, anyways. Either way, my computer is royally screwed.

>> Thankfully, I have my "ohshitz!" 'fund'...meaning some money saved for emergencies. So, after I get off work today (which'll be LATE, 'cause of overtime), I'm gonna bug my mom to take me to WalMart, or Best Buy. 'cause it looks like I'll be getting a new laptop today...

Crackerjacks.

[edit]

I think I might have set a new record for how soon I managed to crash my new Dell laptop. Mere hours after purchasing it, I somehow managed to screw it up so badly that it restarts before I can even log in to the account on the computer. DX I'm gonna have to reformat the ENTIRE thing when I get home today...

<< Where the hell did my tech savvy go? Probably down the crapper with all my neutral luck...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24391321/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24391321/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 09:40:49 PDT . I just finally finished the cover art yesterday and sent it to her, and, well, I'm pretty damned amazed how it turned out, myself. ^^ I had my doubts that I was ready for such a thing, but it looks like my doubts were wrong~!

The cover art is posted up on her DevArt for now, but the majority of the doujin pages will be up on the website for the doujin. I don't know the link right now, since I'm updating this at work, but I'll try and get the link to the website ASAP.

^^ So, without further ado, go lookit my first attempt at a doujin cover~!

[link]

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Now, on to what I really wanna talk about...I finally got off my lazy ass and purchased Manga Studio Debut 4~! :3 It is TOTALLY awesome, and is totally worth the price I paid. I'm going to be using this most definitely when finishing up the first pages for Twilight Eyes.

^^ Also, I'm also currently at work on doing the manga adaptation to a Final Fantasy 7 fanfiction. The writer's original artist kinda crapped out on her, and I volunteered to do the art for her since she was stressing out over it. So far, I personally like what I've done, especially since it's giving me extra experience in manga-making, which I will put to good use for Twilight Eyes.

So, yea, I'm excited~! :3 My dream is close to becoming reality, and I feel all misty-eyed just from that thought.

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Nyaaa, I wanna draw Naoto-chibi. :3 'cause Naoto is the shitz, and if you don't agree, she'll blow you away with Megidola. Beware the Almighty skill attack~! :3

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24084611/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/24084611/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 21:57:24 PDT < I'm feeling kinda moody, mostly 'cause I've been unable to actually speak more than a few words at a time for the past week or so. I never really realize just how little I talk until I'm in a large group of people and I CAN'T 'cause no one will let me. It's rather depressing, 'cause even though I'm said to be "fantastic" about getting my thoughts and feelings down using the written word, I'm unable to do so when talking out loud. I wonder if that's the reason why I talk and laugh to myself when I'm alone?

<< In other news, Hibiki still doesn't have new strings or accessories, so I haven't begun to learn to play the guitar, which is just adding to the depressed feeling I've had. I guess I just need to draw more, to keep myself from getting so down.

The title is in reference to Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 4, and the fact that the bosses are all "shadows" of the characters. Meaning, the true thoughts and feelings that the characters suppress. ^^U I do a LOT of suppressing, but not as much as I used to. >> So, with moody shit going on right now, I've the idea that my Shadow self would be a very dangerous boss...would probably require at LEAST five Moon Tsukubame...

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Yeaaaa...I need to trim the waistline MAJORLY, remove excess material from the shoulders (I've got small shoulders, and the dress looks weird with the poofs hanging off the edges), and figure out a better way to do the collar and bow. Oh, and find a lighter fabric that's still the same color...

^^U Meanwhile, I need to style the wig a bit so I can make those stubborn bangs look better.

<< Yeaaaa...If I'm able to remake Renge's dress with any amount of success, I might just attempt to make Momoko's dress, too...

XD On another note I've decided to nickname my guitar Hibi-chan, short for Hibiki. XD Look it up on behindthename.com if you're curious about the meaning. Otherwise...Hibi-chan and Ma-kun signing out~!

(PS: I was nicknamed Ma-kun by a roleplayer who probably thinks I'm a dude. XD lol)

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23862276/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23862276/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:07:19 PDT > Dunno how it needs new strings, 'cept for the fact that the strings aren't coated and would probably shread the pads off my fingers lickety-split if I tried practicing now.

But, honestly, this is a new door that's open to me. x3 I haven't had a music class since elementary school, so I've forgotten most of the music know-how I'd learned way back then. I'm actually really excited, 'cause music has just started becoming such a big part of my life, I want to be able to create it, and not just listen to it.

Wish me luck~!

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I'm not mad, or upset, anymore...just kind of frustrated that I should've had a contingency plan to begin with. But, I guess I'd just gotten used to the calm before the storm.

Anyways...yea. I would rant further about the curveball that wasn't pitched to me, but I'd rather not, seeing as how it does me no good.

In the end, after all, I still got hit by that ball, and man does it HURT!

edit:: I will say this, though: damn, but my mom is awesome. I appreciate her, and her outlook on life, a lot more after this weekend.

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23820499/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23820499/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 20:35:47 PDT
<< Until then...whatever.

edit: Well. Its official. I am fucking depressed because, right now, everything is fucked up, and I still have to be polite and sensitive to those assholes who don't even give a fuck that I have to do stuff I don't want to do because I have no fucking choice. And I can't scream and rant and blow up at people because I have a conscience, and would feel guilty about it, unlike those assholes I mentioned.

Life sucks. And right now I am hating everything, and shaking 'cause I'm crying so hard.

Why should this disappointment be any different from the other countless times? Selfish or not, I'm tired of catering to other people's emotions when they don't try to care about mine.

Enough, I'm tired, depressed, and just want to stop shaking.

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As for personal life...I'm currently trying to reign in my inner fangirl. XD I've been squealing and fangirling over getting to see Quaff again. They may not be that terribly great live, but they've just got so much energy that its hard NOT to enjoy it (plus, I REALLY like the cd I bought). There'll be other Japanese rock bands there, too, but I'm mainly going for Quaff. XD And I've almost got faces and names memorized, which is a good thing. I almost NEVER memorize names and faces for a band I like, unless I REALLY like them.

So...yea, a little update about how I've been, I guess...

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It was a chibi chimaera commision-thingy, which kinda made me confused. It's a gamer's convention (as in table-top gaming), so why use something anime-esque? Mostly, I think, it's to attract the anime fans in, to get a larger crowd, even though there's hardly any anime stuff there.

Sooo...for my first official professional artwork, its kinda anticlimatic. 0o Either that, or I'm still in shock...>> Mebbe it'll hit me when I see the finished piece on the booklet-thingy-majig later today...

But, yay? ^^U

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23421666/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23421666/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 18:31:23 PST 's and mine future web-manga-comic). ^^U Which is sad, considering I REALLY should be working on Twilight Eyes itself...mebbe I should just suck it up and get one of those manga-making programs I've seen around somewhere on the interwebz.

Maaaaah... Curse my lazy streak...curse it to heeeeeck.

On a sillier note, there is absolutely nothing wrong with me wearing my tshirts and jeans. >> But apparently it IS wrong to wear them when I wanna attract guys...

Dear heaven on earth...I'M BECOMING A GIRLY GIRL!~!!!!!!! DX Nooooooooo~!!!!!

>< Why the hell am I having my "i like boys, i wanna attract boys, i wanna kiss boys" phase now, when I'm about half a year away from turning twenty!? YARGH!!!!!

<< Stupid hormones...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23302505/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/23302505/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 08:09:14 PST
Anyways, since wouldn't stop by the Dealer's Room with me so I could show her a picture of Kaya's prettiness, I figured I'd buy one of the glossy photo prints. The seller noticed what I was getting, and mentioned that Kaya's new single was out. I told him that I'd looked for a Kaya cd but couldn't find one (didn't look very hard. Was looking more for Merry and Ayabie), so he went over and picked out two. I got them both (an album and the new single). Since then, I've been listening to the music from the cds almost every day.

I'm...I feel like I'm almost in love. I mean, the music is just THAT good, that I'm tempted to become a fan of Kaya.

And, well...XD I guess I'm just a sucker for a deep-voiced, pretty man in a dress. A beautiful dress... >> Wonder if that means I'll wind up marrying a crossdressing man prettier than me? Hmm, that has possibitilies...

For now, I remain on my Kaya kick, and wish to draw chibi-Kaya, and other Jrockers...

lol

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Also, I got a haircut. I went back to having uber-short hair, like I used to have back in freshman year of high school. Its almost a pixie cut, but more stylish...sorta. XD Its lopsided, like I like, and the general opinion of those who've seen it is that its the cutest haircut I've had so far.

So...might take a new pic of my new haircut. XD

In other news, I'm gonna try and write a scifi mystery/adventure/romance story. I dunno how good I'll be at scifi, but I DO tend to watch a lot of scifi shows...

Wish me luck, neh?

Oh, and its still up in the air whether or not I'll be getting an artist alley table at San Japan. I'm gonna try and see if I can do more fanart, and get glossy prints of it before I'll decide.

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Ikkicon was okay, for the most part...except when I had a bad depression bout Saturday night, and was stuck alone in the hotel room for several hours. I coulda left the room, gone to see one of the panels, then called one of my roommates later for a card key, but I wasn't thinking straight. I can't think straight when I'm in a depression bout. Pretty much all I could think about was that I effed my life up, that I have nobody to look at me as more than a friend, that I'm not as strong emotionally as everyone thinks I am...

The bout has let up a bit this past week, but now its starting to worsen again, and all because of stupid Valentine's Day. I've never had a good Valentine's Day, believe you me. Even back in elementary school, the day has had it out for me. The only difference between now and back then is that I'm now fully aware just how pathetic it is that I'll probably wind up buying my own Valentine's Day gifts.

So, yea...I'm not doing too hot right now. I think I may just have to avoid talking to people for about a week, so I don't have to be reminded every time someone opens their mouth that people will probably never see me as more than a friend.

Stupid fucking depression. Stupid fucking holiday...

I think I might be tempted to take a mental health sick day soon...

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22980486/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22980486/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 09:47:47 PST
I mean, sure, I'm not one of the brightest thinking fast on my feet (except on occasion), but when it deals with writing, reading, and the human language on paper, there isn't much I'll miss. I've glanced through a few of my mom's college text books for biochemistry, and once I understood the meaning of some words, I could understand what was being said.

But the way I act in public...I mean, should an intelligent person always act serious, use big words, and look down on those less intelligent? We're all people, and we all deserve to have fun and be silly occasionally. I don't usually use big words when I talk, because most of the time the people I'm talking to have never heard that particular word before. And I don't look down on those less intelligent than me, not unless they're being stubborn assholes set in their knowledge of a particular subject when they're actually quite wrong about it.

Seriously, though...I'm getting rather frustrated with how I'm treated because of the way I act, look, and dress. Do I need to take an IQ test to prove that I'm not a stupid big-boobed girl who wears a tshirt and jeans?

Jeeez...I probably should take a blasted IQ test. >>

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22960884/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22960884/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 09:47:41 PST
So, what I'm going to be trying is to write, in depth, the story of Lykke and Nila, who escape from their failing land into a new one, only to find themselves in even greater danger than in their homeland. It'll be tough, trying to keep the different cultures from bleeding into one another, but I still want to try.

In other news, its less than five days until Ikkicon, and I'm excited. ^^ I may still need to get a few things, but for the most part I'm ready. After this con, I'll be waiting pretty much half a year until the next one, which is San Japan. I'm gonna try and make the happyfunfun from Ikki last until then~!

Yea, anyways...guess that's all I have to say for now. Ja~!

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22914567/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22914567/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 23:12:54 PST
I'll be bringing along Xaldin, along with his somebody, Dilan. ^^U Gotta fix up a wig, though...and buy the rest of Dilan's outfit. >> And somehow manage to find a wristband to wear to cover up my tattoo...I'm pretty sure Dilan wouldn't have a red tattoo on the top of his wrist.

In any case, I'll also be trying out my new badge that I made. ^^ I'm also making one for , who I'll be heading to Ikkicon with, but I haven't even begun to color it. I'll probably make her decide which colors she wants.

So...yea. That's pretty much it for now, besides me and my usual partial insanity. ^^ Ja ne~

]]> ~MahouMakai http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22805047/ http://MahouMakai.deviantart.com/journal/22805047/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 14:09:11 PST 3> I have this new game, Star Ocean: First Departure. Well, technically it was released in Japan way back, back before Star Ocean: the Second Story (with Claude and Rena), and is the actual first Star Ocean game. But the game didn't make it over here, "officially." Some gamers translated the game and put it on the internet for other gamers to download and play, apparently. At least, that's what my brother says.

But, officially, this is probably the first time this particular game has been released stateside. Which is awesome. It tells the story Claude's father, Ronyx, and the adventures that began the whole Star Ocean series (even explains how Star Ocean got its name~! lol). Although, Ronyx isn't technically the main character of the game, he's still one of the four main characters that aren't optional. The rest are.

So, one of the optional characters you can get, by the name of Ioshua Jerand, is, like totally awesome and ftw~! He's a Featherfolk symbology user, and he's pretty weak when you get him (around level 20 when you're about 25~30). However, I just can't get enough of this angelboy. Ever since I first saw the Featherfolk in Star Ocean: Til the End of Time, I've been in love with the race, and wanted a chance to have one in my battle party. And now I've been given that chance, which just plain ROCKS. Seriously, if I can figure out a way to get angel wings wig enough, I would crossplay him, period. Screw the rest of my cosplays, I'll be Ioshua, the Featherfolk angelboy~!

lol. I'm not kidding. I really would. I love him that much. xD So, please expect some fanart of Ioshua in the near future.

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