http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Make-tea-not-war&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Make-tea-not-war en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 06:03:08 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23695985/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23695985/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 14:36:37 PDT I just wrote a journal and my interwebs died, so I'll re-type.
I'VE MOVED TO !
My new account is empty atm, but I'll transfer some stuff over and wipe everything from this account away.
I've got a big list of people to add, so save me some greif and add me?! D:


That's K O I - P H I S H.


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23695594/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23695594/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 14:11:06 PDT SINCE WHEN THE FUCK DO I HAVE LIKE OVER 21,000 PAGEVIEWS?!
It's kind of creepy. Seeing as like 7/8ths of the visitors have probably been pedos. >___>
I was thinking of moving to a new account soon. Just as a phresh start.
I'll probably just put all of my shit into storage and then open a new account today.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23674529/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23674529/ Fri, 13 Mar 2009 11:00:57 PDT Alice in Wonderland dance tonight~
They have masks and beads and loud music and awesome things of the like. I'll take pictures.
<3

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23624369/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23624369/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 10:54:43 PDT this whole scratching myself in my sleep thing is going a little too far.
my arm is like all red and scratched up and like ewwie. and cut open a little.
I had a bad dream last night, so that's probably why.

anyways, we did a workshop today during school, and it was alright. I got to tell this guy he was old, and he was like "Oh. 'Kay. Which color is older, black or green? 'Cause I'll pick the oldest one."
and the conversation went like this;
I said "Oh, this'll be awkward". so he was like "Why?" and I was like "'Cause you're old".
;-; it was funny but now it just sounds mean.
anywhooo, I fell asleep during the last part. it felt wonderful.

MY HEAD IS ITCHY UWAH.

okay, so srz bidness tiem gaiz. I found my white sweater with the jaune und gris hearts. : D
I've been looking for it, and mummaw found it so I was like "DANKE".

that is all.

koi out~

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23610921/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23610921/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 14:39:05 PDT ohhay.
my name is koi.
C:




SO LIEK. I'M FEELING GOOOOOOOOOD.
I THINK.
I HAVEN'T FELT VERY GOOD IN A WHILE.
SO THIS IS NICE.
YOU SHOULD TALK TO ME. : D

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23592324/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23592324/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:57:33 PDT Lol editing this whole journal because I'm in a better mood. xD
I'll upload some pictures into my scraps later~
But the con was pretty much just amazing.
I bought SO MANY THINGS, and met so many awesome people.
And played the pocky game. ;D
And I just need all of you to see Allisons outfit. She's like super scene harajuku whatever. I saw her and went "OMG MY FRIEND KAITIE WOULD RAPE YOU SO MUCH." so I took a picture or two of her. xDD
[link]

And other pictures you might likey. ;D

RENO AND DEM DEM! Awesome people I kissed while playing the pocky game; Reno and I spread our demon seed on the stairs. xD
[link]


<3

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23551988/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23551988/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 05:27:21 PST I'll be leaving for the Animaritime in like 30 minutes! > 3333<
Right now I'm still in another province, and it'll be a 5 hour drive, BUT I'M SUPAH EXCITED. I will take many a picture fer yew gaiz. ;O
Wish you could come with me!
,
Shelby~

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23525384/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23525384/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 14:22:44 PST so liek CONVENTION. YES. IT'S SO SOOOOOON.
It's on Friday, and I have a half day tomorrow at school, and I can pack tomorrow.
-Yes.-
--
Rarararara. I have these lovely characters for literature named Ezra, Violet, Sett, Gelf and Fayt.
I was thinking of using them for fantasy; maybe my english teacher'll let me do something like that for my assignment.
And the plot will be kind of ripped off from Final Fantasy; only in the fact that they're sky pirates and they live on a ship and there's little monsters. xD
'Cause I suck.
--


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23503123/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23503123/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 07:40:54 PST Home from school again.
Watching Hana Kimi. Again.
Behind the scenes ftw. xDDD

"I was wearing a singlet, and then when Dong saw me take of my shirt he made fun of me."
"Why did Da Dong see you take off your shirt?"
"E... o_______o WE SHARE A ROOM."

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23475216/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23475216/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 17:17:05 PST [link]
MY EARS
THEY BLEEEEED

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23447071/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23447071/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 09:07:36 PST I'm still really sick. There's like less than a week to the con, so I'm really panicked that I won't be better by then. Because there's no way I can go if I'm still sick. D:
I can't walk without feeling pukie or leg-wobbly but I can go on my interwebs and feel fine.
ಠ___ಠ
I'll probably be doodling some'ore latah.


--
Edit:
HOMFG
HOMFG
NO DOUBT COME BACK TOUR. D:
I NEED TO GO.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23429633/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23429633/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 08:38:14 PST So liek. My throat is being a big fucking failure atm.
I'm sick, so I'm home from school. Which is alright.
It hurts to swallow.
And I laughed to hard at Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist so now it hurts even moar.
--
Those of you who wanted those little plushies will have to wait even longer. @_____@
With all of my busy shiz and my money-less pockets and my extra homework and ugh.
I won't be able to get them done untill like summer. Because I suck.
--
Going to see the doctor today, ho hum. Fail.
--


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23416736/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23416736/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 13:49:16 PST Mmf.
; n;
Nothing ever gets better.
--
So liek, school is fail.
My English teacher is giving me harder work than everyone else in my class, and on top of that he wants it to be political, and on top of that he won't shut the fuck up about it so I can't tell him that I can't do it!
I have too many personal problems, school is a lot of pressure without having to excel in English, and I just can't do it.
I just want to lay in my bed and never wake up.

--
I haven't been eating very well.
Barely anything.
Usually what I get at school, and then noodles.
And I kind of like the feeling of my stomach being empty. It's surreal.
But my hips are fucking huge.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23357917/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23357917/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 07:21:14 PST [link]
I know it's lame.
But.
They're all running around.
In tight clothes.
Sweating.
And panting.
e_______________e
I'm sorry.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23337968/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23337968/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 07:40:12 PST The convention is in less than two weeks.
I'm trying to contain myself, but knowing when there's like five days away I'll be crying and screaming and dancing around my living room.
|D
Oh, and this Lolita-like vendor will be there.
WITH FUCKING HARAJUKU LIKE DRESSES. AND I WANT SOME. ; n;
Auch, I'm too excited to write any more about it or I'll burst. xD
--
I doodled like crraaazzzyyy last night.
And I got 's picture of Wu Zun and Jiro Wang ( ) done.
;D
I'll upload most of my pictures, but 60% of them will most likely go into my scraps.
--
Wells, I gotta go get my school/guitar stuff ready.
Bbl.
--
,





--
EDIT:
I look teh hawts in boy clothes. Srz.
I had my hair down and I had on black skinnies and a white dress shirt with a black n' white piano belt. If I would'a had a fecking black tie it would've been like SCHWAA.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23325332/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23325332/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 13:45:01 PST I think that Mendelson Shape should be really hot.
Except everyone that draws him makes him ugly. ; u;

A soul of water,
A soul of stone.
A soul by name,
A soul unknown.

The hours unmake
Our flesh, our bone.
The soul is all;
And all alone.

Auch, is Christopher Carrion bald? D:
--
Sooo, my mum is home. n 3n
She got home today and I got to go to the airport and eat four dollar and fifty cent two scoop ice cream. C:
Ohohoh, and I got to push the cart.
--
I was thinking of doing requests again.
I've probably got like 474739847 requests to do, but I forgot them.
So feel free to be like "I WANT YOU TO DRAW THIS FOR ME."
Because I will. 8D
--
,



--
To draw:
Jiro Wang and Wu Zun/Chun/Chen/WHATEVER being sexy for . <3

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23312639/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23312639/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 19:24:49 PST Is that not the hottest thing you've seen since Hana Kimi episode 6?



/fangirl.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23286530/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23286530/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 10:18:24 PST So I got my wig today in the mail.
The package was ripped in several places, and they sent me the wrong wig.
It took a month for it to get here.
And the convention is in roughly 2 weeks.
It's not even the same color or style.
Nice.


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23283781/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23283781/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 06:01:51 PST So I feel like garbage again, thanks to my stupid brother. Again.
Last night he waltzed in at 11, and decides to fight with my dad for no reason, causing Dylan to have complete satisfaction in his control over the family and my stress.
And I can't do anything about that, because when I get upset Dylan yells at me about how it's none of my buisness and how it shouldn't be affecting me.
Dylan made me charge his iPod, so I flicked through the apps once he went downstairs. I clicked on Youtube, and the latest search was "how to roll a cross joint", which is the method of making your joint look like a cross, obviously. Demonstrated here; [link]
So that kind of threw out my notion of "Hey, maybe Dylan cares enough to stop smoking Green!"



...Nope.

--

To see a penguin in your dream, signifies that your problems are not as serious as you may think. It serves as a reminder for you to keep you cool and remain level-headed. Alternatively, a penguin seen in your dream suggests that you are being weighed down by your emotions or by a negative situation. You need to find some balance and inner harmony.
To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.
To see ice in your dream, suggests that you are lacking a flow of ideas and thoughts. You are not seeing in progress in your life. Alternatively, you may be feeling emotionally paralyzed or rigid. You need to let your feelings be known.
To see a transsexual in your dream, indicates that the masculine and feminine aspects of your Self has been damaged. You may be unwilling to confront your shadow self.
To dream that you are wearing a costume, signifies that you are putting on a facade toward others. Your true self is not being revealed and you are not being completely honest with people around you.
To dream that others are bleeding, signifies an emotional cry for help.
To dream that you are arguing, suggests that you are trying to resolve some internal conflict or some unsettled issue in your waking life. Consider the symbolism of whom you are arguing with and what you are arguing about. How does he or she reflect some person or some aspect of yourself in your waking life?

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23270339/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23270339/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 12:07:49 PST Stephen King publicly announced his distaste for Stephenie Meyer's horribly amature writing skills in a recent USA TODAY interview claiming, "Stephenie Meyer can't write worth a darn. She's not very good." He goes on to explain, "in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it's very clear that she's writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books. It's exciting and it's thrilling and it's not particularly threatening because they're not overtly sexual. A lot of the physical side of it is conveyed in things like the vampire will touch her forearm or run a hand over skin, and she just flushes all hot and cold. And for girls, that's a shorthand for all the feelings that they're not ready to deal with yet."
Epic fucking win.
Round of applause for Stephen King.
--
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23251971/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23251971/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 11:37:38 PST Please comfort me. ;___;

paigesherrillvictoriaa . says:
lawl, mine does that too.

paigesherrillvictoriaa . says:
and i have a cold from your brawtha. >.>

paigesherrillvictoriaa . says:
so i'z a sick mizza.

Tai Mei Køi says:
EEEW, DUN' WANNA KNOW HOW HE GAVE YOU THAT. xDDD

paigesherrillvictoriaa . says:
lawlawl, no you do not ;D

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23221473/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23221473/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 18:01:24 PST I'm in love with Ella Chen from S.H.E.

Not even kidding, they're my new favourite band.
And they're probably the best band I've ever heard preform live.
Super Star and Listen To Yuan Wei Jen Play Guitar are my favourite songs.
Listen to them, fuckers.

--

needs people to commision her! Be a good friend and do so!

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23219409/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23219409/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 15:58:20 PST I don't personally know her, but needs your help!
[link]
I can't afford to comish her because I'm spending all of my money on cosplay and stuff, but I'm sure that a couple of my watchers must have some money!
I know that if I was in this situation I'd be begging for money from all of you, but she's working for hers with her art. ;____;
Please help her!

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23211193/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23211193/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 07:49:13 PST Blah, blah, blah, blah.
My stupid brother always has to cause drama for no reason, just to stress everyone else out.
And when he doesn't get his way he goes and does something that pisses me off further.
:/
I really can't wait to magically wake up and be part of Kaitie's house. Like a lampshade or something. Because that way there would be no drama.
Because I would be a lampshade.
A lampshade in Kaitie's house.



EDIT.
My webcam is now a fucking sexy beast.
Look at it and then go change your underpants.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23200723/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23200723/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 16:59:15 PST I could easily cosplay as Iggy.
I just need to grow some wings.
>________>











]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23174567/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23174567/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 13:15:23 PST
I didn't get to see hot German guy today.

But I got to see hot Asian guy today.
Someone should really tell him to not keep his wallet in his back pocket.
Irgendwie, I had bass lessons today and I excelled very well-like.
Keith taught me easy ways to remember chords so I don't have to use sheets when playing with mum, and then we just jammed to random country and Green Day.
It was awesome.
School was alright as well; we did have a math test that I'm sure I got a low mark on because I messed up the formula with the degrees and the percentages and I killed my pie chart. xD
We had French which was awesome, though. But I still prefer English classes. I have a book picked out that I want as my novel, but it's taking so long to get to English that I already have it half read.
And Valentine's Day is coming up.
I beleive it's such a like... consumer (?) holiday. Just so suits can get richer by selling cheap bears, chocolates and condoms.
But that's what people who haven't ever had a Valentine say.
Hence why I'm saying it now. ;D



Bitches gonna get slapped.



= .


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23161728/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23161728/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 18:04:40 PST I am so tired of sexual monsters.
Pedophiles, people with sick fetishes.
I'm tired of always being faced with rape and abuse, especially online.
I come online to relax and talk to my friends and look at art.
Not to be asked what my asl is.
And it deeply bothers me that nothing can be erased permanently on the internet.
I'm so tired of being at risk when all I want to do is have fun.
:/

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23155648/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23155648/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 12:44:07 PST I AM IN LOVE
WITH JIRO WANG.
[link]

HE'S AN AWKWARD HYPER ACTOR AND HE'S IN A TERRIBLE BOY BAND CALLED FAHRENHEIT.
THEY MAKE TERRIBLE MUSIC AND I LOVE IT.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23153439/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23153439/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 10:00:08 PST KSAJFGAJGFD
NEW GERMAN EXCHANGE STUDENT?!!?!?

jess εlle says:
OMG.
jess εlle says:
THERES A NEW GERMAN EXCHANGE STUDENT.
Chompy Køi says:
o_________o
Chompy Køi says:
WHO
Chompy Køi says:
WHAT
Chompy Køi says:
WOHDFSFJFQ3rh3r8w3yrw8e4yr
jess εlle says:
HE IS..
Chompy Køi says:
WHO?!
jess εlle says:
-drooool-
Chompy Køi says:
WHERE1?
Chompy Køi says:
WHERE!?
Chompy Køi says:
WHERE1?
jess εlle says:
AT OUR SCHOOL
Chompy Køi says:
PICTURES?
Chompy Køi says:
PICTURES?
Chompy Køi says:
NEH?
Chompy Køi says:
NAME?
jess εlle says:
he was in line yesterday when i was getting a pizza, and he looked back at me annnnd HDFKSUHKF FIUKH
jess εlle says:
MMMM.
Chompy Køi says:
DOES HE HAVE BLACK HAIR? DDDD:
Chompy Køi says:
DOES HE?
jess εlle says:
I dont know his name, I didnt even know he was an exchange student until sarah said, and pointed, and i looked over and he was bending over atable SHOWING HIS ASS.
jess εlle says:
uuh, black or really dark brown.
Chompy Køi says:
FUCK
Chompy Køi says:
ALL OF YOU
Chompy Køi says:
I SAW HIM FIRST
Chompy Køi says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Chompy Køi says:
BWAHAHAHAHA
Chompy Køi says:
THE FIRST DAY WHEN WE HAD FRENCH
Chompy Køi says:
I SAID
Chompy Køi says:
THERE WAS A HOT GUY
Chompy Køi says:
WITH DARK HAIR
Chompy Køi says:
AT HIS LOCKER
Chompy Køi says:
WITH MR. JOHNSON
Chompy Køi says:
I SAW HIM FIRST
Chompy Køi says:
SO I CALL DIBS.
jess εlle says:
THAT WAS HIM?
Chompy Køi says:
>DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Chompy Køi says:
YES!
Chompy Køi says:
OBVIOUSLY!
jess εlle says:
LOL.
Chompy Køi says:
I TOTES CALL DIBS.
Chompy Køi says:
MINE.
jess εlle says:
YOU HAVE HOT ASAIN MAN.
jess εlle says:
XD
jess εlle says:
OH
jess εlle says:
BTW.
Chompy Køi says:
NUH UH, HE HAS A SLUT GIRLFRIEND
jess εlle says:
he was wearing a nice shirt.
Chompy Køi says:
GWAH.
jess εlle says:
i want his wardrobe.
Chompy Køi says:
FUCK YOU, MENSTRUAL CYCLE
Chompy Køi says:
I SHOULD'VE BEEN THERE
Chompy Køi says:
DDDDD<
jess εlle says:
XDD


DAMNIT.
I WASN'T THERE.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23144484/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23144484/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 18:16:50 PST Idol is on. : 3










/pointless journal entry.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23135139/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23135139/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 08:29:31 PST Gwah, I get to stay home again today. Dad's gone to Halifax and he's worried that if I go the neighbour won't be able to come pick me up from school when I (and I will) get cramps.
Thanks, God. You really hit one out of the theoretical ball park when you designed the human body.

GET PREGNANT OR BLEED OUT OF THAT WHOLE ONCE A MONTH.
BUT I DON'T WANT TO GET PREGNANT!
THAN GO BUY PADS YOU BITCH.
BUT I HAVE TO DO HOMEWORK!
THAT'S NOT MY PROBLEM. *Poofs away.*


;______________________;
--
so liek fuck all of you that have sun.
It's still dreary and snowy up here.
; ^;
*Shot for whining.*

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23119615/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23119615/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 11:53:46 PST OH, THE JOYS OF BEING A WOMAN.
=__________=
As well as those womanly pains, I've got this horrid pain in the left side of my throat, and every time I swallow or clench my throat it feels like someone is dragging a needle over all of my glands.
Monoplz?










...Time to do the Time Warp Memeplz? [link]

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23100174/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23100174/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 11:02:36 PST Edward Cullen should remember that crap that sparkles is still just sparkling crap. My friend got attacked by Twitards.
WHEN WILL THE FUCKING MADNESS END? JESUS!
I'm so tired of Twilight!
I hate it even more than I used to.
But my god, MY GOD, Stephanie Meyer has started a fucking cult. And not even a cool one.
She should be shot.
Also, anyone who wants to attack an anti-Twilighter, call me. Because I will seriously cut you under the right circumstances. :/
--
So today at school we got our own web pages. Was die fick. xD
It's like mini FB. Except for school.
It's alright, I'll just post random j-pop/rock pictures all over it and be happy. :3
--
JESSICA IS A MAGICAL GOLDEN DEER.
AND JOSH IS A DUCK.




















[edit]
I really want to do a nude shoot with a legal-aged model.
But I am a 14 year old pervy chick in a hick town.


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23081541/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23081541/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 12:06:21 PST [link]
Someone, please buy her for me. ;____;
She's so gorgeous~

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23046956/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23046956/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 18:50:51 PST
I have extremely sensitive skin. And this stupid soap just ripped 20 pounds off my body. And now I have to over-moisturize. Even though it's not helping.
I NEED OOOLLAAAAAY. OR DOOOOVVVEEE.
I am paper-skinned. And I have glass bones.
I'm so fragile, DAMNIT. ;____;
--
Aah, the weekend. *Slouches.*
We have to sit up straight in English, now. So I can only slouch on the weekends.
That nagging feeling to do homework is kicking my butt.




]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23040380/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23040380/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 13:00:29 PST I wanna make a dress-up game really bad. ;______;
Just becaue I am that cool.
What program do I use? D:

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23020688/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23020688/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 13:27:52 PST Mom left her diabetes cookies here.
Homnomnom. They taste good. : D



]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23002586/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/23002586/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 13:18:06 PST I can't stand it here
I wanna be like everybody elses family
I want to have an older brother that I can hug and play games with
And a mom and a dad who understood everything
And a family who didn't yell all the time
And a brother who doesn't get kicked out of the house and doesn't yell at me because I'm upset
I just want the yelling to stop
I just want someone to make it stop
Make it stop
I'm so tired of being here
I just want it to stop

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22999543/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22999543/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 09:54:30 PST So, there's this girl at school. And I'm pretty sure she hates me. I dunno why, but for some reason she thinks I'm gay, and I always talk to her boyfriend in PDR.
But I'm only scared of her because she'll beat the shit out of anyone who "crosses her". Apparently she even put one girl in the hospital.
I asked my brother for advice, and the only thing he could tell me was "Fight dirty. Eh. Don't give up."
=___=
I want to go live with and . Naoplz. I dun' think my parents would understand why we'd have to move to Michigan randomly.
Bahh.
--
So I had this awful dream last night.
It was me, (Becca), (Jessica) and (Emily).
We were going into this deserted house for some reason, and we were snoopin' 'round, so we went into the kitchen place. Then we heard someone stomping and yelling cuss words, so we hid in this little closet thingie with no door, and it was really tiny.
So then this creepy guy (that looked like "Daddy" from The People Who Live Under The Stairs or whatever that movie is called) came around and went, "Oh, look, Jessica and Becca." and they both sneared at him, and then he noticed me and Emily, and he like, beat the shit out of us and everything.
And then, I remember it was exactly Thursday evening, and he said I'd be able to leave the house if I did something for him. So he pointed at my pants and I was like "NU UH MOFO." so he pointed at my shirt and I was like "UGH GROSS" so I like, pulled down my shirt a little and dashed out the door and for some reason I was in my yard, so I darted through the snow (in a nightgown, I might add o__o) and across my neighbours yard and into one of the houses down the street, and all I could hear was screaming.
So I woke up and went back to sleep. And everyone was magically a dinosaur in the second dream, and 20 feet of water and land was sunny, the next 20 was rocky, and the last 20 was rocky and the top of the hill was my yard...?
It was fucked up.
That is all.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22979259/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22979259/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 08:09:44 PST No school today.
: D
Expect a couple doodles, if I'm not-lazy enough to get off my ass and argue with my scanner.
Actually, my scanner loves me. It just has part of the cover off the hinge (which is easily fixable), so I have to push down on it lightly.
I do not envy the people who hate theirs.
I love mine and would keep it in my room, but my mom uses it to print off guitar chords.
D:
It's very nice.
And yes, I'll be scanning the wip for my art trade with Hoihoi.

Has anyone else ever heard of a kitty litter facial?
[link]
Michelle Phan = .

++= win.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22958475/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22958475/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 06:40:41 PST I can't really explain it.
It feels like it's happening all over again.
But I can't stop it, because it isn't.
But I can still feel it.
And it's eating away at me.
Writing about it in my journal last night, drawing pictures to describe it, it was probably the hardest thing I've had to do in a while.
I know that sounds stupid.
But I'm so tired all the time.
I'm so... disgusted.
It feels like someone shoved a brick or two in my chest. I'm flooded with nausea.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
I need someone to tell me it's going to be okay.

Risk factors include:

Stressful life events, particularly loss of a parent to death or divorce
Child abuse - both physical and sexual
Unstable caregiving, poor social skills
Chronic illness
Family history of depression

Symptoms:
Depressed or irritable mood
Temper (agitation)
Loss of interest in activities
Reduced pleasure in daily activities
Appetite changes (usually a loss of appetite but sometimes an increase)
Weight change (unintentional weight loss or unintentional weight gain)
Persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep (insomnia)
Excessive daytime sleepiness
Fatigue
Difficulty concentrating
Difficulty making decisions
Episodes of memory loss
Preoccupation with self
Feelings of worthlessness, sadness, or self-hatred
Excessive or inappropriate feelings of guilt
Acting-out behavior (missing curfews, unusual defiance)
Thoughts about suicide or obsessive fears or worries about death
Plans to commit suicide or actual suicide attempt
Excessively irresponsible behavior pattern

Everything is pointless now.
Everything seems like a waste of time.
I want to see people.
I want to be able to touch people.
I'm so alone.
Someone, just, say hi to me or something.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22948210/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22948210/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 16:43:48 PST ...
What do you wish to do in the last four minutes of your life?

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22947350/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22947350/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 15:57:51 PST I want to send them so many postcards. Hundreds.
But I don't know what their address is.
Damn.
[link]

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22939761/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22939761/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 09:55:59 PST Ich habe ein neue manga! : D
It's called Shugo Chara (Guardian Characters), and it's just awesome.
The Guardian Characters are probably the cutest things I have ever seen.
And I've seen a lot of cute things.
You should buy it. ;D
--
To see or come in contact with feces, signifies aspects of yourself that are dirty and negative and which you believe to be undesirable and repulsive. You need to acknowledge and express these feelings, even though it may be shameful. Release the negativity in your life. To see a toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless. To dream that you are naked, denotes the fear of being found out and exposed about your activities and misjudgment. To dream that you suddenly discover your nudity and are trying to cover up, signifies your vulnerability to a situation. To see a parked car in your dream, suggests that you need to turn your efforts and energies elsewhere. You may be needlessly spending your energy in a fruitless endeavor. Alternatively, a parked car my symbolize your need to stop and enjoy life. To dream that you cannot find where you parked your car, suggests that you do not know where you want to go in life. To dream that someone or something is evil, denotes a repressed and/or forbidden aspect of yourself. This part of yourself may be seeking recognition and acknowledgment. Alternatively, evil may also be a reflection of your strong, negative emotions like hate, anger, etc.
Ohmy. I had a rather fucked up dream.
--


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22928040/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22928040/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 17:41:19 PST [link]
IT'S SO PRETTY. ;______;

That is all.
Oh, but, expect a lot of traditional sketches. Tablet is still broken.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22909887/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22909887/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 18:06:06 PST The next time anyone does anything like that to me they're getting slapped.
: D
SORRY OUR CALL WAS SO SHORT, HOI. D:
Daddy took my phonez away.
It was really uncomfortable. XD

LOL I'M BLONDE.



]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22899491/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22899491/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 07:20:33 PST So, I woke up at 9:30, and I've been on dA up to now.
Earlier (around 11:00) I slumped my way into the kitchen and raided my food closet for breakfast. Pretty much the only thing in the closet for breakfast was cereal, so I grabbed the box of strawberry Mini Wheats and went by the cupboard to grab a bowl.
Grabbed the bowl, poured the cereal. Dragged myself over to the fridge to grab the milk to put in the bowl to make the cereal wet so I could eat it without gagging.
There was no milk in the fridge.
How the fuck can there be no milk in the fridge?
So, I close the fridge, dump the cereal back in the box, put the bowl in the sink, put the box back in the food closet, grabbed a spoon, two granola bars and the peanut butter.
Preceeded to eat around five tablespoons of peanut butter, then inhaled the granola bars.
I am still hungry.
I'd like to make waffles. But I have no milk.
Damn you, empty fridge.
Damn you.

Also, I really don't want to do my bass lessons today.
I just don't feel like it.
Talk to me so I don't get bored.


[Edit]
I finally learned the intro for the Higher Ground cover by Red Hot Chili Peppers.
Flea is awesome. XD

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22889076/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22889076/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 16:21:04 PST [link]
;______;

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22885416/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22885416/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 13:06:18 PST I feel terrible.
And I know I've made a billion journals like this. But I feel bored. And not regular bored. Like, empty bored. Which sucks.
I really can't stop thinking about bad memories.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22863291/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22863291/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 11:33:54 PST FUCKING POSERS
FUCKING STUPID POSERS
UGH
FOLLOW THE TREND AND LIFE IS ALL GOOD, NEH!?
UGHHHHHHHHH.
It seems as though anyone who's original is being ripped off nowadays.
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO COPY MY INTERESTS, DOUCHEBAG!? UGH.
Sorry. Someone is just really pissing me off. =__=;;;

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22859655/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22859655/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 08:13:06 PST Humans are disgusting things.
I would give you a link as to what I'm talking about, but I wouldn't want you to like vomit.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22858864/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22858864/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 07:23:45 PST Sooooooooooooo....
I wrote my first song evar on bass last night. >D
It is the epic win.
But I spent so long on it that I couldn't play anymore because it felt like someone was shoving a needle into my middle finger. ; A;
It's only, like, 45 seconds long, though. xD

In other /exciting/news, the plushies will probably take a week or two more because I am broke. ;__;



]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22847485/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22847485/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 16:58:48 PST Rarasiss-boombawh.
TALK TO ME, FUCKERS. D;
I'M SO BORED.


Edit
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!
FUCK!
MY STUPID FUCKING TABLET IS STILL FUCKING BROKEN.
SO IF I OWE YOU A DRAWING, IT'LL BE A PENCIL DRAWING THAT I'LL HAVE TO SCAN.
FUUUCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22842591/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22842591/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 12:23:31 PST So, I officialy can't stand her.
At all.
She is a druggie, a whore, and a bitch.
She is the bane of my existense.
Fuck anyone who takes after her.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22821906/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22821906/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 11:38:00 PST Has anyone else realised how effing awesome it is to eat icing out of the container?
:iconfattieplz:
'Cause I do.
And I can feel the sugar headache coming.
It's not that good after 5 giant spoonfuls.
; A;
/ramble.
--
Soo, today we had our PDR exam.
Except we got to go into Dorey's room for it.
He is hilarious.
XD He kept doodling on the board and messing around and woaw.
And then I saw ~softersinn's pen.
WHERE THE FUCK IS BORDON?!
BORDON'S IN THE WOODS, DAMNIT!
So I was laughing the whole time, and people kept getting pissed off.
It was hilarious.
...
Who the fuck names their kid Bordon?
--
My dog is glaring at me.
D:
--
GRRRR, I need moar fabric.
For hair and clothes and stuff.
;___;
So I might not be able to get them to you gaiz as soon, because I need to save for cosplay.
--


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22804643/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22804643/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 13:48:39 PST Ugh.
War movies on tv are boring and depressing and cheesy and trashy.
:/
--
I'm starting the plushies for ~ShadowAnge1,=azafe and ~undergroundobsession tonight.
I d'no which one I'll do first, but I need to grab my dad's sewing machine later.
Once they're done, I'll do a little mini photo shoot with them. ;D
I need to get my stuffing back from Amber, because she's not using all of it.
I think she has her own, now, though.
So it should be fine...
/mumblemumble.
--
todo:
- Plushie numero uno.
- Plushie numero... two.
- Plushie numero twahh.
- Art trade with Hoi.
- Finish collab with Michi. Which will take a while because I'm lazy when it comes to coloring. xD
- Learn that RHC song on bass for lessons.
--


]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22798434/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22798434/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 08:36:05 PST Firstly, danke sooo much, and . ;_____;

--
So Michi, Kaitie and Hoi are all getting crappy little plushies. xD I'll assume no one else wants one? . 3.
--
There's not very much to say, surprisingly. I figured I'd have to make a giant resolution journal, but there's not much to say.
--
Lul, I have three mile-long replies I have to get back to.
--



]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22788741/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22788741/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 18:42:50 PST There'a constant fight going on between me and myself, and I'm losing.
I'm always losing.
I'm losing control.
Of everything.
The ice is finally breaking underneath me, and I can feel the water.
It's a power struggle all the time and I just. can't. deal.
What's the point of all of the struggle if there's no reward?
There's so much pressure. God, there's so much pressure.
And there's no air. There's no air at all.
I can't breath.
I can't control what I want to control.
I can't control what I need to control.
I can't control what I'm supposed to control.
There's nothing I can do.
Maybe I'll do something stupid.
I doubt it.
I need to talk to someone on the phone.
Anyone.
But I can't.
Because everyone I've already talked to will just tell me that it's alright.
But it's not.
It never has been.
And nobody gets it.
Nobody.
So now that there's another mental breakdown from Crazy Girl, it's time to ship her off for another appointment, right?
Right.
I can't stand it here.
I need to get out of here.
I can't be myself at school, and apparently I can't be myself at home.
I can't have my posessions at school, and I can't have them at home, either.
Nothing is going right.
I hate myself.
I don't want to be called Shelby anymore.
I don't want my name.
I want a new name.
But I can't have one.
I hate the people here.
I want to move out but I can't because I am such a fucking failure.
I'll never get the grades or the awards to get a job, and since I won't have a job I won't have enough money to get the fuck out of here.
Because I am such a failure.
I'm just waiting for something to happen but nothing will ever happen for me.
Ever.
Because I can't control anything.
I'm waiting for my wings, but they've given out on me.
The only thing left to do is fight or flight.
I think I'll fall for now.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22786761/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22786761/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 16:53:02 PST I SMELL A PEDOPHILE.
WEE-OOH, DO YOU, ~softersinn?
:/
If the person I think's a pedo is /actually/ a pedo I will be permanently abandoning deviantART.
Sorry.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22783998/ http://Make-tea-not-war.deviantart.com/journal/22783998/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 14:26:47 PST : D
So, does anyone else want a really badly made hand-sized plushie?
I can probably make 3 or 4 by February, and and have already asked for one.
I'll only make them for my real-life friends or my really-close online friends. If you're curious about how close we are, just ask. xD
Anyways, they'd be free, but I'd appreciate a tip (money-wise) or a gift of some sort in return.
Just comment if you want one. ;D
Of course you'll have to give me your address so I can send it, and depending on where you live it may take up to a month. Dx
But anyhow, you know you want one.

]]> ~Make-tea-not-war