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yay.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11828704/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11828704/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 11:48:04 PST
Since I first became a deviant more than 3 years ago I feel my skill and style has developed greatly. Now that I'm in college I'll only just continue to strive and attempt to improve myself. Looking back on my older pieces it seems to make my gallery look childish.

I'm pondering it....once I get a reliable means to upload I'll consider it more.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11733829/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11733829/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 11:05:39 PST I'm playing like..4 games all at once right now o_o; XD

In other news..to those who don't already know I'm no longer single...oh the joy!! ....NEXT!

Still can't upload squat and it's making me mad. The new fellow offered to let me use his internet connection so I might upload soon ^^ whoot.

School has yet to drive me insane....and I'm hungry oo; meh. *twitches* One more class...typography -.o; ugh.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11646262/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11646262/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 11:04:28 PST
I very much apologize for the lack of updates (journals, art, kiribans). It's not like I'm overloaded with work from school or anything...acutally I've been keeping myself on top of things very well. I just can't upload things o_o;

My internet at the apartment is too slow. The server resets before I can upload, and that's when I actually have internet. School security keeps me from uploading there. I throw random stuff on my facebook but that's about it. >< sorry!!!

I'd really like to upload my montage once I get it done my next project for my Digital Imaging class ^^ and in my true geeky and mildly obsessive manner I'll be doing it on ITG/DDR. Whoot. I'll be off taking pictures tomorrow.

So seeing as I've been lacking the internet I haven't been able to talk to anyone it makes me sad. So I'll tell what I've been doing !

Playing ITG with the locals.....constantly....I'm addicted to adrenaline o_o;
Floating around school..whoot...painting XD....I hate painting.
I've been exposed to World of Warcraft o__o I waaaant it ><
Making new friends Krystle, Brian, Ryan, Jerimiah, Jeremy, Andy, and several aquantences.
Playing video games like the ps2 whore that I am until 2am o_o XD
and freezing my hands off in this damned cold computer lab ><;; ugh!!

I miss everyone and to my friends who are going to a university college....YOU HAVE THE SUMMER OFF!! THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR YOU TO NOT COME AND VISIT ME!!!! o___o *twitches*

that is all

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11431829/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11431829/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 08:12:45 PST
For some reason (probably a security precaution) I can't upload anything to deviantart from school. And because my laptop is starting to get particular and will only connect to a network that has limited or no connectivity *twitches* I can' upload anything from here either. Even if I did get a steady connection for an hour the upload would time out because of how weak the signal is.

So I'm stuck here. I'm alive but stuck. and mildly annoyed.
I have no idea how hectic my second quarter will be, surely my job won't get in the way because thanks to after holiday brokeness among consumers my hours got slashed in half and probably won't pick up until the spring....marvelous. Atleast since I haven't hit 5,000 dollars at either of my jobs this year I won't have to pay taxes in march.

always look on the bright side of life.

*the inquisitive hamster*

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11373629/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11373629/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 11:14:53 PST >; I won't even need to show for class on Thursday but I'm growing fond of my perfect attendance.

...hurrg.

I should scan things...should...I'll do it on my break XD I have a few sketches of Maku and what not...some lines..blah blah...and Meghan's Kiriban is finished...I just need to get off my lazy butt and scan it. XD *spins in a lab chair*

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11361777/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11361777/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 12:07:05 PST
*happy happy*

I have sketches I'd like to get scanned sooner or later so expect scrap updates soon.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11311897/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11311897/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 10:38:48 PST
One of these days I'll be browsing and someone behind me is going to scream "PORN LOOKER!!!"

That is all.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11147956/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11147956/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 08:38:23 PST
]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11039774/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/11039774/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 12:44:12 PST
It's on my facebook though. Hurrah.

My list of things to do is still as long as ever...I've been doodling here and there but until the end of this quarter I'm trying to keep myself from getting completely burnt out....because that happens to me alot.

When I do manage to do a mass upload expect a crap load of traditional media and pencil drawings. I've decided that inking a drawing by hand then digitally rendering it (unless you're good at fixing the lines) looks like shit, end of story. I'm not happy at all with the piece I'm doing for my final project...it's cool looking yeah but it really isn't that good. So there are my thoughts on that.

I'm going to TRY very very hard to get home for a decent amount of time for Christmas and a couple days after first quarter during my break. I'm hoping to attend the DDR demo at school (YEAH JASON I'M GOING TO TRY AND BE THERE!) so meh. It all depends on if work decides to fuck me over or not.

...and to my friends out there, I'm lonely down here without you so those of you who are capable should come and visit me...I need a hug

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10878898/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10878898/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 12:32:00 PST
I need to do a magazine cover and a spread article....I picked imagine fx as my magazine and seeing as it's chock full o' workshops I will be wrapping my time with making a full tutorial for the project. What's worse is I can't do what I have an idea for without using all of my own artwork (for the most part) so I'll be drawing...but I won't be posting. The tutorial may be posted somtime after the final project is due at the beginning of January.

I'm going to try really hard not to procrastinate oo'

...and I locked my keys in my car again.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10825712/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10825712/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 17:01:19 PST
Meghan got my 5,000 and her kiriban...after months of delays..is inked and awaiting colour I just need to pick up some pencils and find some time. By looking at my schedule next week I might actually have it...I'm off wednesday so I can spend time at school if I feel up to it and get a few things scanned and inked. whoot.

So huzzah and all well...it's been a long joyful turkey day and now I'm tired. This weekend is going to be a major bitch because it's the holiday shopping extravaganza! and I work at Macy's oo;;; if I'm not dead I'll update my journal monday and tell progress.

For those who'd like the kiriban try for it and send me the screenshot, I'll tell you later whether or not I can make something pretty for you or not.

Over and out.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10568587/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10568587/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 08:47:12 PST ^^

It's great I'm liking the school, I'm liking the classes....and I'm even warming up to Mr. Bones.....I'm not sure how long that'll last though o_o
My schedule is pretty nice. Most people make a face when I say I have Wednesday of but I like having my week chopped in half it's nice ^^
The only class that I don't like very much is Critical Thinking....yeah...Design 1 would be next after that because we've been doing alot of abstract work lately....yeah --'
I'm happy I didn't go to a university...honestly I don't think I could handle the transition XD
Tech school is like a very laid back highschool o.o I like it ^^
My apartment is sweet I got my first choice and all. And there's a shower o_o oh sweet God a shower!! .....I didn't have a shower back home XD and I like taking one every morning. My roomies are cool and the guys downstairs are cool too. I get along fairly well with everyone...and even though I'm not too keen on my class mates I'm trying to be atleast a bit social.
Now as for a job....I'm getting slightly annoyed. I'm patiently awaiting a phone call, I called them out of place already and pretty much said 'WHAT THE FUCK?! DO I HAVE A JOB OR NOT?' only in more polite terms. Still waiting...ever so patiently. Hopefully I'll get a call today...if I don't...I'm going to lose my mind.
Other than that it's Halloween! Me and Maggie are going to hand out candy to the trick or treaters!! Happy Halloween!!!! Yay for my favorite holiday ^.^

Over and out

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10480705/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10480705/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 20:34:29 PDT

The rules:


* List 11 things you want to say to 11 different people

* Don't say who they pertain to.

* Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.

* Never discuss it again.


1. One of my best friends on the face of the planet. There are a few things that make me nervous...and I want those things to stop or atleast ease off. But I never want to let you go as a friend, you're way too important to me.

2. Another best friend! Love you love you. Just wish you wouldn't be so down on yourself or give up on things so easily if the go wrong for a moment. You need to cheer up and keep trying! You're a wonderful person!

3. Miss you! Wish I could see you more because I haven't talked to you lately *whines*

4. I miss you much it sucks being away. Hope to see you soon so we can hang out! I'm okay though because I have a new friend that reminds me so much of you! Makes me happy to think of you!

5. You are an awesome person! And whatever happens don't forget you have people who love you! Bite your lip, take the plunge, and I have faith in you! No matter what happens.

6. You're still my friend and I still love you but I'm pretty sure I've let you go. I'll be happy when I see you and I'll be sad when you're gone but I can't live with this hook in my spine anymore.

7. One of my best adult friends! I miss you so much and you probably won't even see this thing! But yeah it's the thought that counts right? I'll be by to bug you in due time!

8. One of my life lights! You're an arrogant jerk sometimes but you are definately the spark in the party!

9. I have no clue who you are or what your name is...but you've caught my interest.

10. You're awesome! A bit to quiet but awesome! You need to step out! I have faith that in 15 years you will be a household name.

11. You guys are great! I was lucky to meet you and I'm happy I did! Don't plan on moving out any time soon!!

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10392188/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10392188/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 15:44:38 PDT
The day went fairly smoothly...some random bickering and me reacting badly to those who harp over me -.o ...ugh...but other than that it's great!....my internet connection sucks horribly though ><;; ....horribly.

not much to it...a long drive there and my parents have a long drive back....I don't even think they're home yet oo;;

I'm on my own now

over and out.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10377769/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10377769/ Fri, 13 Oct 2006 08:27:58 PDT
I'm going to be wrapped up in things all day today and tomorrow but I'll try to get in a jounal on how it all went soon ^^ Just hoping I'll have an internet connection where I'll be living. woo...I'm completely packed and all my stuff is in a trailer.........I really don't have much stuff o_o though with the trailer my dad brought I might scare my roomies XDD.

over and out.

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10297267/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10297267/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 19:15:42 PDT - 0% done
- 25% sketch complete, needs retouched, inked and rendered
- 10% concept needs redrawn
- Complete [link]
0% done

No clue what you'd like Kimiko XD and I want to do a true anthro for Jason....still working on Meghans but I'm very happy with the concept of my sketch ^^ whoot sauce

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10263135/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10263135/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 17:57:44 PDT
]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10239128/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10239128/ Sat, 30 Sep 2006 16:59:57 PDT I'd rather it be sunny, cold, a fallish. oh well...I got sent home early from work o_o so it's 8 o'clock on a saturday night and I'm bored out of my mind.

yep...*blinks*

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10216149/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10216149/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 14:47:11 PDT
My address!

Krista Wittman
0138 Lincoln Highlands Drive 4127220446
Coraopolis Pa 15108

whoot sauce!

]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10133833/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10133833/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 15:23:59 PDT
New characters to soon be seen:
Arsenic
Azazer
Josephine
Kip


whoot. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10093716/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10093716/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 17:50:20 PDT So what happened today?

Orientation...crowded beyond all reason o_o yah. >< But once I found my way to the room for the aspiring graphic designers I was in for a surprise. I thought PTI ran on PC's because when I was using the computers before they were running on windows....I walked into the room and I see a bunch of shiny brand spanking new iMacs o___o whoo! So that's what I'll be working with ^^ yay! Got to see my future class mates huzzah, I tried my hardest to seem friendly but just about everyone was reserved so I talked to Nikki you guys know Nikki!! ^^ the girl who does the PTI presentations in Beirly's class she's fun.

Well seeing as school is ...well...school o_o I had to take a test ^^ It was to see how well our literary composition was...seeing as I scored proficient in my PSSA's it was a breeze for me and I'm hoping I did well enough so I don't have to take a Composition class during school...it's not the end of the world if I do..but it would be so sweet if I didn't XDD

I got my event schedule for the next 2 years...my breaks and what not. It resembles a Japanese school year only the breaks aren't as long o_o for ever season..I get about a little longer than a week off. Sweet. I've got I think 4 classes for the first semester which seem simple enough. According to the graduate we met there we're going to spend the next year learning the programs. So yay Sharpening my skills at Photoshop and learning somthing new ^^

I also got a crap load of job applications o_o I'm most capable of working in a resturant but it would be so cool if I worked in Toys r Us or Build a bear Workshop XDDD

There are going to be loads of activities..and I'm very excited o__o I can even play paintball if I want XD that seems more like a guy thing though. Whoo!!!

So about a month from now I'll be a proud PTI student! I even bought a new hoodie! Go black and red baby!!

-Maku! ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10029646/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10029646/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 14:43:21 PDT

[link]

...please? ^.^ ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10012905/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10012905/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 19:39:39 PDT
Work is getting crappy...school is looming...finances are smacking me with the worry stick. I'm worried about other people and when I get too worried I get angry. I'm sorry about forgetting people, about not being in touch with people like I promised, and anything else I may have forgotten. I'm a crap person, sorry, I don't know how to help people, my memory sucks, I have mood swings that make me not want to be around people when I should, and I just can't handle anything anymore.

It's no one's fault....I'm just being stupid. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10009153/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/10009153/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 13:15:02 PDT ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9918997/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9918997/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 13:28:06 PDT

Sure my style isn't very anime anymore o_o but the anatomy book is loaded with references and I also got a perspective book! ^^ yays After 2 years of Drafting perspective isn't too much of a problem for me but it's really nice to have somthing to look at for help.

Now all I need is a scanner!....that'll take alittle longer o__o; ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9861726/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9861726/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 12:17:24 PDT
it's about 4 inches shorter o_o ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9848868/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9848868/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 09:25:09 PDT
Yah, I'm goin' IN OCTOBER!!! o_o Unlike 4 year universities that are similar to highschool with semesters and vacation I'm going to tech school! I'll graduate before my friends because I won't be coming home as often for long vacations or during the summer Then my other friends are starting school next week ><; It feels weird.

I think I'm lagging o__o ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9825805/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9825805/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 09:46:11 PDT So I think I'll give it a try. If there's a time limit though (I dunno I didn't check) then I might miss it o_o I'll probably end up working on it more in college...with a scanner -.o; because I don't have one XD.

Here are the themes, for those whom I owe gifts (MEGHAN!) I'll probably get those done in the process of doing this ^^

[link]

huzzah. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9770360/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9770360/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 10:25:17 PDT ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9656326/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9656326/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:11:04 PDT ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9601583/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9601583/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 19:33:44 PDT
A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie
2. an artist (books or comics)
3. a musical artist, song, or album

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions. Ask me anything you want. No kidding, ANYTHING, I'll give you the absolute honest truth.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9580031/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9580031/ Thu, 03 Aug 2006 11:56:35 PDT
I list 20 of my fandoms, and you people try to guess my favorite characters/peoples. If you guess right, your name goes beside it...(first-come-first-serve)...and to the person who gets the most right, well, you have something nice coming to you.

1. Inverloch:
2. Saiyuki: Randi got it! Sanzo!
3. Dir en Grey: Randi wins the cookie here Kaoru
4. Malice Mizer: Meghan got Kami!
5. No rest for the Wicked: RaRa got it again! Red
6. Directions of Destiny: Randi got it again o_o Hong Li Xin
7. Dominic Deegan:
8. Full Metal Alchemist:
9. Ghost in the Shell: Meghan got Kuzei!
10. Eureka 7: Meghan got Holland!
11. Samurai Champloo: Meghan also got Mugen
12. Cowboy Bebop: Meghan got Spike!
13. Futurama:
14: VGCats:
15: Applegeeks:
16. Kingdom Hearts: and Meghan got Riku!!
17. .hack//SIGN:
18. Shadow Hearts:
19. Portinari: Duh..randi, Axel
20. Red String: Yayzers! Rah! Hayashihara Eiji

Guess away! ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9408819/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9408819/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:31:02 PDT yay

F**k - ...actually it's the first thing that came to mind o_o;

Family - I've seen alot of it lately it's nice

Friends - I've seen alot of those too ^^...I've also found myself with alot of them o___o

Flowers - My favorites are lilys ^^

Fun - Been having alot of it ^^ I'm very worn out now though o_o

Foreign - I've been getting interested in foreign culture lately

Foreigner - ....it's a band!

Fredryk Phox - Makes me laugh

Fuuka - I like that name ^^

Foolish - ...I have been...

Feelings - I have them and I'm foolish to not express them..I think.

Fake - I feel that my mask has started to crumble...I always hid behind a tough girl act. Today I broke down and cried....for no clear reason...or maybe a refuse to beleive that reason is really that important to me.

Frustrated - I've been that way to myself alot lately, mainly to my Feelings and my Fakeness.

Freedom - I have it and I don't know what to do with it.

Frigid - I wish that's what the weather was _-_;

Fond - I'm fond of someone, have been for awhile so it's no real surprise.

Fragile - I'm a bit more fragile than I make myself out to be.

Fountains - ...they're pretty ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9302507/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9302507/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 08:02:37 PDT (take from =the-burning-claw)

1.
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3. [link]
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And yes Meghan I'm still working on your kiriban sketching.....I need to ink and scan though o.o;; somehow o_o

doodles will be done by my tablet...SKETCHES!! I can do nothing but sketch with the thing so far! ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9260921/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9260921/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 12:50:40 PDT


ZOMG! *happiness* ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9130443/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/9130443/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 19:46:59 PDT I'd ask Randi to do it but I'm picky and I need to be able to tweak things during the scan so it's clean and what not....plus while I hope to be investing in a scanner I'll be investing in some blue sketch pencils so I'll get some good results with my lineart yays! College doesn't start until October so unless I miraculously get a scanner during the summer don't expect anything but maybe sketches until then. Buh Bai!

BTW....I can't spell. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8940276/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8940276/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 12:34:13 PDT Well what'ya know? ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8882458/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8882458/ Fri, 26 May 2006 10:26:07 PDT ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8876679/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8876679/ Thu, 25 May 2006 18:09:37 PDT
I've had 2 nervous breakdowns in the past month where I just burst into tears and started crying uncontrollably. This is extremely unusual for me...for those who don't know me..I don't take crying lightly. I've had problems for years and there isn't anyone I can relate to.

All through highschool I've been struggling both in academics and socially. My grades are passing but still are a joke and there's a 50/50 chance I'll be coming back next year. I can't afford summer school and I'm not going to let my parents pay for it. So I'll have to carry over everything for college in to next summer. I'm really really scared.

My social status is at it's peak. I'm one of those people who everyone knows, but I don't know anybody. I have about 10 close friends in school, the rest are middle aged. Due to my torment from school I've begun to despise people. No one can relate to me. No one I know has been called 'it' 'thing' or 'discusting' three feet behind their back or right to their face. No one has had a photograph of themselves ridiculed while they were in earshot, and in their workplace to boot. I hate people so I'm mean, evil, and bitchy. I'll be somewhat friendly at first but a wrong move and I'll easily hate you. I don't like to be picked on so I belittle myself openly, letting people know that I'm not smart, or pretty, or thin. If they know that I know then I won't have to be reminded....but my mental status is crumbling.

I'm getting so frickin' paranoid at what people think of me. I feel like no matter what I do it isn't good enough. No matter how hard I've been trying at Trig there's still a chance I won't pass. No matter how much I workout or deprive myself I'll never lose weight. No matter how much I try to be 'pretty' I'll never pull it off, I'll never impress who I'm trying to impress. I feel terrible and I need to cry and sleep. I've been completely drained lately and once school is over, whether I pass or fail, it'll still come with some releif.

Now I need to sleep....it's pitiful because there's still daylight out. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8606695/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8606695/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 21:35:22 PDT Yep...I'll just sleep on the bus ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8414889/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8414889/ Sun, 09 Apr 2006 06:30:09 PDT
Anyways, like I've said before....my scanner is dead so no new drawings can be posted. I would go around cging things but I don't have Open Canvas anymore and I despise working in the out dated version of PSP that I have. **sigh** Ah well
I've been drawing yay so prepare for an inbox flood once I get a new scanner! And I got the 3rd chapter of Renascent finished...yay ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8376341/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8376341/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 17:20:48 PDT Noah

2) How old is he/she?
Early twenties

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Man

4) What's his/her race?
Once human, now demon..just like everyone else.

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
He's white with blue hair, pointy ears and horns ; but he's so cute!

Noah: ....
Choryss: *giggle*
Kidu: *snrk*
Noah: *blush*

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
He's not as bitter as everyone else in his environment....although he has more reason than anyone else to be.

Noah: I'm just an optimist.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
His kinda disposition and his penetrating eyes.


4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
Yes!!! He's sexy

Noah: *BLUSH*
Kidu: ...oh god **falls over laughing**
Candless: Oh dear.
Felicity: ....uhm..Noah..with that white skin of yours you turn ....kinda pink..when you blush.
Noah: ...I know -.-;

Personality

1) Temper?
He's kind hearted and the optimist. Cool headed and loaded with wit, but he can quickly be in all seriousness.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
Yes...but I won't tell why.....Randi you keep quiet!!

3) Leader or Follower?
A mix of the two. He's laid back enough to be a follower but smart and cool headed enough to lead.

4) What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
His kindness...but when he does get angry it's like he's a completely different person.

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
Yes

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
Like all fallen souls he was at first but when Kidu tripped over him in the southern wasteland on a errand for Candless he was quick to find a home.

Kidu: I still have the bruise.
Noah: Atleast I didn't fall on you -.o;

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Yes.

Romance

1) Single?
His heart is with Choryss and they do get VERY close but her heart will always belong to Charlie

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
He falls hard for Choryss

3) Does your character like flirting?
He isn't a skanky flirt...he's just especially sweet to those he really cares about.

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
A white wolf

2) Musical Instument?
A lute

Noah: ...a lute?

3) Element?
Ice

4) Planet?
Pluto

Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
Haven't drawn him yet.

Noah: *sniffle*

Oh hush! **huggle**

Noah: ^-^

2) Do you write about him/her?
Yes! very much so

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
No

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
He's a main character in my novel.

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
No...he's a good guy

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Choryss, his secret....and he's tickelish!!

Noah: Hey!!
Choryss: Really?
Kidu: Let's find out!
Noah: o_o;

3) Three strengths?
Smart and good with words, speaks with logic and is always the optimist.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
No...he'll go with Issac and Kidu for a drink every now and then but he doesn't smoke...he can only tolerate Kidu's habit.

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
He's tickelish!! and a bit clumsy o.o;

6) Does your character have any phobias?
Anything happening to the ones he cares about

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
See question 6

The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
He's my friend **snuggle**

Noah: Ahw... ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8323551/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8323551/ Fri, 31 Mar 2006 12:58:48 PST ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8272636/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8272636/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 08:42:18 PST Miso Misha and Constance Marie! sisters

2) How old is he/she?
....old...REALLY OLD! but the look late teens early twentys

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girls

4) What's his/her race?
Angels...well they were angels before the corruption.

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
They look pretty normal....cept for the fact that Miso has light blue hair and Constance has purple hair o.o; Miso also has broken wings while Constance still has hers intact.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Yes..being a rightious angel is a good thing more often than not....unless you're about to uncover one giant conspiracy.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
The wings and the hair....and the fact that both of them (Miso more than Constance) are completely and totally insane.


4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
They're pretty

Personality

1) Temper?
Constance can get mad...Miso just gets silly and toys with you.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
When they think of what was done to them...who wouldn't?

3) Leader or Follower?
Leaders, Contance more that Miso.

4) What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
The insanity o.o;

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
No...and I don't think they'd remember if they did.

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
They've been separated but thanks to a note from Bulova (yay Randi!) they're uncovered and reunited.

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Hmm...well they were about to let out word of a major imbalance in the divine powers but a few elder megalomaniacs, poisoned by the imbalace, separated them and locked them away with their knowledge.

Romance

1) Single?
Yes

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
No

3) Does your character like flirting?
No o_o

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
Falcons

2) Musical Instument?
eerie voices o_O

3) Element?
Water

4) Planet?
Neptune

Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
I've drawn them both

2) Do you write about him/her?
Not yet...they don't come up in the story for awhile..and then they're kind of out of it o_o; not major characters.

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
No

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
Drawing them **huggle**

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
uncovering conspiracy.

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Anything happening to eachother
The secret they keep
Their own minds

3) Three strengths?
Not too bad at messing with your head, Very old and very wise no matter how insane they are, very brave...especially since they don't have anything to lose.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
Constance smokes a pipe...and that's about it.

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
They're crazy!! And Miso constantly has a stuffed and stitched puppy with her o.o; While Constance practically trips over herself trying to find her pipe after our main party frees her from the dungeons of Vatalia.

6) Does your character have any phobias?
No

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Idiots who don't understand the damage that's being inflicted to the world.

The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
I'd chill with them ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8254843/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8254843/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 11:25:35 PST Choryss Lynn McDonehue

2) How old is he/she?
She's 19...and she'll be stuck there forever o.o;

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girl

4) What's his/her race?
Once human, now demon

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
Alot...Her skin is a pale shade of blue and her hair is a very bold red. A tail and curled ram like horns plus she can extend her hands in to bat like wings...o.o; but only when she's angry or startled.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Yeah normal...Kidu drills that into her head early on because Choryss doesn't quite realize where she is exactly and that EVERYONE has problems...not just her.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Her hair stands out the most...you can only really notice that she's blue if she's standing in light. At night it just looks like really pale skin


4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
She's pretty

Personality

1) Temper?
If you rub her the wrong way she gets angry but after awhile with her new companions she becomes logical and cool headed.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
When she thinks about Charlie

3) Leader or Follower?
Follower...she has good ideas to contribute but isn't strong enough in her mind to pull through with them herself

4) What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
She keeps to herself and is shy at times but when it comes to having wit she's got it all.

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
Her parents...not too fond of them.

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
Yeah...her parents practically tore her away from the only person she loved and abandoned her, but Noah is quick to be kind and befriend her

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Lets see...her parents separated her from her boyfriend...sent her to an asylum...then brought her back one year too late to find that her boyfriend died...commits suicide and gets dropped into hell. poor girl.

Romance

1) Single?
She was...and she never stops loving him

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Charlie was her one and only.

3) Does your character like flirting?
She never had to.

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
...a bird of some sort

2) Musical Instument?
She makes me think of a violin

3) Element?
Water

4) Planet?
Mercury

Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
Yeah, several times

2) Do you write about him/her?
Yep!

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
No

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
She's the opening character in my novel

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
No

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Charlie, her hatred of her parents

3) Three strengths?
Very witty at times, good at analyzing things, she's a fighter when it counts.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
No o.o; oh god no...it takes her awhile to get used to Kidu's smoking

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
She snaps a bit but when it's someone who hasn't wronged her she tends to apologize about 10 times

6) Does your character have any phobias?
Her nightmares

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Her parents were pretty good at it, but after losing Charlie anything that threatens her new friends will get her fired up.

The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
I could get along with her ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8237602/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8237602/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 14:33:43 PST ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8236696/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8236696/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 13:00:37 PST Talan....no last name o.o

2) How old is he/she?
276 looks about 16 or 17

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girl

4) What's his/her race?
She's a vampire

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
Not many, she looks very human and can walk around in the daylight. She's not stupid enough to draw attention to herself.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
No, she's something of a "righteous vampire" and will kill only criminals and murders..in her words "Those who deserve to die." Not many other supernatural beings like her.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Luminesent green eyes...a shade lighter than mint.


4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
She's pretty

Personality

1) Temper?
Cool headed when she has to be but she's more or less a ticking time bomb. Find the one thing to make her snap and you can kiss yourself goodbye.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
Sometimes when she's lonely

3) Leader or Follower?
Leader

4) What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
Complete and total seriousness, slight sarcasm, and she entertains herself scaring people.

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
She had parents when she was still human

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
In the beginning of her story she is but she finds someone

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Yeah...I ruin her life sorry Talan

Romance

1) Single?
In the beginning and for alittle while....it's a weird relationship

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Like I said..a weird relationship. His name is Eisen.

3) Does your character like flirting?
No.

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
Fox

2) Musical Instument?
She has a piccolo

3) Element?
Fire

4) Planet?
Neptune

Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
I haven't drawn Talan yet.

2) Do you write about him/her?
I've been trying to.

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
No

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
She's a piece of me in a way..like most of my characters

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
Yeah..a few things o.o;

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Eisen becomes her weakness

3) Three strengths?
She's good at messing with peoples minds having a way a forcing people to lose their faith when in the face of death.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
She drinks like a fish and smokes a pipe ;;

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
She surprised at being surprised...and it makes her stutter rofl

6) Does your character have any phobias?
No

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Not much except for blood lust, but she doesn't let it come around.

The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
She wouldn't want human friends. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8227660/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8227660/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:06:47 PST Kidu VonDarlen

2) How old is he/she?
234, stuck in a 19 year olds body

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Lady

4) What's his/her race?
Once human, now demon.

Appearance

1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
Alot of stares o.o Violet hair and dusty orangish skin..not to mention a tail and horns. I think guys would be staring the most, she's drop dead gorgeous demon or not.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
In her world...yeah pretty normal, everyone is emotionally tortured in her world so it's normal to be alittle weird.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Violet hair, light dust orange skin, her tatoo and nasty smoking habit.


4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
Well..I don't go for girls but Kidu is quite the looker.

Personality

1) Temper?
Short fuse, especially with Issac and people who tease her about Issac...or anyone who touches her locket.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
Yeah, she's been through alot.

3) Leader or Follower?
When she's at her strongest she's a wise leader, but when emotionally racked she needs someone to take care of her.

4) What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
Teasing..everyone has a nickname, except Issac and Anton.

History

1) Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
Yeah. Daughter-Deseased, "Husband"-Deseased, Mother-Deseased, Father-Unknown.

2) Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
In away she is. She lives with others but keeps to herself mostly

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Her daughter was murdered by her "husband" and then she murdered her "husband" before killing herself in fear of prosecution.

Romance

1) Single?
...not quite.

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
Issac Delue, handsome chap with an equally bad temper.

3) Does your character like flirting?
No.

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
wold

2) Musical Instument?
a weird pipe thing she has.

3) Element?
Fire

4) Planet?
Mars

Showing the Love

1) Do you draw your character?
Every now and then.

2) Do you write about him/her?
I should

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
I used to use her name..but not the character

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
She's a piece of me in a way

1) Is your character wanted for anything?
No

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Her past, her locket, Issac

3) Three strengths?
She's physically strong and is usually able to keep a cool head when it counts.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
Yeah..but she never gets drunk and she doesn't get bad breath o.o;

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
She's deeply in love with Issac (and he loves her) but refuses to admit it.....infront of other people

6) Does your character have any phobias?
Losing her locket

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
Someone taking her locket, hurting her friends and Issac

The Final Question

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
Dunno o.o;

Snatched from Megumi-chan! ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8166293/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8166293/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 07:47:26 PST <; sorry I wasn't in school today T_T but I'm currently stuck at home..with a mild fever, sore throat, and congestion that's making me feel like someone tied weights to my legs and threw me into the deep end of the school pool.....my ears hurt so bad ><;

**snuffles** ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8152935/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8152935/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 19:05:51 PST
*** 7 Things that scare you...
1. Yelling
2. the dark
3. falling
4. the unknown
5. my own temper
6. losing someone important to me
7. spiders

*** 7 Things you love the most...
1. Family
2. freedom
3. my friends
4. Drawing
5. writing
6. Chinese food
7. DDR


*** 7 Things you don't like...
1. artist block
2. lies (mean lies with bad intentions, sometimes people lie for good reasons.)
3. arrogance
4. fear
5. being alone
6. being yelled at, or when people are mad at me.
7. being reminded of somthing I already know.

*** 7 Important things in your room...
1. bed
2. books
3. blankets and pillows
4. playstation 2
5. DDR mat
6. candles and incense
7. manga

*** 7 Random facts about you...
1. I'm rough on the outside, but I'm really a big softie
2. I would die for my friends
3. I prefer my own imagination over reality
4. I've never been kissed
5. I'm an idiot when it comes to a guy I truely care about
6. It's not smart for people to bother me when I'm adgitated
7. I will always be here when needed.

*** 7 Things you plan to do before you die...
1. Live
2. Visit Japan
3. Teach someone somthing
4. Start a family ;
5. Be a fairly well known writer or artist (graphic novels
6. Settle down somewhere
7. Go to sleep at night without a worry on my mind.

*** 7 Things that attract you to the opposite sex...
1. Takes the time to know me
2. Apologizes when he knows he hurt me
3. Sweet hearted
4. Won't put down what I'm into (might make fun of, but don't shoot it down!!)
5. A fairly open mind
6. equal intelligence rofl
7. Won't hurt me on purpose.

*** 7 Things you say the most...
1. damnit
2. dude!
3. f**k
4. shit
5. I'm sweating like a menopausal woman in a crowded elevator!!
6. oh dear
7. Aw hell

*** 7 Celeb or NOT-REAL crushes...
1. I love Dir en grey with a mild passion....that is all

*** 7 Favorite drinks...
1. Diet pepsi with cherries or lemon in it
2. SoBe
3. coffee
4. milk
5. Iced tea
6. Water
7. ...liquor

*** Tag 7 people
1. Arowyn
2. Trioc
3. Candless
4. Carousel Trotter
5.
6.
7.

Tagged by Kim ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8111365/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8111365/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 10:48:30 PST I got my new DDR mat and put it together thinking it would cheer me up but I'm too sick and tired to play. Feh.

My scanner is still out of commission and will be until I scrounge up the money to purchase a new one. I haven't been able to draw much lately despite my rather large to do list. --; Well if you'll excuse me, I haven't eaten in 20 hours. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8003769/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/8003769/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 22:17:16 PST ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7855130/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7855130/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 11:11:48 PST ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7840618/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7840618/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 18:27:23 PST
Now I'm sure you knew since I'm doing this from Kerry's advice this is about a guy...and if you don't like it I highly suggest you hit the back button and go back to your messages.

My theory, if you haven't read it yet from Kerry's journal, is this. "Girls who are ignored, teased, abused, or treated like a rotting animal carcass by guys throughout their childhood and part of their teen years tend to be very mis-trusting of the male half of our species. When guys suddenly get friendly with these girls, say the girl got hit with the pretty stick over the summer or lost a few pounds or became a bit more outgoing, the girl IS NOT USED TO THIS KIND OF ATTENTION. Being picked on is what's expected as normal behavior. So when they're suddenly friendly and sociable with these former "rotting animal carcass's" the attention can easily mistook for affection. This can end easily in a broken heart."

This has happened to me. I fell hard for a guy who actually treated me like a human being and got the guts to tell him I liked him and to ask him out. He said no to me asking him out, and he has yet to tell me what I am to him. But I really like him...alot o_o;; I'm not obsessive...I don't memorize his class schedule so I can see him or have a shrine to him hidden in my closet, heck I really don't talk about him much..days can go by before he'll pop up in a conversation. It's just that when I'm with him I'm happy, I like being around him and I'm comfortable with him; and whenever I get to the point where I think I could drop him and forget him I just happen to see him and I'll fall for him all over again.

Now here's my big problem. Where Kerry gets scared and shy; I get violent and abusive. I really don't mean it...what I'm trying to see is if the guy in question is willing to put up with me. Well...he put up with me pretty well o_o; There were so many times he could have yelled at me, told me to go away or leave him alone, or just hit me back. But he didn't. He'd just grab my wrists and laugh at me because he's stronger and I couldn't move -.o I've also noticed I get jealous easily...I try not to..I really don't have the right to because I'm not his girlfriend or anything but I just am. I feel a little twang of jealousy when I see other girls hang on him (plus I know he hates it), I get jealous when his step-sisters friends will tell me about how often they see him, and here's the kicker..I've been jealous of Kim o_o;; My good friend Kim of all people 0o;; I reeeaally don't mean it but I just couldn't help it --; I'm not so much anymore but it still bothers me.

He's done alot of things for me too...let me borrow things, made me laugh, and poked at me incessently to find if I was mad at him or not or to get me to smile...he still does that every now and then...but I'm not as depressed as I used to be...he still lets me borrow stuff **yay fallout boy!** He's even fixed my broken heart once...I've never been so scared of a damn phone call before o_o; thank god I was talking to Kerry when he called or I might have fallen apart. But he doesn't like me the way I do right? Just a friend...maybe not even that. Then I can't help but wonder a guy of his..."nobility" would do for a girl he really liked....curiosity will kill me one day.

...over and out. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7813532/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7813532/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 20:47:41 PST Yeah...I watched the Super Bowl..yeah I enjoyed it (for more than one reason...*cough*) and yeah I was happy when the Steelers won I'm a fledgling fan and I thought it was a great game ^^ whoo hoo!! Well anyway, on with the new project.

I completely revamped Kidu...she looks similar to the most recent sketch I have posted except now she's..well...a bombshell o_o; she's drop dead gorgeous with the body of a porn star and could probably kick anyone's ass The revamp sketch of her is the preliminary for the "underworld beauty contest" and a series I'm doing called "Men would kill to die like this." ...aheh Well here's the thing, my friend at work liked the drawing and she agreed whole heartedly that Kidu now looks like a porn star (and she's from Georga!) and suggested that I draw her looking all hot in a Steelers Jersey...then I decided to wait till after the game to decide what jersey to draw her in, Steelers or Seahawks...still Steelers though since they won Then I had the idea to do Kidu and Choryss in the two jersey...Choryss looking a bit disgruntled since the Seahawks lost ha ha...I need to draw it..ink it..scan it..render it..and print it to be displayed in the bar where I work. So before I get my "Valentines" project on the road I'll be doing this....yes Meghan I'll still be trying to do your Kiriban but like I said...I suck at fanart ^^ heh ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7798790/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7798790/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 11:07:41 PST Yes Meghan I will get to your Kiribans but seeing as my printer died and I can't print references plus I'm absolutely aweful at doing fanarts from memory it might be awhile until I get them done.

On a lighter note!! For Valentines Day I would love to draw and color some of my character couples!! ahww!! Seeing as all my lovely female characters have better luck with guys than I do ^-^;; heh the couples go as follows!

Whiskey and Verdi from "Forbidden"
Talan and Eisen from "A Spark in the Night"
Kidu and Issac from "Renascent"
Scry and Josephine from "Inner Universe"
Zenia and Mason from "Renascent"
Kirin and Trey from "Caprice"

All characters and story titles are mine...yeah I have to get around to writing those...or atleast summarizing them I'm sure I'll have Randi after me once she reads this and finds out I have five stories with titles in my head and I have yet to write them heh..I'm doomed. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7794370/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7794370/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 20:55:07 PST
I still have to do Meghan's kiriban..yes...I know...

I'm mad at myself right now....scratch that..I'm furious at myself. -.o ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7649474/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7649474/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 14:59:58 PST
OH MY F**KING GAWD!!!! o_____o

It's not that the steps are hard...it just goes from insanely fast (800 bpm) to insanely slow (17 bpm)...the arrows are hard to read and even harder to hit.

Kerry...Meghan...we're going to have fun with this one ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7612656/ http://Makurayami-Kangaebuk.deviantart.com/journal/7612656/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 16:29:02 PST
and I'm breathing a sigh of releif right now...for a rather dumb reason...eh.

Kimiko-chan looks so cute in her dress too ><; she's so pretty I can hardly stand it. ]]> ~Makurayami-Kangaebuk