http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Manic-Mel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Manic-Mel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:54:35 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/8979209/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/8979209/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 14:32:55 PDT ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/7212570/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/7212570/ Sat, 03 Dec 2005 14:05:16 PST

( ) crashed a friend's car

( ) stolen a car

( x) been in love

( ) been dumped

( ) shoplifted

( ) been fired

( x) been in a fist fight

( x) snuck out of your parent's house

(x) had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back

( ) been arrested

( ) gone on a blind date

(X) lied to a friend

(x) skipped school

( ) seen someone die

(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends

( ) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico

(x) been on a plane

( x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire

(x) eaten Sushi

( ) been skiing

(x) met someone in person from the internet

( x) taken painkillers

(x) miss someone right now

(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

(x) made a snow angel

(x) had a tea party

(x) flown a kite

(x) built a sand castle

(x) gone puddle jumping

(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves

(x) gone sledding

(x) cheated while playing a game *cough monopoly!*

(x) been lonely

(x) fallen asleep at work/school

( x) used a fake id

(x) watched the sunset

( ) felt an earthquake

(x) touched a snake

(x) slept under the stars

(x) been tickled

( ) been robbed

(x) been misunderstood

(x) petted a reindeer/goat

(x) won a contest

( ) run a red light

( ) been suspended from school

(x) been in a car only once as a birthday treat

( x) had braces *the shame!

( x) felt like an outcast

(x ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) had deja-vu

(x) danced in the moonlight

() like the way you look *im not that gross*

(x ) Witnessed a crime

(x) questioned your heart

( ) been obsessed with post-it

(x) squished barefoot through the mud

(x) been lost new years london! 2000, crappest millenium ever

( ) been to the opposite side of the country

(x) swam in the ocean

(x) felt like dying

(X) cried yourself to sleep *many times*

(x) played cops and robbers

(x ) recently colored with crayons

(x ) sung karaoke *my rendition of celine dion is immortal*

( x) paid for a meal with only coins *snigger, payed £30 in 20p coins today *

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

( x) made prank phone calls *hello erotic modlling balloons, for all your blowing needs*

(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose *the stings!*

(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue

(x) danced in the rain

(x) written a letter to Santa Claus *and he wrote back!*

(X ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about

(x) blown bubbles

() made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party

(x) gone roller-skating

(x ) had a wish come true

( ) worn pearls

(x ) jumped off a bridge *every year baby! may day!*

(x) ate dog/cat food *i was curious*

(x ) told a complete stranger you loved them

( ) kissed a mirror

( x) sang in the shower *R.E.S.P.E.C.T!*

( x) had a dream that you married someone

( x) glued your hand to something/got your tongue stuck to a flagpole * hand to face, is not a good idea, especilly with industrial glue *

(x) kissed a fish *it was dead, i think*

(x) sat on a roof top

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs

( ) done a one-handed cartwheel *im cartwheelly retarded

( x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours *damn tlking clock!*

(x) stayed up all night *insomniac comes to mind *

(x ) didn't take a shower for a week

( x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree

(x) climbed a tree *to save a kitty!*

(x ) had a tree house *i had a makebelieve one that counts doesnt it?*
~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6888655/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6888655/ Fri, 28 Oct 2005 06:16:34 PDT
1)Im extremely self concious about my teeth, and once treid knocking them all out when i was 8.
2) I misplace most emotions with humor.
3)The song minority, makes me feel incredibly happy to have such beautiful friends.
4) I am currently flea bitten like mad!!
5) Singing makes me feel happy, even when its sung truely badly.
6) I hate my arms
7) I once knocked myself unconcious, because i was so angry at myself.
8) My desire is to be able to say something and have people understand me.
9) I like my man voice.
10) When i was little my safety place was on top of my wardrobe.
11) I love going for walks alone in the park in the late hours. i love the tranquility and sense of comfortable aloneness in the dark.
12)Im afraid of people leaving me.
13) I constantly dream of my death, and awake truely happy after.
14)I miss being in love
15) I have a fear if mirrors.
16) I dont care im not pretty, becasue im surronded by beautfiul friends.
17) I binge eat.
18) I imagine different scenarious about just about everything, and become how paranoid.
19) Im afriad of how people percieve me, so i act like i dont take myself seriously so they wont either.
20) I write poetry, that no-ones aloud to see, ever.

Ok ive done my share, damn tagging damn you all! and LIzems knowing id read hers. *shakes fist* ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6693341/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6693341/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 08:13:27 PDT ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6656852/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6656852/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 09:49:51 PDT

Isnt it funny how one day can be so contrasting? THe morning and afternoon, was great, but the evening was just one bombshell after another! I admit alot of those bombs were my own, but still.

okay im gonna use this journal to let it alll out, so please dont feel like you have to read on, im sure youve better things to think about then my little insignificant life!

So the day started well, had a great time round shaz's with liz karl steph and laura, watchign movies and eating pizza, cant forget the pizza.
Got some news, shocked but glad i was told. Got home, had some great news, ex-bf, Ben said he was coming down to see me. Im estatically happy, as i havent seen him for ages!! He was once my best friend and ever since our realationship ended on neutral terms due to geological resons, we've been just as close.

However, as i start to think about it, (when i have chance to) i realise that Ben coming down is not the best thing to happen, we both hold something for each other, and it'll just be hard having to say goodbye again. But its not just that, I know that if he comes down, ill not want him to go, id want to have another go of, but that could only end in two ways, both bad, 1. loosing the friendship and 2. We attempting a long distance relationship, whih wont work and means we can neither move on.

He then starts ringing, saying he'll be wanting to stay for a while and wants to find a place down here, which would never happen! Its cruel to even suggest. This is bad, theres certain aspects why he cant saty down here, which i wont put as he'll be hurt.

So i decied to give it a while to settle down, and decied to go on Msn. Several bombshells later i wont go into, im tlking to a good mate, who in someways helps me realise ive got to confront Ben. So i ring him up, tell him not to come down. he starts trying to apologise, when i explain its nothing he's done, he then accuses me of finding someone else, though when i try to point out where not seeing each other, and tell him so what if i have, he doesnt even reply!
It would have been better if he'd yelled at me! ok so at this point im feeling like utter crud, n lower then crud, the lint you find on crud. so several mins later i decied to call him, to explain, i dont want him down, as id rather remain good buds, then try and strech something i dont feel is going to work. however when i do ring him, he's trying to apologise again, sayig how its all his fault and he'll try better (guiltomania here!) so try to explain, he wont shut up, so i snapped, i know i shouldnt have but i did, i literally screamed at him, i hate him and never want to see him again. ever.
i put the phone down on him. ok im shaking now, ive just hurt and emotionally unstable friend, who i love. im such a fuucking moron im afraid he'll do something stupid, he's done it b4. Thankfully, with some guidance, and whilst giving some, im told to ring and admit all. which i do. i manage to calm him, down, and telll him ill ring him in the morning.

another bombshell. so im calmed a bit know, worreid like shit, but better, so i decied to take the dogs over the park, its abotu 2am then. and guess what my dog runs off! brillaint! so there i am, 2am in a park alone looking for a dog, worried abotu ben, worried about getting home as the poeple im ment to be looking after are homealone, on the verge of tears and in dire need of a hug! all the while im thinking of how happy i was this morning. why does everything come crashing down at once!

Next morning; ive managed to sort thigns out with Ben, he's still trying to come down, if he does i wont answer the door to him, id rather not hurt him again! god i feel like the biggest bitch in the world!!!!! hail me the mightisest stinkiet piece of crap alive!

ok rant over now im sorry guys! somethings have been biulding up, i need to practise this self expression stuff more! Im just fucking sick of pretending to be happy all the time.
oh big thankyou to dude who helped me last night. you were a huge help, and i hope things are a better for you.
melly xx the lint crud piece of shit

*note* Ben if you read this, which you probably will, im sorry, i hope that you can understand, this is by no fault of your own. ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6511481/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6511481/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 12:33:01 PDT Im also having to make a HUGE apologie to those awaiting art, i just havent been able to draw lately (drawers block) and they may never get done. soo a huge sorry but they may have to be forgotten about. Im just not in the mood to draw and i have to start focusing on more important work now. Big sorry again, *hides while people thow virtual food at her*

xx melly ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6344132/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6344132/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 10:26:59 PDT Geography- A
History-A
English-A
English Lit- A
Math - B
Sciencs (all 3) - C
ICT-B
Graphics- B
RE-A
Spanish - E (meh !)
Anyhow not to bad, i was feeling really pleased with myself until i got home and got the cold reaction of my family.. typical.. i finally do sumthin right and they dont react.. typical british behaviour.. cant react enthusiatcially what so ever.. ho hum. dont you just hate it when your compared to your siblings! so wat im not as intellgent as them, doesnt mean i dont deserve praise when ive earned it. (i no i sound uber "give me attention!" but its how i feel) meh.
Just found it saddening when i see people telling there parents there results and getting this great reaction when i get the complete contrast. Its like my rents will gladley tell my results, shes not ashamed or any thing like that, but she empathises on my failures. I dont think its purposeful. well i no its not , but sumtimes i wish they'd be a little more involved in my life! Its like hi! im the child over shadowed by the two perfect children before me! wwwowow! little help! Enough with the comparisons! im a different person!

*im sorry about the rant, im just feeling weird*

anyhow those awaiting art im really sorry about delays.. ive just had alot on my plate lately, but now im free for a week so im trying to get it all done now


ART

UPDATE : Sorry about small delay computer issues

*green-haiku - T-shirt design -- designing... so hard!!

*Bluemoonbirdy (Portraite)- On hold will be started during week

*kyan- characters - started

*Shelaka- charters

*Manic-Scribbler- Character awaiting note.

*Fake glasses- Awaiting info
*Bobrox15- image (see you where here all along you were just.... um invisable!)

COMPLETED WORK (all completed art is in my gallery)
*Vert MB
*TheGreatSeto
*Tozoku
*TheNamelessTailled
*miseryimmortal
*StormCloudMao
*morthonkdgoblinator
*psycho-mantis92
*Karineko
*Bobox15
*sailorsvs4
*jacksprat
*zirathedarkelf
*geistseig ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6054741/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/6054741/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 09:07:09 PDT

Those who are awaiting art can cheak up here


UPDATE : Sorry about small delay computer issues

*sailorsvs4 - character design - yet to start

*green-haiku - T-shirt design - yet to start

*Bluemoonbirdy (Portraite)- On hold will be started during week


*zirathedarkelf (RP Character Drawing)- Starting

*geistseig- Character design


*jacksprat - image- started- experimenting

*kyan- characters - started

*Shelaka- charters


COMPLETED WORK (all completed art is in my gallery)
*Vert MB
*TheGreatSeto
*Tozoku
*TheNamelessTailled
*miseryimmortal
*StormCloudMao
*morthonkdgoblinator
*psycho-mantis92
*Karineko
*Bobox15 ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/5826607/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/5826607/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:56:07 PDT ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/5755679/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/5755679/ Sat, 25 Jun 2005 17:52:39 PDT is it a good thing that i no longer feel sorrow when someone leaves or should i be worried that i cant feel able to connect to people as in fear theyll leave??
Confussingg eh? i think i need chocolate...

]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4976360/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4976360/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 03:28:58 PST ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4748356/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4748356/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 03:27:08 PST

I fell really badly on mothers day and i wont be able to dance with you on Tueday, im really sorry hun, i know we've put alot of effort into this and i've ruined it.

I have been trying to get back into a fighting fit state but im finding it realy hard to walk so jumps, prances and fast action dancing is definatly otta the picture

Oh well i thought id say sorry for letting you down, ill try and see if we can do the dance for the talent show.

hope you get this message, ill ring you during lunch mos probs tho. ]]> ~Manic-Mel http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4731792/ http://Manic-Mel.deviantart.com/journal/4731792/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 01:28:11 PST


ERmmmmm wat to say?! Spoon! haha!

God im sad! :S
Anyhow a journal eh? mmm, wats going on in my life?
well today ive just finished a load of costums for a comic relief dance in doing, *its more of a piss take* with a friend. ]]> ~Manic-Mel