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So much for the happy endings promised by them ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2802812/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2802812/ Sun, 04 Jul 2004 14:39:25 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2710003/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2710003/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 07:33:22 PDT
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2689601/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2689601/ Fri, 18 Jun 2004 11:10:05 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2677407/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2677407/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 19:27:01 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2637650/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2637650/ Fri, 11 Jun 2004 16:38:38 PDT
I was sitting w/ Shauna and Liv and I kept checkin out guys and there was this one really cute one (I was getting depressed cause everyone had a girlfriend..) and he was sitting alone with this other guy.. alone meaning w/o a girl.. and I was like yeah im not tlaking to him cause im short, fat, ugly have an awful personality and all this crap and I was almost in tears when Liv was like WHATS YOUR SHIRT SAY! And he was looking at me sorta I guess cause we made eye contact a bunch of times and he smiled at me and shit... and then livs like HE POINTED AT YOU! and I was like.. no... he pointed over there... and so I didnt talk to him and he wlaked away, then we walked away (me and shauna) and we walked by him and we didnt say anything but we looked at eachother...

Then we walk back to where we were sititng and he was there so I was like LETS TALK TO HIM and I walk up and Erin is talking to him and flirting with him and she gave him a hug or something and it was like.. fuck....... so I basically am very.. er.. put down maybe? but not really its just a reality check... Anyways, lets stop being emo for one sec... yeah... no fuck it







*And the boy said to the other one, oh look and emo... and they icked her in the stomach five times then stabbed her pen in her arm... walked away and said good redens emo child... and that was the end of her short story.... all she had dreamed" ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2623431/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2623431/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 18:41:31 PDT
Lets go live on a fucking cloud, life is so grand... oh shoot me! ANY MORE FUCKING IDIOTS COME TO BE ABOUT HOW THEY LOVE THAT SUGNIFIGANT OTHER I WILL KICK YOU IN THE HEAD THEN KILL YOUR OTHER!

And DONT assume Im talking to any of you, its all included so enjoy the ride over the fucking rainbow, I hope you fall down as far as you climb... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2620406/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2620406/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 11:19:47 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2587958/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2587958/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 08:11:47 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2538168/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2538168/ Sat, 29 May 2004 19:49:38 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2537870/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2537870/ Sat, 29 May 2004 19:01:00 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2492707/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2492707/ Sun, 23 May 2004 18:35:38 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2448999/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2448999/ Mon, 17 May 2004 15:01:08 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2352214/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2352214/ Mon, 03 May 2004 15:38:03 PDT
So yeah I just want to hang out with someone, but on friday night I found out how LUCKY I was that I went out with Jason and made out with him for that long a time. Seriously, He's like, an incredible kisser! I kissed... someone else on friday, nasty..... and turtle boy, I swear if I dont get someone good to kiss soon Im going to crack! Brett BETTER be a good kisser, I swear...... haha not like Im gonna kiss him, maybe...


By the way, new journal if you want to check up on me, invite me to dinner, what not, [link]


GO TO THE JOURNAL!RAHHHH ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2293275/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2293275/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 05:48:15 PDT
Will came over at around 8 last night and we walked half-way around the green cause Will had to pee! weirdo... So we went home and watch Original sin and I fell asleep, but I dont think he noticed, and woke up when I heard my dads footsteps.. again... weird! now I am dared to dress emo-kid, lets see how this goes, how do Emo kids dress anyways?

I dont, repeate, Do not want to go back to school... no, unuh, neinte, never! Or as we say in latin, MINIME! Which means NO, hehe. But Overall, Vaca was pretty damn good.


And I dont use this journal nemore...heres the one I use now, [link]


And thats all she wrote.... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2276913/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2276913/ Thu, 22 Apr 2004 17:15:45 PDT
This kid that I really liked, named Brett... he said that he likes me as a friend, and not as a gf. And hes like "Are you sure you dont have a problem with that because if someone told me that I would shoot myself."

Well... haha.... yeah... so I was on the pone w/ george and drank 2 iced teas mixed with rum and got a little.... overly buzzed... BUT I WASNT SAD!! Then I went down and got really depressed and cryed! great... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230638/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230638/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 15:47:56 PDT

Im seeing Brett on......er.........Sat... THAT my friends... is when I will "MAKE MY MOVE!" Ha-Ha-HAHAHAHA! Yeah im weird.... and hes gonna think im a bit insane... BUT THATS OK! NOT A PROBLEM!

I'm not such a bad person... am I? I mean well.... I hope people know that.... on the side of that happy crap, I think Molly and Chantell are lesbians....they're allways today and allways latched to eachother and allwas going places alone... and sorta...doing the whole sneaking off bit. CREEPY ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230617/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230617/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 15:45:10 PDT ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230583/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2230583/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 15:40:57 PDT
April Vaca-

Fri-sat= Erin F sleeps over, Cheeseburgers and a movie!
Sat= Game Sat, Erin goes home, Concert
Sun- Thinking of inviting Will over
Mon- Double header game (same as sat) and then its over to Tammys till tues
Tues-Livs house in the evening sleeping over
Wed- Gym and sleep at my house
thurs-sun=Verginia w/ Anna

I'm completelly booked all vaca long..... its insane

not to metion homework! ACK ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2222762/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2222762/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 14:32:26 PDT
My head will explode soon if I dont get to just sit and relax! But.... April Vaca in 2 days! Fucks Yeah! I want to go somewhere april vaca.... and I'm def gonna go out and do shit... and I mean SHIT!

My mom talked to Mike D's dad.. cause he came over w/ my moms friend.... wierd-ness.... So I guess he started talking about how Mike has a new job and livse in baltic and is doing alot better and she doesnt know anything else! Next Time Mike D's dad comes over... shes gonna ask questoins for me! Haha yeah the world is fucked up..... but hey! Thats alright.... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2201350/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2201350/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 16:38:47 PDT

Happy getting killed by a rabid Bunny holiday! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2198098/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2198098/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 08:18:29 PDT
Hell Boy really sucked, I almost fell asleep at the end. I talked to shauna about my, Well lets just call it "friend" problems. I also talked to Reenie, well sent her a note. Reenie is "Off the Heezie, For Sheezie.." yes... right then... really bored and tired!
Ravyn woke me up at 7:30 this morning cause one of the olds was gonna pick me up to come home and clean, though I am not cleaning. Im going over my Olds Olds house later, to get big and fat on foody-foods. After 5 more days.. It will be April Vaca, which means.... SLEEP TIME! I think I might have mono... or something, cause Im allways tired! But I havn't kissed neone since... well... the "turtle sinsident"... god It almost scared me gay.... and no Im not kidding!
I'm gonna get brett so stop acting childish and just give me some... I mean.... Yes I just want him to like me *Halo appears overhead* As a good christian girl I respect myself and use modisty along with chastity to follow the word of our lord.... FUCK THAT SHIT! Orgasms are too good to be let down by false gods and hell-whore folk tales! YA ONLY LIVE ONCE SO LIVE LIFE OR KILL YOURSELF NOW YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!











Travis B- Live Fast, Die fun

Fuck consequences! Unless it has STD risks, life fast ride hard! LMFAO THATS A NEW ONE!






I think I'm changing my name to Holly.... or Jess... hm... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2192607/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2192607/ Sat, 10 Apr 2004 12:19:30 PDT
my mom started freaking cause This chick Anna thinks I hate her... wow big shocker! And now annas mom calls up and starts bitchn at my mom so my mom yells at me and tells me Im gonna have no friends cause I wont call her mom and tell her mom I'm sorry for making Anna feel like shit.. .ANNA CAN FUCKN TELL ME HERSELF! So my mom was pissed about that so I ddint get to sleep over Kristens... which was a good thing too cause I was in a worse mood there... GROWL!

I was in the car w/ Kristen Will and J and everything was cool, and I said nothing bad from then till we watched a movie... and I I forgot how much fun it was to hang w/ Kristen + Tammy and Tim, they rock! The dogs are good too. J was good for the time being, a litle resereved, never talking... but thats kinda his nature so I didnt really press it.... Then I asked him if he was ok... cause I was actually concerned about how the movie would affect him b/c of his friend Sam. Then eveyrone was like "AWW POOR JASON! ARE YOU OK BABY?!" I'm like... wow way to make me look like an ASS!

Then J's friend Caesar was there and he said something like, Well Jason wants that women (shower scene in a jail setting) and the chick was monsterously ugly... and I felt really bad and I wanted to saw something positive about J like... well he def could get better or he's out of her leuge or somthing.... but I said nothing.. THEN I wanted to saw something to Caesar like Watch your back or watch your behind but it came out "He takes it in the behind" and I DID NOT MEAN TO SAY THAT... I felt like crying cause I was fucking up my nice time! And jason just goes "And thats why I dont talk to you nemore.... then I just got really pissed... but I still felt really really bad... i think I was pissed at myself..


THEN I went upstairs w/ kristen cause we wanted to check out the dance revolution game thingy.. and Jason and Caesar start rankin on blink.. and that just pissed me off to all ends because their so fuckn opinoinated... so what I listen to blink... THATS MY CHOICE! Who are they to say whether the music is bad or good? I got so mad, I could've ripped someones head off! And on the way home I tried to sleep cause I was so tired but I couldnt because I was really mad...... then I got home and my mom kept me up talking for like.. 15 mins... and then she woke me up today at like 7 to talk... DUDE IM GONNA FUCKN KILL SOMEONE! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2190753/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2190753/ Sat, 10 Apr 2004 06:04:17 PDT
My mom was completelly being an ass... and she is today too... shes like.. you have serious emotional problems your not telling me about... wait... what are those clothes doing in that basket... why are they unfolded! I did all that fuckn work now you clean it up!! I swear... its like... ADHD cept meaner... I g2g I'll write more later, Soft bal times! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2179926/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2179926/ Thu, 08 Apr 2004 15:24:27 PDT
Now Im out of school, and home for a 4 day weekend! or.. 3.... FUCK YEAH NO H/W!!!! SCORE! Now Im just lookin for someone to hang w/ the weekend.. or for some part of the weekend, and somewhere to go kinda... I WANNA GO OUT! LETS GO TO THE MOVIES! ANYTHING! Anytakers?... I'm callin Will ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2172757/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2172757/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 15:32:30 PDT
I figured out a plan to know if Brett for sure thinks im "Attractive"... cause Liv has this Zany Idea that IO can get any guy/girl I want.... and that I am very attractive..... yes tis a zany idear! BUT wanna hear?

Ok, First i'm gonna be like... Brett can U walk you to your car..? hopefully theres a yes.... and then nwhen I get to his car I'll be like, Alright I HAVE to ask, I DO find you really atractive, do you find me atractive? And he'll prolly be like eww get away from me.. or "I have a gf"... something lame... and then I'll feel embarassed and shit but lets see what happends... shall we? ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2166706/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2166706/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 18:05:02 PDT
Johns Reply: Simolean14: yes
Simolean14: I am having that kind of day?

Yeah..... My dad wants to help me w/ softball... great...... my mom wants to be at the dance... great..... I'm sick.. great.... My stomach hurts...


Im pretty much repeating life before I became semi-normal... I'm not aeting anymore.. YAY! not sayn nething about cutting... for fear of death... or a shrink..... I'm thinking of taking like... 10 of my pills with my moms liqur.... and pasing out... that would be good.... (talking to myself dont yell at me) my head hurts... I've been having a head ache nad stomach ache for 2 months now..... make it fuckn stop! It feels like the world is going around in circles... and my stomach has a repeated throbing everytime my heart beats.. as does my head aswell... and my eyes burn... plus my throat is sore... and my mother wont let me stay home... I have 6 tests tomorrow.... joy..... need sleep.... need it..... not getting it...... I think im gonna go ahve some ice cream.... usually makes things better.... I need someone.... a person, to whom I trust and care about to be right here and hugging me adn tellin me its alright.... FUCKN FANTASY DISNEY ENDINGS! my foot itches.... great now im prolly getting athelets foot.... no fungus-y-lookin-stuff... no dry skin.. Oo my foot is soft... MY HEAD! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2166108/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2166108/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 16:37:17 PDT

OK! UPDATE! My drea friend Liv deicded to invite her dear from casey to our little softball game... thast not horrible... then Casey decides to invite his friend Will... not a HORRIBLE thing.. but prety DAMN bad..... and now casey invites.. *DA DA DA DA!* JASON! Whoopy fuckn do!! So i get to look like an ASS in retared brightly colored clothes.. al sweaty and my fuckn hair'll be a fuckn mess.. and my makeup will run and it's look like S-H-I-T~ And my wonderfully nice ex and his friends get to watch.... I want to cry.. infact I think I will.... I hope I get sick before the game.. or I break my wrist and cant play for the rest of the season......


this is horrible... and now, better news! I have big eyes.... I feel like a fuckn circus freak to top it off!!!!! Im gonna go lay in bed and cry now.... so im a whore, circus freak, with gay-ass hair, no boobs, puffy cheecks, and a nasty-ass uniform! AND I CANT PLAY SOFTBALL FOR SHIT! blah blah blah, yada-yada-yada.... no one cares.... shoot me ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2151909/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2151909/ Sun, 04 Apr 2004 16:14:38 PDT
I went on the Carocel... dunno how to spell that... ate cake... thast about the only thing I ate today.. cept for butterscotch candies, and lollypops.... but tomorrow is school and I have to finish like ALL of my homework... (ick) Will didnt come over today either... damn people! im gonna ask Brett for his sn next time I see him..... damn bastard! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2148936/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2148936/ Sun, 04 Apr 2004 07:38:37 PDT
He plays really good gutiar... my mommy is so mean cause she said hes not good enough 4 me... but then again she says no one is but that im a slut.. .WTF DOES SHE KNOW?

I just called Will Bill..... CREEEPY! ANYWAYS.... brett has the longest and most amazing fingers I think I have seen on a man.. granted Jasons hands were bigger.. but I think Bretts fingers are LONGER...... Ha funny! ANYWAYS...

Wills coming over today cause he didnt come over yesterday.. FUN! im gonna do shit to his hair.. but I might want to get clothes on cause All im wearing is a towel.... hehe.... Brett smells good and he plays lacross! *drools* I hung out w/ him more then neone yesterday.... DAMN! Hes got the deepest sexiest voice and him humming is like.... well it almost put me to sleep.... I'll get over him in like.. a month... he seems to show great affection for me... cause i'm like.. one of the only people he talks to and beats! haha mean mean boy! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2141681/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2141681/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 04:30:59 PST
Best part was when I almsot fainted off the stage-y-thingy... but I tried to hold myself together and up... cause my head was kinda doing a back and forth whoosh thing... it was crazy!!

So i get off the stage and sit on the stage near where Brett is gettin his shit together and I tell Anna that I fell like crap I almost fainted and my head is pounding and Brett comes over and smacks me in the head with his script papper thing... I was like... THATS NICE! So then he was walking up the asle of the thearter and I moshed him into a seat.. but he kinda moshed me back... then I was outside and he kicked me in the leg and I almost fell.. but I did squeak... and I started screaming at him (he was walking away w/ his daddy) and I was like.. I hope you feel guilty! and have indegestion! and have heart burn! it was great.... but ll that screaming and pushing and kicking hurt the shit outta me head.... ohhhhh head pounding.....



MSI- Kill yourselfbecause you dont get what you want!

*MSI is the shit.... yes.. yes it is! *wink*


Now Will is SUPOSED to come over.. but his ass is sleeping.... and I am suposed to leave at like.. 12:30 to get to my show tonight... so I dunno wtf is happenin w/ him... I considered inviteing him... but.... er... no ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2135556/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2135556/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 07:35:33 PST
Im gonna ask my mom to buy my tikets to the blink concert instead of an Amp... most people would say thast a waste.. but people go to Mass and I say thats a waste so all you fuckn religion people cant fuckn talk! hehehe...... cant wait to go see MY god! Now I need someone to go w/..... maybe I can make Joe go..... hm... he proly will since he had a good time the last time me N him went to a blink concert.... hm....... yeah maybe joe.... But then I wont be able to meet ne guys there cause joe will be all... I like you and I want you and jealous-ish..... guys suck sometimes... I dont get it! i just wanna go have fun.. I need some FUN right now... And I need someone with an extra 31$ to be able to spent on a ticket.... *sigh* ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2124787/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2124787/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 17:57:01 PST

Lenny called today (Lenny rocks) Talked to Will and he's coming over my house sat. and to the movies.... talking to Derrick right now... hes kinda weird.... and Ben Ben too!


Im so tired.. im going to bed or something.. first im gonna to H/w whilst listneing to MSI ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2110654/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2110654/ Mon, 29 Mar 2004 17:41:36 PST
Joe said he wants to invite me to the movies again.. fuckn asswhole! He was like.. my comp broke and I dont know where your # is.. .I really wanna go to the movies w/ u though.. I was like dude whatever... and hes like.. NO I'LL PAY AND EVERYTHING.... so yeah I think I'll go (Free Ride!)







~*~Art is a lie that helps to discover reality~*~ Love that.....





I hate weed... its ruined my self esteeme.. and I've nvr done it.. CAUSE IM NOT A FUCKN PUSSY..... and I dont give in to "peer pressure"... all those people create it in their minds... I guess theres nothing I can do and people will be dickheads, even when I happen to care about them so much and they dont notice or care! HA "I'll be there for you" BULL SHIT! DONT EVER FUCKN SAY THAT!!!! I FUCKN HATE THOSE ASS-WHORE BASTARDS THAT SAY FUCKED UP THINGS LIKE THAT AND JUST LEAVE YOU FOR A FUCKN STONER AND ALMOST RUIN THEIR LIVES!!!!




















die... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2103363/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2103363/ Sun, 28 Mar 2004 16:45:03 PST
I want to shoot some people right now... but i forgive people and I am turning buddist now... cause its easier then being pissed off all the time.. my mom is going to either send me to a shrink or a Hypnosis person... WHY OH WHY DOES EVERYTHING SUCK?! *hums* budda Budda... yes thats better... i think some musica will help.... I love Will.. really I do.... he just made me alot happier... my NON stoner friend... unlike the rest of the fucking followers!!! I WANT TO HELP AND BE THEIR FRIENDS... but theres a wall.. i cant talk to them... they basically wont talk to me so whats the point?!


Weed sucks.... i am never making another weed joke...




ever...



Wills gonna come over this weekend and im gonna straighten his hair and put green gell in it and spike it.. then we might go to the movies or something... Will rocks face!!!! I wish I still had some of my old friends... but they all have more important people now... and forgot about.. everything.. ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2099904/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2099904/ Sun, 28 Mar 2004 10:44:53 PST
Ever have one of those days when you just dont like what your wearing, ya know... and how your hair looks.. And kinda thinking of how much of an Ass you were yesterday, try not to be one for today, then you think about it then next morning and are like, wow... that didnt work... It's a bad thing when your ashamed of yourself... It's like fuck, were'd I go wrong


HAHAHAHHAA I WANNA DIE! hehehehehe... now im just going completelly insane.. i think I'll cut my hair again.. I just found a couple broekn glasses in the back of my closet that I think I really wanna use... hehehehe the happier days!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! no sreiously I cant get a fuckn hold of myself!!!!! My friends joe and mike basically have deserted me to the point of where... yeah I dont talk to them so I guess its MY FAULT.... but yeah whatever fucknuts!! my friends Will and George I cant see anymore cause they want to rape me... HAHAHAHHAHAHA well I can see Will but I cant go around fucking george like teh little whore I am (So says the mother) oh kind mother how listen to your words and it shoots me down even more! HA SOMEONE JUST RAPE AND KILL ME! It would make all her dreams come true!!!

AND NOW! As if my life durning the summer didnt SUCK enough..... My wonderfully loved ex boyfriend (whom I still care about and love to fuckn death (probably because of.. reasons nvm)) and my other friend Casey, who was once the kid I loved tooo are now pot heads! HEY WHAT THE FUCKN HELL!?!?!?!? The to biggest "Pot is bad i'll nvr follow the crowd" people and they fuckn smoked?!?!? YEAH the world basically is sucking right now.. Mike D is getting off Drugs and my Ex and Friend now do drugs.. everything that was once stable in my world has now finnaly colasped and died and is burned and burried! HAHA!!!!!!! And... the funny part? You wanna know??? THERES NO ONE HERE FOR ME ANYMORE! I truely did fuck myself over.... I can kinda sorta talk to liv, but I can go to her house or see her... so yeah theres no one here!


Ya wanna know what its like? Its like.. my group of friends that were stable (Casey Jason Will Twitch Liv Anna Mike Joe Mike etc...) where kinda like a tight rope bridge for me... and if they were stable. cause their the only stibility and the other thing that fuckn kept me to actually LIKE myself.. and them being a bridge.. had to be over a BIG WHOLE... and they they had to go and smoke, or I can see em, or they moved, or they just fuckn left and became assholes and they sorta cut the rope from under themselves... and so this means they fall but since I was on top of them.. the whole holding me up part.. I fell even further and faster...


Maybe im blowing this up completelly... but I AM NOT FUCN GOING BACK INTO THAT SHRINKS OFFICE! and thats what might happen cause now.. im falling back into my late summer stage of suicidal tendencies.. .and I think I hear voices.. and not that cute, oh my voices talk to me.. I AM FUCKN SERIOUS..... breaking out into random stages of tears... throwing up what I eat.. non-intentionally... pushing everyone away because they werent their in the first place.. yeah no ones going to read this whats the fuckn damn point.... I need some sleeping pills.. I slept for 12 hours yesterday... but I just want to pass out and not wake up.... not die.. just pass out, till everything gets better happy and the world is right.. yeah die basically...

I need to get out... to someones house... talk about it... just.. maybe forget about it.... HA everyones gone.... lalalla slit my throat ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2097522/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2097522/ Sat, 27 Mar 2004 19:42:05 PST
Went w/ a friend to See dawn of the dead, after geting my head thrown around by a couple of assholes... Hm, sucks to care about people... and sneaking in to a movie that was a WASTE OF SNEAKING TIME! Seriously.. that movie was the stupidest thing and it totally topped the stupidity of this sat.. somtimes I wish there was no weekend...

and sometimes I wish I could "zig zag" a blade over certain peoples wrists.. but its no legal.. darn...

Now im talking to Liv, thank god for Liv cause theres no one else to talk to... now that my mom thinks george is gonna rape me or something, she flatters myself honestly... she thinks to highly of me then calls me a whore and a slut.. its like.. wtf....shes like, "Im not letting you outta the house with george until I meet him and his parents, like were fucknin hot on eachother and we're TOTALLY not... where the hell is brett when you need him... (Tomorrow I see him, FUCK YEAH-ED-NESS!!


I really wish I knew who IMed me earlyer... long story.. its still pissing me off that someone could fuck around with someone like that.. so LAME and then be all "It's a secret!" WTF IS THAT S-H-I-T! I wish I could've stayed around long enough to actually fuck around w/ their heads... hehe ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2093589/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2093589/ Sat, 27 Mar 2004 06:46:49 PST
Ok, first off, I've been in a really bad mood lately Anyways... and so Im just wicked pissed off at everyone around me except for maybe... Liv... and Buddah...and Tom delonge... but thats about it.. Oh and Reeny..

I havn't worked out in like 3 days.. cause my schedual has been to damn busy, jsut what mutti (my mother) wanted, but now shes all, Well I never see you anymore, even though we hang out like everday after school.. go figure.,.. "You need some time alone in your room" she says, I stay in my room for a while adn she yells at me that I never come out... THEN she mkes me sign up for all these fuckn things so im never home and then she goes, yeah well your never home! Then I am not on the phone cause they dont want me to be on the phone and they go, Whats your problem and why do you hate your friends cause you nhot on the phone... wtf....

And then they wake me up after passing out on my bed and I sounded Annoyed.. WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK! ANYONES BOUND TO BE ANNOYED WHEN YOU FUCKN WAKE THEM UP! gr...


So my mom then gets up and warns me about George (Wills older bro) and tells me not to flirt w/ him or give him ideas.. First off, I do not give him ideas, Second Off, The things we talk about (me and george) are mostly about him w/ other girls for me w/ other guys... its retarded... So my mom suddenly has this whole work day planned out today but I am suposed to go over Wills house... and we've planned this since last week!

And she critizied george for being a pot head... and she said he shouldn't drive me when she smoked weed all the way driving down to FL.... and I live.. around 500 Mi. away from FL... yeah... parents should die a horrible firey death cause I think their stupid pieces of SHIT! Also she thinks I have Multi-personalitys, she gonna have to try harder than that to get me into Therapy... NO I WONT GO! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2063197/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2063197/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 14:50:04 PST
Didnt get a phone # this weekend... you wanna know why? CAUSE THE DUMB FUCK DIDNT COME TO PRACTICE! Damn him and his sexyosity...

Now I have Gym plus softball plus school plus lunch, plus social life.. this is going to be a fuckn pain in the ass, and drama.. but I kinda skip that! woot woot!

Im so pissed that no ones talking to me right now, so im getting offline, actually like 9 people ARE talking to me, but I duno I dont wanna talk to THEM...

Me and Joe sorted things out and we might be goin to the movies this weekend to see secret window again.. hehehe.... wish me luck! *wink*



btw... I love you all, all of you! Every single one, even if you thihnk I hate you.... if you asked me about why I hate you, you'll find either I dont, or I just dislike you w/ a passion because of some stupid reason *cough cough Mike cough* but its ur fault if you hang up on me, or stop tlaking to me... cause if you stop being my friedn and talking to me... but then telling me we'd be friend forever, and you saying you hate people that say one thing like they will be your friend forever and then they dont, well your big ass fuckn hypocrtes and I really think you should sort out your prorities before you go fucking with your gf and she gives you aids or starts cheating on you or something... shut up, choke on your food, and die you self-centered assbitches! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2049895/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2049895/ Sat, 20 Mar 2004 14:51:35 PST
Tammys lil bro hit on me.. and I mean 3 year old litle bro.. i can get em from 3-93. honeslty... but hey, its good to have a high range.. i hope.. Me and Will are kinda falling AWAY from eachother.. in a frendly manner cause he ALL know I do not like Will in that way. Me and him are more awkward w/ eachother now.. but good news... I SEE BRETT TOMORROW! im gonn ask for his SN or somthing... WOOT! Maybe we can get together, Will suggested I ask him out on a date, not ask him OUT.. .good idea my little jewish taken friend... at least HE stilll talks to me, unlike my other two best fucking idiot assholes for people that I once knew to be totally awesome... not saying who. but if you know me, you'll kno who..


Chiao! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2041293/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2041293/ Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:58:55 PST
yeah.. aside from that! It's snowing, no school... im not to thrilled about that.. report cards come out soon, horaa.. not... i might go outside and see when either Sam or Eric are doing and hope Sam doesnt have his sister strip again.. *twitch* fuckn sick bastard ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2037569/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2037569/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 14:50:31 PST
Then I had to open my big ass mouth and say that I didnt care about national honors society and my mom went psyco... NOW I cant go to reeds concert partialy cause she wont let me and I dont have anyone to go with... damn people not having money *cough cough Kristen cough*




ass ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2030170/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2030170/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 12:42:08 PST
Yes, very sad indeed.... My mom says its my fault Im not going out with anyone..cause she heard me talking about it on the phone w/.. Tammy I think... She says its because im to "picky" what the fuck does she know? Its BECOZ Im not in a public school.. if I were a lesbian I would be PERFECTLY CONTENT... but I happen to be a freak... a straight freak... hm yes...

BUT GOOD NEWS! I get to see Brett on Sun ask for his # if he doesnt ask for mine (rumored) and ask him if hes going out w/ someone, naturally.. I am not going to go out w/ him cause I dont like to be tied down. i just hope that I dont Love him.. get him.. then get bored... cause that ALLWAYS happends... anyways//


Cherio! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2017807/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/2017807/ Mon, 15 Mar 2004 14:16:28 PST
I learned how to play pool this weekend, and Tammys bro likes me cause I dress "goth".. loser... and Annas bro is afraid of me cause I dress "Goth"... loser again!


GET THIS THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULLS! I AM, and I repeate, NOT GOTH!!!

yes anyways, I stayed over with Tammy for the weekend at a hotel in guilford... and she almost got us raped going to friendlies... bitch! And we used the pool there and I worked out for bout 1/2 or 15 mins on a tredmill running... fat tummy!!

I slept over annas house sun-mon.. and I was out the entire weekend! Fuck yes, this is the second weekend in a row that I havn't been home... bleh! I NEED SOMETHING! This weekend I'm going to see Brett, and dammit I will get his #!!! Haha He keeps flirting with me and looking at me funny.... hes amazing! But Im scared to kiss him cause hes all better then me and shit! Hes a junior and such, he plays GUITAR! *Drools* and uses the SAME pic as me and has the SAME shoes.. are we seeing a "ment to be thing" here? Yes, we are...



Fine you assholes!! MUAH MUAH MUAH!! haha taste my flesh of lips on your ass... wait.. thats not right... muahahahha!!


XENOPHOBIA! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1991505/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1991505/ Thu, 11 Mar 2004 07:22:28 PST
Now im siting at my comp, cause I stayed home from sschool cause my om wanted me too.. she allways wants me too... and I am listenin to spanish ska (Thanks Joe!!) and getting ready to go see a doctor about my throat.. i might have either strep or tonsilitis or somthing else.. so I might need an operation or somthing.. wtf... And I have neer given a blow job! HOW DOES THAT WORK?!?!??!?!?! Rah....

The funny part is... Ray kissed me like 4 days ago... ya know.. the turtle kisser... and hes prolly feeling like SHIT! LMAO!!! WHY WOULD YOU KISS SOMEONE WHO HAS LOST THEIR VOICE?!?!? AND HAS A CONSTANT SOARE THROAT AND STOMACH ACHE!??!?! Retard... hahaha! *Does money daces* yes yes yes!! Muahahhaha!!!

Will and Reenie left for Canadia... They beeter take some pics of sweet canadia ASS haha!! I'd never go out w/ a canadian... yes I am spelling Canada wrong on purpose.. its funny!

Speaking of sweetness, I am going to buy a beautiful new straightener for my hair! WOOT! This will be awesome cause it works better and faster! Fuck yeah.. Sunday I get to see BRETT! MUAH! And er... fri-sun im sleeping over my friend Tammy's. Liv is kinda pissed that im allways busy.. but thats how it's been for the past.. well. since august really.. I went over her house everyweekend.. and then over Jasons (happy times *sniff sniff*) and now im over Anna's and Will's and Tammy's and everyone elses! And soon to nbe Evys!

I hope I dont get raped my Tammy's lil bro.. he thinks im gorgeous cause I look somewhat like Avril-whatsit.. and... yeah... *scared* ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1987358/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1987358/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 14:00:55 PST
AHH brett like Hard Core emo.. theres nothing better then Hard Core Emo...... bleh.. but me and him almost have the same shoes! WOOT!

*Bobs head* NANANA! Im bored... yes yes yes yes! But FUCKN HYPER!

Molly is a lez, she kissed this chick Chantells hand and shes like.. hanging around w/ her 24/7.. hehe shes not really a lez... but shes starting to make me wonder...

I want a lil som'n som'n right about now.... I brang up the subject of Beasiality in Religion.. hey its a sin! No shit... haha! So Anna goes yeah just because my dog gives me kisses doesnt mean Im gonna go sleep with her.. and I go.. Anna your dog is a girl! it's a sin to sleep with the same sex.. Anna yells Did you not just get the whole Human and Dog factor! HAHAHA. That whole conver I was thinking Casey, Jason and Will... and a teeny bit bout George... but only cause he was talking about Ass sex one day on the phone! muahahaha ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1975884/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1975884/ Mon, 08 Mar 2004 16:49:32 PST
Fri Night- Went to a concert she sang in.. she was really good.. i met a dude named brett there and Anna thought I aws never going to talk to him but I did and he sat next to me after that and shes all.. grr I hate you... kidding of course! she thinks he likes me.. shes kinda retarded... but I love her!

Sat- Turtle Tongueing! NASTY AS FUCK! I cant say who I tongued but it was gross.. it was someone anna knows! Noit brett.. she likes brett btw.. hehehe! I was layin on thsi kid and he was relaly comfortable and hot and shit.. and then he kissed me and RUINED IT ALL! He kisses like a turtle! Seriously.. its like he has no lips and his tongue is about a centimeter big... I'd had to see his penis... NASTY! Then he tried it again and I pulled away and kinda buried my head in his chest and was like.. Im tired... heh.. heh... then it was 3:45 and I walked to Anna's room cause everyone was asleep in her house (it being 3:45 in the morning and all) and he walked to the door w/ me and kissed me... EWW i pulled awya and was like.. yeah goodnight...


Sun- nothing.. went to a lunchbunch thing and saw brett for like 2 secs.... he didnt say nething... Met Annas family and had KFC!! YAY! Then went to her house, did homeowrk.. slept..

Mon- talkin to benny, Jordan, Mike, and more peoples... Annas all like.. everyone flirts w/ you an dyou dont even know it!.. so im dense.. leave me alone! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1947399/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1947399/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 19:03:57 PST
People piss me off.. and not only piss me off.. but piss me off the the point of theres nothing about them that I cant tell a real frendship from an enemy.. I mean that must sound bulshity but yeah Life really confuses me

One person says their allways there for me.. well only two people have shown that...

Liv and Anna

Those are the only to people who care

Only two people that have any sense to talk to me or to ask me if Im ok or if I need to talk to whatever

And its not just that, I know like John and Joe and Mike would talk to me, but THEY are the only one that havn't abandoned me...

Will, I can kinda slightly talk to him.. but he's allways in another demention and is allways fucking around and is NEVER serious... mean.. ever..... Casey, no thats easy, he's just an asshole that whenever I say casey I need to talk he'll go, Alex I need you to suck me.. yeah woo.. theres a wonderful friend.

ALSO probably Lexi... I can talk to her, shes cool and good and nice and such...

The rest of you all.. well you can burn and die in hell! Haha just kiding, I dont hold it against you that you dont call, IM, or e-mail me... cause I know that I am annoying and ugly (but that has nothing to do with this) and I am REALLY mean or intimidating or somthing.. maybe just infearior cause thats what I feel like.. just a lacky now.. Im pretty pathetic!

I've taken a liking to be very tired, not care, and just be almost on a high constantly cause if I do relize how really angered I am at some people and how they dont know or show any consideration anyone but themselves.. I would go and fucking shoot them!!!

Today sucked by the way... My mom freaked out cause I didnt tell her that her friend called 30 seconds after her friend had called. I talk to Casey and he said some interesting shit... I talked to Will but he had to do something and you know will... I dont want a boyfriend, I just want someone to listen... and maybe not even listen.. but just converse with me and NOT argue! IM SICK OF FIGHTING!

Oh yeah, so my mom started fighting with me and said that I shouldn't be trusted.. and I go yanked off the phone and the internet... Then I took a bath.. I sat in there and I could feel every part of my body, every movment and every pulse... I wanted to just sink under the water and stop braething... but I'd get yelled at for that... And then I wanted to write in this stupid jounral that I know NO ONE will read but my internet wasnt working.... so I wrote two poems that I am posting on fiction press. I am also sick, losing my voice, and not able to use the phone.... or IM... plus Im tired and I still have to study fo tests...

Someone Shoot me... I dont care anymore.. which is a lie because obviously to write this I do care... do what you want.. Some peopel are lucky enough to have a love interest.... HAVE FUN FUCKING YOUR SOON TO BE GIRLFRIEND! hmm *pukes* ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1945464/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1945464/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 13:41:58 PST
Had practice with coach Fugi.. oi... not cool... He needs to DIE DIE DIE! I felt like a fat whore cause I couldnt zip my pants up today..

Then I laid on a tabel in the gym locker room and I kinda... zipped em up whilst everyone laughed at me cause people usually use the tabels for bags.. IM STARTING A TREND!
Got home, called will, now Im gonna go either exrocise or do h/w N call Liv.. im so bored and theres no one to talk to anymore! Everyone is busy doing somthing or other or witht heir signifigent other! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1940289/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1940289/ Tue, 02 Mar 2004 15:47:31 PST
ANYWAYS! I went to Wills last weekend.. even though I didnt tell! Muahaha! Yeah me and George basically messed around for the whole time, we watched porn for about 2 seconds and I cirtizied it cause it was boring.. and he had some CHEAP hash.. and I mean CHEAP!

He tried to light me n Will on fire. mostly me.. or threatened it anyways! We watched exrosist... its really not scary just funny... and Scarface! Woot! Plus.. we... er...nothing really.. thats all... me and george "ruffhoused" a big.. and me and Will just sat on the couch.. well he sat.. i used him for a pillow... his new pants "make it look like" he has a boner.... but I know he really had one.. haha hes such a LIAR! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1925073/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1925073/ Sun, 29 Feb 2004 04:36:54 PST
I figured out in bed today, that Life is WAY to short to say that it sucks or that it should die... cause, life doesnt suck, it's you who could be screwing it up. I dont care how bad your life is, there is SOMTHING good about it that you can be happy about...

So what you dont have a boyfriend or a girlfriend.. Do you Need one to feel sucure? Are you looking for your Husband/wife already? Cant you be your own person? Life doesnt revolve around relationshps in Elementary/Middle/High school. Whats different about a boyfriend or a girlfriend than a regular friend other than you can make out with them all the time.

I think that the people going out with the other wants to go out cause they just want to make it wrong for that other person to make out or do anything with anyone else cause their jealous little fuckheads who cant stand on their own fucking two feet!!

I'm sick of all these girls Whinning that no one likes them.. and all these guys who are nothing without their girlfriends.. same goes for girlfriends... This is really pissing me off! Get some new friends, go have a good time, and think for yourself for once alright DickLips? Damn fucking people Piss me off!





And this was suposed to be a happy entry... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1911195/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1911195/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 17:01:53 PST
Anyways, George wanted me too come over... hes gonna "open" me up to a new world! hahaha! Right george.... Anyways! He's so fuckn funny.my new nick name Aparently is STILL Jailbait.. dunno how its new.. but.. er... yeah.

i wish I could drop out of school and just go to work and not have to deal with homework and all hte school carp EVERYDAY! It's a bloody fuckn nightmare! But I manage, somehow! One of the sisters goes "ut that in your pipe and smoke it!" I laughed my ass off.. it was GREAT!

Then I had another wierd dream.. I talked to Lexi for a couple hours yesterday ad I draems we were in Jasons basement and it was in a circle of Devi, Reenee, Liv, J, Casey, Will, Anna, Lexi, and a few other people. We were playing truth or dare. We wer sitting on the ground and the middle of the circle was lit with a candle.

So casey goes, "Alex, Truth or dare."

I go, "Dare"

So he tells me to french Lexi.. and I looked at her and she shruged... so we frenched... i dunno if Im bi, and I think Im not cause I have no sexual feelings towards girls.. but holy shit that was weird!!! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1904229/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1904229/ Wed, 25 Feb 2004 13:22:20 PST
Went up to da GS today (green store) yes it is green! Saw Tim... wicked gorgy.. as usual! He's really scary sometimes.. he's such stoner.. like all the other dudes in Lebanon...

The only problem is he lsitens to rap.. and graduatde highschool 2002... Rah! Anyways hes cool and I would hang w/ him anytime! He just got a new car.. its rad.

I cut my hair! Again.. and its like... layered and awesome! I got yelled at because it was in my face.. oh No Its a SIN!! *Rolls eyes* And I cut the red dye out so now its all auburn and sorta burgundy-lightbrownish... yeah have fun pictureing that! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1899946/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1899946/ Tue, 24 Feb 2004 17:21:20 PST
But my hair is still even and looks good, my mo said I did a good job (which is a big compliment from one who nearly ever gives any(truthful ones anyways))

So now its about a cm above my shoulders when its wavy and probably lightly touching my shoulders when its straight, which I am planning to straighten it in a lil while. ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1895060/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1895060/ Mon, 23 Feb 2004 16:52:44 PST
No it wasnt.


Got new perfume from my daddy for a late v-day prez (even though he already got me one and my mom gots be 100$ and a trench coat)


Yeah I am spoiled from time to time


Bless this halmark holiday ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1887294/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1887294/ Sun, 22 Feb 2004 06:37:49 PST

Cant go to Wills house today EITHER! So there goes my whole fucking vacation!! I hate my life.. i hate me, I hate my olds (parents) I hate my hair... I hate my house and everyone that lives in my fuckn town!! RAH! damn you neo! Damn you george bush! Damn you crazy asshole bitches of nuns that infest my very living soul... i hope you burn and rot in what yo believe to be hell but I disagree in believing there is any such thing as heaven and hell unless you could earth which is Hell or heaven, depending on how fucked up you are! RAH! The olds suck ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1887246/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1887246/ Sun, 22 Feb 2004 06:18:59 PST
I sound like a Bi-polar emo kid.. hehe! Well.. i try. I MAY go to Wills house today.. hopefully...

ANYWAYS! Last night sucked ass, I had to stay in my room with nothing to do and no one to talk to when i REALLY needed somone to talk to... Thank god for Keith + Will... and my PS2... I would've gone insane cause my mom invited over her friends and they have 2 children..

died the tips of my hair.. but teh color didnt change it just washed out I guesss... i put like fuckn 50 hair products in my hair to see what would happen.. now I have a dred-like effect... i need a shower.... my stomach AND my ass hurts...

I NEED to go do somthing.. maybe a walk... i had a funny dream about walking around my town last night... hm.. real weird.. there were Dinosuars... ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1882895/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1882895/ Sat, 21 Feb 2004 11:26:35 PST
Liv- cant see her
Anna- boyscout thing
Will- Dunno
Casey- does anyone actually think i'd hang with casey? Like.. in private... no
Jason- dont know where he is either, but he probably doesnt wanna do nething with ME so yeah....
Er.. Mike K- Asshole and cant go anywhere
Joe- Asshole
Tyler-Bowling or with his cousin
Mel- HCT
John- Well, i dont think me and john would ever really hang out...
Shauna- no.. just.. no
Keith- He's just an ass
Dan- Around doing god knows what...and with who
Justin- I dont go anywhere with just.. i'm safer behind the computer screeen... rapist..
Robby- Hes grounded I think
Molly- Shes dead or somthing
Andrea- Doing some yuppy thing
Anna M- cant hang with me
Tilly- Nyc




*yawns* I've been cleaning all day, but I talked to Liv earlier...i really want to go to the movies! ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1878420/ http://ManipulatedBlood.deviantart.com/journal/1878420/ Fri, 20 Feb 2004 14:48:29 PST
Contemplating calling Jason...


Dont think I should cause I think he's prolly busy at.. I dunno going somwhere... he doesnt IM me nemore so I guess.. i dunno. Ack! I tried calling him the other day with.. somone on the phone and he was like yeah whatever hears Kristen.. and I actually wanted to talk to Him.. *shrugs* whatever ]]> ~ManipulatedBlood