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It's the fishbowl life.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/15226365/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/15226365/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 08:02:41 PDT
I've been studying this quarter and I do hope my grades go up for good. At the same time I've been busy as president of Himig Agham, the PSHS Choir; VP/P.R.O. of Invictus, the PSHS Debate Organization; and a co-president of Sining at Samahan, the PSHS Art Club.

I wonder how I'll survive the remaining months with S.T.R. looming ahead?

On the other hand, I have an AFS Exchange Student Program to look forward to. I had the interview a week ago and results will be out in less than two weeks from today. If I do get accepted, that's me in Japan from the 8th to the 21st of December.


Wish me luck! XDD

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/14626778/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/14626778/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 06:03:11 PDT

I've been busy with college applications, 4th year in the high school with a not-so-normal curriculum, debate, choir and other commitments.


And I thought 4th year would go by so slowly.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/13261262/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/13261262/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 05:33:42 PDT
The title says everything.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12786355/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12786355/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 04:46:56 PDT
I'm studying for the college entrance exams in the Philippines, as well as the SATs and the TOEFL.

And as of this moment, I'm honing my command of the English language by means of blogging. I know that it's not as productive as reading but I like it!

I'm thinking of applying for the University of Tokyo and Waseda University for my graduate programs... Help needed.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12397010/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12397010/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 02:58:59 PDT ].

It's officially summer. The boring time of the year when kids wake up late, hang around, bore themselves to death, get summer jobs, do something and stay up late *wink*. Life officially begins on April 9 and ends on April 27.

HK on the first week of May. Can you recommend good places to go? Restaurants? Stores? Conventions?

The rest of May is for school paperwork, applications into universities and a lot more paperwork. Gah!

Oh well, this doesn't mean that I can't go enjoy summer.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12212488/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/12212488/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 21:45:30 PDT
Anyway, will update deviations really soon. I have to fix my blog blog. It got nominated for the 2007 Philippine Blog Awards.

To whoever nominated me, thanks a lot again.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/11226071/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/11226071/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 00:01:04 PST
1. Illusions seem most real when you believe them to be so.
2. Proving something? Aim to prove.
3. There's always a home waiting for you to return even if you've gone astray.
4. Sometimes, not listening to the authority helps you in more ways than you can imagine.
5. Deviation is not a crime against society.
6. You don't have to be contented with where you are. Breaking out of your shell may just be the best thing to ever happen.
7. You can be part of a crooked society but it takes more to recognize it.
8. Love yourself.
9. WAIT.
10. Don't stop just because there's a wall in front of you. Find a detour or climb that wall.

「おわり」

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On dA Matters...

I will be submitting my first and last deviation for 2007 [at least until the second week of March] on the first of January.

Finally... First commission work.

It's from Ate Ivy and it's her graduation gift. She specifically said artwork so i'll give her a copy of it. [I'm too ashamed to give the messy original so a good photocopy would do.]

Still fixing it up.

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This is what happens when inspiration comes along. And from Jan-Mar I have to study really hard... I may visit my dA from time to time but just to drop by...

(^O_O^)

Thanks a lot and a happy new year to all!



]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/11087919/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/11087919/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 20:18:39 PST Vacation!
After a week of cramming last minute requirements, I finally have the Christmas break I deserve from all that academic workload.

There's nothing new but deviations may come in a bit late. X3

I am worth $2,608,858 on HumanForSale.com
How much are you worth?

~+~+~+~

Let's All Play Santa

Stolen from

Step 1.

Make a post in your dA journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step 2.

Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

Step 3
1. I want my own tablet for Christmas. ^^,)

2. A new cellphone, a Motorola V3X would do nicely

3. Anything on my dA wishlist. Especially by or by or Crimson Crescent by or Vanity by ^^,)

4. To pass STR and to make it in the Director's List. [Prayers would do, but hacking into the school's system would do nicely too... ]

5. A 1 year subscription in dA.

6. Death Note manga, in English. Vol 1-12. I know it's a lot but... (^O_O^)

7. Patience and diligence to finish my school work...

8. The Frog Prince, Maya or Through a Glass Darkly by Jostein Gaarder OR The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco [English]

9. A Fever You Can't Sweat Out by Panic! At the Disco

10. The courage to say...

email for my info: sleepyhead1729@gmail.com or send a note
if you're from PSHS Main Campus, 3-Cs would suffice.

yay!



thanksh. ^^,)


]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10839538/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10839538/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 04:03:58 PST Exam Week

btw:

Classes are finally done.

Be back though on January 3

~+~+~+~

The icon doesn't work so...

~amnos
~amnos
~amnos
~amnos
~amnos

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Let's All Play Santa

Stolen from

Step 1.

Make a post in your dA journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step 2.

Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

Step 3
1. I want my own tablet for Christmas. ^^,)

2. A new cellphone, MotoRAZR V3X

3. Anything on my dA wishlist. Especially by or by or Crimson Crescent by or Vanity by ^^,)

4. To pass STR and to make it in the Director's List. [Prayers would do, but hacking into the school's system would do nicely too... ]

5. A 1 year subscription in dA

6. Death Note manga, in English. Vol 1-12. I know it's a lot but... **.)

7. Hm, lithium. Or a referal and a year's worth of free therapy [to be paid for by my very nice gift-giver] to a good shrink in Makati.

8. The Frog Prince, Maya or Through a Glass Darkly by Jostein Gaarder OR The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco [English]

9. Hm... A Prom Date? Sir Alfer requires us to. If you're from PSHS Main Campus, a member of batch o7 or o8, with no prom date yet, details below. A Fever You Can't Sweat Out by Panic! At the Disco. Or a Not-so-Emo CD.
[Do NOT give me a CD of My Chemical Romance for Christmas! A schoolmate gave me one on the premise of a joke].

10. Hm... A mask for the prom. Theme is masquerade ball. Too lazy to make my mask. Wah!!! Carnevale-ish and preferrably black or something which goes well with orange and rose motiffs.

email for my info: sleepyhead1729@gmail.com or send a note
if you're from PSHS Main Campus, 3-Cs would suffice.

yay! http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10761786/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 00:08:33 PST
And with story writing, it's worse.

Rizal may just be right about people like me.

Eitherway, I don't really have that much respect for him.

~*~*~

Needs academic compensation. Or at least some motivation to work... Waaaah!

[T.T]

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10686752/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10686752/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 05:44:59 PST Needs academic focus.
Needs real food.

Photo Essay contest in school.
Deadliest+Dead+Line. 17.00 11.10.06
Made it by a hairstrand.
Theme: Pisay:Then and Now

~+~+~+~

I will return with drawings 12.09.06

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10490972/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10490972/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 18:56:58 PDT

1) Full Name: Paula Katarina S. Tayo

2) Male/Female: F

3) Were you named after anyone? no

4) Does your name mean anything? Paula = Hope; Katarina = Purity

5) Nick Name(s): KT, rikka, Ring-Ring,

7) Date Of Birth: October 6, 1990

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Makati, Philippines.

9) Nationality: Filipino[a]

11) Sign: Libra

12) Religion: Depends. Mostly Christian. Sometimes Agnostic

16) Hair + Eye color: Black + Brown-black

18) What do you look like? 5”4, tan, big eyes

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous? Ambidextrous

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Straight.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: single

28) Crush: none

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): none

37) Person you cry with: preferably no one but I end up crying with close friends

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: none

39) Any brothers: one

40) Any pets: none

41) An Illness: hypochondria

42) A Pager: no

43) A Personal phone line: no

44) A Cell phone: yes

46) A Pool or hot tub: yes

47) A Car: in less than two years time

Describe Your...

48) Personality: like a wave. Like the ocean’s tides

49) Driving: n/a

51) Room: depends

52) What’s missing: um… not telling online

53) School: full of smart people. Philippine Science HS… what’s to expect

54) Bed: squishy

55) Relationship with your parent(s): I’m more or less lucky because they’re open-minded so we’re in understanding

56) Believe in yourself: depends

57) Do you believe in love at first sight? nope

58) Consider yourself a good listener: more or less

60) Get Along with your parents: more or less

61) Save your e-mail conversations: nope

62) Pray: depends

63) Believe in reincarnation: no

65) Like to talk on the phone: not so much anymore

66) Like to eat? Not really

71) Dream in color: how should I know?

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: nope

What Is

74) Right next to you: iPod and cellphone

76) On your mouse pad: I’m using a touch pad

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: wth? No way I’m getting married

80) Your dream husband/wife: no way I’m getting married

82) Under your bed: old school hand outs and books

84) Your bad time of the day: 13:00-14:45

85) Your worst fear(s): emptiness

86) The weather like: warm and sunny

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: none

92) The hardest thing about growing up: it’s too fast. Before you can tell that the joy ride’s over, it already is.

94) Your scariest moment: I almost committed suicide?

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? Not saying

98) The worst feeling in the world: God knows

99) The best feeling in the world: fulfillment

100) 6 people you tag:
, , , , ,

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10483160/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10483160/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 04:03:09 PDT
~+~+~+~

I'll probably maintain my passing stat in math 4. Just hope that the first exam isn't as low as the third one.

Physics... well.. I'm relying on the second LE to pull up my perio.

English? I just fucked up the second long test [darn essays] but i think i got through the oral long exam.

Filipino? I'll get through... some how. [Hi, ma'am R.!]

Chem? prays and melts and burns

Bio? ...

The rest? God bless me.

Oh, 1.o in PE... first time... aliw!

~+~+~+~

But to shed some light to some concerns...

An offer for no price?
There ought to be!
But still, I will trust.
Trust in you blindly.

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10367209/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10367209/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 09:06:44 PDT
*KO*





]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10310184/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10310184/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 02:10:05 PDT
DEATH NOTE... I have ate J to thank for this...

anyway

~+~+~+~




]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10273834/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10273834/ Tue, 03 Oct 2006 16:55:44 PDT
math LT, physics LT, chem LT... crap.

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I haven't been able to update due to the Luzon wide black-out from last thursday to monday night. Plus, the school's fiber-optic cables were destroyed by the storm...

No internet for several days... X3

Please pray for those victims of the storm Milenyo. It's not their fault that they're now suffering but please give them your support. Just search in Philippine websites. [dunno pa where to donate... just logged on after an eternity... XD]

~+~+~+~

In reply to the flying koi note:



yay!

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10158349/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/10158349/ Sat, 23 Sep 2006 03:23:24 PDT
It's not that I don't want to be 16. So much nice stuff has been said about it but for me, won't it just be the same as being 15, 14, 13 or 12 minus the angst? So initial plan is that I won't celebrate my birthday save for a lunch/dinner treat for me and my friends....

10.06.90

and to think after my birthday, i'm taking my periodic exams... XP

]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9985317/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9985317/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 06:31:29 PDT
I have academic work which needs my attention.
Correction: alarmingly is in dire need of my atention.

Long story but let's just say it involves the first three letters of stress.



wish me luck! ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9858027/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9858027/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 03:51:58 PDT If this concerns you, you are free to think based on your standards and thoughts alone.

~

~*~*~*~*~*~

Mood: ?
Listening to: God Knows from Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu Geki
Reading: Vita Brevis by Jostein Gaader
Watching: Ouran High School Host Club ep1

~+~+~+~

Okay, other than me cramming big time and working off pretty hard to pass math4, everything's fine. I don't study so much for some subjects yet I pass with flying colors. But Math is another issue.
_________

"You don't know that you're hurting me. Yet with every word about her, and every glowing description, you pierce me as if you'd wish me dead"

When we say things about other people, we often think that it's okay, this person i'm talking to is one i trust. However, we forget that this person has feelings too. You may not know it, but each loving and admiring gaze to your beloved deity is a striking poisoned arrow pierced through my dying heart.

All I can do is wait.
_________

Ah... desperately needs to find artistic inspiration for the exhibit. XP

~+~+~+~

Life is an empty canvas. It's your work, your masterpiece.

~*~*~*~



Don't like me?
Fornication Under the Consent of the King off... [1]

Just kidding.
We can work it out...
"Though you can't make three apples into four oranges."

[1] Fuck is not a bad word... See what it means? ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9475239/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9475239/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 05:23:46 PDT 's journal... Yay...

Anyway, this beats cramming for [insert subject here]

~+~+~+~

SEVEN THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Send a bug to ex-number-one's computer.
2. To be a successful Neonatologist and to have a major in robotics.
3. To learn Level 2 Japanese.
4. To say some things which I will kill myself for saying on an ordinary day.
5. To find the true meaning of existence.
6. To play a major female fole in an important play/movie [because i'm only Agni in the class Chamber Theater of the Ramayana].
7. To get a 1.00 in Chemistry, Physics, and Computer Science.

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T (OR WON'T) DO:
1. Kiss ex-number-one or ex-number-two.
2. Be a cheerleader or dance
3. Get kicked out of MPPA.
4. Get married, get into a commitment and have children.
5. To engage in premarital sex.
7. Get infatuated with any teacher or any one of my gender for that matter

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. CARP!
2. Wha?
3. lNa?
4. ^.-
6. if I'm not mistaken...
7. [insert ex-number-one's name here], you whore!

SEVEN MOVIES I COULD (OR DO) WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. FMA: Conqueror of Shambala
2. Constantine
3. Battle Royale
4. Linda, Linda, Linda
5. Gravitation [I can't resist the image of ex-number-one and ex-number-two in a sitch like this!!! XD]
6. Real Women Have Curves
7. Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon

VIDEO GAMES THAT THE STORY JUST GRABS YOU:
1. You know
2. that i'm a busy person
3. and i have an unusually busy life
4. and i'm overfatigued
5. so honestly
6. though i'm tempted
7. there's none.

1. Do you like animals?
cats and snakes and eagles and dolphins. [i have dog allergies... ]

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
yes...

3. Are you athletic?
Before my fractured collarbone, yes

4. Are you: thin, fat, athleticlly built etc:
Normal.

5. How much do you weigh?
110lb

6. What's your height?
5'4" sometimes 5'6"

7. Shoe size?
7

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
I grew up with a fetish for lego and computers... But i'm sure i'm not girly!

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
n/a

10. How old are you?
15

11. When's your birthday?
Oct.06.90

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Yes... but i can wish

13. Are you sociable?
Depends on the perspective

14. Do you have many friends?
6 Close ones

15. What's your race?
Malayan with a mix of Spanish and Japanese.

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
no. but i have to do the ordering for dinner most of the time.

17. Are you single or taken?
Let's just say that [.....] owns me, but i'm no slave.

18. Do you eat meat?
Yes

19. Are you paranoid?
depends

20. Do you read a lot?
It's part of my job

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
Alternative-rock-ethnic-classical, english-filipino-japanese-italian-german

22. Do you play any instruments?
i wish!

23.How long have you been drawing?
since the first day i held a pencil

24.Whats the meaning of life?
it is to exist and coexist with your own kind without questioning it's meaning.

25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal!

I tag, anyone but specifically , , , , and ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9308852/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9308852/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 04:50:28 PDT
But growing up means that things SHOULD be complicated. Who ever told me that has dung for brains.

Being an idealist sometimes, is like striking an anvil on one's head. Being a marxist is the same. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9165592/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9165592/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 03:05:55 PDT
I have two electives, BR and AC. AC is for sitting in but it still means no lunch.

I have very nice and not so nice teachers. There's no point complaining because they're the ones deciding my academic fate. No matter how hard I work, the numerical value of my effort depends on how they favor me. [i'm not spewing out bullshit here.. just facts which we either deny, acknowledge or ignore]

~+~+~+~

I took a bet... If M & V become an item or if M would like V or vice versa, I [insert a prize of a situation in my favor here]. If i lose, i have to kiss [insert proper noun here] on the lips... Kissing is just physical. there's nothing to it. At the most, it's a mouth-tongue-lip thing. I don't really care.

But of course, I don't bet without insurance. [did they honestly think that i would go to war unprepared? evil cackle]

~+~+~+~

Right now, i'm glad I have a family to return to even if school life has been bull. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9092852/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9092852/ Sat, 17 Jun 2006 03:02:52 PDT
There will be no description as to what it is or what my position is for any matter, but i will say that for my year level, I have the highest position.

How the hell did I get away with that? I mean for one, I'm not very popular and two, I ran against a senior... Well, to prove a point as to why I was worthy enough to run, I nominated myself [though at first, i asked several people to nominate me]. I also got a few tips from Adolf Hitler with persuasive speeches... After giving the speech, i felt like shrinking in fear since i was afraid of losing...

Luckilly, I won.

~*~*~*~

By chance, i'm also a member of the art club [i can't believe that hardly anyone knows it exists!] Anyway, I think i'll be active this year... After lessons from DevArt, I think i've gained enough confidence.. Who knows, I could have an exhibit of my own, if i improve...




~*~*~*~

I was going to commit suicide again last Wednesday... Somehow, i felt that my friends were trading me in for someone else because of my inerasable sins. However, though [insert proper noun here] and [x's happy place] aren't exactly supporting me, i'm glad that x and internet are still there for me...

I talked to [insert proper noun here] and i'm glad that i was mistaken and that the paranoia was all that was bothering me.

Maybe i have to study harder now.... I might have to get the AC Elective* instead of the BR, which i would so prefer now because of the TS grade last year, whick i'd love to thank my former partner, DNR.

~*~*~*~

Now, there's no turning back... We have made our choices. Yours was to forever turn away and leave me, mine was to move on and leave you.

*requires a min of 1.25 in the final C1 grade


~*~*~*~

all deviations submitted under TA are intentionally disfigured and out of proportion, unless noted. This is for the purpose of character imperfection [the only way i can show it] tyvm ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9025301/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9025301/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 06:29:30 PDT
I for one am not so happy with returning to school. To return to that institution where freaking know it all sadists puppeteer us intellectuals for their own personal / political reasons. Though people say that it's government owned, there will always be the ghost grapling at the weak hands of the government.

________________________________

To see old memories from a different perspective seems like a whiplash for someone like me who's taken her life for granted.

After all, I share my existence with another soul. I, though a soul with no body, share one with a body with half its sanity and mind.

Don't take me literally, okay? Good.

________________________________

Living a lie is total bullshit but we wallow in it anyway. Everyone does it so proclaiming against it is drinking hemlock before sophists.


ps ~i can't promise any deviations in the next 6 months to follow. maybe scraps if i can worm though the system. Plus, before my conscience takes revenge on me, i'd better pull up my grades*


though there really isn't a point in this because grades are just a numerical evaluation of a student's performance - which this makes this more absolute bullshit since students are fussing just to attain the grade they want.

does this mean that a student's value is only in the value of the number equivalent to that value of the grade? [must find paula and make her realize this:]

The grade simply labels a student - it's crap to kill, cheat, lie, steal & [insert intellectual crimes here] just for a grade. It's not worth it; yet this is what people are doing even in their doctorates.

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Maybe i've just come to appreciate my life now since it's no longer definite if i can see [insert situation here]. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9011786/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/9011786/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 18:29:58 PDT
School. I come here to get an education. That, however doesn't mean that i am compelled to appreciate it.

Sure, in the future, the common statement parents would be telling their kids,
"Do your homework because people are starving for your jobs" aside from the usual "Eat your vegetebles because people are starving." But that doesn't mean that i should appreciate the bullshit life has been throwing out as me.

My education has been useless for the past R years. {R|R<>17 && >=12}
All they teach is about reading comprehension, cramming, and social bull that only teaches the children of today that the only way to escape unscathed is to either be a freaking, user-friendly social climber. Or a bully disguised as someone with "charisma"

I know, i'm very angry right now and i have a lot more cussing and angst releasing to do. However, this just can't pass by without me saying a piece of my mind.

Even if i am no longer in a normal school, that doesn't mean that i should just let all this crap be shoved into my face. nor should i just let things be.

But for now, all i can do is just write about it


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tragic how we want to change the world, yet we can only write about it.

I told you, [insert proper noun here], my life is a tragic thing. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8994629/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8994629/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 23:48:26 PDT
Random anime chosen: Hagane no Renkinjutsushi [Fullmetal Alchemist]
5 reasons why I really like this anime:
1. Alchemy – Magic is overrated. Alchemy is cool! I mean i can relate more to this due to the nature of my educationThat’s more than enough reason
2. The length – it’s not too short or too long
3. The characters – they’re not the cheesy and really perfect people. They’re flawed and that’s what makes this really good. [imperfection creates beauty]
4. The ending - [spoiler warning] it doesn’t end perfectly, even after the movie.
5. The story – it’s not freaky in a way that’s so “perfect.” Redemption is a good theme. [just hopes that this won’t be so rampant]
6. Implied philosophies… it’s more than enough to get me to like the anime

5 reasons why I dislike this anime:
1. The English dub – The use of subtitles is nice and all, but *sob* they had to make an English dub of this… Oh well… I can’t blame anyone
2. Those moments when the characters aren’t drawn well and out of proportion… but it’s just a small reason, the big one’s…
3. The possibility of incest – shonen ai is okay… I mean I have nothing against it, even shojo ai [did i get the spelling right]… but incest is another thing… or my mind has been overactive. XD
4. Over-popularity. Come on, you know what I mean!
5. Discrepancies with the manga. :sob: ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8946774/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8946774/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 03:32:27 PDT mariko1729

2] How did you get the name?
it's suppose to mean "child of wisdom" [or paula's kidding with me again]. she named me

3] Do you use PC or Mac?
PC

4] What software you use most often?
Adobe Photoshop 7.0 or AutoCAD 2004

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
mouse

6] The color you use most often is?
works best on grayscale

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
erasures - i make a lot of mistakes and they're messy

8] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
3-8 hours, depends

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?
i don't make any

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
Aquiline

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
600 DPI. My computer's dying

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
listening to music while watching tv

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
depends

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
tracing paper or bond paper

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?
none

16] How long does it take to ink something?
2 hours

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?
?

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
?

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
yes, the school magazine [but it's for more for literature]

20] Did it get published?
dunno

21] Who are your favorite artists?
a lot [too many to mention]

22] What's your favorite Anime/Manga?
Fullmetal Alchemist, Bleach, Chrono Crusade, Witch Hunter Robin, Wolf's Rain, Saiyuki, Rurouni Kenshin, R.O.D., Gakuen Alice, Noir

23] Favorite Characters?
too many to mention

24] Any artists that you'd like to draw like?
n.a

25] Do you buy books a lot?
yes

26] Did you ever buy a book to inspire you to draw?
no.

27] Any video games you enjoy?
none. too busy

28] Any favorite characters from video games?
n/a

29] Do you have a favorite writer?
Jostein Gaarder

30] Any books you really enjoy?
too many to list

31] Do you write fanfics?
no

32] Any music that you often listen to while drawing?
Anime Songs - currently hooked on songs from Noir like Aka to Kuro and Kopperia no Hitsugi, or Boku wa Koko ni Iru from FMA

33] Any recommended songs?
n/a

34] Any web sites that you totally admire?
deviantART!

35] Do you have any sites you want to go everyday?
DA, Blogger

36] What is your dream site like?
?

37] Do you like your own art?
not really...

38] What do you enjoy watching on TV?
no time

39] Favorite celebrity?
none

40] Favorite color?
black, grey, white, purple

41] Favorite food?
sushi

42] Favorite drink?
frappuchinos

43] Any places you like to shop at?
Hot Topic,

44] Can you cook?
do instant noodes count?

45] Any programs you use often for email? Any electronic pets?
Yahoo... And no, I don't.

46] Are you a computer expert?
i suppose so... my school trains me for that.

47] Want to become a professional artist?
want to but can't

48] Any other jobs you're interested in, besides an illustrator?
neonatologist or an astrophysicist.

49] Any other specialties besides drawing?
physics, programming, writing

50] Do you like to watch movies?
no... movies are bull because they share the same storyline

51] What's your favorite movie?
na

52] Have you ever entered art contests?
yes

53] When did you start drawing seriously?
5 y/o

54] Anything that you often use as a reference when you draw?
photographic memory

55] Have you met any of your fans online?
no

56] You have a lot of pen pals?
yes

57] You have a lot of friends that draw?
no. my school's for science- not art

58] What time do you usually go online?
Whenever I can.

59] Do you like to go to chat rooms?
no

60] Do you have your own computer?
yes, 2 actually.

61] What would you say to the person you admire?
you're cool

62] Do you think of things when you draw?
no... i draw based on my subconscious

63] Have you drawn bad because you think too much?
yes - that's why... ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8925984/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8925984/ Wed, 31 May 2006 00:22:14 PDT
Science and not Religion in the focus of this school that i'm currently enrolled in.

That's all i'll say for now. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8898204/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8898204/ Sun, 28 May 2006 02:12:05 PDT
anyway... other than that, there's been nothing much.

The dread of school is once again looming over my already sad and pathetic existence.

before i say anything more that will anger the Forces Above, i will shut up.

[Akiko's alter ego: please pardon Akiko, she's drunk - again]

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There are days when life really sucks like hell and days you just can't let go of.

In my case, i just can't let go of the days when [insert situation here]

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school - what will the new SY bring. A black winged angel offered me redemption. The price to pay - my voice. [i hate singing but if it will help me fix my life, why not give it a shot.]

art - stupid arm. it won't move the way i want it too. Oh well. I can't blame anyone for my injuries.

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Maybe someday things will be better than this. ]]> ~Mariko1729 http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8784869/ http://Mariko1729.deviantart.com/journal/8784869/ Tue, 16 May 2006 03:43:41 PDT
Anyway, it's been a busy SY so I pretty much didn't have the time to work on my deviations and scraps. Plus the loss of inspiration left some things unfinished.

Will continue to post soon...


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How I wish I could tell you everything, but maybe you will just forget me after all we've been through... ]]> ~Mariko1729