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I'm gonna look it up, be right back folks!

...

No, I was wrong, both words account for both speech difficulties, interesting.
So.
Yes... yes I have done.

So John Hughes died this week, that really sucks. I mean, ok, he was a guy, he died, I don't really feel much either way, I'm weird with emotions, some films, games, or songs give me teary spikes, but life, not so much, but it's a sad thing. He made some good films... also home alone, but nobody's perfect. Gonna watch Breakfast Club in a bit, not actually because he died, I was going to anyway, finding out that he died was just coincidental.
I'm going to stop trying to be good at talking about sad things now and move on to the thing that I was excited enough to write a journal about!
(Not that a person dying isn't important, I just suck at talking about it.)


Element 112! Ununbium! NO! Copernicium!
Yes, I'm a month behind. No, I don't care. I just found out, it's news to me, that makes it worthy of rambling about. Ok? No? Then bugger off.
I like the name, Copernicium, it's inspiring. This element will take us to the stars!!
Well, ok, no. It probably won't take us to the stars, not as a propellant at least, but it's a good'un.
I agree with the few people that I've heard talking about it that it should be Copernicum, not Copernicium (nikum is a lot nicer than nisseum, but oh well, I probably have to contribute more (read "contribute something, anything at all") to science before they'll ask for my opinion) but to be honest, one i either way isn't a big deal.
Copernicium. It really is a great name. Firstly it sounds nice (although I hold to the belief that it would sound nicer without that last i, and I intent to hold that belief until I die... I believe it is healthy to hold some irrational beliefs, as long as they're irrelevant.) but a nice sound is the least important thing for a name to have. A truly great name needs to be inspirtaional.

Nicolaus Copernicus, he's the guy the element is named after, is the man responsible for our modern view of astronomy. Yes, someone else would have come to the same realisation that he did if he hadn't, but he did, so it's worth appreciating his legacy.
The amazing thing is that astronomy wasn't his vocation, it was something he did in his spare time, when he wasn't busy being an artist, a diplomat, a mathematician... fucking renaissance men, they really know how to make you feel like an underachiever.

Maybe it won't be a big deal to a lot of people, but I like the idea of naming elements after men (and women) like Copernicus, it's inspirational.
Chemistry class comes along, and you hear about Copernicium, Curium, Einsteinium, you want to know who they're named after, you read about these people and you're so much more inspired than reading about what inspired Francium (no offence to the French, but countries really aren't inspirational).
Maybe to some people it's just a name, but to me, and hopefully to others, it's a call to achievement - these guys did it, and so can we.
It is just a name, sure, but it's a name that commands us to reach for the stars in everything we do. Except when we're buying music, seriously, S Club 7 suck.




There was something else.... but I forgot.
Note to self - make NOTES.
Copernicus would not be impressed. Or maybe he would? I can hope.

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/26450083/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/26450083/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 17:38:57 PDT
Right now I'm listening to a podcast with some Aussies being rational, I'm a bit outraged to be honest. Not for any good reason of course, it's just that my prejudices demand that Australians be foolish and blonde, and so rationality from such a source is simply offensive.
(Actually, it's a pretty awesome listen.)
So, technically, my "listening to" info is A LIE! I have, however, been listening to some rather hideously voluminous dance music today, so it's also technically true, just... not up to the minute.

So. Anyway. Thing.
I wanna bitch and rant for a bit, for several reasons.
Firstly, AGH, writer's blockage, there are words that want to jump to paper, but they, for some reason, refuse to take the leap! Perhaps they fear the drop between my fingers and the keyboard, perhaps they are simply shy? I can't say I care either way, the fuckers are coming out, even if it means taking a literary enema and writing shit on this screen for half an hour or so.
Secondly, I made the stupid mistake of watching a serial idiot's resurrection video today, and I need (NEED) to vent (no really, I am bursting at the seams with vitriol, I'm in real, tangible pain (ok, mental pain, but it's still real and tangible) here.)
Thirdly, it's been over a year since I wrote a journal here... over two years since I wrote a journal that is actually about anything... I kind feel like I'm wasting my account here, and there's nothing worse than having a literary outlet available and wasted.
Fourth? CHEESE!


STORYTIME!
Once upon a time, there was an unpublished writer of medium talent (I hope I'm not thinking too highly of myself here... I'd bloody well better be of (at least) medium talent, otherwise, shit) who saw a youtube video. Ten videos to be exact, but together they made a gestalt entity of untold videoness, well, it was a fairly interesting multi-part video, which provided a fair degree of amusement and insight to the hopeful writer.
This video? It is merely background, it was aw'ite, it was certainly a good watch, but it doesn't play much of a big part in the most epic tale that is to come.

It seems important to note a long standing emnity between the guy involved in making this video, and the guy who made the video I'm about to bitch about... because the video I'm about the bitch about is about the video which is pretty decent, but not a big deal in the grand scheme of this story.
I hope you have noted it.
Have you?
You have?
Good.

Also, a thought I should've thinked a bit earlier - I will be calling the guy who made the pretty-decent-but-not-a-big-player video "Person A" and the guy who made the video about the video "Person B".

Now, person A makes his video, it is quite good, he's not great on camera, but you know what? Not a big deal as far as I can see - it's better to have an actual point than to be extremely articulate.
Here it begins to get interesting, person B decides he will make a video, in which he mocks person A for being slightly inarticulate, and not being led by overemotional nonsense over reason and relatively common sense.

--The Aussie podcasters are talking about organic food, it's quite interesting, also funny. Interesting AND funny. AT THE SAME TIME! I think I'm going to like these guys.--

Now, I don't care that person B is a narrow-minded git, that's fair enough, people are narrow minded and gittish, if you wanna mock people for inarticulate speeches and being slightly unprepared, yeah, well, we expect that. What gets me is that he does that thing that creationists do (yeah, he's a creationist... I like how close "creationism" is to "cretinism") and starts to witter on about how it's terribly, terribly arrogant to assume that we can claim things based on what we can observe, when in order to really understand things, we have to think outside the box.
I like thinking outside the box, it leads to interesting ideas, sometimes revolutionary ideas. It is, however, very rare that thinking outside the box lead to newer, deeper understandings of reality. This is especially true when the box we are asked to think outside of is the universe itself.

--Now they are talking about Polar bears ripping people's faces off... how cute ^^--

So yeah, this guy, person B, wants us to think outside the universe itself, you know, think outside of reality, OUTSIDE OF REALITY, in order to find the truth about "creation" UGH. AGH. RRRRGH!!
Personally, I don't care what he believes, he can believe whatever he wants - anyone is totally free to believe whatever they believe - but come on, telling people that in order to understand the universe, they have to ignore the entire universe? "Oh, but god is outside the universe!"
(Erm... how does that work? Physically outside? Is there an outside of the universe in any of t... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/16995924/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/16995924/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 15:58:27 PST
Omgs the angst ridden angst riders have come and gone and left me with cheesecake, a hopeless romance and a lot of frustration!
I thank the angst riders for their contribution and invite them to come along to the grand opening of the teenage years of my next life.
If such a thing happens.

Now if you'll follow me there is booze in the tent.

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/12222608/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/12222608/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 17:17:57 PDT ) birthday yesterday... shit, I couldn't afford the train ticket, I'm sorry man, I'm in Hull now thanks to the parents but it's only for today (and tomorrow but I bugger off again in the morning...(that's this morning now actually)) I would've come out to see you today but I can't actually afford the bus :\
I hope it was a good night anyway, I hope to see you all again soon! (like, when I have some money to waste on large amounts of alcoholic thingies)

I'm now officially a Yorkie... I don't know how you actually really achieve that status but y'know, I don't care, I am one, so there nyaah!
I'm really starting to miss Hull things, like ... erm ... nothing springs to mind but I'm missing the people (some of them anyway) the only thing I don't like about York is that I have no interwebs there (also no girly to snuggle but I'm working on that (by "working on" I mean "looking at a girl across the office from me every few seconds and having a heartattack if her gaze comes anywhere near my side of the room (buggery)" but still...) I just need to work up the courage to talk to her (in my defence I'm usually so busy that I barely have time to get out of my chair for 20 seconds and she's at least 10 seconds walk away from me and... y'know... *whimpers*) I've seen her looking in my direction before now so I think I have some kind of chance... but that might be just my ego or her thinking "why the hell does that freak keep looking at me??)

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ANYWAY! I have no idea what I was getting to... it was something important but got sidetracked by pretty eyes, damnit.

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/11965527/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/11965527/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 18:30:41 PST
..No I have nothing interesting to say, I just wanted to shift my old journal entry... I have to "get up" in an hour and a half to get set off to work... I should sort out my weekend sleeping habits...

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/8303858/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/8303858/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 11:05:47 PST

I also feel like a bastard for being so happy when one of my best friends isn't... I am here for you if you need me mate ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7470963/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7470963/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 19:53:17 PST Mood: teacosy
Listening to: R.E.M - Losing My Religion
Reading: Drawing Blood
Watching: Un long dimanche de fiançailles

Manech aime Mathilde
awwwww
love that film...... aaanyway

Happy new year everyone, hope this one's better than the last, even if your last was the best you've ever had.
(Yester/To)day was good, spent the first half hanging out with some people who I wish I knew better, feel like a bit of an ignorant twat for not taking the time to come out more often but what can I say? I'm an antisocial wanker. The second bit was kinda shit, spiders is crap on a saturday and it's shit on holidays, on saturday holidays it's hell AND closer didn't play so no sexy dancing for me only teh neckbreaking throw-your-hair-around-like-a-nutter dance, also good but I'll hate myself for it tomorrow. At least I got to spend more time with Marc & Dyl and all the other lovelies who were there. Last bit I spent with the guys from before after wandering back from spiders with Dyl, 'twas good but Dyl was ill . The taxi home was fun, got to the taxi office just in time to avoid a horde of chavs yelling about the how the fuckin' new fucking year's fucking shit 'n' fucked up.... I love chavs, really, they're so eloquent.
Anyways, I think I'm gonna go and sleep now, my head's starting to throb, sleep sounds nice, maybe that dream I was having yesterday will carry on where I left it

Good night peoples, happy new year.
WOO 'n' stuff.

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7445995/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7445995/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 05:55:17 PST Mood: BLARGH!
Listening to: The Flaming Lips - Fight Test
Reading: Drawing Blood
Watching: Delicatessen

Yoho maties [piratey expression goes here (with eyepatch 'n' misc gubbinz)] I hope you all had a merry and minimally commercialised [late december holiday] (we can't call it christmas these days - 'tis offensive )

I have to wonder about my parents sometimes, this morning my dad decided to let me know that it's icy outside... I mean... wow! I never would've guessed it'd be icy in the middle of winter after it's been snowing for days!
Next he'll be coming up with crazy ideas about the sky being blue, I know I probably sound really stupid getting annoyed by it but if a car fell from the sky onto me he'd probably make sure I knew that there were cars falling from the sky, yup, thanks for the info, Dad.

I'm trying to fill in an application form for a job right now, I'm useless with application forms, if I had to fill out a form for a transplant that I needed within a few days to stay alive I'd probably still take weeks over it, they're just so damned tedious.

Spongwaffle!

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7203308/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/7203308/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 12:31:59 PST The only answer I can give is this - "Offline "

This is all set to change with my new invention - shouting at my internet provider(TM)

HUZZAH! they finally fixed it, and all I have to do now is shake off the urge to play warcraft... um... excuse me *gone* ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/5296215/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/5296215/ Sat, 07 May 2005 19:02:34 PDT
oh yeah, re girlfriend chances in last entry, it happened, woo, then it unhappened..... it was good but felt weird, for both of us apparently... I thought I was just being paranoid and doubty of stuff but in fairness, singleness is better for me, I always manage to fuck relationships up somehow.... or maybe I go for girls who start to sabotage the relationship as soon as it starts.... I dunno.... anyway, I'm single and happy about it (and if you believe that, I have a cure for... uhm... social awkwardness, which I will sell to you for £60 *reassuring grin*)..... yeah

erm.... other news I seem to be getting ok at drawing, wooo... and thats it, good night... I hope yours is shorter than mine. ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/5049372/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/5049372/ Sun, 10 Apr 2005 08:05:25 PDT
Anyway, there was purpose to this post, I'm plotting to start doing some drawing again, try to develop my skills which are admittedly somewhere between shit cartoonism and shit realistic pictury thingies, maybe I need to work on more abstract stuffles? Either way my sketch book is gonna be doodled in at least once a day, this is my new umm... new pen's resolution. Yeah, so every evening I'm gonna sit down and randomly doodle some abstract shit or maybe my chicken (chicken is GOD!!!) possibly the odd bunny....

And now for the customary whine, I have a new and fantasmic website... but I somehow lack the ability to view or ping it locally. I can ping it externally though so it's either a local problem or there's some bastardly setting on the website which says "don't let Dan see the website when he wants to update stuff" I've also made a funky php gallery for a good friend of mine and emailed it to him as msn has decided to be what I can only describe as "a piece of utter crap" and doesn't actually show 90% of my contacts anymore (huzzah!) but since my website is saying "I like totally don't exist, man" I'm getting the feeling it hasn't gone through yet... I don't know. Bloody thing!!!

Xion, if you haven't got it yet... SORRY!! maybe I should write it on a sheet of paper and post it to you instead of relying on electronic shit.

*beep*


*EDIT*
Just to prove how dumb and scatter brained I am... I appear to have forgotten to mention great news
I seem to have a girlfriend ^_^
I'm not actually sure though.... there was much kissing and cuddling and mental fuzzifications.... but I haven't asked her out and she hasn't asked me.... but I'll see her tomorrow (WOO) so I can always ask her then and be nicely sure

*skipetyskip* ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4782848/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4782848/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 03:35:23 PST
I wish I could just shut certain things out of my mind, I wish...

Those of you who know what I'm on about, feel free to slap me, those who don't... I'm not telling... its driven me to get my first giant cookie thing in ages

FLAH!



I guess apart from emotional stupidity things are fine though... new website - wooo, not really much there at the moment though, so no linking yet.

I wish I was less tired too... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4598789/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4598789/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 14:15:28 PST Any takers?

Please?....

Seriously, I REALLY need to stop doing things to screw myself over like this... I haven't mentioned yet but I'm single again, have been for a week or so, maybe more (I never did have a good awareness of the passage of time... in the short term at least) anyway, I've fairly well come to terms with living the single life again, I hate it - no kisses, no cuddles, no sex... I didn't get any before but now I don't even have the option, but yeah, I'm single and I'm fairly fine with it, I miss our relationship but I'm glad we're finished, we're much better as friends and I don't have to get so down that she won't open up to me anymore so as far as this is concerned things are.... ok. Of course there's the helpful talk from my friends, the "plenty more fish" style scenario and also the "you've pulled great girls before, you can again" line... which goes and reminds me of Taz... anyone remember her? *refers to journal entries in may* first thoughts - yeah, she was gorgeous, fun, amazing in so many ways... I'll be fine (if I can attract her I can't be bad) followed by lots of other thoughts and the grinny reminiscent stuff of cuddling with her until almost 4 in the morning before getting a taxi home and making me smile and stuff... then I'm looking through my hugely oversized list of bookmarked sites and I find hers and wonder how she's doing *click*...... FUCK! Another thing I should have learnt is that my emotions don't have a habit of dying off..... so now I can't stop thinking about her again.... fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckdammit!!!!! and the need to cry is turning up again although in good news there's a pretty girl who's been following me around in my head.... I don't know if she's a figment of my imagination or a premonition (I'll know either way in a week or two I think) but if its the latter I may find myself being happy for a while again... I don't know.

In other news - I'm still not really very active on here, not posting anyway I come online quite a lot and just look at what people are putting up but I don't really seem to have the same drive to write anymore, it feels like what I am writing is less of my soul and more of fabrication but I think this is probably just a temporary thing as I have written a few things that I'm considering putting online, it depends on how good they are I guess.
I'm gonna sign off now because its late and I've been a bit of a zombie recently and could do to be relatively awake in the morning.

Seeya around guys.
Love you all ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4479144/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/4479144/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 11:34:39 PST Willing to work flexible hours - from 1 hour a week to 24/7 scapegoating!
Multiskilled - can be everything from heartless bastard to member of international conspiracy.
Willing to work for any level of pay from unfounded hatred to random abuse.

Don't miss the chance to hire a top class scapegoat!!


...seriously though, its getting old and boring and really beginning to piss me off, I mean I *thought* I was doing well for random acusations of some new evil, I'd managed to go a fair number of months without a single cry of SATANIST!!! or DEEEEMMMOOOOOONN!!!!... I'm fairly sure I don't look or act like either of those anyway... but hooray, such a drought could never last long, I have a new trend to feel special and despised for no good reason I am now officially part of an international conspiracy known as "THEM" (its all capitals because its obviously an acronym.... like "Tall Humans Enraging Monkeys" or "Tepid Humous Eats Malcom" or some such evil)... but... really... do I have a tattoo on my head that says "evil"? I've never seen it myself, but everyone else must do or why would so many people be so desperate to make me out to be some kind of evil psychopath??
I wouldn't actually mind so much, but its always the most unbelievably stupid reason for deciding that I'm evil too, like being able to do something that I told someone I could do, or having had a relationship with someone a year earlier, or having fond thoughts for someone that a friend doesn't like... What the hell is so terrible about me that everyone has to decide I'm pure evil?

I'm really not interested in playing this game anymore, and I don't care if they can't help it, because there is a thing called rational thought, that EVERYONE is capable of, and I'm sick of being demonised... I know I probably sound like I'm whining but I don't give a shit, I will not be your scapegoat, I will not be your demon, I will not be your government agent and I will not play your twisted little games anymore. ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3934274/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3934274/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 19:23:26 PST
I know that if I go to bed, I'll just lay around for a few hours and do very little sleeping, but then my bed is warm and soft and comfy, and I am cold, and this chair is hard and uncomfortable... really tired right now too

So, yeah.... recently I haven't managed to get any real work done.... I've done job work, but not my work... so my project, planned to be so wonderful and great and completed in a few weeks is still sat in my scrap book, it little chicken-shaped sketchy mess.... this is something I intend to fix very soon, I'm going to start putting aside an hour each night to just sit down and concentrate on art, maybe not anything to do with the project, maybe just some random landscape that I want to do, maybe a poem, or a collection of lines I've had in my head that day that I can play around with and use in songs or poems... or maybe concentrate on a particular aspect of the project, like work specifically on the helmet or the glasses or the beak... or something. So starting tomorrow... well... today, I'm going to restart my art life... and starting in about 20 minutes I'm going to get some sleep...
oh, yeah... I probably wont be on here every day like I used to, probably only one or two nights a week from now, but enough to make updates of my position, what I've done the since the last update, what I need to do, and post the current level of my pet Chicken...

'Til then, good night.
may whatever deity you choose to believe in (or not) bless you ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3516833/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3516833/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 10:02:16 PDT

WOO! I'm like... back... yup

soo... I might actually get that chicken thing done eventually... and maybe get some more poetry up... I haven't really written anything I'd consider posting recently though... but still

also - fantastic band I've been introduced to, worth a look at least David Elf

...I'm sure there was something else I wanted to say... but I'm tired and lacking music at the moment.... so please forgive my absent mindedness

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3104733/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3104733/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 02:02:48 PDT

Tell me, do you see me? do you see my heart? do you see my thoughts? do you see my soul?
No?
Yet you claim to love me...
How can you love what you cannot see?
__________________________________

It has come to my attention that a certain excellent artist/poet is entirely underexposed and extremely deserving of attention... so go see! do it!! NOW!!!!... or... well, soon anyway, she's good

]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3055553/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3055553/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 06:49:53 PDT

Tell me, do you see me? do you see my heart? do you see my thoughts? do you see my soul?
No?
Yet you claim to love me...
How can you love what you cannot see?
__________________________________

[x] they call me: Dan
[x] also: "Mashiara/Mashi/Long 'Aired Freak/Satanist( )
[x] sex: Male... in body
[x] birthday : 12/04/86
[x] status: Day off..... ecstatic!!
[x] occupation: IT Techie
[x] nationality: British
[x] age: 18

___reWinD______
[x] most memorable memory?: that time... with the thing... and the person... and she was so lovely *sigh* ^.^
[x] worst?: too much to choose from
[x] first word uttered: probably some sociopolitical statement on the state of the government.... or... slightly more likely "goo!"
[x] first bestfriend ever!?: uh... Paul maybe... I don't think I had many close friends before...

_______fAst fOrward_______
[x] college planning to go to: Been there, done that, got the t-shirt & tore it up
[x] future resident of: uhm... somewhere else
[x] wedding: Chicken outfits & Bondage gear
[x] children: I dunno.... I'm not sure I'd make a good parent
[x] looking forward to: when someone incredibly special & important arrives in England... *attempts patience*
[x] NOT looking forward to: going back to work

_______pLAy_______
[x] feeling: tired... but good, due to holidayness
[x] Listening: Enya - Carribean Blue
[x] doing: some random survey thing... then playing on Startopia
[x] Talking to: Myself
[x] craving: Ivana... and Chocolate and/or Fajitas
[x] thinking of: Ivana... and Chocolate and/or Fajitas
[x] hating: a disturbing number of people

_______LOve?_______
[x] love can: murdered by pop songs
[x] first love: is probably a pop song
[x] current love: quite possibly a pop song
[x] love or lust?: probably lust... could grow into love
[x] best love song: that one that manages to fit Worcestershire into the song
[x] true or false; all you need is love: du-di-duddely-doo!



________pIcky pIcky_______
[x] dog or cat: CatdoG
[x] short or long hair: LONGLONGLONG *strokes hair* mmm
[x] sunshine or rain: Rain
[x] moon or sun: Moon, with stars... lots and lots of stars... and the shooting kind too!!
[x] basketball or football: Squash
[x] righty or lefty: Right, except for eating and a few other choice thingies
[x] hugs or kisses: both are wonderful
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: Dylan
[x] bf/gf or best friend: .... sometimes they're the same person
[x] tv or radio: Radio
[x] mcdonalds or burger king: Burger King Fries, McDonalds Burger & Milkshake
[x] summer or winter: Winter *cuddles the cold*
[x] written letters or e-mails: Letters.... emails are nice, but letters are sexier
[x] playstation or nintendo: PC
[x] disney or nickelodeon: Nickelodeon.. RUGRATS!!! YEEEAHHH!!
[x] car or motorcycle: Motorcycle
[x] house party or club: uhmwep
[x] sing or dance: Sing
[x] freak or slow dance: watch me and find out
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: either
[x] google or ask jeeves?: alltheweb.com

_______MiSceLLaneOus_______
[x] can you swim?: yes... just not well
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: I'm soo not telling
[x] what are you scared of?: myself
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: controlling myself
[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: uhm... the kind with slate & beams & insulation & roofy-type stuff
[x] do you like tomatoes?: raw
[x] how many TVs in the house?: some... I can't be bothered to count... not many
[x] how many phones?: 4
[x] how many residents?: 3/4
[x] last dentist visit: a coupla weeks ago
[x] last phone call: this morning.... sales call.... bastards

______YOUR LOOKS______
[x] Hair color: from a distance, dark brown, up close, every [natural] colour you can imagine.... naturally
[x] Eye color?: Blue/Green
[x] Height: 6'1-2ish
[x] Do you wear contacts or glasses?: Glasses, but only when I... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3017562/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3017562/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 03:07:12 PDT

There was much rejoicing....
__________________________________

ABOUT ME
Your full name:: Daniel Richard Smith (a name of crapness to live through the millenia!)
Age:: 18
Height:: 6'1"
Natural hair colour:: every colour you can think of... platinum blonde to jet black... all on the same head... all without colourant
Eye colour:: Blue/Green to Brown in the right light... I love that light ^.^
Glasses/contacts?:: Glasses sometimes... when I need them...
Piercings:: I'm hole-free
Tattoos:: none.... considering one though...

FAVOURITE
Colour:: Purple (Violet & some random incredibly dark purple)
Band:: The Smashing Pumpkins
TV show:: gah? I barely ever watch tv anymore
Movie:: uuuuuuh... Leon, Amelie, The Crow, Waynes World... some others might qualify
Book:: uuuuuuuuuh... Wheel Of Time series... or the Shannara series
Food:: probably noodles
Game on a cell phone:: don't play em... though probably the pinball one... or snake, since I *sometimes (once every 3 blue moons)* play them
Flower:: Rose
Animal:: Squirrel
Cereal:: Weetos
Website:: deviantART
Cartoon:: Dexters Lab



DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: Bass guitar, trying to learn lead, Vocal Chords (singing that is ), keyboard (although badly, due to lack of practice).
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: Nope
Have a job?:: Yup
Have a cell phone?:: Aye
Like to play sports?:: Depends on the sport
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: *sigh* ish... damned distances *sulks*
Have a crush on someone?:: Yes, and she knows exactly who she is... again... DAMNED DISTANCES!!!!!!!!
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: England, much less american *no offence... I just prefer england)
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: no
Have any special talents/skills?:: I can stare at you as if you were asking me a stupid question...
Excercise daily?:: my job involves sitting in front of a computer for 8 hours every day... do you think I can afford to not excercise??
Like school?:: I left a while ago... does it matter anymore? though, no I didn't


CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: WHEN would I have the opportunity... or feel the need to find this out?
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yes... but.... WHAT???
Speak any other languages?:: I used to be able to speak german & french fluently, then my school forced me to do german (which I hated) for gcse & I lost the french... then I dropped german when I could & lost that too... so now I can only speak a little bit of a few languages *sigh*
Go a day without food?:: yup
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: I've spent 3 full weeks awake before
Read music, not just tabs?:: ish.... with time I can work it out
Roll your tongue?:: Yup
Eat a whole pizza?:: You say that like its hard....


HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:: no
Gotten lost in your city?:: not sober
Seen a shooting star?:: a few times
Been to any other countries?:: Yup
Had a serious surgery?:: no
Stolen something important to someone else?:: no, and I never would
Solved a rubiks cube?:: *pop*
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: not concious
Cried over a girl?:: *sigh* yup... many times
Cried over a boy?:: nope
Kissed a random stranger?:: yes, although she was a random stranger who I'd been staring at most of the night.... so... maybe less random
Hugged a random stranger?:: yup... same as above
Been in a fist fight?:: Yup... not in a long time though
Been arrested?:: Nope
Done drugs?:: uh no.... of course not *cough*
Had alcohol?:: come on!! d'you REALLY need an answer to that? of course I have
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: No... I think that requires extreme strangeness that even I am not blessed with
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: not while being awake or older than 3....
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: Yes... it was wonderful, becaus... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3001334/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/3001334/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 04:31:59 PDT

There was much rejoicing....

Name: Dan Smith

Age: 18

What school do you attend: *left school due to being too old for it*

Righty or Lefty: Righty for most, Lefty for eating

~~~~~YOUR LOOKS~~~~~

Hair Color: mutli... but simplified = browny-red or reddy-brown

Eyez: Blue to Green, dependent on mood and light

Do you wear contacts or glasses: glasses, but not all the time... or often... only when I really need to

Do you wear any rings: not really

~~~~~JUST LATELY~~~~~

How are you today: mind's racing all over the place... kinda bored... pretty tired... glad of being able to lie in over the weekend... generally fine

What pants(trousers) are you wearing?: dark blue jeans

What shirt are you wearing: black t-shirt, purple shirt

What does your hair look like at the moment: tied back.... with a few strands around my face that decided not to go back... should really sort that out, but can't be bothered

What song are you listening to right now: Tubular Bells... well... its playing, I'm not actually listening at the moment

What was the last thing you ate?: giant chocolate chip cookie... YUM! but fattening

How is the weather right now: british summertime weather - switching between ridiculously hot & stupidly cold & wet

The last person you talked to on the phone: probably Dylan.... might be Ivana

Who are you talking to right now: Dylan online

What time is it?: 12.10

~~~~~MORE ABOUT YOU~~~~~

What are the last four digits of your phone?: dahditdehdah

If you were a crayon what color would you be?: purple

Are you a virgin?: uh... I used to be...

Have you ever almost died?: define almost....... define died

What makes you happy: lots of things... although they have their way of not happening when I want them to

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: sometimes.... depends if I need something to cuddle up to & whether I have someone warm & female to do that with

Place for a dream house: uhm... on nice solid ground.... somewhere near a forest, with a small stream going through the garden and a few mountains in walking distance (5-6 miles most)

Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone: yup... lots...

Who do you tell your dreams to?: some people who mean the world to me

Who is the loudest friend: Mark

Who is the quietest friend: Jenny

~~~~~JUST QUESTIONS~~~~~

Is cheerleading a sport: nope

How many licks does it take to get to the center?: depends on whether your teasing or just pleasing

Which came first the chicken or the egg?: the egg... not neccesarily a chickens egg... but the egg definately came first

~~~~~YOU AND LOVE~~~~~

Do you believe in love?: yup

Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: sorta

Do you have a crush: yup

Who is your crush?: *mutters her name*

Did you send this to your crush: no, but she'll see it, since this is a journal entry rather than an email

Do you believe in love at first sight: I believe in lust & infatuation at first sight... and I believe in love growing from lust and infatuation... so yes

What song do you want played at your wedding: dont know... who said I'm getting married?

~~~~~GIRLS FILL OUT ONLY~~~~~ >

Boxers of Briefs: boxers - briefs, no matter what, are too small, cause crushing & chafing & general OWWIE!!

Long or short hair: Long... like mahn!

Tall or short: mattereth not

Six pack or muscular arms: mattereth not

Hat or no hat: mattereth not

Ears pierced or not: mattereth not

Tan or fair: mattereth not

Stubble or clean shaven: mattereth not

Rugged or sporty: mattereth not

Studly or cutie: mattereth not

Glasses: mattereth not

Smart or Dumb: uhm... well smart enough to have a decent conversation

What sport should he play: mattereth not

~~~~~GUYS FILL OUT ONLY~~~~~

Regular or thong undies: regular.... thongs are sexy... but bad memories involving a Bridget *twitch*

Painted nails or not: painted is nice... but it mattereth not

Bra or no bra: it doesn't really matter... although a sexy bra is nice ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2980244/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2980244/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 13:54:42 PDT D - Dimmu Borgir
A - Aerosmith
N - Nine Inch Nails


2. have you ever had a song written about you?
not that I know of or remember

3. what song makes you cry?
none... some make my eyes damp... none make me cry

4. what song makes you happy?
The Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm


5. what do you like to listen to before bed?
Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm or Mike Oldfield - Tubular Bells (gotta be the whole thing though) or something... interesting... whatever takes my fancy

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT:
6'1(or 2... not sure)"

HAIR COLOR:
ech.... lets just say what its not, its not pink, its not purple, its not any unatural hair colour.... it's EVERY natural colour you can think of... looks Reddish Brown/Brownish Red though

SKIN COLOR:
White... kinda pale, but slight tan invading my skin

EYE COLOR:
Blue/Green

PIERCINGS:
None

TATTOOS:
None


r i g h t - n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?:
blue

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO OR WATCHING?:
Fine Young Cannibals - She Drives Me Crazy

WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?:
Tongue & Saliva... yum!!

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?:
The sky is bluey-pink, air feels quite cool, looks slightly breezy... about 7/8 cloud cover, no rain, sun's going down, moon not quite up yet... uhm air's slighty damp, but not really noticable... *can't think of more detail without finding some barometric instruments & such)

HOW ARE YOU?:
I'm fine

d o - y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?:
Nope

HAVE A BAD HABIT?:
Yes... several... not going into them

GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?:
uh.... mostly

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW:
uh.... that one *points*

MAGAZINE:
pfeh

SODA:
Apple Juice... pure, pressed apple juice uhmmm!!!!! yummeh

THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND:
relax, have fun, get drunk, play crappy computer games, complain when it gets to 11 on sunday & you've got work in 10 hours

h a v e - y o u
BROKEN THE LAW:
uh... *cough* maybe... kinda... yes

RAN AWAY FROM HOME:
nope

SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE:
not really... I've left the house without telling people or being noticed.... but thats different

EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING:


MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL:
nope, could never be bothered

EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY:
nope

USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE:
nope

SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE:
heh.... elitist shithole... now WHY would I want to not go to a place like that I ask?... of course I skipped, I had SANITY to maintain

FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH:
once or twice

BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY:
yup

LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER:
what are shoulders for if not comforting friends? of course I do

HAD A MAJOR REGRET:
yes... one word, 7 letters long, begins in B, ends it T... rhymes with ARRRGHWHATTHEFUCK??!!!


l o v e
CHILDREN:
I don't have any, nor do I particularly want any at the moment... that you for offering though

BEEN IN LOVE?:
I've been in incredibly deep friendship with sex... I've been in something I managed to convince myself was love for all of 2 months... I don't think I've ever been in love

HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE:
...not really... I've been depressed for a while after splitting up with one person... and I still think about her... but I didn't have trouble getting over her really... just something you need to do really

YOUR GREATEST REGRET?:
not making more of an effort to see April

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR 3 DAYS:
uh... ish-kinda-sorta *cough*

DO YOU HAVE A JOB:
yes

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW:
a laser... no disk though

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?:
purple if I got to choose, if not, probably yellow... I hate yellow

MAKES YOU HAPPY?:
a smile on the lips of my friends

WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?:
a smile on the lips of all my friends at once... and someone who's name can't be mentioned, coz I don't wanna embarrass her... even though I wanna tell the world how much she means to me

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?:
I du... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2952549/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2952549/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:01:52 PDT So I'm probably gonna be having a few ridiculous trust issues for a while, so sorry to anyone who'll be effected by that, I want you to understand that I love all of you, even if I might seem a little distant, you'll still be some of my dearest friends... I hope you can understand why I'm currently a little unwilling to invest my feelings in people I'm not 100% certain of, and I hope you'll be as willing to be there for me if I need you, as I would for you.
Anyway, good night for now, all of you sleep well tonight, whenever tonight is for you.

Love all of you.
Mashiara x

-
157 messages... later, I'm going to bed now - needing sleep.... dreaming, maybe I'll be able to figure a few things out & wrap my head around these things dancing in my head *sigh*

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my people listy thingie ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2916600/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2916600/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 05:22:26 PDT Boyfriend: no thanks... unless its one of those incredibly rare guys who I find slightly attractive....
Career in future: spoonsmith
Dad's name: [enter humorous name here]
Essential item to bring to a party: clothes - its very embarrasing going to a party if you've forgotten your clothes
Favorite song at the moment: same as ever - Disarm - The Smashing Pumpkins
Guy/Girls you fancy that are famous: uhm..... Natalie Portman.... Johnny Depp.... Drew Barrymore.... and thats about it really.... kinda
Instruments you play: Bass guitar, that Voice thingie.... the one you do the singing with, and learning Lead guitar
Job title: Lazy Git
Kids: like mini people... they're evil!! EVIL I TELLS YA!!!!!!!!!!
Living arrangement: home.... parents.... bed.... house.... that sorta thing
Mom's name: [enter humorous name here]
Nicest body part on you: I'd say eyes.... even though I wish they were constant green or brown rather than going from blue to green & all over
Overnight hospital stays: none
Phobia[s]: spiders , lifts (elevators, whatever), insane possessed chickens with glowing red eyes, Mr Flibble
Quote you like: "Mr Flibble is very annoyed"
Relationship that lasted the longest: Grace *sigh*
Straigh Edge: HA! yeah right
Time you wake up everyday: work days between 6 & 7, the rest of the time, you'll be lucky if its morning
Unique friends: my greatest and most unique friends -
Vegetable you love: corn.... on or off the cob... yummeh
Worst habit you have: at the moment.... the sudden urge to shout SPOONS!!!
X-rays you've had: uhm.... some for dentist, some to check exactly how broken my collar bone was.... and some others.... though for some reason, none to find out why my leg still kept me awake at night in agony for months after "hurting" it
Yummy food you make: noodles & chocolate truffles
Zodiac sign: Aries ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2904081/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2904081/ Sat, 17 Jul 2004 12:40:37 PDT
I've started messing around with photoshop a lot more recently... its actually a lot easier than I thought...

and then the chickens... no, not just randomness... I currently have a plan for starting a chicken related series of pictures starting with my super-secret-chicken-thingie... I'm not gonna say what, coz I don't want people stealing my idea *paranoia*

-
562 new messages .... I watch too many people.... I can't keep up *sigh* I'm gonna have to sit down tomorrow & just work my way through... I WILL view EVERYTHING.... even if it kills me!!
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my people listy thingie ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2830837/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2830837/ Thu, 08 Jul 2004 14:22:24 PDT
I look a lot like him too..... except the worm is brown.. and there's more of it.... and its actually hair... ah well.... I'll be fine as soon as I decapitate myself
Illness sucks... mostly I can work through it & ignore it.... but now even chocolate tastes bad... its not fair

Well.... my mind's swimming with poetic thoughs, so I guess so good comes of feeling like shit... *sigh*


-
347 new messages eeeeeeeeeep!!! I need to start going through some of these things before they devour me whole.... I just just push the "clear all" button..... which I really don't wanna do until I've viewed all..... aaaah MONKETIES!!!
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my people listy thingie ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2830684/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2830684/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 07:55:02 PST

Cool artisty peoples/clubs:



Other peoples:


]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2736732/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2736732/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 20:24:43 PDT I've got what appears to be becoming a novel under construction in my "non-poetry" notepad, which I should really work on before I lose the thread & have to fumble around for several pages before getting back into it.
I keep getting urges to write some more poetry, but I'm completely uninspired at the moment.... well, I'm not uninspired, I'm very inspired... its just badly directed... would probably make great pictures *if I could draw* but the poetry, it ain't working for.
I've got a song waiting a tune, which I'm actually making progress on, but slowly.... tho Dylan's meant to be being helpful on this... I guess we should get together with the lyrics, some scales and a few chords & work it out... though I do have a pretty funky riff worked out... I just don't think its gonna fit this song - it sounds like a major scale, and the song's very much minor... dammit.
It'd be pretty handy if I could find some way of transporting myself several hundred miles in a very short time, without the aid of a catapult, or fictional means this is gonna be hard I think.
I could do to stop letting myself get distracted at work too... even when I've got nothing to do, I could be working on my nvq stuff.... I've gotta get working properly on that...

I've got too much I want and/or need to do.... its pissing me off... and the woman I love is hundreds of miles away from me ... I wanna be with her.... as close to now as possible ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2702055/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2702055/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 05:52:31 PDT So now the way I dance is cool??... I dance like that coz on my feet I get dizzy and fall over for godssake!!!!
I don't mind being told I look cool by some random person on the street... thats ok, as long as they realise I'm dressing how I do because I happen to like the clothes - they're COMFORTABLE, not to be cool

I really wish people'd stop copying me.... this is about the 12th thing now... I AM NOT COOL!!!!! ok???
I swear.... they're trying to drive me insane... I'm gonna turn into a mad fork murderer if this keeps up ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2657800/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2657800/ Thu, 01 Jul 2004 02:36:38 PDT
Real-life friends & close online friends:


Cool artisty peoples/clubs:


Other peoples:



Actual Journal thingie:
Boring, boring, boring day today, I feel like all I've done is sit at my computer with no work to do, which oddly enough is true, since I've had no work to do all day... its kinda funny, when I'm working all I wanna do is come on here & post my latest work, when I've got nothing to do, I can't be bothered with posting, even though I've got loads to post *sigh*

And Dylan, Ade and everyone else, be happy please, I'd change the world to fit you all and make you happy your whole lives if I could... I love you all & I can't bear to see you sad, s... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2595439/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2595439/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 03:42:18 PDT , who got it from , who got it from some other people.... I get confused

[ 1 ] First grade teacher's name: Mrs Britten
[ 2 ] Last word you said: 'Night
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: Disarm - The Smashing Pupmkins
[ 4 ] Last person you hugged: really - Dylan - online - Ref
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: something Dylan said last night.... um.... something about.... urm... something... I was drunk
[ 6 ] Last time you said I dont fucking remember: I dont fucking remember!!... urm... just now then
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: don't remember
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: Urm... *checks* Tubular Bells - Mike Oldfield
[ 9 ] What color socks are you wearing: Non - I've got naked feets
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: My CD player/walkman thingie, a coupla boxes.... the plug for my CD player/walkman thingie..... my notebook - half filled with poetry, my other notebook, half filled with a story about jelly babies.... a scanner (waiting for a new plug so it'll actually work) and a load of other stuff
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: about 9.25
[ 12 ] Current taste: The lingering aniseed taste of Absinthe
[ 13 ] Current hair: Long, tied back, brown with red/blonde/black/silver streaks... natural scarily
[ 14 ] Current clothes: Blue jeans, Black T-shirt, Purple shirt
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: not being able to think of something for this question
[ 16 ] Current longing: umm..... *mumbles her name*..... she knows who she is anyway.... was talkin to her earlier today
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: Silly_Rabbit by
[ 18 ] Current worry: urm... can't go into it publicly... only tellin my close friends
[ 19 ] Current hate: nothing really.... have a deep hatred of Andrea, but thats not particularly current.... more ongoing
[ 20 ] Current favorite article of clothing: urm..... those boots in experience *drools*
[ 21 ] Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Smile, Eyes, Neck
[ 22 ] Last CD that you listened to: Mike Oldfield - Tubular Bells
[ 23 ] Favorite place to be: Bed or computer
[ 24 ] Least favorite place: Anywhere other than bed or computer
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: 6:00 - 7:00 AM
[ 26 ] If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Bass guitar... funny.... thats the instrument I play!
[ 27 ] Favorite color: Purple
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: Don't know.... never been there
[ 29 ] How tall are you: 6'1"
[ 30 ] Current favorite word/saying: SHEEEEEEEEEP!!! (follow the crowd)
[ 31 ] Favorite book: The Wheel Of Time series
[ 32 ] Favorite season: Autumn
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Grace
[ 34 ] Favorite day: Friday (night), Saturday (whole day)


[[[ FUTURE ]]]


[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: urm...... Macedonia?
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: Fun
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: I don't know.... as many as turn up
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: the two wheeled kind with the bikiness

[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]


[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: ] Nope
[ Been to New York?: ] Nope
[ Been to Florida?: ] No
[ San Diego, Cali?: ] Nop
[ Hawaii?: ] No
[ Mexico?: ] No
[ China?: ] No
[ Canada?: ] Nope
[ Danced naked?: ] urm..... no I don't th... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2580186/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2580186/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 07:20:19 PDT ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2579705/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2579705/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 05:30:14 PDT ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2468255/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2468255/ Thu, 20 May 2004 08:20:43 PDT tis funny.... but... looooooooooooooooooong


My name is: Dan
-nicknames: Mashiara;
Long Haired Freak;
That dude over there... you know? the weird lookin one;
and Danny-man (don't ask... ok?)
-sex: Male
-birthday: April 12, 1986
-color: Purple, Blue
-star sign: Aries
-place of birth: Kettering
-current residence: Hull (East Yorkshire [England{United Kingdom}])
-hair color: Dark brown mostly with blonde, silver, black and red streaks, ALL natural... weird eh?
-eye color: Blue/Green... I prefer em when they're green
-height: 6'1"
-writing hand: Right

-BODY ILLS + SKILLS-

-do you bite your nails: no
-can you roll your tongue: yup
-can you blow smoke rings: used to be able to... not sure if I still can
-can you blow spit bubbles: no
-can you cross your eyes: no
-tattoos and where: none
-do you make your bed daily: usually...
-what’s sexiest on a guy: um..... dunno
-what’s sexiest on a girl: personality, eyes, laugh, smile
-do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: twirl it - there's NO other way!!!!
-what utensils do you use eating pizza: fingers...
-do you cook: yup, just not well

-GROOMING-

-how often do you brush your teeth: twice a day, three times if possible
-do you shower/bathe: shower
-how long do these showers last: 5-30 mins
-do you swear: a bit
-do you pee in the shower: no
-what color is your bedroom: Purple & Blue
-do you use an alarm clock: yup... never wakes me up though
-name four things or people you're obsessed with:
1. Taz... (if you knew her, you wouldn't need a reason)
2. Dylan [fakeplastictrees] (bestest friend EVER!!!!)
3. Ade [Xionknightmare] (incredible guy)
4. Purple thingies & squirrels
-What’s your sleeping position: next to someone beautiful... I used to love sleeping next to Grace
-in hot weather do you use a blanket: nope
-do you sleepwalk: nope
-do you talk in your sleep: apparently
-how about the light on: um?.... is this a dirty question?

-WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU-

had sex: about... 2 months ago
watched bambi: when I was 6..... 12 years ago
cried: I don't remember
talked on the phone: 20 minutes ago
read a book: last night

-MUSIC-

is music important to you: YES
what instruments do you play: Bass Guitar (wellish), Rhythm Guitar (okish), Vocal tract (badly), Keyboard (SHIT)
what do you think of Eminem: meh.... he's ok I guess
in your opinion what band is the best of all time: Smashing Pumpkins

-DO YOU LIKE-

pop music: not very often
rock music: most of the time
punk music: usually
rap music: sometimes
hip-hop/RB: old R&B yeah, but hardly any of the new stuff pop R&B & hip-hop sucks
country: "I feel so bad without you, it's like havin you back here"..... some... SOME... is alright
jazz: yeah, some's pretty cool
classical: I need to be in the mood
new age: I don't understand the definition... but possibly
hardcore: O_o.... NO
indie rock: some's ok... I just don't like it when its all this "I'm 14 & I wanna fuck my teacher" music
emo: um.... its alright

-WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX-

What do you notice first? eyes, hair, smile
Do you have a crush on anyone? um... maybe a little one *YES!!!!!!!!*
Easiest to talk to: surprisingly.... Taz, although really I woulda thought she'd be impossible to talk to, seein as how she drives me out of my mind with desire

-DO YOU/ARE YOU-

Could you live without the computer?: probably not... I could for a while though
What’s your favorite fruit?: Lychees.... YUMMEH!
What hurts the most? being betrayed by someone you thought cared about you
Trust others way too easily? much to easily

-NUMBER-

Of times you have had your heart broken? 1... a few days ago... but she fixed it for me... was just me being paranoid
Of hearts you have broken? I don't know... I hope none... if Andrea isn't the lying whore I know her to be then 1, but I honestly believe she was just fucking with my head
Of girls kissed? .... a few
Of boys kissed? not many
Of drugs taken illegally? not many
Of CD's owned? lots
Of... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2454413/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2454413/ Tue, 18 May 2004 09:46:58 PDT Yes.... Dan is stupid - he is a paranoid idiot who manages to think that everyone hates him, even though there's actually quite a lot of proof that says otherwise... and yes, I can say this without fear of retribution because I am Dan (for those of you who thought I was insulting some guy for no apparent reason)
God I annoy myself... I feel like a right eejit!!!!!
*pokes self* ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2453919/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2453919/ Tue, 18 May 2004 08:12:56 PDT Oh god, I'm losing my mind over a girl I barely know, I'm gonna drive myself insane if I let her do this to me, I just wish I knew what she was thinking... and if she still likes me or not... I just keep thinking about who she knows, and who that person knows... and that the person who he knows hates me, all because I didn't follow her little plan, because I didn't hang around forever for her to decide she was gonna use me ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2433217/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2433217/ Sat, 15 May 2004 08:50:52 PDT
My life is so twisted and pointless... it seems like the only person who ever managed to make me love her, is the only one who isn't at all interested in being anything more than friends... or at least, the only one who I'd be particularly bothered about her not wanting me.

Just friends... and I get the feeling thats all she'll EVER want us to be.

I want to die ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2425329/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2425329/ Fri, 14 May 2004 03:11:21 PDT I need a cure.... she's tearing me apart.... I need to tell her exactly how I feel, let her know how she's invaded my soul.... and pray to god that I don't scare her off in the process.... and pray that she doesn't read this before I get the chance to tell her myself.

This last week has felt like decades... each passing moment has driven me deeper and deeper in love with her... I don't think there's any turning back from the way I feel for her now... all I can hope is that she doesn't decide she doesn't want to be with me.
I don't know.

At least its helping my music.... she's a wonderful muse.

Its funny.... this was supposed to be something completely random to fill the journal space in case she saw my site..... it didn't work at all. ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2421967/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2421967/ Thu, 13 May 2004 15:38:53 PDT
The only thing I have trouble understanding.... is how did she manage to do this to me in a mere week?
My heart is not so fickle that it could be so easily swayed so quickly by any normal feeling, nor is it so weak that it can be forced to change its mind.... and yet, I've only known her a week & my life is on its head & I'm thinking about as straight as a circle.... which ain't too straight (its a really wobbly circle) she's stolen my heart without any obvious effort... what's come over me to make me so easily affected?

Its madness.... I'm falling so madly in love with her and I hardly know her.....

I'm losing my mind! ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2400256/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2400256/ Mon, 10 May 2004 15:22:03 PDT Firstly, the alchohol is cheap and so plentiful (although it does quite often taste spiked, even when it's not)
Secondly, the play very good music most of the time (however many people of the 14 year-old variety go there a lot and so much trendy-crap "punk-rock" is played there too)
And third yet most imporatant, it was there that I met the most beautiful and sweet woman I have ever known, who for the past three days I have been falling farther and farther in love (or more probably lust) with, either way, she is wonderful and I have been unable to get her out of my mind since friday night when I met her..... and to think that I almost didn't bother going and the only thing that actually made me go was to see my friends, who I hadn't seen in two weeks.
I know its probably really stupid of me to believe that its possible for me to truly love her after only 3 days of knowing her, but stranger things have happened I'm sure, just never to me before... Whenever I think of her (which seems to be all the time) I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest, my breath is like frozen fire and burning ice, its a feeling that has beenmissing from my heart for quite some time, she has filled a gaping hole in my heart, I wish I was sure of whether or not I truly love her.... or I suppose, I wish I could make myself realise that its practically impossible for that to be true...
Bah!! bloody emotions, I'm sure they were designed purely to keep us perpetually confused and pained... I suppose what I should really be wondering about is "does she really like me?" I know she seems to... but then Bridget seemed to be a really sweet and mature girl... and Andrea seemed like she was worth caring about, rather than both of them being immature, manipulative bitches... I guess really I shouldn't be surprised that I'm suspicious and paranoid considering ever girl I've gotten involved with has screwed me up pretty heavily... although if I let myself get too paranoid, I might actually convince myself that she really doesn't care at all and ruin any chance I have with her, or just insult her by seeming to not trust her and again ruin my chances.
Why do I have to read things so deeply? this started out with the intention of being a happy post... now I'm making myself miserable thinking about how I might end up ruining everything before its even started... I know the last year's given me quite a few reasons to be paranoid, but I wish I could make myself get over them and let her show me if she really cares or not... anyway, I've got time to sort my mind out - we both have stuff to sort out in our lives before persuing anything... maybe I can settle my suspicions and quiet my fears before anything happens between us, which I hope will happen eventually... I'd prefer sooner rather than later, but there's no rush for anything, and I'm certain she's worth any wait... I just hope something does happen between us... she told me she wants something to happen between us & I know I want something to happen... but what if nothing does happen between us? I'm sure I'd cope - I might be whiney, but I'm not weak, but still... I'd hardly be singing in the streets...

I worry too much.

I think too much......
Its not bloody wonder I spend so much time depressed.... I swear I'm gonna drive myself crazy.... but at least now I think... by taking the time to write it all out... maybe I understand how I feel better. ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2315313/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2315313/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 08:11:40 PDT bored......
bored.....
bored....
bored...
bored...
bored...
bored....
bored.....
bored......
bored.......


I really am rather bored ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2301735/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2301735/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 10:27:39 PDT She drives me crazy; like no-one else. She drives me crazy & I can't help myseh-eh-elf I love that song.... well I've gotta go now..... coz've stuff to do...

the song I was workin on's done now tho .... just need to find some way to record it.... ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300981/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300981/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 08:00:24 PDT I need to find out how to make my asp pages work properly..... but other than that I have nothing to do, & its ten to four now, I've spent almost all day doing NOTHING.... its great now if only I actually had something to do tomorrow other than sit here and write on here..... no offence, but I'm gonna go mad if I don't get something to do other than sit and post...... if anyone can give me some kinda asp manual, or tell me where one is.... I'd be very grateful, coz then I could get lots of web designy stuff done, even if it wasn't actually work related I'd be able to learn it so that next time I need to make an asp site I'd be able to do it quickly and then get back to posting on here again, knowing that I had nothing to worry about.... untill I have to become fluent in java [please god, don't let that happen ] bleh! anyway.... I wish I had a scanner here..... I've been doing loadsa doodly stuff..... but I can't upload it coz I don't have a scanner (BUGGER) so to the lack of scanner I say yaaaay(!)


and on other news

YAAAAAAAARGH!..... fakeplastictrees knows what I mean..... he should do anyway....

also, I have no more chocolate so I must live without highly fattening sustenance.... I guess I'll live *sulks* ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300444/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300444/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 06:02:50 PDT I'm not the messiah, I'm a very naughty boy!

100 Things about me:
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold are false


01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychedelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a toilet
07. I love playing video games
08. I like marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like G. Bush
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself
20. I'm really really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
24. I drink only milk
25. I drink too much water
26. I hate Microsoft
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am not a morning person
30. I wear glasses SHOULD
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes
35. I have a twin
36. I'm wearing a padded bra
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I have narcolepsy.
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually. eh, probably
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages not good at them.
48. I spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor ... sort of...
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied
54. Cocks are my favorite birds
55. I want to conquer the world
56. I wonder what happens when you die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion
61. I love to write
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inches long
68. My favorite color is black
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this
73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN
74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers
79. I like debating
80. I have never had a sexual experience outside my normal orientation.
81. I clean my room once a month SHOULD, really
82. I'm scared of American fast food
83. I have a third eye
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with Barbie’s because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes sometimes... others I want to kill them
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I am very lazy sometimes.....
96. I'm sarcastic
97. I think my hair is annoying
98. I'm very sensitive
99. I love being "ab-normal"
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.

'kay, I'm done now ]]> ~Mashiara http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300303/ http://Mashiara.deviantart.com/journal/2300303/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 05:22:17 PDT Which reminds me... I have to get my website uploaded, I've been workin on it for the last month or so & its lookin pretty good, only problem is that I haven't uploaded it yet.... I'm gonna have to buy a domain from my boss I think, coz I don't wanna get one of those freewebs, adinfested sites; Noooooo!

Anyway, as usual I ramble & rant, and ok I know its hardly as usual as far as you're concerned, but this is only the first time I've posted in my journal, just wait till I've been at it a while, then you'll see what I'm like!

I love everyone's art on here, its great.... puts mine to shame, I've only got one pic up so far, but its not really all that good, it does what its supposed to I guess & I was only following where my arm wanted to go, so I guess its not too bad....
What I really love on here though, is no-one seems to spend time posting just to be insulting - thats something I hate about most of the web, its all flames and hate-mail (or hate-posts... whatever) I don't get why people'd wanna be like that, 'tis crazy I think

Anyway, I'm gonna go, coz I've got food to eat and people to chat to in...... 20 minutes now.

Bye



Mashiara
x ]]> ~Mashiara