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Yay journal update.

]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/10284325/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/10284325/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 16:08:47 PDT
I keep seeing you get hurt over and over again, because of the way I am and the things I say. And I hate it. I hate seeing you upset or angry, I hate making you feel like this. And I hate myself for doing it.

I'm a very protective person, I get extremely jealous when another male talks to you, let alone another male being in your room. I get jealous at everything that gets too close to you. I don't want to feel like this, I want to always be happy and I want you to be happy always too. I love your smile, I love the way you are, I love everything there is about you. And I want to always be with you, for as long as I can, even on days I'm not meant to see you because of work and college…

I cant deny how much you mean to me, and how happy you make me when we're together. No words can ever describe how much I love you. You're the one for me, you always have been, noone else even compares. I just wish we met sooner, but then I don't know if things would turn out like the way they have, I guess this way was the best. You're the one I want to marry, the one I want to settle down with, the one I want to start a family with, the one I want to be by my side and watch our family grow up. I don't care if anyone else is reading this because I am so proud of you. And I want to let the entire world know that you're mine and I'm yours.

I know I can be protective, and most of the time I'm too protective. I know you value your freedom and heck I think I'm even envious it. But I keep messing it up, I keep restricting you. I try not to, but you and I both know I'm doing it. I don't want to, but I also can't help it… I've always been a protector, no matter what I would protect all my friends, especially you. But most of the time, its me doing the harm to you, its me trying to protect you from me. I'm not a loose cannon, but I'm still dangerous to you.

I've hurt you in many ways in the past, I try not to but I always end up doing it. Last night, I said something completely stupid without thinking, even this morning I said something totally stupid. You're in no way controlling me, but the other way its me in a sense mothering you. You don't need it, but I guess its my way of caring too. I don't know why I get edgy when you don't sleep properly…I just wish I could let it all go. But doing so I know I'll change, I don't want to because you already love me for who I am, I'm afraid any change at all would make me…not me. My negatives I want to give the flick, I don't need them….but if I do, I might not be the same. I think the only way out of this is for me to lock myself in myself. To not say as much, would protect you from the unwanted things I say….

You've almost slipped through my fingers once, and that almost destroyed me and you. That was the most pain I've ever inflicted on you and myself. I'm not going to let that happen again but I fear with all the little things I do, it'll add up. And one day you might not want me there anymore. I get so afraid I cry myself to sleep at nights…. I can't live my life without you. I won't be able to handle anything without you. I'll lose the other half of me. And become an empty shell. I've felt like that night I came over to you. You have helped me in so many ways I cannot even say, you've rebuilt me back to who I was. You nurtured me with all your love, you looked after me when I was down, you care so much for me. I've never felt this much devotion you give to me, and yet sometimes it feels like I take it for granted with the way I act.

Its all going to be over now, I'm going to be the one that looks after you, the one you can talk to with all your heart, the one that will protect you. Because I love you more than anything else in this world. You matter the most to me, and you deserve all the love and happiness I can give you.

I love you Tori,
I always will love you,
Yours forever until the end of time,
Mikey

]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/10130474/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/10130474/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 08:50:34 PDT ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9641378/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9641378/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 06:42:56 PDT ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9323793/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9323793/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 17:22:50 PDT
Its 10am and I've got nothing to do at work. Rob is crooked and taken the day off (I draft work for him after he designs), and Duzzi is on site, so I'm sitting by myself in my section of the office. I'm browsing the net now lol...

Anyway my weekend was fantastic, apart from my mum being a total b*tch. I got to spend almost all of it with my mao mao Tori ^^ We got up early (extra early, 7am!) on Sunday and played Gunbound for a bit too At Pizza'and KFC lol. Such a healthy weekend xD. On a side note my sister reversed her RX8 into my mum's car and damaged her rear bodykit. Prolly about $400-500 worth of damage.

On thursday we went shopping and if you already hadnt read her journal I got her a tamagochi and a DBZ movie ^-^

I also bought a pair of sunglasses so I dont get glare when driving to work. Errr I'm outta things to ramble on about. I better pretend to do some work coz my typing is suss since my job I don't do much typing


-=Tori and Mike=- ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9118650/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9118650/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 18:17:05 PDT
10 Things You Like/Love (2 of each):
1. (Animals) Dogs and Wolves.
2. (Hobbies) Anime and RPG games and working out.
3. (Games) RPG games, and tickling Tori. xD
4. (Food) Chicken Curry and Cheesecake.
5. (Colours) In order; Blue, Purple and Black.
6. (Flowers) The Lotus Flower and the Cherry Blossom Tree (I know its not a flower, so sue me)
7. (Interests) Performance Cars and to steal an answer from Tori, S*X!!
8. (Feelings) Happiness and Belonging
9. (Intrigues) The endless sky and space. Deep rainforests intrigues me too.
10. (Senses) Touch and Sight.

5 Things That Make You Happy
1. Tori
2. Giving and receiving unexpected gifts.
3. Quiet music.
4. Making people happy and smile.
5. Company of close friends and older sister.

5 Things You Dislike Or Hate
1. Being alone (as in without people in my life) not as in at home by yourself.
2. Being lied to, for good or for bad. Even if its to protect me. I hate being lied to no matter.
3. Broken and empty promises.
4. Disloyalty and deceit.
5. Not able to be myself.

3 Facts About My Name
1. Michael isn’t my first name.
2. My name means holy and angelic.
3. I have the most common surname in Australia.

5 Facts About Myself
1. I like taking photographs of nature. Especially the sky when its full of different colours.
2. I’m a soy sauce person. I’d rather something cooked plain then me dabbing it into soy sauce.
3. I'm an incredibly fast eater, I can down a meal in a matter of minutes…
4. I’m extremely loud and outgoing.
5. I dress the way I want, and only I can pull off my style of fashion. xD

2 Things You Expect
1. My kick is much worse than my bite or barks…
2. I can easily overpower you with my mind.

Alright, that killed 30 minutes of my time…I might go refill and get another cup of tea.

I tag…

]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9082574/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/9082574/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 23:51:03 PDT 2. I’m 177cm/5’9 tall – my work shoes boost me to 6’0 lol..
3. I’m a very loud and energetic person – I CANT KEEP STILL!
4. My favourite colours are black, blue and purple.
5. I can make the weirdest and most annoying sounds ever…
6. Always wear briefs, they are SO comfy lol. xD
7. My average type speed is 45 words per minute with 100% accuracy. I can do about 300 words with 3% accuracy too. =O
8. On average I drink 6 cups of tea a day while at work… o.O
9. Used to mountain bike, aggressive inline and street scoot but have never broken a bone. Ironically I broke my ankle jumping into a hole…
10. I get paid $1,200 a fortnight to do almost nothing.
11. And I’m a ninja. Because that’s always the 11th thing about me.

Haha, 10 minutes left at work...WOO HOO WEEKEND!!

Anyway I tag... ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8737797/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8737797/ Thu, 11 May 2006 08:17:43 PDT ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8700479/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8700479/ Sun, 07 May 2006 12:22:37 PDT ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8646209/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8646209/ Mon, 01 May 2006 20:37:58 PDT animetist] ^^

If you already havent read her journal, we celebrated my sister's birthday for 3 days lol. We roasted this lamb on a spit....well dad did, errrr ate it and then gave her gifts. I got her a CD for her new RX8 and Tori got her a giant pink plushie thingie (with took 30 minutes waiting in the shop because it didnt have a pricetag so they had to check it), she got her a giant chocolate bar and something else...I swear there was something else but I cant think of it lol.

Anyway we hung around my sister's place and watched movies until 5am in the morning...we were needed early in the day over my place. So we all stayed alive on 4 hours sleep...if that.

Clubbing...was so funny. Me and Tori danced, and danced and danced! Did she look sexy or what! I like couldnt take my eyes off her (Lets hope she doesnt see that I called her sexy and beat me over the head with a pillow) --> [link] We also nose butted each other because the lights were flickering...we did that move(I'm not a dance expert...sue me) how you shake your shoulders and one person moves forward with their torso while the other goes back. I thought she was going back and I went forward, she went forward too...colided faces. What made it funny was the lights made it look like snap shots so when we held our noses in pain it was like a photo for each second. Best time I had at a club ever XD

The 3rd day we slept in...Tori and I slept in till like 3pm. Anyway being spontaneous as we are, we decided to go eat at a resturant and being even more spontaneous we went tenpin bowling. As mentioned on Tori's journal we made idiots out of ourselves...got strikes when we screwed around and gutterballs when we tried.

Anyway my journals are boring, so meh!


-=Tori and Mike=- ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8528712/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8528712/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 06:59:53 PDT .<

Right now I'm supposed to be doing my report which is due tomorrow. Its also a prerequisite to the exam which I'm supposed to be taking tomorrow too... Lol I havent studied...I'm effed

On another note, I have $15,000 to spend on a new car on saturday...I cant think of what I want. I need to do so because I'm selling my old car and the rego is due on the 27th...I aint paying it

Anyway heres the tag thingie I'm supposed to do. Tagged by thanks mao mao

Rules: The 1st player (me) of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1. I listen to a wide variety of music, depends on my mood. Anything as long as its not country/RnB/HipHop/Rap crap. I do have a spot for soft music though.

2. I MUST have coffee in the morning, or I'll die.

3. I'm semi conscious about my appearence, I occassionally pull the mirror which is on my sun blockie thing in my car to check my hair. Haha...sue me.

4. I get hay fever lots...and I hate it!

5. I can get emo, only if you do something bad to me.

6. I'm a ninja?

I'm going to tag...

because I'm evil and want them to do this same thing I had to do.


-=Tori and Mike=-
-= Forever =- ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8381224/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8381224/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 06:12:38 PDT
A poem to my loved one.

To my forever love.
My every thought and dream is nothing but of you.
Many hours I spend a day, wishing for that day to come.
When you and I can live together.
Hand in hand, side by side, heart to heart.
As lovers, lifelong partners, forever with each other.
Forever in our gorgeous realm.
That day when we walk together down a path.
A path with a field of white and red tulips, beside a flowing blue stream.
Where we can watch the birds sing.
As they nest themselves in the field of vibrant colours.
A path where we can sit down together in each other’s embrace.
And to feel nothing but happiness.
I know that that day will come.
Because I need you.
I need you by my side in my life.
I want to hold you.
I want to kiss you.
I want to touch you.
And most of all, I want to love you.
With every last inch of my soul, until the day I breathe my last.

I love you Tori, and I won’t stop loving you. I dedicate this poem to you.
21 November 2005


I wanted to let you know that you mean everything to me. I don't ever want to lose you. ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8350187/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8350187/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 05:07:46 PDT
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Haha, my book failed to have page 18, let alone line 4.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
No thanks, I'll knock over my drink.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
I walked passed the room and saw channel 7 news.
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
I reckon I'm a good judge of time. 9:40pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
Haha 9:42pm.
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Outside my window, I hear crickets chirping...wait is it chirping? I dunno, do crickets chirp?
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Drove home from college, so I got home and funny enough, I was outside!
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My resume, looking for errors in it.
9. What are you wearing?
Boxer shorts with lipstick stamps all over it, and the shirt Tori gave me for my birthday, the Lightning Bolt one!
10. Did you dream last night?
No, but I had one when I had a nap at Tori's today. Funny thing is, I cant recall it lol. I had a bike in it somewhere.
11. When did you last laugh?
About 15 minutes ago, I saw this stupid picture on the internet.
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Posters, lots of them....millions of posters...There is no wall!
13. Seen anything weird lately?
I see weird things everyday, you tell me what's not weird.
14. What do you think of this quiz?
Annoying because I had to type this into my journal, using the [b] and [/b] command lots.
15. What is the last film you saw?
Me, Myself and Irene, I saw it with my Tori. Its funny.
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A place of my own, invite Tori into it, then get myself a car, and shower everyone with gifts. That would be good.
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I don't even know who started this quiz. And...I cant be bothered to.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Racial discrimination, seekers of war and people who torture animals/people. Things like that shouldnt exist.
19. Do you like to dance?
Does running around lots and being active dancing? Because I do tht lots.
20. George Bush:
And...?
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Great...ummm, I have no bloody idea.
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Again no idea, maybe when the time comes I'll tell you.
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?:
I have no freaking idea what that question means. I'll say yes.
24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?:
"This is heaven?"

I guess I gotta tag people...so...sucks to be the people I can think from the top of my head.


End of quiz

~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8338833/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8338833/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 23:19:03 PST
I'm upset, upset because everytime I try to talk to you about cheering you up or helping you, you throw it in my face. I wouldnt do a thing ever to hurt you on purpose, sure I might say stupid ridiculous things, but the matter of fact is that I still love you. All I ever want to do is help you back up when you fall. But it also drives me insane when you don't reply to me when Im trying to help you. Always...and in the end I end up hurting you. I hate that vicious cycle we go through.

I'll come over later, and we have to sit down and talk through this. I owe you an apology because I called you childish. I have a reason because I was angry. You didnt want to listen to me or respond to me, and it wore my patience down quickly. I typed without thinking, and I apologise if I have hurt you.

Youre not useless, if you were useless do you think you can come up with fantastic pieces of art? If you were useless do you think you can make me as happy as I am when I'm with you? Useless isnt a word to describe you Tori, because to me, you are my most precious possession. I want you and the world to know that you mean everything to me. If I lost you I would be nothing and my life would have no meaning. Thats why I fight for you, I fight to have you by my side, because that's where you belong, you belong in my arms and you deserve the upmost respect and love. I have that for you, but I keep screwing up.

All Im asking is for you to listen to me. Please, I want you to talk to me. About everything. I need you to trust me with everything you have, I know its a difficult ask but I need that.

I'll head over to your place later tonight, this'll give you some time to think. I love you, and I never will stop loving you.

Yours always
- Mikey ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8330682/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8330682/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 06:04:51 PST
To add to my broken mind, I have a broken body. My back gets worse and worse each day, my injured ankle still gives me grief sometimes, my neck is in pain, my eyes are always sore and half of the time, I'm restless. What is going on? ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8109198/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/8109198/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 04:25:28 PST
Rawr, recently turned 19 for those who care, and got my license. So that means I can drive to my mao mao whenever I like ! ^-^

Just a short entry,
Ciao now ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7482950/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7482950/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 20:24:29 PST
I dont need to type anymore here. ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7033572/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7033572/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:47:27 PST
You never really gave me a chance to explain myself to you. So here it is.

Even if I may seem like an asshole to you, even if I act cold to you, deep down I truly do love you. I do not do these things on purpose. This is me and who I am. I wish I wouldnt get so emotional. Its just I really dislike it when people don't tell me straight up. I know that you're annoyed with me because of the way I acted. Heck...I think everyone would be annoyed if I responded this way. I do not do it on purpose, I have my reasons when I do. But this does not justify me taking it out on you.

Here are the two words you told me to never to say to you, but I feel the need to tell you them, I need to say this so we can move on from this. I dunno why you would even put up with a screw up like me, it leaves me wondering sometimes. But, I want you to know that I love you too much to let anything get in my way from being with you. Even if its myself getting in my own way from being with you. So here it is, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting angry and taking it out on you. And I'm sorry for ruining such a perfect day we had together with my stupid emotions. Tori, I'm sorry...

Sometimes I wish there was a way I could vent all my negative emotions somewhere else. I want to be that guardian angel you aways deserved. I see in my own eyes, that in this world there are 2 types of people. There are the people who live their life looking for their guardian, then there are the people who are the guardians, ones who care more about the person they love more than themselves, ones that are willing to give up their own lives to protect this person truly cherish. I just wish I was stronger, strong enough for you to fall on, for you to cry on, for you to share everything with me. I wish I was more so you could be proud of me, because you Tori, I am so proud of. In the lowest of all pain and sorrow, I've seen you shine through, I could never do that myself.

I really don't know if my words are making sense, or that I'm too mentally torturing myself over this that I think these words make sense, I just want to let you know, that I love you with every bit of my heart, with every inch of my soul, love you more than life itself. I can't live in this cold world without you. You are the light in my darkness, the warmth in all this cold. I only exist to protect and to cherish you, even if you were to push me away, thats okay. Because if you are truly happy, then I'm happy for you, but even if you try to push me away, I will fight with everything I have to be with you.

Yours, and only ever yours.
Mikey. ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7033008/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7033008/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 05:58:05 PST

And and and, today I spent all day at Tori's and and I love her so much!! I wanna be with her forever and and I heart her lots and and and I miss her >< ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7023658/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7023658/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 02:07:49 PST
Why am I so useless? I can never do anything right... I wish...I just wish I could be more to people I love. Am I simply a toy? Something that can be manipulated and made to do this and that...?

Why is that that I am not wanted? What have I done to deserve something like this? Why is it even my whole family...is against me? I just dont know anymore... I really wish I was stronger...strong enough to shrug it off and to be that strong person for that someone I truly care about? Why does my own problems affect me so much that I simply cannot get rid of it, sure...I can hide it because I dont want people to worry, but why do they always seem to pick it up? I don't want anyone to worry about me...

I'm sorry world. I simply cannot be the person you want me to be, I am me, I am myself...accept it. I will not simply change to suit you.

Mum - I'm sorry I was a mistake to you, I'm sorry for not being the person you want me to be...

Dad - I'm sorry dad, I look up to you the most, but frankly I seem to be a failure to everyone...

Tori - My only light left in the world. The only person that cherishes me, the only one that seems to care about me, and the only one that will love me for who I am. Its undeniable that I am in love with you too. But why cant I be that person to protect you? Why am I such a failure that I cannot even seem to make you happy?

I don't know anymore, I don't know anything anymore. I've felt everything I need to ever feel. Love, hate, sadness, trust, lost, anger, regret and pity. Ive felt them all...Ive felt the love for someone I would die for, hate for someone I wish death upon, sadness of all aspects of life, trust from true friends who would put their life in my hands, lost for the ones I care about that are no longer of this world, anger for being myself and nothing more, regret for being unable to change anything, and pity for those who are far worse than I am.

I don't want any replies, I simply just want to put the words I can read later, and to simply reflect on my life. I dont want pity, I don't need kind words, all I need is space for me to work out who I am. ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7006754/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/7006754/ Thu, 10 Nov 2005 07:06:08 PST
*dances* Only 3 weeks until my summer holidays, woo woo!! And then I get to spend all of it with my Kitty Kat/Succubus!! My Tori!! *glomps*

Ooh I made new friends today, well not really but Ive seen them so many times coz I fight them at the arcard on Guilty Gear X. Tori-chan should know who Im talking about, its that psycho guy that I cant beat but still laugh about dude. I found out his name is Josh, and he goes to my friends Uni doing Psychology...I really think he is a pyscho >.> There was also 2 other dudes there, Tam who plays GGX too and some other guy which I cant recall his name but everyone laugh when he was fighting me.

But!! The highlight of the day was the phonecall to my Kitty Kat, and we spoke for most of my bus-trip home, and that I keep calling her cute xD Mwuahahah its true!! Tori is very cute!!

Then I got home and talked to Tori lots on msn too! Mwuahaha cant get enough of you hunnie! ^^

Oooohhh!! I get to see her tomorrow, and then I'll huggle her and kissu her lots xD NO IM NOT OBSESSED WITH HER! Just madly in love ^^

Anyway bedtime for me, Goodnite all, peace out A town...down...Yeah !! *sings Usher's song* ]]> ~Meji http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/6995890/ http://Meji.deviantart.com/journal/6995890/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 00:24:32 PST
Its just one of those days... ]]> ~Meji