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1. Is the idea that o help others you need to help yourself first. I mean think about it,
if more people in the world worried more about themselves and took care of themselves
and their problems, we'd have a lot less suicide I think, and probably more peaceful
happy people, speculation though, and this isn't to say be selfish necessarily, helping
others is good, but maybe start with yourself and being healthy first.

2. Next is to fix yourself, better yourself accordingly. don't ase your self help on what
others say, though, again that's not to say discard what other people say, just think
about it logically, for example: I am a chatty person. for as long as I can remember
was made to believe that this was a bad thing so, here are three things I could do in
response to this opinion, 1. I could say screw you and continue being as chatty as I'd
like, 2. I could just stop being chatty altogether, or 3. I could be chatty, but
polite, make sure to give others a chance to talk, but still be me, person who is very
talkative. I chose three. Being chatty is a part of me, it isn't a bad thing, but it
could be if I let it. so this is simply saying, better yourself by learning about
yourself, change yourself, sure but remain true to you, not others, though again to
make this very clear, others are a part of your life, so still take into account what
they say, just be careful not to let others' opinions rule your life.

3. Going off of that last step is the idea that you need to remain receptive to grow, but
again, REMAIN true to yourself. It's the idea that you need to remain firm in your
beliefs, opinions, and yourself, but be open to refining those beliefs and yourself so
a simpler way of saying number two but both are necessary I think.

4. this one's kind of a big deal to me, because I think I went into paganism looking for a
power of sorts, maybe over my life and other things in it, but really self help, or this
belief is learning to control you and yet at he same time let go and experience. The
power I got from all of this was over myself and I feel like a more powerful person
and yet humbled to, more appreciative of everything, more tolerant almost, it's
difficult to explain. It's a very balance feeling and yet the feeling that I will call
people on their bull shit.

5. This on is odd, but I think self help is also realizing how you fit into the world, it's
realizing that you may not be huge or recognized world wide, but you're here, and so to
a certain degree you are important. (tangent: everyone's equal, just different. some
people are more useful than others, but that doesn't make them any less needed for the
world)

6. This one's more for a spiritual person, but for me I had to realize that the Divine is
is a partner, not my ruler. I had to realize that I'm not the Divine's servant, rather
the Divine is my friend and guide. It's much like my tangent explained. We're equal,
just the Divine is MUCH more useful.Both are needed.

but those are my thoughts on it so far. Any comments, criticism, or contributions are welcome.

also! much credit goes to Kitty for chatting with me that one night and helping me figure a lot of these things out as well as the fact that some of these ideas were hers. so yeah! had to mention her greatness well and Jen too who sort of started me on this awesome path in the first place and Pike for basically talking this out with me as well and you know when I mean too. lol. so thanks guys.

<3

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/28279740/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/28279740/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 20:21:32 PST
It's like whenever I talk to a customer I have to e someone else. not me. I have to so careful about what I say or do because we wouldn't want the poor customer to be offended, or heaven forbid they should have to wait. Le gasp. when did customer service take over quality. I want quality back, not fucking customer service. I want people not robots and actors.

Customer service is a con game. It's just a way to get people to pay more for a crappy product.

mrr.

I didn't like working today. XP

But I swear I like it most of the time, no joke. It's a actually a good job.

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/28035209/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/28035209/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 18:52:05 PDT
I just think that I'm figuring some things out, or at least, I already figured them out but I'm meeting people who think the same

and at the same time, I don't know I'm meeting people who are completed close minded! and can only have faith in their set factual beliefs.

I have to admit that both fascinate me. I haven't been told my beliefs. I wasn't trained in them like many other religions. I've been trying to read up on a few different religions and/or beliefs, ideas about our cultures and societies too. and to find other people who think the same is so awesome to me. How else to explain it? What would you do if you came up with something completely new to you and you'd never heard it before to hear it come from books and other people's mouths, people you never really knew before? It's just odd! and lately I've been surprised a lot.

Today this regular of pirks coffee, where I work, came in and talked to me about what people like and religion. He said that he thinks that people can like anything. He said that a person who only likes potatoes and chicken and only eats that for his whole life is not as rich as the person who tries anything. Their life isn't as fullfilling.

Now on one level I agreed. I sort of understood what he was saying, but at the same time I thought of something a bit more specific and better.

see because he thinks that people should like everything and anything. and I disagree. I think we should try everything. There's a difference. I think that trying everything makes your life fullfilling, but you should have things you like.


I think I just told him that, life wouldn't be full filling if everyone liked everything. We wouldn't have different cultures. I think we should understand each other and participate in other cultures as well as try different foods and music and dancing, but as much as I try different things, there are things that I don't like. shrug. that's how it is. but idk. who really knows right?

but so we talked about religion. and I figured something out that I think, now mind you I don't know anything just like everyone else.I don't care what religion you're from, you still know as much as I do. and I think that religions are simply different ways of believing in the same god. do I have proof anyone might ask. hell no. why because there is none. bible? quran?(speling? someone help me out) torah? what do they all have in common, people told them that they were somehow god's word. PEOPLE. I don't know anything. I feel and I do. I try to help people with what i've got, and i live my life. I enjoy it but I do my best to not trample on others to get there.

but another point on religion. I think that religion should have faith but room for human error. Humans have told us what we know about god, and years ago. but even so, say God talked to you, how do you know it's really him? You can just feel it? that's not good enough for me. maybe it is God, but you still have to be careful with what you're told.

also how many different versions are there of the bible? does anyone actually know? I don't I just know there's a lot of different versions. Why put so much faith in something that is so unstable? but I don't know enough about the torah or the quran either so possibly they have that same flaw and possibly they don't. I'm not saying just write them all off, they each still have something to say, but to put all of our faith and trust, and to base our rules and MORALS off of them? that doesn't strike anyone as odd? we can learn from them, but we should use our GOD given intelligence. we should actually think about what we're following so closely just because we're told to. We should be rational and emotional in our thinking. we shouldn't just follow blindly and I really hope I have not offended anyone because I am not saying that people who follow any of these religions do just that, many people study a religion thoroughly before committing to it, and I am not at all saying religion is bad, I just think that using common sense with it is wise. don't just do what you're told. Religion is being told what to do. Having a relationship with God, spirituality, those are figuring things out yourself, thinking, feeling, using what's already there, and throwing yourself into the mix as well.

Ah religion, the debates that I hope to start! I seriously love hearing about other people's religions though, whether they follow God or a religion, I find it fascinating!

hmm, this seems long. I want to talk about american culture too, but maybe a different time. or if someone else wants to start something along those lines in the comments I beg you to do so! I'm curious person and greedy for knowledge, i... ]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/27585298/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/27585298/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 18:43:27 PDT
Besides, I don't think I want to put one more rant up you know?

It seems like there are enough problems in the world. People have enough problems of their own to deal with without having other people's shit dumped on them too. I can just picture this tiny girl staggering under the weight of all her books only to have a few sadfaced people walk by and add a couple more books to the pile.

Sympathy is an interesting thing isn't it? I don't mind giving a little away. A little here a little there, but to give so much away. It is tiring. It doesn't always feel like giving then, it feels more like it's being taken.

I complain a lot, but you know I try to laugh about it. It doesn't really matter in the scheme of things anyway right? plus you need unhappiness to be happy. Ha. Try telling that to the unhappy person.

I have a very easy life though. I made it that way. I refuse to work away a life that already seems so unimportant. Wouldn't working notstop, killing myself over it, be pointless? to me. but some people like work.

I like work. I like my job, even though I hate it. It's something to do sometimes and it makes not working so much better.

I bring a lot of my problems on myself too. Much like anyone. maybe worse. . . . probably worse. XP I forget to wear my brace at work and then half to bite my tongue when I want to say owe. It's kind of funny, no?

I avoid problems. I avoid confrontation, and yet, Jen and Pike have helped me to be constructive about it. It doesn't work with anyone but them I've noticed. T-T I avoid confrontation. but I've only tried on a tiny few people. so I shouldn't generalize that, but will keep it up all the same.

Is this long? I can't tell. Should I put this up? What would Jen do? she'd probably point out all of the silliness in this rant, so I'll put it up. The only way to find out what I'm saying.

do you ever think about thinking? I try to. I try to think about how I think about a situation and what I'm aiming for is this, In every situation I try to think about what I could have done better, but why something happened the way it did. Example: I'm pissed, I say something mean or not true back to said person who pissed me off, I can always find out why maybe I blew the situation out of proportions, but at the same time, something still ticked me off, there was a reason for my getting angry. I didn't just magically decide to be pissed.. . well maybe sometimes, but my point is that it's that never ending thing called a balance. It's always two people.

I try to think like that. key word there anyone, try.

I never feel like I'm doing good enough. Not for me and not for anyone else. Now I swear to god if anyone jumps on that in an oh gee pam that's terrible I might have to hit them. I don't mean it in a sad way or anything. It's just how it is. It's that sort of being tugged in both directions scenario. again lol.

I overthink things.

Is it fair to treat others exactly as they treat you?

I should answer no. I should but I can't say that I'd follow my own answer. Does that make me a terrible person? Better do I care anymore? I don't hurt anyone and I do my best to love them. I love my friends and family for who they are. I have favorites, people I talk to most, people I trust the most, but is that so bad? I don't go out of my way to hurt people. I try to be friendly if not polite at least, and I try to enjoy what comes my way, I'm trying to make the most of everything. And I'd like to mark that down as a success so far, not like I'm happy all the time, just a lot of the time.

But god knows I'm far from perfect. I complain ALL the time. Trying to stop. I think for once I'm actually getting somewhere too. but just being a live means you trample on others. You'll never be able to make everyone happy, the most you can do is your best right? (cough cheezy) WHO SAID THAT? >

well that's it, hope someone read it. hope you weren't all bored to tears. God wouldn't that suck? A comment like "You suck, god just shut up and never put a rant up again" I be all like T-T. kay.

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/26399821/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/26399821/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 10:44:58 PDT it makes me happy inside.

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/26336395/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/26336395/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 11:40:03 PDT
1. when people talk too much and don't let the other person talk
2. When people don't actually listen to what your saying, they're just waiting to say what
they want to say.
3. When my brother says shit about me or my sister to my parents and they just let him.
4. my brother is actually just a pet peeve of mine.
5. when I get reprimanded for doing something, but someone else gets away with it and not
only that, but simply gets to do it, no strings attached, everyone is just perfectly fine
with it.
6. when someone talks down to me, condescendingly
7. When someone tells me that I'm too fucking young to have knee pains. >
8. When older people think that they know everything, or that they are somehow ridiculously
smart, simply because they've had experience, so in other words they think they're
smarter because they're older and in reality experience isn't enough.
9. When someone tells me that they KNOW something about me even though they've met me maybe
twice. >
10. when people think that everyone is the same, or when people stereotype basically.
11. and last but not least, in fact probably one of my biggest ones, is when people go to
extremes all too often. BALANCE!!! when people don't realize that almost everything in
life should balance. take our culture for instance. just think about it. It always has
to be extreme!!! >:d
let me warn everyone, don't read the rest! trust me, it's ranty, has no flow, and there's a lot! don't do it! I'm just ranting!!! I swear you don't want to waste your time!!!!! so please just turn back now!

okay and today my last but not least wonderful bit of info, I was upstairs today in my room, right next to my brother's room where my parents were cleaning his room, yes his room, you heard right, and all I heard was him bitching at my parents and making them do everything, and not only that but a few times he made nasty comments about me and madeline, with me in the next room ,both doors open, and my parents said nothing. NOTHING! he was a complete asshole and they didn't say a word. > I really felt like telling them exactly who I've become right there. I just wanted to well, hem, say something that I shouldn't, and whip out a wiccan book and be all like hey guess what your little girl is into, that's right wiccan and paganism and guess what they're not nearly as bad as, gee, go figure, the catholic church and other religions made them out to be, inface they're actually really cool! they think that people need to be selfish and selfless. Again with balance. wow, weird, finally I found something like that but I like it for a bunch of reasons and am definitely thinking of going into it. I believe every religion is right at least to some degree but I like this one best for now, and I'd tell them I love smoking cigars! Yeah that's right they're tasty! and then I'd tell them a whole bunch of other things that they don't want to know and be like, and you know what, I think I'm doing just fine with my life. I'm actually happy with who I'm becoming for once! Never before! but now I actually like where I am. I have a fantastic boyfriend, I dress the way I want to, and I actually am openminded to other religions. I like how my life is going. I've also actually grown a spine. I actually stick up for myself and say what I need to, what I feel, and what's on my mind.

and the last thing I want to complain about is that they think I'm not a very good daughter because I'm not home all of the time or something like that, and you know what, why would I want to be for one, my brother's a dick and they do nothing about it and they all talk about me behind my back as if we're still little kiddies in highschool! so there's that and then are you kidding me! I don't do anything wrong. I don't hurt people, I don't go out of my way to be mean infact I pride myself on trying to be nice to everyone, unless they truly warrant my disfavor (XP) I do my best to make presents for my friend and I like doing favors for people that I don't know, or may never meet. I like leaving large tips when I can and I don't know. I'd like to think that I'm not a bad person. I may not be perfect, but I've kind of accepted that. I'll never be perfect and I think that there's always room to grow, but I'm still doing my best and I think i'm doing ok. so there! XP kay.

I know this is all ranty and I know people are going to say things, and that's good because I know there's a t... ]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/24699492/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/24699492/ Mon, 11 May 2009 08:17:38 PDT was amazing. there's a lot more, but if anyone actually wants the details, you know where to find me.

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I think that alot of people think that I WANT to go to college and become a sign language interpreter. That's what they think I WANT to do with my life.

Yes I think signing is fun, but it's not as if it's my life long goal. I picked it because its interesting enough and because I have to have a job to feed myself. that's it. to me that is a very small part of my life. SMALL

I want to read, write, sing, learn how to dance and cook, draw, work on my anything book

I want to make presents for people everyday, all the time!

I want to be able to drive so I can go and work in a homeless shelter, or give food to people who can't feed themselves

I want to have one day out of the week where i can basically be alone. not have someone come in and out of the room, not have to think of small talk to say to people throughout the day, when I just want to be alone.

I want to have time to actually think about things.

I want to wake up every morning and see grass and trees surrounding me

I want to have to travel miles before I reach a paved road

I want to wake up next to Pike everyday and have sun streaming through a big window, or it would be raining and I would just snuggle him closer because I wouldn't want to get out of bed.

I want to dress however I want to dress and not have to worry that my parents will say something

I want to have kids and I want to teach them that they don't have to do what everyone else wants. I want to teach them that there are a lot of religions out there, but the thing to remember is that there is a God. He is there. And to trust in him, never in religions or the fickle minds of people. To trust in their own heart and God. I want to teach my kid that yeah, there's a lot of bad in the world but that they can be the good. I want to teach them to be smart, not narrow minded. I want to teach them to be tolerant of other people and their cultures and religions even if they seem strange to us. I want to teach them to take care of themselves and to love and to have friends and to have fun and to do what they want. to do what they're passionate about.

I want to travel.

I want to be a better friend

I want to be a better listener to my friends and tell them more often how much I love them and how much they've given me in life.

I want to not listen to morons who tell me that I barely have anything going on in my life, or that basically i can't have pain like older people can, I want to not listen to condescending old farts.

I want to be stronger. mentally and physically. I want to be able to take a lot of shit.

I want to never talk down to someone. NEVER. Even if they are a moron.

I want to be better about not calling people names.

I want to take singing lessons.

I want a lot things. T-T

I hope you didn't read through all of that. I could keep going but I am going to stop. I think that I wanted this as more of a warning to people too. Don't listen to everybody else! Do what you want, but be smart. I mean obviously if you say hey i'm GOING to be a famous writer, chances are slim that it will happen, BUT still try all the same and have a back up plan, don't let anyone tell you that you can't. I'm just so annoyed that I ended up where I am because of my parents. I wanted to do so many things. I want to take singing lessons at Inver Hills but my mom said, oh you don't want to do that take something else. so I did. Or even in highschool, you should be in sports I played volleyball and wanted to kill myself. My teammates hated me because I sucked and all that came from that stupid team sport was me getting picked on throughout the ninth grade. I should have done all of these things I wanted to, but I didn't. I didn't go for it. PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS AT LEAST DO WHAT YOU WANT. even if it seems impossible. Be smart, but still do what you want. don't let people tell you you can't or that you shouldn't. don't let them tell you that you aren't able.

I'm still trying to do what I want and at least I'm getting there compared to where I used to be, but still. I could be so much more of who I want to be if I hadn't let my parents and others stand in my way.

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/23429126/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/23429126/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:53:48 PST dorks.
Okay, so first my thank you goes to Neal! Seriously, you helped me out so much, first with your spiffy email, and then second with your whole I'm going to go out of my way to go to target to buy Pam thirteen spiffy items, and then I'm going to go even more out of my way to drop them off at her work for her, even though her work is closing early that day, so he had to go out of his way EVEN MORE!!!!
so for that my friend, I really thank you! It completely cheered me up! I couldn't even be annoyed with my dad after that!
Second goes to my boyfriend who has been hanging out with me this entire time, trying to cheer me up, and get me to have fun. Lately that was the only time I was enjoying myself. Well, if that wasn't enough, he decides to give me an hour long backrub! > angry face only not. T-T it felt so nice. This was the same day that Neal came into pirks, and my back had been hurting. So both of those things have now completely cheered me up, and kept me cheered up now!!! ^ ^
and last but not least, this thank you goes to Jen. Thank you for the book you made me a while ago, it cheered me up one of those nights as well, thank you for listening to me rant, even though I had nothing to rant about. lol. Thank you for calling me and chatting with me. Thank you for being you. Thank you for all of those times you've stayed up with me to listen to me rant or to help me solve a problem. Truly, you keep saying that you don't help much, but infact, you help more than you know. (uber cheezy) but you really do. I just love being around you.

To all three of you I am eternally grateful for your friendship and for the simple fact that you all cheered me up!!!

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/23224314/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/23224314/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 20:54:14 PST
I basically got to hang out alone (hem) with pike all day and twas amazing!!! so much fun!


that guy is the most thoughtful cute, kind sweet, nice, fun, epic, person I know!!

he's always going out of his way to do things for me.

like if he thinks I'm sad he'll pause whatever he's doing just to cuddle me and make sure I'm alright.

or he'll text me more to cheer me up

or he'll come over to my house and take all the awkwardness just to hang out with me

or he'll bring me my favorite chocolates at work

or he'll buy me 75 dollar tickets to a Celtic Woman concert

or he'll buy me a gorgeous ring

or T-T

damn he's amazing
why did he pick me?

kay
so yeah no body kill me. I'm just wondering when the love potion is going to wear off and i won't get to keep him. T-T


Gosh I love that kid.

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Pike and I were hanging out the other day, just doing the usual cuddling and stuff. and I think we were actually watching a movie. Well either way I wasn't wearing any socks or anything, and he loves my feet for some silly reason. He thinks they're cute cause they're little, whatever. not the point, but so he starts to like play with them almost? (insert dirty jokes here and get it over with) I dunno he just touched them for a second and was all like "oh mah gosh your feet are cold!"

and I shrugged because I hate having anything on my feet so I get used to them being cold. It doesn't even bother me. but he was like, "no , you really should wear my slippers."

"No thanks. I don't need them." I said back smiling knowing where this was headed.

He kind of gave me this look and was like, "I will fight you!"

I just laughed and shook my head again and next thing you know I'm curling in a ball to protect myself from slippers.

he had me pinned pretty easily though. he just pulled me out of my ball then sat on my stomach and proceeded to put slippers on my feet. so funny. I was laughing the entire time and then I laughed harder because I threw the other slipper all the way across the room.

When he turned around he looked so confused cause it wasn't there and I laughed harder and kicked the slipper that was already on off in another directiong.

He sighed all angrily then stood up, me still between his legs (insert another dirty joke here and get it over with) and he scooped up my legs and dragged me over to the first slipper and then the second one, and this time he held onto the slippers and made sure that my legs were flat and unmoving this time.

I was laughing so hard at this point though that I just gave up. It was so funny!

okay so that's it. It was fun and hilarious! ttyl!

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/20633298/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/20633298/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 10:20:00 PDT
so this past saturday he decided to surprise me

he took me to his house and when we went down into his basement, as usual, he had candles lit everywhere, the moonlit sinata was playing, he had my favoritie flowers in the corner with my favorite chocalates surrounding it and he wrote a fantastic poem for me which I have every intention of putting up for the world to see, but yeah.

also we went to the Renaissance Festival and he paid for me to go to this spiffy tea/lunch thing. It was about 15 dollars a person

and we rode an elephant together pretty much because I wanted to/

also he comes into the coffee shop to visit me a lot. just because I love it and well he says because he wants to see me. lol

but so yeah

also I have this amazing friend. her name is peanut, kay
yeah I know weird name right?
but she's awesome.
she talks to me a lot and is always complimentin me and stuff
and she's just effing adorable.

but yeah I've been talking to the spiffiness that is Peanut a lot lately so I thought she should get some credit for my happiness

plus I just saw Kitty! HOORAY!!!

life could not get better.

wait is it just going to get worse?

crap

that's the price you pay for having such awesome friends and stuff. gosh.

]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/20134260/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/20134260/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 16:37:33 PDT I'm in love with my boyfriends
completely and totally
let's see I'm going to miss my friends cause they is all leaving for college
I has a friend named peanut
I just showed my boyfriend this book I made which I call my anything book. it's basically like a diary only I put pictures, fabric, bells, poetry, stories and such in it. acutally I have even made a page where if you tip the book upside down, leaves hang off of it, along with an angel figurine. so yeah spiffy
I want to show him my treasure box which basically has a ton of spiffy gifts and notes that all of my friends have given me. I love it
so just recently I have found that I absolutely love reading,writing,working on my book, and other things by myself, to be balanced with hanging out with people.
I completely realized that I am addicted to my friends.
now this is a good and bad thing.
see I love my friends, but because of my addiction I don't ever set any time aside for me. which is bad. I tend to get sadfaced when I don't do that, so now I am balancing it!!!
it's wonderful and bliss
I love it.
I also love wearing a sweatshirt when it's just barely cold outside. just enough. I LOVE IT!
mmkay. that's it. ttyl

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]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/17794725/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/17794725/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 12:05:02 PDT then there's the whole sleep thing. . .*whistles innocently* woot for 8 hours of sleep! yeah so I'm pretty sure that my body doesn't know if it's had enough sleep or not either, because I keep feeling sleepy and then fine. Ah!
plus I'm sure that those two things combined didn't help my immunes system resist getting a cold! yeah, I got a cold too. but it's practically gone now, so not a horrible cold. lol, but so yeah, bad side effects of anime detour
also I keep wanting to hug people, and I keep expecting hugs. oops. ah well, what's wrong with a little hugging?

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]]> ~Mela18 http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/17605292/ http://Mela18.deviantart.com/journal/17605292/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:15:05 PDT second my friends from every where. lets see this group we have Dan, who is just a really great guy, who's funny, easy going, crazy smart, then there's his adorable sister Jen. She is so funny. I don't always know whether to think of her as cute or sexy. both? okay then there's Dan's girlfriend who is funny and sweet and cute.
okay so now for best friends, oh wait, Dan is kind of one of my best friends. best guy friend. definitely. I mean that guy is awesome. He always helps me out when I ask for it. I mean he gives me rides everywhere and doesn't complain. seriously great guy.
but so yeah, best girl friends. Kitty, Sarah, and Navi. amazing girls.
Kitty is the most adorable person u will ever meet! not joking, not exaggerating. plus she's just very nice, respectful of everyone. She has this awesome laugh too, and this cute smile!
Sarah, oh mah goodnes. that girl will help almost anyone, even if that person has been a jerk to her, she will still help them, and she has this smile that is just beautiful. It's this kind of shy smile. a real smile.
Now Navi. Wow. Let's see she's like a fairtale character. I mean she's gorgeous, mysterious(kind of secretive without being mean about it.), and sweet. hmm. I kind of described a piece of candy, except for the mysterious part I guess. funny. but she's also very wise in this how in the heck can u be so young and wise kind of way. it would be creepy, but it's just too awesome.
okay so there are some general awesomeness about my friends. I would tell u about all of them, but that would take too long and I have to go. plus if I described them all in actual detal well. . .that could take days. lol.

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