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Training starts next week.

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I have to have a portfolio for my admission to Webster University ... help me out by picking out your favs of what I have uploaded on here ... I know I'll use the eiffel tower one and the "i'd rather eat paint" ... but what else?!

Haha, I'm really not sure what this portfolio entails though either ... if i need them to be in slide format, i'm screwed!

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/24975904/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/24975904/ Wed, 27 May 2009 09:01:44 PDT
actually i know the reason ... im not happy with my life at the moment ...

I feel stuck in my job, and I don't want to be stuck here at all. I can't find a job within my degree, which I kinda knew would happen ... guess I kinda lied to myself lol

BUT I'm going to school for Photography - maybe (big maybe) add education in and become an art teacher ... we'll see how that goes ... so I've been doing all the app stuff the past two days ... we'll see what happens I guess!

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Now to graduation ... April 28

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i really miss photography class and getting to develop my pics and film

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/23639738/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/23639738/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 08:43:44 PDT trinitymaster3 no seems to notice my work ... but i love it here and i have so many fond memories here ... the art side is definitely different than the poetry, but then again, im sure there's clubs/groups on here for photographers and what not just like there were for poetry, but i remember with the poetry it was all about the contests and i don't have time to partake in those ... also i have to say, aside from the deviants i watch i don't really comment on other peoples stuff, but since ive switched to just doing art, the people i comment on don't seem to feel it necessary to take a look at myside as a common courtesy ... so for me, it's kinda like "what's the point?" ya know??

im not leaving, and i doubt i ever will ... im just frustrated, id like critique because that's what helps me get better ... it worked well when i wrote poetry and i know it will work well with my photography ... *sigh*

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/20527811/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/20527811/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 19:15:44 PDT
Aside from that news, after talking it over with my fiance - only 2 months til i can call him my hubby <3 - I think that after I finish the school year here at MoBap - it's my senior year and I'll have finished my degree, might as well stick it out - I'm going to go to school for Photography. I'm thinking of going to Webster since I can't really go anywhere outta state or too far away since we have no funds to move - it's going to be tight after we get married as is - but Webster has a pretty good program, and they aren't that far of a drive so I wouldn't have to live on campus.

You guys have seen my work - what do you think ... do I have the stuff to make this degree work?!



~*-_-*~60 days till I'm Mrs. Taylor.~*-_-*~

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/19272630/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/19272630/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 11:44:16 PDT Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday deeeaaarrr me
Happy birthday to me!

So my 21 b-day was sunday ... nothing to spectaular ... mainly church stuff all day, but I've found that the older I get the more my bdays don't turn out the way I expect. Really the last good one was my 17th bday when it was a surprise party - after that, well I guess I never really expected anything, but that was the last one where i got a party, prez, etc ... but i guess the main thing is each year since ive been able to spend it with the people i love and wanted to spend it with the most - except last year .... that was a pretty awful bday but yea ... lol it's kinda weird that that was only a year ago and that now i'm getting married in 4 months ... God is Good

So I'm also back home from Mission Trip. IT was probably one of the best trips I've ever been on I totally saw God working in our group the entire week - and just the way he provided for us throughout the week - simply amazing!

But I've got a ton of pics from it that I'll try and upload ... lots of buildings and architecture ... we were in DC for a day and in Downtown Baltimore for another ... ill have to look and see if my documenting pics of the week of the kids are artsy enough if so you'll see some people shots too

Hope every one had a wonderful and safe fourth! Much love to you all!

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/18958846/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/18958846/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 22:58:07 PDT
some news ... big news ... I'm getting married - Nov. 15

totally stoked - kinda stressed over stupid things that parents are nagging about *rolls eyes* of course! LoL

he proposed on may 23 ... this is how it all went down ... brace yourself haha

Josh got his youth group together - to trick me into thinking we were doing a scavenger hunt when all along they were distracting me for the afternoon while he got ready at the park. So I'm driving my team along - while Josh and his team were at the park - trying to beat them at this scavenger hunt. Well the last clue led us to the park, to the bridge by the pond - where Josh was waiting - and the kids had said to me "Colleen you go get the final thing since you didn't get to get any of the other clues" *sneaky kids lol* and so I was like, ok and took off running from my car. I saw Josh on the bridge and I thought "dangit they beat us here ... ahh he's still looking, I have a chance" so i ran onto the bridge and ran past him. And he goes "i don't think it's on the bridge. Maybe it's on the bench" and he walks over to it and bends down. So I follow him, suspisciously and he's like "I can't see under there, can you?" I kinda look, don't see anything, get even more suspiscious and at this moment i think "i bet he has whatever it is in his pocket and is going to just push me down and run" - HAHA - so i took off running to the other side of the bridge. Well he ran after me and grabbed my arm and pulled me around, got down on one knee *i'm beginning to freak out*, pulls out the ring and says "Will you marry me?" and I dropped my keys and phone - cause they were in my hands - and i was like "are you serious?! are you serious?!" while hyperventilating. As soon as he got up i lunged at him to hug him and give him a kiss - then i realized i never actually said yes, so i pulled away and said "yes, of course!" ... the kids had all been hiding out waiting, and as soon as they saw us hug, started cheering for us.

It definitely was exactly the kind of proposal i was hoping for - a very memorable one

so yea - good stuff man

oh and ignore the mood - it's not letting me change it for whatever reason lol

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/18402506/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/18402506/ Mon, 19 May 2008 16:31:56 PDT
so i added some new photos - been adding, not that anyone comments them ... but then again it's not like i go looking through others galleries unless they look at mine - i just don't have the time to spend like that anymore ... which sucks cuz there's a lot of amazing talent out there ... and some not so - and i hate sifting through the not so haha

of course i guess some people probably consider me in the latter category *shrug* i enjoy what i do and that's all that matters ...

i just would like critique really ... good and bad

but no matter, i will continue to upload as long as i have things to upload ... if they get seen, they get seen, if not then they dont oh well ...

.......

other than that, life is ok ... i guess ... in summer classes right now - which i skipped tonight *shrug* it's been a pretty sucky day though and i just wouldn't of been able to handle that teacher ... lol

the boy is great, i love him more and more each day ... the deacons vote on whether they're keeping him or not tonight ... it's looking great ... and there's a chance he might get a housing stipend included in full time pay - which means they'll give him a house to live in as part of his budgeted salary ...

i miss my friends though, i really don't get to see them much anymore *sigh* sometimes i hate growing up ....

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have i stifled my inner voice that much that it won't speak up any longer??

i just want to lay in bed and cry ... i feel like i've brought this upon myself so i have no reason to be like this ... and i have no one to talk to about this b/c id upset those i should be able to talk to ... i just want someone to completely spill my guts too ... to talk and let it all out without being judge, just someone who will listen ... i don't necessarily need advice, just an ear *sigh*

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In other news, I have gotten the top to duplicate bellatrix's outfit ... now i just need a skirt and some of those arm sleevy things lol ... i dunno what they're called ... I can find those pretty much anywhere, it's getting a skirt like that that's going to be difficult ...

i hope you all are well! sorry i've been slacking here!

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Take care all and be safe in whatever you'll be doing!

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/13384326/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/13384326/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:18:53 PDT One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away

After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God let me walk through this place

And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Here and I am at the end of me (at the end of me)
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise there will be a dawn"

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12656371/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12656371/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:00:21 PDT Though how strongly my soul longs for you.
I am ashamed through my own discord
I am ashamed of my own selfish desires.
They fuel me to run from you
To scream and yell at you.
Why, oh why does my heart deceive me so?
My enemies have power over me
They and my heart plot against me.
Lord save me from myself!

"Playing my heart so many times
There's always a weak hand holding mine
Saying the way that I have said "this is the way"
Every scene is still the same
Just with a difference faceless name
Falling and breaking, cleaning I am holding on so

This is where my heart is longs to be
Hurting you, needing you
This is where I always want to be
Suffering

Every night you come to see
Beautiful faces playing me
And the fallen lives and crimson walls
Reflect my lines
Breaking through thoughts and mindless games
Your love is a whisper coming clean
And behind the curtains I can see you're not impressed with me

Can you take everything that I hold
Will you wash away just what the past is?"
~Falling Up "Places"

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12289243/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12289243/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 20:02:42 PDT Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need

Explore the cave that is my chest
A torch reveals there's nothing left
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out "someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back

I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you

Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need

When my hopes seem to dangle
Somewhere just beyond my reach
You say you've heard my prayers
And read my words there on the beach

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need."

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12237717/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/12237717/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 19:58:30 PDT
Boston was fun, a little colder than I would've liked, but i left before the snow hit ...

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Hope everyone has a good week ... I'm praying for warm weather man!

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11986512/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11986512/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 11:41:49 PST
*emphasized things added except "preoccupied with getting .. God's giving" that was already emphasized!

I love that last part "You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met", or as my version states "but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs" (NLT). That's where I first saw that verse was during my "Read the Bible in a Year" time, it really stuck out to me ... hit me hard. I sit here day after day thinking I know what I need, desiring all that I want, but not focusing on God and what God wants and desires for me. He knows my needs, He's taking care of my needs as we speak. I may not see it right away, but in the long run, I can look back and I will see that all along He had my needs taken care of. He's prepared the way for me, now He's just waiting for me to get my act together and focus. I'm not going to lie, I probably will still have those desires in my heart, those needs deep inside, but if I can just turn to Jesus and keep my focus on His will, His path, then those desires of mine will slowly become like God's desires for me.

Isn't it amazing how much God cares for you ... there's that unconditional love again!

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11778699/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11778699/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 20:15:34 PST
"Here I am again by myself in this room
And I stare at the ceiling like the others
The door closed, the light out, the window open
The blinds shudder from the cold
Empty walls are all staring at me
While the faces in their frames look away
The rain kisses the screen and then shatters and falls
And there’s something familiar about that
I can’t get away from myself
And I’m wondering where you are now

Seems like everyone else has the someone they need
And there’s an odd number of people like me
But this can’t be because I believe in something better than love

Here I am again by myself in this room
There’s no other place I can surface
My insides want out while the outside wants in
And the mirror is my window to the world
Pictures of dreams are the words
That I finally found tonight
If I could show them to you
Would you recognize the scene?

I know that I may be lonely
But am I ever alone?

Seems like everyone else has the someone they need
And there’s an odd number of people like me
But this can’t be because I believe in something better than love

Every part of me feels it tonight
Alone to the tips of my fingers
But it all goes away when the sun comes up
So you’ll never see this ..."

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i dislike boys ... they make life complicated

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11020496/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/11020496/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 17:43:07 PST
For people who can't email me, feel free to send me a message at one of my contactable places, but know I may not answer speedily ...

My email is:: pengns4me@yahoo.com

my contactable places are::
facebook.com
myspace.com
and xanga.com

don't freak out at me if you choose one of those three and I don't answer right away, like I said, I will not be checking them daily.

This goes for text messages as well. If you want to contact me via phone, then call me! if you don't have my number, email me about it and i'll give it to ya!

I know I have some friends going through some tough times right now and they need to talk and they may not normally call me, but take this opportunity to call me!

Be praying for me through this fast to 1) stick with it and 2) be strong in whatever thing I choose

If i feel like there's just something friggin' sweet awesome amazing to tell you guys, I'll post, otherwise don't expect one till after Jan. 1.

I love you guys, take care through the holidays and hopefully this will make some people contact me and hang out with me instead of just chatting back and forth on here! *i mean that in a good way too!*

"Deliver me out of the sadness
Deliver me from all the madness
Deliver me courage to guide me
Deliver me Your strength inside me

All of my life
I've been in hiding
Wishing there was someone just like You
Now that You're here
Now that I've found You
I know that You're the One to pull me through

Deliver me loving and caring
Deliver me giving and sharing
Deliver me this cross that I'm bearing
Oh, deliver me

Jesus, Jesus how I trust You
How I've proved You o'er and o'er
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus

Deliver me
Come and pull me through
Come pull me through"
~David Crowder Band "Deliver Me"

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im actually uploading stuff ... so go check it out ... i'm not getting any comments or anything, which means my 20 or so watchers aren't doing their job

so get to it!



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**EDIT**

it hit me as i was uploading old pics ... so behold the new ID!

**END EDIT**

]]> ~Melliegurl2005-Art http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/10302523/ http://Melliegurl2005-Art.deviantart.com/journal/10302523/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 10:20:06 PDT
I'm going to spend time updating here and doing more artistic (not writing) things because that's what i like to do and i never get inspiration to really write anymore *sad i know* ... so be watching here as i bring this back to life!

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