http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Metalhead118&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Metalhead118 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 05:02:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/28366286/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/28366286/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 02:33:53 PST
Ahem, anyways, if you have noticed, I have deleted many of my "self portraits" (If you can call those monstrosities that, i guess). I chose to do this because, to be frank, I was being a camwhore. To be even more frank, the only reason i did those was with the faint hope that maybe, just maybe, i could get laid with a chick I was with at the time(welcome to the mind of a hormone raging 16 year old).

Yes it was stupid and pointless, to say the least.

I've come to the conclusion that those types of photos do not belong on an art website, but on MySpace, Facebook, etc. Since I have recently upgraded my DA account (I just have to wait 5-15 days), those photos have been smitten to the deepest depths of Oblivion, to never see the light of day again. Besides, I did you all a favor by saving your eyes from the eternal pain from which you get when you see my UGLINESS!!! MUHAHAHA!!!

To be clear, I do not look down upon those who do do this. It works for them, great. It doesn't work for me. I hope i don't get a zillion comments saying I'm a heartless bastard for dissing people who take self portraits, because that ain't me. Take some valium and sleep it off. Because life is too short to be a bitch :]

Another point: Do not ask me who this chick is. She knows who she is and if she doesn't, well, she's a fucking oblivious idiot XD

So, with that settled, i need to go fap to some porn. Because knows I don't get any pussy XD

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/27904934/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/27904934/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 12:14:58 PDT
Well, it's only two people now. ME and DJ Sourz are pretty much the only members left, due to our bassist, Steve-O, moving to NC and Lil Man leaving the project due to personal conflicts and thinking he doesn't belong in the band. I told him bands have had rappers/DJs in their band since the early 90's, but he still felt like he didn't belong. Which sucks, because he's a fucking prodigy. Good news though, he still wants to help us, which is the best he thinks he can do.

But, we do have a name: QuickSend. We also have three songs completed (sort of):

-Thousand Yard Stare
-Vein
-Junkie Re-Up

Expect us to be kicking you in the head by next year. That's when we predict we're gonna start touring by ourselves and bring the coming end of the world.

In other news, I'm still single. So, ladies....just kidding XD. I plan to be single for a while, so I'm so very sorry to all of you XD.

I do have dreads! I got them done a little while ago, so if i get a camera, i might put pictures up. Who knows. lol

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/25653808/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/25653808/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 14:37:35 PDT
- I'm learning Martial Arts from my house mates! It's fun as hell and it's very relaxing, soothing, and replenishes the soul.

- I moved out on my own with my bro's DJ Sourz and Guitar God Jason. It's been hectic these past few days and I'm still not completely moved out. Hopefully by the end of this week I'll be totally moved out.

- Learning how to play guitar better. i've been in one hell of a rut lately so I decided to actually get lessons from Jason. He has the patience of fucking Job.

Hope everyone is doing fine on this rainy summer day. I'll probably get baked later so I can blow off some steam and have some well deserved R&R.

Cheers and one love!

Metal

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/25229598/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/25229598/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 05:06:13 PDT
- Waiting for my homies from MHS to start summer vacation, so check em out in the mean time.

- Yes, I know I have been slacking in the writing department, but hopefully I'll get all the shit figured out and get out of this writer's block.

- New lyrics up for any of you that want to check em out.

Now down to the nitty gritty.

I have to tell ya, it's fun screwing with people. Especially the ones that are so easy to get to that it's like putty in your hands: They're so damn malleable! Not to confuse any of you, but I do not like doing this. It's fun, but it wastes my time, but on this occasion, it was worth it. Cause this guy is a "few fries short of a Happy Meal" if you get my drift. Besides, this "L33t HaX0r"(Translation: Total Fucking Half-Wit)has been on my shit list for awhile, so hopefully this will give some closure to the beef between us.

I'm not going to mention his name, because that would be somewhat cruel. Though you may wounder why I even care, this person does not deserve that that kind of mindless cruelty. Though he might deserve his face being made a permanent addition to the sidewalk, but violence is not really my cup of tea.

You know, sometimes, when you just had enough of someone's bullshit, you want to confront their ass and tell them what the deal is? Well, I did not have that good fortune, so I just emailed him to tell him to back the fuck off of me and my brothers and sisters, or his life will be quite unbearable. It was quite a long letter, but it was no big deal since I usually write more that anyways. After he emailed me back, it was clear this moron was a little late in the developmental stage in his life, due to the fact he did not even bother to read letter; MY graciousness as a person to at least warn him before the shit hit the fan. So I just replied saying congrats on being a douche and living in a world of fiction.

I did not think he would buy it. In fact, I hoped he didn't, cause then at least the faggot (you don't have to be gay to be a faggot) had some kind of intelligence to know it was psychological hook. It would would either A) make him read my letter or B) he would ignore it. But that son of a bitch took that fucking hook and ran with it! And that was all I needed! I told him I wouldn't reply back in a malicious way to anything he wrote about my letter, but I wanted to humor myself by reading what he said about it.

But, a mistake on his part kind of just made me step back in awe on how FUCKING RETARDED he was. He actually said "n00b" in the letter, which I just summed up his whole reply as: I'M A FUCKING TOOL! So I simply deleted it, for my job was done. He read my letter and it got to him obviously, because his half witted reply was laughable at most. For me to dumb down to that would be insulting to myself. Sure, I talk l33t sometimes just as a joke, but as a reply to a serious matter: no. Abso-fucking-lutely not.

So I told him to grow up and come back to me when he at least start acting serious. Man, did I start laughing after I read in his reply that "He could rip apart my mind with the words he could spit". What the fuck??? First you're some scene kid, now you're a rapper? A little bit of a case of identity disorder if you ask me.

So, after all the dust had settled, I sat back and pondered. Did he learn a damn thing? Probably, probably not. I'm leaning towards the latter because he just doesn't get it. He thinks he is the hot shit because he has been in "that school" for, what, two years? If he would have been there for a bit longer, he might of been a cool guy. But he has this "holier than thou" vibe going on that just makes me want to choke it out of him (metaphorically, of course). I mean, seriously, this dude makes 4chan dipshits seem like fucking Voltaire. Now that, my friends, is just sad.

So, I leave you with a common quote by the great Marcus Tullius Cicero that goes so well with this situation:

“Any man can make mistakes, but only an idiot persists in his error”

Final words to the "Idiot": Quit jerking off to Guitar Hero and get out into the real world and learn something.

Sincerely,

Metalhead118 (aka Mark)

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/23670387/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/23670387/ Fri, 13 Mar 2009 03:04:54 PDT
Gotta fix it though if I want to continue writing. Using another computer right now, so I'll still be working.

Cheers...or whatever,

---Metal

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22365629/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22365629/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 00:35:04 PST
A new story is now posted for all your enjoyment. It's full of gore, zombies, and a twisted indivisual with a fetish for gunmetal o.O

Hope you like it!

Cheers!

---Metal

PS. The new chapter of Life is finally under construction. Give me a couple of weeks and I should have it done! The adventures of Drake McNealy continue!!!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22348510/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22348510/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 07:06:27 PST
Nothing new there.

Boo fuckin hoo

---Metal

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22114511/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/22114511/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 03:30:18 PST
*UPDATES*

1.I posted a new story for all your viewing pleasure. It's Christmas, morbid drug addict, and a valuable lesson all in a yummy mixture of morbid tasty goodness. Mmmmmm, gotta get me some of that!

2. Just wanna give a shout out to all my MHS homies that happen to be on the good ole DA. Hit me up on whatever and, if I'm in the mood, I'll get right back to ya! How's that sound?

3. Going through a tough time right now. My world, Heather, cut the ties with me. And it doesn't stop there. Here are the more juicy details:

*She broke up with me for my best friend(Where have we seen this before?)

*She ends up fucking him about two to three days after the became a couple(I was in withdrawal, so I did not get the news till later). So much for going slow, eh?

I kinda said fuck it to any relationship until I go to California, unless some miracle rears it's head and all the whores change their ways. Until then...VIVA LA CALIFORNIA!!!

For the time being:Marijuana, you're my only friend!

That's all for updates. It's about time for me to sleep after some hardcore Gears of War 2 and CoD: World at War(Nazi Zombies) with Heather's brother, Tre.

Final Thought:

Tre and I got fried tonight.

Heather hates drugs.

OOOOHHH THE IRONY!!!!!!!!!!

Later folks!

---Metal

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/21682267/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/21682267/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 14:07:13 PST TITTY
FUCKING
CHRIST!!!!!!!!

The Apocolypse has finally come! The second chapter of my story, Life, is posted for your enjoyment after months of writers block, sleepless nights, failed tests, and social life sacrifices.

Now, the next chapter will be up very soon due to me being able to write more freely now and have DA at my disposal.

Anyway, that is all the updates for now. Have fun!!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/21288049/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/21288049/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 17:18:37 PST
F YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.


Opening Credits:
Around the World- RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS

Waking Up:
Surfacing- SLIPKNOT (i know...it's funny)

First Day At School:
Battle of Evermore- LED ZEPPLIN

Going On a Field Trip:
Master of Puppets(S&M Version)- METALLICA

Making Your New Best Friend:
22 Acacia Avenue- IRON MAIDEN

Sleepover:
The Alchemist Dream- BEHEMOTH

Falling In Love:
Unlock the Gates- KRYTERIUM

Being Bullied:
Ramblin' Man- THE ALLMAN BROTHERS

First Date:
Echelon- PILLAR

Breaking Up:
Seven Faces- SLAYER

Prom:
Waking the Demon- BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE

Feeling Guilty About Stuff:
Coming Undone- KORN

Going on Vacation:
Flesh Storm- SLAYER

Graduation:
Ultra-Violent- CAVALERA CONSPIRACY

Having a Birthday:
Break Stuff- LIMP BIZKIT

Visiting Grandma:
Calm Like a Bomb- RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE

Triumphant After a Contest:
Butcher's Hook- SLIPKNOT

Life's Okay:
No Control- PEPPER

Death of a Close Friend:
Declaration- KILLSWITCH ENGAGE

Mental Breakdown:
Escape- METALLICA

Wishing on a Star:
Parallel Universe- RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS

Driving:
Redemption- SHADOWS FALL

Your Parents get Divorced:
Blowin' In the Wind- BOB DYLAN

Flashback:
Jumpdafuckup- SOULFLY


Getting Back Together:
Fake It- SEETHER


Wedding Scene:
Cherry Pie- WARRANT

Buying a House:
Jammin'- BOB MARLEY & THE WAILERS

Birth of Child:
Never Leave- SEETHER

Car Accident:
I'm Broken- PANTERA

Final Battle:
The Hunting- THE MISFITS

Death Scene:
Soul Sacrifice- SANTANA

Funeral Song:
Disposable Heroes- METALLICA

End Credits:
Show Me the Way- BLACK TIDE

I tag any one who wants to be tagged.

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/18965326/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/18965326/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 11:02:47 PDT
First the good news:
Ok, the long awaited second chapter of Life is coming along and should be out by the end of the next week.

Bad news:
I have writers block....

help would be apprieciated

thank you and until next time
Metalhead118

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17340412/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17340412/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 00:38:03 PDT
1. i'll have Word
2. I'll be able to be a parasite and live off my neighbor's internet signal or the coffee shop's wi-fi
3. i just don't have any ideas right now.

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....STAY TUNED!!!!!!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17169825/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17169825/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 18:20:44 PST
CHAPTER ONE IS FINALLY FINISHED!!!!!!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA

*falls unconcious due to exaustion*

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17154140/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17154140/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 18:12:14 PST
ok....i know i'm taking a long time with this, but chapter one of my upcoming story, Life, should be completed soon. My mind has been really screwing with me and doesn't like me when i have good ideas. So, when i work on stuff like this, my brain locks up for anywhere between hours to months o.O

so yeah.......if i pull a Metallica and don't put this story within the next week or put it off for a good time, don't get pissed. The story might end up being better, not just some pile of shit.

anywho, stay tuned....but don't hold your breath....you might die>_<

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17077201/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17077201/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 16:55:36 PST
(gives some time to enjoy)

ANYWAY, i've been able to put some random stuff up these past few days, and if ya haven't checked em out yet, DO IT!!! you won't regret it!

I've been thinking of a story and plan to start writing it pretty soon, so stay tuned!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17062315/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17062315/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 17:47:26 PST


Master Of Disharmony
------Dimmu Borgir

Master of disharmony
Welcome my tainted soul
Take me from the horde of the living
Into the blessed darkness
Master of disorder
Take my putrid flesh
Lead me unto the path of temptation

Save me from cowardness

He are calling us!

Master of sin
Take my cursed heart
Bring me where I can find salvation
For I am the damned

Master of death
Take my pitiful life
I am enslaved
I shall never forget the pain

Master of sin
Take my cursed heart
Bring me where I can find salvation
For I am the damned

Master of death
Take my pitiful life
I am enslaved
I shall never forget the pain
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Nookie
------Limp Bizkit

Check, one one, two

I came into this world as a reject
Look into these eyes
Then you'll see the size of the flames
Dwellin' on my past
It's burnin' on my brain
Everyone that burns has to learn from the pain
Hey, I think about the day
My girlie ran away with my pay
When fellas came to play
Now she's stuck with my homies that she fucked
And I'm just a sucker with a lump in my throat

Like a chump, hey (7x)

Should I be feelin' bad?
Should I be feelin' good?
It's kinda sad, I'm the laughing stock of the neighborhood
And you would think that I'd be movin' on
But I'm a sucker like I said
Fucked up in the head, not!
And maybe she just made a mistake
And I should give her a break
But my heart will ache either way
Hey, what the hell, what you want me to say?
I won't lie, that I can't deny

I did it all for the nookie, c'mon
The nookie, c'mon
So you can take that cookie
And stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. (2x)

Why did it take so long?
Why, did I wait so long, huh?
To figure it out, but I did it
And I'm the only one
Underneath the sun who didn't get it
I can't believe that I could be deceived
By my so-called girl, but in reality
Had a hidden agenda
She put my tender, heart in a blender
And still I surrendered

Like a chump, hey (7x)

I did it all for the nookie, c'mon
The nookie, c'mon
So you can take that cookie
And stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. (2x)

I'm only human
It's so easy for your friends to give you their advice
They'll tell you, just let it go
It's easier said than done
I appreciate it, I do, but
Just leave me alone
Leave me alone
Just leave me alone


And nothing gonna change
You can go away
I'm just gonna stay here
And always be the same (x3)

I did it all for the nookie, c'mon
The nookie, c'mon
So you can take that cookie
And stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. yeah!
Stick it up your.. (2x)
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Gallery Of Suicide
------Cannibal Corpse

Into the abyss, perpetual and torturous
The gallery of suicide, internal torment
Archaic carcasses, displayed degeneracy
Once within these walls a life of death will be unleashed

Forever dying are the dead, countless bleeding heads
Cadavers splattered red from the self-slicing of necks
Stenching maggot filled bodies, skulls and bones rot away
The slaughtered souls that chose to die, enveloped in death

Darkness is the only light, suicide the way
Hideous forms of human death, mounds of flesh slowly decay
Embrace the horrid nature, carnage on display

Pain never felt
Enslaved inside this massive grave
Life, evil fate
Only slaves to death can survive this place
Die, perdition
Penance in putrid decadence
Dead miscreants
Enter the decrepit necropolis

Lurid interment in the hellish abattoir
Impetuosity and horror, after-life is tortured
Entrails, guts, and blood is this museums decor

Blood, impiety
Chastened are the sanguinary
Purge, radical
They perish, the victims of vagary
Vile tragedy
With great vehemence the hapless died
Kill, suicide
Serrated blades assist in destiny

Death opened the gallery
Sarcophagus
Ecstasy in suffering
Imprecation
... ]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17013843/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/17013843/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:54:38 PST
No

"Marky poo....wanna go to the Valentines dance with me?"

(Slightly annoid) No

"Mark, i know you hate Valentines day with a passion, but do you want to go to the...."

NOOOOOOOOO!!!!( slices her face off with a serated spade)

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Ahem, anyway, that has been the whole last week for me....

It was so fuckin annoying....and the last request was an ACTUAL request. People don't get...i hate Valentines day. it's a day when couples are on their little high horse, being all "holier than thou" on every person who's single(which is not a bad thing). To add to that, there are some singles who get all depressed because the person they want to dance with won't( surprisingly, not me)

i hate the day and every little fuckin get togather that comes with it

Thank god i have drum line until 10 pm....at least i won't be driven to go by sheer boredom...

if this offends anyone....i really could care less...if you post some complaint or other bullshit, i will not respond...obviously, you don't really know my reasons. If you want to know, ask like a normal human being. but if you proceed to lamenate some crap on me....i will delete the comment.

that pretty much goes with any journal entries from here on in....i'm sick of it.
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on a much lighter note...i'm going on a nicotine subsitute system to get my fix. this should help with my nerves and being irritable all the time. Trying to get sober can do that.

by the way, this past weekend vacation has been the first in a long time that i have not done any drugs or alcohol...i feel very proud, but still feel like shit because it sux being without em. the last record of trying to quit was three months when i was still having a relationship with (blank), so that also gave me something to strive for. but after that relationship hit the fan, my sobriety went with it.

now i'm goin on a month and a half....wish me luck!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16758414/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16758414/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 17:16:35 PST
"Here are the rules:
1. Post these rules
2. You have to write 8 random facts about yourself
3. Post a journal with this tag
4. Tag 8 more victims
5. Go to their page and leave a comment that tells them they have been tagged"

1. Nachos....mmmmmm
2. Jakob P. is the coolest bro ever
3. Jaydon rox my sox
4. I went to Ozzfest 2005 and came back with my hearing!!!
5. I am BEOWOLF!!!!!!
6. Jakob and I are the next omega guitar duos!!!!
7. Fuck is my favorite word
8. Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers got me into rock n roll


anyone who just read this....you've been tagged!!!

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16708403/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16708403/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 14:05:48 PST
It's a very fucked up disease that is supposed to affect the muscles in the legs to a point that the person may not be able to walk. The person should still be able to lead a normal life with a normal job.

Not my mother...

MS has effected her brain in a way that disintegrated her intelligence to that of a 10 year old.

Now here is a something that my mother said to me today...

I got a call from my grandmother, nothing special, just to say hi. My mom was there, so my grandmother handed her the phone to spaek to me. My mom asked how i was how a little sister would. I said fine, but instead of asking anything else, there was a pause. What she said next i will never forget for the rest of my life

"Mark, I'm sorry that I can't take care of you because i'm sick. I wish I could...really."

All i could say was ok...but i wanted to say so much. when i hung up the phone...i fought myself to not cry. But i just ran into my room and sobbed my fuckin eyes out...

People wonder why i'm so "different" from other dudes. Why i'm so fucked up and so caring and all that shit. well, because my mom was never able to take care of me, but she wanted to so fuckin badly. I want to love and care for others, so they don't have to deal with the pain of no one able to care for them.

I want to love and care, even if it isn't possible....

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16680693/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16680693/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:50:11 PST
from 9-12 i have drum line practice

THEN

have sat. restitution from 12:45 - 4:00

it's bullshit...this school is bullshit....
BUT
not the reason i'm pissed...

my anger runs far deeper than that....

anywho...talk to yall when i get back...if i don't...don't bitch....i'll be very, VERY tired, sore, and pissed off.

the only thing i have to say is that we better be working inside....not outside in the dysfunctional weather

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16680577/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16680577/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:42:49 PST ------Damageplan

I feel you stare
Watch me not care
Glare at the freak
You've no control
Feel your eyes probing me, judging me
Only makes me want to explode, just explode

You don't know me
But you fear me
Tainted with ink
Riddled with holes
Staring and pointing, stupidity
Only makes me want to explode, just explode

All that you see
Scars that made me
See in your eyes
All you despise
Judge me by what you see, leave me be
Get away I'm going to explode, just explode

Fear what you don't understand
It will always be
Fear what you don't understand
As it always was
Fear what you don't understand
It will always be
Fear what you don't understand
I just want to explode
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Ashes
------Five Finger Death Punch

[V1:]
You don't understand me,
and you probably never will
I got a tendency to self destruct,
and a soft spot for the filth
A hair trigger temperament,
a switchblade for a tongue
I'm a walking one-man genocide
with a black belt in corrupt

[Chorus:]
Everything I touch turns to ashes
Falls away, it falls away
Everything I touch turns to ashes
It slips right through my hands

Love me, hate me
Isolate me everyday that I'm alive
Straight up mentally unstable
You don't have to like my life

[V2:]
I'm a jinx, a curse, some say, "the worst"
I'm a savage, rabid beast
I've been called so many fucking things,
it doesn't affect me in the least
I've stolen, lied, been crucified but I don't regret a thing
I'm an egocentric masochist with a sadist's point of bleak

[Chorus:]
Everything I touch turns to ashes
Falls away, it falls away
Everything I touch turns to ashes
It slips right through my hands

Love me, hate me
Isolate me everyday that I'm alive
Straight up mentally unstable
You don't have to like my life

Everything I touch turns to ashes
Falls away, it falls away
Everything I touch turns to ashes
It slips right through my hands
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The Foetus Of A New Day Kicking
------Cradle Of Filth

I’m chaos international
The writing on the wall
A Lazarus in parable

A dark and sullen lullaby
Whispered softly as you die
Promising torments are nigh

Danger warning levels hissed out loud
I saw the silver lining hidden in a mushroom cloud
Now I’m reeling from the shock at ground zero

If yesterday you would have stood up proud
Then why tonight have you thrown in with the stoning crowd?
I’ll breathe through the foetus of a new day kicking…

The foetus of a new day kicking

It’s true that Jesus cannot save
I’m rising from the grave
To put my double cross to shame

A poison rush, a heart attack
A white assassin painted black
You’ll fear this reaper coming back

Danger warning levels hissed out loud
I saw the silver lining hidden in a mushroom cloud
Now I’m reeling from the shock at ground zero

If yesterday you would have stood up proud
Then why tonight have you thrown in with the stoning crowd?
I’ll breathe through the foetus of a new day kicking…

On a night like this
You laid the serpent’s kiss
In this garden of Gethsemane
You played the traitor well

In a dawn to come
I will blind the sun
To grant you pardon as my enemy

Before damning you to hell…

Danger warning levels hissed out loud
I saw the silver lining hidden in a mushroom cloud
Now I’m reeling from the shock at ground zero

If yesterday you would have stood up proud
Then why tonight have you thrown in with the stoning crowd?
I’ll breathe through the foetus of a new day kicking…

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16630188/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16630188/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 14:50:06 PST
last night, i played one of my very own songs, Till Death, acoustic infront of 40 people. As a note, i never played infront of people by myself, nor have i played at my school before.

Also, i never sang(growling doesn't count) before infront of anyone...PERIOD.

So...yeah....i was VERY nervous....

Cause when you are with a band, its like you're all togather. you have support. Also, the audience pays most attention to the singer, until the guitar solo...hehe my favorite.

anywho, i had a smashing time! my houseparents video taped me so i'll watch to see how i did....

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16487030/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16487030/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 08:58:02 PST ------Metallica

Been here before (6x)

Been here before couldn't say I liked it
Then do I start writing all this down
Just let me plug you into my world
Can't you help me be un-crazy

Name this for me, heat the cold air
Take the chill off of my life
And if I could I'd turn my eyes
To look inside to see what's coming

Pre:
It comes alive (3x)
And I die a little more
It comes alive (3x)
Each moment here til I die a little more
Ooh, i die i die i die a little more..

Chorus 1:
then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away

(Been here before) (6x)

I'm frantic in your soothing arms
I cannot sleep in this down filled world
Found safety in this loneliness
But I cannot stand it anymore

Cross my heart hope not to die
Swallow evil, ride the sky
Lose myself in a crowded room
You fool, you fool, it'll be here soon

Pre:
It comes alive (3x)
And I die a little more
It comes alive (3x)
Each moment here I die a little more
Ooh, i die i die i die a little more..

Chorus 2:
then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
then the unnamed feeling
Treats me this way
And I wait for this train
Toes over the line
Then the unnamed feeling
It takes me away, it takes me..

then the unnamed feeling
It comes alive
then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away
Yeah, it takes me away

Bridge:
Get the fuck out of here
I just wanna get the fuck away from me
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I hate it all, why why why me?

I cannot sleep with a head like this
I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate
I wanna hate it all away

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16405094/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16405094/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 15:38:29 PST Hate Me

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

(Chorus 1)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finaly see what's good for you.


(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16404948/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16404948/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 15:29:40 PST
-------------------------------------------------------

Come on down, and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that i can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound, like I got a fuckin'
Gun against my head, you live when I'm dead

One more time, mother fucker

Everybody hates me now, so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands, and I
Don't know why, I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so i can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cause I don't wanna die in this place

People = Shit (x4)
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

It never stops - you can't be everything to everyone
Contagion I'm sitting at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'M - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP

C'mon mother fucker, everybody has to die
C'mon mother fucker, everybody has to die

People = Shit (x13)
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

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i only wish i could've said goodbye...that, my friends, is the only thing i regret. i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive myself for that...

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16051446/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/16051446/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 23:37:46 PST Check it out!
seeya, fuckers!

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]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15851989/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15851989/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 17:30:51 PST anywho, have fun folks!!

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]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15254539/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15254539/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 08:27:06 PDT
Choking
(By M. Raffaele)

Verse 1:
I feel the pain
It is something I can't contain
Every fuckin time I try I try
To make some pitiful allibi
You see it every time
I FUCKIN LIE

Pre-Chorus:
Can't face it anymore
I can't hide it anymore

Chorus:
Cause I'm choking
On every word I say
I'm drowning
In my own lies
Somebody take it away
Please, take it away
I'M CHOKING!

Verse 2:
Death used to be
A thing I used to fear
Now it's something
I wish was near
But you won't know that
UNTIL MY LIES DIE!!

Pre-Chorus:
Can't face it anymore
I don't wanna live it
ANYMORE

Chorus:
Cause i'm choking
On every word I say
I'm drowning
On my own lies
Somebody, take it awy
Please, take it away
I'M CHOKING!

Bridge:
Every damn deception
Covers these walls
With every desecration
I become more alone
In these lonely halls

Bridge 2:
My mind is bleeding
My soul receding
Every word on my lips
Eventually becomes a
FAKE ALLIBI

(Chorus until fade out)

Copyright By Mark Raffaele

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15220387/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15220387/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 18:31:58 PDT
]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15198165/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/15198165/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 06:45:25 PDT
Can't Stop
------Red Hot Chili Peppers

Can't stop addicted to the shin dig
Chow top he says I'm gonna win big
Choose not a life of imitation
Distant cousin to the reservation
Defunkt the pistol that you pay for
This punk the feeling that you stay for
In time I want to be your best friend
Eastside love is living on the westend
Knock out but boy you better come to
Don't die you know the truth as some do
Go write your message on the pavement
Burnin' so bright I wonder what the wave meant
White heat is screaming in the jungle
Complete the motion if you stumble
Go ask the dust for any answers
Come back strong with 50 belly dancers

[Chorus:]
The world I love
The tears I drop
To be part of
The wave can't stop
Ever wonder if it's all for you
The world I love
The trains I hop
To be part of
The wave can't stop
Come and tell me when it's time to

Sweetheart is bleeding in the snowcone
So smart she's leading me to ozone
Music the great communicator
Use two sticks to make it in the nature
I'll get you into penetration
The gender of a generation
The birth of every other nation
Worth your weight the gold of meditation
This chapter's going to be a close one
Smoke rings I know your going to blow one
All on a spaceship persevering
Use my hands for everything but steering
Can't stop the spirits when they need you
Mop tops are happy when they feed you
J. Butterfly is in the treetop
Birds that blow the meaning into bebop

[Repeat Chorus]

Wait a minute I'm passing out
Win or lose just like you
Far more shocking
Than anything i ever knew
How about you
10 more reasons
Why i need somebody new just like you
Far more shocking than anything I ever knew
Right on cue

Can't stop addicted to the shin dig
Chow top he says I'm gonna win big
Choose not a life of imitation
Distant cousin to the reservation
Defunkt the pistol that you pay for
This punk the feeling that you stay for
In time I want to be your best friend
Eastside love is living on the westend
Knock out but boy you better come to
Don't die you know the truth as some do
Go write your message on the pavement
Burnin' so bright I wonder what the wave meant

Kick start the golden generator
Sweet talk but don't intimidate her
Can't stop the gods from engineering
Feel no need for any interfering
Your image in the dictionary
This life is more than ordinary
Can I get 2 maybe even 3 of these
Coming from the space
To teach you of the pliedes
Can't stop the spirits when they need you
This life is more than just a read thru

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12688713/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12688713/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 08:20:43 PDT
Blown Fuse of Rebellion
By: Mark Raffaele

(Verse-Justin)
We are told, that we can’t fight
Behind their backs, we refuse the plight
Fuck the system, fuck the cause
We’ll destroy you, and never fall!!

(PreChorus-Justin)
With this rebellion
We destroy all that was unjust
For the greater good of humanity
We go to the streets and FIGHT!!!

(Chorus- Justin)
Our souls won’t die (we are redemption)
We will not perish (we will never falter)
Others have given up (Just like blown fuses)
THE BLOWN FUSE OF REBELLION!!

(Verse-Justin)
We are told, to pick up the cross
The synagogue or the albatross
With it all, it brings us war
Soon it will bring, the Apocalypse whore!

(PreChorus-Justin)
With this rebellion
We destroy all that was unjust
For the greater good of humanity
We go to the streets and FIGHT!!!

(Chorus- Justin)
Our souls won’t die (we are redemption)
We will not perish (we will never falter)
Others have given up (Just like blown fuses)
THE BLOWN FUSE OF REBELLION!!

(Solo-Mark)
(Solo- Jess)
(Both)


(Bridge- Mark)
Will we fall (NOOOOO)
Will we perish (NOOOOO)
We will win (NO ONE WILL STOP US)
If we lose (NOOOOO)
AT LEAST WE TRIED!!!!!!!


(Chorus- Justin)
Our souls won’t die (we are redemption)
We will not perish (we will never falter)
Others have given up (Just like blown fuses)
THE BLOWN FUSE OF REBELLION!!

(Chorus and solo-Mark until fade)
Copyright- Mark Raffaele

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12262372/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12262372/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 18:03:56 PDT
Slayer:
Cult

Oppression is the holy law
In God I distrust
In time His monuments will fall
Like ashes to dust
Is war and greed the masters plan?
The bible's where it all began
Its propaganda sells despair
And spreads the virus everywhere

Religion is hate
Religion is fear
Religion is war
Religion is rape
Religion's obscure
Religion's a whore

The pestilence is Jesus Christ
There never was a sacrifice
No man upon the crucifix
Beware the cult of purity
Infectious imbecility
I've made my choice. Six six six

[Lead - Hanneman]

Corruption breeds the pedohile
Don't pray for the priest
Confession finds the lonely child
God preys on the weak
You think your soul can still be saved
I think you're fucking miles away
Scream out loud here's where you begin
Forgive me father for I have sinned

Religion is hate
Religion is fear
Religion is war
Religion is rape
Religion's obscure
Religion's a whore

The target's Fucking Jesus Christ
I would've lead the sacrifice
And nailed him to the crucifix
Beware the cult of purity
Infectious imbecility
I've made my choice. Six six six

Jesus is pain
Jesus is gore
Jesus is the blood
That's spilled in war
He's everything
He's all things dead
He's pulling on the trigger
Pointed at your head

Through fear you're sold into the fraud
Revelation revolution
I see through your Christ Illusion

[Lead - King]

The war on terror just drags along
My war with God is growing strong
His propaganda sells despair
And spreads the violence everywhere

Religion is hate
Religion is fear
Religion is war
Religion is rape
Religion's obscure
Religion's a whore

There is no fuckin' Jesus Christ
There never was a sacrifice
No man upon the crucifix
Beware the cult of purity
Infectious inbecility
I've made my choice. Six six six

[Lead - Hanneman]

]]> *Metalhead118 http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12259426/ http://Metalhead118.deviantart.com/journal/12259426/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 14:29:02 PDT Well, cheers!

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well, until we meet again!
Mark

"I don't believe in Hitler, that's what i said,
So all you skins, give me more head"

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