http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Mirazie&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Mirazie en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 07:17:18 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/28545407/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/28545407/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 07:38:44 PST OMG, I JUST GOT MY 10.000TH PAGEVIEW!!!!! xD THANKS A LOT PEOPLE, I LOVE YOU ALL n.n ... I'm not doing a kiribian drawing or anything, since I have a looooot of other stuff and drawings on my to-do-list, but I just wanted to thank you all n.n ... you're amazing!!



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*sigh* I actually said I didn't want to do this because I'm a slow drawer and really don't draw that much and unless I put a LOT of hard work into my drawings, they're not really worth anything, but somehow I just got possesed by the christmas spirit xD;; so I'll do this too, and if you have just a little spare time, I think it's such a good idea that you should consider doing it too!! n.n

I stole it from and just changed the number of drawings n.n;;

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Basically, since it's Christmas soon, how about you all do something nice for something else and ask me for a sketch for someone else?

Sign up here to get a free sketch for another person. It can be a friend at DA, a friend or family member in Real Life, or someone else who deserves it.

Sign-up is open for 24 hours OR until I get 8 people signed up getting gifts for someone else.

Yes. It's free! Really free. All you have to do is sign up, telling me who the sketch is for, and what I should draw. You don't have to post this to your own journal or any of that kind of nonsense.

After I make the sketch it is your responsibility that it reaches the person it's meant for.

You can only get one gift-sketch from me to give away.

The sketch must be of a nature that can be posted to DA.

While I appreciate the thought, you cannot ask for a sketch that is a gift to me.

A sketch is a sketch. Don't expect anything else.


Be sure to spread the Christmas spirit!

other people who do this = and


.:SLOTS TAKEN:.

- a drawing for of something from his gallery
- a drawing for of her chracter elijah
- a drawing for her friend Julia of her character Aramis or Ranuim
- a drawing for of one of her chars from her comic
- a drawing for of one of her chars from her comic

.:NO MORE SLOTS!!!!!:.

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/28331447/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/28331447/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 12:03:43 PST J-popcon was nice and funny, I'm not very satisfied with the planners, since I think a lot of stuff weren't okay, but now that the con is over, I just kinda wanna forget it... it was really nice to finally meet and spend a lot of time with my old friends
This week has been kinda busy with a visit to the dentist, the hospital (a scanning, which I'll get the result of next Thursday) and the doctors where I got an influenza shot =w= so it's nice to relax a little now...
Aske (my borther) went to Mexico this Saturday too... I'm really gonna miss him, he'll be away for 4 WEEKS!!!! O_o;; that's a hell of a long time... it's going to be so quiet around here xD;; *shoot*



TANJA!!! Jeg vil snart have at du kommer på besøg nævn en weekend (eller giv mig et valg mellem to) så finder vi ud af noget ;O;

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/27884350/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/27884350/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 06:59:23 PDT __>;;

As for recent random facts about my life:
- I just had a WOUNDERFUL week with my friends; thank you guys so much, I can't wait to see most of you to j-popcon in a few weeks and... well, I love you all very much ;O;
- Yassa will be visiting me next week and I'm TOTALLY looking forward to it!! QwQ
- I've gotten myself a small job; 12,5 hours a week n.n so now I make a little money, and it's nice... and it's a easy and good job, so that just makes it even better n.n (it's just cleaning at a school, and I'm actually getting money for more time than I spend there... no mater what I get payed for 2,5 hour each day, but I can finish in about 1-1,5 so I'm allowed to leavy by then xD it's awesome QwQ)
- My hair is growing longer and longer by the week!! n.n by now it has a length that most people think I could easily walk the streets with since it suits me... I'll probably wait a few month yet, 'cause I'm not feeling totally secure with it yet xD;; *shoot*
- I have a lot of smaller things to finish in the next few weeks, not enough to stress me, just enough, and it's nice to feel active again!! QwQ
- my arms still hurt, nothing new there =w=;;

Hmmm, I don't think there's anymore to say now xD;; I hope you're all doing well and be sure to not catch a cold now that the weather is changing a lot xD;;

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/27368406/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/27368406/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 02:36:10 PDT
Charlotte, I still think of you from time to time. You wheren't the closes of my friends, but I really wanted to get to know you better... You did so many things for me in a short time and I'm really bitter that I didn't get to do more for you. I'm not writing this to make others feel sorry for me, I'm completely fine, I'm just doing it to show you my respect and tell you that it'll be a long time before you'll be forgotten. The day I found out you died and had to tell others about it, was no kidding one of the darkest days in my life. If Tanja hadn't been there to figure everything out with me, I'm not sure what I would have done... you where a magnificient person, always putting others before yourself and it was so unfair that you had to be involved in that accident! I'm just glad that your last time here was one of the best times in your life, so you didn't have to leave with any worries (at least not what I knew of)... Thanks for what you did and for being a part of my life, even if it was just for a short amount of time....

R.I.P Charlotte.

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/26361275/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/26361275/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 14:34:50 PDT


But YES, like the title says - today I had my last threatment!! QwQ the last ray threatment, and the last threatment AT ALL!!!!!!! Now I only need to be scanned in a few weeks and then they'll hopefully tell me that I've been cured of my cancer nwn So my aunt invited me to some dinner, my brother bought me a cake and I had a nice evening with my family, enjoying an awesome movie and eating icecream
I could probably write a lot more but I won't since I'm really tired right now T_T I really wanna sleep... *goes to bed*

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/26062233/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/26062233/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 09:41:41 PDT and I spend last week in a holiday cottage and had a lot of fun xD we both brought our Code Geass school uniforms and we made a photoshoot near the ocean... and this video xD we had soooo much fun and well, I guess you can see it in the video... if you try reaaaally hard (not).

I dare EVERYONE to take a look at it (I double dare you), but it's in danish - the actual video has subtitles though (because regeeta is awesome ), the bloopers dosn't... If you like like Code Geass - watch if. If you speak Danish - watch it >xD
[link]layer_profilepage

as Lelouch (the dark uniform)
as C.C (green hair)

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/25477295/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/25477295/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 15:29:04 PDT .:GENKI-CON:.
Yes, yesterday I just got home from a brilliant week in KBH T_T I had so much fun with my friends, helped one with her exam (it was nice to re-read some pensum xD;; ) and got a lot of nice stuff from Japan because one of them had been on vacation there QwQ it all ended with Genki con this weekend and I had so much fun... I got to see all my important friends for long or short time, but I saw them :3 I got to try out my newest cosplay (Kallen from Code Geass) and got some nice and awesoem pictures (I think).... some of the pictures I took and some of the videos as well, will be uploaded once I feel fine again n.n;;

Which leads us to the OTHER subject =

.:CHEMO:.
Today I got my VERY LAST CHEMO THREAMENT!!!!!! T____T I'm just so extremely happy... or that's kinda a lie, I feel pretty sick (like always) but it's so nice to know that once I get better this time, I don't have to go around and think about that I'll soon have to feel the same way again X.x that feeling is just indescribable and I don't plan on EVER having to feel like that or to have to go through something like that again ;O; and I don't hope that you'll have to either... in a few weeks my ray-threaments starts, but I'm not really scared of that... they say that there practically won't be any side effects, I might get a little irritated in the throat but that's all, and that much I can bear n.n;; only probalem is that we have to use around 3 hours each day, five days a week for... three weeks or so, I haven't been told for sure yet. That's pretty much T_T so it's not easy for me to plan anything.... :fail: but THEN I'm finished!!! xD


.:LOST LOVE CONTEST:.
Well, I'm hosting a contest for my online yaoi story 'Lost Love'. For those who don't know, yaoi means BL/Boy love/ or guy on guy sex... I actually started it to find out just HOW MUCH I would be able to write (because I like to challange myself xD;; ) and it turned out to be pretty much... xD; ANd it also turned out to be pretty popular so I though "sure, why not continue it?" and now it has evolved into this incredible complicated love-romance-angst story I myself am pretty proud of... and because it soon will have it's 1 year anniversary, I'm hosting this contest.
In short there's three categories: drawing, writing and 'any-thing-else' (cosplay, poetry, comic whatever). And the theme will be Costumes. Write about a schoolplay where they have to wear costumes, force the main char into a maid outfit or whatever. Use which characters from the story as you wish, in the scenes you wish, as long as it in some way includes the theme, costumes :3
You can find more info in here, together with the story; [link]

.:YARI-CON:.
Just a little promo for the yaoi/yuri-convetion that , I and sevaral others are trying to get on the legs in Odense for next summer. Please take a look at the webpage eventhough there aren't much in there yet :S [link] Any kind of support will be appriciated!!! n.n

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24980729/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24980729/ Wed, 27 May 2009 14:22:02 PDT I kinda miss my old computer, but it just went bananas on me - every twenty minute it just went into some blue screen and refused to restart o.o;; but oh well, I did use it everyday in like four years so it really did a good job n.n

I said that I got chemo yesterday, right? Well, the funny thing is that I'm almost fine again n.n It hasn't even been two days and I'm already up and vertical xD;; ... last time it took me around 8 days to be alright again o.o; but there might have been another reason for that..
Some weeks ago they did a test on me to see how it all went with the chemo - if it was going the right way, if it was gone or how much radiation I'll have to undergo after the chemo threatments (sorry, on this computer I still don't have a dictionary, so I apologize for any mistakes and stuff X.x)... I think I was really worried about the results, because if it was not getting any better, I should probably have gone through more chemo - and it's getting harder and harder for me to overcome... I'm sorry if it all sounds wierd and stuff, but at this very moment it's kinda hard for me to focus on english because I have so many other thoughts in my head - ... I think xD;; But the results where fine, and I don't have to undergo extra chemo - only two more threatments to go!!!! QwQ and then no more chemo, just some radiation (probably) and then I'll be all better... at least that's the plan >___>;; still at least one more month to go, but I think I'll be able to make it!!

Hmmmm, I feel like I'm pretty busy with IRL stuff at the moment, some drawings I want to do, friends comming over and such so sorry if I don't answer much in here... I'm feeling pretty well at the moment, and I'm just extremely happy that I feel this good right now (though my mouth hurts a lot ;O; )... I hope you're all doing well and that your exams (if you have any) is going well... I'm sorry that I'm not as updated on those as I wanted to be, but like I said, a lot is going on n.n;;

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24586902/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24586902/ Mon, 04 May 2009 15:51:51 PDT AND and many times before =w= so I guess I'll for once do this meme...

{1}.Post these rules
{2}.Each tagged person must post 8 things about theirselves on their journal.
{3}.At the end you have to choose 8 people to tag, and post their icons on the same journal.
{4}.Go to their page and send a message saying you tagged them.
{5}.NO tag-backs.

[[1]] I have no ideas as what to write here o.o;; ....
[[2]] I have a brother, who I have a very close bond with and whom I wouldn't trade for ANY other brother!! T_T (unless that brother was Lelouch from Code Geass o.o)
[[3]] While on he subject, I'm a crazy Code Geass fan - it's just such an amazing anime, and I've seen it like 7-10 times... AND I just bought some of the DVD's!! nwn
[[4]] I don't believ that ANYONE can imagine how worn down I'm starting to be, mentally, by all the chemo cures I have to go through... - I'm almost crying just thinking about the hospital...
[[5]] Ah, I'm a chemo patient, I have cancer and I've received about half of the threaments I have to go through! ... I just wished I was longer ;O;
[[6]] I'm currently feeling so lonely that it's ridiculous!!
[[7]] I'm hungry, but dosn't really feel like eating anything o.o; I probably should though, since I haven't eaten much the last week X.x
[[8]] This weekend is visiting me and I'm just soooooooo looking forward to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T________T

And I tag... *points in random directions* =


]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24238633/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/24238633/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 13:03:41 PDT
I got my third chemo-threatment today so right now I'm really tired-ish, bommed and my tomach isn't really happy...

I had a wounderful time with my friends! really, I just needed that to get my mood up n.n I'm not really down about my hair anymore (heck, it's gonna grow out anyway, what made me sad was to see it fall off and now it's too short for that xD;; ) but I'm still getting some medicin to prevent a stomach ulcer n.n;

I just cant WAIT for svs con this weekend!! I'll probably still be partly sick, but I just won't miss it no matter WHAT!!! >w< I've been looking forward to it for so long... how many of you are gonna attend? n.n

And my friend caro-chan came home this Saturday she has been in Australia for around quart a year, so I really missed her and I can't wait to see her again ;O;

I'm almost done with my secret drawing-project and if I has to say so myself, I think it's pretty awesome - but I haven't probably used that much time on a drawing either so it just has to be n.n;; *cough*

On another topic - overall my arms does okay, except that the these days has been kinda hard on me.. but it's not BAD right now n.n

I'm sorry that I haven't been replying to any messages but... yearh T_T please understand that there's just so damned much going on - when I'm not completely knocked out by the chemo, I have so much I want to do...

And I think I told about the latest test I had to go through? They scanned my back because they wasn't sure if there was any cancer there too or not - they thought not, but wanted to make sure... If there had been any I would have to go through a lot more chemo, probably surgery and such, but lucily that wasn't the case n.n *yay*

And friends - you're more than welcome to come visit me (I'd really appiciate it! n.n ), but don't expect me to visit you too much... It's not too good for my to travel by public traffic, I can, but it's not good... besides, I have no job so I'm not getting any money at the moment, and it's not like I can really get one when I only can work every other week..so if you want to visit me, please say so and we'll plan something out!!! n.n I would love some company....

Guess that's all for now x3 I hope you all had a brilliant Easter!! .. I know I did

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23968205/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23968205/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 13:05:50 PDT
I went to get my second chemo-cure today, and YAY I got it this time xD;; I slept a little and wathed 'Friends' with my mother, no problem there... in the afternoon, when we was finished on the hospital, we went to the wig-shop/haircutter... she shaved my head off (luckily I was (and am) still kinda brainfucked because I had been given some relaxing drugs-stuff on the hospital... something... so I wasn't really sad n.n;; it's just... wierd >__>;; but nontheless, I've still got about... half an inch hair left on my head o.o;; so I'm not completely bald n.n;; (but it might come, since this probably will fall off too, but then it won't be a big loss >__>;; )... I tried some wigs, long and short, I was pretty sure it had to be a short one because those where the prettiest one (the long ones just looked kinda dead o.o;; ) besides a long wig would be unbearable in the the hot summerwether because you can't make a ponytail or anything X-x
I got a nice wig and also a cap, that's longer in the back, so it kinda covers that I've got no hair xD;
My mother, father and the two sellers thought I looked stunning with the wig, but my borther didn't like it T_T he said that to him it wasn't really 'short' (erh, I think he was comparing it to male hairlength >___>;; )and the haircut kinda reminded him of one of my friends... of... *cough* Nadia's o.o; I personally don't think that's a bad thing at all, but... yearh o.o;; It's a tad blonder than my normal haircolour (probably a lot if you did not see my hair with the highlights in it...) and with a darker base near the scalp... I like it too, I just need some time to get used to it X.x

Yesterday my lovely cousin and his girlfriend visited us we walked for hours and had a lot of fun, and they gave me the entire 'Twillight'-series so I have something to spend my time with xD; Thanks a lot you guys! ;O;

I'm currently working on a reaaaally big drawing project that I hope you guys will like when I get it uploaded... someday o.o;;

In a week I'll visit my best friend and some other really dear and precious friends and I just can't wait... but right now I just have to feel better X.x like I said, I just got chemo today, meaning that my head hurts like a crazy, my stomach dosn't like me and I'm all dizzy and groggy X.x.... really ill-lys n.n;;

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23881315/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23881315/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 13:36:32 PDT So today I asked my mother to cut my hair reeeeally short (at least a lot shorter than it was) so I could get used to it... or something... n.n; Before my hair reached to the middle of my back (or something like that, maybe a little longer...) but now it's just around my shoulders xD;; geez, it feels so wierd... but actually... I like it o.o; And it makes me kinda sad to think that in about a week I might not have it anymore... because probably around the ending of next week I'll go to the wig shop, get a wig and let her shave my head - and that just sounds sooooo damn wrong and babaric o.o;;; *shoot*
Actually.... right now I feel okay about it, but earlier today I was about to cry - for the first time during this whole cancer story (the time when I cried from pain after the operation not included...)... Gah, this isn't the most brilliant time to have my period, considering that I'm already sensitive enough xD;;

But as I said, I'm okay now... I think I've doped myself too much with chokolate xD;; *dies* what should I do without that 8th world wonder?!?
Oh, and yesterday I got a letter from my primary school teachers o.o; I haven't spoken to them fro like 3-4 years!! xD but they where like my second couple of parents and really meant a lot to me... But it still surprised me to get a letter from them n.n; apperantly they heard about my situation from an old classmate and they really wanted to hear from me..

One of these days I might upload some pictures of my hair before the haircut and after... depends on ho much free time I get on my hands xD;; I'm currently working on my Code Geass cosplay and a biiiig teddy bear for a friend and I have to get it done by Monday, because I'll get my second threatment there and be sick days after xD;; and tomorrow I'm being scanned again o.o;;

.:EDIT:.
Erh, apparently my mood swings a lot in this aspect... when I just leave my hair alone, not touching it AT ALL I'm fine and all happy like normal n.n;; the moment I touch it and see just a little of my hair in my hand, I become all moody and my stomach starts to hurt... and that's how I feel right now xD;; ... damn, this is juststupid... I hate this whole situation so damn much... I feel like I just wants to sleep all the time and never be awake.. not like I wants to die or anything, NO WAY, it's just that I don't really wants to be awake... if that makes any sense? gawd, this is so depressing....

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23847529/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23847529/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 11:47:59 PDT .. But now I fear that I'm not totally okay for svs-con (a danish convention) since I'm getting chemo the Tuesday before (the con is from Friday to Sunday)... but I HAVE to go no matter what!!! .. there's no way I won't... then I really have to be sick, but still... if the previos plan had been uphold, I would be absolutely fine in that weekend...

Erh, and sorry if I sound really really black or confusing or something, I'm just extremely tired X.x it can't possibly be the sleeping pill from yesterday that's still working but erh, I'm tiiiiiiiiiired ;O;

And I got so much freakin chokolate this weekend!! O;; My lovely lovely k-san visited me (thanks for a AWESOME weekend sweety, I'm really looking forward to seeing you again ) and she brought a bag with sweets from her and her mother xD some of my parents friends also came with quality chokolate and an expensive book and my aunt came with some nice glass art from Sweden n.n so I'm feeling rather spoiled right now... But I'm glad and I really appreciate it, I fear that I would be rather despressed if I hadn't gotten those things - I've started to get really paranoid about my hair T___T I don't want to lose it, but I'm pretty sure I will... I'll survive, of course, but it'll still be hard... and please don't try to cheer me up by saying 'look at the bright side' because there IS no bright side about losing the hair... NOTHING!!! And... I know people only have been trying to cheer me up, but I'm getting really tired of hearing lousy comments like 'then it'll be easier to wear a wig' or 'then you can try a freaky haircolour!'... I can wear a wig anytime I want, and it can be any freakin colour I want it to be - I don't need my hair to do those things!! I know people only have said them with good intention, but after hearing them 5-6 times they just starts to hurt pretty bad... So please... just don't....
I think I've managed to stay pretty positive during all this, and I still am. But, and I'll repeat, there's N-O-T-H-I-N-G positive about losing my hair!!! The 'ositive' thing is, that WHEN IT GROWS OUT I can try different hairstyles and see how short hair looks at me (which I'll probably never get unless this way...).

With that said, I'll try do draw a little before I go to sleep... oh no, wait, I'll draw, then get an injection and THEN go to sleep!! >__>;; because I got some syringes from the hospital that I has to get for the next few days in order to stabilize my immune system... and they're supposed to hurt so yearh... lucky me....

*goess off in order to try and get into a better mood*

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23726577/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23726577/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 10:10:02 PDT retty bad' (meaning that it can be seen as a swelling) on the right side of my neck, but it seems that it has also moved to the left side, just not that much yet... AND to behind my chestbone, where the lymphs (lymfeknuder? har ingen ide om hvad det hedder på engelsk og det kan ikke slåes op...) are three times as big as normal because of the cancer o.o; all this together makes it a level two cancer, meaning that I have to get through four sets of chemo, one set meaning two times so eight threaments... one set takes a month so I should be finished by July - ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND!!!!!!!!!! THEY DON'T HAVE TO REMOVE MY OVARIES!!!!!! ;O; it's only if it's MORE than four sets they're removing it, so I'm right on the edge o.o;; SO I don't have to go through surgery anymore - at least not because of this T_T I'm so freakin happy...

After that my mom and I visited a store and looked at some wigs... they can't tell me if I'm going to lose my hair (some people does and some dosen't) or not so if I do, I'll find out when I actually starts to loss it X.x so we wanna be prepared and looked at some wigs... there where some pretty nice ones and I think if I has to get one, then it's gonna be a really short one o.o;; and I think my mom would like me to have short haircut no matter what, because she thought I looked so pretty o.o;;
We went shopping for a bit and had a nice day <3 ... and OMG; she bought 'FRIENDS - the collection' for me as a chemo-present xD;;; her and my dad had talked it over and they wanted to give it to me T_T they just made me really happy....

My arms hurt's like freakin hell, so I'll just say a few more thinks; thank you my sweet lloyd for a lovely weekend , I can't wait to have you come visit me next weekend dear k-san and svs-con is in a month, I just can't wait!!! xD

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23605739/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23605739/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 08:47:15 PDT Like said in the last journal, I had my first chemo-therapy-cure-thingy this Friday... They said that I probably would feel really sick and stuff so I got a lot of pills - which I've stopped using by now... Actually, it was not as bad as I feared - sure I felt sick and stuff, but I did not once have a serious urge to throw up... the last few days I haven't had much of an appetite, but that was expected as well - I've barely eaten anything, which is not good, but... Yearh, I'm just trying to say that the situation taken into consideration, I'm feeling really good... EXCEPT!!! Even before the chemo I had a pretty irratating cold and my throat hurted because of... *cough* too much singstar =.=;; I've always had a tendency to get swollen tonsils so... yearh... but today... and yesterdays evening my mouth just started to hurt like shit!! It stings, burns and prevents me from eating anything now when I've finally gotten my stomach good enough to consume food... I still don't want to eat, but I could IF IT WAS NOT FOR MY DAMN BURNING MOUTH!!! And no... it's not funny, eventhough it might sound so... I feel like crying and have been on the edge of doing so countless times today, but haven't done it for some reason..

I just called the doctor from my hospital, and asked her what to do... she wanted to ask another doctor and then she would call me back, so right now I'm just waiting... I don't hope she decides I need to be hospitalized >__>;; She sounded like she wanted me to come for a check-up, but because we live like an hour away by car, sh..........
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... She just called xD;; well, she told me that it's pretty normal that the mucous membrane (slimhinderne x3) hurts after chemo, so there was not anything to worry about - unless I got some white stuff and coating, then I had to contact them again o.o;; Well... nice that it ain't anything serious, but it still hurts like damned hell... and it's never nice to be told that you just have to endure it

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23556483/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23556483/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 12:37:32 PST Actually... It was quite nice being there, even when I got the chemo... First she missed the vein where she wanted to put the needle, so she had to stick me twice T_T But I survived and the four-five hours it took for me to get the medicin (two liters and total x.x), my mom and I talked with a welfare officer about support, money and mentally wise, saw "Wall-E" and some other stuff... like I said, it turned out to be quite nice, except the fact that I had to go to the toilet almost all the time, but couldn't because of the drip... We even got nice food and candy so.. yearh n.n;;

I'm actually not feeling sick at all... a biiiit dizzy and my stomach isn't perfect but besides that I'm only incredibly tired - I feel like I could practically sleep every second, and that's probably what I'll do... So yearh, I bid you all a good night and if nothing more happens (I actually get more sick or something) then I'll first update the 16th, where I'll get the results on how long I have to continue these cures / how serious it is... please wish me the best of luck! ;O;

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23521494/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23521494/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 09:53:54 PST Then my mom and I drived to the hospital where I should be tested... the first test wasn't anything bad... it was just a 'scan' n.n;; Allthough... I had to lie and don't move a muscle for first 1 hour, only interupted when I had to drink water (oooh, all the water I had to drink today made me run to the bathroom every 10th minute or so!!! O_O;; ), while something called 'contrastmatter' (... kontraststof? o.o) spread troughout my body... then I had to lay in the scanner itself, not moving again, this time for half a hour.... - I tell you, it's actually pretty hard not to move when you're told not to, because then your nose starts to scratch, your lips becomes dry and your leg goes numb =w=;; but it went well, no real problem there (eventhough I didn't really like having the needle in my arm all the time T_T)

My biggest fear was the next test... the bonemarrow test ;O; When we waited for it to become my turn, my hands became all sweaty and cold, I felt sick and really wanted to run away. Ah, for those of you that don't know, a bonemarrow test is when they make a little cut above your hip and then put a needle inside the bone and takes some of the marrow out - kinda like a blood sample, besides this test really hurts (like a 15 second long elbowshock (albuestød) I was told...). They give local anaesthesia, but I had to stay concious the whole time TT_TT seriously, when I got into the room with the doctor I really had to fight myself not to start crying, which I almost did - that was actually the time so far that I was nearest a breakdown... so they give me a sedative (actually a double doze) and I survived n.n I... practually don't remember what it felt like when she removed the marrow o.o;; it's like there's a five minutes hole in my memory... - probably how it feels like being drunk, but this was just... I mean, really wierd o.o;;
When we left the hospital I was all wobbly, but managed to get out to the car by the support of my mother xD;; ... and then she bought me some candy n.n

Now I just can't wait for the results of these test, because they'll determine how serious the cancer is and how much chemo I have to undergo... I'll get the answer on March 16th and then I'll writte it here, feel assured n.n But before that there'll probably be another update this Friday or at least this weekend - Friday I'm having the first chemo cure... I don't hope I get all sick and stuff

Ahhh, and friends? Please, I beg you - if you want to talk in phone with me, then you have to take the initiativ... ask me if I can talk later today or tomorrow or whenever it's convinient for you!! I don't really do much so you probably won't be disturbing me, but if you just write 'Tell me if you wanna talk' then I probably won't write... don't think of it as a offencive thing, it's not like that at all!! It's not that I don't want to talk with people, but... so many tell me to call them that I don't have the energy to write around anymore... Old classmates, family and friends, all wants to talk to me, so I don't want to pick between them - and as I said, I don't have the enery anymore... a phonecall always makes me glad, so just call if you wanna hear how I'm doing - don't wait for my permission, please...


And - thanks a lot for some wounderful days it was nice to get my mind off of stuff and to say goodbye to you in a good manner And the photoshoot with and Marie Lousie was really fun and awesome!! n.n I can't wait to see the pictures!! (I love you guys too and lloyd... I really really hope I'll be able to see you next week ;O; http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23433410/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 13:23:54 PST 'lymfeknudekræft' (I think it's 'malignt lymform' on english, if not latin o.o;; )...

Today I was at the hospital again and talked with a doctor about, what's going to happen from here on. Some more blodsamples was taken from me, and they found out that it's Morbus Hodgkins cancer I have... It's kinda difficult, but it's still pretty sure that they can cure it, so no need to worry =w=
They still need to make some tests to see, how serious it is/if the cancer have spread to other body-parts. On wedensday I'm being scanned to see if it's other places on my body, in my liver or... some place else, where I can't remember o.o;; They're also going to take a bonemarrow sample, and I'm really fearing that one, since they have to prope a needle into my bone T_T ... and that probably sounds more bad than it actually is, but still... based on the results they'll decide how long I have to receive chemotherapy and wheter or not they'll give me ray-threatment. If I'm unlucky at it's in a high state (and I have to recieve a lot of threatment), then they might have to remove my ovary so it won't be damaged during the threatment...
I really hope it's just my neck that's infected, if not and I have to receive a lot of threatment, then;
1) I might lose a lot (if not all) of my lovely hair ;O;
2) I may be sick for month - depending on how I react to chemotherapy...
3) I have to be very careful about going outside and hanging around people, because my immune system will be running very low and I might catch illnessses pretty easily and that could possibly lead to a hospitalization...
4) I might have to undergo surgery to get my ovary removed (and inserted again after the threatment...), if I ever wants to have children (which I will - or I would at least like to have the opportunety...)....

So, Wedensday I'll be tested, but it'll take some time before I get the results... Already on next Friday I'll get my first chemotherapy-threatment...
Things are happening really fast around me... but I'm still alright n.n partly because of all the support I get from people Thanks a lot, it means a lot to me and makes me feel less lonely n.n

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23302829/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23302829/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 08:40:34 PST
I'm still not feeling bad - I'm as lively as ever (except my arms hurts, but that's a whole other issue..) and I don't think that the fact that I have cancer have reached my brain yet... so I'm not even sad or worried yet :S More like numb... When the doctor told me and my parents I could not help but joke and laugh a little... they just looked indulgent at me... and again, when we was about to leave the room, the nurse seemed to want to hug me, but this time I just kinda wanted to get out of there, so it became just a handshake...

Ah, the docter said that it was not a hereditary type of cancer - it was more like 'just bad luck'-cancer... So well, in some way it's just like life says 'screw you' to me, by giving me this shit, while I still have stupid hurting arms... one positive thing though - this did not happen last year... If it had, I might had had to take the whole last year of high school over - AND THAT WOULD SURELY HAVE KILLED ME!!!!

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23118833/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23118833/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:55:31 PST

Well, from the beginning... The past few days have been okay - had I been on my own I would totally have freaked out and be anxious and everything.. but because she was with me, it made it all a lot easier on me... I had a great time with her and I only occasionally thought about today.
This morning we (my mother, best friend and me) drove to Århus, the city where the hospital was. I was told I was the first to have surgery that morning, meaning around 8 am, only 15 minutes after we arrived X.x I started shaking and got all nervous and sweaty... But I was number two, so I had to wait... At some point I just thought "come on, get it over with!" so I kinda managed to get mentally prepared - I even sleept a little before they where ready for me n.n;;
When I was given the anaesthesia, the doctor started to talk to me about air... he ased me how much oxygen there was in normal air, and I answered 21% without hesitation - he was like "...O_O..." then he asked me about how much nitrogen there was, and I said 78%. Then he was like "... O________________________________O..." - I seriously think he wanted to adopt me because he was that impressed xD;; (I've had chemistry on high niveau in high school..) But then the room started to swirl around and I could not really answer probably anymore.
The next thing I remember is waking up from a dreamless, but pleasent darkness o.o;; (eventhough the last thing I thought about was surgery and chemistry >__>;; ). My mother and friend entered the room and I gradually got more and more of my brain back. Only a hour had passed, but apparently everything went well..
I stayed at the hospital for some more hours, but actually went home around 2 pm - only 6 hours after I arrived and 3 hours after the surgery started... they had'nt even put a drain in my neck...

It actually did not hurt much, and I think I handlet it better than expected (both my parents and friend is very amazed and proud of me because I haven't been freakin out at all, and that means a lot to me n.n)
BUT!!! Now the local anaesthesia has fadded and it hurts like shit... really, I'm about to cry from the pain (probably also because I'm a little emotional from the drug, but jesus christ, this hurts so bad...) and I just can't help but hold on to my neck where the bandages are... I feel so pathetic and I really think a good nights sleep will help, but I kinda doubt that I'll be able to sleep for the pain (eventhough I got some pretty strong painkillers...).

I'm going to get the results of the test from the sample they remove from my neck, next Wedensday... they'll also remove the stitches then and maybe assign me to some further treatment... but right now I'm just hoping that the pain will fade ;O; sorry I sound like such a whine-ass... I know some of you might have tried something even worse, but this is really big for me...
But thanks a lot to all of you that where cheering for me - it means a lot to me and I just thought I'd let you know that I survived and that everything went well (according to the doctors.. now I just have to force my way through the pain..)

~

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23035009/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/23035009/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 03:34:19 PST
Well, a bit more explanation : maybe you read my last journal? Did you notice the part about me having a funny sweeling on the right side of my throat and that the doctors could not figure out what it was? Well, lats Thursday I got this swelling and Friday my mother dragged my to the doctor. They could not figure out what it was, but took some bloodsamples. The result from those came back Tuesday, but they could still not figure out what it was. They arranged an appointment for me the same day with a specialist. He could not figure it out either, but he took a sample directly from the swelling, gave me some medicin and made an appointment for me at the local hospital two days later, for a scanning. He got the results the same day and called me and told me, that I had to go to the big regional hospital with even more specialists the next day (today). There they scanned me again (two different ways), took some blood samples and again some tissue from the swelling itself... Their conclusion = on Tuesday I have to go there again and then they'll do surgery on me... Apparantly the tissue samples are too bloody, so they have to go directly into my throat to get a good sample!!! ... now might be a good time to say, that one of the things I fear the most, is surgery... Worst case scenario is that I have cancer, BUT there are good treatments for this kind.. But that's the worst - it can also just a be some infection or something...

So I'm not dying or anything... unless they scare me to death ;O; (the nurse hugged me when she saw my face after we talked about surgery...)

A week ago, nothing was really wrong with me... in a week I'll be home after two days on the hospital, with a wound on my neck and a big hole in my memory from the anaesthesia..................



.:EDIT!!!!:.
I just want to clarify this because I kinda get the feeling that some of you get it the wrong way n.n;; = it's not like I'm afraid I'm never going to wake up again, I know I'll be fine! That's not what scares me... it's more the THOUGHT of getting surgery that scares me. It might sound kinda weird and unlogical, but my mind can just be wicked xD;; I have a waaaay to lively imagination... Additionally this whole situation is just surreal to me, because I don't feel that anything is wrong - I'm kinda just waiting to wake up n.n;; eventhough I know I won't...
Anyway, I've actually gotten much more used to the thought of getting surgery during the past 24 hours, and it's not that bad to think about now... wierd, yes, but not super bad... So I'm kinda proud of myself n.n;; *silly* But thanks a lot for your support guys - it means a lot to me


]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/22903628/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/22903628/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 12:28:04 PST __>;;

It's just gonna be short - my arms stille hurts a lot, but I've started at a new physiotherapist and she's very positive about it... she says it'll take a LOT of time, but she dosn't doubt at all that it'll get better ;O; so I just hope...
Next week my best friend will FINALLY come visit me, and I just can't wait to spend some days with her!! n.n it's been so long since last and a lot have happened that I want to talk to her about..
I currently working on two different cosplays and planing a third an forth xD;; Kallen (from Code Geass) in her Black Knight uniform and her outfit from season one. The girl school uniform (also from Code Geass) and a secret cosplay that I'm very excited about x3 I think it's turning out great! n.n
I was a the doctors today, because my throat is kinda sweeled in one side... around my collar bone o.o;; It dosn't hurt, it's just really freaky and really hard.. she couldn't figure out what it could be so she took some bloods samples from me (*faint* NEEDLES! T_T;; ) and then I'll hear the result Tuesday.. - but if it gets any worse during the weekend I have to go se a doctor A.S.A.P!!! o.o;; *cough*
I'm really happy because my webcomic seems to be a succes - people offers to do fanarts for me, comments a lot and I even got a fan poem and one did a page layout for me! o.o it feels really good and makes me happy n.n
Tomorrow I'm going to see some old classmates and have fun n.n I'm kinda looking forward to it, actually x3
Ah, those of you that haven't heard how it turned out between me and that guy I dated in December, then I can tell you that I ended it in the beginning of this year n.n;; He's a really sweet guy, but he has TWO childs and that's just a little more than I can handle as a first date o.o;; But he was totally awesome and said that he completely understood that, but still hoped we could be friends (thats right, HE said that, not me n.n) so it's fine...

Hmm, I don't think I have anymore to say... I'm really sorry I don't talk more with my friends than I do, but I really hope you can understand that right now I just wanna get rid of that shit in my arms ;O; so I'm really busting my ass to take it slow X.x (eventhough it might not sound like that xD;; ) If you have a homenumber (altså, et fastnets nummer n.n;; ) then I would love to have it and call you sometime when you have time and talk (I call for free to danish fastnets (??? =w=;; ) phones x3)
I really hope all of you are doing well.. I miss you people and can't wait to see a lot of you again!!!

[[Okay, this go rather long xD;; I guess a lot has happened this first month of 2009 n.n;; ]]



]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/22157642/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/22157642/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 06:00:52 PST Merry Christmas everyone - love you n.n ~

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21928488/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21928488/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 09:50:36 PST
Hvorfor FANDEN shipper Bookdepository ikke længere til danmark?!?!??!?
- nok bare sådan cirka min yndlings hjemmeside, hvor jeg har købt en hel masse bøger fra og havde planer om at købe langt flere fra i fremtiden... pludselig sender de ikke til dk mere??!??!?!? (det er en online engelsk 'boghandel'...) Sad og var ved at (prøve) købe nogle bøger i julegaver til nogle af mine venner, da den ikke gider at tage imod min ordrer når jeg tastede min adresse ind.. gik ind i deres news sektion hvor jeg så, at "de må beklage at de ikke længere sender til Denmark"... Hvis det her har NOGET at gøre med PostfreakinDanmarks priser der stiger her efter jul, bliver jeg tosset!!! (bookdepository har gratis shipping worldwide.. bare ikke til danmark mere...) Hvor mange gange kan de tillade sig at blive ved med at sætte fragtafgiften op?!? Det stiger fandenma hele tiden... ALT offentligt stiger hele tiden, offentlig transport (på trods af at det er det regeringen vil satse på i fremtiden... wtf???), brev omdeling (... og bliver så nu i tvivl om postdanmark er regerings eller personejet, men whatever)og sådan cirka alt andet... Jeg er ved at være TRÆT af det!!! Jeg hader virkelig vores regering... Jeg synes ikke at de har gjort én god ting siden de kom til... seriøst, jeg kan ikke komme i tanke om en... De har fucket vores sygehus system op, lavet den nye gymnasiereform (tak for lort...) og lavet de nye regioner, hvilket i sig selv er godt nok, men når de ikke kan få det hele til at fungere efter hensigten, hjælper det ikke så meget...

Og det kan godt være at jeg overreagerer totalt, men det er virkelig virkelig træls... jeg står nu på bar bund angående gaver til gode venner og skal finde en anden måde at bestille bøger på i fremtiden - og jeg VED bare at det bliver dyrer..

Fuck det... *er rasende*

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21797834/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21797834/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 11:06:03 PST
I found a job erh, it’s actually just as a cleaning substitute at a temping agency called Temp-Team. But I’m already on my second temporary job! The first one was a night/evening shift and this one is in the morning – early morning X.x I’m getting up at 4:45 each day to make it, so I’m pretty tired right now n.n;; But I’m finally earning some money.. They actually called from the evening-shift job today, asking especially for me because they had been so happy with me last week – but I just need to relax for a bit today… but still, it feels nice to be appreciated!! n.n

I don’t know exactly why, but I feel kinda depressed most of the time these days… something bad didn’t really happen to me or something… I guess I’m just kinda lonely and angry because my arms hurts… and I tend to get a little depressed in December – I have no freakin idea why!! O-o;; I love Christmas and all that, I really do, but it’s like.. it’s the ending of the year and… Erh, it’s pretty hard to explain, but I kinda see time in colours… it’s not something I do on purpose, it’s totally unconscious. And December is dark/black… November was fine, but the 1th I just got this really sad feeling, I’ve been getting the last few years when December started – it’s seriously weird! And I don’t know what to do about it… When it’s the 1th January, I’ll probably be all fine again :S I don’t know if it’s winter depression or something… it’s like I see the ending of the year, but not the beginning of the next..

I hope it’ll be a bit better next weekend though. A really sweet guy I’ve been writing with since J-popcon is coming to visit me and I’m sooo looking forward to it! n.n I’m going to show him my hometown and he asked me out to dinner in exchange n////n I’m also going to see my dear Lloyd in the near future, and I’m pretty sure she’ll be able to cheer me up a bit too!! n.n

I’m really looking forward to the Christmas holidays because I’m going to see my honey, whom I haven’t been alone with in a looong time, HOPEFULLY I’m going to spend some time with my dear dear friend, anna and then I’m going to have new years with my Lloyd and another good friend, bine n.n and k-san, my little cheese-kun-friend xD I’m seriously looking forward to that… it just seems so far away, so in my everyday life the dark-December is just dominating, making me tired, grumpy, moody and sad x.x

… I seriously need to see some of my friends – I haven’t seen any since j-popcon T_T and it makes me reeeeally sad to think about x.x

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21562251/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21562251/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 07:11:01 PST explanation will follow… oh, and if you’re not interested in my personal life or feelings, then there’s no reason for you to waste your time reading this journal, cause that’s really what it’ll all be about n.n;;

As most of you know, I’m unemployed at the moment. I finished school this summer, and have been taking it easy while looking for a job since. When people ask me, what I’m doing at the moment, I answer that I’m applying for a few jobs in town… and that’s not really a lie. But when it has been one and a half month since I dropped my applications forms at the stores, it doesn’t mean that I’m still applying (even though I apparently try to fool myself into believing that)… I want to apply to some more jobs I have my eyes on, but I just don’t have any motivation to actually do something serious to get me a job… Sure, I don’t have much money and it’s really a hazel and seriously depressing, but it’s just not enough to motivate… My brother works really hard because he wants to go on a study trip for Mexico next year, but I don’t have such a dream… I don’t have any dreams for my future right now that can give me the motivation I need to get my ass in gear.
I’m the kind of person that from one day to another said; “okay, now I want to write a diary eeeevery day!” and have done it each day straight for about 6 years. Even though I’ve never practiced running, I just from one day to another started to run every second day. When I was on a pill treatment, it was no problem for me to eat 3 pills three times a day – without forgetting it once. I’m extremely good at making new habits and keep them. But I’m also the kind of person that often lacks motivation… I’m never bored, I always have stuff I could or should do. If anything, I can always draw or write, but I’m seriously lacking motivation to do the important stuff… I should be considering my future, what I want to study or what I want to work with. But I just never get it done. One and a half year ago and long before that, I had a dream of becoming a zoologist (one working with animals… but after 3 years in school, I don’t want that anymore. Why? Because I have to study my one favourite subject AND my three worst subjects… and that is just not worth it. I’m the kind of person that since kindergarten have known what I want to be. It has changed a bit, but I’ve always had a goal. Always. When the adults asked me, what I wanted to be, I could answer without hesitation. Then they would go; “That’s impressive, that you know what you want to be so surely!”. I don’t think I’ve ever been in a place in my life, where I did not have a goal…
Not completely true. I do have a goal, but right now it’s impossible to accomplish. I want to have one of my novels published. It doesn’t have to be a bestseller like Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings, I just want to see it in the bookstores… or be able to hold it in my hands. But since my arms hurts like they do now, I can’t write on stories. You might think it’s weird that I can write here but not on my novels, but the difference is, that this isn’t nearly as long as my novels… I don’t feel like writing on my stories if I can only write two pages at most, and then have to wait a week (or two) before I can write more. Then the feelings in them will just be gone.
‘But what about your friends?’ – right, most of my friends live hours away from me, so I have to take the train to see them and that costs money. That’s my biggest motivation for earning money. But almost everyone is so busy with school and everything, so even if I did have the money, they wouldn’t have much time to see me anyway (this isn’t an accusation, guys, just stating the facts). It’s my biggest motivation; it’s just not very big…

I’m pretty confident in my writing and I don’t think I’m half-bad at drawing either. That’s just not something I can make money out of. Academically I’m about average, with a few strong subjects and a few very weak ones… That doesn’t help me in the search of a job either. My biggest feature in my job hunting is that I’m good at talking with people, many different types of people. I can talk with young-ones, old-ones, emo-ones and fashion-ones. I’m a pretty all around person. I naturally smile to the shop assistant when I buy something and I can easily talk with people when we’re standing in line. BUT… for some reaso... ]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21167503/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/21167503/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 08:21:48 PDT

In under than two weeks the danish manga and anime convention, J-popcon will be held in Copenhagen... Are YOU comming??? O__________ó ~ I'm thinking about trying to sell some of my stuff... I don't really feel like selling my original drawings since I don't believe people will buy them, and especially not to the prize I would want for them xD;;; But I'll try to make some keychains and bookmarks... and some random stuff n.n;; If I took 20 kr for a keychain and 10 (or 15?) kr for a bookmark, would you then consider buying one? T_T I would make a poll if I still had my subscription... but I don't.... so I wont't xD;;;
And I CAN'T wait to cosplay!!!!! O____________O seriously, I get all hyper just thinking about it xD.... I just finished my cosplay and I think it's the most brilliant thing I've ever done T_T and my partners outfit is sooooo damn sexy, I just wanna run my fingers through her hair... - and I'm just a journal!! (intern joke, so don't sweat it if you don't understand xD;; ) I just got home from her house and our cosplay is just going to be soooo damn good... If you're comming to j-popcon then look forward to see it!!! n.n

So, in short I'm asking you:

- Do you come to j-popcon? o.o (are you going to cosplay? x3)
- Would you buy something from me?
... - do you read my online story, Lost Love on Smackjeeves? Owo


And in the past week, two of my good friends had birthday = and I totally love you guys and just wanted to whish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY yet another time!! n.n ~

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20716048/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20716048/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 02:44:15 PDT w< - or anything xD;; (even if I wanted to leave dA for good, I don't think I could keep entirely away =w=;; ) I'm just leaving for vacation QwQ OHHHH THE BEACH AND SUN, HERE I COOOOME!!!!!!! Me and my family (my parents and my brother) are leaving a week For Cypern in Greek n.n I'm soooo looking forward to it!! x3 ~ We'll leave tonight with train to the capital and from there we'll tomorrow morning at 8:00 am take a flight to Cypern x3
We'll first be home monday next week (the 6th of Oct.) in the middle of the night again =w= So people who has my phone number - it would be a really stupid (and expensive) idea to text me in the next week - wait until Tuesday when I've gotten home! n.n

Erh, some of you might not notice it much in here that I'm gone at all... I'm not that active at the moment, I know, but I AM drawing, I'm just not updating... and I can't answer why, because I'm actually really proud of the drawings >__>;; I'm not looking at peoples deviations (SORRY >.<;;; ) because there's 975 in my counter X.x I can't keep up with it (damn, watching too many brilliant people ;O; )... I can't even keep up with answering comments or replies, because I wanna spend as little time by the computer as possible - then my hands dosn't hurt, and I can sew on my cosplay! n.n But I'm still updating my comic on smackjeeves :3 That's actually the only place I'm active online at the moment...


But wish me a good trip everyone!! n.n I'm really excited and I'll make a journal about how the trip went, when I get home x3
~ Love you all ^w^

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20652467/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20652467/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 13:51:34 PDT
Actually the first 6 hours of that days where very normal. I went to school, complained about it, and was bored, but happy because I got home early... liltle did I know that my friend Tanja had done a discovery that would make the day sadder than any other day in the year...
Almost the minute I got home, she called me. She asked if I had talked with Charlotte since the day before, which I hadn't.. she said that she had found and article about two young people that had been driven over in the area where Charlotte lived. She had tried to call and contact Charlotte, because the she had not been only anywhere on the internet since before the accident (and Charlotte was the kind of person who checked her internet as often as she could), and had started to feel anxious that she had been involved in the accident. I tried to contact Charlotte too, but could not reach her. None of us knew her parents number or anything, but luckily I had an envelope from once when she had send me a letter (yes, I do save that kind of stuff...) so we could google her, but did not find any number on the internet. We found her neightboors number though, and called that one... She did not know anything, but she got Tanja's number, then she would ask the other neightboor and call us back. She did after 10 minuts or so, and she could tell us, that it was Charlotte that had died. This is what had happened:

Her and a friend had been sitting in the trench, smooking and having fun. It was dark and on a small road. A car had passed them and the driver had stopped to ask if anything was wrong. They had said, that they were fine and he had gone away. But when he was some hundres meters away from them, he changed his mind and decided to drive back and tell them, that it was dangorous to sit there in the dark. So he turned the car around to drive back to them. But unfortunately there was an oncoming. On the small road the cars had to make space for each other to pass and the oncommer pulled over - just where Charlotte and her friend sat. They where hit, and her friend died on the spot. She herself got to the hospital but after a day she passed away...

Tanja and I where shocked. Personally I was kinda relieved (please don't misunderstand me) because the time when we hadn't known for sure if it where her or someone else, had been unbearable... It was kind of 'nice' to get it over... But of course it would have been better to have had it deconfirmed than confirmed...
We was now in a hard situation. Should we tell it to others? And how many? who should know it? Should we spread it all over the internet or just let her and ours friends know? We decided to call a few persons.. This was really hard too... I tell you, it's NOT fun to tell people that one of their friends is dead... What shocked me the most was when I told one of my best friends and she started to cry on the phone. She keept on saying that it couldn't be true, and there was nothing I could do to comfort her... It was actually first after that that I realized it was true... and only the day after that I cried. I'm very bad at handling death... I don't know how to react, but around a day after I found out that Charlotte was dead, I cried.. for almost a hour...

She was not my best or closest friend or anything, but Charlotte had a vitality that just made everyone love her... Really, she was a lovely, nice, fun and life-happy person, that I'll always remember. She was an excellent drawer And I wanna show some drawings of her off here. It's from a book filled with drawings I got for my birthday, a few months before the accident.. = (but since my subscription has run out, I can only give you some links ;O; ARGH!!!!)

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And last of all, I want to show a few pictures of her from the last time I was together with her; my birthday. I think you can see just how much vitality she has... It makes me happy just by looking at her

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http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20288213/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 11:13:55 PDT

The Mumie

Yes, today I was in the cinema and watched The Mumie 3.... I gotta say, I'm not impressed T_T I've been more disappointed about other movies, but this wasen't what I dah expected... First thing is, that the actress playing Evy isn't the same as in the previous two movies - and the new one isn't half as good as the old one. There wasn't any spark between Rick and Evy (again the new actress, probably ;O; ), their son just randomly falls in love (not very convincing) and the jokes are just very random and dosn't fit all the time.. It's like the producers just thought "oh, we need some fun now, else we'll lose the watchers... let's see.. a joke there and a joke there should do the thing.." Just totally random!! Another thing is, that it's a chinese mumie this time... Erh, I think it worked a lot better when it was egypthian (might be because I have a thing for ancient egypt, I don't know) not that Jet Lee wasn't good as mumie (no personality whatsoever) but Arnold Vosloo was a lot more convincing as Imhotep T___T

Aaaah, just needed to get that out of my system =w= if anyone has seen it and has a different opinion about it, feel free to share it x3 .. when I'm done writing this journal, I'm going to see the second Mumie movie, I think QwQ

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.:FAQS:.

Hmmm, I think it's about time I do this, since I've been tagged by 4 or 5 different persons o.o;;;

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1-POST THESE RULES IN YOUR JOURNAL

2-EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.

3-AT THE END, YOU MUST TAG 8 PEOPLE AND POST THEIR ICONS IN YOUR SAME JOURNAL.

4-GO TO THEIR PAGE AND SEND THEM A MESSAGE THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.

5- NO TAG-BACKS.

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Years back I participated in a math contest with a few from my class, and we won the second plaze (and some money for our class x3) .... I know hate math >___>;;;

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I'm OBSESSED with Code Geass!! n.n

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If I had to choose to stop either writing or drawing, I would stop drawing..

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I've attended a "writter school" where only 12 persons out of 300-500 where choosen to participate by their skills n.n So a shortstory I've written has actually been published :3

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Yu-Gi-Oh Abridged cracks me up all the time!! >xD it's just the best humor ever!! n.n

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I was about to die when my mother wanted me to describe to her, what a blowjob is X_________x;;;

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I'm kind of a attentionwhore n.n;; But people says that it's in a good way o.o;;; I know I am, but still try to give others some space too ;O;

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Right now I feel sad, a bit angry, disappointed and moody because I feel that one of my friends (a really good friend that I care about a great deal)is neglecting me, eventhough I know she has a pretty hard time herself..


Hmmm, and for the tagging... I don't really know who's been tagged or not, so I'm just going to tag someone xD;; then they can do it or not n.n;;

and and http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/20056701/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 09:35:22 PDT

Aaaah, so many things to say, so little time... Well, I'll make a quick update =

1. I just finished seeing Yu-Gi-Oh and seriously, it's actually an amazing anime ;O; It has a great plotline, CHARACTERS ACTUALLY DIE, the chars are realistic (meaning that their personalities evolvs really good) and Atemu's japanish voice is just... omg QwQ and still. ABRIDGED SERIES!!! xD (Ahhhhhhhahahahahahahahaha - Nadia, you know what I'm talking about!! >xD)

2. Gah, I have SO much inspiration for my novels!! QwQ That writters come-together really worked wonders on my creativity... Now I just need my arms to stop hurting >__>;;

3. I just bought some fabric for my C.C (Code Geass char) cosplay QwQ *can't wait to get started*

4. I LOVE FRIENDS!! xD It makes me laugh so hard!! QwQ *glomps Chandler*

5. I'm looking forward to upload some of my newest drawings, cause I actually really like them o.o;;

6. I wanna buy some Visual Kei skiiiiirts ;O; but I need money... arh, you got me totally hooked on the skirt-long-socks-style nadia >__>;; SHAME ON YOU!! ~

7. I WON 'S COLOURING CONTEST!!!! o_______________O FIRST PLACE!!!!!! >.< *really happy* and she said this about me colouring:
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1st Place

by

Despite the fact I dislike dark tones, I have to agree with everyone, Mirazie is quite skilled in shading, there is almost a sense of realism, and the colors combine well. There is a gloss for the overall atmosphere. (the hair's shiny...) The background is unique in its own way, not summery as I expected, but suited to the picture.
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First contest I enter on dA and I win!! n.n my self-confidence is feeling pretty good xD;;

8. Since no one got my kiribian for 3000 pageviews, the next kiribian will be 3333... remember to show me a screencap, then you'll get a sketch (maybe a coloured drawing, that depends on what I feel like...)

9. Regetta was AWESOME!!! QwQ I had some great days with and !! - thanks a lot guys ;O;

10. and will come and visit me this weekend, and I'm so excited!! >.< it's been a while since I saw Anna and I really miss her ;O; and... it's been under 5 days since I last saw Nadia, but I miss her too xD;; *shrug*
... should have come as well, but when you have not money you have to chancel... sad, but that's life... it just kinda hurts since it's the second time withing 1½ weeks, that she has to chancel on me ;O;

Hmmmm, and not much more I guess QwQ *goes off to eat* ... my gawd, I'm actually starving o.o;; *didn't realize it because it was too exciting to write this journal... kinda*

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http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19929494/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 07:19:16 PDT

Omg, right now I just don't have any idea about what has happened X.x I've just returned from my last exam (I was ill when the original one was some months ago so I had to do it now) and... seriously, math can kill a death person X_____________x I just hate it so much!!! Dx

But still... why am I in this INCREDIBLY good mood??? xDDDD I really don't have any reason to be, but I'm just extremely happy, and I spread the bad jokes all over the place (my brother is about to kill me, I'm sure xD)... It's not because math went well or anything I'm just... happy xD walking around, laughing to myself, it's actually a bit creepy xD;; (omg, look at all the smileyes!! xD;; *dies* xD)

ARH, I'M GONNA RAPE YOUR INBOXS WITH USELESS JOURNALS!!!! QwQ ahhh, I would wish I had someone here by me to share this happy-crazy-ness with xD but Nadia will first arrive friday =w=;; and I'll have to figure out HOW (and if) we can sleep three people in my bedroom - cause if we can, Laura might join us!!! QwQ *ohhh joy*

Gleh, I think I might go waste some of my bad humor on Yugioh abridged xD seriously people, it's just super-special-awesome!!! O.o if you havn't seen it... then GO DO IT!!! xD (and if you have seen it, then SHARE the bad jokes with me!!!!! >xD)[link]
... so much awesomeness in only 4 minuts a episode =w= ~

Stay happy people, cause if you smile to the world you'll get sooo much more out of life!!!! QwQ (... says the girl who was kinda depressed two days ago xD;;;; ) ~

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- birthday drawing (surprise xD) - done
- Kiribian 2000 (fanart)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (her char)- done (not uploading)
- Kiribian 2222 (Haru or Chihiro)- done (not uploading)


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[[Because I like too many people in here ;O; - people that I haven't actually seen but mailed with in years, are on the list too xD;; And mail me if I forgot someone or anything ;O;]]

http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19896397/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 11:52:58 PDT

Okay, the upcomming fire festival (it's only held once every 3-4 year so it's really something) in my town is comming nearer and nearer and I'm really looking forward to it!!! .... or, I was... My best friend had to cancel on me earlier today and she was supposed to come tomorrow.. I'm actually not really angry (how can I be, when I know she has money problems?) I'm just rather... sad? a bit disappointed? I don't know... I actually kinda feel like a stoneface o.o;; It's really depressing >__>;; if I had had one of my nearly-emo days I would have weeped like a little girl! Now I just feel empty... Argh, I hate to sound all depressed and stuff in my jornal, it's just that I don't have any other place where I can talk with people about it.. I can't text much, because it hurts my arms and I don't really feel like talking on the phone... So I hope you don't mind me, and if you hate it too much, then please just don't read it xD;;

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Yesterday I got home from some super-special-awesome days!!! n.n
Last thursday, friday and saturday was spend at 's house, first time visiting her EVER!! x3 it was so much fun and it was really nice to finally meet her, cause I've heard so many nice things about her - and now I can say that they where all true n.n ~
Monday I went shopping with and in Aarhus and when Sora went home, I went to Reegetas house and spend some AWESOME days there!! n.n (I just can't stop talking about yugioh abridged!! O.o;; I think it's a decease xD;; Joey: "Let this be a lesson for you, Yug. Never under ANY curcumstances leave your beaver exposed!" _ Yugi: "You're right Joey, my beaver was at full display! Next time I'll take better care of my beaver..." ) - I'll upload some cool photoshoot pictures we took!! n.n (omg, I'm actually wearing VK cloth!! o.o;; )
Friday I went to 's house where I met a new super-special-awesome person; Ida. It was so much fun!! xD then saturday we all went to "Writters con" (kinda, I don't know how to describe it better o.o;;; ) and it was really cool... I met a lot of nice new people and had a lot of fun!! ~ And I've been motivated to work on my novel again, YAY QwQ!!!
And now I'm finally back home... with nothing to look forward to, cause on Wedensday I have to take my last exam X.x;; I'm looking forward to see again (of course ;O; it's just sad that it'll only be for a day...), but I was really really looking forward to see again tomorrow, since it's been so long since I last saw her ;O; ...

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- birthday drawing (surprise xD) - done
- Kiribian 2000 (fanart)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (her char)- done (not uploading)
http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19604439/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 09:45:45 PDT

Well, yes, today's the day, and I'm finally 19 n.n (not that it means anything special >__>;; )

The day started at 6 am when I woke because of our neightboors cat, that sometimes sounds like a freakin baby O.o;; It's scary, seriously... and then I couldn't sleep anymore... so two hours later, when my family came to give me presents and sing birthday song for me, I was already awake n.n;;
My two uncles and aunt came to eat breakfast with us, and stayed for several hours - so much fun x3 my granny and later a friend of our family called to congrats me x3
When my family left around 1 pm, my mother, fater and I went to a trip with Hjejlen ([link]) - the worlds oldest, still sailing steamboat and one of the things that my city is most famous of n.n It was really fun, because the weather was AMAZING!!! not a cloud on the sky and around 25 degrees x3 After a hour we came to a place, where we ate some icecream before we went back x3 a fun day, but by now I'm pretty tired xD;; My parents are making a delicious meal for me, and I can't wait - my dad is a former chef so his food is soooo good >x3 ~


And people were really nice to remember my birthday!!! ;O;

, , all called me to congrats me (eventhough Laura didn't caught me T_T I wasn't quick enough to get the phone >__>;;; )and Tazu even send me the OST of Code Geass as a present!!! >.< unfortunately I already have that, but I'm so happy she got anything for me at all

, , , , , , and all texted me (so did my two cousins and my other aunt) and made me really happy ~ (thanks a lot guys, my hands/arms really hurts so I haven't been able to answer all of you, since texting is the worst thing for me to do... n.n but I love you all a lot!!! >-< )

For presents I've by now got =
- a headset (from my brother)
- a suitcase (from my parents)
- an 'expansion card' for my mobile (so I have more space for songs and so... I don't know the real name in english o.o;; )
- a silk scarf (from my aunt and uncle)
- earrings (from my other aunt and uncle xD)
- around $20 (from my grandparents)
- Code Geass OST (from tazu-chan http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19532314/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 07:30:46 PDT

Yus, I'm almost reaching 3000 pageviews!!x3 and I'm gonna draw the person, that can show me a screenshot of the 3000th pageview, a drawing BUT, it'll only be a sketch!! I'm currently not drawing very much, and what I draw is for my comic... I need to draw what I feel for, and sadly that's not very much at the moment X.x So it'll be a sketch, unless I like it so much, that I wanna colour it, but don't depend on that..

I'm working on your kiribian I just finished the sketch And , I've done a sketch for you, but I won't upload it here on dA... (I don't like it enough for that >__>;; ) I'll send you a note sometime today with it x3

RANDOM UPDATE
Erh, my arms still hurts a lot, so I'm not that effective right now with anything... The last few weeks I've visited some lovely friends in Copenhagen ad this weekend dear Laura was at my home, and we saw Code Geass (the whole season one xD). And guess what... I got another person totally hooked on that anime!!! QwQ Well, it isn't that hard, cause the anime is just absolutely amazing... I just saw the newest episode (ep 15.) and my gawd, I didn't thought that it could be more brilliant, but it did... I just love Lelouch's mind and personality, the story takes a turn for the more interesting and I just don't have any idea of how it's going to end o.o;;; I've never been this excited about an anime before, so sorry about all my babbling, I hope you'll bear with me n.n;;
Tomorrow I'm going to the movies and see "Narnia - Prince Caspian" with a friend x3 And saturday I'm gonna celebrate my birthday with my family, I'll have to finish a drawing for a contest I'm entering, I've just bought a birthday present for my best friend and overall I'm just finally chilling out xD my gawd, it feels so good to be free from school!! X.x

- Right now my thoughts goes to anna, who I haven't heard much from in over a month, because she has been really busy ;O; I just hope she has fun with milky... And to my sweetheart~friend Yassa, who I can't wait to see again and hear what she thinks about the present I bought her (if I got it I think I would hit someone xD;;; But my mother thinks it's an amazing present o.o;; ... then yassa can learn to give me some wishes, damn it!! >__>;; ).... And to Sandra, who thought that my birthday was friday and called and congratulated me yesterday xD (because she's on vacation until saturday) ... And to Nadia, who's chilling on the little island Bornholm with her family QwQ (and probably raping everything that she sees xD ) ... And to Charlot and her sister - Charlot is sending me a letter with drawings and such, and I can't wait to receive it ;O; I'm just so excited!! >.< ... And to Lelouch, because [[SPOILER]] dies and [[SPOILER]] loses [[...]] memory and then he is [[SPOILER]] ;O; omg, the sadness... (If you don't know, I'm talking about the mainchar from Code geass xD;; sorry...) .... and Aida, because I really wanna visit her soon ;O; ... And to Taz, because I can't wait to see what she bought me in Paris and it's been so long since I last heard from her... And to Laura, because it was so much fun to be with her again and I miss her already and I'll see her in two weeks or so x3 .... adn Anja, because she's sweet and makes my happy and Tanja because she's wounderful and Katja because she's an amazing person, and Sora because she's the perfect little lovely rape-victim In short, all the people that I love very much and is ver precious to me ;O; (yearh, I'm kinda sentimental right now,, I know xD;;...)

I love you guys!!!! >____< ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19218404/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19218404/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 03:12:54 PDT

.... just went home a couple of hours ago ;O; I'm gonna miss you BUT I'll see you again in a few days >xD thanks for some nice days and... for making me fat with all the candy xD;; *cough*

Erh, I actually wanted it to be a surprise, but I can't keep it for myself anylonger, I just wanna shout it out loud!! >.< I'M MAKING A NEW 'COMIC'!!!!!!! QwQ And I think it's gonna be reeeaaally good n.n (at least I like it myself >__>;; ) it's gonna be kinda special, since it's only going to be half comic.. I guess it's mainly a novel, but there'll be illustrations on each page and so on... so half comic, half novel x3 and yes, it's gonna be a yaoi, shounen ai, BL or which word you prefer to use n.n;; I'm planning on uploading it on Smackjeeves, but I want to finish a couple of pages before I do so - when I do upload it I'll make a journal about it, okay? n.n

THE UPDATED PART
I've now uploaded the first pages to Smackjeeves n.n you can read it here: [link]
I actually wanted to wait a week or so (until I came home from vacation) but yesterday I just had this HUGE irresistible urge to upload it ;O; so here it is!! n.n I hope you'll read it and let me have your opinion on it



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Hmmm, from Wednesday and a week forward I'll be busy and I don't think I'll be able to update or answer comments, depending on my access to a computer x3 GYA, I'm sooooo looking forward to see you all people!!! QwQ (omg, it's so many xD;; you know who you are ;O; )

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ONLY 19 DAYS UNTIL MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!! >w< I'll love you forever if you congrats me on that day and... if you make me a drawing or something I'll throw myself at your feets and worship you ;O; I'm just a sucker for drawings and especially fanart >w<~
Erh, I know it's kinda embarassing to ask for something like this, believe me, I really do but... the last few years people have tended to forget it >__>;; well, not those closest to me, but my best friends from primary school have forgotten it the last two years eventhough I've remembered theirs and congratulated them =____=;; they're not that important to me anymore, but it still kinda hurt...
SO now everybody is noticed in advance o.o;; And hopefully, this year, I don't get any messages (on the day or after, when I talk about it..) like "omg, you should have said so earlier!!! >.< I didn't know ;O;" ... n.n;;

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Anyone seen that Antique Bakery (yaoi) is being made into a anime? O.o OMG, It's so... well, the backgrounds... I don't like it that much I gotta say >__>;; but the opening is just pure LOVE!! >.< If anyone have it, please give it to me ;O; Here's a link to the opening AND the lovely song xD = [link]
And Junjou Romantica have reached a ending >__>;; At least season one... if it sells well, they'll publish season two too ;O; I hope they do... mmmh, I think I'll watch the last episode tonight x3 ~
And Monochrome Factor is just amazing!! It's so much fun xD light shounen ai, but Shirogane is just so much fun because he makes everything look dirty x3 really really worth a watch QwQ Here's a link to the opening on youtube (I just love teh song If you have that, please send it to me too ;O; ) = [link]


Well, not much more to say, I guess xD;; I'll be off to make another page in my comic-thingy x3 ~

http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19108207/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 11:31:34 PDT

Erh, because I was tagged by :iconregeeta: >__>;; and because I promised a less depressing journal days ago, but forgot about it xD;; and right now my arms hurts too much to write anything, soo.... I'll try to write something more interesting in a few days - if my arms are better by then ;O;


[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[/] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (not extremely..)
[x] I have/I've had braces. (have had one that I should sleep with at night :3)
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[/] I've run away from home. (when I was little xD my parents answer: “just be home at six!” – then I went to the playground =w
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[/] I'm in school (just finished..))
[x] I have a job (actually two because I haven’t stopped at the first place yet xD;; )
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[/] I've missed a week or more of school. (not in a row..)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[XXXXX] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (can’t help it xD;; )
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples
[/] I've broken a bone. (it was actually just a little crack in the bone, but it was named a ‘broken’ bone o.o)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (I didn’t drive myself..)
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[/] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (I’m not sure, but it would surprise me if I hadn’t o.o;; )
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (my brother >xD)
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[/] I have a fear of abandonment. (kinda..)
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19035079/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/19035079/ Wed, 25 Jun 2008 08:50:40 PDT

I hate this... I seriously do...

My internet went down the second I wanted to save the journal (the loooong journal...).. I'll try to make it exactly like before...

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I GRADUATED YESTERDAY!!! QwQ (well not on the paper, but no matter what I do wrong in the last test, I'll stil become a student x3) - So I got my hat and it's beautifull And I also got a new haircut yesterday n.n;;

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That's how I started this journal about two hours ago... And now my mood is almost directly the opposite... Now I just think the whole day sucks...
Have you ever tried to feel so much pain that you just wanted to faint? - and almost do? Well, that's how my new treatment is.. A brilliant beginning of the day... After my visit to the doctor I had to go to the school and return some books, that I don't have.... Some of my teachers has just, when a few from our class borrowed them, listet all of us under that book... And if we don't return all of the books, we have to pay for them. So I tried to speak to those that take care of the books, and they said, that I had to make my teacher contact them and say that I didn't get the book... So when i got home, I wrote to all four teachers (yes, four teachers did that stupid thing...) and uptil now, only one has answered.... And he says, that we DID get the book, we just never used it... so He can't/won't tell them, to delete it from my list.. He said, that I should try to see the papers, where we put our signature whenever we get a book, and check, if I got the book or not... Then I can write to him and he'll write to the caretakers-of-the-books (or whatever..).. only problem is, that the school closes in a few days for the summer, and I need to get it done by then... Also, by the 1th they're sutting my intranet account down, since I don't study there anymore, and they have to get it ready for the new students... Gah, it pisses me off..

When I got home, I tried to take some pictures, because my friends would like to see my new haircut... Some of them was okay, others weren't... those with my graduation-hat, roses and my garden became good, all those that I was on, looks like crap - which just reminds me, that I'm way better behind the camera than in front of it.. So people, you'll have to wait and see my hair a few days more... (I hope I can make a less depressing journal on friday, with pictures..)

Actually, right now, there's only one thing that I don't completely hate about today... Code Geass R2 ep.11. I know I sound completely stupid, but that anime is just amazing, and it made me laugh so har d when the normally serious and hardcore Lelouch started speaking of "the power of love"!! If enyone has seen it: did you notice the picture where the sky is the background and Lelouch poses? Look =


I think I'm going to watch it again after this, and hope it can make my mood a bit better... I don't even know what have made me so... depressed? angry? lost? stoneface-ish? ... Maybe because I lack sleep, food as well, maybe because my arms hurts (and my back), the photos, the books or that I'm just lonely after I got home from my best friend... Maybe my grades (which I hate, but I don't (think) I care, because I graduated and I'm done with the school now), maybe because I don't have any money - I don't know ... and I actually don't care, I just wanna cheer up!!

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Well, that was a bit of my problems.. I actually wanted to make this journal because of a fellow deviants problems -
She SERIOUSLY need money, so she takes comissions.. And not just need money as in "I have to go to this con, and i can't buy all the stuff I want!! >.<" but need money as in "if I don't have enough money by the 1th, I'll be homeless, with my two roommates..."
So please people, check out her gallery and see if you wanna commission her - if not, then please whore her in a journal or something - it would really be greate!! She has some marvellous art -
http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18965893/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 11:42:28 PDT

Okay, I have NO idea why dA looks like this on my computer X.x (see pictures below) I've never had problems like this before... It just came some day last week o.o;;; It's not only my profil or pictures that looks like this, it's EVERY profil or picture I look at in here... And that's why I havn't been very active lately - because when it looks like this, a lot of the buttons also diappears and it's hard for me to do enything in here (it took me quite some time just to find out how to write this journal..)
So... anybody have an idea to what I should do to get it back to normal? X.x Please??? ;O; I'm starting to get kinda desperat






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Thanks a lot for some great days ~ I luff you and can't wait to see you again, nee honey? n.n

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- birthday drawing (surprise xD) - not done
- Kiribian 2000 (fanart)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (?)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (Haru or Chihiro)- not done


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~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18764198/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18764198/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 10:21:00 PDT

Just an update to yesterdays whining xD I've finished my oral math exam by now!! n.n (I still have my danish oral exam in two weeks before I graduate, but danish is one of my favorit subjects so it's not really going to be that big of a problem...)

I was studying about 4 hours before I got going to the exam... the bus was belated (which did that I almost freaked out even BEFORE the eaxm itself began X.x, but I made it right on time.. I just had to ask my teacher to wait a sec while I took some painkillers (so that my hurting arms wouldn't fall off during the exam =w= )... he looked at the censor and said: "Well, how are the rules about drugs during oral exams?" ... I love my teacher, he's so funny xD;;; *shrug*
I was the last one from my class to be examined and the rules is, that the teacher has to prepare a question for each student, plus four more... That means, I couldn't get the questions people got yesterday. I had found out about some of the subjects that people got yesterday so I could focus my reading... One from my class said that "differentialligninger" (sorry, I don't know what it is in english xD;; one of the most killing subjects in math I can assure you x.x) all had been taken so I didn't read on those... AND THEN I GOT A QUESTION ABOUT IT!!!!! X.x I was seriously going to die, if my teacher hadn't pulled me through it.. it was horrible, and as if I'm not bad at math to begin with xD;; *shrug* but I got through it and passed!! n.n not brilliant, but I did so I'm okay with it :3 ~ Now I'm just bummed... I havn't been this tired for ages xD;; *goes off to sleep*

Thanks alot people for all the sweet messages and everything yesterday T___T It really made me insanely happy!! n.n ~ so thanks sooooo much everyone ;O;

Uhm, don't know what to say more... take care everyone, and good luck with your exams!!!! X.x

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- birthday drawing (surprise xD) - not done
- Kiribian 2000 (fanart)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (?)- not done
- Kiribian 2222 (Haru or Chihiro)- not done


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~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18743434/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18743434/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 07:10:27 PDT

Well, normally I'm not a whiner, but I've never been this anxious before!! I have a oral mathematic exam tomorrow, and I start to tremble and everything starst to turn around me, just I look in one of the books (I do it anyway though). I-JUST-DON'T-GET-IT!! no matter how hard I try, the math just won't reach my mind..

So please? just a bit of support? T_T a hug-smiley or anything will be fine and make me feel better... GAH xD;; *feels like a total whining looser*

(three journals in two days... sorry people for spamming you xD;; *shoot* )

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~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18727303/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18727303/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 13:52:47 PDT

[[EDIT]]
Omg, how did that happen? o.o;;; Both and showed me a screenshoot of pageview 2222???? O______o *dies* welll.... I need to be fair... so no one of you will get a drawing T_______T
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..... just kidding, OF COURSE you'll each get a drawing x.x but it might take some extra time... X-x so note me what you want, nee?? x3


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Can you catch my 2222 kiribian and show me a screenshoot of it? xD then I'll make you a sketch of (almost) what ever you want! x3

- and I havn't forgotten your kiribian :3 you'll get it, you'll get it... sometime, I promise!! n.n (and yes, I WILL try to make it soon >__>;; *dies*)

went home yesterday and I'm looooonely ;O; I miss you my dear It was so much fun spending time with you, the days just passed by WAy too fast!! xD;; ~

Omg, I have my next oral exam on thursday... I think I'm going to die X.x I've never been so nervous before a exam before o.o;; mayby it's because I just don't get math... at least not what we have been doing the ast year x.x I'm happy if I just pass =.=;;

And I'm going to visit be dear best friend in a week!! ;O; I haven't seen her in almost 3 month and I miss her like hell!! - so much has happend and I seriously need to talk and spend time with her ;O, If you read this honey, then know that I miss you and look forward to see you!! n.n I love you, nee?? ~ And I hope that you're exams are going well!! >_<

..... I hope that EVERYONES exams are going well!!! ;O; Good luck people ~

And remember, a screenshoot = a sketch >xD

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~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18587408/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18587408/ Sat, 31 May 2008 03:47:45 PDT

And got the 2000 kiribian!! x3 congrats I'll do a sketch for the one that gets my kiribian number 2222 n.n so keep an eye on my counter, nee?? x3

Well, sorry to all of those that writes to me or gives me comments in this time, but my internet at home is down >__>;; some times it works for like 5 minuts and then it shuts down again... it's really annoying!! x.x so that's part of the reasons that I don't answer to messages where fast at the time.. I'm also busy with exams and my arms hurt (ooooh yeeeees, again again >__>;; )

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KATJA aka !!! x3 may you have a great day today!! n.n And also happy birthday to Line-chan (whom's dev-account I don't know >___>;; ) who had yesterday!! x3 ... actually I though that Line had today and that Katja had tomorrow, because I messed up my calender >__>;; ... that means that I'll have to bust my ass off if I want to be finished with Katjas present today o.o;; (you seriously thought that I wouldn't make you something?? >xD )

I can't wait until wedensday!! T_T my dear, sweetest anna, I think you know why

I've been to one oral exam... it went soooo terrible, I tell you >__>;; the lowest result I've EVER got and it's going to be on my graduation paper... It so sucks, but it's a new form of oral exams and nobody knows how it works.. So all my work was wrong >__>;; but I still passed, but just barely... Of course I hate that I got a low score, but I'm actually not that down because of it... because it REALLY went bad xD;; if I had thought it went ooooh so well and then got a low score, then I would have been sad, but that's not the case..

God, I have so many finished drawings to show you people!! xD ... when my internet works so I can upload them from my computer >__>;; *dies*

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SHOW ME A SCREENSHOT OF MY 2000TH PAGEVIEW AND I'LL DRAW YOU A DRAWING!!!!! n.n so hurry up!!! O_o


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http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18463104/ Fri, 23 May 2008 12:39:26 PDT

THE DAY TODAY - I'VE JUST STOPPED TREMBLING ;O;

Omg, one of the worst exams ever are finally over >___>;; It's actually a bit funny... the test itself was a nightmare, but it isn't that, that does that (that that that.. >__>;; sorry xD;; ) I'll never forget this day...

I kinda sleept too long so I didn't capture the first bus xD;; not a problem, I had another one I could take and still make it in good time but APPARENTLY it was 8 minuts.. BEFORE TIME!!! (no, I'm not joking, the bus was actually earlier than the schedule O.o;;; ) I only found out because the bus kinda drives in a ircle in that area and I saw it pass by D:
Okay okay, not a problem, I could still make another bus (thank goodness) I just had to hurry up... with my bags that weighted more than one ton >__>;; (my back and shoulders was SO dead I tell you, and they aren't too good to begin with...) But I caught this bus...
Then I had to hange busses. Not a problem at all, the problem came when I should pass the road. I stood beside the trafic-light-controller (or what the hell those things are called O.o;;; ) and when the little green man on the other side smiled at me, I took a step out on the road... and a cuclist collided with me X-x my gawd, I though I should die - IT COULD HAVE BEEN A CAR!!!!! ;O; I feel over, all me bags flew around me, he almost fell as well (on top of me) and I landed right on my left side and knee with my arms and hands protecting my head >__>;; The first thing I could think about was my computer - since I was on my way to my written physics exam it would be really bad if it was broken (besides, I love my computer and can't live without it T_T). He helped my get up from the ground, gather my bags and asked if I was okay.. I was a bit confused and coulden't really think straight, but I said I was fine and he left, and I just reached the bus at time X-x (I had to run for it). One from my class was on the bus and I told her, that I had just been run over by a cyclist - and then I started trembling like a mad. My right hand got some scratches, my knee hurted and so did my side. But I was just so shocked...
Then I arrived at the school and thank god, my computer (my darling ) worked just as perfect as ever (a bit slow, but that's because I've got too many thinks stored in it xD;; ). So I went to the office and got some sterilizer tishues to clean my hand and knee (my jeans survived as well xD;; ).
And then the exam part of the day came... I sad in my own classroom (because I've got a hour more to do the taskes than the others, because of my hands/arms) and was alllll alone xD It was so nice... But after the first three tasks, my mind wend blank... I started trembling again, my head hurted, my side burned and the scratches on my hands was all stingy.. It was like that for two hours or so, I could only stare at the taskes, not think at all... I seriously was about to cry T_T Luckily, when I only got two hours left out of six, I solved a quastion xD and then one more, and one more... Until I at least had finished eight out of fifteen - not amazing, but at least I think I'm going to pass...
When I came home, I looked at my side, and I have a bruise the size of a golfball xD and it's all purple and stuff...

Well, another exciting day in my life xD;; a bit too exciting if you ask me >___>;;;; *shrug*

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*HAPPY* + *LUFF*

And now, to the other part of the journal, the part where I don't plan on being moody or angsty or whatever xD Just hyper and happy x3

went home yesterday ;O; it was so much fun having her here, and YAY, I got her hooked on code Geass!!! QwQ I'm just so good... and she normally dosn't like shounen at all xD;; HAIL ME!!!! but come on, the serie is just love I'll recommand it to everyone that likes a good story, characters that you can't help but love and a nice drawing and animation style And no, it's not like any of CLAMPS other works... ]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18397445/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18397445/ Mon, 19 May 2008 11:26:47 PDT

Omg, got tagged by that little bad girl (WHO I'M GOING TO SEE TOMORROW!!!!!! ;O; I can't wait... )

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- Name: Lea n.n
- Single or taken: single
- Gender: Female
- Birthday: the 26rd of July 1989
- Sign: Leo *grrrrr*
- Hair color: dark blond / light brown
- Eye color: green
- Height: no idea… between 10 cm and 200 cm xD;;
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: I actually don’t know o.o;; I’ve never been in serious love before and sometimes I find myself more attracted to female minds than males (but that might be because all the guys I’m surrounded by IRL are serious sex-jerks >__>;;; ) but I just CAN’T imagine myself in a serious relationship with a girl o.o;; so this question has to be unanswered >xD;; *shrug*

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- Favourite place to shop for clothes?: Uhm, H&M and New Yorker? I don’t have favourite places, I just buy clothe I like xD;
- Favorite designer?: …. =___=;; see answer above..
- What is your sexiest outfit?: leather suit and whip … seriously? I have no idea? O.o my bikini?
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: I only buy cloth that I feel comfortable in, so… all my cloth? n.n;;
- What do you usually wear?: jeans, socks, bra, underwear, some kind of jersey, maybe a top..

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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: the one in the bathroom? xD;;
- What are you listening to right now?: … Miley Cyrus – One in a Million (yes, a song from Hannah Montana >__>;; I just stumbled over this one and it’s actually good )
- Who is the last person that called/texted you?: my beloved Anna
- How many buddies are online right now?: No idea? O.o;; I answer this in Microsoft Word so I’m not even online myself xD;;


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- Food: something including French fryes QwQ *munch*
- Girls names: Hmmm… Mira, Anna, Tanja and Nadia n.n
- Boys names: Mikael (Danish version of Michael)
- Subjects in school: Biology (eventhough I finished it last year T_T) and Danish >xD
- Animals: Rabbit, cat-animals (cats, puma, leopard, tiger, lion and so on )

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- Given anyone a bath?: … no, I don’t recall anyway >__>;;
- Smoked?: only when I was little and you needed to try out EVERYTHING!! O.o I even hate when people smoke near me >__>;;
- Bungee jumped?: no, and I don’t thing I would ever be brave enough to try xD;;
- Made yourself throw up?: have never even THOUGHT about it!!
- Skinny dipped?: no n.n;; I have been merciful enough to save people from the sight xD;;
- Ever been in love?: no, I don’t think so >___>;;
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: I can’t cry on command xD
- Pictured your crush naked?: .. I picture everyone naked >xD *giggles*
- Actually seen your crush naked?: *sigh* like said before, I havn’t really had a crush on anyone, so no >__>;; *feels like a freak*
- Cried when someone died?: I’ve never cried as much as when my first rabbit died ;O; only when my second one... ]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18116701/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18116701/ Thu, 01 May 2008 12:13:35 PDT

Omg.... Well, I guess this is a longer story, but it's FUNNY!!!! >xD;; *dies*

Tomorrow we are going to have a kind of graduation ball on my school owo (omg, we are going to be over 1100 people in a little gymhall!!!!! >____> *dies*) I'm going to wear a nice dress, without sleeves and it's goint to show a bit of my legs. Because I'm kinda pale, I wanted some colour to that occasion - not much, just a bit so I wouldn't be mistaken for a ghost >_>;; So my mother bougt some lotion that's supposed to give a bit of colour after you've used it several times. I quote the package; "Use daily until the desired colour is obtained. After that, use 2-3 times a week to keep the colour".... The morning after I used it, I woke and... looked like I had been in Sahara or something O.o;;;; I laughed so hard while I was taking a bath (I hadn't put it on my legs because I didn't have the time and thought that the arms where more importent = I look totally pale from my belly and down, and brown from my belly and up xD) - my brother thought I had went more mad than I usually am :3
Well well, that's about a week ago and the colour has slightly fainted by now - I didn't get any "before and after"-pictures, sorry =_=;; A few days ago I got some special adhesive tape on my arms, called "Kinesio tape" o.o;; it's supposed to increase the blood circulasion and proberply take some of the pain in my arms (and it's actually working ). I wore it for a few days, and took it off today - because I didn't wanted to go to the prom tomorow and have tape stuck on my arms =_0;; and guess what... it took the remaining colour from my arms when it was ripped off!!! xD omg, my arms looks like a fish or something... this I actually got pictures of x3
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GYA, it looks SO funny!!!!! x3 so today I had to put some more lotion on =w=;;; *giggles*

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OMG, and I found out, that my beloved Lelouch's voice actor is the same one that dubs Ayase from Okane Ga Nai anime!! (yaoi) the greatest uke you can ever find!!! X___x and Lelouch from Code Geass... the same voice... that's just plain wrong =___=;;;, LOOK HERE!!!!
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Ok, I admit that this might not be the two best examples, but if you have seen the animes, you'll know what I mean o.o;;; *shot*

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18052600/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18052600/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 10:30:36 PDT

"Happy birthday to you!!!
Happy birthday TO you!!!
Happy BIRTHDAY dear Anja!!!
Happy birthday tooooo youuuuu~uuuu!!!!!"

Happy birthday my lovely - I hope you had a great day!!! n.n



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Well well, besides that, I think I'm about to die O.o;; GAWD, I still need to finish a physic paper by today or tomorrow if my teacher shall have a chance to grade it -> give ME grades for the whole year -> let me graduate X-x *dies* but my arms hurts like hell... and I kinda feel dizzy X-x omg, the headache of doooooo00oom

Hope you all had a nice weekend n.n;; ~

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18004501/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/18004501/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 09:24:41 PDT

Took this from 's journal

Wikipedia band
Go to the Wikipedia home page and click random article.
That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.

Band name: Nick Speegle (some random… linebacker O_o;; who plays for Cleveland browns or something… =w=;; )
Album: Merton, Oxfordshire (near M40 motorway… why the fuck does Wiki have that kind of information?? O.o;;; )

1. Kevin Sweeney case (does my band really have anthing better to sing about? ;O; )
2. Immacolata (this is SOOOO cool QwQ – actully sounds like a pretty nice song >x3)
3. The Partridge Family (… )
4. Rajasree (hmmmmm… interesting)
5. Ultra Seven (the only reason to buy this album <3 *headbangs*)
6. Peins (*faints* I though… it was something else X.x *shot*)
7. Mamle (*looks at the picture on wiki* … omg, he kinda scares me o.o;; )
8. Taranov District (hmm, we likes to sing about places x3 ..)
9. NKVD Order № 00486 (… try say that FAST 10 times QwQ)
10. André Le Troquer (hmm, makes me hungry =w= )
11. No. 42 Wing RAAF (…e-eigh?)
12. Hoa (try say THIS one 10 times!!! xD …. Bastard, did you just say ‘whore’??)
13. Carl Township, Adams County, Iowa (and yet another place)
14. Guy Chamberlin (… I have a OC named Guy o.o;;; )
15. Josef Straßberger (YARH!! xD ALL HAIL DEUTCHLAND!!! <3<3<3)


Omg, so random people, sorry xD;; I made it together with my brother and we laughed so hard x3 hope you enjoyed reading it!! x3 Everyone sho wants to make this, are welcome to do so!!! xD It's so much fin, wikipedia, really has some useless knowledge (just for your information x3)

Stay cool everyone!!!

]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/17761078/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/17761078/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 10:39:21 PDT

I thought this could be fun x3 ... well, I know that it may not be the coolest thing to be featured be me, since I don't have that many watchers myself, but then again... if you write then I'll NEED to go through your gallery and find my favorite pictures And maybe a comment or two would drop at the way? xD *shot*


Rule:
"The first ten people who post in this journal will be featured. I will go through your gallery and post three of your deviations in my journal for everyone to see. In return you must post this in your journal as well.
If you already have a recent "10 features" in your journal, you can link to that instead."

Spots taken: 3

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5: http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/17605436/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:24:13 PDT

GYA, I'ms so bad at updating o.o;; but, well, either does my arms hurt (I have a kind of illness in them so they hurt if I use them too much..) or I'm too busy with school or something alike >__>;;




~~~~~~BIRTHDAYS~~~~~~
First of all: HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!
Here's a little something for you... it's not much, but I hope you like it anyway T_T orginaly I didn't had the time to do ANYTHING but then I forced my self to draw for about half an hour, because I wanted to do SOMETING for you, and this is the result n.n;; YES, it's your maru and.. it's chokolate, CHOKOLATE on her fingers!!! xD *dirty thoughts*




And happy birthday to , who celebrated her 18'th birthday this saturday x3 thanks for inviting my sweety, it was so much fun x3 And I understand why Mike is your best friend!!!!! xD I'll upload your drawing in my gallery someday soon :S

Happy birthday to too ((t-too m-many bir-birthdays ))
Thanks for listening to me when I had a little breakdown the other day n.n;; *shot*

happy birthday to all of you, love you soo freakin much!!!~



~~~~~~MY CURRENT LIFE~~~~~~

Well... could be better... My arms hurts, my head hurts, my neck hurts and my back hurts... I feel soooo pathetic T_T *shot* and because I feel like I can't do something perfect, I starts to blame myself and feel guilt when I don't have to.. I become easiely depressed, moody and lonely and then I starts to hate myself even more xD;; I wanna talk with someone, just spill all of my thoughts and fears for the future, and I know that ALL of my friends would be more than happy to listen to me (I love you guys ) but I don't wanna lay it all on their shoulders, so I just tell one of them one thing, another one another thing and so on... And then I have a lot of pieces spread out everywhere :S It's hard to explain... but my mother and I are trying to find a good psykologist I can visit ;O; I hope it'll help.....

The school is killing me, it also makes me feel like a loser and the exams are coming closer and my arms hurts... But just a month to go, then it'll be over forever!!! That's what keeps me going o.o;;

I can't work with my arms, which means, that I don't earn a lot of money, eventhoug I would like to spend them QwQ I bet that would help on my mood...

OH OH!!! When I wrote with yesterday and told her, a bit of how I felt at that time, she draw me this, that sweetheart!!




I love him sooo freakin much!!!! ;w; I really do, and he totally made my day!!! xD ~ Thanks a lot again my love

Another thing that makes my happy is to look at this short comic, featur... ]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/16234278/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/16234278/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 03:28:19 PST i hope so.. and not that I will get to busy with school or become too lazy again =_=;; I have drawn SO many new pictures that I don't know where to start uploading... the ones in my gallery right now is soooo old >__>;;

I hope all of you had a merry christmas and a great new year!!! n.n Welcome to 2008 xD
My best friend yassa was at my house christmas eve and it was so much fun n.n I got a lot of great presents to x3 and was at my hous new year so my holiday has been soooo enjoyabel x3!!! thanks you two n.n


And I have found a new anime worthy of my love - CODE GEASS. Omg, it has been looong time since I last saw something that made my skin crawl so much with excitement O_O it's just amazing... ARRRRRG, I think I going crazy waiting for the second season to air in April T_T I can't wait!! QwQ

Oh, and I have begun making a manga x333 But beware - it's a yaoi manga =_= I don't know how explicit I can make it though, but I will make it as much as possible for me!! ò.o so please read it at smackjeeves x3 (link below) it isen't very long yet, but more to come ^///^ and it's the first manga I EVER make, so please bear with me :S

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CODE GEASS PHOTOS xD!!!!!

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]]> ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/13389684/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/13389684/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 05:29:40 PDT (YAY, found out xD;; )has TAGGED me >__>;; geez... *gives her a cookie* well, here we go people!! xD;;


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Lea
2. Honey x3
3. B… Bean X.x;;

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Lusiana
2. Mirazie
3. uhmmmm… no more? O_o I use Mirazie all the time n.n;;

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I’m friendly and kind
2. I’m good at making up with people
3. I was abel to get all the friends I have today ;O; *happy*

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My face xD;;
2. That I’m so bad to ask people if they will give me something – even my friends X_x
3. That I currently can’t draw because I have overused my hands so they hurt like hell T_T

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. My father was born in Copenhagen
2. My mother on the country
3. = DANISH x3

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
1. When people, I don’t know that much (but have chatted a bit with), starts to touch me in… weird places X_x even if it’s just for fun… Understand this – I MIGHT say perverted things, but that doesn’t mean you can go on touching >__>;; and ESPECIALLY not when I’m saying “NO” (that isn’t a invitation to go on, you know =_=;; )
2. When I think I have missed the train and don’t have somewhere to go because I’m in an unknown town T_T;;
3. When I read poems or short stories I wrote the few short moments I have been kind of depressed o.o;;;

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Turning my computer on
2. Eating =_=
3. Hearing music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. A top (purple x3)
2. Jeans
3. uhm, eh… socks xD;;

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Three Days Grace
2. Abingdon Boys School
3. Story of the Year

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Nostalgia – Camino (opening to the anime “Koutetsu Sangokushi”
2. Still Waiting – Sum 41
3. Dress – Abingdon Boys School (yes, the opening from “Trinity Blood” but not by the original artist x3)

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Kiss someone >__>;;
2. Make a yaoi drawing QwQ
3. Make a comic

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Trust
2. Understanding
3. Intimacy (holding hands, hugging etc.)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I love most things
2. I hate everything
3. I wouldn’t replace me friends for anything

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Chest Ô///Ô
2. yaoi xDDDD
3. hmmmm… more yaoi QwQ *drool*

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Make a comic ;O;
2. Hurt others ó.o
3. Say “I love you” to the one I love X_x

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing (both novels and with my friends over the internet x3)
2. Be with my friends
3. Hear music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. DRAWING!!!! ;O;
2. Write without my arms hurt
3. Hug my best friend or tanja or charlot or michi ;O;

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. zoologist
2. natureguide (don’t know the exact name on English O.o)
3. Novelist x3

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Egypt
2. Japan
3. Perhaps America o.o

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Mikael
2. Mira
3. James xD

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get a real kiss o.o;; *feels lonely*
2. Make one of my novels public
3. See my best friend yassa’s manga in a store QwQ

I TAG ...
and and ~Mirazie http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/12847750/ http://Mirazie.deviantart.com/journal/12847750/ Sat, 05 May 2007 03:27:53 PDT but people have asked me again and again if I had a user in here, and I got tired of disappointing them every time.. so here I am n.n

FINALLY I got a free week without any homework!! ... - its almost hard for me to do anything xD;;

*huggles anyone QwQ*

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