We're goin' down.

It's a good song.

I got a tyoonih.

Haven't posted anything JtHM-Related in a while.

Francis Farmer will have her Revenge on Seattle~Nirvana.

[It's the lyrics I attempted to make people guess on my last picture; No one did.





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I will eventually be able to write a book with these 'eight random facts' things.

I. I've decided what to do with life. I've always wanted to be a mortician, but the prospect of attending art school and following that career path has been thrown at me recently. I had quite the mindfuck over this, actually.
WELL,
I won't need to know for the next year or so, anyway. Like, I'll need to know for sure Senior year. I'm only a sophomore. I'm already set to take all our art classes, So I can't do much more there, and all the science classes I feel are relevant to the feild if it goes the other way are already set in my future schedule. [Bio, Bio2, Chem 1, Anatomy and Phsyiology. etc.]
I've decided to throw myself into art for the next two years. Like, actually attempt to get better, rather than just entertaining myself and accidentally improving on occasion. If there is significant improvement in this feild, I'll probably go for that art scholarship. If not, well, I'll follow my dream-since-I-was-9 of being a Mortician.

II. I hate sleeping. I have no trouble with it, I'm neither an insomniac nor a narcoleptic. I am fairly normal in this aspect. My girlfriend, however, has insomnia. Terrible, raunchy, rough-estimate-of-10-hours-sleeping-a-week insomnia.

I feel like I'm abandoning her every time I say goodnight.

III. My father might have cancer. He might have fucking stomach cancer, they've got him scheduled for testing on December 16th. I feel bad that the only immediate thought I had when told this information was, 'Oh. The 16th. I wonder what I should draw Meg for her birthday...'

IV. I don't hate MCR. Their fans just...irritate me. They irritate me alot. Not all of them, but the scary, I'MGOINGTOEATYOURFUCKINGSOULIFYOUDONTDECLA REGERARDWAYYOURLORDANDMASTERRIGHTNAO ones. Yeah, them. Their music isn't really bad, but I can't stand listening to it because all the damn memory attached to it gives me a bad taste in my mouth and I start wanting to smash shit. I even have a couple songs of their on some burnt CD's I had before the whole Squee-loving-MCR mess. I just can't deal with it now.

V. Speaking of MCR, I'm tired of being told that they 'save lives and I'm totally wrong and they don't promote suicide and OMFG you SUCK' whenever I say something JUST about not liking them. Jemmick, I am, actually, not directing this at you. -nudges the scary half of fans- It's them. You may be totally in love with them, but I'm rather pleased that you don't try to lynch me when I hate on them.

VI. I miss her. That douche-bag abandoner-face. I realized this as I was flipping through my mp3 the other day, looking for songs I never listen to which need deletion. [It fills up pretty quick, it's only 2 GB x_X] I came to the Keroro themesong, which I never listen to, but found that I couldn't even delete it because it reminded me of her. I still have Tetris remixes and Lazytown songs Auf Deutsch for this same reason. I'm kind of pathetic over the whole thing, actually, and I'd bet she's already forgotten I existed. I'm only okay with putting this here because I'm nearly positive she won't read it.

VII. I use people's names less as I feel further from them. Names are special, Names are an identity, an entire existance. Once you die, it's often all that's left. I usually use nicknames for people, when I just don't feel like I fit into that existance, which is often. There are, of course, circumstances where I use nicknames because they're special and I'm the only one who calls them that; but it's different. That's a bond to their existance, beyond a name.

VIII. I don't like Graphite. It's impermenance irritates me. It's useful for drawing but not for words. I will not write a single paper in pencil even if I'm downgraded for it. I just can't do it. Graphite is erasable, a sham, nothing. Ink. Ink is permanent, you can't take it back. You can cover it up with more ink, more words, but you can never truly erase it. Ink is the only real way to write; Everything else is a lie to me.

XoXo Effie. <3

FUCKMUSICRIGHTNOW.kthx.





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I JUST TYPED UP A STUPID LONG FUCKING JOURNAL, THAT I'VE SPENT THE LAST DAMN HOUR ON, AND ALL THE SUDDEN DA DECIDED TO BE AN ASSHOLE AND FUCKING BLINK WHEN I SUBMITTED IT, AND DELETE EVERYTHING.

FUCK YOU, DEVIANTART.

I am so pissed.

XoXo Effie. <3

FUCKMUSICRIGHTNOW.kthx.





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Bitz: I like your hair like that. In the bun.
Me: Hn?
Bitz: You look like a little gothic Ballerina. It's cute.
Me: Austin.
Bitz: I know. My love is worthless to you.
Me: Right you are. Now quit trying and put your fucking drum on.



I was really having a good day until band when he started up that love shit again. What the fuck do you do when your best friend knows you don't want them and won't give the fuck up?

XoXo Effie. <3

I like puns.





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So, I'm binging on cides lately? like, Suicide, Homicide, Phantasmacide, Pedocide. etc.

They make me want to make characters.

I've got plans for the characters; They're the caretakers, I suppose, of their given name. Like, Suicide would guide the souls of those whom kill themselves, Matricide would guide the souls of killed mothers, blah. You get the idea.

I'm not sure which cides to use, though.

So, pick a cide, guys. Pick several. I have alot of free-time.

Hell, if you know latin rootwords, feel free to make some up. Like, Ouranocide; I like that one. 'Fall of Heaven'. [Cide doesn't literally mean death. it comes from a word which means to fall.] Except I don't think Ouranocide is an actual cide. xD fun, though, Ja?

Anyway, I ramble.

give me your cides, assholes.

XoXo Effie. <3

Everytime I call you on the phone,
I listen to it rnig but no one's home,
I can't explain the energy
That you give me,
When I'm left here Alone.





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Past

When were you born?
Some pointless Date nearly 15 years ago.

Where were you born?
In a hospital.

What was your first grade teachers name?
Cannot rightly remember. I'm not even sure she had one, she insisted that we all call her 'teacher'. Perhaps so that she did not forget her profession?

What was your first pets name?
Spooky. He was a cat. I named him, Because when I was three 'Spooky' was a badass epic name.

What was your worst medical accident?
I don't know. It was either my birth, or when I was seven and decided I didn't like life anymore and ended up with staples in the back of my head.

What was your favorite cartoon?
PowerPuff Girls and DBZ owned my soul, Bitch. But I'd pretty much watch anything that was on.

Who was your first best friend?
Hannah Kilman. I saw her at Johnny's a few weeks ago. I waved; She has no idea who I am.

When was the first time you ever went on a plane?
That would imply that I've been on one. I have not, actually, ever been on a plane. My family doesn't have any money for vacationing like that. I mean, we'll save up for a while and then maybe DRIVE somewhere, but we're always like, in the hole for a month after that.

What were your first words?
"I do it myself." Fuck first words, I had a first SENTENCE.

What was your favorite song in 5th grade?
First Date- Blink 182.

What was your favorite movie in 2nd grade?
Silence of the Lambs.
No, I am not joking.
It was the first Movie I ever owned, and I recall gaining it that year.


Present

What is the date?
November Einte, 2009.

What grade are you in?
I am a Sophomore.

Who is your best friend?
In what sense?

What is your favorite movie?
I don't know. What effect could my answer to this question possibly have on your life?

What is your favorite song?
Changes every moment or so. At present, it is 'Ohne Dich' by Rammstein.

Any Pets?
Of my own? No. I'm not allowed to have them. Mum has a dog and Vati has a Ferret.

If so, what are their names?
Dog= Punkie. Ferret= ChaChaMaru.[He let me name it, and I was very much into Negima at the time.]

Whats your favorite school subject?
My Bio teacher is an idiot.
Phs. Ed. isn't so bad, except that I keep getting pulled put in our Hockey unit for being too agressive.
My Graphic Design teacher keeps making fun of my tic.
The band director doesn't know my name, after two years.
The english teacher thinks I'm an idiot, and keeps talking down to me.
Government and Law, while not one of my favourite subjects or anything I care to know about, is fairly okay fun thanks to Mr. Zehr. He's a swell guy.
Geometry- I cannot count.

Overall, I guess it would be Gov&Law.


What color hair do you have?
Some nasty brown colour. I grow it myself.

What color eyes do you have?
Grey. Flat, soul-less grey. Like my insides are rotting out.

What kind of music do you listen to?
The musical kind. I don't really pay attention because...well, it's just music.

Do you still watch cartoons?
I do.

Whats your favorite TV show?
I don't know. Law& Orfer, I guess. Specifically SVU.

Do you go online often?
Indeed.

Whats your worst fear?
Thaat everyone will eventually see what I see; How I'm a rotten terrible person and I've only fooled them up until now. It's not really a fear so much as an unpleasant inevitability.

Whats your favorite color?
Pink.

What state do you live in?
What if I live in a territory? or a province? DO I HAVE TO FORFEIT THE FUCKING QUIZ? Er, anyway; Illinois. The arguably most politically corrupt state in America.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I do.

Whats you favorite type of food?
Apparently, the fattening kind. As is evident by my massive 127 pounds. -sigh, slaps disgusting gut-

Do you drive?
With a permit.


Future


What do you want to be when you grow up?
DON'T KNOW ANYMORE, AND I'M TIRED OF HEARING THE FUCKING SCHOOL COUNSELOR RAG ON ME THAT I NEED TO FIGURE IT OUT. FUCK YOU ALL. I HAD IT FIGURED OUT AND NOW I DON'T AND I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ANYMORE SO SHUT YOUR DAMN MOUTHS AND L... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/28009510/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/28009510/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 10:16:18 PDT

Goodmorning, John! I am currently living in a Hotel!
...And will be for the next Two Weeks.





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IMPORTANT THINGS THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED:

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_{I'm a sexy beast today. -wiggles hips-}

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<sub>Hey, you. Get the fuck off my planet.

right now.</sub>

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<sub>Mr. Wells is an asshole.
Or rude.
Or just a rude asshole.
Even if he is my facourite teacher.

We got back proofs for our School pictures today. You know, like, they take two pictures, then send home the little packet thingy and you pick what package you like and which of the two pictures is better and you send it back, blahblah.

u_u I looked especially stupid in Proof-A. He pointed this out. Why was I looking stupid? Because I have a tic. As in, random jerky movement. And, while it DOES enable me to do a rather impressive full-body twitch every so often, it's very irritating. Only barely noticable that it even happens, but still.

I told him this, and he spent the next five minutes of class giggling about it. =_=

It's really not so bad, and I'm not like, SUPER sensitive about it or anything, but. You know. It was just sort of rude, and I'm PMSing. So now I'm pissy about it even though it wasn't even a big deal.</sub>

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<sub>Hallowe'en is only a few days away, and I'm like, totally lacking inspiration for a picture. omfgomfgomfg, Halp? Suggestions? Something?

/ashamed.</sub>

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_{I'm in a really good mood today, despite the Wells thing, actually.}

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XoXo Effie. <3

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I picture your Face in the back of my Eyes,
a Fire in the Attic
a Proof of the Prize,
Anna Molly, Anna Molly, Anna Molly.
I'm calling your name
Up into the Air,
Not one of the Others
could ever compare!
Anna Molly, Anna Molly.





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A note to IVC: I apologize about the way the Eureka band always sings the GhostBusters theme outside your bus when we place higher than you. You've gotta admit though, it's somewhat an accomplishment in true nerd-dom that we know all four minutes of it. The point is, I'm sorry. We just...really don't like you.

ANYWAY.

>_o Our band won 1A State Championships.

Which, I suppose, most of you can't really get excited over.

But We can.

Then, in the finals, we got 12th place, out of...12. Which isn't actually that bad, since we never really expect anything else than that. We're a small school with a tiny non-audition band and low funding. We almost pee ourselves when we even MAKE IT to finals, since it's about the best we can get.

Not that we goofed off at the Finals performance. No, we fucking did our best. We played our hardest, and every single band member said the same thing when we came off the field; 'I felt Alyssa out there with me, tonight.'

Alyssa Grace Burns is the Band Member we lost this year, our whole show is in her memory. She had the loudest laugh, and the craziest stories, and the biggest, most amazing smile. We still count her when we do head counts, her senior photos are still going in the yearbook, and Eureka still screams 'Eureka placed for Alyssa Grace!' whenever we do well enough to place. She was seventeen, this would have been her final marching year, and she's missing it. We're doing this all for her.

I felt really stupid when I said it. When I said, 'Guys...I felt Alyssa on the field'. Until everyone agreed. And we were all just standing around and crying and laughing and talking about when exactly on the field that we all bursted into tears, About how Stalter cried hardest, trying to take our damn uniforms off, falling all over eachother and it was just beautiful. I was so moved I can't even describe it better.

When we were all coming home on the buses, it was officially October 25th, and a spontaneous 'Happy Birthday' started up and went on for 15 minutes, Because, you know, That's what October 25th is. It's Alyssa's 18th birthday, and the four month anniversary of her death.


[link]
There was our Band at Morton. Morton was only our second show, so it's...terrible, but we don't have the ISU vids up online yet. Plus, the sound on this one's pretty good. 8.03-8.40- That's Alyssa's part. The director wrote it in just got her, with the notes 'AGB' in pattern- Her initials, We even halt in an AB.

They played this video at her visitation.
[link]
I wouldn't even show it to you if I didn't think it mattered. Because, you know, if someone dies and nobody knows about it, it's like they never existed at all. Watch the video, think about her from time to time even if you don't care. Because as long as she exists in thought, her existance mattered.

This has been just such a great season.

Thank you, Alyssa.

XoXo Effie. <3

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I've got Emotion
Dripping out my pores,
and I
Thought I would let you know,
You are the night light
Ripping through my wicked world,
How you make it sparkle and glow,
Before I lose control.





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So...my art teacher was going through assignments and crap. And then he starts talking to me about, like, colleges and stuff. And how he thinks I could get a scholarship, and how he wants to help me get a scholarship/aid/INTO...Columbia. Like. The Columbia. in Chicago.

Like, the super-awesome-tastic arts place.

You know, the one someone with my nonexistant skill has no place in?

And he just kept going about how I could easily do this, and what kind of programs, and how it could all work, and...

Look, guys. This totally isn't what I've wanted to do with my life. I have, since the age of nine, wanted very much to be a mortician. It's been my plan. I've centered my highschool education around being prepared for college classes that would bring me into this feild.

But, Money's an issue. So, If I could get a scholarship somewhere like that, doing something I kind of like {[Art is a hobby for me, not a career. But I could make it one.]} that would be...Pretty neat. Even if I don't really have a real aptitude for drawing.

I'm nearly a quarter through my sophomore year, I need to fucking figure this out, and I don't know what to do. I really need someone to talk to about this, but I can't really...talk to anyone, because I've got no one who really gives a damn to talk this out with me. Well, or really gives a damn to talk to me. BUT THAT IS AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT DISCUSSION FOR A LATER DATE. I'm throwing this up here. Help. I'm just...very...Ergh.

THOUGHTS?

XoXo Effie. <3

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Like a
BOSS
Bitches.





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I have nothing cool to update about.

Have quizzes.

<<-------------------------------------------------->>


1.YOUR ROCK STAR NAME (first pet, current car): Spooky Tempo. {[Convenient.]}

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME (fave ice cream flavor, favorite type of shoe): Vanilla Storm Boots.

3. YOUR NATIVE AMERICAN NAME (favorite color, favorite animal): Pink...I don't know what my favourite animal is.

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME (middle name, city where you were born): Anise Peoria.

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 of your first name]: Fahke <--Oddly close to 'Fuck' HOW COOL IS THAT?

6. SUPERHERO NAME (2nd favorite color, favorite drink): FucketyPurple Monster.

7. NASCAR NAME (the first names of your grandfathers): Clarence Robert.
8. STRIPPER NAME (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy): Barbie Necco.

10. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME (your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter): Carls Columbus.

11. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower): Autumn Sunflower.

12. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now): Orange Undies.

13. HIPPIE NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree): Water Maple.

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ANIME ARCHETYPE.

Tsundere (Harsh Outside-Gentle Inside)
[x] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness.
[x] You have a secret obsession with something cute.
[ ] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her.
[ ] You blush when people point out your sensitivities.
[ ] You blush when people tell sexual jokes.
Total: 3

Yandere (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[ ] You’re very sweet and kind in public.
[x] When romance becomes a topic of discussion, people say your personality changes drastically.
[x] You know some sort of martial art, swordplay, or otherwise.
[ ] You have a crush who you’d literally kill for.
[x] You have a pet-peeve that makes you snap.
[ ] Schizophrenic?
Total: 3

Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character)
[x] You have glasses.
[x] You can sometimes be clumsy, ditzy, or absent-minded.
[ ] You are always very polite in your speech.
[x] You are fairly intelligent in some field.
[ ] You take discipline seriously.
[x] You have some sort of fetish for something.
Total: 4

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy)
[x] You have a friend who often makes dumb or embarrasssing remarks.
[x] You smack/beat up this friend in some way.
[x] You do your best to maintain a calm facade, only to be thwarted by this friend.
[x] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yin”
[x] You swear a lot.
[x] You try to bring out the more serious side of your ridiculous friend.
Total: 6

Boke (Dumb Guy)
[x] You often make silly or embarrassing comments.
[ ] You like annoying the heck out of your best friend.
[ ] You often get beaten up by your friend in some way, but you take it in good stride.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yang”.
[ ] You are normally very laidback and carefree.
[ ] You try to bring out the happier side of your angry friend.
Total: 1

Nadeshiko (Perfect Wife)
[x] You are always, almost overly, polite.
[ ] You love traditional Japanese culture.
[ ] You often wear either a kimono, yukata (summer cotton kimono), or apron.
[ ] You’re an excellent cook.
[ ] You are hardly ever angry.
[x] You have really long hair.
Total: 2

Sexy Character
[x] Your bust/package is...formidable.
[x] You like making sexual innuendos.
[ ] You encourage trips to the beach, pool, or onsen (hot springs).
[x] There are some sexual things that you are ignorant to or need explained to you.
[ ] You’re an expert cosplayer.
[x] You like the taste of alcohol.
Total: 4

Loli/Shota Character
[x] You like sweets or chocolate.
[x] You adore cute things and/or the word “kawaii”.
[ ] You use Japanese suffixes like “-chan,” “-tan,” “-sempai,” etc...
[ ] You add unnecessary suffixes to the ends of your sentences, like “nyo,” “nyu,” “un,” etc...etc~~~
[ ] You are considered gullible or naive.
[x] You have a tall/powerful friend who protects you.<... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/27603802/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/27603802/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:44:01 PDT

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall,
Take a shot,
for you.
And I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But That's nothing New.





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Done being bitchy, even though I've pretty much eliminated anyone who wanted to be my friend anyway. =\ I'm really good at it.

I'm going to homecoming, my outfit's pretty rad.

Here's a quiz. I'm gonna go do my Government& Law homework now.

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North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)
x You were bullied a lot in your childhood
You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
You're very happy-go-lucky
You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
x You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up (or can be used as an erogenous zone, so if someone twiddles it, you'd get very embarrassed)
You're a good artist
x You can be clumsy at times
You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something
If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
You would surrender in a war situation
(3/10)

Germany (Ludwig)
You're very stoic and serious
x Sausages (in particular those of the wurst variety) are your favourite foods.
You like to walk dogs/your dog
Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
You love rules and think they should always be followed to a T
You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules
You work very hard
x Your alone time is your 'happy time'
X You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people
x You've had issues with money once or twice
(4/10)

Japan (Kiku Honda)
You're very mature
x You think everything over before saying it.
x You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one
x You isolated yourself during childhood
You became very successful in a short amount of time
You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world
x You can seem cold/aloof to other people
You're good at practical tasks
x You need time to adjust to new people
(5/10)

The United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)
x You love hamburgers
You think you're awesome
You love to invent things
x You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films
You can seem to be very brash to other people
You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business
You're terrified of ghosts
x You know aliens exist
You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time
x You wear glasses
(4/10)

The United Kingdom of England, Wales, Scotland, and Northern Ireland (Arthur Kirkland)
x You like tea
x You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid
x You're very sarcastic and cynical
x Your cooking is awful
You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
x You have tried doing black magic before
You get drunk quite easily.
x When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy
x You're good at embroidery
(6/10)

France (Francis Bonnefoy)
x You're very affectionate
You think you have a great fashion sense
x You like wine
You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears
You love red roses
When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women
You're very proud of yourself
x You love culture and the arts
x You're very flamboyant
You say you're a gourmet
(4/10)

Russia (Ivan Braginski)
x You had a very sad childhood.
You're very tall
You have a tendency to switch between personalities
You wear a scarf all the time
x You love sunflowers
x You love vodka
x You can seem intimidating to other people
x You're very strong
You have a big nose
You have a strange laugh that can scare people
(5/10)

China (Wang Yao)
x You're very mature
You're very superstitious
x You're very religious
You love pandas
You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
You love Hello Kitty
You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever, but are never taken seriously.
You work hard
You're good at drawing
x You like sweets
(3/10)

Austria (Roderich Edelstein)
You are very well-raised
x You're polite
x Y... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/27487511/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/27487511/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 14:36:04 PDT

If you thought I'd leave,
then you were wrong.
'cos I won't stop
Holding on.



too lazy and whiney and stupid to change the song.


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I might.

It would make alot more sense.

Everything I say, lately, is misunderstood. Like, entirely. Or maybe I DO just come off as whiney and bitchy and emo, all the time. To be honest, It's something I endeavour NOT to do. My efforts, however, appear to be futile. So, I'm sorry if I seem this way to you. It was not my intent, and I'd prefer you to view this as my public apology.

This entire journal, actually, is kind of stupid and bitchy and self-pitying. I'm toying with the delte button, but, Eh.
Who cares?

You guys already think of me in those terms, so there's relatively no point.

XoXo Effie. <3

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If you thought I'd leave,
then you were wrong.
'cos I won't stop
Holding on.






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Well, he is.

Fucker wouldn't high-five me, properly. And when he did, he glared and snarled at me.
I got Mark to do it, though. Properly. with ENTHUSIASM. Then I told him to 'slap your asshole twin in the head for not highfiving me right' which got me an 'Oh my.'

...Mark Crenshaw's such a sweetie.


UHM, I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH THE CRENSHAW TWINS.
I DON'T KNOW WHY.


Oh, and Band stuff.

We were at Pontiac.

It rained most of the day. with Lightning and stuff. So, we had to stay inside. Mmm, but then it stopped. And we had to march our show in the mud.

My friends got bored of me and ignored me most of the day while we were waiting for the awards. You know, because I'm boring.

We got best Auxiliary, Drum-Majors, and Winds. And best over-all class A. We were only eight points away from Washington, who recieved Grand Champion overall.

Why no 'best percussion'?

Well, in the words of the great and wonderful band director that is Todd Stalter: 'Drumline, your score was so low I can't even comprehend it.'

So...I'm a failure. A failure with no friends. >_o

I'm going to bed.

XoXo Effie. <3

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If you feel better,
Telling me I'm cruel.
Saying I'm unfeeling,
I don't mind.

Won't make me sorry, 'cause I'm cruel,
Won't hurt the feelings I don't have,
Won't break the heart that isn't there, You'll find.




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Dammit.

It it everybody that gets bored with me this fast, or only the people I actually like?

XoXo Effie. <3

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Great song for the Colourguard to burst into in the parkinglot.



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Went and saw 9 yesterday. Preeetty good. Detected strong hints of Nazism, which makes me squeal. Kinda hate how they plaster Tim Burton all over it when they guy's just a producer. I guess it helps get people to go see it. =\ Which is sad. Cults bother meeeee.

UHM,
Anyway.

Went to a band competition today.

We got slaughtered in it, too.

/bandnerdinessofFAIL.

>_o We ended up with five other bands in our class. Only five, but the schools were huge. Now, to be in our class, for those of you who don't speak band, their bands have to be nearly the same size as ours. We, being us, are tiny.
Big School+ Tiny band= Audition only.

If Eureka held auditions, we'd only have like, two people in each section.

Soooo, uuhhhh, they're all way better than us!

8D And our freshman suck. particularly bass#2 who keeps

slamming.
into.
my.
fucking.
back.

/rage.

I'm also having one of those moments of utter despairing sadness I trip into frequently of utter hatred for all the people in your happy little relationships who get to see your lovers nearly every day!

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.

I HOPE YOU ALL CHOKE.

XoXo Effie. <3

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Tingaliin.



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Well, they do.
Getting closer and stuff.

....Anyway, my Dad's sixty two, today.



/willmkaelongerjournalsinthefuture

XoXo Effie. <3

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little pissy. no musics.



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You're not allowed to call people ugly when they're prettier than you, you stupid son-of-a-whore.

XoXo Effie. <3

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Yeah, okay. Maybe I have a thing for boy bands.

...Oh, plus, that thing is totally trippy and fun to watch. click it.



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HEY GAIS, I'M IN A SUPER GOOD MOOD TODAY.

The first 10 people to comment will get a free sketch from me! But you need to do 10 free sketches in YOUR journal if you get one. {[You know, or not. Up to you, really.]}

AWESOME. OKAY, GAME ON.

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XoXo Effie. <3

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you say I'm heartless,
and you say I don't care,
I used to be there for you,
and you've said I seem so dead,
that I have changed,
But so have You.



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It's a Quiz, which means It's utterly self-loathing. Feel free to delete without reading~


-----------• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

- Name: Kelsey Anise Fahnestöck
- Single or taken: Taken, I guess.
- Gender: Female.
- Birthday: January 24th, 1994. Some bed in some hospital. I don't really keep track of the when and the where and the time and that stuff because my birth wasn't horridly important.
- Sign: Aquarius.
- Hair colour: Dark, reddish-brownish thing. Because I'm boring, I don't dye my hair. I planned to, in a spasm of 'OMFG, I'M BORING AS ALL GET-OUT AND HATE MYSELF' but didn't go through with it.
- Eye colour: Grey. Bland and disgusting. LIKE THE REST OF MEEE!
- Height: 4"10-1/2. Yeaaah. Go on, laugh and point at the tiny, dumpy sophomore.
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: I have a girlfriend. I'm not declaring a sexuality, since I'm not entirely sure, although I'm mentally leaning toward Gay.

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- favourite place to shop for clothes?: Thrift shops. -shrug-
- Favorite designer?: I don't pay attention to that shit.
- What is your sexiest outfit?: I'm incapable of 'sexy'.
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: My loose jeans and Hillyke's sweatshirt.
- What do you usually wear?: Shirt. Pants. Shoes. Never shorts, rarely hoodies, sometimes a skirt.

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: 'Sunsilk: Captivating Curls' Shampoo and Conditioner.
- What are you listening to right now?: In The Shadows by The Rasmus. Nope, nothing deep or meaningful from me! I have the mental depth of your average potato.
- Who is the last person that called you?: My Mum. Asking if we needed anything from the Grocer's. I told her we were out of Skim milk. x_e INTERESTING CONVERSATION, YES?
- How many buddies are online right now?: on which messenger?

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: MEAT. I eat FLESH because I'm OMNIVOROUS. I don't CARE what was done to the Animals because I am not the one who did it to them. It came in a package, and I have NO personal feelings toward the matter. AT ALL. Aren't I a DISGUSTING HORRIBLE USELESS HUMAN BEING?
- Girls names: Eliszaveta, Schirien, Francis, Aältje.
- Boys names: Daemious, Gilbert, Zephaniah, Dietrich.
- Subjects in school: Band. Graphic Design.
- Animals: Animals hate me. LOL, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I EAT MEAT. Or, I give off some kind of icky vibe? Eh.

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: My Dog?
- Smoked?: Yes. And it was lovely. But, Hillyke says I'm not allowed now.
- Bungee jumped?: Sort of. Off a platform at the state-fair, with one end of the bungee connected to a large Crane.
- Made yourself throw up?: Yep. Because my body's disgustttiiiing. Moving on.
- Skinny dipped?: In the bathtub.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Crying is disgraceful. No.
- Cried when someone died?: No, actually. And I've been to a SURPRISING amount of funerals for my age. [Have one coming up this Wednesday, in fact.]} Not cried at any of them. =\
- Lied: It's all I do.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yep. And now we're dating.
- Rejected someone?: Yeah.
- Used someone?: Sometimes. Because I'm a BITCH.
- Done something you regret?: I regret everything.

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: Black EHS Marchingband T-shirt [The new Geometries one], old black skinny jeans. Bright yellow underwear with the blue edging, supposedly 'skin coloured' bra [Even though it's like, five shades darker than me], my three-inch-heel'd house-shoes, black bracelets. eyeliner.
- Desktop picture: This: Which I'm using without permission. But it's for my viewing pleasure only, and it's not like I'ma take a desktop screen or anything. e_o OH, AND YOU SHOULD VISIT THEIR GALLERY.
- CD in player: My 'A Tribute to Sublime' one. With all the Sublime Covers.
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I’ve been a lot of places all around the way,
I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain,
but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,
I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl.

Junkies on the corner always calling my name,
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games,
When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you,
And when I looked into your eyes,
I knew it was true.



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...Have nothing else to post a journal about.

OH, EXCEPT, PEOPLE ARE ASSHOLES. You know who you are. And if you even remotely in the back of your head [if you even think about me or read my journals anymore, but I dont think you care for that, do you?] that this is aimed at you, then it probably is. Don't ask, if you're unsure, because as mentioned, you know who you are.

AssholedouchebagABANDONER.

<--------------------------------->

Oh.
SO I'M TAGGING ASSHOLES.
Namely, you.
Not the 'you' from the above pissed of statment, but rather, you, yourself. Which could also, technically, be the you of before, who just doesnt know it's them. But if they do, I guess they could fill this out, too. Not that they probably will.

Anyway.


1)******Am I-******
Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-

2)******Would You******
Hug me?-
Miss me if I was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if I cried?-
Be a good friend?-

3)******If You Could...******
Give me a new name it would be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do you like about me?-
What do you hate about me?-
What is my best quality?-

1. Who are you?-
2. Do you have a crush on me?-
3. Are we good friends?-
4. Do we know each other in real life?-
5. Will you put this in your journal so I can answer these questions about you!?-

XoXo Effie. <3

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You're quiet on the car ride home,
You're waiting for your head to explode,
You're hiding in your safe place,
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly,
All the way to the Hospital.



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Due to my rabid updating on Twitter, I've failed to post...Hm, anything, in this here box.

PLUS THE WHOLE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL THING.

So, Uh, I'm sick. I think.
Stood out in the rain last night for...fun, I guess. It was rather pretty, plus I'm kinda lonely-feeling lately and had nothing else to do. My muscles have been really weak feeling and I can't stop shaking. Could also be my explosive lack of Appetite lately doing this to me, Since I only eat if I'm hungry. e___o No appetite= No reason to consume much. It occurred to me that it may be bad for my health. Ehhh. Oh well. It's just kind of funny, since I never get sick. My immune system is srs bzns. [The upside to having a mother who spends more time at the Hospital than she does with you, she brings home lots of pretty germs all the time and your body gets used to them!]

And the headaches. oh the headaches. Oh well, I kind of just ignore sicknesses when they DO occur and just go about life. 8D;; I don't really see any reason to stay home or lay around.

FUN MOMENTS IN MY FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL:

Getting pushed down the stairs by some Freshman who apparently think I'm a ' dumb fat whore'. D< SINCE WHEN DO THE FRESHMAN BEAT UP THE OLDER KIDS? Little fuckers.

Gaining a bruise on my leg from my GBF's boney ass when he decided to FLOP on me at lunch. Damn you, Scott.

Conversation in Gov't& Law:

Mr.Zehr: You're all gonna take the Naturalization test sometime in the next few weeks, just to see what Immigrants go through.
Me: So...if we fail, do we get deported?
Mr.Zehr:....Yes. I'll have Deportation Officers at all the entrances, to catch you if you get a low score.
Airy: Where do you SEND us?
Mr.Zehr: ._. Canada. With the other Failures.

Hillyke's phone died. Now I've got no one to talk to.

Boyfriend stole my rainbow wristband. Prideful douchebag.

Had a long arguement with my First-hour Biology teacher about my choice of Shirt today. She was under the impression that 'Flogging' was a substitute for 'Fucking'. Once I explained what it meant, She then told me I still had to turn it inside-out because the school does not condone advertising acts of Violence. THEN, after more arguementation, my Biology class has been educated on the fact that 'Flogging Molly' is a band, and I'm not talking about Whipping a girl named Molly. It was...interesting to be ranting about.

Nothing much else to say.

JOKE OF THE MOMENT?
What's the difference between Kinky and Perverted?
Kinky is when you use a feather. Perverted...is when you use the whole Chicken.

Or Eyeball. -coughsatPhux,meaningfully-

XoXo Effie. <3

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Me liking this song has nothing to do with Ulquiorra being in it.
Probably.
Oh, just click it.



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The list of people I've kissed, in order.

Spawned by an earlier discussion of 'dysfunctional kisses'.

I. Jacob Inness. I was six, it was under the slide on the playground. He kissed me and told me he thought I was pretty.

I punched him and he got nose-blood all over my favourite PowerPuffGirls shirt.

I was pissed.

II. This kiss omitted for sake of my sanity, and some personal issues I don't care to discuss here. All I can say is that there is no forgiving for what happened.

III. Ashley Lloyd. <<<333 I adored that girl. We were little, and intended to get married. -nodnod- Her parents told me not to come over to her house anymore.

IV. Luke Haslett. He was attempting to calm me down or something, I was like, eight. He's gay now.

V. Ian Rosanegan. Eleven year old De-gaying her thirteen year old crush failed. He cross-dresses now, He's actually very pretty.

VI. This kiss omitted, for the sake of the person who told me they didn't ever want anyone to know it ever happened. Because I'm disgusting and the fact that I was their first kiss shouldn't be brought to light.

VII½. Fourth of July 2008, I attempted to kiss Hillyke while watching fireworks with her on the balcony at a party. What happened instead: A really loud one went off as I leaned over, causing me to slam my head VERY hardly into hers and fall halfway off the balcony [thankfully caught by a dizzy, pissed girlfriend.
VII. On her Step-Dad's couch. And I missed. FUUUUUCK.

romance FAIL.

XoXo Effie. <3

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Me liking this song has nothing to do with Ulquiorra being in it.
Probably.
Oh, just tLqmfLtN6k&feature=related"click it.



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...was pissy and Emo.

UHHHHMMMMM,

Considerably better mood?

And I like, tripped and fell into a puddle of Bleach.
Not a literal puddle of Bleach, mind you, But fell back into one of my older Anime/Manga fandoms, Bleach.

It's been a fun little trip so far.

And I look really bad in Ulquiorra Makeup. Ask Phux.

AND.
AND.
AND.

Fuck you, Kate.

I got a Twitter.


I've officially abused my ability to use word-links. <3

XoXo Effie. <3

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I grabbed some frozen strawberries,
So I could ice your bruising knees,
But frozen things they all unfreeze,
And now I taste like
All those frozen Strawberries,
I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me,
I'm pink and Black and Blue~.


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Because last night at Oh-Three-Hundred I decided that I was boring and I hated myself. Because I am. My hair's long, so the style never changes. I don't support any cool causes, except maybe being VP of my school's Invisible Children club. I'm not any kind of visionary, I don't dress super cool or anything. I don't dye or pierce things. I don't play any badass instuments, I have no specific talent or imagination. I don't do parties 'cos I don't like people, and I'm pretty straight-edge so I don't do any other kind of partying either.

So I whacked at my fringe and woke up looking Vulcan.[Yeah. Real badass-and-totally-un-safe of me, right? I'M WALKIN' ON THE FUCKING WILDSIDE. -seethes at self-] So, after I fixed the spock-esque issue about an hour ago, I decided I'm going to start dying the shit out of the front of my hair.

Because I'm fucking stupid and boring and useless.

So even if I hate the way dye smells or loathe the happy feeling I get when I stab myself with something by-way-of-piercing or other means, I'm gonna go be not-me, because no one will remember this one.

I'll be disgusted wth myself for it, but that's not an entirely new feeling anyway, eh?

XoXo Effie. <3

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I'm not your mate, Fag.


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[link] <---New Alice in Wonderland, via Tim Burton.


And have you ever like, accidentally closed down a bunch of fucking important windows because you leaned the wrong way and didn't notice your irritatingly in-the-way tits hit an improper key sequence? Fucking fuck. -seethes at the Anatomy Gods not-so-hysterical joke-.

Anyway, yeah. That's all. Go Timmy.

XoXo Effie. <3

+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+x+ ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26365673/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26365673/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 18:33:33 PDT

Eddie Izzard. He makes me smile, AND I NEED A FUCKING SMILE RIGHT NOW.


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Mmmm, Nice weather. not as totally exhausted from bandcamp as I was last year, amazingly. Probably has something to do with the grand weather. Still pretty irritated and tired, though.

This is just me being pissy,
I had to rant SOMEWHERE.

Eventhough 'lol, my band isn't going to U of I this year' doesn't make any sense to most of you. So the hate is pointless to post about.

But we aren't, because of some stupid fucking error in how bands applied to the competition this year. Whatever, they over-stocked on bands and Eureka got kicked because of the order of application.

So, no chance of renewing the ownership of the fucking Trophy we won for the first time in thirty-something-fucking-years of competeing there. That we worked so hard for, and that everyone was really excited about attempting to win again this year.

I am so pissed.

It was a great way to start the first day of bandcamp, that announcement.

Really.

XoXo Effie. <3

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You hit me once, I hit you back.
You gave a kick, I gave a slap.
You smashed a plate over my head,
Then I set fire to our bed.


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Heyyy.

SO, THIS IS A TAD EARLY, BUT IT'S JUST A HEADS-UP.

Beginning next monday, I'll probably be like, Dead to the online world for a week.

Because, You see, Effie the band nerd has Band Camp.

Which means a nine hour day [excluding the half-hour lunch break and ten-minute water-breaks every hour or so] of marching around in the freggan' heat beneath fifteen pounds of Drum. For Five days straight.

Although having an hour and a half of band practice every Monday and Thursday all summer did get me used to holding my drum up again, I'll still be too exhausted to get on the computer or draw anything. 'Cos I'm a wimp, and I'll also have to expend energy berating Freshman who're out of step and yelling at Pete.

Pete= Stupid Junior in my section, the oldest one there...
...Whose totally ranked beneath me. lololololol.

BECAUSE I'M BASSLINE SECTION LEADER, BITCHES. -copious amounts of pelvic thrusting-
And Pete's a useless git who never shows up for practice.

And he spit on my shoe last year.

I hope something chokes him.

...Anyway, yeah. Band camp. Nerd-B-Gone.

<3

...I'm still too lazy to change the song at the top.

BUT HERE, Watch our marching band's show from last year. Because now I'm in a band mood! ---> [link]

XoXo Effie. <3

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You hit me once, I hit you back.
You gave a kick, I gave a slap.
You smashed a plate over my head,
Then I set fire to our bed.


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To knock my pissy emo journal....
...I'm too lazy to change the song.
lil_brat_yuffie15=~Yeyana
+tagic+=Me~

lil_brat_yuffie15: You know they sell pasta sauce?
lil_brat_yuffie15: And bowels?
lil_brat_yuffie15: And wurst?
lil_brat_yuffie15: Not to mention the keychains and trading cards.
+Tragic+: o_o
+Tragic+: THEY SELL BOWELS?
lil_brat_yuffie15: Ja.
+Tragic+: 'TF?
lil_brat_yuffie15: Don't. Even. Know.
+Tragic+: WHOSE bowels?!
lil_brat_yuffie15: ....
lil_brat_yuffie15: Maybe we have a bit of miscommunication.
+Tragic+: o_o I hope so.
lil_brat_yuffie15: I mean Bowls. Like. The ones you eat out of.
+Tragic+: ....
+Tragic+: -slap-
+Tragic+: THERE'S NO E IN BOWLS, GITFACE.
lil_brat_yuffie15: >_<;;
lil_brat_yuffie15: SHUTUPKAY?

XoXo Effie. <3

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You hit me once, I hit you back.
You gave a kick, I gave a slap.
You smashed a plate over my head,
Then I set fire to our bed.


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Ten things to ten un-named people. Maybe if you're one of them, you can pick yourself out.

1) I'm sorry I am the way I am. That I lied and said I'd be there for you, when I'm so totally utterly selfish as to not notice when I'm being an asshole and causing a problem. I'm sorry I fucked things up between us. And I know you probably don't believe it, and even if you do, you don't care anymore. But, I do love you. I do. Best fucking friend I ever had. It makes me kind of sad that I really don't have anythig else to say to you.

2) I can't tell you half the things I want to because you always tell me things that are derogatory to me are untrue, and then you get all pissy. I'm really kind of beginning to think you're blind to it or something. So, I'm sorry to you, too. I'm sorry you can't have someone better. I mean, I'm kind of a useless blemish on the face of humanity. I'm not particularly exceptional at anything. I don't play guitar, or dye my hair, or know about bands that people give a damn about. I don't submit to deep thought, or write meaningful stories. I'm uninspired.

The only reason we even got close was because We were the only two fucking people in this stupid town who shared the same similar, Odd little interests and needed someone to rant to. Then you moved away. You fucking left me. And all your cool, new, better friends share all those weird little quirks and views. They love JtHM and Anime and read the books we read, they listen to the bands I like, they're there to talk to you, They get to see you smile and laugh and THEY get to make you happy. I used to have the use of at least sharing your ideas and helping you have someone to discuss with.

I serve to fucking purpose now. You have them. You have them, and they're better, and they're there, and I'm useless to you. There is no reason for you to keep me around. If I wasn't so selfish, I'd probably break up with you. Not because I want to, But I bet you'd be better off with some nice IVC boy your mother would approve of and that could see you every day.

...Oh, also, I think you might be schizophrenic.


3) What the fuck is wrong with you? You were so NICE before. In the last year, you've gone from this nice, pleasant-to-talk-to person to this raunchy SLUT who I can't have a fucking conversation with without you mentioning sex or having had it, or the next time you will, or who it's with. I don't have a problem with sex, but FUCK, It's something private. Bragging isn't cool. Especially when you've passed yourself around so much. I hope you get a Venereal Disease.

4) I forgive you.

5) You're so amazingly awesome. I'm glad we're friends.

6) I LIKE GIRLS. I like girls, and I when I'm at funerals, all I can think about is how irritating disgraceful it is for so many people to be crying at the same time. I think about guys screwing while I'm in church. I'm sorry I don't look like anyone in this fucking house, I seriously think you screwed the damn mailman or something. I curse alot. I hate that you're so repulsed by me, and that you think I'm fucking sociopathic and that I don't fit into the image you want for a child. I love you. I really do. But It makes me fucking sad when I can't let you know anything about me.

7) I still have nightmares about waking up on your couch in my underwear, and it still bothers me that I can't remember anything previous to this. It bothers me that I want to know. I'm glad your health was failing last time we heard from you. I can't forgive you, and I'm not even entirely sure what you did.

8) Fuck you.

9) I fantasize about you dying alot. You've still given me no reason to think about you in these terms. My favourite thus far is the one where you're at a concert and you get trampled to death, someone's boot going straight through your skull. Thought you should know. Watch out at Warped tour, bitch.

10) I'm so glad you're a drum major. You have such beautiful hands. It gives me an excuse to stare at them. I guess it's kind of creepy, how I have a little crush on you because of those hands. And how I kind of used to follow you to your classes when mine were in different hallways entirely. I still remember your second semester schedule.

XoXo Effie. <3

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Maru kaite chikyuu, Maru kaite chikyuu~
Maru kaite chikyuu, Ore Igirisu!
Maru kaite chikyuu~ Jitto mite chikyuu,
Hyotto shite chikyuu, Ore Igirisu!


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What's a word that starts with the third letter of your first name?
Liar.

What was the last thing you drank?
That new WoW-scented blue mountain-Dew...Destroying my already weak stomach-lining[Or at least that's what the doctor think it is. Fuck him and telling me not to drink acidic stuff. D;] one sip at a time! I drank lemonade yesterday, coughed and tasted blood! ;D I'm too fucking tired to care right now, is the sad part. Yey for whatever stress-trigger is fucking me up and disrupting my sleep patterns. <3

Are you confused at all?
Usually.

Has anyone ever rhymed your name with another word?
Welsey.
Kelsey-Welsey.
W
T
F
.

Have you ever had a girl best friend?
I have. Not anymore, I guess. But I did.

Are you currently reading a book?
Mmm, Re-reading the Demonata series.

What are you looking forward to in the next 4 days?
Not a whole lot.

Do you prefer socks, shoes, or bare feet?
Depends.

What is the color of the chair you're sitting on?
It's become a multitude of colours over the years.

Have you ever cried out of anger?
I'm not much of a cryer. But, out of pure frustration a few times, yeah.

What's on your mind?
My stomach hurts like a sunuvabitch right now. It's kind of distracting and irritating.

Last place you took a nap?
I don't nap.

Does any part on your body hurt?
My stomaaaach.

Are you taller than your mom?
I'm not fucking taller than anybody. I'm rocking 4"11.

Do you have nightmares very much?
I used to. In fact, I either sleep in that total-darkness dead sleep, or I nightmare. before I started this whole 'fuck you, asshole, you're not allowed to sleep!' thing over the last few dats, though, I HAD started dreaming.

Can you remember what you wore yesterday?
A shirt. Probably pants, also.

Who was the last person you texted?
Hillyke.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
I'm not

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
Presumably convulsing in the pain of an acid-induced stomach ulcer.

Do you smoke weed everyday?
I'm fairly straight-edge. Most people in my family have been to rehab for SOMETHING at LEAST once~ [Mostly two or three times, in the case of my parents] SO, It seems a bad idea, as I will most likely drown in my genepool.

Could you go a month without cursing?
Negative, Captain.

Have you ever ridden a horse?
Little known fact: Horeses scare the piss out of me. No.

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water.

When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
Mmmm -chack's my log on my mobile- ...76 minutes ago, To my Daddy.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
A best friend, No. Verbal slaps are the worst I go with people I care about. e_o A regular friend, though, yeah. once.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Increasingly.

Last people you went to the mall with?
My Mum. I'm so lame.

Are you single?
Nope.

Are there any stressful situations in your life?
No, I'm just kind of a fucking whiney asshole most of the time, so...Yeah, it's probably not ACTUALLY stressful.

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?
Closed. No matter what room I'm in, I close doors. Open doors bug the fucking hell out of me for some reason.

Do you want someone you can't have?
Not in the romantic sense. More in the I-wish-we-still-had-that kind of way.

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
Yeah. Already kind of happened though.

Where did you get your last bruise/cut from?
An X-acto knife. On the upside, the blade is so thin and I'm so pale there's always minimal scarring when that happens.

What are you currently hearing right now?
The UK version of Marukaite Chikyuu~ Upbeat things serve to entertain me when I feel the way. Plus, I've chosen to just throw myself into distracting fandoms. Keeps my mind off things.

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?
I didn't say that.

Do you think relationships are hard?
What kind of relationship?

What time did you wake up this morning?
10.06 is when I offici... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26021866/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26021866/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 08:23:31 PDT

I called her on the phone and she
touched herself.
Touched Herself.
ShE tOuChEd HeRsElF
I laughed myself to sleep.

...sexy pictures.

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FUCK I hate it when I finish series' of stuff.

...But Hetalia was pretty good.

Er, is.

D; I dunno, does it stop at 26? Because I'm having trouble finding past that.

On a sidenote to 'Yana:
Gilbert? His name is GILBERT?

XoXo Effie. <3

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]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26004367/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/26004367/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 10:56:10 PDT

....Yes. It's the awesome TOMATO SONG.

...Everyone feel free to go punch ~Yeyana in the ovaries for sending me this.

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THE RULE THING:
1. You must answer every question without lying ONCE.
2. At the end, you must tag not one, not two, not three, but FOUR people.
3. Those people you tag must either be sent a note or you have to give them a comment on their page saying "You've been tagged!" (FUCK THAT)
4. At the bottom of the questions, you must answer the very last one (before the one that asks who you tag) with, "I do solemnly swear that I have confessed the truth in all the above questions." Or else you EPIC FAIL!

1) Tell us a little bit about yourself. Gender, age, hobbies?

Gender: Decidedly female.
Age: 15.
Hobbies: Many.

2) Now let's get a little deeper! Do you have a secret crush?

Nah.

3) Do you prefer men, women, both, or neither?

I honestly don't know? I'm pretty sure I'm leaning toward 'uproariously gay', but I want to be entirely sure before I go around announcing it. =\

4) Are you one of those people who believe the forwarded messages that spam your inbox?

Again, I don't know. Alot of them are shit. But about...eight months or so ago, I sent one that said if I sent it to nine people someone would tell me what they really think of me.

That was the day Meg told me what she really thought and we quit talking for a while.

So...I'unno.

5) WHY are you best friends with your best friend?

I don't know who my best friends are anymore.


6) Do you like where you are in life? Where you're going, where you've been?

I try not to think too hard on where I am. Where I've been is kind of...raunchily horrid until I was about twelve, and on-off goodness since then. Where I'm going is still foggy, but I'm looking forward.

7) Is there anything you'd like to accomplish before you go?

I stopped setting that goal. It used to be 'be remembered' due to a weird feeling of Athazagoraphobia I usually have. But some people don't want to remember me anyway, so, eh. I give.

8) How strict are your parents? The annoying kind of strict, or the too loose?

...Loose enough that I can walk out of the front door at three AM and it's not considered sneaking out as long as I stay in town, strict enough that 'you can pierce whatever you want once you can sign your own form.'

9) Siblings? If so, how many and do you like them at ALL? If not, do you feel lucky?

I have several older siblings, and don't care to name them off. I'm tired of typing them all out, go check earlier memes. [I will, however, note that none of them occur from the same coupling of parents. They're ALL my half siblings, none of us our full blood with one another. My parents are RABBITS.]

10) Do you have a favorite book? Or if you don't read books, maybe a magazine?

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. I adore it, go find it. Cirque du Freak is good, as is the Demonata, Both by Darren Shan. Most things by Neal Shusterman are spiffy.

11) Favorite genre of music?

I don't have one, I like most things.

12) Song?

Changes nearly daily.

14) Water bottle company?

Bottled water is a sham.

...The kind you get at Huck's gas-station. It tastes like paint, and I like that for some reason.

15) Video game?

....Old-school Castlevania. Like, the one on the old Nintendo machine.

16) 'Nuff of that! Time to roleplay! Now, you're running from the law and are running through the sewers to get to safety. You come to an intersection; one direction is water and the other is cement. You know that if you take the water route, you'll most likely be safer at the end of it, and your scent will be lost by any dogs they're using... but the thought of trudging through that is not pleasant. The cement way is longer, but at the end, a friend is waiting to slip you through a secret passage, and you're more likely to get caught. Which way do you take?

The cement. I cannot swim, and have rather the detestment of water I can't see to the bottom of. If I tripped I'd probably spazz out and start foaming at the mouth.


17) Your best friend is dangling at the edge of a cliff, right next to your mother. You only have time to save one of them. Which one will you save?

o_o I distinctly remember sitting on the bus and asking me myself this question one morning on my way to school. I can't remember Wh... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25994113/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25994113/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 20:39:07 PDT

Closer;
Let me whisper in your ear,
Say the words you long to hear.
I'm in love with You...

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Things I have to note about the new Harry Potter movie:

Draco Malfoy has ugly ass feet.

Slughorn kinda looks like my friend Bethany's mum.

I'd boink Luna Lovegood.

Thanks to a scene in a hallway, Snape/Malfoy finally makes sense to me.

Harry Potter got high on Luck Potion...it was amazing.


Oh, and I'm back to adoring Weasley Twincest.





That is all.

XoXo Effie. <3

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]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25970539/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25970539/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 18:38:12 PDT

This song doesn't have any words, eh, It's good, though.
Just fuckin' click it.

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Tell me a story.

XoXo Effie. <3

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]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25824291/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25824291/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 18:41:41 PDT

You take the Breath right out of me,
You left a Hole where my heart should be,
You've got to Fight just to make it through,
'cos I will be the Death of you.

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Wow. Ten thousand pageviews.

Uhm, thanks.

XoXo Effie. <3

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]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25806688/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25806688/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 21:57:43 PDT

You take the Breath right out of me,
You left a Hole where my heart should be,
You've got to Fight just to make it through,
'cos I will be the Death of you.

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Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I'm only doing this to kick a journal.

2. My neck hurts.

3. I ran a mile today, just for kicks. but it was more for wheezes.

4. A few weeks ago, my mother told me she thinks I have sociopathic tendencies, got up, and left the room.

5. I'm running out of my favourite perfume. It's been discontinued and I have to find a new scent, now.

6. My pretty silver nail polish is chipping.

7. I like to wear silver because it makes me feel like I'm from the futuuuure.

8. I frequently hack the e-mail, deviantart, myspace, and facebook of a girl I dislike. I rearrange things just because I'm a rude bitch and she's an irritating skankwad.

9. I had mint-ship icecream in gingerale, today. Not one of my better ideas.

10. My ass hurts because the guy behind the counter at Hot Topic tripped me because I was walking backward.

11. I wish there was a damn eyeko store in the US. D<

12. I had a dream with Jemma fucking Brock in it the other day. I was with her and Hillyke on a carnival ride or something and apparently 'Jemma is just a nickname. My parents actually named me June.' ....I don't know. I really don't.

13. I'm going to miss Megz on the 11th.

14. I love fireworks. It's like gun shots and fire, falling from Heaven, As though Angels were stuck in an everlasting battle.

15. I am, apparently, poetic today.

16. I dress up in a large banana suit at night and fight the crime infested streets of Eureka.

17. I write notes to my girlfriend that she's not allowed to ever read. I have a large bag of them, actually.

18. My butt itches.

19. I scratched it.

20. I'm running out of things to put here.

21. Most of these start with 'I'. I'm very self centered.

22. I went to the mall with my Mum today. She got hit on my the fucker who tripped me while we were paying for our stuff.

23. I actually dont think Kirk/Chekov is a very good pairing. At all.

24. I'm going to go get on facebook.

25. I'm not tagging you fuckers.

XoXo Effie. <3

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]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25632697/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25632697/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 15:34:13 PDT

Do you Remember?

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Rest in Peace:

Alyssa Grace Burns, whom was to be a senior at my school, but decided texting and Driving was a good Idea. I don't know, at least maybe it'll teach people something. She was a good bando. [October 25th, 1991 ~ June 25th, 2009.]

Michael Jospeh Jackson, The king of Pop. Had a 'heart attack'...But I suspect foul play, for it intrigues me. On the Upside, being 99% plastic, he will be melted down into leggo blocks so little boys can play with him for a chance...I shouldn't speak so ill of the dead. [August 29, 1958 ~ June 25, 2009]

Ferrah Leni Fawcett [Known: Farrah Fawcett], The original blonde charlie's angel. She was a sexy mofo. Damn Cancer. [February 2, 1947 ~ June 25, 2009]

William Darrell Mays [Known: Billy Mays], That fucker who always popped up SCREAMING AND SHOUTING on infomercials. Heart complications. [July 20, 1958 ~ June 28, 2009]



I know you guys already knew about those, but...eh. I've been away for a few days and unable to post a journal.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25474571/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 13:17:22 PDT

Yo! sasurai no Gunner kokou no Hunter
Continue saa tsugi wa dare da omae no ban da
S.O.S. chekku to tesuto
boku, bootto tsuttattereba sadon desu
naisu attakku naisu difensu
hitsuyou na no wa sou savaibaru no sensu
ikiro ikiro Here we go, here we go
hai sukoa meiku de omae ga Hero .
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TEN ARE YOUS
► Are you single ➔ Nope.
► Are you happy ➔ Some times more than others.
► Are you bored ➔ Usually.
► Are you sad ➔ Not right now, give me an hour.
► Are you Italian ➔ Not that I know of.
► Are you German ➔ My last name isFahnestöck. Take your damn guess.
► Are you Asian ➔ Nah.
► Are you angry ➔ Often. At present, only slighty.
► Are you Irish ➔ A little, but not signifigantly. I'm more or less Half German/ Half scottish.
► Are your parents still married ➔ They never were. I'm a bastard child, born out of wedlock. Which isnt to say my parents weren't married to OTHER people. They were both having affairs at the time, you see. So..I'm an illegitimate double-affair baby.

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ A hospital.
► Hair Color ➔ dark brown, slightly reddish in sunlight. [Not that I'm oft outside.]
► Hair Style ➔ Bangs. long and curly to my mid back, touches my waist if I straighten it. [Which takes like, two hours of my day that I don;t feel like wasting.]
► Eye color ➔ Mum says Hazel. I say 'Disgusting Grey.' [They're grey, but when you look close, you can see green and blue and a bit of brown. But it bothers me to have people that close to my face.]
► Birthday ➔ January 24th.
► Mood ➔ Moody.
► Gender ➔ Presumed female.
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Depends on what I'm doing.
► Summer or Winter ➔ Mmmm...Autumn.
► Morning or Afternoon ➔ I'm not lately awake to see morning.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ Or something oddly similar. I think so, though.
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Infatuation, maybe. Love? No.
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ He moved away. Then called me like a week later.
Joey: Hey, uhm, I moved.
Me: Fuck you. -clicks it off-
So...Myself, I guess.
► Have you ever been hurt ➔ In what manner?
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ I sincerely doubt it, but I've had two people thus far tell me so.
► Are you friends with your ex ➔ No.
► Are you afraid of commitment ➔ Not presently.
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? Mhmmm.
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Yeah, actually...
► Have you ever broken your own heart? With a jack hammer.

TEN THIS OR THAT
► Love or Lust ➔ Love.
► Lemonade or Iced tea ➔ Lemonade.
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats.
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ Few best friends.
► Television or Internet ➔ Internet.
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Coke!
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ The latter.
► Pink or Purple ➔ Pink.
► Day or Night ➔ Night.
► IM or Phone ➔ Phone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ I don't have to sneak out. It usually goes like this:
Me: Hay Mum, I'ma go for a walk.
Mum: It's twelve.
Me: Yeah.
Mum:City Curfew's at eleven.
Me:...Yeah.
Mum:...If the cops catch you, You're paying your own fine.
Me: ;D LOVE YOU. -wave-
► Fallen off the stairs ➔ MANY A TIME.
► White water rafted ➔ Not if you paid me. I can't swim in a pool, let along in bad conditions.
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ Mhmm.
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? Indeed.
► Prank called a store ➔ Yeah. We got the clerk to name off Condom flavours. Yes. Flavours. and Scents.
► Skipped School ➔ Yeah, I skip every November 1st. And I skipped out in the middle of the day for a Gay Rights protest[For, not against] a few months ago.
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Less so recently.

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or Eyes ➔ Smiles please~
► Light or Dark Hair ➔ Depends on the person.
► Fat or Skinny ➔ Some people look good fat, some look better less so. It depends on the person.
► Shorter or Taller ➔ I have no preference.
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Intelligence IS attractive ;D
► Jock or Nerd ➔ Give me a Nerd. I need someone I can hold a conversation with.
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship.
► Funny and poor OR Rich and serious ➔ Funny and Poor.
► Play the guitar or into sports ➔ Neither.
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I never got your name, I assume you're 33.
Your voice it sounded kind,
I hope that you like me.
When you see my face, I hope that you don't laugh,
I'm not a film-star beauty.
I sent a photograph.
I hope that you don't laugh...
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<sub>Hmmm...

Happy Fathers Day, guys.
And Litha, if you're Wiccan.
and ALMOST saint Alban day.


I'm out of holidays.</sub>

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<sub>I saw UP. Good movie, I teared up a little in some places, which is saying alot in my case.

Totally Reccommended.</sub>

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<sub>I Dunno...

I just needed to kick my other journal.</sub>

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XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25212774/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 08:46:09 PDT

Dead Leaves on the dirty ground,
When I know that you're not around.
Shiny tops and soda pops,
When I hear your lips make a sound.
When I hear your lips make a sound.


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What the FUCK kind of name is that? Weird-ass Chillicothe people and your weird-ass names.

I dunno, My brother has a show there tonight, I'll probably go. =\

Even if it is a Dumbass name, and this journal is just to kick the other one.

Not because I dislike Megz stamps, but because whenever I get on they take FOREVER to load, and the rest of the internets won't WORK until they're loaded.

Hmmmmm, I'm gonna go back to puking my guts up, as I usually do before Hillyke comes over. Nervous emesis and stuff. Bye, lovelies.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25194865/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 10:01:49 PDT

I just wish I was queer,
So I could get Chicks.


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Unfortunately, Aliases hurt my head. BUT I'LL DO THEM ALL!

My Megz is FABULOUS with Stamps, you see.







Some are on different accounts...she likes name jumping. xD

BUT AREN'T HER STAMPS FUCKING AMAZING?
I like the Fable ones best, even though I'm not particularly a Fable fan. They're just really good. 8D

Oh...but that one at the very end is my extreme favourite.

XoXo Effie. <3

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=MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25183850/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25183850/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:13:49 PDT

I was pretending,
Your secret kiss of confidence,
Was my escape,
The perfect game to play...


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Last night, I had a dream.

You were there, and you were holding her hand and smiling.
She looked so happy there, with you.
And then, for some reason, you picked up a container of Drain-O from a table.
And you drank it.
Your throat started to bleed, and you choked, and holes burned through your esophogous until you died.
You convulsed for a bit.

And she cried.

And I woke up smiling.

And I went to church.

And see, I'm semi-bothered by the fact,
that this doesn't bother me.

Because I still don't really have a reason for those thoughts toward you.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25159060/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 09:59:34 PDT

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
'cause none of them can stop the time.


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Start this off with, who do you like?
I don't like PEOPLE, specifially. More so, I like certain things about them and if I couple rip them apart to make my perfect person, that would be fantastic. Like, Evan Stalter and very fluffy hair, and pretty wrists. I like the way Laura Magnuson's legs curve below the knee. Savannah Boisseau has very pretty ankles and nicely shaped eyes. Squeeki has pretty fingers. [link]. I don't like people, I like things about them. [Hillyke shows more likable components in a person that anyone I've yet met. ;D]

And your name is?
Kelsey Anise Fahnestöck.

When was your last kiss?
Exactly two weeks and 17 minutes ago. My next one will be in Three days~

Have you ever seen a dead person?
Of course.

What are you listening to now?
My neighbours's irritating little yappy-dog. If it bounces when it barks, IT IS NOT A DOG.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
...As it goes, I don't plan. I see what happens.

What did you do today?
I...woke up. It's only 11.23.

Do you like flowers?
they make my throat itch and my eyes water. So, not particularly. But they LOOK nice.

Did you enjoy your day?
...No. Not thus far, my throat hurts.

Hate is a strong word, who do you hate?
Not people specifically. Much like liking people, I don't hate in Entirety..usually. More so I despise certain aspects.

Do you drink a lot of water?
Generally.

Who did you last lay in a bed with?
My Mother, actually. This morning she was laying on her bed reading a book and I came in all 'MAKE ME WAFFLES, BI-OTCH' and flopped onto bed with her.

Would you cry if you found out one of your friends were pregnant?
Why the hell would I CRY over that?

Were you happy when you woke up today?
No. Repeat: Throat on FIRE.

Do you keep a planner?
A...mental planner. And it's usually only seconds in advance.
Me: 8D THERES A ROCK.
Mental planner: OMFGJUMP,ASSHOLE.
Me: -was just invited to a party-
Mental: ditch out in better favour of going home to watch Star Trek reruns.
Etc.

What kind of mood are you in today?
Groggy. Pained.

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Me: -stares at ceiling, inhales- SHITFUCK, MY THROAT. -runs off in search of water-

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
2'ish, wasn't feeling well so I crashed out early.

Do you miss anyone?
I miss Megz from before.
I miss My Grandpa.
I miss Hillyke.
In that order.

Are you mad at anyone right now?
I'm usually pissy with somebody, give me a minute.

Did you see the movie Twilight?
I DID. I also saw the: Twilight 'blood' energy drinks, the twilight candy hearts, the twilight BANDAIDS, the twilight shirts, the twilight jewelry, the twilight PANTS, the twilight MAKEUP, the twilight bags, and the twilight books. I am so SICK of Twilight.

Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
Nah.

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 10 days?
In hugging-fashion.

Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
Hasn't everyone?

How are you feeling right now?
I swear this question was already on here.

What are you craving right now?
Mint-Chip icecream.

Do you want kids anytime soon?
No. Infact, not ever.

Are you hiding something from someone close to you?
Yeah.

Is there something you want to tell someone but can't?
Hm, Yeah.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
Squeeki's couch.

Do you ever think about someone and start crying?
Not often.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Of course.

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
Mum.
Me: Waffleeeezzzz.
Her: D< No. I'm READING.
Me:...But I want waffles.
Her: You can work the damn toaster. -flips a page pointedly-

What are you currently doing besides this?
Texting Hillyke.

Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
My teddy bear is a male bear, and I was asleep and holding him...but not a PERSON.... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25048899/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/25048899/ Sun, 31 May 2009 10:41:55 PDT

Kill me romantically.
Fill my soul with vomit,
then ask me for a piece of gum.
Bitter and dumb, you’re my sugarplum.
You're Awful,
I Love You...


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<sub>We did weigh-ins on Friday for Phys. Ed.
I've lost 16 pounds since the beginning of the school year~
Yeah, Yeah, Nine months is a long damn time to take losing weight. But I hear Gradual is how you're SUPPOSED to, and it was more of a 'OMFGMYEATINGHABITSSUCK' thing. And my Body hates me.

So, Hah, Take that Assholish metabolism of mine.

I win.

And I'm happy.</sub>

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[x] smoked.
[x] consumed alcohol.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] kissed someone of the same sex.
[ ] had sex.
[x] had someone in your room other than family.
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn.
[x] tried drugs.

TOTAL: 8

[x] taken painkillers.
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] lied to your parents.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] snuck out of the house.
[x] done something illegal.
[x] felt hurt.
[x] hurt someone.
[x] wished someone to die.
[x] seen someone die.

TOTAL: 18

[x] missed curfew.
[x] stayed out all night.
[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist.
[ ] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab. [To visit my sister, and my mother the two respective times she was there. and also one to see Dad when he was. BUT NEVER HAVE I BEEN THERE FOR ME!]
[ ] dyed your hair. [EWWW.]
[x] been in an accident.
[x] been to a club.
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL: 24

[x] been to a wild party.
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[ ] had a spring break in Florida.
[x] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands.
[x] wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] listened to rap.
[x] owned a 50 Cent CD.

TOTAL: 32

[x] dressed gothic.
[x] dressed girly.
[x] dressed punk.
[x] dressed grunge.
[x] stole something.
[x] been too drunk to remember anything.
[ ] blacked out.
[x] fainted.
[ ] had a crush on a neighbor.

TOTAL: 39

[x] had a crush on a friend.
[x] been to a concert.
[ ] dry-humped someone.
[x] been called a slut.
[x] called someone a slut.
[ ] installed speakers in your car.
[x] broken a mirror. [All I had to do was look in it!]
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [OH SWEET JESUS NO. -can't even drink out of my own cup if I suspect an excessive amount of my own saliva has gotten in it.]

TOTAL: 45

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[ ] cruised on mail.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] had surgery.
[x] had an injury.
[x] gone to court.
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
[x] caught something on fire.
[x] lied about your age.

TOTAL: 52

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence.
[ ] made out with someone who had a gf/bf
[x] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger.
[x] hugged a stranger.
[ ] kissed a stranger.
[x] rode in the car with a stranger.
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.

TOTAL: 58

[ ] met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [I loathe phonecalls]
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] been to a fair.
[x] been called a bad influence.
[ ] drank and drove.
[x] prank-called someone.
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] cheated on a test.

TOTAL: 65


If You Have Less Than 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [I should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [I should be dead]

=MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24985856/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24985856/ Wed, 27 May 2009 18:51:10 PDT
_{I hope it dies of SIDS.}

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24944367/ Mon, 25 May 2009 14:16:04 PDT

The offender..

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SO,

I WAS GOING THROUGH MIX CD'S OF MINE.

FROM THE FOURTH/FIFTH GRADE.


AND ALL THE SUDDEN,
FUCKING,
GERARD IS SCREAMING AT ME.

I think I have to go do away with myself.

What the fuck was I THINKING?

I need to go...cleanse.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24704121/ Mon, 11 May 2009 13:57:01 PDT

It's so weird seeing Three Days Grace paired with stuff from the 60's.

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I REDID MY STAMPS. THEY'RE MORE COMPACTISH NOW.


Now, to the point:

This is a belated journal, seeing as it happened like, over the weekend and all, but...

I saw Star Trek.

OH MY JESUS, THEY ACTUALLY DIDNT FUCK UP EVERYTHING.

GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT.

-cough- Go see it.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24641821/ Thu, 07 May 2009 19:39:34 PDT

Oh Mama, I've been years on the lam and had a high price on my head;
Lawman said 'Get him dead or alive' and it's for sure he'll see me dead.
Dear Mama I can hear you cryin', you're so scared and all alone,
Hangman is comin' down from the gallows and I don't have very long.



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Yeah, so. One of those periodic 'I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING' journals. Feel free to click the back arrow. [All I ever really do is complain anymore.]

Half of it's my collective hour-and-a-half of sleep over the past two days. I don't have insomnia. On a normal night: Trouble getting to sleep, and waking up at least a dozen times in the middle of the night. But I DO manage at least five hours a night in between all that. So yeah, My body? NOT USED TO RUNNING ON SO LITTLE SLEEPY-TIME. I've become a horrid raunchy bitch for the fact of it.

This is due to one of my Nightmare sprees. What the hell is that, you ask? [I know, you didn't ask. Shut your fucking face. Why are you even reading this?] When I have a freakish re-occuring nightmare everytime I sleep for periods of up to a week, which makes it damn near impossible for me to sleep the rest of the night. On the upside, there's an off switch: My body eventually becomes too tired to conjure up ANY sort of image, much less a horrific one. I kind of pass out for nine hours or so. It's wonderful.

It just turns me into a raunchy, paranoid, irate and annoyingly bitchy person for a while.

The cause of this new wave of inner tension? Hillyke's possibly being moved the District 150 schools, because her Mother's tired of driving her to Mossville.

FOR THOSE NOT VERSED IN ILLINOIS SCHOOL-NEWS, LET ME UPDATE YOU: District 150; Officially the worst school IN the Peoria area. Drugs. Shootings. Fights. Gangs. Their test scores are so low, they make me seem smart, and I'm no fucking scholar. Hillary WILL manage to get caught in gangcrossfire. Just watch. [And you'll know if it happens; The school is always in the news for one thing or another]

NOW, A LIST OF RANDOM SHIT I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IN THE LAST FIFTEEN MINUTES THAT IRRITATES ME:

i. That. The lowercase letter i. When people say 'i am-blahblahblah-' CAN YOU NOT CAPITALIZE? DO YOU THINK IT MAKES YOU STAND OUT OR SEEM SMART WITH SOME SORT OF 'NEW' WRITING STYLE? ARE YOU LAZY? WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK. when I see 'i am, i do, i was, etc.' in writing, I immediately exit the page, or get rid of the paper. If you can't press the fucking shift key you should, probably, go die, or at least quit writing. And if you think it makes you profound, it doesn't; It's not new. It's something people used to do in first grade. Grow up.

'your' and 'you're' People mix these up. Erg. IT'S NOT THAT HARD.

When people say 'it tis' TIS. YOU DO NOT USE 'TIS' UNLESS THERE'S NO 'IT' IN FRONT OF IT. It's the damn purpose of that contraction.

People who make it out that their lives or fucking HORRIBLE when really; They're not. 'oh no, my parents want to spend time with me!' 'Daddy wouldn't buy me this!' 'My favourite band broke up, my life is meaningless!' 'OH NO, I was cheating one two guys and they found out! This somehow totally wasn't my fault or anything and everybody's being mean!'

-sigh- I fucking irritate myself more than any of those things.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24435624/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 21:22:25 PDT

I use
My chinese Star
to pick the locks,
AND STEAL YOUR CAR.
Rock and Roll!



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<sub>Hm...Yeah, not much going on. Feel the need to update for no particular reason.

It's only for 'no reason' being because people don't really read these anywho.

So, Here's a list of miscellaneous random crap nobody but me cares about, involving my Day.

I went shopping today.
I fit into size eight jeans now, very comfortably. I almost pee'd my new pants in happy.[I haven't fit into a size eight since I was like, ten years old.]Dieting and running in circles prevails!

I've been watching 'Deadliest Warrior' all day. This is...entirely too interesting.

Lemonade. It's synonymous with Ambrosia. [Well...okay, not really. but it's pretty damn good.]

I think something's eating a hole in my intestines. I've got this weird burning ache right at the end of my left-side ribcage.

Eh.

Quiz.</sub>

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Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
I have.

Do you answer the phones at your job?
I'm a bum. For now.


What's your ring tone?
The Invader Zim themesong is my Default.

What were you doing at 12am last night?
I think I was yelling at Hillyke to go to bed. She's sick, you see.

Do you straighten your hair everyday?
Only my bangs, the rest is an entirely lost cause.

Do you get mad easily?
Depends on the situation, and how my day has been goin until that point.

Have you ever given up on someone but then went back to them?
What, like, romantically?
Pssssh. Shoot, no.
I'm emotionally and Romantically inept.
Ask Hillary, she;ll tell you all about it.

Whats wrong with you right now?
Why do you assume there's something wrong?


Will your next kiss be a mistake?
It's possible, but i hope not. -shrug-


When was the last time you kissed somebody?
I kissed Vati nearly fifteen minutes ago, shooing him off to bed. Old Men need their sleep.

Are you looking forward to anything?
Seeing her.

Have you ever broken someones heart?
Apparently, But I'm really not the type. I'm not overly attractive in either looks nor in emotional ability. I can't tell if people are hitting on me or trying to make a move because I'm an oblivious lump. I'm quite useless.


Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yeah. And they're all wrong.

What color is your digital camera?
Silver.

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Two people, even.
I'm quite unoriginal, to be honest. I moved to Eureka and am now in a class with two others whom share my same first name, and two separate persons whom share my birthdate.

Does anyone disgust you?
I usually manage to disgust myself before anyone else gets the chance.


Do you think people talk about you?
I'm not really worth a discussion. I assume, sometimes, yeah. But not often. Nobody cares about me. :]


Your enemy is at your doorstep begging for forgiveness, what would you do?
Forgive them, invite them in for tea. Hatred is awfully time consuming. I trust God to strike down and judge the people I have distastes for. You get what's coming to you, and all.

Do you like being single?
Honestly? I feel quite nearly the same now that I'm Taken as I did when I wasn't. It's not like she's even 'mine' anyway, Not really. I like so much to think she is, but it's hard to believe anymore. I see her like, once or twice every few months. I can't defend her from people who hit on her, I'm not a fucking threat from an hour and a half away.

Do you want any children?
I do not. I would abuse or otherwise scar them.

Lets say you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
Liked the last person I kissed, or the last person I kissed? If it was Vati...yeah, no. Just, no. That's illegal and not my particular preference.
Hillyke? Well, yeah. I'd actually probably willingly carry her child, if that were possible. I think I might actually not abuse something if it were part of her.

What did you wake up to this morning?
Alarm.


Is there something your happy about right now?
Nah.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Repenting at the Saturday morning 7am service.

How many piercings do you have?
Four. However, as a total, I have been... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24382786/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24382786/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 18:16:40 PDT

you stupid mother fucker.
You Stupid Mother Fucker.
YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCK.

Less offensive alternative:

Mirror-Mirror, up on my wall,
Who be the top choice of-of 'em all?
There was a rubble-rubble double,
five minutes and lastin',
The mirror said:
You are, you conceited bastard!


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[Okay, I'll admit. the second is only SLIGHTLY less offensive]


Dunno. Haven't updated in a while. Ehhhhh. Haven't had much to say. Prolly gonna upload a DevID here, soon.
Contemplating.

I...
Handed in my Job Application to the IGA a few days ago.
[It's a Grocery.]
My sad, sorry, sick motivation?

I'm tired of seeing the damn blank space in my MSI collection!
I have all their CD's and DVD's and shit.
Except.
For.
'Tight'.

They discontinued the make of the CD and now the Price is all jacked up. -scowl- I'll raise the money for that fucking thing if it kills me.

-shakes fist at unfinished shelf-shrine-

Not that you guys cared or that anyone even reads this.

Eh.
It's an update, at least.

XoXo Effie. <3

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=MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24151068/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/24151068/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 17:06:31 PDT

It's our time to shine,
Through the down;
Glorified by what is ours.
We've fallen in love,
We've fallen in love!
It was the best Idea I Ever Had.


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<sub>Happy:

Maundy Thursday for the Christians. [The day 1,976 years ago that Jesus was crucified.]

G-Mas for the MCRmiers. [The anniversary of the birth of the MCR GOD; Gerard Way.]...Your religion still makes no sense to me. But whatever...

Thursday, to everyone else. [If any other religions have a holiday today- ...sorry. I was unaware.]</sub>


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<sub>DAMN YOU HOUSE WRITERS!

You killed off Kutner. I adored that man. -weeps-</sub>

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Oh my jeez, Megling. I miss you.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23587335/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 07:52:39 PDT

Does anyone even remember this?!


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I GOT TAGGED FOR THE 8 THING.

AGAIN.

-'splodes-

1. I like the lotion I'm wearing right now, It makes me smell Edible. I'm sure I'll attract both Zombies AND Cannibals somewhere throughout the day.
Perhaps the zombie of a cannibal?

2. When I was little I always wanted to marry a black guy. My only reasoning was that I wanted our kids to have pretty skin. WHICH THEY TOTALLY WOULD HAVE. -has a thing for brown-skinned people, in general- 's a very pretty tone of flesh.

3. I still hate Parabolas.

4. I hate when people get all uppity about the word 'manga'. 'You're supposed to say 'mahn-guh'! I'm one of the people who can say it right. 8D' YES. I THINK ABOUT HALF THE PEOPLE WHO EVEN /READ/ IT AND STILL SAY 'MAIN-GUH' HAVE AT LEAST /SOME/ IDEA ON HOW TO PRONOUNCE JAPANESE WORDS. We just. Don't. care.

5. I'm a nervous little twit, and always have been. When I was little, I used to pull my hair out. Then I got older, started chewing on my nails. Stopped that, and graduated to more or less chewing a HOLE in the inside of my face. Decided I didn't like the feel of the scars that had popped up on the inside of my cheeks, went back to chewing my nails, and in the last few months I've been attempting to grow 'em out. Where does this leave me when I have no physical outlet? I vomit. I don't WANT to, but it just seems to HAPPEN. It's rather irksome and disgusting. We had Saturday band-practice the day of homecoming and I had to keep running inside because I couldn't quit getting sick. They sent me home. Dammit.

6. I'm disturbed by how long the paragraph above this one is.

7. I have nothing in common with any of my friends. None of them like comic books, good music, blood, gore, Cartoons, reading, horror movies. And none of them are as mentally jacked nor as perverted [aside from icky teenage perversion which bothers me and I don't care to discuss with them] as I am. There's Hillyke, I guess. But she's got all her new, better friends to discuss things like zombies and comic books and music with, by the time I bring them up she's annoyed with having to repeat a conversation, so I no longer bother. THEN THERE'S MEG, who is PERFECT for all this, and gets it, and is amazing, and just as totally fucked up as is perfect- But we never talk anymore.

8. I'm going hiking. fuck ya'll.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23513663/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 18:55:42 PST

This is me being nice.


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OH YES. The list of random SHIT that annoys me. Aren't you fucking THRILLED to be privy to this information?

...Just....just hit the backspace.

Run.


1. The word TUMMY. It's called a fucking STOMACH. There is such thing as a Belly; It's a stupid word, but IS the actual term for the outter skin of your stomach. A tummy is a word for small children, and they shouldn't even use it. GOSH.

2. Huge Art Dumps. You know, when people are nonexistant for EVER, then decide to upload EVERYTHING they seem to have EVER done? I'll be honest, When those happen, I just delete it all without looking. It's too much to go through, so I don't feel like going through to look for the good stuff.

3. Parabolas. Damn Algebra.

4. When you hardly ever talk to someone, they finally DO pop in on your IM, and then it would seem the only thing they even do is load off picture and video links on you. As if they don;t really feel like talking to you; Just wanted to whore stuff off on you. It's really annoying.

5. People who stand in the middle of the damn hallway at school and then get mad when you push them. GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE WAY, STAND BY THE SIDE IF YOU MUST TALK.

6. Couples who feel the need to hold hands and drag eachother down the hallway to EVERY. SINGLE. DAMN. CLASS. It's just irritating. We get it, you're in love or whatever. Quit slobbering.

7. Exceedingly negative and opinionated people. -innocent whistling-

8. MY DAMN SHORT ATTENTION SPAN. I just stopped typing for like ten minutes in favour of looking up static shock fanart. What the fuck.

9. The lack of GOOD Virgil/Richie Static/Gear fanart. Fucking hell. D<

10. Hair Dye. Just...just cut it out, guys. I don't even see the point in liking anyone's haircolour anymore. I used to like nice, natural, red hair. But sometimes you meet someone and compliment them on their hair or something and they're all 'LOL THANKS! It's not mine, I bought it in a bottle!'

Natural hair colours are the most unique and gorgeous thing I see most people to have ever been graced with. I hate the people that feel like they need to dye it every five seconds so they're 'different', especially when it;s what everyone else is doing.

Ugh, paradox?

Ugh. Misuse of a word.

Ugh. End.

XoXo Effie. <3

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http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23448481/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 10:00:59 PST

Don't quote me boy, I ain't said shit.


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News brought to you, From Effie, through the ZaDr club, at the hands of some other chick:


"If someone by the name of Alfred Hundana (dragon_heart620) wants to add you to their list, don't accept it. It's a virus. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds them you will get it, too. It is a hard drive killer and a very horrible virus. Please pass this on to everyone on your list. We need to find out who is using this account. Sorry for the inconvenience. Right click on your group name of your buddy list and click Send Message to all please"

That...really is all I have to say. TaDa.

Oh, and that link up thar at the top?

2.19 is prolly my favourite part.

'started talkin' shit, wouldn't ya know? I reached back like a pimp and I slapped a Ho!'

XoXo Effie. <3

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=MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23321128/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23321128/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 09:27:43 PST

No. Still not feeling the music.


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<sub>My sucky, 'omfg,IMUNNADIEINAVERYEMOMANNER' journal was getting irksome. Here Let's move on to something that seems...LESS like I'm about to slit my wrists.


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- Available: No.

- Age: 15

- Annoyance: Most people, things, and situation. Albeit, not all.

- Allergic: Grape flavouring, [but not grapes, oddly. just the stuff they use to flavour like...candies and medicine..I dunno, it makes me get a headache and vomit.]Bounce Dryer sheets, [which cause me to bust out in hives.] Poison Ivy, [Which has been known to incapacitate me for over a week with these nasty, burning, BLEEDING sores. I don't get it like a normal person, oh no; I get SUPER poison ivy.] Most pen ink, [I don't like, start foaming at the mouth. it just makes my skin burn. Alot. and turn kinda red. And yet, I draw on myself all the time...IT'S SO PRETTY.]Oh, and, uh, Penicillin.

- Animal: Am not!

- Actor: Haven't one.

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- Beer: is liable to turn respectable people into fools.

- Birthday/Birthplace: Proctor Hospital, Peoria, Illinois, U.S. January Twenty-fourth, 1994.

- Best Friends: Megz. Squeeki. In that order.

- Body Part on opposite sex: The opposite sex irritates me, and I find them generally unnatractive. Hair, I guess?

- Best feeling in the world: I don't yet know it.

- Blind or Deaf: I'd rather be deaf, if I HAD to pick one of those.

- Best weather: lukewarm, raining, and dark.

- Been in Love: Honestly? I think so, but am entirely unsure at the moment.

- Been bitched out?: Often. And I just lauuuugh.

- Been on stage?: Yeah.

- Believe in yourself?: Not really.

- Believe in life on other planets: Mhmm. Kinda selfish to think we're ALL that's out there.

- Believe in miracles: Sure.

- Believe in Magic: depends on the type. Like, as a Christian, I'm obligated to think Wiccan magick and whatnot doesn't exist. But that would be also counter-productive against what they teach you in church that the power of words, thoughts, and intentions [without even doing anything,] have an effect. While I may not believe in what they're DOING it for, some religions using spells to do things is just the same as a Christian praying in hope God will do something. So...'white magick' exists. Satanic black magick exists, [Because if I believe in God, how do I say that The Devil doesn't have his own power?] Oh. And Voo-Doo/Hoo-Doo freaky magick exists. That shit's SCARY.

But Magicians and faerie god-parent disney-type magick? 's a load of shit.

- Believe in God: Yes, indeedy.

- Believe in Satan: Well, Yeah.

- Believe in Santa: Did you know that's who all the dyslexic devil worshippers sell their souls to?

- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: I do.

- Believe in Evolution: To an extent.

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- Car: My Dad got me one about a week ago...pretty light blue ford that I can't drive, yet.

- Candy: Those chalky little candy hearts. 'cept the white ones. those'ns are nasty.

- Colour: Pink. Red.

- Cried in school:....Thinking on it, I actually can't recall a time I've done that.

- Chocolate/Vanilla:....white chocolate.

- Chinese/Mexican: Chinese.

- Cake or pie: Cake.

- Countries to visit: Germany, Scotland...the general UK, as I can FLUENTLY speak that language. Well, okay, my fucked out AMERICAN english version, but still. Oh. Yeah, Canada.


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- Day or Night: Night

- Dream vehicle: Hot Pink VW Bug.

- Danced: The music moves me. It just moves me ugly.

- Dance in the rain?: Yeeesss~

- Dance in the middle of the street?: Only when I'm in a bad mood.

- Do the splits?: I cannot.

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- Eggs: Scrambled and cheesy...with onions...

- Eyes: Are icky and grey-looking. The outter edge is blueing, then the middle is gray, then the edge around my pupil is brownish, and there are little green flecks....
But they look grey, and that's what I shall say they are. I have such disgusting eyes.

- Everyone has: Herpes.

...What? That wasn't the answer?

- Ever failed a class?: Failed 8th grade Grammatics. [It was first period, It was early, and my brain WOULD. NOT. FUNCTION.]

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- First crush: Wakko Warner. From..The..Animaniacs.

- Full name: Kelsey Anise Fahnestöck. [kell-see ah-niece fan-uh-stalk]

- First thoughts waking up: Today? '...Damn, I have nice legs.' Which was weird, as I do not ACTUALLY have nice legs, but I woke up, sat up, looked down and...... ]]> =MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23147061/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23147061/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 20:48:51 PST</sub>

No.


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My phone finally broke!

It overheats really fast and won't hold a charge or send things.

'Tis also my only source of communication with Hillyke.

Coincidence coinciding with her never moving back?
Probably.
In my mind?
Of course not.

I give up.

The drift begins.

XoXo Effie. <3

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=MissEff http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23090995/ http://MissEff.deviantart.com/journal/23090995/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 19:53:53 PST

No musics. totally not feeling it.


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Sorry for the lack of art lately. I mean, I submitted a photo...not art. It was more...myspacesque crap. Submitted that Wybie thing....which should be in scraps. More just posted it to be posting SOMETHING.

But it's been a rough week.

Hillyke's not ever moving back, in the official sense of it. Which apparently everyone but me knew anyway. So. Bleh. Been crying over that when ever I get the spare alone time to do so. [Which is unusual for me. I don't really...cry. much. So I've been expecting to start my period, because the only explaination is pms.]

Or maybe it's just the depressing aura around my house, because mum's been sad and crying alot lately. 'cos her best friend Mike hung himself monday evening...So. You know, that blows. Been doing funeral crap all weekend. Mum looked really cute in the hawaiian shirts they made all the pall-bearers wear. She got to lead.

I felt bad because the only thing I could think through the whole thing was 'they did the makeup on his hands wwrong'.

Oh, and I've got like, three commissions I'm supposed to be doing. One actually has a DEADLINE, and it's the one I least want to mess with.

On TOP of all that I haven;t spoken to meg in...forever. I don't know, a week or so. Feels like longer...I miss her.

Hn...I'll try to post something worthwhile soon.

Yeah. TTFN.

XoXo Effie. <3

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