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Instructions

When I leave,
just wave goodbye
and close the door.
Don't kiss my forehead
and reminisce about
what was said.

Don't say you'll call,
because all you ever
do it watch me fall.

And I fall hard.
I defy all laws
of gravity
and physics.

I fall real hard,
and bruise
like a peach.

Don't ask me to stay
for breakfast.
Hold your tongue.

Just break fast.

I only want breakfast
if it will become a ritual.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26732533/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26732533/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 11:26:56 PDT Who should have been born
In another time:
When time meant more
Than fulfilling lustful
Fantasy, and apathy
Was not the norm.
When soldier boys would
Send letters to their
waiting girls back home:
Writing of their love for them,
And their yearning to embrace
And hold them in their arms;
Not to de-lace and devour them.
When kids dreamed of true love
And did not know what their
Celebrities looked like naked.
When calendars were
Actually used for dates
And magazines were
Actually read for news.
[When boyfriends would not
Suggest you fantasize
of other men, but would
instead be disgusted by
by even the thought of it.]

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26389959/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26389959/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 20:57:10 PDT
I've come to a conclusion
concerning this confusion
of myself and who I am
and where I stand.

I believe
it will never
cease.

My heart will spill,
and the pages will fill,
but there will be no end.

I vow to maintain
a climax
not a life played
in imax,
but lived to
the max.

And it's not a blow
to know
that I'll never
understand myself,
who I am and
what I want;

but I'm done
with the front
and I've learned
to be a little
more blunt.

I don't want the
life of a book,
even if I must
remain shook.

I don't want a
limiting plot.

Not knowing myself
keeps me on
my toes,
and who knows
who I'll become,
what I'll see,
what life will be.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26155294/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/26155294/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:52:34 PDT I feared a life
could be carried
within me.

Today.
I'm relieved
that I was
wrong.


(whoooops)

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/24814837/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/24814837/ Mon, 18 May 2009 00:08:14 PDT
I wish that I could
write for you
as often as
I used to
write of less
important things.

But I'm not very
good with this
optimistic
point of view.

The vocabulary of
romantic poetry
is lost on me.

I do not know
the words to use
or how to fuse
them in ways
that would
express how I feel
and still read
and sound real.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/24454724/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/24454724/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 22:14:10 PDT could be as comfortable
as I am beside you.

Uncovered and
uncensored...
and myself,
and I still feel
safe, would never
dream of hiding.

and yes, it scares
me that I could
mean so much.
But I think it just...

takes some getting
used to.

I'm getting used
to you.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/23349331/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/23349331/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 17:45:28 PST we least expect it
and only sweept me away
if you mean it.}

I think I may have it right this time.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/23131168/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/23131168/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 23:23:10 PST Answers be honest, but it's been tossed.
We don't take the time to close our eyes.

I know the answer is comin' near,
no need for victims, no need to fear.
The good is inside us, it comes again.
Not one will deny us, and we'll be friends.

I clasp my hands, I testify,
for the good and the bad, I'll never tell a lie.
I love those I know, I'll love you too.
My heart is a good guy, tells me what to do.
Gotta make that change, gotta open up.
Take the right steps, we be blowin' up.
Cause heart is the answer, and loves the child.
I ain't missin' the train this time, I missed it for a while.

-- My best friend, Michael Bernard Fitzgerald

[link]

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22975168/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22975168/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 23:28:38 PST How restlessly they speed, and gleam, and quiver,
Streaking the darkness radiantly! -yet soon
Night closes round, and they are lost for ever:

Or like forgotten lyres, whose dissonant strings
Give various response to each varying blast,
To whose frail frame no second motion brings
One mood or modulation like the last.

We rest. -A dream has power to poison sleep;
We rise. -One wandering thought pollutes the day;
We feel, conceive or reason, laugh or weep;
Embrace fond woe, or cast our cares away:

It is the same! -For, be it joy or sorrow,
The path of its departure still is free:
Man's yesterday may ne'er be like his morrow;
Nought may endure but Mutablilty.

-- Percy Bysshe Shelley, 1816

[My wandering thoughts pollute my sleep,
and quietly through the day they creep,
but let them pass, I shall not weep.]

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22793530/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22793530/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 00:02:53 PST Just to add to frustration... I mispelled that heading three times.

So I agreed to house sit for my dad and watch his dog for two months; being the good daughter that I am and all. Well, first day he's gone there's already problems... The pipes froze. YEP. This has never happened before, but as soon as he leaves and is 6 hours away... they do. It took me all day, but I finally heated up the house enough to get them working again... at 12:30 in the morning. Now I have to watch and make sure that the freezing didnt make them expand, because if so... they will leak... and I will have re-frozen pipes. And a very cold and icy house.

And my dog refuses to eat the new food. I don't know if its because she doesn't like it or if she's pouting.

Now, onto something new... I have to admit, that I absolutely despise cosplay as an 'art.' I don't get it. I'm sick of seeing it all over the front page of DA. Sometimes it's interesting when the people actually make real costumes that look legit... (in which case it should be entered as another form of art, like fashion or textiles or something)... but half the time they just look stupid. Especially when they're 23. EHEM. Anyways.

I just read [link] about this man who killed his wife over her facebook relationship status. I find it interesting that she was 26 and with a 41 year old... Was this really only about facebook? Well, either way, I suppose we should be careful with what we say on the internet these days. I'm glad none of you really know me or where I live. I might get a plastic sword shoved in my eye by a Cloud impersonator...

Annnd, now for some music that brightened my day.
Everyone look up Calm Asa Coma.
Probably best to hit up myspace, as they're a local band.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22605753/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22605753/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 22:13:54 PST And I don't think I've ever heard so many racial slurs in my life... let alone a couple hours!

I really recomend that you all see this movie, it is well worth your time.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22454782/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/22454782/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 15:21:17 PST I am currently cleaning my room and trying to make space for the insane amounts of notebooks, binders and text books I have accumulated over the last three years of university. In the process I have found all of my old high school notes annnnnnd some Junior high work (Grade 7 - 9), mostly the Language Arts stuff. I was going through the poetry and short stories, most of which is really terrible, but it all suprised me a lot... I'm suprised none of my teachers tried talking to my parents about making me see a psychologist! The stuff I wrote in my journals was far more disturbing than any of the school work, but stiil, some of it would have made me concerned had I been a teacher. I was talking a lot about death, divorce, depression, suicide, not fitting in and in my short stories I wrote about characters who were addicted to cocain or went to raves and got in trouble. I don't even remember most of this...

On another note... I was watching Much More Music today and there was a special on Sammy Hagar... Who knew he was a religous family man now? Not me! It's too bad time hasn't been as fortunate to David Lee Roth though... Sammy's lookin' about 20 years younger than his 61 years or so... but Mr.Roth is just lookin... haggard

Oh and speaking of school! I got my grades back... two A's and an A-... but I'm missing my history mark! Those jerks.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21872434/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21872434/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 20:04:23 PST 1)Strep Throat, although, I'm certain the doctor was wrong and its an ear infection of sorts. My ears hurt more than my throat. But despite that... the penicillin should work for an ear infection, no? Well, I've been without a normal voice for two weeks now, with today being the "highpoint" of it all. I called in sick to work (again, and Friday they sent me home early) and my manager didn't ask any questions, just chuckled at my frog-voice.

2) It's that time of year again -- Christmas? NOPE -- essay and exam time. So I've been busy doing research and writing and studying. It's absolutely thrilling.

3) General busy-ness -- There was a Rise Against concert, which was probably not good for my sickness, on tuesday. Been working a lot the last month also. And I volunteered at a Christmas party for children in financial need. Painted their faces with christmas designs and a couple spider man themed cheeks. Outside in the cold in the mountains -- also probably not good for my sickness, but fun none the less. There were two touching moments from this...
I) I was painting two sister's faces, they were about 8 years old. I asked them if they had gone to get their presents yet and they said yes, so I asked them what they got (the other kids had been telling me stories about all these super cool presents). But to my surprise they said: "We don't know yet, we want to save them for Christmas day so that we will have something nice to open then." My heart broke into a million little peices. I then asked what they wanted or what they were expecting, but they said that they didn't really care what it was. They were just there to have a fun day, and anything was better than nothing. I wished my sisters would have been there to hear that, seeing as how they are expecting to get a Nintendo DS for christmas, accompanied by several other gifts, but they still complain about never getting the things they want throughout the year. While we're by no means well off, my parents are still able to save up and buy them these kinds of things for Christmas and birthdays. These little girls don't even get that.

II) I was painting another little girl's face, she was very quiet and wasn't saying much, but had the biggest smile on her face. I asked her if she had gone to see Santa inside yet and she replied that they were going there next. Then I asked her if she was having fun, and she looked at me, smiled and said: "Yes, this is the best day ever."

There were a few other cute moments, such as a little spanish boy that was waiting very impatiently for me to paint his face, babbling away in spanish while his older brother and dad kept telling him to sit down and wait, that I couldnt understand him (although I could.) He kept grabbing on to my arm while I was painting another boy's face saying "YO, YO, ME ME ME!!!! YO QUIERO.... YO QUIERO.... ME GUSTA" and pointing to pictures and colours and himself. So I looked at him and said... "Un momento por favor, okay?" He was stunned and sat down and waited patiently. The father was also stunned, laughing at the boy. After this I painted his face, and then his older brother wanted a spider on one cheek and a spider web on the other. He wanted the spider web in red. I have never in my life drawn a spider web, but I attempted it and thought I failed miserably and would have one very disappointed little boy... BUT I showed him in the mirror and he lit up and said "WOOOOW" I said "Te gusta?" and he replied, "Si, gracias!"
So many times I looked at what I painted on their faces and thought it looked terrible, but the kids would often look in the mirror and absolutley adore whatever you had done. It was very touching to know that I could make them so happy with some paint on their cheek.

I will do this again next year for sure. A day at a beautiful lodge, outside in the mountains, free food, a free ride and a bunch of thankful little kids... couldnt have much more fun if I wanted to.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21466895/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21466895/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 09:42:17 PST That I got 95% on my Developmental Psychology Midterm, which brings my overall average to 91% -- an A.
Yesterday I found $1000 in my mailbox.
It was a scholarship. No biggie.

P.S -- Where has everyone gone?! I've had to resort to reading old poetry, there has been very little new work to read. Come back, come back!!!

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21380719/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21380719/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 22:45:39 PST
Don't ever make a salad
with lettuce and
frozen veggies.

Ranch can't fix everything.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21118909/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/21118909/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 23:07:09 PDT dreamt there was something
new, more than I saw alone.

But vision is nothing
but a chemical reaction.
My chemical reactions
always were somewhat
flawed.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20905221/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20905221/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 12:30:45 PDT
I am sick!
Again with the cold,
Gosh darn!

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20644468/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20644468/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 22:50:11 PDT Poetry and prose are both acceptable modes of answering.
If you can, write an epic poem and do it properly.

> How can you want something that is right in front of your face and not pursue it?
> Why would someone ask for help and then push it away when it's finally there, unbiased and caring only for them?
> How can you voluntarily become everything you swore to hate?
> How can you lie in the face of someone who has always been honest and faithful to you?
> How can you be angry at someone for doing the same things you did to them?
> How can you be angry at someone for doing the same things you threw them away to do?
> How can you do to someone exactly what you made them swear they would never do to you?
> How can a person remain so forgiving after forever being stabbed in the back?
> Why would a person feel the need to help everyone, deserving or not?
> How do you always seem fall for the people that will never be there for you?

Subconciously I must look for that which will leave me stranded. I always have made things harder than they really have to be.

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""For in other ways a woman is full of fear, defenseless, dreads the sight of cold steal; but, when she is wronged in the manner of love, no other soul can hold so many thoughts of blood."

"Faith in your word has gone. Indeed, I cannot tell whether you think the gods whose names you swore by then have ceased to rule and that new standards are set up."

-- Euripides' Medea

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20323360/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20323360/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 12:23:04 PDT like cinnamon and apples.
I don't know what it is,
and it's driving me insane.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20132670/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/20132670/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 15:01:54 PDT sorry I haven't been active or posting,
been working and just got back from a wedding.
Also getting ready for school,
and meeting boys.

I will try to submit something soon,
and really do want to read all 156 poems/prose that have gathered in my inbox.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/19464805/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/19464805/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 12:43:32 PDT I want nice tanned legs
For my best friend's wedding day.

Also, you make me sad,
and my joints feel bad.

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Photography account:

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18740195/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18740195/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 23:58:50 PDT Did a collaboration with 7 other artists and wrote a....
Hip-hop beat....
A what?!
Yeah... Thats right.
I must say, I feel as though I failed the team,
but hey, it was my first attempt, maybe next time will work out better.
Take a look at it here [link]

Thanks to for suggesting we do this.
I really did have a lot of fun.



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My photography account:

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18501746/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18501746/ Sun, 25 May 2008 21:15:47 PDT And for a second he knows how I think,
And we feel closer than ever.

Your hand fits so nicely inside mine,
Your arms work well as a blanket,
and I don't dream too badly beside you.

But I don't understnad you at all.

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18122758/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/18122758/ Thu, 01 May 2008 18:39:02 PDT How I've longed for your return.
Now what should I do?
Work
or party
hard?
Oh my

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Old account?
It has some photos.

New photography account:

]]> ~MissUnderstand http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/17900906/ http://MissUnderstand.deviantart.com/journal/17900906/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 19:38:59 PDT I created a new account.
I was feeling weighted down.
It's time for change.

Old account?
It has some photos.

New photography account:

]]> ~MissUnderstand