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]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/27391288/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/27391288/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:21:06 PDT were going to keep going on a yearly bases, slowly collect our outfits year after year... i cant wait to see what will become of them, how they'll transform over the years!! <3 if anyone knows of any good pattens or outfit ideas for my outfit - please speak up! so far i have the slave bracelet and the gyspie scarf with the gingly beads - both in silver and purple, and some black and purple horns

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26982937/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26982937/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 17:52:07 PDT
]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26660632/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26660632/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 22:09:50 PDT my chest is fluttering and light,
im starry eyed,
and its easier to laugh and breathe...
i feel like im walking on bubbles,
everythings a little brighter,
everyones a little nicer,
and the tiniest things make me happy now...
chalk drawn hearts cover the wall,
giggles fill the air,
smiling and blushing is all i do,
and thats allways when i think of you...
ive tripped, i flipped, i fell on my face,
ive hugged, ive groped, ive enbraced,
ive worn, ive slid on, ive put on ..
LOVE <3

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26370693/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/26370693/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 23:49:17 PDT a smile here,
when you fall asleep cuddling me,
when you show me that you love me,
i find tiny gifts through out the house-
to show me how much you care..
to show me how much you think of me...
to show me how much you miss me...
it just makes me giggle inside-
it makes me so happy i never want it to end...
i wish it'll never end now-
i wish it'll go on forever-
ill admit it - your what i want..
im going to be selfish and try to get what i want for once-
because i dont know what i would do with out you..
because i need you- your my missing piece...
and its all from the sweetest little things you do.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25996217/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25996217/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 22:58:38 PDT I just want to run away –
Away from you and me,
Away from what might happen,
Away from the pain that might hurt me-
Break me into those final pieces….
But im standing strong-
Not allowing myself to turn and run,
Forcing to go forward and face the unknown.
Ive never done that before with anyone-
But im doing it with you.
Deep inside I hear a voice telling me that I should hold on-
Just for another day-
But my brains telling me to run-
He’ll hurt you worse then any other man.
Take that chance and see what happens says my heart –
That breakable, bandaged thing.
It never gives up – and never stops loving.
Chances are what you do- except in love –
Take this chance for once!
Alas – when im away from you I crave you,
I want to see you- I think of you….
But im scared- and feel like running.
Running away from what might happen,
From the pain that’ll leave me scarred,
Broken, and maybe worst.
A lot of mights and a lot at steak-
A lot of pain and heartbreak.
So why am I standing here?
Standing so proud, face first –
Against the wind?
What do I think im doing?
Do I think im really that special?
That he’ll really choose me?
I don’t, but im still here…
Im still here awaiting the end……
Good or bad, im still here
WHY CANT I RUN AWAY FROM YOU?!

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25907854/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25907854/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:49:56 PDT the thought crossed my mind
that i never missed a beat
cant explain the who or what i was
trying to believe
what would you do?
do you know?
i once had a grip on everything
it feels better to let go

im not over
im not over you just yet
can not hide it
your not that easy to forget
im not over

never took the chance
could have jumped the fence
but was scared of my own two feet
could have crossed the line
it was black and white
no contrast to be seen
what would you do
do you know
was it all a joke?
never had control?
im not better on my own...

im not over
im not over you just yet
can not hide it
your not that easy to forget
im not over

what a waste of time
the thought crossed my mind
cant explian this thing or what i mean
im trying to let go

im not over
im not over
im not over you just yet
can not hide it
your not that easy to forget
im not over

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25087637/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/25087637/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 12:03:14 PDT Such a lack of conviction, no real connection, what should I settle for?
But you caught my attention, you built on the tension, and you left me wanting more
Now I don't know what to do with myself, do with myself
I don't want nobody else

I let you in, I let you in and you infected me
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you
I breathed you in, I breathed you in and now I'm in too deep
Don't think I'm pulling through, Don't think I'm pulling through
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you

You're so contagious
Running through my veins you're so contagious
Hanging onto every word you're so contagious
And I can't get away
You're so contagious and now I know for sure there is no cure

I saw your intentions, i gave you permission, go ahead and start the war
I was out of addictions, by my own admission, oh I've been keeping score
But you made an exception you taught me a lesson
Who cares where I've been before?
You would never leave me all by myself, all by myself
You don't want nobody else

I let you in, I let you in and you infected me
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you
I breathed you in, I breathed you in and now I'm in too deep
Don't think I'm pulling through, Don't think I'm pulling through
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you

You're so contagious
Running through my veins you're so contagious
Hanging onto every word you're so contagious
And I can't get away
You're so contagious and now I know for sure there is no cure

And I am burning in your fire (There is no cure)
And I have only one desire (There is no cure)
(Now I don't know what to do with myself, do with myself)
I can not deny her (There is no cure)

Now I don't know what to with myself, do with myself
I don't want nobody else

I let you in, I let you in and you infected me
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you
I breathed you in, I breathed you in and now I'm in too deep
Don't think I'm pulling through, Don't think I'm pulling through
Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you, Can't get enough of you

You're so contagious
Running through my veins you're so contagious
Hanging onto every word you're so contagious
And I can't get away
You're so contagious and now I know for sure there is no cure

You keep running, you keep running, you keep running through my veins

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/24420067/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/24420067/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 00:04:23 PDT ~Mistress Megz~

Mistress, the feminine counterpart of master.

A mistress is a man's long-term female sexual partner and companion who is not married to him. The relationship generally is stable and at least semi-permanent.

A mistress is not a prostitute. There is also usually an emotional and possibly social relationship between a man and his mistress, whereas the relationship to a prostitute is predominantly sexual. Today, however, the word mistress is used primarily to refer to the female lover of a man who is married to another woman; in the case of an unmarried man it is usual to speak of a "girlfriend" or "partner."

Mistress is an old form of address for a woman. The title did not distinguish between married and unmarried women.

Mistress is a woman who takes the dominant role in bondage and discipline, dominance and submission or BDSM.

Mistress as in schoolmistress, or female school teacher.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/24189329/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/24189329/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 20:18:55 PDT Painted faces fill the places I can't reach.
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
And all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers undercover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
Someone like me
Somebody
Someone like you
I've been roaming around always lookin down at all I see

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23926069/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23926069/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 23:00:40 PDT Just getting over it and dealing with the mourning,
I started thinking out loud: I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired,
My baby's flying off the edge of the road,
She's saying, 'I'm so sorry about that note',
That left me all alone,
But I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Seven days since I've seen your face,
Seven nights I have laid to waste,
I'm burning out now,
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,
I know we're hanging at the end of the road,
We've flown too high, make a swarm too low,
I heard a screaming out loud,
I heard a screaming out loud

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Think,
All the things that you say,
What are the things that you mean,
What are the things that you say to me,
Cuz your tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,
You're a tradgedy,
A queen for his majesty,
All these plans for me,
Your kingdom is crumbling,

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cuz I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

Burning for you,
Burning like a candle,
Burning for you,
Burning like a candle

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23822220/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23822220/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 21:43:12 PDT IM DONE!!
No more –
No more of this insignificant shit,
This arguing over little things.
The past is the past-
Cant we all get over it?
Climb over that hill of our narcissistic emotions
That scream that were right and there wrong?
What’s the point?
Lifes so short –
And what do we do?
We spend it fighting and being mad
Over shit that wont matter after next week!
I don’t like fighting, it’s a waste of everything!
My time, my effort, my emotions.
MY LIFE!
Im the one who’ll take the blame
Just to make the madness stop!
Who cares – if all I want is an apology?
How hard is it? I say it all the time:
Im sorry, I screwed up – my bad.
Oh fucking well, I had to grow up
And take responsibility for my actions.
Oh fucking well, I was the only mature one.
The rambling on and on about this or that,
Its just a buzzing in my ears.
Stop – STOP!
Listen to my words to which I speak to you.
I don’t talk for my own good- or to hear myself.
I say what I mean, and take what I say to heart.
Im to the point of not caring anymore,
Not only about our disagreement,
But also yourself as a person.
You wont matter anymore-
Become non-existent in my eyes.
Ill take the blame, but ill always know the truth-
And that’s enough for me to sleep soundly at night.
Do what you gota do, keep going if you want to
I don’t care – you will not get anymore reactions from me.
Im done, its done, ill be the bigger person and stop this.
Its over – im done with getting hurt.
You’ve turned me into something I never wanted to show you,
Congrats – good for you – you broke me.
Now lets fucking move on- im even harder then before,
More sheltered emotionally because of you,
The shell has thickend.
You got what you wanted, now let me be.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23755520/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23755520/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 22:00:42 PDT I never want to see you again
Your worthless
A piece of worthless shit
You cant do anything right
You cant even support your self!
You ruined your life
You had everything going for you
But no what did you have to do?
Go and fuck it up like everything else in your meaningless-
Stupid little life.
You sit around and do what all day?
Nothing- just like what your worth!
Whats the point of you?
Your not worth the air you breathe
The life you have.
Your ugly
Your fat
You have no talents
Your voice is annoying
Your dumb as fuck
everyone looks down on you!!!!
When you look in the mirrior
You must hate your self
Breaking the glass
Cutting your all ready scared face
Whats the point of you living?
Your worthless!
Your nothing!
No one wants you!
You don’t even want you!
Shake your head no with those tears –
You know it’s the truth!!
Look at your self!!
Look at everthing you lost!
Look what you’ve done...
To your self.




Hate me...

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23683745/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23683745/ Fri, 13 Mar 2009 20:07:43 PDT I'm Waiting For You To Say Anything
Head Hung Low, Kicking Stones Down
Kicking Stones Down The Road To Hell Now
I'm Waiting For You To Say Anything, Anything Yeah

I Know You Are The Only One, My Little Taste Of Heaven
And You Know I Am The Only One, Your Bitter Taste Of Hell
Your Eyes Scream The End Is Creeping End
I'll Need Thirty-seven Stitches, To Keep The Pain In
I Know You Are The Only One, On The Darkest Side Of The Sun

Followed The Piper's Sweet Whistling
Guided Down The Path By The Wrong Hand
Close My Eyes For The Chance Of A Better View
Plug My Ears So I Couldn't Hear You

And I Know You Are The One
And You Know I Am The One
Your Bitter Taste Of Hell

I Know You Are The Only One, A Little Taste Of Heaven
And You Know I Am The Only One, Your Bitter Taste Of Hell
Your Eyes Scream The End Is Creeping End
I'll Need Thirty-seven Stitches, To Keep The Pain In
I Know You Are The Only One, On The Darkest Side Of The Sun

Do You See Me Sitting Here?
Still Waiting For You To Say Anything
Head Hung Low Kicking Stones Down
Kicking Stones Down The Road To Hell Now
I'm Waiting For You, I'm Waiting For You, Just Say Anything Yeah

I Know You Are The Only One, A Little Taste Of Heaven
And You Know I Am The Only One, Your Bitter Taste Of Hell
Your Eyes Scream The End Is Creeping End
I'll Need Thirty-seven Stitches, Thirty-seven Stitches, Yeah
I Know You Are The Only One, On The Darkest Side Of The Sun
I Know, I Know
You Are The One. . . On The Darkest Side Of The Sun

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23652039/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23652039/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 21:58:17 PDT
Ill do little things,
That remind me of you,
Those little things –
I know you do.

I get fustrated that every day,
Ill do something,
Just like you.

Ill say your lines,
and use your words.

Ill handle life,
In a certain way,

Fix a problem,
Create away.

Then ill remember –
That’s what you did.
Why didn’t I remember?
How did you take over?!

Your locked in my mind –
And I cant get you out!
I handed you the keys,
And you wont walk out!

I stare into the darkness,
Squinting at the horror.
Why are you there?
Why wont you leave?

Leave, I say LEAVE!
And never come back!
I don’t want your advice!
Or your witty comments.

I know who you are,
I call out your name,
You plug your ears,
I say your to blame!

Im finding my problems,
And fixing them too,
Im trying to become a better person,
Better then you!

I might need some time,
But ill make it right.
And you wont exist –
And everything will be great!

Will I miss you
Always in my head?
No I got the real you –
Id rather have that instead.

So goodbye you-
The voice in my head!
Im making a new me,
Better, smarter, and free!

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23531870/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23531870/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 20:37:43 PST My empty heart can't take no more
It's hard to live with no one to follow
Where's the hope that I had before
I watch the seasons fade, my face still out of place
Each step, I can't deny, I'm in trouble
Tell me

How can I live without somebody like you?
Some body like you, Tell me
How can I live without somebody like you?
Please tell me it's almost over

So many things in this room remind me
Of being here next to you
Well these scares consume my mind and body
Where's the hope that I once knew
I watch the seasons fade my face still out of place
Each step I take I can't deny I'm in trouble
Tell me

How can I live without somebody like you?
Some body like you, Tell me
How can I live without somebody like you?
Please tell me it's almost over

I'm sitting and listening
Laughing and wondering
I'm watching the stars go by
Everything reminds me of you
And I can't get you off my mind
How Can I live?
How Can I live?
How can I live with out you in my life?

How can I live without somebody like you?
Some body like you, Tell me
How can I live without somebody like you?
Please tell me it's almost over
How can I live without you?
When I'm watching the stars go by
How can I live without you?
I can't stop thinking, my hearts still beaten, but I'm still alone without you

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23404129/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23404129/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 17:49:31 PST She's always running from something so many things ignored"

Im the drugstore cowgirl, so afraid of getting bored.
always running from something, and makeing it so many things get ignored.
Im the one whos scared of the one thing she truly wants.
Im the lonly girl, who most guys want.
getting hurt has become a never ending game,
what the next day brings is always the same.
i run and hide - for this time,
i might not someday.
untill i can trust myself,
and find what im looking for -
dont try to push me towards what you want,
because you have no idea whats in store.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23262373/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23262373/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 21:36:23 PST Ill be the one youll fall for,
Ill be the one youll think is the one,
Ill be the one you tell that you love,
but the truth is- Im just the girl you pass through.

We'll laugh,
We'll have the time of our lifes,
We'll experience things we've never did,
We'll take those chances- just for us,
We'll look back and smile about what we were.

Ill look at you like your the only man in the world,
Ill make you the center of mine,
Ill take my time out of my day just to see you,
Ill show you the things youve been missing,
And Ill tell you the words you've never got to hear.


Ive made peace with being that girl,
Ill be the one who opens your eyes -
shows you how good life is and how to live it.
Ill show you what love can be like-
How hard you can laugh, how far you can be pushed,
What kind of chances youll be surprised you took.

How my smile will make your day,
and my frown will break your heart.
Youll become addicted to my company,
and start to hate my face.
Jealously will over come your good intentions,
to nothing but accusations.

Youll let me go - youll start again,
youll look for a girl - just like me.
youll find one whos pretty,
who makes you laugh,
whos smile brightens your day.
Youll make her yours forever,
and ill still be right here.

For every one, another scar apears.
no blood, just pain and the mark.
Im the fallen angel of the forgotten,
Im the darkness before the light.
Im the strong for the weak -
and the voice for the unspoken.

Ill walk strong - straight and steady
into another,even knowing how itll turn out.
each one ill earn another scar.
each one ill let find love somewhere else.
each one will see the weakness-
inside of my heart.

each one will leave me, and wish they didnt have to.
each one will leave me, and hope the best for me.
each one will stay in my heart, even if i vanish in theres.
each one will watch me die - by the knife of there own hand.

Im the hidden meaning behind the flowers and bows.
Im the heart that dots above the "i" in her love letters to you.
Im that feeling you get in the pit of your stomache,
when you get excited for seeing her agian.
Im the lines that make a heart - never ending cirle of love.
Im the cupid of the lost, but every aarow goes into me-
because id rather hurt - then make you ever feel that pain.

The invisable pain that knocks me down,
Ive gotten used to.
The hope has disapeared,
the truth is my only home.
I faced the facts head on a long time ago.
I know what I am and what will happen.

So please dont ask anymore questions,
and just let me be me.
you can try to change my fate,
but youll just be another who fails.
I smile at what you believe in,
when it comes to love.

I smile because I know your fate,
Smile at your happiness you will have.
Smile at the truth i know,
Smile at my sorrow i will endure for you.
Smile because in the end - its worth it to see you smile instead of me.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23130142/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/23130142/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 21:33:24 PST this used thong I found and bedazzled with gems
brushes ever so gently against some boobs.

I guess it's hard to believe that one man
could have a ponytail this sensitive and
distract an aggressive hawk that's cornered you.

I know my haiku's are freaking intense
but even the words I made up to sound French
don't express my feelings for your toilet parts.
I would show up for our pottery class
dressed like a pirate with John Water's mustache
On a unicorn that shits your name in stars.

Fuckings cool, but Jimmy's the romantic type.
Loitering on cliffs, thinking about stuff like,
Screwing you on the beach at night.

One milkshake, two straws.

Fuckings cool, but Jimmy's the romantic type.
Loitering on cliffs, thinking about stuff like,
Screwing you on the beach at night.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22993071/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22993071/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 21:22:47 PST Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

The sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I'm finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence..
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation (I know we did)
I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use?

The night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
But I, I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
I’m looking for myself,
Sober
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Sober

When it's good, then it's good
It's so good 'till it goes bad
'Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
And just trying to find a friend

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me (Nothing can touch me)
But why do I feel this party's over? (why do I feel this party's over?)
No pain (no) inside (no)
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober? (how do I feel this good sober?)

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
How do I feel this good sober?

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22787578/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22787578/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 17:37:09 PST
If anyone has any ideas for some pics for me to take - like poses, outfits, places - anything just comment me! i need some new ideas and new view points!! so anything you can think of - just let me know!!


Let me know your ideas!! very much appreciated!!

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22705070/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22705070/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 22:43:13 PST hope, wish, and pray that I get
Is the one thing Im truly afraid or?
I want love - but love hates me
Im truly afraid of love .....

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22199933/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/22199933/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 21:05:18 PST Do you care or is it just pretend?
Do you get me or do you just act like you listen?
When you look into my eyes – what do you see?
My hidden true self – or just another blue eyed girl?
When you touch me- do you get butterflies like I do?
Or do you just want to grab and take whats mine?
Do I make you happy for all the right reasons?
Or for all the wrong?
Your jealously screams insecurity –
But you need to know you can lose me at any second
So do you cherish every moment with me?
Or just await the time to touch me?
You tell your secrets to me –
Or as I found out stories
I gave you my everything –
You gave me nothing.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21921483/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21921483/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 19:35:48 PST If I don't then no one will
Is it my state of mind
Or is it just everything else
I don't wanna have to be here
I don't understand it now
Its been a long time sense
I looked at myself
I'm trying hard to re-arrange
Some say its the hardest thing to do
Time after time
I've been through this
As my days fade to night
I remember that state of mind
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end?
When everything I'm left with
Is all bad...

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21813984/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21813984/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 11:09:22 PST It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21686129/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21686129/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 18:11:01 PST You want me to stay

You're calling
But I can't hear you
I'm not listening anymore
You're subject to falling
But I can't save you
I don't see you anymore

But you'll never make me happy
So I've extinguished the flame

And what you want me to say, I'll never say
You're playing the game, that I'll never play
So what do you want from me
Now I've extinguished the flame

You're calling
But I can't hear you
I'm not listening anymore
You're subject to falling
But I can't save you
I don't see you anymore

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21638048/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21638048/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 19:59:53 PST both you and i have always kept it bottled up inside.
can i show you what it feels like?
to give your self away.
whos going home with me tonight?
was it real or are you part of my collection?
have i crossed the line?
all i feel is that your open invitation-
is this how we say goodbye?
i wish you had the heart to tell me that you sold you sole.
so many things i couldnt let you know,
i had run away.
why cant you hold on to me?
can you tell me what is wrong and what is right?
its geting harder to sit here alone,
ive never felt so low.
ive been waiting,
ive been thinking,
ive been thinking - where did i go?

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21503105/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21503105/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 14:59:10 PST So I fucked up
So I fell on my face again

You didn’t hear me fall
You didn’t hear me cry
You didn’t hear me break apart

Broken as a fallen glass
Broken as a shattered window
Broken as a hearts first love

I slipped again
I tripped again
My head hit the ground first this time

Head held up strong
Shoulders back
Stare into the blackness they call my life

I try again
I hope again
I pray again

Fingers crossed
Walk straight in
With out a chance in hell

So what I messed up
So what I fucked up
So what I fell on my face again

Its normal for me
It’s the disappointment I live through everyday
Its what I call my life

Im used to it
Don’t feel bad for me
Just keep living your life and don’t look back

Ill be allright
Ill be ok
Ill be just fine

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21460809/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21460809/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 19:57:20 PST And no it didn't mend my broken heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scars
But right now I don't care about that part

I bust the windows out ya car
After I saw you laying next to her
I didn't wanna but I took my turn
I'm glad I did it cause you had to learn...

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when...

You see can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

I bust the windows out ya car
You know I did it cause I left my mark
Wrote my initials with the crobar
And then I drove off into the dark

I bust the windows out ya car
You should feel lucky that that's all I did
After five whole years of this bulls***
Gave you all of me and you played with it

Oooh ahh...
I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when...

You see you can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

But it don't comfort to my broken heart
You could never feel how I felt that day
Until it happens baby you don't know pain

Oooh Yeah I did it (Yeah I did it)
You should know it (You should know it)
I ain't sorry (I ain't sorry)
You deserved it (You deserved it)

After what you did (After what you did)
You deserved it (You deserved it)
I ain't sorry (I ain't sorry) no no oh... (I ain't sorry)

You broke my heart
So I broke ya car
You caused me pain (You caused me pain)
So I did the same

Even though all that you did to me was much worse
I had to do something to make you hurt yeah
Oh but why am I still cryin'?
Why am I the one whose still cryin'?

Oh you really hurt me baby
You really you really hurt me baby
Hey, hey, hey now watch me yule
I bust the windows out ya car...

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21289538/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21289538/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 18:46:04 PST I want to stay away from the bad outside.
Sometimes - somedays I just wish I died
And let everyone know at least I tried.
Im sick of my friends and the way they lied.
I just want to crawl into a hole and hide.
I want to stay away from the bad out side.
I hope and wish that in here I die
Inside this little hole of mine.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21217744/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21217744/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 13:59:35 PDT Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (Yeah you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21084106/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/21084106/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 17:59:46 PDT
"things dont go you way, they never do - but your crazy cause you get back up and keep going, i would of fell on my ass and stayed there after the 1000 time"

"sometime you just got to look at the other person and go 'what the fuck is wrong with you!!!' then walk away shaking your head"

"answer the phone like my friend, say "shut the fuck up" instead of 'hello' - its better in that i hate that your living kinda way"

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20767365/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20767365/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 20:25:45 PDT You cut me
You drew blood so deep inside
You did what you told me you’d never do
You push until you got your way
Then you lied to my face
You told me day after day
Lie after lie
Everything I did was for you
Everything you said was a lie
I put my trust in you
I found that strength to move on
I started a new chapter
I wrote a new line
The shit that spilled from your mouth
Surprised even you
We went from a storybook beginning
A fairytale middle
To an abrupt disaster of an ending
Im pissed, Im angry
Im upset, Im lost
Im so mad at you that im not even sad
That I fell for you and im going to delete you from my life
I had feelings for you that ive never felt before
That doesn’t matter anymore
The things you said
The things you told me
I believed every word
You looked me straight in the eyes and lied to me
The sand turned black
The water turned red
The clouds drew dark circles around us
They seen you, they told me
What do you have to say?
Nothing speaks louder then your words
I hate you, I despise you, I hope you die
Don’t ever come back into my life
You betrayed the wrong person
You hurt the wrong girl
You wont live through the pain ill put you through
Fuck you!
EVERYTHING I DID WAS FOR YOU!!!!
EVERYTHING YOU SAID WAS A LIE!!!!

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20591543/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20591543/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 20:19:01 PDT Im over here wondering what your thinking of
You get close to me like you always do
I stand and stare into those eyes
Im too shy to move
You have me locked in that blue eyed stare
I feel like i cant move
You lean in - i watch your lips
Your arms around me
Making me feel warm and enveloped
I touch your neck and hair
Sometimes i never want to let go
Your strong arms i hold on to
As i fall into a trance
Sometimes i forget where i am
I just know im happy being there with you
Next thing i know hours pass by
I can just stand there with you
You start to pull away
And you give me that look
Sometimes you never want to let go
My mind races - but im too happy to say
Whats on my mind - almost everyday
Sometimes i love you so much it hurts
Other days your hardly ever heard
This un-even way of living
Messes me up - some times i wish i knew what your thinking
Other times i rather not know
Sometimes i rather just let you show it
Being in this thing called "love"
Is a sad and wonderful thing
Its confusing, its re-useing, its unkowning,
Its just letting go
Its just letting go

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20529078/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20529078/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 20:50:27 PDT Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you)You don't really want to stay, no
(but you)But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you)You don't really want to stay, no
(but you)But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride


You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you)You don't really want to stay, no
(but you)But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20440980/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20440980/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 15:19:07 PDT Try to make it through my life,
In my way,
There's you
I try to make it through these lies,
That's all I do

Just don't deny it
Just don't deny it and deal with it,
Just deal with it

You try to break me,
You wanna break me...bit by bit,
That’s just part of it

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care

I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do

I'm getting tired of this shit
I've got no room when it's like this
What you want of me just deal with it

nothing can care about,
nothing can care about
you won't be there for me,
you won't be there for me

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20235315/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20235315/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 11:58:28 PDT I said it out loud
It sounded right
Saying thoses words
That Ive been scared of saying
For so long
What did I do?
What have I become?
What about you made me fall?
I slipped
I tripped
I fell head first
My thoughts are full of hearts
My nights are full of stars
I smile for no reason
I laugh more eaisly
All I think about is you
Ill stand by your side,
Youll be by mine
Everything feels right
Everything just fits
Ive never felt this way
The missing piece
It fits perfectly
I hope you never leave me
Please dont let me go



]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20060128/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/20060128/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 13:10:36 PDT ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!
oooo!! I Just turned 20 today!! wow i feel kinda old - im no longer a teenager - now im an adult!! im going to take today off - sit back eat some better then sex cake - and just hang out with my family! then... the big awesomness - this weekend im getting a bunch of my friends together and were haveing the biggest party ever!! i cant wait! ill be having the time of my life - and i dont plan on remembering alot....
but this should be a night to remember, it will be awesome - me and my friends, just partying - having fun - throwning a bombfire, and doing what we do best!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

+ + =

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19917906/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19917906/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 14:35:47 PDT

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19793257/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19793257/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 15:33:07 PDT I sigh, you ask me why, I say,
Its ok and I am just feeling down
Your hand on mine I hear the words...
If only love had found us first, our lives they would be different

So I stand and wait
I am just a man

Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
Where would we be now baby,

And now I must confess
That I am a sinking ship
I'm anchored by the weight of my heart cause it's filled with these feelings
I keep my true thoughts locked beside my hearts black box
And it wont be found, it wont survive through the smoke or the wreckage
So I crash and burn
I got a lot of things to learn


Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
What would you do now darling, if I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...As long as you want.

Where would we be now baby

I'll wait
I'll wait

Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
What would you do now darling, if I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...As long as you want.

Where would we be now baby
I'll wait
I'll wait
I'll wait
I'll wait

^theres too many guys telling me this right now in my life.^

Im in a weird place in my life right now- im extremely happy because of what i got - im very loved right now by every way possible, and i dont know what to do. i know its not susposed to be this way, but it is and i know at least three or more people are going to get hurt, and i dont want anyone to get hurt. ive gotten myself into a huge web of craziness, thats sucking the life out of me, i should be happy - but i feel stressed, left behind, alone and uncared for, even though im the center of at least 4 peoples lifes right now. im scared im going to lose them - im scared its going to end up bad, but it couldnt end up any other way. im scared of whats to come...and im mad that this happened this way, i wish it never happened. im in a weird place in my live fight now, i should feel loved - i should feel good - i should feel like a queen, but i can hardly feel anything anymore, and i feel lost - hopless and confused...

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19339224/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19339224/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 16:25:32 PDT him! everything he does is awesome in every way so i decided to tribute to my favorite artist in the world. theses are some sayings from his collection, the sayings are from movies -see if you can guess what ones?!

sayings:

Yes, there are thousands and thousands of uses for corn, all of which I'm going to tell you about right now!

I've got a... dwarf, and I'm not afraid to use him!

My life is a dark room. One big dark room.

Decent people shouldn't live here. They'd be happier someplace else.

I've seen the EXORCIST ABOUT A HUNDRED AND SIXTY-SEVEN TIMES, AND IT KEEPS GETTING FUNNIER EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE IT... NOT TO MENTION THE FACT THAT YOU'RE TALKING TO A DEAD GUY... NOW WHAT DO YOU THINK? You think I'm qualified?

It's the so-called "normal" guys that always let you down. Sickos never scare me. At least they're committed.

Is this something you can share with the rest of us, Amazing Larry?

Because if I tell you, you tell your friends... your friends are callin' me on the horn all the time... and I gotta show up at shopping centers for openings and sign autographs and shit like that and it makes my life a HELL. OK? A living HELL

Just the pussy I was looking for!

Damn them! Damn them all to hell!

It's as though we were made for each other... Beauty and the Beast. Of course, if anyone else calls you beast, I'll rip their lungs out.

"Winged freak terrorizes"? Wait'll they get a load of ME!

Sweetheart, you can't buy the necessities of life with cookies.

I'm the ghost with the most, babe.

Pull the string! Pull the string!

There comes a point when any reasonable man will swallow his pride and admit he made a mistake. The truth is... I was never a reasonable man.

"What happened to you?" "I'm not finished"

The mind plays tricks on you. You play tricks back! It's like you're unraveling a big cable-knit sweater that someone keeps knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting...

Don't run, we are your friends.

You a gambling man Santy?

Paranormal? Is that what they're calling your kind these days?

Jack, please, I'm only an elected official here, I can't make decisions by myself!

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19149637/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/19149637/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 15:26:06 PDT I want to be the girl that when you want to fight, i want to make love
I want to be the girl whos unforgettable
I want to be the girl who tells you "i love you" and means it
I want to be the girl you think about at night when your alone
I want to be the girl you want to make smile
I want to be the girl you take the breath away from
I want to be the girl who makes you happy even after the worst day of your life
I want to be the girl thats worth fighting for
I want to be the girl of your dreams
I want to be the girl you want to be with, maybe even forever
I want to be the girl who worries when you leave
I want to be the girl who misses you more then anyone else in the world
I want to be the girl you cant get out of your head
I want to be the girl whos not easy to forget
I want to be the girl who you tell all your friends about
I want to be the girl who you want to be with

Im the girl who you stepped into her life and changed everything
Im the girl who cant get you out of her head
Im the girl who wishes you where right here with me right now
Im the girl who when you kissed got her breath taken away
Im the girl who thinks she might be falling in love with you
Im the girl who took a chance on you, and never wants to look back
Im the girl who all she wants is to hold your hand again
Im the girl who cant make up her mind if she should tell you how she really feels
Im the girl whos your girl and whos scared and happy at the same time about being with you
Im the girl who still gets butterfies from seeing and kissing you
Thats me, Im that girl, and i want to be that girl


]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/18311827/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/18311827/ Tue, 13 May 2008 19:58:10 PDT I can act like nothing happened, just like you can.
I can just not care, like you just don’t care.
I dont have to justify my ways, just dont lie to me.
Ill confess, your my tragedy.

I can only care about my self, if I was like you.
I can say you've got yours, and I got mine.
I can make you want me, but I cant make me want you.
I dont hide from my feelings, like you do.
Ill say that I love you for no reason.

I can call a friend, because Im near to them.
I can forget the things you remember.
I can have a superficial time, acting the whole time.
I dont have the strength to forget you if you leave.
Ill admit, your the only man I haven’t fucked up a relationship with.

I can tell you that its because were friends.
I can tell you that I just dont want to.
I can tell you that I would never with you.
I dont have to tell you the truth.
Ill Confess its because Im scared Ill lose you.

I can say I can get anyone I want.
I can tell you all my secrets.
I can tell you all my problems.
I dont know how you sit through me talking like that.
Ill love the way you are 'till the day I die.

I can change.
I can view the world like you do.
I can hate like you do.
I dont want to lose the love I have for simple things.
Ill allways love the way I see you and the world.

I can try to not care.
I can try to forget.
I can try to make it mean nothing.
I dont know how you do it.
Ill never be able to forget, not care, and make it mean nothing.


I can just leave.
I can stick around.
I can apear once in a while.
I dont need your confusion.
Ill try my hardest to keep us - us.

Dont tear away from me....
You : "I dont care about anyone else but me. I dont care about anyone"
I cant feel this just like you do.
Everything happens for reasons I just dont know.

]]> ~MistressMegz http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/18202889/ http://MistressMegz.deviantart.com/journal/18202889/ Tue, 06 May 2008 19:42:46 PDT
Counting:
10 - 9 - 8 I'm breaking away, and I'm all dressed up and ready to play
7 - 6 - 5 - 4 and I'm all over you -
Counting 3 - 2 - 1 and I'm having fun

I needed you to notice - That’s all I wanted!!

On a rainy Monday - I feel it inside me, like the days of summer,
You left this feeling inside me, with hopes of one day
But I still feel you, shine inside of me

Its like something changing my mind..
I tried to try to catch my breath - but passions in my fear
I think I almost hear - but it’s not clear
You are the one – you’ll never be alone again
You’re more then in my head, you’re more

Murder son? she’s paid for...
Were going to lose forever

Your waking up a part of me I’ve never know
What took you so far away?
Is that what you wanted?
Just take away from the words I say cause I know you’ll never feel the same
Just go and say what’s in your way cause I know you’ll never feel the same
You hold the rights in you hand
What’s the use of this?
This time I won’t try to change
This time I wont try to stop you

This is just the history of a car crash

Is that what you think if you’re thinking out loud?
Its like falling from grace - and I couldn’t do that
And I’ll be waiting all day

Starts with what I can’t feel
Its all in my mind
What can’t I feel that makes me feel that way?
I’ve never felt this way
I can’t feel anything anyways
Only dream I can’t seem to get enough anywhere
Lets show them the only way
Lets show them there hearts
It feels so good
It feels so cold
There goes my day - it slowly fades away
Here come today - never go away

You’re the one who makes me believe this worlds not gone dead

]]> ~MistressMegz