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and realized how much i've changed O_O
crap...
weeeeeeeell


]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/22842107/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/22842107/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 11:58:23 PST the thing is, she didnt die from the boxes, cancer got her first


so
anyways
hey anyone who realized i left
just kinda felt like i had to leave
stress was getting to me with school and home life
but i'm good now
i've been watching a lot of tv, playing a lot of wii, and of course
rotc


aka sleepy class
exept for tuesday

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/17186371/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/17186371/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 20:01:58 PST ...This ride that takes me through life
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light
No one can ever slow me down
I'll stay unbound...
from Unbound [The Wild Ride]

I've seen trouble
I've seen death
I've stared death straight in the face and put my hand to its face
No matter how bad things get
No matter how much you've been pushed down
Spit on
Stepped on
Pissed off
As fucked up as you think you have been
You've only failed yourself when you say you have
You haven't reached the end of the ride until you're dead
Most of all
Each and every one of us are all individuals
We think for ourselves
Dress for ourselves
Talk for ourselves
All of that
Dosen't matter if you've got a siamese twin attatched to your head
You are still the only person that thinks for yourself
Its up to you if you want the words of someone else to harm you
Not theirs
Someone says something about a friend of yours you know isn't true
Why?
Why should that bother you?

...just deep in thought...
srry

anyhoo, so i will be spending a few weeks w/ my bff patrick on a trip
in this thing
[link]
...

mmmhm
i'll update this a little laterrr....its sleepy time

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16743069/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16743069/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 17:31:58 PST jeeeeeze
862 deviations|1804 messages
oh mah gahd I feel loved XD

anyhoo
there is good news and bad news

the bad is
one of my home tacos, Barinade
from New Jersey

well, he died...
01/17/08...
thing that makes this hard was he was one of my two friends i've known literally since the delivery room
we hung out all the time when i lived next to him up in Newark
him, steve, matt, sonny & me
i can still remember chillin' at steves house
his dad chasing us out coz he brought home a new gf
lol...i'll miss those times

theyre are still investigating what killed him, so i cant say i'm positive but i have one guess
his dad...

when i heard he died, of course, i went crash down depressed
but andy&kimberly, my dads gf helped me out...
basically, what they both told me wasn't the typical advice to just get over it
they told me, even though he's dead and gone
he wouldn't be happy to hear I was at an all time low
he'd want me to seize the day
cherish the time you have and each and everyday, live up and beyond expectations
take the memories i have of him and hold them closest to me than anything
it hyelped me get through, and now I feel a lot better

well
the good news is, people have begun to leave me alone
I dont care if they do try to make me happier
i'm tired of the assholes that are always stereotyping
so they went back into their cave

heck, i might not hav a valentines this year(ya me&andy decided to just b friends)
but i dont care
i've got my whole life for that
right now, i just wanna live
and even if everyday isnt promised to happen
i can be proud i made it this far

well, i got a LOL of messages to read now
toodles
~CRiMS0N CATASTR0PHY

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16298419/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16298419/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 09:22:51 PST and I remembered why I hated it

everybody ignores me
i honestly dont give a damn anymoarr
i'd rather be the quiet girl in the corner than the popular kid with an ego almost as big as her head
but when i ignore them...coz i'm DONE caring about their lives, they pitch a fit and i'm the most hated person ever
god i hate that
o well
least i'm not stuck with perverts and junkes like on the rest of the teams
and its to the middle of the year: the eye of the storm. I just have to get through the rest and i'm done with middle school
oh hell
high school is gonna b...idk but ima b asleep anyways
and even if anyone does pick on me, i know a junior that'll kick their asses

in other unrelated things i finally got NJOD
i thought i was gonna get all "its just not as good as the 1st one" but its actually alright i hate that friggin owl though
i am going to sick my repulsed monkey on itt

on williams part, i'm stuck on the thing where you havta paraloop the little bastard pians to some other place & on helens thing i'm stuck on the hippie monkey that throws its magic cats at you
but i guess like Qlok said, practice makes perfect

god...all i've done recently is play that damn wii...if its not NiGHTS, its messing up on gh3 and if not that, i'm rather asleep or walking around w/ aj
damnit crimson...you have 2 commisions to finish
2 very patient people are willing to spend their hard earned money on your shit FOCUS & GET IT DONE

phaaaaaa
well
w00
~CRiMS0N

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16211604/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16211604/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 17:49:22 PST

oya
i did get a wii (7458-9216-7437-8128 wii number)
but all i got was guitar hero 3
so we're gonna go get moarr games and another controller


So, are you excited for the new year?
i dont rly care

How many times will you break or lose your cell phone in 2008?
fuck the phone!

What was the worst part of last year?
ummmm depression

What was your favorite thing about this past year?
getting to hang out with liz & meeting andy

If for one year you could choose to be any age, what age would you be and why?
rather 7 or 18
damn thatd b so solid

In past years, what New Year’s resolution did you break the fastest?
that i would never 1)be a brat
& 2)fall in love

Which important one did you keep?

thats for me to know and you all to think about and forget

Who was your best friend(s)?
january-febuary was chris
march-may was elia
summer was lizz
august-the end of november was william
then the rest of the year, andy

Who do you NOT want to see in 2008?
caitlyn&kerri...

Is there anything you are not looking forward to next year?
possible depression

Did you have a resolution for this year?
yes

Did you keep it?
i am so far

What was the best song of last year?
a tie between through fire and flames by dragonforce & a critical acclaim by avenged sevenfold
imo

Who will you be with at new years eve?
well
i was with andy, his sister, and her kids

What was the best TV show of last year?
i wouldnt know

Did you get in trouble alot?
actually, no

On New Year’s Eve, do you:

a) Fall asleep at 11:00 p.m. (like you do any other night.)

b) Barely make it to midnight with your significant other/family.

c) Hit the town like a party animal until at least 1:00 a.m.

NEITHER FOO
STAYED UP TILL 5AM

What word or phrase will you hear your significant other, sibling or best friend say most often in 2008?
a few things

"solid"

"frafey"

"...sounds like a personal problem"

and who would forget
"fuck this, i'm playing guitar hero"

What 2008 movie or book are you most looking forward to?
fuck that
its all about the video games xD

What was the best book you read last year?
maybe Twilight

What was the best film of last year?
idfk

Are you more likely to get fired from a job or get a big promotion in 2008?
ima get fired from chic-fil-a first day
just watch

What new thing would you mix with chocolate in 2008?
everything, mofo

Did you fall in love this year?
a lot...

Did you get your heart broken?
.__. a lot

Did you get a new car?
no...they just gave me a dog and a saddle
but andy ate the dog :<

Haircut?
yheahhh
now i'm growing it back out

Go somewhere exciting?
nr

What was the biggest surprise of last year?
first kiss...on zee lips where it actually ment something

What change would you like to see in the world next year?
a lot of shit
i'd like ppl to quit their stereotyping bullshit
and disney needs to end, too

How much do you think you changed?
fucking monkey isnt gone yet

Who are you going to kiss at midnight?
who do u think i kissed

Who's house are you going to party at?
were gonna party at mistys house
kick baldo out and shit xD

What month was your birthday?
september
same month as always

Was it special?
it was actually pretty depressing

Will this year be better than last year?
i fucking hope

What are you most looking forward to next year?
a trip to az


ah fuuuuuuuuuuuuck i'm sick
~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16072985/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/16072985/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 08:39:18 PST

we have a gazillion presents under zee tree
i'll b dying my hair vampire red&raven soon
i've played my first gig..just played gee-tah
and i'm going out with a guy i like

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit so many boxes under the tree shaped like a wii...i can tell one of them is guitar hero III (i wont havta go to williams anymoarr )
shoot on christmas, i havta open presents here, go to williams, go to andys, go to his moms house, then pack up to go to ohio

dayum

well, technically, i got my first commision to work on
even though i'm only getting a dollar
i'm drawing the first series of pokemon in my own style
that and i'm keeping a notebook of the tattoo designs i might use when i get to that point in my life
so i've been pretty busy

well
i hope u all are having a good christmas
i havta go walk to the fucking gwinett mall

~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15945652/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15945652/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 13:50:02 PST My mom was even impressed
and she is very very very hard to please
anyhoo, so I only have 3 days of school left (getting thursday off due to we need to go late christmas shopping)
we have a lot of ppl we're wanting to get gifts to

so
for the first time in awhile, I actually got something up, and even though its not the best thing i've ever submitted, i'm happy with it

gosh

its amazing how fast time passes...

well
i will be talking to you all later
i guess

~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15907941/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15907941/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 18:24:26 PST he said "if william(my nephew)gets in trouble this week, you have to hit your computer with a guitar hero controller"
and surely
he didn't just get in trouble
he got arrested
which sucks, and i've been pissed at that for awhile
anyhoo
so yheahhh we're getting a new entire computer with a printer, scanner, speakers, microphone, and cpu drive
and i appreciate the support i'm sorry i never reply
I just cant find the right words to say
but in dA matters
i am here
i'mma trynna get working on pixel art again, but i cant think of anything to pixelize
but i've got...like...a huge pile of drawings
and in art
we had to do this project where we looked up jobs having to do with the subject
and...i'm concidering being a tattoo artist...
ppl say that it sounds like its something i'd do
i just have to work on not being so...antisocial around people i dont know...
heh
well
woo i have goals

~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15730564/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15730564/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:13:58 PST last time i posted anything on here, I was feeling like shit
i didn't know where to go
and everybody i knew outside the int0rnetz vanished in the air
or so i thought
b/c thanks to my friend aj for talking to me, i feel like
yheah, some people are against me
but i can stand up on my own
with a smile
its not just him that helped me
its people on here
(u know who you are )
a kid at school named paxton
and actually
my stepmom
just this morning
usually, she wakes up and throws a bitchfit
but for some reason
she's changed

so hopefully, i'll b returning to being on dA
and i'm aware i still dont have a scanner
its
a) paint/flash/whatever else there is
& b)aj has a scanner
soon as i get things back on track around here, i'll be up and running again
~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15602680/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15602680/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 09:44:37 PST Even though you all will see progressively less and less of me
It's just 'cause I don't have anything to post
Nothing to say
Nothing...
and in the spare time I do have, i'm most likely working on my musis
So
yheah
sorry
i know i suck


...back with the program now
as the title says, I've pretty much had it.
I've had it with the whining
I've had it with relationships
I've had it with my step mom & my dad fighting every fucking day like two fat kids fighting over an icecream cone
...WHY THE HELL DID THEY GET MARRIED...
and i've REALLY had it with the school
so i just dont give a shit anymore
dn't give a shit about other peoples lives
dont even really care too much about my own
I dont give a shit about the future
'cause life sucks
and i'll tell you that with a smile
i dont care even if i do finally piece together that band i've been trynna put together for years and we make billions
life will still suck
i'll most likely loose myself along the way
then what do i stand or?
yheah life sucks
but i still wouldn't end it all
'cause I still wanna be there to make fun of people who suck at life worse than me
even though yheah, I don't give a fuck, i still do love my friends
and i guess my family, too
...
exept for my goddamn stepmom
that bitch threw coffee on me...

~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15452188/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15452188/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 16:53:43 PST all that work I did on the road brought up my grades, but I transfer schools and BOOM!: social studies and language arts go rashing down from an 85 and 90 to a 20 in social studies and 70 in language arts
wtf...
so
yheah
my dad yelled
then had a conversation later about how sorry he is for yelling, but i need to be more focused, study more, and don't let personal emotional bull crap outside of school get to me, beause I can't just be passing half my classes

siene and math are both in the high 80's
and i believe friday, sciene went to 95

but I need to pass language arts, math, and a writing test at the end of the month to go to high school

its the stress

everyday
wake up to my dad&stepmum fighting
go to the bus stop
get laughed at for...idk what, living?
get on the bus
SAME BULL SHII EVERYDAY
they make their "lol emo's up front crying over nothing" daily joke
because me, william, and my neighbor celia dont listen to Soulja Boy
and one of these days
i'm gonna crack on them
i get to school
already get stared at by preppy skips
get to homeroom
this is most likely the calmest 20 minutes of my day
science
the only class I feel like i know something in
and imma dork for that of course
social studies
apparently apposing anything about the government(what we're studying) and giving an honest oppinion when asked is "innapropriate", but isn't it in the 1st ammendment to have "Freedom Of Speech, Freedom Of The Press, Freedom Of Religion" and all that? I shouldn't be put down in any way for having a voice.
Language Arts
writing 55 essays a day...
66 more for home
or something rediculous like that
apparently, I can write, but I can't write a good intro or conclusion, so they want to drill that in
Lunch
i dont eat
i sit and stare back at all the fake faces
they exclude me, laugh at me, and throw crap at me
i dont give a crap anymore...
the rest of the day
crap
crap
crap
and will
used to be that one person I could talk to about how friggin bad things get
he dosen't want me around any more, either
my dads so wrapped up in his job and if he's no, my stepmums giving him a hard time
so i dont really have anything but to write down everything
and just see where it all went wrong
where did i become an embarrasment
where did i become this disrace?

i ask for no sympathy
just
some kind of advice to help get out of this...

~CRiMS0N

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15290211/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15290211/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 16:54:59 PDT for the rest ofthe year, i'll apparently be living with my paypi and my stepmum...
and as you can imagine, i'm just overjoyed

ol' crab better go get mii a wii!!!
and they moved too much after i had to stay with my mum, 'cause nw we're a livin' in NYC...and i...idk its just incredibly uncomfortable...
i wish i knew why...

night before halloween, i'm still sowing together the last few snippets of my costume
an "gothed out" version of NP BL00D
with uber glittery goodness and all that mess

i'll b going around a suburb a little outside the city with my one friend i have around here, william and his sister

PILLOWSACKS OF CANDY WILL ALL BE DEVOUR'D IN...hours? minutes?
lol
best part is, early dissmissall from schoolz!!!
but i bet my lazy butt stepmumm will forget to come get me and i'll havta walk home...again...
ASDFGHJKL;
I SWEAR...GAH

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15207743/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15207743/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 20:00:03 PDT
so imma good to go till
uh
November 18th?
awesomness XD

so, I guess now I an just
hmm
mess around on MSPaint & work on my oekaki skills?

si, si
gracias

sheesh, staring at these stacks of essays, algebra problems and notebooks full of blowholes make me feel squeamish...idk y

speaking of feeling out of it, i'm on another medication (for a skin condition I have) that makes it so basically all day all i see is the room an a spinnin' untill I pass out 5 er 6 times
and i an hardly eat anything now, because I have to take it and another med and if they interact with each other and certain things in foods, i could get really sick -_-

bleh
well
anyone heard of the water shortage in georgia? now where I live is being called a disaster area :rolleyes:
how very greedy of alabama, florida, north&south carolina, and tennessee sharing is caring
and then the malibu fire
wtf

eh, but i wouldn't know whats going on, i'm just getting to hearing about this stuff

looks like ima goin back to nj

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15108552/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/15108552/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 20:35:27 PDT
onn&offonn&offfffffffffffff

..

anyway.. i read the papers i got from my teachers before i left

._.

new sceduel with my teachers myspace on it so she can send me my work on there(i went from...pe & health to.......art and music)

letter from school approving of this(feel like they control me, man -_-)

a happy halloween card from my friend paxton(thoughtful, but i come back the night before halloween)

and instrutions from both my connetions teachers on what i am to do to keep up my grade

for art, all I have to do is something 1)big, 2) halloweenish, 3) great in detail (chyeah...apparently she's seen what I can do...hoho) 4)is composed out of an emotion, idea, thought, or belief

so u know crazy ol' paytons gonna do something friggin well, crazy of course, like animating some phsyco vampire thingy
and i gladfully got half done

music
eh
i basially only have to show the guy what I can do on the piano...which is not much

its just more and more i regret taking this trip

but we already made it to my grandmama's
and I think now we're in...
Ohio I guess?
I know how thrilling, huh?

well, its been busy herrre
i'm rather messing on the computer with the animation crap, getting my work, doing my work, walking around outside, sleeping, or eating
and i feel like i havent got much of the last two much lately
*sigh*
I guess thats just life

------------EDiT------------------------

I mentioned NOTHING about the bus
the stupid bus i've been spending my roadtrippish vacation in
its hot as..i dont even now in here, and even though i've lived in georgia for 2 or so years, i'm used to it being cold all the time
so
yheah
...
it could've been worse, i know

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14865882/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14865882/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 04:56:40 PDT quick update before I go eat stuff

me & my pa will be heading out on the road next week
to 1) get to see some places
2)visit some peeps i need to go c(ex, granama in nj)
&3)to get away from home...heh, i've been going under for awhile back then-time to break this deppression chain alas

starting in cali
ending in nj
and yheah, going through (about) every state in between

so..weee
SHOTGUN!!111

andd...you prolly wont hear from me till...around halloween, and I have a better hane of getting the camera back than the stoopid printer cable- its lost in my godpapi's car :<

yheah, they gave me the whole months worth of school work....lol

5 pages...thats it

IS THAT ALL 8TH GRADE CAN DO!!!!!111

speaking of that place, it was apparently halo dork off month in my class, and someone wanted me to draw that halo guy...idk his name, coz last time I tried to play halo 3, I shot myself
ANYHOO
i'm...atually rly proud of the way it came out...
always nice to feel a wee bit confident :>

but I'm giving it to Wes, the guy who wanted me to draw it in the 1st place
...heh maybe i'll get gum for it...

well...

sooo long, my friends
and I will talk to you all&stuff when I get back

toodles
~cc

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14787633/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14787633/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 14:34:08 PDT snippity

I do realize now a days my time on the computer is getting more and more limited

simply because the computer is in the living room and my mum is very very very nosy

she wouldn't be mad at me for being on dA, but I hate how she's just so damn nosy & i'm such an uptight person

so, I've only been on very briefly in the morning(3 am-3:45 am), when i come home(4:30 pm-5:45 pm) and nights when she goes out(around 7 pm-8 pm)
some may say this is not brief, but remember, all summer, I was always online
so
i'm slowly breaking from it

I am drawing a WHOLE lots more than I ever had, because my teachers encourage me so much, everybody really
I showed them some of the things I've put on here, some more recent stuff, and to my very suprise and joy- my language arts/social studies teaher knows what NiGHTS into Dreams is, and likes it, too
&i think yesterday,she told me it'd be nice if I try to draw all the nightmaren, kids, minions, bosses, and the big thing in the cloak(lol wizeman) together
so i'm taking a shot at drawig better groupish drawings
wierd the things you an discover just by getting to knowpeople for a change

well, i guess i'll be getting off sometime soon to go feed Little Miss Sushine Jennifer Fluffyness(my new guinea pig) and get started on stuff

>NiGHTS group drawing
>Long Awaited Prize for ~Anthro7
>Roller Coaster design draft
& to my joy
>Colonial Fair Fun-ness
(still awaiting final chord for printer/scanner)


weeeeeeeeeeeeee
outtt
the new kinda happyish~Cc

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14702103/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14702103/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 14:16:38 PDT
yes, i'ma back
just got done getting all googgly eyed at the new NiGHTS trailer

sept 10th was my birthday

no wii for me till Christmas :<

well, for my bday, i got animal crossing(my new anti depressant)
pokemon diamond
and a guinea pig,nibbles, that sadly passed away yesterday
(butters is alive and well with my grandma in nj)
my teacher felt so bad she bought me 2 things of muffins during lunch

but these things happen for a reason

my mum said we'll get another one by warranty, but what i saw will effect me for awhile

anyhoohoo
we're officially all moved
...xept the printer/scanner thingy
so, heh
sorry


i must be dwadling off now
mmkthxbye
~Cc

aoh yheah
thx for 4,000 pageviews

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14085150/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14085150/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 05:00:57 PDT

...

anypoopoo, in case you didn't know, we're moving to Duluth actually tomorow and we have a whooooooole lotsa stuff to unpack+my friend is coming over this weekend lol

and to my hearts desire, she's letting me have her Sega Saturn& NiGHTS into Dreams, co myne gots squished awhile back
AND
my birthdays coming up
i think my grandma knowwwws what i want

right now, i feel horrible...
i've been a big big bitch at a lot of ppl & ugh...

whyyy?!
><

hormones

well...i guess i'll be back in a few weeks or something
school starts monday and i'm only gonna hav time fore internet things on the weekind

well
bye, dA for a bit
~CC

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14020168/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/14020168/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 20:14:07 PDT
oh i kno boo hoo maybe next time >_>

lawlz

i'ma be going to my godpapis house from sunday to tuesday
i think imight b getting mah hair done

& tuesdey is projekt revolution& i MIGHT b going

my godpapi i known to pull things like that


OMG MY CHEM, LINKIN PARK, MASTADON, TAKING BACK SUNDAYY

well, even if i dont go, ima b blasting the Black Parade & dancing around
as if i havent gotten enough of themm lol
-------------------------------------
all my big lay rump got done was a rough sketch of TEH SUSPENCE
u kan kinda tell what they are...i guess i'll work on it a bit moarr & post it in scraps in a bit

anypoopoo,i'd better finish pacing & sit here
& just stare at the ceiling for a bit









]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13993928/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13993928/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 22:54:02 PDT

I bought a book...nothing educational...well...spongebob 8D & i like spongebob*shot by h8t8r tr0llz*

its...i think 1 or 2 in the morning, and i'm trynna learn flash...again...heh

I have many ideas, and my friend liz is coming from Ohio this coming tuesdey or the weekend after this one & she said i can have her camera chord+computer microfone if she can find them

ima get on 's prize...s
i am going to be working all the characters i can into things she can work with for her card game
she well deserves it for winning :iconNiGHTSandReala:'scontest

<< i wouldve entered, but my computer was being iffy and not letting me log on

eh, oh well
expect to see them here & in a link, anthro

there may be a point of silence for me coming soon due to moving & starting a newschool
Duluth Middle School...
they better not be dicks, too
or bug me sitting in my corner ofbliss doodling bongo bongo or BL00D er something

oh YES as for current contest entered, s contest
i havemany ideas
& also, Q-lok
when i sent you that note about the demia/np, it just explaining it gaveme the inspires :>

prepare for teh SUSPENSE
& a buttload of zelda/sonic/NiGHTS scribbles

bha
well, my lovey a calls

toodles :3

~CC

ps: i must say, thank you everyone who still at least listens to my emo bullshit
i am sorry
& i'm keeping it off here
instead, you'll see anger doodles probably 8D

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13972194/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13972194/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 13:44:34 PDT -------------------------------------------------------

Today, they pulled a suprise hearing on me. they always make me talk about a time when I couldn't bare to be around anybody. I couldn't stand anyone. And i really couldn't stand myself.
It kills me because not only that, but the only person who was really hear for me during that time is gone. not to another world, but gone, because it is just not him anymore. . .
Memories always consume my emotions and I had to hold back losing it in front of everybody. I'm scared to show emotions to my mom because she acts likei'm some fucking robot built to do what she wants me to do, and if i don't, then i'm just a big shame.

i wanted to talk to my love muffin about it, but he wasn't home

i tried reaching my dad
but he was out of service
so here i am again
scared to think about this on my own



I feel like such a fucking coward.
I always have to have someone else to make the pain go away...

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13965296/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13965296/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 02:56:20 PDT I am outside

And I've been waiting for the sun

With my wide eyes

I've seen worlds that don't belong

My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize

Tell me why we live like this


Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me


Yeah

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And all the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole


Lock the doors

Cause I like to capture this voice

You came to me tonight

So everyone will have a choice

And under red lights

I'll show myself it wasn't forged

We're at war

We live like this


Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me


Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And all the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole


Tower over me

Tower over me


And I'll take the truth at any cost


Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And all the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

We Are Broken by Paramore
just a bit of thought I couldnt put into my own words this good.
Every single one of us are broken, no matter how powerful, big, or complete you think you are. Its not always bad. Sometimes, it can be love, or you may have a case of yoiur own. We all have our goals that we feel we want or need to get done.
------------------------------------------------------------------------
anypoopoo
YKNOW WHAT EVEYONE I DEMAND YOU ALL GO DRAW BONGO BONGO
HAHAHA
BONGO BONGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
or not coz i know how you are all busy& he is kinda hard to draw

well, i feel the art block shaking off
WOOWOO
and guess what? this happensRIGHT when we're about to move

we're moving to a little apartment in Duluth, Georgia
well, i'll scan everything I have in my itty stack in a sec

anypoopoo....i guess thats it...
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

BHAH
oh yheah I GOTS TAGGED BY
ay, SHE B SO NICE ...er

1. Do you like animals?
Not yappy ones, but yes

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yep, and come August 7th, i am again

3. Are you athletic?
not one fucking bit lol

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc?
i dont pay any attention to my image

5. How much do you weigh?
IDFK

6. What's your height?
5 something

7. Shoe size?
7. i knowwwww OMG SO SMALL

8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
i concider myself tomboyish, but i have my moments

10.How old are you?
idfk anymoarr
my mum said 14, then 13, then 16
wtf

11. When is your birthday?
September 10th

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
hah, I do,but i like art all together if its gift art or not

13. Are you sociable?
ionline, yes; on IM, u'll have bettr luck starting aconversation with me than me starting one; on the fone, if you are hyper GIMME A CALL LAWLZ; in real life, i wont stfu -_-"

14. Do you have many friends?
online, yes, and i love them all soooo much; offline, they all turn their backs on me......

15. What's your race?
Vierra!....ok no(i just beat Final Fantasy Tactics Advanced in 8 hours so yheah lol)

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
To my friends & mah lovely
i hate talking to my family onthe fone...theresno fucking point...

17. Are you single or taken?
taken && i love him like NO OTHAA &&& were already talking about marriage& chidren lmfao
no rly, ourwedding song is gonna b Starlight by Muse

19. Are you paranoid?
very

20. Do you read a lot?
on the computer or anything interesting http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13879422/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 20:27:23 PDT

I haven't been in one of my little artistic tiffs, and thats when all the extrodinary things come from 8D

I'm trynna come up with some storylines, plots and such, so though you may not see much, know Mrs. Havok is a work on some things 8]

I also sadly almost tore my Luigi plushes head off, so i'm a bit sad about that, but lol thats the little things

On a happy note (omg look away this isn't artistic), I think I know whom I want to marry ___

Though this journal is full of unhappy & one happy tidbit[s], that one happy thing is what is keeping me alive right now ^^

Now if you don't mind, I have deviations, messages, and jounals i'd like to keep up with and see what i missed

l8t3r lawlz

~CC

OH and I will be going to Projekt Revolution August 7th with my bestest friend from Ohio Liz

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-=Havoks List Of Things She Would Like To Get Done=-
-HUMAN BL00D
-Knuckles The Echidina
-Arts For My Lourve
-Birthday Arts & Pixel For Metra
-Paper Mario Thingy
-Ol' School Styled Shadow
-The Wedding Dream
-Killing Lights(Pixel Banner)
-A Nice Nightmare Doodle
---------------------------------------
another note: Q, ima get to you on the NP+D dream note right NOW

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13826140/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13826140/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 21:06:12 PDT



i'll be back tomorow with the stuff i needsta post & a flash test :3

till then


MY HEAD FUCKING HURTS

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13794716/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13794716/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 12:12:19 PDT

lol

tis b for me own good for when i do my usual 1nt0rn3tz wanderings

-Human BL00D status: thinking...-

-Knuckles status: thinking about how ima lay it out-

-Ol' School Styled Shadow status: a mere table scrap doodle-

-...When Demia and The Nightmare P. Collide status: trynna work a dream into an image-

-MCR fangirlism art tablescraps status: waiting to be scanned-

-surfing pikachu myspace banner- status : waiting to be scanned-

-BL00D: image of a GODD status : waiting to be...posted?-

-BL00D: PIMPSLAPPED(pwn fo Reala) status : staring at it right now/ AWAITS SCANNAGE

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13780319/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13780319/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 10:04:29 PDT ok, i grew to HATE Sonic, but Tails and Knuckles own and Robotnik &&& OMG METAL SONICCCCCCCC *____*

and not to mention Manic
I forgot how much I loved that green guy :3

bah, but i remembered why I grew outta Sonic
there was a new fucking character every game
and that is why i dont own anything past sonic adventure 2...exept for Shadow The Hedgehog, coz he's BIG PIYMPIN tharrr

so yas, u may see ol' school sonic art from me

me & shawn was discussing Knuckles in his cowboy hat and then I REMEMBERED THAT WAS ON THE KANGAROO I CANT REMEMBER THE NAME OF TO SAVE MY LIFE
it went like

me: omg lol lookie [link]
shawn: OMFG why is knucklez wearing a hillbilly hat???????? poor knucklez
[[a few minutes later i realized, if that WAS a hillbilly hat, i'd still look like this right now: ]]
me: IYTS NAWT AY HIYLBIYLLY HAYT IYTS AH REYDNEYCK HAYT
shawn: lol OMG I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRY JEZZ
me: but i like nickelback
shawn: ...? uh...i do, too, but...WHAT R U SAYING?
me: lol

*5 hours later*
me: OMG THAT KANGAROO WEASEL THINGY!!!!!!!!1!
shawn:......O Rly?

and onwards with the lolz

ANYHOO, i think the art block is wearing off
i have...ideas lol
annnd i has stuffs to daw for pplz ... :<

now xcuuuuuuuuuuuuuuse me i'm a little....ok a lot stoned off air and sodasss so
IMA GO DRAW NOW AND SAVE THE NIGHTMARE PARADE BUHBYE

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13769862/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13769862/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 12:38:06 PDT lol

well, as you can tell, i am at a complete art blank
i know what i needsta b drawing, but i just cant seem to put it together
i guess even though we just got back from vacation, i need a little moar time

ah, yes i went to universal studios in florida
it rained off and on
and the Hulk is the best roller coaster ever

anyhoo, you may not see much from me in awhile, but i will try to get it all together

i'm truly sorry, and i'm trying to avoid throwing a big emo fit onto here

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13673298/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13673298/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 15:48:34 PDT coz i am the quiz stealer of myspace(thats bout all i do on teir anymore) and am gunna bring it ovar here

1. Choose a few of your own characters. [Five at the most]
2. Make them answer the following questions

Characters Chosen:
BL00D[my obvious dream creature]
CRiMS0N[my dream self]
STARDUST BL00D [head marcher on the nightmare]
Mrs. Death[check gallery]
fink rat [:B]

1) How Old Are You?
B: for a nightmaren, i'm pretty young...ah about 160?
C : 14 in the real world
SB: old? curses! *throws dramatic chipmunk at you with his mustache and monoledns*
MD: i'm like, old as death but...like...young enough to maintain such a like gorgeous figure! like yay!
FR: iiii'm a side character havok threw in here for fun

2) Height?
B: 7 ft boyee!
C : 5"10
SB: i may also be 7", BUT I'M TALLER THAN OL TRANNY LASHES
MD: oh 20 er 30 ft :]
FR: iiiiiiim a few centimeters high

3)Any Bad Habits?
B: for some reason, ITD B GIVIN EREONE HELL...and havin' twinkie cookouts reala was pissed we didnt invite him once
C : biting my nails and twisting my hair...its not that great :<
SB: ranting oh the ranting D: I RANT ABOUT ME RANTING RIGHT NOW GAH
MD: it'd like always be making sure my make up is like perfect and my gasmask wont like come off. hitler had no warnings like after all
FR: i like pudding

4)You a virgin?
B: i havent dare lay my hands on a female. i'm scared of femmy SUSPi as it is, but i've seen all those cheesy teen dramas and LOL
C : ...i'd hope so
SB: iiiii'm to smexii for these shiny gold things
MD: well like......i have a like chiren so unless teir is a stork or like the writer likes to like think like that
FR: iiiii look up skirts *is stepped on*


5)Who's your Mate/Spouse?
B: [insert Q4 ramble here]
C : yknow, last time i thought i found the ONE, and i kicked his ass outta this realm, but i'm still searching coz i have hope *hands out cookies*
SB: *continues song from last question*
MD: like no coz he like died
FR: lol

6)Have Any Kids?
B: hmmmm...loke chiren, but not for me >>
C : no
SB: mwahahahaha all of the dead are my chidren
MD: like yheah[check gallery]
FR: i spawn spores

7)Favourite Food?
B: pians.....omg pians *drools*
C : food is good...yheah
SB: I FEEDZ ON RESTLESS SOULS *is kidding*
MD: like i havent eaten since like the last big bang to maintain this like figure
FR: table scraps and pudding plz

8)Favorite Ice Cream flavor?
B: piaaaaaaaaaaaaan
C: peppermint thingy...its only avaliable on christmass
SB: TAINTED LIVES
MD: like low fat plz
FR: pudding?

9)Killed anyone?
B: do pians count? THEY IS MAH DINNER!
C :nah
SB:nah, i work with the dead
MD: like, no but i decide like you go
FR: i killed a pac man

10)Hate anyone?
B: well duh! those hippy nightmarens with their "dont eat teh pians man" tree huggin biscuit fix ><
C : no sh... ]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13647246/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13647246/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 13:46:10 PDT it wasn't letting me log on for forever untill i cleaned out my temp. internet files

: and now for updates :

Yes, i am moving.
No, not outta state.

TO THE HEART OF ATLANTA coz me parents got married a few weeks ago and decided to buy a big ass house :3
lmao
ima have fun rolling down stairs
and i'll be getting my guinea piggy Butters back from my god momma

heehee
anypoo, artwise, i haven't gotten anything done, but i have like...every screenshot from the new NiGHTS game upon my wall so i don't sleep much, and i'm on nid.com almost all day waiting for new screenshots

plus, me and my friend liz are thinking together on a flash cartoon which is basically a combination of bosses offa the legend of zelda(ocarina of time), bobobo(using where things pop outta his afro), and ppl

omg noo nots teh pplz!!!!!!!

she thinks of random shit and i draw it out
i should put up an example flash
soon as i move, my mother promised me studio flash
YA!

k i am a gonna go lurk around and see what i missed

~CC
has wierd "k word" dreams involving lt. blood fucks

--------------
small edit
prepare to see a better BL00D ref.

-SUSPi & Klolass, ima get on ur drawings first thing

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13292874/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13292874/ Sun, 10 Jun 2007 16:48:01 PDT *points like a maniac*

[will put descriptions later]

1.
one of my narutard buddies every piece she posts shows a sign of inprovement. she is a lot better at coloring than me (pft everyone is -_-'' but itd be nice fer folks to stop by her page
-[link]
-[link]
-[link]
2.
om my oh my oh my, WHERE DO I BEGIN WITH THIS OEKAKI GOD? She is ahmaaaaaazingly better than me at digital art like everyone else i know and she pwned us all silly on q-loks contest with her magic art powersss, which only wanted me to inprove my own skills for next time anything like that rolls around. I recommend strolling by her page and staring at stuff
-[link]
-[link]
and of course
-[link] coz its on my wall next to mellybeans muffin eating platypus
3.
I found her page from a hilarious "you might be a goth hick if..." thing, but it sadly disappeared D:. anyhoo, she is a very great photographer and i admire her AFI bat thingy if you in the mood for AFI and photography, theres a gallery to visit
-[link]
-[link]
-[link]
4.
LOOK UP IN THE SKY! IS IT A BIRD? IS IT A PLANE? NO ITS TEH MS PAINT PWNER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lollllllll but really. i think it is absolutely AHMAZIIIIIING how this girl uses something as simple as paint teh colors, the characters, its all so magiccccc *.* check it out and prepare for something kewl :3
-[link]
-[link]
-[link]
(SO hard to pick 3 favs. lol)
5.
this guy, like a lotta ppl i watch, draw NiGHTS. but this guy has his own twist to the puple jester its hard to explain, but i guess th... ]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13277368/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13277368/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 11:41:32 PDT k, well , not only a lifelong friend, but co owner AND comic artist of is back in buisness
he had enough time to put up a journal and all, so if you liked any of the nightmare characters, BL00DS nightmare side, or are just curious, go check it out. Nothing to post there yet :/
but i'm working on it
as well as some other things
i got a dare to draw some thing
and i found the "we'll carry on" wip first page, so i NEED to get a working on that. Still never finished, but ALMOST
i'm still working on character designs
they wont be as flashy as MiSERIA or ANGST, coz theye just designs
i'll do flashy stuff when i have more materials



and a quick rant no one really is gonna love as much as i am
DFGDOMG TEEAGAZ SCUR DA LIN SHI OUA ME! TEY CUD CAR LEZ ASS LON A SUMONEE BEED! SO DAEN YO CLOTES O STIKE A VILENT PO! MAYB TEY LE YO AONE BU NOO MEH!!
A TUGETER NOA!!!!!!!
and if you don't know what i'm babbling about, my chem released thei latest single, Teenagers
sometimes, i think thats how the man sings
*prepares to be hit by maroon and stared at by everybody else*
but the message of the song was "violence isnt the answer"
i know that coz i remember him saying that over and over



FRiENDS [link]

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13255312/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13255312/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 17:02:55 PDT

If you comment...

1- I'll answer with something random about you.
2- I'll dare you to try something.
3- I'll say a color I associate with you.
4- I'll tell you something I like about you.
5- I'll tell you something I always remember about you / a first memory about you.
6- I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7- I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.
8- If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal.

Edit: i need to proofread dammit


GOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13233492/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13233492/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 10:51:00 PDT
...thats new O.O



dA & imvu werent letting me online

i'm back, though
i hope i didnt miss anything

i havent been that well
me & chris are
ya
over
and i would be fine if he didnt start treating me like trash
not worth itt
and then next minute, my absolute best friend shawn told me he loved me, not only that, but wanted to spend the rest of his life with me
so i was...for about a day
in heaven

and then next day, he's got some other girl, and he tells me something happened last night at a party

so with that
i've given up on love pretty much
all it does is get my hopes up to be shattered
ONWARD, AMIGOS
ONWAAAAAAAARD!

sadly, i havent really gotten anything done
and i see N&R07 has officially started teh contest

i'm gonna b like sai tis time
hold on out till the end

i am now residing on a hot smelly stinky van with 6 bimbos

i have done nothing but played final fantasy & pokemon
and talked to mah friend pat
but he's in teh hospital right now coz he attempted suicide for something about his girlfriend
i wish we could go c em, but right now were headin to mah granmas house in belleville, new jersey
its wierd, i usually only go tere for christmas break
watever
i got new cps
and a fancy notebook i already lost with black paper that comes with gel pens
i havent gotten to using them, but ohohoh i will



FRiENDS[link]

note to Mrs. Havok: piz upload SOMETHING nto k thanks




aka
the infamous Mrs. Havok


MOAR EDiT
http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13153476/ Wed, 30 May 2007 16:14:26 PDT -------------------------------------------------------------------
interesting title, no?
heh

[link]
even if you dont like muse, its an interesting thing to watch
i, on the other hand find it interesting how the singer has both male and female vocal chords
it makes me wanna draw something mechy or spacey
mabey finish that metal reala drawing
hmmm

ANYWAYS, i seemed to notice how everyone is starting up contests
not saying its annoying. heck, if i had money, photoshop, and better talent, i'd concider starting one
maybe off the nightmare parade but there are other characters in it i havent doodled out.
but like N&07, i have no prizes
i'm not that rich on gaia, and i am a penny pincher on there
but i could open up and give it away. Really no sacrafice.
idk though...

FRiENDS & FiENDS, WHAT DO YOU THiNK?



FRiENDS[link]



aka
the infamous Mrs. Havok

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13130600/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13130600/ Mon, 28 May 2007 20:21:49 PDT HOMG ILUA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the good ol
DESPAiR FACT0R
-those i consider my true friends here on deviantART
you've done something to make not lose it. You've done something to make me feel like it's neve too late. You've made me proud to be here today.You dont have to even watch me, or have mind boggling art to be here. At the same time, don't act clingy or such. You may be up here and not know why, but these folks have (heart, for you wally waggs)-

http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13127738/ Mon, 28 May 2007 16:14:41 PDT RUN


*stares at edit&delete buttons on the right*




[link]
now
this got me thinking...
if i can find my poster paints
or some wall paints..
or even better
some clay shtuff
and i have purple, yellow, red, black, and orange
you'd see more shit like that



lulz

i may not be posting much this week due to it being summe and i wanna be a lazy bum
so
lettin ya know'
but who knows






WOO WOO MUSTARD MAN
-CRiMS0N CATASTR0PHY

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13111046/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13111046/ Sun, 27 May 2007 09:02:11 PDT

1) What was your first Pokemon game?

i got Red version and Blue on the same dayu
like
my 6th o 8th birthday
what a day that was
lawlz

2) Can you remember who your starter was? If so, who?

squirtle

3) Did you ever complete the Pokedex in any games? Which one(s)?



4) Did you watch the Pokemon anime? Who was your favourite character?

while i only watched the 1st season, i liked that doll thing the gym leader of saffaron city would cary around and tourment her challengers with if they didnt win
:confusion: wtf howd i remember all that

5) Do you still watch the anime?

when there is absolutely nothing on
nothing to do
and its raining

6) What's your favourite Pokemon type? Explain.

i loved psycic types, and later on became attatched to dark types

7) Who's your favourite Pokemon? Explain.

i loved riachu for some reason
watching that episope where they put pikachu vs riachu when i had my friend destiny over, i was cheering on the big thingy(riachu) and she was cheering on pikachu
good times, good times...
its still an interesting one, too

8) Which Pokemon do you dislike the most? Explain.

lol...it'd have to be koffing. it reminded me of my second hand smoke problem i always had with my aunt....*cringe*

9) Which is your favourite region? Explain.

whatever the 1st one was...it feels like i grew up there...

10) Which is your favourite Pokemon series (ie, Kanto 1-151, Johto 152-251, Hoenn 252-358, others)? Explain.

[see above]

11) Can you say a series Pokedex, without a reference, in order?

cmon everyone, POKERAP!

12) Do you know all the type advantages, disadvantages and all the super-effective moves for each type?

pokemon stadium...i thought it was all about luck

13) Did you prefer Pokemon before the new ones, or after?

the first season
lol

14) Have you got an Original Character who is a trainer?

no

15) Have you ever wrote a fanfiction story about Pokemon?

no

16) Was the OC based on yourself?

lol

17) Who is your favourite gym leader?

Sabrinaaaaa and her doll

18) What about Elite Four trainer?

i liked the guy with tha cape

19) If you lived in the Pokemon world, who would you starter be? (Please choose out of the normal starters, excluding Pikachu and Eevee).

most definetly squirtle

20) Which city would you live in before you started your journey? Why?

fushia, bish

21) Would you travel just in the one region, or spread to other places?

i'll walk the shadows

22) Would you train just one type, or different ones?

diffent types

23) What kind of Poke-Person would you be? Trainer? Breeder? Gym leader?

Trainer

24) Would you collect gym badges? Or keep Pokemon as pets?

but...both sound fun

25) Who is your ultimate two-on-two team? Explain.

blastoise & charzard. Knock yo ass outta ta park

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13099298/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13099298/ Sat, 26 May 2007 09:51:45 PDT well, ppl have really been making me paranoid about the BIG ASS DEMIA ART contest
and i know i'm blown back in Shi chans contest
i've seen lovely art from there i dont even kinda compare with
heh

Defeat only makes me wanna try harder later

my adopted son/bestest friend is coming down here fo the summer
and i believe he owes me something
...he's a comic artist

so i'll be getting that some time
maybe put it up here like LOOK WHO CAN COLOR IN THE LINES =O

i'm also moving...
i wanna make plans with and
heehee
i wanna go to Lil' 5 Points with tem again

also
i'ma try drawing sonic art...
i have something to get offa my back bout that Silver character


well
latah

the infamous MrS. HaVoK, aka CiMS0N CATASTR0PHY

woo woo mustard maaaaaan

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13067892/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13067892/ Wed, 23 May 2007 19:19:59 PDT
i know
folks read thi n pass by it like eh
but
just had to add on some ramble rut

i got tackled on my way home fom my mamas job
n i was like "WHERE IS THE BAT?!"



BLEGH
STOOPID STOOPID STOOPID PPL

i learned today
folks think i'm pregnant
i had to say one thing
oh suuuure
-_- idiots

anyhoo
i'm tynna finish all the contest art
i finished shi-chans entry
and am proud of it
but i cant fucking find it now and i dont wanna do all that over goddangit ><

blegh

well
i now have a kinda adopted son named hao
lol
he's gay and i've known him all my life
nicest guy i know
and folks beat up on him
but guess what?
he's a fighter
lol
he's my lil inspiration son


no
i didnt eally adopt him
but in a comic view i did
=]
more new shit to come

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13038310/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13038310/ Mon, 21 May 2007 13:08:47 PDT start up some dumb shit
and
also have started REALLY putting my anger into another drawing


idk why
but i had a dream
that i was on my own lil island
with jackle
and he was fishing
and he caught a coke can and a sloth
and when he got the coke can
e was like
HOMG! SIX FLAGS DISCOUNT!

e_e
i dont get it



eh


i actually have a few things to post
not a lot
but
yheah


today
we saw a gas sign(the ones that show you how much teh gas cost
it said
unleaded-LOL
leaded(i forgot)-OMG
prenium-WT*
i was like
ok.......no more myspace for them kids e_e



CRiMS0N
aka
HaV0k

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13028813/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13028813/ Sun, 20 May 2007 17:20:41 PDT never was











i'ma be back tomorow

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13022248/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13022248/ Sun, 20 May 2007 06:55:18 PDT i gots me one of those pens
where the ink ish paint
:]
so
this wip is bout ta get pimped out
lol
but all i has is a black one
but whaaaaat ever
i'll continue with toothpicks & watercolors

i got giftart
from muy dad
but
i'll put it up later
its...actually really interesting
and he's just figuing out mosta teh nid dead crew have no genders, names(exeption of BL00D and all the charactes drawn in tnp style)
=]
so i'm looking at moving a bit diffrent
if i go ahead and gather everything up now, that will be the end of the worse part
and i guess another reason i'm kinda happy right now is coz my momma wants me to go to an art school
there is one school somewhere around georgia that revolves around artistic abilities(drawing,vocals,instruments)
i can deal with snappy teachers and cheesy uniforms

so its goodbye freakpit(peachtree)
none of them ever really cared

as well as packing
i will be posting more petties that i drew last night and one i'm real proud of
another hunch off my back
i deleted my myspace
coz i dont want ANY contacts with those buffoned lies fom that dreaded school


outt
CRiMS0N
aka
HaV0K

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13014770/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13014770/ Sat, 19 May 2007 15:07:46 PDT

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13010035/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/13010035/ Sat, 19 May 2007 07:11:40 PDT out of state
...









whoopdedo....
more to stess over...


*flings red paint on wall*

hmmm...
well
...
><

sdassdahfyhghguhiuyyyooiuijkljknmnbnhv

i tied calling ppl i knew from peachtree
left a message
...
no one cared
so it shows
i'm not leaving anyone behind

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12981022/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12981022/ Wed, 16 May 2007 17:50:43 PDT dont say i didnt warn you for the next art bunch
it will be
gorry

right now
idk
i feel
just like that emoticon
with a bit of a "LETS STAT A RIOT" kick
the only thing corsing though my mind right now is
R-E-V-E-N-G-E
not on any of you, though

but plz take this warning seriously


and a big heads up
some of it is real blood
no fooling
-------------------------------------------
on the othe hand
i must thank
i
just
have to...
idk if he's gonna read that big ass note or not
either way
it took the depression out

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12970989/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12970989/ Tue, 15 May 2007 20:55:47 PDT right now though
if you felt the way i felt
you'd understand...

i dont feel like wasting time typing
no ones interested in any bull happening in my life
so
ugh


i'm just gonna say
it hurts
not the outside
but vey very very very badly on the inside

that should say enough...

i will try to make this quick
but i wont gurantee
this nightmare has been around since i was 6 or 7
i will post eveything i can tomorow
but idk y
logging on hee today only made me feel wose
this is not a desperate call for attention

out--
CRiMS0N

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12968404/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12968404/ Tue, 15 May 2007 17:14:52 PDT
]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12967207/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12967207/ Tue, 15 May 2007 15:33:30 PDT ayton Havok(neep, were not going there folks)

2) Male/Female: gee idk >_O

3) Were you named after anyone?: a crazy lady on a sci-fi movie

4) Does your name mean anything?: some village...wierd, eh or "blessed".

5) Nick Name(s): lil gee, mrs havok, dr havok, miss murder(sigh, still), CRiMS0N

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: ?

7) Date Of Birth: Septembe 10th

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Belleville, New Jersey(USA);Doaville, Georgia(already misses Scotland TT_TT)

9) Nationality: scot-italian with a looooong decent of
CHEROKEE
=O

10) Astrology Sign: Vigo...PANICY

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: chicken thingy...*sigh*...yesm, rooster

12) Religion: ...?

13) Whats your favorite smell?: wet forest...dont ask...idk ><

14) Political Position?: lol.ewww

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?:nothing...muy taste buds are all wack in teh mornin'

16) Hair + Eye color: red(dying it soon)+foggy geen...blegh...

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: lol...huh?

18) What do you look like?: muy dad -_-

19) Any unusual talents?: ....?

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: i'ma righto

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: straight...i couldnt hande being with another girl ><

22) What do you do for a living?: ...i never told you...lol

23) What do you do for fun?: draw, sing, play gee-tah, blow stuff up...yknow

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: mech pencils and cappy cps

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: i wanna figure out how to work blender, but i cant find teh dayung TAB key...

26) Have you met your grandparents?: neep....

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: shtanky

28) Crush: lol...dont even get me started

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: ydont wanna hear me answe taaaat.

30) Current worries?: dying alone & everyone leaving me to suffer again...=_=

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): everyone on my friendslist here, shawn, ashlie, ashley(no moe ashleys plz) an' patrick

32) Favorite place to be?: away from here...

33) Least favorite place to be?: here...

34) Do you burn or tan?: burn n bake...lol

35) Ever break a bone?: yeep. on teh slide when i was a young meep

36) What is your favorite cereal?: cocoa puffs XP

37) Person you cry with: shawn & shtanky

38) Any sisters: -_-

39) Any brothers: millions of them creatures...

40) Any pets: a weasel and a piglet

41) An Illness: ...?

42) A Pager:neep

43) A Personal phone line: neep

44) A Cell phone: -_- neep

45) A visible birthmark: mhm

46) A Pool or hot tub: lol

47) A Car: again, lol

Describe Your...

48) Personality: quiet and right now very grim...only happy around shtanky n shawn

49) Driving: according to maio kat, were all f*****d

50) Your clothing style: whatever i want, foo

51) Room: big ass pigstye

52) What’s missing: my hopes and expectations...

53) School: hell, lies, and deciet

54) Bed: i sleep on it...what?

55) Relationship with your parent(s): mum=ok paypi=lol

56) Do You believe in yourself: ...

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: neep

58) Consider yourself a good listener:i pretend to

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: i hope....one day, i'll lean to tust ppl again...

60) Get Along with your parents: deja vu o_O

61) Save your e-mail conversations: no

62) Pray: when i really want it to get better...

63) Believe in reincarnation: mhm

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?: ...

65) Like to talk on the phone: i am right now, but no

66) Like to eat?: it makes me feel dumb, but yheah

67) Like to exercise?: not ever since dayum p.e.

68) Like to watch sports?: no

69) Sing in the car?: yheah XD

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?: *sigh*...i always have this dream where shtinky(yheah, chris) is holding me one second, saying its all gonna get better, mark my words. he vanishes, it rains red junk...(blood i think) i see all these corpses all around at the entrance of this crickety worn out house...it always makes me feel like... ]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12946376/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12946376/ Sun, 13 May 2007 19:55:43 PDT just
forget i was happy
as usual
it dosent last
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

some ppl
were made for bringing you down...

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12945459/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12945459/ Sun, 13 May 2007 18:37:29 PDT besides muy mum thinking she's queen and everytime i step outta muy room i have to do something like fold towels or give her car a new paintjob
bleh

muy present to her was i would be outta her hair fo the day
i left her a pretty(quick) doodle of a purdy rose and a FYE giftcard(woman loves her moozak)
and i met up with some folks i hasnt seen since i was a lil un n sum i saw a bit ago
volcom(gets to watch me draw his shtuff), trey, matt, faust, sonny, and aaron(also mah x, but we still gewd friends to the eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnddd )
they had mooved away
like texas, florida,cali, new jersey n BR00KLYN o_o
we woke up at about 6 in teh mornin to go get everyone n pack um in a big van thingy
me n mah paypi ran around airports n marta stations yelling like retards in a thunderstorm till we found em then go speeding off to six flags like "AWAY!"
yheah, it was fun
besides on the Goliath, we got to the top of the hill and it broke down[link]
o_o
muy dad had a bitch fit
lol
it was
by far
the best day EVER
and muy mum was happy i was outta her hair, too :]
i hope all of you had a spiffy mmamas day, too
------------------------
in teh art dwadles
i got some progress with tha sprites
i got the two human/spirity characters i'll b usin fer teh lil project thingy done(hasnt posted, tats all)
but if u didnt figure it out
is home of our dead/black and yellow friend(s):]
i only have one thing up at this sec, but i'll put up the others i have
^_^
i'll be working on drawings a bit more this week, so sit tight, squander squats
and another note on the nightmare marchers(hmmm...lol)
they arent exactly labeled marens, for they are not associated with any of the nightopia critters till they pass on
i'm not sure what i even mean, but in a sense
yknow
well, i cant think of more to blab about...
~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12926140/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12926140/ Sat, 12 May 2007 07:37:15 PDT SOMFG! GEES JOURNAL! RUN!

on DA, everythings goin along pretty good
and yheah, i'm pretty much at least kinda started with everything

a note
if something i type is missing the letter "r", it is because muy keyboard has started bugging up on the r,z,and q keys
it is very annoying coz i end up looking retarded
asdfghjkl;'

outside of all that, i'm trying to not bottle up every emotion i get without taking it out on ppl
not going so well

blergh
well, i will leave you all alone now coz i have shtuffs i'd like to get done tdey to post, mail, and dry

-TO GET DONE-
q-lok & shi-chans contest entries
art trade with volcom
TNP(demo-full)

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12892290/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12892290/ Tue, 08 May 2007 19:25:49 PDT jabbing the computer and tossing it out a window
and tearing everything to peices...

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12876619/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12876619/ Mon, 07 May 2007 14:01:59 PDT LIL GEES JOURNAL! RUN!




ah, so i'm getting through a lot of my emo suckery and not putting it on here
besides
its art
not complain
yknow?
i know a lot of you offer to help, but sometimes yjust gotta settle things yourself

hmmm, anyhoo
have you ever looked at someone
you one day cherished
next day just
blegh
idk i'm having difficulties that i need to figure out
but i'm a teenager
if i were perfect
it would suck bad

i guess it just took forever to realize that

CARRYING ON WITH TEH ARTNESH
i'm putting all teh NiGHTMARE PARADE art on pause
temporarily
until i have this spiff figured out
but teh a marchin never stops at heart :3
but as you can hopefully tell, i'm trynna get shtuff done around here
and live alone
yesh
black hole
chris is off in arizona
coz his mama said so
but i gots me a new nickname
in case you havent noticed
lil gee
yesh
lil gee
its all very very interesting indeed
i wish they had in teh mood bar...
tats how i feel right now
lol

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12829675/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12829675/ Thu, 03 May 2007 15:38:06 PDT i've been trying to get things done around here
not just DevART stuff
but i'm not gonna go into it
coz theres things you wouldnt understand...

uh, some know i've been dealing with some clinical depression
and it kinda got the best of me
but i dont even wanna go into that

but i'll be back
and i'll have EVERYTHING done

on another note
muy friend in brooklyn mailed me a stuffed bunny that i used to carry around all the time back in jersey

it was
really conforting
idk why
i wont let go of it again...

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12782013/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12782013/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 18:40:03 PDT going through oldish albums still from this year

before the black parade
before revenge
there was
BULLETS!


dont be suprised if you see some vampire stuff here later >


....
HAPPY BIRTHDEY CHRIS!
@_@
um
yknow
i need to get something
something
SOMETHING done
qmwmebrvtcyxuz
*runs to find paper with WIPd scribbles on it*
@o@
uh
...
lately
i've been paranoid silly
and
i dont wanna go back to Georgia
but i dont wanna stay here
if i stay
i feel like i'm going to die alone
if i go
it wont be long till i cant stand people
i just wanna be
in arizona
at the comfort
of chris's arms


....
life dosent work out fer ye sumtimes
ja know?


ok, now to get a scannin'

------

(empty)

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12775999/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12775999/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 08:31:17 PDT well
erm
....
muy mum
has decided
to start going out with muy papi
for real this time...
...
and i head home in
what
a month...
i dont wanna live there
they are
like
the
destruction couple
OR NO!
DEMOLITION LOVERS!!!
and if you know me veeeeeeery well, you'd know why this is H-E-L-L
><
ok, thats all with muy ramblings
--------------------------------------------------
WHAT I AM/SHOULD BE DOING
-...packing
-scanning v2 WIP of THE nigtmare BLACK PARADE
-starting on THE PATIENT drawing
-starting on SHI-CHANS CONTEST ENTRY
-working on the BL00D PLUSH
-finishing up the SPRITES



hmmm
ok
thats muy journal for the day...-_-
~CRiMS0N

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12769525/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12769525/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 17:53:44 PDT it ish a fun fun parade
but
what is a startin as a drawing has really broken out muy creativity
i'm thinking of not just putting BL00D and teh pian holding riffles in it
i'll put up teh 2nd WIP sometime this morning
just wait fer it
heehee

ANYHOO
theres just not much to say...
i'm gonna finish up this here random sketch and go eat something

CIAO, BEBZ

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12763809/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12763809/ Sat, 28 Apr 2007 07:45:19 PDT but inside
i just feel dead
and last night
i started crying over nothing at all
WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON

]]> ~MrS-HaVoK-MD http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12743249/ http://MrS-HaVoK-MD.deviantart.com/journal/12743249/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 14:04:46 PDT
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