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]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/25394768/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/25394768/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 12:53:42 PDT also because of all the nice comments and favorites i got during the past weeks.
this has the following reason:
i forbid myself to write any longer journal in here until i don't finish at least 10 pages of my poet story.
it can't be.
i'm always telling "I'll start soon, I'll do it, it's so easy, it's in my head, it just has to go out, I'll start soon!"
the FUCK i do!
and that annoys me! for i really want to update some other stuff here.
but i won't until i don't continue the story!
so, i HOPE this kicked my own ass finally...

cu guys


BTW: the mood down there should show something like "pissed" but the fucking smileys won't load...

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/24074196/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/24074196/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 11:23:07 PDT since Nightwish concerts i had earwigs of Pain. Shut Your Mouth, Same Old Song, Zombie Slam... so i bought albums Palms of Extinction and Cynic Paradise.
then, because i wanted to know what multitalented Peter Tägtgren does next to Pain, i bought Hypocrisy's album Penetralia.
followed by Subway to Sally's brand new record Kreuzfeuer and Nightwish's live album Made in Hongkong.
i'm happy now! about 80 euros poorer but happy! *gg*
listened to Palms of Extinction, Kreuzfeuer and Made in Hongkong so far. favorite songs:
Pain: Nailed to the Ground, Does it really matter?, Just think again, Walking on Glass
Subway to Sally: Aufstieg, Judaskuss, Besser du rennst, Krähenkönig, Vater
Nightwish: all of them!
Made in Hongkong only contains live tracks from Dark Passion Play, but though i already knew the songs, they were completely different from what i knew so far.
they sound even more bombastic and wonderful. i heard melodies and instruments i never recognized before and the orchestra in the background gave me chills.
combined with Troy's pipes on The Islander and Last of the Wilds and Anette's and Marco's beautiful voices that sound so perfect on the chosen tracks i felt completely drawn back to the concerts i visited. WOW!
to those who like Nightwish: guys! buy this! it's completely different from what you know so far!

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two weeks alone at home!!!
my parents invaded USA to visit my brother. so i have the house for me alone! YAY!
using the mega HiFi, the big TV, the big living room... and cooking my own stuff. it's fun to try new things in the kitchen. i hope it won't explode

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weather outside is BEAUTIFUL!!! it's warm! i'm running around in shirts and barefeet, the sun makes me so happy!
could it be any better right now??
well, i guess it could but this is part of my daydreams that nobody should know
haaa, i think i will buy some ice cream tomorrow... ^^

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the date of Nightwish's last concert of Dark Passion Play world tour was published a few days ago. 19.9.2009 Hartwall Arena, Helsinki.
the date is during my holidays... i think i will go! NYAHAHAHA!!!!
the possibility of standing in first row there is nearly... impossible. i guess finnish hardcore nightwish fans will do camping in front of the hall 3 days before the concert.
but it doesn't matter anyway, travelling to Helsinki, getting to see the city and therefore a bit of Finland and experiencing Nightwish's concert there will be an unforgettable event. i don't care if i stand first row, second, 25th or last. to be there is all that counts.
and i won't be alone, the friend i accompanied in Karlsruhe, Erfurt and Basel said "i will be there anyway" when i told her about the concert. i hope we can travel together once more!
hopefully i will buy the ticket tonight. i am so definitely looking foward to this!
tour-events for now: every month a concert except for july. oh come on, there has to be something!
23.4. - Subway to Sally Hugenottenhalle Neu Isenburg/Frankfurt
11.5. - Metallica Festhalle Frankfurt
5.6. - 7.6. - Rock am Ring Nürburgring/Eifel
8.8. + 9.8. - M'Era Luna Festival Flugplatz Hildesheim
19.9. - Nightwish Hartwall Arena Helsinki

HEAVY METAL RULES THE WORLD!!!

hyvää yötä!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23945784/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23945784/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 06:13:04 PDT
so... this was it. the last of 4 Nightwish gigs.
i enjoyed every single one of it like it was my first. i just cannot find fitting words to describe this happening at all. i think every Nightwish fan will know what i mean.
my mini-tour started on tuesday, 17th of march.
right after university i got my dad's car (VW Golf Ocean edition, wonderful blue color) and drove to cologne. i arrived there at maybe 3.30 pm. waiting until 7 pm was horrible, it was freezing cold though the sun was shining, i had to stand on my damaged feet most of the time and the only reachable "toilet" was some disgusting dixie-thing that smelled 3 meters against the wind...
when they opened the gate finally, everyone rushed to the entrance in one big chaos to show their tickets to the security. i ended up in the second row somewhere between Tuomas' and Marco's place behind a quite small finnish girl, so i could see the stage very well.
Indica and Pain both made good noise in the crowd and when Nightwish finally entered the stage, i gave it my all. in the end, Emppu threw a plectrum to me though he noticed the one that i'm already wearing around my neck. thanks again, Emppu!
after i left the hall, i had to drive home immediately because of university the next day. i would have liked to stay a bit longer, some of my friends that i met there, still waited outside the hall and got to meet Tuomas... meh! i wanted, too!
but well, instead i drank two cups of coffee to keep me awake and raced home with a speed of about 150km/h. the highway was completely free most of the time, i really enjoyed that, heeheehee!
okay, i was quite smashed on wednesday, even the coffee did not help, but i already looked foward to:
friday, 20th of march!
i left university a bit earlier than usual (packed with stuff to stay away for the weekend), travelled to frankfurt and caught the train to karlsruhe. there about 3pm, i carried my stuff all the way to the concert hall, where i met with some friends. we brought my stuff to their car and then: waited again.
but this time it wasn's so bad. the sun was a little bit warmer, the security offered us mini-muffins and donuts for free and we were able to use the restrooms of the swimhall next door. it was CLEAN!
though we stood right in front of the gates and therefore were one of the first people to enter the hall, most of the spaces from the left and the middle of the stage were already blocked, so we placed ourselves first row right in front of Emppu.
Indica were fun, Pain were even better (i LOVE Peter! ) and Nightwish topped it all, as always. we pulled a lot of faces with Marco and Emppu (especially him) and Anette recognized one of my friends. she was really happy about that.
no plecs, bottles or sweat-soaked towels this time but memories of a really great gig with lots of funny moments though we didn't see much of Tuomas at all at this side of the stage, but on the contrary we saw lots more of Jukka there. i love his faces when he's playing!
after the concert i ended up having no voice and a horribly aching body, but who cares!
we drove to my friend's home near nürnberg and slept for about... 5 hours? got up again on:
saturday, 21st of march. quick shower, breakfast in the car (got a capuccino for free, thanks to the nice lady who forgot to take the money from me... i'm sorry ) and then drove directly to erfurt, arrived there at 12pm (or am? dunno... midday!) no one was there, so we chilled ourselves into the sun, eating cookies and talking lots of bullshit
we waited 6 1/2 hours in front of the hall, but it was really funny. we met some cool people there who had prepared funny jotes for the band members, such as "Marco drunken uno 1000 points" or "Jukka! sticks please!"
i was the very first person to enter the hall this evening, a really great feeling to run in front of some 1000 people. this time we stood exactly between Tuomas and Marco, first row. best place! there you get to see all of them for Emppu, Marco and Anette walk around all the time.
that we got this great place was also thanks to the nice security. we somehow made friends with some of them right before the entrance opened. they checked our tickets a bit earlier and the... ]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23780618/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23780618/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 13:40:49 PDT
as expected of course...
no time to tell some details, gotta go to bed soon otherwise i will not suvive tomorrow, have to get up at 6.30, then go to university and learn some wonderful statistic math crap, then travel to karlsruhe and sitting in front of the hall again for some hours to get in the front row... the day will probably end at 3 am on saturday because we have to drive to my friend's home after the concert... to drive to erfurt the next morning... same procedure as the day before, UWAAAAAAAHH!!!! >.<
i will take some photos during the next concerts. and hopefully i will get some souvenirs again like emppu's plectrum on tuesday again ^^
he threw it to me at the very end before they left the stage and he gave it to me though he noticed the one that i'm already wearing around my neck. thanks, emppuuuuu!!!!!
see you all tomorrow and the day after tomorrow!!!!

HEAVY METAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23731476/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23731476/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 15:07:42 PDT nightwish gig in cologne!!!
i'm leaving university as early as i can and then drive to cologne by car! to be there as early as i can!
i want to stand in row #1, no matter what!
but soemthing sad happened unfortunately.... my friend, who wanted to accompany me, called me today to tell me that she suffers from sudden deafness... no one knows exactly how it was caused, the doctor supposed, it's stress-caused... now she's on medication and mustn't go to places with loud noises... for example a heavy metal concert. -.-
such a pity, why did that happen just now??
now i have to go there alone because i don't know anyone around here who listens to nightwish. that's a shame, i realized, i have to get to know more people who like that band!
but despite of that situation, now i'm really getting excited again to see nightwish!
i was kinda unconcerned the last days, no nervous feelings... but now it's coming! ^^
i'm really looking foward to tomorrow!!!
so, i gotta go to sleep now, otherwise i will not survive tomorrow

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23647520/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23647520/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 17:07:28 PDT
first gig is on tuesday, next two friday and saturday, fourth gig one week after saturday.
i can't wait!!
i'll see nightwish again!! YAAAAA!!!!

a few days ago there were this news that nightwish would make signing sessions in karlsruhe and erfurt. but i think i will not go. i would risk my #1 place in the concert hall, also i was told that those signing sessions are one big rush, "come on, get your autographs, next one!", no time for a bit talking or photos. understandable, these are signing sessions and not backstage meetings. but this is nothing, i want to deal with, i would be nervous like hell for nothing.
and i'm really not so wild about autographs. they do not mean the world.
for me, it would mean the world to meet the guys face to face
haaaa... yeah... one day.... *dreams*

i hope the weather will not be too shitty while we are standing in front of the halls for hours *lol*

yeah, weather just sucks badly! middle of march and still under 10°C... i want spring finally!!!

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speaking again of this horrible massacre that happened today in germany, in a town near Stuttgart.
i switched on the tv because i had nothing better to do for the moment. then the news-lady told something about dead people in a junior highschool. i kept the channel to see what happened. which was as followed:
a 17-year old boy, who graduated at this school, Albertville school in Winnenden, about a year ago, entered the building at 9.30 in the morning.
armed with a 9mm gun from his father's possesion of 18 guns, he went straight into two classrooms and killed 8 girls, one boy and three teachers. 7 more were injured.
aware of the arriving police, he ran away, shot at two passers-by, one was killed, one badly injured.
the he forced the driver of a car to bring him away from the town.
40 kilometers away, he left the car and his hostage. during his flight he killed two more people until the police finally hunted him down.
in an exchange of shots, two policemen were badly injured, one shot hit the leg of the boy.
then, he pointed the gun at himself and killed himself with a shot in his head.

told by the number of bullets, he carried with him, the police assumed that he planned to kill far more people than he actually did.
police reports say, he went straight into the two classrooms, a 9th and a 10th grade, and shot several students, ages 14-16, into the head.
a girl, that was interviewed shortly after the crime, said "and then this guy came in, and he shot around, went out and came in again... and shot them all..."
the police officer leading the press conference said, that this were the most horrible and disgusting pictures, he had ever seen. i saw his face when he said "it was a horrible view. how they hung in their chairs, some of them still with a pen in the hand..."

this happening is just the most horrifying thing to imagine. 14 year old girls, shot for no reason.
the questions, caused by this, are countless.
why so young ones?
what does a father need 18 guns for?
why could his son take them so easily?
what happened in his head to make him do this?
what was the cause?
why at all?

the boy's name was tim. he was unconspicuous (as they always are), he had a training post, his parents wanted him to take over their shop, firm, enterprise, whatever it is.
neighbors said, he was a nice guy, schoolmates said, he was quiet, had no friends, spent his time rather in front of the pc instead of going out. he liked table-tennis.
i already hear people say "yes, it's always these guys, loners without friends, playing ego-shooters at the pc, it's the pc-game's fault!"
but it is not that easy. if only it was. but it's not.
i understand the motivation of people like him. this threatening feeling that life has no meaning for them, the unbearable feeling that every word of whoever hits the soul like a poisened dart. life feels like a thick, dark-grey cloud, filling your body everyday a bit more.
they just do not see another way out. they do not want to be bothered but they also get angry because nobody bothers at all. their hate for the world and themselves grows bigger and bigger and when they finally found a way to let this heat out, they do.
i very well understand their motivation. what i definitely not understand, is, how a situation like this can possibly be created.
everyone "dwells in hypocrisy" as tuomas sais in "the kinslayer". "how were we supposed to... ]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23452689/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23452689/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 14:26:19 PST some of them were really shocked, especially those who knew her longer than me.
but we all said goodbye, everyone by himself.
life in our stable goes on, Romantica's horse friend Vayu, who shared the stable with her, got in a smaller one and our clumsy, big child Favelin got the big stable of Romantica and Vayu.
life goes on, sad but true ^^

today i sat on a horseback again, the first time since months. it felt really good, it was exhausting, my legs still feel like lead and i'm horribly tired now (yesterday night we celebrated a surprise-party for a friend's 18th birthday... i got to sleep at 3am and got up again at 9.30... ).
but it was fun to ride again. it wasn't as bad as expected, the horse went really good and i didn't need as much advice from my teacher as i thought. it seems like i did not forget everything
i guess i will sleep like a stone tonight... -.-

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a few days ago i bought the soundtrack from The Dark Knight, composed by Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard. really, really great, exactly how i like it. not too demanding but also a good mixture of bombastic orchestra mixed with electronic music and slow, emotional and melodic parts.
i did not listen to james newton howard so far but you definitely hear the zimmer-parts.
i really enjoy this kind of music, it's kind of a break when you're sick of everything else on your mp3 and you can easily listen to it in the background while doing something else (like right now writing a journal )
i already picked out two favorites, "why so serious?" and "agent of chaos".
i especially like the theme of the joker (and the figure of the joker as well, i liked him most in that film, heath ledger excelled himself, i was so happy when he, posthumous, got the oscar for the best supporting actor), this siren-like crescendo right at the beginning. since i heard this for the first time when i saw the film last year, i knew, i would love this soundtrack!
those guys know how to make good music! ^^

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the poet story goes on! yeah! i don't believe it!
more than a year after i started it and after i made so big promises to continue it "SOOOOOON"!!!!
i'm lame... -.-
but i finished the first pages, i will color them a bit and then upload them instead of the others that are already uploaded. they weren't reasoned and also not very well drawn.
i'm really curious how this will turn out.

well then, good night y'all!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23326565/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23326565/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 15:01:06 PST
she was chocolate brown, black mane and tail, black legs, grey mouth and a little, white spot on her forehead.
she was quite tall, about 175 cm to her back.
she had a long neck, body and nose, all in all a huge mare. but the most gentle being that i ever knew.
when i started riding, everyone wanted to sit on her, she was everybodies darling. she stood still while brushing and bridling her, she never shied at anything, she never bit or kicked anyone, not even by accident.
the only thing she, unintentionally, ever did to me was stepping on my right foot (yes, always and only the right one!) for, i think, three times all in all.
you needed quite some strength to ride her for she wasn't the most vivacious one in our stable and she used to bite on the bit of her headgear and pulled the reins out of your hands if you didn't hold them properly.
when she was younger, she broke one of her forelegs, it was fixed with two screws. those screws stayed in her leg until now. that was why she was always treated with care during the lessons.
i passed my first little examination on her
she taught me to ride. she taught me gait, trot and gallop. she taught me not to give up when something on a horseback doesn't work out the way you want it to. she taught me to use my strength.
she taught me how to care for a horse and she taught me a lot about the nature of a horse.
she looked at us with a softness in her eyes you could only understand if you saw it yourself.
in summer, her fur had a wonderful chocolate-brown color, in winter her hair was thick and fluffy like that of a teddy bear.
she enjoyed it everytime i brushed the downside of her neck. then she stretched her neck and head upwards and her lips moved like she was nibbling air.
she always enjoyed eating
she became really thin and skinny during the last years due to her age (when she stood on the paddock in summer, some people called my teacher to ask her if the horse was ok because she was only a bag of bones) but she always had a good appetite. my teacher said as long as this horse is eating, she will be fine!
yesterday evening, she ate. then, the back of her throat was blocked.
when the throat of a horse is blocked, the oesophagus becomes cramped. the horse can not swallow anymore. and because horses cannot throw up, this situation can become life-threatening if nothing is done. sometimes the problem solves itself, sometimes we must help the horse.
but this one was already too old. she couldn't solve it herself and she might have been too weak to recover again after we helped her, so my teacher and the vet decided to put her to sleep.
it happened about 24 hours before i started writing this journal, the 20th of february 2009, at 22.30. during that time, i stood in front of one of frankfurts most famous skyscrapers after watching the wonderful horseshow "apassionata". i stood there in the cold evening, watching the horses in their temporary stables, looking up to the top of the skyscraper and thinking about how much i love these animals.

and when i came to the stable this morning, i was told, she was dead.

we all expected this, she was really, really old for a big horse, but we didn't expect it to come like this and after all, even the expected is a shock when it finally happens.
i am really sad about this but i think it finally was just time for her to go.
i knew her since 11 years and i spent lots of time with her.
when i saw her the last time last wednesday, i put a blanket over her back while she was eating, patted her neck and said "goodbye" before i left. at least i had the chance to do this.
my last goodbye to my big, fluffy, 31-year-old mare.
farewell, Romantica.
i will never forget you.

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23114482/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23114482/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 03:32:38 PST )
brother firetribe did a great show and luckily i stood in the first row again so they all were just in front of me
the "nachtleben" club really is a shoebox...
pekka very often did that "i-look-you-deep-in-the-eyes" thing and interacted a lot with the fans.
emppu always jumped over the stage, i wondered if it wasn't too small for him
he made a lot of funny faces and poses, very good for those who made photos
it's a pity that i didn't know them earlier, i knew quite a few songs, but only from listening to them two or three times. it would have been hell of a lot more fun if i knew all the lyrics.
but i bought their new album after the show, that's a beginning ^^
i hope they will tour through germany once again sometime.
only thing that really annoys me: i met a girl there which i got to know at nightwish concert in dortmund last year. she said she would leave the concert after about half of the time to look if the brother firetribe members sat outside. and they did!
she talked to emppu, got his autograph and some funny drawings and made him talk to her friend on the cell phone.
i wasn't so wild about an autograph but it would have been so nice to meet him... and to hear him say some useless german words
oh well, on the other side, wouldn't that have been a bit stalker-like...? i don't want to be a stalker... ^^
and i got lots of good photos!
main gig: pain!
really great show!
as a friend already told me, they always want to look so evil and bad on stage but as soon as one song is finished it somehow does not work anymore
especially peter and johan pulled the evil faces, wide open mouth and rolling eyes but when peter said something between the songs, i always had to laugh.
for example:
"frankfurt... as you maybe realized... it's quite hot in here... maybe because you're all so cramped up. but it could be worse. like... stacked on each other..."
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*crowd screams* peter: "yyeeaaaaahh....!!! scheiße!!!"
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"frankfurt! where are you?" *yeeeaaaaaah!!* "...."
"FRANKFURT!!! WHERE ARE YOU???" *YYYEEEEEEAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!* "too late, we're going home!"

the little bad guy really is cute ^^
they also did a lot of headbanging, looks great with all the long hair!
but headbanging was my bad part that evening. just when i started, i did a too heavy movement and craned my neck... now i cannot turn it to the right properly, it hurts! meeeh...

well, with pain it's the same as with brother firetribe, i don't know them really good, i just started listening to their music. if i had known them better, yesterday would have been like a dream because all the members (except for emppu...) stood around outside the club after the show. but like this, it wasn't that special for me, though it was great to see that they took their time for the fans.
and i got peter's autograph on my ticket ^^
i should have asked pekka, too...

ewo was there, too. during the concert he stood in the back of the room, moving his head with the rythm most of the time. after the show he sat in the club having some drinks. he was in a conversation, so i didn't dare to speak to him.
but he spoke to me, lol. well... kind of. he placed his drink at the merchandise corner. then i was waiting there to get my CD, he came again and just said "i'm sorry, can i...?" took his drink, drank and placed it there again.
WOOOOOO what a GREAT happening... *comment-dripping-with-sarcasm*
lol, just wanted to tell it

all in all, a very great evening, lots of funny moments and a closer look at those who might be gods on stage but who are the most normal people when they leave it again.
i'm looking foward to nightwish tour... ]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23095943/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23095943/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 04:32:35 PST

learning only goes on my nerves... i have a stiffness in my arm because i wrote so much. how am i supposed to draw now??? UUAARRRRGGH!!!

at least i'm through now... now i will look it over again and again... i hope it stays in my head until thursday...
ahahahaha... i'm going crazy.... ahahahahaha....

I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!
EMPPU!! PETER!!! WHEN YOU DON'T ROCK THE HOUSE TONIGHT I'LL HAUNT YOU!!!!
see how crazy i am...

okay, back to grey's ääääh human anatomy!

*can't wait for evening to come*

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23053051/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/23053051/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 03:20:08 PST right now i'm totally fed up with it. somehow nothing wants to stay in my head. and still so much more to do.
and on top of it all i do not feel really good. in my head. i'm thinking too much again and there's a feeling that i cannot place properly. that makes me nervous.
i cannot let this feeling out, i don't know how, for i don't know what it is.
damn it!
if only the tests were behind me. i want to draw again.
i'm glad i'm going to pain & brother firetribe concert on monday, at least one thing i can look forward to.

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22806274/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22806274/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 15:11:13 PST i spent two full days in front of photoshop... my hand hurted badly.
but now it's printed and tested and it works! what a relief...
presentation follows on wednesday, i hope we get a good grade... >.<

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i has my nightwish tickets!! YAY!
i can't wait until march! i'm SO looking foward to this!

hopefully, i will continue to draw my poet story until then. it's so sad that i left it unfinished, the lyrics of tuomas' inner self do not deserve that...
i think i can handle to draw it somehow, all that i have to do for university right now is learning for two tests. so a bit more time for everything.

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since the german nightwish fanclub was inactive for so long due to an illness and other problems of the administration, they now apologized and organized some kind of tombola. those, who joined the fanclub in year 2008, automatically participated. and...
i won something!! i got a cell phone with prepaid card, a really OLD one... only black-white display. so i don't really know what to do with it since i already have one (with an awesome nightwish-background, lol) but maybe one of my parents will take it.
the other things in my present were much more interesting for me: two concert photos from dortmund and cards with promotion photos of the band.
but this wasn't the biggest surprise. i already got some of these cards as a welcome present when i joined the club, two of them, jukka's and tuomas', were signed, but i thought the autographs were printed. they looked like.
but one of the cards of the present, i got now, also jukka's, was also signed... i compared them and they looked different. and i was just like OMG because i realised that i have original nightwish autographs.
in the end this isn't too special cause i didn't even got them myself, nevertheless i was really happy.
so, thanks nightwish fanclub ever dream!

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alrighty, time to get some sleep now... celebrating in a club until 3 a.m. and watching a three hour opera the next evening isn't a good combination... ^^

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22590579/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22590579/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 06:12:55 PST they could just give us some advice and we could do the rest at home, during the "internet-lessons" they could teach us more useful things like phonetics or voice disorder... but nooooo...
W!!! T!!! F!!!

i'm looking around me and everyone is finished with the advices the teacher gave us and is surfing in the internet like checking mails, chatting or bullshitting on facebook...
this is no lesson, this is a whole big shit waste of time! and of money and that's the main point...
we aren't rich and that's something they do not seem to understand.

i like studies here very much but when it comes to stuff like it's happening right now, i'm really wondering what i came here for...

so, that's why i'm annoyed...
more art-related info is following later this day

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22337306/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/22337306/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 16:39:42 PST i hope you all began it well!

i really ended up at the partay of my friend though i intended to go to my cousin but i decided that would have been too much stress... driving about 300km with a hangover from the night before wouldn't have been so nice.
well, the party at my friend wasn't THAT special, everyone just sat around, drinking and much more smoking (i felt like a smoky cloud when i got out there...) but we talked a lot of bullshit and that was really fun, as always
especially with the two bottles of wine that accompanied us

shortly before midnight we went out to a little chapel in the forest on a small hill from where we could see frankfurt skyline. it was a really stunning view when all the fireworks started, i can tell you!
my friend had a very nice idea, she bought such a balloon-thing where a little cotton-piece has to be burned. the air in the balloon gets hot and then it will fly as high into the night-sky until the cotton-piece is completely burned.
shortly before you let the balloon start, you whisper your wish into it and then it's carried to the stars.
it was really, really beautiful to watch.
the rest of our midnight-chapel-thing wasn't as nice... it was too full, there were so many other people who had the same idea as us, especially some idiots who had nice thoughts like throwing firecrackers into the crowd or shooting rockets into the trees... i screamed my lungs out to tell them that they are damned assholes.
oh well, we survived ^^
and the way to the chapel and the way back were quite funny because my friend, me and some other guys lost the main group and then took some unknown path in the dark forest with only our cell-phones to light the way
and laughing about lots of bullshit of course, what's normal when you drank two bottles of wine (best example for me: i cited a scene from The Dark Knight, where joker explains the mob where he got his scars from, and i did that while pulling my friend up the hill behind me and talking to a guy i saw last at our prom night almost 3 years ago...)

it was funny after all, only nothing special. but it doesn't matter, many more sylvester-partays to be done *g*

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so talking a lot again... i should spend my time with drawing or doing homework instead of sitting around...
oh, by the way, i got to know a funny game which is completely senseless and just wastes time, but it's so crazy...
you go on wikipedia, select an article of whatever you want, then click on "random article" on the left. then you must try to get back to the site you started from just by using the links in the articles.
try it, you will be obsessed

well then, all that's left to say:

--------------- WHY SO SERIOUS??? ----------------

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/21975218/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/21975218/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 06:23:42 PST i want snow and i want ice and i want to see the northern lights!!! (you won't believe i'm actually the summer type )
well, whatever... winter just sucks in middle germany.

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but crappy shit weather made me draw a little more the last time. though i have enough to do with going to university, baking cookies and buying christmas presents ^^
christmas will be great this year! i have lots of presents for my family, i just send away a present for a very important person, shortly before christmas i will visit my cousin (planning to go bowling, having some cocktails, then playing singstar, having some more cocktails... ), and my granny will come visit us over the holidays. i'm looking so foward to that all!
only i'm not so sure about where to celebrate silvester... i'd like to do something crazy like disneyland last year XD but there is no possibility this time.
i will probably go over to a friend's place even though there's a person that i still cannot meet without having background thoughts about what happened e few years ago -.-
i think it will end with drawing a picture again... ^-^

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concert-update:

first: i plan to visit 4 nightwish gigs in march!
second: i plan to visit pain, who are supported by brother firetribe, february, frankfurt!
third: i DEFINITELY will visit METALLICA in may in frankfurt!! i can't believe i got a ticket!!
omg this will be a great start for 2009!!

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during the last time i was so horribly nightwish-addicted that i quit hearing it for e few weeks now. i already survived two weeks, it's getting better now
i was hearing nightwish all day at all times, when i got up in the mornings, during my way to university, during university, during my way back home and at home in the evenings... and then there came that day when i was extremely pissed by everything and the music made me think even more about everything, my head ached and i just got sick of it all!!
so i decided to have a break.
don't get me wrong, i still love nightwish more than anything else, but i simply overdid it. and there are so many other bands that want to be discovered by me.
for example disturbed. great band. great music. a little disturbed, but great

i think this break will give me a clearer view of it all. drawing is easier a bit, i noticed.
perhaps you notice this yourself sometimes, that you need to look at things from a distance to see them properly.

i will hold on until next weekend, when i visit my cousin there's no chance to NOT hear nightwish for she herself is a 100% nightwish freak *g*

well then, i wish you wonderful christmas days and already a happy new year!
fröhliche weihnachten und ein gutes neues jahr!
meri kurisumasu to shinnen omedeto!
hauskaa joulua ja hyvää uutta vuotta!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/21252789/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/21252789/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 17:00:14 PDT i guess i just don't learn it... *headshot*

nevertheless i really enjoy my life right now, everything fits, everything is fun, i found lots of new friends and i'm just happy! and somehow it feels as if this state will last long

unfortunately studies occupy most of my time so there's not much left for doing art... -.- i'm just doing occasional scraps in my collegeblock. only sketches, no serious drawings.
but there will be easier times. i will continue the poet-story soon, maybe i will work it over completely, 'cause now i have a clear concept of how to draw this thing. there are some good ideas for other stories, too, i hope i won't forget them and draw them later on.

what, for sure, will follow next, is a picture that was created in my head after i listened seriously to "angels fall first" from nightwish a few times. i somehow left this cd dusty in my shelve a long time which is a pity because the more i listened to it the more fascinated i was.
i understand what tuomas meant when he said angels fall first and oceanborn, in a certain way, are very different from everything that followed.
i learned much about the band during the last week, i got some relieving infos. all that made my love for these guys only grow.
may the magic never end!

that should be all for now, i will never go to bed otherwise -.-°°o

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edit: that nightwish-picture-manipulation-topic... i just couldn't resist!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20985415/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20985415/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 12:38:53 PDT

my studies are more and more fascinating! i'm really glad to have found something like this! one of today's lessons flew away like nothing, i can't wait for the next one of this topic to come.
yes, learning can be fun. REALLY!
so, if anyone wants to know anything about voice, ask me, i know quite much by now ^^

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thanks to tuomas again. i read somewhere that he really likes the 3rd and the mortal's first album, tears laid in earth. i got it today, i heard it once and it's really great. astonishing music, listen to it.
i'm always thankful when i discover new music recommended from others... sometimes i'm really slow to find it myself *g*

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i joined facebook.com a few days ago, and now i'm totally absorbed in discovering this damned website! i love it, lol
i'm already "fan" of nightwish, tuomas holopainen, marco hietala, emppu vuorinen, jukka nevalainen and anette olzon
i also wanted to become a "fan" of tarja turunen but this site was so ' plastic' and just like someone who wants attention at all costs... it seemed so unreal. so i quit it...
i also found some groups with funny names like "tuomas holopainen is a sexy beast" or "tuomas holopainen will marry me - he just doesn't know yet"... i laughed my ass off XD
some fans REALLY are crazy... i did not join those. i sure AM a crazy fan, but i don't want to be as crazy as them.
lots of other crazy things to be found!
join facebook.com!!!

enjoy the fullmoon! gbye

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20617650/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20617650/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 10:59:16 PDT what the hell... whatever.

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after returning from usa i finished renovating my room. new carpet was already in, after kicking my jetlag i went to IKEA and bought a bunch of new furniture (as if my holidays weren't expensive enough). i love my new room!
so much space in the middle! and two big shelves to store all my mangas (which are 410 by now ) and a big closet for all the abercrombie & fitch stuff i bought in usa and a biiiiig table where i will do lots of drawing the next months, promise!
and majestically between closet and shelves hangs my Dark Passion Play flag, this looks so GOOD!!! (*nightwish-freak-out-of-control*)
okay, to come to nightwish again, lets explain why i'm watching out for march: that's because that favorite band of mine returns to germany for 5 gigs. and i probably will go to all of them... i'm crazy!
but what should i do, i love those guys and i love their music and i love seeing them live, so... what the heck!
thinking of seeing them again makes me so excited already... euphoric!!
YAAAAAA CAN'T WAIT FOR MARCH TO COME!!!!!

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today my new studies began. the next 4 years i will learn logopaedics, or speech therapy to those who don't like foreign words
i hope that i chose the right thing this time. i don't know if i could stand that emotional pain, i went through last year, once more. it was gruelling, exhausting and so disappointing and full of sadness... i really hope i chose right this time.
though this is not my dream. logopaedics are very interesting and i'm quite sure i will have lots of fun, but still, this is not my dream. i will work hard on that dream and hope it will come true one day. i still have lots of time left
and until then i will do my best for my studies!

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i just finished reading a manga online. it's called "Saishu Heiki Kanojo" or short "Saikano", meaning "She, the ultimate Weapon".
a really great story, very frightening but also very beautiful.
a touch of science fiction but very realistic, with wonderful drawings. a style i saw nowhere else so far.
it's about a young couple trying to find love to each other during a horrible war.
it's really cruel sometimes and the last chapters are quite pornographic, but it's one of the most beautiful stories i ever read.
read it, for example on [link]

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so far, that's it!
good time to all of you! byebye

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20068061/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/20068061/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 21:02:16 PDT but we have one great trip in front of us: tomorrow we will drive to the beach of south padre (located around the beautiful place called corpus christi ^^) and we will spend 5 days and 4 nights there!
my wish of once seeing the ocean during my holidays becomes true finally, YAY!!!
we will, for sure, visit a water-fun-park called "schlitterbahn" (it's so funny, there are so many german names over here in texas ) and i hope i can go diving there, i didn't dive for such a long time... a pity because i really love the underwater world.
unfortunately i don't have an underwater camera, i'm sure i would make lots of good pictures down at 25 metres
but i did lots of good pictures so far and i will make lots more.
taking photos is so much fun, maybe that will be my profession later in my life, who knows
i'm so looking forward to tomorrow... ocean, i'm coming!!

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coming to other stuff finally:
another dream came true a few days ago... i opened the nightwish-website and TADAAAA!!! nightwish return to germany!!!
unfortunately not to frankfurt though the jahrhunderthalle (you might call it "century hall" in english - fits! )is a really great place with good sound, a beautiful location for nightwish to play.
but it doesn't matter i travelled to dortmund this year and i saw them at rock am ring so i don't mind travelling to cologne or/and karlsruhe
guys, i'm so thankful that you will give me another great night of fun, dreams and LOTS of good music!

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here's the last topic for now:
my friend ----> [link] posted this in her journal, i participated though i don't have enough deviantart-friends to answer me to this. but who cares, it's a nice one:


Post a comment on this journal and I shall:

A) tell you why I befriended you.
B) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc...
C) tell you something I like about you.
D) tell you a memory I have of you.
E) ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
F) tell you my favorite picture of yours.
G) in return, you must post this in your journal


have fun in posting this into your journals, whoever reads this!!

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gotta go to sleep now, we;ll leave early tomorrow!

TO THE OCEAN! YAY!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/19733063/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/19733063/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 09:42:26 PDT i finally am in usa now, YIIIHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
texas is great, austin as i now it until now is a great place, it is like sauna over here, about 100 degrees (40C) every day but the suns always shining and we have lots of pools and climatized rooms and the mall is AWESOME!!! ( i did shopping for about 400 $ so far, uwaaah... -.- )
only when you go to the movies you have to make sure you have a winter jacket with you cause it's so damned cold in there...
anyway, this holiday just started and it's already at a height! i wonder what we will experience in the next three weeks. i will upload some photos for sure cause it's a good place to take great photos, i already took a very nice one on the plane.

so, my jetlag's already gone (quite fast, it only took two days), now i'm ready to celebrate... whatever ^^
wish me fun, THANK YUUUUUU!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/19496800/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/19496800/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 09:08:40 PDT found some old stuff and uploaded it, hope i find some more old stuff it's so funny looking at it

weather's like shit! it's the middle of july and it's cold and windy and it rains every day... what kind of summer is that??
now i'm really, REALLY looking foward to go to austin in two weeks 'cause newspaper says they have about 37°C there. THAT is summer!
we already made plans what we're gonna do there and the things i just can't await to come are the half-day riding trip, sixflags fun-parks in san antonio (one day rollercoaster, one day waterpark yeeehaaaaaa!!!!) and a three-day-trip to houston and galveston island, 'cause what's a holiday without seeing the ocean at least once?
i feel that this will be my greatest trip ever! 3 1/2 weeks in usa with two of my best friends! haaaaa.... ^^

tour de france is now at it's height already. even though i'm not a big cyclist i like watching it.
only that doping-shit has gotten so annoying. what's the sense of sport if nobody wants to do fair?
one team was already kicked out because of doping... serves them right!
i cheer on erik zabel, he used to be germany's top sprinter, he's not anymore, he's just too old but i like him.
it's his last tour this year, so... GO, ERIK!!!

well... i'll now continue to clear my room, it's going to be renovated finally.
it's amazing how much stuff amasses in a room after years... there's much to do!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18977160/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18977160/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 04:11:15 PDT may be because it's finally summer (even the calendar says it!) or because i have our house for my own for three weeks now because my parents invade corsica or because i finally know what to do with my life or because i'm going to visit usa soon or because i have so many new cd's that i listen all day or because i have so many nice friends who celebrated my birthday with me yesterday... i don't know, except of my illness that does not want to go away properly i feel so happy right now - unbelievable! i hope it stays that way for the next time ^^

well, my illness... after returning from rock am ring i thought wow! isn't there more than a bit hurting in my throat...? but NOOOOO that would have been too easy! so nature decided to bless me with all inflammations you could have at your head. started, of course, with my throat, hurtet badly, i couldn't speak properly and so on. followed by my nose with a nice sunitis, soon my eyes joined with conjunctivitis so that i couldn't even open them in the morning because of all the stuff that came out at night... eeagh...
and if that would not have been enough one week after rock am ring my ear started hating me with otitis. it was impossible to sleep without painkillers. so i woke up on my birthday with closed eyes, a head that seemed to be as big as a pumpkin and a half-deaf ear (that by the way still isn't free -.- )
but well, i survived the last week and now i'm happy again
all i now do is lying on the sofa lazily, bullshitting with my laptop and listening to all the music i got for my birthday:
metallica - black album
tarot - crows fly black
nirvana - nevermind
princess mononoke soundtrack
spirited away soundtrack
conquest of paradise soundtrack
the art of cecilia bartoli
yeeees this summer is got to be great!

and before i stop now i have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY myself to anette olzon who's birthday was yesterday. happy, happy birthday, anette, you're doing a great job, i really like you, your voice and your interpretation of songs! thank you!

for this reason i will upload some drawings i did for the nightwish guys. the german fanclub offers the possibility for fans to send nightwish birthday presents and i participated since jukka. there is one for tuomas, too, it was created earlier, i tried to give it to him when they played in frankfurt but i don't know if he ever got it... i hope so, that's all i can do. i also hope that the fanclub fullfilled this birthday-thing, otherwise i get angry!

so, i'm talking too much again... compensating my childhood i guess... BYE!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18748908/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18748908/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 13:02:35 PDT HOW FUCKING GREAT!!!!!
ok that had to come out...

who wonders - it was bloody awesome!

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Friday, 6th June 2008

starting on friday 9am we arrived at the camping place at 11am. the tent was already built up, we just had to unpack the car and prepared a bit for the evening with a barbecue and a bit beer, vodka, cocktails, stuff like that *g*
in a VERY good mood we made our way to the ring at maybe 6pm then (yeah, quite late but we didn't care about culcha candela or other crap...), starting the evening with Serj Tankian (frontman of SOAD, that guy is great!), then Incubus, then rocked in the night with Rage Against The Machine, MAN they were fantastic!
it started raining then, it was cold, I was shivering and the rain dripped over my face, my feet hurted badly, I was so tired and already fed up for the moment but the biggest thing was yet to come. at 1.40am The Prodigy entered the alternastage. after the first song all the exhaustion was gone, I even pulled off my rain-cape because I was sweating so much.
after that party we returned to the camping place, just wanting to sleep. it didn't work out so good because my air mattress was leaking... and the music of our next-tent-neighbours started at 7.30 the next morning

Saturday, 7th June 2008

after a shower and another nice barbecue-cup-noodle-alcohol-thing we went to the ring about 3pm (I started getting nervous about Nightwish ), began with Alter Bridge, quite ok, continued with Disturbed, the favorite of my friend, I really liked them, good show! In Flames also heated the crowd, it was fun joining there, especially because we managed entering the first barrier so we were just in front of the stage.
and then! just after In Flames I said "here, take my bag and jacket, I'm fighting myself to the front now!" I ended up somewhere in the 6th row maybe, I was so excited again while watching the Nightwish-crew build up all the stuff and it gave me goosebumps to watch the giant DPP-flag being pulled up.
I was a bit disappointed to see that jack sparrow puppet had to give way to a new edward scissorhands puppet, but it is quite funny because it moves its arms ^^
Nightwish began. they started again with their great intro and rocked the crowd with bye bye beautiful. they continued with dark chest of wonders but then the bad happened. in the middle of the song the music died off, you only heard drums and voices. looking confused they broke off and went backstage. a few minutes passed, they came again, now playing amaranth. but the thing happened again. jukka showed his frustration most by throwing his sticks away angrily. they all looked really stressed, who wonders why, and disappeared again. a few more minutes passed and the crowd, already impatient, started screaming for The Offspring, who should come after Nightwish. it hurted to experience that because I could imagine how bad that situation must have been for the band. lots of the crowd actually didn't come for Nightwish, but for the headliners The Offspring and Metallica, so it was only natural that they were pissed off.
but finally they came up again, now playing The Poet and The Pendulum. Jukka looked so awfully angry, he hit his drums badly hard and made a face like "if this happens again now, I'll damage the whole stage!!"
but luckily it did not happen again so we could experience the rest of the gig properly.
it was just so sad that they lost so much time because of that accident, I hoped so much they would play The Siren...
nevertheless I really enjoyed the show like I always enjoy seeing that band. they were all so styled up, anette in a beautiful white dress, tuomas with a white jacket, emppu with a blue one. and marcos socks had a flame-print on them
well, ok, time was up and they had to leave us again but the show went on with The Offspring. the crowd exploded, hopping, screaming, clapping and doing lots of pogo. that was fun to watch!
and then the headliner of the whole weekend appeared: Metallica!
they did such a gorgeous show, absolutely everyone was so into it, thousands of people united in one mood - and me and my friends just in front of it. the fireworks were amazing and the giant screen in the back of the stage gave it such an overwhelming atmosphere!
they played... ]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18680780/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18680780/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 13:58:10 PDT
have a wonderful weekend y'all, mine will be FANTASTIC!!!!

ROCK REIGNS THE WORLD!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18546512/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18546512/ Wed, 28 May 2008 15:54:39 PDT because it's 0:30 and i'm still awake even though i have to get up early tomorrow... i just don't seem to learn it T-T

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[link]
watch her artwork, especially this one.

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only 5!!! days left for rock am ring... this will be my biggest party ever!! i'm so excited!!!!

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drawing just does not go foward... i have time, i have lots of time, but i just don't feel like it, and if i don't feel like it my drawings look like crap!
i hate that situation!
so i only came uploading some of my older things i found in my drawer - hope you like them ^^

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PAY HOMMAGE TO YOUTUBE!!!
yesterday i found a video from the nightwish concert in dortmund, the one were i screamed "perkele!!!" to marco and he answered "exactly!"
i was happy like a child to have this scene caught in a video! i just sat laughing in front of my laptop, fascinated about how loud i can turn up my voice... REALLY, you hear me roaring from that a distance taken with a small digital photo camera!
that was an awesome moment!
for the curious of you: watch/listen: ---> [link]

can anybody understand what marco says after "exactly"?? i can't remember...

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summer arrived, i'm so happy!! although i hardly can sleep in my room because its so hot in there oO what the heck! i love summer!!
also because of the tons of strawberries i'm filling myself with since the last two weeks. strawberries are the most fantastic fruits on this planet!! RRAAAAARRRRR GIV ALL UR STRAWBERRIES TO ANJA, RRRRAAAAAAARRRRRR!!!!!
luckyyyy!!! ^^

have a beautiful time, everyone of you!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18213575/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18213575/ Wed, 07 May 2008 15:04:23 PDT hotoshop I'm coming! XD

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sunburns away, phew...

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30 days 'til rock am ring!!! *STRIKE*

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funny, got it from [link]
do it ^^


RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. The age you will be on your next birthday: [link]
2. A place you'd like to travel: [link]
3. Your favorite place: [link]
4. Your favorite object: hmm... maybe [link]
5. Favorite food: [link] yummm!!
6. Your favorite animal: [link]
7. Your favorite color: [link]
8. The town/state/etc in which you live: [link] wow, there really exist pictures from this town!
9. Name of past pet: had none...
10. A dream come true: meeting [link]
11. Your nickname/screenname: [link]
12. Middle name: got none
13. Favorite Smell: [link]
14. Bad habit of yours: [link] not actually biting but destroying them with my fingers -.-
15. Your first job: [link]
16. Favorite Movie: I hate this question!! but I choose [link] isn't that a NICE picture??
17. What are you doing right now?: [link] but not milka!!
18. Whats The Weather Like?: [link] all the time!!!
19. Favourite Sport: [link]
20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: guess!! [link] again


enjoy the sun! THAT IS AN ORDER!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18087358/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/18087358/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 14:17:25 PDT i'm so excited!!! ~merockamringvirgin~ ^^
geee that will be looots of fun! i'm counting the days *ggg*

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spring is coming! bye-bye cold and shitty weather!
started enjoying the new season in the park with my friends last weekend. i really missed those events. when its warm we always meet several times a month in that park for chilling, playing, making music (and getting sunburns... me = idiot...) its always so much fun and its a good feeling to know that, no matter who studies whereever in this world, we always meet again in that park in summer. great place!

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new favorite film: finding neverland! and its not only johnny depp this film is simply beautiful. one of its topics is also an important topic for me: never stop being a child somewhere within you. the world becomes a greater place when you watch it under that aspect (5-year-old-anja jumps over an imaginary flowerfield)
when mommy-kate-winslet finally entered neverland i almost cried, such a sad and also nice ending... *sigh*
recommendable! watch it!!

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i'm still stranded... my laptop's still lost...
i want my baby back!!! T-T

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500 visitors! big thanks!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17946444/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17946444/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 15:05:46 PDT so many of my drawings an photos and lyrics are on this thing, if I won't get them back something really big will break!! *steam*
so I'm stranded because I cannot do my colorings at the pc anymore for mine is the only one where my tablet is working T-T
I hope the pc-geek can fix it tomorrow...

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I just finished watching "the exorcism of emily rose" on TV - wooooow!!
normally I'm not so enthusiastic about horror films but this one really caught me. that occult stuff somehow pleases me, such as the exorcist, davinci code, the ninth gate, resurrection... don't worry, I'm not satanic!
even if I paint my nails black from time to time (I will never forget that little girl pointing at my fingernails, asking with the most innocent voice on earth: "are you satanic??" XD )
well... good film! watch it!

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and I finally decided to visit rock am ring definitely. gee that ticket is expensive! but I will have a lot of fun since I'll go there with a very good friend. we will cheer each other up when our feet are nothing but horribly hurting, dented pieces of crap *gg*

have a good time y'all, I'm going to bed now, university I'm coming!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17733816/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17733816/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:16:41 PDT I have so many unfinished artworks lying around - on my desk, on my hard disk, on my mind... and I don't manage finishing them.
for example, I myself want to know how my story about the Poet continues, I have many ideas and pictures in my head and I simply cannot bring them on the paper!
another creative blockade, but this is the kind I really hate!
well, at least the drawing-blockade made me write some texts. when I think they're good enough I will upload them.

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a few days ago they played parts of the nightwish concert in Frankfurt on the radio. my heart jumped like I was there again! that intro is overwhelming! and finally I have it's mp3!!
hearing three songs of that evening again made me really happy. and in may they will play some other songs, including the poet and the pendulum. one more time experiencing my greatest evening ever!
the only disturbing thing on this records: especially during the intro you can hear me crow around all the time. I'm 97% sure it's me! and so loud! embarrassing... but it shows that I had fun *gg*

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the concert in strasbourg is over by now... the whole evening I imagined that I could be there... it's so saaaad... T-T
but now I'm sure I will go to Rock am Ring! that will be a party!!
hey nightwish! come and tour through germany again! at least through frankfurt, it was sold out!! *anjabeingselfish*

gee, will this journal ever end??!
GOOD NIGHT!!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17649538/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17649538/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 10:49:00 PDT wasn't that stressy this time, they were all really quiet, me, my teacher and friends always wondered, why... weird!
more than caring about the children I cared about the horses this time. training, brushing, feeding, mucking out, stuff like that. they all lose their winter hair at the moment so you stand there brushing them like theres no tomorrow and it does not help at all oO
my arms feel like pudding now... especially when we came to our "big child", a really huge mare named Favelin, a bit clumsy, but so cute! then she stepped on my foot with the whole hoof and I had enough... T-T
working in a stable is hard work!

nevertheless studying the sciences of equine communication is my dream. unfortunately the studies are much too expensive. so it will remain only a dream...

well... talking too much again! I have so much to look foward to: my friends birthday party on friday (pyjama party only for giiiiirls ), vacation in texas this summer (maybe with a short trip to disneyland/Florida, yaaaaaaay!!!! ) and the next nightwish album coming up... 2010 or something c'mon guys, I'm waiting for the next tour!! *crazylaughing*
I still want to see them again in straßburg but it doesnt seem I'll have any possibility to get there. waaah!!
ok maybe rock am ring... that'll be expensive oO what the heck??

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watch achmed the dead terrorist on youtube! I love this guy! jeff dunham is amazing!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17555012/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17555012/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:09:21 PDT its really fun to teach them, actually I also learn a lot while doing this. but at the 4th day you somehow get exhausted by the childrens screaming, their little ridiculous struggles ("I want to ride that horse! no you had her yesterday, I want to ride her! no I want! no I want!" -to be continued- ) and the same question asked over and over again (f.e. "can I touch the dog? - no, he shows his teeth! - I want to ride this one! - you can't, he's only two years old!).
and you feel like talking to a wall when you explain things and they just don't do what you tell them and then wonder why a horse doesn't move in any direction or on the contrary jumps through the hall and throws them down!
but what the heck, I love horses, and I like working with them and little children (there was a small one, she was only four, she was so cuuute , sometimes really saucy and she was one of the less who never was afraid to sit on any horse!).
you just need very much patience ^^
nevertheless, I'm really tired after that week, my ass hurts because I haven't sat on a horseback for months, my feet hurt because a horse stepped on one and a blister decorates the other and I always stood or walked around all the time!!! AAAARRRGGH!!!
ok, enough... it was a nice week after all!
the next children's course starts on monday, yippiiiii!!


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still wondering if I should go to Nightwish in Straßburg... can anybody help me with that decision??
hell, that band is addicitve!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17423830/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17423830/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:11:06 PDT i did it, I travelled to dortmund yesterday to experience nightwish once again. that day had about 26 hours and I feel like crap but this was more than worth it! I got no souvenirs like a pic or a waterbottle this time, but it doesnt matter. standing in the first row again was more than anough.
best situation for me that evening: marco said something between two songs, the crowd screamed, when they were quiet again I yelled "PERRKELEEE!!!" as loud as I could, marco looked at me, laughed and just said "Exactly!"
that was one message I wanted to tell them, and finally I did

but when I came home, I suddenly felt really sad, because I realized that the enchantment was over. I just wish I could see them more often, but I'm just a poor student, no money...
somehow this band means everything to me, and knowing I will not see them for a very long time now made me nearly cry. theres nothing left for me but the music, the few photos and of course the memory. precious memories, I will keep them in me forever.
I hope those great moments will inspire me for some great artworks during the next few days.

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NIGHTWISH FOREVER!!
MUSIC FOREVER!!
AND NOW I WILL SLEEP!!

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keep on rocking!!
PERRRRKELEEEE!!!


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300 pageviews!! YEEEEHAAAAA!!!!! ^...^ "

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17207138/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17207138/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 09:25:08 PST most of them are manga, I was a manga-fanatic earlier.
ok I still am but not so crazy. wait: if I count about 380 mangas in my shelve I AM CRAZY!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!

back to the drawings: I filled more than two sketchbooks, 96 pages each. if I watch them now, I throw them away the moment I see them because lots of them look so horribly bad! only some are still good, therefore they found their way on this website.
while uploading I noticed that most of the topics are quite dark. proves again that my soul is blaaaaaack!!!
so what, we all have a dark side and mine is a bit bigger. I like it.
to say with tuomas holopainen's words: "beauty always comes with dark thoughts"
darkness is my creativity!

and finally it comes back! sickness had its fun and decided to leave me (bye bye, I will NOT miss you!!)
I hope my drawings for the story will look better now.
I should draw more on paper, I forgot how much fun this is!!


KEEP ON SCRIBBLING!!!!




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thanks to everyone of my first 100 visitors! I'll get the 200 soon! thanks again!!
Danke!
Arigato!
Kiitos!
Merci!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17085126/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17085126/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 07:26:27 PST
every move hurts, my voice went on vacation. I wonder how those guys bear this almost every evening... practice, I suppose, lol
anyway, I think about travelling to another concert next month.
havin aches and pains all over to see them once again? hell, YEAH!!
long live the crazy ones!!

PEEEEERRRRRKELEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!




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desease DOES impede me drawing stories...
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]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17062072/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17062072/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 17:34:11 PST I had the privilege to stand in the first row at the Nightwish concert in Frankfurt.
I hear nothing but *fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii* in my ears, I wonder why I can speak normally, because I screamed that much. The stiffness in my neck isn't from this planet (headbangin rocks!!)
Security ripped our water, I was dying of thirst, thanks to Tuomas, I didn't because he gave me one of his bottles ~.~
I cannot describe this happening with words. I don't know what I would give to experience this once again.
Thank you, Nightwish, for that event!!

]]> ~MyMizukara http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17010753/ http://MyMizukara.deviantart.com/journal/17010753/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 14:38:54 PST
ok i won't introduce myself too much, you will get to know me by watching my pictrures (and texts) and those that will come have fun!

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i just returned from the movies - sweeney todd. recommendable! Johnny Depp is a feast for the eyes AND ears! also Alan Rickman *rrrr* ^...^
so, everyone who does NOT dislike singing in a movie: move your ass to the cinema!!
favorite textpart:
"There's a hole in the world like a great black pit
and it's filled with people who are filled with shit!
And the vermin of the world inhabit it!"

good night y'all! *wave*

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