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deviantART: by:MyxSuicidalxRomance http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:MyxSuicidalxRomance&section=today deviantART RSS for by:MyxSuicidalxRomance en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 14 Dec 2009 20:46:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I'm melting;; I caught fire. [survey] http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28711302/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28711302/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 14:29:48 PST

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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, search line 4.
"As the line monitor, he would do his best to keep everyone in row, which often got tricky in this kind of terrain."
Say Goodbye by Lisa Gardener

2. Stretch you left arm out as far as you can, you get?
Air.

3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
Fullhouse with my sister, haha.

4. Without looking, what time it is ?
5:22

5. Now look at the clock. What is the real time?
5:21 haha, that's weird. Then again I looked at the clock a few minutes ago at 5:16 so I had the advantage, I guess.

6. With the exception of the computer, what do you hear?
The t.v., my brothers.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I haven't left the house in days.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
My FaceBook.

9. What are you wearing?
Umm.. jeans, hoodie, tank top, make up, hair tie, and bra and undies!!

10. Did you dream last night?
Yes.

11. When did you last laugh?
Earlier today.

12. What is on the walls of the room you're in?
Old family photos, like my siblings as toddlers and me as a baby

13. Seen anything weird latetly?
Always.

14. What do think of this quiz?
It's okay.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Umm.. I don't remember.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Some clothes, new phone, a puppy, a laptop. Yeah, definitely a laptop.

17. Tell me something I don't know about you.
I don't go to couseling and I'm supposed to. I think I spelled that wrong but I'm too lazy to go back and fix it.

18. One change in the world.
I'd be purdy :'D Call me selfish.

19. Do you like to dance?
At three a.m., blaring The Used, yes. Thanks for asking, would you care to join? Then we can settle down, drink a nice cup of coffee [or tea, it's your choice

] and watch The Nightmare Before Christmas, snuggling on the couch.
I'm lonely, in case you didn't notice.

20. George Bush:
Flamerrr.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what would you call her?
I have no idea. Maybe Alexis.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what would you call him?
Kurt, after Mr. Cobain :]

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, definitely.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly doors?
I'm never going to get there.

25. The people who must do this in their journals?
Are Devious. >:3

By the way, I forgot who I stole this from, so whoever it was, thanks bunches.

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Life Was Perfect [ found here: [link] ] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28672756/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 14:27:50 PST

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As I was about to post this I discovered the 13,000 + views on my page. Thank you guys sooo much. It means the world

Now, see since I'm cool enough for views, but not for a tag, I stole this somewhere along the way, haha:

You have to post 10 things about yourself in your Journal
- Then, you got to tag 5 different people, and post those people's icons in your Journal.
- Afterwards, just go to 5 of your friends pages and tell them they've been tagged

1. I support my brother naming his child Edward Alexander Leviathan -insert last name here-. Edward Alexander being Aleister Crowley's birth name, and Leviathan being a Satanic sea monster.

2. I'm addicted to America's Next Top Model and The Tyra Show

3. I have a screw in my hip, holding it pretty much together.

4. I like my nails "boy short" or "guitarist short" even though I'm generally a girly-esque type of person.

5. My mother is against me writing letters to serial killers who are in prison for life. I'm going to do it anyway.

6. I wish I could fluently speak French and Sign Language. I only know bits of each.

7. I've owned 3 or 4 iPods. They all broke, yet I keep buying them.

8. I would give nearly anything to sing, and sing well.

9. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and that scares me a little.

10. I don't believe the word hate should be used carlessly, so I mean it when I say I hate myself beyond understanding.

I tag...
Whoever would like to be :]

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance A little happier of a journal http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28460131/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28460131/ Thu, 19 Nov 2009 21:40:48 PST

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Sorry about that last journal. I just tend to write and write and write my brains out when I'm irritated with myself. It was a bunch of negativity and compaint, and I apologize a million times.
Anyhow, I feel like making a journal of pieces here on dA that I am pretty much infatuated with, haha. In other words, a feature journal. This is a small percentage of the many, so if you are not here, do not fret! I love you! I appreciate and respect all forms of art and many of the artists here [writers included, obviously]. Unfortunately, I cannot fit every art piece here I love in this journal. I am not claiming to own or have any rights to any of these pieces, and if you have a problem with being featured, note me and you will be removed :]
Reasoning?
I'm approaching 13,000 views, and I feel like I don't give enough back sometimes. Also, everyone likes a free feature, I mean.. come on... ;]

So, I will start with some amazing pieces in the category of visual art [in no particular order]. All in all, they're incredible pieces. Here they are:
*AnndreaLeeann

~delilah88

*astarvinartist

[I know I picked two Kurt pieces, but seriously, the full gallery is mind blowing and not centered around Mr. Cobain.

]
~Lock-AND-Load

=KennedyxxJames

*Miss-Deathwish

http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28441962/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 21:32:38 PST

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I had another of my self-evalutaions that more often than not lead to revelations. In having this evaluation I saw some things in myself. Most importantly, this: Somewhere between the unorganized fan fiction, repetitive pieces, concepts long-since grasped [but I won't let go of to save my life], the excessive use of unneccessary punctuation/html/words, lack of vocabulary, and the plasti-goth meets fangirl username to top it all off, I came to see that my work is no better than sewage. It's plastic. Unintentionally so, but plastic none the less. I'm not even plastic, because that's still in an odd way a real, physical true thing. I frequently ask myself why I don't leave deviantART. I feel that pretty much everything I have here is just a bad excuse for writing. Untalented spew on digital paper. To be totally honest, I have negative feelings for the majority of pieces in my gallery. That is, the ones that my feelings and drive for aren't completely dead yet. They're like the bi-product of the bi-product of the creations made by semi-talented writers having a block. That's putting it nicely.

I don't update here as much as I used to [and I thank Jesus for that, I've spared your minds my mind vomit, my common topics, recycled garbage], but I constantly look back at things I've done and question it all. I think things like 'did I really talk like that?' 'did I really write like that?' 'why is this piece so viewed, commented, etc.? It's bland and dry and if it were someone else's piece, I wouldn't be able to sit through it'. I think you got the point. I am completely displeased with myself as a writer to say the least.

It makes me feel like tearing open my insides for calling my literary wasteland 'writing' or any form of art. It's cheap and synthetic, a dime a dozen, nothing special. Writing is an art form. It's self expression and a communication of thoughts, feelings etc. However, my writing doesn't produce that energy, and I know it. The energy of something made my a person who genuinely knows what they're doing and is proud of it. The only energy there is the tiny twinge of love I have for it and the fading hope I'll get better.

I think maybe, somewhere deep, deep into the corners of my mind, hiding like scaly monsters in murky water or under the bed, just maybe there is a tiny little flame that could become the forest fire of a writer. However, this flame is burning low on the tip of my last match, and I'm out in the rain, where there are no dry trees in sight. Smoldering. Smoldering.

Funniest part? This journal is probably the best piece I've written in three years. I understand that as you age, even from day to day, your view on things can change so dratically you just don't even know what to do with yourself. But, really, I've come to see something else. Well, it was already in my view, but now it's a lot closer and more tangible. It's finally seeping in to me just what good words and a touch of wisdom can do. What it can make. It makes writing, it makes art. Again, not that I didn't know before. What I've seen is that I don't meet anywhere near the mark for an intelligent, creative, and genuinely good writer. I look around me and see these people who have it, who seem to have always had that it for writing. It just fountains out like blood from a wound. I don't even have the blood of a paper cut if this is how we're comparing.

Note to self: You're so damn pathetic

Maybe it's just me, but for whatever reason the rational side of me is teaming up with reality to tell me "no, Autumn, you've never been more correct."

-
Autumn
[had to write this twice due to her again, failure and incorrect finger placement on the blasted keyboard. Jesus loves me.]

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=MyxSuicidalxRomance Come as a known enemy. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28435520/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28435520/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:42:38 PST

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I stole this from someone. Who? I can't remember. =x

Choose 50 bands and answer the questions

1.Family Force 5
2.Nirvana
3.Evanescence
4.The Used
5.Green Day
6.3OH!3
7. Hollywood Undead
8. Cute is What We Aim For
9. A Day To Remember
10. Owl City
11.Senses Fail
12.Fall Out Boy
13.Panic!At the Disco
14.Papa Roach
15.Smile Empty Soul
16. Breathe Carolina
17. Flyleaf
18.Red Car Wire
19.Escape the Fate
20.Hey Monday
21.All Time Low
22.A Fire Inside [afi]
23. LoveHateHero
24.Taking Back Sunday
25.From First to Last
26.Boys Like Girls
27.Metro Station
28.Emery
29.Emarosa
30.Cobra Starship
31.The Academy IsÂ
32.Three Days Grace
33.Paramore
34.My Chemical Romance
35.System of a Down
36.Mayday Parade
37.The White Tie Affair
38.Armor For Sleep
39.Sick Puppies
40.Head Automatica
41.Tokio Hotel
42.The Cab
43.Dance Gavin Dance
44.Apocolyptica
45.The Early November
46.Jimmy Eat World
47.Black Veil Brides
48.There for Tomorrow
49.Hoobastank
50.Watchout! There's Ghosts.

1. How did you get into no.29?
Emarosa. I heard about them somewhere online. Plus, the original vocalist of Dance Gavin Dance ventured his way into the band, so... I had to check them out <3

2.What's the first song you ever heard by no.22?
Afi. Miss Murder or Love Like Winter. I don't remember.

3.WhatÂs your favourite lyric by no.33?
Paramore. I'm really bad at picking favorite lyrics. One random lyrics I really like is "Don't look up just let them think there's not place else you'd rather be, you're always on display for everyone to watch and learn form. Don't you know by now? You can't turn back, because this road is all you'll ever have. It's obvious that you're dying..."

4.How did you get into no.49?
Hoobastank. My sister, and the frequent radio play of the song 'The Reason'.

5.How many albums by no.13 do you own?
Panic!. One. I don't really care for Pretty Odd. I'm a AFYCSO fan.

6.What is your favorite song by no.50?
Watchout! There's Ghosts. Probably "Remember Me."

7.. Is there a song by no.39 that makes you sad?
Hollywood Undead. Umm. My Black Dahlia is pretty sad.

8.What is your favorite song by no.15?
Smile Empty Soul. Oo... "Nowhere Kids" or "Silhouettes".

9.What is your favorite song by no.5?
Green Day. I'm actually not a major fan of them, but I like 21 Guns and their mad old stuff.

10.Is there a song by no.6 that makes you happy?
3OH!3. I guess 'Still Around' is sad in its own way, but not really. They're not a very sad and mopey band.

11.What is the worst song by no.40?
Head Automatica. Umm... None of it is bad, but some of it is kind of plastic. Like 'The Razor'. The title speaks for itself.

12.What is your favorite song by no.10?
Owl City. Again, I'm bad with favorites, but I got into them due to Rainbow Veins.

13.What is a good memory you have involving no.30?
Cobra Starship. None, really. My best friend got me into them?

14.What is your favorite song by no.38?
Armor for Sleep. Car Underwater? Awkward Last Words? Stop with the favorites! Haha.

15.Is there a song by no.19 that makes you happy?
Escape the Fate. Just Me.

16.Is there a song by no.25 that makes you sad?
From First to Last. Not really. Emily, even though it's a semi happy love song.

17.What is the first song you ever heard by 23?
LoveHateHero. Amity <3

18.What's your favorite lyric by no.11?
Senses Fail - random lyrics I like: ÂTo hurt the only one I've loved, this is so damn hard but I am giving up. The person that you love is dead. I've flooded him out with the Jack and Jameson. So happy anniversary.. the best gift I could think to give you was to set you free."

19.Who is a favorite member of no.1?
Family Force 5. I just got into them.. so..

20. Is there a song by no.14 that makes you happy?
Papa Roach - Getting Away with Murder.

21.What is a good memory involving no.27?
Metro Station - discovering them with Hailee!

22.What is your favorite song by no.16?
Breathe Carolina. IDGAF or My Obsession.

23.What is the first song you ever heard by no.47?
Black Veil Brides. Knives and Pens or The Mortician's Daughter. I can't recall KAP I think....

24.What is your favorite album by no.18?
Red Car Wire. I really don't know.

25.What is your favorite song by no.21?
All Time Low. Six Feet... ]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Pay to Watch Me Die; I'll Love You More http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28265501/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28265501/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 10:14:29 PST

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Yep, another The Used reference. And another random journal. So, have you guys played around with the whole journal skins thing yet? It's pretty fun :] When I heard about it I was like 'now that I have a subscription you do that, thanks DA' haha. But oh well, I can still do some other cool stuff with it. <3
I think I've listened to Artwork about, literally 80+ times in the last like five days. In the process I've managed to get some people to jump on the The Used train. :]
So I'm getting my stolen money returned tomorrow. I was going to today but I slept in and by the time I got ready for school, it'd be over....
I babysat last night and made a little money too.
So yeah, life's a little complicated at the moment, as usual, but I think I will survive.
Don't you hate when someone's trying to debate or even just argue with you and they're completely, and evidently uneducated on the topic? Excuse the run-on you've just read. : D
Lately people I haven't talked to since I was in like fifth grade or even lower have been trying to add me on Facebook/MySpace. It's so weird how different we look now [obviously] but some of these people have barely changed. I look nothing like I did in elementary school. I had blond hair, occasionally with blue or pink streaks, no piercings, and I didn't get deep into make up until late sixth grade even though I wore it sometimes beforehand. It just wasn't so dramatic :] I've moved so many times and left so many people that I hate to say, I forgot half of them exist. I can't remember everyone in every school I've been to in the past.. I want to say.. five years?
I'm rambling, sorry. Another thing random to talk about. I wrote out a really nice About Me for MySpace last night and then my computer was like "I'm going to do the whole 'Not-connected-to-the-internet-thing' even though it was. I wish there was a way to see everything you've copied and pasted over a certain amount of time, because it'd be in there. Every method I've been told hasn't exactly worked, haha.

For someone who's afraid of change, I think I want some of that, and pretty badly.

Well, I'm going to go for now. Just wanted to be all random and post a journal :]

xx;;
Autumn Angel

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Empty With You. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28141131/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28141131/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 11:29:45 PST

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I know I just posted one of these last night, but here you go. I can't help myself. So, today someone stole my walltet. Long story, but now I'm short $60 and an MCR wallet I had to drive to a mall three hours away to get. =x Also, in the same week three iPods were stolen, so I should have known to be more careful. However, my iPod is safe in my pocket, so it's all good.
In case you missed what I said about The Used's new album:
[link]
I. Can't. Stop. Eating. Halloween. Candy. This is so bad for me but it's so yummy, hahaha.
I've come to the conclusion I would murder for a MacBook. I used to despise Macbooks but since our school got a shipment of them... I'm in love. However, I don't have a couple thousand dollars around, especially someone stole my fucking wallet. But you know how that goes. I also no longer am a babysitter, so pretty much the chances of me ever getting a MacBook are slim and none. I use it to Skype during class though

There was something else I meant to say but I can't remember. Aside from I seriously want a MacBook. Not an Air or a Pro, just the newer basic MacBook.
So, my state, Maine, which previously had legalized same-sex marriage has now outlawed it. That makes me furious. They had these lame commercials on t.v., you know the stupid ones they put out before voting? People were complaining about schools teaching their kids that gay marriage is legal and acceptable etc. so it scared a bunch of [mindless] people in the other direction, and now my state is just a prejudiced load of bullshit [not that it wasn't before.] =/

I can't wait for Thanksgiving vacation. Well, that's all for now I suppose. But you know me, you could get an update in an hour or a month hahaha.

Much love

xx;;
Autumn Angel.

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Empty With You. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28141110/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28141110/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 11:28:45 PST

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Take my hand, take my life. Take it away. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28134124/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28134124/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 21:25:34 PST

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I fucking need the new The Used album "Artwork." I've been listening to it online and I'm in love. I was afraid it was going to blow. It's a little different instrumentally, I think, though. However, most tracks remind me of "Listening" and "Sound Effects and Overdramatics" and lyrically it's like "Cut Up Angels" made a baby with "The Ripper". This makes me happy, as it is pretty reminiscent of "In Love and Death" to me, especially considering "In Love and Death" is probably my favorite The Used album, if I had to choose. To me this is like it got a little bit angrier, and more defensive. Which, is awesome. :] The track "Kissing You Goodbye" is really good, but I don't think it would win a battle with "Bulimic" or "Smother Me" or pretty much any love/break up/loss song. It's still really, really good but The Used frequently sets a high standard for themselves which makes me picky :]. This is another musical creation I highly reccomend to anyone music-hungry. All in all, this album is most definitely worth the buy, in my opinion. If you listen to any reviews, or comments I make on music this year, let it be this one. God, I love The Used.
I'm sucking ass at NaNoWriMo. I doubt I'll finish it on time, but even if I don't I intend to finish it eventually and post it here. :]
This was pretty much about The Used. Maybe more updates later. :] As usual, feel free to reccomend music. I'm currently looking for anything like The Used [so hard to find something that original and talented, in my opinion. But there must be someone SOMEWHERE, haha] Family Force 5, and something like the Evanescence album "Fallen", not "The Open Door" even though it wasn't too bad. But I favor "Fallen." Also, you know me, any suggestions are good and I always take them and check 'em out :]
Thanks Dolls and Gents.
I love my watchers, just so you know. You guys mean a lot to me :3

xx;;
Autumn Angel.x3

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance You know I'd d-i-e-4-y-o-u http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28077109/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/28077109/ Sun, 01 Nov 2009 01:07:13 PDT

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And NaNoWriMo begins as of now for all US states. It's been going for me for about three hours now.. hahah. But I haven't written a word.
Anyhow, so how was your Halloween? It downpoured on me when I was taking my little brother around town so we didn't get much candy =/ but better than none, right?
Let's talk, and best of luck to everyone participating in NaNoWriMo.
Also, I am in love with Family Force 5, hence my journal title. I reccomend this band to anyone :]
Every day I die for you, throw me in the fire I'll walk right through, I made a promise it's an IOU, I'd d-i-e-4-y-o-u
Yeah, and the "4" is actually how it's written in the song title, otherwise I wouldn't be using it like that. :3
Anyway, that is all. Just wanted to post a journal and tell everyone to get their NaNoWriMo on :]

Have a lovely day <3
xx;;
Autumn Angel.

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance If you're having a bad day: http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27969226/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27969226/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 21:48:05 PDT

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[link]
Go there. It'll make you so much happier. Even if you're happy. Just go there. Now!
Oh, by the way, the title says "American" but it's actually Swedish. You'll still see the funny in it no matter wherey ou live.
Times like this I'm proud to be almost half Swedish.

xx;;
Autumn Angel.x3

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Piece for ~TearInTheOcean I'm working on it! Sorry <3

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Devious Journal Entry http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27926741/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27926741/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:43:33 PDT

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Rules:
1. Put your music player on random.
2. Write down the first line of the first 20 songs that pop up.
3. Divide the poem into stanzas.
4. The first line of the 21st song is the title.

I swear that you don't have to go
Who is the fly in your champagne?
Paralyzed by the beaty of those words
Take this heart of darkness; I give it up
So deep that it didn't even bleed and cath me [off guard]

I see you walkin' with the weight of the world
Go, you move, we go, now don't go
It was all simple words, playful at best, so the story starts...
I will swallow if it will help my sea level go down,
Hollywood, we' never goin' down

The city is at war, playtime for the young and rich
Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time

This is the first thing I remember
How to break a heart
Let's try to remember these days back in Decemeber
Can you see me; I can see you.

You walked away since there was nothing to say
I tear my heart open

Songs:
Three Cheers for Five Years by Mayday Parade
Vampire by People in Planes
A Siren's Soliloquy by Alesana
Light Up Ahead by Further Seems Forever
All That I've Got by The Used
I'll Be Here by Just Surrender
Rock My Body by The Higher
Her Advice Cost Us a Life by Emarosa
Swallow by Emilie Autumn
No. 5 by Hollywood Undead
The City is at War by Cobra Starship
Remedy by Seether
Numb by Linkin Park
Smother Me by The Used
Stockholm Syndrome by Blink 182
How to Break a Heart by Emilie Autumn
Decembers by Hawthorne Heights
The Shake Up by Watchout! There's Ghosts
I Said it Before by Just Surrender
Scars by Papa Roach

The weird thing is, is that I got a lot of these songs last time I did this same survey type thing
I love music shuffle surveys :]

xx;;
Autumn Angel

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=blur-syndrome's Contest. [Complete!]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Writing pieces and stamps for contest winners. [Complete for those who provided information. One more to go.

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Recommendations. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27851876/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27851876/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 11:08:30 PDT

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Hey Dolls and Gents.
Umm, so pretty much like five months ago I made an account on Artician.com and abandoned it, and I'm falling back in love with it.
What is it? I suggest you go look. It's a lot like dA it just looks different. It's a little confusing at first if you're used to this set up here but I still suggest it. I have only two things up over there right now, because as I said, I forgot about it. Haha, but I think I may be pretty active over there soon.
My page = [link] I'm irritated because the css thing for making the link say something instead of link isn't working in my journals.

:]
Oh and... it's official, I am a damn Tweeter.. Twitterer... or just a Twit haha. I don't Tweet every five minutes like a lot of people, but I do use it from time to time. I have a whole six followers, hahahaha!! I'm so proud.... haha. Do you have Twitter?

Mhm, mhm. So if I'm not on here you might be able to catch me at Artician. I'm still a somewhat Noob to Artician because I haven't touched it since the week I made it so... haha. We can figure it out together! The only thing I don't like is there's a tab where you can pick what type of artist you are and there is no "writer" or "author" or anything, although the site accepts literature as an art form. =/ If I'm just not seeing it, tell me?

Anyway, I suggest you check it out.

Also, I've come across a lot of music I've fallen in love with lately, so if your iPod's hungry, just ask.

That's all I suppose.

xx;;
Autumn Angel.
p.s. Day of Silence tomorrow <3

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=blur-syndrome's Contest. [Complete!]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Writing pieces and stamps for contest winners. [Complete for those who provided information. One more to go.

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Another. Minor edit. http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27795433/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27795433/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 14:25:47 PDT

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I know I've been updating a lot of everything [like six deviations in a day, and two or three journals already, etc.] but I can't help it because I haven't been here in a bit and I can always think of something to bring up after I've posted a journal... and I don't like updating previous journals as much.
So yeah, is it weird I like to browse new deviants and leave them cheery comments? I just like to. I remember when I joined, I think I got maybe one "Welcome to dA!" and it took me ages to figure stuff out. My thought process almost two years ago: Okay.. how do I use those little emoticon things..? How do I get a signature? Where can I get/how can I make avatars and how do I upload them? ..Where do I upload work? I was deviant-braindead. And ever since think of the new layout and set up alterations dA has gone in the past year. I would've probably laid down, died, and left, honestly. I almost did in the beginning! So anyway, I like to help the "noobs"

. I say that term with all respect. I think it's cute, haha. Anyway, I know there's a community for doing this or something, but I just do it of free will. I mean, it isn't that hard to leave a nice comment. I do it every so often. I'm in a huge frenzy of it right now. I just like to be nice, I guess haha.

ANYWAY. So.. I think for NaNoWriMo I'm going to do something with original characters for once considering that's a rarity for me. It's easier to look at a person and write "Gerard's deep brown eyes were partially masked by bits of messy black hair" or something than to have to sit down and create it yourself. Yeah, that description sucked, haha but you get the idea. And yes, I do plan on posting it here. I'm not certain it won't be a fic but I'm pretty sure.

Yeah and I miss way too much school. Go to school, kids, seriously. I have so much work to make up. =x

Yep, end extremely pointless journal here.
Edit: Pro-Life Day of Silence on the twentieth. I'm ecstatic. What is this? Pro-lifers become silent for the entire day in protest to abortion, similar to the same silenced opinion unborn aborted babies have. How to participate? Get a red piece of duct tape, or paper, anything red and write "life" on it and wear it somewhere visible on your clothes. If all else fails a red bracelet made of yarn would even work. Remain silent the entire day unless absolutely necessary, including calls and texts. Legally, your school cannot tell you not to do the protest, but they can ask you to speak. See if you can communicate via paper and pen that day. I personally am going to take a zero if I'm not allowed to be silent; this is important enough to me.

Just thought I'd put that out there for anyone else who is pro-life. :]

xx;;
Autumn Angel.x3

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=blur-syndrome's Contest. [Complete!]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Writing pieces and stamps for contest winners. [Complete for those who provided information. One more to go.

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http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27787529/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 19:57:20 PDT

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I still want your opinions on it via poll, but I've made an account on the site which probably means I'm going to do it. Those of you who don't know what it is should really check it out. The sum of it is writing a 50,000 word novel in a month from scratch. Yeahh, intense.
Those of you doing this also and want to add me on the NaNoWriMo website my username is NOT MyxSuicidalxRomance. It is ChokingOnNothing from the song "On My Own" by the used, so it's not some cheap "emo" cliche. Hahaha. Anyway, I'll try. It's not like there's a penalty if I don't complete it but it's something that I think is good for anyone who writes. Beginners, pros, inbetween; even people who don't exactly take it seriously. I could go on about why I'm doing it and why I think you should do it but I won't. I just thought I would tell you that.
And I'm still having trouble deciding if I want to switch accounts when the sub runs out. I really think I need to but I don't want to lose some watchers along the way 'cause I luv yew gaiiz! Haha. :] If you don't speak English as a first language and I just confused you, I apologize.

I only know of one other person doing NaNoWriMo. Are you?

That's all for now I guess. Much love <3

xx;;
Autumn Angel.x3 [needs a new avatar and author tag]

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=blur-syndrome's Contest. [Complete!]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Writing pieces and stamps for contest winners. [Complete for those who provided information. One more to go.

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Did you miss me? http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27745614/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27745614/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:09:50 PDT

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Holy motherfucking ice cream.
It's been a month today since I have been on here. You wouldn't believe the amount of withdrawals. I missed this place unbelievably, as well as the overwhelming guilt of not being able to create the pieces that should have been awarded a month ago.
Things always seem to happen to me at the wrong time.
=/
Things have been pretty dramatic around here. My sister stole nearly $170 from me after we got in a fight that led to my mom kicking her out. She's paid back about a hundred of it. Of course, she stole it the day before I genuinely needed it for something.

I'm doing bad in school... already. Yeah, I know. My attendance is lacking. I didn't go today because I slept in. =x
I had a birthday over the past month. :] Yay!

The general:
Both of my sisters currently hate me, but that's cool.
I'm a year older.
I realized I got like 800 views or something while being completely inactive. I feel special.
Thanks to the new watchers and all of the favorites.
I've got 700 deviations to look at or something =x
I am STILL without a cell phone.
Uhh.. all of the dramatic stuff you really don't want or need to hear about. I don't even want to hear about it.
My brother and his girlfriend having a baby boy, he found out a week ago.
I really feel like utter shit. I owe you guys the world right about now, but I will start with the winners. I've got one piece almost done I started it a few days ago. I figured I wouldn't make you wait to long after I got back.

I still might not be on as much as I used to, but a bit more. Things are still a mess but slowly straightening out.

I love you guys, and as usual, all apologies.

Talk to me, I miss you <3!!

xx;;
Autumn Angel.x3

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]

Getting 25,000 page views. [Incomplete.]

=blur-syndrome's Contest. [Complete!]

Drawing something successful enough to post here. [Incomplete.]

Writing pieces and stamps for contest winners. [Complete for those who provided information. One more to go.

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]]> =MyxSuicidalxRomance Don't slit my throat http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27194210/ http://MyxSuicidalxRomance.deviantart.com/journal/27194210/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 15:43:58 PDT

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I know I haven't been on a in a really long time and I apologize. I firstly apologize to contest winners who are stilla waiting prizes =x

I've scarcely been online and when I am it's almost always a check-my-email-and-go. School is already murdering me and I have some things going on right now I'd rather not talk about.

I apologize a thousand times and please bare with me. I swear I'll write you some of the best pieces I can when I return, and for contest winners, I'll do even better :3

I feel like shit because of this and I can't apologize enough.

Thanks for reading and hope you understand.

Be back when I can. But I think it's say to say I'm on a temporary dA hiatus, but expect the best when I get back. I'll try to get on every now and again and reply to comments but that'll be rare, I can tell you, and don't expect deviations. So, thanks to everyone who's commented, faved, and watched since I've been gone.

I will leave you a couple things before I go, like a devID or two, but I haven't written anything lately and pictures can be taken in seconds. So.. better than nothing, right? I hope.. heh..

Hope you understand.
Love you all.
Be back later, Dolls and Gents.

xo
Autumn Angel [Hiatus]

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Life Was Perfect [[link] [Incomplete.]

Getting a new Deviant Id. [Incomplete.]

Getting two hundred watchers. [Incomplete.]